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ANDREW GARFIELD & FLORENCE PUGH
at the Valentino Womenswear Spring/Summer 2024 after party as part of Paris Fashion Week 2023, in Paris, France.
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What's Eating You, Mr. Barber?
Summary: You decide to test your man's patience with a prank you saw on TikTok. CLICK HERE to check out Ari Levinson's reaction to the same prompt.
Warnings: Mature Themes, References to Smut, Andrew Barber Being A Menace, Brat!Reader, TikTok Hijinks, Bickering, Manhandling, Ass Slapping, Daddy Kink, Allusions to Oral Sex, Cursing, Minors DNI
A/N: Prompt brought to you courtesy of a Reader Request. This fic features Andrew Barber from my Growing Pains Series. Semi-proofread, not beta'd. All mistakes are my own. Likes, comments, and reblogs are always appreciated. Thanks for reading!
Itâs hard for you to put into words just how much you love playing pranks on your unsuspecting husband. And after downloading TikTok, youâd discovered that the app was home to an online treasure trove of practical jokes designed to make your loved oneâs head spin. While it had taken a few days for you to settle on the right prank, you were pretty confident that the one youâd chosen would earn you a fun reaction from Andy without you having to risk your ass in the process.Â
You find yourself grinning as you take your time prepping dinner, humming a little tune as you peel and press even more fresh garlic for your homemade tomato sauce. Tonightâs family dinner of spaghetti and meatballs promised to be very interesting. Which was why youâd also taken the liberty of setting up two hidden cameras â one in the dining room and one right here in your kitchen.Â
As of now, you had no plans to post this on your channel. But you also didnât want to miss a minute of your manâs reaction. Until then all you had to do was play it cool for a couple more hours.
Later that EveningâŚ
âBaby Girl, are you sure you donât need any help?â Your husband asks after watching you make what easily had to be your third trip from the kitchen into the dining room.Â
Any other night you wouldâve said yes, but not this one. Tonight you were flying solo. The cameras were already on and recording â youâd taken care of that before youâd started setting the table â and so far Andy hadnât noticed a thing.
Hopefully youâd be able to keep it that way until it was time for the big reveal.Â
âNo thanks, Big Man. This Mama only has to make one more trip and then weâll be ready to eat.â You tell him before sitting two plates on the table in front of your two youngest children. You were down a kid tonight thanks to your oldest, Bianca, being away at a sleepover. Â
Andy nods before leaning over to adjust the small hand towel youâd previously tucked into the front of your three-year-old sonâs t-shirt. Not that it really mattered all that much since you were positive heâd be swimming in sauce before the meal was over. But what kind of mother would you be if you didnât at least try?
Biting your lip in anticipation, you scamper back into the kitchen to grab dinner for you and your husband. Andyâs plate was piled high with a generous serving of spaghetti and meatballs. Meanwhile, you give yourself hardly any.Â
And therein was the so-called prank. Earlier this week, youâd spent the better part of several hours gleefully watching as dozens of girlfriends and wives proceeded to serve their man impressive looking portions before sitting next to them with virtually empty plates for themselves. Many of the reactions had ranged from hilarious to heartwarming, with only a few dickish exceptions.Â
Glancing over your shoulder to ensure you werenât being watched, you pick up various pans and quietly place them in your oven and out of sight. For this to actually work, Andy would have to believe that there wasnât enough for seconds or leftovers. Once thatâs done, you square your shoulders and confidently march back into the dining room with dishes in hand.Â
âI���m back.â You announce, placing a piping hot plate in front of Andy before taking your own seat at the table. âI tried something different with my sauce this time, so everybody dig in and tell me what you think.âÂ
Andy absentmindedly rubs his palms together as he stares down at the fragrant heap of spaghetti before him. Silently, you will him to look over at what youâd served yourself, but you force yourself to remain quiet so as not to give yourself away.Â
âThis smells amazing, sweetheart.â Your husband tells you, reaching for a piece of garlic bread. âIâve been excited for this meal since you told me you texted me at 10:00am.â
âGlad to hear it, Daddyâ You pick up the little bowl of parmesan youâd set out and hand it to your middle daughter, Katrina. âWhat does everybody else think?â
You take a brief glance around the table while you wait for feedback. And although you make a point of not looking at your husband, itâs impossible to miss the way heâs now staring at your nearly empty plate.
âOoh.â You inwardly squeal, stopping just short of clapping your hands. âItâs starting!âÂ
âWhatâs up with this?â His tone is rife with confusion, which only grows when you decide to ignore him in favor of dipping a small piece of bread into some sauce. âHey â stop!â
âWhat?â When you finally deign to return his gaze. You have to choke back a laugh as you watch a bewildered Andy comically gesture between your two plates.
âWhat the fuâfudge,â he swiftly corrects, âis going on with your plate?â
âWhat do you mean?â You aim to keep your tone light and breezy.
Your husband lets out a frustrated sigh. âWhereâs the rest of your food?â He jabs at your plate with his fork, holding up the half of a meatball youâd allowed yourself.
âThis was all that was left.â You tell him with a shrug.
âWhat the hell are you talking about?â His confusion continues to mount even as pauses long enough to grab a napkin to wipe at his sonâs increasingly messy fingers. âThere was plenty of spaghetti left on the stove.â While heâs occupied you quickly check on little Rory, who appears to be faring slightly better.
âNot really.âÂ
âBabyâŚâ Andy pins you with a knowing look, one that you readily return.
âWhat? IâŚâ You trail off, pretending to think. âAfter I realized BiBi wouldnât be here tonight, I made some adjustments to the recipe. Turns out I didnât make enough, soâŚâ Another shrug. âThis was all there was after I made everyone elseâs plates.âÂ
Andy is uncharacteristically quiet as leans back in his chair. Meanwhile, your children are busy staring at you, each of them sporting tiny, furrowed brows. Pursing your lips, you set your fork down on your plate and reach for your drink.Â
âYou can have some of mine, Mama.â KitCat offers before sweetly pushing her plate towards you. The unexpected gesture touches your heart in more ways than one. Not to be outdone, your three-year-old twins also follow suit.Â
âThatâs okay, babies. Iâm perfectly fine.â You reassure them, swallowing the lump in your throat. âBesides, this is all I need and ââ
âThanks kiddos.â Your husband kindly interrupts as he places his napkin on the table. âThat was very sweet of you, wanting to take care of your Mama like that.â His brilliant blue eyes beam with pride as he speaks. âBut Daddyâs got this one.âÂ
Youâre momentarily taken aback when he stands, picking up his plate as he does. And youâre even more surprised when he motions for you to do the same.
âCan I see you in the kitchen for a moment?â
âAndrew, sweetheart, itâs okay. I promise.â
âNow, please.â Itâs an order, that much you know. But at least your handsome ogre has enough sense to take on the word âpleaseâ at the end of it.     Â
âFine.â You huff before standing and following him out of the room, although not before encouraging your children to keep eating while youâre gone. Just because it was Friday doesnât mean it was time to dispense their normal bedtime routines.
You were only playing a prank, not embracing total anarchy.Â
Once in the kitchen, you each take up residence in opposing corners. But of course, youâre careful enough to avoid blocking the view of the camera.Â
âBaby Girl.â Andy exhales, his fingers coming up to pinch the bridge of his nose. âDo you really mean to tell me that thereâs no food left? You really made all that pasta and thereâs nothing?â
âYes, Andrew.â You lie without missing a beat. âI already told you. I trimmed down the recipe because ââ
âBecause Bianca is gone. Yes, I heard you.â He sets his dish down on the counter, openly scrutinizing it.Â
âSo then whatâs the problem?â You rest your back against your pantry while you wait for him to respond.Â
âThe problem â my problem ââ Andy is quick to amend, shaking his head. ââ is that you expect me to sit back and watch you starve while everyone else eats. And I donât like it.â He scrubs a weary hand over his beard. âHand me your plate, beautiful.â
âWhy?â Itâs impossible to keep the suspicion out of your voice.Â
âBecause I donât need all of this.â He grunts, taking the plate out of your hands when you donât comply fast enough. âIn fact, I donât need any of it. You eat and Iâll order myself a pizza after we put the kids down.â
âAndy!â You scoff, which comes out on the heels of a laugh.Â
âWhat?â The man is clearly confused by your dismissal of his offer. âI am capable of handling myself, okay? My hands work just fine.â He grates out, making a show of holding up a large, lightly calloused palm.
âBut IâŚI made that plate for you.â You were seconds away from caving and you both knew it.Â
âAnd Iâm telling you, my wonderful wife, that I want you to have it.â
âOh, you really donât have to ââ You begin, wrapping your arms around yourself. It was time to fess up.
âFine.â Andy breathes, taking a second to roll his broad shoulders. âThen weâll split it.â He reaches for your hand, pulling you into his warm embrace so that he can whisper in your ear. âAnd then, after we put the kids down, weâll order ourselves a pizza. Maybe open up a bottle of wine while we wait.â
âYeah?â You murmur, relaxing as you bury your face in his chest.Â
God, he always smelled so good. Â
âMhm.â He continues, nuzzling his nose against your curls. âAnd then, once weâre all giggly and buzzed, Iâll convince you to let me make love to you in front of the fireplace. We can even set up a booby trap so that we pretend like the children donât exist.â
âWow.â You canât stop the giggle that bubbles its way past your lps. âAndy Bear, that sounds amazing. But Iâm afraid I canât.â
âWhy the fuck not?â He rumbles as his brawny arms tighten around your smaller frame. You were pushing your District Attorney beyond his breaking point.
âBecause.â Squirming out of his hold, you dance your way towards the oven in preparation for the big reveal. Hopefully your husband would be a good sport about all of this.
âBecause?âÂ
âBecauseâŚâ You draw out the word, even as you go to open the oven to show him whatâs inside. âThereâs actually plenty of dinner leftover. See?â You throw your arms wide, but force yourself to stop just short of adding spirit fingers because you suspected he wouldnât appreciate it.
âBaby, I swearâŚâ Andy sighs, his hands slowly sinking into the pockets of his charcoal-colored slacks as he rocks back on his heels. Most likely to keep himself from strangling you, his lovely wife. âWhyâwhat would possess you to lie about something like this?â
âFirst off, sweetheart, itâs called a prank.â You bridge the gap between your bodies so that you can wrap your arms around his trim waist. âAnd secondly, I saw it on TikTok. Ever heard of it?âÂ
He glares down at you, which has you instinctively clenching your thighs together. Thatâs part of the reason you loved riling up your Big Man.
Being a brat got your motor running.Â
âI take it you have.â You stand on your tiptoes to kiss away his frown. âWell, I fell down the rabbit hole the other day while the kids were napping. Thereâs this whole, like, subsection thatâs just pranks. And the latest one involved these women pranking their guys by serving them a huge plate of food, and then pretending like thereâs nothing left for them to eat. The reactions were super entertaining, so I figured Iâd test it out, you know? Just for fun.â
You grace him with your most dazzling smile, but unfortunately, heâs still having none of it. His frown only deepens as he tilts his face up towards the ceiling in an effort to summon all of his remaining patience.Â
âAre you mad?â Your teeth sink into your bottom lip while you wait for his answer.
âYep.â
âCâmon, Andy Bear!â You pout before placing your hands on his biceps to give him a light shake.âWhereâs your sense of humor?â
âPretty sure I lost it the day you decided torturing me was your new favorite pastime.â He grumbles, although there doesnât appear to be any heat in his words. âIn fact, I have a feeling you just gave me several new grays.â
âOh, donât you dare blame me for those.â You tell him, playfully rolling your eyes at his dramatics. âIâll have you know that you came home with those. I spotted âem the moment you walked through the door.â Your sassy response earns you a sharp crack to your ass, making you wince.
âOw!âÂ
âBrat.â He grouses, even as he presses a sweet kiss to your nose.Â
âGuilty as charged.â You hum, weaving your arms around his neck. âBesides, I had a feeling you wouldnât let me starve.â
âNot sure itâs even possible to fail that challenge, Baby Girl. I mean, youâre my wife. My partner in crime. Did you really expect me to just let you go hungry?â
âYouâd be surprised.â You mutter, making a mental note to show him a few videos featuring some of the men whoâd actually failed the test. âBut thankfully you didnât. And neither did the kiddos. Which is why I will graciously allow you all to sleep inside tonight.â
You let out a tiny yelp when Andy suddenly grabs your ass with both hands, squeezing hard as he lifts you up. Unsure of what else to do, you immediately lock your legs around his waist. Right now you were just going along for the ride. Â
âNow is that any way to talk to Daddy?â Andy lovingly captures your mouth, lightly stroking his along the seam of your lips. âEspecially after you played such a mean trick?â His once clouded blue eyes are now filled with mischief.Â
âOh, Iâm not sorry. But if it helps, I am willing to delete the video.â Your husbandâs eyes go wide, letting you know that he hadnât even considered the prospect of being recorded. So you keep talking, hoping to distract him. âAnd I still wanna get you drunk and take advantage of you after we put the children down for the night.â You run your fingers through his neatly coiffed hair, lightly scratching at his scalp with your nail.
âI donât know if I should trust you.â He eyes you warily, making clear that he still hasnât quite recovered from your earlier betrayal.Â
âWhat ifâŚâ You lean in close, lightly nipping at his earlobe. âI could find it in my heart to apologize between then and now? How does that sound, Big Man?â
âI mean I might be interested.â Andy shrugs, gently setting you on the counter before bracing his muscled arms on either side of you. âOut of curiosity, just what kind of apology are we talking about?â He gazes at you with lust-filled eyes, eagerly anticipating your response.
âThe kind thatâs best offered while on my knees, wearing nothing but a flimsy pair of thigh highs and garters.â You know youâve got him when you hear him groan low in his throat. Â
âFucky, baby.â Your husband hisses, burying his face in the valley between your breasts as his imagination suddenly kicks into overdrive. âCan you be sorry enough to wear the heels too? You know the ones Iâm talking about.â
Oh. You knew exactly which ones he was talking about.
