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they really brought a real devastating heartbreak vibe to the ‘fake’ break up of a fake relationship
#the ache#the yearning#the pain#we all hated that#it was good for them though#to really truly realise#wandee goodday the series#wandee goodday
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supergiant you can't keep toying with my heart like this re: aro mel
#there's more but these are all i can find on a brief screenshot hunt rn#i really REALLY want mel to be aro#i don't trust that she will be#but like i relate to her as aro so fucking hard and i have done since the game came out#and i know they're probably gonna make romance optional like in the first game so like whether she's aro or bi or both is up to the player#(read: everyone on this site will say she's bi and nothing else is acceptable)#but like now sgg's actually gotten pretty popular since hades came out can you imagine getting an actual aro protag#i don't need her to be ace as well she can fuck who she likes not my business#but im just really hoping it doesn't turn into a 'mel realised she'd never known what romance truly felt like and now she's in love'#/'she was wrong for believing she should put her mission first and it turned out to be the low self esteem talking'#like every even mildly aro fictional character gets pushed into eventually#like do i get my hopes up?#supergiant pls#supergiant games#hades 2#melinoe
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artist rendition of gay break up.💕
#I think..russian roulette really...personifies. the megaops break up. In my opinion#this took an hour but da vinci took 4 years to make the mona lisa. art takes time#I am a ms paint god.#my life flashed before my eyes 3 times. once when mspain almost crashed from the sheer agony this divorce has cost us.#once when my choice of art medium almost died. and final when I truly realised what I was making and reality hit me#girl your gay divorce has a body count#megaops#transformers#transformers one#tf one#optimus prime#orion pax#tf one orion pax#transformers one spoilers#mon francais!! tu aime transformers le commencement? J'AIME aussi. c'est magnifique!!#d 16#megatron#tf one megatron#tf one d 16#tf one optimus prime#divorce#break up#art therapy#maccadams#transformers fanart
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I need scenes where Daryl explicitly shows that he loves Carol for all of who she is as a human. I know we know it, even though that feeling has been fading since the spin-off and even in parts of season 11. But I reallyyy need at least one scene where Daryl catches Carol doing something distinctly Carol and looks at her for a *prolonged* time with unambiguous love all over his face. And then he actively shows and tells her. Like the scenes where Aaron and Rosita see Carol putting herself through pain to kill the horse to feed Alexandria. I need to know that Daryl sees that in her. And I need to see him radiate intense love in her direction because she fucking needs it.
#i just feel like carol has spent years and years and years being the most selfless and loving human on the planet#and she has no idea how fuck beautiful of a human she is#even though her family love her they also punish her for her flaws and its gross honestly#but you know who never did that#daryl#and you know who now feels like he sometimes does that#you guessed it#and i just feel like shes trapped in this state of daryl being the only person who always loved her unconditionally and just hoping for...#for that version of him to come back again#but shes not asking for it bc she doesnt think she deserves it#but she hopes#and it feels like he isnt there for her#not really#i need her to feel loved again#even when they reunited in france it just felt like she was relieved to have found him but at terminus it was more like joy to realise...#how much he loved her#when does she get to have that again#even the shocked look she gave during “im the one you tell” when she realised he actually WANTS to be there for her i'd like that again#our man daryl just built all of this reassurance that he loves and supports her and then when shes at her most lost he withdraws it#like what the fuck#i just want carol happy so much#or just LOVED i just want her to feel truly loved#bc right now i feel like she feels like people just tolerate her#can anyone honestly tell me they watched tboc and feel like carol feels unwaiveringly loved and supported throughout that series#bc wow#silly me but i think we all deserve more than what she got there#caryl#the book of carol#tboc#carol peletier
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:0 I hope you're doing ok!! <3
🥺Hello, thank you so much for the check in!
Admittedly, I wasn't doing very okay for a while, but I'm very much trying to get better. It's been a rough couple of weeks but I think I've spent enough time in my own head now.
