#trashendence

[oneawkwardcookie]

I just wanna live in this moment forever 'Cause I'm afraid that living couldn't get any better Started giving up on the word "forever" Until you gave up heaven so we could be together

[cafecitoeddie]

you’re not supposed to just walk in here like you’ve been here for years inspired by this post by @trashendence

[rogerzsteven]

Temptation Tuesday

Tagged by @911onabc @buddiearemydads @jobairdxx

Ummm sooo okay :D Remember how I was complaining about my recent fics being mostly soft whumps and how I wanted to write some blood again?

WELL.

Let me introduce you to the idea that will be my next fic, which is:

For my bthb prompt Vivisection, which basically means live surgery: An organ mafia of some sorts kidnap Buck and try to take his organ and buck is alive and awake during the procedure so he feels it all 🙂

Bonus: if you want to see how this idea came to life, just look at this conversation between me and bestie @kananjarus while we were watching 911 live

Tagging @kananjarus @prettyboybuckley @monsterrae1 @buddierights @swiftiediaz @fatedbuddie @alyxmastershipper @shortsighted-owl @spotsandsocks @the-likesofus @princessfbi @diazass @gaydiaz @jjudaslips @midnightsbuck @honestlydarkprincess @spaceprincessem @rottenmarigolds @firemedicdiaz @rose-buddie @mysteriouslyyounggalaxy @trashendence

[diazly]

tagged by @lesbiandiaz (ily) to use this thread to post my palette so here we goooo

tagging @jjudaslips @enchantedbuckley @gaydiaz @queerbuck @poughkeepsies @anxieteandbiscuits @trashendence @thebuckley-hans if yall wanna and if you havent done it yet teehee

[daniclaytcn]

who are your favorite 911 blogs? i'm looking for new blogs to follow!

hi! there are so many good blogs, but some of the best that come to mind are:

@tawaifeddiediaz @bieddiediaz @oneawkwardcookie @colonoscopys @ttimbradford @eddiediaaz @trashendence @gayhoediaz @diazly @jakejensen @theladyyavilee and @buckleys-diaz!

[leandra-kinard]

I was tagged by @dwarfanonymice for this. Thank you so much! :-) 

3 ships: Buddie - my most recent ship, but I don’t think any other ship has captivated me quite so much. After that it’s a close call, but I’ll go with Spirk and Destiel (Stucky would have been in the selection, too)

First ever ship: Oh dear, that’s tough. I’ve invented stories with fictional characters and a Mary-Sue/Me-like love interest long before I knew fanfic was a thing, lol. But if we’re talking actual ships from fictional works, and fandom activity, then it was Buffy/Spike. 

Last song: I don’t even know. I was listening to the radio on my way from grocery shopping. 

Last movie: Glass Onion. LOVED it!

Currently reading: I tried Prince Harry’s “Spare” audiobook, but man does he read monotonously, lol. So I’m not really reading anything else. 

Currently watching: I guess Big Sky. Waiting for the finale there. Other than that tons of youtube videos. I’ve fallen into a complete rabbit hole about Scientology and people who left the cult. There are so many channels dealing with that, and I somehow can’t stop.

Currently consuming: That doesn’t necessarily mean food, so you could say see above. I’m consuming those vids in large quantities. 

Currently craving: A lottery win? ^^ Sun and warmth. 

tagging @sherlocking-out-loud @mumucow @mermaidinamanhole @make-a-desert-call-it-peace @trashyinfernomusic @yelenasbuddie @trashendence @no-moremusic @fisidrosa @sunflowerdigs

[gayofthefae]

#‘as it gets easier and easier to be alone’ turned ‘as it gets easier to wait and wait’#eddie finds a twisted kind of comfort in loving buck in potential - it’s a familir limbo where he can have him#and the desire that still burns is probably wrapped in guilt and fear. so he just waits#for someone who doesn’t believe in the universe still hoping - still waiting - is almost an act of faith @trashendence​

Not just Eddie waiting under the surface but what really hit me was the clear waiting from 612 of him waiting for Buck to come to him (with his problems). I hadn’t even thought about what that symbolizes but wow.

