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Hello! Before I say anything I wanted to say I love your content and the way you draw Joshua is very nice, I had a question regarding the Burning Ghost fic.
Do you have a schedule in wich you post the chapters? Currently I see only 6 posted and you sayd youll post a bunch some days untill theyre all posted again. I didn't get to read the whole fic the first time it was published and I really wanna read it this time. I'm sorry if I sound impatient of corse post them when you have time or don't if you changed your mind, I'm just curious!
Not at all! I'm so sorry for the pause in uploads, my partner actually had top surgery about four days ago, and WHEWY, we've been busy! This morning, before you even sent this ask, it finally occurred to me, oh yeah I meant to post a chapter or two a day, w h o o p s.
Seriously, don't feel bad about asking, I'll be back to updating the fic regularly tomorrow! My partner is recovering very nicely, so we've both finally got a little time to breathe and resume normal life.
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Heat Stroke ☀⛱
#myart#danganronpa drv3#danganronpa ndrv3#danganronpa#new danganronpa v3 killing harmony#kaito momota#ndrv3 fanart#ndrv3 killing harmony#kaito momota fanart#ndrv3#fanart#digital art#small artist#He has got top surgery scars because :DDDD#I'm a free man with a powerful hand#no one escapes my trans beam
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your art makes me wanna start testosterone
i can't read tone well, so this is either an incredibly touching ask, or an extremely funny one, and in the absence of confirmation: both!
i'm in a chatty mood, so i'll share some thoughts about testosterone and my art.
i liked being on testosterone a lot. i had an IM injection every two weeks (on tuesdays!) and because that's a sizeable dose every 14 days that slowly disperses, it can cause some mood fluctuations (every other friday i would have a crisis about not feeling like the world had a place for me in it) but even those were far more manageable than the ones that would come with my previous and current monthly hormone cycle (every month i spend a solid week thinking the world will never have a place for me in it)
It gave me a patchy little bit of scruff on my chin and a whispy mustache under my nose that still struggles on, despite adversity!
It redistributed my fat a little bit, but that's long since gone back to pre-T shape.
it lowered my voice! that hasn't changed :^)! even if i never go back on t, that won't change. it was the thing i most wanted, and its the one i'm most grateful for. Pre-T, I didn't speak much. I'm getting better and better at talking and getting more and more comfortable communicating with people because of it.
having been off t now for 3 years, i don't pass anymore—not as a cis man, or a cis woman, certainly not as anything approximating straight. if people look at me and see anything, i'd hazard a guess that they see me as A Queer (the noun—for all it's complicated connotations).
i'm not surprised that my art might make somebody want to start testosterone! a lot of my art was made out of the aching grief that came with being kicked off of testosterone, and how neatly that loss of autonomy over my own body knits in with yamato's loss of autonomy over his own.
how my body started doing things i disliked, how i didn't have the support necessary to access the healthcare i needed—how my inability to give myself what i needed made me feel as though i were trapped inside of myself and abandoned (by both myself and the world at large)
when i write comics about yamato as a trans man, i don't take away his testosterone, because that hits a little too close to home for me. for Ninja War Town Reasons, he has plenty of access to all the HRT he could ever need and nobody questions his need for it—instead, i project my own horrors onto the way Danzō defined his identity for him as a child, the way that Kabuto and Obito dehumanize him as an adult in their war efforts, and reduce him to the thing his body holds (the Mokuton). I give him a kneejerk compulsion to dehumanize himself (out of a feeling that he has a duty to his community to do so) and I give him a slow-growing resistance to that impulse (which comes out of a feeling that the people he loves would frown upon seeing him reduce himself like that)
it's dysphoria! it's not gender dysphoria, but it's a loss of self, and a need to reclaim it. it's a war between the hollow shell of a thing he thinks he has to be, and the vibrant and messy person beneath it that he is. it's a desperate need to say "this is who i am—only i can say it"
I enjoyed HRT a lot. it was a really useful tool in helping me feel like my body was my own, that i didn't have to fight it, that we were the same entity. It's not the only tool, but it was a really good one, and one day I hope to use it again.
