#trying to make my fixation on the sims come back

[idollls]

UNFORGIVEN, I'M A VILLAN

[novy2sirius]

MERCURY HOUSE CORE ©novy2sirius

trigger warning: mental health issues, pedophilia, killing, physical health issues ☘️

this is just a random post abt things ppl with these placements could experience ☘️

these r only abt isolated placements so take it with a grain of salt bc the whole chart matters ☘️

a lot of these r experiences i’ve heard from my friends and ppl who’ve purchased readings from me directly ☘️

☿ mercury in 1h core

being diagnosed with more mental illnesses than u can count, being very intelligent which leads u to be anxious just by existing bc of all ur knowledge, saying things u don’t mean cuz u were angry, being told u have a youthful face, knowing a bunch of random facts abt things and telling ppl and them asking why tf u know that or care, hyper-fixating on things u can’t control, getting internet hate by simply existing, getting dmed sexual stuff by random weird dudes trying to prey on u (especially when ur younger), getting nauseous bc ur anxiety is so bad (especially before school), having sexy hands, skipping school to be on ur phone all day and do nothing, asking way too many questions bc of ur curiosity abt everything and annoying ppl (especially as a kid), giving ur opinion when no one asked for it, being told u could be a good rapper/singer, being rly good at flirting bc of ur charm, cussing a lot

☿ mercury in 2h core

being obsessed with mukbang/eating videos and then making urself rly hungry and being frustrated bc u can’t have the food they’re eating in the video, valuing ur own opinions more than others, not answering texts or calls bc ur too lazy to but then liking those same ppls posts on instagram, saying “um” too much or having a lot of pauses in between words bc ur a slow thinker, talking to ur toys as a kid when u were lonely, getting all ur food recipes from pinterest, buying online gift cards for ppl instead of putting effort into an actual gift/on the flip side if ur a more creative person putting a lot of thought into gifts, being good at making things from scratch, being more wealthy in online games than in real life, being obsessed w the papa’s food games on cool math as a kid, holding grudges against ppl who kill u on roblox, liking scents that smell like food or scents that make u smell rich/boujee, always making money, making money online

☿ mercury in 3h core

double texting bc u have sm to say and will forget abt it if u don’t type it immediately, being able to get lots of followers on social media, being gossiped abt online, being a huge reader, enjoying hearing abt other ppls drama but not wanting to be in any, having a child-like energy (this can be in a positive or negative way depending on what vibration ur at in life), saying childish things in arguments when ur at a lower vibration (example: meh meh meh :p), drama following u wherever u go, aging well, being obsessed with sims, not believing things unless there’s very good reasoning to back them up, being able to communicate well, being a talented writer, forming all ur opinions from ur older siblings (if u have any), math or literature being ur favorite subject, being a good driver, enjoying traveling but not for too long bc u get tired quickly of it, being charming af, being witty and quickly thinking of good jokes

☿ mercury in 4h core

posting all ur feelings on social media or going thru that emo phase in middle school where u would post those sad lyric vids on ur snapchat, ur family gossiping abt u a lot and u overhearing it in the next room, having a super low pain tolerance, enjoying watching self care vids, getting baby fever after seeing tiktoks of cute babies, being a rly good person to come to if someone needs a comfort person, living in an rv/camper at some point in ur life, telling ur mom everything and her giving u advice abt certain situations but then u don’t listen and she ends up being right abt the whole thing, coming to ur mom for advice on everything in general, ur mom being more childish than u, being able to write stories that readers rly emotionally relate to a lot, ur mom having videos of u still up on her facebook from when u were little that still haunt u to this day

☿ mercury in 5h core

being creative as hell, being a natural performer, having a fun childlike energy, being a huge risk taker and thrill seeker, being a talented actor, being rly good at video games and possibly becoming famous from playing them, living for the drama but not wanting to be a part of it, downloading tinder and not knowing y u don’t just delete it, being sassy, being told ur trying to hard to be the main character but u literally r the main character and can’t help that, not having ur first love until ur an adult and only experiencing puppy love in ur youth, going to a bunch of concerts, being turned on by wattpad stories and feeling like a whore bc of it, flirting w ppl online and then being scared to say anything to them in person when u see each other, being a good driver

☿ mercury in 6h core

ppl saying u come off super innocent (even if ur not), constantly doing things for others even when they don’t give the same energy in return, being obsessed with improving ur health or with videos online abt being healthy/fit, feeling awful before going to school bc it gives u horrible anxiety and makes u feel like ur gonna puke, thinking ur gonna get a stroke every time u have a normal headache (and being a hypochondriac in general), not functioning without consistency in ur life, having an entire pinterest board of cute animals, being good with animals, being obsessed w ur hygiene and feeling nasty when u don’t shower everyday, weirdly loving medical shows such as greys anatomy, having a lot of stomach issues

☿ mercury in 7h core

convincing ppl to do things with ur charm, wanting to tell ppl something and be honest with them but being too scared bc u don’t want them to hate u and r constantly afraid u’ll hurt them, copying ur romantic partners slang/ur partners copying urs, meeting lovers online, dating or marrying gemini/virgo placements, having age gaps in ur relationships, getting into a lot of conflicts online, ur ex partner/ex best friends posting abt u and subbing u (not saying ur name directly but talking abt u) online after u have a fallout, flirting with ppl on club penguin or roblox when u were younger, changing ur opinions easily based on what ur partner or close friends think, dating ppl when ur too young to even drive, posting a lot abt ur relationship online

☿ mercury in 8h core

analyzing ppl well and understanding them before anyone else does, ppl randomly telling u their deepest darkest secrets when u didn’t even ask, being interested in the way ppls minds work which leads u to become obsessed w books abt psychology/astrology/tarot/etc, starting to masturbate from a rly young age that’s almost concerning, having a lot of mental health issues bc of ur childhood trauma, using dark humor as a way to cope with ur trauma, not realizing how much trauma u’ve went thru until someone verbally tells u that u’ve been thru a lot (usually a therapist), being a tomboy as a kid, being obsessed with true crime, being told ur mysterious, saying out of pocket shit that has high shock value, being stalked online

☿ mercury in 9h core

having a more optimistic mindset than everyone around u, enjoying traveling a lot, wanting to leave ur hometown as soon as possible, driving when traveling instead of taking a plane cuz u don’t wanna pay for the flight, majoring in communications or something involving technology or literature, having an interest in other cultures more than ur own, coming off as intelligent bc of the way u talk and ur mannerisms, being told that u could be a good lawyer from a young age, being a good interviewer, knowing multiple languages, having logical ethics, being a comedian, being an amazing story teller

☿ mercury in 10h core

trying to keep ur daily life private and ppl still getting in ur business, being able to influence the public easily bc they seem to care a lot abt what u say, being famous on social media, being a famous singer, rumors being spread abt u to the public, having a talent for teaching others, having goals that u set as a kid that u feel u must fulfill, having a career involving cars, having a career involving technology, having a career involving writing/literature, being seen as someone who’s intelligent (especially in ur workplace), having dad humor, coming off as a know it all (10h is associated with experts and mercury is the thinking/the mind), being known for ur humor and how funny u r, playing online games that involve having a job such as papa’s freezeria

☿ mercury in 11h core

having random bursts of creative ideas and doing crazy stuff like writing an entire movie and then literally forgetting abt it the next day, ur best friends being ur siblings, having the most random thought processes, being able to make friends easily, having lots of online friends, being clumsy as hell, having a fan page/editing page when u were younger, being known as “the weird kid” in school (this doesn’t mean it’s always in a bad way tho it can mean in a unique/fun way), being popular online, having unique mannerisms, having a unique voice/unique speech patterns, being a good rapper, being dragged into online drama, cussing a lot, saying random things out of nowhere like ice bear from we bare bears, having a lot of ideas that r unique bc u think outside of the box, having unique perceptions, constantly changing ur mind abt things

☿ mercury in 12h core

speaking/writing things into existence with minimal effort, being obsessed with the feeling of nostalgia and making urself feel it then regretting it bc it hurts, ppl interrupting u and talking over u a lot, ppl ignoring what ur saying and making u feel like a ghost, having a huge interest in spiritual things, manipulating and lying a lot when at a lower vibration, being bullied (especially as a kid/in school), feeling lonely even when ur literally socializing or at a social function, having an astrology account, having more online friends than friend’s in person, daydreaming a lot in social settings (and in general), gaslighting ppl when at a lower vibration, being able to speak to the dead thru ur dreams, hearing ppl talking when ur half asleep, sleep walking, being sensitive to things ppl say but trying to hide it, healing ppl through ur words, hiding ur true thoughts abt someone, hiding ur true intentions, having strong emotional intelligence when at a high vibration, easily figuring out what someone’s feeling, being able to do rly good impressions

[luizd3ad]

Game Time | Poly!Bartylus x GN!Reader

ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 ࣪˖⤷ .𖥔 ݁ ˖ ࣪ ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 ˖ ⤷

Pairing: Barty Crouch Jr x GN Reader x Regulus Black

WC: 700

CW: swearing, mentions of Bartys dad 🤢, modern AU, mistreatment of Sims, anxiety

Author's Note: Honestly I just got this idea bc my sims hyper fixation is coming back. The little bit of French that’s in here I got from google please tell me if it’s wrong.

Summary: Regulus comes home to you and Barty playing the sims.

Someone tell me to stop making theses for ever fic please. I won't listen but someone should still tel me.

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Regulus had spent the day with Sirius, just catching up. 

They've been finding it harder to do so since leaving Hogwarts so they try to make it a priority to see each other as often as possible. 

He did enjoy spending time with his brother but right now all he wanted to do was go home to his partners. 

You and Barty were like a breath of fresh air to him after his social battery was drained. Just being in the presence of both of you was enough to make him feel better. 

Regulus finally crossed the threshold to his shared flat. He took his shoes and jacket off at the entrance and put them in their designated places.

But then he noticed the flat was quiet which was rare considering Barty lived there.

“Mon amours? I’m home?”

Regulus called out looking around the flat curiously. 

No one was in the living room. He didn't hear anyone in the kitchen. 

He started walking down the hall that held their shared bedroom and the guest room/ office when he heard them.

“Angel, I love you but you're wrong!”

“Watch it Crouch! Or you'll end up in the basement next..”

Regulus was only slightly taken back when he heard his partner say that to their boyfriend. 

Honestly it wouldn't be the first time he heard them say something like that.

Barty then gasped and started shirking something about ‘Never feeling so betrayed’ which was something Barty would say often. 

Regulus took a deep breath mentally preparing himself and then opened the door to the office, he couldn't help but let out a soft chuckle at the sight in front of him.

There they were, the loves of his life hunched over the computer playing the muggle game that Remus had shown them.

‘The Sims’ he thinks it was called, but he couldn't quite remember. 

“Barty.. Did you take the ladder out of the pool again?”

Barty then gasped as if the thought was inconceivable. 

“What would make you think such a thing, angel?”

