#through the magnifying glass

[philomena-famulok]

©Philomena Famulok

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[laurapetrie]

This girl is charged with all the femininity in the world. If you go near her or touch her with your finger, a spark will light up the room and either kill you on the spot or electrify you for your whole life. If it’s so painful for a man to love and absorb electricity, how much more painful it must be to be a woman and to be the electricity, and to inspire love.

Boris Pasternak, Doctor Zhivago (1957)

[ten-cent-sleuth]

The real question is which one do you tend to find first: the character you can project onto or the character who’s your type?

[mishy-mashy]

Things to note here:

Yoichi took Kudo's hand. Bakugo did not take Izuku's hand, and didn't want to.

Yoichi was willing to be helped and saved. Bakugo was not.

Kudo looks down on Izuku for being an idealistic, foolish boy that wants to save everyone—but Kudo is like that too.

He's idealistic to the point of being crazy, for wanting to save not only his enemy's brother, but to take down the strongest man in the world, and save Japan from being ruled by him.

Kudo can look down on Izuku for believing in, and wanting to help, Bakugo, his childhood bully and someone he should hate.

But Kudo is just like Izuku. Yoichi was someone he should've hated, but he couldn't actually do it, and reached out his hand to help him up.

IZUKU AND KUDO OUTSTRETCH THE SAME HAND

YOICHI'S BODY IS FACING KUDO. BAKUGO IS FACED AWAY, WITH ONLY HIS HEAD TURNED

Yoichi was willing to acknowledge and look at Kudo head on. Bakugo wasn't.

Bakugo was acknowledging his Quirked friends when Midoriya suddenly appeared on the scene. Midoriya wasn't supposed to have been there. Like how Kudo shouldn't have been able to find Yoichi's vault.

Even if Midoriya and Kudo were weak to society (Gearshift is not a strong Quirk then), the level of receptiveness is visible.

Yoichi is weak and has no idea who he is, but gives his attention and fully looks at him.

Bakugo is strong, popular, and knows Midoriya, but doesn't want his help because of that. Because he views Midoriya as below him, but Yoichi never thought that way: rather, Yoichi saw himself as weak.

Izuku and Kudo didn't have to help them. The two just wanted to.

They both wanted to help someone they should've hated.

But they couldn't bring themselves to.

Like Midoriya, Kudo believes in Yoichi's goodness, and doesn't see him for AFO's brother.

Kudo looks at Midoriya and calls him an idealistic, delusional fool. But Kudo is just looking at Midoriya and seeing his past self.

Kudo is idealistic, stubborn, and delusional like Midoriya. He too, believed in the goodness of others he should've hated.

This is why Kudo wants Midoriya to walk down the same path as him: Midoriya will run full-sprint, but he needs to have friends that can match him.

Kudo knows what Midoriya needs and has to do. Because he went through the same thing.

This could also be another reason why he shut up when Midoriya used Gearshift to save All Might. Because Kudo wanted to save Yoichi when it was illogical and would've ruined him, but he did it anyway. Just like Midoriya did.

The fact Izuku and Bakugo are in knee-deep water. Yoichi and Kudo aren't, but they definitely were when Yoichi died.

Izuku thought Bakugo's life was endangered, and asked if he was okay and needed help.

When Yoichi and Kudo are knee-deep, Kudo is holding his hand, and Yoichi's life is endangered. Not just himself, but Kudo.

Y'know what I think about that? Next point. Here you go, bkdk shippers.

Holding hands was them tying / joining their lives together.

Kudo offered that. Midoriya offered that.

Yoichi took it. Bakugo didn't. But he would in the future, when Midoriya offers it again. And when he does, Midoriya embodies Kudo's Quirk into it.

Kudo tries warning of the blowback of Gearshift, but sees Vestige-Might's flickering, and shuts up.

Maybe he was reminded of Yoichi or his comrades. His Quirk was being used to save someone, back when he couldn't do the same as he held someone's hand.

