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Quid Pro Quo: Chapter 2
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Warnings: This work of fiction is intended for 18+ audiences only. Includes explicit sexual content, graphic language, some violence, etc. Author chooses to not extensively tag in order to preserve some elements of storytelling.
Word Count: 10,816
The scent of coffee mingles with Chan's cologne as you lean over his shoulder, watching him scribble furiously on the practice exam. His brow furrows in concentration, a stark contrast to his usual carefree demeanor.
"Time's up," you announce, plucking the paper from his hands. Chan groans dramatically and leans back in his chair, running a hand through his tousled blonde hair. You sit next to him and pull out your red pen.
As you grade his exam, curiosity gets the better of you. "How’d it go with that girl from the bar?"
Chan's signature dimpled grin appears. "Oh, you know. She invited me back to her dorm. We had some fun."
You roll your eyes but can't suppress a smile. "Of course she did. Who could resist all that cocky energy and swag? What kind of ‘fun’ did you have?"
“The kind of ‘fun’ that you and I have had, but also the kind of ‘fun’ that we haven’t.” He smirks. You shake your head as you continue grading. "What about you and your boyfriend?" Chan asks, his tone surprisingly genuine. "How's that going?"
"It's good," you reply, a warmth spreading through your chest at the thought of Changbin. "Really good.” You place a couple of checkmarks on the paper. “Actually, he knows you. From the Saturday soccer games? Changbin?"
Chan's eyebrows shoot up. "Binnie? The loud, super swol guy from the frat? Really? That’s your man? Small world."
“Yup.” You circle an error and add a question mark.
“Sooooo, you’re the Virgin Mary. Ha!” Chan slaps his thigh and stamps his feet as he laughs it up.
You stop grading for a second to look at him, your eyes questioning. “Excuse me? The what?”
“The Virgin Mary,” Chan repeats, still chuckling. “That’s what they call you.”
“Bin doesn’t call me that. He better not call me that,” you say sassily. “I'd kick his fucking ass.”
“He doesn’t, but his douche-ass frat bros do. They always make fun of him for all the cold showers he has to take.” Chan continues laughing at your expense.
“I’m sure they call me lots of things. It’s not even very original. Do they think I’m saving myself for Jesus?” you snort, shaking your head before turning your attention back to his practice exam. “But they’re also not the brightest people; I don’t know if Bin would be in that frat if he wasn’t a legacy.”
He chuckles. “Very true.” He pauses, studying you, taking in the turquoise floral sundress currently hugging your frame, one of the thin straps hanging off your right shoulder. His eyes land on your cleavage for a bit before returning to your face. "So, why does someone who looks like you and has such a cool personality so... inexperienced?"
“Someone who looks like me?”
“Yes. Let’s not pretend that you don’t know you’re fucking hot. And I say that totally respectfully.” He lifts his hands up as if in surrender.
You feel heat rising to your cheeks. You’ve gotten this question before, though you usually ignore it. You’re not sure why you feel compelled to answer when Chan asks. "I am fucking hot,” you say casually with a smirk that makes Chan’s grin widen. “I've been focused on school. You think engineering is hard? Try majoring in astrophysics! And NASA only interviews the top 1%. Guess how many of those are women? Getting to NASA has been my only priority for years; since I was 15.” You notice Chan listening attentively in your periphery. “There also weren’t many guys that I’ve been interested in. I mean I went on dates and stuff, but I never cared to do more with them. For a while there, I thought I might be asexual. And then Bin came along and….”
“And you started tingling in places?” Chan finished for you in a sing-song voice.
“Ha! Yes, I guess you could say that. I started tingling in lots of places. Changbin's the first guy I've ever really wanted more with." You wonder why you’re being so open with Chan. The only other person you’ve shared any of this with was your best friend from back home.
"Hmmm. And how's he been dealing with the whole no-sex thing?" Chan leans forward, genuinely curious. "I can go without for about 2 weeks, but then I’m dying. Guy must be a saint."
You laugh, nodding. "He is. He’s a fucking saint. I’ve had guys try to guilt me into more or even attempt to force themselves on me. Not Binnie. He’s the most respectful guy I’ve ever met. He’s super cuddly and affectionate. He's been so patient and kind to me and he’s never asked for more. It's just one of the many reasons I'm falling in love with him."
Chan's eyes widen. "Love? After a year? Without any intimacy?"
You shrug, feeling a bit defensive of your relationship. "We haven’t said the words yet. But we're emotionally intimate. We share everything except our bodies."
Chan shakes his head, chuckling. "Not my style. Ugh, fuck feelings. I prefer to keep things purely physical."
You slide his exam back across the table. "Well, to each their own. Being a fuck boy works for you and being the reincarnated virgin mother works for me. You only got 5 out of 20 wrong. Not bad, Channie."
Chan's laughter fills the room as he spots the gold star sticker you've added. "Really? A gold star? What am I, five?"
“It’s motivation! There’s more where that came from,” you say waving the sticker sheet in his face.
As he grins at you, dimples on full display, you can't help but wonder if there's more to Chan than his playboy facade.
Later that evening, Chan continues your lesson on foreplay, introducing you first to fingering. His hands are strong yet surprisingly gentle as they caress your inner thighs, teasing you with featherlight touches before moving his hand beneath your dress, then slowly sliding your panties down your legs. He slips a finger inside you. You gasp at the new sensation of being stimulated by fingers that aren’t your own.
"Just relax," he says softly. "I'll go slow."
Chan adds another finger, curling them expertly within you until you're trembling with pleasure. His eyes darken with lust, but his expression remains tender.
"How does that feel?" he asks softly.
You manage a breathless, "Amazing."
You gasp and squirm as Chan's fingers stroke your most intimate parts. His touch sends tingles radiating through your core and your body craves more of it.
"Does Changbin know about this?" Chan murmurs, his breath hot against your ear. His fingers slide deeper as your back arches into his touch. “Me ‘tutoring’ you, I mean.”
"N-no," you stammer, flushed with arousal. You've kept these private lessons secret.
Chan hums thoughtfully, working you with steady, skillful fingers. "Think he'd be jealous, knowing I touch you like this?"
You bite your lip, holding back a moan. Chan notices.
“Don’t hold back. Let it out. Let me know how you feel.” You follow his instructions and moan loudly. “Good girl.”
You think back to his question, letting your mind imagine Changbin's potential reaction to all of this. He rarely gets angry and he’s not really the jealous type, but this is a very unique situation you’ve placed yourself in. “I’m not sure,” you finally answer in between your moans. “But since there’s no feelings involved here, I don’t think he’d be that upset.”
Chan smiles and continues pleasuring you with his fingers. "No feelings involved, huh? That's good to know."
“Your rules, sir,” you barely get out under your breath. “I just live by them.” You let your eyelids fall close gently.
Chan laughs softly. “In my experience, boyfriends tend not to like other guys seducing their girls. Especially not by fuck boys with reputations like mine.” His breath ghosts across your neck as he leans in, whispering into your ear. "Have you ever had an orgasm before?”
You nod your head slowly.
“You masturbate?”
“Regularly,” you whisper.
“Oh really?” Chan seems amused by this, his eyes lighting up. “So you know what an orgasm feels like.” You nod again. “But no one else has made you cum before?” His voice is low.
You shake your head. “No,” you admit verbally, the word barely audible. Your breaths start to quicken.
“Getting to be your first will be an honor then.”
“Why are men always so fixated on being ‘the first’?” you whisper, curious about the male psyche.
“We’re genetically programmed to be conquerors,” he whispers back softly. “It’s literally ingrained in our DNA. You know, the sequence of genes on the Y-chromosome in most modern males that they’ve been able to trace directly back to Genghis Khan?” You feel like you’ve just been transported into a National Geographic documentary narrated by someone who does voiceovers for erotica audiobooks.
Your eyes pop open, wide with bewilderment as you stare at him. “Who the fuck are you?” you blurt out with a laugh.
He laughs, a deep and hearty sound that fills the room. “What? I read! Now stop getting distracted!”
“Stop distracting me then, Chan,” you retort playfully as you return your gaze to the ceiling.
He places his free hand on your face and gently brushes your eyelids down. “Close your eyes and enjoy.” And with that simple command, all thoughts and distractions vanish from your mind as you surrender yourself completely to him.
His fingers curl inside you as his thumb presses firmly against your clit before he starts rotating it in small, quick circles that have you seeing stars. You feel his other hand slip the strap of your dress off your shoulder to reveal one of your tits; seconds later, he starts to twist the nipple. Then you feel the warmth as his lips encircle it and he flicks it with his tongue. Your breath hitches, body trembling. Your climax builds, your moans growing louder.
“No one is here. You can get as loud as you want,” he says as he kisses across your cleavage, encouraging you. His mouth returns to your nipple and he sucks gently.
Chan works you higher and higher until you cry out, your orgasm crashing over you in waves of blissful release.