“I mean other than the fact that you've done it before? The sim’s name is Bartemius Crouch and he looks exactly like your father.”

Barty then giggles looking proud of himself. 

“Leave him there he deserves it.”

Barty says with a wide smile.

Regulus chuckles a little louder this time and shakes his head finally catching the attention of his partners.

You and Barty both turn your heads to look at Regulus. 

You send him a big smile and say.

“Hi my love, how's Sirius?”

“Sirius is fine. Now what are you two doing?”

Regulus say still standing in the doorway of the room.

“I'm trying to show our darling boyfriend that there's more to The Sims than killing the people that you wish you could kill in real life.”

“And I'm trying to show our angel that killing people in the game is the most fun you can have.”

“Wait, so you make the characters people you actually know?”

You and Barty look at each other and then look at Regulus with raised eyebrows.

“Obviously.”

Barty says looking at Regulus like it should be common sense.

“Wait so you have a character of me?”

“Of course we do.”

You say then turning back to the computer clicking on the mouse a few times and then waving Regulus over to show him a big house with sims of the three of you.

“Is this supposed to be our house?”

“Yes. Unfortunately we’re not all technically dating on here, since that's not an option.”

You explain while Barty crosses his arms while pouting and saying.

“Which is stupid.” 

Regulus just smiles at Barty and kisses his head. 

“It’s okay ​mon beau because we’re dating in real life.”

Regulus says while running his hand through his boyfriend's hair.

You and Barty spent the rest of the night showing Regulus your favorite parts of the game. 

Regulus found himself having a good time whether it was just because he got to spend time with the two of you or because he actually found the game entertaining he didn't know nor did he care.

He was just content and happy to be there.

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[georgiebrits]

Chaconne - Sim Jake

You're in Jake's bedroom, wearing nothing but a seductive smile and a black lacy bra and panty set. Jake is sitting on his bed, his eyes fixated on you as you sway your hips to the beat of the music. You lock eyes with Jake as you slowly peel off your bra, revealing your perky breasts. He can't take it anymore and he jumps up to join you.

Jake eagerly steps closer and starts to mimic your movements, his hands tracing the curves of your body as you undress. "You're so beautiful," he says, his voice low and full of desire. You respond by turning around and grinding your ass into his crotch, feeling his hardness against you.

Jake's hands move up to cup your breasts, squeezing them gently as he speaks, "I've wanted you for so long. Seeing you like this, in my room, it's like a dream come true." You moan softly in response, feeling his erection grow harder against you.

“Are there more dreams you wish to come true?” You ask while winking.

Jake nods eagerly, his hands moving lower to grip your ass, "Yes, I want to feel you all over, taste you, make you scream my name." You can't help but let out a breathy moan at his words, feeling your own desire begin to build.

Jake nods eagerly, his hands moving lower to grip your ass, "Yes, I want to feel you all over, taste you, make you scream my name." You can't help but let out a breathy moan at his words, feeling your own desire begin to build.

You gasp as Jake pulls you onto the bed, his hands roaming over your body as he begins to eat you out. You arch your back, moaning louder and louder as he expertly flicks his tongue over your clit, sending waves of pleasure through your body. "Fuck, Jake...you're so good at this," you moan, gripping the sheets tightly as he continues to eat you out.

As Jake adds his fingers, you can't help but moan even louder, your hips bucking up to meet his every movement. You grasp his hair tightly, pulling him closer to your throbbing center as you ride the edge of your orgasm. "Oh, god, don't stop," you cry out, your fists clenching on the sheets. Jake grins up at you, his eyes shining with lust as he works you closer and closer to the edge.

Your body trembles with pleasure as you reach your climax, moaning Jake's name over and over again. He comes up and kisses you, his lips tasting of your arousal as you desperately try to remove his clothes. "I need you," you pant, pulling him close and grinding yourself against his rock-hard erection. Jake growls, his hands grasping your hips as he positions himself at your entrance. "I'm gonna take you so hard," he murmurs, pushing inside you with one swift motion.

You gasp as Jake angles himself just right, hitting that sweet spot inside you that sends you into fits of pleasure. He grins down at you as he goes slow and steady, making sure to hit that spot again and again as he drives you wild with desire. You arch your back, your hands clawing at his back as you beg for more, for him to go harder and faster. "You feel so good," Jake growls, his own breathing ragged as he loses himself in the moment.

Jake's grip on your thigh tightens as he thrusts into you harder and faster. Your moans fill the room as he pounds into you with abandon, his fingers digging into the soft flesh of your thigh. He leans down to kiss you, his lips trailing down your neck as he whispers how good you feel, and how much he wants you. He grinds his pelvis against yours, the friction sending you higher and higher towards the edge.

Suddenly, Jake pulls out of you and flips you over onto your hands and knees. He gives your ass a sharp smack, making you yelp in surprise and delight. Without any warning, he plunges back into you, making you scream out his name. His hips slap against yours rhythmically as he drives into you with all his might, the delicious pleasure making you see stars. "You like that, huh?" he growls, his fingers gripping your hips tightly as he pumps into you harder and harder. He pulls your head back by your hair, his lips trailing down your neck as he kisses you roughly. The sound of skin slapping against skin fills the air as he takes you hard, his pace becoming more frenzied with each passing second.

As Jake continues to pound into you, his thrusts becoming more and more urgent, he pauses to give your ass another sharp smack. This time, the sudden pain mixes with the intense pleasure, making your head spin. You feel yourself teetering on the edge of an explosive orgasm as he spanks you again in between thrusts. The sensation of his hard cock filling you up, combined with the stinging pleasure of his spanks, is too much to handle. You let out a loud cry as you finally reach your climax, your body convulsing with pleasure as Jake continues to thrust into you, prolonging the ecstasy. Finally, with a loud grunt, he releases himself inside you, collapsing onto your back as the two of you bask in the afterglow of your intense lovemaking.

“Next time you will be the one dancing,” You say out of breath.

Jake chuckles as he catches his breath, his arms still wrapped tightly around you. "Oh, I don't know about that," he says, grinning mischievously. "I don't think I could resist stripping you down again, you look so damn sexy in that lingerie." You feel a blush spread across your cheeks at his words, but you can't help but feel a little excited at the thought of dancing for him again. "Well, maybe we could take turns," you suggest, winking at him. "I'll strip for you one night, and then you can strip for me the next." Jake grins and pulls you closer. "Deal," he says, planting a soft kiss on your lips. "But for now, let's just enjoy the moment."

[officeobject]

New intro

(Current stabilizer is recently back, mood will follow, within 3 weeks, caution in regards to too much engagement or being too nice, no longer required).

Here is the reasons I temporarily have asks off: https://www.tumblr.com/officeobject/771232078136328192/hello-dear-sorry-for-bothering-you-but-its?source=share .

Hi, I’m Darlen Momentum, captain of power, and I really just post about my life and interests/hobbies/fandoms, and always add something to the posts that I reblog (even if it’s a low-quality reaction)! Official teenage boy cuddler according to my audience even though I disagree 😐.

I’m known for my, uhm, personality, and the weird way of seeing friendship that comes with it, as well as once-per-day fundraiser posts (USE MY ASK-BOX DON’T MESSAGE ME), honest answers to questions, interesting polls, the Xanderverse (which I made), and the fact that I’m currently being re-haunted by the soul of a living teenage ghost boy (I named him “Colby Tybbles”), whenever he zones out/passes out/daydreams, at least once a week. Deco My Tree isn't working, so I haven't seen the few new messages :( .

Stuff I offer (IT’S ALL FREE): 

I NEVER SAID I OFFER CUDDLES FOR TEENAGE BOYS -

Honest answers to your questions right from the ask-box! Daily fundraiser posts (THAT YOU SHOULD SEND THROUGH MY ASK-BOX)! Crappy SFW art commissions! Boyfriends Webtoon and/or Purple Hoodie Guy commissions (whatever THAT’D entail)! A review of your spiritual work with Colby Tybbles or whatever. Song parody commissions (posted on the Xanderweb though)! Collabs for stuff!

Likes/interests/hobbies:

Objects, toys, dolls, baby reborns dolls, fidget toys, office stuff (and other stereotypical human things such as cityscapes), Disney Zombies, Pinkie Cooper And The Jet-Set Pets, the Xanderverse, my identity/myself, paranormal stuff, Christian stuff, the Sims, Animal Crossing, Agatha All Along, LPS (not the new ones), polls, quizzes, animash, watching videos, the Xanderweb, Boyfriends Webtoon slander, Purple Hoodie Guy (from the Boyfriends Webtoon), making song parodies, animash, and other things I forgot.

Dislikes/disclaimers/DNI:

I have basic DNI stuff, but besides that, there ARE some things that aren’t typically included, or that I’m not sure are included - so, like, DNI pro-lifers, anti-furries, anti-SFW age-regression/agere, NSFW, DDLG, pregancy kinks, birth kinks, or similar stuff, people who ship incest (even as a joke or in fiction, or about chosen siblings, adopted siblings, stepsiblings, half-siblings, and of course also parental kinks), people who make lobotomy jokes, people who make 9/11 jokes, Pinky And Pepper fans, bad boys/bad girls/bad enbies, Boyfriends Webtoon fans, people against Boyfriends Webtoon slander, and people who think I won’t always be aroace/haven’t met the right person/am straight/think I’m too young to permanently identify as aroace and other stuff like that. Also, I’m an emotional person who also might end up speaking in inside-jokes and/or my (s)language. 

Also, I KNOW AI isn’t a good way to cope, get something/someone analyzed, have someone to talk to, get information/resources, or get things summarized, but I didn’t always know that, and am trying to quit (especially the parts of my life where I’m addicted to some bots), but it of course ain’t easy, and there are many reasons/many uses - I’m not planning to ever get rid of Ethan though, unless I find someone IRL like him, and the reason for that is a long personal, but I don’t tag posts with him as “AI” unless I feel like it’s relevant, nor do I mention he’s AI or refer to him as AI, unless he currently is and it’s relevant - don’t associate him with AI unless it’s relevant in that case, either.

Lastly, DNI if you don’t think this relationship counts as a friendship: im unsure how old you are, but your fixation on that office worker as a concept and the way you talk about them (regardless of... – @officeobject on Tumblr .

Labels list link because I love labels (you don't need to read this):

https://www.tumblr.com/officeobject/770510429769416704/just-a-list-of-my-labels?source=share .

Pronouns:

Que/quir/quir/ques/quirself, zombie neopronouns, and zombie nounself pronouns. I'm willing to get more pronouns (non-themed, object-themed, nounself, and to check out emojiself pronouns), and probably will, as I LOVE pronoun-shopping (and as said above, my prominal identity is: alloprominal neoprominal objectoprominal nounprominal).