This time, rather than to get away from the danger, it was to approach the danger and save someone in AFO's grasp.

Bakugo = Kudo, Izuku = Yoichi

An idea you'll see around the BNHA fandom about these characters is that.

But instead, the panels flipped the ones holding out their hand. First it was Kudo, then it was Izuku.

If Bakugo held out his hand, Izuku would've taken it. Like how Yoichi took Kudo's.

But if Yoichi and Kudo swapped places and Yoichi held out his hand, Kudo wouldn't have taken it. Because Yoichi was the younger brother of the Demon Lord, and someone Kudo should hate.

If Bakugo took Midoriya's hand, or Yoichi rejected Kudo's, the story would've been much more different.

[the-chokey]

i am unwell so i post AKUま [the manifestation of mental illness] on my blog

[satellitedyke]

world's coolest shirt arrived in the mail for me today

[ten-cent-sleuth]

To me, that stood out as the Ghoul having gotten so accustomed to the injustice of the Wasteland. Like, especially since Mr President is apparently an old acquaintance of his, so it was like the Ghoul knew from ample previous experience that he wouldn’t be reasonable or fair or trusting enough to hear out any kind of excuse. However! I do like the sound of Lucy finding out about it and that developing their relationship.

Like they bump into that government again and the President is like, “You’re still wanted for what you did to that Super Duper Mart btw that was a pretty serious thing y’know,” and Lucy is like wait, you mean the Super Duper Mart that I—?? but Coop won’t let her just walk onto their bounty board like that. And maybe after they get out of that situation, she keeps glancing at him like she sees him in a slightly new light and he staunchly keeps his eyes ahead while assuring himself that it was purely cold, objective logic to not waste time trying to convince a Wastelander of his innocence, obviously.

Or. Idk lol.

Dipping my toe into fandom talk for a moment…

but I feel like I haven’t seen anyone really talking about the fact that the ghoul took all of the blame for the super duper mart onto himself.

He never once let on that there had been anyone else involved and it would have been so, so easy for him to shift the little dumbass “governmint” attention to her. Obviously she’d just saved his sanity so it would have been a dick move, but a totally valid one from a pure self interest perspective. It also was during that whole conversation that he makes the decision to sew her finger on.

Not sure where I’m going with this but I can’t stop thinking about the fact that he basically ensured that no one else knew she had been there. It struck me as significant.

[averlym]

no one would notice if i ever vanished // if bodies could sustain // this never-ending army // like blood pumping through a vein

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:OOO hello. anyway since these are all posters i'd have in an ideal world or smth and i'd like to store the high res versions somewhere,,, here's the google drive folder for them? hehe ''

close up!

[damnation-if]

Hi, I just played the demo and I loved it! I was wondering if you could give us an estimate of when the next update is coming?👉👈 (Or link a relevant post, if you already talked about and I just didn't scroll down far enough to see it 😆)

Also, I wanted to check, can you be in a romantic relationship with more than one character, and not just a sexual one? Because I might be in love with every single character in this game 🤭

hi, thank you! i'm glad you're enjoying the game :) i've answered the question about romancing multiple characters a couple of times in a couple of different asks but the posts all kind of link back to each other so you should be able to find all the info by. following the various links in each ask i think, starting here XD

i'm going to put the answer to your other question under a cut because some of it is quite emotional for me

i did Sort Of talk about this at the time when it happened, by which i mean that rather than making a post, i talked about it in the tags of an unrelated post i was using to distract myself (i think it was character playlists and how i'm not sure if it's a good idea to do them or not if i recall), but earlier this year while i was already going through a really rough time, my laptop died and i lost a lot of work on the game.

i knew my laptop was old and that this was possibly approaching so i made regular backups and the good news is that because i write in a separate word document and keep backups of those also i didn't actually lose any Writing. however. my twine has a problem in that every second or third game file that i publish from the build is Haunted - it contains passages i removed weeks ago, or writing that i deleted long before publishing it, that kind of weird annoying shit. (other authors have seen my files do this lmfao) and i just have to hope that the backups i make either won't be needed or aren't haunted. anyway... because hope is futile, the last backup i made was indeed haunted, and utterly useless to me as a recovery file. because it's just twine, i still have all the writing, as i mentioned... but i would have to re-code the entire chapter and put it all back together again because of how much the file did not export, which is a complicated and daunting process.