As you catch your breath, Chan gently withdraws his hand and places a soft kiss on your neck, before he respositions the strap on your shoulder to cover your chest. "How was that for your first time?"
"Amazing," you pant, still tingling from the aftershocks.
“You said that already.”
You open your eyes and turn your head to look at him. “Sensational, extraordinary, phenomenal, stupendous, thrilling, wondrous, spectacular,” you tease with a smirk.
Chan grins, entertained by your sass. "I aim to please."
As the two of you sit next to each other on the bed taking a break, he invites you to ask him anything. He hands you a bottle of water.
When you finish taking a generous gulp, you decide to ask him a personal question. “What’s the real reason you’re hesitant about relationships?”
Chan looks thoughtful for a moment before speaking. "I guess I've just had some bad experiences in the past that made me wary," he says. He pauses again. “My high school girlfriend broke my heart,” he says finally after a minute.
“Really?”
“Yeah. She was my first real relationship. We dated all through high school. I was so in love with her, I naively thought we'd be together forever. Dumb right?” He looks up at you for for confirmation.
“No. Not at all,” you say softly.
“Right before senior prom, she dumped me out of the blue. Then she showed up to prom with another guy; turned out she’d been cheating on me with him for a few months. I was devastated," he says quietly, looking down at his hands. “It messed me up,” he admits.
He pauses, taking a shaky breath. You reach for his hand, giving it a supportive squeeze. Chan looks up at you, his eyes glistening.
"After that, I promised myself I wouldn't let myself get that emotionally invested again. I just started hooking up with girls, no strings attached. No feelings, no way to get hurt.”
You listen intently, surprised at his openness. This is a more vulnerable side of him that you haven't seen before.
"I'm sorry that happened to you," you say sincerely. “She sounds like a bitch.”
"Thanks.” He gives you a small smile. “And she is a bitch. It's been three years, which feels like a lifetime ago, but I guess I still have some walls up when it comes to dating. I don't let many people get too close.”
"But sometimes the walls we build for protection can also end up isolating us," you say gently.
Chan nods slowly, his expression weighted with a mix of resignation and sadness. "I know.” His voice is strained with emotion. He looks away, sniffing as he wipes away the single tear that manages to escape his control.
You reach over and give him a tight hug, holding him against your chest. You feel his body relax into yours, welcoming the protective embrace. He breathes against you quietly for a few minutes while you rub his back. You want nothing more than to just be there as a friend and soothe him, and he allows you to.
“Okay, whoo!” he huffs as he pulls away, shaking his arms and head vigorously as if casting off all of his emotional demons. “Too many fucking emotions! No feelings involved, remember?” He chuckles softly as he attempts to recollect himself and lighten the heavy atmosphere.
“Yup, I remember. Fuck feelings.” You smile at him, giving his hand one more squeeze to silently acknowledge his pain and the complications that come with emotions before letting go.
“And not a word of this to anyone.”
“Not a word. Scouts honor.” You lock your mouth with an imaginary key and toss it over your shoulder. “No one will ever know that the notorious Bang Chan cried from a broken heart,” you say with a teasing smile.
A genuine grin spreads across his face as he recovers from the emotional moment. “Thank you.” He releases a relieved sigh. “Let’s get back to it then. Let me teach you how to give a hand job.”
Chan leans back on the bed, propping himself up on his elbows. "Alright, pay close attention," he says with a smirk.
He unzips his jeans and slides them down just past his hips, along with his boxers. His cock springs free, already half-hard. You can't help but stare, intrigued.
He lays back fully. You watch with curiosity as he loosely wraps his hand around his shaft. "Watch what I do," he instructs. Chan starts with slow, languid strokes, gradually increasing his pace. "See how I'm moving my hand up and down, gripping firmly but not too tight," he narrates. You watch, mesmerized, as his cock gradually swells and hardens in his hand. “And you can switch it up.” He varies his pace and grip, twisting his wrist on the upstroke. His breathing grows heavier as he pleasures himself. His head tips back and his eyes flutter shut as soft moans escape his lips.
You can't take your eyes off him. Seeing the usually cocky Chan so vulnerable and unrestrained excites you. He bites his lips as he focuses on chasing his release. The way his abdominal muscles contract with each stroke, the sight of precum beading at his tip, the rapid rise and fall of his chest… You feel yourself getting turned on just from observing.
After a few minutes, Chan's breathing starts to become more ragged. His hips rock up to meet the rhythm of his pumping fist. "Fuck, I'm close," he groans through gritted teeth. "That’s way too quick. I think I’m being turned on by having an audience... Here, you try." Chan takes your hand and guides it to replace his own. You wrap your fingers around his thick, hot shaft, mimicking his motions.
Chan hisses in pleasure, his hips bucking reflexively into your touch. "Mmm... yeah just like that," he encourages breathily. He covers your hand with his own, showing you how to stroke him. His cheeks become flushed.
You gain confidence, pumping him faster, gripping tighter. He releases your hand and lets you work independently. Chan’s mouth opens as he pants, completely lost in ecstasy. His hips start to buck erratically. "Fuuuck, don't stop," he groans. Sweat beads on his forehead.
You can feel his cock pulse in your hand. Keeping your gaze locked on him, you swipe your thumb over the head of his cock, spreading the precum leaking from his slit.
"Oh god, just like that," Chan whimpers before saying your name. His whole body tenses, abs clenching. "I'm gonna... I'm gonna...," he chokes out before releasing a guttural moan. His cock erupts in your hand, spurting thick ropes of cum that coat your fingers and cover his lower abdomen.
You continue stroking him through his orgasm until he gently grasps your wrist to stop you. "Sensitive now," he pants.
“Sorry,” you whisper.
“Don’t apologize.” Chan lays there catching his breath, his chest heaving. He props himself up on his elbows to look at you. "Damn... you're a natural at that," he says with a satisfied grin once his breathing returns to normal. “Not bad for your first hand job.” He nods his head in approval.
You smile, feeling pleased that you were able to pleasure him. “Why thank you, sir,” you say with a playful bow.
Chan grabs some tissues from his bedside table. He cleans your hand off before cleaning himself and tucking his dick back into his pants. "I think that's enough for today's lesson," he says with a wink. “Want to get dinner?”
“Oh god yes! I’m so hungry.”
****
A few nights later, you join Changbin at his frat house for their monthly movie night in their backyard. As the movie starts, you settle into the large hammock with him, nestling your back against his firm chest as he drapes the fuzzy blanket over you both.
The movie plays in the background, but you find it hard to focus on anything but Changbin, his familiar scent – clean laundry and subtle cologne – enveloping you. His arm wraps around your shoulders, fingers trailing lightly up and down your arm. You smile to yourself, enjoying his affectionate touch. You feel protected and comfortable in his embrace. Like always.
His hand gradually makes its way to just above your diaphragm, fingers splaying as he caresses you through your shirt. You place your hand over his, interlacing your fingers together.
About halfway through the movie, you feel a spark of excitement run through you as his other hand settles on your lower stomach, his thumb just barely slipping under the hem of your shirt, grazing your skin. You place your free hand over his, guiding it lower, past the waistband of your leggings. Changbin hesitates, his breath hitching slightly.
"It's okay," you whisper, turning your head to meet his gaze. “I want you to.” You see the flicker of desire in his eyes as you guide his hand to where you need it most.
Reassured, his fingers brush over your clit, tentatively at first, gauging your reaction. A soft gasp escapes your lips at the contact. His fingers slide down your folds and enter you, gingerly gliding into your wetness. You slowly buck against his finger. He takes the hint, applying more pressure as he picks up the pace.
Turning your head again, you meet Changbin's intense gaze in the dim light. He leans in and presses his lips to yours in a slow, sensual kiss. You feel desire stirring within you as the kiss deepens. Changbin's tongue dances along yours as he pulls you tighter against him.
You have to stifle a moan into his mouth as he sinks deeper into you. Your tongues dance together as the pleasure builds. You release Changbin’s hand and reach behind you, slipping your hand into his sweatpants and wrapping your fingers around his rapidly hardening length. You stroke him slowly like Chan taught you. Changbin groans into your mouth at your touch.
Changbin’s fingers curl inside, hitting just the right spot, and he uses his other hand to stimulate your clit, rubbing in tight circles. You stroke him in time with the movements of his fingers between your legs. You break the kiss as you melt into his touch, leaning your head back against his shoulder as you bite your lip and close your eyes.
The hammock rocks gently as you pleasure each other. Quiet gasps and moans are lost in the sounds of the movie and chatter around you. No one notices as you bring each other closer and closer to the edge.
Your hips rock together subtly. The tension builds deep within until you shatter beautifully around his fingers. You grip him tighter as you cum, stroking faster. He buries his face in your neck to muffle his own moans of pleasure; his teeth sink into the soft flesh making you yelp. You’re learning that Changbin is a biter. His cock throbs and you feel him spill over your hand.
You stay tangled together, catching your breath. Changbin kisses you softly on your neck before withdrawing his hand. You clean each other up quietly.
