#tomni real?!

[dorykinny]

If the amazing digital circus came out in 2020 or 2021 i know there would have been a dsmp au for it

[moonymoonbeam]

so sexy and real of me to read a 1 million word band au in 12 days 🫶🤠

[violetwhisperswolfstar]

The Evolution Of A Wolfstar Girlie

(with my fic recommendations)me aged 10-23: there will never be a book I like more than Harry Potter. I love books and read all the time but Harry Potter is above anything. Reread HP everytime I am feeling down.

me aged 24-30: I lost the ability to read for pleasure. Just read to my kids and A LOT for work.

me at 31: *after a random tiktok video* Sirius and Remus were TOGETHER together?! Never even crossed my mind!!!

But... I get it.

But like... JKR didn't write it. Fanfic is just amateurs writing, right? I have enough of reading as is, I have to read for my job (I'm a translator).

But... They promised it's a HP experience. And I do have an eReader... It costs nothing to try it.

But... What the hell is ao3? What is smut??? Fluff??? HEA? MCD??? Cannon?? AU? Excuse me, is this English?!

The following then happend over 2 months time:

📖 Reading All the Young Dudes

OK, this is really very much like HP. I am getting hooked. This is ACTUALLY what happend, right? Like this is amazingly written. How is this not a real book? (What IS a real book and how do I not know this being a book translator?!) Are Sirius and Remus getting together in this one?

Oh my!

Actually, I've not been this obsessed with a book in like 10+ years.

Reading all through the night (with three kids, mind you, so a very stupid idea)

🎶Love this music!!! Have always loved rock, Queen, Beatles, Bowie, led Zeppelin… You name it. But this makes it better!!!

Finishing ATYD: OMG! OMG! I AM OBSESSED. They need to be together forever. I need to re-read it.

A SEX SCENE in Harry Potter?! EXCUSE YOU! Like… Didn't know I needed that. Thank you.

Of course they had teenage sex at that school. Yes to a giant snake killing people with its sight and no to some friendly petting? Yeah, sure, JKR! Be for real! Never thought about it like that before. And of course they had parties. And smoked (weed) and did drugs. Like… It's a boarding school for heaven's sake! this is much more realistic. Finally know what smut is and I am here for it.

I want a cigarette SO BAD right now (haven't smoked for YEARS)

googling specifics of gay sex because I never thought about it (and I live in a very conservative country) (and like I had QUESTIONS, excuse you, like can you just do butt stuff without prep?!)

finding 📖 explicit one-shots from ATYD

📖 Reading ATYD sirius's POV:

This is ALSO good. So... fanfics on the internet can just... be amazing, right? How has this existed for years and I did not know about it?? Sirius is obsessed LOL. He fell first and he fell harder, the poor boy.

My husband is SO MUCH like Remus. (personality-wise). Guess I know my type, lol.

These fanfics are written better than majority of books I've read. I'm utterly amazed.

📖 Reading Out of the Blue and Bootleg Tapes:

OK, I needed some healing. Happy for Grant and all. But I need wolfstar more.

📖 We could be heroes (finding out what a "fix-it fic" is)

Yes! Wolfstar endgame! A happy ending! Yes!!

Intrusive thoughts: Is ATYD wolfstar like… toxic?

Are they ever happy?

Don't go there, brain!!

Trying to heal with 📖Manacled, then DMATMOOBIL.

Like Dramione. But wolfstar is far superior.

Also have to note that Draco is amazing in bed.

Not a sentence I've ever thought I utter or think. Ever.

Finding 📖 Cadence Of Part-time Poets

sceptical.

How can muggle AU be good? Don't I like all this because of the magic?

Reading it, re-reading it.

Buying an e-cigarette (cause I have to DEAL ffuck's sake and they smoke in like every second scene and ecigarrete is the least of all evil)

Obsessing.

Cannot get enough.

Best. Thing. Ever. Written.

Somehow more magic than magic U.

DOES REGULUS LIKE JAMES?

Seeing the possibilities of Jegulus (is everyone gay in the end? Excuse me, Am I GAY at this point ?)

THE MUSIC OMG THE MUSIC IS MUSICING!!! I am in love with the music! How are Marauders not a band in cannon?! Like that's obviously what they were always supposed to be! Lottie, Simon, Tonya, Tomny… They ARE cannon for me lol. They were there and you cannot convince me otherwise.

Cannot read more, afraid I will lose this Cadence feeling. Just re-reading the best scenes over and over. Stalking motswolo's tumblr. Consuming all there is about Cadence out there. Trying to talk to people about it but noone reads fanfics here!

Can we like start a gofund me for them to get therapy??? I want to see them diagnosed, aware of their traumas and forever together.

Also, why is Remadora a thing? Thank god it wasn't in Cadence (yet) but sometimes i remember it exists and like… vomit internally. Gosh, I rly hate JKR. She just did it to discourage Wolfstar.

getting to read 📖 Black Mass Over Highway 90:

Very sceptical at first.

It's American… and Marauders are essentially English. Remus somewhere in Texas… of all places? Afraid this won't be my cup of tea... Cowboy Remus?! wtf

OMG.

OMG.

This scene basically porn… right? Why do I LOVE THIS?!

Remus is DADDY! Officer Moons!!! He can get it. Like omg. Cowboy Lupin FTW!!

THIS IS the SMUT, RIGHT?! Like do I even want to watch porn at this point? How am I - a cis female in a hetero relationship of 14 years with 3 kids - finding this SO HOT?!

📖 Reading Blends

Also very sceptical.

But... it's so sweet! Is this fluff? Am I discovering fluffy fics? Now, this is comfort reading! Coffe-shop AU? Like, this is where I want to die, my friends! This is so sweet, so incredibly sweet, and I DO NOT miss Voldy and his stupid war one bit, like to hell with him, he can order an Americano and Remus will decaf him at this point!

I am in LOVE!

📖 Reading Names (Blends sequel) because can you do anything else at this point?

Now this is... a whole other thing. It is fluffy, yes. But it goes deeper. And... wider somehow?

It's the first WIP I give a chance.

Cluster headaches are an AMAZING parallel to lycantrophy.

HOW exactly are people this talented just out there publishing fanfics?!

And this "slice of life" thing IS doing it for me. Like really.

📖 Reading Crimson Rivers

Is there anything else besides angst in this?

Wait, James likes... Regulus?!

discovering Jegulus -

wow. I am utterly amazed... cannot put this down at any point of the day. Reading while breastfeeding, reading all through the night. Reading all through the day. Learning how to read and braid my hair at the same time.

