#tho it is canon that he likes stupid as fuck people and Rei is stupid as fuck so it works too

[harapeveco]

Tobi doesn’t smoke in knk bc Eve probably forgot he does that but I know in my heart he doesn’t smoke bc Rei slapped the cigarette box out of his hand and scolded him for making the house smell like shit he probably insulted him too called him something offensive

[goffilolo]

Demise!Izuku as a Youtuber?

Yep! You heard me right. Demise server is a strange little land, full of strange little ideas, unfortunitely this one idea in particular wasn’t so little. So without further ado here’s all the shit we came up with in the server in regards to izuku as a youtuber within demise!au:

If Izuku was a YouTuber can you imagine the fucking chaos dumpster fire his channel would be

He's be like an edgy twink Jenna marbles(edited)

Doing Me time every damn day

bandit is jennas dogs

tenya is julien

He'd have weird ass videos like dipping bandits feet in red pet dye then putting a sign on him that says "you pet and you'll meet the last person who dared to"(edited)

And he's also make videos about him breaking into UA and interrupting classes and stuff

"hey gamers, today we're breaking into UA to see my boyfriend and read all of my friend's secret files"

And a video just of him filing Aizawa in weird places and at the end putting him on an inflatable mattress and watching him float away 

He wakes up in Canada

They don't know how or why

He just attaches a go-pro to trash bandit and let's him run wild. He probably has a seriesJust letting him loose in weird places

DONT LET TRASH BANDIT EAT AIZAWA'S SLEEPING BAG AT 3AM | VERY SCARY"hey guys so today ill be doing the 'How many bottles of quil can i steal before i get caught by Tsukabitch' challange. feel free to make a video of your own!" 

He probably dyes Bandit according to holidays and puts him as the profile picture. The kicker is, he only does it for holidays that his country doesn't celebrate

Like 4th of july

And Canada day

"Hewo soulless fuckers it is me your overlord, King of the soulless fuckers. Today I'll be going up to people in the streets and telling them that I killed God and Satan. But y'all know me, that's not enough. So I'll be asking them which one I killed first and if they get it wrong I take a shot of quil. The quil I'll be taking is the plain ol kind so don't worry your little marshmallow heads about it." 

He only makes text posts in OwO speak this just makes me realise demise!izuku would make a great youtuber

He would twitch stream all the time doing the weirdest shit for hours on end

"what is up gamews! today i wiww be weviewing the new game cawwed life! i have been pwaying it fow about 16 yeaws now and i have to say it's pwetty bad my guys!"

I feel like he'd be absurdly popular and whenever someone mentions him and they look up the channel they are like "wth have I stumbled upon?!"

I'm just imagining what his front page would look like

The seasonal trash bandit profile picture, the banner would be a flaming hellscape with people he dislikes burning and trash bandit looming on low opacity in the background 

(He made it so that only people who view it on TV get the full experience.)

He probably has his own segment on buzzfeed unsolved

Not talking

Its about him

The intro video would just be him staring into the camera while mixing together a horrible concoction of quil then downing it without breaking eye contact(edited)

His about section is written in 3 different types of code and it's all in owo if you manage to crack it

i love demise|!izuku as a youtube cryptid

Clown Speak and OwO speak mixed together

I feel like in the beginning Izuku was this obscure YouTuber that you only find out about if someone in the know tells you about it until a bigger YouTuber found him out on a deep dive video and just couldn't stop watching yes

i imagine once he gets big people from react channel would invite him to react to videos of people reacting to his videos 

What if in one of his videos he started acting like his old self just to freak everyone out. He didn't say anything about it instead he talked about hero analysis with a bright smile and trail off into muttering a few times only to blush when he realized it. He have his hair in a ponytail with only bangs framing his face and some messy pieces falling out. Also her be wearing something plain but like old Izuku, maybe hero merch or something. The comment section was just people flipping out and shit

He never acknowledges the video after he made it

No matter how many comments he gets he acts like it doesn't exist

omg you know wha tthat would actually allign with the demise and canon swap places for a da

yand you know what that gives me a lot of feels

the millions of subscribers get to see the old izuku

Maybe after a milestone he would post a video he made in middle school of him analyzing a quirk in video format to make sure it wouldn't get destroyed

And he put a couple videos of younger him after it

But it starts being supporting Izuku

And his present and past self and stuff

PEOPLE MAKE FAN ART first Its all full of trash and memes

What if that picture of canon Izuku meeting demise Izuku was a fan art someone made of his old self meeting the new him 

Kids from his class kinda Piecing together they really screwed up?Some even sending in apologies, perhaps

For mental health day I could see him posting a serious video about what he went through and his time in the mental hospital 

And on national stop bullying day he would talk about his decade of abuse including the details of how the school and teachers fucked up and everything aboutbakugou

izuku using youtrube for shitposting and advocating

And for mothers day he features both Rei and Inko?

Endeavor exposure video

What if Rei helped edit or something?To help pass the time for her

Give her something to do

People love the mysterious editor

I feel like villains watch his content like maybe Dabi

rei and fuyumi sometimes make appearances

Dabi just shows up in the videos

Quickly become faves

I feel like Dabi would become a fan and start crying after seeing his mom happy in one of Izuku's videos

"...and this is rei, my hospital mom and this if fuyumi, her daughter so like my sister she helps me keep my shit together and sometimes gives me quil.." 

dabi crying from seeing his mom happy in some lunatic's youtube videos

“...and this is shin, dont let the looks deceive you this man went to jail"

Shin comes in and covers the cameras a lot

FATHERS DAY IS A PICTURE OF TRASH BANDIT WITH HIS DADS VOICE SCRAMBLED OVER IT

“and this is the local florida woman and her alligator

WHAT IF BNHA VERSE HAD QUIRKLESS AWARENESS WEEKizuku would go ape shit during that week

"who needs a quirk when my dad gave me a gun!"

He would give axe sharpening tips

"Remember kids! Society won't help you, so you gotta help yourself!"

he would make 'how to cook videos' except it would only be quil combos

What if one day he just put quil in the ovenand pulled out a muffin

Remeber, don't try this at home kids." makes A horrifying quil combo "rememer never ever do this even if you have a quirk that allows it." downs the horror concoction

"so today were gonna do my boyriend does my makeup challange and since both me and tenya are dumb and know nothing i borrowed my mums makeup..." 