You cuddle together in the hammock, your body still humming. Changbin wraps his arms around you and nuzzles into your hair.
"That was amazing," he murmurs. He kisses the top of your head and asks, "What's changed recently? It seems like you've been more open to exploring sexually together."
You turn in the hammock, careful not to flip the two of you out of it. You tilt your head up to meet Changbin’s gaze. "I'm ready for more with you, Bin. My heart belongs to you. I want to show you how much you mean to me. And I’ve been feeling more confident and open with physical intimacy."
Changbin smiles and caresses your cheek. "I'm so happy to hear that.” He presses a sweet kiss to your lips. "Look, I'm really glad you're finding your confidence, but I want you to know that I'm in no rush. I don't care if it takes another year or ten or twenty; I’d wait forever for you. Okay? I'll follow your lead."
"I know," you say, your voice catching in your throat. "And I... I really appreciate that." You lean in and kiss him deeply. As you pull back, you say, "You’ve been so sweet and perfect. It’s not lost on me what you’ve given up being in this relationship. That's why I want to reward your patience and understanding; I have something special planned for you for our anniversary."
Changbin looks deeply in your eyes. “I don’t need anything special babe, just you.”
****
As you wait for Chan to meet you in the student center, you receive a text message from Changbin.
Cuddle Binnie:
Can’t get you out of my head today.
Keep thinking about movie night.
Hope your day is going well.
You:
It is now. You always make my day better. 🥰
One hand job and that’s all you can think about, huh? 😉
Cuddle Binnie:
More thinking about my fingers buried deep inside
you and the sounds you were making.
Would love to hear you moan like that again…
You:
Soon.
Cuddle Binnie:
Any way you can change your plans tonight?
You:
Can’t babe. Tutoring session.
Cuddle Binnie:
I’ve waited this long. Guess I can wait another
couple days.
You:
Why I adore you.
Cuddle Binnie:
I adore you to.
You bring your phone to your chest and sigh deeply, thinking about how much you cherish that man. When you look up, you see Chan enter from the cafe. A bright smile emerges on his face when he sees you.
“Hey! Sorry I’m late.” He sits next to you, plopping his bag on the table.
“Hi. Sooooo? How’d you do?” you ask enthusiastically.
Chan grins, his signature dimples on full display. "Really well actually!” He zips open his backpack and pulls out a folder. He hands you the stapled pages from the center. “B minus! Up from an F! Thanks to you!"
"Channie, this is amazing!" you exclaim, smiling proudly as Chan beams at you, clearly delighted by his much improved exam score. “I knew you could do it.” You reach into your bag under the table and pull out a small, clear plastic takeout box containing a personal sized chocolate lava cake. You slide the dessert across the table to Chan.
“No fucking way!” Chan exclaims as he pops the container open to take a big whiff. “I can’t believe you remembered this is my favorite. From Mamma’s Bakery?”
You grin and nod. “Yes. I do listen to you, you know.” You hand him a plastic fork.
“Thanks.” Chan digs in eagerly, the warm chocolate fudge sauce oozing out as he takes his first bite. “Ugh, so good!”
“Of course! You’ve earned a reward for all the progress you’ve made,” you say warmly.
“I usually like my rewards in the bedroom,” Chan says with a smirk, his words laced with playful innuendo as he chews slowly.
“Of course you had to make it weird. Don’t start with me,” you say with a side-eye, slapping his face playfully. “You’ll need to talk with one of your little friends about those types of rewards.” You start reviewing the exam.
“What if I want to talk to you?” He teases, wrapping his full lips around the fork and pulling it out slowly.
The action earns a knowing look from you. With a sigh, you reply, “Not cute. You know those puppy dog eyes don’t work on me.” It’s mostly true, but he’s just so damn charming. You return your focus to the exam, flipping to the next page and scanning over his work.
“Why is that? It works on everyone else.” He eats another forkful while grinning at you mischievously.
You can’t help but to roll your eyes at his antics. “You’re just not as irresistible as you think you are, Bang Chan.” You ignore him and turn to the final page of the exam.
“Ouch!” He dramatically clutches at his chest in mock pain before eating another forkful of cake.
You place the exam in between the two of you. “All the points you missed were for really silly mistakes. I can tell you were rushing. What happened?”
"Yeah, you're right,” he said, rubbing the back of his neck sheepishly. “I got anxious during the test and spent too much fucking time on the first page. Before I knew it, there were only 15 minutes left. I fucking panicked, but I finished.”
"It's okay, we all make mistakes when we're stressed or rushed. The important thing is that you finished and you knew which concepts to apply where.” He nods in agreement. “And this just tells me that for your next practice exam, we need to focus more on time management.”
“Okay.” He nods his head in understanding.
“Okay. Go through each question where you lost points and fix your errors.”
“Yes, ma’am.” He slides you the container, half of the cake remaining. After retrieving a pencil from his bag and setting it aside, he gets to work.
You grab his fork and cut a small piece of the cake, placing it in your mouth. The flavors are decadent and satisfying. “Damn this is good,” you whisper.
“I know right? You can finish it,” he says with a smile.
You hesitate for a moment before taking another bite, savoring every moment of this treat. “No, it’s yours,” you insist, offering the fork back to him. He chuckles and shakes his head, gesturing for you to keep eating. You can’t resist taking another bite, the fudge melting on your tongue. Then, with a playful smirk, you cut a small piece and hold it up to his lips. “Here,” you coo softly. He looks up from his work, his eyes sparkling with amusement, and opens his mouth, allowing you to feed him. You go back and forth, alternating taking a bite for yourself with feeding him until the cake is gone.
By the end of the hour, you smile at Chan, happy at his progress. The student center is quiet now, most of the other students having already left campus for the evening.
"Good work. We should probably get going; it's getting late," you say. Chan nods and begins packing up his things.
The two of you walk in comfortable silence back towards your dorm. His arm brushes against yours occasionally as you stroll along the sidewalk. The cool night air is refreshing after being cooped up inside all day. You pull your jacket a little tighter as a breeze blows through the trees overhead.
Chan has his hands stuffed in the front pocket of his hoodie, looking relaxed as always. "So…,” he says after a few minutes, “how are things going with you and Changbin lately?" he asks, glancing over at you with a little smile.
You feel your cheeks heat up slightly. "Really good, actually. We've been getting a lot closer and more comfortable with each other."
Chan raises an eyebrow. "Oh yeah? Have you two... you know...," he trails off suggestively, his lips curving into his characteristic smirk as he holds up to two fingers and curls them in a come-hither motion.
You playfully smack his arm, trying to hide the small smile that tugs at your lips. “None of your business, sir!”
“It’s absolutely my business! How else am I supposed to gauge the success of my lessons, know if they’ve been making an impact? Hmmm?” Chan's teasing tone is laced with amusement as he leans in closer, shaking his shoulders, eager for details.
“Oh, they’ve been making an impact…” You can't help but let out a giggle as you recount your recent escapades at movie night, feeling bold and exhilarated in sharing these private moments with him.
Chan's eyes widen in surprise. “Damn, that's kinda hot. Look at you!” He nudges your shoulder with his, a pleased grin on his face. “Already getting freaky in public. Makes me proud.”
“I learned from the best.”
“I am the best, aren’t I.” He flashes you that devastating grin. You roll your eyes.
“How about you?” You playfully turn the question back to him, curious about his recent adventures.
“Me?”
“Yeah, you. What escapades have you been up to lately?”
“Oh, this past weekend I had a date with a gymnast. She did some things that…. let’s just say I’ve never seen before.”
“Really? Like what?” Your eyebrows raise in interest.
“She was riding me in a reverse cowgirl, while doing a backbend thing, so she was also kissing me at the same time. It was wild.”
You can’t help but wince slightly at the thought of the contorted position. “Sounds painful. I hope she stretched first.” Chan throws his head back as he laughs loudly. “Was it impressive enough that you’d fuck her again?” you continue.
He ponders for a moment before responding. “Probably not. Repeats tend to get….”
“Clingy?” you finish for him with a smirk and a raised eyebrow.
“Yes, clingy.” He can’t help but to smile back in response.
“You know, there probably are girls out there who would be happy to fuck you repeatedly without allowing emotional attachments.” You watch him as he thinks about it.
“Eh, I’d rather play it safe. You start to see someone more than once, they start to think you’re dating. Nah, fuck that! One and done!”
“Keep it simple.” You get it. He doesn’t want to run the risk of getting hurt again, not that he’d admit that’s the real reason.
“Exactly.” He nods.
A few minutes later, you and Chan arrive at your dorm room. After putting down your bags, Chan turns to you and says, “I’m thinking that tonight we can focus on oral. Are you okay with that?”
“Yeah. I’m fine with that.”
“Alright. Might be a good idea for us both to shower first. I know I’m stinky.”
“You can go first then, stinky.” You walk to the closet, retrieving a towel and washcloth from the top shelf for him. “Here.” You toss them at him.
