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taylorheat · 1 month ago

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Some of the fans have always been weird. No matter what I say or do to try and stop it. So I've kind of given up on that whole front. A majority of them are good. Well, yes. It's to show off the whole line - but that was the bra. You know. The goal that so many wanted. And only so few people got to wear. It's like a privilege or something to be chosen to wear it. I know when I was in the show - seeing that bra for the first time - I think I stopped breathing for a moment cause it was stunning. I never said that you were an asshole, Trav. And I still thank you for keeping those secrets. You didn't have to. Yeah, but when will I go back on the road? I hate being at home. Might chose to go back on tour in February or something. For shits and giggles.

Private: You wanted to marry me? Trav... that. Why would you want that? You're going to make an amazing husband to someone one day, but I'd make a horrible wife. There's so much in the world that you have to offer someone. And you're going to find that one day. I could never offer you everything that you deserve. I can't keep you safe. Being with me is not worth all the stress that comes with it. All the extra security, while having to be vigilant yourself? What kind of life is that? Not something someone should have to live if they can chose. You're better off without being with me. Trust me on that one. You'll look back on it, at some stage, and realize that I was right to break up with you. You're not going to have to worry too much about your future kids being brought up right in the front of the world. You'll retire from football, and get everything you want. I'm sorry that I can't offer that. I don't want to keep ripping the band-aid off. You think that it doesn't eat me up inside knowing that I broke your heart? And in the process, I broke mine, too. And I still fucking love you. But I know that I shouldn't. I lost that right. I'm very aware of it. So I've just got to keep on going, like I do every time. No one needs to know how much my heart hurts. But hey, at least I'm reliving the whole I can do it with a broken heart thing again. Performance art or whatever. And right now I'm trying to figure out some other stuff, too. My head is all over the fucking place. I can't focus. All I want is for you to be happy. You deserve it. I wanted them to see a show because I know they've been talking about it for months, now. Guess it's a way to close the chapter on what was the happiest year of my life. And it's thanks to you. I'm always going to treasure what we had together, because you are an amazing partner.

people are fucking weird, no offense, but some of your fanbase... definitely up there with weird. some of the shit they said, i could always handle it but didn't mean what they were saying was warranted for some odd fucking reason. don't think anyone expects her to change. no one was asking you to end things because you thought that was the best way to handle things, but you did what you wanted to do, no matter how many times i told you it didn't work like that. i like to think i'll pull off the godfather role pretty well, i love kids. that's the whole point of the show? i thought it was to show off the whole fashion line? not just a bra that only people with absorbant amounts of money could even being to afford? this coming from someone who has decent money in his bank account. true but i wasn't going to spill a secret that was important to you in surprising, i'm not an asshole. red and gold are popular colors, call it a coincidence. it's not like it's forever, you'll make new music, you'll go back out on the road eventually. enjoy figuring out whatever it is that you want to do.

private: what do you want from me, taylor? honestly? you want my feelings because i think it's not fair to ask me to crack that shell that i've managed to put up around me and start attempting to try and heal. i might be a big guy, but i've always been a man who has felt my emotions and you utterly crushed my heart. you were the woman i was going to ask to marry and that rug was pulled out from under me. you were everything i wanted in life. is that what you wanted? to keep ripping the band-aid off? so no it's not a lack of whatever, it's i don't know what you want me to say anymore. that's what it came down to for you, i didn't ask for anything, you made that decision for two people. now i'm trying to figure out what this life even means after i thought i had found everything i wanted and now it's just fucking gone. the truth, kylie didn't want to go because she didn't want to cause me more pain by any videos that would come out. jason flat out asked me and said to say the word and there's no more but i'm not going to punish my nieces, i'm not going to punish you because i know you wanted them to see a show no matter how much it fucking hurts. all i'm trying to do is figure out what my life next is for me. since everything i had planned out doesn't matter.

#[chats]#[c:travis]

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ocean-anchored · 2 years ago

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Dear Future Self... April 10, 2023

Man I’m getting worse at this, it’s been weeks. Ok let’s see.. quick two week recap. The week of the 26th was a bit more chill, Mitch came over Tuesday night to hang out & brought Sushi. Thursday night Amber, Nathan and I met up with Abigail & her friends (who aren’t very friendly might I add) at Ranchmans and we were learning line dancing, which ended up being such a fun night and we want to go again. Saturday the 1st Jeremiah invited me to join for a hike which was nice. We’ve seen each other here & there at the park & then he invited me out. I wasn’t sure if we’d be carpooling & even how that drive would be but no one ended up carpooling with us so it was just us & we met everyone there but our conversation flowed really great actually. It’s nice because we’ve talked about a lot of variety of things but have also had some decent more serious talks as well, especially about family so it’s been nice to see that side of him & feel like he can be open. We did castle mountain lookout which was an absolute perfect day. Weather was amazing and the hike was great, we were the front pack so I didn’t feel like I held anyone behind which is always my fear but it was such a fantastic day and the drive back again was great. That night Amanda came over & we went to Redemption’s first games night. That was extremely awkward at first but once everyone started playing it ended up being a good evening and was nice to meet more people. I went to church alone that sunday which again I’m proud of not shying away from. Ended up picking out a few people from the games night & chatted with them so I feel like I’m really connecting with more people. Last monday I went out with Sasha for a drink at a cute cozy cocktail bar place. She’s sweet and I enjoy my time with her. Sometimes I have moments where I feel like I don’t know what else to say but we can get onto topics that we ramble which is good. Conversation is usually pretty good. She even challenged me on my input in hanging out and we had a really good conversation & I think it really just solidified our friendship which was really nice so we booked to go to Major Tom next week and I think we’ll be booking more things the coming months. Tuesday Mitch brought me to the Flames game which was really fun. Wednesday I visited Steven & amanda before they took off and did more of a puzzle which was great, I really need to get myself some puzzles cause man I’m really enjoying that. Friday I ended up taking off which I needed. Went shopping with Amber in the afternoon which as always we had a great time and got some great stuff for our trip. I seriously can’t wait. Again always seeing girls hang out & how I envied girl friendships is us. We have hilarious matching outfits to wear down there & I know us three are going to have such a great time. Saturday morning Mitch took me to Devonian gardens which was really nice an we found a little art studio there which was so great, makes me really want to go to more art stores and walk around. Then I hosted games night saturday which gave me so much anxiety leading up to it but it ended up being such a hit. Trae, Ashley, John, Amber, Kamber and Jeremiah came and I was so nervous with no one really knowing each other but I knew everyone’s personality would fit and it did. There was so many laughs and everyone stayed till midnight so I know everyone had a great time. I definitely want to keep the few core group & now start doing games nights once a month, I already had a few people comment on my IG story that they want to come to the next one haha so I’m definitely going to have to kickstart that which I’m excited for. It’s nice to host again and have people over. I haven’t hosted anything in absolute years, I want to say even before Trav & I got married, like a true hosting of an evening so it felt weird but I’m really happy how it turned out. Church was great yesterday and then took nova for a good long dog walk which again we ran into Jeremiah. We had some more great talks. I feel like sometimes I was always questioning if he enjoyed my company but I think now I don’t have to question it. I know he said he’d love to join some hikes with me and Amber and other activities so I can invite him out more too. I just don’t want it to get weird but it’s really nice building a friendship. It was super weird because saturday night I had a dream about him & someone else I cant remember if it was Travis or not but Jeremiah was in it & he told me that he did like me and wanted to date etc & I woke up and was like hmm. Weird haha. Idk Before, which I recall even writing about before that I didn’t really feel that connection with him because I didn’t feel like he almost like wanted to get to know me? I felt like I was always asking questions to like keep a conversation going even though it wasn’t ever awkward, but now the last few times have been really genuine and good and it’s been really nice to get to know eachother better. Idk. I mean hey man, God knows his heart so if He were to be lining him up for whatever reason then I wouldn’t be mad but I do have to keep reminding myself that that’s not my focus. Building my relationship with God and following his path and direction this year is what my year is about so he would really have to make that prominent if that was the case. I wouldn’t be opposed though, just saying. I do like his heart and he’s really funny and can really let loose. I’ve seen snips of him serious so I know he can be but he’s got a really good demeanor and heart overall. Plus he’s australian. Lets be honest guys, how long have I talked about wanting an aussie man & someone who had their citizenship so I can go back there & live with them hahahah. Wouldn’t that be hilarious if it ended up that way. Anyways that’s for God to map out and make happen. Tonight I went for Sushi with Amber and Nathan. Have I mentioned how much I love them? Seriously, what absolute gem’s of people. I’m so damn thankful that God put her in my life like seriously she’s my soul sister. Anyways that was a really long update. Amber & I started a book club and we started Atlas of the Heart by Brene Brown. Man is it ever good.. I should be reading that tonight but it’s late and I need to go to bed because I have my 8am zoom meeting. I am going to start back up my book club postings to review the chapters and the important bits so I can reflect on them because this book has so much good stuff and I really want to be able to read back on it again. I thought this week was going to be a bit more chill but it’s turning into being another busy week, which isn’t necessarily a bad thing. I need to still find a dog walker for Nova ASAP though for my trip and need to finalize a few things before next weekend. So much to do, so little downtime. I need to get better at balancing my time again because I’m lacking in my self care side and lacking in my routine. I really want to get on track with reading before bed every night again cause I do miss it. So many good things coming. So many good things happening. Im really just so blessed. I thought about it the other day, when I really think about it I can sort of recall maybe two or three tough or “bad” days but that’s all I think I’ve had this year, being almost mid-April and having maybe 3 bad days that I can recall? And not even day’s I’d more say like a couple hours of anger or frustration but even then I have to really think about what those were - I know mainly being about Dillon, but yeah, I’m just overall such a happy person and it’s just wild to think back to even when I was going through separation wondering and thinking that it would be YEARS before I might ever be happy again and I never even thought I’d know what happiness looked like or what it meant but man, if only I could have told myself back then to get a glimpse of this future. & it’s funny because I’m sure even a year from now or some years from now I’ll be even happier than I am now and wonder how I thought this year of happiness is the best and how it can shift and change so much and just grow to be so much more. Life is wild.