I keep thinking - why DO I love gay man/boys stories? How did it come to this? How is this FREE? How do I GIVE BACK to these AMAZING authors that are just doing incredible things for me? Like this is everything I've ever wanted from a book... and they're not even getting paid for this?!

📖 Reading a bunch of short fics inbetween (honorable mentions: Like Real People Do, That's the Art of Getting by, Led by Light of a Star Sweetly Gleaming, Pages of You - discovering Drarry, thinking Drarry is less angst because there's less homophobia in the 90s,

📖 Reading Only the Brave

OK, it's Jegulus, let's give it a chance...

OMG

OMG

OMG

I feel like ever since getting into this fandom, I'm just falling and falling and falling. Falling... In love.

This is so good, you guys. I love JEGULUS!

But as long as WOLFSTAR are together, I can deal (took them half a fic to get together, so please don't do anything stupid!)

I. CANNOT. STOP. READING. WOLFSTAR.

In every universe.

Wolfstar & fanfic taught me not to have any prejudice. And I also discovered that I was quite prejudiced without being aware of it!

I can read anything with those two... just don't break my heart and just let them be together.

Wolfstar made me read again and actually enjoy it. It's been several thousands of pages in a couple of months and I don't regret the lack of sleep…

They are soulmates. In every universe. I don't know what this fetish is called but I need them to be together, see them together, read them together. Love them both. Just need them to be happy.

I am completely amazed at the sheer power the internet has, that an online community has. This is my new obsession and I am utterly devoted to it. It taught me and gave me SO MUCH. I will forever be learning how to give anything back.

Thank you.

[most-tragic-character-tournament]

Ok cTubbo's still losing it's time for me to whip out the propaganda

I've been mentally ill over this cube man for a year I'm not letting him lose without a fight

So in this I'm going to list all the tragic events in his life in order (although DISCLAIMER I might forget some stuff or get stuff wrong fellow dsmp fans please don't @ me)

He was a child soldier. Canon ages of basically all the characters are dubious at best, but if we go by cc!Tubbo's age he was only 16 at the time of the L'manburg Revolution. That's only one of the THREE wars he fought in but we're going in order and more shit happened in between the L'manburg revolution and the next war he fought in (Manberg v Pogtopia) so PUT A PIN IN THIS

He DIED in the aforementioned L'manburg Revolution. For the unacquainted, characters in the DSMP get 3 "canon" deaths, so you get to die canonically 3 times before dying For Real, so he came back after, but he still DIED, which hurts!

He had to watch his best friend (cTommy) and basically big brother figure (cWilbur) get exiled from the nation THEY HELPED BUILD.

He was forced to be a spy

The aforementioned being a spy...ness lead to him getting EXECUTED. Mind you going by cc!Tubbo's age he STILL was only 16 or 17!

Did I mention the fireworks and the box?!? Ohhh boy. The fireworks and the box. This was his canon event. You know when people say "x never truly left y"? CTubbo never truly left The Box. This is the ROOT of soooo much trauma. He was trapped in a tkiny box and shot to death. First off, he was SHOT TO DEATH WITH FIREWORKS. That is one of the most painful ways to go. You're getting shot to death AND burned to death at the same time. This left him with permanent scarring. Second, he was killed at a festival that HE DECORATED HIMSELF. I could go on and on about why the red festival and Tubbo's execution are tragic as hell but I'll stop here cus I have more shit to cover.

*takes pin out of thd first point* He fought in a war AGAIN

He was appointed president of a country at 17 (again, going by cc!Tubbo's age, also don't quote me on that number he might've still been 16, I don't remember. The point is he was YOUNG. Like, that's a high schooler!(in the US anyway))

His basically older brother figure killed himself immediately after he got appointed president

He was manipulated into exiling his best friend not long after becoming president

He was led to believe said best friend committed SUICIDE while he was in exile (cTommy was alive, but cTubbo thought he was dead for a pretty long while)

Doomsday. Just. All of Doomsday. Finally giving up on L'manburg, the country he'd loved and fought tooth and nail for, and still they lost. He lost. Reconciling with Tomny, his best friend, only not really, because their friendship has been so damaged. Just- EVERYTHING.

Also Doomsday was technically a war so that's the 3rd war he fought in

He tried to sacrifice himself for his best friend.

He INVENTED NUKES. He's literally DSMP Oppenheimer to an extent. He invented nukes because he's had to fight so hard to keep the people and things he loves safe that he went all the way to the extreme of INVENTING NUKES to keep his family safe.

SAID NUKES ENDED UP KILLING HIM

He lost his husband! C!Ranboo fucking died!

He lost his son! Michael was kidnapped MULTIPLE TIMES (at least TWICE) And then thanks to the shitty ass finale making him LOSE HIS FUCKING MEMORY, HE DOESN'T EVEN REMEMBER!!!

He lost his best friend MULTIPLE TIMES (he lost metaphorically Tommy because of exile and how their relationship was damaged, then he thought he'd lost Tommy LITERALLY because he thought Tommy committed suicide in Exile, AND THEN, not long after Tommy got out of Exile, before they could repair their relationship, Tommy DIED. FOR REAL THIS TIME.)

And finally, his story ended not with him getting a chance to heal, but with him dying to his own nuke and then getting memory loss. And him getting memory loss is ALSO tragic in its own way but I won't go into that cus this is getting long.

So yeah here's my propaganda. /rp for all of this. I know I already put c__ in front of most of the names but just in case. I don't want anyone to get confused and think I'm talking about Actual Real Life 19-year-old YouTuber Tubbo.

I'm gonna end this out with this:

I don't know SHIT about Madoka Magica. I've not seen it yet. But I bet Sayaka Miki didn't die THREE times.

[Propaganda]

[ofallplaceswhythis]

tcoptp thoughts pt.10

im skipping im skipping im skipping im skipping im-

Chasity..... i am trying so hard and i may be biased but.....