While you wait for Chan to finish his shower, you sit at your desk and delve into the novel you had stumbled upon at the used bookstore across from campus. Minutes tick by until finally, you hear the water stop. A few moments later, the door opens and Chan saunters out, looking like a Greek god in human form.
The towel wrapped snugly around his waist accentuates every defined muscle of his body, leaving nothing to the imagination. His wet blond hair is slicked back, making his face look even more chiseled and handsome. The steam from the shower still clings to his skin, giving him an ethereal glow in the dim light of the room. As you take in his striking appearance, you realize that tonight will be the first time you see him completely naked.
“I’ll let you take a picture so you don’t have to rely on memory,” he says with a grin when he catches you staring.
“Oh, shut up!” You add your bookmark to save your space, then head to the bathroom for your own quick shower. Ten minutes later, you rejoin Chan in the bedroom, wearing your black, fluffy robe.
Chan is reclining in your bed, his legs out long, crossed at the ankles, and your book in his hands.
“I didn’t realize you liked horror,” he states as he turns the page, not looking up.
“I’m a big horror fan: books, comics, movies.” You sit on the bed facing him.
He closes the book and places it back on the desk. “Very interesting.”
“Why is that?”
“You just constantly surprise me is all. Favorite book?”
“It, Stephen King. Read it when I was 12.”
“Oooooh, that’s a good one. I read it in high school. ‘We all float down here’,” he quotes in a deep voice, doing his best Pennywise impression. He sits up next to you.
“’And when you're down here with me...’,” you start, deciding to share your favorite line.
“’YOU’LL FLOAT TOO!’,” you and Chan yell simultaneously before breaking out in laughter.
“Oh man,” you say through chuckles. “So fucking good.”
“A fucking masterpiece,” Chan agrees. “And the remake….?” The two of you start talking animatedly about your other favorite horror books and movies, realizing that you have quite a few in common. Once the two of you have caught your breath after a thirty-minute discussion, Chan turns back to the business at hand. “You ready?”
You nod, eager to continue exploring and expanding your knowledge.
He takes your hands in his and directs you to kneel in front of him between his legs. “I’ll guide you through some different things to try. First and foremost is that you should always take the lead. If you want to give someone head, you unbutton and unzip and reveal. Don’t ever let some fucker push your head into their crotch; it’s just rude. Plus, women in charge, women taking charge, are fucking sexy.”
“Got it. Should I take this off,” you say, gesturing to his towel. He nods. You gently lift the corner he has tucked in at his waist and pull it open, allowing the towel to fall behind him on the bed. His length springs free, already hard and at attention.
“Go nice and slow at first; don't worry about taking too much in," he says softly. You lean forward, heart pounding, as he gently directs your mouth towards him. His fingers brush your hair back tenderly.
As you take him into your mouth, he inhales sharply, eyes fluttering closed. "Mmm, just like that. Use your tongue to explore... find the sensitive spots… but watch your teeth, so you’re not scraping."
Chan talks you through different motions – using your tongue, varying speed and pressure. You feel shy at first, but the excitement is stronger. Coupled with Chan’s gentle coaching, you gain confidence.
"The key is paying attention to your partner's reactions, listening to the sounds they make, and adjusting based on that.”
You follow his guidance, moving your tongue around his length and finding the spots that make him gasp or groan. You tighten your lips, you take him deeper, you flick his tip with your tongue. With each passing minute, you gain more confidence in your actions. Soon, he is moaning, praising how good your mouth feels.
Chan runs his fingers through your hair, stroking affectionately, as he guides you through this new experience. The sensation of his touch combined with the taste and feel of him in your mouth is exhilarating. You can feel yourself getting aroused as well.
As you continue to pleasure him, Chan's breaths become more ragged and his grip on your hair tightens slightly.
“I’m close to cumming,” he whispers. “You need to decide whether you want me to cum in your mouth or not. If it’s a no, just remove your mouth and finish by jacking me off.” You think about this for a second and ultimately decide to get the full experience.
You refocus on your task. Chan’s moans become louder until he finally reaches his climax with a loud groan. You feel his warm load spurt into your mouth, surprised by the saltiness. It takes you a couple of gulps to swallow everything down, but eventually you slide your mouth off of him and sit back on your heels.
Chan opens his eyes, then pulls you up to sit next to him on the bed, a satisfied smile on his face. “You did great,” he says warmly, placing a kiss on your cheek.
“Thanks,” you reply shyly.
“We’re not done yet though,” he says playfully. “Now it’s your turn.” He unties the belt of your robe, and pushes it off your shoulders before gently laying you down on the bed.
Chan gently parts your legs and settles between them. His strong hands caress your inner thighs as he plants soft kisses along your hip bone, working his way down. You feel a rush of anticipation as his mouth nears your most sensitive area.
"Just relax and enjoy this," he murmurs. You feel his hot breath against your pussy just before he makes contact.
The first touch of his tongue makes you gasp, the pleasure so intense you have to remind yourself to keep breathing. He starts slowly, with soft exploratory licks up and down your slit. He finds all the spots that make you squirm and moan. When his lips wrap around your clit, you cry out, tangling your fingers in his hair. You gasp and writhe at all these incredible new sensations. His strong hands grip your hips, holding you in place.
"Oh god, Chan..." you pant, overcome by the building pressure.
"Does that feel good?" he asks in a low, sexy tone. The vibrations from his voice make you tremble.
You manage to moan a breathless "Yes."
"That's it, let me hear how good it feels," he encourages you. “The more sounds you make, the more you touch me, the better. It lets me know what’s working.”
He continues lapping at your clit, alternating between broad licks and tight circles. The pleasure is unbelievable; you've never felt anything like this before. You realize that the rumors about his 'magical tongue' are 1000% accurate. Your moans get louder as the sensation builds.
He slides two fingers inside you, crooking them in the same come-hither motion he made during your walk as his tongue continues working your clit. He quickly finds your g-spot, sending sharp shocks throughout you each time he swipes it. You start rocking your hips, trying to force his lips closer, force his fingers deeper. The dual sensations quickly bring you to the edge and then tip you over – your back arches off the bed as the orgasm crashes through you.
You lie there panting, your body still trembling from the intense climax. You feel breathless and euphoric.
Chan grins and wipes his mouth before kissing his way back up your body, making stops at your stomach, tits, and neck. Before he kisses your lips, there’s a pause as he looks directly into your eyes. For a brief second, his cocky facade seems to waver. There’s a flicker of something, a glimpse of vulnerability that makes your heart skip a beat. But just as quickly as it appeared, it’s gone. The shift leaves you feeling curious about what he’s thinking.
Before you can say anything, his lips find yours in a rush of heat and desire. The taste of yourself and the cake from earlier mingle on his tongue. You lose yourself in the intensity of his kiss; it’s like having forbidden fruit, and you can’t get enough.
You allow yourself to continue indulging in Chan's kisses. His lips are soft yet demanding. One hand trails down your back, pulling you closer; the other cradles your face before moving to caress your side, your hip, your breast and everything in between. You tangle your fingers in his hair, drawing him to you. The kiss deepens, becoming more passionate. All thoughts fade away except how good it feels to be wrapped up in Chan like this.
After what seems like an eternity, Chan pulls back just enough to meet your gaze. Something in his eyes seems different now. As he lies down next to you, you glance at the alarm clock and are amazed to see that the two of you have been making out for over an hour. You wonder how the fuck that happened.
The atmosphere in your dorm room feels cozy and intimate now. Chan trails his fingers up and down your arm absently as you both recover. You study his handsome face – the sharp jawline, the broad nose, the deep brown eyes beneath his dark brows, the full lips now swollen from pleasuring and kissing you. He really is unfairly good-looking.
As the afterglow fades though, you start to feel a bit awkward. This is supposed to be purely educational, no emotions, no entanglements. And yet... there's a definite connection between you two. An undeniable chemistry.
You see a similar conflict reflected in Chan's eyes before he clears his throat and sits up slowly. "We should probably call it a night,” he says quietly.
“Okay,” you agree softly. From your perspective, you can acknowledge the connection because you know you really enjoy spending time with him as a friend. You hope it’s the same for him and nothing more, and that this make out session was just the two of you getting carried away in the moment.
Chan rises from the bed and begins gathering his clothes. You take the opportunity to slip under the comforter to warm up your naked body now that his isn’t pressed against yours. As he pulls his shirt over his head, the muscles in his back and arms flex, and you take a moment to appreciate his athletic physique. He’s not as muscular as Changbin, but still nice to look at.
He turns to face you while pulling on his jeans. "So, Saturday is…”
“Your birthday right?” you finish for him.
He smiles. “Yeah. My 21st and my roommates are throwing a party at our house. It's gonna be lit – open bar, DJ, the works."
You sense there's more he wants to say, so you wait patiently for him to continue.
Chan runs a hand through his blonde waves in an effort to tame them. "Anyway, you should come.” He zips and buttons his jeans. He says it casually, but you can tell he’s nervous about asking.