#dear future self #monthly update #weekly update #personal

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ipuckwithhockey · 4 years ago

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Just Ask- N. Patrick

a/n: More Nolan stuff? Yup. I should preface this with the fact that we should all be considerate of all hockeys and their personal lives. They have lives that do not include us and we should respect that. This includes their online accounts whether they are private or public. I say that because this does slightly touch on Nolan’s music taste/interest in music, but there’s nothing specific. Also, lets remember that this is all fiction! We’re just here to have some fun. Anyway, this is a short one, nothing too crazy. Let me know what y’all think!

warnings: drinking, swearing

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Meeting the Flyers was a byproduct of your friendship with Carly. The two of you have been friends for ages and she introduced you to the boys early into her relationship with Travis. You were able to avoid being the consistent third wheel by finding a comfortable place within Travis’ group of friends. Although Carly and Travis have insisted that they try to set you up with someone on the team, you continually refused, saying that it would be awkward if it didn’t work out. Not to mention the fact that you didn’t think any of the guys were interested.

The lovesick couple bothered you about it for ages, trying to push Beezer and Frosty on you, and then saying that you and Nolan would be “so cute” together. Joel and Morgan were great, you loved them both dearly, but there was no way you were dating either one of them. They were more compatible with each other than with you.

However, the last one you didn’t disagree with. You agreed, and thought that you and Nolan would make an exceptionally cute couple. It takes two to tango though, and Nolan definitely isn’t interested. Nolan has always been friendly and your personalities mesh well enough that you would consider him a good friend. The two of you even hang out by yourselves when TK and Carly cancel on you to do god knows what. You’ll grab food or watch a movie, but he has never made any inclination that he feels anything more than platonic towards you.

Nolan is shy, and dry, yet incredibly funny. He’s blunt and has a few sharp edges to him, but he’s not the fiery time bomb that TK resembles. He’s more reserved, laid back, and you can feel at ease with him because of it. You loved Travis to bits, and he was the perfect match for Carly’s outgoing personality, but you can only handle so much of him.

Take right now for example. You’re standing in the kitchen of a post-win house party, and Travis is incessantly nagging you to go talk to Nolan. The house you’re in is full to the brim with people you’re sure they don’t know and you and Travis are in the kitchen fixing yourselves another round of drinks. From where you’re standing you can see Nolan in the family room towering over a few doe eyed girls who hang on his every word. They are fixated on him, and you think that he could tell them to get on their knees right then and there and they would do it gladly. (You’re not sure you would say no either, so no judgement there.)

You’ve seen him take girls home from parties and bars, and he’s seen you with your fair share of conquests as well. It doesn’t bother you, and you figure it doesn’t bother Nolan either. Would you mind being the girl he took home? No, not at all, but unfortunately that was a role you would probably never be cast in. Even if you were you wouldn’t want to be one of those other girls anyway. You wanted to be the girl. You wanted to be the girl who made him forget about all the girls before you.

Your silent pining was becoming a little sad, and as much as you hated it, you couldn’t do anything to change how you felt about him. When you first met Nolan, you figured your little crush would soon dissipate, but the opposite ended up occurring. Now you were the sad, lonely, pining girl. You hated being her, but you couldn’t help it. You were totally gone for him.

“Come on, he’s not even listening to whatever those girls are saying to him. And you know he’s been checking you out since you got here.” Travis lays it out simply for you but you’re quick to refute, “Trav, he’s only looking over here because you haven’t stopped staring at him all night. If any two people at this party are into each other it’s you and Nolan, not me and Nolan.”

“What are you guys getting so heated about over here? And why do you keep looking at Nolan like that, Trav?” Carly comes over to tuck herself into Travis’ side as he puts his arm around her. You make a face at Travis as to say, “I told you.”

“He won’t leave me alone about Nolan, thinks I should go over there and interrupt the fan club.” You motion in the direction of where Nolan is still standing in front of his little doe eyed fans.

Carly’s eyes light up, “Oh, he totally checked you out earlier! You should go over there. Scare all those little girls away. They never had a chance anyway,” she explains matter-of-factly.

“Carly! You’re supposed to me on my side, remember?” You look between your friend and her boyfriend, who’s grin is getting bigger and bigger as spreads across his face.

“Look, you can deny it for as long as you like, but he’s totally into you, and you’re totally into him. Travis and I both know it.” Carly and Travis look so satisfied with themselves, that they think they’ve played matchmaker between the two of you, but you’re still not convinced.

“Ok, give me 5 reasons you think he could possibly like me, or that we are somehow compatible, and then maybe I’ll go over there.” You motion back in Nolan’s direction.

Travis is quick to the pitch, “You’re both oddly quiet. Like it kind of freaks me out when I come into the room and it’s just the two of you sitting there on the couch, and you’re not even talking! Sometimes the TV isn’t even on. It’s just silent. Like who even does that?”

This elicits an eye roll from you as you remember the many times Travis has walked in on you and Nolan sitting in a quiet room together, neither of you feeling the need to constantly fill the air with pointless conversation. Travis has never understood it.

“What about how Nolan always gets you drinks when we’re out?” Carly chimes in. “He doesn’t do that for everyone. Hell, I don’t think he’s ever asked me if I needed another when he’s headed up to the bar.”

