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I’m sorry, I have to push against this. This is a lovely reading into what the series has *become*, but the original game did not commit to the queerness of it, nor was it at the focus of the story. The original creators at DONTNOD specifically stated *publicly, in interviews* that a romantic relationship between any of the main women was not directly intended nor was it the point. Their point was that it was about the strength of their friendship, per their own words. They have stated, as tactfully as artists refusing to take hard stances do, that if you saw that in them then it was true for you.
We had to fight for years for acknowledgement of Pricefield by the studio, getting piecemeal crumbs along the way. Koch may be publicly in favor now, but he was awful shy about it for quite some time after release. Moreover, this game did also go through periods where that relationship was considered queerbait AND an example of burying your gays. Considering the only ending in which you could show romantic affection to Chloe was one where she dies, it’s not hard to see why that was the discussion.
Moreover, picking Bae wasn’t a choice about happiness - it was a choice about which atrocity you could live with - that’s the moral background of the trolley dilemma to begin with. You aren’t inherently more moral for picking one over the other - it’s for you to find the answer about what wouldn’t destroy you. Every Bae ending exists in the shadow of the death of so many people, and there are just as many justifiable endings in which Max and Chloe’s story goes this way than there are not.
And as I’ve said in other posts - I fail to see how this somehow ruins their relationship. There’s an after to this story, one in which the trauma Max deals with for her trolley dilemma is finally embraced and accepted, *the very thing that was interfering in her relationship with Chloe.* This game told us the story of a girl finally putting her demons to rest, and you think that means the designers hate Pricefield? This setup now gives any opportunity to see them back together, whether they’re able to do it (because game devo is a landmine industry rn) or not, even if we don’t see Chloe again, Pricefield can actually still have a happily ever after *and now Max doesn’t have the guilt crushing her anymore*.
I love the original game, and I love that the queerness that I saw in my first playthrough finally not only got acknowledged but became the mainstream opinion. But it is fundamentally incorrect to suggest that it was always the intention and that D9 somehow trod on that, when they actually canonized Max as a queer girl AND canonized a Max and Chloe romantic relationship beyond, any doubt.
It’s fine to not like Chloe’s absence - I have my own feelings on that. But memory holing the battle we had to go through to get here feels pretty terrible, like you’ve invented a history that moralizes your dislike that just leaves out the inconvenient reality.
"but it's realistic that they would breakup"
Not the point.
"But they had a lot of trauma the re-"
Also not the point.
"But at least she's a-"
Absolutely not the point.
Y'all trying to justify a narrative choice from within the narrative constraints.
That's a mistake.
Just like how many people never understood why so many would pick Bae ending, so many people just don't seem to get what the pairing meant overall.
Y'all realise what this pairing meant to people when it came out?
Despite the issues with the ending, the adoration and love the pairing has to this day has been earned by the game - it's inseparable from the franchise and it's reception.
It wasn't just another pairing. It wasn't just something that existed as bait or something within fanon or something developers never committed to.
Through the years plenty of ships get baited disingenuously while throwing the audience nothing but breadcrumbs - for example the disaster of Sherlock fandom, the mess with Supernatural, Teen Wolf, Voltron and so on. Or the way Blake/Yang in RWBY were the most blatant baiting that got no on-screen development(despite all the setup that show ignored for years) till the moment the show literally was getting axed and they wanted to milk LGBTQ+ community for money one last chance, skipping all the development to characterization characters deserve and attempting to bribe LGBTQ+ community with breadcrumbs at the last possible second.
And some shows would stumble into something important but fail to realise it and thus end up squashing it - ask Buffy fans about Tara and Willow or The 100 fans about clexa.
There were LGBTQ+ pairings in video games too but rarely they would be so front and center and very often would be playersexual.
This wasn't what Life is Strange ended up being.
Life Is Strange, at the very core is about queer experience - about fitting in, about making connections in the world that rejects you, about finding beauty in the life that hates and hurts you - Max and Chloe's relationship is the key to the entire game.
For some that meant letting go but for others? It gave the chance to fight a trope no matter what and to get an ending, albeit flawed, where a WLW pairing they liked can be happy and face the future together.
People lived through those two characters and their experiences finding something genuine to relate to.
Max and Chloe were that generation's Korra/Asami, Willow/Tara, etc.
Even DONTNOD recognised that in the end and treated it with respect.
Double Exposure might not pull a BYG outright but it sure does everything to kill the happy memories a fandom made about the pairing - to go back through every single ray of sunshine one ending got and subvert it, taint it, reject it.