this whole season has just been eddie waiting for buck. you cannot convince me otherwise, whether he already knew or he had his realisation in the cemetery, he's been waiting. that first kitchen scene in let the games begin was so much more than it seemed. it was literally laying out the entire season for us in one neatly wrapped parcel. eddie was waiting for him even then, sat at the kitchen table, waiting for buck to join them there. and then the conversation about options, and three tries to get it right, and couches, and not making the same mistakes. its been eddie waiting from episode one. its been eddie waiting for buck to be ready to talk about what happened at the happiness convention. its been eddie waiting for buck to come back around when he cycles off in the opposite direction. its been eddie waiting to be let in on the sperm donor secret even if he didn't know that's what he was waiting for. its been eddie waiting for buck to see christopher as his son and the family they've made. its been eddie waiting for buck to talk to him. eddie waiting in a waiting room. eddie waiting for buck to wake up. eddie waiting for buck to come to him when he's ready, eddie waiting with a fridge full of beers, a container full of water, and a kitchen full of bloody truths he'll feed buck when he needs them. eddie waiting for buck to smile again. eddie waiting for buck to talk to him more honestly than i don't know. eddie waiting for buck to tell him he's not alone. and then, now, eddie waiting for buck to see how eddie sees him, has always seen him. and eddie waiting for buck to see him right back. and then eddie saying "why wait" to his mom because maybe buck's never gonna see him the way he sees buck.

[oneawkwardcookie]

Any little misstep, I'll be at your doorstep Talking 'bout forgiveness, giving you my heart back Just so you can break it one more time before I say I gotta stay away

[diazly]

tagged by @911onabc and @enchantedbuckley ily

rules: no cheating! You're starring in a movie with the last person you saved in your camera roll. The last song you've listened to is the title. Who/what is it?

didn’t wanna face reveal so here’s the last celebrity from my camera roll

anyway this is iconic y’all wish you were in this movie

tagging: @poughkeepsies @jjudaslips @gaydiaz @queerbuck @trashendence @butchdiaz if you wanna heheh

[sweettsubaki]

tags by @trashendence

[leandra-kinard]

I posted 6,191 times in 2022

306 posts created (5%)

5,885 posts reblogged (95%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@sherlocking-out-loud

@ellelans

@wackybuddiemewbs

@trashendence

@elvensorceress

I tagged 6,122 of my posts in 2022

Only 1% of my posts had no tags

#0 - 2,074 posts

#buddie - 1,927 posts

#911 spoilers - 1,182 posts

#eddie diaz - 1,143 posts

#eddie my love - 929 posts

#lmao - 502 posts

#lol - 385 posts

#evan buckley - 305 posts

#incorrect buddie quotes - 305 posts

#ryan guzman - 299 posts

Longest Tag: 102 characters

#see this is why the argument that only people affected by something get to have an opinion doesn't fly

I sent 1 gift in 2022

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

(Lupita Nyong’o on Lip Sync Battle)

I... I can’t. I’m too bisexual for this. Holy shit. 

122 notes - Posted April 29, 2022

#4

See the full post

127 notes - Posted April 19, 2022

#3

Eddie: [gets down on one knee]

Buck also getting down on his knees: what are we looking for?

Eddie who had been reaching for the ring in his pocket: Dude...

(borrowed from x)

135 notes - Posted May 2, 2022

#2

My digital painting, finally finished (I think, kept going in to work on some last details, and I’m sure I could find a hundred more, but I’m just gonna leave it here). 

Alternate version (brown background) under the cut.

PLEASE don’t repost!

See the full post

169 notes - Posted April 28, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

The CW is bankrupt? 

Aww, that’s so sad. Alexa, play carry on my wayward son.

405 notes - Posted January 8, 2022

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[oneawkwardcookie]

Ishq ka dariya hai behta

Doob ja tujhse hai kehta

Haan meri baahon mein aake mil

The river of love is flowing It is asking you to drown in it Yes, come and meet me in my arms

Another Zude video, and a little spicier than anything I’ve made before 😜 (don’t give me a strike, YouTube)

[fyeahcindie]

I haven’t seen the movie, but I just read about how Katherine Ho came to sing a Mandarin version of Coldplay’s Yellow for Crazy Rich Asians. 