You’ve never noticed that he doesn’t ask anyone else when he goes up to the bar. Thinking about it now, it does seem kind of odd. But the two of you will often find yourselves next to each other while you’re stuffed inside a packed bar on any given weekend, and you figure he’s just being nice since you’re usually one of the only single ones there.

“That’s only two, and your reasoning is horrible. He’s just being nice and being introverted is not a crime.” You lean back onto the counter behind you as you cross your arms in front of your chest. Now you’re facing toward the open room where one of the girls has inched her way closer to Nolan.

“He’s been a lot more excited to go out lately. He always asks if you’re coming. The last time we all went out I gave him a hard time about it. I don’t think his face has ever been that red.” Travis explains. “That’s another one! Whenever you show up or you do that thing that girls do when they’re flirting, you know the one where they touch a guy’s arm when they’re talking, he gets so red. Like tomato red.” Travis isn’t very eloquent in delivery, but you understand what he’s saying. “That’s four, baby.” He reminds you.

“He gets red when anyone talks to him and whenever anyone is brave enough to touch him. And I do not do that flirting thing.” You look to Carly for reassurance, “Do I?” you ask. She doesn’t offer the reassurance you were looking for, instead stating, “Oh, you totally do that. Sorry, you’re just not that subtle.”

“Oh my god.” You let your head hang back as you look up to the ceiling, “He probably thinks I’m an idiot or just creepy.” You really didn’t think you were that obvious, but clearly you were wrong. He probably feels bad for you because he knows you’re totally into him. “Well, if that wasn’t enough to deter me from ever speaking to him again, that’s still only four, so I think I’m going to call it a night and head home and then never show my face near Nolan again.” You try to exit the kitchen with the last bit of dignity you have left but Travis is quick to jump in front of you.

“Nope. I have a fifth one.” He’s standing there with is hands on his hips and you’re sure he thinks it makes him look more commanding. You just roll your eyes for what feels like the millionth time tonight.

“Really? You think it’s good enough to get me over there?” You quip back at him as you nod back towards Nolan.

“Oh yeah.” He nods back, “And if it makes you feel better Nolan is super obvious too. Like I said, tomato red.”

“So, are you going to tell me the fifth reason or are you just going to keep me hostage here all night?” Now you’re mimicking his stance with your hands placed firmly on your hips.

“It pains me to admit this one because he doesn’t even let me do this,” Travis sighs. “He lets you have the aux every time you’re in his car. No questions asked, he just lets you play whatever you want. Doesn’t even complain about it!”

You’re processing what Travis is saying. Nolan did always let you choose the music in the car, but you didn’t think anything of it. You probably grabbed the aux without hesitation the first time you hopped in his car. That’s just what you always did with your friends. It never dawned on you that he might not let other people do that too.

It checks out though, Nolan loves his music. It’s important to him, and his perfectly curated playlists are like little works of art for him. You’ve watched him manicure his playlists for hours as he sits on the couch, and admittedly you have similar taste in music. Maybe that’s why he didn’t care? Maybe you just always chose songs that he would have also picked? Although there was that one week where you made him listen to the Frozen soundtrack on repeat. He probably wouldn’t have picked that one…

You don’t have time to decide on why you think Nolan would ever let you get away with something he holds so sacred because he has since left his group of girls and has found his way into the kitchen where you’re still squared off with Travis.

“You guys gonna pull your pistols out soon?” Nolan mumbles an announcement that he has entered the room, and you realize that you’re still stood in front of TK, both of you with your hands on your hips.

“Nope, we were actually just heading out to play pong, we’ll see you guys later!” Travis quickly ushers himself and Carly out of the room, and before you can protest, you’re left alone with Nolan. He’s leaning against the counter opposite to you, and when you move your eyes to rest on his figure you can’t help but do a quick intake of just how good he looks. He’s wearing the same basic outfit that just about every other guy in the house is sporting, and yet it looks so much better on him.

“What was that about? You guys okay?” Nolan asks.

“Uh- Yeah, Trav just being Trav, you know?” You attempt to brush off the topic of what you and Travis were discussing prior to Nolan’s arrival. Similar to those times that Travis was referencing, neither of you feel compelled to fill the air with unneeded dialogue, and you fall into a comfortable silence. Neither of you are saying anything now and Nolan takes the time to twist off the cap to another beer from the fridge.

“I was gonna go out back. It’s too hot in here, wanna come?” Nolan nods his head to the sliding glass door at the other end of the kitchen, and you respond by following him out to the deck. The quietness and crisp winter air that fills your lungs is refreshing. The two of you lean against the railing of the deck and enjoy the break from the chaos inside. You continue in your silence and you can’t help but watch as Nolan takes long drags of his beer, his Adam’s apple bobbing as he swallows.

“Can I ask you a question?” You ask, and without speaking he nods, giving you the go ahead.

“Why don’t you let Travis have the aux?”

Nolan chuckles a bit, “Of all the things you could ask, that’s what you choose?” he retorts before answering, “If you must know, he has horrible taste in music. But also, I don’t let anyone have the aux. My car, my music. It’s the rules,” he states, taking another quick swig of his beer that’s almost empty now.

He confirmed what Travis had said to you, but you’re not convinced. There had to be a catch. He probably never realized that you did it. You’re sure of it.

“But you let me have the aux?” You form the sentence with a question mark on the end, and your eyes follow Nolan as he leans over the railing to look out into the backyard. He’s avoiding meeting your eye, and you can tell he’s thinking, deciding on what he’s about to say.

“Probably ‘cus I can’t say no to you,” the muttered words come out under his breath, like he doesn’t want you to hear it.

“What? What does that mean?” He lets out a huff of air as his hands push is his long hair back out of his face, something he only does when he’s stressed.

His body turns to face you now, “You could literally tell me to jump off a bridge or run through this house naked, and I would probably do it. No questions asked.”

The quizzical look that occupies your face prompts him to continue. He’s frustrated, you can tell, “I just don’t know how to say this without fucking us up as friends…” He starts to pivot away from you again, but you reach out for his arm, stopping him from leaving, “What if I don’t want to be friends?” You’ve chosen to be the bold one now, and if it bit you the ass you were just going to have to live with that, but you can’t help but feel like you’ve both been on the same page all along.

“You don’t want to be friends with me?” Hurt. Confusion. Annoyance. They all flash across Nolan’s face before you can interject again, “I don’t want to be just friends with you. I want to be more than that. I want to be the girl you take home when this party is over, and the girl who gets to wake up next to you every morning after, and even if you don’t want that, you need to know that’s how I feel about yo—“

He doesn’t say anything, he doesn’tt pull you into a heart wrenching kiss, there aren’t fireworks playing behind you. To your surprise, Nolan has chosen to haul you over his shoulder, your arms falling over his back as he walks swiftly back into the house.

“NOLAN! What the fuck!? Put me down!” You yell at him as he continues to carry through the house. The party is so wild by now that you’re sure no one even notices the 6’2 hockey player with a girl over his shoulder.

“Nolan! Seriously. Put me down!” You’re feel like a little toddler who has gotten herself in trouble, and when Nolan finally does place your feet back on the ground, you’re outside next to his car that is parked in front of the house. He sets you down, and you’re slightly dizzy from being swung around like a rag doll, but he steadies you in front of him with his hands on your waist.

“What the fuck was tha—”

He cuts you off again, but this time he isn’t hauling your body into the air. This time his hands are on either side of your face and his lips find yours and there are even metaphorical fireworks going off as you kiss him back. You stand there, pushed against the side of his car, with his hands tangled in your hair, and your tongues exploring each other mouths. When you finally come up for air he pushes back away from you so that he can meet your eye.