Picking the Bae choice when playing Double Exposure is the Narrative constantly telling you how wrong you were to expect happiness when you picked the ending where the pairing is intact and how acshually it isn't intact!
It doesn't kill the characters but it sure goes an extra mile to kill what those characters MEAN to the audience.
Realism, plausibility and so on come after - it's what a writer does when they decide on a path. A writer doesn't just do something because it makes sense and is out of their control - they decide to do it and then make it make sense. Whether they succeed or not depends on how good a writer is.
Double Exposure isn't the story about a breakup. It isn't the story about two women dealing with their trauma.
Double Exposure treats an iconic pairing people cared about as a backstory element - nothing more.
Deck Nine expects the audience to accept what happened and move on to shiny new cast and possible new LIs.
The writers of Double Exposure are telling you - "look, this doesn't matter. Now here's a new mystery you can solve and new cast and look Max is back and you liked using her powers right? Use powers to do stuff."
To this developer team the core element of what made the franchise so important to its audience is nothing more than a leftover plot thread to "write around".
Because to these writers queer experience apparently starts and stops with searching for a relationship - someone being in a relationship that's not part of the story or someone being comfortable NOT being in a relationship at all just don't exist.
What Deck Nine writers seem to be doing is treating it as disposable or interchangeable/replaceable, while also inadvertently tainting whatever comes after with fandom rage.
The worst thing that can happen to a new character is being "the next love interest" - because people channel their frustrations towards the character (or in some worst cases, please don't do this, the actor).
Where there was an iconic part of the franchise Double Exposure, intentionally or not, sets up a toxic battle ground.
That's the point - treating LGBTQ+ audience as sales numbers, manipulating us, treating something that has been a formative experience to so many lives as disposable, or worse yet - malleable.
(And yes there's also a wider issue with Deck Nine and the working conditions there, misogyny, the nazi imagery and the rest but I don't think this is that disconnected from that? How they treat their audience and subject matter is a reflection of culture inside.)
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The Refusal and An Awakening - Lose Clarity AU
(i was gonna make this a storyline but slsbsigwisbskshksb- its just a lore dump now :/ kinda sad since cool title ^ from my brain but whatever sbksbdksns)
(but hey so remember when Moon(Nexus) put a cure into Ruin’s head? well uhhhh, here’s a little story for you guys about one major point in my AU-)
When Ruin waited for Moon(Nexus) to find him and Sun, Nexus caught him and injected the cure into Ruin’s systems. The cure rushed in his systems and Ruin collapsed, seemingly turning off for a few minutes before rebooting. However that’s not entirely the case in this AU.
I may or may not hace established this in my first post on this AU, however the virus was submerged in Ruin’s systems for years while he was in his home dimension and only started working when he left his dimension; reasons being the Creator. The Creator was the controller of those affected by the hivemind code he made in the home dimension, Ruin being unaffected due to the Creator (being a dumbass for once and not checking his sources-) i mean due to the Creator not noticing he had somehow skipped over Ruin’s code.
Back to my point - when Ruin was injected with the ‘cure’, his systems refused it. It refused the cure, his code copying itself instead. This copied code semi-mixed with the cure in his systems in a way and a small piece of a bigger puzzle was created..
Puzzle!!! the little one who Ruin is now the guardian of!!
