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microknifeyuri · 11 months ago
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i want to make something clear because i think that you guys are being a bit weird about me: i don't think that taco is like. just pure evil. like the whole episode was meant to show how far gone she was and how she sees herself as someone that doesn't have remedy, that can't get any better, so that's why she decides to bring everyone down with her as a result. the point of her song is that she KNOWS that she's terrible, she knows that it is too late for her to fix things, she describes herself as purely evil and feels bad about the damage she caused but that's the thing. she doesn't seek to be a better person, she's very very miserable on the current situation she's in. she thinks that since she's too far gone to fix things with these guys, she might as well be broken forever and ever. but that's not true. she CAN heal. but she can't heal if she keeps herself attached to the show. mepad thinks she can still fix things because he doesn't know the full context of everything, and he does care about her well-being. right now, to mepad, it seems that the best thing for taco would be try to make amends.
but that's the thing. taco isn't ready to make amends. she's scared of facing the people she hurted, she's scared of trying to fix things after she knows that they're beyond broken. she knows that mic and pickle left for a reason, but she's on such a deep spiral that she's still not able to let go. mepad wants to save her and he wants her to be happy, but taco is too emotionally unstable at the moment and the episode showed that. ii is literally breaking her. it is literally making her lose herself and her attachment to it is going to fully make her lose her mind.
taco can't be saved because she doesn't want to be saved. at the moment, that is. she knows that she's a terrible person and ended up hurting others while trying to do something "right", but ultimately what she has done was to bring down a friendship that was just working their way to healing (baseball and suitcase), make everyone feel even worse around eachother, and overall made things messier. and it makes sense. she wanted to do that, but she's too stressed to think properly on what to do know. perhaps she had good intentions, perhaps she did want to make others realize that the game is not good for their mental health, but she's the one that is the most attached to it. taco could've started working on herself since the start of the episode if she really wanted to.
but she didn't. she doesn't think that she can change at all.
and now you might expect me to say something like "and she's right" but that's also not true.
taco CAN change but she has to let go of the game and of everyone in order to forgive herself. she has to let go and to understand that meanwhile it is too late to fix things with everyone, she can start with fixing herself. and she's not going to be alone to do that, mepad is genuinely convinced that she can get better, and she can. but she has to let go of the game and of everyone there to ACTUALLY redeem herself FOR HERSELF. she might not be able to fix things here, but she can always find another place to start over. she'll be loved if she lets herself be loved.
taco needs to understand that. she has to let go and that feeling bad about herself and everything that happened won't fix everything. there are a lot of characters that went through similar moments in the show, and the way they got better as people was because they let go of what was stopping them from healing.
taco needs to let go of ii to heal.
she needs to accept that she can change for the better and move on. and start over. and mepad is her companion now, and he left ii for her.
so... yeah. i really hope taco's arc ends with her finally healing and letting go of the show. that she learns that she doesn't have to punish herself with that. that she moves on and meets new people. that mepad helps her realize that meanwhile it is too late to fix things on ii, it is never too late to start working on yourself after letting go.
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hedgehog-university-au · 9 months ago
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Character family stuff!
Obviously there's no way I'm doing this for all the characters cuz there's too many but here's a few that actually have some backstory:
Sonic: Was orphaned at a young age, and was raised by his Uncle Chuck! He was always a free spirit, so as a teen he mostly traveled and lived on his own in his van, but he still is really close with his uncle and visits him a lot.
Tails: His birth family, the Prowers, were extremely neglectful and abusive. He was put in the foster system at a pretty young age and went through a ton of different homes. None of them "stuck", and he doesn't really consider himself as having any family.
Amy: Has parents, but although they give her what she needs and stuff they aren't at all involved in her life, leaving her with attachment issues.
Knuckles and Tikal are cousins. Knuckles had a pretty good relationship with his parents, and was homeschooled by them. Tikal has a very tense relationship with her dad, Pachacamac. They come from a different, more tribal culture, but Knuckles is a second-generation immigrant out of that culture while Tikal was raised in the culture and moved here more recently.
Cosmo: Lost her mom a few years before coming to college, still has her dad Dark Oak and loves him but he's not really a great person
Vector: Never really knew his dad but was raised by his very loving, but very strong personalitied, God-fearing ma. They had some tension during his early teen years but now that he's more mature they're super close. His ma has also decided that everyone on Vector's floor are her grandbabies and makes them food and stuff.
Espio: Comes from a very high achieving, emotionally distant family. His parents have extremely high standards for him that he's never been able to fulfill and they totally aren't abusive about it why are you asking . His relationship with them is pretty tense. He also has two older siblings but they don't really show up
Shadow and Maria are about as close as siblings can be. Shadow was adopted by Maria's family, his bio dad being Black Doom, who doesn't pay child support and who Shadow avoids at all costs. Shadow does have some stresses that came from being the "healthy kid" once Maria started showing more signs of her chronic illness, and while he never begrudged her that, there is some tension with their parents because of Maria's problems taking precedence over him. Shadow and Maria also spent a lot of time with their grandfather, Gerald, and are somewhat closer with him than their actual parents.
Metal, Belle, and Sage: All children of Dr. Robotnik, but Belle has a different mom. There's some tension there, but the three are slowly attempting to work through that. Belle and Sage are also pretty close with their (second?) cousin, Maria (and Shadow somewhat), and Metal and Shadow have a subtle friendship.
Mephiles: Has a twin sister, Iblis, who is also a student at HU. She is the only person Mephiles actually cares about, and he covers up for her when her strong emotions get her in trouble.
Surge and Kit: Foster kids of Dr. Starline and non-biological siblings. Starline is abusive to them and has sent them to Hedgehog University as part of a plan to undermine Dr. Robotnik.
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paingoes · 2 months ago
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9. What kind of video games would they most like?
20. What was your first thought in creating them
For Paris, Delta, and Lorelai! Plus:
31. Who are they afraid of?
For Paris and Lorelai?
9. What kind of video games would they most like?
I think Delta is the only one who really plays video games, Paris and Lorelai are not that into it. Delta will basically play anything but tends to gravitate towards MMORPGs when he has time. other favorites are minecraft, dwarf fortress, and dark souls. which are very different i know lmfao. he likes variety.
if paris plays anything its something p fast-paced or reflex based. he would probably like rhythm games like geometry dash.
lorelai would probably only be into story-based/text heavy games. she would probably like disco elysium a lot tbh. but for her its not really gaming its just like the medium.
20. What was your first thought in creating them?
ive gone into depth about this before so i dont want to repeat myself too much but creation order was delta > paris > lorelai.
but actually the creation order was
kali >>>> delta > paris > lorelai
meaning that delta was originally created as a side character for this other chick’s story but i ended up getting very attached to his backstory and decided it was worth fleshing out. and now destroyer is so much longer and more complete than the original story it came from. oops.
but yeah delta was written w whump in mind and specifically written to be comforted. he’s my one and only.
paris was written just to be a whumper for delta and i started out wanting to make him as cruel as possible honestly and basically just a plot device but he ended up being like. oddly compelling. i think the stuff w constantine and that initial golden child/scapegoat dynamic delta ended up making him v sympathetic by accident and delta’s loyalty and willingness to work w him both kind of humanized him. additionally because delta is such a passive character that left paris to do a lot of the work when it came to actually moving the plot along so that’s another reason he couldn’t really be left as a one-dimensional whumper and why his motives actually had to make sense. he was a show stealer!!!
lorelai was created in response to paris and i think honestly to lend someeee levity to the dynamics. i wanted someone to be genuinely nice to delta and the first thought was like “what if someone was just a normal nice person in empire”. which i dont think is as true anymore i dont think lorelai is normal but well. that was the thought. also i thought it would be cool if the only person paris seems to genuinely like is this very sincere and sweet person who wants him to be better and how he can like reconcile that relationship w who he is.
well that was long anyway. but its funny because it made me realize the creation order of these characters also represents the fact that each was kind of built in response to the previous. thats neat.
31. Who are they afraid of?
paris is afraid of everybody at this point. he is scared of nezu on a very deep level and he’s scared of most imperials. he is scared of johanna but thats complicated and he fears her less as time goes on. he is scared of lorelai and how much power she holds over him. paris is scared of anyone whose approval he seeks and who he is dependent on emotionally because they could hurt him extremely badly if they wanted to and he feels like he wouldnt even be able to defend himself because he does totally deserve to be abandoned by them and never deserved that kind of patience or understanding in the first place. but. it hurts :(
lorelai is scared of what paris might do to himself and to others. she loves him a lot but the knowledge of what he’s capable of never goes away.
she isn’t really scared of anyone outside of that.
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jewishgirlrevolt · 4 months ago
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I love Eddie but you are right I font like how he is currently being written, it’s like the don’t know what do do now that they painted themselves in a corner and they have no way out
Wow. I was fully expecting anon hate. NGL. So thank you for proving me wrong Nonny. And I'm glad you like Eddie. I've gone back and forth on him. So after I stopped shipping B*ddie, I went back without the shipper goggles Eddie's... just not emotionally mature. He's responsible, and smart at work and he loves Chris. But he's not emotionally mature. And that didn't start this season. I would argue it didn't start last season either. It started way before.
