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re: shinyduo/gempearl being so not normal about each other after life series. other anon was so right why are they freaky.
pearl is definitely just as at fault imo. gemās excellent at innuendos and tone of voice (āyour red skin is my favorite~ā) but pearlās yes and filter falls apart in front of gem. the pickles a prime example, and the ren stream disaster wedding of course. sheās also very genuine and i love that for her. but that results in crazy lines like the ālove you gem. always will. even if you dont want me, ill still be there.ā TO STREAM WHEN GEM WASNT EVEN THERE.
and i need to mention the latest stream. Pearl āI only get asked if im gay when youāre in the pictureā and how they both have to take a minute of silence to process that flejelejwkej. whose fault is that pearl? whose fault ?? to her credit she seems genuinely confused by the extent of her actions. the most damning evidence for her straightness i fear. rip gem though, she seems to be having fun anyway.
theyre both professionals and follow up in that stream with how the fandom will always play around with them as characters etc etc. good communication, very healthy, good for them. but this post is about why they graduated from shenanigans and innuendos to 2 hours of fanservice and it doesnāt even feel intentional half the time.
as for next life series, i would be shocked if they didnāt keep up this befuddling yuri bit. theyve mentioned seeing all the tierlist maker dream team posts and pearl had to ask her chat āOTHER than gem, who should I team withā so theyre well aware demand is there. theyre fantastic as enemies and well aware of that, but they could get some scarian level drama by teaming together, and i dont say that lightly. since pearl keeps stalling pvp on hermitcraft, theyre never getting that 1v1 without cosmic intervention or a declaration of love š
rambling now. love to hear your thoughts xoxo
yippee i love anon rambles!!! im glad weāre all unwell
im NOT gonna go on another rant about the life series alliance situation because as iāve just demonstrated yesterday i can literally rant. for hours. and we donāt need that lmao. at this point whether or not they team up in the next one SOMETHING will happen. i have that much faith in them. theyāre bound to run into each other and do something and thatās the shiny duo connection speaking god bless
like the other anon said, i do think they can work with just about any dynamic and itāll be insanity-inducing either way. one of my favourite things about them just as a pairing (in any context, platonic, romantic, etc.) is just the way they will drift towards one another, to be linked in a way thatās indescribable, to always carry a piece of each other with themselves wherever they wander because the influence theyāve had on the other is irrefutableā and okay yeah theyāre getting way too freaky about it get out of my fan fiction-esque rant. what are you doing here. why are you like this. what. like thereās something going on when what theyāre getting up to creeps more and more into being what i usually read in fics. i. hello???
i really, really want to give them the benefit of the doubt. okay. listen. for every mention of feet and poking at pearlās straightness, thereās a chat message behind it that warranted it, iām sure. this isnāt the post to be getting into how fans are with cc boundaries and how weāre STILL bad at figuring our tags out, but i feel like this discussion eventually HAS to touch on the fact that itās been made clear that they donāt want to see shipping stuff, and bringing it up in chat crosses that boundary just as well. i think theyāve handled it well in acknowledging that theyāre aware itās for their characters, drawing clear lines between what theyāre comfortable with and what theyāre not, etc. i think just the muddled lines from people continuously bringing stuff from a fandom space up to a cc contributes a lot to why we got. whatever happened on that wednesday stream. honestly, from these instances on stream i think itās been shown that they just find this stuff amusing, and good for them, yāknow? still doesnāt mean we should be regularly poking them about ships and. well. i dunno. literally bringing it up in chat?