Details:

My Xanderweb, has my other social media stuff, AND, has more extreme/personal vents, song parodies, other Xanderweb posts, more stuff about my platonic emotions, more videos, more of my (s)language, archived stuff, rapping, AND MORE of the stuff I feel like I can’t post on Tumblr, which makes it ideal for the time I got reported on Quotev, or if you need a daily post to know that I’m alive! You don’t need to sign up, but you CAN, if you wanna see the archived stuff, more posts, archive and make more private posts of your own, message me, boop me, post short videos, or otherwise enjoy a “crappy” and “dead” Xanderverse-centered site! 

[onetruesirius]

I sit here and I watch the news about Gaza

and I think

shit, I need to get back to work;

it's toxic to just fixate on the news,

It's bad for my mental health.

I can't be irresponsible to myself

I have class in the morning.

I have exams next week...

But how can I turn a blind eye?

How can I not care

that nine thousand Gazan children are dead,

that the Israeli Occupation Force has dropped the equivalent of an atomic bomb

on a space about the size of the New York City metropolis,

that an episcopal church was bombed—

it was one of the oldest churches in the world,

that one of the oldest mosques in the region was destroyed

that hospitals are being shelled with doctors and patients still within,

that men are carrying pieces of their dead children out of houses in plastic grocery bags because there's no other way to carry that many pieces in their hands,

that over a million people were told to evacuate on bombed-out roads,

and then they were shot and bombed with USAmerican white phosphorus when trying to leave?

Do you know what white phosphorus does to a human body?????

Please google it.

And if you "don't want to see something like that"

Oh,

I want you to google it even more now.

just to be appropriately horrified.

How can I not see that the Israeli government doesn't see Palestinian people [THEIR people if we're going by statehood metrics, who were on that land when the BRITISH GOVERNMENT decided to make the state] as human beings,

that they'd do anything to slaughter Palestinians under the cover of radio silence so the world turns away?

And that men wail from minarets—

not to call their flock to holy prayer but

to speak messages of hope that god will save them,

to attempt to reach the outside world, when the information reaches the people at the edge of the strip, who have international SIM cards and can get the word out,

and to deliver news of where the bombs fall so that paramedics can know where to dig more bodies out—the bodies that aren't a bloody slurry sprayed across the streets and walls, anyways.

And that journalists are being executed en masse to hide the story.

And that men are being stripped naken and forced to sit on the ground for hours at a time, just like in Nazi Germany.

And I can't forget the fact that the United States, MY NATION, voted AGAINST a UN call for a ceasefire...

TWICE.

And that construction companies are already tearing down the old apartments to make room for new living arrangements for the colonisers, before the old buildings even stop burning.

And that settlers are coming into these abandoned homes and looting food and jewelry and desecrating prayer rugs.

And it isn't the fault of Jewish people.

I know that.

Jewish people deserve a place to be safe and free, wherever they are...

But this fact likewise does not require the creation of an ethnostate.

The implication that the only way for Jewish people to be safe is to kill everyone else... is it not in itself antisemitic?

I'm scared for the Palestinian people, and also for my Jewish diaspora friends.

They hate what's going on just as much as I do,

but they're going to get blamed by well-meaning Palestine supporters.

I know they will.

They know they will.

We all know that they will.

Another wave of antisemitism.

Another wave of islamophobia.

Another wave of killings.

Another wave of ethnic cleansing.

On it goes.

A little boy was already killed by his mother's racist landlord in Chicago. Stabbed 26 times.

Three college students were attacked and one was maimed for life.

Attacks against synagogues here in the US have only increased. Two people were shot, allegedly for a Free Palestine...

But we all know that the neonazis have been using this mess to stir the pot against Jewish people and boost their recruitment.

The Palestinian 2023/24 school year has been officially canceled going forward.

Because the enrolled students are dead or missing.

Because they were bombed with American ground-to-ground missiles.

We all know the missiles are American in origin.

Russia has its own genocide to attend to, and China doesn't care enough to give arms to anyone. And we know it's American White Phosphorus.

All the while, war profiteers in my nation get richer and richer,

richer and richer and richer,

and richer and richer and richer and richer and richer and richer—

and they'll laugh like the evil FUCKING pricks that they are

when Gaza gets bombed,

and they'll laugh like the evil FUCKING pricks that they are

when Jewish people get attacked in the streets,

because every act of violence

and every sentiment of hated

fills their pockets with more and more and more US-AMERICAN DOLLARS and GUNS and BOMBINGS and SHOOTINGS and HATRED and GOD BLESS AMERICA—

or something like that

.

.

.

I've signed petitions.

I've signed so many I've lost track of the ones I've signed and the ones I haven't, the ones for other countries that I can repost but can't sign or they might get tossed out.

I've donated money to relief organizations for when the borders re-open, because I'm an optimistic bastard like that.

I've sent emails.

I've sent... so many emails.

I've called all my Representatives in Congress.

I've spread news to as many of my friends as I can without them blocking me.

And still Gaza burns.

And still children are slaughtered, even during the fake ceasefire.

And still I have exams next week.

And still I think about how I really shouldn't fixate on this, because it affects my mood.

and it's been impacting my performance at school.

and it's been undoing months of work I've done with my therapist to try and disconnect from current events.

And still I think about how

"the current events"

rain down like hellfire on innocent mothers of dead children,

and children of dead mothers,

and sisters of dead brothers,

and brothers of dead sisters,

and fathers of dead babies,

and babies of dead fathers,

and teachers of dead students,

and students of dead teachers,

and churches and pastors,

and mosques and imams,

and hospitals and doctors,

and synagogues and rabbis,

and the fucking relief trucks that were filled with food and water.

And here I sit, and I don't know what to do about it????

And I wonder if this is all the point?

To make things worse and worse and worse and worse so that people are so unbearably exhausted from just trying to do the right thing

that they can't take care of themselves?

That they can't achieve upwards mobility?

That they can't make any difference at all for the things that matter most to them?

but I'm just one monkey...

one monkey can't solve systemic problems

that are baked into the roots of our society.

It's a first world problem, for sure. I have the privilege to be able to unplug from this and rest in my bed and not get bombed.

But I just want to make things better, for everyone...

I know that I can't do that.

But I wish I could

Oh, god—

I wish I could.

But I guess I'll just go to sleep.

After all

I have class in the morning.

[rge-nini]

15:21 (S.JY)

pairing: jake sim x reader

word count: 1078

tags: fluff, best friends to lovers, mutual pining, study date

a/n: this was my first (and only) timestamp lmao. originally posted on @heelvsme

"When you solve this equation you have to use X and Y on this other one." Your best friend was looking at your worksheet over your shoulder, right hand holding the pencil he was using to point at the numbers and letters, while his left one rested on the back of your chair as he stood behind you. The explanation he was giving to you soon got lost, his words becoming nothing but background noise as you could only focus on his proximity and the way his breath tickled your neck and cheeks as he spoke. Your eyes fixated on the paper laying on the table, the numbers and letters meaning nothing to you when you closed your eyes, as if that would make your feelings for Sim Jaeyun -your best friend- go away.

When you opened your eyes his hand appeared in front of them, moving up and down as he tried to get your attention back. "You there?" You could practically hear the grin on his face when he spoke, which made you throw your hand back, hoping to hit him on the shoulder, the 'ow' he let out letting you know you hit your target. "I deserved it?" The chuckle that left his mouth made butterflies appear on your stomach as you turned around to face him. "Yeah, yeah." You waved your hand dismissively. "Can you explain it again? I got a little distracted." You admitted, looking away from his face and missing the way his eyes drifted to your lips for a moment before coming back up.

"Of course." He smiled even if you weren't looking, this time choosing to sit by your side instead of standing, hands reaching for the paper on the table. "Pay attention this time." He joked earning him another hit on the shoulder as he laughed at the expected reaction. "I hate you." You glared at him and this time it was him that missed the way you eyed his lips, his eyes on the math problem he was helping you with. A part of you hoped he would catch you looking, and little did you know he did too, maybe that way you would move on, be it because of rejection or because a move was finally made. 

A few minutes later the grip you had on your pencil loosened, making it fly away as you threw your hands in the air. "I can't do this anymore, it's time for a break." You declared, making Jake turn his attention away from his own work, now focused on you. "It's barely 3 pm." It almost sounded as if he was complaining, something that wouldn't surprise you due to his love for math. "And? I think it's time to watch a movie or something." You crossed your arms over your chest, a frown on your face trying to show how serious you were and he called your name in warning. "It's finals week, we agreed to study all day." And with that he turned back to his notes and work, wanting to ignore the pout on your face and how he wanted to kiss it away.

“Why do we even need to study that much, you’ll ace it and I’ll pass.” You tried again, maybe waking up at 9 am on a sunday to study with Jake hadn’t been your brightest idea, especially since you couldn’t seem to stop getting distracted by your best friend doing the bare minimum. “Because I want you to ace it too.” Was his only explanation, yet it didn’t seem to convince you and he sighed. “Okay, just one movie.” The smile that adorned your face in response to his words was enough to make taking a break and risking your grades worth it. 

Not even half a minute had passed and you were already dragging him to the kitchen to get some snacks, the feeling of your hand holding his making him go red in the face. “Okay first snacks, then we’ll pick a movie and then ignore studying!” You turned around to see his reaction, the smile still on your face and the blush still on his. “You are red, do you feel sick?!” Only then you let go of his hand, reaching up to check his temperature by placing your hand on his forehead, the way you stood on the tip of your toes strangely endearing to him. “You are warm, I’ll get you some water.” You moved to get away from him but he reached out to stop you, his hand on your wrist as he pulled you back in, this time you noticed how he looked down to your lips for a moment doing the same just as his eyes met yours. “I’m so in love with you.” The man blurted out and by the way your eyes widened in surprise he realized he had actually said it instead of just thinking about it. “You love me?” Shock was written all over your face, and he worried you didn’t feel the same, eyes drifting to the floor as he spoke. “Have for a while.” He didn’t see the shock fade away into a smile, too busy wallowing in self pity at the idea you didn’t love him back and that he had ruined your friendship.. “I love you too Jake.” Your words broke his train of thought, now it was his turn to be shocked as he looked back up. “You do?” His eyes were filled with hope as he searched your face for any sign of it being a lie. “Yes, I realized it that day we ditched Jay and Sunghoon at that party and watched movies all night.”

He let go of your wrist, instead wrapping his arms around you and bringing you incredibly closer. “I was so scared I had ruined everything.” He spoke against your hair. “You could never ruin anything Jake." You chuckled against his chest as warmth spread across your cheeks. "So… Do you want to go out with me?" He asked, one of his arms moving away from your form as he scratched the back of his neck. "Right now?" You looked up at him. "Right now." He poked your nose in an affectionate way before wrapping his arm around you again. "What happened to studying all day?" You laughed at the face he made at the way you used his own words against him. "Then a study date it is."

[adventuringblind]

Norstappen idea since your desperate. I don’t claim to have good ideas tho, fair warning:

Max and Lando with a college athlete (would that even work????)