“If you wanted to be that girl all you had to do was ask.” A smirk is plastered across his face, and you lightly shove at his chest even though it does little to move his large figure.

You surrender, “Okay, but we have to get an Uber, we’ve both had too much to drive.” You can’t help but grin back at him as he reaches for his phone to order a car for the both of you. When the car arrives, you get in to head back to Nolan’s apartment with your hands wrapped together. “I can’t believe Travis was right,” you say as you let your head rest on Nolan’s shoulder and he turns his head to you with his eyebrow furrowed, “Right about what?”

#nolan patrick #nolan patrick imagine #hockey fanfic #hockey fic #nhl fanfiction #nhl fic #hockey writing #philadelphia flyers #nhl #hockey #travis konecny

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acamaryseinteery · 2 years ago

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Huh, okay. Let's try that.

@vibing-with-trashy-trolls @rootinteen @phoenix-rock-26 @comfortable-dragon @chaotic-trav

1. Are you named after someone?

No, my name is original because the night I was born, there were born other girls and all of them were named like I was supposed to, but my mom didn't want me to be one of many and wanted me to be original, so they changed that name a little. I'm glad they did because the name I was meant to be called I never liked. Sounds like someone is shouting at you. I hate when others call me by that name instead of my own.

2. When was the last time you cried?

Let's see.... Today's a Monday so.......

From emotions: Thursday or Wednesday or Tuesday. Or each of these 3 days. Had a rough week, each day sucked. Tuesday was the worst.......

From pain: Friday - headache

3. Do you have kids.

Nope.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Eh, when I feel like it but others can't tell from my voice often.

5. What sport do you play/'ve played?

Not really a sports doing fan but I enjoy Dodgeball, swimming, badminton. I like climbing on rope structures^^

6. What's the first thing you notice about other people?

Their energy, the way they look at me, the tone. And mainly the eyes.

7. Eye colour?

Eh..... Either hazelnut green or pistachio green.

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

Happy endings. Idm a bit of horror but I hate to be afraid. Also the torture(psychical and psychological) situations in movies feel too real and I hate being reminded what rotten existences are here. I met plenty.

9. Any talents?

High uncontrollable imagination. I can picture a lot of things but I can't tame it. Like, I could write whatever if I feel like it but I'll never write what you want from me. You want me to write about place in fantasy, I'll write about hiding in fantasy. You want me to write holiday blog, I'll write a short story of my OCs as humans writing a postcard to someone.

When I scribble I can see in crossing lines pictures, but I'll never draw what I'm supposed to. You see apple, I see it's tree. You tell me to draw snowman, I want to draw snow statue being build by others.

I can't draw or write reality. It'll never be as good as my imagination, because it's not my style.

10. Where were you born?

Brno hospital.

11. What are your hobbies?

Drawing, writing (both when I feel like it), listening to music, taking care of animal, creating stuff, reading, cooking, learning about mythologies(preferably North and Egyptian), painting (drew 6 canvas), watching movies and cartoons, etc.

12. Do you have any pets?

I have a Pittie and I plan on getting a Boston terrier or English bulldog and an Iguana. And a Barn owl. And Sphynx. And Fire skinks. And maybe a turtle.

13. How tall are you?

154 cm.

14. Fave subject in school?

Used to be art clas(man I miss that) and nature class, now is Biology, AaR(Amphibians and Reptiles), BaM(Birds and Mammals) and English. And practice learning.

15. Dream job?

Working in a sanctuary to help endangered animals and do something for stopping of being endangered (for example: Pangolins are so damm cute and they are extremely endangered because of Chinese fake medicine. Their scales are keratin you idiots! Same thing as your nails and hair! Leave them alone fuck dammit!!!) and be a writer.

15 questions!

Tagged by @spyderschaos

Thank you!

Tagging @per4mancecheck @rosiethedragongeek @lilliths-httyd-blog @yenich @jgvfhl @deathgripper-venom @holonium @acamaryseinteery

1. Are you named after anyone?

Lol, no, my parents browsed through baby names and they just particularly liked this one

2. When was the last time you cried?

Like, 2 days ago… I’m very into history and is currently halfway through the autobiography of a slave girl, it’s called “the incidents in the life of a slave girl”. It’s really heartbreaking and is a cruel reminder of how cruel humans can be when they allow themselves to hate. That, along with the knowledge that it isn’t even that long ago that slavery was abolished, made me cry

3. Do you have kids?

Nope!

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Whaaaatt??? Noooooooooooo (yes)

5. What sports do you play/have you played?

Like, part of an actual team? I was on a swimming team when I was 7, which was terrible considering that I was terrified of water. The only sports I’ve participated in since is friendly matches in football, badminton, rundbold (Danish sport), and stuff like that.

6. What's the first thing you notice about other people?

I think it’s their smile. You can tell a lot about a person from the way that they smile

7. Eye color?

I’ve been told that it’s sea green

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

Happy endings, I can’t handle scary movies

9. Any special talents?

Talking. I can talk for a long time

10. Where were you born?

Denmark hospital

11. What are your hobbies?

Reading, writing, watching movies/shows, baking, playing Minecraft

12. Do you have any pets?

Yes! I have a dog

13. How tall are you?

162 cm.

14. Fave subject in school?

History! My teacher was one of those where you can really tell that she loved what she was teaching. I full heartedly believe it’s because of her that I love history so much

15. Dream job?

If I had to choose it’d be any position within a museum. I’ve already had an internship at a museum, and working with history like that is really amazing.

#tag game #personal #a little about me

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radio-star8 · 2 months ago

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RAYONA ROOK BEN SWIPPEEEE

Crops

BTW THIS IS A RAYONA REDESIGN

#art #trav art stuff #ben tennyson #ben10 #ben 10 #ben 10 art #ben 10 classic #ben 10 omniverse #ben 10 rook #ben 10 series #benjamin tennyson #benrook #ben ten omniverse #ben ten series #benten #rook blonko #rayona #ben 10 original series #omniboyfriends

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bleaksqueak · 3 years ago

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another quick sketch, less successful but still fun. more design exploration stuff for trav for things I can’t put off doing anymore bc the art finally demands them lol

#my art #pu art #design

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ivyglow · 4 years ago

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making my boyfriend jealous #prank 01 - Carter Hart | Philly

a/n: this idea sounded perfect in my head, but I don’t know if I’m satisfied with how it turned out; Hope you guys like it anyway. Don’t forget to let me know <3 It’s not proofread-ed so let me know if you find some mistake

btw, I wanted to say a huge thank you to @skarsgardswiftie for putting up with me talking about this idea and helping me out with some scenes. Love you, Val!!! <3 *muah*

Word count: 3.5k

Requested: yes

Prompt: 17. “wait a second..are you jealous?” 19. “I don’t love them. I love you”

warnings: none

No one would believe if told that Nolan, the grumpy almost shy one, was best friends with y/n the smiley and loud girl. They met at a pharmacy, going for the last pain medicine box on the shelf and bumping hands, he was about to give up, but then she smiled and suggested buying it and give him one card since there were two inside. They spent some time talking in the line and when she found him once again in the same pharmacy she didn’t lose time following him and sliding to his DM. They got along pretty well and months after y/n saw herself in a bar full of hockey players to celebrate the victory of the team.

That’s how she met Carter and more further ahead started dating him.

They were two distinct polos.

Y/n loved to dance, Carter preferred to sit and sip at his drinks.

Y/n was a college student of Fine Arts, Carter was a hockey player.

Y/n had curly hair while Carter had the thinnest straight strands of hair.

Y/n was Colombian, Carter was Canadian.

Y/n had a YouTube channel and Carter, well Carter discovered that he liked it a lot more than he was supposed to.

