#this shit bothers me so much

[cistematicchaos]

I don't know if it's just me, but it's actually really scary for me going out for doctor appointments and knowing that even if people don't guess I'm autistic, it's hit or miss whether they're going to treat me badly because of it. I get doctors who mock me for not understanding their questions or orders, I get nurses who're weird to me if I accidentally stim, doctors who decide to treat me like I'm not even in the room if I don't make enough eye contact...

Once I got a nurse who, after I misunderstood what he said twice, forgot to make eye contact and stimmed a couple times, decided I wasn't even worth talking to anymore and when I told the other nurse I was scared to get the IV because I'm terrified of needles, he pinned me down to put the IV in and then walked out without saying a word even though I was crying my head off because he scared the fuck out of me. I still have a scar on my arm from it.

I literally try so fucking hard for people not to notice because I KNOW they don't treat me well if I show signs I'm autistic but I just CANNOT mask well enough to hide it and it's literally terrifying. I have no clue how each doctor and nurse is going to treat me and my autism directly impacts that. These people hold so much power over me and there's literally nothing I can do about it. And I'd bet most of these people don't even know I'm autistic, they're just hardwired to be shitty to people who show signs of it, especially being in the medical industry where they push that really hard.

If I don't make enough eye contact, I'm either not paying attention or lying (or both!), if I stim I'm either anxious(because i'm lying?) or mentally ill enough they can write that off as probably being the Actual Issue (😐 even if the 'issue' is PHYSICAL PAIN), if I dont understand the questions, it's either because I'm not paying attention (which means I'm probably lying because if this were serious, I'd be paying attention) or because I'm stupid (This is a quote actually, from a doctor. He said if i was stupid enough I didn't understand the questions, I should stay at home until I figure out social interactions.), the list goes on and on and it's genuinely a fucking nightmare. Especially because I'm not white, I do not get any benefit of the doubt at all if my doctors/nurses are white and it just sucks.

[sweatandwoe]

Tumblr truly is the best social media platform because when I unfollow someone I don't get their blog brought up on my dash unless someone reblogs it

Twitter on the other hand with the account I just unfollowed

Please stop recommending me accounts I unfollowed

[wizard-mp4]

MURDER MURDER KILL KILL KILL

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[a-dope-fiend]

It irritates me alot when people say that making medic more compassionate is ''missing the point of his character'' when he is literally shown to be in the comics.... did you miss the part where he showed concern for both sniper and miss pauling's well being in comic 5 and 6.

His actions are a combination of genuine attachment + clinical interest and these things do not cancel out one another. He is always pushing boundaries and going against the grain and i think this is what led to him losing his license in the first place. He felt stifled by the rules imposed on him.

He is shown to be extremely passionate so it makes sense that he would use his endless fascination with medicine as a way to show his affection. He loves his friends so he will find a way to make them borderline indestructible. Malpractice is his love language.

[arachnerd-8-legs]

really disappointing that bunjywunjy had to be pestered twice just to quietly remove their reblog after using their huge platform to encourage garbage like raving about the lesbian estonian soviet flag and how 'new pride flag just dropped' so people could go 'ooh pretty' about a flag that was forced onto us by ppl who wanted our culture gone and oppressed us for about a century in total if not more.

to say nothing or not show anything of the truth about that flag and quietly remove the reblog felt more like it was done out of obligation (and you didn't agree) rather than care for the subject matter that is still a fresh wound in our country's memory. it's only been 33 years since it ended.

I'd rather you make the mistake about something you didn't know (eastern european history is easy for westeners to overlook, because we're not a big country like them, we're not england or france or spain or germany) and admit/apologize for said mistake or even just outright state that you don't actually care rather than say nothing and quietly remove something so that people would stop talking about it

[thejasontoddarchives]

Gotham War is really playing out like God’s plan, ain’t it now

Task Force Z #4 (2022)

[lord-squiggletits]

One of my favorite parts of phase 2 (and indeed one of the few moments I resonated with IDW Prowl) was when the neutrals were coming back to Cybertron and Prowl said that he refused to let Autobots be pushed aside and overruled after they were the ones who fought for freedom for 4 million years (the exact wording escapes me atm).

And I mean, that resentment still holds true even once the colonists come on bc like. As much as it's true that Cybertron's culture is fucked up, and as funny as it can be to paint Cybertronians as a bunch of weirdos who consider trying to kill someone as a common greeting not important enough to hold a grudge over.... The colonists POV kind of pissed me off a lot of times, as did the narrative tone/implications that Cybertronians are forever warlike and doomed to die by their own hands bc it just strikes me as an extremely judgemental and unsympathetic way to deal with a huge group of people with massive war PTSD and political/social tensions that were rampant even before the war?

