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hey like???
why is life so difficult? why are things so asinine?
inefficient?
unethical?
why???????????????? is it like this
right now
#radtalks#idk what this is#a vent i guess!!!#im just frustrated#going to have to wait another like 3 weeks#b4 i see a therapist again#and also get a psych eval#thought i already had one but okay#idk why theyre giving me one a year after i started services but okay#probably bc i made the mistake of giving them a preferred name and now they keep fuckin up my name in the system#idk im sorry im whiny ive been trying to get better for over ten years and things are still like#complicated and confusing and now i feel like im way worse off because im getting older#ive lost so much time trying to get better#am i getting better?#i just want to know ill be able to afford to live#idk i dont want to let anyone down#just rambling sorry again!!!
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should've just let Vil be the one to fly, it would've gone SO much easier. 😔
also HEY how are everyone else's pulls going, because I have had the most RIDICULOUS luck, seriously, halloween magic is 100% real
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#lost in the book with nightmare before christmas#hajimari no halloween#kicking around some ideas for scully's UM poster so i'll talk about all that when we get to it#in the meantime i just have to show this off because...seriously look at it#is the halloween pickup count cumulative?! because i only did two ten-pulls for jamil...#i've only done three ten-pulls total in this event and yet somehow ended up with leona and two consecutive jamils#now it would be extremely funny if i didn't get sebek when he's the one i want the most...but let me hope#(i choose to believe this is an apology from the universe for my lack of both fairy gala ortho and masquerade malleus)#(thank you universe)#anyway i realize there is some irony in bragging about my jamil pulls and yet drawing vil instead#but...i just really wanted to draw nightmare vil okay#i thought i had posted art of good ol' pumpkin-stroker jamil already but i think i might actually have just dreamt that#brb gotta get onto fixing this problem
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Shaak Ti and her tiny charges join the Hades AU, complete, with colourful little highlights and a dialogue box this time (and an alternate version under the cut where I tried my hand at taking the shade/Force-ghost aspect a little further than I did with Fives)
"There is no doubt that Grogu is an exceptional youngling, but I cannot take him on as a Padawan no matter how much I may wish that I could. My duty is to look after the clones as they grow and learn - we cannot just abandon them once their war is over. As a Mandalorian you must understand this. However, I would gladlyassist in your quest in any other way I can."
Linear timeline who? Rex can have a mighty white beard and then look spry and blond simultaneously, there is teenager Omega and Boba sitting on his throne on Tatooine, so just don't worry about it XD Have three of my clone OCs as baby cadets and enjoy how cute they are instead.
#my art#hades au#shaak ti#sw fanart#star wars fanart#tcw fanart#clone troopers#clone ocs#clone cadets#the clone wars fanart#look I have clone ocs too! XD I'd thought I'd never see the day but here we are#I just noticed that poor Ray has a lot bigger forehead than Slider or Goldie lol#as if he didn't have it hard enough being permanently the shortest one XD#I'm not completely sold on the shade look but i had to try#I could have pushed a lot more but I was already hurting for erasing so much of them TT^TT#I am so so happy with how Shaak Ti came out!!!#I had a bit of a crisis with the colours but they turned out so nice in the end!#even if tumblr drained a bit of my reds again#Her lekku especially god they look so nice imo! similar but still different from Ahsoka's which was the goal#I wanted to draw her montrals taller but... I really needed to fit her on the page and next to that text box with some details showing okay
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#one night as i was slowly falling asleep I thought of this drawing but I had missed a wonderful opportunity by replacing sebeks text#with the vine dADDY? DO I LOOK LIKE-#But now yknow that the thought was considered#my art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland fanart#twst art#twst#disney twst#twst artwork#twst sebek zigvolt#twst sebek#sebek zigvolt#i designed children#arnt they cute?#say theyre cute rn-#OKAY AND JUST IN CASE I SWEAR ITS NOT A SEBEK AND SILVER LOVE CHILD THING I CAN ALREADY SEE SOMEONE ASKING BECAUSE OF THE CHILD ON THE LEFT#BUT ITS NOT#twst fanart#*this has been in my drafts for 2 months kadmksdm
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a what if
paralleling this
#alan becker#animator vs animation#ava#ava the chosen one#ava tco#ava the second coming#ava tsc#ive had this thought for a good while now and finally had time to actually make it#i like to call the “holding hands and then start to glow and. um. do something with your powers” as “connecting”#“connecting” with another animatormade-sticks with the same animator code can give you a bit of a powerboost#ive mentioned this in an au-post but for those that havent seen it (its another hc i have.btw)#animator codes are basically codes that are linked to a specific animator#like...for example. victim tco dark and tsc all have the same animator code since they were all drawn by alan#OKAY BACK TO THE THEORIZING#when tsc and tco “connect” then its a special case#since theyre linked in the sense that tsc is “the chosen one's return”#when they “connect” not only do they get a powerboost but they also awaken in the sense that theyre able to access every bit of their power#tco already does that (kinda? i dunno) so tsc is affected by this awakening powerboost the most#sure. tsc already awakened before in showdown but he couldnt remember it then#but noow with this “connection” tsc is fully conscious. soooooooooo#i think ive ran out of theorizing wordings juices ohlird the effects are starting#lilacsart
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Oops. It's a second headcanon compilation!