It’s a given he’s gonna do makeup tutorials. The real question is would they be good or absolutely horrendous?

good or horrendous? Both

Amazing makeup at horrendous things? Hmmm interesting

“Hey guys today I’m turning myself into a real like eldrich abomination with the help of eyeliner and glitter!”

izuku has a whole playlist of videos dedicated to tenya and UA

theyre all jsut shitposty compilations of some footage when tenya isnt looking

Even tho it looks like he couldn't give a fuck he is very selective with which footage makes it online. He's very careful at how much is revealed and makes sure no students or secret identities would be in danger with his content

izuku isnt stupid...hes jsut having a good time

Sneaking into UA highschool by hiding in pro hero eraserhead's sleeping bag | NOT CLICKBAIT

Izuku would totally play carefree and childish games while just being Izuku

Like his animal crossing series

Fucking legendary on his channel in terms of gaming

izuku's sims lets play

it's like a 10 generation long telenovela lowkey based off the todoroki family

He has no straight sims, he recreated UA and class 1a in sims

the wedding of sim izuku and sim tenya is like the biggest party in the sim neighbourhood

He creates endeavor just to lock him in a room with 50 ovens

Omg his draw my life has got to be super depressing

He'd be super blunt and monotone during his whole draw my life going through all of the abuse and bullying that he went through because of his quirklessness and also his suicide attempt and all that jazz(edited) 

izuku would paint on a potato

Izuku would make a get ready with me where he does something totally batshit crazy then ends it with "Ah. Yet another day in my life."

Izuku meets Marie Kondo

“Only keep what brings you joy”

“Well this gun from my father sure brings me joy”

Knifemaking videos but with axes

Izuku decided to do a wardrobe tour and like 4 things were bloodstained which he never addressed. The most popular comment was what happened, which of course he never answered.

Izuku does these new year (like all of the questions from last year) or milestone Q+A’s/AMA's which are basically people just asking a bunch of the things he wouldn't answer or address before. A lot of his viewers write down and timestamp when he does something and doesn't address it. If you don't you'll never hear an answer.

He has his boonk gang phrase which is probably like Bandit gang or some shit like that, which he shouts while breaking into places. UA dorm rooms, UA facility office, UA, Hero Agency’s, Endeavour's bedroom (Don't ask), etc. 

He has a variety of videos where he does things from different communities. For example he has a few hair tutorial and following hair tutorial videos. Same for makeup.I feel like Izuku would also have some dresses and slutty Halloween costumes that be put on in a video all while looking like someone who just had finals and was studying for 4 days straight beforehand.

At like 4AM a thought hit Izuku to have Trash Bandit meet Kouta for the first time and learn what his sheep talks about and what he has to say. Needless to say he took his camera, went to UA, stormed the dorms, went up to the shy kid sheep in hand, looked him dead in the eye, and asked “What is my sheep saying.” bandit speaks and Kouta goes from confused and slightly scared to disgusted and horrified. What did Bandit say? Who the fuck knows…

Izuku loves analysis and while he doesn't do it for heroes anymore when he misses it too much sometimes he does it with tv shows or other things.

Idk what yet but Izuku is weirdly good at something and only showed it on camera once. (He's casually known to be a good artist) Whatever he's good at he did it once for a video and it's in one of the most popular compilation videos of him. 15 minutes of Izuku being a cinnamon roll.

Izuku has a shit ton of videos featuring the UA kids. He has some playlists dedicated to certain ones even if all you see is the back of their head.

Any proceeds Izuku manages to get (he is popular but he gets demonetized a lot) goes to different charities for the quirkless.

He made only 1 serious cooking video on his birthday, but instead of using a knife he used an axe.

He has a video called “My sharp things (tour)” where he just shows off all of his knives and axes and shit along with a massive pair of scissors he got Momo to make.

Izuku makes videos of himself destroying endeavor merch while staring at the camera.

[fukutomichi]

I’m typing this just an hour after I left the cinema watching TROS...fuck sleep I need to get it out of my system. Gonna let it simmer in the drafts and post it on Sunday when I would assume most of you have seen it by now...It will be full with major spoilers as well.

Before I start, I wanna somehow give the biggest hug to Kelly Marie Tran. I was in disbelief how J.J stooped so low and shafted her character aside so he can please the fanboys that didn’t like her in TLJ. People giving support to Adam Driver now, should be doing that to Kelly Marie Tran. Adam has a fan favorite character, successful career with tons of praises, he will be fine. Kelly Marie Tran on the other hand doesn’t have that. I just feel AWFUL for her...

So...This is gonna be huge. Where do I even begin...

...I’m so fucking upset...Not Game of Thrones salty no, that salt still stings tho...I’M FUCKING UPSET cause this is basically IT. This is how the Skywalker saga gets its conclusion. At least GoT has the saving grace of the books in the end, you can still cling to that hope that maybe, MAYBE GRRM will treat his characters and story better than the two bozos who shall not be named, and give them a fitting end...

The screening that I was in was packed full. On The Last Jedi there were claps, gasps, “oh nos”, laughs, and the big GASP when Luke bamoozles Kylo on Crait. This one...the audience was dead silent the whole time...THE WHOLE TIME. Not even a giggle at the silly parts. I even felt stupid when I cackled after I saw freaking Babu Frik surviving and going OHOOO, I was the only one and wanted to crawl under the chair immediately. DEAD SILENCE the whole time. Opening night, the biggest of biggest fans. This should tell you something...

THE DEAD SPEAK! That was the first sentence in the crawl...

Like I went in with full knowledge of the leaks...I wasn’t expecting to get the most bizarre summary in the crawl. So...Palpatine all of a sudden enters the chat...LITERALLY!

Two and a half hours of the biggest fetch quest for the macguffins that are not even hinted or introduced anywhere in the movies? “Ohh, but what about in the comics/books/games??” NO! I am only judging WHAT WAS IN THE MOVIE and this is me telling you as a big fan of the new canon of the other media so far...Lol that’s about to change...

THE PACING!!! J.J HAS NEVER LEARNED HOW TO PACE HIS DAMN MOVIES!! WE ARE RUNNING 94% of the movie from place to place like lets see how many sceneries we can cram into one movie...TFA, but on STEROIDS PACING!

The dialog...70% was a direct copy/paste from all the other movies. Who truly wrote the script? Was it someone that was lurking in the prequel memes subreddit? Kylo gets to repeat his TFA lines again and is gone for half of the movie and please PLEASE let me be wrong. but I think his last line LAST LINE that I heard, LAST WORD was FUCKING “ow”... *jumps into the void...

...Poe and Finn get to throw lines at each other. And when they were some trio scenes, it was either bickering or BICKERING, sometimes I was enjoying it, sometimes it felt...like it sounded a bit forced? I think maybe this is where the reshoots might come into play cause some parts of them felt like they were slide in...

I don’t even wanna talk about Rose...GOD I’M SO UPSET!

The Knights of Ren were useless, just a mini boss fight check for us to see that Kylo can take them all by himself...We have already established that Kylo is OP as well but okay...

Rey being a Palpatine...So wow. Let’s scrub the part where we established that you don’t need to be of special lineage to be a powerful force user. Lets make the character that was always trying to find herself and who she truly is, ESTABLISHED that it’s okay being yourself and a powerful linage doesn’t guarantee power (the opposite of Kylo constantly fighting with his family’s legacy by even REJECTING HIS OWN NAME)...Nope, she’s a Palpatine cause the fans don’t like it when a main character doesn’t belong to a certain bloodline and she was too OP. Plus we needed so that Palpatine being “alive” works I guess...J.J....it doesn’t work bruh.