âI think so.â You murmur, stroking a tender hand along his back as he struggles to regain his composure.  Â
âThen weâve got ourselves a deal.â He grips your hips before kindly helping you down. âNow letâs go get those kids fed and off to bed.â Andy grabs your hand, tugging you behind him as you head back to the dining room to see about your babies.Â
âSlow down, Andrew.â You laugh as your legs scramble to keep up.Â
âNo can do, Baby Girl.â He grunts, picking up his pace. âDaddyâs really looking forward to that apology. So be sure to eat up becauseâŚâ He trails off when he comes face-to-face with his sauce covered little ones. â...Youâre gonna need all of your strength.â
âYou can count on it.â
END
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Grey Days
Hi everyone! Here is a little Hozier oneshot for today! Itâs a little sad, but mostly hurt/comfort. Did I write it after crying when I watched that interview he did where he spoke about his struggle with mental health? Yes. Obviously. I want to give him so many hugsâŚ
I hope you like it! Tell me what you think!
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Pairing: Hozier x fem!reader
Warnings: hurt/comfort, angst, mentions of depression
Summary : Andrew is used to feel low sometimes, he has been plagued by those periods for as long as he can remember. But if he usually solves his sadness by being alone, this time, the antidote to his pain might be you.
Word Count : 2671
Hozierâs Masterlist â Main Masterlist
There were days like this, where everything was grey for no reason.
The sky rolling with clouds, heavy with rain, threatening with thunder, for sure wasnât helping. But Andrew couldnât pretend that it was at fault. Nor was the season, spring was on the horizon after all. There were boughs staining the branches, the first flowers blooming, the air a little warmer, the wind calmer than the winter storm. The birds had been chirping all morning, even if they had quietened now, under the menace of rain. He should be happy. The sun was high this morning, he had gotten some work done at Alexâs, he had had a nice lunch with his parents. Nothing but positive things, in theory.
And yet Andrew could feel his skin crawling, the tears that threatened to rise and spill, the numbness that came with spleen. Christ, melancholy was such a bitch, sometimes.
It was a bad day, the voices in his head were louder than usual. Despite the distractions he couldnât keep them down. He kept on thinking about the pieces of songs he had recorded this morning with Alex, and on the spot they sounded good. Now, all he had left was doubt. For sure, none of it was good enough, and his lyrics were all over the place, and they didnât do the subject justice⌠the didnât do you justiceâŚ
He felt the burn in his eyes and the tightening in his throat again, his breathing grew more laboured, so he took a deep breath. He was driving, now was not the timeâŚ
And yet the thoughts were still there. As he entered his tiny town, the swirling of voices kept shouting.
Not good enoughâŚ
Donât know how to write a proper songâŚ
Got lucky with one song, will never be good enough againâŚ
ImposterâŚ
He entered his driveway, parked the car there. He didnât notice your car until he was turning his head towards the front door.
FuckâŚ
He wasnât in the mood for socialising, for pretending that everything was alright, for playing perfect boyfriendâŚ
Another person youâll end up disappointingâŚ
Another thing in your life you donât deserveâŚ
He closed his eyes for a moment, tried to shush the voices. Just voices. It was just his busy head being louder than usual.
He just needed to calm downâŚ
Damn, he should have called to cancel for tonight. You had a date night planned, you had told him you would come to his place early to start preparing dinner. You werenât living together but he had a change of keys to your place, and you had one to his. He didnât need to be home for you to come in.
Yesterday, Andrew was thinking about asking you to move in with him, to make a common home out of his large house.
Sheâd never say yes to you anywayâŚ
He clenched his jaw, until his teeth gritted.
Just voices. Just voices. He was okay, he was fineâŚ
It was just dinner, and it would be lovely. He loved you, he would have a great timeâŚ
He blinked his eyes open, brushed the wetness from his eyelashes.
Put on a brave face for her, come onâŚ
He released some of the tension across his jaw, finally let go of the steering wheel. The soreness in his fingers made him realise how tightly he had been holding it.
He had no strength left in his body to open the car door, but he did it anyway. He was kind of used to it, the falls that followed the heights. It hadnât happened in a long time. So bad, out of nowhere? Probably a year. Yeah, not long after the two of you started dating. It was pretty smooth after that. There were days when he didnât feel great, but he didnât feel terrible. With no energy left in his frame, no positive thoughts on his mind, no faith in himself, and no social battery either. Usually, when he felt like this, he simply locked himself up for a couple of days. The solitude usually helped. And now, he needed to be left alone, or at least he thought so. Besides, he would be in a terrible mood all evening, you would properly get tired of the sight and his sharp tone very quickly. And he didnât want to take it out on you, it wasnât fair, and he wouldnât. He wouldnât. He was too tired to be angry anyway.
He unlocked the front door, was welcomed by the smell of spices. It should have made him smile, but instead, his heart clenched.
He took off his shoes and jacket, slowly, too slowly. Any other day he would have hurried to join you.
Tonight, all he wanted was to be alone, to not talk to anyone, to get out of his clothes that felt like a burden too heavy to carry, and get under the covers, and lie there for the rest of the night, and maybe throughout tomorrow too.
Instead, he walked to his kitchen, nervously rubbing at his palms. God, he bet he looked terrible. He didnât have a hair tie, and his hair was frizzy with the humid air, and he felt so fucking ugly when he entered the room, knowing he looked like a mess in sweatpants and an old t-shirt when you looked stunning, the most beautiful woman he had ever seenâŚ
You didnât seem to notice, because when you saw him, you let out an excited gasp and hurried into his arms.
Why did the feeling of you in his embrace make him want to cry?
âHi, baby! How was your day?â
He cradled the back of your head in his large hand, gently, as if you could break under his touch. He rested his lips on the top of your head, took a deep breath of your shampoo, the scent so familiar, so soothing, so reassuringâŚ
He closed his eyes.
It lasted a couple of seconds, and then the voices were back.
One day sheâll see you canât make her happyâŚ
He pulled away.
âGood,â he answered elusively, forcing a smile, but he knew it was tight-lipped. âBusy.â
âDid you get some work done with Alex, then?â
âHmm⌠loads.â
âGood! You must be tired then, you can sit down, Iâm almost done!â
He looked at the meal you were making for the two of you. You had set up the table, had even lit up some candles. It was fucking nice, so damn romanticâŚ
âSmells amazing,â he complimented, but you seemed to notice that there was no light left in his voice. âGonna take a shower before joining you, okay?â
âSure! But⌠youâre okay, honey?â
Honey⌠HoneyâŚ
âYeah, just⌠tired. Long day. I wonât take long.â
You nodded, offering a smile and he did his best to give it back.
He thought the shower would help, but it didnât. He almost let the floodgates open while the warm water numbed his muscles, made his body feel like it wasnât there at all. He had even less strength as he walked out of the shower. But at least, now, he was wearing a shirt and black jeans, and he had tied his hair in a low bun, looking close to presentable. He was wearing his glasses, he didnât have the energy to put some contacts on.
When he entered the kitchen again, you had poured some red wine, were humming to a tune he didnât know, checking the cooking of your vegetables.
âAlmost done! Perfect timing!â you announced with pride.
âThank you for cooking tonight,â he let out in a breath.
He knew his shoulders were bent, he knew you had noticed the way he was trying to look as small as possible. He read it in your frown. He nervously rubbed at his collarbone, felt irritated now.
Sheâs doing all this for you, you canât get mad for nothing. Itâs not her fault, calm down.
He sat down, as you invited him to do so. You brought food a couple of minutes later, and he asked you about your day. But unlike any other day, it wasnât out of genuine curiosity and fondness; he simply didnât want to speak.
He had done a good job at playing pretend the rest of the day, but he had no energy left to keep the mask on. The cracks were all over his features, in every forced smile, in every glance, in every blinking of tears. Your food was delicious, he complimented you on it, forced himself to swallow it fully, even if he felt like he might throw up if he kept on eating.
âAndy?â
He looked up again, noticing all of a sudden that he hadnât paid attention to the conversation in a few minutes.
âHmm?â
âAre you going to tell me whatâs bothering you?â
You offered him a kind smile, reached for his hand across the table. An anchor, an intimate gesture of support.
His throat tightened, he couldnât find his voice.
âBaby⌠itâs just me. Why are you all closed up all of a sudden?â
He gave you a sad smile, although he had aimed for it to be reassuring.
âJustâŚâ
Just tired was the excuse, but then again, he didnât feel like lying now. Didnât have the strength for it. Maybe if he were honest now, youâd show him the voices were right, youâd realise what a loser he could be sometimes, how you should leaveâŚ
Shut! Up!
âItâs just⌠itâs just a bad day.â
âWhat happened?â
âNothing. I mean⌠nothing in particular, I just⌠I donât know⌠sometimes my head gets messy with thoughts for no reason. Iâve been working a lot for the past couple of months, itâs more frequent when Iâm tired.â
Slowly, you nodded.
âItâs pretty bad today, right?â you asked, and he nodded.
âIâm sorry. Your meal is truly delicious, and I was really excited about having a date night. I know Iâm kind of⌠fucking up the mood.â
âItâs okay. Itâs not your fault.â
âIsnât it?â he asked with bitterness in his voice, and he clenched his jaw at the sound.
He wouldnât let himself get angry against you. He was in love with you. So fucking much. And you didnât deserve that.
âThereâs nothing wrong with feeling down sometimes, Andy.â
He looked down at his empty plate.
âItâs a bit worse than that.â
He heaved a sigh.
âIâm fine though, it just⌠It just needs to pass. Iâll be back to normal in a couple of days.â
âWhat do you usually do when something like that happens?â
âErm⌠I just⌠shut down, basically. Wallow in self-pity for a while,â he tried to joke, managed to get a smile out of you. âI just⌠lock myself up on my own until I feel really low, and then I go out, and⌠it lingers a few days, sometimes a few weeks, but by then I can put a mask on again.â
âDo you put that mask on with me?â
âIt hadnât been so bad in a long time.â
âAnd when itâs not as bad?â
He shrugged.
âThereâs no need to worry you about that.â
You raised an eyebrow, unimpressed.
âIâm your girlfriend. I tell you when Iâm unwell.â
He started rubbing at his collarbone again, until the skin turned a bright shade of red.
âI donât particularly enjoy talking about it,â he replied, his tone dry and distant.
âBut I⌠you know you can trust me, right? That you can talk with me about these thingsâŚâ
âI know⌠It just doesnât help. I know how to handle this, Iâm fine. I promise.â
Slowly, you nodded, but he could feel that your silence was a bad sign.
âSo⌠usually, you just⌠spend time alone?â
âYeah.â
âAnd it helps.â
âYeah⌠yeah, it does. I just⌠Iâm kind of introverted, in case you havenât noticed,â he gave you a small smile. âI recharge my batteries when Iâm alone.â
You seemed to be thinking for a few seconds, and then you were standing. He looked up at you in surprise.
âI should leave you alone, then.â
âWh⌠what?â
âYou said you needed to be alone⌠you should have told me, I would have let you have a moment on your own. Itâs fine. I get it, if thatâs what you need.â
He blinked up, not fully registering what you were doing. His brain jumped to the worst-case scenario, as per usual.
âAre you⌠are you breaking up with me?â
âWhat?! Of course, not!â
âYou⌠youâre leavingâŚâ
âBecause you said you needed to be on your own for the evening. Thatâs okay. Iâll call you tomorrow.â
You heaved a sigh, took his hand in yours.
âAndy, Iâm very happy with you. I know you love me. Thereâs nothing wrong in needing to spend some time on your own. You should have just told me. Iâll give you some space for tonight.â
You took his face in your hands, dropped a gentle kiss to his lips.
âI love you, baby,â you whispered as you pulled away. âIâll call you tomorrow.â
And with that you left the room. He heard you fumbling with your things in the hallway.
Being alone was what he needed. He had always longed to take a step back from everyone, even his partners, when he felt like this.
Except that tonight he didnât want you to leave. He didnât want to be alone. He wanted to hold you as tightly as he could, and cuddle in bed, and just forget about the world outside your arms, let you hold him until he couldnât have a single thought anymoreâŚ
He jumped to his feet, rushing across the house as you put on your coat.
âDonât go.â
The plea cut the air like a knife.
He blinked tears away.
âPlease, donât go. I donât want you to go,â he confessed.
âBut you saidâŚâ
âI donât want you to go.â
âI wonât be mad if you want to take the night for yourself.â
âY/N. I donât. Want you. To go.â
He struggled to swallow back the lump in his throat.
âPlease⌠please, donât leave.â
You stared at him for a moment, motionless. But then you put your coat back on its hanger, took off your shoes.
When you walked back to him, he almost started to cry.
âYouâre sure?â
âYes⌠pleaseâŚâ
Before you could say anything else, he was holding you in a tight embrace, one that you quickly reciprocated.
âWhat do you want us to do, then?â you asked, rubbing his back, and for the first time that day, he felt his muscles relax.
âHonestly⌠I just want to go to bed, cuddle with you and not move until⌠the end of the month.â
You laughed, kissing his shoulder through his shirt.
âWell, weâll have to get up before that Iâm afraid⌠but cuddling for the rest of the evening sounds nice.â
He heaved a relieved sigh.
âIâm sorry, Iâm fucking up our date night⌠it was so lovely of you to cook and everythingâŚâ
âItâs okay. Itâs fine.â
âYouâre not mad?â
âOf course not.â
âGood⌠thatâs grandâŚâ
He finally pulled away, took your hand to guide you to his bedroom. The dishes would have to wait for tomorrow.
He got ready for bed first, and then waited for you. And while he was looking at you as you moved around the bed, plugging in your phone, setting up an alarm for the morning, drinking some water⌠all he wanted was to hold you close. You were the first person who made him feel that way. Who made him long for companionship even when he felt so lowâŚ
⌠and then, you were in bed, opening your arms for him to settle in your embrace, letting him bury his face in the crook of your neck.
Perhaps this one time, his busy brain was wrong. Perhaps you wouldnât leave. Perhaps he would stay. And maybe, just this one time, not all things would endâŚ
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Chapter Five
Ohoho, Niko does not get a break just because of Whumptober. Enjoy :3
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Cw: Stress positions / Caning
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Niko didn't know how long had past. His body shook as he was in a plank position against the cold floor. He grit his teeth, sweat slowly rolling down his forehead as he let out a growl, âEn-enough-â Niko rasped, flinching at Martynâs laugh.
