#this shit is so ass!!!

[einsatzzz]

been a while ✌️ ive been inactive since my health hasn't been so good, so i'm unable to keep up with a LOT of things right now (even though i want to!! i miss yapping abt ocs!! 😭😭) also, january is my work's busiest busy season, so yeah i needed to lock in with the little energy i have.

anyway, the last few weeks, i've become even more low energy even if i'm actively trying to switch to a healthier lifestyle. i'm consuming significantly less to barely any sugar and avoid inflammatory foods when i can. ive been walking 0.5-1km on the walkpad and doing daily stretches too. i've also been taking supplements to balance my hormones. isn't that just strange????? i'm trying to be healthy but end up even worse????

for every little/few things that i do, i'd be so tired i'll need to lie down and nap (or i'll risk it getting worse). the constant body pain is affecting me even more than i can usually tolerate and it's seeping into my work efficiency too. honestly, wtv this bitchass illness is, it can seep into my hobbies but work is the last straw!!! i need my money, i love financial security while being able to fund my delusions, i don't want to underperform in my job. my usual meds don't seem to be working anymore too, be it paracetamol, ibuprofen or tylenol. salonpas, oils or heat pads are also not working.

fortunately, i've been able to recently consult with a psychologist/therapist and an internist (finding this internist took some time! the ones before i found this one cancelled on me 😅). all of them are online consultations thankfully, so i won't have to go outside for it and suffer from painful wait times. but what i do have to go outside for is the handful of lab tests that i need to do dshfvghvfd

i can go tomorrow, but my health insurance expired so i still gotta take care of the renewal for it this week if i wanna save money (and pay the premium...not installment btw...). or maybe i can just say fuck it we ball and go???? im so desperate to have some form of relief from these physical symptoms at least.

the doctor did prescribe me new pain meds. i'm gonna have it delivered today, i hope it works (please please please).

the bottomline is that i can make therapist jokes now. my therapist will be hearing all the yapping that i've done in this post, that's all thank, bless. i might start playing la/ds soon too, i need my otoge emotional support. and yes, despite everything, i'm still somehow making slow and steady progress with my projects yippeeee

[hellenar-ts]

i made this meme in a blind rage

[wanologic]

sorry danny, sam will never think you’re cool

[artkaninchenbau]

A h-heartfelt reunion..?

Bonus

[corvid-khaos]

fionna and cake but simon drops increasingly wild anecdotes about his life

[foolsocracy]

put dick on a team and trust he will make sure they can perform as an acrobat troop

[transthatfag]

destiel forehead healing kiss. what more could u want.

[saragrosie]

Sketching while streaming s5...

Jonathan Sims I will learn to draw you (this is my doing. I could draw him however I want and I choose to stick with an image of him in my brain that is difficult for me to draw. Masochism.)

Not s5 Mahtins below I enjoyed drawing cuz hes neat:

(Edit: I yassified Martin in the do not separate cuz I wanted his hair fluffier)

[soapbbox]

Elsewhere:

Part 1

Even apart they’re still facing the same struggles 😔 Not that they’re thinking about each other or anything. Why would you suggest that.

[bioshzrd]

this random ass guy who’s entire bit is that he can move like this is the only good wesker fan ever

[gayrika]

eye doctors: please for fucks sake try to protect your eyes from blue light pls take breaks from screens pls wear these blue light filter glasses pls pls pls im fucking begging you

car manufacturers:

i swear to god if another one of you motherfuckers go on abt how "blue light isnt actually that bad 🤓" i am going to block your stupid ass this post has over 30k notes theres no way you think ur first goddamn person to say it shut uuuup i do not give a shit

[tariah23]

[tubesock86]

my comfort characters for real

[solidgases]

you're more likely to know your killer than not

CHRISTMAS TRUCE GOES WRONG!!! (((NOT CLICKBAIT)))

[egophiliac]

we were fucking ROBBED

[fishofthewoods]

I see a lot of people clowning on the people of Pelican Town for not repairing the community center themselves or clowning on Lewis for embezzling and. like. Those criticisms aren't entirely unfair. But I think instead of coming at it from a perspective of "why can't the townspeople do this" we should be asking "why and how can the farmer do this?"

Like. Think about it. The farmer arrives in Stardew Valley on the first day of spring. By the first day they're obviously different. By day five the spirits of the forest who haven't been seen by the townsfolk in years or generations are speaking to them. By the second week they've developed a rapport with the wizard that lives outside town.

In the spring they go foraging and find more than even Linus, who's spent so many years learning the ways of the valley. Maybe he knows, when he sees them walking back home. Maybe he looks at them and understands that they're different, chosen somehow.

In the summer they fish in the lakes and the ocean for hours on end, catching fish that even Willy's only ever heard of, fish that he thought were the stuff of legend. They pull up giants from the deep and mutated monstrosities from the sewers.

In the fall, their crops grow incredibly immense; pumpkins twice as tall as a person, big enough that someone could live inside. The farmer cuts it down with an axe without even batting an eye. Does Lewis wonder, when he checks the collection bin that night and finds it full to the brim with pumpkin flesh? What does he think? Does he even leave the money? Does he have the funds to pay the farmer millions of dollars for the massive amounts of wine they sell? Or is it someone--something--else entirely?

In the winter, the farmer delves into the mines. No one in Pelican Town has been down there in decades. No one in living memory has been to the bottom. The farmer gets there within the season. They return to the surface with stories of dwarven ruins and shadow people, stories they only tell to Vincent and Jas, whose retellings will be dismissed by the adults as flights of fancy. People walking by the entrance to the mines sometimes hear the farmer in there, speaking in a language no one can understand. Something speaks back.

The farmer speaks to the the wizard. They speak to the spirit of a bear inside a centuries-old stone. They speak to the shadow people and the dwarves, ancient enemies, and they try to mend the rift. They speak to the Junimos, ancient spirits of the forest and the river and the mountain. They taste the nectar of the stardrops and speak to the valley itself. They change Pelican Town, and they change the valley. Things are waking up.

And what does Evelyn think? She's the oldest person in the valley; she was here when the farmer's grandfather was young. (How old *is* she, anyway? She never seems to age. She doesn't remember the year she was born.) Does she see the farmer and think of their grandfather? Does she try to remember if he was like this too, strange and wild and given the gifts of the forest?

And does their grandfather haunt the valley? He haunts the farm, still there even after his death; his body died somewhere else, but his spirit could never stay away for long. Does Abigail, using her ouija board on a stormy night, almost drop the planchette when she realizes it's moving on its own? Does Shane, walking to work long before anyone else leaves their house, catch glimpses of a wispy figure floating through the town? Does the farmer know their grandfather came back to the place they both love so much?

Mr. Qi takes interest in the farmer. He's different, too; in a different way, maybe, but the principles are the same. They're both exceptional, and no matter what Qi says about it being hard work and dedication, they both know the truth: the world bends around the both of them, changing to fit their needs. Most people aren't visited by fairies or witches. Most people don't have meteorites crash in their yard. Most people couldn't chop down trees all day without a break or speak to bears and mice and frogs.

The farmer is different. The rules of the world don't work for them the way they work for everyone else. The farmer goes fishing and finds the stuff of fairy tales. The farmer goes mining and fights shadow beasts and flying snakes. The farmer looks at paths the townspeople walk every day and finds buried in the dirt relics of lost civilizations.

The farmer is a violent, irrepressible miracle, chosen by the valley and destined to return to it someday. Even if they'd never received the letter, they would've come home.

They always come home eventually.