They've definitely gone back to the issues they established back in like season 4 or something. Eddie behaves rashly and when things don't go his way, or when he doesn't want to deal with them, he finds a way to bottle it up and shut it down or he acts impulsively.
He introduced Chris and Ana way too early. He could have sat Chris down and say, Look, I'm dating again. I'm not sure if how it'll go. It's new and I don't want to introduce you and her until I know its serious. He didn't do that. And Chris, as a result, got attached and he's a kid. So he assumed it was serious. The same thing happened with Marisol. Eddie will not be able to grow and move on until he acknowledges his flaws. His inability to emotionally connect with romantic partners and how he's not chasing what he wants, he's chasing what he's told and believes Chris needs, a new mom. He did it with Ana and he did it with Marisol to Chris's detriment. I think some of it could be due to toxic masculinity and growing up too quickly. Having to first take care of his sisters, who I hope rip him a new one, to Shannon and Chris. Eddie wasn't a great partner to Shannon even though he loved her. And he still can't move on from her. Like Eddie going to dispatch and having a breakdown, and then therapy was good. He should have stuck with therapy for longer. Eddie needs to start figuring out what he wants out of life and acknowledge his situation with Chris and work on their relationship. But he also needs someone to call him out on his bullshit. It is wild to me though how he manages to always put Christopher first, yet remains a very self-centered character.
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miru667 · 1 year ago
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How do you manage to stay in a fandom for so long? I'm always mario jumping from fandom to fandom every 3-6 months
Oh, so many reasons. I think I've answered this before but in a much more concise way so idk what happened here when I tried to answer again from scratch but uhhh I wrote a lot lol?? Long ramble time. 😂
I found this fandom at a point in my life when I really emotionally needed it, so I got really attached to it. I stayed because of the friends I've made in it and because of the OCs I got invested in, both mine and other people's, and every so often something invigorated my interest like a new roleplay I got to join or new concept art that got discovered.
I'm also just a really dedicated person (for better or worse) and I still have ideas that I want to get out there creatively. I don't get a lot of free time, and I rarely have energy for hobbies after work so my time passes slowly in the sense that I may still be in the middle of appreciating a thing, meanwhile everyone else has already sped through and processed it and moved on.
So I've gotta be really careful about choosing what to spend my limited time and energy on. It sometimes takes me a whole month to draw a piece of art that I'm proud of. It would be a huge waste of my time to spend so much energy on a fandom that after 3 months I think I might not care about anymore.
And like, if it's going to take me a month to draw 1 thing, what am I going to choose? Fanart of a character from a show that I just finished that I might possibly move on from in 3 months? Or art of my darling Audrey OC that I've been developing for years and whom I know will always bring me joy for the rest of my life? It's not a hard choice! Like I'm sure it's obvious by now but I really love my oc. It's gotten to the point that I look for her in every media I consume. I like characters because they remind me of her, and I like plots because they remind me of her. When I watch a movie and end up loving it, I'm not going to be drawing fanart for that movie, I'm more likely going to be drawing Audrey Grace in some way that's consciously or subconsciously inspired by that movie. I'm sure other people with beloved ocs can relate to that, too.
Back to media consumption: I'm constantly watching new things, shows, movies, letsplays, and I'm able to love them just fine, but I never participate in their fandoms (unless you count reblogging fanart as participation. I personally don't). I just don't feel motivated to and I feel like it's unnecessary. I shouldn't need to prove anything. You can appreciate media without engaging in fandom. In fact, I encourage it, because a lot of what I see in fandoms these days is just stressful, at least to me. And I don't want that stress. I'm much happier as a person when I don't have to read other people's opinions, discourse and drama over some show's themes or ships or whatever. I can just quietly revel in my own enjoyment of the show without being tainted by anything else, and my love for it is not any less valid than the person who's livetweeting their loud emotions while watching the same show and putting out fanart 1 hour after every episode. Bless them, though.
And I guess that's mostly what I do these days with the Onceler fandom, too. Appreciating it more quietly these days, I mean. It's just that...I have a fandom related oc so I draw her. And I have friends here so we do stuff together and we reference fandom inside jokes no matter what activity we're doing. If I encounter art that deeply moves me personally, I reblog it, just like I reblog art for other media on my sideblog. When anyone has a fandom history related question, I'm eager to answer because I don't want the past to be misrepresented or misunderstood. And also, since it's been over a decade, this fandom has long ago become my daily normal. I can do whatever I like but I can't really "leave" this fandom unless I delete all my social media and cut off all my online friends. And delete my memories of the past 12 years of my life as well. Just become a completely different person.
So I guess I can reverse the sentiment: I can't relate to people who hop fandoms every 3 to 6 months. 😭 All the power to you, but that's just not the way I happen to live my life, nor the way I engage with the media I consume! The Once-ler fandom was the one exception. It was special.
But who knows, anything can happen in the future. I'm not so proud that I'm purposely blocking myself from looking at other fandoms or anything. I just go with the flow! Right now I'm slowly making my way through jjba, an omori playthrough, a Plague Tale playthrough, and urusei yatsura season 2 (the new anime). Probably nothing will come out of any it except for a bunch of Audrey inspos, but again, who knows. XD I'm also going to an idkhow concert soon, and I've bought merch from their store already. Does that count as participating in a fandom? Maybe not. But now that I think of it, even if I "join" another fandom, it doesn't necessarily mean I'd leave the onceler fandom either, so maybe it wouldn't matter haha.
Thank you for the ask and thank you to anyone who's read my entire answer!
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noodleblade · 2 years ago
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what do you think would happen if instead of knock out having to repair a beat down and broken breakdown, it’s the other way round? knock out gets seriously injured and breakdown has to be the one to repair him this time.
(also i love your writing, you do such a good job of getting the characters to feel like themselves!! it’s so cool ^^)
ngl, this ask got away from me. I probably could have answered it in a few paragraphs but I wrote out a little fic instead soooooo hope you enjoy that:3 I had too many ideas so tone-wise...it might be a bit of a mess x__x (BUT THANK YOU!!!! YOU ARE SO KIND!)
ao3 link x
Breakdown’s frame moved on pure instinct. He held Knock Out close to his chassis, careful not to jostle the medic too much as he rushed down the halls of the Nemesis. The curious vehicons stepped out of his way as he barreled through, making a beeline to medbay. 
He couldn’t even remember how he’d gotten back onto the Nemesis. The answer was at some point he had demanded a groundbridge and had raced in, bolting out of the command bridge until he reached the medbay. All of that had been done without thought, his processor entirely focused on the unconscious red speedster in his arms. As soon as he had laid his optics on Knock Out, crumpled in the barren red clay, he had jumped into action, scooping up his partner and running on autopilot. 
When the medbay doors opened, Breakdown laid his partner on the first medberth he laid optics on. He did so with the utmost care, making sure he didn’t further damage his already injured frame. Breakdown paid extra attention to Knock Out’s arm, cradled over the medic’s chest as it was only held together by three small wires. 
Breakdown didn’t let the grim sight affect him. He couldn’t . Energon was still gushing from the sliced cables and Knock Out’s red finish was losing its luster by the klik. He had to move quickly. Stabilize the medic at the very least. From there… well, he’d figure it out. That was a problem for future Breakdown. Right now, the only thing that mattered was making sure Knock Out didn’t lose any more precious energon. 
He at least knew what to do there. Breakdown may not be trained as a medic in the slightest, but he had always assisted Knock Out in the medbay. He may not know what each precise reading of a spark monitor meant, but he knew how to hook up the machine to a patient's spark chamber and processor port. He might not have studied cable repair and restoration, but he knew how to clamp up the leaking ones to prevent further energon loss. With these skills in hand, he moved quickly, all the while keeping an optic on Knock Out in the hopes his precious medic would wake.
He kept his panic at bay as he worked through the mental list of stabilizing Knock Out, his patient.  He tried not to let that thought trigger his panic attack and ducked his helm down as he carefully attached each monitor. One for spark rate, one for energon and fluid levels, one for processor activity and a few more he didn’t even know what they tracked. Knock Out would know when he woke up. Knock Out would be able to fix this. Right?
Breakdown looked down at Knock Out’s nearly severed shoulder. The bright red plating was stained in sticky, tacky energon and beyond that was a mess of slashed cables and striped wires. He did his best to make sure the remaining wires weren’t pulled taunt and to keep the loose limb secure and stable. Beyond that…Breakdown was at a complete and utter loss. 
He wasn’t a medic, neither by construction nor by trade. Yes , he assisted Knock Out, but it was always with Knock Out leading and Breakdown happily following. His skills had always been centered around breaking and destruction, not repair and mending. Knock Out was the medic. Breakdown just followed orders and did minor cleaning . His paperwork as Knock Out’s “assistant” had just been a simple ruse to keep them together! He wasn’t equipped - physically, mentally, emotionally- to deal with this!