Rey having healing powers...Like how? Just by reading the books? Leia thought her? HOW?? MAKE IT MAKE SENSE J.J!!

And while we’re at it. PALPATINE FUCKED SOMEONE. Like...that’s canon now. He had as son, and Rey is his daughter. His son looked young in the flashback though...are you telling me Palpatine banged someone while looking like a corpse?? PALPATINE??? SHEEV PALPATINE??? Honestly I always thought he had a thing for Tarkin...I dunno. Cause Tarkin was the only one that could call him by his name and always assumed you know, power hungry evil boyfriends?? The perfect match? :’)

CHEEP FAKE-OUT DEATHS!! I can’t even count how many they were. THEY DON’T WORK EVERY 15 MINUTES, J.J!! YOU FOOL! And because of that, all the tension and danger was gone from the movie for me. My evil fav Hux died the most cheep death possible. Although he died a PETTY KING! Respect to my true supreme leader, you could have had it all with a coup d’etat which Rian set up perfectly, but J.J was like fuck it. :’)

Kylo dying is a “we been knew” type of scenario, I didn’t want it, I was prepared for it, the most basic ending, but expected after J.J set up his character with a “cardinal sin” by killing his dad AKA a fan favorite character. No way he gets a pass right? THE MOST BASIC ENDING. Opposite of Vader my ass. Anidala MY ASS! Anakin/Vader already did the Anidala swtich, by saving Luke. HE WAS THE ONE THAT DID THE SWITCH. Guess it was for nothing...Rey doesn’t even mourn him for 5 seconds she’s like GURL BYE on the x-wing, the disrespect lol.

Rey dies, doesn’t vanish...Leia and Ben die, both vanish. “But Leia was waiting for Ben tho”...THEN WHO WAS REY WAITING FOR TO PASS ON THEN?? THE PORGS???

Finn being force sensitive FINALLY confirmed after we all guessed it in TFA, a leftover by J.J when he was still deciding to switch the main character from Finn to Rey...ooohhh the fans noticed, lets slip that in as well cause Finn now needs to chase over Rey THE ENTIRE MOVIE TO TELL HER THAT!! After Finn finally finding his place, after running and having second doubts, AS A REBEL SCUM!! THIS REBEL PRINCE WAS WRONGED SO MUCH!!!

Poe......Poe......We learn that he had a dark past being a spice dealer. He already WON his own battle with himself and got Leia’s blessing as a worthy Resistance leader....no....Lets make him have a shady past as well cause exposition requires it. And DO NOT mention to me “Poe was set to die in the first 20 minutes anyway” DO NOT AT ME! I guess J.J needed to WRITE HIM BETTER THEN??? HMMMM?

I don’t really have an opinion on the two new characters...I liked the actresses, but I think there was no need for new characters at all.

The kiss made no sense I’m sorry. An obvious shoehorned thing that was a visible reshoot cause of THEIR HAIR! If you watch it again notice it. Also it’s obvious by now that I’m not gonna rewatch this shit lol They spend 80% clashing, spewing anger at each other, chasing...and then magically KISS??? THAT’S LOVE?? Naaah. At least Rian presented something more soft and intimate in TLJ .The confusion and dislike at the begging with their forcebond, then trying to understand their perspectives, THEN they reach UNDERSTANDING, worry for each other, fight besides each other. And then it’s the part where they must stay true to their own perspectives again and choose “the higher duty” over themselves...and then Rey shuts the door in Kylo’s face going “I might have fucked up" with his choice at the end was AMAZING. In this part he goes back to his old “me still a baddie”...uuugggghhhhh. I’m not even a Reylo, but the true OG Reylo Rian should have given a chance to be involved in this movie to set up their relationship at least....Just a hug back would have okay.

That fucking dagger. THAT’S the part where I was starting to roll my eyes. The scene where Rey pulls up the dagger at the Death Star wreckage to pinpoint the wayfinder...Up to that point I was STILL on board the ride, but after that is where I started to just roll my eyes or cringe...

The Luke and Leia’s flashback only served a purpose to calm the fans about the “Whaaat?? Leia can use the force and fly in spaaace whaaaat?” cause it wasn’t believable enough that Anakin freaking Skywalker is her dad after all...Nope, lets make her train, and have her own lightsaber AND have her know that she always known that Ben, HER BABY BOY is gonna die...Like...Didn’t Yoda already went through the part WHERE THE FUTURE IS ALWAYS IN MOTION and DIFFICULT TO SEE???? HELLO??? HOW THE FUCK CAN I REMEMBER THAT AND ENTIRE TEAM OF PAYED WRITERS IN GAJILLIONS CAN’T I’M AJSJSHJKASHSK:LKAS...This freaking family has the most saddest story ever it seems, NO ONE GOT A HAPPY ENDING!

Harrison Ford never showing up again, EVER? Nope...Although I gotta admit it was a sweet moment...and then Kylo YEETED his lightsaber and everyone in the cinema went ”Wait what? how is he gonna fight now??” WITH THE POWER OF...SHOWING UP AFTER HALF THE MOVIE! YAAAAY!

WHERE DID VADER’S MASK GO?? WHERE???

Rey taking the name of Skywalker...I immediately thought “Wow...3 generations of Skywalkers, tragedy after tragedy...so that Palpatine‘s line gets redeemed and takes over it? That’s BALANCE? The Satan of Star Wars gets to have the last laugh, it’s like the entire Skywalker line was a sacrificed for Rey. 40 years all lead to just that...

This movie did EVERYTHING possible to undo TLJ. Like it was like a checkpoint list. TLJ BAD? Then improve on it!! Not by disregarding everything that was established so far! I’m gonna be honest, comparing TFA and TROS, they feel like movies made by two or three different directors. TFA is similar to the first Stark Trek that J.J did, it FELT like J.J was all over it. This one just was like J.J and some other people that were holding the checkpoint list...

I have so SO SO much to talk, but my eyes are bleeding, my brain is dead and I just wanna lay down and sleep and wake up in another dimension...So maybe I’ll write up another post in the next days when my mind settles.

I still maintain my main issue with the sequels ever since I saw TFA. I loved the hype and excitement of TFA, I loved the pace and set up in TLJ, maybe even this piece of shit might grow on me one day, but I will always ALWAYS state that it was a mistake FROM DAY ONE to use the original cast. They should have never had involved. Their story was done. They won the war and saved the day. Disney could have started a 1000 years back, or 1000 years in the future and people would have still watched it. The KOTOR games and the Rebels series, the Thrawn books,THE FUCKING MANDALORIAN, even Rogue One are proof that you don’t need familiar faces or overpowered characters close to having god powers for this franchise to work. You don’t need a linage or a famous name.