(as for the being off of it—it's unpleasant, but i'm enduring! being somebody who now doesn't really pass as anything has put me in a weird and interesting position, where I'm constantly having to declare myself to people, because nobody knows what to make of me on any front. they don't know if i'm a man, a woman, nonbinary, nor even what age i am (Augh!!!!) it forces me to be brave and vulnerable more than I'm comfortable with—if I tell somebody I'm a man, there's no way that they will believe I'm cis, but I'm not about to recloset myself—and I don't think I could at this point anyway.)
(there's something fascinating about the position i find myself in, and while i'd leap back on t the moment that an opportunity presented itself to do so, i do feel like i'm experiencing something interesting and important in this weird zone i find myself in)
#yamswers#anonymous#dysphoria discussion#q slur — only because i literally use it in the noun form most associated w/ dehumanization#i love that u asked this on a tuesday. thank u for asking this on a tuesday#happy testosterone tuesday to all who celebrate#i also got top surgery a while ago—which is responsible for about 50% of my average suicidal idealizations vanishing#because my chest was my second biggest site of dysphoria after my voice#it was far less painful than i dared imagine. and far more satisfying. i had an excellent and lucky recovery#my results aren't perfect but oh man. the joy of being able to press my hand (flat) to my chest (flat).#the way that a binder mimics the exact squeeze around my lungs that a panic attack stimulates—#not feeling that when i'm out in public? thank you modern medicine. thank you. oh my god. no more false flag panic attacks#i had to fight my insurance for two years and all the health providers i contacted told me the hoops i was being made to jump through#seemed utterly ridiculous. and it was still gobs of money but i got it. so grateful u cannot even imagine#a lot of people describe their feelings post op as “relief—finally i could see myself”#but i experience...more delight than relief. joy. is joy the absence of pain or the presence of happiness? can i tell the difference?#on my worst days i can lay a hand on my heart. and i can lay a hand on my heart. and i can lay a hand on my heart. and i can lay a hand on
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sorry i disappeared i was mentally ill. still am but better.
got top surgery! recovering. lots going on
feelings are rough. emotional regulation is rough. but i'm still here
#bun speaks#ngl emotionally thrashed atm bc i just went through a rough situation but the person in question and i are good. something didn't pan out#also helping someone with a dicey sitch and that's been rough#my recovery for top surgery has been rough as well and painful#so i'm having a rough one. the washer and dryer are broken so my banages are having to be cleaned by hand and im dealin with bad stitches#the facility i got surgery from is 5 hours away so i need to get an appointment soon. it's just a lot at once!!#vent#update
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I thought I posted this a couple months ago but I guess not? I sewed a piece of t-shirt fabric onto the inside of one of my pyjama shirts where the embroidered logo was starting to tear a hole in the shirt.
It seems to be holding well after a few wears. A woven fabric probably would have been more stabilizing, but I wanted it to be comfy and low-effort, so I didn't want raw edges I had to fold under.