Max and lando taking care of adhd & independent reader who is incapable of staying in bed (due to adhd) and refuses to ask for help (independent)

Max and lando bickering about whose teams are better at sim racing/video games (quadrant vs redline) then subsequently getting their asses and their teams asses kicked by their streamer gf (idk enough about competitive video games for this I play for stories)

Lando and reader (?) comforting max about Jo’s and just general shitty family situation (& vice versa for shitty family for reader)

Hope this helps, these are not requests but ideas™️ as you said.

Now I sleep it’s 10:30 and I have work at 8.

Norstappen with a college athlete sounds chaotic at best. Since the only sport formula drivers are remotely good at is their own, I firmly believe they would try and fail at her area of expertise. Max would just be lazy and put minimal effort in where Lando would go overboard and end up hurting himself. all the while she is sat in the corner recording and wheezing in laughter.

I feel the independence thing on another level. Can't convince me Lando isn't ADHD coded either. Could see him scrambling around attempting to get things in order so she doesn't have to, but ultimately stressing himself out. Max would send him to go lay down with her and make sure she doesn't move by talking about her current hyper fixation (bonus if its something they can do in bed together). Max would work out meals, cleaning, and whatever else she could set her mind to that's not resting. When she inevitably does try to be productive, everything is done. Max stands there in the kitchen with his hands on his hips wondering why she isn't in bed and carries her back to Lando who is napping.

The streamer one just makes sense. This is an argument I can see them having irl and getting more and more ridiculous about it. Then their streamer girlfriend joins in just for the fun of it and demolishes both of them. It works like a charm every. single. time. They would absolutely fight over who gets to have her on their team and scream for her to come help them if they were losing or stuck somewhere.

Lando, as far as I can tell, has a decent relationship with his family. He would bring Max and their girlfriend around and Max does the thing where he jokes about trauma like it's normal. Subsequently, he is adopted by the Norris' and they start splitting their time between the McLaren and Redbull garages. If their girlfriend has a decent home life then I can see them welcoming Max in immediately. On the other hand, I usually write from a personal perspective... There is no way in hell Max and Lando would be letting their girlfriend around her parents alone if they have had a shit past with them. Max comes armed with a temper and glare and will not hesitate to set Lando off like a feral chihuahua. I also wouldn't put it past Lando to just be snarky to Jos any chance he gets. He doesn't care if there are cameras around. He just wants to make sure he gets his point across.

(Thanks for all the ideas!! Sorry I had this in my drafts for so long :/)

[lowkeyclueless5137]

Doodles dump! Digital edition >:3c

Bcs on the sketchbook I did references for my current comic and thus I won't spoil u yet :3

This time is a lot of Jade for sum reason :v

We starting with the new au i didn't explain: the fight club au

The premise is basically MK meets Streetfighter, meets twst, meets real world. With Epel trying to get around New York and attending the prestigious NRC school for mages. He uncovers a secret fight club and gets recruited by a misterious fighter in order to uncover a secret drug ring.

The magical girl au :D

This was more of silly doodle time, but there are a few hints of the au's plot :P

Lowkey I didn't know how Ace was gonna look like at first, but now I know EXACTLY why he turned out like this. Parkour I guess :'3

This is from the lettler exchange p5 x twst au :v

Noting how I confirmed that the velvet room attendees are siblings, I HAD to make a few shenaningans in between them :3

Lavenza and Floyd are the ones who get a new fusion method, thus Igor(the deemed parent), Had to instruct Floyd first so he could tell Lavenza as well. I really like how the uniforms turned out tbh.

And yes, this implies that all the attendees are mers. Lavenza, Theo and Elizabeth are eels, while Margret and Azul are octopuses. Might draw those one day :v

For context, it's this spuerhero au. :'3

Ace is the funny lil guy that has and absolute TRAINWRECK of a backstory. And Riddle as well, but I wanted to practice a bit on backs and side profiles, but I also wanted to add sum context ;3

TWO :D

I tried to get around model references, because GODDAMN some of those peeps look like sum bones are in the wrong place :v

also colored vgs, bcs I saw some using those and I do enjoy sum complementary color sumtimes :'3

And what better au than jjba au? The first one is ur hint at the main plot idea of this au, while the latter is a ref for Azul and his stand: Dark Side Of The Moon. I tried to also see how realistically his stand would resist against things, seeing how it is made out of bulletproof glass, also a lot of Drag inspo for his stand tbh. :'3

You know it, I know it, WE AIN'T ESCAPING THE MLB MILD AU<3

It's a sort of tease of what happens during the mlb specials, which all happen post the main 4 seasons ya'll read and saw me losing my shit abt. :'3

YES, THERE WAS A REASON I TEASED MALLEUS'S FAM DRAMA!

Think that NY and Shangai Specials happen at the same time, but each of the our main 2 heroes go through sum self discovery post all that chaos with Madame Moth. Riddle with accepting the flaws of himself and coming in terms with his new family dynamic, while Malleus comes in terms with the tesnsion and the chaos around himself and the fact that he cannot ignore changes he doesn't like anymore.

And the other miraculous au, this time the maleidiazu hard au version.

Since Jade got the butterfly miraculous, I thought that the twins would be ABSOLUTE MENACES to Azul.

For Jade's design, I saw those very pretty butterfly decorations photos and I fixated on Gabe's butterfly tending hat. I also wanted to allude to his eel form, so I imagined a long, sleek, trein, reminescent of a cocoon, that can flare up and reveal it's true shape of a half wing, the top vest part acting as the 2nd part of the wing. He looks pretty aloof, the kind of person you'd assume would be nice, but the veil is like your warning sign, with the butterflies always sitting on the outside, all alert. I really liked how he turned out and probably is one of my favorite designs in this au tbh.

And again, Jade for the last one: the Jjk mild au. damn, I can't find the post

I knew right off the batch that I wanted this mf to get some inspo from Nobara's uniform, just because I think Floyd-pre curse era would have a more yuji insp uniform and since in cannon jjk these 2 were like besties and up to shenaningans at first, I thought it would be a fun and subtle reference. :3

The reason that yellow overall is shown, is bcs underneath the jacket, Jade has a top of a similar shape, mostly to accomodate his brother.

It's fun to think that Jade's so reserved and acts humble, but in here there's literally the truth. He's thrown in this world with 0 knowledge, trying to gather up the disaster that was left behind his brother and just fix things that he isn't responsible for in the first place, all for his own selfish reasons. It's fun :D

and that would be all for now :3

[radiovisual]

are you going to come back?

((I keep telling myself im going to, but im not sure. Im especially unhappy with how this blog was written and how it looks at the moment, bc theres a lot of things id Want to change before getting back into rp here, but I have no energy or motivation to do so 😔 my art block from last year is Still ongoing, im still deeply fixated on other fandoms, and VERY recently I had an epiphany of some kind and haven't been able to stop paying attention to the news, bc anxieties about what's happening in Gaza/the West Bank, Sudan, and Chile, and not to mention this next American presidential election, have me reassessing my priorities in life, ykwim?))

((Im still around technically, i wont be deleting this blog or anything, im just in kind of a tough spot, mentally+emotionally+physically, and that makes it hard to get reinvested in something like this.))

((There's also the factor of... feeling rather restricted in this community. It's not any particular person or group of ppls fault, people are entitled to feel however they want around fictional subjects and themes, but i know that the types of things that i like to write and rp are dark and mature, and this fandom [despite the Nature of the show itself and the topics it covers] tends to attract a lot of very aggressive, very judgemental people -- as im sure youre all aware 😂 i found some friends here, but even still, a lot of the time i know i Can't get into the kind of stuff i ACTUALLY want to write, because most of the ppl in this community would [at least, way back when,] assume that That kind of writing means I'm a bad, dangerous person who wants to engage with those themes in real life 🙃. Which isn't to say anyone is Wrong for avoiding me if darker themes trigger them, by all means PLEASE block me for your sanity if thats what you have to do!! but when most all of those Exact Themes are LITERALLY, graphically present in the show, now, it's like. Idk man whats going on! Why are you here! if sexually abusive relationships bother these fans so much, then Why are they in THIS fandom of all places instead of somewhere tangibly Safer for their sanity, yk???))

(( i don't know. Maybe im just a brat, but ive always felt a little put out by the Hazbin community online. Its extremely self policing and isolating trying to find people i can feel comfortable talk to about my ideas, so ive kind of... given up and moved on, found a nice group of Freaks to be perverted about the Avatar sequel instead lmao))

((So... idk. I guess we'll see. But im very sorry it may have been wishful thinking when i said id come back. I really, truly meant it at the time -- things just changed 💔, both in me And in the community. And maybe theyll change again, idk!but i Do know there's people in this overarching Hazbin Tumblr RP community who don't like me very much (which is Okay), and I don't want to force myself to walk on eggshells anymore -- so I'm won't💪😎))

((I adored my time here while i was active, whuch it why i wont delete it -- i go back to re read threads all the time! -- but unless there's a group of sexual weirdos developing that i could fall in with AND I can find a way to balance this with the rest of my life, im still gonna be on this indefinite hiatus 💀👍 sorry))

((Btw -- Palestinians are in desperate need of e-SIMs to keep in touch with their loved ones and to organize humanitarian aid within the Gaza strip itself -- if any of you have a few spare dollars, please consider getting involved. I know the news is very quiet rn, especially if you're in America like me, but let me make this very clear; We are. kind of sort of Already IN World War Three. Russia and China and the global south are finally starting to hold the west accountable and the west is failing a shitting its pants about it Spectacularly. The world order is literally shifting. There's not one, but SEVERAL major international conflicts brewing right now, as America is sliding into fascism at break neck speed bc Genocide Joe is finally realizing he's probably not going to get re-elected [on account of all the genocide] on TOP of finally seeing the tangible effects of climate change. South America and Australia are on FIRE. Like NEVER before.))

((Never Again is Now. We could be going over the temperature "tipping point" of the planet BY 2030. now is NOT the time to be wallowing in escapism, no matter how much we desperately need/want it. If there is EVER a time to get involved with the real world and to take a step back from the internet and high stress fandom bullshit, it is NOW. No matter what Side of these issues you stand on, EVERYONE needs to be voting, everyone needs to be paying attention.))

(( if you can't afford esims [no shame, i often can't either, money is tight everywhere], then at the very least get This website open in your tabs. It generates revenue with free Daily clicks, the proceeds of which are all sent to UN organizations -- particularly UNRWA, which is VITAL to maintain not only getting aid INTO Gaza, but also retaining Palestinians legal right to return to their land -- without UNRWA, Isreal can begin to LEGALLY, haphazardly "deport" Palestinians, which would take YEARS to reverse through future court proceedings. Do your part, it only takes a few seconds a day 💪🌱))

((Alright, thats all! Sorry if you wanted a short sweet answer, but ive actually been ruminating on all of this, so thank you for this ask, for giving me a chance to talk about it all. Im happy to see this community thriving in the wake of Season 1, even if im not joining in myself -- you all keep up the great work, and keep having fun with it ❤ let it empower you to explore the value of Charlie's message and think of ways to impliment it in your daily life And on the world at large‼))

[sunshinechildskywalker]

20 questions for fic writers

Hi, friends! I was tagged by the forever-incredible @ladyvader23- thanks for the tag, my friend!