....omg, thats why - its all connecting. holyyyyy fuckk

So nice that tomny and tonya decided to send him his very own guitar for his birthday!! theyre such good friends [delusion :( ]

Sirius and Remus' friendship is so overlooked in this fandom its so sweet there is a reason they are friends to lovers guys

james's hatred towards antlers and remus's face covered in chocolate need to be drawn where is the fanart

SHIT THE SEX TAPE?????? WTHHH

LILY TOLD JAMES SHE LOVED HIM?!?!?! gosh the gossip - and they're fictional

Y'know what snape, you are just a coward who hides behind words in order to get his way, and you have no real friends because, guess what, YOU'RE A DISGUSTING PERSON. And literally nobody cares about you and you will die alone with my knife in your stomach regretting every single action in your entire pitiful existence as I watch the life leave your eyes and constantly remind you that the only reason you had survived this long was because you were such a disgusting person that nobody could get near you without projectile vomiting on your head, which may be the reason why your hair is so greasy. You are meaningless like a mosquito and you will perish not only physically but from memory as well because as soon as you are dead literally no one will care about you. You are that boy that rips apart insect limbs from their bodies and you will meet your demise. No matter what your backstory is that does not justify the abuse you caused and thus you will suffer the consequences. You will die by a poison coated blade and be it whoever it is there will always be the sound of laughter and fireworks that will soon follow after your corpse is disposed of. The only way you will be able to survive is if we bury you alive with worms eating your body and your screams reverberating of the cold, concrete walls, knowing that you will never be found again. The world will become a better place as soon as you are gone from it.

aww they're all so cute <3333 ily lily

REMUS HAS A CRUSH ON SIRIUS PINING'S COMING FUCK

And with that, the first half of the fanfic comes to a close. [👏👏] [ literally had to pace for a few minutes]

ily wolfstar but i just feel so bad for marlene. Im sorry girl :(

And immediatly starting with angst. fucking amazing [WHY TOM]

'where we're going? it aint home' and why dont i just FALL ON MY SPEAR LIKE A ROMAN WHOSE OBSESSED WITH SACRIFICING THEMSELF. UGH. WHYYYYYYYYY

Them not picking up the phone when Tonya leaves but picking up the phone after Remus does is just - holy fuck

ughh remus why do you have to say stuff like that

Remus's queer panic is honestly a mood

no wait whats happening. ...did they just break up...?

why get into a car accident when you can just read Tonya's letter?

tell me a story is really starting to sound like tell me a secret and i am not ready to handle that kind of mentality at this time

sirius are you hearing urself 'ill never leave you' typa shit

ok the mutual pining is about to commence and i am not ready

[jocanneverdecide]

So real. So fucking real on the Tomny one

fine, if remus lupin isn't going to fall in love with any of his blond, working class love intrest, then I WILL.

*grabs tomny armstrong and grant chapman and walks away*

[makaria-is-dead]

Marauders feat. Brothers in Arms by Dire Straits

Yeah, no this album, this fucking album is everything. I grew up listening to it, and in the last year I started hearing something completely different in it.

Yes, I started writing a fic about it. And yes, I didn’t finished it and don’t plan to do so. But still, this blowed my mind too hard to keep it for my self. 

Important: I know this album was conceived for exposing a very real war, with very real struggles and very real wounds, and I don’t want to take away any of their meaning. But still, I reckon this album has far less praise and ratings among the newest generations (my generation). So, I guess this is a way like another to draw attention to it. Also, I know this album was published in 1985, a few years after the events I’m gonna talk about. But, he, I don’t care. Let me dream.

So, yes, this is my very veeery long rant.

1. So Far Away: firstly, when I was reading ATYD I thought this song could apply perfectly to Remus’ and Grant’s relationship during his fifth year, y’know, with those phone calls and all. Now though I’ve read a few other fics and I don’t want to rely solely on ATYD, but on  my very few and confused head-canons and also on Cadence of Part Time Poets, ‘cause c’mon they’re soon to be rockstars there (they could meet Dire Straits, for God’s sake!). So this song could be Sirius’ thoughts during the summers he’s kept away from his friends; it could be also James to Lily during the summer; it could be Remus to Tomny and Tonya (spectacular OC’s from coptp).

3. Walk of Life: this song is about James’ STRUTTING and no one can convince me otherwise. I won’t change my mind. Just like, can’t you picture him dancing all of his absolute cockiness out in the common room to this song, maybe after a winning Quidditch match, making eyes to Lily with absolutely no sense of shame? Like, it’s him. Also, also, just look at the lyrics:

“He got the action, he got the motion Oh yeah, the boy can play Dedication, devotion Turning all the night time into the day”

Like, this is his courtship to Lily, his completely bold, bound-to-fail-but-not-really courtship.

“And after all the violence and double talk There's just a song in all the trouble and the strife You do the walk, yeah, you do the walk of life Hmm, they do the walk of life.”

And this to me alludes to the climate of fear that was perceived inside Hogwarts before the war, with all the wanna-be Deatheaters and their crap, especially if you consider Snape’s behavior towards James.

4. Your Latest Trick:

“I don't know how it happened It was faster than the eye could flick But all I can do is hand it to you And your latest trick”

This songs carries all the melancholic, heart-broken, meek Remus' energy after ‘81. I mostly imagine him in the first 90s, when the wounds were starting to heal but still nothing was ever gonna be the same. And then after Sirius’ return, eheh, then things get even messier. 

I always imagined that Remus had resigned himself since they were kids to accept what Sirius brought into his life. Sirius is pure fire, he’s dynamic energy, he’s a miracle and a calamity, and Remus loves him so deeply, regardless of all the hurt. So, he can only sit and watch how his life will be turned around by Sirius once again.

“Well now my door was standing open Security were laid back and lax But it was only my heart that got broken You must have had a pass key made out of wax”

I think you get that. But now, I love this song for them in PoA and later on, especially because of this last verse. I think it really embodies the moment in which they both realize that, even if they are reunited, nothing is going to be the same. They are not the same anymore.

“And we're standing outside of this wonderland Looking so bereaved and so bereft Like a bowery bum when he finally understands The bottle's empty and there's nothing left”

[takes a pause to cry]

5. Why Worry?: this song could easily be a lullaby for baby Harry that Lily or James would sing. It has its ALL. I like to imagine, if this album was released before ‘81, they would sing it to him, but then they would start to sing it to each other before bed during the worse days. Imagine James singing this to Lily after Marlene’s death......

I also LOVE the Gryffindor theme we can pick from it:

“But baby, just when this world seems mean and cold Our love comes shining red and gold And all the rest is by the way”

P.S. if you’re looking for extra tears, imagine Lily and James singing this to Harry in his dreams after they’re gone. Yeah. How do we love hurting each other in this fandom...

6. Ride across the river: you know, my strange obsession with the combo Brothers in Arms/Marauders started with this song. Just... let me explain.

“I'm a soldier of freedom in the army of the men We are the chosen, we're the partisan, alright Well the cause it is noble and the cause it is just We are ready to pay with our lives if we must”

This is James and Sirius. They were so eager to prove themselves, they believed in the cause blindly.

