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heās just a swinging space age bachelor man!!!!
#ride the cyclone#rtc#fanart#ricky potts#richard potts#i dont know the tags for this man#musical#noel gruber#constance blackwood#mischa bachinski#ocean oāconnell rosenberg#i spent like 2 weeks on this#not In Total Duh but it took me a while ok#I wasnt even sure if i wanted to share it really#i listened to space age bachelor man and it had Such an effect on me idk why#i was just so happy i loved it so much#the acting is so good he has so much character#God ilove the goofy outfits and the masks#and the vocals and rhe silly choreo#it just filled me with joy and made me feel inspired for some reason#like yeah bang those space cats ricky#yeah i put ***5*** watermarks on this one colour me paranoid#i dont like the idea of people stealing my things boohoo woe is me#art
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The Lucanis vs Illario story would have had greater emotional depth/intrigue if the writers didn't water down how fucked up the Crows are as an organization.
Just some thoughts about how, out of all the side villains, Illario had some great potential to be a really interesting/tragic character in my opinion.
TL;DR: Zevran Aranai has a knife with Caterina's name on it for good reason and Lucanis/Illario need therapy...or whatever the Thedas equivalent is called...talking to Rook, I dunno
Going into DATV as a new player, or even as a returning one, the whitewashing of the Crows has a lot of the potential complexities of that life simply ignored or barely touched upon. The entire 'Illario vs Lucanis' boils down to: Illario seething in the shadows about Lucanis being the 'best boy'ā¢ of the family while Illario is an after thought - which he is.
Let's be real, Illario is not subtle and immediately comes across as the Scar to Lucanis' 'Mufasa'. It's a questline with a very straightforward villain who has pretty lackluster motivations from what info we're provided - being 'I want power and to be the First Talon'. The game does very little explore what motivations he may have beyond being jealous of Lucanis/wanting more power.
However, if you play the quest line knowing what previous games have set up about the Crows - about how cutthroat and brutal the life is behind the glamour - then you can see that the entire Lucanis vs Illario conflict has amazing potential to be a dramatic tragedy.
We've seen how the life of Crow can affect Zevran - someone who was sold into the life through child-slavery. How interesting would it be to see how the life of a Crow can affect someone who was born into it? It's pretty clear in-game that Caterina intends for her grandchildren to carry on the family tradition - despite the fact that this 'family tradition' has likely led to the deaths of most of her grandchildren and however many children she had.
If there's banter about how Illario's/Lucanis' parents/cousins died specifically I haven't heard it, but the impression I got in-game was that it was likely linked to the Crows/politics in some way? Feel free to correct me! Still majorly fucked up that she pushes her grandsons into this life regardless!
Lucanis/Illario's situation was not like Zevran's - who was sold into the Crow's through slavery, with no one to speak up for him. Caterina was a woman who had power, who knew what the life of a Crow meant, and who still pushed those she 'loved' into it because is consolidated her place in the system. For all the Crows talk of 'family' Caterina doesn't seem to give a shit about them unless if they're contributing to the family business in some way - not to mention the whole 'you fail and we kill you' clause of being a Crow in the first place.
In the 'Wigmaker Job' from Tevinter Nights Lucanis talks about how Caterina hit him [also Illario] with her cane for mistakes and had him spend days without food/water. How he used to hate her but now 'realizes' that it was her way of ensuring he survived the life of being an Antivan Crow. Did it end up protecting them? It likely pushed them both to refine their skills out of fear. It's likely that simply by association with her they would be targets and thus needed to know how to take care of themselves and fight.
But why have him as a Crow in the first place? Why not simply train them well to defend themselves? You can't deny that she doesn't benefit from having her grandchildren in the family business - intentionally wanting Lucanis to take over her position as First Talon. The Antivan Crows are a force to be reckoned with and being one brings a whole lot of power in Antiva - being part of the elite of that group even more so.
If the game showed us the ugly reality of the Crows - the brutality of the lifestyle and how cutthroat the organization is, it could have really added some depth to Illario's betrayal - having it be more than "I want more power/respect" to "this is the result of what you taught me was valuable in life."
Warden: "Do you actually enjoy being an assassin?" Zevran: "And why not? There are many things to enjoy about being a Crow in Antiva. You are respected. You are feared. The authorities go out of their way to overlook your trespasses. Even the rewards are nothing to turn your nose up at."