but still. BUT STILL. god the ways they āyes, andā each other just keep getting worse. stuff like the pickles and the wedding (and the SL ep 4 ender dragon fight! still one of the most baffling āyes, andās iāve ever seen from them, i swear to god) were almost completely just them. that was just them. thereās no blaming chat for gem saying āwait, i donāt have a beardā right after pearl rejects ren for having a beard, and CERTAINLY NOBODY ELSE TO BLAME when pearl takes that and literally proposes to her. that was all them. and why. girl. huh??? i do believe, at least to some extent, that pearl is oblivious to the implications of what she does/says. but that only goes so far. sorry man i can only give so much benefit of the doubt for like 2-3 streams of 2 hour fan service. good lord
i was texting a friend who isnāt into mcyt about this whole. thing. and the way i described it was: imagine being a gempearl shipper, and youāre enjoying life, driving this train with fanfics and fanart and everythingās all goodā¦ and then for some reason gem and pearl jump on the train, hijack the conductor seat and starts directing the train elsewhere. nearing the end of that stream i was questioning my life and screaming for a way off this train. thatās how it felt to me. of course iām exaggerating but like. genuinely how did we get here
#asks#of course take everything i say with a grain of salt. im only one girl ranting about cubitos on tumblr#and. well. i certainly do have a lot of Thoughts about this. and im glad weāre all just losing our minds rambling here#anyway anon i dont know if this was what you expected but i hope you enjoy my incredibly incoherent and rambly thoughts#mcyt#hermitshipping#trafficshipping
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you know, garde being trans makes me have a few questions (nothing bad of course LOL this ask feels ominous). do you headcanon there being any major gender differences in trolls? either socially or biology-wise? ive noticed you give both garde and creek facial hair, but not hibiscus, so im wondering if you think theres like. testosterone and estrogen for trolls lol. or if its more of a presentation thing and all trolls have the same biology, some just choose to present differently. since as we've seen, trolls are able to reproduce all on their own, so the need for biological sex feels like a secondary thing? if you get what i mean. more of a social thing than a strictly biology thing? (i ask this as if these arent movies made by cis people who do Not think about this like us trans folks would BUT!!! i like your headcanons better so i thought id ask if you have any for gender <3)
Honestly Garde being EXPLICITLY trans wasn't my original plan, he was going to be one of those characters who is implied to be trans by the themes of his story (different from his peers, not understood by those around him, pressured to be more like the "norm") plus the fact that he's a troll who "experiments" with his "genre", so i never really put that much thought into HOW a trans troll would work
Personally i think trolls don't have much sexual dimorphism (thank god for that, imagine if we lived in the timeline where Dreamworks decided to give every female troll giant bazongas to make sure everyone understood they're the GIRL ones, though most female trolls in the movie still suffer from the "Sonic and Amy, Mickey and Minnie" curse of wearing shirts while the boys can go shirtless, with the exception of glitter trolls of course) plus i don't think trolls would be the type to pay much mind to sex and gender (like you said, they can reproduce asexually and male trolls can produce eggs so biological sex doesn't even have to be a factor here, if anything the concept of gender to a troll could be completely different to our concept of gender)
I like the idea that there is no difference between a "male" and "female" troll so there is no need for HRT, if a troll wishes to transition physically they can do that at any time (headcanon that trolls can just grow a beard just as easily as they can grow their hair), the real question they need to figure out first is HOW they want to present themselves, especially with how crazy trolls can make their hairs i can imagine it can be quite overwhelming having to figure out what you want to do style-wise, the possibilities are endless !
Honestly with those headcanons in mind i often worry that Garde's story feels "out of place" in this universe or maybe even "forced", why would Garde be ostracised for being different when trolls themselves are so different from one another ? But then i remember the first movie and how Branch was cast aside for seeing the world differently and not having a constantly positive attitude and the second movie where their immediate reaction to seeing a different genre of music was to assume they don't know that music is meant to make you happy and i think no yeah it makes perfect sense that this guy who wants to experiment with his music genre and maybe even play songs that aren't pop-y and upbeat all the time would probably get a few angry stares from other trolls
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sniffles. objects in mirror were closer than they appeared
#ii spoilers#ii 18 spoilers#is this even spoilers#yeag probably#cries wails screams throws up dies#payjay canonā¦. 3gsā¦ steve popcornā¦ they tried to put them on the cover of vogueā¦ BOX REALā¦#episode had more fanservice than that one mlp episode#though im sure it was for themselves just as much
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Something I do think is kinda worse (but definitely less prevalent) than āfandom religiously treating fanon as canonā is when someone convinces themselves that something that is canon actually isnāt, and that everyone else is stupid when in actuality most people are just likeā¦ picking up on the very obvious and purposeful implications presented in the story that you have just refused to accept mean anything if it isnāt literally spelled out for you.