You just need interesting characters and an intriguing story that drives them, in a magical Galaxy far, far away...That’s Star Wars.

[dealingdreams]

Okay TROS thoughts...here we go. I’m putting them all below the cut in case somehow you’ve avoided spoilers

so general thoughts...i didnt hate it nearly as much as i thought i would so thats pleasant but im gonna break it down more

things i liked:

Adam Driver.  just Adam. Fucking. Driver my dudes. This is like a backhanded compliment because JJ is so fucking lucky Adam was cast because the emotional depth of the film rested literally all on his shoulders for me. I only felt the weight if he was acting in a scene. 

I’ll admit im biased but I did adore the interaction between Finn and Poe. Their bickering amused me and the tenderness between them was wonderful...I think Oscar played Poe a bit jealous as well which i liked.

the Reylo scenes to me where beautiful. Ben never lied to her, she tried to deny it but she knew he never did. I loved that he was kinda guiding her, protecting her, loving her, and antagonizing her all at once. I loved how soft their kiss was, their smiles are literally the light of my life. Rey’s face when she healed him. Ben just staring at her as she tells him she did want to take his hand...just chef’s kiss

I loved the saber fights. Ben’s fight at the beginning was hot as fuck...and his fight as newly redeemed Ben Solo was even hotter somehow.

 I enjoyed the fight scenes between ben and rey! how often ben just let her walk away, and despite that one scene which i will mention below...i like i even tho rey was rather aggressive idk...it didnt really feel like she was trying to hurt him much either? i just think they had a lot of chances to kill each other and didnt take it...so i like that

i knew she was looking at ben in that clip i knew it...she only makes that soft face at him

I always enjoy stupid ass C3PO jokes for some dumbass reason

Han and Ben’s scene was heartbreaking and beautiful. Again tho JJ is fucking lucky to cast Adam cause recycling dialogue from TFA wouldnt have worked at all had Adam not been so fucking amazing

the save chewie hall blaster scene was fun 

i liked how fucking dramatic children ben and rey were with that damn ship lol...no im gonna force pull it...no im gonna...what dorks

while i didnt like the entire way the force bond was used i did enjoy seeing it still strong and growing

confirming canon soulmate reylo was a highlight

ben’s hair looked bomb

finn’s outfit was cool

Jannah was beautiful (please correct me if i misspell her name)

dark rey was glorious tho 

that new little droid is literally me so i adore it

that sith cave thing was really fucking cool looking 

the visuals of the film were most of the time stunning 

sooooo...now to what i didn’t like:

I think this first one is the most obvious for those who know me but...Ben’s death just feels so utterly useless to me. especially when they gave him a metaphorical death earlier in the film. i feel extremely hurt and betrayed. Disney has gone out of their way to make us sympathize with Ben Solo. They’ve revealed more and more of his past...how alone he was, the abuse he suffered from snoke and palpatine. just fuck...they just kill him...the moment he realizes he’s free and loved they end his life....literally WHAT THE FUCK. it’s a chicken shit way out of a redemption arc honestly. Not letting u just breath after his death was also so horrible. We barely got to see Rey mourn, we got a split second of it then it jumped to another scene...another second of her looking sadly at her sabor to have the moment interrupted 

tag on to above but...they didnt have him as a force ghost cause Disney is intentionally keeping where he is ambiguous so they can sell more shit which pisses me off so much

thats not how the force works

there couldnt have been that many sith could there??? cause like there can only be 2 at one time....fucking rule of 2 so how the hell were there that many

palps being like...see i actually want you to kill me...is ridiculous

rey palpatine is the most idiotic thing i have ever heard. Rey being a no one from no where was such an amazing thing. Just anyone can be strong in the force...you dont need royal blood to make you worth something....then they just retcon that??? the fuck I MEAN THE FUCK. 

Finn does nothing but worry about Rey the whole film. I know folks dont like his storyline in TLJ and while i understand that and do think it could have been written better i still adore it because Finn grew. He grew from just caring about a small group of people to caring about an idea to caring about something bigger than him. I didnt see any growth in his character in this film. His heroics were beautiful to see and I enjoyed seeing his heart but that was John’s acting more than the writing it think. 

sidelining rose was fucking disgusting 

the trio felt forced to me

the leia scenes didnt work for me honestly and they mostly just made me sad

bringing in lando now felt weird 

ive wanted force sensitive finn for a while but didnt feel right

why the fuck have finn want to tell rey something but never do...ugh i hate storytelling like that

they never explained how palps is back...he just is

rey stabbing ben felt odd to me. i loved the moment when she healed him, and i know technically her anger and darkside was coming out and she acted on instinct...nevermind that even before leia called out to him ben coudnt follow thru with the killing blow. 

....i’m sure i’ll think of more as i get angrier 

anyways over all...id be lying if moments didnt make me laugh or smile...if i didn’t feel a sense of nostalgia and enjoyment for 80% of this movie. The thing is that even with so much of it being enjoyable to me it still felt void. An action movie, with new characters, a confusing plot and very minimal emotional depth.

The emotion hinged soooo much on Adam or me. The biggest reason for that aside from that fact that Ben Solo is one of my all time favorite characters, is that the things Rey is dealing with in the film are directly related to her being a palpatine...and i HATE THAT. Like straight up wanna fling it into the sun. 

Rey never needed to be related to a force royal bloodline. She should have been allowed to remain strong because she was just strong. Kylo’s equal in every way, not because she was the granddaughter of a sith which btw you can’t inherit force powers. Retconing something so touching and unique from TLJ was just...fucking idiotic. All to please the loud but small misogynistic fandom that thought a woman couldnt be that strong on her own so she must be related to someone

The biggest thing....tho is killing Ben. it felt so unnecessary and just...i feel so betrayed. The interviews leading up to the film got my hopes up that i was worried for nothing. I always thought they’d kill him, because cinema seems to not know what to do with characters has tragic as him without just killing him in the end. we already got a redemption = death plotline in this franchise...why couldnt we get a redemption = life instead??? My friend who doesnt even like sw that much...tros was actually the 2nd sw fim she’s ever seen...thought it was unnecessary as well and agrees with me a lot about my feelings despite not having the same intense emotional attachment to him as me. She for a moment thought they’d be together at the end but nope. Its just...pointless to me now, the sacrifices han, luke, and leia made to reach Ben are for nothing. Their deaths...pointless...Ben means so fucking much to me. I’ve never felt such an intense emotional bond with a character before so im just hurting so fucking much right now.

Rey taking the name Skywalker isnt hopeful or cute its a slap in the face honestly...and it’s just weird! 