Unfortunately, as it stood, Breakdown may be the closest mech the Nemesis had to a medic with Knock Out out of commission. It had been the whole reason he and Knock Out had been called to the Nemesis in the first place. And instead of realizing the inherent value of having only one capable medic, Decepticon High Command sent him out for scouting missions to fight the Autobots and putting his life on the line and now-
Breakdown swallowed the panic, its sticky static trying to cling to his intake as he took a heavy vent in and then out. There were no other options. Breakdown would just have to do his best. It wasn’t as if he hadn’t picked up on some things while working under Knock Out. At the very least, Breakdown knew the basics. It may not be enough to fully reattach Knock Out’s hanging arm, but he could hopefully stabilize and stop the bleeding enough for when Knock Out woke, making patching him up all the easier. He had to believe in that, focus his mind on that task and not the ever mounting pressure and panic threatening his servos to start rattling. 
Hasilty, he tried to recall Knock Out’s instructions. Knock Out loved to talk his way through operations and Breakdown had always recorded his speeches, if not for the information, than just because he loved hearing the medic ramble no matter the usbject. It turns out, it might be the thing saving Knock Out’s life. 
“First Step, dear Breakdown: Stabilize. It’s not really advisable to have your patient dying on the medberth, but the clean up is really the worst part.”
Hearing Knock Out, even over the faded, tinny recording soothed the tremoring of Breakdown’s servos. He took a deep exvent in, as he listened to a Knock Out from long, long ago casually list off necessary stabilization and patient admittance procedure.
“You want to make sure there are no active leaks. Usually a cable clamp is a satisfactory temporary measure. If its cracks within the tanks, a stop leak additive can be introduced to the fuel tank to coagulate the energon to prevent further leaks until the tank has been restored. It's important to make sure there is still energon flowing through the patient, otherwise the frame’s nanites cannot begin the self-regeneration process.”
Breakdown had already clamped off the energon leak and Knock Out didn’t appear to have any other active leaks. 
He quickly sped through the next few steps of Knock Out’s stabilization steps. They covered more severe measures for burns, crushed fuel lines, malware corrosion. Breakdown hoped he didn’t need to worry about those, but from what he could glean, the majority of the damage was from the nearly severed arm. 
“Great,” Knock Out’s recording praised. The tone was warm, familiar, reserved for Breakdown alone. It shouldn’t make his spark spin so rapidly it made his chest burn but it did. Everything Knock Out did had that effect on him. “ Now, we are going to want to do a system assessment and diagnostic.”
As soon as the words whistled through his audials, Breakdown felt his spark sink into the depths of his chassis. 
While Breakdown knew the basics of patient intake and quick patches, the realm of actual, professional grade care was above his knowledge base. Knock Out could take one glance at an offset wing and know the issue was a simple alignment or see a shattered knee joint and know the exact reconstruction configuration for that specific frame type. Breakdown surely couldn’t look as a nearly dismembered arm and know how to pop it back into place. 
Breakdown stared at Knock Out and the mess of his shoulder in utter dismay. He didn’t know what to do. Sure, he helped Knock Out occasionally in the medbay but that was in the vein of passing equipment or fetching medicine. It certainly wasn’t anything more than that. He wasn’t a forged medic, he wasn’t even a trained nurse. They just put that on paper so they would make sure they got to stay on the same ship together.
He needed a real medic. Someone that knew what they were talking about. 
An idea…struck Breakdown, less like a bolt of lightning and more like a creeping, dawning dread. He quickly pulled up his comm link and enabled the frequency scrambler. 
--
Ratchet stared at the anonymous comm link with a chill of dread rolling down his spinal strut. 
The frequency was concealed and somehow managed to get through the several encrypted firewalls the Autobots had set up to protect their network from Decepticon interference. Evidently, more protective measures would need to be implemented. Without opening it, all Ratchet could see was the scrambled frequency and the single word subject: help .
Hesitantly, Ratchet opened the message. It was short, curt. 
::Need your medical advice. Call me. Emergency.::
He frowned deeply. It wasn’t from any of his fellow Autobots and it wasn’t from Starscream. Even Wheeljack, despite his transient and “neutral” status, was in their contact database. There weren’t that many Cybertronians in range that it could be, leaving only a handful of Decepticons possibly on the end of the link. 
Before Ratchet could debate about calling, his anonymous messenger seemed to lose patience and called him . The ringing echoed in the quiet Autobot base, everyone out scouting and the kids thankfully at their homes, leaving Ratchet alone. Curiosity won out at the end as he accepted the call. 
The comm link connected but there was no immediate answer. A faint, quiet buzzing met him, telling him the call connected but the caller was choosing not to speak. 
Gruffly, Ratchet spoke. “Hello?”
“Uh,” came a hesitant, deep register “hey, Doc.”
Ratchet blinked. The voice was not un familiar, but Ratchet wasn’t completely sure he could place it. The image of an angry bulky blue bot came to mind but... 
“This is-“
“Breakdown. Yeah, I don’t really have time to chat. Just need your help for a second. I’ll owe you or whatever.”
Ratchet narrowed his optics. A myriad of questions rolled through the medic’s helm: How did a Decepticon bruiser get his personal comm link? How long has his information been available to the Decepticons? What other holes in their Network were there that any low-ranking Decepticon could just access willy nilly? What business did Breakdown even have with Ratchet of all mechs?
“Help with what? ”
Rather than reply, an incoming video call request came in from the same comm frequency. 
Was this a threat? An attempt at blackmail or ransom? Oh no. Had the Decepticons taken one of his mech’s prisoners? Or what if it was one of the kids or-
Before his thought could even finish, Ratchet accepted the call only to be met by the (goreish) image of a nearly severed arm coated in thick, tacky energon. Several fuel lines had been slashed and nearly every wire snapped, snagged and frayed. 
“Oh Primus, what is this?” Ratchet cried out. 
“A gift from your wrecker, courtesy of his bombs,” Breakdown snarled, anger and the edge of panic in his voice. “Just tell me how I fix him.”
“You have a medic, don’t you?” Ratchet sneered, the image of the flashy speedster conjured in his processor. 
“Whose arm do you think this is?” Breakdown hissed.
Oh. 
Upon closer examination, Ratchet could see the telltale edges of sleek red plating, now chipped and scratched, a sickly gray sheen taking over the usual glimmering finish. Based on the relative silence over the comm link, Ratchet had to assume Knock Out was, well, knocked out . Otherwise, he could only imagine the absolute fit the other medic would throw in knowing his precious frame was in the hypothetical servos of Ratchet . 
“Why would I help you?” Ratchet asked. 
Doing so would only be giving aid to the enemy . With Knock Out out of commission, even for a little bit, that would allow the Autobots to make some moves, finally make actual concrete steps into ending this war and defeating Megatron. Why would he help? Why would he go against his own cause and the great good for Cybertronians-
“Didn’t you take some oaths?” Breakdown asked, his tone veering from distressed to disgust.
Well. He did have a point. The inner fires that had been burning in Ratchet’s chest extinguished with one fell-swoop as he let out a heavy exvent.
Breakdown continued, seemingly taking Ratchet’s defeated sigh as acceptance. “I’m not asking you to actually do it. I’m not bridging you here and he’s not going to be at the mercy of the Autobot. I’ll take care of it-”
“You aren’t a medic!”
“Our only medic won’t have an arm unless I do something,” Breakdown snapped back. A shuddering exvent whistled over the frequency before the normally brutish mech whispered a quiet, desperate, “Please?”
It shouldn’t make Ratchet’s resolve waiver. Yet, Ratchet found himself soften at the quiet plea. He knew all too well the pain of watching a loved one suffer and as much as he may hate Knock Out, he didn’t relish the idea of being one of the factors in his ill fated injury. He knew the bitter taste of not being able to fix, mend, help .
“It’s going to require surgery,” Ratchet said with a grimace. It looked like Wheeljack’s bombs not only nearly severed the limb but removed the surrounding plating’s protective coating. “It’s not something I can just walk you through. A repair like this is complicated, meddling in it without expertise could cause even more damage.” 
“Can’t we just do a quick patch? To make sure it doesn’t get worse? Something?”
It was odd hearing Breakdown so… panicked . Ratchet, while never quite having the fortune to face off against the Decepticon, he certainly heard many tales from Bulkhead about him, none never quite painted him in such a soft, caring light. Then again, the risk of loss made everyone reveal their true selves. 
“I suppose we can do some light repair work and splint up the rest. Is he suffering from any other injuries?” If it is just his arm, Knock Out should be able to handle the repair, or at least instruct his partner in patching it up. If he really was a medic worth his expensive, ostentatious finish. 
“Not that I could tell. Just scuffed up and some dents. I can buff those out later.”
“How thoughtful,” Ratchet grumbled. “Right, let’s get this over with quickly.” No point in becoming overly familiarized with Breakdown. Ratchet did not intend for this to be a repeat venture. Judging by Breakdown’s general disposition, he didn’t seem to be either. “Okay, first zoom me in on the wire connections and let me see what we are working with. You clamp those cables yourself?”
There was a distant grunt as Breakdown slowly turned the video feed to show every angle of the injured arm. “I’m his assistant. Nurse. Whatever. I help K.O. in the medbay often enough to how to clamp some slaggin’ cables. My helm’s hard but it’s not full of lead.”