#fandom#this can apply to other instances in other fandoms but#specifically im thinking about people who have convinced themselves they are big brained for thinking āvon k*rmaā wasnāt abusiveā likeā¦#come ooonn#like yes the details of his abuse are left up to interpretation#he was not canonically physically abusive with Franziska or Miles#(though itās not outside the realm of possibility)#but the pressure to be perfect prosecutors#the way failure caused Miles & Franziska to spiral SO MUCH#the way he treated Miles in investigations#the fact that Miles wasnāt suprised at all that his adopted father and mentor decided to prosecute him#the fact that Frazisksa was even allowed to basically put people to death at the age of thirteen#all of these are very canon in-your-face ways of showing what it was like to be raised by Manfred and none of it is good#like sure there are sometimes fandom interpretations on this that are probably worse than what canon is implying#and I donāt care if people like enjoy Manfred in whatever capacity#but someone doesnāt have to hit someone on camera for implications of abuse to be obvious#especially when not all abuse is physical anyways!!#I just hate the likeā¦ pretending the blatant ignoring of canon is somehow a dunk on fanon lol
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crying whenever i talk about Cookie9 because all my friends have these interesting and unique theories on them while i take everything too literally and they all just stare at me like ādudeā¦ uuugh we r TIREDā <-they dont actually say this they are very kind to me but i can Feel It
#my version of them is centered around their blog version with the āpersonalityā of their steam review and like a bunch of HC#i developed them with the implication that theyāre Real but iām a bit iffy on it#because all my friends have theories about how theyāre from the narratorās consciousness which is sick as hell#and iām unsure how to actually structure everything or if i should go the same route so i can get approval from them </3#my friends r the real reviewer fans even though they dont plague themselves over them every day and im so sad that i donāt know anythinggg#gggggggggggg#like im p sure they genuinely hate the stuff i make about cookie9 and im just. scrumbles myself. sorry im Trying :( iām not smart#or good at writing or even media literate#whatever that term means#all i have is love in my heart for them i donāt know anything at all#ouhghghhg they hate It so much but i cant do anything else and itās all i have#like all my cookie9 stuff works on the āwhat if their blog self Was Realā but iām not actually sure how to fit it all into my actual parabl#stuff because i still havent worked out how my parable itself works#and people probably donāt think i know enough and i donāt think theyāll approve if i try. so i Donāt#tempted to blame this on my like. general crushing lack of intelligence caused by both physical and mental reasons#but i want to believe i could do better if i try? but thatās incredibly hopeful#iāll be stuck here forever i think#<-guy who. whenever Anything wrong happens ever. just goes back to āoh yeah its because im dumb as fuckign rocks. due to the Incidentsā#i am very scared of the possibility that it is possible for me to be anything more because that implies that iām stupid because i didnt try#even though iām trying very very fucking hard and every time i get something wrong way more than anyone else iāve ever known#and they hate me for it . MAN!!!!!!!!!#<-brain is lying 2 me i think nobody hates me or . whatever. it still feels like it though im just saying this because i dont want anyone t#think people genuinely hate me for being stupid. i mean. people DO. but not my friends āļø#man i canāt even get into the buglivia crap either because she is so abstracted from her actual review#girl w identity issues and also the general normal Changing A Lot Through Time. i scrumble her. around#her Self during 2018 would in fact be in character for the review.i want to draw her during that time. she took everything so seriously </3#tbh my version of her does react well to TSP humor but at the time she felt like she wasnāt allowed 2 Do Her Thing and tried to seem#more professional and Normal and it seeped into EVERYTHING for a bit#cookie9 though just genuinely found the narrator annoying and patronizing. its just not his thing and thats fine#<-random nonsensechemical reviewer bits hidden inside the vents. SEND POST.
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some recent sprites for "on the flip side" characters (or rather the dimensional doubles of existing characters lol). ive posted characters from this universe a lot over the years, as its my oldest story that i still work on/think about, but ive never really explained who they are! if youd like to explore the setting and characters of "on the flip side" a bit, i made a carrd for it here (its still a wip but im trying to get it all finished within the month! main characters have fully written out bios & backstories, some side characters still just have basic info.) (also this all takes place in a fictional californian city and if you read this and go "wow that is definitely not how things are in california or the us" sorry i dont know shit im french.)