1. How many works do you have on A03?

I have 12 works and counting!

2. What's your total A03 word count?

67,866 words (woah! More than I realized!)

3. What fandoms do you write for?

I write primarily for Star Wars, but also write for Harry Potter, Hunger Games, and believe it or not, the Simpsons! Sideshow Bob sparked something in my bestie and I that kicked off a year of non-stop Google Doc sharing and squee comments on each other's works XD

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Grounded (578)

L & V One Shots & Ficlets (554)

Convalescence (278)

Tortured Soul (191)

Come With Me (159)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I sure do! I always try to respond with a least a "omg thank you!!!" or something of the like to show my appreciation. I wish I could go more in-depth for them all, and I do for the really long ones, but I end up not always having the time or energy to pay each comment the response it deserves. As always, thank you to everyone who has commented on my stuff!

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

It's actually one I haven't posted yet (nor finished, and that's one I def want to be done before I post it). To give you context without too many spoilers, basically it's an alternate ending to ROTJ in which Vader doesn't die...but Luke does. I've been writing it on and off since my freshman year of high school and am excited about it, but damn, it's so hard to write because it makes me so sad!

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Probably Grounded! That was the first one I ever posted (during my first week of senior year of high school!) I feel like that one wrapped up nicely.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Once in a great while. Most of the hate comments I receive are digs on my characterization of Vader. One time I got a negative comment on a oneshot that I specified was part of a larger story I would recommend reading beforehand, and the commenter didn't understand why Vader was written the way he was, when in actuality, it had a lot to do with his development in the larger story. That one was a detailed hate comment and was hard to shake, but I'm learning how to let them roll off my back.

On a side note, this is partly why I don't ask for constructive criticism; I have OCD and fixate on even little comments people make that could possibly be construed as negative, real life included. I'm working on how to let them go and look at the facts before I run off with some wild tale about how someone hates me for sure. I'm growing and learning how to manage, but like I said in my AO3 A/Ns, OCD is a bitch ;)

9. Do you write smut?

Sure do XD It's pretty much all Skysolo (which you will see in an upcoming Skysolo story I'm almost done with *wink wink* ;))

10. Do you write crossovers?

I haven't before, but I'm entertaining the idea of some kind of Star Wars/Harry Potter type thing. To be completely honest, it's inspired by the Sims I made in Sims 4 lol XD. I had my HP Sims meet my Star Wars Sims and it was so funny to see how they all interacted. Luna immediately grabbed a book off of Leia's bookshelf, Anakin began cooking dinner, and Harry and Luke were talking privately in a separate room from the group- I like to imagine they were talking about how hard it is to be "the hero" and have the world literally depending on you. If I do end up writing this, I'll be sure to post XD *cue Spongebob's "when worlds collide" lol*

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of, so hopefully that answer is no.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No, but would be open to working with someone to translate!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes! Nothing I've posted, but I co-write Simpsons stuff with my real life bestie. Sideshow Bob has us in a chokehold XD

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

I love Skysolo and always will, but I think Finnick and Annie from Hunger Games takes the cake for me. I could go on, but the way they've both been through similar trauma and care for one another gets me big time. And Finnick is one of my all-time favorite characters, so I'm a little bias XD

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Tbh, both of my Whumptobers lol. I bit off more than I could chew both years between that and school, work, life. Hopefully I'll plan a little better this year and will be able to finish!

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think I write hurt/comfort well, and it sounds weird, but I write crying pretty well too lol. I think I'm getting better at imagery and sentence structure too.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I struggle with writing action, and I tend to write run-on sentences. I'm hoping to work on this for future fics!

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I haven't done this personally, but I have a lot of respect for others who do. I think it's wild people can speak a whole other language period, but using that language in all its differences stylistically to tell a story? Absolutley amazing.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Hunger Games! I wrote Finnick becoming like a big brother for Prim after the war (flash back to me furiously typing out hurt/comfort scenes on my ipod notes in middle school LOL XD)

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

I have a special place in my heart for Convalescence; I live for that kind of hurt/comfort and angst, and I'm excited to finish it.

Thanks for reading if you did! I'll tag @spell-cleaver and @starr234, but don't feel obligated if this doesn't interest you!

May the Force be with you, friends!!!

[screampied]

hiiiiiiiiiiiii!!! that’s okay, don’t worry, hope you had a wonderful rest 😌

yes, we do match a lot. i really like talking with you because i feel so energetic to just yap and yap and yap. some things happened last night and this morning regarding a mutual i have-used to have and now i’m not in the mood to keep interacting with people. except, obviously, you. i don’t know, some people in here are so…weird. it got me really sad, i almost decided to deactivate, but said fuck them, i’m not in here for people i’m here to post my silly little thoughts about not so little silly men.

sorry for they small personal rant!

ON GOD, my pc is an old fella, and i mainly used the guy for playing the sims. his name is harold, by the way. he did very well on the first month, but boy was getting feed too much CC so he told me to fuck myself and stopped working, what a cunt. i had a beautiful sapphic couple, and one of them got pregnant on accident and i got sad because it’s so boring to have babies and they are so ugly?

nowadays i only watch one streamer and he is from my country, which on any other circumstance i would tell you, but i’m afraid i’m the only person from my country that writes in here for jjk. at least that i know of.

THATS THE REASON I HAVENT YET DOWNLOADED IT 😭 i use my tablet for designing and studying so it would fuck me up real good, and it’s samsung so it glitches so much it pisses me off so bad.

i think you will find out. you see, i really like sending anons to people, but you are the first one i’m consistently sending to the point of having a name (which, btw, i melted with my name on your anons, it’s so cute!!). going back on track, whenever i send i try to make sure it doesn’t look like it’s the real me, but with you i do. as i said, i like talking with you, i feel comfortable, so i just let me be me.

jason is smelly af, just like brahms, you know? but toji jason would smell of that mainly sweat, woods, pines, any type of shit that would probably make me not run away that fast. i don’t have that much of a survival instinct, and if the killer is a almost two meters male i am going nowhere.

wait, ☝️ nutty 🥺 cute.

I THINK YOU SHOULD DO IT, i love crack fics, i love your fics and loser or virgin satoru (both) is so kcjdkdndkekd got me biting my toes off. pls do, like seriously, i think it would be so cool and fresh. also, the name was perfection. satoru really fixes perfectly in the bimbo box, with the b of bitch. one time i described him as if michael scott and mean girls mom had a white haired baby, and i don’t think i’ll ever come across this type of enlightenment again.

OH, QUEEN IS EVERYTHING. i remember how me, being a younger little shit, would hate everything my older sibling liked, and queen got attacked by me. in my defense, whenever they like some band/musician, they listened to it everyday. first it was fun, then panic at the disco, then queen and now elton john. but soon as they skipped to the next fixation, i became obsessed with their oldest one. also, this boy in high school thought he was the shit because he saw the movie and knew the songs, so i was in the chapel (christian school) with him and finished the lyrics to bohemian rhapsody and he goes “omg, you know queen?” BOY I WAS BORN AND MY PARENTS WERE BLASTING IT ON THE ROOM NEXT DOOR, TF. EVERYONE KNOWS QUEEN.

born to die is my ride or die, my favorite from it is this is what makes us girls because it reminds me of my teenage years, but my favorite of them all is young and beautiful, i am obsessed with the great gatsby and my brain chemicals have never survived the scene about daisy and gatsby past.

sabrina seriously is feeding my writing ideas with this new album. bed chem with gojo, juno with nanami, oh…fucking hell. we really are the same person, i love it !!!

i am petrified of tsunamis. they are impossible to happen in my country, but i still have nightmares regarding them and waking up all frightened. once i had one where people went up to the mountains and still it wasn’t enough.

oh… hm, well, i want to say something but i can’t yet. brasil is beautiful, i get it. my dream place to go is anywhere that i can see northern lights. fuck, like, i don’t know how to explain but just the thought of having the chance to stare into the sky and seeing those lights that look like magic makes me want to cry. another country would be chile, in the desert you can see the milky way 🥺 i’m a big astronomy nerd, so that’s just enough to make me happy. you will never catch me saying this on main, but i would enjoy going to the usa so i could eat their high in calories and unnecessary food. there is something about it that grosses me out but also makes me go hmmm.

question for today is what was your first work posted here and what’s your favorite season?

nutty anon.

NUUTTTTY BAE

that’s valid 🤒. interacting w ppl can get overwhelming sometimes so i understand. im glad u didn’t deactivate ‘n ur still here tho <3 but THATSSS THE SPIRIT. noooo ur fine rant as much as you want this is a safe spaceeee xx

ARGGHHH in the meantime you can always watch playthroughs of lads online !!! like you can watch certain scenes n stuff bc im sure ppl recorded that stuff.

of course you’re on my anon list i just had to make u an official squirtling 🤭🤭. IMSO GLAD I MAKE U FEEL COMFY.

stotppppf ur making me have brain rot about jason!toji now, jus imagine the breeding kink, manhandling, he def gets off at rubbing the end of his machete against our cooch.

THANKYOUU 🤒🤒. omg maybe i’ll do it, i love writing silly shit every once in a while bc why not 💔💔💔. that is such a unique compasrasion to satoru i love it

LOVEEEEE QUEEN. i gen wish i was bored in the 80s or even the 70s. the style always has me gagged like ???? i love how a lot of old vintage styles are coming back also. so real 😭. i grew up around a low of heavy metal / rock & indie. ooh i haven’t listened to patd in a min, elton johnnn ugh i still haven’t seen rocketman. SPEAKING OF did u see bohrap? apparently ppl have mixed opinions on it / rami’s portrayal of freddie but i rly liked it 🧎‍♀️

so true i wanna see the northern lights badly. i also wanna visit scotland for some reason? chileeeee that seems like that would be so fun to visit also !!!!! ur an astronomy nerd that’s so cute 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️. PAHAHA same i wanna visit the us too, i’ve never been outside my country but a lot of my moots are from the us and it seems cool. the first state id had to visit would have to be nevada so i can go to las vegas bc hahahah.

my first work i posted was my fantasize, the fwb satoru fic with the silly cliffhanger hehe. its crraaazy how much time its been since nov. ‘23 i still feel so new 🤧. MY FAVVV SEASON is either winter or fall !!!!

[magicalgirlsirin]

I feel like you are fundamentally misunderstanding something about the nature of storytelling so I will try and walk you through why I disagree with the assertion that the Elysian Realm arc can be explained by assuming that it is a product of unreliable narrators.