"I don't know Chan... I'm not sure that's such a good idea," you reply carefully.
He nods, seeming to understand your unspoken concerns. "No pressure. I know it's complicated and all. But the invitation's open. I consider you a friend and it’d be cool to have you there.” He throws his backpack over his shoulder. “Feel free to bring Changbin too, if you want." You detect a hopeful note in his voice.
You consider the invitation. Your thoughts swirl around your mind as you weigh the pros and cons of accepting. You break the silence with a hesitant response. “Okay, I’ll think about it.”
A smile spreads across his face, revealing the dimples. "Great," he says, his excitement evident in his tone and expression. The corners of your mouth tug up into a small smile in return.
****
The bass from the rap song blaring through the speakers sends vibrations through your body as you enter Chan's packed house with Jess and Sam flanking you. The air is thick with the scent of beer and sweat, bodies pressed close in the dimly lit space. You weave through the crowd towards the backyard and the keg, your eyes scanning for people you know. Everyone is at this party; there are students from all the different schools and programs, as well as folks from the different social groups. You see several of Changbin’s frat brothers, who give you a nod as you walk by. Changbin decided not to come, choosing instead to continue studying for the MCAT. He was planning to take it in December.
As you're refilling your red Solo cup at the keg, a warm arm drapes across your shoulders. You turn to find Chan grinning down at you, his dimples deeper than usual, his cheeks slightly red, and his eyes sparkling.
"You made it!" he exclaims, planting a sloppy kiss on your cheek. The scent of tequila clings to him. "I'm so glad you're here."
His kiss reminds you of your last encounter. You force a casual smile. "Happy birthday, Chan. Looks like you're celebrating properly." You tap your cup against his.
He laughs, the sound rich and inviting. "Oh, we're just getting started.”
“Here,” you say, reaching into your tote bag and pulling out a small, rectangular package wrapped in black and silver paper. “I got you a little something,” you say, offering it to him.
He takes the gift with a grin, his eyes curious as he examines it. “Oh wow, you didn’t have to,” he says.
“Open it,” you urge him.
He places the blue solo cup between his teeth to free up his other hand, then gingerly slides his finger beneath the taped seam and peels the paper back to reveal two books – Desperation and The Regulators.
“Stephen King!” he exclaims, taking the cup from his mouth.
“Two of my favorites,” you explain. “I hope you haven’t read them before.”
“I don’t think so.” Excitement creeps into his voice.
“Okay good,” you reply with matching enthusiasm. “Two different stories, with the same characters who are actually different people existing in separate dimensions but fighting the same evil.”
“Woah, I must be drunk because I actually understood all of that,” he says with a laugh. “Sounds really fucking cool. Thank you.” He wraps his arms around your shoulders and gives you a tight squeeze. “This is really sweet.”
You can’t help but smile at his reaction. “You’re welcome,” you say softly, enjoying the feeling of his embrace.
He releases you and looks over his shoulder. “Come on, I want you to meet my other roommates."
Chan guides you and your friends through the throng of people, his hand never leaving your lower back. You try to ignore the tingling sensation it leaves in its wake.
"You already know Min,” he says, ruffling Minho’s hair as we pass him and a couple other people lounging on the patio furniture. Minho shoves him away playfully in response. “Felix! Hyunjin!" Chan calls out when we reach the kitchen. Two handsome guys turn, raising their cups in greeting. "This is the tutor I was telling you about."
Felix, a freckled blonde with an infectious smile, gives you a knowing look. "Ah, so you're the one who's been occupying all of Chan's free time lately."
You feel your cheeks flush. "Just trying to keep him from flunking out," you joke weakly. Chan ignores Felix as he places your gift on the bookshelf.
Hyunjin, tall and striking, looking like he just came off of the runway at New York Fashion Week, smirks. "Well, whatever you're doing, it's working. He actually passed up on a date with one of the hottest sorority girls I’ve ever seen last week to study. I almost took him to the doctor!"
Chan rolls his eyes good-naturedly. "Alright, alright. Enough embarrassing me on my birthday." He walks away from his friends towards the kitchen island, grabbing a chicken wing from a large foil tray. He turns back to you and leans against the counter. “No Changbin tonight?”
“He’s studying. MCATs. He said he might try to stop by later if he gets far enough.”
“Hmmm, cool,” he says with a lazy smile as finishes the wing and reaches for another one. “I forgot he wants to go to med school.”
You chat with Chan for a bit as the party rages on around you. Despite the noise and crowd, it feels like it's just the two of you in your own little world. He seems relaxed yet focused entirely on you, asking about how the rest of your week went and your plans for the weekend. The conversation flows effortlessly. More than once, you catch yourself laughing wholeheartedly at his quick wit, lame jokes, and poor attempts at flirting.
It’s not lost on you, though, that there are lots of eyes watching the two of you. Several women have passed by trying to claim Chan’s attention, but he’s brushed them off. And other friends have stopped by to give him their birthday wishes. He is always polite, giving them hugs and high fives and chatting for a bit, but always turns his attention immediately back to you.
After a while, you notice Chan's gaze drop briefly to your lips before meeting your eyes again with a hint of longing. The air seems to crackle between you. Just then, Minho appears.
“It’s shot o’clock motherfucker,” he says, clapping his hands on Chan’s shoulders. “Time for number 8.” He starts to lead him away.
“Alright, I’m coming,” Chan says with a smile. He turns to you, his gaze intense. "Save me a dance later?"
You nod, unable to form words under the weight of his stare. As Chan is pulled away in the direction of the bar, your floormates descend upon you, eyes wide with curiosity.
"Spill," Jess demands, practically vibrating with excitement. "What's the deal with you and Chan?"
“What? There's no deal.” You use a toothpick to retrieve a meatball, popping it in your mouth.
“Oh, come on. We might as well have been invisible. He couldn’t tear his eyes away from you. There’s something going on between the two of you.”
You take a long sip of your beer, buying time. "I'm just tutoring him. Plus, did you forget about Bin?"
Sam raises an eyebrow skeptically. "Tutoring, huh? Yeah right! That was some serious eye fucking come from his direction."
You laugh, hoping it doesn't sound as nervous as you feel. "Seriously, guys. It's strictly academic. And he’s fucking drunk; he’s looking at everyone like that."
Jess leans in conspiratorially. "Well, word on the street is that Chan hasn't been making his usual rounds lately. People are starting to wonder if he's actually into someone."
Your stomach does a little flip. "I'm sure it's nothing," you say, more to convince yourself than them. "He's probably just buckling down on his studies. You know he's at risk of losing his scholarship if he fails this class."
As your friends continue to speculate, your eyes drift back to Chan. He catches your gaze and winks, raising his shot glass in a silent toast. You smile and nod back before turning back to your friends. Though, you can't help but wonder if there's more to his recent behavior than just academic dedication.
The pulsating beat of the music draws you back to the present moment. You’ve just refilled your fourth cup of beer. Jess grabs your arm, pulling you and Sam towards the makeshift dance floor in the living room. "Come on, let's dance!" she shouts over the music. You let her lead you into the mass of bodies swaying and bouncing to the beat.
You lose yourself in the music, laughing with your friends as you dance together. A new song comes on and you feel strong arms encircle your waist from behind. Sam and Jess both raise their eyebrows. You turn your head and see Chan, his blonde hair now a wild mess, grinning at you with that disarming smile. He pulls you back against him, his body pressed close to yours as you move in tandem.
"Told you I wanted to dance with you," he says, his breath ghosting the back of your neck. “I’m the birthday boy, so I get what I want.”
You can't help but chuckle. You turn to face him. "I'm impressed you're still standing. What number are you on now?"
"Fourteen," he announces proudly, holding up his fingers in a wobbly 'V' sign. "But who's counting?" You smirk and help him pull up his pinky and ring finger, so that he’s now displaying four instead of two fingers. He laughs at his mistake.
As the two of you dance, you marvel at how he manages to move with such grace despite his inebriated state. The scent of his cologne mixed with alcohol envelops you as your bodies sway to the rhythm.
"So, how's the night treating you?" you ask, trying to keep a conversational distance.
Chan's eyes sparkle mischievously. "Oh, you know, the usual. I've been propositioned by at least five different girls already."
You laugh. "Sounds like a successful birthday to me. Why aren't you taking them up on their offers?"
He leans in close, his breath hot on your ear. "Because the one I'm really interested in hasn't approached me yet."
"Oh? Well, maybe you should go talk to her. If you're not too drunk, that is."
Chan pulls back, his gaze intense. "Maybe I should."
As the song changes to something slower, you find yourselves moving closer. Your bodies align, fitting together like puzzle pieces. You can't help but notice how his muscular frame feels against yours, how his hands on your hips seem to burn through the fabric of your clothes.
Suddenly, Chan's lips are at your ear again. "Want to know a secret?" he whispers, his voice husky. "I'm waiting for you to proposition me. You’re fun, smart, and fucking sexy as hell."
