#this was very spontaneous tbh but it was an idea i had in the back of my head for a while i just didnt kno how to ezecute it

[thedrotter]

cw eye strain , blood

it doesnt hurt to dream for world in which you can be a princess even if it isn't possible

[trashogram]

i found a kinktober prompt list you could use if you’d like too-

https://www.tumblr.com/synamartia/763053984746455040/got-a-little-somethin-somethin-for-yall-hope

i was wondering if you could please do Lucifer with biting, or sex pollen, or body worship, or dacryphilia, or daddy kink. Any prompt will do tbh i am not picky 😆

((Thank you so much for the link! These are all good — I think if I don’t get any requests on a specific day, I’ll take from that list and write something small 💕))

Kinktober Day Two — Sex Pollen

Rated E: Slight dubcon, f!reader, penetrative sex, fluids

You liked Charlie’s father well enough. He was a high-strung and dramatic eccentric — and the literal King of Hell — but it wasn’t difficult to warm up to him given a little time. In fact, if you caught him in the right mood and setting (without a certain radio host chomping at the bit to antagonize him), Lucifer was a fun person to converse with. He had so many ideas and whether big or small, there was always conviction behind them that you found admirable.

Take for example, his spontaneous idea to create a greenhouse behind the Hazbin Hotel. Charlie had been hesitant, unsure of how it would benefit her residents until Lucifer dressed it up as gardening being a relaxing hobby.

‘Nature walks can be beneficial to mental health as well.’ You had chimed in — a rarity that had heads turning in your direction.

It seemed to sell the idea to Charlie, who’d been batted back and forth between her father and Alastor. The perpetually smiling Overlord had thrown bitchy quips and comments to dissuade the princess from agreeing. Not for any real reason, as most of his arguments took jabs at Lucifer more so than the greenhouse idea.

With Charlie on board and Alastor undoubtedly hiding a pout underneath that plastered grin, Lucifer had smiled gratefully at you. Such a simple thing, but you had coasted on the rush of dopamine that came with it for days.

~ ~ ~

You still thought the greenhouse was a good idea.

The already humid air that wrought a sticky sensation all over your flesh had turned sweltering with the sweat pouring down your body. You could see the glisten of it on your arms, contrasted with the very fine shade of rose gold dust that covered you from head to toe, as you kept your arms locked around Lucifer’s neck. It made you stand out in a lush array of jungle growth, dark yet phosphorescent in the strawberry champagne-tint that had consumed your vision — but Lucifer’s alabaster outline was positively glowing as he rutted into you.

Every thrust was balm to the ache that permeated your being. Your very soul. And you wished you could tell him so, if only to stop his litany.

‘I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry! I’m so so sorry!’ Lucifer looked near tears, stifling the grunts that escaped with every slide into your dripping heat.

You wanted very dearly to respond that he had nothing to be sorry — it was you that had gotten too curious. It was you that had reached out to touch that mysteriously strange and interesting plant out of bounds. It was you who’d touched your lips with the powdery perfume exuded by the plant’s treacherously deep, dark purple blooms and you who’d licked over them as they tingled and buzzed. You were the one that needed him to save you from the pain that had you convulsing not even a minute afterward — but all you could do was mew and whine and clench down on him.

Your fingers, smeared like your lips and, dug into his platinum hair and tugged. The pollen wouldn’t hurt him, so he swore to you, and you could bring him close for a kiss. Lucifer whimpered into your mouth, sucking the fine spores from your lips like it was sugar. His hips smacked against yours, faster and harder as you bestowed affection onto him. In spite of the jacket he’d draped behind you, you could feel the texture of the tree trunk at your back insistently, though the irritation was dull.

Everything that wasn’t Lucifer’s solid body, his high keens and quick pants, his greedy mouth, and his perfect hard cock gliding past your walls and kissing your womb was dull. Insignificant. Nonexistent. Nothing.

With your heel tilling into his backside, you had the Devil yelping. The over-loud squelch of your sloppy cunt being fucked relentlessly stopped as he spilled into you, hips stuttering until cum dripped down onto the mossy ground below.

[fictionalmenxyn]

Hi! Love ur work btw.

But i was wondering if you could do a 141 + könig, alejandro, rudy headcannons/reactions or even short story of yn having gotten a tongue piercing? Or having one thats healed? Like yn just casually rolling the bar across their lips or their enjoying ice cream and theres a divet in the ice cream or whatever.

Could be funny, nsfw/sfw/etc. I could use anything tbh bc i legit bit my tongue bar today and it tugged hard enough to cause my tongue to bleed

I got my feb 7th bc they were doing deals where all piercings were 25$ so i went and got mine done, now i feel like a bad bitch and gotta change my tongue bar to a smaller size so im feelin the need to see work that shows yn w/ piercings that arent the standard lobes

Love that you feel like a bad bitch 😏 of course I’ll definitely do this feel like I’ll do different piercings for different ones but I will act the tongue one to each so there are two types also glad you like my work! :)

Ghost

The way he finds out is probably your both snipers and your both at the shooting range together

He’s watching you closely to see if you need any help although he’s proud to say you don’t need any help

He goes over to you after your finished shooting as he walks over you take your soundproof headphones off

As he walks over he’ll compliment you and how well you did

He’ll go for a kiss but before that he brushes a few strands of hair behind you ear to find a industrial piercing

He’ll raise an eyebrow and ask when you had it done

But once he found out you had that, for him it made you even prettier

With tongue he’ll probably find out through kissing you

Like you’d probably me making out and he feels something that’s a bit cold and ball like

So he’ll stop what he’s doing and ask you to stick your tongue out

You’ll smirk and show him your younger piercing

Definitely finds you even more attractive

He’ll probably ask you what it feels like and how you can eat with it

As he now realises that you have a tongue piercing he’ll start to see it more often throughout the day and he still questions how he hasn’t realised it

Soap

The way he finds out you have a septum piercing is when it falls down during combat training

He’ll say something like when the bloody hell did you get that piercing he is very questionable

As you tell him stuff about the piercing he’ll probably stare at it but he’s definitely into it no doubt

Finds it cool as it suits you he also looks for cool replaceable piercings as a gift

Loves the idea of you with piercings if you want more he’s definitely up to buy them for you and will go and hold you hand

For a tongue he’d find out through going on a date since he got back from his job and the date is at a ice cream parlour that recently opened near your house

You decided to go with a cone as he had a tub you got your favourite flavour of ice cream while he got his

You both sat in a booth and started up a conversation and eat your ice creams

You had licked a part of your ice cream and it had gone on your nose

You both laughed and you tried to lick it on of your nose

That’s when he realised he probably asked when you got the piercing done and if it was healed

You told him it was a spontaneous act with a friend and you both love the piercings

Gaz

The way he finds out you have a belly piercing is when you were both together

You were both outside on a hot day

You were lifting your shirt up to wipe some sweat from your forehead and he saw your cool piercing

He was shocked not thinking you were into piercings that much but guess he’s wrong

For a tongue he found out from brushing you teeth

You were both in the bathroom getting ready for the day and as you brushed your teeth he noticed a small dark ball on your tongue then he noticed it was a piercing

He likes the idea you have piercings he’s totally up for you having them and finds it attractive

Price

He finds out you have a Medusa piercing is at first he thought it was like some peculiar birth mark or beauty spot

But one day you had changed it to a different colour so he had asked what it was as he has never seen anyone with that piercing before

Of course he was curious so he would ask about it. The usual dad/husband type of questions. E.g did it hurt?, how did they do it?, how long did it take?, etc.