âOh, don't make me laugh,â He growled, âYou're not stopping until you give me some information, buttercup. Wall sit, up up up.â
Niko wiped his forehead with his arm, letting out a shaky sigh as he tried to catch his breath. His muscles were aching, his head throbbing as if it was screaming at him to just give up and give in. He would be in such less pain if he just told the damn creep what he wanted to know.Â
He shakily brought himself down in a wall sit, feeling his core tremble, his legs shaking immediately. It had to be hours that had passed by now, but Niko had no way of knowing. The only way he could determine how long time passed by was the aching fiery pain in his muscles.
Martyn made his way over to the shaking figure, leaning down right up close to his face before whispering, âReady to give in?â
Niko glared straight ahead of him at the dull wall, his body ready to collapse any second by now As he forced his back against the wall, arms resting on his knees. He knew he was making things worse for himself as he tried to focus on his team. Thinking that theyâre probably all cuddled up watching some old movie as they tried to decide which of the characterâs were what actors.Â
A tear slowly rolled down his cheek and in an instant, he crumpled to the floor, clutching his legs as he whimpered. âAh ah ah, buttercup,â Martyn cooed, "you're not allowed to rest until you tell me what I want to know.âÂ
Niko let out another whimper before taking a shaky breath, âM-my teamâŚâ he rasped. Martyn cocked his head in interest. âMy team they-â Niko squeezed his eyes shut, trying to block how his brain screamed at him not to give up.
âThere-there's five of usâŚâ
âFive..â Martyn hummed in thought, âGive me names.â
Niko shook on the ground, his body felt almost numb. He could barely even hear what Martyn was saying from the awful ringing in his ears.
He was awoken out of whatever daze he was in as rough hands grabbed him, forcing him into a kneeling position. Fucking Marcus⌠Martyn circled Niko as if he were his pray, cane dragging along the floor behind him.
Niko watched with glazed eyes, his eyebrows furrowing, âW-wâthefuckâŚâ
âHereâs how this is going to go,â Martyn hummed, âFor every lash that you refuse to give me a name with, it adds an extra two lashes. For example, you refuse at ten, I give you twenty more, pretty simple, hm?â
Nikoâs eyes widened, âNonono it's- my team we- we weren't allowed to kn-know eachothers na-namesâŚâ God, he could barely even hold the kneeling positions, his legs have gone numb by now.
He was soon cut from his thoughts as the cane slammed across his face, sending Niko crumbling to the floor with a cry.
âBullshit,â Martyn spat, âDon't fucking lie to me. Marcus, get him up.â
Niko whimpered as the heavy hands were back on his arms once more, hauling the weak figure up to kneel. He didn't let go until Nikoâs swaying had stopped before Marcus made his way to the side of the room again, awaiting his next command.
âNow, Niko.â The name sounded sour against Martynâs tongue, âLet's start, seeing as you seem to only be making this worse for yourself. Let's start with just one name, hm? Nice and easy.â
Niko had to tense his core as the cane made contact with his back, not letting himself crumple to the ground again. He clenched his jaw tight as the cane burnt. âCome on, buttercup, surely thereâs one teammate who just really gets under your skin, hm? One that you have to put up with just for the sake of.â
Andrew. Andrew was a bully. Since day one, Andrew treated Niko like he was nothing. Heâd kick him and punch him when the others weren't looking. Heâd beat him if the mission failed. Niko felt himself tense as sudden memories rushed into his head.
The cane brutally rained down on his skin with no mercy.
EightâŚ
TenâŚ
FifteenâŚÂ
Martyn sighed, moving in front of Niko and slowly tilting the otherâs head up by the bloodied tip of the cane, his voice was gentle now as he smiled gently, âCome on, buttercup, how about we just do one name for today, hm? One name and this can all be over. Iâll get you cleaned up and draw you a bath, warm meal, warm clothes.â
Niko couldn't hold it in anymore, his body shook as he fully broke down into sobs, âPlea-pleaseâŚâÂ
Martyn tried to hide his smirk as he watched his captive before him, âTalk to me, buttercup, come on, you're doing so well.â
âA-Andrew,â Niko sobbed, his body engulfed with blinding pain as he crumpled to the floor, âPle-please.. Andrew.. He-heâs one of them I sw-swear..â Another sob ripped from his throat as he shook with every sob, tears streaming down his face.
Martyn smirked, placing down the cane and kneeling down beside the broken figure, âWhatâs this Andrewâs second name, darling?â
âO- HhhnghâŚâ Niko curled up in on himself as he took a shaky breath, âOâHarraâŚâ
âOh well done!â Martyn beamed, scooping Niko up into a hug, minding not to upset any of his wounds, âYou did so amazing, buttercup! Letâs get you all cleaned up and some food into you, hm?â
Niko whimpered and nodded fast, leaning into the warm, gentle touch. He was a monster. He was a monster for what he had done but at this point, he couldn't care less. He was getting warmth. Warmth and comfort and for now, that's all he could focus on right now.
Monster.
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You said to send asks about your AUs, so here I am. Angel Neil basically died, sky daddy (or whoever) told him "protect this guy" and was sent on his merry way, no context whatsoever. Honestly, poor guy. Does he know the full extent of his angel powers? Did he have to try them out, or was he just gifted with the knowledge of how to use them? Sometimes I think about Angel Neil and how lonely he must feel, staying on all of those rooftops, and then I get sad. Do all the people who die become guardian angels, or only a sect of them? What happens to the others? Where is Mary? Hell, heaven, is she also a guardian angel, or is she just gone? This is why I don't send asks about your AUs because if I start yapping, I won't stop :')
Yes I did! Thank you for sending this! <3 I'm going to answer under the cut so my insane rambles won't annoy anyone.
So, yeah... Neil died, became an angel, and was told his job was taking care of Andrew. Then poof, he was sent to the Columbia house. (He died in July so they were out of class still.) Neil got his charge mixed up with Aaron a lot at first, because... Twins. But eventually figured them out. (Thankfully. Lol imagine if he'd accidentally appeared to the wrong one.)
He doesn't know about all his angel powers! He's figuring things out as he goes. On his own even in his afterlife. (So Neil of him.) So, yeah. It took him a while to realize he had wings. Longer still to figure out how to work them. He can miracle pain away. And the knife appeared suddenly with no warning. Like... He's got all these amazing things he doesn't know how to control that well. :') Poor baby.
Yeah. :( Most of Neil's spare time is spent just lying on rooftops and watching the sky. Sometimes he sleeps when Andrew does, sometimes he doesn't. He doesn't really have to, after all. Sometimes he'll watch games with Kevin, sometimes he sits on the roof of Andrew's car while they're driving and he almost feels alive.
Not everyone becomes a guardian angel. Just those who don't really fit in anywhere else? Neil didn't subscribe to religion. He didn't fit into Heaven or Hell because of things he'd had to do to survive... So it was either Angel or Ghost? But SOMEONE (I can't tell you who) realized that Andrew needed to be watched over and Neil just so happened to get the job.
Mary was Neil's guardian angel for a while after she died. Then she crossed a line (she killed a human for looking at her son wrong and said human wasn't going to hurt Neil) and was removed from her position for taking an innocent life. Not sure what her fate was, but she is gone now.
Also, if you read to the bottom, hi! <3 Thank you so much for asking these questions. I honestly really appreciate it and I would love to answer any more you have! (If I can do so without spoiling anything that comes later.) Seriously! I love talking about my writing and this sort of thing helps me world build a little if that makes sense?i
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Cross-Checked ~ Chapter Eight
Andy Barber x OFC Leighton "Leia" Andrews
Summary:
Andy Barber is having the best year of his life. His game is on point. Itâs gets to play with his best friend and his fiancĂŠ just... dumped him?!.Â
Reeling from a sudden change in status, Andy decides itâs time to just focus on hockey. Until his best friend's sister comes out with news that rock the entire organizations world.,Â
Andy has always carried a torch for the untouchable Leighton but in her hour of need, is now the time to shoot and score or risk gettingâŻcross - checked again?Â
Warnings: Cheating (but not by the MCs); slow burn; friends to lovers eventually; SMUT!; pregnancy; jealousy; handsome goalies, evil exes...
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Chapter Eight ~ Nothing But Lies ~ Andy/Leia
AndyÂ
I feel like I have been here before. Â
Iâm pretty sure Iâve been here before. Â
The pain in my back is getting worse the longer I stay in this position. I finally pry my eyes open and am blinded with pain. Why is my room so bright? And why am I so uncomfortable? I blinked a couple of times and realized, Iâm on my couch. I slowly sat up. What the fuck happened? My mind runs throught the previous night. I remembered watching Leia and Jeremy and then heading to the Red Line. I frowned as I remember Stella being there but then, nothing really. Â
âOh, youâre wake.â Â
I snapped my head up (which was a terrible mistake) and saw Leia coming down the stairs, fully dressed. Oh shit, there was a game today. I scrambled for my phone before Leia stopped me. Â
âIts ok Andy, its only eight. Practice is at ten. Iâm going to make some coffee.â Â
I sat back with my head on the cushions. Fuck, being hung over for the second time in three months is not a good look for a captain of an NHL team. I took a moment to breathe before Leia came back in with two mugs. âThanks,â I muttered. Â
âWanna talk about it?â She took a sip, looking at me. Â
âIâm fine.â I took a sip and avoided her gaze. Â
âOk, why are you getting drunk the night before a game? That isnât like you, Andy.â The look on her face was breaking me. But how can I tell her? How can I tell her that her new boyfriend is a tool bag and Iâm so in love with her, it kills me to see her with her. What do I say? How do I tell her about what I overheard in the locker room a couple of weeks ago. Â
Two weeks ago...Â
âThat is such a sweet shot you took on Ullmark,â Luke said, laughing as he and Andy walked down to the locker room. Â
âItâs all in the wrist,â I replied with the pretend flick of the wrist. âAre we heading to the bar after?âÂ
âYeah, Cubby said sheâs be our designated tonight after the game.â Luke high-fived me when they heard laughing coming from the locker room. They were about to burst in when they heard Swaymanâs voice. Â
âDude, she had a thing for me. When I was talking with her on the plane, she was playing hard to get. But I know, sheâs into me. Iâm gonna ask her out.â Â
âYou really want to ask out the assistant captainâs sister?â Andy could hear it was Ullmark. âIs that wise?âÂ
âWhy not? You heard Andrews. He gave his blessing.â Â
âThatâs because he doesnât know your reputation.â Â
âHe knows. Iâve been with him at the bars and stuff. He was just as bad before he met Miranda.â He heard him chuckle. âI just want a taste. She is sexy as hell and I can feel like she is a devil in the sheets.â Â
âYou better make sure that Barber and Andrews donât hear you talk like that about her.â Â
âWhat is Barber going to do? Heâll ruin his friendship with her which is ok by me. I just want a piece of her. Fuck her and leave her. Make it look a mutual thing so thereâs no bad blood. Trust me, Iâve done this before and Iâll do it again.âÂ
It took everything in Andy to restrain Luke. Â
It took everything inside of Andy not to tell Leia.Â
PresentÂ
I lied. Â
âFiona called and she was trying to convince me we should make another go at it. I told her to fuck off but it messed with my head. Got to drinking to numb the feeling.â Â
I lied big time. Â
âOh Andy,â Leia came to sit next to me and held my hand. âIâm sorry I wasnât here for you.â She leaned over my shoulder. âShe is the worst.â Â
I never wanted the feeling of her body pressed against mine to ever stop. âYeah, I know. Iâm not even sure why I answered the call.â I am a complete asshole for lying to her but the truth would hurt her more and I canât do it.Â
âWell, Iâll be home tonight after the game. You donât fly out until tomorrow so we can relax tonight, ok?â She gave me her smile, the one I go weak over. Â
âIt sounds like a plan, Princess.â Â
I have to remind myself that he is my teammate and I canât fuck with that. It would screw everyone else and I canât do that. Â
But boy, do I want to. Â
Practice went as practice goes but my head was not in it. Warm ups for the game are the same and I know everyone can see it. Its obvious, especially when Swayman looks at me with concern. âYou ok, Cap?âÂ
âIâm fine,â I mumble, lacing up my skates. âLeia told me what happened. Thanks for helping her.â Â
âItâs no problem.â He frowns. âBut everythingâs ok?âÂ
âFiona called.â Yep, maintaining that lie. âIt just got to me. I just want to skate.â I pushed past him and start taking laps on the ice. I know Luke knows the lie because Leia told him. But I canât face him. I canât face anyone. My heart is broken right now and I just canât do it. Â
The game is a tire fire right from the start. Â
I canât focus. I just see Leia and Jeremy and the happiness on her face and it makes me sloppy. So sloppy that coach has to bench me in the third period, probably for safety reasons. I sat there, watching the game, knowing that if we lost this, it would be my fault. Luckily, Luke was able to take control of the team and pull out the win. Â
I was sitting in my stall, trying hard not to show emotion. I just wanted to go home and cuddle with Leia. I just wanted to be with my girl. Â
Fuck. Â
She's not mine. Â
Iâm still totally fucked. Â
LeiaÂ
15 WeeksÂ
The last few weeks with Jeremy had been amazing. He is such a gentleman. We had the road trip right after for ten days and Jeremy made it a point to sit across the aisle from me so we could talk. He would carry my bag when we got off and made sure that Stella and I are safely in our rooms. In the mornings, he would bring me a tea, make sure my gloves were on and then hang out if he was done for the day. Â
We would go out every couple of days, some days I just canât from how tired I was. I still hadnât told him about the baby. I spoke with management and they agreed to modify my duties but it was up to me on who I told. I love the Bruins. Â