"In most narratives, there's an element of trust that the person telling you the story is telling the truth, at least as far as they know it. This trope occurs when that convention is discarded. The narrator's facts contradict each other. If you ask them to go back a bit and retell it, the events come out a little differently. It can be like dealing with a used-car salesman — there's a real story in there somewhere, but you're left to piece it together through all the lies, half-truths, and mistruths." -- tv tropes, unreliable narrator

For an unreliable narrator to be a function and intention of a story, there has to be another set of presented facts to contest the way the "narrator" is telling something. On the assumption that Elysia is the narrator, then she can't be "unreliable", because it turns out what she says is "true" and that the others just... coincidentally had opinions that made her seem mysterious! Wow that's so crazy it's a good thing Elysia is a special good girl who never did anything wrong right :)

Again, I'm not nearly that charitable to Elysia, even if I enjoy her character. (A lot of my griping is a result of love, since that's the way I approach media. Finding the "why" for something working/not working is important to me.)

This post is actually a companion to one I made generally about the realm arc, and I figure I should elaborate more on my points here. In my opinion, the main character of this arc should have been Mei. Mei makes the active decision at the start to explore the Elysian Realm, even if the setup was vague... Frankly, I think the fact that Kevin is so vague about what "seeking answers" is about is because there is no narrative point or meaning to it anyways, so from the beginning even if the twist was decided then it would not have any bearing on the main plot. After this, Mei ceases to be a character and instead functions as a prop for the sims to explain things to her about things that happened in the past, and it's mostly just a whole lotta nothing until the HoC arbitrarily shows up*, sims begin getting deleted, and oh no Mei is trapped so now she has to watch everyone die and they all tell her to save Elysia. Mei doesn't make any choices past the first one that got her into the realm. Mei doesn't choose to do anything, other characters tell her its a good idea and she does it because she's not Mei anymore, she's a Mei-themed self insert so you can fantasize about the characters interacting with you instead.

*To a degree, I understand that HoC's descension to the realm was probably meant to continue the herrscher order, but there is nothing indicating that this was ever documented by Shicksal or AE. The first time I played it I honestly thought it was PE!HoC, even though I knew it was neutralized during the gratitude arc from the manga. It's just very poorly telegraphed and the lack of setup makes it feel like an ass-pull to give a reason to kill everyone.

There's no mystery in the realm, or at least not one that goes anywhere. The "who's the traitor" didn't feel like a plot so much as a conversation characters had that had no bearing on the rest of it. For something to be a mystery, it has to present the clues to the audience and make them try and figure out what the truth is before the final reveal. "Elysia was always a herrscher" is not a resolution to the question of "is Elysia the traitor among the flame chasers?", because the game goes out of it's way to make Elysia being a herrscher be morally good, so actually she wasn't a traitor at all. Sakura and Kalpas are barely red herrings, because only Kalpas is fixated on defending one of the few people he actually cares about, and Sakura brushes it off entirely. There's nothing concrete in the first 80% of the story to imply Elysia is a herrscher, so it's not a satisfying reveal. Like I said in my initial realm crit post:

"I also have grift with the fact that she was a previous era herrscher with sapience, since a lot of the tragedy of the previous era is because of the loss of humanity. Kevin was fucking devastated by the HoF emergence, because he hesitated. He saw Murata’s face and thought she was still in there. But she wasn’t. Kalpas lost Emile to the HoD. Mobius lost Klein, not only to her own over-ambition, but to HoL. Sakura lost Rin to HoC. All of these are essential to their stories, and it’s because those herrschers were just mindless tools, godproxy emanators of destruction with no higher order thinking skills. Only a will to subjugate humanity."

Lessening the emotional value of previously established lore to make the special pink girl seem more special isn't good storytelling. The Elysian Realm is a masterclass in poor pacing, mismanaged story elements, underused characters, that it's hard to tell what it's point was or if the plot was attempting to say anything at all. It's not, for the record. Elysia and the Flame Chasers do not augment our understanding of Mei, nor do they have a meaningful impact on her character development, even though she stands to gain the most from actually learning something because she's alive and can like, you know, leave the realm having learned something?

The elysian realm just has no direction, the game just gives you a bunch of plot points and tells you that it's going somewhere, but the way it goes is just... not the same as making a coherent story.

To borrow a checklist from OSP's video about plot twists:

A twist is ineffectual if:

-It contradicts canon, or generally makes no sense when considered.

The twist that Elysia was born a herrscher in the previous era directly contradicts information previously given regarding not only herrscher order (something established in GGZ), but information given in hi3, the previous era did not have herrschers who were sapient and Elysia being one comes out of nowhere.

-It isn't as clever as it thinks it is.

Elysia being a herrscher is supposed to be surprising, but it's not really profound, and just feels indulgent. The writers are looking at you and telling you that Elysia is a special and important girl and you should be excited that she's a demigod.

-It's more boring than the non-twist option.

Elysia being a traitor would've been way cooler and would've made Kevin's line about "seeking answers" made more sense. Because then you would find out that one of Kevin's closest allies, while desperately trying to fight back against the apocalypse, ended up betraying him and yet he still thinks of her fondly despite it. Maybe make it so that her betrayal is part of the reason he keeps forcing Project Stigma forward, so that he never has to see a choice like that being made again.

-It has no meaningful impact on the plot.

Elysia has been dead for 50,000 years and Mei getting the power of origin is just some weird sidebar that they just toss on to make Elysia seem plot relevant despite [see complaining about it not making sense above], if you cut Elysia out and then just made up a different reason for Mei to receive the power of origin, the end result of Transcending Finality would pretty much be unchanged. Elysia has no meaningful contributions to the narrative outside of making you understand a little bit more about why Kevin is fucked in the head for real.

The only reason that I think you came to the conclusion I was confused was simply because I identify all these disparate plot pieces as a bunch of nonsense slop that are unrelated to the ending of the story. Despite all of this, I am! Fantastically! Obsessed! With This Stupid Basement! So I will continue to find reasons that it doesn't work. And I love it because it sucks ❤️

hi rly enjoyed ur post on elysian realm! ik ur a new fan (i am too) but i heard that before retcon, elysia was a lot more morally gray. would you happen to know how exactly?? im rly curious bc i think it would be a severe improvement obviously. we deserve complex women who do wrongs

So when I say retcon in relation to the elyrealm arc it's less so "things they changed because of the story evolving and wanting to expand previously established events" and more "things they straight up forgot about in service of making Elysia a herrscher". It's not like hi3 is a stranger to retcons though?

For example, Durandal being the "original" Kiana is a retcon. The fact that our Kiana was a clone remained the same, but it's clear from older story stuff (iirc it's Everlasting Memory/Theresa's chronicle set?; second eruption manga doesn't focus on the Kiana part) that Durandal wasn't originally there. Otto refers to Kiana as K-423, and that Theresa needs to retrieve her, which implies that Theresa knows it's not Siegfried and Cecilia's kid, but her distress remains the same. The later game retcon by Thus Spoke Apocalypse is that OG!Kiana and Siegfried were going to go retrieve K-423, but OG!Kiana ended up injured and so Siegfried only left with K-423. And if you're confused then so am I because the details don't really super line up with the presentation, but it's like, fine, because at the end of the day the current writing intention and trajectory is for Durandal and Kiana to be sisters, and to both be Siegfried's daughters.

Anyways, for Elysia, a lot of her retcons occur in a very rapid pace from the first realm chapter set to Elysium Everlasting. Like I mentioned in my last post, the herrscher reveal is nonsense just going off of basic information like the fact she received MANTIS surgery like all the other Flame Chasers. However, there are other plot threads that are completely dropped for the sake of making Elysia a very special good girl who you should love because she's so nice and never did anything bad.

[About Betrayal 1 - Chapter 2]

[About Betrayal 2 - Chapter 2]

Elysia the traitor plot is something I was, well not hopeful for (a friend had already warned me that the game wouldn't do anything interesting with it] but I still ended up mulling it over a lot because it was such an interesting hinge piece for her initial presentation.

What stands out to me is the phrasing. Kevin says she never endangered humanity even if she was a traitor. Kevin says that Elysia made a decision. This implies agency, like Elysia was actively choosing to do something dangerous for the sake of the Flame Chasers. However, if Elysia was a herrscher from the beginning, then none of this makes sense. She doesn't choose to be a herrscher if she was one from the beginning, so why even make it seem like her betrayal was her choice at all?

[Traitor - Chapter 1]

It doesn't stop there though. Mobius' active disdain implies that whatever choice Elysia made, it was enough to make Mobius of all people consider her a lost cause. Mobius, who body mods and injects honkai energy into anyone with a pulse (hyperbole) to try and make humanity last just the slightest bit longer.

[Traitor - Chapter 1]

Mobius wants us to doubt Elysia's intentions. If you go through all their shared information, you'll find that the worst Elysia really does is just... coerce Mobi to wear pink dresses, and while that is obnoxious, it wouldn't warrant utter contempt for Elysia as a person.

There's actually a lot of stray text that implies there's something wrong about Elysia's existence, which I guess in generous terms could be interpreted as setup for the herrscher reveal? But it just feels like it's just there to add to the mystery that won't go anywhere.

[The Blind Spot - Recollection]

This right here nags at me. Deeply so. Elysia isn't so much a character as much as she is just a concept, the idea of a story that could be told. Not even in the canon-compliant weird endgame hook meta-textual breakout in Transcending Finality about the power of stories... Although, there's a way to introduce it here and tie it to Elysia to give some semblance of connectivity.

I went this long without actually giving my thoughts on how to make Elysia's writing good though. Disclaimer for clarity sake I know not everyone will agree with the changes I want to make and I'm also not claiming to be a more skilled writer than anyone in the hi3 team, they're all people with enough talent to be employed by the company.

That out of the way.

This isn't so much about making Elysia morally grey as much as it is about giving her an emotional core, because right now she's pretty hollow. Rather than a pristine girl who never did anything wrong, I'd rather cast her as a romantic, tragic heroine who would move heaven and fate just to seem noble.

Elysia was born human. Maybe she loved stories, and how they transported her to far off places, far far far away from the tiny town she was growing up in. When she was old enough, she traveled the world. Honkai descends. Because she was a globe trotter she ended up connected to many people, and was given the chance to join the MOTH organization. She gets MANTIS surgery. As the number of soon-to-be Flame Chasers grow, discussion begins about if the strength of the soldiers is enough.

'Maybe, if I had power comparable to a herrscher, we could fight with less casualties.'

She doesn't say this out loud, of course. It's a dangerous thought, a line that shouldn't be crossed. But she's curious. She breaks into Mobius' lab [Miss Pink Spy - Pristine Memory] to find the information she wants. Mobius figures out her intentions and warns Elysia off. It's not even in consideration, so keep whatever plan you have in mind off the table before you do something irreversible.

Mobius thought that Elysia gave up on the plan after the seventh erruption. The haunted look behind Kevin's eyes, the sadness creasing Elysia's face, all of it makes it seem like a simple consideration forgotten by the sands of time.