“Oh, nothing gonna stop them As the day follows the night Right becomes wrong, the left becomes the right And they sing as they march With their flags unfurled Today in the mountains, tomorrow the world”

This is both Regulus and Peter. They are surrounded by people who believe firmly in what they are fight for. But those boys are not like that. They are scared, they are insure, they feel pressured, they feel alone. They don’t chant, they don’t ban their flags. They remain still while the walls are closing on them, and at the end they snap: one embraces fear, the other raises his head.

6. The Man’s Too Strong: I can see this being a back-and-forth between Sirius and Peter. 

“I am just an aging drummer boy And in the wars I used to play And I've called a tune To many a torture session Now they say I am a war criminal And I'm fading away Father, please hear my confession”

Sooo Sirius in Azkaban.

“I have legalized robbery Called it belief I have a-run with the money I have hid like a thief Re-written history With my armies and my crooks Invented memories I did burn all the books

And I can still hear his laughter And I can still hear his song The man's too big The man's too strong”

How can’t this be Peter? HOW? His fear for “a man who’s too strong”, but also that little taste of revenge. “Invented memories”? “I can still hear his laughter” (Sirius’)? C’mon, people, this fits too well.

“Well I've tried to be meek I have tried to be mild But I spat like a woman And I sulked like a child I have lived behind walls That have made me alone Striven for peace Which I never have known”

For heaven’s sake, this is so Sirius.

7. One World: okay, okay, hear me out. This song can sound pretty generic, but imagine it as Remus’ thoughts after the prank. Yeah, now you get it.

“Can't find the reasons for your actions Or I don't much like the reasoning you use Somehow your motives are impure Somehow I can't find the cure Can't get no antidote for blues”

8. Brothers in Arms: and here we are. This may be the best song ever written on the face of the Earth. I cannot express with words how much I love it. But now, it’s also perfect for our aims. I may be a bit biased, or just crazy, but I assure you, every single word in this lyric screams Marauders to me. It’s about war, it’s about loss, it’s about brotherhood (emotional but also genetical, if you consider Regulus and Sirius). 

Even better, consider this as Sirius’ farewell to Regulus:

“There's so many different worlds So many different suns And we have just one world But we live in different ones”

This is their whole relationship. They grew up looking at other, better functional and non-abusive families, while they were stuck together in their hell. But they were also so different, so far apart; they had completely different experiences and outcomes. And also:

“Let me bid you farewell Every man has to die But it's written in the starlight And every line in your palm We're fools to make war On our brothers in arms”

Well, I did it. I made myself cry. Good job.

[layce2015]

The Last of Us Part 2 (Joel x Reader)

(A/n: just wanna say that I'm not gonna follow the game completely. A good amount of it I will follow but there is a fate of a certain character that I'm gonna change as I feel Naughty Dog did this character dirty.)

Chapter 1: I Don't Know What Happened

The Last of Us (Joel x Reader) Masterlist

"I don't know what happened." Joel admits to Tommy as he starts to clean the neck of the guitar. The two brothers were out on patrol and decided to stop and take a break in this abandoned house. There Tommy had to ask Joel what happened with the Fireflies as Joel and (y/n) seemed a bit tight lipped about what happened.

"(Y/n) and I were suppose to take her to the Fireflies and walk away." Joel said before he let's out a small scoff. "You go halfway across the country with someone. She needed her immunity to mean something. Maybe we were starting to buy into that whole...cure business. Maybe (y/n) and I just wanted to do right by her. And then we made it." Joel explains as Tommy sits across from him, listen intently.

"We found the Fireflies. And because of her...they were actually going to make a cure. The only catch...it would kill her." Joel said, whispering the last sentence.

Flashback

"Sweet Jesus." Joel mutters and (y/n)'s jaw drops as the couple made it to the operating room.

"Doctor?" A nurse said and the doctor turns to them and gasped. "What're you two doing here? I won't let you two take her. This is our future. Think of all the lives we'll save." The doctor said as he grabs a scalpel and aims it at them. Joel glares at the doctor with determination while (y/n) closed her mouth and started to reach for her gun.

Present Day

"Jesus, Joel." Tommy mutters, shocked, as he stares at his older brother. "What did you two do?" He asked. Joel looks up at Tommy for a moment and replies. "We saved her."

Flashback 

After killing the doctor, Joel disconnects the tubes and goes to pick Ellie up. "Stay back!" (Y/n) yelled at the nurse as Joel whispers to Ellie. "Come on, baby girl. I gotcha..."

As he picks her up, the couple look out the window to see some lights shining through. "Oh shit." Joel said as he starts to run at the door. "Get back!" (Y/n) ordered at the guards that were coming in, aiming her gun at them before turning around and follow Joel out of the room.

Present Day

"Damn, Joel. That's um...that's a lot." Tommy said, sounding like this was a hard pull to swallow. Tomny looks down them back up towards Joel. "What does Ellie know?" He asked as Joel continued to clean the guitar. "I told her they ran some tests. I told her...her immunity meant nothing." Joel replied.

"And she believed you?" Tommy asked, curiously. "She didn't say otherwise." Joel said, softly, as he looks down. "And (y/n) was okay with this?" Tommy asked. Joel stops cleaning the guitar, looks at the floor for a bit before he raises his head up and nods at his brother.

Flashback

"Joel?" (Y/n) asked her husband as they drive down the highway in the truck, Ellie still passed out in the backseat. Joel turns his head slightly to look at her, her face full of concern and worry. "Are we really gonna go through with this? Lying to her?" She asked.

"We have to. For her sake." Joel replied. (Y/n) let's out a sigh then looks down at her hands. She looks over her shoulder at Ellie and starts to think over what just happened. "You're not having second thoughts, are you?" Joel asked her, concerned.

(Y/n) continues to look at Ellie, as if she held all the answers, and she started to think about what if they let Ellie die, and it turned out that the vaccine didn't work? Then Ellie would've died for nothing. But then what if it did? Would the world go back to normal?

(Y/n) let's out another sigh before she turns to Joel and shakes her head at him. "No. I just don't like lying to her." She whispers before she turns back around and starts to twiddle her thumbs together.

Present Day

Tommy let's out a heavy sigh and shakes his head before he looks back at Joel. "We should head back." Tommy said and he gets up and grabs his backpack. Joel watches him start to leave then stands up, grabs his bag and the guitar and follows him out.

The two brothers go out to the garage, open the door then head to the horses and climb on. Then the two head out and start to head back home.

They make their way over the grassy hill to see the town of Jackson in the distance. As they make their way down the hill, Tommy starts to speak. "Did (y/n) go for her checkup?" Tommy asked Joel as they continued down the hill.

"She's suppose to go today...guess I'll find out how she is when I get there." Joel replied as the worry for the wellbeing of his wife started to linger in his mind. The past week, she had been sick and throwing up it seemed like every morning. She thought it was some type of flu but it didn't feel like the flu.