Illario, bitter about Caterina favoring Lucanis - resentful of the fact that she has already decided that Lucanis will be her successor, being offered power by the Venatori (at the expense of the Crows) and accepting because why not? How different is it from what the Crows do? Isn't power and status the whole point of working yourself up in the Crows? Getting into a relationship with Zara because why not? Isn't sex part of the allure of being a Crow? Why can't he have this? Why shouldn't he have this?
Rook: "When we met, it didn't seem like Illario and Caterina were close." Lucanis: "It was hard to be close to her. Even for me. And...I was her favorite."
Why would he have connections to his family? Why should he? Caterina certainly never seemed to value 'family' beyond what they could do for her and their family legacy. Most of his family is already dead, and of those that remain the only parental figure he has obviously favors Lucanis. We don't have a lot of evidence in-game to show that Illario ever really cared for Lucanis, but the prequel story 'The Wake' and Lucanis' own banter imply that they were practically brothers, best friends. Perhaps he did care and then ceased to at some point, perhaps he didn't at all, or perhaps he accepted that an early death for them both was inevitable like everyone else in their family. Dead now or later - what was the difference? At least if Illario sells him out now to the Venatori then he'll get something from it instead of another dead family member to bury.
It's the tragic result of raising a child in an environment where he was taught and experienced the need for self-preservation at all costs. Constantly threatened, punished, and made well aware of that fact that his life was an expendable commodity. Then, when things in the world went to shit he picked the only option that made sense to him. To save himself.
The irony of the potential fall of the Crows, the fall of House Dellamorte, coming at the hands of one of their own - not because he had a change of heart but because he was taught too well by them. The Crows view those that fail them as disposable, someone to be discarded - if the Crows fail Illario, what is to stop him from applying that mindset to them?
But this would require the writers to acknowledge how messed up the Crows are and we can't do that to our 'Noble Freedom Fighters'ā¢. They'll also need to address Zevran's existence and what lore was established in past games...and we can't have that either lmao.
#the moment he opened his snake mouth I knew lmao#having played the first three games I can see it as a tragedy#but without playing those games? with what information datv provides us? he's just a 'power-hungry cousin'#which is kind of boring? all the side villains in this game are really goofy tbh#really could have been such a cool story if they added more depth to it - otherwise Illario is just 'villain of the week'#Lucanis blink twice if you need help#so upset my Rook toasted to him becoming First Talon - ew gross#and Jacobus becoming a crow? being a 'good' thing? gtfo#i know Caterina didn't know where he was until recently - but the way she talks about it is so casual? āhere's where he is - go get himā#it took Rook one boat ride to get there and break him out! you're one of the heads of an assassin guild!#have your assassins assassin!!!#this game is afraid of moral complexity in the same way that Cullen was afraid of female mages in DAO#Just fucking running away at the first sign of something deeper lmao#thanks to thewardenisonthecase for filling my 'for you' page with stuff about Lucanis and making me think about this all lmao#datv spoilers#datv critical#dragon age the veilguard#veilguard critical
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First MOTA fic is up! š
Out of all the MOTA-related WIPs fluttering around in my brain for months, the first one I managed to write in full is this: thanks to @sleepy-hyperfixations for letting me turn their delightful incorrect quote into an excuse for 5k words of Gale pining!
Itās clearly a way to test my writing in a fandom Iāve read a lot about while still figuring out the voicesā¦ torturing poor Gale a bit based on my personal headcanon that heās the one desperately in love from day one, even though heās as sweet for John as he is chronically repressed. Poor John.
Chapters 2 and 3 are already ready: I'll post them weekly, every Friday.
#masters of the air#mota fanfic#pining gale's time!#it took ages but...it's up.#chapter 1 and Gale's head is already filled with some dark thoughts#and that's how you know I have written this one#it was supposed to be fluff#it will be#I think
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who is the lamb and who is the knife?
#my art#myart#digital art#dragon age#dragon age 2#merrill#merrill dragon age#BEHOLD. WIFE#this took me over a month bc we got a cat and shes attached herself to me#so almost every time i try to draw she takes the real estate of my hand Or ipad so#the locket is filled w bryn's blood btw#ft. the companion outfit mod bc its vv cute and i adore it
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Just got a funky Lucifer plush to add to my collection. I am living :)
I'm not actually putting him here, I have Youtooz there, but he's so funny looking sitting underneath the rest of them all alone. I love him.
