#trying not to edit as i go along so i actually write stuff

[chongoblog]

Been reflecting on my older work since coming out as trans.

I remember a long time ago, this must have been almost 10 years ago, I had this idea for writing a story that essentially followed a super-randomized Nuzlocke of Pokemon Platinum. The details of the plot I had planned don't matter too much, but the characters I had written for it were.

I had always enjoyed naming conventions when it came to characters, and I wanted to name the main characters after recurring items in the Pokemon series. This led to characters such as Berry, X, Candy, and Stone, but the two characters I'm focusing on here are Fossil and Disc, two names that people following my work closely enough may recognize that have had incredibly different and interesting futures.

Fossil was the protagonist, while Disc was the name of the rival. Looking back, it's fascinating how different I had made them. Fossil's entire character was kinda summed up by "generic white guy". That was really it. He was obviously kinda confused about his whole situation, and maybe he would have gotten more character traits if I ever wrote more than an opening chapter, but that's about all the character development I thought of for him. Granted, he very much was meant to be the self-insert.

Then there's Disc. She was far from generic. I loved her so much that I ended up revitalizing her for another story idea a couple years ago that also ended up not going anywhere (at least not yet) and then pulling her into NCCT. When I did I even convinced my boyfriend to draw her.

Yes, Team Magma Grunt. Her personality was a lot more memorable. She was listening to classic rock songs. I remember having her singing along to “Hit Me With Your Best Shot” idly at one point in the little bit I wrote about her. And I also kinda imagined her being a bit of a flirt.

For Disc, like I said, I brought her back for a story I was working in called “Cross-Stitch”. It never got past the intro because the gimmick is a logistical nightmare (a story where the characters are all interacting, but the order in which you read the chapters are different depending on whose point of view you’re following), but I had a lot of fun writing her, especially since I wanted her goal to be to use the aforementioned gimmick to create a time paradox and fuck up the entire space-time continuum.

I even put her in NCCT, assuming that the story before would have ended with her getting arrested by a secret government agency and put on parole for trying to destroy the fabric of spacetime, and RPing as her was always a blast.

Meanwhile, Fossil went in a very different direction.

Fossil went on to star in an incredibly interesting stream series I did, in which I pretty much tried to make my original story, but in an actual Nuzlocke of Pokemon. I edited the dialogue of the rival to directly speak to me, the player, which I responded to on stream. He would also fuck around with my files and record me talking to my therapist. I also made a lot of cool premade video stuff for it. It was called Iggylocke, and it’s worth checking out, deadname and all.

But I never got to reveal the twist, although I’ve talked about it since then. The twist was that they found my notes in planning the series and cross-referenced it with listening in on my therapy sessions and found out I had subconsciously made Fossil everything that I hated about myself. And they were upset about that.

And looking back on that is very interesting now.

[icewindandboringhorror]

Apparently I can meet my goal of roughly 400,000 words in 6 months if I just somehow write at least 2,200 words a day ghbjh... Almost 2,500 today... huzzah...

[mystic-mae]

i need some motivation to do shit, so like... notes thingy i guess

100 notes - water consumption for the body. marching band season made me realize i dont drink enough fucking water out here. (alright, i guess i need water now... I WAS DRINKING TEA EARLIER. THATS CLOSE ENOUGH, RIGHT??)

200 notes - food consumption, i guess. i'll try to eat 3 full meals a day. enough to make my body full and stuff. (gods dammit. well, i already ate breakfast and lunch, and i have leftovers from lunch, so, i guess dinner's all set for me.)

300 notes - homework completion. i've been lacking in my homework game, and i definitely need to improve it this semester. (...i'll start my chem homework tomorrow since saturdays are my rest days, okay??? MOST OF MY WEEKEND HOMEWORK IS DONE BUT THANKS FOR CARING, CHAT)

400 notes - writing hobby. i need motivation to write lore for my dnd campaign (#runaway ruler dnd / #convict ruler dnd / #ruined ruler dnd universe if you want to follow along my shitposting for that) (i already started shitposting for runaway ruler again, so check it out. I WILL WRITE LORE FOR EACH ARC DONT WORRY IM JUST BARELY GETTING STARTED ON THE SECOND ARC SINCE ITS VERY LONG)

500 notes - animation gift. i'm making a little valentine's gift for my spouses, and it's gonna be 1:34 seconds long... I need motivation to actually animate lmao. (i'll do bits and pieces throughout the week. don't worry, i plan to figure this out [i haven't animated in months, and even then i barely scratched the animation surface])

1000 notes - script memorization. i uh... need to memorize my silly little script for a production coming up in a month. im performing in front of kids so like... the script's pretty short and easy. im the antagonist in my cast >:]. (sick, let's go. i love myself some memorization.)

2000 notes - chest binder shopping. i'll ask my parents if i can get a chest binder. ive been meaning to get one for myself for some time now. im getting desperate for one. (i suppose i'll ask today or tomorrow... or over the weekend- that's when most of the shopping happens, anyways.)

3000 notes - leaving the closet. i'll come out to the rest of my family that i'm trans, aromantic, all the nine yards about my lgbtq+ identities. i'll definitely have to schedule a good day to do that. (HELLO??? WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN?? OKAY FINE I'LL FIGURE OUT A DAY. I'LL COME BACK TO YOU WITH THAT-)

4000 notes - researching possible colleges across my state and outside my state. because i wanna get out of here.

5000 notes - order a suit. preferably black or purple. because i need more gender affirming clothes in the formal department.

EDIT: do however many notes you want. i know i said 10 notes per person earlier, but like... go wild i guess

[mylovesstuffs]

learning to be loved after forgetting what it feels like to be safe.

🥕 bae-sically fake. yoon jeonghan

a mylovesstuffs production...

“one hundred days for what?” / “for me to woo you.”

synopsis. you swear when you made up your fake relationship, you didn't know that someone worked at the coffee shop with the same name or that your family would go to check it out. now everyone thinks you guys are actually together, and, well, pretending to be fake partners has never been so complicated. jeonghan plays along, and even offers you a deal—100 days to let him try and woo your closed-off heart.

pairing. yoon jeonghan x fem!reader

genre/s. fake dating au, modern au, bit of social media au (?), romance, comedy, slice of life, slow burn, emotional healing

status. upcoming [estimated: ~ 40k words]

content warnings. mentions of past emotional abuse/manipulation, toxic ex, grooming mentioned [non-graphic but explicit reference], cheating and infidelity [past, non-graphic], mentions of underage grooming [girls legal but barely, predatory behavior], emotional trauma and flashbacks, ptsd-like emotional responses, manipulation disguised as affection [past], reference to stalking/following for confirmation of infidelity, heartbreak and betrayal, gaslighting implications [in past relationship], alcohol consumption, mild cursing/swearing, themes of grief and emotional vulnerability, soft romantic tension, no smut [so far; not written yet], emotionally guarded reader, indirect trauma references, workplace sexism [called out], fluffy but with realistic emotional baggage

will probably contain. fake dating, post-breakup healing, unexpected kindness, strangers-to-partners dynamic, deal-making [100 days to woo], soft and lover man!jeonghan, smart man!jeonghan protective best friends [celeste, seungkwan], healthy family, intense ex-relationship trauma, food symbolism [carrots, broccoli, lunches], slow emotional thawing, nice gestures [flowers, notes, meals], respect and gentle persistence, found family warmth, strong parent-daughter bond, work-life struggles, empowering ceo, flirtation, unspoken yearning, realistic emotional pacing [will be updated as chapters go on]

navigation/chapters & more under the cut ⟡

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|| chapter four

last updated: 18.06.2025

querencia (spanish) /keh-REN-syah/ n. a place where one feels most at home; a source of strength and calm; a person or space where the soul feels safe without needing validation — often found not in places, but in people. “that name wasn’t meant to be a turning point, but somehow, it became hers — and he, her place.”