Ratchet didn’t want to say he was impressed but…well, it wasn’t like any of his mechs knew how to clamp cables or even what cable clamps were. 
“They look good,” Ratchet muttered the slight praise. He quickly coughed, clearing his intake as Ratchet shifted to a more authoritative, professional tone. “Alright, does Knock Out have anything for splints? Tension cables, mesh tape, any medgrade solvent. You are going to want to keep it clean to avoid rust infections. Oh, and nanite gel will be useful as well for doing some minor restorative work to the light damaged cables…”
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Breakdown wasn’t sure how long had passed before Knock Out’s optics flickered on. Warm, red glowed in the dimly light medbay as the medic slowly took in his situation. There was…a strange look on his partner’s face. Breakdown leaned closer as Knock Out slowly looked around. It seemed to take the speedster a moment before his optics landed on Breakdown. 
“Medbay?” he asked, his tone…unsure. Off. 
Worry immediately crashed over him. Breakdown quickly scanned the console monitors but by his limited knowledge, everything looked correct. Ratchet had even confirmed so when Breakdown had shown him all the readings. All Knock Out’s meters were stabilized, his energon levels were satisfactory and even his plating had started to lose the gray sheen, familiar bright red peeking through. 
Oh Primus, what if his processor took damage. Breakdown had been so focused on the mangled arm, he hadn’t even considered damage to his helm. Breakdown barely knew how to apply the temporary welds even with an experienced medic walking him through it. Processor damage though . That wasn’t even Knock Out’s specialty. Breakdown had learned everything he had from his partner and he had done a basic helm check. No dents, no scraps. The virus detector found nothing. 
“Yeah, K.O. You got hit. How’re you feelin’? In any pain?”
“Nope,” Knock Out let the sound pop from his lips. A little giggle followed which was very un-Knock Out.  “I feel great .”
Looked like the anesthesia was still cycling through his systems. Breakdown had hooked up the machine by muscle memory. The machine itself had little use, no injury brought into the medbay really needed more than a mild numb agent. The last time machine had been used was when Megatron had been comatose-
Scrap. In his haste to hook up Knock Out to the machine and to take care of the energon leaks, he hadn’t even thought to recalibrate the machine for Knock Out’s frame. Breakdown swallowed the rising panic of knowing Knock Out’s systems were currently cycling through a Megatron-sized dose of anesthesia. The dosage for a mech nearly double, if not triple Knock Out’s capacity.
He had half the mind to call Ratchet back. He was halfway through enabling the scrambler when Knock Out let out a happy, content sigh.
It…didn’t look like it was having any adverse effects. Sure, Knock Out seemed a little out of it, but if that’s all, maybe he could hold off on reaching back out to the Autobot medic. He didn’t want to test his luck. He didn’t know what would happen if Megatron found him in communication with the Autobots. For any reason. 
“Happy to hear it,” Breakdown said, thankful that as much as this whole situation was a slaggin’ mess, at least he wasn’t in pain. There was still that dazed look in Knock Out’s optics and a looseness in his limbs that Breakdown hoped was just a temporary symptom of the anesthesia. 
“You patched me up?” asked Knock Out with a soft, lofty laugh. The sound shouldn’t peak his anxiety but he’d never , in all the vorns they had known each other, ever heard Knock Out giggle . “Where d’you learn all that?” He was beaming, all too proud for a mech that nearly lost his entire arm. 
Breakdown felt nauseated by the vast contradiction of utter adoration or deep, spark-aching worry. However, despite both of these, he could not burst Knock Out’s bubble that in truth he had called the ornery Autobot medic for help. 
“Only from the best,” he murmured. 
Lazily Knock Out’s optics dragged down his frame, lingering with a small pout at every scratch and dent he spied along the way. It ended at his shoulder joint, which even Breakdown had to admit, didn’t look all that much better with the temporary splints than it had looked just hanging from those scant few wires.
“‘S not bad,” Knock Out murmured, his voice slightly slurred and sleepy. “Aiming for my gig?”
“Not sure my shoddy work is gonna pass any examinations,” Breakdown responded softly, holding Knock Out’s uninjured servo in-between his own. “It’s a mess. You’re going to have to help me clean up whatever I fragged up.”
“Mmmm,” Knock Out hummed, optics unfocused and slightly dim. “Not sure I have the capacity to give instruction now.”
“Just rest,” Breakdown lifted the clawed servo to his lips, speaking directly into the metal. “I’m sorry.”
“Why are you apologizing, silly?” Knock Out slurred, digits wiggling playfully but oh so weakly between his palms. “You fixed me up.”
“Knock Out-”
“Shhhhh,” the drowsy medic hushed, clawed digit clumsily landed across Breakdown’s lips. “The doctor is speaking.” A sloppy, drug induced smile crawled across his lips plates. “One medical professional to another. Besides-” Knock Out dropped his voice to a soft whisper “-you took care of me. That’s all I could ever ask of you.”
Breakdown swallowed the knot of emotion rising up his intake. He pressed another kiss to Knock Out’s finger before gently placing his servo back onto the medberth. 
“Leaving?” Knock Out asked quietly as Breakdown stood. It made the large mech pause. It wasn’t often he heard his partner so weak, so vulnerable. 
“Just going to clean up.”
“That can wait. Come back here.” There was a slight pout on the speedster’s face. “You know an important aspect of patient care is…” The words failed him suddenly, his pout turning into a confused frown. 
“Bedside manner?”
“Yes. Yes, yes. Exactly.”
Breakdown slowly eased himself back into the seat, his spark warming as the smile blossomed on Knock Out’s face once more. His arm flopped out of the berth to reach Breakdown but it seemed his fine motor skills were too lax to do much than hang limply in the space between them. 
“Okay, K.O.” Breakdown murmured, picking up the loopy medic’s servo once more. “I ain’t going anywhere.”
“Good.”
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wishvaish · 2 years ago
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Some asked me why I hate the character Remus Lupin so much.
And people who have read my posts will think that probably it is related to my even more strong dislike for wolfstar. But surprisingly it is not at all related to that.
So, long story short is that I read a fic which was done so nicely that from there on me and remus were always on odds.
For those who want long story-
I was actually into time traveling fics a few years back. You know where hermione goes back in time and makes all things right.
This was one such fic. Where she is reborn as the twin sister of james Potter.
Now, one thing people should know about these fic is that here she is paired with prominent people we know from first war time.
More often it is not james, because of his epic love story with lily or the fact that her best friend will not be born if she is paired such. Others who are often paired with her are sirius, remus, Regulus and snape.
I was into sirius-hermione pairing and read all of them like drugs.
Now my expectations when reading such fics is that the romance take a little back seat and the drama related to war should provide more entertainment.
So mostly avoided fics where she travelled through 2-3 boyfriends to reach to her final guy. Sirius. But this story was exception.
I was reading one such fic in which this pairing was taged. Sirius and Hermione
In it sirius and remus both have feelings for hermione. And neither made a move because they knew about how the other felt and didn't want to come in the way of rthe other out of brotherhood.
We as reader are not told which one of them she has feelings for. Maybe both??????????????????The player witch😎.
Anyways. But this change when after the incident with snape in the shack, remus lets go of all his concern for his friend's feelings and makes a move to the girl.
All is well and good. And they slowly and steadily ease into the relationship. And things are in early stage.
This carries on for a few months where sirius is shown to be feeling remorseful for what he did to his friend. And is also a little heartbroken seeing the two together but he takes it like a champ and does not feel any ill will towards the new couple.
One day the marauders are planning some prank. During which remus starts taunting sirius because he still feeling bitter. Peter and james try to handle the situation but it keep on accelerating to no avail.
In the heat of the moment, remus decides to taunt sirius that he has got the girl they both wanted and tells in detail about what the two got up two just the last night. ( about their bedroom activities).
James first of all punches remus and breaks his nose for speaking like this about his sister. As if she were an object.
Turns out hermione was also nearby and listened to all this and confronts remus about using her and their relationship to make sirius suffer. She asks him if he would have asked her out if it weren't for his desire to punish sirius by asking her out.
This scene was done so fantastically that after that day lupin's character was gone for me. As soon as he comes as a prominent character in any fic, I take my leave or skip those parts.
Now obviously, the Hermione, sirius and james in that particular fic forgave poor lupin. But I never could find it in me to be able to do so. I simply was hoping till the end of the fic that they will just kick him out of their life.
This is my problem as a reader. I get too emotionally attached when the story is really well done. yeah I am malleable like that. 🥺🥺
I am once again reading a fic with sirius/ harry pairing, this too has a problematic remus but the author says that they are trying to aim for his redemption. It is called "RETURN FROM THE VEIL BY @jmagnabo92
This fic too is such where in the end the protagonist will forgive the bad guy but I will be left with even more bad feelings about this particular character than before.
So, this is the reason of me hating remus, not because of canon or wolfstar or any toxic story I read, simply a well done fic where he tried to take away the female protagonist from her destined male protagonist.