She did videos of hair care, study routine, and even some dance moves while cleaning the house. He was able to watch her, hear her, and almost feel her even if the timezone would not allow during trips.

Their first kiss was in one of those videos, y/n was talking about some chapstick new flavor while Carter was watching some game on the TV sitting on the opposite sofa.

“Well, I’m really suspect to talk about the peach one since I don’t like peaches” she comments while putting it on. “Carter, can you come here for one sec.”

At that point, the boys were part of her routine so they were used to appearing in some videos sometimes, TK truly loved the attention, he would show out of the blue behind the camera or pretend the video was about his morning routine. Nolan would crack a laugh and Carter would roll his eyes telling his friend to give the camera back to y/n. Of course most of the time she would edit these parts, so it didn’t appear, but sometimes it was hilarious, and so she couldn’t help herself. The next day Travis would be the joke of the locker room -but he never stopped-.

“What’s up?” he asked, sitting by her side on the living room floor. Travis and Nolan were out buying food, Hart and y/n being the only ones in the house.

“Can you taste this chapstick flavor and see if you like it?” she applied one more time in her lips and smelled the tiny balm in her hands, making a face and giving it to him.

Carter laughed and scooted closer to her taking her shin into his fingers and bringing her face close. She giggled not expecting him to taste directly from her lips, he was probably messing with her like they always did with each other. But when Carter closed the gap all she could do was hold his neck and dive into the feeling.

After the episode, they would kiss every time no one was around. Dates and night in started to be a common thing and the rest is history.

It was a Saturday morning, Carter was sound asleep since he was going to have a game later in the afternoon and y/n was already in the kitchen preparing the usual breakfast they had for game days, except today she was reasonably early.

“Hey there, my lovely pals” she greeted trying to speak as low as possible. “It’s a Saturday morning and I’m doing breakfast while editing some school stuff, Carter is sleeping and this video has everything to do with him” she grins while sipping from her favorite cup of coffee. “Travis was talking to me about some kind of conversation they had at the locker room and apparently Carter said he wasn’t a jealous person...well, it’s something between the boys but my amazing and devilish friend came up with the idea...he wants me to act a little weird and see if Carter really doesn’t feel jealousy at all. I decided it was better to film it so he wouldn’t be capable of denying it. He’s sleeping as I said before and I’ve distanced myself since yesterday, I don’t know if he already noticed it but yeah..let’s go” she turned around to start paying full attention to the preparation of breakfast.

Y/n was halfway done when she faced the camera again.

“So we usually have the ‘breakfast-pre-game’ together whenever we can, but today I’m calling Trav and Nolan to join us…”

The next record was y/n pacing in the kitchen while sending some messages on her cellphone. When the duo was already there TK gave her a bear hug and murmured “let’s go for it, Hartsy girl”. She laughed and went to hug Nolan, who didn’t know about the prank.

“Where’s Carter?” he asked.

“Sleeping, can you wake him up while I set the table, please?”

Nolan noded going for the stairs and Travis started setting the table while y/n moved the camera to a better angle. When Carter and Nolan showed up he was still in his sleeping sweatpants and with his hair a total mess.

“Morning” he mumbled to his friends going directly to his girl and wrapping his arms around her.

“Morning, sleepyhead” she teased.

“Why you didn’t wake me up?” his calm breath lingering on her neck almost made her forget about the plan.

“I did, I just send Nolan to do it” y/n answered pretending to be confused with his question. On these days she was the one to wake him up and she did it with kisses, depending on the mood even some morning sex.

Carter left one last kiss on her shoulder before they head to the table.

“What’s up with the juice, babe?” Carter asks while sitting beside her.

“Oh, Travis didn’t want chocolate milk so I made him orange juice…” here we go, she thought.

“God, you’re so sassy, TK” Nolan rolled his eyes glancing at his friend.

“You see?! He comes to have breakfast at my house and wants to choose what to eat” the goalie goes along while TK just grins.

“It’s ok, Carter, he didn’t ask for it, I just wanted to make sure he is one hundred percent spoiled since it’s a game day...” she speaks and then pauses pretending she said the wrong thing. “Not only him, but you guys, of course…”

Travis tried to suppress the giggle, that fucker! she was a great actress.

The meal went along with TK always carrying the subject to y/n witch made Carter glance at him every once in a while. She would for sure zoom his face in the editing process.

…

“Hey, lovely pals, it’s afternoon now, Carter is already at the rink and I’m getting changed. I’m going with Travis jersey today and we’re expecting a big win so I have an excuse to film the boys leaving the locker room and get a good view of Carter’s reaction.”

Y/n keeps the camera on her face while showing some makeup tricks and it was not long before Ryanne was knocking at her door. They met way before y/n started dating Carter, back when she was starting her friendship with Nolan, he was the one saying that the two would get along pretty well...and he wasn’t wrong.

“Why are you wearing TK’s jersey?!” was the first thing she said when the door was open.

“Hi, Rya, I’m doing pretty good, thank you for asking!” Y/n’s words packed with irony were responsible for both of their laughs.

“I’m sorry, it’s just...very weird. Like I look at your face and my mind goes straight for a #79…” she jokes.

Y/n rolls her eyes slightly at her friend and let her enter “I’ll just grab my purse and we can go!”.

Not even 10 minutes later they were already in a cab making the way to the arena. Y/n take advance of the time to explain to her friend everything while making sure she won’t let herself slip, such as sheer too loudly for Carter or forget about everything once he left the locker room with wet hair and rosy cheeks pursuing her body for a warm hug.

And that’s exactly what Ryanne does once the game starts and y/n is on her feet holding tight to her water bottle. The thing is, the Colombian girl was very competitive being raised in a home where the weekends were specially for soccer games and her father got her a jersey even before she was born. She was so used to diving deep into everything she did, especially if it was about cheering for a team. And well, living in Philadelphia and dating a hockey player made her role to cheer as loud as possible. It was her team and her boyfriend after all.

The game went better than expected and thanks to Ryanne she was able to hold herself together.

“So I bet this is the hardest part…” Ryanne stated holding y/n’s camera and prepared to film everything. “That’s why I’m praying for TK or even Nolan gets here first…” y/n sighed.

It was not long before the three boys come all together laughing and talking about something y/n predicted as the game.

“Hey, babe” Carter greeted burying his head in the crook of her neck and breathing deeply.

“Good game, Hart” she smiled hugging him back but shorter than the usual. And only when she went to hug the other two players he notices the different numbers printed on the jersey. His lips twitched and his brows furrowed, Ryanne tried to suppress a giggle before Claude finally leaving the locker room.

“Nolan I hope deep down in my heart that you washed this hair with shampoo, please” she joked.

“For your information, I always wash it with shampoo…” he shoves her lightly before hugging her by the shoulders. “He’s lying, y/n, last time I went to his house he was using soap to wash this damn birds nest.” Travis grabbed her hand bringing her closer to him.

“Hey! Great game, by the way, Trav! I loved that last pass!!!!” and that’s it, that’s precisely how she usually does with Carter, praising everything he does during the match time, always. Giving him advice and hyping him up.

Carter chose to let it go while they started to make their way to a bar to celebrate as they did every possible time.

At the bar, Carter kept his distance while y/n danced around with Ryanne and Travis,

He should be happy since his team won and he did an amazing job keeping every puck away from the net, but something was bothering him and he knew exactly what it was once his eyes found his girlfriend one more time that night.

Something in the way she did not bother to stay close or even tells him how good he played was giving an uncomfortable vibe. Not that she should always do that, but habitually that’s what they up to, and the sex after too, so when y/n brush him off going for a cup of water in the kitchen he knows something is really wrong.

They just got home from the celebration, she was barefoot looking for a glass in the cabinet.