✦ in fiction we trust. love, celeste ˶ᵔ⤙ᵔ˶ so this fic is probably gonna be a long one [lmao oops] so i decided to split it into chapters. i’ve been wanting to explore some heavier themes for a while now [i promise, i kept it light], and this fic kind of became that space for me. despite the emotional grooming, infidelity, gaslighting, workplace sexism, and all that heavy stuff this fic touches on — one of the things i love most is that the reader has a genuinely healthy family. like actual supportive, emotionally present parents. and that’s something we don’t get to write often, so it means a lot to me. also the contrast between the two men… yeah. we’re gonna talk about that. and of course, we’ve got found family energy with the besties, so please look forward to their scenes too. also yes... i may or may not have written myself into the fic. yes it was intentional. yes i’m having fun with it 🤭

anyway that’s it for now. this fic went through a lot with me—emotionally and creatively—so i really hope you enjoy it and give it some love 🤍

ⓒ ! series title by @nerdycheol. banner + dividers made by me. edits = google doc ss. photos from pinterest (ctto), prompt from my how do you fake it series ♡

started: 18.06.2025 — completed: dd.mm.yyyy

[hxrsheykisses]

Howdy hey again! I was just wondering if you would write something with the ETC boys with a reader that’s rich? Like, reader hangs out with them on occasion because they think the boys are funny and will occasionally lend them huge amounts of money or will buy something for the boys because they’re just being nice in general :p - 😈❤️

Awe this is a cute one!!! Thank you so much for requesting!!!💋♥️♥️♥️♥️

Why do I feel like they’d definitely take advantage of you. Like deadass I feel like they’d lowkey only let you around just because you’re rich…

Cause let’s analyze this, these boys aren’t some harmless nerds who don’t really have it all financially. No, these are HARMFUL boys who would lowkey steal their parents money or try to sell off their parents shit in order to have some money to spend on countless of things. So imagine them with a rich friend who will give them money no questions asked.

They’ll need money ALL THE TIME. Like they’d hunt you down immediately if they are low on some fucking limited edition figure that they really want. They are so worrisome like honestly. They may even only talk to you for fucking money…like they don’t give a shit about anything else, all they know is that your rich and you have a shit ton of money.

You on the other hand? Could careless. You don’t care if they only hang around you for money cause when you have a ton of money, you can buy whatever shit you want. But after you already bought the shit you want, now you just kinda have money left over—TOO much money left over. So what do you do? Act like a grandma who constantly gives her grandchildren all the money they want.

You like hanging around with them too, they are funny to hang out with and they have some pretty cool interests. So, on most days you’d get yourself tied with whatever they’re doing that day and after that’s all said and done, you’ll treat them to a fucking shopping spree. It’s really fun for all of you! You love seeing how happy they are with all the stuff they’ve gotten and it just warms your heart. You love it so much that every Friday, you and the boys would head to Joe’s comic shop and spend, spend, spend!

Then some days, you all would go out to eat and get so fucking fat because you could buy everything off the menu.

If yall read the comic, you’d know how I think they all stayed up to watch the Twilight Zone(???) and before that they got all of these drinks and snacks and shit??? Well, let’s just say that you were up in that too. They took you along and you paid for everything before heading to Josh’s house.

Now, let’s say they do something that pisses you off and you put them on fucking punishment. You tell them to not appear on your fucking doorstep and ask for money until they act right…let’s lay out some boundaries cause what?

If this ever happens, after like a fucking day they’d appear at your house and immediately butter you up. Do they actually say the words “Sorry”?? no. But it’s enough to show that they had time to rethink their decisions…

“You’re looking good today on this fine morning!” “…” “Yeah! Did you get a new haircut? Damn it looks good!” “…Okay fine let me get my wallet…” “LETS GO‼️”

Your basically like their fucking Sugar Mama/Daddy LMFAOOOO

[1x1x1x1x1x1x1x1]

HII, could you do reader x killers where reader is the oldest killers? like when they got teleported into the cabin by the spectre everybody already knew them lol

((edit: this is an older post so the characters are defo OOC since i didnt know how to write for them that well,,,,,just putting this out there))

AHH THIS IS SUCH A NICE REQUEST TO START OFF!!

REQUESTS ARE OPEN!!

ty anon and i hope you enjoy!! reader is gender neutral

possibly OOC!!

Forsaken Killers x Older!Killer!Reader

1x1x1x1

oooh they know YOU alright

you were kind of a idol to them (before his corruption) for a while actually,

now that you were here?? it was certaintly something!

She tries more doing rounds, trying to impress you in a way. (even though you arent always watching) Just trying to make a good image of himself

Once when a round ended, and they were teleported back to the cabin, she saw you watching the tv with others!! Cheering him on. That made him feel the hatred that she always feels burn down just a bit. Not for long tho.

John Doe

yeesh, tough one

His corruption is basically making him a wild animal, yet you treat him like a normal human (compared to the others, at least)

He definetly feels the fondness, yet his mind twists it out to be something comepletly unrelated

When he DOES figure out what hes feeling, its not really for long.

He will forget about it tomorrow, anyways.

Jason

He does enjoy your presence around him, (even if he doesnt show it)

Definetly looks up to you in a way

and his mother speaks good about you! you must be worth his time then right?

Youre also one of the only folks that sits down and tries talking to him AND understands him, it just makes it way more easier

Noli

this guy DOES NOT shut up does he?

probably a lot of contrast, since hes one of the most immature killers while youre the opposite

he will definetly go out of his way to annoy you, play random sound effects, quote random shit when hes around (that he KNOWS you wont understand)

once when he got particularlly annoying and you had enough, you grabbed him by the neck and told him something along the lines of 'shut the fuck up.'

THAT made him lose it over you

Even though he got a bit of less annoying day after day, he still messed with you. Now trying to get closer to you each time.

C00lkidd (PLANTONIC!!)

he sees you kind of as a grandparent actually

he probably spends the most time with you in the cabin, either bothering you or begging you to play some game with him (this will either be tic tac toe or tag, no inbetween)

he definetly shows you all of his drawings! you manage to be in almost every one of them, along with some burger guy.

loves watching you on the TV as you chase the survivors, he hopes he can be as c00l as you one day!

extra!!

Mafioso

He enjoys your presence.

When you first showed up, he was quite skeptical about you, doing some glares, making sure you wont pull anything stupid. But after a while, he realized youre the only other -kind of- sane person here, it does get quite lonely.

He did ask Eunoia if you were in any debt, but you seemed pretty clear of it all

He enjoys spectating you on the TV, cant help but be impressed by your abillities.

He will realize his feelings for you quicker, and not be an absolute idiot about it, courting and other stuff DOES come into the picture, just later on.

hope you enjoyed!!