The only thorn in my side is Andy. Heâs been distance since my first date with Jeremy. Not just distant but angry even a little hostile. Iâve noticed that sometimes he is sharp at practice with his teammates, especially Jeremy. Its so unlike him. I decided to text Luke to see if he knew anything. Â
Leia: Do you know whatâs wrong with Andy Luke: No Leia: You are so helpful Luke: Seriously, Iâve asked and he says nothing Luke: You know Fiona called Leia: its still from that? Luke: I guess so Leia: I guess Iâll talk to him to see whatâs upÂ
I frown at my phone. Its near 8 pm and Andy still isnât home. Its weird for him not to come home after all of his meetings and stuff but lately heâs been coming home later and later. Sometimes, especially on days when I got out with Jeremy, I wonât see him until the next day. I decided to cancel plans with Jeremy and head home. I sit in the living room, reading when I hear his car pull up. He walks in. âOh, hey.âÂ
âHey Andy. How was your day?â My voice is super sugary sweet and Andy narrowed his eyes at me. Â
âWhatâs going on? Why are you talking to me in your âIâm pregnant and donât feel good so can you help meâ voice?â Andy crossed his arms over his chest. Normally I would find this very attractive, because heâs still in a dress shirt and slacks, and fuck, focus Leia!Â
âJust realizing that I havenât seen you around much.â I smiled softer at him. âI missed hanging out with you.â Andy snorted and went to grab a beer. He had been drinking a little more than usual. âWhat? Donât you miss hanging out with me?âÂ
âOf course, I miss hanging out with you. I didnât realize that you and Swayman were not serious and that you would be home more often.â He took a long pull. Â
âJeremy and I are fine. What is the matter with you?â My tone was sharp. Â
âMe? Iâm not the problem. Iâm giving you space to grow in your relationship.â He raised his hands and move towards the stairs. âIâm going to bed.â Â
âYou canât do this Andy. We live together, weâre roommates...âÂ
âYes, Leighton, weâre roommates. Doesnât mean I have to share everything with you or acknowledge your relationship.â I could feel the tears forming in my eyes. âOh, here we go, the crying.â Â
âYouâre being such an asshole right now Andrew. You are not like my best friend right now.â I wiped at my eyes furiously. Â
His face turned angry. âA best friend? You want me to be a best friend to you. Fine! Jeremy is not this great guy you think he is. Heâs a douchebag and a womanizer. Heâs going to hurt you and youâre just planning your entire future with him and your kid.â Â
âYouâre just jealous because Iâm finding happiness with him. Iâm moving on unlike you!âÂ
âThatâs rich, moving on. Youâre not going to move on with Swayman.â Â
âThatâs not your decision!âÂ
âIâm not deciding anything. Its facts; youâre not going to find what you are looking for with him.â Â
âStay out of my life Andrew. Iâm happy and thatâs all that should matter.â Â
âHeâs going to hurt you and Iâll be left to pick up the pieces again. Just like your high school boyfriend and just like Bret. You canât even see whatâs right in front of you. You keep choosing fuckboys when you could have something better. I donât know why I would think you would look at the bigger picture with Swayman. Heâs a fuckboy hockey player just trying to sleep with you so he can say I fucked my teammates sister. You are just a warm body to him and youâre too stupid to see it.â His words vibrate against the walls and his face falls with realization. âLeia...âÂ
My heart cracks at his words, his mean and awful words. âFuck you! I fucking hate you!âÂ
I ran past him up the stairs and slammed the door, locking it behind me. I slide down to the floor and sobbed. Iâve never had a real fight with Andy but heâs so wrong. Jeremy and I are just starting. Things are different this time and I know it.  Â
I woke up the next morning, my eyes sore and raw from crying. Its still early but I canât face Andy again. I got up to shower, using the hot water to loosen my muscles. As Iâm drying my hair, I stand in front of the mirror and gasp. Â
Between my hips is now a distinct bump. I grab my phone and check my pregnancy tracker. 15 weeks, one day. My bump popped and now there is no way to hide this. I can get away with it while Iâm out because of jackets and scarfs but at work I tend to wear leggings and sweaters. I run my hand over my belly as I stare in the mirror. Hi baby, I croon softly. I move to open the door to tell Andy but I stop. Â
He lost the right.Â
I sneak out the house and head to the coffee shop for my morning tea and muffin. I work on my notes for work when my phone chimes. Â
Jeremy: Morning beautiful Leia: morning handsome Jeremy: so since we bailed on dinner last night, can we try again tonight Leia: I would love toÂ
I smile as I think about the date with Jeremy. And then my smile falls. I donât know how I can hide my condition. I have to tell him about the pregnancy. But maybe I should wait. Â
Perfect.Â
Andy isnât home when I get there so I take advantage of it and start getting ready. I put on a fit and flare type dress with stockings and booties. My nice coat and scarf will hide my secret until Iâm ready to talk to Jeremy. Heâs prompt like always and we head out. Â
Iâm nervous because this is like date four and every romance book has told me that by now, the man is hoping to get lucky. And I would, I totally would follow this except I feel so uncomfortable in my body. Having Andy and Stella tell me all the time that I look gorgeous is just getting to my head. What if he is grossed out about my body? What if he finds me repulsive? My mind is spiraling. Â
âEverything ok Leia?â Jeremy smiled at me as he placed his big hand on my thigh. His finger are long and I can feel the warmth, strength and roughness in them. A hard working man. Â
âYeah, just upset about Andy is all. Heâs still being closed off and thatâs unusual for him.â There was no way I would tell him what Andy said. That would be just asking for an argument. âHeâs never been so distant before,â I say before smiling. âBut, Iâm going to let it go because Iâm excited for our date.â Â
âGood. I was thinking of just going to Louâs for pizza and North Park has those Christmas lights up. Could be really pretty. âHis fingers are dancing over my skin and it feels so good and distracting. Â
âSounds like the perfect night.â God, I am falling hard for this man. Â
After pizza, he drove us to the park for the festival of lights. As we are climbing out, Jeremy hands me a soft ball. I look at him curiously. âBecause I know you forgot them.â I open the bundle and its a pair of mittens. I blush because I did forget and I look down. Jeremy touches my chin to lift my head. I look into his eyes and all I see is kindness. âIts ok, beautiful. Its our thing.â Â
Our thing. Â
Swoon. Â
As we walk around, all the twinkling lights are setting a mood of romance. An aphrodisiac of scents fills the air from the food stalls. Jeremy gets some hot ciders to keep our hands warm as walk trough. âOk, Halloween or Christmas?â he asks.Â
âChristmas. I donât like to be scared.â I shudder at the thought. âPlus why does it involve so many spiders and clowns. Spiders are poisonous and they are creepy. Clowns... well, clowns eat people and just no.â I take a breath and look at Jeremyâs face. His face is surprised and unmoving. âWhat?âÂ
âThat is the most passionate speech I have ever heard about Halloween.â He burst out laughing. I huff with mock indignation and cross my arms, hip jutted while he is bent, hands on knees trying to calm himself. âIâm sorry, Iâm sorry,â he says wiping his eyes. âSweetheart, are you afraid of spiders and clowns?âÂ
âItâs not funny.â I pouted at him and begin to walk away. Â
âSweetheart!â Jeremy chases after me and pulls me to him. âIâm sorry,â he says with puppy eyes. Â
I canât be mad at this man. âItâs ok,â I say softly. Â
âLet me make it up to you.â He smiles. âLetâs go back to my place, Iâll start a fire, some hot cocoa, we can cuddle on the couch.â He kisses me softly. âWhat do you say beautiful?âÂ
Shit. Heâll try to touch me and heâll know. Heâll know and Iâm not ready. Iâm not ready for this bubble to burst. âI would love to but I have a six am call with a club in England. I need to be up early and presentable, at least, from the waist up.â I smile. âBut that sounds amazing. Maybe another night?âÂ
âOf course, sweetheart. I like that you are working to conquer the world.â He kisses my cheek and whispers, âmaybe one night I can dominate you and take you to places you never knew existed.â Â
I blush as he gives me a sexy smirk. Refusing this man is hard. Â
And I donât know how much longer i will be able to delay it. Â
Its been a week since Jeremy has asked me to go home with him and I know now my time is up. My baby belly is growing and I donât want to lie to him. I ask him to lunch and he said he would meet me at a cafe near the house. I bundle up as the falls weather has now turned to the colder side. It also helps with the bump hiding mission. Iâm putting on my coat when Andy walks by. âGoing out?âÂ
âYep.â Â
âPrincess...â he face falls at the lack of energy in my voice but I donât want to hear it. Â
âNope.â I walked out the door and drove to the cafe. Jeremy is sitting there in a hoodie and jeans, his black peacoat over the chair. He looks like a goddamm snack. âHey!âÂ
âHey sweetheart!â He gets up to kiss me on the cheek. âIts cold today.â Â
âYeah, winter is coming,â I say with a giggle. Â
âNice,â he smiles. We order and chat but the more I chat the more i start to get nervous. I mean, how do you tell the man you are seeing that you are pregnant with another manâs baby? Now he can tell something is wrong because he asked me something and I completely spaced. âIâm sorry, what?âÂ
âLeia, you are a thousand miles away. Whatâs going on?âÂ
I take a breath and hope for the best. âI need to tell you something.â Â
âOkay,â he says slowly. âYou can tell me anything.â Â
âSo, Iâve been dealing with some life altering news for a few weeks now and I didnât know if I should tell you earlier because I hadnât finished making some decisions.â Â
He frowns. âIs everything ok? Are you sick?â Â
âNo, not sick. Just... pregnant.â Â
Swear I feel like a pin could drop and I could hear it. Jeremyâs face froze and I know, this is the end. Finally, he says, âyouâre pregnant?âÂ
I nod slowly. âYeah, I didnât know if I was keeping it or what I was going to do but I decided that I wanted the baby. Iâm sixteen weeks pregnant. I told management last week but I needed to wrap my head around it and I needed to tell you because I know you want more with me and I just couldnât while lying.â He still sitting there, not moving a muscle. âSay something, please.âÂ
âWow.â I blink, not sure what he is going to say. âI mean, wow, thatâs big news.â He takes a long sip of his drink as I try to blink back tears. Â
âI understand if you donât want to keep seeing me...âÂ
âNo, thatâs not it, sweetheart.â He takes my hand. âI just need a moment to process this.â He smiles. âYouâre gonna be a mom.â Â
âYeah. Its big but Iâm determined to give my baby the best life.â Â
He smiles. âAnything I can do to help, ok? Just let me know.â He cups my cheek. âI believe in you, sweetheart.â Â
Its exactly what I needed. Â
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(( Art is commissioned from the incredibly talented ArtReplicant. Original story by me. ))
"So Ethan's invitation was more than a friendly gesture. You two have trained together," Cody surmised with a grin as Andrew escaped his dragon sleeper using the technique that was a signature escape for Ethan and Eric. The move had been quick and decisive as if he had years to perfect the move he had learned years ago. The two were now standing face to face both in position to strike. Codyâs grin morphed into a look of determination. He raised his arms, ready for the next round. The intensity between them hung in the air, thick and palpable.
"We don't get to train as much as we used to, but whenever either is in the area, they check in, we train, we spar, and we have drinks to catch up," Andrew responded with a smile. He knew it wasn't often that The Alpha extended a personal invitation to join the pack. In fact, Ethan had only done this once before. Andrew recalled how Eric and Ethan's faces lit up when he told them about the job offer from NASA to help them secure their networks from cyber attacks. Ethan had whispered something to Eric with Eric responding with a nod. A few days after they left, Andrew received the invitation. Being able to train with Ethan again and thank him for all his help since high school was exciting but even more exciting was that he would see his best friend, Wyatt, again and catch up. His family blamed Wyatt for some stupid reason and forbade contact after that horrible day. Andrew had tried to locate his friend, but Wyatt had a very sparse digital footprint. He couldn't wait to surprise Wyatt by tossing him to the mat and schoolboy pinning him down. But first, Andrew had to make a good first impression to the rest of The Pack, and that meant taking care of Cody. Operation Honeypot had just commenced.
Andrewâs arm shot forward, his forearm smashing across Codyâs jaw with brutal force. The impact sent a jolt through Andrewâs muscles, his skin tingling with the raw energy of the strike. He felt the solid connection as bone met flesh, Codyâs head snapping to the side from the blow. Cody grunted, the sound low and guttural, his body swaying just a fraction as the force rippled through him. The contact reverberated through Andrewâs body, his arm buzzing with the aftermath of the strike. His muscles tensed, his own pulse pounding in his ears as he watched Cody stagger. Sweat flew from Codyâs skin as small droplets caught the light before falling to the mat.
For a brief moment, Andrew saw the flash of pain and shock in Codyâs eyes, but it quickly faded, replaced with something elseâsomething happy and hungry. Cody's jaw clenched, his body recoiling like a predator preparing to strike back. The muscles in Cody's chest and arms flexed, veins bulging under his skin as he steadied himself, the heat between them flaring hotter.
Andrew breathed heavily, the air between them thick with sweat and the scent of testosterone. He could feel the pulsing energy between their bodiesâthe same heat from before, but now with the sharp edge of raw power. This was no longer just about lust or winning. It was about pure supremacy between them.
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You're Just Like Quicksand
Fandom: DC Comics, Batfam, Batman Beyond
Summary: Jason Todd is ready to go into semi-retirement after fifteen years working with troubled youth, but one case in particular forces him to confront the sins of his youth and painful memories from his past. (TW // Character Self Harm Mention in this chapter)
Chapters: 11/?