“Y/n what’s wrong?” he approached not knowing how to start that conversation. “What do you mean?” she asked, a confused look on her face.

“I mean, why are you wearing another player jersey…??”

“Oh...I just wanted to support the team in general, you know?!” she shrugged. “I need to go to sleep now. I’m exhausted, sorry. TK danced too much tonight…” she giggles, walking to their shared room and leaving Carter behind. Knowing damn well that she planted a jealousy seed in his mind.

...

Two days and more distance later she was recording a video about her playlists in the bedroom when Carter got home from practice.

“Hey, missed you” he muttered undoing his tie.

“Hi, Carter” she grinned, not the big bright smile he’s used to when he got home, but at least it’s something considering she’s been almost ignoring his the last days “I’m filming a video” she explains.

“Not gonna interrupt” he left a kiss on her forehead and went for the closet to change, coming back minutes later with his grey sweatpants and no shirt on. Y/n knew what he was trying to do and being as competitive as she is she choose to make a game out of it.

“...and so there’s a lot of Post Malone’s songs, as you guys expected, and some Spanish as well because hell yeah I’m here for praising my own language…” she’s trying to focus on the camera in front of her when the bed dips, Carter is laying in the bed.

Sometimes he used to do it, but usually, he would wear a shirt or something and try to be as invisible as possible, just wanting to be closer.

“You can keep going, I’m just gonna...watch” he whispers smiling and laying his head comfortably at the pillows.

She rolled her eyes and went back to talking with the device when his hands found hers. The long and calloused fingers threading and holding to her strongly but still somehow soft. She felt his adoration look and could not keep her eyes from founding his and her lips from mirroring him and smiling.

Carter was this contagious.

Like some kind of speel.

It was hard to resist when he started being so soft and loving around her.

And that’s exactly how he managed to lay her beside him and finally get the deep kiss he’s been seeking since three days ago. His hands found her waist bringing her closer and slotting one of his legs between hers. Y/n’s hands went to his soft hair and pushed it lightly, part of her wanting to separate their mouths, the other just expecting for what he did next: he moaned into her mouth. He melted every time she pushed his hair and she knew it.

“Babe, please…” he spoke sinking his head in the crook of her neck, kissing that spot.

“Not today, Carter” she tried to resist, departing their bodies.

He huffed but nodded his head. “Can I at least eat…” he started looking for her legs and she gasped interrupting his naughty question. “The camera is still on” she tried to pretend that this was the big deal, but in reality, she would not be able to hear his full question and deny it. “It’s not like you are on live, puff” he joked and she tried to stay serious. “Wait...are you on live?!” his eyes went wide and y/n didn’t resist the laugh. “I’m not on Live, calm down.”

“Fine, but are you sure?! Are we ok?!” he asked sitting when she did the same.

Y/n turned her head to the nightstand pretending to look for something while answering “yeah, we’re just fine”

“So does that mean we can do something?! I just want your attention, love” and there he was all soft again.

“I’m just...not in the mood, Carter” she mumbled. “Not even for kisses?! Cuddles?!” She shook her head and he sighed. “Fine. Can I at least just be here watching you??” he asked this time not looking at her but drawing imaginary patterns in the mattress. She felt a pang on her heart but went for the answer she knew was going to make he thinks something was different “yeah, whatever”.

And just like that, she kept trying to go on with the video while Carter was laying beside her and watching every move until he fell asleep. Still, he kept the adoration look, she knew it, she felt it.

…

The Flyers were playing again and just like the last game y/n went wearing TK’s jersey. But only this time the game wasn’t so good as the last one. The team failed shamefully and even TK gave up from the prank for some time after leaving the locker room. This time the hug y/n gave him was well needed. Consequently, when she was comforting him, it was not part of the jealous-game anymore, but for Carter, it all seemed the same obviously. “You did great, Trav. Sometimes we just can’t control everything and that’s ok” he hugged her strongly before letting go.

Hart just noded for his two buddies, Nolan and TK, before heading for the parking lot, not going for his usual hug or kiss after loss or victory.

“You don’t want to hug me or anything?” she asked once they reached the parking lot.

He sighed. He looked tired. “I...I guess Travis needed the hug more than I did.” she furrows her brows. “Wait a second..are you jealous?” she asked and he shrugged before entering the car.

“You’re ok?!” y/n asked as soon as she got inside the car. He nodded starting to drive in complete silence. She knew better than to give him his space after a loss, but usually, he wanted her around, he would not want to talk during a certain hour, but he definitely wanted to hug her or at least have her close.

This time it was different.

And it kept being different during the whole ride home.

He was giving the silent treatment.

She almost forgot to turn the camera on when they arrived home, but when she felt the tension she knew it was the moment he probably was going to snap.

“Y/n…” he called already inside the apartment. “Can we talk…?”

“Is it about the game?! Of course, we can talk…” she pretended not to be aware. Carter shook his head. “It’s...about a subject completely different.” He was undoing his tie while walking to sit beside her on the couch. Somehow it seemed like he was too nervous about it, so he just rose and started pacing in the middle of the living room.

“Oh, go ahead. What is it about?”

He sighs.

The passe goes on.

“I’ve been noticing lately what your...friendship with Travis started to change...to develop…” she tried to open her mouth and comment, but he shook his head again. “Just...let me finish ok?!” his voice was not angry, it was calm...like he wasn’t that angry like he was just...hurt. And so he went on “And I love you… that’s why I just want to see you happy. So...if you’re not feeling the same anymore, if it’s something I did or said, or it’s nothing at all just you falling out of love with me...just...let me know. I do trust you with all my heart, and I know you would never cheat and I know you don’t want to hurt me too” he took a deep breath before starting again. “So...what I want to say is that if you’re starting to like Travis, tell me now, don’t bring it to me out of the blue-”

He’s so deep into his ranting that he did not notice she’s snickering with her two palms covering her face. When he did, he stops himself. “Oh- no, don’t cry, babe. It’s not your fault, feelings happen...and I’m not blaming you…” she was about to finally crack a laugh, but when she found his sad eyes she just couldn’t.

“What’s so funny?!” He’s clueless.

“It’s not it, Carter...it’s just...you love me so much. This is a whole level of maturity and affection...I was not expecting. I thought you would be jealous and snap at me, get angry, I don’t know. I’m just in shock.”

“I was not that angry because it’s not like we choose to fall in love you know?! We just do…” he says apparently deep into his thoughts. “But if I could choose I would go for you anyway.” there’s this small smile in the corner of his lips.

“I’m so sorry I was so distant lately. But...I don’t love him. I love you” she whispers. “I’m really really sorry about this week.”

“so…?”

“It was a prank, Travis idea, I got curious...I did not imagine it would get this far. I’m sorry I make you felt like I did not love you…” she hugs him and feels when his body relaxes into the embrace. He was relieved.

She stood up and went to the camera behind an ornament in the coffee table.

“This is the moment you tell us how it felt. Take it easy on TK, he’s not the greatest actor, we could’ve come up with something better...” she joked sitting in front of her boyfriend. Carter chuckles admiring her face behind the camera.

“Actually, I do love him, but as a friend” y/n adds before turning the lens a little and kissing his lips.

“That I can deal with.”