Luckily, there was a doctor in Jackson and (y/n) decided to go see him. Joel hoped that the doctor would figure it out and give (y/n) some sort've medicine. He hated to see her so miserable.

"We're almost there." Tommy said to Joel as they make it to the front gate of Jackson. As they got closer, the doors opened and they trotted inside and head over to the stable. Joel gets off of his horse, grabs the reigns and starts to lead the horse to the stable.

"It's okay. I got them, you go on." Tommy said to Joel. "You sure?" Joel asked and Tommy nods. "Alright." Joel mutters then he grabs his bag off of the saddle. "About what we were talking about earlier...." Tommy started to say and Joel stops and turns to him.

"I can't say I'd have done different. I'll take it to the grave if I have to." Tommy said to Joel, who nodded at him. "I'll see you later, Tommy." Joel said and he starts to walk down the street while Tommy leads the horses to the stable.

Meanwhile, Ellie was sitting her little room, which was basically a shed behind Joel and (y/n)'s house, drawing in her journal. She was listening to her walkman, which she fixed, and started bobbing her head to the music as she continued to draw.

Unbeknownst to her, there was a knock at the door but, thanks to her headphones, she didn't hear the knock. The door opens and Joel sticks his head inside. "Hello? Ellie?" He calls out but he noticed that she had her headphones on.

So he walks over to her then nudges the chair with his foot, which startles Ellie as she jumps and takes off her headphones. She turns her head and sees Joel standing behind her. "Jesus, you almost gave me a heart attack." She said, breathless, as she closes her journal and stands up to face him.

"I tried knocking, but..." Joel stops as he gestures towards the door. Ellie leans against her desk and looks up at Joel. "Hey." She said. "Hey." He said back. "What's up, Joel?" She asked him. "Just checking in." Joel replied. "Folks are..." he let's out a sigh then he starts to pace back and forth in her room.

"...y'know talking about how impressed they are with you and how well you're helping out." He finished. "Good." Ellie said. "Yeah." He mutters.

"Umm...is (y/n) okay? I heard she wasn't feeling good." Ellie said, concerned. "She hadn't made it back from the doctor yet....but I guess I'll find out here real soon." He said and Ellie nods.

"Tommy and I went out riding the other day and he, uh...he told me a joke and I thought about you. It's ummm....." Joel said but then he stopped as he tries to remember the joke. "Well, shoot, I forgot it. Something about a clock...how do you--" he started to say but Ellie interrupts him.

"Joel, it's, uh, it's pretty late, and I gotta get up in a few hours--" she said. "Yeah, yeah, I know, I know, and I'm gonna get out of your hair. I just um--" he said then he points towards the door then looks back at her. "I wanna show you somethin'. Just gimme one second." He said as he goes to the door, opens it and picks up the guitar then comes back in her room.

"What's this?" Ellie asked him, nodding towards the instrument. "Some folks call this here a gee-tar." Joel replied, really pouring into his Texas accent. "Funny." Ellie chuckles, softly. "You wanna hear something?" Joel asked her. "Okay." She said and he nods as he goes to sit down, the guitar on his lap.

"Promise me that you won't laugh." He said to her. "I won't laugh. I won't." She assures him as she sits down in her chair. "I'm trusting you." Joel said, smirking, then he takes a deep breath and starts to play.

If I ever were to lose you

I'd surely lose myself

Everything I have found here

I've not found by myself

Try and sometimes you'll succeed

To make this man of me

All of my stolen missing parts

I've no need for anymore

I believe

And I believe 'cause I can see

Our future days

Days of you and me

As he sings the song, Ellie smiles, softly, at him while (y/n) started walking towards the door then leaned against the frame. She got back from the doctors and spent most of the evening walking around Jackson, trying to clear her head as she was shocked at what the doctor had said to her.

It took her awhile to convince herself that she had to tell Joel and she was heading back to their home when she heard music playing. She followed it and realized that it was coming from Ellie's little shed house and walked up just in time to hear her husband sing.

She smiled fondly at this as she remembered the day he first sang to her. It was actually about a year after they started dating and he brought out his guitar and started to play and sing for her. In that moment, (y/n) realized that she had, indeed, falling in love with Joel. When he was done singing, she said the words "I love you" first and he, of course, he said "I love you" back.

(Y/n) was brought back to the present when she heard him stop playing and he looks over at Ellie. "There you go." He said. "Well...that didn't suck." Ellie replied, smiling, and Joel chuckles while (y/n) smiles. "I'll take what I can get." Joel said.

"Well, in my opinion, you still got it." (Y/n) said and both Ellie and Joel look over at her, both of them startled as they didn't hear her come in. "Hey." Joel said as he starts to stand up, still holding the guitar in his hand, and walking up to her.

"Hey, (y/n). You doing okay?" Ellie asked and (y/n) let's out a heavy sigh. "Yeah, yeah. I'm fine but, um..." she said then she looks over at Joel. "I-I need to talk to you, privately." She said to him.

The two share a look before Joel nods then goes back over to Ellie and holds out the guitar to her. "She's yours." He said to her, who looks at this in shock. "No. No, no, no, I don't know the first thing about this." Ellie said, quickly. "I promised that I'd teach you how to play." He said as Ellie takes the guitar.

She looks up at him, surprised that he remembered that. She smiles then looks down at the instrument. "You did." She said, softly. "So what you say? Tomorrow night, first lesson?" He asked her. "Deal." She replied, smiling. "Okay." Joel said and (y/n) smiles at this.

Joel walks over to (y/n), who takes his hand in hers, and they start to walk out until Ellie speaks up. "Did--" she stops as the two adults turns to her. "Did you remember the joke?" Ellie asked him and Joel leans against the door and thinks for a moment before he remembered how the joke went.

"What is the downside to eating a clock?" He recites and Ellie thinks for a moment but shrugs as she couldn't think of an answer. "It's time-consuming." Joel said and Ellie chuckles and (y/n) snickers under breath. "That's so dumb." Ellie laughs. "Yeah." Joel and (y/n) said then Joel grabs the knob of the door.

"Goodnight, kiddo." He said and he shuts the door and the two adults head back to their house.

Later, Joel opens the front door of their home and (y/n) walks in first before she stops in the middle of the hallway. "Everything alright?" Joel asked her after he shuts the door and walks up to her, her back facing him and her arms folded across her chest.

(Y/n)'s heart was beating rapidly, whether in fear or excitement she wasn't for sure. She just wasn't sure how Joel would take this news. "Hey." Joel said, softly, as he comes up to her and places his hands on her shoulders. 