If you have a tongue piercing he’ll find out by using an old saying (think it’s a British thing idk if it’s anywhere else that say it as often)

One time he thought you were lying about something so he said stick your tongue out let me see if it’s black (lying)

And so you did and his eyes widen at your hidden piercing

Alejandro

He finds out you have nipple piercings by seeing the small balls bulge out of your white tank top/cami when it was a summers day

He was shocked to say the least yet felt attracted towards it even more

He asked about it and wanted to know if it had hurt I mean of course he’d as cause they probably did or well look like they would

He finds out you have a tongue piercing through showing him your new lip scrum that’s edible (had this for my birthday it’s so cool!)

You tell him about it then show him and as you licked it off you could see the bar running across you lips

Rudy

He finds out you have a nose piercing is well looking at you.

It was when he came back from his job you told him to cover his eyes as a surprise and also you had bought him a gift

He found it so beautiful on you it had suited your face so well he loved it

If you had a tongue piercing he’d find out by you little thing you did also like a tick in your head

When you’d be concentrating on something really hard you’d stick your tongue out not like complete out obvious 😂

But when you got a piercing you would do it and the bar would stick out and that’s when he noticed as he looked over to see if you wanted a drink he saw the piercing

Once again he loved it and found it beautiful on you

König

He found out you had a helix piercing done is by brushing your strands of hair behind your ear like Ghost

He said something like when did you get this Meine Liebe? (my love) it’s so beautiful

He’d make you blush and giggle on the inside at how amazed he was at the piercing

Same with the tongue when he found out he was amazed not just about how pretty you looked with it but also because of how strong you are as he’d never even think of sticking a needle through his tongue

Loves the idea of you having piercings whatever one you want you’d ask him if he liked it and wouldn’t mind you getting it and he’s completely up for it he’d even drive you but wouldn’t sit in the room cause he’d be panicking more than you would (even if you don’t panic)

Hope you like it!

If you feel or want to send me a request or message feel free I’m all ears even if it’s completely random I’ll try my best to make it work!

Have a good day/night! :D

[nerdinsandals]

Since this year is such a special occasion, I thought it'd be fun to take a sneak peek into the ✨future✨!

I'm not 100% married to one specific future for Conway, but the idea of him becoming a professor is my favorite so far. After all, he's been shown to be very studious to the point he was already a walking Pokédex as a kid!

So this version of him caught Professor Rowan's attention during one of his school camps (I like to think they went more than once!) and decided to recruit him as his protégé so that he can succeed him when he retires.

[This post turned out longer than expected so I put the rest after the cut!]

While Rowan has taken a back seat at this point, he's still very much not retired and watches Conway like a hawk to make sure he'll be okay when he's on his own. But due to Rowan's resting grump face, Conway often finds him difficult to read and sometimes believes Rowan is dissatisfied with his work, even though he's not! He just looks that way, but he's really proud of him. ♥

So what would Professor Conway specialize in, you ask? Well, since one of his more remarkable characteristics is the fact that he introduced moves that had never been seen in the anime before him (and sometimes even after him), that's definitely something that interests him. In the anime, the process of discovering and learning rare moves spontaneously (when Pokémon "level up") has never been explained iirc. So I thought it'd be interesting to make rare moves and the learning process of these moves his area of expertise, and let his research lead to the eventual creation of TMs as training assistance tools in the anime universe! Plus, in this version he's still an active trainer even if he's more focused on academics, so his research actually comes in handy in battles too.

As for the design itself, I wanted to give him a sleeveless lab coat to mirror his canon self's jacket, but tbh I didn't like how it looked in white, so I made it green instead, aaaand that accidentally made the outfit look just like an evolved version of his canon one, which I guess makes sense? Adults are basically evolved versions of kids after all.

And what's the evolved version of sandals with jeans? Why, Crocs with jeans, of course! 😌

He doesn't care too much about his appearance, so he'll only get a haircut when he feels it's absolutely necessary or when it physically bothers him, so his hair can fluctuate between short and long (or in-between, as shown here! I drew the grown out look just for fun but I actually really like it haha).

Anyway, this post turned out longer than I expected. I just love Professor Conway, okay? 🥺💚

[sleepymccoy]

I expect people don't really need to hear this, but I'm feeling it right this minute so imma talk about the chronology of how i write

I used to think to create a cohesive story you had to either write everything down in order, or fully plan out the story before starting so you didn't get lost. I am so glad I stopped doing either of these a long time ago

Now I just write what suits me, and if I go against an earlier scene I either rewrite that or scrap it. There's a lot of scrapping tbh

With fanfic I can kinda get away with it cos I know the characters well enough to be familiar with their emotional arc and jump around the beats pretty nimbly. It's different w original stories cos I don't know the characters so well yet. My first run at it I tried to plan AND write in order, which is the opposite of what I naturally do

Now I'm doing what I want. And I'm rediscovering how easy it is to write like this! And I'm meeting and learning who these guys are as I go, which informs everything else

My early scenes are pretty rough and dialogue/setting heavy. Not a lot of internal thoughts or opinionated observations. After I write a scene (not before!) I summarise what that scene has in it. Some are just "show what meal times are like" and I kinda know the characters are also meeting for the first time. But their dialogue is gonna change, I'm gonna write some throw away line in two months time that reshapes the whole first meeting and then I'll go back and rewrite the interactions to fit. Or put it in another scene. But I'll always have something based on this that shows what meal times are like. And that's great. Cos rn the scene is done, I've given it it's little green colour label on Scrivener, and I can move tf on. Later, I'll know these guys better and it'll be a better scene.

I know this is what a first draft is, but I always had in mind that the first draft is done when you finish the ending. But I'm on the third draft of some scenes and I'm not even at the second act. And those third drafts are my guiding rods for characterisation cos by this point they're supporting each other in this complex foreshadowing, emotional beat, cross referential ways that make the whole thing cohesive. The other scenes, well, they're place holders to keep me moving forwards. Even some of the really hot ones.

Like, the scene where they fuck in the sapling room is sexy, but ultimately is probably gonna change cos it's such a pivotal moment and I don't know how it'll reverberate yet. Whereas the scene where they spontaneously decide to try edging? That's had a few rewrites and has some cool complex emotions and foreshadowing going on, as well as toe dipping into mutual dependency, and I like it very much now. It's doing what I want and any changes from here on should be pretty small.

I can particularly remember laying in bed two weeks after writing the edging scene and going 😶 he's being too open about being upset about the day, there's no way he'd discuss that yet. And disappointedly decided to remove all of the motivating force and put that sex somewhere else and face rewriting the whole emotional beat. But I reread it and was like... Hang on... The motivation can stay as long as he lies... And then the pov character can establish some of his thick headedness in not noticing... And it's not exactly heathy... Yum

But that needed two weeks of noodling for me to realise. And now it's foreshadowing the act three plot twist! That I haven't written yet cos I have too many ideas for how to do the reveal and they're all juicy

Anyway, I'm loving being free to rewrite and change stuff constantly. And like, also gives me the freedom to drag and drop things into different points in the chronology if I wanna try it out with relatively little editing cos so far the scenes are mostly surface level.

It's good. I'm good. It's been like seven weeks of free form writing when I feel like it and it's at like 25k without breaking a sweat so. I'm happy ❤️❤️

[dovand]

P.G. Wodehouse characters on panel shows

Because I had A Thought in the jerver (Jeeves x Wooster server) and had to expand it to Many Thoughts, owing to my normalness about both Wodehouse and britcom :)

Long & incredibly niche post (x"D) under the cut!

Preface: Characters covered vary and I may not be entirely accurate as I have not consumed as much Wodehouse as I'd like. Polite discussion entirely welcome (and, in fact, desired)!