#ocs#sprites#otfps#cassie#damien#richie#freddie#mariko#marty#im not actively working on otfps As A Story bc im no longer sure what medium to make it#(it was originally thought of as a script for a tv show. eventually moved into a comic project. then decided a visual novel was better#and then thought of making it just a novel. currently not sure which way to move it & im just focused on other projects.)#im sure ill eventually come back to otfps in some way or another as im v attached to these characters and their story#but for now theyre just Around and i draw them sometimes#carl is written down as 'little is known about his early life' but dw I Know. im just not telling.#these are not even all the characters in the setting either..#theres like. the other side of the keene family (landons twin sister her husband and their three kids)#as well as koƫnn and karol#but those characters dont show up within the first arc of the story so im not even including them ok..#oh also to clarify#when i say the main 4#the protagonist of the story is caroline and she was always meant to be the main pov character#however a lot of the story has come to revolve around carl (though you dont get much insight into him originally)#so hes like. well hes not a secondary protagonist. hes not a pov character. idk what he is but hes v important to the story lol#the other main 2 are cƓme and lucy#overall its primarily a story about the keene siblings + lucy who serves as the only character w in depth knowledge of the setting#also its a story about people w issues and the different ways they cope w them#and a lot of it is about young people who grew up w absentee parents trying to figure themselves out without good parental support#so if you wonder why half the characters parents are super distant and never around. well its kinda the point basically
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What do you miss most about Pittsburgh?
Oh gosh, that's a question! I mean aside from the obvious answer of my old dance buddy lettia or naeem.
I miss pittsburgh's community, specifically the very music and art oriented one i was in. There's community here in LA but its all about fame, and money, and celebrity, and how you can use other people to get ahead. Just the other day i saw an influencer i actually kinda admired brag about meeting someone who out of respect for them + their privacy i have never never mentioned because i met them as a friend first. And it felt so weird seeing this person i know be used as click bait for the influencer's hits/likes/subscriptions. It kind of jolted some reality into me about how this city operates even in the smaller circles i run in. Its like the vibes in LA are all about 'being someone' and self importance. If someone is only going to respect me for my money (or disrespect me for my lack of money), or who i know, or credits to my name, i dont think i want their respect anyway.
Pittsburgh though - nobody was anybody in pittsburgh so we didnt fucking care, lol. It was a lot easier to go to things, to feel connected. There was an emphasis on diy, where it didnt matter who you were or who you knew if you had a good idea there was a chance it could happen. There were things like Art All Night and the various music festivals in the different neighborhoods. I was most connected to the music scene so i miss the casual afternoon concerts in someone's tiny apartment with everyone crowded around the band. The basement parties, the dancing. Ted's rowhouse was on fisk street so when i lived there with friends i really enjoyed how much of a community space it was - people were always coming and going off of butler street, movie nights, human chess parties. It definitely could feel too small sometimes - literally everybody knew everyone and everybody dated everyone. The year i left two of my ex boyfriends were living in the same house and i cant tell you the number of 'male harem' jokes i got about that one. Or the number of times a dude wanted to date me and when i said 'no' i immediately got excluded from an entire friend group. But no matter how frustrating the smallness got, i still was also aware of how special it was. Its also mostly over - a lot of my friends from that time have since dispersed to other cities. I think moments like that are fleeting, but thats what makes them unique.
But even with all that said, you know what my favorite thing to do in pittsburgh was?