Here's to getting better <3
#ginger answers asks#Honestly this really surprised me - I didn't think moots would check in on me#Like genuinely; I didn't realise that I would be thought of. That's! Very heartening and very sweet and I'm very very happy that#I got to see your message! Idk if I can adequately convey how much this little message meant to me when I saw it#So genuinely - truly thank you#Idk if we'll be returning to regularly scheduled Apollo posting but I'll certainly clear up some of the outstanding stuff in my inbox#hugs and kisses#The Ginger is Loved 🥺
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sam as a character that breaks the 'us vs them' dichotomy of hunting with the conditions of his monstrosity is not only something that is deeply inherent to the narrative's exploration of the familial dynamics that sam disrupts, both metaphorically (in terms of hunting as a metaphor for the cycle of abuse) and literally but it's also something that is deeply internalised by every character that bears witness to the same conditions of sam's monstrosity that the audience does but most importantly both dean and sam himself.
there are a lot of aspects to the way that dean approaches sam's involvement within his own agency/independence as well as The Family Business that mirror or directly correlate with sam's monstrosity and when it's worth condemnation vs not but by far the most interesting aspect of this to me is the fact that there is an inherent separation between the idea of sam, sammy, that is not monstrous but is capable of becoming so and the sam that is monstrous and is capable of corrupting/encroaching on/preying on the sammy isn't/is not yet monstrous. like this idea is mostly explored within dean's idea of sam and monstrosity, either separately or together, but there are a few moments within which sam demonstrates a subconscious awareness of this separation, and subjects himself to it as well, and most of them are within 4.21 and explored as the fact that the Sam—corrupted and monstrous—that Sammy—othered regardless—is to be protected from is ultimately someone that sammy cannot escape. it is in him and evil ('them') and giving into it means freedom or an entire 'acceptance' (the usage of his monstrosity—"maybe there's no escape. after all, how can you run from what's inside you?" / "don't let anyone or anything get in your way."—something he's explicitly expressed since 4.04) of himself.
there will always be an 'us vs them'. it is vital to supernatural. and regardless of the fact that sam exists to break the dichotomy, the dynamic of the structure is one that demands you fit into it and ultimately, i think this manifests within the ideas of sam's monstrosity, more than it does around it, while he perpetually struggles to fit into his role under 'us' so much so that his struggle becomes a vital part of his role. it becomes a non-role that's present in examples of the dynamics of his and dean's relationship as well as the patriarchal structure that i've talked about previously
#i'm trying to write something else about sam's anger and revenge and in rereading the 4.21 transcript#i'm realising another apsect of how internalised dean's(/john's) own ideas of sam's monstrosity are in sam's own psyche#really and truly no wonder sam never used his abilities again#it's all mixed up in the idea of his independence and certain parts of his agency#and his deviance from the 'us vs them' dichotomy is immediately corrected the second he steps outside it#i think season two and dean's inherited control over sam's fate proves that the dichotomy is able to be bent and shifted#in order to fit some idea of sam's monstrosity within the 'us' in 'us vs them'#so it circles back around to my idea of supernatural's patriarchal structure in that the greatest sin is disobeying your patriach#dean's idea of the dichotomy has not been shifted or has no intent to bend to fit sam's monstrosity within 'us' in season four#so sam's monstrosity and personhood are both compartmentalised through the 'us vs them' structure#and the moment he becomes 'them' is the moment he is deserving of death should dean decide so. save him or kill him#well at least he dies human: well at least he dies part of 'us'/before he becomes 'them'#sam winchester#se referat
