#this post brought to you by... mental illness

[cloudyrainyspring]

I want to play the devils advocate here for a bit, because I don’t think that the reason why Robby was prioritizing David was specifically misogyny, but the circumstance and evidence that he was presented with. 1) David’s mom poisoned herself to get to the ER, which is in most cases a sign of severe mental disorder (and it’s weird that it wasn’t mentioned at all, BUT I am not usaamerican, I am in fact from a country where school shootings are rare, but parental abuse is very common, so I definitely have a completely different cultural mindset here, but I do have a major in psych and uh, well here she would have been the one to be examined by the psych department, not David, and so I know that we have literally extremely different backgrounds, but red flag anyways), 2) David’s mom didn’t try to talk privately to the doctors when she got to the ER, she only brought it up when she was found out (red flag!!), 3) she didn’t show the list (red flag!!!). None of these are the steps that a present parent is going to take if they suspect their son of being violent to women. She didn’t even call the school psychologist. She didn’t even remember the names of the girls! All this while David presented himself as a severely depressed teenager, but not a violent one.

So personally, I want to cut Robby some slack. I think Robby has a holier-than-thou attitude that affected the way he spoke to McKay negatively (and also the way he spoke to Mohan, and Jake, and Langdon, and I would argue Whitaker, too, but Whitaker is very thick-skinned), and I think that he was also quite passive in the case of David, but he definitely wasn’t prioritizing David’s quality of life over some list that was maybe written and was never shown. He saw a vulnerable, visibly depressed teenager with a mom that is probably mentally ill and both of them definitely needed his help. They were his patients, not the girls on a list that was not shown to him.

McKay is correct that Robby doesn’t think about the girls, and she is right to call that out. But! She herself is shown to be prejudiced, she is never shown to care that David wrote suicidal notes, calls him incel and not by his name repeatedly and doesn’t care about him until she is forced to be in the same room with him, while he is crying for his mom, handcuffed. Which would have been fine and cool and justified if she didn’t work in the ER. If you think that it’s ok (my opinion: it’s not for a person who works in ER, but it IS perfectly fine for a person who does not work in a medical sphere though), please remember that we are literally shown her releasing a post-partum woman because she was fat and nearly killing her because of that. She is a forty year old doctor who is going around calling a high schooler “the incel”. Like that’s bonkers. She was also prejudiced.

Anyway, it’s a very difficult situation, and I am sort of displeased with the way it was written (like WHY did they make his mom poison herself and never made a comment that that literally never happens unless the person isn’t mentally stable). Again, I am not from USA, and school shootings are not a problem here, so my reading of the situation was that David’s mom was having a psychotic break and David was acting erraticly because of that. I was very surprised that it wasn’t the plotline. I’m not sure that it’s entirely because of misogyny.

The realism of Robby being a little bit of an unintentional misogynist is so, so important to me. Like he is a good boss and a great teacher, he is friends with women and works with women and teaches women and respects women greatly. And yet—it’s Langdon, and then Whitaker, who Robby adopts as his mentees. It’s David, not the girls on the kill list, who Robby prioritizes care for. It’s the dad accused of grooming his daughter who Robby refuses to report, while informing the authorities about the mother drugging him without a second thought. He reams Langdon out for berating Santos, but doesn’t check in on Santos until Langdon refuses to let it go and Robby becomes suspicious of there being an actual problem.

And obviously we are seeing Robby on the worst day of life, and maybe even calling him a “little bit of a misogynist” is a bit too much because he’s not, really. But he does have ingrained biases and he does seem to only be able to fully see himself in and completely empathize with other men. And that is just. So true of even the nicest, kindest, most wonderful and feminist men I know.

[thelampisaflashlight]

Dew, walking into the living room: "Hey, cosmic twink, can you, like, send me the title of the video you wanted me to watch instead of the link?" Aeon, confused: "Huh? But the link brings you directly to the video." Dew: "I know, I know, just humor me here, okay?" Aeon, typing out the name, sends it: "Better?" Dew, leaving the room: "Much." Aeon, looking at Rain: "I don't get it." Rain, shrugging: "Dew has this thing where he doesn't like receiving links, blame being a computer geek for so long, he'd rather find things on his own or something... I dunno." -stretches- "He won't even use the smart speaker in the kitchen. He keeps trying to throw it out." Dew, from down the hallway: "IT'S AN ANGEL SENT FROM HEAVEN TO SPY ON US!" Aeon: "...I feel like I've heard that before, but, like, about us." Rain: "He does say that a lot-"

[morganbritton132]

AU where Eddie cracks his head off the ground and temporarily gets mind reading powers. He goes to school the next day thinking that this might actually be fun, and it is for a while.

And then he hears bloodcurdling screaming - except only he hears it so, “That’s in someone’s head?”

He follows the sound out down the hall, pass his own classroom. The screaming getting louder and louder until, “Steve Harrington?”

“Yeah?” Steve blinks back into reality in the back of his history class. The screaming dims but doesn’t go away. Steve’s still got those bruises on his face but otherwise doesn’t look distressed, “…You want something, Munson?”

“Um…um, no,” He says. “I - no. Nothing.”

Steve narrows his eyes and a whisper of a voice just under the screaming thinks Eddie is fucking with him.

Eddie barely acknowledges it because he’s stuck on how Steve looks normal. Not anguished. Not tortured. But normal. Bored.

“Well, uh. Well, I’ll see you around, Harrington.”

And Eddie means that too.

[gaylordthethird]

So... your telling me there are people who are just, completely fine???

Not in any pain, not in any discomfort. Not overwhelmed, not anxious. No intrusive thoughts or imposter syndrome?