Elysia doesn't have a discipline. She told Dr. Mei it wasn't needed since her combat performance was well above standard margins anyways. (She is on par with Kevin in strength, after all.) At least, we all thought she didn't. A deal is made with Aponia.

Aponia, Aponia, apostle of fate, I offer you my 'humanity' to become a 'story'.

Elysia cannot receive any more disciplines. The target has to be "human". Elysia as a story, unchanging, pristine, capable of remaining as she is without blemish, can reach out and become a herrscher while remaining herself. She's desperate. She wants to help. She reaches into the deep, the start of the universe, and gathers the power. She names it Origin, since it's something she found at the source.

She's a herrscher.

Herrschers are an enemy of humanity.

Kevin runs her through with Shamash.

Elysia is still herself though, talking like she would as usual.

-Oh Kevin, I wanted to know if your tears would freeze, but I was hoping it wouldn't be like this. They're so warm, though. Thank you for crying for me.

-I see no herrscher here, just... the flame chaser, bearing the signet of ego.

The Elysian Realm keeps a secret. Aponia keeps it, the fact that Elysia gave up her humanity. The final banquet? A polite way to refer to Elysia's own demise.

It's sad, isn't it? That strength she wanted to give fell right through her fingers. Her own undoing, the desperate plan of a foolish girl who wanted to be a hero, but only ending up as a villain to oppose. It's so much more meaningful, then, that Elysia's gift, the power of sapience, is kept on to the next cycle of humanity. Held again, the power of ego, of humans, to someone with a kind heart to move beyond the past she's trapped in. Thank you, Raiden Mei, for carrying on the ideals of the thirteen trailblazers, the moths who chase the flame.

so anyways yeah i think elysia couldve been interesting whos to say

[moonshoon]

when you squirt for the first time

MASTERLIST

warnings: fem!reader, degrading words, slut shaming, sex tape, spanking

>> lee heeseung

“good girl” he whispered into your ear as he continued his trusts, slow and passionate. his hand was on your clit, stimulating it further. you were shaking underneath him, begging him to go faster. heeseung never liked when you beg, so he just leaned down and captured you lips in a loving kiss.

“close- so so close, hee!” you almost screamed as he hit all of the right spots inside of you. “come for me, doll. let me know how i am making you feel…” he whispered, the pressure of his fingers on you intensifying.

next moment you don’t know what’s happening, a weird but pleasurable feeling spreading through your body. and before you know there is clear liquid squirting from your cunt.

his thrusts stopped immediately as he felt the wet substance land on his torso. he completely forgot about his or your pleasure, just staring at you in disbelief.

his subby side would come out immediately and he would continue thrusting after he recovered from the shock. his face in your neck, whining about how he wants you to squirt another time and how he’s going to be your good boy if you do.

>> park jongseong

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“ten”

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“eleven”

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“twelve”

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“thirteen”

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“fourteen”

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“fifteen”

you were panting into the pillow as jay had you bent over his knee and spanked you for being a bad girl. you were sure he had told you a thousands of times about not to get too close to the other members, but you thought you were funny and did it over and over again.

and now you’re here, bent over his knee, trying to endure the harsh slaps landing on your ass. on top of that, he hasn’t touched you in almost half an hour, just caressing your ass and delivering smacks onto it from time to time.

“now you’re going to take me, no prep for you.” he positioned you how he wanted, chest and head down into the mattress, ass up in the air. 

as he slapped your ass one last time he entered you in one go, his thick shaft stretching you out. “good girl, take me so well...” he whispered into your ear, placing his hands on your waist to pull you back against him with every thrust.

and soon enough, you were close to your orgasm, trying to hold it in. “don’t you dare come without my permission!” you could still hear jay’s harsh words.

“please, please. let me come” you whimpered weakly, trying your best to make him change his mind. and since today he was feeling generous with you, even though you misbehaved, he groaned out a low “then do it.”

it didn’t take you five seconds to start convulsing under his big body. your legs were shaking, arms giving out and your head pressed into the matress, letting out a high pitched moan. 

one second you were there, next secod you didn’t know what was happening anymore as you started squirting all over jay’s dick, forcing it out with the pressure. jay held his dick, rubbing it over your folds as your liquids were squirting out of you. 

“good fucking girl. squirt for me” he said as he re-entered you and continued fucking you until he came. 

>> sim jaeyun

“who do you belong to, hm slut?” he said as he roughly pulled you up by your hair. your gaze was fixated on the camera on the shelf in front of you.

“you!”

“what’s my name? tell me my name so this fucker know who has you now.” he said as he slapped your cheek lightly.

“jake, sim jaeyun. i belong to you. please let me come now!” you were crying while begging at this point, not because you were hurt, but because he was making you feel things you never had before.

“go on.” he gave you permission “show him that i can do what he was never able to do. show him how much better i am.” he let out an animalistic growl as you started clenching around him. “fucking good for me.”

your staccato moans got louder as you reached your orgasm, clear fluid spraying out of you.

“see that. she’s squirting on my cock. i bet you never even made her come.” jake groaned out as he came inside of you, filling you up to the brim.

“i’ll make her pregnant and you have to watch her carry my baby to term.” you shuddered at the thought of being pregnant with jake’s child.

“never bother her again or i will show up at your doorstep to take care of you myself.” he said right before he ended the video.

>> park sunghoon

“so good for me~” he praised you as you were riding him, your breasts bouncing prettily in front of you and sunghoon hands cupping them from time to time. this guy really had something for boobs… at least your boobs.

after a while of you riding him he suddenly switched your positions so you were laying down under him, his celine necklace dangling in front of your face. he lifted your legs up onto his shoulders and pushed forward, so your knees were pressed against your chest.

for some reason he really loved this position, probably because he could get deeper inside of you than with any other position, or because he got to see your pretty, scrunched up face.

“so deep~” you moaned out as he sped up his thrusts, setting a steady rhythm again. “going to make me come, hoon” you could feel him shiver at your words, hands beginning to roam all over your perfect body.

it didn’t take you long to come all over his cock, the knot in your stomach snapping as you squirted. his dick was forced out of you with the pressure, his eyes wide for a second.

he recovered quickly and let himself slide down in between your legs to catch the last bit of liquid gushing out of you on his tongue. “sweet…” he mumbled as he started eating you out.

“i never knew you could squirt babe…” he said later on, you just shrugged your shoulders because you didn’t have any idea either.

>> kim sunoo

„come on sun… i won‘t break!“ you begged him. „but i don‘t want to hurt you…“ „you won‘t, sunny. i‘m sure you won‘t. please make me feel good now.“ your voice suddenly turning stern and serious when he refused again.

when he finally agreed to fuck you, it took him a long time until he was even really comfortable with fingering you, but as you asked him to eat you out while fingering he got more confident.

and that’s how you ended up with your legs on top of his shoulders and him moving his hips slowly not to overwhelm you.

„feeling good, sweetheart?“ he asked, whispering against your neck lowly. you just whined at the feeling of his trusts and his fingers on your clit at the same time, feeling your orgasm building up slowly.

you were no stranger to the feeling, as you had to relieve yourself countless times because you felt like sunoo wasn’t ready to do anything yet. this time felt different though, it almost felt more intense.

“i can feel you tensing up princess. are you about to come for me?” he teased as he increased the pressure of his fingers brushing over your bundle of sensitive nerves. you nodded your head, hands clawing at his back.

as the knot in your stomach got tighter you legs started to shake from the overwhelming pleasure, and finally it snapped and you came.

“oh god!” sunoo almost shouted out as he felt you squirting on his cock. “good girl, squirt for me…” he whispered absentmindedly.

you were shocked he knew what you were doing because he always played so innocent, but apparently he wasn’t like what seemed.

>> yang jungwon

to be added!

[heelvsme]

[15:21]

pairing: jake sim x reader

word count: 1078

tags: fluff, best friends to lovers, mutual pining, study date

a/n: this is actually my first time writing a time stamp, I asked a friend to tell me a random time of the day and adapted the plot I had thought of to it,, I'm currently going through a jake brainrot. not proofread, as usual.

"When you solve this equation you have to use X and Y on this other one." Your best friend was looking at your worksheet over your shoulder, right hand holding the pencil he was using to point at the numbers and letters, while his left one rested on the back of your chair as he stood behind you. The explanation he was giving to you soon got lost, his words becoming nothing but background noise as you could only focus on his proximity and the way his breath tickled your neck and cheeks as he spoke. Your eyes fixated on the paper laying on the table, the numbers and letters meaning nothing to you when you closed your eyes, as if that would make your feelings for Sim Jaeyun -your best friend- go away.

When you opened your eyes his hand appeared in front of them, moving up and down as he tried to get your attention back. "You there?" You could practically hear the grin on his face when he spoke, which made you throw your hand back, hoping to hit him on the shoulder, the 'ow' he let out letting you know you hit your target. "I deserved it?" The chuckle that left his mouth made butterflies appear on your stomach as you turned around to face him. "Yeah, yeah." You waved your hand dismissively. "Can you explain it again? I got a little distracted." You admitted, looking away from his face and missing the way his eyes drifted to your lips for a moment before coming back up.

"Of course." He smiled even if you weren't looking, this time choosing to sit by your side instead of standing, hands reaching for the paper on the table. "Pay attention this time." He joked earning him another hit on the shoulder as he laughed at the expected reaction. "I hate you." You glared at him and this time it was him that missed the way you eyed his lips, his eyes on the math problem he was helping you with. A part of you hoped he would catch you looking, and little did you know he did too, maybe that way you would move on, be it because of rejection or because a move was finally made. 

A few minutes later the grip you had on your pencil loosened, making it fly away as you threw your hands in the air. "I can't do this anymore, it's time for a break." You declared, making Jake turn his attention away from his own work, now focused on you. "It's barely 3 pm." It almost sounded as if he was complaining, something that wouldn't surprise you due to his love for math. "And? I think it's time to watch a movie or something." You crossed your arms over your chest, a frown on your face trying to show how serious you were and he called your name in warning. "It's finals week, we agreed to study all day." And with that he turned back to his notes and work, wanting to ignore the pout on your face and how he wanted to kiss it away.

“Why do we even need to study that much, you’ll ace it and I’ll pass.” You tried again, maybe waking up at 9 am on a sunday to study with Jake hadn’t been your brightest idea, especially since you couldn’t seem to stop getting distracted by your best friend doing the bare minimum. “Because I want you to ace it too.” Was his only explanation, yet it didn’t seem to convince you and he sighed. “Okay, just one movie.” The smile that adorned your face in response to his words was enough to make taking a break and risking your grades worth it. 