[genericpuff]

Any tips on script writing for a comic? I know a basic structure, mostly the kind that's taught or what I've been able to look up online. I really enjoy your writing and story flow in LR, so I wanted to get your thoughts so if there are any tools you would recommend.

ngl , I just use good ole' fashioned LibreOffice LMAO Though my script-writing process has definitely changed between my original work and Rekindled, I used to use a spreadsheet program (the LibreOffice equivalent to Excel) and the method I developed looked like this:

This method actually still works totally fine, I just never opted to use it for Rekindled, mostly because I was able to write so much of it through what already existed in LO. Here's what Rekindled's writing process looks like, which I've done entirely within Scrivener as I started using it a few years ago:

Things do change often between my initial scripting, final scripting (i.e. when it's time to actually sketch out the episode), and the final release of the episode. Things are often removed, added, tweaked, etc. along the way, sometimes even up until the point of final release depending on what's required. What I'm showing you here is actually one of the "cleanest" sections of my notes, because oftentimes these docs are just a disorganized mess of events and plot points that I've written and rewritten and shuffled around LMAO That's not even including hand-written notes that I've scrawled out on the go 😆

I try to keep my writing process cemented enough that I know where I'm going but flexible enough that I can edit on the fly and move things around when needed. Having documents for my notes and extra floating ideas is helpful, and I'm often redoing plot layouts and scripts just for the sake of "figuring them out" haha

But that's also why I like to write relatively far ahead of time, so that my brain can properly "reset" on what I wrote, meaning that when it finally comes time to draw it and I'm re-reading my scripts and notes, I'll notice stuff I don't like or isn't working a lot quicker, because I'm going in with a clearer perspective than when I wrote it the first time. There are ideas and plotlines and episode scripts I wrote in these docs aaaalll the way back in 2022 when this project first started :') (and am still eagerly sitting on for when I finally get to bring them to life huehuehue)

All that said, there's no right or wrong way to rough draft your stories, just the way that services you and the story that you're trying to write. Some stories require more detailed drafting and notes, others can get by with just simple post-it notes. The important thing to remember is that no one else but you has to see these drafts - so there's no need for it to be perfect or for it to be the "final draft" on the first try, let it be whatever you need it to be to make it work for you ╰(´︶`)╯♡

[11queensupreme11]

Yes, I am making a reaction fic....... eventually lol

i know it says i started this back in 2023, but all i really did was make a cover. i didn't start making any chapters until a few months ago hehe

BUT ANYWAYS YES YOU READ THAT RIGHT! i am making a reaction/reading the books/watching the movies fic for arsenic blues!!!! in this case, it will be ror reacting to pjo

for anyone interested to learn more, go under the cut!

(this started off as me just giving you some info about cerulean cyanide, but then i ended up ranting about how much i loved the pjo tv show lol, soooo if you haven't watched it, don't go down)

first off, THIS IS MY FIRST TIME MAKING A REACTION FIC! i've read a lot of them, but i have no experience in actually making one. i'm kinda nervous ngl 😅

secondly, i've already started... somewhat. i've copied all chapters of the lightning thief into a google doc and made necessary edits, but i haven't written any reactions... YET. i want to include the ror gods AND humans as members of the audience, and since i haven't written about the ror humans as thoroughly yet, i won't be writing the reactions until i get to act 2 of arsenic blues, since that's when the ror humans are introduced. this is important for me because i don't have their characterizations down yet, and won't until i actually start writing about them and their dynamics with percy. same goes with cú chulainn, he's a literal love interest, but won't get introduced until act 2!

thirdly, because of what i said up there ^ cerulean cyanide won't be published until act 2 is finished to avoid spoiling what happens during ragnarok and the god's apocalypse.

fourthly, IT WILL BE INTERMIXED WITH THE TV SHOW!!! i fucking LOVED the show and (most of) the changes that were made, so i'm totally going to add them into percy's past that the ror characters will be reacting to.

so what elements of the show should you expect to see? glad you asked!

POSEIDON 💙

poseidon in the books is great, but i loooooove the new stuff they put in the tv show. in the books, we're mostly told that poseidon loves percy and there are times where it's shown, but it's kinda hard to pick up since the books are written in PERCY'S POV, and since poseidon is literally restricted from interacting with him, it's hard to notice how much he actually loves his son when he's not even allowed to be AROUND the dude who's perspective takes up the whole series.

but in the tv show, it's not just percy's perspective that's explored! that little moment poseidon had with sally told us SOOOO MUCH about how he actually felt for the both of them. and when he and percy finally met??? THE ANGST AND LONGING THEY BOTH SHOWED UHDFSIGVSVGD I LOVED IT SO MUCH

AND THE FACT THAT HE NOT ONLY SAVED PERCY FROM ZEUS BUT ALSO SURRENDERED??? HE GAVE UP HIS PRIDE AND PRIDE IS SUCH A HUGE AND IMPORTANT THING FOR GODS BUT HE GAVE IT UP WITH NO HESITATION AHHHHHHH ����

so yes, expect to see a lot of the poseidon scenes from the tv show

HERMES BEING AT THE LOTUS CASINO

i actually really like the fact that hermes was shown in here instead of the next season. some people were confused as to what the point was for having him in the casino and why he tricked the kids into staying at the casino longer, but i found this post on tumblr that explains why he could've been there:

in the last olympian, we (and percy) find out that hermes knew all along what luke's fate would be; that he would rebel against the olympians, bring forth kronos, become his host, etc. he knew ALL OF THAT. but he was never allowed to tell him (ancient laws), so he tried to CHANGE luke's fate in order to save him even though he knew it was pointless.

we get a bit of that in the tv show. hermes was there because he wanted to change luke's fate. he tricked the kids into staying at the casino longer so they would pass the deadline. war would come, and luke would get away with his thievery and nobody would know it was him because they're all too busy trying to kill each other. but ofc, like always, it didn't work because you can never change fate.

i love how the show showed us that hermes was trying to change his fate in the first season whereas in the books, it only started in the second book where he was introduced for the first time.

THE GODS' CRUELTY AND THEIR LOVE

the gods' cruelty and apathy was much more obvious in the show's first season compared to the first book. in the first book, most of the gods shown were jerks at best but the tv show really showed us how horrible of a family they are (most of them at least) to each other and their kids

like what show!ares said, his family loves to stab each other in the back, they love to hurt each other to get a higher leg up; they're not really a family. the audience and percy becomes VERY aware of that unlike in the books where it's more sugar-coated at the start.

we're shown very early on that they're not good people, but at the same time, we're shown that some of them DO care.

hephaestus was abused and mistreated by his family, but he refuses to be like them which is why he released percy from his trap; because he realizes that he and annabeth are good kids (ending the cycle). hermes loves his son and desperately wants to change his fate despite being told over and over again that its pointless. poseidon loves percy and wishes to be a proper family with him and sally, but isn't allowed to.

there are some good gods out there, which is why percy decided to stand by them instead of taking luke's offer to bring it all down. he's been shown that some gods ARE good. unlike in the first book where you don't really meet any decent gods, so book!percy honestly didn't have much of a reason to defend them, yet he did anyway when luke left camp. the show gave him (and us) a better reason to actually defend them

in the show, he's exposed to the god's cruelty, but he sees that it's not as black and white as he once thought "oh all the gods are bad and none of them care for their kids >:(", he sees the good in some of them and it's enough to make him want to save them instead of letting them crash and burn (like luke, who's blinded by his anger and hatred *cough cough* fatal flaw!!!! *cough cough*).

LUKE AND PERCY'S RELATIONSHIP

SHOW!LUKE WAS SO MUCH BETTER THAN BOOK!LUKE IMO.

book!luke was trying to kill percy very early on and was pretty much pretending to be his friend the whole time. yes his intentions and character get fleshed out as the books go on, but his relationship with percy... didn't offer much.

then there's show!luke who genuinely liked him and wanted to recruit him rather than kill him (that's why there's no scorpion scene). his betrayal was more personal and painful for percy. the fact that annabeth was there to watch it all happen was even better (not for her though LOL).