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meimi-haneoka · 2 years ago
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You know, I really appreciate Syaoran developing independent friendships within the wider friend circle. He was having lunch with Yamazaki, Naoko and Chiharu (forgot the chapter) without Sakura or Tomoyo being present and was clearly in a conversation where he felt comfortable enough to put his point across to Naoko despite his contrary opinion. Plus, I found it so cute that he was worried about 'Yanagizawa' pulling all nighters and asked her to take care of her health (again, forgot the chapter). It really shows how far Syaoran has come as a character. I wish we get a OVA or extra story elaborating how Syaoran changed as a person for the better in Japan. I wonder what the reaction of his former classmates back in Hong Kong was once he moved back to Hong Kong. They would have gone "Li is much calmer now. He even talks to us nicely. I wonder what happened in Japan? Did he go soft out there?" Buhaha. And then Meiling jumps in with "Nah. He just caught feelings out there." Ahahahaha.
Hellooo, thank you for the nice ask! Yeaaaah, this is something I'm 99% sure I've mentioned in my past chapter analysis too, how wonderful it was to see Syaoran interacting and tightening his bond with the other friends, aside from Sakura and Tomoyo. I really appreciated that, especially the interactions he's got with Naoko (so peculiar to see him getting worried over a friend who's not Tomoyo or his girlfriend, right?) and it really goes to show what a tremendous character development he had from the Clow Card Arc days. A development that didn't stop with the end of Sakura Card Arc but actually continues in Clear Card, with the consolidation of the friendships he made in Japan, which are quite predictive of the bonds he will keep even once he enters his adulthood.
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Seeing him in chapter 59 stating, all serious and slightly embarrassed, that he wanted to be of help to everyone in the preparations of the play was really sweet, and I also loved that he was able to discuss with Naoko about his role in a very mature way. I really can feel CLAMP's need for these kids to grow up mentally, emotionally and even socially, therefore the decision to "split" the original Tomoeda elementary group and particularly to "split" Syaoran and Sakura, in order to allow them to experience also other bonds and not end up attached to the hips, so to speak. I also want to mention the absolutely beautiful "boys talk" that Syaoran and Yamazaki have in one of the Clear Card Drama CDs, it's one of the "original contents" and something I felt was missing from Syaoran's friendship with Yamazaki: a boys talk about their relationship with their girlfriends 😁 (and Yamazaki proved to be so mature, despite his foolish appearance). Syaoran couldn't talk to Sakura yet about her problem with her powers, and the guilt was eating his soul away, so he seeked advice and reassurance from his best buddy: another sign of maturity (instead of keeping everything inside like he used to do).
All in all, Syaoran really benefited not only from the interactions with Sakura but all the Tomoeda kids, and I'm sure his classmates in Hong Kong noticed too! 😁
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roxannarambles · 1 year ago
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Finally finished playing Legends: Arceus-- the main storyline, at least, I have not completed the full Dex, but I did everything else. Some thoughts below.
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So, there's a lot this game has going for it. There are lots of lovely natural environments to run around in and explore, and the pokemon really do feel integrated into a complete world, full of personality and ways of interacting with them you just don't get in other games. The controls feel good, the mounts are very fun to use, the aesthetic is on point, and the story's pretty fun. Crafting is a neat addition to the game, there's plenty of side-quests, and there's some interesting new battle mechanics. Overall, they switch things up from the mainline games and try a lot of new things, which I do commend them for.
But, um. Here's the thing. I really hate the gameplay, for the most part. Which is why I bought the game and really, really wanted to enjoy it, and I tried several times to play through, but each time I got so intensely bored I just couldn't go through with it. Don't get me wrong, catching pokemon and using berries and stun items and other stuff feels good, and it feels fun. For like, the first hour. But you have to keep doing it.
Over and over and over.
I just don't enjoy catching a billion pokemon and grinding out other research tasks, like beating up on wild pokemon in various ways, using a specific move a certain number of times, etc. It's so mindless and dull and grindy and boring. You know how PokemonGo is mostly just . . . catching pokemon? Yeah. That gets old, I hate that. I can see how it's just chill and relaxing for some people, but it just isn't for me. I did my damned best to get into it, I promise, but I never did. It was a slog the whole way.
I tried to make it more interesting to me by doing a "bug only challenge." I was only allowed to catch and use bug types, the whole game. (The exceptions are plot-required catches: namely, the Tutorial pokemon and a Dusknoir at some point in the main storyline) And it . . . was sorta nice, I guess? But it didn't do much to make it more fun to me. In some ways it made it even more of a slog since it's harder to earn Star Ranks when you're severely limiting the species you catch. Still, I'm kinda proud I was able to do it, I guess?
Trainer battles in the game are frustrating, too, due to their rarity. You do have battles in the game, and new battle mechanics to try out, too, which gives you a desire to have battles-- especially since it can break up the monotonous research tasks. However, battles are so incredibly rare, and typically incredibly, incredibly easy and are over in almost an instant. You never get to really use the pokemon you've trained. And I get it, the emphasis of the game is research, not battling, since battling is still in its infancy in this era. It still feels frustrating though. I craved battles.
I didn't get to ever feel attached to my team, either. Since most of the game involves research tasks, a lot of those tasks involve battling against wild pokemon. If I used my main team for all that, they'd get way overlevelled in a hurry. So I was always using different individuals. I hardly ever saw my main team, so I did not get the chance to bond with them emotionally-- especially since we rarely had trainer battles anyway.
I didn't feel attached to most of the characters in the game either, to be frank. This isn't any fault of the writing, I actually think the writing was very strong in this game, this is more of just a personal preference. The Pokemon Professor is fine enough, but I never got over the disgusting pube-hair look he has going on his face (I am allowed to dislike characters for shallow reasons, okay). Rei was okay, but I certainly didn't feel fond over him. The leaders of the Pearl and Diamond clans were okay I guess, but the 'arguments' about time and space were so fucking stupid and took up most their screen time, so it kind of ruins them. I just, I dunno, I didn't feel strongly about any of them.
Except for Volo. I always liked him. (The moment I saw him I hoped he was a butch lesbian and got all excited. When I found out he was a dude I was a bit disappointed but oh well, he's still pretty) He was friendly and charismatic and I appreciated his curiosity and his wanderer's spirit.
It's a shame I didn't play and finish the game when I first bought it, because then I might not have been spoiled to Volo's little twist at the end. But, finding out Volo's heavy involvement in the game and the twist at the end was what motivated me to bother finishing the game, so. There's that. I really don't think anything else would have motivated me, because the gameplay was just such a slog for me.
I am glad I bothered to finish the main story, though. It was interesting. I do love the premise of people being very wary and frightened of pokemon and exploring that kind of world. Portraying pokemon in a scarier role was a bold move for the franchise and I love them exploring that side. I LOVE pokemon chasing after you and attacking you directly and the 'alpha' pokemon mechanic and the spookiness of it all. And the story is honestly a neat one. The idea of MC being displaced in time and space and having to work for their room and board has a cozy-survival feel to it, and the deep mistrust of everyone and slowly earning their respect was interesting. Although I did feel actively annoyed that no matter how much work I did, and how many requests I fulfilled, people still often treated me with mistrust. But I think that was the point, to be honest!
When you quell the final Noble and the sky goes boom, that's when things get truly fun, though. I love that Kamado turns on you, which was not too surprising since he'd been one of the ones who really banged on and on about mistrusting you the most. I LOVE the short scene of showing you being walked out of the village as you're banned. I LOVED the feeling of being suddenly on your own, and I LOVE that both Pearl and Diamond clans turned their backs on you so that they wouldn't risk war with Galaxy. And who is there when you have no one else to turn to, alone in the wilderness, when you need a friend the most?
Volo.
He brings you to Cogita, where she fulfills the heavy burden of Exposition Lady. The years of bearing that burden of Exposition have turned her tired and a little snippy, apparently (in truth she's only snippy with Volo, and I think it's because she senses a bad aura, but from an innocent standpoint it seems needlessly snippy, since Volo's Mask is a genuinely nice guy and he's given a nearly flawless performance). I don't know if Cogita was even needed for the story, since Volo's specialty is myth research and he could have easily given us that exposition and also given us a neutral ground to shelter at while the other clans turned their backs on us. But whatever, they wanted a Cynthia ancestor, I can understand that. Dang her house was pretty to look at, and the music there was great. They really put effort into that part.
And then you go and forge the red chain and climb the mountain and . . . potato guy? Why are you here? Oh, he's randomly a ninja. Actually, that part was hilarious and I loved it, I had a grudge against Beni the ENTIRE game because he didn't want to serve me his stupid mochi, so I was so excited to kick his ass. And the extra lore was nice, not to mention the extremely rare chance to have a battle. Anyway, after that, you battle the boss and then take care of the scary Legendary pokemon and all that jazz, and the story . . . ends. Rather abruptly, to be honest. It felt a bit sudden, as if Act 2 was cut a little short. I think it's because the post-game is still what you'd call the main story. Post-game content normally is extra, bonus stuff, but man, if you skip the post-game plot in Arceus, you'll be missing a whole chunk of actual story. Tbh I think they shouldn't have rolled credits 'til the end of the Volo battle, but that's nitpicking. Besides, it amuses me to think some people stopped after the credits and never learned the truth about Volo, which is just a hilarious thought.