Driving
and ok ok that probably sounds stupid. And it probably does not help that im in LA where driving is now the second level of hell. But even compared to seattle or nyc or other places i lived, driving in pittsburgh was just so much fun and you cant recreate that anywhere else. I once saw a data visualization of the main cities of the US and places like LA and even NYC were nicely laid out squares but pittsburgh was just this insane clusterfuck pencil scribble, and thats truly it. Cause not only do you have over 100 bridges and lots of one way roads that will funnel you onto a bridge you absolutely dont want to go over but whoops guess you're going anyway, but this city was also built on a cluster of hills. Thats what makes up the various neighborhoods - and the roads that connect these hills through hollows and over forests - are the most confusing rat maze you can imagine. For every one way to go there's also probably a dozen other options and mentally calculating which route will be fastest taking into account traffic and distance and 'speed limit' is a skill only acquired after years of living in the city. And if you have a tiny car and nasc*ar level driving skills thanks to the multiple generations of engineers in your family....driving up and down those hills is just a joy. It also, uh, helped that I made my own hours so worked from 11am - 3am most days and avoided all traffic. And in the city proper the pigs arent allowed to r*adar so as long as you knew where the speed traps were you could...uhhh... Be lenient. I only ever got pulled over once and that was because one time in the spring of 2016 i went home from work early one night and these asshole hockey fans were taking up the entire street around the rink that would get me onto bigelow and connect me to lawrenceville. And since i couldnt go down that one street, becaues its pittsburgh, i had to go in the complete opposite direction to find another route home which took like an extra fifteen minutes. And yeah i got pulled over, started crying and explaining i was just trying to get home from work, and they let me go. But damn those hockey fans. :P (but also had i realized you could go hangout outside and watch the hockey game on giant screens with a huge crowd of fellow broke but dedicated weirdos, i totally would have loved that. Thats what pittsburgh is all about lmao)
Anyway one of my old friends moved from pitt to LA, and then he moved from LA to shanghai. And i once asked him would he move back to LA and his response was that he couldn't imagine living in LA again after living in a Proper City like shanghai. And he made it clear that he saw being able to 'make it' in larger and larger cities as like...a mark of his personal progress. But me? Im a small town girl unfortunately. I still dream about the day i can fuck off to live in a cabin in the woods somewhere.
#Proper fir tree woods though i do NOT miss stick season lmfao#I will say however#That there was this one particular bitchy girl in pittsburgh#Who was tragically best friends with one of my close friends#This college educated girl considered herself a model and intellectually above all the little people around her#And she said some nasty things about uneducated trade workers over dinner one night#And she couldnt understand why i got mad at her about that (because i went to carnegie so must be part of her exclusive club)#So afterwards my one friend kept the two of us apart except for when some event was happening#And like last year or the time before i was visiting pittsburgh and my friend invited me to this thing that i knew the bitchy girl would be#So i went all out. got my fanciest LA clothes#Let my hair dry straight put on my highest heels did my makeup as best as i can and made sure to name drop and mention *visiting from LA*#Oh bitchy girl was so jealous#I walzted into that event like i was the coolest person there and i could just see her fuming#So have i used my *LA* status for evil sometimes?#Heh maybe ^_^#look nicks biggest insecurity was that he never went to college#he read like a fish in water and was so incredibly clever but he didn't have much formal education#and even as recent as july he brought it up again#but i have always considered him one of the smartest people i know so i never understood why he felt he couldn't keep up with me#anyway yeah im gonna hate that bitchy girl for life it felt good to show her up#people like her are the ones who make people without the Right College degree feel bad about themselves
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Now this might be because I have issues but is it just me or does Slay The Princess feel like an allegory for a relationship?
#like i dont even mean the actual textual stuff like the two gods loving each other i mean like#while the narrator himself does say that he is not the protagonist at all the voices do in fact count him as one of them and#both the narrator and the voices are described as shattered glass pieces on the floor#and im saying that just to contextualise what im about to say because i feel like the narrator is an echo of someone who was in#a relationship with another person and is trying to 'slay' the memory of this person and defeat death not only literally but#on a metaphorical level (as in the death of a relationship). if you do slay her you destroy her memory and in that way you do not know her#at all nor do you care to#and the routes would be the perspectives held by different parts of you. shes literally a being that changes based on who perceives her#but metaphorically thats just how people work isnt it? relationships are complicated and there is a part of you who sees someone as a razor#and there is a part of you who sees them as a damsel and another who sees them as a god etc etc#its like youre a person who is trying to make sense of the situation and; which is why the construct of the princess is made up of#several vessels called perspectives. you understand the whole of what you think only when you take apart all your perspectives;#and theres a you who isnt you anymore who doesnt want to do this. hes telling you to just destroy it. it was wholly wretched and wholly bad#and it changed which is a crime in itself. theres an echo of you. and theres you; built by this echo because thats how the self works#we are each our own god and we build ourselves. the different voices are like different parts of you#much like the vessels are the equivalent of the voices. theyre the finite confined perspectives; aspects of a whole person#and slaying her in this context would obviously mean literally just destroying the memory and deciding that change and all it brings#is an awful thing. though im not yet sure what the difference between leaving with the whole and between separating yourself#and leaving with just an aspect would be.#thats probably like the only thing thats kinda ruining this interpretation lol#oh and obviously a lot of the routes have like very strong relationship symbolism. specifically a lot of them feel like#scenes from a relationship that is falling apart. for example in the adversary and then the fury when you run away the dialogue#basically mimics a partner running away from a conflict and the other one destroying themselves because of it#witch and the thorn are both heavily Esop-coded and the text itself says that its about two people hurting each other even though they love#each other but both are afraid of the other one and of being vulnerable. thorn is about finding forgiveness in one another#and deciding to be better and love each other despite the hurt youve caused each other due to your problems#etc etc#like am i insane am i mental am i projecting?