Don't worry, the next one will be back to our normal schedule of regular text posts and not headcanons
Masterpost
#Dark Meta Knight#Shadow Kirby#Meta Knight#Kirby#King Dedede#Daroach#marx kirby#Magolor#Bandana Waddle Dee#Bandana Dee#Marx#Kirby series#kirby headcanons#text post meme#text post memes#disability headcanon#okay I wanted a particularly exhausted Dedede so I snagged him from triple deluxe#i just think Dedede would have chronic pain from. you know. getting torn in half that one time#before you come after me for Magolor's panel: I do not think ocd and intrusive thoughts make you do bad things#I just think he already had it and the Master Crown made it worse (via lingering magic from the possession)#i dunno how mental illnesses work in aliens that use magitech#I had a lot more here but I decided I'm not going to continue rambling in the tags#I can expand on any of these headcanons at any moment if you want feel free to ask#also I saved that Kirby one for last because I thought it would hit with oomph#she speks#she speks originale#she edits#yes I'm working on the masquerade I am just obsessed with making text post memes
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For Dru (@fortheloveofaussiegrit), thank you for completely and utterly brainrotting me with this moment 🙏
#HEHEHEHE SOO HAPPY WITH THIS AAAAAHHHHHH#hope you like it dru <3#originally i was just going to draw oscar with the plushie#but then im like wait....mark is the type to proudly take pics of him(that clip of him taking pics of oscar)#but seriously that clip literally fucking murdered me#like it starts off with him randomly being all cutesy like#'oscar was tucked into bed 🥰 with his teddy 🥰🥰 which is a kangaroo actually! 🥰🥰'#which like murdered me on the spot. was literally just slapping my chair at that#and then the rest of the clip praising him and then comparing at the end#THANK YOU MARK FOR THAT. I GUESS.#just like. he hears party and champagne and his first thought is oscar cozy in bed...okay 🤔🤭#two theories(i said this to dru already):#A. he is telling the truth. i mean cmon came up with that one so quickly!#B. they had a private party to celebate oscar's win-*I am forcibly dragged away*#but jokes aside. so funny for mark to just headcanon on broadcast#f1#formula 1#mark webber#oscar piastri#2023 qatar gp#oscarmark#i dont know if ive actually ever seen any oscarmark fanart before? interesting#catie.art.