Just fine????

Not even any allergies?????

[slavhew]

Beach episode

[oodlenoodleroodle]

Pretty much every mental health issue has a diagnostic criteria of "disrupts daily living" or something to that effect. There is often also a time length criteria.

"Everyone has obsessive thoughts sometimes" – but not everyone's lives are disrupted by them, therefore they do not have obsessive thoughts in the sense that we use the word to talk about a mental health problem.

"Everyone is depressed sometimes" – I really don't believe that every single person has felt a persistent low mood for weeks or months. It's normal for your mood to go up and down but the very thing that characterises depression is that it doesn't go up for a long time.

"Everyone gets anxious" – yes but not everyone has anxiety, which is a mental health problem defined by their anxious feelings disrupting their life. Everyone feels anxious but most people don't therefore stay home instead of going to do something they really really want to do.

"Everyone is traumatised" – everyone has experienced bad things in life, but not everyone gets traumatised by their experiences. It is a complicated system that causes some people to be traumatised and not others – even by the same event! People can be in the same event and one gets traumatised and another doesn't! I have had bad things happen in my life but I don't have to drag those things around me at all times the way traumatised people do, and therefore I am able to do things that traumatised people can't, I am able to live my life in a way traumatised people aren't.

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If someone tries to dismiss your mental health issues by saying "everyone" has it, please know that they are wrong. Either they are using the word wrong, or they just straight up are wrong. If 20% of the population has the same illness, that is an enormous amount of people and really significant in terms of public health – but it is so so far from "everyone." It is still a minority. It is not "normal" to have that illness.

Mental illnesses are disabling. People who don't have them don't have that experience of being disabled by a mental illness and therefore it will be difficult for them to understand what it's like to be disabled by a mental illness.

[akuma-tenshi]

there are some characters where i look at them and go "i don't want anything bad to happen to them ever" and others where i look at them and go "i need them to suffer so fucking much until they b r e a k" and there's no telling which is which until you talk to me about them

[racxnteur]

Me at 2-3am, having slept approximately only 1h last night (…/day), yawning: Hmmm. I could go to sleep before dawn for once, or perhaps read a bit of that fic I have been meaning to keep up on.

Me, 50min later, accidentally ruminating on vampires instead: OR…………. I could spend the next five hours & notable craft mess on creating a couple of assemble-able little clay puppet dolls, for the sole purpose of having better anatomical and positional clarity when playing out ephemeral little scenes between fictional little fool men inside my mind 🤔

(Three guesses which option won, and the second two don’t count)

[sunnwalker]

hii heres a doo doo dogshit colored pencil sketch of a very special he/they (body double oc that i have been sitting on and thinking about for a while ). Their name is Thomas ( i ❤️ biblical names)

annnnnnd this song fits him well i think :)

[angelkittycore]

intrusive thoughts are the most vilified mental illness symptom ever. forget about splitting and whatever. people look at you funny if you ever mention "yeah i have unwanted thoughts pop into my head that disgust and horrify me like how easy it would be to crush a cats neck" and all they hear is the latter half of that sentence and act like you're a psychopathic serial killer or something Xd

[the-maddened-hatter]

I've seen less than 5 episodes of Dungeon Meshi, but Senshi's power is so strong that through that and some Tumblr posts I still think "Senshi would be so proud!" sometimes when I put in just a *little* more effort and have a more balanced meal than I immediately feel up to putting in. Like even just having a fruit with some chips or something when I'm like "but I'd have to wash the grapes and I'm tired :( " He'll pop into my head and I'll be able to get myself to do it

[burnoutventaccount]

Some days everything feels normal and fine to the point where you gaslight yourself into thinking 'it wasnt that bad'

And others you're shaking as you try to convince yourself to eat because you need to eat and you're hearing echos of things people who have long since left you life said to you and you feel like a goddamn angsty novel character.

[legallydistinctloolooland]

Niffty & Angel & Husk all having misophonia, none of them having the words to describe & address it, & ALL of them bothered by the sounds the others are making to cope.

[discountdyke]

interesting to me that ocpd online communities seem so obsessed with the idea of egosyntonic and egodystonic? like thats just a way to look at or categorize mental illness. i see ppl saying over and over again that the only real difference between ocd and ocpd is that ocd is egodystonic and ocpd is egosyntonic. but what ppl dont seem to realize is like, personality disorders in general are seen as egosyntonic, not just ocpd. 

and what all that really means is just that ppl with personality disorders generally dont realize that it’s their behavior thats causing a lot of their problems. it doesnt necessarily mean that everyone is actually super happy with their behaviors and sees them as 100% rational all the time and it doesnt mean that if you get frustrated with your symptoms then you cant really have that problem, because if you really had it, you wouldn’t notice anything was wrong.

imo its a really bad way to look at your own mental illness, bc with PDs especially we want to become more aware of our choices, behaviors, and thinking patterns so that we can make more informed decisions rather than what comes naturally to us. not trap ourselves into thinking that we can never change our behavior or heal over time.

the thing about ocpd is that in capitalist societies it can come across as advantageous. people are often praised for being hard working, caring about detail, being organized, taking on lots of other responsibilities, etc. its very easy to ignore the complications these traits cause when we’re achieving success with them even at our own detriment. 

so i can see why looking at ocpd through the lens of egosyntonic makes sense - its really easy to think these traits are helping you when they actually arent. but in the grand scheme of things that label is just....not important for healing, managing symptoms, or really even explaining the disorder. 

[alkemylabz]

(remembers literally anything i did when i was 19)

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

Anti-hero scratches like every itch in my brain it is the perfect pop song