#carter hart #philadephia flyers #latina!reader #black!reader #nhl imagine #carter hart imagine #travis konecny #nolan patrick #hockey imagine #carter hart fluff #carter hart request #nhl quarantine #mels writing

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vamprnce · 3 years ago

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Ok I got a bunch for you for the ask thing 👁️👁️ 1, 2 , 5, 6, 8, 10, 11, 13, 15, 21

thank uuu dude 🥺🥺

1. Favorite drawing from this year

honestly I have many but this was prob my top personal fave this year 👀👀

2. least favorite drawing from this year

honestly my old refs/concepts of Mars and Davie's designs, like ik they've grown and the way I draw them changed over a few months but I just really hate them now lmao 💀

also I apparently don't have the pics on my phone anymore lol

5. favorite little detail in a drawing you did

Jeanne's broken amethyst shard necklace, her palm scar and the Swamp Witch shirt (I made up) I drew her, I really just her design and these lil things bc idk they mean more to me bc they have some background/lore to them 😂

6. longest a drawing has taken to finish

probably 5 to 7 days honestly, the average i complete something is 1 to 3 days (depending what it is)

8. underrated drawing you did

these two :( I really liked them but they weren't so popular lol

10. favorite art medium

I really like both digital and traditional, they have their pros and cons but it's fun to do both and learn from them bc I can apply what I learned from traditional to digital and vice versa

13. favorite fandom to make fanart of

currently watch dogs but sally face is/was one fun too, but I like making oc content more loool

15. any upcoming planned drawings

still doing au designs of sf characters, thinking of doing Trav, Sal and Larry next but I'm taking a lil break from drawing esp big projects also prob random comics of stuff, depends on my mood/motivation on what tho

21. what do you want to work on the most next

the answer for #15 plus wrencus and a lot of oc stuff!! :-)

#ask #eulerami #my art #thank ya!!! hehehe 💜💜💜

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floralkittygambler · 4 years ago

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Spoiler to upcoming H*skerD*st post (why I dislike it)

Spoilers:

“ [SECT 1 - Body Language (Nif > AD) - Avian/Feline/Human] [SECT 2 - BOUNDARIES: rejection, pushy, reflects val, pref unavailable men like Henroin/Bro (Trav, H), power dynamics in fic/rl, candid pic] [SECT 3 - Age, chemistry (pro, con)/common grounds (addictions), convo, maturity, AD type, Opposites DONT attract (proven by science)] [SECT 4 - IG, fans, viv - streams, viv sis, staff, mick ear comment, issues w staff shipping, requests, new and outdated art, mentality, tsundere, male sex abuse victims in media, poor character and world mapping, neg gay stereotype, oversized pet, H being OOC for fanservice and self indulgence is creepy] [SECT 4.5 - Impact on audience: The message this conveys to audience, esp impressionable young people. lack of staff maturity and understanding on this. concerning fetish.] [SECT 5 - Personal Experiences + why it triggers, where my pov comes from and why its valid] [SECT 6 - CONCLUSION: Why it wont work, brief sum of impact on reality, no respect or boundaries, dangerous message, clear and unrealistic bias (that can lead to sloppy storytelling), How to Fix (best course of action from here, maybe a lesson in boundaries and accepting rejection/cant have everything to AD? Start of a purely platonic bond between the pair, Paternal/grandfather and grandson love (not always covered in media), healthy relationships that arent just sex/romance, how different bonds can help give support to healing, realistic relationships and bonds, moving away from creepy stereotypes and stigma, expanding from the cliche of love healing all and why thats dangerous, love is not to fix someone or yourself, how fanservice dampens storytelling and weakens development - ex pyramid head, viv ‘symbolism’ is heart trademark + lack of research, lesson of respect and boundaries, positive messages, how to improve of the storytelling of HH to avoid cliche and self indulgent/fanservicey pitfalls)] “

Finished the introduction and warning sections. Thisll take some time, esp as its touchy stuff for me. But working on something more refined and professional sounding/looking whilst linking the original for reader ref. Some personal info will be redacted as I feel uncomfortable sharing it as well as it’s in my right to have my privacy. Im aware people will question it however some things will trigger me and I will mention that, however I would rather keep somethings personal. Respect that from a real person please.

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Im also going to cover other (Viv Related) topics such as:

The Dangers of Stolitz

Valentino - The Bastardisation of the Pimp ‘Game’ (It’s NOT romantic)

The Flaws of Angel Dust (From Design, Stereotype, Drugs and Sex Work)

Viv and Critique - Why Criticism is CRUCIAL to Growth + the Difference Between Hate and Help

Points to Improve (in HH/HB)

Professionalism Lacking in Spindle + Concerns

Research! Some Facts About Each Era + Demonology (from a Real Witch!)

[Now I know many may have issues with this one but] Viv Inserts - Verosika, AD, Charlie...? (Incl. Viv Impsona, Staff OCs, How to correctly Self Insert)

Vox is a Victim (Whilst dark humour is great, this just crosses a line - and other facts on male abuse victims treatment)

Viv Has Taken on too much - Why this destroys industry before it begins (and how to avoid the temptation!) - A handy guide on realistic workload to reduce your own stresses and work your way towards your final goal!

Alastor - The Poor Portrayal of Race, Spiritual Practice and Design (And how to improve!)

Biggest Pet Peeve - LEARN YOUR DRINKS, DEMONOLOGY AND GAMBLING!

What Drink is Husk Drinking? (Ft my decent into booze aka I can make a drink and drink a drink but my arms tire from the shaking aka blended booze b4 aka Repetition of the AoM ‘What Drugs is David Taking? ft The Addiction Boss Monster’)

Redesigns

What Variation Can Spice It Up?

How To Make An Adult Cartoon For ADULTS (And not just horny teens)

Sigils, Incorrect Usage and WTF ARE YER DOIN?! (Even for non-believers, dont misuse!)

Some Theories To Some Gin (or Whiskey or Voddie)

Review on Each Released Product (From Pilots, Comics to Merch)

Symbolism whilst combining Tragedy with Comedy

Bias, Misogyny and Treatment of Same Sex Ships

Repetition

Why Stan Culture is Dangerous, So is Hate

How to plan, produce and market your own show!

Husk’s Peach Princess Cocktail (as seen on Tipsy Bartender) and Proof the Fans are Too Young To Booze Cruise

Building Rep and Trust whilst keeping boundaries as a creator

The Point and Purpose of the Hotel

Sexual Fixations in both shows - why is everything sex

#stans and antis dni #stans and antis will be blocked and reported #hazbin critical #helluva critical #future post ideas #future critique #critique and tips to improve #more posts will include a section on tips to improve said areas so its not all dismal #Plus I feel some of my critique gets misconstrued as hate just because I have a different set of standards for things compared to others #we ALL have different standards #likewise how can one expect to improve without being given that push in the right direction?#open mind and compassion is key

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ravenquingvax · 4 years ago

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Critical Role Season 2 Episode 136 Thoughts (Part One) -

Wasn't in the mood for liveblogging last night, but here are the thoughts I had while watching!

Warning, this is long and loud and busy with little breathing space, read at own will!

-- STREAM START --

Well I just opened the stream and was greeted by a very smooth Fjord.

Hm.

Don't likey.

Just as well that I'm gonna be just listening again, rather than actually watching.

*shudders*

That was a really beautiful piece of fanart tho. 💙

Listening to the stream with no video is interesting, I've started learning certain audio cues off by heart now.

Such as when the art reel is about to end, when Matt is about to call the opening sequence and when the raven flies away during the opening sequence.

It's fun.

I've also gained much more respect for Matt's voice acting thanks to listening with no video. Like, I can see these NPCs from just hearing their voices???

I can't.

Matt is fucking amazing.

Love him so much. 💙

Sam messing up the name of CR's own book is a mood.

Also not having visuals for this AD bit is… hm.

ALSO LIAM TAKING SAM'S HAIR HDHABBAHSHD

MATT TAKING THE PINK COSTUME AHHDBSBA

TALIESIN TAKING TRAVIS' BITE GUARD

ASHLEY ACTING SO OFFENDED BY THE WHOLE BIT

i love these idiots

I struggle forming sentences too, Ash, you're okay 💙

I love how Laura's merch announcements end up being such emotional rollercoasters.