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i. am going to have a very busy next couple of days/weeks
#good things happening!! just. stressful and time consuming.#will make my life a looot better though so excited about the end result. not excited about#all the work im gonna have to do..sigh.....if only boxes could unpack themselves#on the bright side i will finally have a desk again!! and all my art supplies!! more than just ballpoint pens!#well ok i have my paints with me rn i just dont really have good paper to paint on#on the not so bright side my desk is in pieces. and will have to be put back together. there are not instructions. those are long gone#but then we will finally be fully moved in šits been months.....#very long and complicated process i will not go into bc i am not doxxing myself#but oooh boy. its been a time. well mostly a lot of sitting around and waiting and brief spurts of being incredibly busy#all this and then im just gonna move again next summer....it will not be nearly as much of an ordeal though#most of my things will stay at my parents place im just gonna take....whatever i can idk thats a problem for future me#but. man this year has sure been a year. and next year is shaping up to be another one
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I am technically aroace but it's like I feel like being ace is so much less important to me and a much smaller aspect of who I am than being aro so I like. Never think about it. Being ace is like ok whatever I'm not attracted to people but being aro is like (the way I view humanity and relationships has been fundamentally altered in every which way and affects how I see the whole world)
#just how i view being aroace obvi#i see a lot of people who just refer to themselves as 'aro' and I'm not thsr because i still separate these two aspects of myself and don't#just think of it as that but#mentioning that im ace feels soo much less serious and unimportant than mentioning im aro#a few days ago my friend was like ''happy ace day!!'' or whatever and i was like wow. cool. this means nothing to me i didn't even know#that was a thing. i stay knowing every aro day week event etc on earth though#words#aro#aromantic#ace#? i brought it up im tagging it#asexual#im always so self conscious about when im tagging things like i don't wanna be that guy that's just like tagging shit thats barely#mentioned in a post or stuff that like someone going down thst tag wouldn't wanna se LOL#but at the same time im obsessed with making sure everything i reblog or post is organized well so im not gonna NOT tag something ...#mine#Aromanticism
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i love that my physical therapist has told me exactly Why I'm getting so much pain and how to fix it (nerves getting trapped in too tight muscles) but man i hate that fixing the problem (stretches and massaging around the trapped nerve) takes So Long and so much patience
#I've been fighting my lower back and right shoulder and both biceps for weeks now#there's a specific spot in my lower back that repeatedly gets trapped#and my biceps have literally been like this for so damn long that i stopped registering the pain part#like it felt like my biceps were bruised 24/7 when i touched them but otherwise i didn't notice#until i realised that my muscles had gotten so tight they were just like. HARD. like you know when you flex and they get stiff#it was just like that Always i still have a large section that's still wound up even though I've been trying to loosen it for weeks#most of it is better and it's not Hard and doesn't feel like a bruise as much but it still needs. a lot of work#most of this is from stress and trauma i just physically lost the ability to relax#(so hey if you feel like you have similar issues. get a muscle scraper tool and maybe do some yoga it Genuinely helps A Lot)#the spots that feel bumpy or gravelly are tight muscles and the places that feel like bruises are usually trapped nerves#at least that's what I've been told#just massage the muscle a bit with the scraper and do some stretches for that area and then ice it#the ice is important you need to make sure your muscles can recover properly from the strain of being moved after being so tightly wound#obligatory im not a doctor this is just the advice my physical therapist has given me and i just like to put information out there#in case someone like me just doesn't have the resources and knowledge to help themselves where they can#if i had learned these things sooner i might not have had some permanent nerve damage from all this#turns out your muscles can get tight enough that they eventually just kill your nerves a bit if it goes untreated for so long#and muscle damage that also happens