Characters: Jason Todd, Terry McGinnis, Warren McGinnis, Mary McGinnis, Matt McGinnis, Bruce Wayne, Original Character(s)
Relationship(s): TBA
Additional Tags:Â Protective Jason Todd, Good Sibling Jason Todd, Retired Jason Todd, Multiple POV, Hurt/Comfort, Parent-Child Relationships, Canon Divergent AU, Angst, Mourning Jason Todd
Chapter Eleven: Second Chances (Jason Todd's POV)
Terryâs a great kid, but I couldnât relax without watching them from my phone during the meeting. The mayor was as stressed as most people would imagine the mayor of Gotham to be. He kept clearing his throat and asking me if I needed something. âSo, you want at-risk teens partnering with politicians and top executives andâ.âÂ
âWhatâs wrong with that? Most executives I know have the money and resources to make their criminal histories and academic failings disappear. These kids donât bother trying because they understand itâs not what you know itâs who you know. The least we can do to clean up this city is to ensure these kids get to know people willing to be their bridge to a better life,â I interrupted. The mayor was a pushover, and he barely knew politics. He got stuck being mayor of Gotham because no one else wanted the headache. I knew if I made him look like a classist prick on camera, heâd fold. âI came from nothing. If it hadnât been for my father adopting me, I donât know where Iâd be today.â
I glanced at my phone and smiled at Terry cradling Avery-Marie while she sucked her thumb. âIâve already lined up individuals interested in letting kids shadow them⌠And it isnât just top execs and politicians. There are blue-collar positions as well as white. I want them to cycle through all sorts of careers. Low-income and at-risk kids deserve to know they have options no matter where they come from. Iâve known people who came from nothing, went to community colleges, and worked their way up. I handpicked individuals that these kids could relate to. Iâm meticulous and active in my business, so Iâd drop in to supervise⌠Itâs all in the plans I sent you. Did you have a chance to read through?â I knew he didnât. He skimmed it at best. âMy programs have a high success rate. Literacy and graduation rates are up. Weâre funding therapy, tattoo removal, gas detoxing, andâ.âÂ
âWhat about your more dangerous clients?â the mayor asked. I swallowed hard. I knew he wanted to allude to the incident... And it triggered me. It was my greatest shame. I had tunnel vision, and I couldnât hear anything outside of my children screaming. My assistant touched my shoulder.Â
âRight,â I replied, âIâve since started screening which specific kids I want to be involved in the pilot program. Iâve met each child, looked at their files, and they volunteered to do a psychological screening. I believe in second chances. I believe in people. Iâve been hurt a lot in my life, but I refuse to allow that to be my excuse for turning my back on the children here. If a city shows love to its children, I guarantee that some of them will love us in return. We canât put an end to the cityâs problems, but we can minimize the causes.â I couldnât buckle on the issue. We went back and forth until he had no choice but to greenlight my program.Â
I left the meeting feeling sick to my stomach. I splashed my face in the sink, trying to drown out the sounds of my kidsâ screams. My phone rang, pulling me out of the fog. I answered without looking. âHello?â I answered.Â
âDad⌠Hey, umâ. Hey, Dad,â his voice shook.Â
âAndrew? Hi, Drewby,â I smiled. I hadnât heard from Andrew since the incident. Heâd gone off the grid and I lost him. I didnât know if he was dead or alive. âWhatâs going on?âÂ
âDad, Iâm in the hospital,â Andrew replied.Â
âWhich one?â I questioned.Â
âIâll send you the location⌠We should probably talk more in person. Are you busy?â Andrew replied.
âNever too busy, Drewby. Send me the location, and Iâll be there,â I answered.Â
âI gotta go, but Iâll be here⌠And uh, I donât have anywhere toâ. Thatâs not your problemâ.âÂ
âIt is my problem⌠Iâm always gonna be your dad. I didnât quit because you grew up,â I reassured him, âIâll see you in a minute.â Andrew hung up and texted me.Â
I drove straight there, stopping to call Terry. âHey, Terry, Iâll be a little late. Something came up,â I explained, âAre you guys okay?â
âYeah, Avieâs great. She fell asleep on my lap, so Iâm stuck watching TV⌠Howâd your thing go?â Terry asked.
âI got everything I wanted,â I replied, âAnd Terry, thanks so much for helping me out. I owe you extra for watching her longer than planned.â
âNo problem,â Terry replied. We exchanged goodbyes, and I entered the building and let security check me.Â
I put my phone, wallet, keys, and belt in the basket before signing in at the front desk. âIs Andrew Todd here?â I questioned. The man at the desk hesitated.Â
âCan I see ID?â he asked. I gave him my ID and let him scan it. âHe put your name on his medical release form.â
âCan you tell me what happened?â I asked. He pressed a button on the computer and I heard a gate click.Â
âHe had a psychotic episode in the Gotham City Mall,â the man answered. Vague. Andrew had no history of mental illness. He had his troubles, but he never struggled with anything like that.
Andrew came out, and my breath caught. I hadnât seen him in five years. But, I wouldâve known my son anywhere. I reached for him, hesitating before asking to hug him. Andrew wouldnât look me in the eye, but I couldnât stop smiling. He opened his arms, and I hugged him. âWhereâve you been?â I asked. I shook my head before he could answer and took his bag. âAre you hungry, Drewby?âÂ
Andrew nodded. âCan I come home for a little while?â Andrew asked. I smoothed his hair down.
âOf course. Of course, you can come home,â I answered. I went into autopilot with him. I let him in the car, and he buckled in while I dropped his bag in the back seat. âCan we talk about what happened? Or do you wanna eat first?âÂ
âI tried to drown myself in the fountain⌠I think I got pretty close,â Andrew answered. He seemed distant, but I didnât push him for a reaction. âDo you remember when Mom died?âÂ
It wouldâve been a random question had any of my other kids asked, but Andrew was with her when she died. He was home sick from school, and she took a nap with him and never woke up. Andrew called me in tears, and it was devastating. I remembered him begging them not to zip her up in a body bag. He insisted she wouldnât be able to breathe. âI remember,â I whispered.Â
âI never told you what her last words were. I thought it would hurt you,â Andrew mumbled. He stroked his hand with his ring and middle fingers. It was something his mother used to do when Avery dissociated.Â
âWill you tell me now?â I asked. Itâd been eighteen years since. If he wanted to hurt me, he wouldâve done it five years ago during the incident. Andrew nodded.
âI was scared because I thought you and Mom were getting a divorce, so I asked her⌠And before she went to sleep, she said, she couldnât live without you and that I didnât need to worry because she loved us⌠Her exact words: Daddy drives me crazy, but I canât live without him. You donât have to worry about our family breaking up. We love you, Drewby ,â Andrew replied. I choked back tears. âI like that moment. It was the last time I felt like everything would be okay.â
I couldnât speak. What would I tell him ? How could I explain to him what changed in five years? How could I tell him about his niece and Avery andâ? How could I explain Terry? Even if he wasnât the kid I mentored five years ago, I couldnât explain him to Andrew. It felt like a betrayalâŚÂ But how could I lie?
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The Devil You Know (Snippet) Pt 32
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Love is never enough. Not in this world of ours. It won't ever have the importance or respect it deserves. I'm sure you agree. If you don't I can't imagine that you're still reading. Or rather listening. I'm sure your momma is tired by now and would like to put you down for your nap.
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It's a peculiar trick that big cities always manage to pull off. Making it feel like you're alone even when surrounded by millions. Sometimes it's a good thing. You can be yourself. Nobody see, nobody cares. Nobody pays attention. Hurstfield had almost nine million people living in it's region. Why should others care about what one single person is doing?
That's all good and fine until you know, for a fact and not based upon paranoid suspicion, that you ARE being watched. By powerful people capable of bending the system. Once you know that you are under surveillance? There is no place that you can feel safe. All those people around you; who is watching you and why?
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Just in case you're thinking, based upon the previous chapter, that something happened between Nolan Rauch and I, as in something I could use to improve my position? No. That didn't happen. The trap remains a trap even when you watch it placed and see the tension in the spring. If you can't choose where you want to stand the trap is still just as deadly. So what to do in this case?
Tell Arden Rauch about what Nolan had said? About what it was claimed that Andrew Rauch intended to do? What proof was there? Even if I had proof, I was a tool. Maybe my word meant less than blood. Perhaps like with many dangerously powerful and unstable men, they would ignore their differences in the face of outside interference. Maybe they waged their little personal wars via proxies.
None of that really mattered very much to me. Nolan knew of my beloved muse. He had been tracking and watching over my best friend and my mother. Eyes that I hadn't detected were upon me and mine. I couldn't protect them if my new masters decided that I was transgressive and needed to be taught a lesson.
You're only beneath the notice of such people until they decide to notice you.
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I decided that I should be a better neighbor. Courtesy of a very well placed and extraordinarily discreet friend, I investigated just who I shared my splendid little street with. Well, I didn't inquire to the current residents. Those changed regularly. No no. I looked into who the owners were. You know, the people whom I'd send fruit baskets to on holidays out of appreciation for how well kept the neighborhood was.
I did this without being detected. I know this because for certain actions I could insert test points. Things that would confuse a casual observer but which would trigger a response from important people if they found out.
As to what precisely I'm talking about? Guess. Because I'm certainly not giving you one of the very few successful secret weapons that I have. I'm alive and you wouldn't be if you thought to imitate me.
Other inquiries brought nothing because I had limited resources. I knew better than to investigate Zane J. What would be the point? He made Voids seem like extroverted attention whores. You don't worry about the weapons. You worry about the hands holding them.
I bought a large quantity of Feather Pillow. It was the moment's drug of choice. It's a pain reliever/tranquilizer with hallucinogenic properties. It's also addictive and expensive which is why you haven't heard of it. The young hedonists of the Uplands loved it though. I could be summarily executed for having one fifth the amount I had, but again, it's addictive. I could make a 500% return profit by choosing the right customers.
I don't do drugs. Drink occasionally, yes, but the rest? No. I will, however, when necessary, fuck people who are on drugs. To create that connection between the various levels of pleasure. I don't need a better orgasm. I've never once climaxed and thought to myself that it should have been better. If other people needed to cum at a higher level, no shame. But don't blame me for taking advantage of that.
Most of the time sex is sex. It doesn't mean anything after the act is over. In my world there's fucking, sex, and love. The second type can occasionally overlap with either the first or third, but you can't have all three. I use the first although some think it's the second because they want to believe that they mean at least that much.
I very seldom have sex. If you aren't the one that I love, it's just fucking. I mean, fair disclosure here. If I don't at least legitimately like you? It's fucking, not sex. And in those days it was all fucking. I can do that even if I don't like the person. I discovered that I could do that even with men.
That was something I had no choice but to test and then learn. With both Rauch brothers being as they were it was clearly a necessity. When they found out, because of course they found out, Arden confonted me first. "You're going to force me to do it at some point so it seems wise to figure out what to do." I told him. When Nolan confronted me I just said. "I do what business demands."
It's not like they were going to compare notes.
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My male lovers were all younger. Early 20's types. Older men could tell that I didn't actually want to do it. Which is strange because it tends to play the opposite with women. The younger ones suspect my motives. The older think they're showing me something new and amazing. I don't know what kind of life leads you to believe that a thirty year old man hasn't had ample opportunities for sexual experience. I don't ask such questions. It's not actually important.
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"Your ability to lie is remarkable." Eliza Kierengard told me as she watched me emerge from the shower. She had showered first but was still gloriously naked. "I almost believe you when you say that I'm better than my daughter."
"You are better. She just lies there with her eyes closed. Doesn't move much." I said as I reached for my pants. I was doing what I had begun to do too often. Pushing. Goading. "That trick with your muscles is exquisite. And you are more beautiful than she is. She wears her beauty thoughtlessly, while you, you embody it."
"You're lying but I don't care." She said and the sad thing was that I wasn't lying and she couldn't tell. "I was right though."
"About?" I said and paused in buttoning my pants. In the evening light falling through the curtains she was a sensuous vision.
"I said I might like you better if we slept together." She said and lit a cigarette. Her nipples were perfection and erect. "You're an excellent fuck and yet I still find your company pleasant. I mean, that's usually not the case. My husband is a horrible and selfish lover and he inevitably wants to talk afterwards and that's the worst part of it. Bad sex and endlessly inane conversations. Usually when I cum that hard I just want to be alone. To savor the way my body is so absolutely satisfied."
"Did you want me to stay or leave?" I asked as I felt my body responding to hers. She was doing nothing but sitting there. Making no effort to be alluring or sexy. It was erotic as hell. "You didn't mention any plans for the evening."
"What do YOU want?" She said and looked at me.
I dropped my pants in answer and joined her on the bed.
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Thaddeus | Just The Way You Are | Romantic
Dialogue prompt: âIf I didnât know better, Iâd say youâre trying to court me.â
Requested: Yes
Thaddeus is determined to catch your eye but might just lose himself in pursuit of your heart.
âYouâve got to stop the staring man. Itâs starting to get really, really unsettling.â Thaddeusâ heart sinks into his gut at the sound of Simonâs voice. A rough palm lands between his shoulder blades and he huffs a cough, earning a chuckle from the former fisherman.
âEasy there. Big James and I have been watching you for a while now and we thought some advice was in order. After all, itâs getting quite painful to watch at this point.â
Thadâs cheeks flame at being caught red-handed, but he knows that denying it is no longer an option. He sighs in defeat.
Big James agrees with Simon: âAbsolutely. Just make a move on (Y/n) or nothing will ever happen. Or worse, someone else will get to her before you can, and then you might regret it for the rest of your life.â
Thaddeus looks at the two men questioningly. âWell, what do you suggest Iâd do?â Big James wraps an arm around his shoulders, dwarfing the stonemason with the burliness thereof.Â
âWomen like men who are strong. It means that they can work hard to provide for their family.â With a nervous chuckle, Thaddeus rubs his neck. âA-A-A family with (Y/n)? I ahâŚâ
âWell, that is what youâre aiming for, right? Show her how strong you are!â Big James claps him on the arm rather painfully. âMake sure she sees you do heavy labour. Chop the wood, for example.â
âBut also show your soft side!â Simon adds, âEden loves it when Iâm being romantic to her. You know, light some candles, get some of her favourite snacks, cuddle next to the fire. I once got her some love poems, oh, she adored that! Perhaps you could even get her some flowers. Women love flowers!â
Big James nods in acknowledgement. âOh yes! My abba does that when heâs in trouble with my eema, flowers can fix everything!â Even though Thaddeus doubts that, he nods in gratitude.
âThank you, guys!â he says, âIâm⌠Iâm sure that I can do something with that.âÂ
âNo problem man!â Simon reassures him. âThat is what friends are for.â
Smoothing his hands down his tunic, Thaddeus straightens his back. âSo, Iâve simply got to show her how strong I am and⌠Get her some flowers!â
âOr poems,â James corrects.Â
âWomen love men who can be both strong and romantic. Specifically romantic towards them , makes them feel special!â Simon plants his hands on his hips and proudly puffs out his chest.Â
Thaddeus thickly swallows and looks around the camp. He notices you easily â patching up ripped tunics near the womenâs tent, where you are sitting all by yourself. He has to find a task he could do that would catch your attention.
Andrew and Philip are preparing dinner for tonight, so hauling with water for the soup is not an option. John is sharpening the tools, so thatâs off the table, too. Nathanael and Little James are chatting whilst doing the dishes in a bucket of water. âThe chopping block,â Big James interrupts his thoughts, âThatâs not occupied yet. See, itâs located near (Y/n)âs tent, sheâll certainly see you. Actually, it is my chore, but hey, it is for a good cause so Iâm willing to give it up.âÂ
Simon chuckles and Thaddeus meekly hums, clearing his throat before attempting to gather some courage. The two men let out a few primal sounds when Thaddeus paces towards the chopping block with a confident walk, though he nearly trips over a pebble on his way there.Â
The minor disturbance causes you to look up and make eye-contact with the former stonemason a little away, a soft smile gracing your features. Thaddeus lets out a nervous huff and grins back rather awkwardly, heading for the chopping block. An axe stands against a thick stump and a few uncut logs lay on the ground next to it, ready to be cleft into smaller chunks.