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hiiii haha. hello. exceptionally awkward introduction bc idrk how to start something like this so let's just jump right in. im taking a break from this account for a bit. i know i said i wanted taob out before halloween and currently im fine sticking with that deadline, but if i decide i need longer away then i will take longer away. every time ive reassured people that id never abandon a fic and updates will always come eventually i never once considered that my writing and ability to feel safe and comfortable on this site would be actively taken from me, so im not even going to apologise. i dont want this either and more importantly i dont fucking deserve it. i dont know what it is in the past year, if ive hit a certain amount of followers or 'popularity' that's made it so the natural ratio of positive to negative interactions must in turn go up, but there's been a serious uptick in weird asks for me. the annoying part is that a very small amount of them are actually objectively mean and hateful, the rest are just weird and invasive from people who seemingly dont realise that's what they're being. ive reached a point where i dont care if the intentions are good. it's not my job as a 20 year old tumblr user of all things to defend the morality of someone who couldnt even bother to come off anon. unfortunately, after blocking only one or two anons, the weird asks have decreased substantially, which says all you need to know about the fascinating and exhilarating lives led by these people, but ive also gone on to turn anon asks off entirely. this is something i actively fought against doing and had to be pushed into by my mutuals (who have been the coolest people on planet earth during this entire thing). turning off anon was a big deal to me even if it sounds silly. i felt betrayed and like id been backed into a corner because it was so vehmently something i DIDNT WANT that to feel like i had to do it anyway for my own mental health??? that sucks. so even though ive 'fixed' the problem, im still kind of reeling and uncomfortable every time i come on tumblr. i hope it's just something i need time to ease because i'll truly be devastated if this becomes 'ruined' for me. tumblr exists as the only place in the world where i am honestly every facet of myself without shame or hesitation; losing that would be insanely harmful to me. and to the people who cant appeal to the actual human behind the post, let me put that in words you can understand: we wouldn't get any more writing 😦😦😦 riots and fires and sirens, i know. so yeah. to anyone who has sent me an anon ask and you're now wondering if you were part of the problem, im firmly of the belief that you'll know if you are. when i say 'weird asks' i dont mean 'you sent me a para about your personal life just to vent or ask for advice' or 'you sent me a really deep emotional compliment about the impact me and/or my writing has had on you' - i love asks like that, so much that i put off taking a break and turning off anon solely for the joy they bring me. im sorry that it might feel like you're being punished too bc of the actions of what in reality is a HANDFUL of weird people, but this is what i feel like i have to do to feel safe and not go insane every time i log in. love you guys, hopefully ill see you soon x
#seriously another shout out to my mutuals#id particularly like to say thank you to boom who's always right there for me no matter what's happening or how insane im being#and also everyone in our little discord that wound up having to make a whole new channel for venting#bc i was there so often like 'today's weird ask isssss.... telling me about my cupsize!! rip them to shreds!!!'#hannah and theo especially being there and pushing me to finally turn off anon. war is truly over#and of course rori bc the shamelessness u show when hating on my anon asks has been genuinely really cathartic#sometimes u really do just need a rottweiler mutual to tell random people online to kill themselves 😭#okay weird oscar acceptance speechcore gratitude over. i do just rlly love my mutuals#like i went three years not telling anyone about the worse side of internet popularity for fear of looking spoiled and ungrateful#so for the first time to open up about it and be met with outrage on my behalf and people saying in fact it's MORE fucked up#than i initially realised bc ive grown desensitised to it is. yeah cathartic i guess#they are singlehandedly reassuring me of the good this cursed app still holds#so everyone thank them and send them flowers NOW#okay im done i think. see you guys soon. i truly do want to come back asap bc like i said i NEVER EVEN WANTED TO FUCKING LEAVE#SOME ASSHOLES JUST HAD TO PUT GRENADES ON WHAT I ASSUMED WERE VERY UNIVERSAL AND OBVIOUS BOUNDARIES#if you're reading this like 'ohhh fuck i defo sent something invasive lately. i thought it was a joke/we were friends'#then 1) we arent friends if you're on anon. it immediately creates a power imbalance where you know me and any necessary context#but i have no idea who you are or how much you know about me. that's already a fucked dynamic#and 2) I HOPE YOU FEEL BAD. LIKE GENUINELY I HOPE YOU FEEL AWFUL AND HAVE A GOOD LONG LOOK AT YOURSELF#okay i think that's all. ta-ra lads??? how tf do u end something like this#ive queued this to reblog a couple more times throughout the day