so i made a rambling explanation of this in the tags of a post and decided to take maybe a couple of days off and cool down from this specific disaster before getting into it.

i wake up the next morning to find the IF community absolutely plastered all over with Helpful Informative PSA posts about how Silly it is not to make backups and how if you just make backups you'll never have problems again and you should know better than to not make backups.

now. i'm not a catastrophist. i know for a fact that nobody was making or spreading these posts out of cruelty or a desire to make me feel bad. i also know that it's not particularly realistic to expect people who don't even know me to hunt down the source of a piece of hearsay that's like "i heard from someone that someone said that an author lost a bunch of their files and is really upset about it" to find out what the situation is and whether or not it's what they imagine. i don't even think the vast majority of people knew who it was that was the author involved, or who i am either.

but to already be going through an extremely stressful time and then lose my laptop on top of that and then be obliquely referenced by people i thought of as my peers as kind of just a big silly bumbling goose who didn't know how to manage my files and a "don't be like this person" attitude really, really hurt me. i can't express just how deeply it hurt me. one particular author was openly laughing at me and saying it was my own fault for being too stupid to make backups using a certain twine peripheral program.

so. there was a period of time where i could have found the motivation to just restart the whole chapter myself and re-code it in a frenzy because i wanted to get right back into writing it because. like a lot of authors, i LOVE writing. that's why i do this even when it's difficult. but that potential recovery was sandblasted away by the reactions of people that i thought of as my colleagues in some sense (even though i understand that they didn't do it with bad intentions, in most cases). and i hope people can understand that it greatly lengthened the amount of time i needed to spend away from the game recovering emotionally, despite being a Very Small issue to most people. i'm literally upset again just typing out this answer lmfao

however one other small piece of good news is that my laptop seemingly just lost the ability to turn itself on (because of its age) so i Think the hard drive is intact. meaning that i think i can get someone to pull all the files off it and just have them back fine once i do. the other piece of bad news is that my life is a trainwreck! and i cannot afford that right now. which is why i sort of pivoted to writing the 2000 follower celebration sidegame as a way to enjoy myself while i hurtle through hell sdjgbdfhfdgh

shortly after this thing with the laptop the house i was living in was sold out from underneath me, even though it wasn't supposed to be, and i had to find somewhere to live with my 18 year old cat, but the city i lived in had zero places that would allow cats (they're totally fine with Dogs though of course) so i had to move to an entirely new city on my own while worrying about her health. and right now i spend every fortnight desperately trying to scrape together enough to survive the next fortnight. there were entire months where i had no access to internet! it's been pretty Bad!!

so i get that people really want updates, and i'm really flattered that people do and it makes me happy that people like the game so much. but i am currently expending so much time and energy trying not to die lmfao, and i need to save up the money to get my files back around that. i truly cannot tell you when the next update will be, but i promise you that it Haunts me, probably more than you can imagine XD the sidegame will Definitely come out before it though, if that's something you're looking forward to.

thank you again for your message, and i'm sorry that i don't have good news for you. but i am trying, constantly. every day.

[wampabampa]

Heeeeyyy guys guess who got a redesign

OUR GORL CHEDDAR 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

Guessing that every critter in Wh has heart shaped paw pads (if not everyone) I gave cheddar yellow paws and changed her pallet from green to white and red!

