#thoughts for a friend

[careyakane]

Happy birthday, June Bug.

Fourteen minutes until your twenty-third. This time last year, I held you close on that couch up in Washington. The atlas, the snowstorm—hell, you even got me into a church, and the music was wonderful.

It was a beautiful time back then, the first time I felt comfortable with you, and for a moment, I forgot all the life we had waiting for us, I even forget her. I just let myself care for you. I’m not sure the feeling ever came back in all its strength after Washington, and for that, I really am sorry.

Now, just a year later, you have someone new (not that I ever let you call me yours), and I am driving back across the country west. I have someone I care for too, but she is like I was—unsure and teetering, like those wooden contraptions we had in the park growing up. Her weight is always shifting back and forth, and my resolve, while strong, is light as the wind and keeps getting tossed up and down carelessly.

Anyways… I’m glad you have Nick. I say I hate him, but I don’t. I guess I just grew protective over you and felt some unwarranted ownership that I, of course, don’t truly believe. You are your own. I was in grief; I was afraid. You were also pretty damn cruel from time to time, and with the world being the way it is already, I wanted someone a little kinder is all.

But yet tonight, I feel sadness for something I know I do not want. I love you dearly, and God, what a union we had, traversing this country through greenrooms and cafés. Well I should stop, I’m falling into places of the mind that keep me in my old ways. Best to just let you be.

Happy birthday my friend, and please kiss the mr for me. I’ll see you Monday.

[gongyussy]

good thing from jp twitter this week is queen of old man yaoi michiru sonoo discovering the term old man yaoi

update: somehow it got impossibly more wholesome

quick translation: おかえり: welcome home あ 終わった 終わった: ahhh, it's over! it's done! コーヒー? お茶?: coffee? tea? コ~ヒ~ ありがと: coffee, thank you~ ネクタイレア★★ ネクタイ取るレア★★★★: seeing him with a tie on, rarity level ★★, seeing him take a tie off, rarity level ★★★★ にあうな~: it suits him~

also please do follow: AraigumaSha: sensei's twitter account marureviere: maru, who does such valuable work highlighting bl manga for an international audience

[icewindandboringhorror]

(also feel free in the tags to clarify Why you made the choice you made!! :0c)

[paintedcrows]

Whenever Bill sees KingOfNJ's fics through Stan's eyes he just thinks they have the same taste in fanfiction (disgusting. unthinkable) continued

[reallybadblackoutpoems]

the picture of dorian gray (1890) - oscar wilde

"fuck my yaoi life"

[rovermcfly]

I think a lot of people are forgetting that on tumblr fandom used to be practiced very differently. now everyone fucks off to their discords or tumblr groups to discuss everything with a select few, making tags be nearly only used for posting some finished fanworks or not at all

a decade ago people didn't have tumblr groups. people didn't even have dms. if you wanted to talk to anyone about anything you had to make a post, or send an ask (which more often than not would get published and thereby become a post in the end too)

so next time you think "I have a fandom thought but I have to find a small group of hyperspecifically like-minded people to share it with in private" remember all the freaks you could be missing out on meeting by keeping the tags dead. use tags, make friends. fuck discord.

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[selineabanto]

hear me outs but they're drunk and silly

[and-fishing-equipment]

"i don't comment on ao3 because i don't wanna be annoying or weird" skill issue + you greatly underestimate the power dynamic here, writing multi paragraph comments is like feeding a bunch of deeply insane and possibly starved ducks at the park and watch them go completely mad over having received a piece of bread

[pyrus-salicifolia]

“Normal” test results are not the relief people think they are. When you wake up in pain and continue to be in pain for hours every day and your tests come back normal you don’t stop being in pain.

[eosofspades]

i didn't have "i'm broken" teenage asexual angst i had "i'm literally being the only reasonable one about this concept and the rest of you are behaving like fucking freaks" perception issues

[smoov-criminal]

we need to stop equating lack of independence with lack of maturity. people that live with their parents or have a caregiver or don't work or need more support than others aren't inherently immature. there's lots of reasons why people would be in this situation, even outside of disability (plenty of cultures out there expect people to live with their parents past what we consider the beginning of adulthood), and regardless of the reason we deserve support and community through what is already likely to be an isolating experience. don't make it worse for us

[soulmvtes]

ummm guys i love u btw, i think it's so sweet that we come on here and rb each others posts and create a little community of words and images

[sunsbleeding]

Strange and beautiful how one afternoon with friends equals the desire to live for a million brilliant years

[bacchuschucklefuck]

couldnt draw my thang for mid-autumn so treated myself to a calne redesign instead