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i love this tiny little moment where winner kinda looks at yellowface and they’re like huh maybe he isn’t so bad!! i really loved him this episode, to me it was such a good way of highlighting the type of character he is. he’s loud and chaotic and can be so selfish and cruel, but when it comes down to it and the people he cares about need him and are in actual danger, he risks getting himself trouble to keep them safe. (letting them hide in cloudys stash and eventually ruining it, yellowface being the one to blame for that) i would like if it he went back to being the way he was in tpot 8 though like, i dont want it to be a ‘character’s arc get solved just because they acted different for a moment some other time’ situation. i just want this to be a gentle reminder that yellowface isn’t a complete monster and he has a very soft caring side to him that just needs its own chance to shine
#and it’s definitely a reminder that’s Needed because jeez dude the amount of hate he was getting for his behaviour last episode… Not good#yea here’s my obligatory gushing over yf post lol. loveehimmsomuchhhhh. i truly hope him and winner realise they don’t have to fight#and they really uncover a friendship with those two at some point#like the part later in the episode where they look at eachother deciding to push icy to the zombies.. just little silent gestures like that#are my shit#battle for dream island#bfdi#bfb#tpot#bfdi yellow face#bfb yellow face#tpot yellow face
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so.... who was gonna tell me that Lucio's masquerade costume was based on Raoul (phantom of the opera)'s masquerade costume
#the arcana#count lucio#lucio#lucio morgasson#phantom of the opera#im dying squirtle#no seriously i am. SO ILL OVER THIS#this was the most earth shattering realisation. of COURSE they keep the phantom references going#of COURSE he gets to become the heroic love interest#i am truly insane over this. oh my god#this was really probably very self evident lready for many folks around here but give me a break i literally only jumped back after years#god. godddd
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#do you guys ever think about how yosuke is always the one that proposes their outings#yu is the catalyst that brings them together but yosuke is the glue that helps hold them there#thinking about his shadow's comment about how yosuke needs to surround himself with as many people as possible to stave off the loneliness#and to a large extent it kind of still holds true here (and theres nothing wrong with that!) and not only does yu know that#yu doesnt judge him or tease him for it. and like for all the things that yu (or anybody else) teases him about#THAT is not it#Yukiko calls him well connected and friendly aaaaah i cannot get that out of my head ever#and it's also in how his proposals are received by the others - everyone else is always genuinely excited to participate in it#like the motorcycle license and the beach holiday is all your friends can talk about for the days after that#i think its one of those things that imo really add to that... very organic friendship dynamic that the IT have compared to the SEES#or even the PT to some extent#(listen i love the PT dont get me wrong but the IT just have a Something to them) (and i think a lot of it is driven by Yosuke)#his friends rib and tease him because hes so bullyable but they are always always so willing to jump in when he suggests something aaaaaah#and he knows this!! he may not have realised it at first but he does eventually!!!#yosuke truly my beloved my absolute number one love
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does gale know that he's appreciated? does he know that he's loved? does he know that he's funny and witty and charming and worthwhile as a companion because of his simple existence? does he know that there is fulfillment in following the ambition to live? does he know? can he see the paths laid before him, the paths he is destined to walk, some that end in his death, others that continue on with his life, does he understand the ramifications of his choices, does he understand how his choices have affected the other companions' courses just by asking for a hand?
does he understand how the act of taking his hand grounds him in reality, towards a brighter future?
of course he doesn't; he's a fictional character and he only knows thst he sees in front of him and that is his death several feet ahead of him. he is entangled in the fabric of the universe like a moth in a spider's web, the strands of his ambitions and regrets clinging, gossamer thin yet sticky and strong, holding him fast to the paths that rip him in too many directions.
all he needs is a little push into the spider's maw or free to fly and live another day.