He puts a log onto the stump, positioning it in the middle before taking hold of the axe. It cannot be that different from working with stone, right? He has made bricks before, and even though the movements heâd use in that craft were smaller than when it comes to woodwork, it wouldnât be vastly unlike what he is used to.Â
Thaddeus takes a deep breath and swings the axe above his head, letting out a sound that he didnât even know he had in him. He feels the weight of the iron almost pull him backwards, so he quickly swings, only to miss the stump by about a cubit.
Startled, he looks up to see if youâve noticed. Much to his embarrassment, your eyes are indeed on him, and an amused grin tugs at your lips. âAre you okay, Thad?â you ask with that disarming voice of yours, and he hums, nodding shyly.Â
âI-I am,â he stutters before taking a deep breath and swinging the axe over his head again. This time, it chips off only part of the bark and it flies away somewhere into the shrubbery. He feels lucky it wasnât hurled in your direction, otherwise he could have hurt you. You are still looking at him, slightly entertained.Â
âIsnât that usually Big Jamesâ job?â you query, but there is no malice in your voice. Thaddeus puts the axe on the ground and leans on the handle, trying to appear casual.Â
âWell, I just wanted to train my muscles for a bit. Canât always put the strain on poor Big James, hm? After all, heâs not the only one who is able to chop wood!âÂ
You slowly nod, the smile not leaving you, and you turn back to the stitching work in your lap. âWell, I think it is good that you give Big James a bit of a break. Thatâs very kind of you.â
Thaddeus feels his cheek flush. âYou-You do? I-I mean, yes, of course! Itâs the least I can do for him! Anyway, Iâm going to see if I can find him to ask if he needs help with something else. Have a good night, (Y/n).âÂ
You hum. âEnjoy your evening, Thad.â
He saunters away towards the two friends he deems his wingmen, who give him a double thumbs-up. Once he arrives at the two fishermen, he lets his shoulders hang and sighs. âI must have looked stupid.â
âNot at all.â Big James reassures him, âShe smiled at you a few times.â
âJust because sheâs humouring me.â Thaddeus huffs.
Simon shakes his head. âNonsense. Now, you go and get her some nice food. And maybe a poem or two! Philip is knowledgeable about Scripture, how about you ask him to teach you something from the Song of Solomon?â
With renewed determination, Thaddeus nods. âOkay! Yes!â he cheers, perhaps more to himself than to his friends. âI know she loves apricots.âÂ
âThen you go get her some apricots to enjoy whilst you recite love poetry to her.â James notes, âWe could go to market and see if we can find the sweetest fruits, okay?â
Thaddeus agrees to his friendâs offer and off they go to prepare.
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He has never felt so nervous before. Just when he thinks he cannot be more uncomfortable with the way his gut is tightening with anxiety, your beauty once again takes his breath away and makes him even more jittery.
Youâve just finished a bowl of honestly disappointing stew when he scurries towards you, the apricot heâs purchased for you burning in his pocket. Thaddeus coughs in his fist, causing you to look up in slight confusion. âOh, hello Thad, good to see you again.â The sight of your smile makes him nearly faint â how can you possibly be that pretty?
âH-Hi, (Y/n).â he stutters, âI ah, I brought you something.â He takes the orange fruit and hands it to you, almost dropping it into your lap at the way his hand is trembling. âI got it for you while I was at market today. I⌠I know that you like them, soâŚâÂ
You hum in appreciation and take it to inspect it. âIt looks so fresh! Thank you, Thaddeus. What is the occasion?â
He rubs his neck and shifts on his feet. âAh, nothing special. Just for being you, I guess!â He laughs a humourless huff and feels his throat run dry at the puzzled look youâre giving him. The slip of paper he holds in his hand is completely forgotten. âAnyways, Iâve got to go. Enjoy your apricot!â Before you can open your mouth to call after him, he rushes away, hurriedly heading across camp to find his tent.Â
âThad? Thad, you forgot to read the poem!â Simon tells him whilst approaching him from behind, and the stonemason feels his cheeks heat up.Â
âAh, I⌠I-I just⌠Iâm afraid that Iâll stumble over my words.â The parchment in his hand is slightly crumpled and the warmth of his hand has made the ink stain slightly.Â
âCome on, Thad,â Simon mutters in his ear, âYouâre brave enough, you can do it! Look, sheâs already enjoying the apricot!âÂ
He feels his breath hitch in his throat upon witnessing you take a good bite from the fruit heâs given you and he canât help but blush a little at the sight.Â
âPick up your jaw from the floor and go up to her, go, go!âÂ
Thaddeus inhales sharply as Simon fixes his hair by ruffling it, and he taps his lower back with a flat hand. âCome on, straighten it, walk confidently.âÂ
He finally dares to head back your way, clearing his throat to catch your attention once more. Swallowing your bite of apricot, you grin. âAh, youâre back. This is lovely, it means a lot that you got it for me... Are you alright? You seem a little pale.â
Thaddeus hums, barely courageous enough to look you in the eye. âI ah, Iâve got something else for you.â He fiddles with the parchment and narrows his eyes at the slightly faded letters. âA-A poem by Solomomâ I mean Solomon. Ah, an excerpt. Yes! Okay, uh⌠Y our teeth are like a flock of shorn ewes that have come up from the washing, all of which bearâŚâ He blinks at a few faded letters, âTens? Teens? U-Uh, twins, and not one among them has lost its young.âÂ
He takes a shaky breath and flicks his eyes momentarily towards you to see if youâre listening, something he ought to not have done, for he grows only more nervous at your sweet smile. â Your lips are like a scarlet thread, and your mouth is lovely. Your-Your cheeks are like halves of a pomegranate behind your veil . Your neck is like the tower of⌠David, built in rows of stoneâŚÂ â Thaddeus frowns at the parchment, â... AhâŚÂ on it hang a thous⌠thousand shields, all of them shields of warriorsâŚÂ UhâŚâÂ
His cheeks flush whilst he reads the next sentence and he shakes his head, âIâll skip that part, uh⌠Let me seeâŚÂ Until the day breathes and the shadows flee, I will go away to the mountain of⌠myrrh? Yes , myrrh⌠and the hill of frankincense. HmâŚâ He concludes by crumpling the piece of parchment in his palm and folding his hands on his back, letting out a soft hum.
You kindly smile and tilt your head in slight question. âThat was really nice of you, Thaddeus, but⌠Iâm a little confused. If I didnât know better, Iâd say youâre trying to court me.â
Something disappointed settles within his gut. âW-Well, I ah⌠Maybe⌠I am?âÂ
Your gentle expression twists into something more serious. âOh⌠You are? Trying to⌠Court me?â His nerves somehow seem to transfer to you in the way he fiddles with his sleeve and his gaze drops to the ground, where he kicks a sandaled foot back and forth in the dust.Â
âI⌠Yes.â Thaddeus admits, his heart starting to hammer against his chest. When you donât immediately respond, he feels it break, taking it as rejection.Â
Then, you laugh.Â
Itâs not a demeaning, scornful laugh, nor is it one that humours him. Itâs soft, like yourself, and you slowly stand to walk up to him.Â
âThad?â you query when he doesnât look up, even when you halt right in front of him. You put a hand on his shoulder, a gesture that makes his eyes immediately shoot up to meet yours. The tenderness reappears and you stand on your tiptoes to press a feather light kiss onto his cheek.Â
Somewhere in the distance, Simon and Big James pat one another on the back.Â
âWe helped him well, friend!â James laughs.
âThat we did!â Simon agrees.
Thaddeus stares at you with his lips slightly askew, frozen in place by your sudden affections.Â
âDoesâ Does that mean you⌠Like me back?âÂ
You giggle and nod. âYes.â you say.Â
âI-I think it worked, then, didnât it?â He turns to look at Simon and Big James, and you frown in bewilderment, pulling a face.Â
âWhat are you talking about?â
Thaddeus gulps. âW-Well, Iâm a strong man! And I can be very romantic, so Iâm glad that you liked it!âÂ
You shake your head, chuckling lightly. âOh, Thad, no, thatâs not it.âÂ
He narrows his eyes, giving you a puzzled look. âHuh? But I⌠I thought thatâŚâ
âI donât like you because you chop wood. Or because you bring me fruits. I donât even like you because you recite Scriptures to me.â You blush a little, putting a hand on his upper arm. âI like you for you , your sweet and spontaneous self.â
With a fluster on his cheeks, he smiles at you. âReally?â
You nod and give him a reassuring look. âYes! Just be yourself, youâre so much fun to be around. Thatâs the Thaddeus I like best.â
He chews his bottom lip. âCan I, uh, give you a hug?âÂ
âOf course you can.â you tell him. He opens up his arms so that you can embrace him, your cheek snug against his shoulder.Â
Simon and Big James cheer from across camp, causing you to burst out in laughter, and Thaddeus canât help but flush. Still, he makes a mental note to thank these two later, for even though their tips didnât necessarily impress you, it did lead to your arms around his waist as well as a confession.Â
His authentic self is all he needs to be whenever heâs with you, which is utterly relieving to him.
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Acceptance on This Healing Journey â¤ď¸âđŠš
09/30/24 at 6:29 pm
When I first learned about emotional abuse, wow⌠suddenly Iâm awakened inside and the fog started to lift. I began to FINALLY remember things from my past and piece them together. I spent months trapped watching TikToks on the subject and now Iâm sick. Iâm angry but Iâm still in the dark on some things. Took me starting this account and writing down what I can remember and what Iâm comfortable sharing, to realize I have unhealed trauma from childhood AND from my exes.
I spent the majority of this account rewriting my story over and over. Constantly talking about my exes: Cody and Andrew. Remembering more things as I went along. Still making sense and of course, alllllll my focus was on them and trying to understand WHY they hurt me. It felt super personal and I felt worthless and stupid, as if my exes thought I was a joke and Iâm so hurt by them. Waking up angry and sad every morning. Now that I am aware they were only manipulating me, I felt just so wounded and broken. Suddenly Iâm on this âhealing journeyâ but feel Iâm getting no where because oh Iâm just sooo wounded and hurt. The pain felt unreal to me. I realized I was in all the âtrauma bond stagesâ and âgrief stagesâ!!
I have had moments of great retrospection and self discovery! Iâve gained so many lessons within my personal walk because Iâve had to delve deep into understanding the past with my exes and childhood. I stayed focused on my exes though and struggled to accept myself in the process. I wanted to direct my energy towards them but thatâs not healing me. See, their part is over. They emotionally abused me but itâs done. Theyâre both out of my life but they have clearly left a lasting impact on me. MY PART, is to navigate through the poison they infected me with and heal from it â¤ď¸âđŠšâ¤ď¸âđŠšâ¤ď¸â𩹠(I can tell you it doesnât happen over night)
Iâve learned that healing does take time but time is on your side đđťâ¨ Looking forward to better days but accepting the past for what it is. Focusing on my own well-being and taking care of my soul. Forgiveness for myself as much as I forgive my exes and be gentle and patient with myself âşď¸â¤ď¸â𩹠One day at a time! Finding positive moments through the shades!
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I met you in 2010. Upon introduction, I knew my position with you. You are Dominant, beautiful and intense. I am submissive. Less than an hour later, you had a piece of me you hold to this day. My initiation of sorts, meeting your chain flogger at the St. Andrew's cross, stopped time, and it has taken me far too long to realize that in that moment, a part of me became yours.
Through the years and relationships that have come and gone, I've been glad to call you Friend. I've watched you since that first night with longing. We've had a few hangouts, worked together a bit, always with a delicious and tantalizing sexual tension hanging heavily over us. You held my hand at that bar near my old place. There was almost a kiss, once. I've cherished every moment I've had with you.
It sounds absurd to say it like that. Knowing what I am now. It's been 14 years we've known one another. For most of that time, I've been in one of two relationships, both unsatisfying in the lifestyle. I've not taken a master since I met you. It's such a huge, core part of who and what I am, and I have denied myself my place kneeling at a deserving Owners feet. I wish I could say I don't know why but it really boils down to survival instincts and low self confidence.
In late December I got hurt at work, leaving me stressed, depressed and with far too much time on my hands. In early January, I asked to use you as a reference while looking for something I can do from home. The flirty banter never skipping a beat between us. On March 2nd, something broke. We were both miserable for our own reasons but also lacking, to the point of desperation, a deeply bonded connection. My heart broke for you, fully understanding the void left behind with your role unfulfilled. We found it in each other that day, after 14 years. Somewhere between the pain of loss and need for more. We connected on a far deeper level and have talked every day since. Our roles falling into place with comfort and ease.
On March 22nd, after weeks of sharing agonizingly close missed opportunities we've had with one another, amidst growing trust and affection, after your urges towards boldness if ever such an opportunity were to arise again. I caved. I spent those weeks considering all the ramifications, the possibilities, the messiness of our situation. I came to a realization that consequences be damned, you were, are, perfect for me in so many ways. That I've been watching my light fade, slowly, surely, dying... and that you rekindled my spark. I came to the realization that I needed, need, You. I pulled the trigger, somewhat more passive and timid then I wanted it to come out.
"Darling can I be your favorite? I'll be your girl, let you taste it... I know what you want, yeah, just take it. Darling can I be your favorite? Want you to tell me you crave it. My name's whatever you make it" - Favoite, Isabel LaRosa
I told you I made the video to that song for you, told you I meant every word. I would have begged for you, pleaded... I waited for your response with tears in my eyes and an ache in my chest... you didn't make me wait, or beg, or explain. You asked me then to be your pet. The tears of fear and anxiety turned to joy and fell unfettered.
It's April 5th. 2 weeks since I became yours. It feels longer, like we've always been this, like it spans lifetimes. You said you asked the universe for someone like me and I felt drawn to you. There's something there, fate, destiny, something... I'm not one for faith, usually, but I have it in you and if there is one thing I am certain of, it's that I was made for you. I have never known a love and passion and connection like we have.