#visible mending#mending#sewing#hand sewing#magpiemending#this shirt already had bleach stains when i got it free secondhand and is now pretty old but it is beloved for its dysphoria-warding powers#dont need those as much anymore now that ive had top surgery. but i still like the shirt
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trans obi-wan be upon ye
#was this supposed to be a little anatomy study thing?#yes#yes it was#but this is what we got#yes i made him trans bcs i have that power here#also its in honor of me booking my top surgery consultation next month or whatever#i love the little colourful plasters everywhere aesthetic sm and i wanted to try that as well#dont look too hard at the hands in this one please#obi wan kenobi#star wars#star wars art#obi wan star wars#trans obi wan#my art <3#fanart#sw fanart#i may have got a little carried away with the background here too#practice is practice though i guess
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Quick sneak peak of the thumbnails for the sims4 scar cc I'm currently working on!! I will have everything ready to release by the end of the week :D
#I was genuinely super surprised when I looked and found that no one had made phalloplasty scars for the sims4 yet#so I finally made my own#then I got super carried away and made a bunch of extra stuff lol#so in total I'll be releasing 3 sets of transmasc scars cc for the sims4!#They're all base game compatible and maxis match (I've tried to make them match the official sims4 scar style)#They work on any skintone !!#I have 7 variations of hysterectomy scars (a bunch of laparoscopic + 2 open procedure scar types)#7 variations of top surgery scars (double incision - keyhole - inverted T - fishmouth etc etc)#and RFF phalloplasty scars (both left and right hand options)#multiple transparencies for all variations (this will make more sense when I make the full release post lol)#I really wanted to also do ALT phallo scars but I wasn't able to find enough references to make something I felt was good enough to share#These are my first ever cc! I hope they bring as much joy to other ppl as making them has to me :D#sims 4 cc#my sims 4 cc
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random but I fear I must share: when I was a young creature I read a terrible yet memorable historical vampire novel by the name of blood ninja. the detail I must impart is that the mentor character had magical tattoos over every square inch of body that rendered him invisible to vampires at night. he would literally have to get naked to fight because otherwise his clothes would give him away. BUT to this day whenever I remember this character all I can think about. is. he had to have gotten. dick tattoos.
#just something I think about now and then! imagine you're fighting a guy. hand to hand combat. he gets completely naked. tattoos all over#including dick tattoos. one MUST ASSUME. now the humans can see him.#if you were a human person you could see everything#ONE MUST WONDER HOW HE AVOIDS INJURY WITH NO DEFENSES OF ANY KIND#one must imagine this was an extremely painful and time-consuming process considering it was the 16th century#fun fact the big villain (also the protag's biological father of course) was LORD ODA NOBUNAGA#who was to my knowledge not a vampire (I mean YET) but who knew of them#I've been sitting on that knowledge for over a decade. I needed to share it. DICK TATTOOS....#EDIT: WELL HE MAY HAVE BEEN TRANS. THERE IS NO CONFIRMATION HE WAS CIS#and if he got 16th century top surgery. well. nothing to worry about...flapping about 😭#cor.txt
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Sonic got top surgery this Pride month
Brought to you by this one Pinterest user being in my feed (thanks dude):
#sonic the hedgehog#pride month#happy pride 🌈#transmasc sonic#late night surgery <3#He got a back alley surgeon#a week into recovery#shadow the hedgehog#a kick to the face is sufficient anesthesia...right?#Shout out to the pinterest user who did actually realistic top surgery scars on Sonic#I'm an unoriginal creature#in my defense I credit people I'm inspired by#star top surgery scars#Sonic star top surgery scars#unique top surgery scars#hand sewing#sewing#sewing thread bullshitted into embroidery thread#if you could not tell by how jank it is#but it's okay#oh yeah I guess also#sonadow#at the last pic
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Can we please get lore? /nf or anything ofc I just love the way you write lore
OUGHHHHHHHH ok well in short. regarding himawari and willow in simple terms willow is literally just a redesign of himawari which was my old sona but i decided to do some interesting lore shit with it
and that shit being the fact that willow was created by himawari in the nothingness (a place in the realm i don't think i really mentioned yet........god it's so hard to explain lore here cus i practically said nothing about the world) because himawari was ''the creator'', and then she gave him her core/soul so that he could be the '''''new himawari'''''', alongside this she gave him another core from someone who we will later find out (probably). after this she decided to stab herself in the chest in front of him so that the timeline would reset but without her and with willow instead, so that he would become the new creator (basically sona). the thing is this shit was fucking traumatising because willow can't help but think this was all his fault even though this was what himawari wanted