QI

Jeeves would do well fact-wise but, owing to the fact that he does not watch the show and thus does not understand the format, would, on attempting to make a joke, be klaxoned to hell and back (possibly via goading by Alan). Unless he very carefully managed to dodge the goading he would not win and would be very bitter about it

The Elves would absolutely adore him btw. There'd be a behind the scenes photo of him looking puzzled/slightly scared while the Elves who are there on filming days all pose around him and grin at the camera

Would never forget to use his buzzer (regardless of how embarrassing it is) because he feels bad about interrupting. Would be very much unnerved by Stephen (obviously) and perhaps a little intimidated by how flamboyant he is. Aisling Bea would like him I think

Wooster would have no idea what was going on but would be endearing enough to make up for it entirely. Sort of like Johnny Vegas. He would have to be stopped forcibly from going on long rambling anecdotes a la Gyles Brandreth. If the host is Stephen he will not be paying any attention to anything being said the entire evening. Might win entirely by accident because he's saying nothing remotely relevant & thus is never klaxoned. (Though tbh he might have a heart attack before even starting the show on account of seeing a man who appears pretty much to be Jeeves wearing colour!)

Would get along well with Bill Bailey I think—agents of chaos the both of them. Alan would make fun of Wooster for being posh (a la the way the panel usually makes fun of Stephen). Would do very well on live demos. Stephry would adore him & he would not know what to do with it ("why is campier Jeeves so enamoured of me?"). Sandi would LOVE him. Might bring a blue whale plushie along for emotional support

Ukridge (and here my Wodehouse knowledge starts to thin) would very confidently be very incorrect but would be so charismatic about it that the Elves would forget to klaxon him until he was done speaking. Almost Rhod Gilbert-y levels of accidentally-on-purpose annoying (see: Rhod claiming that it gets totally dark at night in Denmark for like 5 minutes). Gyles Brandreth-levels of ability to talk at length. He starts spontaneously filibustering in the middle of the episode

8oo10cdc

(A.K.A. 8 out of 10 Cats Does Countdown, but the full acronym is so much more fun)

Jeeves wins. Obviously. He would be guest team captain I think, and he would absolutely carry. Jon would be awkward the whole episode because he's being outperformed by this weird posh guy. The jokes about Jimmy being weird and non-expressive and android-like would be redirected at Jeeves and he would just kind of stare blankly at them

His mascot would be something very simple or something very strange/non-humorous (like. Not even a lucky fancy pen, just a fancy pen that writes well that he can use for the working-out). He'd get the conundrum immediately

If Joe Wilkinson was on to do A Bit you'd be able to see him looking confused in the background the entire time

Wooster is hopeless. Maybe if he's on a team with Jon or Jeeves he'd be able to scrape some points but, realistically, he's drawing on his paper the whole time. He takes to the mascot-ing with abject glee & does very well with that. Panel is not sure whether to make fun of Jimmy or Wooster for being posh. Russell Howard would like him

Would be delighted by a Joe cameo. Would be very polite when requesting his letters and/or numbers. Would delight Susie Dent

Ukridge is in Dictionary Corner fucking shit up. If he knows how to work PowerPoint then he's got a PowerPoint to back up his little bit of standup; if not he's got hand-drawn posters. Nobody is quite sure what he's talking about. There's something about ungulates in there. Possibly a mention of cellular respiration. He spends the whole episode asking Jimmy for money. He gets on with Joe.

Corky, for reasons* that go entirely unexplained sits quietly next to Ukridge in Dictionary Corner for the whole episode. He is not mentioned by name once. People in the YouTube comments are asking who the weird silent guy is & if anyone else can see him & if it's some avant-garde Bit that they're doing. Someone says they wish that they'd've tried this Bit out with Jimmy

(*He's emotional support)

Archie Moffam starts crying

Mock the Week

Wooster is entirely unfamiliar with current events. Lends a Milton Jones air to the whole panel. Dressed similarly to Ed Byrne; they are both made fun of for wearing waistcoats

Jeeves is not asked onto the show because he would start doing actual fully-fledged political commentary and being so good at it that nobody would feel comfortable interrupting him

Ukridge would have either Egg Scramble (i.e. Ed Gamble) or Milton Jones vibes for reasons I cannot explain. Would get distracted by the flies & start trying to catch them in his hands

Corky is too soft-spoken to get a word in edgewise

Would I Lie To You?

Jeeves has an excellent poker face & ability to distinguish truths from lies, rendering him excellent at parlour games. Unfortunately he does not understand what there is to be enjoyed in them & as such is only invited on for one episode. He does get into a good little argument with David about something horribly pedantic, though. Also Rob makes fun of him by doing his O.O face into camera and Jeeves entirely misses it

Wooster is great at telling stories but horrible at lying. Everyone loves having him on because he tells a captivating story but it's so so easy to tell when he's lying. Might team up with Lee to annoy David. Rob really likes him. Starts spinning on his chair when they're doing pick-ups, distracting everyone

Ukridge is pretty good at playing. His comedic rant abilities rival David's, except he's not actually really trying to be comedic. All his stories end up being about Schemes & he writes them down during the episode planning to try them. People think this is a bit. It is not.

Only Connect

Jeeves is far too literally-minded for the connecting board but he does remarkably well on the rest of it. Victoria pokes fun at him the entire episode for being posh. He does not notice

Wooster's mind works in such mysterious circuitous ways that he's actually rather good at the connecting board. Unfortunately he is bollocks at the rest of it

Big Fat Quiz

Jeeves does not do very well. Too much pop culture for him

Wooster also does not do very well. His mind is like a sieve except the sieve has very big holes. Or maybe even no holes tbh. So basically his mind is like a sieve if you took the mesh out and all you have left is the metal loop around the top. Essentially he remembers nothing about anything. He brings homemade* sandwiches for the snacking segment. He is goofy & delightful enough that he does quite well be he is not invited back on account of performing so terribly. He does wear a spiffing outfit for the occasion though

(*i.e. Jeeves-made)

Ukridge does surprisingly well. He does start talking about his schemes though. He tries to get Jimmy in on them. He does not succeed

Corky is apparently the only chap who reads the newspapers. He does quite well!

Reggie Pepper also reads the newspapers but he is too busy being inexplicably hot while phoning people from bed so he only gets the barebones of most stories

Taskmaster

(I don't know if this really counts as a panel show, but what the hell.)

Jeeves takes everything literally and is very polite to Alex during all of the tasks. His prize tasks are almost all underwhelming except for one that is accidentally genius. He is so single-mindedly focused during studio tasks that he looks like he is about to murder someone the entire time. Surprise tasks/extra rules that he didn't notice prompt him to stare blankly into the middle distance. Greg is baffled by and attracted to him in equal measure throughout the season. The fanbase is very starkly divided on him. He probably wins the series but not many episodes

Wooster is a sort of Mike Wozniak figure. Endearingly baffled the entire time. Moves in an odd but captivating manner. Committed to the bit. Starts telling anecdotes while he's meant to be doing tasks. Absolutely delights Greg. Is probably lifted up in a studio session at least once (a la Jacaster)

Archie Moffam continues crying

Ukridge wears his mackintosh to studio sessions. He is overly familiar with Alex, who looks despairingly into the camera every time he is manhandled or asked to help with a Scheme. Every prize task is either an opportunity to get Greg in on a Scheme, or to offload things he does not need from previous unsuccessful (i.e. all) Schemes. He gets second place and is pleased as punch about it

That's about all I have at the present moment. Perhaps I'll update with more characters once I've ventured further into the House of Wode. Tootle-pip for now!

