#travel fears

[caffeinatedopossum]

Me when I remember something I said ages ago that was wrong or my values no longer align with

[dunno-rambles]

what if she was an ex borg drone and you dont like her but you're the best mechanical engineer on the ship and you have to work on the maintenance of the remaining - and most crucial - implants on her body and the monthly check ups are always strangely intimate-

what if

[dailywebreads]

& Many more to read....

[blackwomenrule]

[sleepwalkersqueen]

NEW FEAR OF YOU CONTENT AHH

Not even written by me! @dahvampire wrote an entire fanfiction for Fear of you, check it out!! <3

Pretty much this dynamic:

[whichcouldmeanothing]

FELLOW TRAVELERS 1x07 “White Nights”

[canisalbus]

You should plan on doing a meet and greet one day!

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[nobeerreviews]

Men fear silence as they fear solitude, because both give them a glimpse of the terror of life’s nothingness.

-- André Maurois

(Warszawa, Poland)

[s0fter-sin]

ghost fucking soap so hard and so good he passes out but he utterly panics about it

he thinks he must’ve ignored soap asking to stop; was it pain that made him pass out? how bad could it have been to make him pass out when he’s been shot and kept going? should he bring him to medical? he’ll never touch him again, he’ll never so much as look at him again; he’ll ask for a transfer- fuck that, a dishonourable discharge. there’s no coming back from this

he spirals, guilt chasing hatred chasing despair chasing fear, until soap finally wakes back up

soap's still floating, loose-limbed and buzzing; fucked so thoroughly out of his head that it takes him a while to notice ghost isn't in bed with him anymore. he frowns, lifting a heavy head off the pillow and freezes. ghost's on the other side of the room, curled up tight in the corner as far away from soap as he could get without leaving him alone

(he would've left, would've made sure soap never had to see his face again and be reminded of what he did to him, of the monster he’d let into his bed- but he couldn't just leave him unconscious; what if he didn't wake up, he had to make sure he was safe first even if he'll rightfully hate him forever when he does wake up)

soap's voice when he calls out to him makes him flinch, his head burying deeper in his knees. cold worry chases the bliss from his blood and soap pushes himself up but his shaking arms can't hold his weight

the sound of him collapsing back onto the bed makes ghost rear up, his panic growing and soap's heart breaks at his red rimmed eyes

it takes a long time for soap to coax him back to the bed, countless loops of, "sweetheart, please, come here, what happened? it's okay, everything’s going to be okay.”

(and how ghost’s self-hatred grows hearing soap comforting him; hearing the concern and love in his voice when he doesn’t deserve a drop of it)

it takes even longer for ghost to believe soap when he says that he passed out because he felt so good; that he never asked ghost to stop, never wanted him to stop. that he trusts him more than anything and knows he'd rather die than ever hurt him, especially like that

“you’re not a monster, love,” he promises, soft with conviction and it’s as much a surrender as a relief when he collapses into his lap and lets him hold him close

ghost believes johnny but he still can't bring himself to be intimate with him for a while; that fear still haunting him, but soap doesn't hold it against him, doesn't complain about ghost's perceived "step back" in their relationship

hell, ghost seems to hate it more than he does; he misses being with soap, misses the connection, the closeness they shared, the safety and quiet he found in his embrace, but he's always trusted soap more than he trusts himself

soap doesn't let him be consumed by his fear or worse, sabotage them and turn it into a punishment; doesn't let him even get through the suggestion of switching because he knows how much he hates it and he won’t let him twist something as good and pure as their physical love into something self-harming

instead, he brings them back to the basics, working through the steps to get ghost comfortable with intimacy again, to get him to trust himself again; spends happy months just grinding and exchanging handjobs like when their relationship first started

and it's a happy day for them both when soap finally falls apart on his cock once again, anxiety the farthest thing from ghost's mind when his arms are wrapped so tightly around him, kissing a smile against his lips

[slushie-slam]

after surviving termina, Mari spends the rest of her scholarship money on a beat up car and she and Levi travel across countries ^_^

[hollis-art]

sometimes dreams change. sometimes people change.

[ezdotjpg]

if I had a nickel for every time a beloved piece of franchise media that I felt really captured something special was followed up by a sequel that’s grander in scale but utterly devoid of or even antithetical to the themes of its predecessor. I would have 3 nickels. and that’s enough to write a whole video essay.

[kyouka-supremacy]

Me in the last four years ever since Akutagawa died: It's okay, no way he's actually dead, no main character ever dies in bsd, it's just something that doesn't happen. Akutagawa is totally gonna be fine

Me when the bsd author kills three main characters in two chapters:

[dailywebreads]

Overcoming My Anxiety: My First Time Traveling Experience

[shinylights]

As someone who has a invisible disability/illness/disease (whatever you prefer to consider it) that can make me appear like I’m on something or drunk when my sugar goes too low & can cause fainting & convulsing and coma, knowing a hotel just moved someone in distress just really pisses me off & makes me so angry. I don’t care if he had taken something or drank too much, once he started passing out and all that other stuff it became medical & not taking immediate action to call emergency services falls back on them!!

& anyone downplaying that & acting like people who think the hotel owns some of the blame are wrong, you’re a cunt & I hope you never have to experience a medical emergency of yourself or a friend or family member & people just let it happen!

[numenrecords]