Act 3 takes place after a festival celebrating the fact MC saved the world and the Diamond and Pearl clans no longer need to fight (sadly, we don't get to see the festival though!! other than a tiny photo in the credits!) It's pretty short and mostly running around doing errands involving facing off against legendaries and mythicals; the most satisfying errand was a rematch with Kamado because it was a trainer battle aaaaaa!! So few of those. And then we climb the mountain again because Volo, um, really wants to meet the creator's 'unwanted child' for some reason . . . sounds like a good idea right??
The battle with him was fun. Having Cynthia's banger theme was hype, didn't expect it. I was doing the bug challenge run, my team was levels ~60-65, and I beat him on my first go, down to my last pokemon, Heracross on full health.
And then he brings out Giratina without letting me heal. Ahaha, uhhm.
Thankfully I had a lot of Max Revives stuffed in my bag which I FINALLY had a use for. The second phase for Giratina was not expected, so that was a fun surprise, but I scraped by on a few more max revives and careful juggling, and we won. (I dunno what happens once you meet Arceus itself, because I think I need to 100% the Dex for that to happen, but presumably our character can finally return home.)
Was it a good game? Yes, objectively speaking, definitely. I think Legends: Arceus was a very strong game. The writing was very good, and that's a precious rarity in Pokemon games. The world itself was carefully designed, polished, pretty, and felt like truly exploring nature and encountering pokemon, in a unique and refreshing way. The gameplay tried something very new and it generally implemented its intentions very well-- it felt fun to control the character, to throw pokeballs, to craft and collect items, to use mounts, and go up against the Nobles. The story and the universe cast pokemon in an exciting new perspective.
It's just a shame that a million grindy research tasks are so utterly boring to carry out, because the main thrust of the game and what you spend the most time on just plain sucked for me to do. So much so, that I did not enjoy most of my experience playing this game. But oh well, what can you do?
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agonycrossbow · 1 year ago
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Remake Claire took Remake Leon's virginity headcanon
So, in OG canon, RE2 ends with Leon being all amped up to go after Umbrella. This apparently ends up with him and Claire in an argument about the next steps to take, and he all but shoves her to go in the opposite direction of him and Sherry so that she can find Chris -- and then Leon and Sherry get picked up by the CIA just a few hours later.
Like, that whole thing happens really fucking fast in OG. Leon has not had a chance to sleep in the time between driving into Raccoon City and being kidnapped into CIA custody.
And yet, somehow, despite this, Claire is able to keep in contact with Leon to the point of being able to email him during the events of Code Veronica??? Like, it makes absolutely no fucking sense at all, and Capcom never bothered to try to explain it specifically because it's complete plot convenience nonsense lmao
So I feel like this is one of the changes that Remake is making -- because RE2make did not end with the same tone as OG RE2. RE2make ends with Leon looking at Claire and Sherry as his immediate priority, and if any Umbrella shit pops up, they'll deal with it then.
Leon's wording during the intro of RE4make is suspect, too -- that he was "later asked" by the CIA to join up. That makes me think that this didn't happen right away -- that there was at least a handful of days, or even maybe a full week, in between him escaping Raccoon City and the CIA getting a hold of him. And this is sort of backed up by the lingering nerve damage in his left shoulder in RE4make -- he probably carried that open gunshot wound around for a bit longer in Remake than he did in OG canon.
(side note: I know that the photo of Leon that Krauser has been very uhhhh attached to, let's say, looks like Leon was literally just taken off the streets like he was in OG canon, but like. Capcom wasn't going to make a whole new, cleaned up version of his RE2make character model just for Krauser's jerk off fantasies LMAO it was just easier to put in his endgame RE2make model there)
So this meant that there was a not-insignificant amount of time in Remake canon where Leon, Claire, and Sherry were basically playing house, so to speak, while Leon and Claire tried to figure out what to do next.
I imagine this is when it happened.
You've got these two college-aged kids trapped in a domestic situation together after escaping from an actual literal waking nightmare together. They're hurting not just physically, but emotionally. They've been isolated from the rest of the world and have only each other to trust and confide in and try to figure out a way of coping with any of it and moving forward.
Yeah, that's going to boil over at some point very quickly. Any number of things could have been the trigger point for it.
It could have been Claire helping Leon keep his wound clean and feeling like she's actually helping in a way that matters while he's a little overwhelmed by someone taking care of him.
Or it could have been a melancholic moment where they're both lost and directionless and feeling helpless, and they both end up looking for some comfort in each other, because that's all they have.
Or it could have been a tense moment when one or both of them can't make sense of why they're still alive -- or if they're still alive, and they just need to feel something to remind themselves they're still human.
Or it could have been a quiet moment in the middle of the night, where neither one of them says anything at all, and neither one of them is quite sure just how Claire ended up on Leon's lap while he kisses her as though he's afraid she'll disappear if he stops.
It doesn't really matter what it was. No matter what happened, it happened.
And I don't think that Leon would have told her up front that only the first two fingers on his right hand know what the inside of a vagina feels like. She probably suspected it when she noticed how nervous he was, and she definitely figured it out after the third time he went too far and accidentally pulled out of her completely mid-thrust instead of just pulling back -- but I don't think that this was information that he volunteered.
But Claire was probably the awakening of Leon's praise kink, because I'm sure that once she did figure it out, she literally took him by the hands and walked him through it. And after a few comments along the lines of "You're a fast learner" and "That's it, you've got it" and "Keep going, just like that" and "You're doing so fucking good" -- Leon learned something about himself that he did not know previously.
I don't think he regrets it, and I don't think that he ever will.
Well, I mean, I'm sure he regrets it a little whenever she decides to hold it over his head later in life, because she's Claire Redfield and there's absolutely zero chance that she's going to let him forget that she was the one who taught him how to please a woman.
And he probably regretted it a little bit the first time that he ever had to look Chris in the face.
And then also one other time way later down the line when it hit him that he was now much closer to Chris than he was to Claire, and that weird "oh my god I fucked your sister, and now I'm also kind of attracted to you oh god no why is my life like this" realization came over him.
But. You know.
I don't think he regrets it in a serious way. It was an important moment in both of their lives -- it meant something; it wasn't like he slept with her just for the sake of losing his virginity. It helped both of them get through the worst parts of the darkest time either of them had had to face or endure. Going through Raccoon City itself was the easy part -- fighting was simple, and it kept both of them focused. But it was the aftermath, when the enormity of all that had happened settled down on them -- that was the true nightmare of it all. And they got through it together.
Do I think either of them caught feelings because of it? No, I don't -- so, there was no heartbreak attached to this at any point, either. But it was still emotional and poignant and it mattered, and I think both of them are really glad they did it.
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gimmickdreamworld2518 · 1 year ago
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You ever really thought hard how Yuna and Kaidoul had almost a very similar backstory? Hear me out before anything
Yuna Goha
It is very obvious to me whenever I talk about her character that her attachment towards people is strongly connected through if they could accept her. Rovain accepted her so she made her the big center focus of her life. She would do absolutely anything for her gaze even if it meant doing things that was a bit unorthodox. Now, she has almost a similar reaction to when yoga does the same reaction. When Rovain didn't reciprocate her feelings (despite Go Rush proving that wrong) the only way she was able to do it is by confronting ahead on and letting go. By moving on she was able to finish her story arc
Kaidoul
I'm not going to get too deep into his backstory as we all know it and I don't want to upset the person who even made me realize what I'm about to write. In short, it was a tragic character from the start and I absolutely appreciate how the ending was for him. If it is worth anything I'd say he has the best ending out of all Go Rush stories. However back on how it relates to Yuna, he also craved praise and acceptance from the Creator. Somebody who accepted him and he adored them for it. Somebody he was willing to even go as far as the causing so many issues for.
But why is this important? Think about how Yuna's focus episode was. Yuga was literally the representation of the creator. Somebody who created such amazing things but was always absent as he had better things to do with his own creations. In a sense, Yuga's absence within Yuna's fake world was almost how the Creator was there but was emotionally absent to Kaidoul. Even at the end it was world-shattering to the point where it felt like nothing was right. I didn't notice how similar these two stories kind of felt until...a crack idea. And it's almost something I probably would have never came together if it wasn't for that person. I mean even the visuals
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They feel so similar and kind of give off the same vibe. A heartbroken moment with a person who means the most is fading away (or in Kaidoul's case. Both of them) but what's also similar in these moments is that both of them was a moment of acceptance. Accepting that sometimes the ending you may want is not the ending you're going to get. (I also noticed the time stamps are similar-)
Perhaps I'm reaching too deep and this is all just a bunch of Muma jumbo at 4:00 a.m. but my friend isn't online so you all will do
Edit: 6:01am
The similarities becomes a little bit more scary when you remember Yuga/Creator/Otes bs. Yes I know it's weird that I remembered it kind of late but I haven't gotten sleep I'm going to go to sleep now
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miratenebrarum · 10 months ago
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@de-fright-ful
Hi Gio! I’m spontaneously manifesting into your inbox with a strangely specific character writing prompts! Haha. Anywho! Disregarding the low hanging fruit of characters bound in a very literal way to objects. Do any of your characters find themselves getting emotionally attached to things they really shouldn’t? Such as objects, tools, routines, rituals, etc. If yes, does this attachment to these things limit them in any way? (Being unable to throw out objects/tools when they stop being useful, being frightened and upset if they’re lost, getting too comfortable in a routine and not able to separate themselves from it?) And bonus points! Are they self-aware enough to know they tend to become emotionally attached to these things?
