#this shit Fucking Sucks

[khaire-traveler]

***CW: Transphobia mentions, in regards to close family***

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Gotta say, one of the worst parts of distancing myself from an incredibly transphobic family member who just "loves" me SO much and refuses to view me any other way outside of my "true (old) self" because "You found Jesus once, and you'll do it again!" is the fact that I now get to miss out entirely on the lives of my niece and nephew who are too young to ever remember I even existed and who will be taught that the way I live my life (embracing who I am, rather than shaming it) is wrong and bad and sinful, and I'll be going to hell. Gods, honestly, it's depressing. It makes me incredibly sad, and frankly, I don't know what to do because NO ONE in my close family has my back. NO ONE. The transphobic person is my literal brother, but still, I'm the one in the wrong for not "sucking it up" and "sweeping it under the rug". I'm the one in the wrong for not pretending everything is ok and comfortable and as if he didn't yell at me about how ridiculous, manipulative, and wrong I am for about an hour when I tried to have a reasonable conversation with him (literally told him that I'm not trying to change his views, I just wanted him to respect my pronouns, as I didn't want a big conflict about it at that point, and he goes, "By asking me to respect you, you're trying to change my views"). Sure, it's all my fault, and now, I get to never be involved in the lives of my niece and nephew who will never know me as "Uncle Stag" and will only know me as "Stag" (they didn't even bother giving me a title, even before we had a falling out). I'm not my brother's sibling; I'm a fucking stranger.

[engagemythrusters]

I’m going to be very upset about this for quite a while

[zeddylux]

Did anyone else forgot who they were and what their blog was about during this month 😅

[passinnotesinsecrecy]

why am i crying over a man rn

[aliceinmadnessland]

So fucking tired of working from Monday to Saturday and barely having time for myself to do the things I enjoy.

[lxst-in-thxxghts]

I’m going fucking insane holy shit

I swear I’m not a freak please talk to me 😭

[e1dritchqueer]

i hate recovery!!!

[chaosdisorganized]

I think it goes without saying that we've been struggling so so much. Our ptsd symptoms have increased quite a bit. We've uncovered some repressed memories and that's been super tough and painful and some of us have been having a harder time with it than others. The icing on the cake being seasonal affective disorder, trauma anniversaries from the season/holidays, and a terrible visit to my parents that proved to me dysfunction and abuse are still very much going on. We've been terribly depressed. I'll be lucky to make it out alive.

[sunnibits]

somehow it’s already a bad chronic fatigue day today. fucking hell.

[theratmans-stuff]

love logging in to tumblr on smartphone

@staff

[cathartidae]

i think im really lonely again

[twinknote]

i think. i may die

[acesofspade]

chronic pain can take a long walk off a short pier

[platinum-iridium]

i’m literally watching the wage gap develop between me and my coworkers in real time

[bisexualadamparrish]

Also can I say, as a Floridian, that this is how that ammendment was worded on the ballot??? So anyone who went in kind of unaware or unsure was met with this horribly biased explanation.

just wanted to say that i'm seeing headlines everywhere say "floridians rejected an amendment to secure abortion rights" and that is NOT TRUE.

we voted ~57% to enshrine abortion rights in the florida constitution. amendments for our state require a supermajority, aka 60% to pass. this is bullshit and we were set up to fail.

the entire time, our governor Ron Desantis' officials were pressuring and threatening media outlets for publishing anything supporting this amendment.

don't believe the bullshit headlines. floridians wanted abortion rights.

[russersprouts]

I MISS MY EX