(and dont even get me started on how show!luke didn't hate grover like in the books. the genuine fear in his eyes when he found out that percy gave the shoes to him and the way his eyes got all misty??? he fully blames thalia's "death" on him and him only THE ANGUISH WAS SO 😭😭😭)

AND I THINK THAT MIGHT BE ALL?

so yes, these are some of the changes you should expect to see!

i wanna really contrast how different things are between the ror and pjo verse. ror gods are very close and tight-knit whereas the pjo gods are... well, "a mess" as percy so eloquently put it.

ror gods aren't forced under the tyrannical rule of zeus, their zeus is chill and just wants to have fun. they have no restrictions to follow and their divine laws aren't as oppressive

whereas pjo gods are under the tyrant rule of zeus and can't even interact with their kids.

ror gods are independent while pjo gods have to rely on the preservation of western civilization to stay alive and use demigods to break rules, etc etc.

pjo gods (some, at least) are kinder and have no issues falling in love with humans and loving their demigod children while ror gods are cruel assholes who commit genocide against humanity despite being the ones to create them

and etc etc.

ANYWAY, I HOPE YOU GUYS ARE AS HYPED UP AS I AM!!!! 🥳🥳🥳 can't wait to start writing reactions for the first time ever 🫨

[chatlote]

A whole year since I started posting TTWHB!! Happy anniversary to this fic that consumes so many of my thoughts.

Thoughts and rambles under read more :) (spoiler-free!!!)

It's been a crazy journey so far, hasn't it?

I expected to be much further along the story by now, but since I spend so much of my time also working on Shuake pieces and dealing with real-life stuff, I try not to beat myself up for the slow progress, 90k words in a year is still progress! Also, I draw covers for every chapter, and my beta does an awesome job at editing this whole thing, so it's a little more polished (since I'm not a native English speaker). So yeah, everything adds up, and it takes a while to post new chapters.

Speaking of the covers, it's wild to see how much my style changes between them aha, and god I really hate some of the early ones, whether it's color or anatomy or the brushes I used... When I finish this fic I think I will go back and polish every cover...maybe by then I will make even better covers!

Anyway lets talk about the story for a moment, a lot of things inspired me to write this fic, mainly the idea 'what if there was a mod where you can have Ryoji in SEES and the story changed accordingly?' that's why the fic is structured by days and time of day-as if you are playing the game!

It's not always going to be as in depth about every day of the story-we are actually near the end of it being just one or two days per chapter, and soon things will start speeding up a little more, there was just a lot of Ryoji getting used to SEES that I had to cover.

What else can I say... Oh I suppose I can share something a bit insane, which is the fact for over a year, this whole fic has been planned on an excel, with every timeslot written out.

It looks like this, except it's like, much bigger. Great for keeping track of stuff! Orange squares are all Canon events that I'm finding a way to retell somehow! This took such a long time to create but I love it. Sometimes I still change up things a bit.

I also made this chart that I'm pretty sure has mistakes but it mostly works for what I need ! Feel free to use as a reference if you want :) The red is just a note of characters that switch to first name later.

Anyway, all of this to say, I've never been so passionate about making a story as I've been about this one. Even though I know there's not that many people who care about Ryomina, and even less who enjoy reading fics of them, and 90% of people follow me for Shuake instead- I still really want to see this story until the end, in some ways it's a story I've wanted to tell since I was 13 and playing P3FES for the first time, but it wouldn't exist without Reload and making me fall in love with P3 all over again.

Lastly, thank you to anyone who has ever encouraged me in the comments on AO3, this story is for me, but it's also for all of you, and even if you don't stay with me until the end, I appreciated having you on the ride even if just for a short moment.

Now I should disappear cause I tend to be shy about rambling this much online, but the anniversary had me a bit emotional aha-if anyone has any questions feel free to drop an ask too! Always open to answer to those :) Ty for reading

And here's a little sneak peek/WIP to the next chapter, which shouuuld be out next week!

[the-s1lly-corner]

Pocky game w/ them (female toon edition)

again holiday toons will get their own posts as well as the mains, i just wanted to split them up so its not an ungodly post thats waaaaay too long as well as making it easier for me to write in batches notes: gn toon reader, short...ish... and sweet, i mean each part is short but ykw i mean, character limit max for requests is still 3-4 this is just a simple time killer for the admin, pregame, written on mobile cws: none

BRIGHTNEY

She might just think you're making up a game on the spot, but she knows you well enough that you'd ask for a kiss outright... maybe...

She doesn't fully get it but she's always open to trying new things, and the promise of a sweet treat does butter her up a bit to the idea

It's pretty straight forward, you both eat it and kiss- and shes pleased with herself for keeping the stick from snapping

FLUTTER

CONNIE

What? Do you take her for some little kid? Kidding!! Kidding, that came a little meaner than she intended- she was only teasing... honestly she saw you swipe the box up so fast she was about to ask what plans you had

She's fully convinced this is your indirect way of asking for a kiss and she's going to tease you for that forever, there's no going back after this. You're a dweeb to her now/lh/t

She's really... really cold to the touch... at least the chocolate won't melt...! Your nose is left a little red though...

Her and her brother both have similar problems... they both have a proboscis- they can only consume fluids and stuff

...but it's nice that you were excited until the news was broken.. you can tell her what it tastes like and offer her a kiss instead..!

GIGI

Shocking that you still had it in your pocket when you finally got a chance to bring the game up, your pockets never remain full for long when gigis around

She thinks it's a little... dumb.. okay well that makes it sound like she thinks it's stupid- she thinks it's silly. But she'll humor you

....so long as you promise to tell her where you found the pocky in the first place... come ooooonnnnn she'll give you an extra kiss as a reward!

POPPY

OHOHOHOHO! she already knows what the game is, and honestly she was gonna ask the moment she found some pocky herself... you just beat her to it!

She's almost more focused on not breaking the biscuit than she is meeting you in the middle... just a tiny bit of playful competition! She doesn't actually take it all that seriously

WILL use it as an excuse to kiss you if she finds another box

YATTA

SCRAPS

She also doesn't fully get it but she goes along with it because you look so happy about it

But she's more of the type to prefer kissing to be just that- no additional games and stuff, just outright smooches... the game isn't her favorite but she doesn't hate it

It's also a little awkward too since she's mid chew when you guys meet in the middle... she probably wouldn't do it again unless you asked extra sweetly

TEAGAN

She's a woman who loves her chocolate, and biscuits- and though these probably aren't the kind you'd eat in tea... the fact it's both has her interest grabbed

She thinks it's sweet and cute, endearing really. Even if it's not something she'd typically think she'd do, teagan would play the game for you... she does put in an effort but it's obvious she's letting you have most of the stick

And you will get an extra kiss on the cheek, and another if you let her have a few more sticks!

TISHA

She doesn't much... care for chocolate... it's tendency to melt sometimes steers here away from it... and sometimes a mirror isn't always on hand to make sure she got everything- and you telling her isn't enough, she needs confirmation from herself.. that's a quirk of hers you gotta get used to

Perhaps there's another candy you can use...? She can't think of anything off the top of her head- truth be told she doesn't eat sweets all that often but maybe yatta has something-

She might do it, doing her best to hide her begrudgingness.. she doesn't want you to feel rejected

Honestly the fact the box didn't vanish from your hand the second you pulled it out is a shocker... she is basically vibrating on the spot- her joy of sharing candy overrides her sweet tooth just enough to give you time to explain the game

Every. Single. Stick... gets broken.. her sharp teeth and energy dint allow it to last long

She might speed run it and kiss you while the stick is still whole. Not at all comfortable for either of you

[drenched-in-sunlight]

Hey, so I remembered in one of your earlier post you said something along the lines of souls women only really falling into the helpless victim or serious sword lady trop. And how Ema was a great subversion of it, I was wondering if you had any thoughts on

I’m making a souls-like and trying to avoid the pitfalls where I can

Btw, I love your art so much I would love to support you but I am broke

sorry i let this reply marinate in the docs for months (along with a lot of other replies like im having a catalogue of Fromsoft replies that read like thesis at this point *crying* my job is not letting me sit down and edit them) but here it is.

firstly, thank you for your message, kind encouragement already means a lot to me, so don’t worry about not being able to support me or anything ! After all I’m not putting out any new books or fan merch haha.