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probably for the best that kiryu was asleep/passed out/??? for the whole majima/park/katsuya conversation in new serena cause I think at that point heād have an aneurism if one more thing fucked him up emotionally
#though itās funny to think about the fact that I think that means heās like the only one unaware of majimaās history with mirei#which is kind of funny not gonna lie#everyone already knows and understands that they were married at one point and if it gets offhandedly mentioned later on no one would bat#an eye except kiryu whoās just standing there like#im sorry majimaās ex WHAT now#fgagshshshg#anyway i was groaning through akiyamaās dramatic read on the photograph and the letter ie the whole ātwo lovers forced to be apartā¦ā sorta#lines bshfjdbfndb like boy that sure sounds. not realistic at all#these are some fucked up individuals who had a fucked up dynamic (park described it herself and even if she didnāt try to antagonize him#much the situations she described spoke for themselves. also the fact that she was 19 and he was 28 but anyway) no way in hell was this a 20#years of romeo and juliet type pining or some shit. like. be for real#dhdhfjfjdf I have some. complaints about this but. I should just shut up and keep watching probably#rambling#y5#yakuza 5 spoilers
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im still so confused how jutuls work when it comes to age and rebirth (????) like do they just down-age or make themselves look older with time to appear human and also how does no one noticed that they look the same every time and it looks like they're inbreeding or idk
#i don't remember the pics they had to show how long they've been doing this#but im thinking that the 'parents' would make themselves look old and#and then 'die' while the 'kids' grow and so on and on#but i don't remember anyone outside the family:/ uhm incest much??#though i still dont know if it can be applied to them they sure do act like a family even among themselves#a weird one but i mean. look at them. so it's not just an act for other ppl#but also i don't remember are they really related????? did they ever touch this subject???????#god i need to rewatch to think about it#ragnarok netflix
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So many tarot readers on yt are poisoned by cultrual christanity. All the divine feminine shit and snakes being a symbol for something Bad shit and then its so weird when they both embrace egyptian shit and then also pray to "God" and constantly talk about praising their One True God like ma'am. Who are you. What is this. Whats going on here.
#why do you have a ma'at statue and then you talk about jesus every 5 seconds like#and then yall wonder why the christians who are attracted to your christianity laced content with egyptain aesthetics added ask you#if you practice satanism. like the audience you're drawing in with your 'God' bs onviously isnt going to be here for anything outside of#christian shit.#ik its new age poisoning as well but new age shit is just christianity with other religions aesthetics like thats all#otherwise yall wouldnt constantly talk about Christ Consciousness as if its the end all be all state of mind#i hate it i hate cultural christianity i hate how it corrupts ither things i hate it sm#yall. p sure it WASNT jesus who reached enlightenment under a tree.#also knock it off with the 'karmics' shit. other people can be the vehicle for with which you experience karma but they themselves-#their existence in your life isnt fucking karmic. it feels like such an excuse to dismiss ppls humanity otherwise it eouldnt bother me#nearly as much as it does.#ig i feel like. if you think of krama as just something someone else does to you and its just something that only involves ppl its just#weird like you're not getting it. its like you think ppls souls are tainted in some way rather than karma being this greater force almost#in the way these readers talk about 'the universe'. like its not some trait humans possess. karma can be a buck charging at your ass too.#karma can be being stuck in traffic. everyone around you in that scenario isnt a 'karmic' though.#even the name implies its a trait people can possess. im honestly sick of this attitude.
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STILL HAVING SUCH A NORMAL ONE ABOUT THAT RGGJO BUT NO Y7JO GETTING REALLY GOOD AT HOUSEWORK I SEE THE VISIONā¦ I'm pickin' up what you're puttin' downā¦
Because I've always wondered how unprepared Jo would've been going into everything. On one hand, he did leave home really young, but since he was working and Ikumi wasn't, one could argue Ikumi would've been the one to handle the housework at least while they were together.