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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so many thoughts but i CANNOT stop laughing that all that time we thought louis had some elaborate mind control type reason for staying with armand and it was really just.. HIM TRYING TO MAKE HIS EX JEALOUS SLSKSKKSKSKS
#never fucking change loustat i literally can't believe this is sp fucking funny#too sleepy to voice out my other thoughts but LMFAO mann best fucking ep ever#iwtv spoilers#when he said 'this is your death lestat' and kissed armnad I DIED LAUGHING PLS 💀💀💀💀#also real lestat is an angel ive seen him for lile 5 secs amd im already irrevocably in love with him#also jacob saying daniel is like an annoying little brother of louis haha im fine okay okay okay okay okay#i am going to rewatch the whole ep in the morning and have some coherent thoughts then goodnight#btw lestat cried about claudia he said she looked at him like he was her father she needed saving but he never was 😭😭😭#and louis FORGAVE HIM FOR IT. fucking FINALLY#and then jacob saying i strongly one hundred percent believe that lestat would've saved claudia if he had the energy#btw i can't believe armand was okay with louis dying i literally don't understand him at all all this time i thought he wanted to be alone#with louis but now huh???? i need to dissect his brain like a frog i swear#ALSO jacob saying we'll never know the words said between loustat at the end only me and sam know them they'll stay between us#GOD they're so down bad for eo and their characters i fucking love them sooo much#okay promise bye now
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shoutout to one of the most ships ever <3
#told myself i was gonna allow one hour to do this and thought i was doing okay til i saw it had already been three#jim jiminez#oluwande boodhari#ofmd#ofmd art#olu#jim#our flag means death#art#tealoranges#had to take my mind off the izzy drama because i don’t think he’s gay
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I cannot shake my thoughts about this and I’ll know I’ll keep this drama close to my heart. The fact that Myung ha’s ‘sunbae’ opened the riff to the world with the question “would you change it for me?” Also the fact that Myung ha’s alternate universe/game world started with the sound of an ocean tells already a lot about it but we won’t know until Episode 8 why. Throughout the series we watched Myung ha doing everything in his power to make Yeo woon happy while he himself couldn’t rely, couldn’t trust, couldn’t open himself up to him. We know the phrase of his ex gf “you don’t know how to love anyone.” left a deep scar in his soul which he carried with to the alternate universe/game. I try to think the system errors which occurred during the game was a way to change Myung ha’s mindset to not make the same mistakes and/or go on with his habitual habits he did in his life before he drowned himself. Also the different tasks was it actually for Myung ha to realize that he’s the one who makes Yeo-woon happy (which he didn’t). He retreated himself from Yeo woon because he couldn’t choose between the most important persons in his life as we saw his grandma died in real life which makes me think if he also knew that because in one sequence in the game/au it asked him if he wants to bring back some memories of Myung ha’s life. Also the last I love you from Yeo woon was the cherry on top to let the system completely crash where he distanced himself from Yeo woon. “I want to spend my remaining time making Yeo woon happy as best as I can. But it seems the more I try, the more unhappy I make Yeo-woon.” Which Myung ha remembers what Yeo-woon said: “whenever I see you, I both feel good and want to cry. I feel so much about every little thing. But I’m not happy at all right now.” Which again I try to think it is about why Myung ha doesn’t rely more on him? Why he doesn’t open himself up to him? A relationship is based off of trust, give and take… etc. but Myung ha goes into this relationship with deep rooted traumas which causes lack of self love. If one loves not itself enough how can they expect to love someone else which what explains Myung ha’s last phrase in the same scene so much. “Why did I think I could make you happy?” It’s as if he doesn’t think that a loner like him could be the one to give him love and happiness. What follows after is that he choses Yeo woon’s happiness even if he’s not his happiness… which again brings me to the beginning where Myung ha thinks “but I prefer lonely supporting characters to happy protagonists.” In this case he’s the lonely supporting character to our happy protagonist Yeo-woon. “But being fated to live that kind of life… is just so unfair.” He knew/knows how cruel life can be so he chose his happiness over everything and got vanished from the game. He realized by now that Yeo-woon is/was more important than he wanted to admit. Yeo-woon is/was a glimpse of happiness in Myung ha’s life. What brings us to the tragic backstory of his life and how he lived. All the obstacles he endured and went through led to his drowning (at this point we saw Yeo-woon’s obstacles in the alternate universe/game at least in my opinion). This is the turning point for Myung ha. “I was hoping if you saw yourself from someone else’s perspective, you would learnt to love yourself. I thought if you learned to love someone, you would be a little happier.” I want to make a reference here to the title itself “Love for Love’s sake” because all the sacrifices he did and cared more for others than himself… but he found happiness. In Yeo-woon. And he chose his own happiness for once. It’s the way he chooses all these things for himself, to open himself up for him, to rely and be cared for. “It would be nice to have someone. Someone who cares by my side. Someone who gives me chances when I fail and feel hopeless. It would be nice to have someone who always gives me love.” Which they found both in each other.