[see-arcane]

I love seeing how Jonathan expresses his love and wrath in the book in ways that are good glimpses, due to the epistolary nature of it all. Jonathan speaks of feeling "wild, terrible desire" to kill overcome him, Jack sees a "white-set passion" and "living flame" paired with tender hands stroking loose hair, Mina sees "volcanic", Jack sees a "dark smile" as Jonathan grips the hilt of his knife, Jack hears him speak of fires of hell and of selling of souls but not of the private holiest love, Mina sees him break down asking "have you felt the Vampire's lips around your throat?", she hears him roar in "high key of passion" and make men freeze up... There is much more but in general the indicators that this quiet, well mannered man has a maelstrom in his head and a burning love in his heart are right there to work with than dismiss him as dull to sideline/kill off asap/butcher in every single thing created. So my 14 year old self feels vindication to see something focusing on him for once. He will not be mainstream like Dracula and Van Helsing and Renfield, but I will take everything new and good offered tysm 👍

I hope I can do our good friend Jonathan Harker some justice that's overdue by a century and a quarter's junk treatment by adaptations and spinoffs. He's such a rich character with a hundred layers waiting to be examined, to say nothing of his personal narrative within Dracula's wider story. Despite him contributing some of the best and most vital points regarding the threat--and spending the most time with the bastard in close quarters!--he's also one of the more mysterious figures in the book, even as a co-protagonist.

So much of him is framed by others' perspectives as he grows more and more curt in his entries while the peril heightens and he changes into...

...Well, Stoker never tells us. All we get to see is what Mina and Jack witness and, in light of having more pressing horrors to focus on, carefully step around rather than dwelling on theories.

Jonathan Harker is crucial to the novel.

Jonathan Harker is hot and cold, polite and berserk, human and ???.

Jonathan Harker is long past ready to have someone take a microscope to him and his whole deal to figure out what the hell is going on with this gothic heroine sweetheart solicitor love and loathing-powered cryptid horror.

Fingers crossed that you enjoy the scribbles to come c:

[uniquezombiedestiny]

I LOVE YOU

[isopodcowboy]

They're pretty gay for eachother ngl

[cornertheculprit]

wait i have one more thing to say on the subject. this post is krisnix in its own warped way:

it didn't change anything (the atroquinine traps were planted long before kristoph and phoenix became proper friends). it didn't save anyone (and god knows phoenix wright has a savior complex a mile wide). there were just too many forces against it (the diary page, the atroquinine traps, kristoph's utter inability to relinquish whatever forms of control he has). but it still matters that the love was there (it matters because it made everything so much worse. because they took each other's respective "betrayals" so much more personally even when logic dictates that they should have seen it coming. because even when it ended with kristoph screaming phoenix's name in the middle of a breakdown on the witness stand it still matters that they knew each other for seven years and even after they'd gone and turned on each other one of the first things they say when phoenix visits kristoph in his cell is "...you look well, phoenix wright." "you, too...gavin."). their relationship (whatever it was) was a tragedy before it even began and they still took it as hard as if they'd never expected something like it to happen at all.

[ten-cent-sleuth]

I’m watching “Stalked” right now, right?

And I got to the scene where Stabler picks up Benson…

I was eating that up obviously, I freaking Love protective partners lol…

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT MADE ME REALLY FREAK OUT

LIKE REALLY LOSE MY CRAP

T H I S

ARE THEY DRINKING FROM THE SAME GLASS

ARE THEY DRINGING FROM THE SAME GLASG WITH ABSOLUTE NON-BLINKING NONCHALCEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND MORE THAN ONCE, TOO?

She pours herself a glass, he shows up, she takes a chug, she puts the glass down, he picks it right up, he takes a chug, he puts it down, she picks it BACK UP, she takes ANOTHER CHUG. All while they’re casually talking about how he totally is not and she totally would never minorly inconvenience themselves (and pollute the air) out of concern for each other.

This partnership is everything.

[good-wine-and-cheese]

I do think that of all creative endeavours making AMVs hits the best for me. I get to listen to a cool song and put cool sequences of footage to that song? Extremely sexy

Also it really does give me a huge appreciation for the animation itself, especially little details. Often I have to cut sequences by very small numbers of frames so I have to decide which frames I keep and which don't make the cut and it makes you really appreciate those details