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[ HOOOH BOY OKAY THIS IS FUN because generally speaking? Most of my muses don't really care for. earthly possessions, let's say. some because they see them just as a mean to get something done, such as Enki with his books, some other because they really pay no mind to a specific object in particular -- 166 wants a bible with her whenever possible and Zazel plays around with her puppets, for example, but neither would really mind if those items were replaced with anything else, or Eugénie with her tools that could, and most often than not have to be replaced, even if she takes care of them as if they're her babies.
of course ignoring poor Dr.Shaw who's literally bound to a fucked up cursed amulet, weeeeell.
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while he occasionally picks up random garbage during the game as well, P becomes. Something dangerously close to a hoarder in his post-game verse. Rather than the items themselves, with maybe the exception of vynils, he's more attached to the idea of the memories a certain item might bring - a lost pacifier that belonged to a child born during the frenzy, what remains of a portrait a man made for his lover, an old newspaper that talked about the anniversary of Krat. he's aware of his attachments, but doesn't see the issue with it.
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Karl and his violin. Yea i could talk about Arma since. She's technically an object, but that's different, right? He's very attached to the violin, and to his little pub, and to his weekly solo concerts, and the memories that are still well hidden in that abandoned area of the park. Almost jealous, even. He knows well it's not a good way to deal with his mixed thoughts when it comes to Rachel, but at this point. What can you do?
Might as well play some Mozart and move on with your day. And hope nobody feels like interrupting and getting stabbed.
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And lastly, Bendy and his merch. Wether it's a matter of ego or, once again, clinging on way better days, he doesn't know. Hell, I don't know either!!! maybe it's a mix of both.
Once again, it's not really healthy nor he's going to stop complaining whenever someone moves his plushies slightly on the left while cleaning. It's in character for him, anyway ]
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cookieandbread · 2 years ago
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I rewatched X-men Apocalypse like today and here are my thoughts (keep in mind I barely remember the other movies and have not read a single X-men comics in my entire life. also I am incredibely sleep deprived and english is not my first language)
I don't remember much from first class but I remember I LOVED ALEX. AND THEY KILLED HIM. THEY KILLED MY BABY. (I barely remembered his name but I'm emotionally attached okay)
I also remember Erik and Charles being gay as fuck and it's so funny how hard the writers of this movie try to say "no no they're not gay" but fail miserably
Erik losing his family (AGAIN) killed me tho. he's not even my favorite character but PLEASE give him a happy ending. PLEASE. I could write an essay on why he needs a happy ending.
about Erik's family... I love and hate the "Peter is secretely Erik's son and he has to tell him" storyline. love because I have daddy issues and I love Peter and hate because there's one thing and one thing only I remember from Dark Phoenix and it's that PETER DOES NOT TELL ERIK HE IS HIS SON. IN FACT, PETER ONLY APPEARS IN LIKE THE 20 FIRST MINUTES OF THE MOVIE AND THEN FUCK OFF. I HAVE TO LIVE WITH THE FACT THAT I'LL NEVER SEE THAT DAD REVEAL ON SCREEN AND I DON'T THINK I'LL EVER BE ABLE TO HEAL FROM IT. I'll never recover. "I'm your... I'm here for my family too." will haunt me til the day I die. (Now don't get me wrong I 100% understand why he didn't tell him at that moment and it would have been fine by me IF HE HAD TOLD HIM IN DARK PHOENIX)
why does Pietro Maximoff gets so little respect? in the MCU they kill him in the first movie he appears in and the Fox changes his name and shits on the only storyline he has. why do they hate him?????
still on Erik: did he really need to be the villain again? if I remember correctly he kind of turned bad guy at the end of First Class because he killed the guy who murdered his mom because he couldn't make the coin move and then he was full on bad guy in that one X-men where they went in the past (Days of Future Past according to google) and it made sense because of his past and how he was forced to see violence as the only answer but like... AGAIN? with Apocalypse???? (according to google his name is En Sabah Nur) I get the guy had kind of manipulated his four accomplices into joining him but like... did it have to be Erik??? I get the whole repeating the cycle of violence, but isn't the point to break out of it? it feels kind of repetitive
still on En Sabah Nur/Apocalypse, I would have loved to see more how he manipulated Storm, Magneto, Angel and Psylocke to join him. while Erik had a reason to join back the X-men (he's super gay for Charles), Storm changing sides felt kind out of nowhere???? like we see her hesitate a little but we don't understand why she hesitates now when Apocalypse is fighting for the world he promised and not when he killed people (albeit to protect her but like...) I mean I guess there's the whole hero worship for Ravent but then why did she went with Apocalypse in the first place? Raven is a hero because she showed how mutants could cohabitate with humans, not by destroying them!!!! if Storm admires her, why going against everything she represents???? AND WHY DID THEY ALL WENT "yeah okay still rooting for that guy" WHEN APOCALYPSE WAS EXPLAINING TO CHARLES HOW BIG HIS CONTROL ISSUES WERE
whatever is going on with Hank and Raven... I just... don't like that ship. it made me uncomfortable when I watched First Class, it still makes me uncomfortable.
I remember liking her more in First Class and Days of Future Past tho??? she kind of annoyed me in Apocalypse. like wdym you wanna make child (I think they're children? not Peter but the rest) soldiers???? did the first X-men not teach you anything???? YOU AND HANK ARE LITERALY THE ONLY SURVIVORS OF THAT?
they never give us Storm's name??? or maybe I wasn't paying attention but I'm pretty sure THEY NEVER GIVE US HER ACTUAL NAME??? I guess I could find it if I searched on internet (update: I did, she's called Ororo Munroe, that's so cool) but I'm pretty sure they never say it in the movie???? like they just call her Storm???? DO THEY EVEN CALL HER STORM BECAUSE NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT I DON'T REMEMBER PEOPLE CALLING HER THAT EITHER???? (I have a short attention span tho)
from the little I remember of the 2000's trilogy, my favorite chatacter is Storm and I was so sad she had like so little dialogue. I hope it's better in Dark Phoenix??? I mean I'm not gonna rewatch it because I remember really not liking it the first time but PLEASE I BEG YOU let my girl TALK and have a PERSONALITY
Kurt is adorable. I just want to wrap him in bubble wrap and make sure nothing happens to him ever again.
I like Jean but I really don't care for her whole Phoenix thing. it probably has to do with how many times I've watched X-men 3 when I was younger (too many times) and how much I did not like Dark Phoenix but it bores me. like okay we get it she has that dangerous thing inside of her and it's very destructive and it's going to kill everyone she loves and she's going to have to die to prevent that. we get it. can we move on now? idk it frustrates me that Jean gets to have a movie centered around her not once but twice while both Peter and Ororo (and so many other but they're my favs) can't have basic character development.
I genuinly did not care for Scott. also how did he not get character development when his brother died??? he cried about it 2 seconds and then poof. out of sight out of mind. I wanna know how he gets rid of his grief so easily
I've checked when the other movies take place and... I don't understand... how are they aging... I'm so confused... wtf is that timeline... why is there a movie every 10 year? what is everyone's age ????
do I regret rewatching this movie? yes. yes I do. now I am going to obsess over how they could have handled so many things (notably Peter's daddy issues) so much better and lose all my sleep to fix-it fics.
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obsessivelollipoplalala · 1 year ago
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I also love getting people into my other interests by simply bombarding them with posts about them long enough 🥰 Feel free to send more asks about gomens or Queen lol
Lol I've got both, well opinion gomens one and a question in the other but I'll send another ask for that.
I don't agree or like the Metatron - Coffee theories that make the rounds because I feel like it take the nuance away from Aziraphale's character because we had the whole season setting him up as not always going with the heaven's plan but not denouncing what he thinks is right too so I don't think the end was out of character for him and if let's be honest if everything went sailingly smooth there wouldn't be a next season, without setting up a conflict I don't see where they could have gone the next time.
Oh, I’m not afraid to say that the Coffee Theory is pure cope. The end wasn’t out of character at all; Aziraphale genuinely believed he’d be able to fix things, make a difference, and do good if he took the Metatron’s offer. Doing good has always been a central part of his character! That’s why he’s the most traditionally “angelic” of the angels we’ve seen. I also think he realized that shit was about to get real when he heard about The Second Coming, too, and that cemented his decision to go (we saw his hesitancy before that). But in general, Aziraphale making misguided decisions because he thinks it’s the right thing to do, and his being brainwashed into thinking Heaven and God are still good no matter what, have been major parts of his character throughout the show. You can argue that the Metatron is a secret villain and was being emotionally manipulative to get Aziraphale to come along, but Aziraphale still chose to go of his own free will because he thinks he can fix things (like he thinks he can fix Crowley wrongly Falling) and wants Heaven to be good.