I'm still not over Vax and every time I see that raven fly away in the animated opening sequence it usually makes me think about him and all those "but what if he lived???" scenarios.

This usually distracts me for the first few minutes of gameplay after the opening.

I'm not okay. (:

Okay but Laura and Ashley are so good at singing, I'm feeling v gay rn.

Travis' high pitched laughter and wheezing makes me so happy??? Love him.

I really hate Cree.

I don't actually know why, but I honestly hate her so fucking much.

I'm still annoyed she wasn't one of the 3 Tomb Takers that got taken out.

But I don't know why???

Hope she falls soon.

I'm unsure if I actually genuinely ship shadowgast or if I'm just seeing vax'ilmore crumbs where they aren't.

On the subject of vax'ilmore, it is still my all time favourite Critical Role ship from my first attempt at watching Campaign 1 two years ago.

Shaun Gilmore is also still my all time favourite character from then too.

I don't want any more of the Nein to die, it would ruin me, but like… I'm craving it at the same time?

And I don't mean anyone dying to Lucien or Trent or the Sumnovum or any other big baddies like how Molly died to Lorenzo way back.

I wanna see someone die in a really dumb situation and there being nothing the Nein can do for them.

I want somebody to die in a really quiet and mundane way and for it to really shake the Nein up.

Idk why I want this??

I love all of the Nein and want them all happy and safe! Ya know?

But I CRAVE this kinda angst so fucking badly.

Laura got a natural 20!!

And so early on!!

Gods, I need Matt to narrate the Narnia books so fucking bad, man. His voice???

Ahhhh. 💙

Eye stuff??

Better vision??

True Sight??

OOO

I'm thinking of Delilah seeing Trinket in a Percy costume again.

WAIT IS THIS CANON CONFIRMATION????

ARTIE IS SPRINKLE????

ARTAGAN I LOVE YOU

Thanks for bringing this up, Caleb! Theory confirmed!

Also fuck you, Professor Thaddeus!! :(

Also ARTAGAN!!

Poor Yasha. XD

ALSO CALEB HEARD BEAU'S THOUGHTS IN HIS HEAD

also yasha my beloved 😭

ALSO VETH

YCTXRX3rzcyfe63gcfs

This has been a moment.

Also fuck Lucy.

Lucy is a bitch.

Also Devexion was hot, ladies, you're not wrong.

Also it's not even been a fucking hour yet and so much just fucking happend.

Hoo boy.

Also did Travis just say "can't believe the fucking weasel is Artagan"???

Mood, Trav, Mood.

Cad, Beau, Caleb???

o shit

Weird growly noises??

Niceeee

Love that!!

"the skinned doggies with the eyeball tails" - Love that mental image, thanks LIAM

Minutes have passed but literally all I'm imagining now is a tiny crimson weasel choking out Vax'ildan.

HELP

31. Nice, Cay. Nice.

Also I love Essek's voice???

I feel drunk whenever I hear it??? I don't get that???

(I've not had alcohol since 25.12.2020, before you ask)

But it feels so good

Gilmore's voice also has this effect on me??? His laugh especially so???

Could someone explain why this happens please???

okay yeah I ship shadowgast

TIME TRAVEL STUFF

WHA

DID I HEAR THAT RIGHT???

I WAS THINKING ABOUT GAY WIZARDS AND MISSED A BIT

CALEB PLEASE USE YOUR WORDS HONEY

But yeah, wowza ma guys

SHADOWGAST

"I think he's coming onto you."

JESSIE THANK YOU

"It's complicated."

LIAM O'BRIEN

SHIT MONSTER

also wow vethhhh

"don't come out of the closet"

Fucking

Hnnn

THAT CALLBACK TRAVIS

poor Kiki 😔💙

She's not even in this campaign and she keeps getting shade

I love when the cast actually whisper when sneaking as if the monster will hear them---

The cast are self aware

Love these pretty fools

Marisha questioning how they've managed to run an actual real company--

"We took 3 minutes to achieve nothing."

"I'll stay near the rear in case I need to fill the hallway with death"

Uh, Caleb???

We just gonna gloss over that???

Okay then!

"Skyrim Wheels Of Cheese"

I WANNA LIVE IN A SKYRIM HOUSE-

(thanks again Liam)

I am struggling to focus once again.

Hnn.

Fun.

This stream has already greatly improved my mood, I'm actually grinning???

Thanks Critical Role 💙

Sprinkle has murdered The Champion Of The Raven Queen for shits and giggles.

SAVING THROW OH FUCK

FUCKING LUCY & CREE

FUCK

"saucy DM"

LIAM PLEASE

72 POINTS OF PSYCHIC DAMAGE

YASHA IS OUT NO

WHAT DID I SAY ABOUT NOT DYING TO LUCY

FUCK

It's time to spaghettify Cree~

Thanks Cad

Clutch Spare The Dying 💙

I tuned back into Marisha saying "sexy robot". Nice.

My brain is turning into Tubby Custard at this rate.

I don't even like the fucking Teletubbies but that pink shit is burned into my head.

The Teletubbies would so be members of The Tomb Takers, those mother fucking creepy fuckers.

They literally have TVs in their bellies that scry on people???

Fuck that so much

I feel nauseous.

So much has happened.

My face is blushing.

My hands are shaking.

Hooooo.

And we've not been to break yet. Nice. Fun.

PRESIDENTIAL ALERT:

THE MONSTERS ARE FIGHTING 💙

Caleb is the bomb defusal squad. 💙

MATT STOP LEAVING THEM ATTENTION STEALERS I'M NERVOUS

"Caleb and Caduceus in the caboosus" MATH-CHEW

FJORD PANICK THROWING HIS HEALTH POTION TO CALEB GRSVJHRSF 💙

SAMUEL THIS SPELL DESCRIPTION

34 STEALTH NICE

AH WAIT

AMBUSH ALERT

OH FUCK

BE CAREFUL VETH

ITS MOTHER FUCKING MISS FUCK FACE AND MR WHY-WONT-YOU-JUST-STAY-DEAD-MY-FUCK

Hi, Lucy. [-_-] Now would you kindly walk into an Inuit Charge you lil bitch?

Essek and Gilmore's voices turn me into goo

While Lucien's voice turns me into a bloodthirsty, tired, overworked, annoyed as fuck parent on coffee

But yeah, I'm having BAD VIBES™ again

BREAK TIME

fuxk u math-chew (affectionate)

Liam's narration for this Dwarven Forge ad tho 👀

"I can't wait to give Taliesin a hug"

"I think you were my last hug, Taliesin"

ASHLEY

DANI

PLEASE 😭

Laura Bailey's voice is like a warm hug after a snowstorm. 💙

Oh no, it's this Sam Prime Subscription AD

Fuck

GOODBYE

THE HEADPHONES HAVE BEEN REMOVED

Can we kill Cree?

Can we please kill-

CAN WE PLEASE JUST GET RID OF CREE

IM BEGGING

I'VE BEEN SAYING THIS SINCE THE TOMB TAKERS FOUND THE PARTY SLEEPING IN CALEB'S DOME OUT IN THE SNOW

Lucien is gonna personally kill someone, now, isn't he?

And all because I literally said nobody was allowed to die to his hands-

Also yeah CAN VETH SHOOT THIS BASTARD'S EYES PLEASE SO WE DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THE CONE PLS-

i kinda want Caleb to flirt with Lucy to throw him off his guard ngl I do still ship lucigast :|

Unfortunately...

-- end of part 1 of 2 --

#critical role #cr spoilers #cr c2 e136 #WOW #long post #cw teletubbies #part 1 of 2 #lynias shut up challenge

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