The last Skywalker died loved and held by the woman he loved and that is beautiful to me. He died happy and a hero thats a balm at least...but to not let him be the one to kill palpatine...after everything EVERYTHING he put him and his family thru was another just fuck...i wanted justice for him and he just got thrown away

Ultimately...Ben and Rey are soulmates and their force bond was severed. Palpatine didnt take that from them because he couldnt have...again not how the force works....but JJ used that bond to be a battery???? the fuck...but ultimately hes forcing Rey to live the rest of her days with a gaping wound in her soul. a wound unable to be filled and will be with her for the rest of her life...thats so fucking tragic to me. you give rey someone who is her equal, who understands her, and you take him from her and force her to be alone for the rest of her life?? and we are supposed to not see that as a tragedy? Her being fineishness at the end of the film seemed like direction from either the writing or in the moment, but just further proves he didnt bother to even understand the lore he was using. Force bonds were considered i quess legends in the current SW canon but Rian brought it back...so it’s back. and well

  "A bond between two living beings is not something easily broken. It is not a choice… it is like breaking a feeling. Like turning away from the Force. To break a bond, your feelings would have to change, or one of you would have to die—but even then, the bond wouldn't go away, it would simply… it would simply be empty, a wound."―Master Zez-Kai Ell[src]

and .... the only way to break it was to turn away from the Force, as Surik did on Malachor V. So basically it all came down to creating a wound in the Force”

sooo yeah...im pissed i’d give this movie a 1 1/2 out of 5 

thank you for those who have read my rantings! I hope at least some of this made sense

[ssaalexblake]

star wars spoilers

ros spoilers

move onnnn

like actual proper major spoilers and i’m making this intro long in case mobile decides to hate read mores today

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Anyway like, i am a Shallow sw viewer who isn’t actually likely to kick up a fuss abt what i didn’t like in any serious way even tho i got issues, But i wanna say what i really liked b/c?? there were moments in that movie with themes i Loved and i don’t wanna be negative nancy for this franchise because i am actually incapable of taking it seriously tbh no matter how wtf or wild it is and i just Gotta;

First of all. The entire franchise was worth Rey it for calling Leia Master. 

like, they added her in best as they could, which wasn’t fabulous but i can’t really say how they’d work their way around that tbh so i’m not gonna rag on abt the Leia plot But god they proper confirmed she was a Legit Jedi thank u V much.

Chewie!!! Got!!! his!!! medal!!!

they put porgs in the movie, it was my only request and i recieved. i am content. 

also the effects on old palps were Incredible and Creepy and!!! props to the vis effects teams

also s/o to the choreographer who planned out rey’s fighting style to look like gymnastic tumbles but with a murderous glow stick. love it.

idk what extended sw canon now says about force powers being able to heal But the old eu book shatterpoint is one of my faves and i loved the inclusion that Rey can just like. Heal. 

also lol i heard daisy ridley on the radio this morning and she was supposed to be requesting songs to air but didn’t know the names of them and i have Never related to anybody more than i did in that moment. 

look ok, that rey and kylie could literally fight each other when not in the same room was Really Cool ok

tho i would have Paid to have seen the pov of an outsider while they had lightsaber battles from miles away tbh b/c that would have been Wild

i had one Horrified moment where i thought the ‘rise of skywalker’ thing was a Pun about kylie dragging his ass up from that hole and u have No Idea how thankful i was @ the Rise sequence

also i, a massive mace windu fan, was Ecstatic his voice was present in the proceedings

which were A) tacky and B) Abdolutely my favourite thing ever. 

it’s a space opera ok i am allowed to Want to be here for the tacky heartwarming shit

‘is that the navy??!?!?!?!?@ ‘ no sir... it’s.. .People’ was one of the funniest yet heartwarming sequences in anything ever ngl

HORSE WARTHOGS

inexplicable lin manuel miranda cameo

rey’s temper explained due to the fact that she is related to... Vilanelle

and look ok, i Always hated the idea of Rey being related to the skywalkers and Any crap meta that she had to be family for it to Count properly. It was an insult to found family, any form of adoption etc etc and i am.. Actually very mollified by this familial turn of events lol. It has a certain symmetry. and sw is literally built on the idea that history repeats but... different. 

i was’t against rey being related to anybody, i just didn’t want her to be a skywalker because like... she was gonna Be a skywalker b/c legacy isn’t about blood, and uh... least i was right. i am naturally happy abt this. 

also when i watched tlj the first time i was CONVINCED at the end of the movie she’d raise luke’s x wing from the depths as yoda did for luke in esb, and was Super off put that i was wrong. I was not wrong just... my timing was off. luke rose the x wing for her. ur yoda now luke. deal with it. 

the other ex storm troopers who laid down their weapons!!! all of them!!! fin is not alone, they only have power by making you think you are alone!!! 

i Really loved that thematic thread btw

also richard e grant’s performance was actually kind of chilling

but i am glad that i can still happily say that every character in sw Is a total unmitigated idiot. All of them. Stupid. Idiot rights. Yes, this is a plus point. 

i also liked that it’s Kind of obvious hamill and ford picked up slack for what Would have been carrie’s scenes??? Like, it’s horrible she’s not there but they obviously care to do that in her stead. it’s sad but makes you smile. 

as much as i’m not a kyle fan and never will be, and as much as i am not a fan of the ship, i can’t say there there weren’t decent thematic threads around the rey and kylie plot. Her symbolically killing kylie in a fit of rage, actively actually rising to his bait, realising as luke did in the roj climax that she had let the dark side get the better of her But having the power to take that Back and heal him and Stop even after she’d done something. It’s like the originals but not. And so, kylo is dead and Solo walks again. Was this plot My thing? No. But i appreciate the symbolism of him being stabbed through the stomach like he did to Han, and i appreciate the contrast of her actions after doing that versus His after he did it. What a difference. 

i said this wasn’t a complaint post but u wanna know the worst part abt the movie??? how cheap the sith dagger looked. surely u can do better than that???

anyway, 3po’s red eyed when he translated the sith was hilarious tbh. 

also hilarious: sw’s response to hiring Another brown haired white lady was to Only show her eyes in a way that was Incredibly conspicuous and was therefore unintentionally hilarious. 

Finn is Explicitly force sensitive now and it’s over for y’all 

wedge!!!

like... the sith amphitheater???  with the ghosties of all sith past (i think??? my interpretation anyway) was Genuinely creepy??? 

this is a Bit of a side note, but Luke was Perfectly in tune with tlj luke??? Because tlj luke changed tune before the end of That movie when he gucci booted his astral ass to distract kylie, him Saying his fear was wrong was merely verbal confirmation of what was portrayed in tlj. really. That’s not them backing away from tlj, it’s afffirming it. 

i really loved that hux just got That death. I liked  that while he Was used for ridiculous comic relief, the narrative did not forget he was just straight up evil. 