#asks#lore drop#i had to make a whole ass storyboard about this the other day my hand was hurting so bad#only my brother got to see it tho it's like. 15 images i dont think i can post it here#but YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! before becoming the new sona willow just had to fucking witness the old one killing themselves#also this is PROBABLY why willow has top surgery scars. cus. his form was directly created from himawari's body#hence why his hair and skin colour is the exact same#they almost look like siblings#with the core from someone else: that's also a message himawari wanted to pass onto the new sona because they#have to do something with it but. willow just fucking left it in the nothingness because he was too busy crying#before then vanishing and going into the real world#anyways yeah this is like. lore from the realm? in reality willow existed before himawari even ''created'' him#i like to think this realm shit is accessed kinda like a dream? so there's real life and. whatever this fucking world is
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top surgery is 80% gender euphoria, 10% trying to explain to cis people why you chopped ur tits off, and 10% EW GROSS EW
#if u are squeamish and want top surgery#be warned it’s pretty gnarly#tw gross medical shit ahead do not read the rest of these tags if ur squeamish about these things#today I pulled out a loose stitch#its like a fuckin staple#I don’t know why I thought it was like#thread#also I took the padding off my drain sites per my instructions and ouggfhhh yucky#I’m worried I’m not gonna heal properly even though the doc said it all looked fine on tues#the binder is a pain in the ass fr#In better news I got a jade roller for scar care#bc I really hate touching them#this seems to be a fairly common occurance among the boobless folk#the jade roller is gonna be really nice bc 1) won’t have to touch gross scars 2) won’t get hands as slimy from aquaphor 3) very soothing#bc ur supposed to put them in the fridge ig#ok going to bed now I got a big day tomorrow#wizard drinks and voting
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I am still in my feelings about that "I didn't transition to look like Elliot Page: I wanted to look like Hank Hill" thing because like?? Very fucking rude to Elliot Page first of all?? What the fuck is the subtext here? That he doesn't look enough like a "real" man and is some kind of dilettante who we shouldn't take seriously until he mans up, or something?
Also like... as far as I know Page is not attracted to men, but it feels vaguely homophobic? "I want to be a Normal Straight Man who looks like a Regular Guy not a fucking [slur redacted]" Like fuck off? And it had so many notes! How is policing the gender presentation of other transmasc people being so roundly fucking applauded, oh my god.
#like I've also been seeing a lot of transition timeline stuff where the subtext seems to be#'oh wow when he started out he was just a silly little girl trying to be an uwu smol bean elf prince#but thank god! now he's jacked and has a big beard! a real man!'#dude!!!!#what your body looks like shouldn't be the deciding factor in whether or not you 'deserve' to be correctly gendered????#I know guys who've been on t for years and have had top surgery and still do not pass even more than half of the time#and I know guys who passed as soon as they got a haircut and started shopping in the mens section#because of physiological factors beyond any of their fucking control!#even notwithstanding hrt and surgery!#I'm always going to be the height that I am#my hands and feet will always be small#even with body fat distribution changing my hips will always be wide#so if I still got misgendered after medically transitioning would it be because I just wasn't trying hard enough?#because that's what it fucking sounds like these people are saying#also! men don't stop being men if they don't style themselves like hank hill???#stop talking like someone who'd tell swishy gay guys that it's their fault homophobia still exists#because they keep 'rubbing it in everyone's faces'#I hate you I hate all of you
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Getting into anything new also means getting to do a fun little treasurehunt afterwards to find the people drawing gay trans art of the new thing Saluting our bravest soldiers (the people making queer art of my often kind of dudebro-y interests)
#jay talkin#shouts out to queer artists online you all get me you know whats good#i see one of my weird guys from computer game or tv w top surgery scars and i go FUCKIN YIPPIEEEEE!!!#metal gear 🤝 metalocalypse: love 2 see those weird men being gay and trans. also they both start w metal wowie#somebody got mad at me recently for making queer stuff abt my interests it was hilarious#cuz like a week after getting told to stop rubbing my queer hands over stuff that isnt gay/trans i went and got into#an adult cartoon from 2006 and started rubbing my queer hands all over that SO LIKE. you really cant deter me im having a great time#this dude told me to go play the sims instead of metal gear bc i was 'ruining it' by making characters queer#whos gonna tell him i can make mgs characters trans and gay in the sims too WOGUFHJGHDGJKFDHKJ