You throw your head back as you laugh loudly, assuming he's joking. Hoping he’s joking. To your relief, Chan joins in the laughter, but something in his eyes makes you wonder if there was more truth to his words than you'd like to admit.
As you're processing this, your gaze drifts over Chan's shoulder, and your breath catches. There, standing in the doorway, is a familiar figure that makes your heart leap for an entirely different reason.
Changbin has arrived at the party.
Changbin’s eyes search the crowded room until they land on you, a cute smile breaking out on his face. As he makes his way through the crowd, you can't help but admire how he looks in his fitted jeans and dark, short-sleeved button-down shirt, clinging tightly to his muscles. He's holding a bottle of very expensive tequila.
Your radiant smile causes Chan to turn to see what you’re looking at. You disentangle yourself from Chan just as Changbin reaches you.
"Hey babe," he says, leaning in to give you a soft, sensuous kiss on the lips that makes you blush a bit and your knees buckle. His eyes flick over to Chan.
"Changbin!" Chan calls out way too loudly for how close the three of you are standing to each other. "You made it!"
Changbin grins. "Couldn't miss the big 2-1, could I? Happy birthday, man." He hands Chan the tall, slender, and elegant honey colored bottle.
Chan's eyes widen. "Damn, this is the good stuff. You shouldn't have. You didn’t need to get me anything."
"A little birdie told me it’s your favorite," Changbin says, his arm sliding around your waist.
Chan's gaze flickers to the point of contact before he grins broadly. "Well, let's put it to use! Shots with the birthday boy?"
Before you know it, you're knocking back shots 15 through 18 with Chan, Changbin, Jess, and Sam. The tequila burns a path down your throat, warming you from the inside out. You watch Chan and Changbin talking and laughing together. It makes you smile.
Chan gets pulled away again, leaving you alone with your boyfriend. "Dance with me?" Changbin murmurs in your ear, and you nod, allowing him to lead you back to the dance floor.
As you sway with Changbin, your arms around his neck, you can't help but notice Chan across the room. He's with a busty brunette now, her lips attached to his neck, but his eyes... his eyes are on you. The intensity of his gaze makes your skin prickle with heat.
"Everything okay?" Changbin asks, noticing your distraction.
You force yourself to look away from Chan. "Yeah, just... a bit dizzy from the beer and shots."
Changbin's hands tighten on your waist. "Want to get out of here?"
You nod, grateful for the excuse. As you're leaving, you catch one last glimpse of Chan being led away by the girl, disappearing up the stairs towards his bedroom. The image stays with you as you and Changbin make your way back to your dorm.
Once back in your room, Changbin's hands are on you immediately, his lips finding yours in a heated kiss. You melt into it, the taste of tequila still lingering as your tongues meet. His strong hands slide under your shirt, caressing the sensitive skin along your waist and up your back.
Your hands slip under his shirt, tracing the hard muscles of his back. His strong arms wrap around you, holding you close as the kiss deepens. All thoughts of Chan and his intense gaze fade away as you lose yourself in Changbin.
Changbin walks you backwards toward the bed, his kisses trailing down your neck. Gently, he lays you down, his body hovering over yours. His eyes are dark with desire as he looks at you, brushing a strand of hair from your face.
"I've missed you," he murmurs, his voice husky, nuzzling into your neck.
You inhale his familiar scent, letting it ground you. “It’s only been a couple days,” you whisper back.
"I know. Tell me what you want," he growls, his eyes burning into yours as his hand moves between your legs and slides up your thigh before palming your pussy. You whimper, arching into him.
You bring his mouth back to yours and kiss him deeply before pushing him away from you. When he rolls onto the bed, you climb on top of him.
“I want to make you cum,” you say seductively, although your words are a little slurred because you are slightly drunk. You sit up and reach for the waistband of Changbin’s jeans. You unbutton and unzip, then quickly slip your hand inside his boxers. You’re eager to practice your new fellatio skills on him.
Changbin moans as your hand wraps around his hard length, stroking him slowly at first. You’re amazed at how much thicker he is than Chan, although the lengths are about the same. He watches you with dark eyes, his fingers tangling in your hair as you lean down to take him into your mouth.
The alcohol has made you brave and uninhibited, and you let yourself get lost in the sensation of pleasuring him. Your tongue swirls around his tip before taking more of him into your mouth, bobbing your head up and down.
Changbin's grip on your hair tightens as he lets out a low groan. "Fuck." He says your name as he grunts, thrusting his hips up to meet your mouth. You continue to suck and lick him, figuring out exactly where to focus to make him unravel.
Changbin's moans spur you on, and you work him harder, taking as much of him into your mouth as you can. Your spare hand cups his balls, gently massaging them as you deep throat him. His salty taste fills your mouth, and the more he moans your name, the more turned on you get.
"Oh... fuck, baby... that's it," Changbin pants, his hips bucking to meet your every motion. His hand in your hair tightens around the strands while the other grips the sheets beneath him, his knuckles whitening with the effort of restraining himself. His breathing is ragged and uneven as he thrust his hips upwards, and you know he is close.
Soon enough, he reaches his climax with a strangled sound emerging from his throat, spilling his hot seed into your mouth as you swallow every drop. He pulls you back up to meet his lips in a passionate kiss, tasting himself on your tongue.
Breathless and satisfied, Changbin rolls over onto his side and pulls you close against him. "You are fucking amazing," he whispers in your ear.
A warm feeling spreads through you at his words complimenting you. And despite the alcohol still clouding your mind, it feels good to be desired in this way by someone who you have such strong feelings for.
As Changbin holds you in his arms, sleep soon takes over.
You wake a few hours later with a throbbing headache and an arm draped over your body protectively holding you tight. You smile softly, remembering the events of the previous night. When you realize it’s still dark out, you turn your body to rest your head on Changbin’s buff chest and fall back asleep.
When you wake again, you feel lips kissing down your torso. “Mmmm. Morning.”
“Morning, babe,” he whispers in between kisses. This is new, Changbin being proactive physically. But your adventurousness over the past few weeks has emboldened him. And you like it.
“Can I use my mouth on you to make you cum now?”
“Yes. Please.”
Changbin smirks and continues on his southern journey. He tugs your shorts and underwear down, throwing them onto the floor, then settles between your legs. When his tongue finds your sensitive bud, you moan loudly.
Changbin's tongue expertly flicks against your clit, sending waves of pleasure through your body. His hands grip your thighs as he continues to lick and suck you, his movements becoming faster and more intense.
You squirm under his touch, craving more. "Changbin,” you pant. He deposits kisses down your folds, and when he reaches your hole, he slides his tongue in and swirls it, causing you to jump from the unexpected intrusion. His grip tightens around your thighs, his fingers squeezing into the flesh, as he presses his nose against your clit then starts to fuck you with his tongue. It feels glorious. You can’t believe this is what you’ve been missing out on by taking it slow with Changbin.
The walls of your pussy start to clench around his tongue, causing him to withdraw it, replacing it with fingers eager to thrust in and out of you. Simultaneously, he returns his mouth to your clit. He sucks it between his lips and alternates between flicking and nibbling until you can no longer control the motions or sounds coming from your body. Then your body suddenly stills; seconds later an explosion rocks through you, starting from your clit and spreading through the rest of your body. Changbin continues to suck your clit throughout the orgasm, causing you to see stars each time he pulls on it. Eventually, you have to push his head away from you.
“Bin, please stop,” you whine in a whisper. He laughs, depositing one final kiss on the sensitive area before returning to lie next to you.
You turn on your side to face him, the two of you staring lovingly into each other’s eyes. The heat from his body seeps into yours. “I’m excited for more mornings like this,” he whispers, bringing his palm to your face.
“Oh yeah?” You use your thumb to wipe your wetness from his chin.
“Yeah.” A smile spreads across his face. “The prospect of waking you up every morning with an orgasm is exciting.”
“I wouldn’t say no to that.” You lean in and capture his lips in yours. The taste of yourself on him is intoxicating, and you can’t resist deepening the kiss, losing yourself in the moment.
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"I uh, I guess so," Russel said. That was a bit of a sad thought, that most adults ended up going down that route in the end, "I, I guess I kinda do that with, with my main job now. But I, I am glad it, it did work out for, for you, and you stuck with it despite the, the hard start."
Russell nodded.
"I, I can understand that. When. when you've, um, when you've thought a, a certain way for, for so long, it, it can be hard to say whether it's, it's ultimately helpful, and, and it can be hard to, to change that if, if it isn't."
Russell was quiet for a moment as he listened to the backstory behind the name.
"I, I can understand that too. When, when you're still working out your style and, and stuff, you can, you can sing about a certain theme, but then the band, the band name sticks even when, when you change things around," Russell said, "Oh I'm sure I'll, I'll enjoy it. I um, I've realised I, I don't seem to, to have any, any particular fav-favourite genres. I, I listen to, to just about, about anything."
The only playlists he had were for things like music to run to, or music to grind in a game or read to or work to, and one for trying to get to sleep at night. As well as a never-ending 'liked songs' list.