She turns her head to look at him then placed her right hand on one of his hands. "Whatever it is you need to tell me, we'll get through it." He said and she smiled at this, then she removes her hand off of his and turns to face him.

"I, uh...I really don't know how to say it, so I'm gonna come out and say it." (Y/n) said and Joel gives her a worried look as she takes a few deep breathes before she starts to speak. "Joel...I'm pregnant." 

Joel's eyes widen and he let's out a gasp at this. "What? Y-You serious?" He asked her, shocked. "Yeah. He thinks I'm at least alittle over a month along. So that night we had together when we were out on patrol and that storm came through and we took shelter..." She replied and placed her hand over her stomach, feeling the little bump. There was long shocked pause between the two before she speaks up.

"Joel? Honey, are you...?" She started to asked but then Joel cups her face in his hands then leans in and kissed her on the lips. "Thank you." He whispers, his lips ghosting over her lips. (Y/n) let's out a breathless laugh and the couple share another loving kiss then embrace one another, relishing in this happy moment.

A moment that neither one of them ever dreamed would come true.

[thenervousmedic]

I had a minecraft dream last night...

This is going to be a long post, but bear eith me, and take the time to read it.

I don't dream about minecraft very often. In fact this might be a first. I'm still in bed while writing this, as im afraid if I wait I'll lose a bunch of the memories.

It involved myself and a few members of the Dream SMP getting sucked into MC. Ironic, I know. Dream, George, Badboyhalo, Tecnoblade, Wilbur Soot, Tommyinnit, and myself. We all looked like our avatars... mostly, and even had some special skills i'll get into later.

To be clear, they were as they are in real life in terms of personality.

I've not watched the dream smp yet... maybe I should start soon. Anyway, side tracked...

The world worked differently than normal MC. It was more realistic, especially the combat and movement. Anything you can do irl you can do here. The drawback was that it made everything harder and more exhausting.

I was dragged in a month before the others, where over the next four weeks, I'd figure out how the lives system works; how difficult movement was; that crafting was nearly the same as normal mc; and how to build.

Five lives. There was a little tracker on the back of your hand, five squares for five lives. Each life you lost, a square would disappear. But it wasnt that simple. Every tine you died you'd feel the affects of the world more. Eating took longer, everything cost more and more realistic amounts of effort, and most importantly... taking damage would actually hurt.

On your first life damage was less of a danger and more of a 'stat' to just be aware of. Getting attacked, shot, exploded next to, ect wasn't too bad. But the more you died the more these things started to get scary. Arrows would tear their way in and ve painful to remove. You'd bleed and have actual wounds that needed care.

By the time the smp members were spawning in, I'd already been reduced to my last life. I was never good at minecraft, though im alright irl with a bow it didnt help much.

You spawn in unconcious. I'd lost my first life that way. I spawned above water. A painless drowning. I hadn't gone back to the ocean since, it scared the fuck out of me.

The first to arrive was Techno. I went back to spawn for the good sheep spawns there. Found him asleep in the grass. He was lucky no creepers had spawned.

Nearly everyone was bigger than me, I'm pretty small, so hauling this guys limp piglin ass all the way to my little safety shack was really hard.

Then Dream and George one after another. Badboy. Tommy... and finally Wilbur.

Wilbur was... a special case. He was a ghost. Just like his ghostbur skin had been. Fully awake, really freaking out. I was near collapsing from taking everyone else to my home, wasnt really much of a comfort, but I at least managed to convince him to come with me after the sun started to dip.

When we got back Wilbur helped me make beds. Couldn't have everyone sleeping propped up against the walls... Wilbur couldn't grab anything, but he could open and close chests. He also found out he could manafest things like his guitar, and a plushie orca. Things that made him a little less anxious. It was nice to hear music again.

I didnt get to talk to him long. We finished the beds, put everyone on one, then I immediatly konked the fuck out over the crafting table.

By the time I woke up, everyone was already awake and talking. The typical suspects. Why are we here, how, what happened, is this even real. You get the picture. I guess usually social anxiety, especially in the presence of people I admire so much, would've been a big stressor but after a month alone in this world I damn near started bawling at the thought of someone else even existing.

I told them all I know. We are stuck here, we have lives, dont fucking lose them it makes the game harder. The physics are just as janky as regular minecraft, mobs are much more articulated, armour actually has weight and at this point I wasnt aware of the little buffs everyone had to a particular skill.

Dream was incredibly good at exploiting the game's wonky system and parkouring, even of he couldnt nessesarily do it irl.

Techno was suddenly extremely knowledgeable about combat and could handle most weapons effectively. He was also a piglin-type guy which made him immune to fire.

George's coding skills translated directly into redstone knowledge, letting him build ridiculous machines with enough respources.

Tommy had incredible luck with loot and generally got good enchants.

And Bad was, thanks to his skin, some form of demonic entity and would be completely ignored by most hostile mobs.

Wilbur, as you know, was a ghost who could phase through anything and summon ghostly items.

We didn't find out everyone's special trait immediatly, of course. It happened over many days of trail and error trying to collect resources, build, and have fun.

Turns out my skill was useless by myself, hence why I never found it before they arrived. Anything I gave to another person was twice as effective. Healing items helped more, food would fill them on smaller portions, armour would get a free temporary enchant depending on what they needed.

I'd never liked playing minecraft alone.

I'm losing some of the dream, I shoukd wtite some bullet points down or this post will be miles long.

Tommy accidently befriended a wolf, he named it Wilbur to mess with Wilbur. We had two Wilburs.

Bad was constantly driven up the wall by peoples language but truly was using it as a coping mechanism early on because he was afraid of being stuck here forever. We made sure to swear occasionally so he'd get the oportunity to yell at us.

Techno lost his first life when a creeper blast threw him directly into Dream's sword.

Dream never got over it.

Wilbur started making more songs and even made a few targetted at the groups adventures.

Wilbur descovered if he goes into the floor he cant tell which was is up, this terrified him, he never went underground again.

George made automatic farms and eventually even non-minecraft typical things like a morning alarm clock, a compass that pointed to the nearest village, and invented new armour that was more lightweight but still protective.

Wilbur the wolf regularly barked at and mauled giant spiders before they got anywhere near the house, much to literally everyone's relief.

Bad learned how to read and write enchanting table symbols.

I taught Dream how to repair his clothes and in return he showed me how to build traps.

Techno learned he could talk hoglin, piglin, and villager.

Bad learned he could stare at endermen and mistakingly assumed everyone could so he told everyone else its ok to do so.

