#this was such a nice read

[nihongoseito]

(not so) random vocab of the day!

today's vocab are from this blog post on note:

n.b.: this list and the above blog post include a lot of words relating to and discussion of mental health issues, so please be aware!

精神衛生（せいしんえいせい） = mental health

芳しくない（かんばしくない） = poor, not satisfactory

うつ病（びょう） = depression

患う（わずらう） = to suffer from, be ill with

気（き）が滅入る（めいる） = to feel depressed

俯瞰（ふかん） = bird’s-eye view, overhead view

裏腹（うらはら） = opposite, reverse

試行錯誤（しこうさくご） = trial and error

刺繍（ししゅう） = embroidery

達成感（たっせいかん） = sense of accomplishment

充実（じゅうじつ） = fullness, completeness

服用（ふくよう） = taking medicine

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今は転職を��、毎日充実した日々を過ごしているので、あまりハ���ドメイドはできていませんが、あの頃ハンドメイドに出会っていなかったら、今の私はきっといません。 それくらいほんとに毎日なにかを作ることにしがみついていました。 毎日の「達成感」によって生かされていました。

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と、まぁ、長々と徒然なるままに書いてきたけど、結局何が言いたいかって、 「手作りって楽しい！！」 ってこと。 人のために作るのも、自分のために作るのも、なんのためにも、楽しいのです。 ただそれだけ。

[crabussy]

you ask for happy trans stories i DELIVER

It was New Year's 2022 and I was at a family gathering with some extended family that I didn't know too well/hadn't seen in years/hadn't seen bc they hadn't been born yet, and I'd cut my hair pretty short for the first time. So I was entertaining one of my younger cousins, and we get on the topic of having ears pierced, because this little seven year old girl was bragging about getting hers done for the first time and "it didn't even hurt at all!!" And I told her "wow!! I've never even got my ears pierced."

Then she went, "yeah... That's because you're a boy?"

My genderqueer little heart EXPLODED. I'd never passed before. I'm not even a boy, I was just happy I'd managed to come off as androgenous enough to fool her. I should have probably told her then that boys can get their ears pierced too, but all my mind churned out was, "oh, I... I'm not a boy, I'm a girl!" (Also a lie but I'm not outing myself at a big family function.)

And I could SEE the cogs working in her brain. The realisation of presenting a certain way doesn't mean you are of that gender. And for the rest of the night, she treated knowing that I was a girl as Special Information she was Proud of Knowing. That "I know this person looks like a boy, but they're actually a girl!!! Isn't that neat!!!" attitude she never explicitly said but made me smile, because I was the first GNC person she'd ever interacted with. She'd take me and my cousin's hands and go "come on, LADIES, let's go" with a pointed, proud look at me, or go "let's do grown up girls dress up! [Insert name] is invited!!" Like bless you little girl I wasn't even that androgenous to begin with but I keep this in my heart at all times.

OH MY GOD THAT IS THE SWEETEST........ my little cousin wiremu was born before I transitioned but he got the hang of my new name and pronouns SO FAST and without question. thank you to my auntie for being the coolest ever...... I love it when kids are just Normal about trans and/or genderqueer people. the "oh okay!" attitude is so good and silly

[maidenvault]

Not “Only my reading of canon is correct” or “Interpretations are subjective and all valid” but a secret third thing, “More than one interpretation can be valid but there’s a reason your English teacher had you cite quotes and examples in your papers, you have to have a strong argument that your interpretation is actually supported by the text or it is just wrong and I’m fine with telling you it’s wrong, actually.”

[illusioncanthurtme--art]

Hentai lookin ass Bill.

A couple more "suggestive" drawings under the cut:

I hesitated on posting these last two so much when I was drawing them, but that was like two weeks ago, and now I'm just numb to it. WHO CARES JUST TAKE THIS!!

I alluded to drawing more "suggestive" billford stuff a while back, and ironically, THIS ISN'T EVEN WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT SKJDFGDSH I was talking about something else I was planning on drawing. This just sorta happened.

I hope you like these!! Let me know if you want more.

oh, and the first drawing was originally rotated on its side, but I decided I liked it flipped around. That's why his coat is up like that. That's gravity babey!!!!