But I swear, a lot of people in this fandom can’t handle these characters being flawed, so people came up with a theory that would render Aziraphale back into their uncomplicated fanon version of him. I really think people got attached to woobified fanfic versions of these characters after the happy ending of s1, so they’re distressed over…basic conflict at the end of s2. I’d understand if it were OOC, but it’s not. It’s just wild to me, like the Final Fifteen are so obviously written as the temporary breakup part of a traditional romance, with a clear setup for resolution in s3, and people flipped out. I saw some BNFs from s1 more or less like, “Screw this, I hate Aziraphale now!!!” I remember seeing a screenshot on twitter of someone angry at Gaiman because gomens was their escapist, comfort show, and the end of s2 was too upsetting for them.
Not only does that sum up the motivation behind Coffee Theory, but it’s also kind of baffling and concerning, like…if such basic conflict to move a plot forward stresses you out so much, please log off and gain some distance and perspective. Like you said, anon, there would be nowhere to go in s3 otherwise. I love fluffy one-shots with no plot, but that doesn’t work for TV.
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aeoki · 1 year ago
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Fist of the Shangri-la Idol - Epilogue 2
Location: “Fist of the Shangri-la Idol” Movie Set Characters: Subaru, Hokuto, Mao, Eichi & Wataru Season: Summer
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Eichi: In any case, it seems our Yuzuru has a hidden talent for acting and his skills have already been acknowledged by professionals.
But according to what the director said, there were no emotions in his acting.
That’s why he was chosen for the supporting role.
His acting didn’t feel emotional at all – it didn’t have any weight to it.
He’s always like that but he has a tendency to draw a line and take a step back with regards to his social position.
That’s why he appears to be like a soulless doll and is unable to move people emotionally with his acting.
Subaru: That’s why you created that “break-in”, right?
Eichi: Yeah. I had a professional act as a pervert to scare Touri. It was all part of my plan.
Even though Yuzuru always appears to be unconcerned, if Touri’s safety is in the picture, then even he will feel fury welling up within him.
I wanted him to understand that and to use it in his acting.
I wanted to release the ferocious beast within Yuzuru, understand his life and habits and tame him.
I do feel bad for what I did to Touri.
But I also had to awaken the fear and the physiological disgust fitting for the movie’s “heroine”, since he’s someone who’s always being protected.
Mao: (Ohh… Touri looked completely fine even when he was kidnapped in the movie, huh.)
(He looked like he was certain he’d definitely be saved, so there wasn’t a sense of urgency.)
(But now…)
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Touri: “............”
Mao: (He’s doing a good job acting as the scared “heroine” who can’t even talk after being treated poorly.)
(He’s using the feelings he gained from the experience with the pervert in his acting.)
Yuzuru: “━━━━━”
Mao: (Yuzuru came to relearn his attachment to Touri and is acting out his role as a violent villain realistically.)
(All of that was for this? I guess I’m still nothing compared to the “Ex-President”...)
Eichi: Hehe. There’s no need for you to imitate me, though. There’s no guarantee that what I’m doing is what’s absolutely “right”.
Mao: Could you not read my mind!?
Eichi: Hehe. I tried learning one of Wataru’s tricks. I’m good at copying other’s skills – you’re pretty skilled too, so I think you’d also be cut out for it ♪
Mao: …Well, I’ll work hard in my own way. After all, there’s no way I can let the things my upperclassmen built be tarnished.
We’ll grow – slowly taking one step forward at a time if we must. For now, I’ll observe everyone’s acting carefully and learn from them.
Eichi: Right. Boys be ambitious ♪
Yuzuru: “━━━━”
(...Hmm, so it was true.)
(It’s the same for the movie itself as well, but it was all to provide us with new experiences.)
(It’s possible I may experience that “break-in” in real life someday as well.)
(The Young Master is charming, so there will most certainly be people who would want his personal belongings.)
(But even if everything was an act, as long as you have the experience, you’ll be able to react without panic in future situations…)
(That is the efficacy of stories.)
(And movies are, in the end, simply a story. The moment I was born into this world, my life was secured as the “Young Master’s butler”.)
(But in a story – in a movie – I can be someone else as well! I will walk the life of the people I can never experience as many times as I like!)
(Ahh… although it wasn’t and never was my intention – that is quite enjoyable!)
(After all, when I was young and didn’t know where I stood, I too dreamed of other lives other than the one laid out for me!)
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Yuzuru: (If that dream can come true, even for a moment, then I can truly say from the bottom of my heart that I’m glad I became an idol!)
“~......♪”
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foxymoxynoona · 2 years ago
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I finished Amended and it was such a beautiful story! I loved every second of it. You are one of my favorite writers. I never doubt for one second whether something you put out is gong to be good. It just always is. You never fail to capture my heart with your stories. I keep debating what I want to read next. Lone Blue Egg or Lowlander. I may just flip a coin! LOL
As for Amended, I've taken so many moments from this story and have stored them in my memories. Sometimes a story is so powerful that scenes will stay in my head for years after I've read it. And that's what I've experienced with this one. I think my favorite chapters, and the most powerful scenes to me, were the ones where JK was shot and in the hospital. The moments between JK and Belle were so emotionally powerful. There really isn't anything more intimate than taking care of a loved one who is critically injured. She was so loving and so gentle with him, it really moved to tears at some points. It allowed them to create a really deep emotional bond between the two. And those chapters were so realistic, from her thinking he was dead when she learned he was shot in the head, to her being so scared that even though the doctor's said he was going to be okay, she thought maybe they missed something, or that he could still die, to him pooping in a bed pan, to him wanting her to go home and rest, but then crying for her to come back because he was in so much pain, and she was the only person he wanted, to that really intimate scene of her washing him in the shower. And yes, I laughed when he peed on her. I'm actually really glad you put that lighthearted moment in there, because the prior chapters had been so emotionally heavy and heartbreaking and scary. There had to be some release, some break in that stress, and the comic relief it added was very necessary. And of course his little sexual comments were a good addition too, because they lightened the mood. I loved when he grabbed her tits in the shower. I also really liked how what happened allowed them to confess their love. It was such a scary situation. He could have still died in the hospital. So life is too short to not telling someone you love them.
The whole rest of the story was fantastic too. I loved how Lily attached herself to JK really quickly as a Dad, and how Ezra grew to love him very slowly, but it was more powerful. Especially to see him want to take the Jeon name, and to see all the little moments between him and JK. It was touching to JK, and it was touching to me too.
I think one of the hardest scenes for me to read was when they forgot the condom in the car and Belle got so mad at him, and she said something along the lines of "I don't want your sperm in me". I felt so bad for JK. She was so cruel to him in the beginning, and there were numerous moments where I was just heartbroken for him. There were even some moments where I wished he would just throw in the towel and divorce her.
But in the end, I came to love Belle. She had so much growth, and you could actually see the growth, even though it happened so slowly. And that's what I mean when I say you're a fantastic writer. The ability to have a character grow that much and be able to witness it as a reader is pretty special. In writing there is the phrase "show, don't tell", and that's exactly what you did with Belle. You showed her growth, you didn't just tell it. That chip on her shoulder fell off very slowly.
I haven't read the drabbles yet. After I finished the story I was a little disappointed we didn't get to see her find out she was pregnant, or see JK find out. But I see that might be in the drabbles. I'll probably review them separately.
Also, the only loose end you left was JK's father in Korea. I don't know if it will be in a future drabble. But I really want to know what will happen when he gets out of jail. Is he actually gonna come find JK? I feel like I didn't have any closure with that. I know Appa said that he would take care of it because he was keeping an eye on JK's father. But I'm not sure if that was supposed to end that plot. Or if you plan on addressing it in a future drabble.
Your comment got me to go back and just read that hospital chapter 😂 And fix some typos along the way LOL oops.
There are definitely drabbles (some published, some queued) surrounding them deciding to have a baby, getting pregnant, telling people, etc. I hope you enjoy those! I think I've written more Amended drabbles than drabbles for any of my other stories.
JK's father in Korea is definitely a loose end that just couldn't be cleanly tied up, and in a way I was glad to leave it because the fact is that will always be a shadow in the corner of their lives, just like Landon's behavior probably will be for Ezra. Things don't always get neatly cleaned up at the end of a story, families and life are messy. Originally I had thought I might write a sequel that dealt more with him getting out but I don't think I will, however I would absolutely be willing to explore it more through drabbles 😉
Thank you for such a lengthy comment and such kind words. I definitely wasn't in a rush writing that story and wanted everyone's growth to feel natural. I love this genre of hurt/comfort and fake-relationship is fun too, but so often things just feel rushed, or people suddenly change in a way without explanation that doesn't feel realistic. I wanted it to feel good and authentic at the end, even if it hurt getting there, even if it was easy to get impatient because it was taking so much time. Really, this wasn't much time at all to grow past such big open sores!
Thanks so much for reading and for your support! <3
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