Your effect on me is clear. I'm a better person under your control. I'm happy, blissful even. I'm sleeping less, motivated, more confident, healing both my body and mind, creating art for the first time in years - another core piece of me rekindled by your careful and dedicated guidance. You assuage my fears, calm and quiet my mind. You bring me peace I've never known and inspiration I had lost. You saved me when I was ready to amputate who and what I am just to not feel its pain. My life is full now, my goals coming into focus, your brilliant and beautiful mind forming our path. I know this will have it's challenges, but, for the first time in a long as I can remember...
I am not afraid.
I have what I need... You. I will strive every day to further your goals for us. I will be worth my trouble and complications. My dedication and worship of you will not falter. You are my god, my salvation and my purpose. I have never been happier, more fulfilled, or more excited for what lies ahead. I am the luckiest girl in the world to have caught your eye, and I won't forget it. I am yours. And I am so proud to call you my Master, my Owner, my Sir.
It's still 2 more weeks until I can touch you. I don't know how I'll make it that long. Without laying a finger on me, you've made me insatiably wet, made me cum, hard, with nothing but your voice in my ear. My body is alive and screaming every moment for your hands and mouth and cock, begging for your teeth and nails, your floggers and paddles, to kneel at your feet. I ache to be marked by you. To have my body claimed by you in person...
I am yours. Your enamored pet. Your good girl. Your naughty slut. Your insatiable fucktoy. Your devoted worshipper. Your property. Your slave.
Thank you. There are no words big or deep enough to express my adoration, obsession, and gratitude.
Thank you, Sir, for making me...
Yours.
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If GP Andy is still accepting questions...what would he say is the kinkiest thing he and his wife ever got up to? Does he have anything else left on like a sexual bucket list he wants to try?
Summary: Andrew Barber is back to answer even more of your burning questions about his relationship dynamic with his wife. This time involving his various kinks and his sexual bucket list. Written from Andy's POV. Also, check out Volume I.
Warning: the following response contains mature themes, including references to sexual kinks, ass play, role play, D/s lifestyles, spanking, blackmail, oral sex, ex-boyfriends, BDSM clubs, cursing, and more. Minors DNI.
A/N: This installment of A Word with Andy Barber also contains a brief reference to my fic, Happy Place, Interrupted. For more insight into Andrew Barber and his Baby Girl, please check out my ongoing Growing Pains Series. All mistakes are my own. Likes, comments, and reblogs are appreciated.
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So, itâs recently come to my attention through Baby Girl that weâve received another question. I say âweâ because I only feel comfortable answering these with her approval. Weâre a team, my princess and I, and I never want to make her uncomfortable. As with the last correspondence, I have permission to answer your questions however I see fit â provided that I remain honest and that I share my answers with my brat when Iâm finished.Â
No problem. Letâs dive in, shall we?Â
Hmm. The kinkiest thing my wife and I have ever done. Everyone seems to have their own idea on what qualifies as kinky these days, which is fine. Just keep in mind that what works for us and our marriage may not necessarily work for you.Â
Itâs not a secret that Baby Girl and I are big into role-play. We do it quite a bit actually. And while I tend to be the dominant force or the aggressor in a scene, we do occasionally shake things up. Recently, Mrs. Barber took on the role of a very ambitious employee who was committed to blackmailing her boss in an effort to move up the corporate ladder.Â
She had also come into several very incriminating photos as well. I mean, she threatened to tell my wife and ruin my good name in the process if I didnât see to her needs. What choice did I possibly have but to satisfy her?Â
After all, she was going to tell my wife! Â
And once I let her take the reins and run the show, we both got really into it. By the way, this wasnât just a single scene, but one of many that spanned a little over a month. We met several times at the house and at various hotels â when we could, of course.
Sometimes life gets in the way of our play. Especially when you happen to have four kids. One of the times we had a pre-planned rendezvous, we got a call that Rory threw up during recess. Which meant we had to cancel so that one of us could go pick her up from school.
Anyway, what made this game especially kinky for me was that I allowed my supposed blackmailer to take even more pictures of myself in a few rather compromising positions. Which may or may not have included a video of herâŚ
Fingering my ass.Â
Iâd never had it done before. And sure we had talked it over quite a bit beforehand. My lady and I watch porn together, so weâd seen videos. Iâm not saying that I plan on letting Baby Girl shove a dildo up my ass anytime soon â the concept of pegging makes my dick wilt â but the whole experience was definitely different. And once she found my prostate, I came like a fucking geyser.Â
After that, she sat on my face and ordered me to eat her until she was satisfied. She recorded that as well, and even played both back for me the last time we met up, just in case I got too cocky and thought about blowing the whistle on the whole thing.Â
Guess that just means that Iâll have to keep doing what my blackmailer says so she doesnât release the goods. Again, itâs not like I have much of a choice. Right? I figure Iâll be on the hook with this one for a while.Â
At least until her promised promotion comes through.Â
Anyway, Baby Girl also enjoys playing the role of a bored trophy wife. Which usually makes me the resident handyman. This particular scene always starts out fairly sweet and benign, but then evolves into something altogether different.Â
Itâs my job to try to resist her advances. But the more I do that, the more persistent and dominant my little wife (sorry, employer) often becomes. Last time, she somehow tied me up and subjected me to the most delicious bouts of tortureâŚÂ
And I enjoyed every goddamned minute of it.Â
Iâm telling you that I never thought I would be into situations where I wasnât the aggressor. But with her, I do. Honestly, I feel like I could spend hours watching fucking paint dry with that woman, and she would find a way to make it a good time.
Probably because weâd end up fucking on the floor or something. Whatever. I donât know. Letâs just blame the nonexistent paint fumes, alright?Â
Moving on.
In the spirit of sharing, I will also tell you that my wife and I enjoy meeting as âstrangersâ at random bars so that I can pick her up . I usually let her lead in those scenarios and base my various approaches on whatever vibe she presents me with that night. My Baby Girl loves it, as do I. The only thing I donât enjoy is when other men take it upon themselves to hit on her too. Â
Because she doesnât always wear her wedding ring when we play. Drives me up the fucking wall. But since it can sometimes be an unintended consequence of the game, I usually just force myself to grit my teeth and let that shit ride.Â
After all, what those ignorant fucks donât realize is the woman theyâre tripping over themselves for already has a man â me. And one way or another, sheâs going home with that man tonight â whether itâs on my arm or over my shoulder. Truthfully, I donât much care which way she chooses. But those are my sweet little bratâs only options. Â
On to the next question. It seems youâre curious about my sexual bucket list. Fair question. My wife and I occasionally frequent a certain club. As Iâm sure you can gather, these types of clubs are geared towards people with particular interests.
And yes, we are both members.
Baby Girl and I go together â I wouldnât damn let my woman set foot in there by herself. Not that sheâd allow me to ever go alone either. Even though I used to before I met her. At the time it seemed like the only way to get my needs met, but in all reality, I was engaging in some serious self-discovery.
For anonymity purposes I wonât give the name of the venue, but visiting always makes for an entertaining night out. We have rules for these nights of course. One that Iâll share with you all is that she wears a collar at all times. This is a must. And sheâll earn herself a spanking if she takes it off.
I might as well go out on a limb and tell you a little more about the collar, shouldnât I? In case you were wondering, itâs made of black leather with the words âDaddyâs Girlâ embossed on the front in pink rhinestones. It was actually her idea, funny enough. She surprised me with it way back when she realized that I possessed a bit of a housewife kink.  Â
But back to the club. Thanks to our nights out, Iâve learned that my princess can be a bit of a voyeur. She likes to watch other people during scenes. Nothing too crazy. But knowing how wet she gets seeing people enjoying a dash of pain with their pleasureâŚ
Just anticipating the breathy sighs and delicate whimpers that are sure to come as she clings to me, her Daddy, gets me hard as fuck. Lately, Baby Girl has expressed a serious desire to (maybe) perform while others are watching us during a scene.Â
At first I was against the idea. In case you didnât already know, I can be one hell of a possessive bastard. She and I have been together a long fucking time already and I donât plan on changing any time soon. I just donât. And in that same vein, I also donât want anyone seeing my woman the way that only I have been allowed to see her.Â
Look. I know she had two other partners before me, but I donât give a fuck. I will continue to pretend like they donât exist unless one of them feels like showing up at my front door. Iâm looking at you, Malcolm Waters. Fuck around and find out again if you want to, buddy.Â
That aside, I simply donât like the idea of anyone who isnât me knowing what Baby Girl looks like when she cums. Itâs a beautiful sight that simply isnât meant to be shared. Nor do I want them seeing her body, not when every inch of those sweet, luscious curves belong to me.
Daddy doesnât fucking share. It is what the fuck it is.Â
But since she was apparently expecting my reluctance, my Baby Girl came prepared with a compromise. What she wants instead is for me to punish her during our scene and then âforceâ her to suck me off as penance. I get to choose where I want to cum â be it in her mouth, on her face, or on her chest.Â
Iâd be lying if I said the thought didnât excite me. And if the situation proved to be too much for either one of us, we could always tap out and resume the scene again behind closed doors. But even though itâs a tentative thing, I suppose you could throw it on our list. Now, howâs that for an answer?
As always, I hope my above responses to all of your questions will continue to suffice for the time being. Thank you for being so respectful. And again, should you find yourself with more, please feel free to pass them along.   Â
Sincerely, Andrew Barber
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Just watched MSM Spiderman
The disney+ one that so many people hated and thought was the worst spiderman. Well I liked it, it had lots of potential and sorry I tried Ultimate y'know the [BEST] one ever but I just...physically can't. but yeah I could write some reviews so heres a quickie.
Overall when I watched some episodes thought it was over hated and some plots made me go "Le Gasp PLOT TWIST!" And ended up enjoying the writing.
But then there were parts that were cringe the "It's obviously its made for kids hence why it's agony to watch part." Or when it went hard at some points like peter not telling Harry he's Spiderman because his dad has a vendetta and didn't want to be put in the position of having Harry use Spiderman only to capture him because he'll have to choose between his best friend or his dad and Peter thought Harry would never choose him.
As I'm limited with the spidey content I watched with only the raimi/andrew Peter/osborn stories this cartoon actualy conceputilsed harry and Peters friendship because other versions just never hit that close and their issues etc.
But I understand why some people dislike it. Sure I like it, but yeah first season as it kept going I thought "Ah...I get it now."
They introduced Miles Morales near the beggining. Then he ghosted.
Oh no something explosed they need spiderman! Miles was RIGHT there!
And then the story was like Miles is missing!
What a surprise, it's as if the writers just remembered they have a SPIDERMAN v2 in there!
And I got bored becuase most of it was just filler like yeah thats what the guy in charge wanted. [I had the same idea with Ben 10 Omniverse, I liked that show too and didn' understand the hate and when a friend said should he watched it I was like "Oh sure here a ten episodes and thats pretty much it." him: Isn't there a hundred episodes? Me: Ah...I see the problem now]
But GOD the potential, I mean sure the Superior Spiderman ep 1 maybe I'm not giving it a chance and should skip a few and try again [I probably won't those noses? ugly I can't just it looks like a toenail]
Like no I can't believe I live in a world where TOENAIL face is called superior over...
This face at least it looks like they HAVE a nose! jeez
Anyway moving on, I admit it got to the point where spiderman only started feeling like spider-man in the last two episodes when his quips were actually funny and I thought. Yeah I'll end it at Season one. Given that they brought in black cat, dropped. Miles Morales spiderman? Dropped until convinient, Gwen Stacy turned her into a bug. Sandman "I did this for my daughter angst." Her daughter : I'm a sand person too! No thanks to you, deadbeat dad! Le gasp plot twist Daughter KILLS sandman! Oh my god did they just do that holy cow and THEN The sysbiote jumps in holy shit-
Daughter/sandman episode gets dropped. Symbiote episode: Spider-Man: The symbiote is awesome strong powerful amazing! People: No spider-man its making you evil. Spider-man: Your right! I need help getting it off!
And this happens twice, like again could've pushed it a lot harder, it's like introducing a cool concept and then just tripping on their feet at the finish line. Like c'mon. And Otto octavious voice felt so cartoonishly evil it was hard to take seriously since it sounded like robin from teen titans go. [I know it's the same voice actor I'm just saying I hate western cartoons currently coz I'm like wow I grew up with darker and harder villians like SLADE from teen titans meanwhile current villains are as scary as kittens its physically painful]
Anyway, say what you will about MSM but I actually loved how Norman Osborn was almost using cancel culture to claim that Spider-man was part of a spider army and things would happen like the jackal confirming it and if Norman actually manipulated events to make public opinion and his own son hate Spider-man and have it spiralling out of control?
I thought that was cool, and actually intersting of Norman instead of being goblin first, or a two bit villain used image/lack of context and painted him in a bad light. I just thought it was cool and wished more versions did that.
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And the other things, love this episode with iron man [shut up I like the potential kay!]
This scene was cute like iron man is dealing with a threat is so used to lethal/suspicious/more dangerous foes. So seeing this nerdy fanboy just happy to see him? And then scans him to realise he's a kid? How he was first attacking then became impressed then even figured out his obvious identity [Peter can't lie for shit] and had some obvious interest that even Black Widow mentioned it? How they had a team up, and stark almost died because of his arc reactor - like ugh the angst and I wish there was more. Just more episodes like this...
But then the symbiote scene wish again, cool since it was anti-tech but then the whole song and dance AGAIN of, symbiote good no you're right get it off!
Like idk I think they could've yknow what forget it. I'm a 90's kid who is so used to DARKER stuff that when this series just shaves the tip of the iceberg I'm like OOHHH the potential!
Such a shame...anyway thats what fanfictions are for.
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scream, v/h/s, and the conjuring ?
Scream:Â Choose one: Phone sex, video call, or sexting?
why must we fight. why can't we all kiss with tongue. honest answer, phone sex is underrated. visuals are nice and sexting allows you to really fantasize, but phone sex gives me what I'm really after... their voice and what my words can make it do. awwwoof
V/H/S:Â If you watch porn, what type is your favorite?