#pois.posts#pois.rammbles#hazbin hotel#hazbin lucifer#lucifer morningstar#this took AGES to get to me but it was so worth it#all of my shelves are filled so i currently don't know where to put him#I'll figure something out
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Authens and Forgers
Sigmund and Barbara Authen... Authen like Authentic?
So, people are wondering if Sigmund and Barbara are real or not, what their history may be. I'm undecided, but am leaning more towards them being a perfectly normal couple.
We only know of one big war in the series and that happened when Twilight and Yor were teens and ended before Anya was born/created? So war ends about ten years ago. If the Authens are in there 60s or 70s then they likely would be out of field work by the time the conflict started.
In any case, i do agree that their role in the story will be to act as parents/a reflection for Twilight and Yor, and grandparents for Anya.
I'm interested in who will be the mirror for who though. We haven't gotten much of Barbara herself, but if we go off Sigmund then she's something of a mischief maker or at least unorthodox in how she goes about home making; a pretty good alternative/aged up Yor. This makes the scatter brained, detail confused, over sharing man who just wants his wife Sigmund a look into Loid (a Twilight who's trying to figure himself out without any assigned traits?).
Or we might have the hapless but more than able Sigmund who's always stumbling into and misinterpreting dangerous situations as Yor; making the sensible and stable Barbara the Loid.
Either way they'll love Anya and the next few chapters will likely be getting to know them. Can't wait.
#sxf#sxf manga spoilers#sxf spoilers#sxf ch 90#twilight#loid forger#yor forger#anya forger#it took me far too long to figure out how authen would be pronounced#i kept trying to look it up as a name until search bar filled in 'authentic'#can't wait to be emotionally destroyed by another gag in this series#this will either age like wine or milk
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I also made a card for him (Patreon)
#My art#SCII#Damned#DAX#Don't look at me lol#I considered making one from my bad batch of printouts but nah I have other uses for them still :P#Besides I get to use full colour here! And he deserves it ā„#DAX's cute expressions through Dex's cute face <3#A lot of the details initially started as guesswork but I feel a teensy bit more confident in them now that I've done some looking around āŖ#Heights are still undefined tho lol! Max is 5'9'' and Dexter looks to be at least a good few inches taller than he is so#It's pointed at that Dex is ~6 years older than Max - I put him at 8 years older but I'm happy to move their ages closer in my mind <3#More than that I'm happy to have been so close! :D#It's most likely that he's actually 30 by this point but if Max took a two year rather than a four year college course fjdslafd#My thoughts around DAX's age have shifted a little as well bringing in the consideration that VUX have longer lifespans than humans :0#What does 10 years age difference look like when that's proportionally less for VUX than humans!#Speculation for another time lol#I probably could've added more names in his ''Knows'' section but I stuck with the ones I've seen drawings of haha#He probably wouldn't know DOX...#If I'd thought about it for a moment I would've drawn his eyes reverse-open-closed - I like the idea of him and ZEX mirroring each other <3#Well they can both switch hehe#No matter how many of these I make it's so fun to fill out the Personality section hehe - single-word descriptors are very fun!#Seeing how many simple words I can think of to describe someone hehe <3 With minimal overlap and considering connotation! It's fun!!#I love DAX <3 And I love Dex haha it's the same with Max/ZEX! I love them all āŖā«
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ACE CALLIE YESSS!!!
you get it!!!
Yes!! Yippee!!
#sorry it took me ages to answer i just really wanted to draw smth for this ask bc i liked it :)#this squid is aspec and filled with enough sweetness to power inkopolis#to all my aspec folks out there youve got undeniable swag š#splatoon#callie#my doods#asks#45
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For zero good reason I didn't use a reference for 99% of what was supposed to be a little tiny sketch.
Anyway, next goal; some good Rook/Lucanis fluff.