Here is a whole rant about Ema but somehow my grievances with how they handle Malenia's story in comparison to Messmer also pops up.

Regarding your question about Ema, I love her because of how complete her story feels and how her personal motivation and personality are written as coherently as the male characters.

She’s a war orphan who did her best to survive, learned the sword from the best swordman but with the only purpose is to kill demons. Ema saw firsthand how violence and meaningless killing did to people, so her aim can be seen as trying to offer those lost souls a mercy death, so they don’t have to suffer as a mindless demon for eternity (as in shura ending).

Yet, she's actually more interested in being a doctor & saving life and it’s not something expected of her because she’s a woman or whatnot, she chose that.

(+ she's skilled enough with the blade that it shows in her mannerism to the point Wolf, who had never seen her hold a sword, knows that she's good with one).

she was ready to kill Scuptor - someone akin to a parental figure to her, should he succumb to grief and hatred. because she loved him. not to mention she saw Tomoe - someone in a way is also her mentor, tried to take her own life, while her childhood friend Gennichiro slowly went apeshit. like that girl witnessed so many insane stuffs & they spur her to be strong & steadfast in her ideal to protect her loved ones, even when it means to lay them to rest by her own hands.

her dialogue in Shura ending "maybe i should have killed you long ago" feels like being punched in the guts to me, because she knew Wolf turning out that way meant that somewhere along the way, all of them had failed him, had ignored the signs that all the killings he was tasked to carry out was taking a toll on him. And so she took upon herself the responsibility to offer him a mercy death, even as it broke her heart.

It’s the passionate drive and decisions made as her own person, not out of blind devotion to another character, and how much we know of that because the game let us find more about her, that makes her stands out from the epic sword lady category, while the violence and steely resolve she was capable of makes her stands out from the helpless maiden one.

-kinda lose the plot here with Elden Ring rant jumping out-

This is one of the main points I have about the difference between Messmer and Malenia, how even though their stories parallel each other, I think Messmer has the better writing and gets a more complete story. He’s super devote to Marika, but in his own way, not what Marika wants of him. Evidently with how he still fights the Tarnished because he deems us unworthy, despite knowing Marika sanctioned us for Lordship.

We see a lot of sides to him outside of just a filial son, his rage and sorrow and love and a moment of stubborn selfishness that results in him willingly become a curse that clings to Marika than to let go. We see his relationship with other characters and even though his love for Marika outweighs all else, it doesn’t negate completely others that exist outside of it.

And precisely because of that, it’s more heartbreaking to see despite all these connections he has with other people, he yearns to be reunited with his Mother above all else. That kind of devotion is more hard hitting to me than the writing for the Empyrean twins.

Like, Malenia…. outside of Finnlay (whose description says more about herself than shedding any new light on Malenia) and the mentor that we actually don’t even know much about yet, what are other personal connection she has outside of Miq? I could argue the Marika’s Soreseal in the Haligtree was meant for her and that she still loved her Mother in some kind of way all I want, but at the end of the day that’s a headcahon I have to theorize from item placement, and not many ppl will notice that. We don’t know for sure what Malenia thinks of anyone else but her twin and it drives me up the wall.

Another comparison I want to bring up is DS2 Lucatiel.

I fr think even Lucatiel gets a better story arc than Malenia, despite also largely being shaped by her relationship with her brother.

Loss frightens me no end. Loss of memory, loss of self. If I were told that by killing you, I would be freed of this curse… Then I would draw my sword without hesitation. I don't want to die, I want to exist. I would sacrifice anything, anything at all for this. It shames me, but it is the truth. Sometimes, I feel obsessed… with this insignificant thing called "self". But even so, I am compelled to preserve it. Am I wrong to feel so? Surely you'd do the same, in my shoes?

She is trying to find her brother, but at the same time wrestling with her own troubles and limitations. We get to know a lot of her own motivation and her fear. I mean one could argue that it's because she's an NPC while Malenia is a boss, but the same thing could also be said for Messmer like I explained above.

-back to Ema-

As the extra sauce, I love that Ema boss music has such layers to it. the theme of her - someone clinging to her humanity to the very end because she has ppl love & support her, also acts as an elegy for Wolf's lost of humanity, of him not being able to escape the abuse trauma he grew up in. its opening instrument also appears in Demon of Hatred's OST. Her presence and theme affects other characters’ life, and we get to see her marks on a personal level in the story’s overarching narrative.

Which is the same as how Marika’s presence is everywhere in the Elden Ring OST, that little soft piano. A little in Radagon’s theme, in Shaman’s Village, in the final DLC boss ost where the female vocals starts belting out “Hail, Marika the Eternal”, in a boss arena where she had walked through to scavenge the remains of her fallen family and ascended to an existence she knew would kill her all the same, but she would do it again every single time. Walking down that hell with her eyes wide open.

When a character that could get me to write paragraphs about like that… man you know how much the writing cooks.

[ateotdwinchester]

can i request another dylan minnette edit where dylan goes to the readers album release party / first show after a new album please?? xxx

thank you sm for this request!! i loved writing this one once my little bit of writers block finally left me alone lol. i hope you enjoy <3

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ꨄ︎ release day

pairing: dylan x reader

summary: it’s the day your album is coming out and dylan is, of course, there to support you

warnings: none

word count: 1.1k

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Today was the day.

The day your new album would be dropping. All of your hard work would be officially out in the world for all of your fans to listen to.

You’d been working, writing, and recording this album for the past few months. Putting all of your effort into it to make it perfect and uniquely yours.

Every song meant something to you, and you knew it would all mean something special to your fans. They couldn’t wait.

Tonight, you would be having a little album release party. It would be full of your closest friends who were exited for your new record to be coming out.

You’d promised to do a small Q&A on instagram live for your album, so while you were busy with that, your boyfriend, Dylan, had been setting things up for your party.

He had the help of a few of his friends with setting up. Getting some balloons put up along with a congratulatory banner that you hadn’t been expecting.

Someone else was out collecting the special cake for the party. It would have the cover of your album printed on it, along with a few candles.

You couldn’t believe today was the day. You’d had dreams your whole life of becoming an artist, having a career like this. And you’d actually been successful.

Everything was perfect.

After a while of doing your Q&A, you left instagram live, turned your phone off and began to make your way downstairs where you knew things were being set up.

As you got half way down the staircase, you saw Dylan and one of your other friends, Braeden, trying to get the banner to be exactly where they wanted it.

You leaned against the doorway, smiling as you watched them.

You couldn’t be more grateful for Dylan. He was always supportive, always here for you no matter what. He cared so much and it made you so very happy.

“Everything looks amazing,” you finally spoke up. “You really didn’t have to get all this extra stuff.”

Dylan and Braeden turned to see you, and at that moment, Braeden took over most of the work so Dylan could come and talk to you.

“Wanted to make sure everything was perfect for you,” Dylan pulled you in for a hug, kissing your cheek after. “How’d the live go?”

“It was good,” you nodded. “Everyone kept asking about tour.”

Dylan folded his arms, knowing how much you’ve been wanting to go on tour but still having no plans. Even your team had been suggesting things.

“What? I haven’t done a tour before,” you reminded him. “I’d be away from home for a while, I don’t know how I’d deal with it.”

“I’d be there.”

“You’d be there?”

“I wouldn’t miss out on my girls first tour now, would I?” Dylan reached to tuck a strand of hair behind your ear. “Just think about it, I think it’d be something your fans would love for you to do.”