[bigassbowlingballhead]

BACK AGAIN with the astrology Okay, so Taylor’s chart is a little less straight forward than Nick’s (because capricorns are repressed), he’s a Capricorn which is off to an interesting start already. Capricorns are cardinal signs, and natural leaders, leo’s get all the shine for leading but Caps jump in and get things DONE. That translates into their romantic and sexual lives as well. If they want it, they get it. (they can sometimes be a little overbearing or pushy but they mean well) Right off the gate, Caps have a lot of stamina and that’s wonderful during sex. They also can be team players, in the effort to achieve goals. Just touching on some things Caps would be good at, edging. Not only can they last long enough for you to really edge them, they enjoy the mutual aspect of it, and either can lean into taking a moment to not have to be in control or topping from where you’ve tied them down to. So, grab Taylor and your preferred object… fleshlight, mouth….hand.. mouth.. and go to it. Also caps tend to be notorious for thinking sugar baby dynamics are hot, and they’re.. kind of bratty in the bedroom, in a dominant or submissive role. Next, Taylor’s Mars, Sagittarius, oh boy! Sags are adventure types, and once again, mars is big on your sexuality. Outdoor sex, they tend to be into group sex, threesomes, orgies, attention! (even if this is only in theory) love trying new things, spontaneous, again, another placement known for stamina (Taylor screams ‘get a good chiropractor’)  they love impressing their partner, and of all the placements this one tends to care the least about age, gender, race, anything. They love sex with many different kids of people, many different places, different kinds, just new fun, fun! As for his Venus, itsssss scorpio, just like Nick, let yalls minds wonder on that one. So there’s some roughness in there. Biting, clawing, hickeys, scratching, pinning down, choking. But mixed with the rest of his chart, gives me very… overstimulates you cause hes been going at you for a while, and holding you down and telling you to take it with the brattiest grin ever. Very ‘you said you wanted this, youre not tapping out now are you?’ I said it earlier, I’ll say it again, scorpio venus is very possessive, this could outweigh the sag mars that likes a threesome, or it could mean you’re invited just not allowed to touch anyone besides taylor lol. His Lilith is… in Capricorn, Capricorn Liliths are basically the ultimate doms. They do tend to love power and material possessions in their sexuality, also unfair power dynamics that they get to overcome. By both I mean, they both want to fuck you on a bed filled with money, but also they want you to be an authority figure that they can over power. EVERYTHING in Taylors sexuality placements is very dominant, I always think about it, when you see those close up gif’s of Nick and Taylor kissing. Next time you see one, pay attention, both of them are trying to lead SO hard. (its what happens when you shove two tops in a room) But there's so much capricorn in Taylor's chart and let me just say, based on personal experience, and no other solid proof, I'm not saying all Caps are horny freaks (theyre not) but every horny freak I've ever met had a TON of cap in their chart. much to think about.

There's so much about this that just made my jaw drop for just like, some crazy ideas in my head I already had about him.

you're blowing my mind calling them both tops tbh.

again thank you so so so much for all of this. this makes me feel dizzy (in a good way)

[likesunsetorange]

How would you write a story where eren and Mikasa met when they were young and they kind of just lost touch. Then they meet when they’re older and they meet again. I was also tryna see what that dynamic would be if eren has inherited like a company and is wealthy. This was just story I was thinking of writing and I want to see what your take would be since you are so talented

omg first off thank you so much, you’re so sweet!! i appreciate it!! :’) but hmmm i think this could go a lot of ways!!! i think it kind of depends if you want them to have had a relationship of the sorts beforehand or just have had a close beforehand! bc i think that can definitely change the stories!! so as of rn i have like two ideas for how i’d personally do it!

if they were together beforehand:

i imagine mikasa and eren were maybe teens and were probably dating so like 16/17 and each others’ first loves, could be childhood best friends or met in hs either works! (meeting in hs could make this next part a bit easier tho actually)

i’d imagine mikasa has to move away, maybe like i said before if they met in hs, her family always moved a lot, maybe one of her parents’ jobs made them move, so basically they probably try to work things out but they’re young and a ldr just isn’t feasible at that age so eventually they lose touch over time

years later maybe like when eren and mikasa are like in their mid twenties this would probably be when they reconnect!! i think it could be angsty and fun if when eren or mikasa were in a relationship but it’s like about to end tbh lol and seeing the other is what really makes them wanna end things lol but it’s not necessary tbh 🤷🏽‍♀️

but eren could have taken over grisha’s company (love nepo baby eren lol) and mikasa could have run into him maybe at like a business gala or maybe like a business event or even like through a mutual friends wedding like the possibilities are endless here LOL and that’s when they reconnect!!

and obvi they’ve changed a lot and like i bet eren running said company makes him a bit serious and less fun and mikasa reminds him of when he was more lax and spontaneous and shit very cute and corny they fall in love all that fun stuff some personal development in there ya know the drill lol

if they were just friends:

ema trio basically are childhood besties and maybe eren’s the one who moved away maybe bc his parents wanted him to focus on his ~studies~ or something bc they knew one day he’d be running the company and maybe his little hot headed ass was getting into too much trouble lol so they ship him away and then over time they just lose touch and then college and all that so he never really goes back until much later

mikasa and armin stay friends, eren kind of does his own thing, makes new friends from his new school but he does always miss them but obviously he has to acclimate so he moves on

family business thing he starts working for their company once he graduates so he’d probably move back and armin and mikasa are there still

i think with this au it would be kind of funnier for them to meet again at somewhere random bc they wouldn’t be expecting it and it’s been soooo much longer and they were so much closer too

but then yes same thing basically it’s them reconnecting and seeing how they fit into one another’s lives again but also how they’ve changed and such and all of that

i’m sure these aren’t all that necessarily unique LOL but these are what my brain conjured at 1 am so i hope it helps a little at least!!

[creative-crybaby]

Thanks a lot for indulging into my fantasies I loved the little drabble you did of them😭😭.

I just checked you're an INFJ so I'm guessing you know bout the mbti types. I've always wanted to see some mbti personality mixed in fanfics, you know. Very very self indulgent ask of me but if you're willing to humour lil ol' me(a girl can dream big) I'd ask for your thoughts on entp reader(basically Kuroo's type) X characters.

Sakusa is what's on my mind specifically since I barely see content on entp X istj, (that also brings me to the idea of sakuatsu but I can't ask for so many things at once so I'll just leave that for later) and ofc I'm can't for the good of my heart live without a bit yandere mixed into stuff so do spill your thoughts on this pairing (Imsosorryimjustsodeprivedbarewithmepls)

P.s. do tell me if my asks are being too much!!

So sorry for the delay!

Ngl the only reason I know my MBTI type is because I had to know it for a little in-class assignment (idk why and tbh I don't think the prof knew either). Just got a wee bit curious and took a peep at ENTP--pretty intrigued, honestly.

Note: I love when people send me asks, and people wanting content they can't often find isn't unreasonable. That said, if you want me to write a fic, that's a commission, to which you can DM me to discuss the specifics as well as the price. As much as I love writing, creating a whole story takes time and energy. Otherwise, I'm sticking to a drabble.

Upon doing my bit of research on the ENTP type, I immediately thought of sakuatsu, mainly because I can imagine Sakusa's irritation around the personality type (in an enemies-to-lovers way, ofc). However, we're also adding yandere shit into the mix (as we should), so I view the enemies-to-lovers dynamic to be the front Sakusa sets up to hide his true feelings. A mix of love (if you can call it that) and jealousy for being almost everything he isn't, he knows his thoughts of you would be frowned upon.