Like, imagine living in a society rife with bigotry and discrimination where you get locked into certain occupations and social strata based on how you were born. The political tension is so bad there's a string of assassinations of politicians and leaders. The whole planet erupts into an outright war that leads (even unintentionally) to famine and chemical/biological warfare that destroys your planet. Both sides of the war are so entrenched in their pre-war sides and resentment for each other that this war lasts 4 million years and you don't even have a home planet any more. Then your home planet gets restored and a bunch of sheltered fucks come home and go "ewww why are you so violent?? You're a bunch of freaks just go live in the wilderness so that our home can belong to The Pure People Who Weren't Stupid And Evil Enough To Be Trapped In War" and then a bunch of colonists from places that know nothing about your history go "lol you people are so weird?? 🤣🤣 I don't get why y'all are fighting can't you just like, stop??? Oh okay you people are just fucked up and evil and stupid then" ((their planets are based on colonialism where their Primes wiped out the native populations btw whereas the Autobots and OP in particular fought to save organics. But that never gets brought up as a point in their favor)) as if the damage of a lifetime of war and a society that was broken even before the war can just magically go away now that the war is over.

Prowl fucking sucks but he was basically the only person that pointed out the injustice of that.

And then from then on out most of the characters from other colonies like Caminus and wherever else are going "i fucking hate you and your conflicts" w/ people like literal-nobody Slide and various Camiens getting to just sit there lecturing Optimus about how Cybertronians are too violent for their own good and how their conflicts are stupid, with only brief sympathetic moments where the Cybertronians get to be recognized as their own ppl who deserve sympathy before going right back to being lambasted.

Like I literally struggled to enjoy the story at multiple points because there was only so much I could take of the characters I knew and loved being raked over coals constantly while barely getting to defend themselves or be defended by the narrative so like. It was just fucking depressing and a little infuriating to read exRID/OP

[musicalmoritz]

It’s totally fine to dislike ships but I will never understand how some ppl make it their entire personality. You can’t ALL be the “#1 skk hater”

[fernsnailz]

What Gundams are you building?

ok so technically i LIED i'm actually building Eva Unit 02, not necessarily a gundam lol

i'm very new to model kits (the only other kit i've done is the Tanjiro Demon Slayer one that's in like every Target lol), but this has been very fun so far! i need to get some better sanding materials though, the little plastic bits are bothering me. also i need to build her other leg and arms but tbh this is still pretty show accurate since Unit 02 gets destroyed like every other episode LMAO

but yea i got this guy as a little gift for myself on valentine's day :] i love how the Evas are designed and actually building one is crazy cool, i'm so impressed as to how poseable it is and it's fascinating to see how everything fits together. i definitely want to build Unit 01 after this but these things are. expensive 💀

[spookberry]

Theres this weird ass trend on tiktok of people drawing crack ships to a song from that jesus movie. I get so irrationally mad when people use it in this trend cuz the lyrics are like person A sings "i could never love another :)" followed by person b singing "maybe one day i could learn to love you too..." and im like dang thats sad as fuck but ALL of the ships drawn in this trend are just happily smiling to eachother???? Like that is not a happy line

Maybe im just a lesbian who has experienced comphet as well as the soul crushing feeling of being an asexual trying to date an allo but "maybe one day i could learn to love you..." is like the saddest thing Ive ever fuckin heard and is not in fact romantic??????

[wesslan]

”they wouldn’t do that!” in this fic they would!

”they wouldn’t say that!” in this fic they would!

”that’s so unrealistic!” this is a work of fiction!

”why don’t they just do x? that way the problem would have been solved.” because i didn’t want them to solve the problem that way!

”that’s not how that works in the real world!” this is not the real world. it’s ao3.com.

”wrong. in canon they actually-” this is tagged non-canon-compliant. so i actually don’t care!

”any person in their situation would do x instead!” this is a fictional character in a fictional setting with a fictional mind that i am putting a fictional scenario.

hope this helps!❤️

[lilchaoswitch]

I wish dating Sim games/otome games or whatever were gender neutral or you got the ability to choose your pronouns like in The Arcana :( I know gay guys who play dating sims is a small demographic but please please pleasepleaseplease just let me pick my pronouns so I can immerse myself in the Anime Men Romance Simulator without feeling dysphoric 🥲

[stuckinapril]

I’m finally biting the bullet and contacting a therapist today after being ambivalent ab it for so long… this hellsite has its many disadvantages but one thing I can say is it has truly helped me be less scared of pursuing therapy. Silver lining etc etc

[storm-of-feathers]

i hope parents who make cleaning a punishment and/or scream at their children for not cleaning "right" know that they only set their children up for failure when it comes to being able to routinely clean.

[druidonity2]

King

[oceanwithouthermoon]

sometimes i think about how the people who hate on my takes on here would talk to each other and its always phrased like the twitter fandom drama i see but completely irrational and it makes me giggle

"calling kusuke abusive just because he shot his brother with a lethal weapon, plotted his murder, planned to use their grandparents to assist in hurting/killing him, and tried for years to expose his secret to the entire world against his will and through knowingly hurtful means in order to destroy everything he cared about is so stupid! what a stretch!"

"the saiki k fandom is so damn sensitive. i shoot my brother with massive guns all the time and its not abusive because he just blocks it!" HELPEKSJJSJSKSKKS