“I’ll consider it,” you agreed.

You looked behind Dylan, seeing Braeden seemed to be finished with the decorations.

Looking around, everything was amazing. The balloons were perfect, the banner in the middle. They’d set out some party type food on the table, drinks ready for when your friends get here.

“Seriously, thank you for this,” you became slightly emotional. “I can’t believe this is happening.”

Tears welled up in your eyes as you kept looking at everything. This was all for you, all because of your hard work. All because your friends were the most supportive people you’ve ever known.

And finally, there was a knock at the door. People starting to arrive to get this party started.

As the party began, your friends all took it in turns to talk to you, to let you talk about your new album that was about to come out, about how you felt. It was a lot. But you loved every second of it.

After a while, Dylan gathered everyone around the table, grabbing his phone to start recording you.

“What are you doing?” You laughed.

At that moment, Cole, another friend, appeared from the kitchen. Square cake in hand, a big number one candle at the top, over where your album cover was over the whole cake.

He placed it down in front of you, your jaw dropped at how amazing this was. You hadn’t expected it at all.

“This is… I have no words,” you looked around at everyone, not sure on what to say. “Thank you, for all of this.”

Dylan stood with you again, placing his arm around your shoulders, “make a wish.”

You looked at him for a moment, it’s not like it was your birthday to make a wish. So instead, you just hoped for good times with your music career to come, and more moments like this with Dylan and your friends.

“Now who wants cake!” You looked around as everyone cheered.

It took a few minutes, but you cut the cake, handed out slices for everyone to enjoy.

And the last people at the cake, were you and Dylan. You stood there for a moment, looking around at everyone who had joined you for this special moment. You couldn’t be more thankful.

Dylan got your attention by taking hold of your hand, intwining his fingers with yours as he squeezed your hand softly.

“I’m proud of you, you know,” he smiled. “And I know you tell me not to get all emotional, but seeing you make this album, and for it to be here now… you’ve done such an incredible job, baby.”

You smiled, feeling tears starting to form, “I love you,” you pulled Dylan in for a hug. “Thank you for always supporting me through making my music.”

“I’ll always support you,” Dylan stepped back, brushing a few loose strands of hair behind your ears. “Whatever you choose to do on your music journey, I’ll be here for all of it.”

You just looked at him for a moment. Wondering how you got so lucky to have a boyfriend so supportive, so kind, so wonderful. He’s exactly what you needed in your life.

“You think… if I do decide to tour,” you paused. “You could come with me when I talk to my manager about it?”

“Of course,” Dylan quickly nodded. “Whatever you need.”

“Can we talk about it later?”

“Definitely,” he leaned down to you, pecking your lips before glancing to your friends. “I think it’s about time we play your album though, don’t you think?”

You nodded eagerly, rushing to set up your record player to play your album on vinyl for everyone for the first time.

You were so happy, and Dylan loved to see you with such enthusiasm and such a glow about you. That’s all he ever wanted for you.

And hopefully, as your career grew, that would continue to happen.

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[welcometololaland]

10 things - 2024/2025 edition

happy new year, everyone! 2024 has been a year of change for me in so many different ways, and i've posted very little fic this year, mostly due to writers' block and time constraints. so, instead of doing the writing round up i thought i'd list 10 things i'm grateful for in 2024 (fandom edition) and 10 things i want to do in 2025 (also, fandom edition). please feel free to make your own if you wish! consider this an open tag 🏷️

2024 - things i'm grateful for (in fandom, in no particular order)

1. my ride or die friends who deal with my self doubt and breakdowns and (being 100% real) paranoia about situations that simply don't exist - @rmd-writes @celeritas2997 , the popcorn squad and others. wouldn't be writing without your support!

2. the writers who have trusted me to beta for them - @heartstringsduet @basilsunrise @rmd-writes i think i'm forgetting some (so sorry if so). michelle, being with you through first aid was such an amazing experience, and i feel so lucky to have seen you develop as a writer!

3. the people who have read my fics and encouraged me including the wip wednesday and seven sentence sunday tags! - i literally would not be anywhere without you. you actually give me life.

4. the friendships i've made on discord with people who just wanna know me for me and share little snippets of their lives - @reyesstrand and @heartstringsduet the little squirrel photos y'all send me are soul soothers for real! @st-elle-ar and @clottedcreamfudge and @lightningboltreader and @birdclowns for the cat pics! @howtosingit for your commentary and spoiler services 💜

5. the grace given to me by @carlos-in-glasses and @actual-sleeping-beauty - you two are so kind and encouraging and tell me all about your knitting projects even when i go missing for weeks on end. thank you for being my friends <3 and i don't even think you guys know you are both my yarn obsessed friends but you ARE.

6. everyone who has trusted me enough to collab with them on projects - the legends on never the same twice, @rmd-writes @strandnreyes. i loved working with you and i hope you had a positive experience! looking forward to more collabs in 2025.

7. the document gremlins, betas and sensitivity readers i've collected this year - @rmd-writes @strandnreyes @lightningboltreader @celeritas2997 @cold-blooded-jelly-doughnut ty ty ty ty some of those fics were in danger of being lost forever but we revived them!

8. @she-walked-away for making me laugh with your hilarious posts and olympia2997 who apparently doesn't exist on tumblr but leaves the most unhinged comments of all time on my fics.

9. everyone who has translated my fics or made art or gifs this year! inspired by you and in awe of you! @donghaian @whatsintheboxmh @heartstringsduet @guardian-angle22 i know there are more i'm so sorry if i've not listed you here!!!

10. everyone in the various fandoms i'm in who have created brilliant works in 2024! i am inspired by your work more than you know <3

2025 - things i want to do (in fandom, in no particular order)

1. read more, and read more broadly. expand my horizons a bit. read things that are a touch outside my go-to zones just to test the waters. read stuff by new authors!

2. spend time co-writing because that's actually my favourite thing to do. i have some things in the pipeline with a couple of people which i hope work out!

3. finish. the. damn. fic. (eurotrip). IT'S SO FREAKING CLOSE.

4. spend more time with my 2019-2021 beloveds - alex and henry. write more rwrb fic. engage in the fandom a bit more.

5. finish the ring-in 2.0 within 1 month of the LS finale (weep).

6. take one hand off the wheel with fandom relationships - my therapist tells me i need to stop trying to control how everyone feels about me and instead let people show me the kind of friendship they're interested in maintaining. scary because i think i may lose some people along the way but OH WELL WE BALL.

7. worry less about the engagement! god! i need to stop looking so much! *shakes fist at self*

8. write a little more regularly with less word count expectations.

9. learn how to be okay with smaller comments (from myself). sometimes i feel terrible if i don't write a damn essay but sometimes it stops me from reading which is horrible!

10. be a better fandom contributor than i was in 2024 - i think continuous growth is important and i'm always open to feedback (as long as it's constructive and genuine)! my mission is to always make a positive contribution and to make people feel good about themselves, and if i can even do that for one person in 2025, i think i will achieve this goal.

ty for the 2024 wrapped tags @hippolotamus @rmd-writes @reyesstrand @emsprovisions @nancys-braids @carlos-in-glasses @lemonlyman-dotcom @alrightbuckaroo @strandnreyes @thisbuildinghasfeelings @whatsintheboxmh @heartstringsduet @firenati0n @cha-melodius. you are real ones! consider this a tag back if you would like to do a 2024/2025 10 things edition.

[devilsdeal666]

Ride Home

Spencer Agnew X Fem reader

Warnings: non, i don’t think.

Note: this is my first story so please be nice, it was a concept that I’ve been wanting to write for a while and would like to see what people think before i write more. I do have plans to do more parts. The other parts might include smut, but not this one. If something doesn’t make sense please let me know and i will edit it. Thanks hope you enjoy.