Tommy lost his first life to an enderman.

Wilbur worked with george for a whole week on special gloves that would let him touch stuff.

I took an arrow dangerously close to the lungs after Tomny's first respawn trying to bring him home.

Dream realised he couldn't take off his mask and wished he could see the world normally again, nobody knew what his vision was like.

Bad descovered a joy for cooking.

Bad also tamed a cat and named it Muffin.

Muffin the cat would ride Wilbur the wolf around.

Dream lost his first life to hunger after pushing himself for too long.

Techno took a wrong step in the neather and lost his second life to a seriously long fall.

I never knew what I looked like...

Tommy lost his second life being overrun by zombies without a weapon. We made a rule to never leave the house alone after this many deaths.

Bad descovered pretty late that milk is poisonous to him and thus cakes will kill him. He lost a life to cake. He was devastated.

Tommy built a cute campfire. He and Wilbur would mess around singing at it. Wolf Wilbur thoroughly enjoyed this.

I would stay up most of the night watching everyone sleep because I worried the house could get invaded or surrounded. They found out after Phantoms started spawning and made a rule that at least one of then would stay awake at night to make me feel better.

George built Dream an obstacle course with lots of moving parts and such. He ran it every morning.

I learned how to play guitar from Wilbur at the campfire.

Torches never burnt out after they arrived. No idea why.

That's all I can remember...

It was a hard dream, I was sad and angry sometimes... but the happy moments made it worth it.

I hope I return to that dream someday.

[womanonthe111]

DAVID. My story

When I retired, I volunteered at a day centre for the homeless. I was able to listen to the stories of the people who used the centre. David was skeletal when he arrived and in a great deal of pain from his arthritis. This is his story.

                                DAVID. My story

I moved to Collyhurst 6 years ago. I like it. It’s very quiet. You can literally hear a pin drop which is just the way I like it. I was fine until June 5th this year. I’m 59 and I’ve been unemployed for quite some time. I was a security guard until two and a half years ago. I worked for Initial in Salford. I left because they refused to pay me in cash. They said I needed a bank account. There is no law to say you actually need one but they insisted, so I had to leave.

They used to be called the Department of Work and Pensions but now it’s the Job Centre. I was getting job seekers allowance but they said I wasn’t doing enough to get a job so they suspended me for 2 weeks. After that suspension they still accused me of not trying enough to get work. They told me to go on this gateway thing, which I did, but because of one thing or another I couldn’t remember my password so I couldn’t log on. They said I wasn’t doing enough so they told me I was suspended again for five months. I was suspended from June 6th this year and it’s due to end Oct  6th.

For the first three months I was living on water. I had no food, they cut me off completely. I got no money whatsoever. I couldn’t afford gas or electricity as I had no money. The rent thankfully is already paid. I get housing benefit and council tax so the full rent is paid by the council. At least I had somewhere to sleep. I don’t know what I was to do to eat. You’ve got no money, you can’t buy food. I didn’t know about Cornerstone or the food banks. I didn’t know they existed. I heard about food banks on the radio when I had electricity but I took no notice. I was literally living on sips of water. Normally I’m 13 and a half stone, I must have lost 5 and a half stone in weight. I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t have a GP until a worker at Cornerstone twisted my arm and helped me to find a doctor. He has given me a form for an x-ray which I have to take to the hospital. I keep reminding myself to do it. I keep leaving the form at home. I’ve got a really bad hip which is very painful. It’s Arthritis. He gave me tablets for the pain. They work. I take two tablets now every 6 hours and now the pain is down to a dull ache.

I don’t talk to my family and I don’t have any friends so I couldn’t ask anyone for help. I have no heating, no hot water so I couldn’t keep myself clean. I was literally left in a void. The flat at the moment is cold and damp because I have no heating. I had a large electricity debt, I don’t know how much it was but I’ve tried to get the amount reduced which I haven’t been able to do yet. Through some arm twisting and help from Cornerstone I got the electric meter unlocked and I can now use the key.  They gave me £10 of electricity so at least I’ve got some electric. I still don’t know how much of the debt I have to pay but I hope it’s not too much. Until I came here a month ago I didn’t know about food banks. Now I get a food parcel once a week which is good. When I first had my first can of beans straight from the tin it was fantastic. I was surprised what a can of beans will do. I’ve got electric but I can’t use the stove because I can’t cook on it.  It’s gas.

I can use the grill so I can do sausages and things like that if I can get hold of them which I can’t very often. I can make toast now. I can make tea as I have an electric kettle. I have 9 pounds to spend onelectric plus Cornerstone gave me a £2 emergency loan of some kind. So now I can listen to the radio.

I’m a great reader but Central Library is still being redone and the building the library they are now using doesn’t have a general reader’s library so I can’t go there. I must have read all the books I’ve got at least 10 times. I like to read historical books. The local library is closed. It might have moved but I don’t know where.

It takes me an  hour to walk here to the Day Centre from Collyhurst. It takes me 2 hours to where I have to sign on. I’ve always signed on there. The advisers told me there is one in Newton Health but I don’t know where that is.

When I was being paid job seekers allowance I made sure I had my £2:20 bus fares once a fortnight. Buses are a luxury. I use 11Shansi’s pony". I walk everywhere .Touchwood, I get job seekers allowance again on Oct 6th. When I am reinstated I will be getting £143 a fortnight . When you are suspended you still have to sign on, so I have to walk.

Since I heard about Cornerstone I come here every day. It’s easier. I’m putting the weight on again. I still look thin but I’m getting better. I have put on three stone in weight in a month.

The food here is basic but it’s good because I have no gas. I can’t cook things like pasta. I tried soaking it in cold water which you can do but it’s horrible. So at the moment I’m eating out of cans, which is good. A lot of people say 11eeghh 11 but you can if you are hungry enough, definitely. If you’ve got some eggs and you have some electric, you can boil them in a kettle. It’s quite nice.

The initial feeling of starvation is that you are incredibly hungry for about 2 weeks and then that feeling goes. Then all you’ve got is a dull ache in your stomach. But if you keep hydrated it doesn’t really hurt or anything like that. I tried going to the dole and told them I was starving but they just don’t care. I know that the Salvation Army runs a soup kitchen. I worked for the Salvation Army for six years in the old hostel on Chepstow Street In 1972. It was a real dive. I was working there when they built the one on Wilmot street. I worked there for six years, washing up and security. I enjoyed it until I stupidly had an argument with one of the new residents. He was supposed to be helping, picking up the pots so they could be washed but he just stood there yapping. So I said do your job or else. He complained to the boss and I was thrown out. I was then on the streets. It’s terrible being on the streets. You are constantly hounded by the police. You have to keep moving all the time. If you do find somewhere to stay, you have to be sure the police aren’t anywhere around. I’ve never begged for food yet and I’m not about to start. I’ve seen a lot of people who are in a worse state than me begging.  I can’t do that, Begging keeps you alive but only for a limited time. If you can’t keep warm you start suffering from arthritis and things like that. Life expectancy on the streets is about 5 years roughly. It’s even worse in winter. It’s horrible.