Russell managed to laugh a little bit as well, although it was definitely more in relief that Anton had appreciated the joke.
"Heh, I, I uh could never, never wrap my, my head around it. I, I could never get, get my fingers to, to cooperate with, with, with playing dif-different keys at, at the same time," Russell admitted, "And, and what's important is, is that you enjoy playing guitar. No, no one can take, take that from you."
Alex seemed to be pretty happy to see a new customer in the shop. They were always pretty social and loved meeting people, especially those previous customers had brought in.
"That would be our elixir of the fruitful bounty," Alex said, with a smile, "It's a coke with pineapple juice, if that sounds up your alley."
"Oh, oh yeah, it's, it's been a, a while since I, I had one of those. I, I think I'll go for, for one of those please, Alex," Russell said.
"No problem," Alex said, before looking at Anton, "And the same for you, newcomer?"
❛once you start school and work, it’s all you get.❜ anton grimaced - though he looked rather thoughtful instead of sad or annoyed. ❛a couple hours a day is more than enough, though. unless of course you turn your hobby into your job.❜ now his grimace looked regretful. ❛not that that’s easy, of course. but it’s possible, if your heart’s in there. and if you accept the fact that shit will suck in the beginning.❜
he had learned it well through experience - sometimes (not always, but sometimes), a bit of faith in yourself in the dark could guide like a dim light.
❛yeah. i suppose that might be why i think this way. like everything we’re unfamiliar with, death is scary. but no one likes to be afraid, i know i don’t. so i try to have thoughts that help. whether they do help or not, whether they’re good or not... that’s a different question entirely,❜ anton winced.
❛thank you. back in the day our first few songs were... a bit more rebellious. hence the name. we have a bunch of songs online if you don’t feel like committing to a concert yet. hope you hear something you enjoy.❜ he chuckled.
it was a couple of minutes until anton stopped laughing. what a precious moment. it’s been a while since i last laughed like this. ❛i still very much admire people who can play the piano. i know, like, three songs at most, all very easy. the guitar ended up being more fulfilling to play.❜ he took a note to scribble his phone on a napkin and give to russell later.
when russell’s acquaintance waved hello, anton waved back, returning the smile. ❛hi. nice to meet you.❜ he took a few seconds to decide what to order, his face becoming thoughtful. ❛...what do people order most often when they come here? i’ll have that for now.❜ oh man. ordering at a new place where he hadn’t been previously always felt a bit... well, scary wasn’t exactly it - but definitely a bit of a challenge. and, previously, so had been meeting new people and making friends.
it seemed that was about to change for the better with russell around...
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good evening, would you care to make an alter pack related to sour gummy worms and CHOKE by IDKHOW?
hold the door!! someone's coming in!
name(s) - Phobia , Dax , Dallon , Doc , Astoria , Ripley , Кыан , Pyro , Gummy , Splatt , Scotch , Caine , Mick , Mark.
pronouns - it / they / he / bite / fuck / byte / choke / cut / gore / dirt / fight / burn / flame / fog / sour / candy / gummy / x / xe / xym / song / acid / zap / rot / smoke / mirror pronouns.
gender(s) - boything , Darlingvamp , Bloodbandal , Bloressific , Canilovin , Rosegore , SourSprayCandygender , Sourpunchcandygender , Sourwarheadcandygender , Sourlemonic , Candyic , Gummyic , Gumyic , Souryaic , Dulceaeris.
orientations - damiromantic pan.
role(s) - co-host , Anger Holder , Buffer , trauma holder.
species - human..?
source(s) - songtive , CHOKE - IDKHOW
emoji(s) - 🪅 , 🩸 , 🔴 , 💉 , 🔪 , 🌈 , 🍬.
faceclaims -
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#✦ 一 ding!#✦ 一 headmate pack#✦ 一 mod 🌈#✦ 一 mod 👑🍊#✦ 一 mod 🌧️🌼#this was hard as i've never listened to the song#but i think its pretty good!#pretty baller tunes!!#only did this before the other requests because they're all subsystems#build a headmate#alter packs#headmate pack#id pack#headmate creation#alter creation#build an alter#headmate template#create a headmate#alterpacks#alter pack
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Juppet of a man
#atlas.art#artists on tumblr#mcyt#hermitcraft#hermitcraft 10#joe hills#joehills#juppet#look i. may have committed to the bit a little too hard. i will admit that this may have gotten out of hand#yes this was all for the 'juppet of a man' joke#i've been listening to the song on repeat the entire time i'm never getting it out of my head ever please enjoy this stupid reference#is he a man or a juppet who's to say
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#can't stop associating hijack to every love song i listen to it's becoming a serious problem#somebody get these gay ppl out of my head im begging#anyways every1 give it up for GLUE SONG#i've never known someone like u !!!!! tangled in love stuck by u from the glue !!!!!!#(love song of the century btw)#if u know it im sending u cookies#pls don't look too hard i just rly needed to get them out of my system asdaksashjd#*blows kisses to the sky* for hannah and her brushes#hijack#frostcup#jack frost#hiccup#rotg#httyd#my art#jackshiccup art#art#OH AND merry christmas to those who celebrate :)#hijack gift from me to u <3
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turns out my best friend had no idea nine inch nails existed so he listened to pretty hate machine bc of that silly video i did yesterday and his first comment after listening to the album was "i feel like the singer fucked a lot"
#rena.txt#IDK WHY THIS IS SO FUNNY TO MEEEEEEE AKDJAKDKAKDJSKFJAKFJDKF he was like 'sin is the best song i've ever heard' (disappears for an hour)#'i feel like the singer fucked a lot' ???????? IM LAUGHING SO HARD AKSKSKDKSKFKSJFJSJFKD#anyways idk how he didn't know nin since he has a way broader music knowledge than me#i need to make him listen to closer no way he never heard that one even the rocks know about it
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guys i'm flipping out i need the wisdom saga NOWWWWWWUSDUUDUDIGK
#epic is genuinely so good for me sensory wise#it's so nice on the ears that it makes me ascend#i am addicted to epic sorry guys#anyway i hope the cast takes their time and doesn't burn themselves out#i literally love this musical so much..#i'm very excited for the next saga#i can't believe there's only like 3 sagas left that's. actually fucking crazy my god#epic the musical#wisdom saga#come to me..#jorge rivera herrans#epic is actually just my favorite musical of all time btw#i've like never heard anything like it#like i genuinely love all the songs(even if i skip them sometimes i still love them)#it's HARD to get me to do that#but epic is so ascension worthy#it genuinely has got me wanting to sing every song as i listen to it it's so good#UGK#oh shit i'm rambling in the tags again whoops
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Was tagged by @oceancamp to post my current five favorite songs! (They should invent a stages-of-grief-esque model that encompasses and accurately describes both types of anguish I had to go through making this list - the one of limiting myself to only five songs, and the one of trying to put as little videogame music on here as possible so that I don't end up looking like an absolute goddamn geek, which... I am... Oh well!)
Thank you so much for tagging me - here are the songs!
Heaven Pierce Her - War Without Reason
Tatsuro Yamashita - Love Space
This specific arrangement of Death And Republic + Meet Again
Winger - Junkyard Dog (Tears On Stone)
The Protomen - Light Up The Night
Is it courtesy to tag other people after you've been tagged in a post like this? If that's the case, I'll tag @spiralled-fury, @solradguy, @swamppossum, @five-by-five, @northstarring, @ineedmoredragons and @tbonechessor!
#logs#ya don't have to participate if you don't want to‚ from what i've gathered - it's all just for fun anyway :]#The link to Yamashita's song is actually a link to a website that hosts city pop songs‚ since those keep getting taken down on YouTube due#to the strictness of Japan's copyright laws with regards to music. Uploads of Yamashita's songs in particular get taken down quite#frequently... The rest are either Bandcamp or YouTube (in case of Junkyard Dog) links#Very out-of-character of me not to put a Кино song on here‚ haha#I had a hard time deciding whether to put HOLD BACK THE NIGHT or Light Up The Night here‚ but ultimately decided on Light Up The Night#because... hoo boy#okay storytime. i've known of the protomen since somewhere around 2021. got The Good Doctor in my recommended feed‚ clicked on it because#i thought the album cover was cool + the title was appealing‚ but i never really listened to anything theirs beyond that song after that.#fast forward to 2022. be me‚ watching the greatest videoessay on planet earth (Steak Bentley's Metal Gear Solid 4 Was A Mistake).#the fucking MONTAGE comes on‚ and I fall in love with my second Protomen song. second fast forward to 2023 going into 2024‚ finally got#around to playing the Violence update. i learn of the name of level 7-2. the widest‚ most mischievous grin appears on my face.#i enter the level‚ proclaim ''ULTRAKlLL IS NOW A STEAK BENTLEY REFERENCE'' and blast the song as i get my ass beat by every single thing in#that level.#and let me tell you. getting mollywhopped ten thousand times by the FUCKING GUTTERTANK TRIO AT THE END OF THE LEVEL WAS. not a pleasant#experience. but the song made it better. :) (i played the level before the balance patch came out and uh let's just say i had more deaths on#that level than on 2gabe and 1gabe. SEVENTY-FOUR. FUCKING. RESTARTS. JESUS /CHRIST/.#goodness how i yearn to make a 3d animation of v1 going through 7-4 with that song in the background as a tribute to the man himself but#alas i am a student who has everything in the world but time#thanks for the tag again!! ^^
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Put a bunch of the Grammy noms into playlists on Spotify so I could have real proper opinions on the winners rather than just "well the one song I know should have won" and I think for the sake of the experiment I will even sit down and listen to that bloody t swift album for complete thoroughness
#not doing every category OBVS#but i am gonna give the country category a go because i've already listened to like 3/5 which is insane in any other year tbh#there’s no way in hell tswfit wins but I will at least TRY so I cannot be accused of a bias#and I like the odd miss swift song too I just think I’ve seen so many stupid lyrics it’s hard to take it seriously anymore#i just dont think she's the genius others think she is which would be fine if i didnt have to deal with her what feels like most days#im also going to have to listen to that fucking post malone collab that i've somehow never heard before i know i said it but how that has s#many noms is beyond me completely
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a really big chunk of my ship tags are just titles of songs that I happen to like (if you can tell what they are, you get a gold star!)