WC: About 1600

Spencer was the guy. He was the one as people would say he was nerdy, cute and very funny. He had great humour and that’s one reason i had a little crush on him. Spencer and i weren’t that close but we were friends, I still remember the day we actually started talking.

2 YEARS AGO, i walked into the office after parking in the full parking lot, to see that there was no coffee made, which was unusual as there was also coffee made. I thought about making a new pot, but i needed to get to the main set for the day; i was running late. As i was walking i say Shayne, smiling and having small talk with Shayne about today’s videos and what he was doing for his TNTL bit. Shayne is someone who is so easy to get along with, although I haven’t been here long i feel like I’ve known him ages; him and Courtney are such good and welcoming people.

Getting to the set for today, it was as busy as it ever is and people rushing around to be ready for the video to start. I sit near the camera crew waiting to be told what camera angle i will be doing today, i see Spencer as usually he looks as good as ever. Today he’s wearing a striped t shirt with blue cuffed jeans and a denim jacket, he doesn’t have a unique style but it suits him so well. We don’t talk much we’ve said a few hellos and I’ve heard him talk to Alex but I haven’t spoke to him yet, its not that I don’t want to; do but i’m nervous. I also don’t think he likes me very much every time i get caught looking at him he just glares, I don’t know if he just doesn’t like me, I’m probably not his type.

Filming has officially wrapped for today, Courtney is waiting for Shayne at the side he goes over as you can see they are talking, Shayne calls you over to see if you want to go to lunch with them. You decline because Alex had to take a phone call so he asked you to put stuff back like all the equipment and other things used today. You don't actually mind tidying the set really, the only reason you don’t want to is cause it’s just you and Spencer left in the room everyone has left for lunch. Here you are moving the wires back to where they should be and you hear Spencer’s footsteps behind you, pretending you didn’t here and carrying on with doing what your doing he comes up behind you. You stand up and turn as if you didn’t here him come over, he is holding more wires you act like you didn’t know he was there and move out the way so he can put them down. Thinking of what you should say to him you just stare at him, not knowing what to say or do, he stands back up looking back at you; he’s probably wondering why your looking at him like a lost fish, mouth hanging open and everything. Alex walks back in and says that you can go for lunch and he will help Spencer with the rest, you are glad to get away at least you wont say anything silly.

It’s been about 10 minutes since you sat down at the table with Shayne, Tommy and Amanda yous were just having a conversation about how you prefer electric guitar over acoustic cause it looks hot when someone is playing it. Spencer walks in and you stop mid sentence, trying to remember what you were saying Amanda sees what you are looking at, she giggles. “I didn’t know you had a thing for Spencer, i mean i don't blame you he’s cute.” She says so calmly like she didn’t just out you in front of Shayne and Tommy. Tommy looks over at Spencer and says “Yeah I totally get it, he’s hot for sure, but he doesn't swing my way.”

“You think he’s hot” Shayne says bursting out laughing and he said that way too loud. To your horror you see Spencer start to walk over as he heard laughing and was probably curious. “Who’s hot?” He questioned. Of corse he heard that cause my day couldn’t just be uneventful today. I look at him we lock eyes and i look at Shayne hoping he’s cover for me, to my surprise he just says “you.” Spencer just laughs and thank god he thinks we are joking, i don't think i could face his disapproval of me thinking he’s hot, i can imagine the displeasure on his face. He asks Shayne to scoot along the bench and Shayne does, Spencer plops down next to Shayne sat right in front of me, looking at me with them beautiful eyes; i avert my gaze looking down at my food.

After Spencer came over at lunch i don’t remember much of the conversation after that i was too focused on my plate wanting the whole room to just disappear. As i was editing at my desk i noticed that my drink was empty and got up to refill it, on the way to the kitchen I realised that basically everyone has gone home. It must have been late cause it was also pitch black outside the kitchen window. You got a Mountain Dew kickstart and walked back to your desk you noticed Spencer who you didn’t see before; he was also editing. He sees the drink in your hand, and says “you could have got me one of those.” You stare in shock not knowing what to say and hand him the opened can that you had already drank from, you ramble on “oh…ermm… you can just have this one. Well if you want.. i already had a drink, i can get you a new one if you want.” You feel stupid and like an idiot for saying all that. He takes the drink pouring half in his cup then passing you the can. You don't take it for a second and he says “here we can share.” i take the can and say thanks and speed walk back to my desk which is only around the corner from his.

I feel all happy and have butterflies in my stomach as i sit down. I can’t work I just can’t concentrate on the video I'm meant to be editing cause all i can think about is him over there just a few feet away working away with his hoodie on and curly brown hair falling in his gorgeous face. In a day dream you don’t realise that Spencer was stood next to you, you mustn’t have heard his as you have headphones on. He touched your arm and just said that he was leaving the office so if you wanted to walk out together he is going now. You still had work but the thought of being in this massive office by yourself at night creeps you out. You nod locking your computer and standing up, being this close to Spencer is strange you didn’t expect him to smell so good; no surprise that he smells freaking amazing.

You and Spencer walk out to the parking lot and you realise that there is only one car left. You look at Spencer confused “you didn’t drive here?” He just hold up his phone and shows the uber app. This is your chance you don't really want to be in a car with him cause you wouldn’t know what to say but you can’t just leave him here outside. “Would you like me to give you a ride home?” You state as if it’s so normal for you to ask that. “Do you not mind? I don't mind getting an uber.” He states. You just nod and yous walk to your car.

Getting into your car you realise you weren’t expecting to give someone a ride and as you turn the key the stereo comes on and very loudly plays the song you were listening to last. Which needless to say is embarrassing because it’s a sex song, well not really it’s a song that people associate with sex. You turn it over quickly and don't say anything. Spencer acts like nothing happened you hope he didn’t know which song it was, you look over and ask “what do you like to listen to?” “Anything i don't mind, you can put your sex songs back on if you want.” He says while laughing. You feel your face heat up and stare at the steering wheel, putting something different on the radio. The ride to his apartment is pretty quiet, he says the odd word telling you which direction to go in. As he pull up to his apartment block he gets out, but before shutting the door he turns and says “thank you for giving me a ride. Enjoy your music.” He winks and shuts the door you shout loud enough so he can hear even tho the doors are shut “its not a sex song i don't know why it was playing.” You say so loud you feel stupid. He turns again smiles and you smile back knowing that this wont be the last conversation or ride home yous will have together.

[sapphosscribe]

Great answer about how you manage to write consistently. Um, just one question - how do you write with ADHD? Maybe it's just me, but sometimes when I try to write it just comes out unnatural, I don't know where I'm going with my thoughts (even when I know exactly what I want to describe sometimes the words just won't come together) or I'm just describing without putting emotions in. And after like 20 minutes of doing so I MUST switch to a YouTube video, preferably a MV/performance video.

Also a huge issue for me - I feel like if I just sit down to do it then I'll forget that everything else around me exists and I just... Won't do the "necessary shit" (aka school/job, chores, etc.), but I still procrastinate on Necessary Shit™ and end up doomwatching YouTube. It's like I'm afraid to live my life to the fullest just to do this exact thing, but if at least feels safer??? Hate it!

This is SOOO relatable 😫.

Honestly trying to do ANYTHING with ADHD is not for the faint of heart.

Planning, planning, planning. I CANNOT stress enough how insanely helpful it is for me to have not only a plan for the story, but a plan for each individual chapter.

I try to aim for the sweet spot between planning so intricately there’s no room to let it breathe and just allowing the characters to do whatever to the degree I’ve completely lost the plot 😂😂.

I’d say the issues you’re having with describing without emotions or rambling is something I resolve in two different ways.