#dragon age the veilguard#datv#lucanis dellamorte#even some mediocre rook/lucanis fluff#the fucken angle they took for his romance arc was so good#i wish there was more...that it felt a bit more filled out#but what's there is...i'm 1000% normal about it#anyway this is what the dollhouse in my mind is for >:)
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in my mind noah's unnamed sister is called zoe. his mom's name is claire and his dad's is erik. they have a little wiener dog called ketchup, but its name is actually kind of a point of contention because erik will only ever call the dog frank
#their ages are like... 17/16/9#the one year difference between noah and adele is partially a callback or parallel to the one year difference between ronan and declan#but here neither of them grew up too fast and they feel like more or less the same age#zoe is a menace also. she guillotines her barbie dolls and wants to be a lawyer. adele is the most introverted out of the three or at least#was when they were growing up... i think after noah went missing she almost sort of took on a persona that was closer to his. filling in#gaps and what not. just middle child things#trc#noah czerny#i have more hcs for their family LOL i got this shit mapped out
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I made vegetable dumplings... they don't look like much but they tasted delicious
#this isn't all of them I took this photo after I'd eaten some#I made the dumplings wrappers myself. Took ages#the filling is shiitake mushrooms Pak choi spring cabbage spring onions ginger garlic soy sauce and oyster sauce
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fuck with me
#minecraft#mineblr#sfl's life#it took ages because I am REALLY bad at hitting the dragon while she's perched#so I just kept filling her with arrows until she died lmaoo
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@katkastrofa: *writes a single throwaway line in one chapter of Lost and Found that is never referenced again*
Me, completely randomly and with no prompting: Alright, betā
#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#original characters#as if I donāt have enough of those already#I really donāt know what possessed me here. I mean. sometimes my mind did drift to this mention of Zaheerās sisters#because broken bonds is my absolute favourite LaF chapter. but I ever really thought of them that much since Kat never brought them up agai#and then about 24h ago I randomly remembered them again and was like. hey. pāli and ghazanās sisters play a huge role in our stories#and ming-hua is an only child. so what of zaheerās sisters? what are they like? do they ever cross his mind? are they aware of his crimes?#and in the afternoon I went digging through my art supplies bc I felt like painting and found my old 2020-2022 sketchbook with 2 empty page#so I thought. why not. itās been a while since Iāve done traditional art. so I pulled up a reference of rich EK outfits from the artbooks#and got to work. drew this up in about half an hour? traditional sketching is a lot faster than digital for some reason#then took a picture and cleaned up and coloured in procreate. and Iām really happy with the end result#this was hella fun to do as well so.. win-win?#alright enough backstory rambling. on to the characters themselves#I looked up Zaheerās name and apparently that particular spelling is urdu in origin. so I went off that#the article I found was written edited and fact checked by three pakistani women so I think itās about as trustworthy as these things go#summiya means āa woman of proper nameā and aiza means ārespected high place in societyā. which I thought were fitting for noble girls#for outfits and hairstyles. like I said. I turned to the avatar artbooks. those things are life savers. I just played around with colours#looks wise I colour picked from zaheer and then shifted around a little so they look similar enough yet not like clones of each other#but theyāre also teenagers here so they wouldnāt resemble book 3 Zaheer much anyway#kat never mentioned ages but since their mother was looking for matches I assumed they were older than zaheer#he ran off at 11 or 12 iirc. so I decided they would have been 16 and 14 respectively#though in their community matches are probably made much earlier than actual marrying age. still.#if it was such a pressing matter that their mother was āpreoccupiedā with it. then they were probably teenagers right#thatās what Iām gonna go for anyway since currently I have no information to disprove any of this#oh yeah Kat btw if you did have images of Zaheerās sisters in mind before this then you donāt have to replace them. I just filled a blank#weāve never talked about them so I assume thereās nothing. feel free to correct me. maybe someday weāll discuss their personalities/lives#all I have is that they probably werenāt too close with zaheer. and their lives now are all about husbands kids and status. but weāll see#hope you like them anyways <3
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Really struggling with trying to figure out what's me. Like what I enjoy and what ideas/traits/desires are actually my own. I think it's beautiful that people influence each other and grow together, but I'm left feeling lost right now and wondering what's actually me.