I do watch porn from time to time! cop out answer, my favorite is listening to audio clips and looking at pics and videos I've made subs send me during scenes... nothing gets me in the mood quite like hearing just how intense I made a sub whimper or beg fuckk
but if I'm browsing the world wide web, my porn preference is a firm split between queer furry tranny sex workers and just lotsa furry porn outright. a little fanfic when I'm feeling nostalgic
The Conjuring:Â Whatâs the best position to be spanked/spank someone? Paddle, whip, or hand?
oooh, best position to spank? they all have their uses, and frankly I haven't done every position yet... think I'd really love if I had a sub suspended and standing, or tied to a st andrews cross? could grab a chair and have it so I was at the perfect height for some really intense impact play. without that experience, face down flat on the bed restrained is a classic for a reason
also fuck I wish I had a paddle! I need to try thuddy pain out, I want to feel each strike run throughout their bonesss. paddle for sure but my crop can still pack a mean little bite~
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The Housemaid | Freida McFadden | Published 2022 | *SPOILERS*
âWelcome to the family,â Nina Winchester says as I shake her elegant, manicured hand. I smile politely, gazing around the marble hallway. Working here is my last chance to start fresh. I can pretend to be whoever I like. But Iâll soon learn that the Winchestersâ secrets are far more dangerous than my own...
Every day I clean the Winchestersâ beautiful house top to bottom. I collect their daughter from school. And I cook a delicious meal for the whole family before heading up to eat alone in my tiny room on the top floor.Â
I try to ignore how Nina makes a mess just to watch me clean it up. How she tells strange lies about her own daughter. And how her husband Andrew seems more broken every day. But as I look into Andrewâs handsome eyes, so full of pain, itâs hard not to imagine what it would be like to live Ninaâs life. The walk-in closet, the fancy car, the perfect husband.Â
I only try on one of Ninaâs pristine white dresses once. Just to see what itâs like. But she soon finds out...and by the time I realize my attic bedroom door only locks from the outside, itâs far too late.Â
But I reassure myself: the Winchesters donât know who I really am.Â
They donât know what Iâm capable of...
An unbealiably twist read that will have you glued to the pages late into the night. Anyone who loves The Woman in the Window, The Wife Between Us and the Girl on the Train wonât be able to put this down!Â
Millie Calloway is a recently released felon who is searching for a job. Sheâs on parole, and wants to keep her path on the straight and narrow. At the job she held, she was fired and told to leave so the cops wouldnât be contacted and shortly thereafter, she was evicted from her apartment and has since been living out of her car.Â
Somehow, she scores an interview for a housemaid position with an affluent couple, Nina and Andrew Winchester, taking care of things around the house and assisting in taking care of their daughter, Cecilia. During the interview, Nina appears to be excited about hiring Millie, and while Millie has doctored her resume a bit, Nina offers her the job a week later and the next morning, Millie arrives to her new life.Â
Millie is shown around the Winchester home and shown to her room, which is a small attic room at the top of the house. Millie is less than thrilled about the accommodations, but considering where she had been, she doesnât feel the need to complain. However, Ninaâs demeanor quickly changes during her first day of work. Nina was a happy woman, seemingly trying to befriend Millie. But, now she comes off as crazy and neurotic. Her moods change quickly, and she is often cruel and mean to Millie.Â
Andrew, Ninaâs husband, takes to Millie right away and they form a bond. He keeps saying off-the-wall things about Nina, such as she went through a difficult time and even confesses that Cecilia isnât his biological child but that he has been the only father sheâs ever known. Ninaâs innocent crush quickly skyrockets out of control. However, she knows not to take that jump with Andrew.Â
Nina constantly berates Millie, and Millie gets closer and closer to losing her cool with her but luckily, she never does. After a visit to a fertiltiy specialist, where Nina hopes to become pregnant soon, Ninaâs demeanor becomes quickly unbearable after she and Andrew are told that Nina wonât be able to bear children due to her age. Andrew, who has felt like his marriage was failing anyway, quickly becomes less and less involved with his wife.Â
Millie feels badly for them both, as she knew they both wanted a baby. But, after hearing why Nina has anti-psychotic drugs in her medicine cabinet, which she found while snooping, she feels it may be for the best. Several years ago, according to a woman at the ballet studio where Ceceilia takes lessons, Nina drugged herself and Cece, and attemtped to drown her in the tub. Millie is shocked at this revelation.Â
After discovering their fertility issues, Andrew suggests taking Nina to a broadway show, and Millie buys the tickets and books a stay at a hotel in the city. Nina tells her the date, but when the date comes, she berates Millie for booking the wrong date, even though Millie is sure she did the right one. When Nina leaves to take Cece to summer camp out of state, where she will be away overnight, Andrew suggests that the two of them go to the show. Millie, who has never been, is thrilled and excited. After dinner, and several bottles of wine later, they both decide to stay at the Plaza instead of returning home to New Jersey. The two of them end up sleeping together.Â
Life returns to normal, but Nina makes it clear that she knows of hers and Andrewâs discretion. A few days (weeks, maybe) after, Andrew kicks Nina out of the house and declares that heâs no longer in love with her.Â
It is here that we come to the second part of the novel, told in Ninaâs perspective. She had been working at the company Andrew works for, though not directly under his supervision. They enjoy lunch together, and eventually, their love blossomed. They are quickly married and Nina and Cece are moved into his home. However, we quickly come to learn that Nina was never the problem she has protrayed herself to be...it has been Andrew all along.Â
With the help of Enzo, Nina comes up with a plan to get out from under her husband. For years, any time she did something that he did not like, he would lock her inside the attic bedroom upstairs and make her undergo torturous punishments, such as pepper-spraying herself and withholding food and water. It was after the first time in the attic room that he began portraying Nina as crazy, and even went as far as drugging them both and attempting to kill Cece to make it look like Nina was the psychotic one.Â
For years, Nina underwent these things in order to protect her daughter. However, as mentioned, Nina comes up with a plan with Enzo, their landscaper. Directly from Italy, he agrees to help Nina as his own sister went through an abusive relationship that ended up with her life being taken and he wasnât able to do what he wanted to protect her, so heâs choosing to help Nina as a way to make up for his own indiscretions.Â
When Andrew gets wind of her attempt to escape, Nina realizes she will never be able to cleanly leave, therefore decides to find her replacement, and why she has hired Millie. But she did a background check on Millie, and knows that she was in jail for murder...not a drug offense like she had initially presumed. Millie had murdered a boy in her school at the age of 16 for attempting to rape her friend. She was charged with a lesser misdeamnor charge, and sent to prison, where she had been for the last decade. She knows that Millie has a way, and Nina hopes that she will kill Andrew for him.Â
After Nina has departed, Andrew and Millie seemingly begin a relationship. When he returns home from work one day, he finds Millie in her room upstairs packing up her things to bring down into the main house. The next morning, when Millie wakes up and attempts to leave the room, she realizes that Andrew is nowhere to be found and the door to the attic is locked.Â
And so begins Andrewâs torture of Millie, simply because she had left books on the coffee table and didnât return them. She does as she is told, by holding three large textbooks and phone books on her stomach for three hours straight. When Andrew comes to unlock the door and let her out, he explains that this is what happens when she misbehaves (i.e. when she does something he doesnât like). But, during her time in the attic, Millie has come up with a plan: she found the pepper-spray that Nina was forced to use on herself in the blue bucket in the closet, and attacks him. She then locks Andrew in the closet.Â
For days, Millie begins torturing Andrew the same way. She makes him spend 8 hours with the heavy text books placed over his genitals, keeps water from him, and even makes him pull out his own teeth in order to get out. Nina eventually returns at the urging of Enzo in order to help Nina, as he feels guilty that Nina has left Millie to deal with what she had to deal with. But when Nina returns, she finds Andrew inside the locked attic, where he is now dead and emaciated. Millie confronts her, and Nina tells her to get away, to do what she can to keep herself far from this.Â
When the police are called, Nina explains that Andrew must have locked himself in the attic on accident, without his phone. The police officer in charge of the case agrees that this is exactly what happened, as his daughter had been previously engaged to Andrew. Kathleen has since moved away and changed her name, and her father never knew what happened between the two of them.Â
At the funeral, Nina plays the role of the grieving wife, though she is unable to shed tears for the terrible man that her husband was. However, when his parents attend the funeral, Nina becomes painfully aware that Evelyn Winchester knows details about his missing teeth and assumes that she knows what really happened. But she tells Nina that whenever Andrew didnât take care of his teeth, she would punish him for it, even going so far as to take a pair of his baby teeth with pliers.Â
Eventually, a year after the events, Millie finds another family looking for a housemaid, and is told that Nina Winchester has recommended her highly. Millie sees that the woman she is interviewing with has suspicious bruising on her arms, and realizes why Nina has recommended her.Â
Discussion QuestionsÂ
1. Before she takes the job and at the very beginning of her emploment with the Winchesters, there are several warning signs that Millie does notice, but chooses to look past. Why doesnât Millie get out of this situation? Millie had just spent the last decade in prison. Who wouldnât want the freedom that she was experiencing. Sheâd either go back to jail OR go back to living out of her car, and she didnât want that. She ignored Ninaâs cruelty and behavior because she didnât want to return to her old life.Â
2. Do you read many thrillers? If not, does this novel make you want to read more? If so, how does this novel compare to other thrillers youâve read? I read thrillers pretty exclusively. I love the mystery and the attempt to try to solve it before the end. This particular book had me turning the pages quickly, and I didnât want to put it down. While I enjoy thrillers, this doesnât happen all the time with books.Â
3. Did you see the midpoint plot twist - revealed when the point of view shifted to Nina - coming? If so, what clues did you notice in part 1 of the novel that alerted you to the possible twist? I had an inkling when Enzo kept making hints. It was hard to believe a man of his large stature would be afraid of a woman three times smaller than him. But, it still sort of threw me. During Ninaâs point of view, I felt so badly for her.Â
4. What about the ending reveal of Andrewâs motherâs abuse of her son - did you anticipate that plot development? How, if at all, did it change your perception of Andrew? It didnât change my perception of him, but it does explain his behavior. No excuse or reason could ever make me feel badly for Andrew. But, the development that he endured the same kind of torture he was now inflicting on the people he supposedly loved, it makes sense. He was only doing what he was taught to do by a person who was supposed to love him. It explained his behavior, but didnât excuse it.Â
5. While Nina was, intentionally as it turns out, terrible to Millie, do you think this justifies Millie starting an affair with Andrew? Why or why not? No. At first I was like, go Millie! Take that terrible womanâs man. But, there is no excuse for cheating at all.Â
6. Nina was certainly in a desperate situation, but do you think she was justified in recruiting Millie and setting her up like she did? How did the midpoint twist change your perception of Nina? It bothered me that she was essentially grooming another woman to take her place. There is no excuse for that. But, I do understand what she was attempting to do. She saw no other way out - it was either that or she may have ended up dead herself.Â
7. Nina could have let Millie take the fall for Andrewâs death but she chse to cover for her, after much prompting from Enzo to check in. Did this further change your view of Nina? Is Nina ultimately a good or bad person? I think Nina is both - she was trying to protect her daughter like any good mother would, but she was also letting another woman go through torture in order to do it. Thatâs not how the world works despite Nina thinking so. If it werenât for Enzo, he knew what would have happened to Millie, though I donât think Millie would have had any long-term issues considering her past.Â
8. Nina thought sheâd go to jail, but she lucked out that Detective Connors, who investigated Andrewâs death, was the father of Andrewâs former fiance Kathleen and chose to help cover up the crime. Did you like this coincidence or did it seem too convenient or contrived for you? Didnât even see that twist coming. We never even knew Kathleenâs last name until that point, so when he made that confession, I was shocked. I enjoyed this, as itâs clear that Kathleen went through something horrible while being with Andrew herself. Heâs just another parent attempting to protect his child.Â
9. If the police and coroner hadnât helped cover up the murder and Millie and Nina had gone to trial for Andrewâs death, would you -if you were a member of the jury - have acquitted or convicted them? I would have acquitted them. It was self-defense, through and through.Â
10. Millie has a strong sense of justice and whatâs right and wrong. But she is also extremely violent. Did you like her character? Why or why not? I loved Millie. She knows what she did was wrong, but she was trying to protect her friend. She thought she was doing the right thing, and ultimately, paid her dues to society by spending several years in prison.Â
11. Andrew was undeniably a terrible person, but he also died a particularly gruesome death. Do you think he deserved what he got? Definitely deserved it. I canât even describe the way I feel about his character, but he deserved it 100%.Â
12. We got to hear from Millie and Ninaâs points of view. Would you have wanted to hear from Andrewâs point of view? Why or why not? No. Seeing it through their eyes was enough. I didnât need to sick and twisted perspective from him.Â
13. Millie frequently protests that the bad things that hapened to her, that is, the violence she inflicts on others, that then creates negative consequences for her, arenât her fault. Do you think Millie was just often in the wrong place at the wrong time, or do you think she has a psychological disorder? I wouldnât say she has a psychological disorder, nor do I think she was in the wrong place at the wrong time. Blaming others for what she did isnât the right way to go about it, but she may also lack the skills in order to come to terms with what she did. She spent a decade in prison, and was likely having to protect herself while inside from the other female inmates, so she was only projecting that in the outside world.Â
14. The character of Enzo is a bit of a cypher in the first part of the novel, but turns out to be deeply involved in Ninaâs scheme to escape Andrewâs clutches. What did you think of Enzoâs character? Enzoâs character made me laugh. At first I thought he and Millie would get together, but itâs clear he stuck around the house as much as he did because of Nina. But Enzo deeply cares. He is trying to protect the woman from the terribleness that was Andrew Winchester, he was trying to do what he couldnât do for his sister.Â
15. The epilogue implies that Nina sends another abused wife to Millie, presumably for Millie to punish her husband. Millie says, âI understand why Nina recommended me so highly to this woman. She knows me. Maybe even better than I know myself.â Do you think thatâs true? Do you think itâs fair to Millie for Nina to put her in another situation with domestic violence? I think itâs a bit of a stretch that Nina would send Millie for this simple reason. However, it does make sense. Nina hired her to murder her husband, so it makes sense that sheâd send Millie to someone else who needed help.Â
16. Mafadden has written a sequel featuring Millie working for a different family. Will you be reading it? Why or why not? It is next on my list! But of course. If there is a sequel to a book, and Iâm aware of it, I wonât even buy the first book without picking up the second copy with it, or borrowing it from the library. I need to know how things end. Honestly, McFadden could make an entire series of Housemaid books, and Iâd read them all. And I sort of hope that they turn it into a movie or TV series. Iâd definitely take the time to watch it!Â
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