but that also means that every now and then, a certain song will come on and I'll be hit with the strongest wave of just. Feels.
(some spoilers for M.onster in the tags btw)
#ash rambles 💚#this is directly in reference to g.rimmer's tag btw#you can stop being a kpop stan but the kpop stan never leaves you#god... n//flying has so many songs that are so good for ships#i just.. gah.. g.rimmer just wanted a damn picnic..#i can't think about what happened to him too hard because it's just. so sad.#and ash on her knees still clinging to his hand just makes it so much worse#in my heart he's having a happy picnic with ash and k.enzo and their cat and life is good and he's happy and he got to see thw world and ge#actual closure and gah i need to stop rambling before i start sobbing like how i did when i first saw the scene#thank you n//flying for writing our ship anthem 😭#wonder what they're up to these days..? the only k-band I've been keeping up with is. well. d.ay6.#i don't usually talk about that on this blog but one look at my main will tell you that i am not normal about those boys and never have bee#hehe W.illow has a d.ay6 ship tag!#anyways. I'm so fucking deep in my G.rimmer feels tonight#he's fine and he's happy i swear#he has a lovely gf and a lovely bf and the three of them live a happy and peaceful life!!! and he's fine!!!#canon is mine and my love is okay!!!!#time to go listen to that damn song again#oh g.rimmer.. the tragedy of g.rimmer is one i could talk about forever#spring memories 🥪#he's alive i swear
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it's almost like if i dont let the whole world know about my new hyperfixtation i will burst into flames
#preacher's daughter both family tree songs#how she says in family tree “heaven hath no fury like a woman scorned and baby hell don't scare me i've been times before”#and western nights “i would hold the gun if you asked me to but if you love me like you say you do will you ask me to?”#the whole house in nebraska song UGH#the outro of hard times i am tired of you still tied to me bleeding whenever you want too tired to move to tired to leave#american teenager gracie's cover i love you so so so so much i do it for daddy and i do it for dale i am doing what i want DAMN i am doing#it well#ptolemaea that stop scream i am the face of love's rage blessed be the daughters of cain bound to suffering eternal through sins of their#fathers commited long before their conception that whole outro in general#i tried to be good am i no good? am i no good? am i no good?....i just wanted to be yours? am i yours? am i yours?...if i am turning in you#stomach and making you feel sick am i making you feel sick? am i making you feel sick? am i making you feel sick? is just SO AGH#also god loves you but not enough to save you I FORGIVE IT ALL AS IT COMES BACK TO ME#we know how it goes the more it hurts the less it shows but i feel like they all know and that's why i can never come back home and i spent#my life watching it go by from the sidelines and god i have tried but i think it's about time i put up a fight#and the instrumental songs their production is so so good#anyways yeah now i feel better if anyone is reading till here go listen to it thanks <3#it's great for people with family issues#v.txt
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"The more that I grow, the more that I've come to know; it's hard to be someone and it hurts to be nobody."
#I'm thinking about making a personal tag for all the music I post#something like 'Mel's Mixtape'? I feel like I've already seen that somewhere though so I don't wanna be copying anyone#if anybody has any ideas let me know!#+ that lyric gutter punched me when I first listened to COAP#(bit of a vent/rant incoming so nobody feel pressured to read)#I've spent the majority of my life with anxiety (especially social anxiety) and depression#so I got stuck on the idea of being a 'nobody'; a person you never even notice just drifting through It All#but then I got jealous (per say) of people who had big friendgroups and were 'popular' etc and wanted to become 'somebody'#a person maybe even in the public eye#so I spent years trying to make myself into someone I wasn't and spent the whole time suffering#and eventually people realised I was not what I wanted to be (I wasn't like *them* in that sense) and they spent their days making sure ->#I knew it#so yeah#it is hard to be someone but it hurts to be nobody#even so I've found myself a good middle spot with a few friends who know me for *me* a good major and a lot of lovely moots#I ain't someone but I ain't nobody either <3#mel's thoughs#spotify#half•alive#half alive#conditions of a punk#coap#nobody (song)#melitunes
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hey so. childhood friend of mine commited suicide late july and his dad’s trying to fund the money for his funeral service - if people have the money to donate please do the service is in 3 days (august 5th) and he’s very close to the goal but otherwise it’d mean a lot if people spread the link around -> https://gofund.me/f04d9bf0
#gofundme#suicide#donations#idk what else I would tag this with but. yeah#sorry to the people that're gonna get jumpscared by a blocked tag I just felt liek this was important to share#he was like. the one irl friend I had consistently that never bullied me because we were both so different from everyone else#we fell out of touch but I always talk about him fondly and then my mom told me this morning and just. god#I'm really glad I'm gonna have a lot of support and love this month I already know that but what a way to start it huh.#I hope everyone's doing okay. if you're in a hard place right now take this as a sign to do something nice for yourself#talk to a friend go buy some chocolate listen to your favorite song anything#and if it feels like nothing's making you happy#please trust me when I say it will some day#I know everyone says that I know but I've been there I've been through some horrible fucking shit#like anime anti-hero/rival/love interest-to-die levels of trauma#trust me. trust. me.#it will get better. wake up another day. this too shall pass#sorry for the ramble I just feel Very Strongly about this
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can't believe it's that time already.....💖🎧🎶
#spotify wrapped 2023#ashleigh speaks#0.01% of talking heads listeners babyyyyyyy#also pissing myself laughing at time traveller#'you listen to the same songs on repeat again and again. the best tracks never get old' yeah no fucking shit!!!#ALSO also does york being my sound town genuinely mean that my neighbours are listening to the same music as me?#or have i just gone so hard on those artists that i've skewed the stats for everyone else hnfsbjkcg
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Wait what do you mean She Used To Be Mine's lyrics say "rewrite an ending or two". I spent the better part of like 5 years thinking it said "rewrite an end to you too". As in "I don't want to admit it but if I could I would make it so you never existed so I could get back the part of me I lost". Now I gotta reinterpret the lyrics all over again. Damn.
#hi Tarn. after i sent that ask i went and listened to the song again.#anyway i've never seen The Waitress :') i just think the music goes hard :')#ik what its about more or less tho
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I wish people on here talked more about social media addiction without finishing off with “and that’s why you guys are acting like idiots, go fix that so you’ll stop embarrassing yourselves and inconveniencing other people”
addiction is addiction. it doesn’t usually appear out of nowhere, it’s a coping mechanism someone develops because they’re trying to survive something else - stress, loneliness, illness, the usual. survivors of substance abuse get a decent amount of support on here, but I really think we need to extend that same understanding and support to people who, say, fell in the twitter scroll hole because they’re stuck in an abusive job with no way out that won't lead to homelessness.
that new gorillaz song, sillent running, completely blindsided me because it may well be the first time I’ve seen anyone talk about what causes social media addiction and the emotional journey from “here’s somewhere I can escape to” to “this isn’t an escape anymore, it’s worse than what I was running from, but now I can’t get out.” in so many years of overhearing this discussion, why is this the first time I’m seeing someone fully empathize with the actual people we’re talking about without shaming them in the same breath
#deerchatter#i've never considered myself outright addicted to social media because i wasn't being Annoying Online like Those People#but that song hit me so hard i'm sincerely looking back on previous periods in my life in a completely new way#like im fine now my scroll time is way down and im making sure im having fun when i do do it but in the past?#yeah actually definitely. definitely addiction. just because i wasn't hurting others in the process doesn't mean it wasn't hurting me#side note go listen to the new gorillaz album Cracker Island it fucking rules#may be my personal favorite since Demon Days
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