Lovely voice!  =D  (Lyrics & Eng. translation back at YT)

Anyway, when I was Googling, I found that her version uses the Chinese lyrics from 郑钧 Zheng Jun’s cover 流星 (Shooting Star). (Used in the 2001 TW series Meteor Garden) 

Other than the lyrics (which don’t even mention the word Yellow), his version follows the Coldplay arrangement very closely. (the Crazy Rich Asian version is much different)  Let’s have a listen:

[extasiswings]

“‘You okay, Buckley? [I saw you’re not]’ turned ‘I know neither of you are’” @trashendence hold on a sec, just hold on, I’m—

@stagefoureddiediaz (I’m pretty sure?) said something about this secret underground poker game potentially being for firefighters who have almost died on the job and it got me thinking…

Because if that’s the case, then all the questions Buck gets about the lightning strike are probably standard first-time hazing, a “so let’s talk about how you got here” kind of thing.  And if that’s the case, then Eddie has gotten those questions.  Eddie, who just last episode told Buck (while not being able to look at him for most of the time) that he doesn’t remember the shooting.  But then there’s the Captain Mehta of it all.

Because not only is he there, he’s been there, he’s part of the group.  And Eddie has been there, and is part of the group.  And Eddie knows Mehta was present during the shooting because he was there before it started.  Yet, Eddie is fully comfortable in this place, with these people, all cool and confident and together.  

Buck is the one uncomfortable and wary.  Buck is the one who spooks at Mehta’s presence.  Because if Eddie “doesn’t remember” then the only people who could fill him in about what Buck went through that day are either Buck himself…or Mehta.  But it begs the question…if Mehta has been around in this group with Eddie, has he already shared whatever revelations he could with Eddie?  What does Eddie actually remember?  What does he already know?  What could he have been told that he’s been keeping quiet about?  [I mean, it’s also very possible that Mehta has just kept his own knowledge of the shooting locked up tight, but I’m fascinated by the idea of…what if he didn’t?  What if Eddie really does already know everything that Buck’s afraid to mention?]

I’m OBSESSED with this season, I really am. 

[diazly]

10 characters 10 fandoms 10 tags

Rules: name 10 of your favourite characters from 10 different fandoms, then tag 10 people to do the same.

tagged by @eddiediaaz + @two-cut-lines + @evanbuvkley <3

no particular order:

eddie diaz (beloved) (911)

jj maybank (obx)

lucy chen (the rookie)

leah rilke (the wilds)

ava coleman (abbott elementary)

winston bishop (new girl)

arthur pendragon (merlin)

allie pressman (the society)

percy jackson (pjo)

adam parrish (trc)

no gifs :(

tagging: @labyrinthbuck @anxieteandbiscuits @paranoidbean @queerbuck @swiftiebuckleys @dadbodeddie @trashendence @therapizededdie @alkaysani @suledins ya know if you feel like it

[911-brainrot]

@trashendence tags making me weep in this fucking chili's tonight

you know how some people are meant to be parents evan buckley is meant to be a parent evan buckley wants nothing more than to be a parent but i don’t think he realizes this i don’t think he’s been able to let it form into a concrete thought so instead he tampers the desire down he says i’ll help to a couple who wants a baby and when they get pregnant a part of him realizes maybe he’s not defective maybe his parts didn’t work to help save his brother but they’re helping create a whole new life and so that has to mean they’re not defective and there’s going to be a tiny human in nine months that looks like him and shares parts of him but he won’t be able to boast about that, won’t be able to claim their eyes or their hair color or the shape of their thumb, so he gets the future baby an lafd onesie so he’ll share something with him he CAN acknowledge, something outwardly he can see, except he’s gonna realize soon that helping create a life is not the same as helping raise that life and he’s going to realize he said i’ll help not because he wanted to, but because a part of him just wanted to know if he could