L A N D O

that i all. that’s the point. just lando.

sheev palpatine’s late entry for Shittiest parent/paternal figure in the sw universe Was at the eleventh hour but by god did he give it his all to win the competition. 

things only relevant to cm fans: they killed kate callahan’s husband!!! :((((

critics are slamming them for like, hardly killing anybody but I for one am happy they didn’t go grimdark and just went. Fuck it, we’re gonna keep being bullheadedly optimistic and most everybody lives, deal with it.

s/o to that gay moment that lasted like 2 solid seconds but i’d have preferred it if she’d been like, making out w/ chewie tbh.

that hug!! the trio hug!! my ot3!!! that i am even more convinced would Properly work as an ot3, too btw. Poe spent the whole movie jealous finn is into Rey, while confused abt it b/c He’s also kinda into Rey in that han/leia Tension kinda way, but Finn is also into Poe but not in the Puppy way he is with Rey, in the ‘i am so in love w/ you i don’t realise it but i trust you with the world’ kinda thing and Rey also has the Tension thing w/ Poe and would do anything for Finn but she’s like... Busy. B/c like, unfortunate family reunions and the awkwardness of being a millennial Actually offered a decent job that your morals do not allow you to take and the crisis that leaves u with. 

anyway what i’m saying is the ot3 is Sailing in my head. look how it ended!!! Sailing. 

however, i would like it known that the lady at the end Should have heard the word skywalker and Run for the hills. missed a chance. 

But also Rey Did find that family of hers Maz told her she’d get ahead of her!!! i hate how many ppl say that was dropped or forgotten. like wtf??? what are finn and poe and chewie and bb8 and 3po and all the army of droids that love her and all the resistance that does too??? Luke and Leia??? y’all obsessed with blood when it comes to sw. She’s got her family. 

now i Could make a complaints post but i just... I’ll leave that to everybody else and their mothers for now bc they’d be better at it anyway. I liked This stuff. Except for that point about the dagger. that sucked. 

[leparfum-desfleurs]

Ask thingy: I got Daddy Endeavor! 🔥🔥🔥🔥

“Favourite thing about him: AH!!! WHERE DO I START! I would never end if I get too much into the whys (maybe for another post), but I love his hero name, I love him as a Hero I MEAN HE’S NUMBER ONE NOW GUYS, his absolutely delicious and perfect and amazing body, thighs, pecs, abs, HIS NOSE DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON HIS NOSE!! His scar is now so friggin sexy, I love his character development, seriously you guys have no idea how happy that makes me, I LOVE HIS THEME SONG, I love his relationship with Hawks (obvs lol), HIS QUIRK, HIS PRESENCE! I LOVE THAT HE IS TRYING SO HARD TO BE BETTER!  I love that he is not demanding nor expecting his kids to just forget what he has done just because he is trying, I love how he respects them and lets them be because he knows they are better that way, I LOVE THAT HUGE, HUUUUGE CHANGE of what we see of him from the first part of the 2nd season of the anime and what we have of him now in the manga, HE’S AN AWESOME INTERESTING DEEP CHARACTER AH!! DID I MENTION HIS NOSE? (please stop me) Oh yeah and even tho he’s fictional he makes stupid people’s pantys into a knot and I LIVE FOR CHARACTERS LIKE THAT! OH OH and he gave us beautiful baby boy Shouto so that’s also a Plus (Ultra)

Least favourite: His past, of course. I would never not acknowledge how fucked up he was to his wife and kids, but at the same time it’s kind of a gray point because that is what is making him such an amazing character too so. 

Favourite line: Will agree with @magicmiss here, “JUST WATCH ME” Like yes my beautiful bara man I am watching you! <3

BrOTP: Hawks, obviously, what canon gives us is this and I am so so so blessed Horikoshi bless your hands

OTP:  BITCH PLEASE, HAWKSDEAVOR IS THE BEST FUCKING SHIP THAT COULD HAVE HAPPENED FOR ENDEAVOR AND FOR HAWKS HORIKOSHI BLESS YOUR HANDS X2

nOTP: Would say, with Rei, because realistically speaking they both are better off out of that marriage

Random headcanon: I would also need a post for this, but my RP partner just told me Enji would LOVE soft old songs like Frank Sinatra and I just. Yes. 

Unpopular opinion: (See all of the above, although it’s just unpopular to dumb people, people with a brain acknowledge his redemption arc)

Song: AS I SAID, HIS THEME SONG! It fits him so so well and is so emotional but so badass at the same time, here’s my favorite version which is a spanish cover https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s0NiHqOsKjk

Favourite pic: Would also never finish but okay

BUT ALSO 

THANKS FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK (ALSO YEAH I ENCOURAGE EVERY ENDEAVOR STAN TO MAKE THIS MEME ABOUT HIM I REALLY WANT TO KNOW YOUR TAKE ON HIM AND THIS HAS SUPER GOOD AND STRAIGHTFORWARD QUESTIONS <3 )

[lameunknown]

tagged by @mishavi, thank you fellow slavic brother!!! lmao 💛☺️ 

rules: choose any three fandoms (in any order), answer the questions and tag 10 people you want to get to know better.

3 fandoms:

- star wars

- harry potter

- steven universe

(kinda wanna do the mcu but. eh)

The first character you loved:

- obi wan. i wanted to say finn or kylo but then i remembered i watched eps 1-6 a couple years before tfa lmao, and i watched the prequels first and was SO emotional for obi so gotta be him

- it’s been so long since i first read the books that i actually don’t remember, but i’m pretty sure 10 yo me wasn’t very original and it’s harry lmao

- i started watching su in maybe 2015 but i still can’t remember smh. why do i repress/forget 99% of my life :/ steven or pearl i think?

The character you never expected to love so much:

- hux and kylo.....i walked out of my first tfa viewing thinking “finally for the first time in my life i haven’t fallen for every villain in the movie and am rooting exclusively for the good guys! :)”, judging my now ex b*yfriend for thirsting after kylo, fast forward 2 yrs and here i am smh. mostly hux too bc i didn’t even remember his name at first and now he’s literally my favorite out of the entire franchise (rae sloane being a very close second)

- fanon draco made it so i’ll never be able to look at canon draco in the way he was intended to be looked at again. i got into drarry almost immediately after reading the books (i think books up to ootp were out at the time) but didn’t completely change my perspective on & start fiercely loving draco until my 2nd fandom phase years later (2014ish-now) 

- amethyst tbh. she was kinda annoying in the first eps/seasons but when we saw more of her backstory and personal issues i was just. i’d die for her. would’ve said jasper but lbr i was gay as fuck for her the moment i saw her, and the tragic backstory unlocked in the latest eps is just a pleasant bonus

The character you relate to most:

same as @mishavi i can’t say i REALLY relate to characters, as fandom for me is a way to rest and distract myself from reality and heavily projecting onto it would’ve been counterproductive in that sense, but i can still list some

- as i’ve said in a similar tag meme some time ago, the closest i can pick is finn bc i too could never make peace with and accept the shitty concepts and ideologies i was raised with, but i’m not about to pretend that the hell he went through is in any way on a similar level with my experiences. 