[skipblebee]

Sv au where everything is the same but it's like a reality tv show (the system takes interviews)

[palarien]

sketched this out at jury duty actually

[cavalierclavier]

When I broke the cycle, I made sure that the tear was rough. You carry a part of what should be her, and she carries a part of what should be you.

[kuni-kuun]

and another mundane day

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

*drifting off to sleep by clamping my eyes shut, humming a tune, and aggressively envisioning the mouthwatering theoretical timeline wherein a Murderbot Diaries Television Adaptation stars a cunty queer not-blonde actor portraying the nonbinary titular character*

[emberglowfox]

i dont think the sages are distinctly aware of everything their avatars are doing, but i imagine some things probably bleed through

[impishtubist]

I've never been explicit about this because I'm a Fandom Old, and back in the day it was simply understood that anything on the Internet was fair game to do with what you wish, but: if you see a story of mine out there and you like it, download it. Fuck if I care. Keep it for yourself, distribute it to friends, print copies for yourself and your friends, mail it to people, I don't give a shit. As long as you're not exchanging money, I couldn't care less. And tbh you should be doing this with all fanfics you love - print them, save them, put them on a flash drive or a hard drive or share them with friends, whatever. Fanfic authors these days are really fucking precious about their fics, but honestly we're probably going to start seeing queer art being disappeared (especially in the US under the next president) so do whatever you can to archive the things you love to read. Even if that means just printing them out and sticking them in a binder for yourself to read as a bedtime story.

[cuartosol]

disco disco

[iamfabiloz]

what happens in the honda odyssey stays in the honda odyssey

[obsob]

to be loved is to be held!!! print

[inkskinned]

you know, you know. no gods, no masters, no kings on pedestals. everyone is fallible. death of the author. you know! you are balanced about your intake of media - you allow the wiggle room, the grace, the gratitude, the skepticism. nobody above criticism.

but still. a weird gut-punch feeling, something akin to betrayal. you read the article. surprise! an author you love is actually: a serial fucking predator.

well, shit. what now. no, you knew he was a person (all people are), but now you're wondering - what have i overlooked by accident? what messages have i internalized that are strange and cruel? and also, like, what the fuck?

his actions lay a thick glaze on top of everything. like each place is now ruined, opaque in a new way. but okay, fine, you've done this before. you knew better, right? you've been betrayed by many a cherished childhood author.

still, this stickiness. fuck. can you pick up that book again. will you read it to your children. you've recommended it to others - will you ever do that again? and of course, of course, no parasocial relationships. you were theoretically above this kind of sentiment. but the artist informs the art, right.

so it's not something as clear-cut as feeling he owed you, specifically (a stranger) better behavior - just that you kind of, in a distant and odd way... sort of trusted him to do better. it's not like a real trust or something speakable, just the faint hope that the product (good books) was a thin representation of the soul. now it feels like the product (good? books?) was a mask. in some small or insignificant way, your previous support of this person lent them power. your money and your time and your laughter.

and the thing is - you have this terrible, echoing sensation. how many times will this happen? over and over. you find out that the singer you love is actually a predator. you learn over drinks that your favorite high school english teacher is in jail for what he did to her. you listen to the news idly and suddenly discover that a woman you used to idolize has been abusing her kids for an actual eon.

what can you touch without the static melting off. you can't even really complain about it too much (you were supposed to know better, and besides, you don't want the same re-split "it's not your fault, love what you love" basic advice), but now it's here. somehow, it feels like - you let him into your life.

it's not that things need to be pure or an artist has to be like, endlessly perfect, mindful. demure. it's more just this terrible truth that has been replayed through your veins so often it feels criminally vain. power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. did you want any one person to be worth that power?

it's just that he wrote books where he seemed to understand that. he seemed to know about hierarchies and unfair systems and bigotry and privilege. you thought they were books about what it means to struggle. you thought they were about having power and still using it for good rather than for control. he spooned you a narrative of being a good guy, a kind soul. you fucking bought what that fucking monster sold.

maybe that's why they were fantasies, after all.

[lazylittledragon]

what if i broke all the bones in your legs actually