The wing-spiker can't say he's a fan of your rule-breaking and spontaneity--it's just begging for chaos to ensure, and with what he has to deal with from some of his teammates (you know the ones), he doesn't need any more of that. But those concerns are nothing compared to how he greatly admires your creativity (not that he'll ever admit it), and while he hides from crowds, you welcome them, though he can't say he particularly enjoys your attention being elsewhere (especially when other people are involved).

The fact that you're willing to interact even with him intrigues him. Dare I say, he wants you to come back, perking up when you call his name to start a conversation. Sure, you do most of the talking, but he's more than willing to listen, so long as you don't notice his staring, or that his thoughts are stuck on you, morphing farther away from innocent. At least you don't suspect anything malicious when you catch him zoned out. He'll scoff at your teasing if it means keeping you unaware of his true desires.

Now he's listening in on more conversations, even the ones that he's not in. He hates crowds, but he'll deal with them if it means seeing your lips curl upwards while you talk. He's just looking over you, of course. He's seen how others look at you--the curses of having charisma, he supposes. Keeping them in line is the least he can do for you.

That excuse doesn't work when you're home alone. You're talking on the phone--to whom, Sakusa couldn't care less. So long as you didn't have a partner, he'll gladly watch you go on about your day from his little hiding spot. Learning whatever he can, hoping to somehow bring it up in your next conversation without drawing any suspicion. Maybe you'll come back to him more often afterwards, grow closer until your feelings match his. He's willing to change for you if it works, if you'll stick around a second longer.

Just a little longer.

[wolfsgravity]

Waxing Crescent, Waning Gibbous, and Third Quarter, for whatever f/o youd like :D

I thiiiink... I'll do Lupin! I've been too brain-stuck on Vash lately, gotta spice that shit up!

Waxing Crescent - You and your F/O have to leave everything behind and start over, with nothing but each other. How does that look?

D: REGRET. CAN WE KEEP THE POLYCULE AT LEAST.

Assuming we *can* keep the polycule because it would be cruel and unusual to split us all up, I think we'd be just fine leaving everything behind and starting all over. Surely Lupin would pout being without his gadgets and inheritance but he could build his way back up from nothing with those sleight of hand skills tbh. Just running tricks on street corners and stuff. We'd be hard off for a little while but we'd have immense cuddle puddles and that'd make it okay.

Waning Gibbous - What have you and your F/O brought to each other's lives that you are most grateful for?

I can't tell you what I could have *possibly* added to his life that he didn't have already but he loves me so much I had to have done *something*. He, on the other hand, brought me a sense of whimsy and spontaneity even when the times are dire.

Third Quarter - How do you deal with obstacles and diversity as a couple? What are problems you most often face?

The problems we most often face are related to me being what I call the wrong kind of neurodivergent for the heists he pulls. He needs someone quick on their feet and creative with their ideas who knows eclectic information about all sorts of shit, and I'm at least not very quick on my feet, which would make me a liability in the field. He wants me to be *safe*, while *I* want to be *useful*, and we butt heads about it. How do we deal with this? .... we have sex about it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ seriously, we get all riled up and somehow end up on the nearest surface and I agree to stay behind.

[cryiling]

2, 23, and 26 for the writing ask game :D

(ask game from here)

2. If you had to give up your keyboard and write your stories exclusively by hand, could you do it? If you already write everything by hand, a) are you a wizard and b) pen or pencil?

absolutely not 😭 iri I have no idea how you do it but my hand cramps so bad after writing for 10 minutes like ??

I will say, though, wayyy back in 6th I had this notebook that I wrote the cringiest fanfics in, like I'm ngl they were kind of risque why tf would I put it in physical writing ???? 😟😟 anyways I would never be able to do it now, I would just have to pass on my fanfiction verbally like my ancestors did 😞

23. Describe the physical environment in which you write. Be as detailed as possible. Tell me what’s around you as you work. Paint me a picture.

honestly I do not write consistently enough to have an actual writing workspace, it always changes depending on where I am. like sometimes I'm at school IN CLASS, or in the library, or on a couch, or in the car, or at my desk (but I usually feel like it's harder to write at my desk because it feels more forced than if I was writing spontaneously when I actually had inspiration)

back during covid, I was a much more consistent writer, and I would fr take like 2 or 3 hours a day to just write 😭😭 I wish I could do that now lmao, but school is saying no 🙁 but yeah back during the pandemic, my writing workspace was in my room, I had my laptop hooked up to a monitor and I would put on an instrumental playlist to get myself in the mood and then just write. my window was usually open but it never let enough light in so I also had my overhead light on. also my room was literally wallpapered in bts posters so if I ever needed a break, I would just lie on my bed and stare at the pictures ajdbakdbk

26. How do you get into your character’s head? How do you get out? Do you ever regret going in there in the first place?

basically just self project as much as possible 😭 umm let me give you an example, like for my sick fic, I was writing in link's perspective, and he's very sick. so I was trying to think of times I've been sick or mentally not present, and I tried to channel those hazy emotions into the beginning of the story. I also thought of how I would like to be taken care of if I was sick and then made that happen for link 🤭 it was vv therapeutic tbh

I'll be honest, depending on what the fic is about, it ends up being based on a lot of my own experiences. a year ago I was not having a Good Time so I decided to write a mdzs fic where lan wangji went through about the same stuff that I was going through. but to do that, I had to take my mindset back way further to like late elementary school/early middle school, which honestly brought up some not so great memories for me. it was tough to write the fic! and I never did finish it, and I probably never will, because I'm just not in that headspace that I was in at the time of starting the fic

as for getting out of the headspace of my characters, I sort of do a detox from whatever media I was writing for ajsbsjfn 😭 like for mdzs, I wouldn't consume any content for it for a day or two, for bts I wouldn't watch any of their videos, for botw I didn't play for a couple days. it helps a lot!

[thevoidisshoutingback]

4 May 2024

tw suicidal ideation, tw suicide, tw self harm

It's honestly very jarring, the difference between how I feel now compared to earlier in the week. On Monday and Tuesday I felt as though I was drifting close to the edge - literally had the thought that this is the worst I've felt mentally since I was 19-20 and walked around with a suicide note in my wallet just in case.

I kept fixating on the Plan. Less so on furnishing the details, because even in that horrible state of mind I recognized that this is BAD place to go to mentally, but rather the fact that I have a rough plan at all. And isn't it fucked up that I've even considered how to die at all?

If I ever put it into action (and boy isn't that one hell of a thought), it will take 2.5 months before I can die. It's a long time, unnecessarily long, actually, but I can convince myself it's required out of 'obligation' (when in truth recovery me is scrambling at ways to extend the deadline should I ever reach that point).

Feels like there are two competing parts inside me. One that clamours for death, to destroy everything so I have a reason to kill myself, and one that is desperately trying to get out. A very unfunny variation of the two wolves meme.

It's the middle of the night right now, and my thoughts are darker. I keep wanting to cut, to just get that scissors from my table and scratch myself bloody. I miss it, as strange as it sounds. How the burn would feel, the sting of it in the shower, the annoying itch of healing cuts, how the scabs feel rough on the fingers. But then I think of how K looked when I confessed to him that time when I hurt myself by accident, and I refrain. I know he would want me to restrain myself for my own sake, but right now that's what's holding me back - the idea that he'd be sad if I harmed myself. And I really didn't like seeing him sad, even just in imagination (since we can no longer meet).

I wonder if the past week for me can be considered PMDD. The depression really escalated intensely, and on the first day of blood I immediately lightened up. But then this doesn't happen with every cycle, only if I was already experiencing low mood. So perhaps not. But I'll bring this up regardless during the assessment.

I actually can't wait to go to them. Hopefully I can get something good out of them.