#idk ive been thinking about it a lot and really struggling#hard also to tell what's the depression and whats actually something i don't care about#i feel like i can say that playing world of warcraft was something that came from me.#but it started feeling like a chore in Dragonflight so i stopped playing.#and now everything feels tainted by other's influence and i dont know whats me anymore.#although i do need to remember that i did start playing Dragon Age on my own but it only feels like it was influenced by others because#i discovered my one irl friend used to love the games and then i got my other irl friend playing them#but i dont know how much of going into physics was my own choice or just following the path i saw before me#although i loved physics when i started doing mechanics in calculus and thought it was so cool#then i found accelerator science and detectors and nuclear physics to be so cool when i did an internship at a national lab#and then i took the most direct route to get into doing research at that lab#but things have gotten so lost and tangled up with all the horrible stuff that grad school puts you through#and the horrible stuff from this collaboration in particular#that it feels like all thats left is shame and fear and none of the wonder or curiosity#everything i do or write or whatever feels like an opportunity to 'get found out' as a fake or just fill me with shame#i thought that getting a job offer would fix me and help me get through the bullishit but the pressure is makikg things worse#and with this job im wondering if im just doing what im told and being influenced by other's suggestions and wants.#(dont go to grad school. its literally the worst thing you can do for your mental health)#vent#okay this actually kind of helped so im glad I made this post#feel free to reblog if you relate
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For the angst prompts:
āIād be lying if I said I didnāt love you.ā For @roncheg, Seonho/Hwi, MCTNA (where we are both currently dwelling). A tiny scenelet that could fit in any setting for them, frankly, because I couldn't decide whether it should be canon or AU or...
Hwi straightens his back, squares his shoulders like heās preparing for a fight. Heās so tired of this, of never talking about anything directly. āIād be lying if I said I didnāt love you.ā
The impassivity of Seonhoās expression cracks at the edges, and then collapses like a landslide. He shows true emotion so rarely Hwi always forgets the way he cries with his whole face.
āThen lie to me,ā he begs.
āNo.ā
āPlease, please. Lie. I canāt be him if you donāt.ā
Hwi gathers him close, mindful of fresh wounds. (Will they ever get to talk to each other again without one of them being injured?) āNo. I donāt want to lie to you anymore.ā
āPleaseā¦ā
āNo.ā
#I totally meant to write something for this yesterday but then I took an antihistamine#seonhwi#my country: the new age#angst#prompt fills#rhys's stuff
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...i'm starting to wonder if i wasn't actually pretty often failed by the adults in my life as a young kid tbh.
#i'm always doubtful where to put the blame#in a morally neutral causality kind of way to be clear#because like. i dont know. if i was the adult. confronted to the opaque behavior of a child. would i have done better?#but also i can't help but think#why the fuck did they make me skip a grade (last grade of primary on top of that) when i was notorious for never doing my homework#and was incredibly inconsistent across topics#like i sucked at math. like ''needs to count on fingers to do a simple addition or substraction'' sucking at math.#like i never learned any multiplication tables sucking at math#like i never got how to pose divisions and still can't at age 18 because logicomathematics are completely counterintuitive to me#and just. the work was never done to make me Get It. my work or teachers' work who knows. but perhaps skipping a grade wasnt the solution#or like#apparently when i was three years old the pediatrician suspected smth was up with me#either autism directly or ''generally suspicious child'' we're not clear on that#but he told my parents. and everybody said ''we better test that'' and then. nothing. idk.#they filled a parental report of behaviors questionnaire for... adhd i think? autism maybe. and that's it. never fucking heard about it.#god. i just remembered my mom saying proudly they almost never put me in the nursery as a kid.#always either with a parent or family or a nanny.#and perhaps mother. you could have foreseen that a kid with no siblings no pets no kid neighbors no playdates. would end up socially fucked#i remember the teachers scolding late students and showing us that we were supposed to be in bed by 9:30 or something#and internally i was like BUDDY AT 9PM WE'RE HALFWAY THROUGH DINNER#MOM'S BEEN HOME FOR LESS THAN AN HOUR#and shit. i don't know. i was scared of the dark as a child. to the point that even with the compromise#of keeping the door ajar and lights in the hallway (which i had to fucking advocate for btw)#i still slept curled up in the bathroom on a towel sometimes when it got too scary#and i would cry and scream before going to bed. i would beg my mom for sleeping pills from a young age.#i would often find myself in the morning sleeping with my face smushed between the pages of the book i literally fell asleep on#because i read until my eyes gave out#and a couple years later when i got a 3ds i'd play at night and if my dad caught me he'd storm into my room and i'd hide under the comforte#and he'd punch a couple times and whisper-yell at me not to do that and go to sleep#it took until i was about 15yo for me to see a sleep specialist
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