#rex rambles#bg3#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#bg3 gale#gale bg3#having a lot of feelings about the nature of character studies the metatextual presence of dnd#how gale is caught up in the weave and how the weave is the world and how. mystra plays into this#how the player (tav durge or origin) can push and pull gale based upon their actions with the player freedom afforded by the game#but how ultimately there are so many endings that get coded into the game due to its size limitations and how he's fated#destined even#to call victim to his ambition or grow wise to it#also BTW he's funny and a breach of fresh air from the rest of the relatively murdery cast#in a technical sense you need that buffer character or setting to make the hard hitting moment hit harder#can't make a sweet pastry without salt. can't make a rich dish without acidity. can't have a heavy story without levity#(well. you can but it may very well veer inti the melodramatics which may or. may not be desirable)#having a lot of meta thoughts. they players are gods. the players control the characters' actions#wouldn't that be a revelation a crisis of faith even#for him (or any origin character really) to realise he's never truly free.#don't look at my waxing poetic at 4am this barely makes sense LMAO. dom't percieve my barely coherent thoughts#baldur's gate 3
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literally NO ONE asked but @/ford-owner’s op band au has got me thinking abt what music the straw hats would listen to so here are my thoughts!
zoro listens to the nastiest slam/grind/death out there. sanji hates it and cannot understand and he thinks it's awful and just incomprehensible screaming and probably horrifying to women or something
robin listens to Weird Shit. not genre specific it's just across the board Weird. she listens to like high brow prog rock and metal yeah but also to weirder shit than what zoro likes. stuff like stalaggh (re: the album which is just the sounds of screaming from an asylum). she also listens to bands w like 3 tapes ever made of their music and extensive lore that probably contains murder and cannibalism and she WILL tell you about it while smiling
luffy ABSOLUTELY listens to punk he's such a punk rock kid oh my god he goes crazy in the pit i just know! he loves hardcore too i think. and nami - yes she's a joan jett/lita ford fan 100% she listens to 80s power ballads too.
sanji. sanji listens to hair metal ok. he fucking loves 80s music he loves van halen and bon jovi and shit and his first crush was probably the guy on the poison (‘look what the cat dragged in’) album cover because he mistook him for a woman. re: that iconic interview.
usopp yes 1000% listens to power metal i have zero notes that's just so real and correct. he and franky bond over this because they are both ridiculously into it however franky’s tastes also includes a lot of classic 70s NWOBHM, some 80s speed metal and a lot of stoner doom (he is a stoner. to me)
brook… i honestly think he appreciates everything bc he just loves music period. but he’s also an old man so i think he loves the beatles, led zeppelin, the velvet underground etc.
#also i think robin is really into dsbm.#zoro + luffy are both hardcore kids#and nami also was probably into riotgrrl too#sorry idk abt jinbei i truly have zero clue what he would be into so im not gonna try#the interview im referencing btw is where this guy says that someone he knew thought the chick on the poison album cover was hot#not realising it was one of the male members. lol.#one piece#strawhats#band au#mossy posts
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it’s been a day and i still can’t believe there are ppl out there who believe that gale‘s narrative arc is about learning to communicate better
#if only child gale would have communicated his needs better to his teacher/goddess#if only adolescent gale would have communicated his needs better to his mentor/goddess#if only adult gale who has been groomed by said teacher/mentor/goddess would have communicated his needs better#to his teacher/mentor/goddess who is now also his lover#clearly realising what has happened and wanting to break free off it and seeking a means to do so means that he's actually a 'bad' person#who only pretends to be 'good'#i've seen a lot of dumb gale takes because i've been here since ea but this one really took the cake#all that bc they want their ooc 'old men ya*i' ship to be mutually toxic#truly a Choice#ch: gale dekarios#vg: baldur's gate 3#series: baldur's gate#abuse cw#grooming cw#discourse for ts
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...because any moment may be our last. everything is more beautiful because we're doomed.
