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AuDHD is so funny sometimes like what do you mean my hyperfixations/special interests will last for years on end or possibly forever but they will cycle out every month or two with absolutely no transitional period or warning. like i will think about the same topic every day obsessively for 46 days in a row and on the 47th day with no visible cause adhd brain goes "ok! bored of that now" and autism brain goes "dw i got something queued up for ya" and i blast into full blown obsession on some other topic whose mental file folders haven't opened in 9 months. brain's out here treating hyperfixations like a crop rotation. once the dopamine runs out it cycles in another one but once something's in the rotation it never ever leaves. last summer we brought in one from when i was 11. it's so funny to me but frustrating too bc like. i cannot stress enough my inability to predict or control this. or how completely abrupt and random it can be
#actually adhd#actually autistic#audhd#aphelion.txt#ik 'adhd brain' vs 'autism brain' is a gross oversimplification especially given how much overlap there can be#but it at least helps me conceptualize wtf is going on in my head when i do this lol#and yeah i'm mostly referring to fandoms in this post but it can happen w more 'Traditional' special interests too#like my linguistics special interest which hasn't popped up in a couple years now but whenever it does#i will fill literal notebooks while studying 4 languages at once and simultaneously inventing a conlang#and then i'll be like Ok that was fun! and several months later im deleting like. 2gb of textbooks off my iphone to make room for an update#And sometimes yeah there is a precipitating event like 'Oh something new happened in X fandom with my blorbo!' but sometimes it's like#yeah. no. idk either. switch got flipped in my brain and X no longer sparks joy. only Y rn. how come it's Y? yeah idk i also wish i knew#i don't think any of this is actually an uncommon experience for people with these types of neurodivergencies it's just.#the severity of abruptness and TOTALITY of the switch that makes me feel like a weirdo sometimes lol#like I'M getting mental whiplash from this sometimes. idk how y'all are still following my blog
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look alive, sunshine
#take care of yourself#they can see the dark spots underneath your eyes#my art#*ignores like 15 years’ worth of photography experience for the aesthetic*#the majority of these were just straight up photos of total blackness with the flash on; I drove the settings up to bring out the detail#and by detail I mean literally any interpretable noise#I’m not winning any photography contests anytime soon but the southern gothic community seems to be enthused#art#artwork#glitchcore#webcore#aesthetic#internetcore#abstract#glitch art#artists on tumblr#photography#night photography#graphic art#visual poetry
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What cracks me up about Don't Be Afraid, Just Start the Tape is that aside from the vampirism, Daniel's just having such a typical cocaine experience.
He goes home with a guy because he has coke, then ends up listening to the guy rant and bitch about his ex until dawn, then witnesses an implosion between the guy and his current partner, then is forced to answer the question, "Am I boring?" from said partner while trying to figure out the best way to leave.
This is just a regular night on cocaine.
#and also why i haven't done coke in over a decade#but it makes total sense to me that one of the only humans to know vampires exist#found out because of the most basic cocaine experience ever#iwtv#interview with the vampire#daniel molloy#louis de pointe du lac#armand#don't be afraid just start the tape
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i saw the early access listeners freaking out on tuesday and i was like “people please it can't possibly be worse than episode 7???”
...i will never doubt you guys again
#this is fine it’s totally fine#not hyperventilating or anything#my protocol experience so far has just been trying to keep it together at school#what is even happening anymore#tmagp#tmagp 8#the magnus protocol#the magnus archives
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"How many genders are there" legitimately I think there are as many genders as there are people on earth, you can be a boy but is your version of boy 100% identical to any other boy?
#transgender#nonbinary#this isnt to invalidate anyone dont twist it#i just think that each persons experience with gender is completely and totally unique
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it's really hard figuring out your gender and sexuality when it's the 1970s and you can't just google "am I transgender quiz"
#gravity falls#fiddauthor#lab creations#hey guys. good morning#I feel like it's obvious from context btw but this isn't a g/nderbend or anything#mostly based on my own confusing experiences with gender#tfw you are both trans men in college before either of you totally understand that yet
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autistic4autistic couples making out while watching how it’s made
#totally not personal experience#mine#ftm bottom#ftm ns/fw#ftm nsft#ftm puppy#ftm sub#ftm t4t#t4t kink#t4t nsft#t4t sub#autistic nsft
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#*polls#I’m curious!#and i do highly recommend going by yourself. nobody cares! it can be scary at first buttt#you’re totally in control of your experience (within reason)#get the snacks pick the movie get lost in the screen
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JUMPSCAREEEE
#danny phantom#sam manson#dp#phandom#i totally didn’t draw this 2 months ago and forgot to post it#as you can tell#i like to experiment with my style a LOT
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Truly experiencing the opposite of a gay panic, the aro/ace dread, when I think somebody has a crush on me