I don't believe I want psychiatric intervention tbh, regardless of what K said. Having tk take them would be another routine to incorporate into my life, and the side effects are alarming. Not to mention how many seem to say that depression meds take off the lows but also the highs, leaving just a blunted middle. I can deal with the sadness, as horrible as it is to be crying spontaneously 5x at work for no reason. It's the apathy and emptiness that bothers me more. Sadness at least, is an active thing. I feel sad. It's painful, but at least I feel something, and that means I am alive. Anhedonia is truly a terrible thing. It takes out the joy and fulfillment from everything. There's no pay off, no reason to complete anything. There's nothing worth the effort. And so I start to think there is no reason to even try. And that's when my mind starts going to suicide.

Yeah, I think is what I struggle with most when it comes to depression, and what I want help with most. I'll wait for the assessments and see what they can give me. Otherwise I'll contact that counselling clinic on my own. Yeah, that's what I'll do. Plan A to C. I wonder if K would be proud of me?

I miss the comfort of him.

[skinni-girls-eat-books]

Monday, January 8th, 2024!

11:32am HCI class this morning, really boring still I regret to inform everyone 😂 no tests this semester, just projects. Easy A but a real brain drain. Not letting the brain drain get to me though! Hopped out of that class (9-11am) and now I'm at Panera getting free coffee (it's chilly out!). I'm going to shoe carnival to use a $15 voucher and also other little errands today. I just realized I'm really hungry (I had 2 prebiotic sodas last night and absolutely BLEW UP this morning so I actually don't think there's anything in my stomach tbh haha). I think I should get a snack bc my stomach will pass start hurting soon. Just checking in! New semesters can be overwhelming so I'm gonna keep coming back here.

11:49am have selected bogo bacon mcdoubles for lunch with my coffee :) eating food is good for you! I am very thankful ❤️

2:34pm lol I went down a rabbit hole and I'm about to be off my phone for the rest of the day. But it's worth it bc I looked on Vividseats and found a $20 after tax ticket to see Company at the Straz tmrw. I have heard of this musical before but didn't know what it was or any of the songs. Omg I didn't the last 1.5 hrs listening to the original Broadway cast recording in my car and investigating the plot and I am very excited!! This is EXACTLY what I'm talking about I had no idea that's what I was going to do today and definitely had no idea I was going to see a Broadway show tomorrow night when I freaking woke up this morning, how do I explain to people that this literally is my hobby. Novelty and new experiences is my hobby. Learning about things is my hobby. Listening to new music is my hobby. Reading about how they are being hot and *controversial* about the gender swap in this revival of a 50+ year old play?? I find this fascinating and I am excited AF now about something I couldn't tell you one lick about this morning. This is my favorite thing to do. This is such a perfect example of my idea of a good time.

Do other people never do things like this?? It's spontaneous, but not expensive or dangerous or retarded, it's just spontaneous and interesting to me personally.

4:05pm I actually went to shoe carnival and used the coupon in their email and got a pair of yellow box sandals for $7 even! Just got home, ate a granola bar and am about to take a nap.

11:45pm I want to text him. I'm ALSO FIVE DRINKS IN LMAO. OFC I wish I had a man to fuck rn. I GOT MYSELF DINNER AND DRINKS!!!! NOW it feels like I've been wined and dined and primed to FUCK. But it's literally just me.... I wined and dined myself bc it's the first day of school, things are stressful and they're bound to be more stressful going forward. I wanted to treat myself before I get depressed AF. Is there another man/ woman here?? Fuck NO. I got ME, MYSELF and I BITCH. Dinner was a delicious pizza from king state and a cocktail and 4 shots while I watched "Hair" so yeah ofc I'm COMFORTABLE AND TURNED ON THAT'S LITERALLY ALL IT FUCKING TAKES I'M NOT DIFFICULT BY ANY FUCKING MEANS. one day there will be a man that understands, but until then it's just me, I got me, I know me better than anyone else. All the men I've met are JUST A DELUSION IN MY MIND BRO I KNOW WHAT I WANT AND I *CLEARLY* HAVE NOT MET HIM YET and that's ok,bc ..... I got ME.

Hopefully this rant has dissuaded me from texting him bc wtf he's SO FUCKED UP EVEN IF HE ACTUALLY CARED ABOUT ME HE'S UNABLE TO FUCKING DO SHIT ABOUT IT. HE'S A BUM ASS BITCH AND CAN'T MEET YOUR STANDARDS!!!!!!! YOU MEET YOUR STANDARDS WHERE YOU ARE EVERY DAMN DAY. HE FUCKED UP AND YOU DON'T HAVE TO THINK ABOUT HIM ANYMORE. LITERALLY LET HIM ROT ONG BC HIS DUMBASS PICKED A LIL BITCH OVER YOU (A STRONG ASS HO WHO DOESN'T TOLERATE BULLSHIT!!!!!). THE END OMG.

1:34am why TF am I still awake ooooorhhg I am killing myself fr.

[cheollipop]

You bet I will slide in and ask a few (apologies if this is too many at once but I love your brain so <33) lalami ⇢ where do you draw inspiration from? morrow ⇢ what song is the "soundtrack" to [you're enough]? (lol you know exactly why I am asking about this fic in particular) quintero ⇢ do you write with music on or off? usami ⇢ do you have any pet peeves related to writing? walker ⇢ quote one of your favorite lines you've written.

I love you and am sending you huge hugs<33

ahh thank you baii!! and no not at all hehe~ (I will kiss your brain rn)

I'm gonna put a little cut here bc I wrote a lot ahdhaha

lalami - where do you draw inspiration from?

mmm, it really depends. sometimes it's spontaneous-- I text you "I really want to write but I don't have any ideas" and then my brain comes through with the juiciest prompt 5 seconds after I hit send bahaha. other times, it's from experience? a certain feeling that I stayed with me from long ago, an event that had an effect on me, an action someone did that I simply felt compelled to write out, I show that I really liked, etc. I also come across/search for starter prompts;; they're great sources for inspiration! I try not to push myself to write if i'm not in the right mindset and just let my brain do it's thing~

morrow - what song is the "soundtrack" to [you're enough]?

yess~ yuyu brainrot is real these days :"" but hmm, this fic was originally for another fandom so I didn't really assign a song to it at the time. but if I were to do that now, then maybe "hug" and "circles" by seventeen? they've both been my comfort songs for so long, and I think the lyrics suit the fic pretty well. the thought of "everything will be okay eventually --just like the arms of the clock return to their original place, the happy days that you believe are lost will come back once again" and "I will be here to hold you until they do" just... yeah :))

quintero - do you write with music on or off?

it depends! with fluff, I sometimes go without music. it just depends on the day/fic. I think it's the same for angst and h/c too. but smut... 💀 you bet I have my kpop hoe playlist blasting on full volume bahahah

usami - do you have any pet peeves related to writing?

I'm not sure if they mean my writing or other people's,,, for mine,,, i guess since english isn't my first language, my brain tends to lag and forget grammar and vocabulary quite often 💀 I usually have to take a break from writing to reset whenever that happens. it pisses me off sm, especially when I'm in the right mindset to write and I just.. can't;; as a reader, I really dislike successive short sentences... I'm sorry, I love long sentences with every fiber of my being and the short ones just ruin the flow for me </3

walker - quote one of your favorite lines you've written

"How lucky I am, he thought, to be loved twice as much as much as everyone else." - breakfast in bed

I didn't even think twice for this one. I have a feeling you'll agree with me too~ something about this quote just makes me want to sob. the whole fic tbh,,, it's very dear to me.

thank you so much for asking about so many hehe~~ this was really fun <33 lots of smooches for you my baii ^^ ily too!!