#caddi watches#love for love's sake#I didn’t proofread it and it’s already 3 in the morning and I wrote this while I had cix’ ”I’m here for you” didn’t help either#also the one scene in the hospital where he met his sunbae the background genius. I try to think that this scene could’ve been#a turning point but when the sunbae asked to be with the loved one longer he chose the painless way#he still didn’t got it in my opinion… that’s why the remaining days deducted so fast it’s what I want to think#he was still bitter and rather pessimistic about love ‘people don’t stay together forever’ (I didn’t looked it up this time)#anyway this already got super long so I don’t wanna ramble extra in the tags#if you read this congratulations for reading a novel if not also okay because I wrote it down for me :)#which barely do btw I don’t write my thoughts and opinions anymore#and yes I chose the word ‘which’ a lot#zey rants#zey rambles
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I know how it sounds at first, but I really gotta feel bad for the boys that sacrificed edwin; I mean even the term “sacrificed edwin” paints them in a more sinister light than they really deserve– considering that wasn’t really, actually their intention.
they were bullies, they were homophobic (and/or were self loathing gay boys themselves taking it out on edwin, or were equally likely peer pressured into acting a certain way), they planned something stupid and mean to do to an innocent, anxious boy with the goal of scaring the shit out of him, all because he was effeminate and an easy target. but they didn’t know or expect any of the ritual stuff to be real. they were all laughing and joking during the ritual because it was just that to them– a joke. a cruel joke, but a joke.
teenagers can be mean and stupid and they usually regret it as adults and grow out of it / grow from it. they were stifled the chance to grow out of it, at least while alive. none of those boys deserved to be instakilled and sent to hell; they’re really not that much less deserving than edwin himself. they were all just kids, after all.
#random thought but. yeah……#I mean think about if crystal happened to be killed somehow pre-demonic intervention#she would’ve been deemed deserving of hell by the standards we’ve seen. no doubt about it. if the dragon guys were pulled to hell then yeah.#she would be as well. simply put- she was a bully#she was also a teenager. not a fully developed person. a very damaged and neglected teenager at that#it’s kinda like the criminal justice system right. it’s like. hey you really think sending them to be tormented is the most humane and#efficient way to heal these kids of what makes them act out and allow them to grow and improve?#Crystal’s such a good case to look at because she’s. well. to compare to The Good Place which you can probably already tell I’ve watched 800#times and adore with all my heart. she’s kinda the michael of the group#no one knows it at first but she’s actually kind of a terror to people most of the time. but she’s put in a situation where she#suddenly has a support system- people who care about her and want the best for her- she’s given a purpose and realizes how much better it is#to use her powers to help rather than hurt (well. sometimes helping can involve hurting but you get it)#and by the time she’s regained her memories and has a place in the agency it’s much easier to reflect on her life and be like huh!#this system kinda fucking sucks!#not that edwin wasn’t an example unto himself but he was a ‘clerical error’ not a ‘rightfully’ condemned person#with his situation someone could argue that the problem isn’t with the system being wack as a whole- it should just be maintained better so#these ‘errors’ don’t happen and all the good kids go to their afterlives and the Bad Evil Kids go to hell.#yes yes I know they’re not in hell forever (hopefully) but uhh Simon was still there for over a century and for fucking What?#gay self-loathing and catholic guilt? his intentions were clearly not Truly Evil and more than anything he seems to have been punished using#how much he hated himself for being gay and how guilty he felt for it all. like shit aren’t those feelings enough of a punishment? if he had#lived through that ritual and edwin hadn’t– do you think he would’ve been Okay? I think it would’ve crushed him. chronically#man. anyway#this was an especially long ramble huh#rambling#edwin#edwin payne#dead boy detectives
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I hope this blog is great AI dataset poison. Of course I have 3rd party sharing turned off, but it's not like an AI company is actually gonna listen to that stuff
The majority of generated transformers imagery I've seen is already just blobs of color. Ironically, robots are hard for AI to understand. And here am I, with hundreds of scruched up little (though maybe even too little to be included in a dataset) images, selected specifically for looking weird, all tagged various transformers characters. Just imagine what all those croissant Arcees could do to an image generator!