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I’m so tired of ppl making art of trans characters and they literally just look 100% cis but with different genitals like how are we not grasping the problem here
#I see it A LOT with the kny fandom which is what inspired this post#like first of all you’re drawing characters from fucking taisho era japan….#no one is on hrt or getting top surgery like it’s just not happening#and like on the one hand I kiiiinda get the ‘but it’s wish fulfillment!’ argument but. when that’s ALL the art that there is of trans#characters…. yeah it’s. not great#i also don’t like the implication that the only conceivable way a trans person could be happy is if they pass perfectly/look 100% cis#even in a fictional setting#ALSO ALSO the fact that y’all seem to be allergic to bottom surgery????#or if you’re using some hand wavy magic thing nobody is swapping their vagina for a penis or vice versa???#like you make them look 100% cis somehow someway but then…. no change to genitals at all….#it feels fetishy imo lmao like idk#there’s a lot of layers to this and my point is that it honestly feels kiiiinda transphobic in a lot of subtle ways#like the fact that we can apparently only depict trans ppl existing if they look cis BUT not their genitals cuz genital change = bad or w/e#and again no even if it’s a trans artist or writer I really don’t think that absolves you from thinking about why this is the only type of#trans character you depict#wish fulfillment or ‘personal representation’ or whatever aside#I think this is a pretty good indicator that you’ve got some internalized things to unpack one way or another idk#kaz rambles
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#these past two weeks have been so intense that ive just.. not spoken about it once i got home from work#blocked it all out#my beloved colleague whose desk is next to mine has cancer#breast and uterus. she needs two major surgeries#they just diagnosed her two weeks ago#so we've been trying to deal with that as colleagues and friends#because we love and miss her and i am so deeply sad as well#but i feel like i couldn't process that at all bc two days after the news of her diagnosis i was asked to take on half of her work#on top of my fulltime#which i agreed to do bc i like her tasks and i want to help her and i also know i can do it#but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this#for the coming four months at least#so i did tell my manager that i would like a raise and. that bitch told me to BUY MORE SECOND HAND SHIT.#i seriously thought i saw my life flash before my eyes#then the day after she asked one of my colleagues who's been with the firm for over 30 years whether she was looking for another job maybe?#which caused that colleague to instantly go home in tears and be home from basically a nervous breakdown the past 1.5 week#which is her full right and i support her with all my heart but bc my management sucks it meant that we had to also carry her tasks ofc#i felt soooo spread thin and super super angry actually but i didn't even realise how angry i was until last thursday my colleague w cancer#came by the office. and talked about all of it. and i suddenly realised how sad i was but then also how angry#but i was just blocking it all out trying to stay afloat#bc we told her about what the manager had said and she said “i hope that i get the chance to really tell her how it is someday.”#“because the stress she causes with people can actually kill you. just look at me.”#and the rest of the day i felt so ready to be done with everything actually#but seeing her anger made me see my own anger#and released me of my own pent up emotions bc i had actual leg pains this week and it was purely psychosomatic#i then managed to tell some friends yesterday about what was going on and their outrage spurred me on even more#so today i emailed hr. demanding a raise#doing this amount of work while constantly feeling like the house is on fire while also struggling financially seriously makes me suicidal#and i am not joking#so.. if nothing comes of that im leaving that job and not looking back
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I am desperately clinging to the life preserver that is the joy of others in an effort to keep my head above water during this depression season
#my beloved moot who's getting top surgery soon 🖤🖤🖤#the person i follow who just got a ton of new stickers and other supplies for journaling 🖤🖤🖤#the folks who've recently gotten new furbabies and post lots of pictures and little updates 🖤🖤🖤#etc etc etc 🖤🖤🖤#if you're posting about things that are bringing you joy or that you're excited about etc 🖤🖤🖤#and for anyone who's also in the grip of depression right now I'm holding your hand and we're gonna get through this 🖤💛🖤
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