(chomp)

[rubyreduji]

i have nobody to tell my thoughts to… but ceo!woozi has been on my mind non-stop lately 🤭🤭 like do you know how hot sounds??? ugh.. it’s been plaguing my mind… or like being rival coworkers with him at a successful company 😩😩>>> i feel like you’d understand me tbh

[minors dni]

no because you are SO right like imagine young but strict jihoon who became a ceo early on in his career after the old one spontaneously retired to go live on an island and you've been with the company for a while now (at least long enough that you were there when the old ceo was in power) and despite being one of the best employees the company had jihoon hates you

you don't know why either, it's been like this since he got the job, shooting down your ideas, scoffing at your reports, always making you redo your projects, nothing you do can make him happy, in fact it does the opposite, everytime you interact with him a look of discontent settles deep onto his face

your breaking point is during your latest office meeting when jihoon not only makes an unnecessary comments about the state of your outfit, embarassing you in front of the whole room, but also he shoots down another one of your ideas only to accept an idea from your co-worker, an idea that you pitched last week that he turned down

at this point you can just tell that he's targetting you, that he has something against you when you've done nothing but being kind and hardworking

after the meeting you're fuming and you decide to storm right up to jihoon's office, not heeding the protests from his secretary

you walk right up to his office and fling the doors open to find jihoon sitting on a phone call

he flicks his eyes up at you before saying into the phone, "ah, something has come up, i'm sorry to cut this call short, yes sir, i'll call you later, yes, thank you," before placing the phone down and standing

he walks past you and looks out the door to his secreatary, "clear my schedule" and then he closes the doors

finally he turns to you, "mx. l/n do you know how incredibly rude and unprofessional it is just barge into my office and intterupt a very important business call" he's looking at you down his nose and you suddenly feel very small

you regain your composure and stare right back him "we need to have a talk, mr. lee"

"is that so?" jihoon tuts as he walks back over to his desk "so tell me y/n, what's wrong?"

you hate him so much, his cocky attitude and asshole demeanor

"you have been nothing but unkind to me since you've taken position and i demand that it stop. it's unfair and there is no real good reason for your mistreatment against me"

jihoon looks at you bored, "i have no clue what you are talking about. if you are just here to waste my time, then i suggest you get back to work"

you want to stamp your foot like a child but you know better than to throw a tantrum "sir, every meeting you shoot down my ideas only to accept them a week later by a different person. i do twice the work, if not more, than everyone else just because you make me redo every project i work on. i'm sick and tired of it and if it doesn't stop then i'll quit"

you didn't mean to say the last part, it just slipped out, but it seems that this statement takes jihoon's interest, the look on his face changing to something unreadable

slowly jihoon stands and walks over to you, despite his height he has a dominating presence as he stares at you with firey eyes in his crisp suit, he's the perfect image of power

"do you know why i do those thing to you?"

"because you have something against me, i'm not sure what, but you do, and you can't deny it"

"i do it you because you need it. you are one of the best employees here, which means we cannot risk your work quality decreasing. every comment, every redo, every shut down has a purpose my dear y/n. i push you do your best because i know you can be better. everytime you're put down you come back stronger. that's what's so fascinating about you" jihoon grabs your chin and forces you to look at him "do you understand now?"

his grip is tight, a bit painful, but you can't ignore the way it turns you on

you've always thought jihoon is incredibly handsome, too handsome for his own good, and you've shamefully has some thoughts about him before shooing them away, reminding yourself not only is he your boss but he's also a raging asshole

"you're such a good employee, so diligent and obedient, makes me wonder what you're like outside of work. i've always had my eye on you y/n, whether you realized or not. you allure me. so pretty" jihoon mutters as he strokes your cheek with his thumb

"j-jihoon"

"that's sir to you"

"t-this is very il-illegal" you stutter out, but you already know that he knows that

"i don't see you trying to make a break for it though, now do i?" he's right, you're too turned on now, desperate for him to continue "that's what i thought. on your knees, now."

you don't waste time kneeling down in front of him, the bulge in his pants apparent now that it's at eye level

"now be good and suck" jihoon unbuttons his pants and pulls his cock out and you quickly take him into your mouth

his hands grip tight into your hair as you bob up and down on his massive cock

you move your tongue to press against the bottom of his cock as you do your best to deep throat him, his tip hitting the back of your throat as you try not to choke

"that's it, so pretty like this, go good for me," jihoon coos as you continue to work at him, tears filling up in your eyes

it doesn't take long for jihoon to cum down your throat, groaning as he does, and you do your best to swallow down his cum

you're aching between your legs now as jihoon tucks himself back into his pants, you're a bit worried he's going to leave you as you are, but then he orders you to strip and lay down on his desk

his hands find your most sensitive area and he starts to play with you, you whimper as he touches you, feeling good but wanting so much more

you're just about to get off from jihoon's touch when he pulls away and you audibly whine, you're not left without his hand for long though because soon a finger is tracing your entrance before he slowly inserts one finger into you

his fingers are thick and strong and you can feel yourself stretch out as he pushes a second one in, thrusting into you a bit

"s-sir, please" you beg

"please what? use your words properly"

"please, n-need you to move more sir, harder, faster" you pant out

you hear jihoon chuckle a bit before he does just as you asked, digging his fingers into you even more, it doesn't take long for you to open up and he shoves a third finger into your stretched out hole

he picks up the pace of his fingers and quickly pistons in and out of you, his fingers curling right into your sweet spot, the wet sound of your hole filling the room

you're a mess now, whining and squirming around on his desk as he fingers you to completion, you climax with a loud moan of jihoon's name, your cum going everywhere

despite the mess jihoon smirks down at you, happy with a job well done

"you know y/n, you really have always been my favorite"

[sorry it took me so long to answer this and i know technically you didn't ask for a fic and technically im not taking request but yall know i cannot resist jihoon]

[pharawee]

I haven’t spontaneously forgotten about my favourite show. I was just gone for a couple of days and could only watch Big Dragon now. I’m so glad I didn’t rush myself though because episode 7 was so, so good. Just the perfect mix of funny, sweet moments and good communication.

So essentially an extra fancy episode of mongbiaw.

But more on that later.

I actually kind of like how Big Dragon has this slight overlap between episodes. It’s not just a rehash of stuff we’ve already seen. The old scene is always  interspersed with a previously unseen perspective. It’s like at the start of each episode the scene opens up a bit more, revealing more of the characters and their intentions.

In episode 6 the focus was on the kiss, but episode 7 starts with Mangkorn’s confession: I like you. I won’t let you run away anymore.

And Yai is very clearly touched by Mangkorn’s sincerity. It’s probably exactly what he needs (and it’s like Hong said in the previous ep): between the two of them, someone had to have the courage to make a choice.

And tbh I’m always weak for the single perfect tear trope.

So is everyone else at the Faculty of Business Administration.

I love how Mangkorn and Yai immediately go back to their usual ways, teasing and pouting their way through the conversation (and that’s part of why they’re attracted to each other, right? It’d be weird to take that away), only this time their way of communicating is a bit more careful and considerate. More playful and less biting.

Mangkorn asks about Nine, but it’s pretty clear to me that he already knows that Nine isn’t serious competition. He trusts Yai, and...

Yeah, no.

It’s so nice to see them communicate so well. In previous scenes (like the big “break-up” scene in the pub’s bedroom in ep 6) they went by words alone and completely ignored the way things were said. But here what’s important isn’t the topic of conversation. It’s them building rapport.

It’s Mangkorn doubling down on his confession and making sure Yai knows he’s serious. It’s Yai being his usual bratty self and accepting Mangkorn’s affection. Because more than anything Yai needs reassurance, and Mangkorn knows that now.