#looking through my drafts and seeing this post unfinished and knowing in my core I'll probably never actually finish it .#but strangley enough i don't hate the way it looks with only those 2 panels ? beauty in simplicity or something idk#woe unfinished post be upon ye#honestly probably wouldnt even bother posting it were it not for the fact i was hit by a sudden wave of sadness#by being reminded out of the blue that alex really does just . lose nigel that night#enough deep level analysis my brain is all out i think . but just the simple fact that nigel dies that night#and alex has to go on for the rest of his life post-ending carrying that grief and loss with him#i know we talk about how nigel isn't truly 'gone' in the sense that they're one now and jack is supposed to be an amalgamation of the two#a product of their union and 'consummation' that night at the yard#but he's still gone . no matter how much alex might try and follow in nigel's footsteps#no matter how hard alex tries to tread that same path nigel did to feel close to him#he's gone . they will never have that moment beneath the house ever again . and alex has to go on living with that#anyway . normal again . imagine dropping a song rec like i used to. aha . go listen to sick like me by in this moment.#like minds#murderous intent#nigel colbie#alex forbes#nigel colbie x alex forbes#edit : THEY'LL NEVER HAVE THE MOMENT UNDER THE HOUSE AGAIN !!!!!#thinking about the moment where nigel sits across from alex after he shoots john#and the contrast to the scene in the crawlspace . nigel is trying to connect he is trying to get alex to see to understand#but now alex is closed off. something may be irreparable broken between them#do you think it was the moment where nigel starts to despair . to plead . realise that he needs to find a way to make alex truly see#i need to get some sleep
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Toku Summer Day 3 - Fruit
Strawberries are stubborn like that. If you don't give them a hand they don't even turn red. Magiranger ep3: Ride the Magical Dragon
#tokusummer#magiranger#sentai#houka my BELOVED#the color of hope - the color that carries our dreams - fresh as the breeze - the pink magician 😌😌#she's just so good at meeting people at their level - she knows how to tell people what they need to hear in the way they need to hear it#makito is stubborn and proud and often a lil stuck in the mud#he never would have gotten there on his own - but he also needed to think it was his idea#and houka knows both of these things#because she KNOWS her brother#and so she leads the cow to water and because she lead him gently he feels safe enough to drINK DO YOU UNDERSTAND#thats why she goes on so many dates and pushes herself into peoples business - she LOVES getting to know people#like REALLY TRULY getting to know people#and she's good at it! look at how quickly she zeros in on hikaru and works out exactly what he needs before he's even realised himself#I. LOVE. HOUKA.#thank you for listening
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Still trying to work out why they made Trent a gay man if not for TedTrent and/or to be a parallel to divorcee Ted also coming out later in life make it make sense
(Like yes kinda support to the colin storyline but also there were so many other characters who could have provided that - sharon for one, obviously, keeley another, any new character. Also why specifically gay and (we assume) divorced and not happily married bi or gay with kids???)
#like obv there doesnt need to be a reason for a character to be queer because there's no reason for most characters to be straight#but also they clearly changed their mind about trent bc of the whole daughter thing and that wasnt planned or they'd have made more of it#and the moment they changed their mind was when they gave trent a ted lookalike date and had him enter to 'if music be the food of love'#my fatal flaw is i truly believe tedtrent was a writers room option at one point and actually got ditched quite late in the s3 rewrites#im soooo delusional about this#well i truly believed it til the terrible brendan hunt ama#thats when i realised the writers had no awareness of the show they actually made lmao#ted lasso#ted lasso meta#tedtrent#trent crimm#tedependent#not that we really got much backstory detail but why those specifics??#anyway i need to sleep lmao
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