- and again, fanon draco for the same reasons lmao. i guess the closest canon char would be sirius but idrk about that, i’m way too cowardly and calculating to be as outwardly rebellious

- my replies have been really repetitive and boring so far, but amethyst bc yknow i never asked to be made lmao. i guess steven can also qualify here bc i sure as hell haven’t fulfilled any expectations people had of me, and jasper for reasons similar to everything listed above but also commitment adjacent issues i’m not ready to go in depth about rn 

The character you’d slap:

- rian johnson kylo (just gonna leave this as is bc i agree and this is the one right answer)

- pansy for offering to give up harry is the first to come to mind? but i’d slap a whole bunch of people from the hp universe tbh 

- lapis

3 favorite characters (in order of preferences):

- HUX, rae sloane/kylo, sinjir rath velus/rey, i can’t choose don’t @ me 

- fanon harry/fanon draco, hermione, ron. IM SORRY 

- jasper, amethyst, yd? pearl? hard to pick honestly 

Characters you liked at first but don’t anymore:

- i mean yeah, phasma seemed SO promising but then they just did her like that. sad. it’s not that i don’t like her character anymore but it’s hard working with 0.05 seconds of canon screen time, one book (that i haven’t read yet lmao) and knowing she’s already dead. 

- i was young and stupid enough to like dumbledore at some point so there lmao. also snape except for a really niche and not well-known rendition/interpretation of fanon snape

- lapis

Character you did not like at first but do now:

- uhhhh cannnnn’t really think of one. aftermath trilogy mon mothma, perhaps 

- @femmequixotic‘s pansy made me do a 180 lmao. my slytherin queen 

- ......amethyst. also peridot, as unoriginal as that is, although i’m def not a fan of the extreme infatilization her character underwent in the last season or so. peridot circa gem drill/shorty squard/whatever episode she discovered her metal powers is my fav. 

Three OTPs:

- KYLUX, finnrey, sinjir/conder, rae sloane x myself , unironically clydeland even tho it’s not technically star wars, 

- drarry, romione, linny, honorable mention for @femmequixotic‘s panthea bc i cannot freakin WAIT until it goes canon 😩

- jaspearl, amedot, steven x calm and happiness 

I tag: @quicksilverys, @tymorrowland, @sheisalreadyhere, @uglinatheprincess, @hallelujuh, @phasmachromatic (it won’t pick up for some reason), @sapphicsucculent and whoever else wants to do this!

[thebicanary]

The Last Jedi thoughts because I just need to scream (spoilers and I mean SPOILERS)

The bad (with some redeeming qualities)

- Poe is a beautiful cocky flyboy and I HATE THAT THEY FRAMED HIM AS AN ASSHOLE WHO DOESN’T RESPECT THE AUTHORITY OF A WOMAN BECAUSE HENLO HAVE YOU SEEN HOW HE HEART EYES OVER GENERAL LEIA ORGANA but I’m glad they didn’t go “oh he was right to defy orders and go behind his superior’s back just because he thought he knew better” like I feared they would and he gets back to wholesome TFA!Poe by the end

- honestly this movie was an hour of me going “oh god they’re gonna do x thing and I’m gonna end up hating this even more than Phantom Menace” but then them suddenly going “HAHA BITCH YOU THOUGHT???” and I’ve never been more thankful because dear god if it went the way i thought it was.....

- my retinas didn’t need kyle ron’s pasty nip nops all sweaty thanks

- finn and rose deserved so much more from the behind enemy lines storyline and i EXPECTED so much more but it ended up being filler to pad out the movie and didn’t add anything to the overall plot and I honestly would rather have had parts of that cut to make a more cohesive plot for BOTH of them

- the casino was a waste of time benecio del toro’s character was a waste of time, the horse/fenec fox things were cute but i could have done without the fantastic beasts chase scene. i love them exploring the people who are being oppressed under the FO but it could have been executed so much better (that parting shot with the kid holding his broom like a lightsaber tho??? fucking awesome)

- i don’t want r*ylo thanks and having to sit through them trying to float it was torture. like especially how quick rey flips from being “you’re a monster” to “oh no i have to save him ben solo is still in there” like i love my optimistic child but that was fucking rushed and stupid af (even with the whole “luke’s fear being pivotal in turning ben away” stuff)

- BUT i don’t see how they can redeem kyle ron after that so???? lil bitch had his chance and he didn’t take it he reached for even MORE power. he’s not a vader clone he’s a fucking palpatine clone with and palps didn’t get no redemption arc

- snoke being hyped up to just die so easily was kinda disappointing (and was he palpatine???? he seemed to nut so hard over the idea of vader and the skywalkers like he didn’t fucking shut up about them and he REALLY wanted luke dead even tho he hermitted himself away)

- phasma, the most interesting of the 2d villains of the FO, being underutilised AGAIN and only coming back for like a 5 minute scene

- just the constant dick-stroking of kyle ron and the insistence on “oh he had good reasons to turn to the dark he’s just a poor boy :(((((” LIKE BITCH REY GAVE HIM AMPLE OPPORTUNITY TO TURN BACK TO THE LIGHT HE CAN GET TAE FUCK

- anyway rey’s parents aren’t nobodies and she isn’t nothing kyle ron’s a lying lil bitch and also if her parents were “just junkers who sold her for drinking money” HOW WOULD HE FUCKING KNOW ABOUT IT????? EH????? IF THEY’RE INCONSEQUENTIAL NOBODIES HOW TF DOES HE KNOW WHO THEY ARE AND HOW DID HE FIND OUT ABOUT THEM WHEN REY CAN’T FIND THEM???? he did it to manipulate her to turn to the dark and join him pls stop romanticising this bullshit

The good

- LEIA USING THE FORCE LEIA USING THE FORCE LEIA USING THE FORCE TO PULL HERSELF FROM THE BRINK OF DEATH I YELLED THE THEATRE WAS CHEERING IT WAS!!!!!!!!!

- most of the rey and luke scenes on ahch-to were cool and grouchy old man luke is fun and rey in the dark side sinkhole thingy and just COOL FORCE STUFF

- leia slapping poe for being an idiot. leia being a badass. leia standing like a vogue model at the hangar bay. leia’s gandalf the white moment. leia and luke force-bonding. leia with a blaster rifle. LEIA’S HOT PURPLE HAIRED STUDENT WHO IS THE TRUE HERO OF THIS MOVIE TBH

- hux getting his ass handed to him in every. single. scene.