#not a face#anti ai#random thing i thought of a few days ago but forgot to post until now#i'm sorry i haven't responded to so many people yet#irl stuff has gotten to me and i haven't had the energy to try and get my slow laptop to run tumblr#so i've just been relying on the queue which is actually stocked for once#i'd be lying if i said everything was okay but it's also nothing to be worried about#just one of those 'life happens' situations that was inevitable and a long time coming#ok it's not even a 'situation' really#i knew a sad thing was going to happen and then it happened and now it's over#it's not that bad i promise this has happened to me like 30 times already and i know how to deal with it#and having to deal with it is basically the only consequence#sorry for the 4am trauma dump#i guess messing up my sleep schedule was also a consequence lol
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a dorothy timeline (some canon, mostly my hcs oops) because I am so sane about this character
#me and my autism have her by the throat right now (affectionately)#i think I want to make one of these for rose next !! it was lots of fun#not as detailed as it could be honestly… I think I’ll go into more detail in a wall-of-text post one day#yes that’s a tiny me in the corner crying over the three of them having ROSE RINGS#rose proposed for sure and had both those rings and their wedding rings thought out way before hand#if not already made & bought honestly#oh god I’m so in love with them it’s sick#also :’) a moment for tiny dorothy she’s literally precious#<- she knows no evil yet#the golden girls#dorothy zbornak#golden wives#<- because of the big mention I have a system okay#art#artist#artists on tumblr#digital art
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listening to music in public is a struggle
#kandi thoughts#especially if its a song i have had animation thoughts about#was with my mum in the car and this one song (which i may or may not have had angsty dca thoughts about) came on and i#“are you okay?” asks my mother “OH YES I AM FINE” cuz what else am i gonna do??? go on about sad robots?? (i am)#i have already explained your stupid face au to her and she liked it (YAY)#i explained ysf to her in a car park while we were eating burgers (an experience /pos)#ANYWAYS I GOT OFF TOPIC#MUSIC!!!!!!!#IM SO NORMAL ABOUT IT!!!!#YAYAYAYAYAYAYA
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just going about my day idly contemplating how some of the ways hawke can interact with a romanced anders are not at all unlike how they interact with leandra (and a bit of carver too, especially with a purple hawke), and then thought about my hawke in the timeline where he romances anders and was hit straight in the face with 'was he ever actually in love, or was he just desperately trying to renegotiate with his mother's ghost in any way he could' and now i need to lie down. this is the power of dragon age 2
#'you don't know my mother' haunting me through the years#dragon age#dragon age 2#hawke#On second thought let's not go to Kirkwall; it is a silly place#there are of course as many ways to do/read that relationship as there are players to interact with it haha and all valid!#but my personal version of handers is sooo fucked up and bad times for everyone involved and I love it haha.#this is a relationship neither of them should have been in and that made everything worse and everyone unhappy in the end#locked tomb levels of the horrors of love. i ship it but in the way that I want to make it sadder and more gutwrenching each time#to be clear this is a very mutual two-way kind of fucked up but I think varric in his loyalty and love would downplay hawke's side of it#for huge swathes of their relationship anders is not in a mental place to be a good partner and the emotional blackmail is Not Okay#(but it's just like how mother used to make it! hawke's soul cries sadly as it reaches for it hungrily)#which is in some ways fair enough no one could accuse him of not warning you ahead of time fjskda#but hawke is messy about it in a way only available to a covert people pleaser who has never had a millisecond of therapy#with some added stuff that my hawke is always acespec in some form and when he gets together with anders...#is the sex something he doesn't particularly care to have or not have but it 'makes anders happy'/he longs to feel wanted *and* needed#and also a way he gets out of ever being *actually* vulnerable (which I think he'd had to be with varric for example if he Went There )#'you want the hawke who's in your head so badly and I kind of wish I were that hawke too. so let's be collaborateurs with that fantasy'#(and then maybe if I do it right every time you'll finally be happy hawke says in his heart looking at this leandra-anders phantom form)#(and echoing stuff in varric's relationship to hawke but I think the important distinction there is that varric -- is a craftsman haha#he KNOWS when he's lying/making up a story he KNOWS the difference between what is and what he wishes the world was#(I think there's some deep longing there to not know; for it to blend together or have the power to change things. but he always knows)#which ironically leaves him in a better position to actually see and understand hawke the person#even as he is creating hawke the literary figure. almost to protect him in some ways? god da2 is so full of STUFF!!! I adore it)#and of course anders gets so disillusioned with hawke's inertia and lack of action (you all but married this man anders!#you should know this about him he's already carrying the whole family and city on his shoulders if you add a gram more he'll collapse!)#and hawke feels so desperately hurt that the promise anders seemed to make that he'd be enough -- that he could fix things for him --#('I'm the one bright light in kirkwall and that apparently doesn't count for shit so I'm just slowly turning to ash for you')#turned out to be untrue. anyway. sad now. imagine them meeting like twenty years on what the fuck could you even say to each other then#(I can't imagine Hawke ever physically hurting anyone he loves so he just tells Anders to leave at the end of DA2. they COULD meet again
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