#thoughts for a friend

[careyakane]

Happy birthday, June Bug.

Fourteen minutes until your twenty-third. This time last year, I held you close on that couch up in Washington. The atlas, the snowstorm—hell, you even got me into a church, and the music was wonderful.

It was a beautiful time back then, the first time I felt comfortable with you, and for a moment, I forgot all the life we had waiting for us, I even forget her. I just let myself care for you. I’m not sure the feeling ever came back in all its strength after Washington, and for that, I really am sorry.

Now, just a year later, you have someone new (not that I ever let you call me yours), and I am driving back across the country west. I have someone I care for too, but she is like I was—unsure and teetering, like those wooden contraptions we had in the park growing up. Her weight is always shifting back and forth, and my resolve, while strong, is light as the wind and keeps getting tossed up and down carelessly.

Anyways… I’m glad you have Nick. I say I hate him, but I don’t. I guess I just grew protective over you and felt some unwarranted ownership that I, of course, don’t truly believe. You are your own. I was in grief; I was afraid. You were also pretty damn cruel from time to time, and with the world being the way it is already, I wanted someone a little kinder is all.

But yet tonight, I feel sadness for something I know I do not want. I love you dearly, and God, what a union we had, traversing this country through greenrooms and cafés. Well I should stop, I’m falling into places of the mind that keep me in my old ways. Best to just let you be.

Happy birthday my friend, and please kiss the mr for me. I’ll see you Monday.

[gongyussy]

good thing from jp twitter this week is queen of old man yaoi michiru sonoo discovering the term old man yaoi

update: somehow it got impossibly more wholesome

quick translation: おかえり: welcome home あ 終わった 終わった: ahhh, it's over! it's done! コーヒー? お茶?: coffee? tea? コ~ヒ~ ありがと: coffee, thank you~ ネクタイレア★★ ネクタイ取るレア★★★★: seeing him with a tie on, rarity level ★★, seeing him take a tie off, rarity level ★★★★ にあうな~: it suits him~

also please do follow: AraigumaSha: sensei's twitter account marureviere: maru, who does such valuable work highlighting bl manga for an international audience

[paintedcrows]

Whenever Bill sees KingOfNJ's fics through Stan's eyes he just thinks they have the same taste in fanfiction (disgusting. unthinkable) continued

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[reallybadblackoutpoems]

the picture of dorian gray (1890) - oscar wilde

"fuck my yaoi life"

[eosofspades]

i didn't have "i'm broken" teenage asexual angst i had "i'm literally being the only reasonable one about this concept and the rest of you are behaving like fucking freaks" perception issues

[problemnyatic]

can we talk about how being so pants-shittingly terrified of Doing A Racism you freeze up or Get Weird around anyone a shade darker than the sugar in your cupboard or with an accent is effectively the same as being scared of brown people and doesn't make you much better than Sandra Lilly Smith from the suburbs who clings her purse when a black guy gets on the elevator with her

[smoov-criminal]

we need to stop equating lack of independence with lack of maturity. people that live with their parents or have a caregiver or don't work or need more support than others aren't inherently immature. there's lots of reasons why people would be in this situation, even outside of disability (plenty of cultures out there expect people to live with their parents past what we consider the beginning of adulthood), and regardless of the reason we deserve support and community through what is already likely to be an isolating experience. don't make it worse for us

[bacchuschucklefuck]

couldnt draw my thang for mid-autumn so treated myself to a calne redesign instead

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

transformers one where everything is the same except the circle does not go into the square hole

[bkgsdoll]

deaf!bakugou likes to feel the vibrations of your body.

to paint a clear picture, he doesn’t have his hearing aids in, and you two are in resting in bed after a few rounds of making love (and consoling your fiancée when he started tearing up and signing about how he was fucking pissed he couldn’t hear you moaning his name)

the sun’s orange glow as it sets just outside your window beams a gorgeous light onto you both, glistening with sweat. it’s a comfortable few minutes before you remember a juicy story you’d overheard earlier that day, and you gently tap the space next to your lover (you didn’t have to though cuz he was already staring at you with cheesy adoration).

you slightly pull yourself away from his beefy chest to begin expressively signing your daily piece of gossip. you always speak out loud when you sign, even though you know he can’t hear you. and as you’re signing with speedily, facial expressions big and enthusiastic, katsuki’s eyes dart to your lips every two seconds, nostalgically remembering the sound of your gorgeous voice before the war.

he huffs, signing wait. you pause with confusion before he shuffles forward so two of his fingers could rest on your throat. he feels you swallow and a little grin writes itself upon his face. he gives you a tiny nod to continue. and he smiles at the heavy buzzing against his digits.

[its-hai-time]

so a fun fact abt me is that I work at a print counter, and some days I get bored and make something for myself in secret. A fact that is not helped by my access to design software both in and out of work.

As such, I've begun designing things before work in preparation for me to be bored while at work.

Recently, this has resulted in these business cards being produced.

and I don't think I need to elaborate any more on this.

[incandescent-mushroom]

House has definitely sent Wilson a dick pic or several but he sends them by email because they are both old men and the titles are things like ‘URGENT: please identify if lung cancer’ or ‘patient biopsy results - respond ASAP’ so that Wilson’s guilt complex makes him feel obligated to open each one just in case someone’s life is actually on the line

[sunsbleeding]

Strange and beautiful how one afternoon with friends equals the desire to live for a million brilliant years