- the fight choreography in kyle ron + rey vs. the knights of ren, phasma vs. finn and yoga astral projection luke vs. kyle ron were aaaaawesssome

- the porgs are pointless but so cute and i want one

- chewie and luke reunion

- LUKE AND LEIA REUNION

- FORCE GHOST YODA BEING A LITTLE SHIT AND MAKING FUN OF LUKE FOR BECOMING A CRABBY OLD MAN

- finnrey hug + rey and poe finally meeting properly cleared my skin watered my crops kicked r*ylo in the nuts

- finn and rose have great chemistry and rose is adorable and so soft and the focus on her sister in the beginning and JUST THIS STORYLINE DESERVED SO MUCH BETTER WITHOUT THE CGI CHASE SCENES AND POINTLESS BENECIO DEL TORO CHARACTER I DON’T CARE ABOUT TO REMEMBER THE NAME OF

- leia didn’t die so I SWEAR TO GOD THEY BETTER NOT KILL HER OFF-SCREEN BETWEEN TLJ AND EP 9

- HELP ME OBI WAN KENOBI YOU’RE MY ONLY HOPE

- rey is gonna be making her own lightsaber because anakin’s is broke and i can’t wait i want it to be double-bladed

- poe greeting bb-8 like one does their dog when you’ve been away at college and come back home for the holidays

- leia is the best force mom to all of her children (except kyle ron because he doesn’t deserve her love)

- it’s canon that rd2d swears

- rey literally closing the damn door on kyle ron both figuratively and literally is the most hashtag iconic moment of this entire film how can kyle ron be the new supreme leader in ep 9 when rey just savagely killed him right there????

[ophexis]

Can you talk a little about being aromantic and how you came to realise you are?

Ooo hi anon!! ;w;

I put this under a cut cause it’s ended up accidently being a huge wall of text for something that isn’t super interesting to a lot of people but thanks a lot for the ask anon! ;w;

also this is probably not very coherent sorry about that ;w;

(disclaimer: also this is my own personal experiences and does not represent the experience of every single aromantic person on the spectrum)

aromanticism is simply just not feeling or experiencing romantic love.

For me being aromantic is…well nice, cause I didn’t have a word for it before I got in college. It’s also a bit strange. For one a lot of other aromantic people are very into physical intimacy anyway, and I’m….extremely repulsed by the idea of physical intimacy, so even in the aro communities I felt a bit out of place :’D (I eventually stopped looking at aromantic communities completely…it was….i dont really have a word for it aside than alienating)

But it’s also very freeing. I was never really convinced of romance, I went along with the whole ‘someday you’ll find someone’ thing cause….that’s what everybody does right? But nope. I can just be myself, on my own, and live my life to the fullest. No need to force myself to find a guy to spend all my time with, no need to have children….my life is my own, and it will always be. And it’s a nice way to think with how bad my anxiety, social anxiety, lack of self-worth and what everybody tells me is depression making me feel like honestly, I know be a fuckin awful mom. Kids deserve better, and I deserve to live my whole life how I want to. It’s a bit of a selfish way to see things, but I spent most of my childhood basically being owned by my shitty abusive friend who never let me live my life and do my things, and I intend to live for myself from now on. 

It’s also a bit alienating in fandom settings. Ships are the most important aspect of a fandom in most of them, shipping drives most of fandoms. Most shipping stuff makes me pretty uncomfortable, from the very aggressive way people push their romantic ships and ideas, and how you basically don’t exist when you don’t really ship anything, and how you know that nobody will ever really enjoy your aromantic headcanons, because “b-but muh ship”. You have people saying how obvious a ship is, that you’re stupid if you don’t see it, but hell you watched the same serie, played the same game, and….never saw any of the romantic subtext. You saw friends being good friends, and never really realised it could be romantic until you stumble on the fandom. I am so oblivious to what people see as romantic subtext TwT; I feel bad sometimes with how people scream IT’S SO OBVIOUS!! IT’S CANON!! and I’m like….idk man. I basically need the author to spell it out for me before I see anything romantic. It’s not because ‘oh no you hate that ship you big meanie so you say they’re just friends!!’, I just legit never saw anything in it that I’d interpret as romantic actions. I’d be really okay with ships if shipping didn’t turn a lot of fans into rabid animals tbh >3>;; I can easily warm up to ships when I stay away from the fandom. 

i have a few aro headcanons…Shaundi from Saints Row, Y’sthola in ffxiv, Sailor Mars (her manga personality mostly), Peridot and Lapis (people would hate that one), Rey from Star Wars…and all my ocs, unless specified otherwise, tend to be aromantic by default. Yuri is demiromantic. Towering Hound and Pupuri Puri are aro as fuck.

finding out there was a word for it was very liberating and made me feel like all this discomfort about romance and everything related to it wasn’t me being a lonely weirdo but was just something valid that other people experience as well.

And I still love my friends lots. I love my family. I love all of them very deeply and I care for them and wish them the best. I’ll just never love someone in a romantic way and that’s ok.

——–

and now for boring life story:

I am pretty sure I have always been aromantic (I just never knew that was A Thing before tumblr). It was in a childish way earlier, kinda, but I remember I refused to watch a lot of Disney movies with princesses in them cause I thought they’d just be love stories, and I thought it was boring as heck. I went along with the whole “girls wanna find boyfriends!!” stuff to fit in but I was never really much into the idea?

In high school I never had a crush on anyone, to the exasperation of my friends. My shitty abusive ex friend basically pushed me into the only “romantic” relationship I ever was in, with a guy i met on a Sonic forum (yep). he was a nice dude, but honestly I was never really….like I never felt any different than with a friendship you know? My friends also mocked me endlessly for this relationship so that was eeeeeh…Eventually we fell out of contact and he assumed we weren’t a thing anymore and he went in a relationship with a guy and I kinda found out accidently, it was awkward but then again I was just kinda….”welp i guess that’s that” (also cue my friends mocking me and saying I was such a bad girlfriend I ‘turned him gay’ even tho he was probably bi in the first place anyway ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )

I always just thought at that point that I’ll just wait and someday “I’ll find someone” cause that’s what everybody tells you no matter how uninterested you are.

Then in college I joined tumblr at some point. I do not remember who reblogged the picture with various orientations on it, including romantic ones, but thanks so much. I didn’t even know there were romantic orientations!! I saw aromantic, and something clicked. Like “holy shit that exists? That’s a thing??” I felt a bit bad initially to grab the label cause im still just a straight cis girl but I read more into it, and into other aro peep’s experiences, and I realised that yep. That’s me, that’s how I’ve been feeling all my life and it’s totally okay if I wanna remain single all my life, if all this shit makes me uncomfortable its not cause im a weirdo. 

being aro is a bit like standing on the sidelines while a bunch of people are screaming about how great this one thing is but you’re kinda “meh ¯\_(ツ)_/¯“ about it. Or kinda like when you don’t like booze (I don’t like booze) but everytime you’re at a party everybody’s trying to make you try all the booze “It doesn’t even taste like alcohol you’ll like it!” “oh try this one, I’m sure you’ll like this one”. It’s a bit like that. It probably doesn’t sound nice to people who experience lots of romantic love, but its nice and cozy for me if that makes any sense, and I don’t want to try it. I’ve tried it before, I didn’t like it. I’m done. (this statement applies to both romance and booze lmao)

my current life goals is to live in a nice lil cozy appartment with some kitties, on my own.