I have this horrible meeting at CTEC this week. CTEC is a privately owned employment agency and they try and find you a job, any job .Their success rate is 1in 100 if you are lucky. When I arrive I sign the attendance book and use the computers. You can only use them for a maximum of 2 hours, because there are so many people trying to do the same thing. Thankfully that course is over. It didn’t help me find a job. It was a two year government course that you have got to attend   every Day,  whether you like it or not. If you fall sick you have to put in a sick note. It’s basically work search, like a job club. It’s ended for me and about a 1000 other people. They are given a lot of money to help people back to work but when I asked if they could help me renew my badge for security, they laughed at me and said “we don’t do things like that”. But they were getting paid to help me into work. That would have helped me. Where does the money go? Most of the jobs are below the minimum wage. It’s illegal to pay below the minimum wage but companies still get away with it.

They can literally send you on a job where you don’t get paid at all. It’s slave labour. I was listening to the radio about eight months ago. There was a woman who was working 5 jobs to get by. She was then sent to one of these jobs that don’t pay. She took them to court and won. I’m well enough to go back to work now but I can’t get another security job because my license has expired. It would cost me £250 to renew it. I’d have to take the whole training course again.

I come here to Cornerstone every day and get help with my job search. I have applied for over 10 jobs now so I’m hoping to get a reply. One job I would like is a reception/security job at the university. I’m hoping to get a reply within 48 hours.

Without Cornerstone I would be still sipping water, maybe dead. None of the neighbours noticed I was losing weight. It’s lovely and quiet where I live but the neighbours keep to themselves so I don’t talk to them very often. They didn’t notice how much weight I was losing.

I don’t remember who recommended Cornerstone. I think I met someone on the street. When I arrived I got a good meal, a bag of clothing and a food parcel and I have been coming here ever since. It’s brilliant. I can’t recommend it often enough.  There must be lots of other people who are in my situation. They don’t want to come because they don’t want a hand-out. They survive by begging or they steal to get heroin or crac or something like that to dull the pain, because you are in pain. I don’t take drugs ever, only the arthritis tablets.

I was born on Moss Lane East but I don’t have a mancunain accent. My father was Polish, my mother was from Devon. She was a dancer. My father family goes way back to 830ad. I used to speak polish quite fluently but I’ve lost it. I could do with learning a language again. My father died in 63 when I was 9 and I was sent to a residential school in Cheshire. I don’t know why I was sent there. I’ve got brothers and sisters, Tomny the eldest, Paul and Sue. I think I have got more but I don’t know about them. Just before my father died, my mother lashed out and gave me a good clout round the earholes. I’ve never known or found out why. I was thrown and locked in the coal hole. I never knew why. I spent a long time in the school. It was the longest and loneliest times I’ve ever had. It was not a very nice place. I had no education to speak of. If you were lucky you were given the basics, reading writing and arithmetic. That was it, if you were lucky. If you were really lucky you joined the brass band, which I did or the army cadet force which I was lucky to get in.

.At 16 I was I was boarded ,fostered in Matson. I stayed there till I was 18. At eighteen I don’t know what happened. I must have annoyed the foster mother or something but she told me to never darken her door step again. I can’t remember any good things there. I got a job in a canning company making cans. It was mind numbing but I stuck it out for two and a half years but I got bored and walked out. I shouldn’t have done. Because I’ve got no qualifications so as to speak so I couldn’t get another job for a long time. I’ve never been married. Never had a real girlfriend. I don’t think I’m cut out for marriage. I don’t think a woman would stay by me long enough.

My father gave me one of the old brownies cameras when I was eight years old and I’ve been doing it ever since. Photography was my first love, my passion. I can’t do anything now, my camera is broken. I haven’t got the money to get it repaired. I’ve got a medium format LEA 645 which is a very good camera. If I could get it fixed I would really love that. I specialize in portraits and anything that takes my fancy, landscapes, architecture, you name it except porn. I don’t charge for the photographs I take because I don’t think I’m good enough. Now everyone uses digital but that’s not photography, no way. The whole mystique of photography is that you never know how your image is going to come out when you develop it and print it. In digital photography this doesn’t happen. It can be manipulated and changed to how you want it. If I get a job, I could take photographs again.

I got an A level in Photography at the old Burley Education Centre . Since then it has been pulled down. They destroyed a whole community there. It’s now part of the Manchester Metropolitan University. Before they knocked it down the student association put in a plan to save it. We proposed we could refurbish the whole college for £250 .000 but they had already made their decision to knock it down. The university has built their own monstrosity there, just for university students. The local community has no access to adult education now.

[qrcturus]

for anyone wondering (@thqstrals). this is exactly. how i picture wolfstars flat. wolfstar’s in atyd, choices, etc, remus (regulus????? sirius????)’ in bfb i think???, and tomny’s in cadence. a few things vary from fic to fic

1. in cadence the bed is in the middle/other corner. or idk theres just a distance between the wall with the window.

2. the bookcase is most present in bfb???? i think????? idk it’s in that one fic where someone pushes someone else against the bookshelf or some paintings or???? idk.

3. in cadence there’s a second couch (more like a one person couch tho) to the left that’s like. facing the bookshelf wall. there may even be a coffee table in both cadence and bfb.

4. the table with the phone is only in atyd. it may be something else in other fics (maybe a record player??? it’s very possible that the record player sits in that corner in cadence)

5. the shape of the dining table is either circular or square (or just less long at least) in bfb and maybe some other fics.

6. the floo/fireplace is under the tv i guess?? but that kinda only shows up when necessary/mentioned. if the floo is not in use then a fireplace kinda doesn’t exist.

so yeah. welcome into my brain! this flat is so real to me i can see almost exactly how it looks fic to fic. it’s the most tangible-yet-not-real thing i’ve ever…had. nothing else i’ve ever pictured is this…real. concrete. don’t think i need to mention how un-proportionate this is but. yeah if i ever wrote a fic this is exactly how it’d look in my head.

does anyone else have the problem of picturing remus/sirius/remus and sirius (/tomny?????)’s flats in the exact. same. layout. in every fic?? meanwhile the potter house never looks the same. ever. ??