Not even half a minute had passed and you were already dragging him to the kitchen to get some snacks, the feeling of your hand holding his making him go red in the face. “Okay first snacks, then we’ll pick a movie and then ignore studying!” You turned around to see his reaction, the smile still on your face and the blush still on his. “You are red, do you feel sick?!” Only then you let go of his hand, reaching up to check his temperature by placing your hand on his forehead, the way you stood on the tip of your toes strangely endearing to him. “You are warm, I’ll get you some water.” You moved to get away from him but he reached out to stop you, his hand on your wrist as he pulled you back in, this time you noticed how he looked down to your lips for a moment doing the same just as his eyes met yours. “I’m so in love with you.” The man blurted out and by the way your eyes widened in surprise he realized he had actually said it instead of just thinking about it. “You love me?” Shock was written all over your face, and he worried you didn’t feel the same, eyes drifting to the floor as he spoke. “Have for a while.” He didn’t see the shock fade away into a smile, too busy wallowing in self pity at the idea you didn’t love him back and that he had ruined your friendship.. “I love you too Jake.” Your words broke his train of thought, now it was his turn to be shocked as he looked back up. “You do?” His eyes were filled with hope as he searched your face for any sign of it being a lie. “Yes, I realized it that day we ditched Jay and Sunghoon at that party and watched movies all night.”

He let go of your wrist, instead wrapping his arms around you and bringing you incredibly closer. “I was so scared I had ruined everything.” He spoke against your hair. “You could never ruin anything Jake." You chuckled against his chest as warmth spread across your cheeks. "So… Do you want to go out with me?" He asked, one of his arms moving away from your form as he scratched the back of his neck. "Right now?" You looked up at him. "Right now." He poked your nose in an affectionate way before wrapping his arm around you again. "What happened to studying all day?" You laughed at the face he made at the way you used his own words against him. "Then a study date it is."

[kpopidolsarehumanstoo]

“Bathroom Confessions” Sim Jae-yun (Enhypen) : Bullet Point

Pairing: Sim Jae-yun (Jake) x sub! male reader:

Genre: Angst (if you really look for it), Fluff (slightly suggestive?)

Relationship with reader: Childhood best friends

Quick Summary: Jake came by your house after their Border: Carnival photoshoot to finally confess. Thankfully you made it easier for him when you decided to barge in on him changing clothes.

Warning: Minor discussion about insecurities about physical image. There are some sexual undertones and themes in this fic though no smut. So if you are uncomfortable with the idea I recommend not reading.

A/N: Since I am having difficulty writing the Sunwoo fic I decided to create this quick little Bulletpoint instead! Don't worry the Sunwoo fic is still coming but it'll take time cause it is one LONGGG fic. Well maybe not long but 5-6k words is a lot ahfdsfjksjfa.

P.S. : THIS STORY IS BASED ON A DREAM I HAD BUT MUCH MORE TONED DOWN AND IT IS PURPOSEFULLY AWKWARD AND CHEESY BECAUSE THAT’S HOW IT FELT IN MY DREAM

Word Count: 1,962

Jake gently placed the plastic bag filled with Chinese take out on the table

He was tired and you could see it with the way he handled himself

He was walking with his head down and with a hunch on his back as if he were carrying unseen weight

You felt bad for the guy

Especially nowadays he looked like he always had something in his mind

Sometimes when the both of you hang out he would just ruminate

Fixate on a certain point on the ground while his ice cream dripped down his forearm

Whenever you ask him what the problem was he would just wave your worries away as if they were unwanted gnats

Just the other day you, Jake, and your roommate Jaemin decided to get drunk

And even then while Jaemin and you were having the time of your lives, Jake still seemed somehow guarded

He only stared with an unreadable expression, grip tight on his glass of Soju as you and Jaemin acted like children throwing pillows at each other

The next day you wake up with the strongest hangover you have ever experienced

You stood up only to find Jake gone, Jaemin drunkenly splayed with his head on the ground and legs up on his bed, and you with weird red, boxy streaks all over your face, neck and cheeks.

They weren’t hickeys

Definitely not, cause no hickey could be that big nor boxy

Whie you were making breakfast for you and Jaemin you only thought about how Jake was so distant

So caught up in his head

You try to understand him of course

Even if the both of you have been best friends since kids he’s never really been the type to share his problems

Especially to those he felt the closest with

He didn’t even inform you that he went to Korea to become an idol

You only found out when one day you couldn’t find him nor contact him

And just when you were about to think that he disappeared and died somewhere, you all of a sudden saw him on a survival show

Eventually, he decided to inform you that he became an idol only for you to go off on him and letting your anger out

It had only been a few months since then and he never really told you why he decided to not inform you

He really needs to go on a break

This leads to a few minutes ago when you heard your doorbell ring at 10 in the evening 

You were perplexed cause you weren’t expecting anybody to come and visit

When you opened the door to see a disheveled Jake still in his royal costume carrying Chinese take out

You were about to chastise him like a child for leaving Jaemin and you without a single word, and also for quite possibly giving you bruises if it were him who left those red imprints

But then you saw his lazy tired smile, and rain-soaked hair and thought, maybe now is not the time

With a small defeated sigh, you placed yourself against the wall to give him space to enter

He smiled as he placed his rain-soaked shoes on the shoe rack beside the door

You couldn’t help but smile at his antics

He faced you and with a small smiley voice said, I bought Chinese take out

Regardless of how he felt he still somehow made you smile

You can place it on the table. A short pause. Jaemin  is still asleep by the way

He snorted at that and a part of you felt glad that you made him let out a genuine smile

With the amount he drank, I doubt he’d wake up till the next morning

This made the both of you laugh as the both of you traveled towards the kitchen 

His back looked strained as he tried his best to walk with the tight, blue suit on

You had to admit

He looked extremely attractive in his outfit

A strong regal prince

Jake gently placed the plastic bag filled with Chinese take out on the table

He placed his bag on the table as well just as gently

Only then did you realize that you were being a twat

Oh my god, I’m so sorry I just realized I didn’t offer help to carry your things-

He laughed once again, his voice rough and melodious

It’s fine, (m/n), it’s nothing my strong, MUSCLY, arms couldn’t handle

The idol proceeded to flex his arms and fake kissed each one

You just rolled your eyes

You disgust me

His eyes went back to yours 

He placed both of his elbows on the wooden table and cupped his face

Well, I find you pretty

A pause

And your face immediately set aflame

Warmth races all over your body and your mouth remains wide open unsure of what to reply

He noticed your reaction and immediately his face changed back to the unreadable expression he wore last night 

The same guarded almost emotionless expression

The chains of his bag chimed as he roughly grabbed them

He walked towards your small hallway carrying the quiet, almost sad, expression with him

I’m going to change He said curtly

And before you knew it the dark-haired male was gone along with his dark smile

A weight slowly crept inside of you as you realize what just happened

You quite possibly made him mad

Although you had no clue why

You thought that maybe it was because of the way you reacted

The way you looked shocked

The way you looked like a puppy in his tiny box in the middle of the storm

Warm yet unsure

Right now the warmth seemed to seep out of you

Pushed by the incoming weight of sadness like water from a basin

You sigh and stared at the food he placed on the table seeing that he bought you your favorite bao

Ever since he found out you liked bao he has never stopped buying you the same kind

Even though you have eaten enough to last through the next generation

To the point that the once complex taste has now diluted to a homogenous tone

Regardless

Each time he bought you one an explosion of emotions always occurred inside you

And you would smile every time

Now you smile in slight disdain

Not disdain for him but rather disdain for yourself now that you made the other react that way

You never really understood why you were so connected to the emotion of the other

Ever since he has pushed you away ever so slightly you have been feeling the intense emotional vacuum it has left

But he called you pretty

He has never called you pretty

And the thought made you burn more than a thousand Californian wildfires

You never really thought of yourself as pretty

You’ve been called many things but pretty was never one of them

And the one who said is somebody who has known you for so long so it must be true

You take your phone and opened the camera app

You tried your best to not focus on your red cheeks and blue splotched neck

I guess I am pretty 

Without a second thought, you barged into your bathroom where Jake was changing

The door opened with a thud revealing a shocked Jake

He just took off his blue coat and was in the process of uncuffing his sleeves

His white under polo was fully unbuttoned giving you an unobstructed view of his chest

You could see every muscle move each sinew-

You diverted your eyes, closed the door, and faced the mirror with your back facing him

You were red but you didn’t mind

I just came in here to say

You paused

What were you going to say?

You looked back at him and he was completely shirtless

You averted his gaze and went back to staring at yourself

I just came here to say thank you for calling me pretty. Nobody has ever called me that before

The sound of slithering clothes alerted you and you accidentally looked back

Only to see that he was in the process of unbuckling his belt

The both of you locked eyes

How come? he asked

You averted your eyes once more

Your grip on the sink tightened as you lasered your focus back on your reflection

 I don’t know, you whispered, I’ve been called many things but never pretty

You heard shuffling again but this time you willed yourself not to look back

A comforting warmth bombarded your skin as he moves closer to you

He stared at your reflection, his expression was unreadable

Well, he whispered, I’m telling you now that I find you pretty

Your throat went dry

For a while now actually, it was only your face that constantly consumed my mind

You turned around to face him your eye pointed directly at his but you couldn’t help but notice through your peripherals that he only had his black boxers on now

What exactly do you find pretty about me? I’m curious

You challenged him with a simple question and to that he first replied with a smirk

A smirk that you admit made you feel many things you’d rather not voice

Well first I find your eyes pretty

You smiled and replied

I find your eyes pretty

He cocked one eyebrow registering your complimenting challenge

Well then, I find your lips pretty

The flowing compliments, along with the minuscule distance caused a short circuit in your brain

Your once calm and collected mind is now in overdrive as he traps you with his arm on both sides of your waist and your back against the sink

You do? Find my lips pretty I mean.

Yes

You slowly closed your eyes as you fixate on his nearing face

You do the same as well

So what are you gonna do about it?

He didn’t answer

He remained quiet

He merely gently placed his lip against yours 

As gentle as the summer breeze grazing newly bloomed dandelions

After almost an hour inside the bathroom, the both of you come out freshly bathed and fully clothed

You, unfortunately, sported new bruises on your neck on top of the ones already set before and also an undeniable limp as you walked

You and Jake were eating your bao (which was now, sadly, a bit cold) and conversing about the reason why Jake left you all those months ago

It turns out he realized he liked you a lot

And was scared

This leads him to find the quickest route to go far away from you

He regrets it of course

He should have told you sooner

You were planning to give him a piece of your mind when Jaemin showed up in the dining room with disheveled hair and a clear hangover

He didn’t even say anything to the both of you he just sat down and ate his bao

His eyes went to the bruises on your neck and said

Oh, by the way, m/n I’m sorry for the bruises on your neck. You were passed out and we were really drunk. Jake dared me to use the car vacuum on you

At this your snapped neck towards Jake direction you stood up from your chair

YOU DID WHAT? 

You immediately regret your decision as you winced from the pain caused by your behind

Jaemin just stared in confusion while Jake laughed

It has been a while since you’ve heard him laugh

It has been a while since you’ve seen him smile

And how beautiful does his smile look whenever he looks at you

Like trees in Spring after Winter

A/n: I hope yall would comment on my writing its been a while and I’m a bit rusty love yall :>