#like I’m flattered but also makes me very uncomfortable#I totally borrowed aro ace dread from#@our-aroace-experience#aromantic#asexual#demiromantic#demisexual#graysexual#grayromantic#joke#but also true
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#art#fanart#my art#original art#Splatoon#Splatoon au#Splatoon fuzzy au#fuzzy au#Splatoon Callie#Callie Splatoon#Callie cuttlefish#Callie#Splatoon Marie#Marie Splatoon#Marie cuttlefish#Marie#fluff#comfort#im trying to get my mood back up and this has seemed to help in a weird way?#im so attached to these two. their story (especially Callie’s) is so sad but so happy at the same time?#anyway have this thing. listening to Mac Demarco while drawing it was certainly a great experience#i totally didn’t cry#it takes me longer to figure out a stupid caption for every one of my posts than drawing#genuinely#im about to post something that took me 10 minutes and I’m gonna post it and just stare into the screen like an idiot trying to come up w#a caption#sorry it’s 5 am
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crusty kid
#baby lloyd would totally be all over capitalistic free to play hiearchal roleplay simulation websites#ninjago#lloyd garmadon#ninjago lloyd#dude i LOVED animal jam it was my life#i rmb the day i got membership the world was revolutionary… then i stopped playing#now im old enough to pay for my own membership#but being a senior high student also means i cant play animal jam#it’s so weird to think im now the age of all the ytbers i used to watch#animal jam drama was truly something else#anyways i love this little shitbaby lloyd#hes so stupid i love him#cant wait for him to experience the horrors#when i first watched ninjago i was confused why lloyd was a baby bc i thought that lloyd was everyone’s fav prettyboy#i initially thought lloyd was totally loyal to evilman garmadon and started off as an actual formidable enemy#though now i want to make an au like that#aphid’s ninjashits
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was having trans marty thoughts again and i came to a realization about this scene

#back to the future#bttf#bttf fanart#marty mcfly#lorraine baines#lorraine mcfly#kit does an art#drew this one a while back and was hoping to save it until i compiled enough doodles in the same genre#but i like it better as a standalone picture bc it's funny so. here you go#poor marty he had so much going on in this scene alone#and if you think about him being trans it just adds another layer to that#1. just woke up from getting hit by a car#2. realized he wasn't dreaming and he definitely is in the past#3. that's his mom. in the past#4. his mom is HOT in the past. wasn't she born a nun or something this is wrong and terrible and he hates everything about this realization#5. where are his pants. why does he have no pants where are his pants. they're halfway across the room??? why are they over there#6. HIS MOM IS HITTING ON HIM???? his mom who is objectively hot in the past is hitting on him and he's in her bed with no pants on and ohhh#oh god. she took off his pants. to look at his underwear. and guys usually have something noticeably under the wear don't they. oh shit#7. SHE TOTALLY NOTICED. SHE'S GONNA ASK AND HE'S GONNA HAVE TO EXPLAIN THAT AND IT'S GOING TO BE SO AWKWARD AND BAD#8. there's no way someone in the 50s is gonna get it she's either going to think he's a girl (problem 6 is taken care of but replaced with#perhaps an equally uncomfortable experience) or like. they're going to stone him or something he doesn't know how they react to this stuff#in the 50s#luckily for marty the last 2 problems never happen but that still would've been a very stressful minute just thinking about it#she was so perplexed by the purple underwear ig she just didn't notice haha.#kit yap session#for the tags. as usual
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I don't have Photoshop nor skills, but do you see my vision?
#did this quickly on Word and using screencaps#which is totally noticable#if I had more time I could try photoshop I guess#but I don't#what inspired me?#well jenmish both did a photo with a rainbow#jensen ackles#misha collins#so that's not my fault#they made me do it#turned it into destiel obviously#destiel#deancas#castiel#dean winchester#happy pride 🌈#pride month#pride 2024#my personal experience with destiel
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A bunch of Aleheather stuff yipeee
I adore them far too much
Also a greyscale experiment with our boy :]
#alejandro burromuerto#art#digital art#total drama fanart#total drama#total drama world tour#total drama world tour fanart#td heather#td heather fanart#td aleheather#aleheather fanart#aleheather#td alejandro#alejandro burromuerto fanart#also i swear that final drawing is greyscale#twas a fun experiment wherein i used his usual colour plaette and screen blending mode for the lighting#the way implication works is so strange
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he is legally blind, your honor
#BRESSY THIS IS UR FAULT!!!! HE LOOKS SO GOOD WITH EYEGLASSES#no guys.. i totally didn't apply my own experience to baby simon haha.......... (my dad was so cheap.....)#AND NO I WAS NOT DEEPLY THINKING ABOUT TSUKISHIMA KEI WHILE DRAWING BABY SIMON- WDYM HE LOOKS LIKE TSUKISHIMA KEI-#soap's the only one who knows he wears eyeglasses cuz ghost still wears his contacts around gaz and price#i like to imagine that the shades he wears on missions are also graded so he doesn't have to wear contacts. esp if he's on long deployments#me thinks he also prefers wearing eyeglasses over contacts cuz he has a hard time putting them on and hates when his eyes dry out#my art#2024#call of duty#call of duty: modern warfare#call of duty: modern warfare ii#call of duty: modern warfare iii#cod#codmw#codmwii#codmwiii#modern warfare#mw2#mw3#simon riley#simon ghost riley#ghost#ghost cod#art#fanart#digital art#digital drawing#sketch#doodle#video games
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