Also, the colour grading in this episode was just lovely - all soft and peachy and warm, and very flattering on the usual reds and greens.

We’re treated to a very important (!) montage of Mangkorn and Yai doing MosBank things. It’s like a special episode of mongbiaw, their travel vlog, and I’m pretty sure that’s why they included it. They just vibe so well.

And tbh I’m so glad Mangkorn drives a regular standard motorcycle. I’m so tired of superbikes in BL (except in LITA, where they made sense - and they even had Aprilias and Yamahas instead of the usual overhyped Ducatis... uh, sorry for the rant. Seems like I’m particular about motorcycles now.)

Mangkorn and Yai visit a temple, where they make merit and start creating some of their own “myth” together. Because, you see, not only is this the temple Mangkorn’s parents visited to pray for a child - Mangkorn also told Yai the story behind Hong and his engagement; about why he’s named Mangkorn (Dragon) and she’s named Hong (Phoenix).

Dragon and Phoenix are two of four Guardians. They’re auspicious names given to children intended by their parents to be together.

Yai’s symbol (and his family name), the tiger, is also one of the four Guardians. Turns out Mangkorn’s parents had the right idea, just the wrong symbol.

I’ve used google lens on this. It means dragon and tiger.

That leaves the turtle. Is Nadear the turtle? It can’t be Nine, even though he’d probably disagree. Maybe there’s a hidden fifth mythological animal that’s forever third-wheeling.

Also, I can’t believe this show made fun of itself and referenced the mpreg* in the book. I was legit scared there for a minute.

(*There was no mpreg. Just a couple of chapters on some weird experimental pregnancy drug that randomly made its way into Yai’s hands so of course he decided he needed to have Mangkorn’s babies. He then had some kind of imagined pregnancy and, honestly, the less said about this the better.)

Anyway, the cute mosbank sticker makes its return.

As soon as Yai got out the camcorder (maybe I’m way out of the loop but people still use these in 2022? or is this a vintage thing and I’m getting old?) and said that he’d forgotten the memory card I knew Mangkorn would give him the cursed thing that started all of this. Only now they’ll rewrite it with new, better memories.

And Yai is wearing his favourite shoes again.

On to Nine third-wheeling for 5 minutes straight. Everyone’s making the most amazing faces.

Nadear, you did this to yourself. You have no right to be embarrassed.

The face of a man who just wanted to eat his crab dumpling in peace.

I’m pretty sure Nine bought this place and immediately had it demolished. 

But it isn’t over yet.

I mean, it is. Nine just refuses to get the hint and is becoming increasingly annoying about it (I still love you, Big, no worries).

But it’s interesting how the left side of the screen - Mangkorn included - is in green. Nine, in neutral colours, is set against the red side. It’s like he’s surrounded by red and green but he isn’t a part of it. He remains an outsider.

This is Star Hunter’s weekly reminder to give this man his own show. Also, is this his scheming face? You better not be planning anything, Nine. It better not be involving any experimental pregnancy drugs.

Back to the mongbiaw montage:

Same, pigeon, same.

I guess it’s confirmed, both Mos and Mangkorn are certified grandpas.

At this point, they just gave Mosbank a camera and let them loose in a theme park tbh. They certainly know their target audience (it’s me, I’m their target audience).

And it wouldn’t be Big Dragon without another BJ joke. As if you need to ask, Yai (but it’s more polite if you do).

If they ever start selling these plushies it’s over for me.

The bracelets, not so much, but it’s a cute touch.

Plus, it leads to Mangkorn mentioning yin and yang, and the balance of nature - and again the four mythical animals: Dragon, Phoenix, Tiger and Turtle. It also leads to Mangkorn wondering what kind of story they’re a part of... and I wish the translator had made it more clear but the whole thing is another cheesy/clever way of self-referencing the book/show. The subtitles say “A dragon owns Yai”, but I’m pretty sure what’s meant is มังกรกินใหญ่ (Mangkorn kin Yai) - Dragon Eats Yai, which is the title of the book/series in Thai.

Then Mangkorn apologises again, this time for the way they met. And it might be easy to dismiss this whole bit because what is there for Mangkorn to apologise? Sure, he blackmailed Yai into hanging out with him, but Yai’s the one who successfully drugged Mangkorn (and, uh, himself) and recorded their night together (again, what kind of idiotic idea is this even... Nine is dodging a bullet there). 

But I think from Mangkorn’s perspective he now knows that Yai needs this far more than he does. Yai needs to feel safe and cherished. Mangkorn’s still the driving force in their relationship, I’d say, but he’s actively choosing to give in. The push and shove between them, the tiger vs dragon analogy, the contrast between red and green, it’s balanced out. The yin and yang bracelets are proof of that.

I can’t handle how soft this episode is. I just can’t. Usually the penultimate episode in Thai BL is reserved for pain and suffering but Big Dragon said nah and gave us MosBank in shades of pink. Thank you, Star Hunter, I owe you my life.

I was waiting for Mangkorn to admit that he’d been crushing on Yai since their freshman year. It was one of my favourite bits in the book. And look at him, he’s so gone. Can you imagine him randomly coming across the Star & Moon pictures (and if all he saw were pictures he probably wasn’t even involved in the contest) and just stopping at Yai?

He must have stared at Yai’s picture for days until he decided to find more about him. And this was years ago. He was hopelessly in love with someone he only knew from afar - who then, once they met, openly hated him. And now he’s holding this man in his arms. Mangkorn is truly living his dream.

This is like Sarawatine minus the high fives.*

(*Don’t get me wrong, I love 2gether and the whole pining for years trope. Plus, Tine is one of my favourite characters - which probably tells you all you need to know about me lmao)

But anyway.

Yai needs his daily dose of reassurance, so he asks Mangkorn to never leave him - to which Mangkorn replies that he won’t.

What a painful bit of foreshadowing. I bet that’s not going to trigger Yai’s abandonment issues at all once he gets wind of the whole going to New York thing. It might even make them worse. After all, if this is a lie, then what about all the other sweet things Mangkorn told him so sincerely? It might be a little thing to other people, but at this point Yai has been so incredibly hurt by his mother leaving/dying that the smallest setback is probably going to seem like being left all over again.

But I love how this scene is a direct callback to the scene in episode 4 where Yai is alone in his bedroom with his hand, his frustration imagination and Mangkorn’s ig as his only company:

Looks like Mangkorn isn’t the only one fulfilling his fantasies.

And I love this scene but that’s got to be the tiniest bathtub ever (and is that a red toilet? Cosy.)

2022 is the year of the finger to lips trope and I am here for it.

Oh look, another bit of foreshadowing:

Mangkorn was so close to telling Yai about New York and it’s going to bite him in the arse. But tbh Yai probably would have been hurt anyway. There’s no way this isn’t going to hurt him, even if he’s trying to be considerate (going by the preview for ep 8). Even after he’s said that Mangkorn’s future is his happiness.

But this bit, this bit right here:

Never mind that Mangkorn probably spent a whole night, drunk and crying, writing this very bad, very cheesy poem (my guess: it isn’t the only one. Come on, this boy spent years pining after the Moon of Business Administration. There’s dozens of these things!).

It’s the Are you being naughty part that Mangkorn says twice and that has Yai sober up instantly. It’s doing things to me. Oh. Oh no. 🫠

And this show better be true to its word and show us more of this scene next week because it’d be a waste if they didn’t.

But also who has 4 metres of weirdly shaped satin fabric just lying around at home? Is Mangkorn a cosplayer, too? Don’t use satin. It’s horrible to sew with.