Inversely, I do kiiind of feel like Jo would've done at least Some Things when he could to ease the burden on Ikumi based on his attempt to comfort her at the station. I'm reading way too much into it but it's notable that, despite him definitely being a smoker and them hoping for a miscarriage, the ashtray in their apartment is spotless.
But we only really see his living situation when he's with Ikumi and don't get to see what--if anything--changes when he's on his own, when he has to do everything and not just Some Things. But with regard to food, if you're in survival mode like that, while it is more economical to make food at home, it would make sense that any quality of cooking would be passable. That's not going to fly with a kid who's lived in the lap of luxury his whole life.
ļ»æSo I've always had a lot of feelings about Jo Bettering Himself for Masato's sake (even when Masato isn't necessarily being reasonable) and his overblown neurosis at the prospect of falling short--the post you mentioned in your tags is Exactly It. But, you know, it's cheesy, but I firmly believe he could do whatever he set his mind to, if he can manage to learn Every Martial Art and become a glorified (and very competent) accountant after dropping out of high school.
Also uhhhhhhhh entire post reminded me of this (ć³ć on Pixiv) that's it that's the ask
Ok I'm glad we both caught on to Jo's attempt to console Ikumi and the considerably-clean home. Evidently he was probably self-sufficient enough, but nothing extraordinary- just whatever passed as 'suitable' for them, so it's not as though he's going in totally clueless (but certainly not knowledgeable enough to match Masato's extremely-high standards. Bless Arakawa but he definitely spoiled him a little).
Even if it is a 'cheesy' sentiment, Jo very much has proven that so long as it's for Masato, he's willing to do anything and everything no matter how big (joining the yakuza) or small (probably like. learning how to make quiche)
#snap chats#I WANTED TO REPLY TO THIS LAST NIGHT BUT I GOT A BAD STOMACH BUG EW i'm fine now tho :]#ALSO very happy to see you liked the RGGJo i posted- i definitely hoped you would lkarejlvkej#anyway neglected kids usually pick up on how to do basic things for themselves- some dont obvi#but if jo's ready to lay asphalt on the road by 15 then he probably took like. five minutes to learn how to crack an egg for himself#my favorite Lonely Child's meal growing up was simple yakimeshi- def not a hard meal to make so i imagine he can do at least that#but i can just very clearly see in my brain jo just becoming appalled at his son's standards#cause i mean. on the one hand He's Definitely In Great Hands Now but on the other hand Oh God He Was In REAL Great Hands How The Fuck#ah... now i just really wanna do something with this whole topic it's one of my faves cause it amuses me so much#makes me think plenty.. im sure jo felt a great deal of inadequacy when he finally got to see the full of masato's new life#cause surely- in his eyes- he probably never would have been able to give him such a pleasant life how can he live up to this#just more reason to try harder and assimilate into properly that life right#a small unrelated aside tho now that we're talkin bout ikumi i wonder what she would've done if she did get masato back#i mean they really didnt have means to take care of him but still.. i wonder if she misses him#maybe /i/ care too much about ikumi verALKEJ#FINAL NOTE BACK ON TRACK THOUGH pixiv tells me ive seen this post before but i have no memory of it#but thats EXACTLY the vision and its so cute.. that's how it is in my heart#thanks for writin in and indulgin my goofy ass LMAO
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Is there a kinda gentle way to tell your friend that if they donāt let you help them out while theyāre experiencing major issues you will beat them to death with your big red hammer?
#the klock keeps ticking#im on the floor begging for them to let me help them clean their apartment#not just cuz i want to do nice things for them while they are struggling and their apartment desperately needs to be cleaned#but also cuz I LOVE CLEANING AND CANT LIVE PEACEFULLY WITHOUT DOING IT#though im not sure if theres a way to express that without sounding desperate and kinda insulting lol#i dont want it to sound like i think theyre disgusting and i cant stand to be around them like this#cuz i fully get it cleaning is very hard when mental illness acts up and you live alone#but idk i like. just want to help i cant stand seeing them all depressed and not taking care of themselves at all#i cant force someone to accept help but like. i really hope they let me do something :(#as much as id love to use my hammer ahahaha i dont want to like. ACTUALLY have to be that forceful
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