1) I look to my characters. Just like real life, no one in the scene is just standing around existing. They have their own thoughts, feelings, and motivations about what’s going on around them. I refer to this in my head as letting the story breathe. The characters often have a mind of their own. Sometimes I’ll realize that, based on something already established about their background, they’d be acting in a certain way or do something different then what I have planned and it helps make it feel more authentic. Keeping in mind what your characters want and what they’re actively trying to achieve in each scene can help with descriptors.

2) This might be a hot take but, honestly, let yourself ramble. Sometimes I’ll think I’m saying way too much much stuff in a chapter or the pacing is off, then I’ll go back and read it and it’s perfectly fine. I think of it like cooking food. It can take over an hour to bake something and it feels exhausting and like you’ve made a lot of mistakes along the way, but it’s just because you’re standing there measuring things out and adding ingredients. When you actually TASTE what you’ve cooked it all blends together into something much simpler.

No matter what you say, you can always clean it up in editing. The first draft is just you telling yourself the story and even if some of it turns out not to be usuable, you’ve probably learned something about your characters that will help you write them better later on.

This might also sound really weird but the way I structure my chapters and story follows the formula you might use to write an essay 😂😂

Before I do anything else with my story. I pick a theme, something that I’m trying to say/prove, the point of the whole thing, and I treat the rest of the story as evidence for that theme.

Each Act is a big piece of ‘evidence’ to support my theme and then each chapter in the arc follows emotional and plot beats to create that evidence.

Since Act 1 is already over I can use it as an example, though I’m not giving away the story’s overall theme. You can figure that out.😉

My big piece of evidence in Act 1 or my ‘big thought’ that connects to the main theme is “Bill’s current moral bankruptcy isn’t from a place of outright malice, but unprocessed trauma”. Then I planned out the structure to prove it: Bill crashing out spectacularly while trapped in human form by self harming, his relationship with Mabel forming transactionally, Bill trying to control Ford because Bill feels like he needs that to feel secure rather than having an equal partnership, The Axolotl and the first few flashbacks giving context to some of Bill’s actions, and closing out with the big moment between Ford and Bill at the party where he admits he cares about Ford for more than just what he could get from him.

Once I’m satisfied that I’m building the story toward what I’m trying to prove. I move on to the next section. So that’s my wild scientific method approach to big writing projects or even small ones!

As for the “forgetting to do necessary shit”. I set timers for how long I’m going to do what I’m doing and, once they go off, I give myself a few minutes to finish up whatever I’m working on and switch tasks. You can also use this in other areas of life. It’s been super helpful for me when balancing out work and leisure, but if it doesn’t work for you that’s fine too. Everyone’s different.

Procrastinating on “Necessary but unpleasant shit” I try to minimize by making it fun somehow. I plan my schedule a day in advance so I know what’s coming and if it’s a task I find difficult I try to add some element of fun to it. I turn on music or an audiobook when I clean and cook or wear an outfit that makes me feel good. I personally HATE exercising, so I bought a tiny treadmill and instead of sitting watching tv in the evenings, I put the tiny treadmill down and walk on it while watching something I like.

I also try to reframe thinking about the things I don’t want to do in a positive way. Folding the laundry means I get it out of my chair I like to sit in and read books. Vacuuming the floor is getting rid of bad energy and making the carpet soft again. Try to approach things as an adventure rather than a chore. Some stuff can be harder than others to grapple with, but, to quote the jogging Monkey in Bojack Horseman “Every day it gets a little easier, but you’ve got to do it every day. That’s the hard part. But it does get easier.”

Not to get all philosophical, but we only do have this one life. Even if it’s quiet and ordinary or hard sometimes, it’s better to try not to hate it or see just going through your day as something to dread. I’ve found that there’s actually a lot of tiny little things to love around every corner if you go looking for them.

If new things are making you uncomfortable, try what I like to call ‘safe spontaneity’. If I get unsatisfied with what I’m doing I’ll do something small that’s new and adds variety. Try out a new restaurant or a new type of food for one meal. Take 30min-1hr to learn about something that interests you outside of what you normally look at (I say having just finished two documentaries about Oceangate 😅😅). Find tiny ways to switch things up so you still have predictably and structure, but you add something new and grow your world a tiny bit more. Even if you end up hating whatever it is, at least you know you don’t like it and not to do it again! Allow yourself to grow and change at your own pace 🥰💗💗.

This was REALLY long and probably too much information, but I hope it helped!

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Some advice for writers

I would like to offer some advice to my fellow writers. Caution: this post is a bit on the longer side.

If you have any type of series on the internet, please have a master post for that series, or at least some form of organization. No, I am not going to go endlessly scrolling through your blog or website to find the first chapter/page.

Please have links to chapters if you are writing a digital novel/novella. It makes it easier for the reader to get through the story. This is assuming you're not using a website dedicated to literature.

Tag your work with what genre it is. I see a lot of stories and chapters on the internet that don't do that or only tag one genre. I would like to know what genre your story is as I have preferences for what I read.

When writing a synopsis or a pitch, please establish the stakes. Tell me what the conflict is and why I should read. What are the consequences if the protagonist fails? Also don't describe what your story is. I'll find that out as I read.

Plan your story out before you write it. You are not that 1 in a million who's going to be able to write a story as you go along. PLAN OUT YOUR STORY BEFORE YOU START IT. Here's my advice: Establish your plot and ending, write the plot, write your characters, then write an outline for the story. Make sure you're happy with it, iron out any last minute details, then write a rough draft.

Have multiple drafts and don't post the first thing that comes out of your head. Don't worry if you mess up during the rough drafts, you can fix it later. How many drafts you have is up to you, just don't get carried away with them as you'll never finish the story.

The protagonist must succeed. It doesn't matter what they succeed in, they must succeed in something. There's no two ways about it. The protagonist can be anyone, be it a hero or villain. protagonist versus antagonist is not good versus evil, it's a clash of egos and ideals. It doesn't matter who they come from.

Write an evil villain and a strong hero. Let your villain be evil and let your hero be heroic. This is storytelling 101, but so many stories these days try to make everyone morally gray and indistinguishable from each other. You can have sympathetic villains and questionable heroes, just make it clear where the lines between good and evil are drawn.

Stop trying to be relatable and POST SOMETHING. I don't care about how many WIPs you haven't finished or about how your cat keeps interrupting you. Post your story. If you're more concerned about being relatable than actually writing, you're not a writer.

If you're expecting overnight success, you are in for a very rude awakening. No, you will not have overnight success. AND NO, you are not that 1 in a million. It takes time, effort, and dedication for your work to get noticed. I should know: have you heard of ULTRAMagic Alternate? I didn't think so.

If you are writing to make money and become famous, get out. I'm serious, leave. If you just want to make money, go get a regular job. You are legitimately getting in the way of actual writers who actually have a story to tell.

Having beta readers is ideal for improving your story. Find people interested in the genres you're writing and see what they think. You can always go back and fix the story if there is something wrong with it.

This one is for readers: If an author asks you to be a beta reader, they are NOT asking you to edit their story (although you can if you want to). You don't have to be an author, the writer is looking for your perspective as an average Joe off the street. Tell them what you think of the work, even if you have no knowledge of writing.

DO NOT USE AI IMAGES. The instant I see an AI image attached to your post I'm immediately scrolling past it. Either learn how to draw or hire a real artist.

DO NOT USE AI WRITING. I will ignore your entire existence if I catch you copy and pasting stuff from an AI chat bot. I'm okay with asking a chat bot for assistance as long as what is written on the page came from your head and human hands, however. Also newsflash, if AI becomes truly sentient, you are stealing ideas and work from another individual. Let that sink in.