(more detailed design elements below, ignore me not having an actual eye design yet-)
i apologize for this post being so long as well 🥲 anyway i should probably go to bed now alsbeibsksbsksnsk
@ryomaandgundhamkin you can now do little guy drawings if you wanna bdksbzksbksbsksns
Bonus:
Puzzle in one of those little baby dresses :3
(yes they have a tail, yes im keeping that component, yes they only have 1 side of rays and one looks like puzzle pieces put together)
anyway ima go crash and pass out now, its almost 4 am, honk shoo time
#tsams#sun and moon show#the sun and moon show#sams#laes#lunar and earth show#tsams au#sams au#lose clarity au#tsams lc au#sams lc au#idk how to tag this#au info#textpost… kinda#tsams ruin#tsams sun#tsams nexus#<- mentioned them#sun and moon show au#au art#my art#doodle#sketch#sketches#uhhhhh yeah ima leave it there#an actual like- written lore post is coming soon; and other drawings#i had no idea what to do with this post tbh#i have like 6 drawings with Puzzle and Ruin i’m currently waiting to post diepsnoebsisbsisnsjms#anyway-
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I’m here again, this time announcing a more public apology using the tags I am frequently seen on in hopes this will reach my desired audience. reblogs would be greatly appreciated so hopefully this will find the people that have me blocked so they can hear from me directly. yesterday I posted an apology linked on my pinned post explaining my behavior and the whole situation. basically, I explained that the people I have blocked are blocked because of my mental health. these are the people I have received a plethora of death threats over and in the midsts of my common sh-ing and terrible mental health I have blocked the people I am getting threats over to stop any contact so I can focus on myself and my health for the time being. I planned, that when I eventually felt better, they would be unblocked and I would formally explain myself to them and greatly apologize for the issues I have caused. unfortunately I have realized that they took matters into their own hands and decided to call me out and spread accusations about me. I have lost a great amount of followers and received death threats to a great extent you would not believe if I told you. I sincerely apologize for anyone I have hurt in the midsts of dealing with my health and I understand that I am now universally hated on here, I truly do, because blocking people without reason or a reason as simple as just my mental health is supposedly “not reasonable” enough to be a full excuse. but it’s the gods honest truth, and I promise you that I am trying to better myself but if you have ever struggled with health issues, you may know it’s not very easy. if logging out is what I must do to keep the composure on here then so be it because apparently I’m not very liked by a lot of people anyways so I think my parting wouldn’t have too bad of an affect over anyone (excluding my lovely mutuals and the followers that are still with me, I love you guys). so again, to close this up, I am apologizing for the way I have acted and I hope you understand my side of the story. whether you believe me or not, that is up to you, but I only felt like publicly apologizing and explaining my actions would in some way help for everyone to understand what’s happening
#prue speaks ੈ✩‧₊˚#there’s probably spelling errors I wrote this fast#xoxochb#percy jackson x reader#jason grace x reader#leo valdez x reader#leo valdez x you#jason grace x you#percy jackson x you
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From the post-canon Solavellan fic I’m writing. 🥹 Veilguard ending spoilers after the cut.
She longs to touch him, to get to know his body again as she once knew it, but instead she crawls into bed next to him and holds his hand. “I remember the night skies in the Western Approach. One of the few things I liked in Orlais.” She stares up, past the ominous columns of now-dead tyrants and concentrates, calling forth a dark night sky punctuated by millions of dots of vivid light. “Maybe it’s not Orlais that I liked at that moment, but the company. Listening to your stories about the constellations. I used to imagine forever in your words during those moments.”
“Iris, you may be mortal in Waking, but here your connection to the Fade has returned in full. Age will not take you.” Solas sounds apologetic as he says this and she gives him a funny look.
“Good? Did you think I was unaware of this?”
“Age will not grant you an escape from the fate you’ve chosen.”
“Again, good? I told you once that I hated the thought of you being alone. You were alone for eight years after that conversation. You will never be alone again. You will never want for love or affection again. I knew what I was choosing and I made my decision years before the moment our eyes met again for the first time.”
#solas#solavellan#j’s fics#dragon age the veilguard#j's fics#datv#da4#da4 spoilers#datv spoilers#veilguard spoilers#solavellan fanfic#solavellan hell#Iris Lavellan
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@lesbeealien these aren’t my tags but here’s my last response for you:
1. You still chose to make a tone deaf comment on a post that was very obviously expressing distress about a set of events that affects me and many others personally. The fact that this is a public website or that the post was reblogged by others is irrelevant. You may have put it in the tags to avoid a discussion, but you did so knowing I and other USamerican women would see it in a moment of very real fear and anger. Why?
2. No, it doesn’t prove anything about us. You not specifying your country doesn’t take away from the blatant and inappropriate “whataboutism” of your words. This is the not the moment to spring on people for failing to be perfectly political correct.
3. We know it affects other countries; that’s another reason we’re upset. Again, the fact that you’re accusing us of not knowing this instead of realizing that’s a reason why we’re *upset enough not to thoughtfully specify our country in our vent posts* is unbelievably thoughtless.
4. I can spend every other moment of the year looking up to female leadership in this country and others, and I do. You’re going to ask me to do that in a moment where I just had it publically affirmed how much the people of MY country still hate women? How much the people of MY country would rather vote for a rapist than a woman? How much the people of MY country do not care how many women here and abroad will die or suffer immensely because of this decision? How thoughtless can you be? How stuck on the high horse of “USAmericans are self centered and stupid” can you be to see the women of a country expressing pain and fear and deep sadness and get mad at us for not choosing our words in the most politically correct manner possible? Have some goddamn empathy for other women and get your head out of your ass.
How many more women will live their entire lives never having seen a female President
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officially unemployed 😎
#this may or may not affect my posting here#and if you see tags talking about work they were queued#dan.txt
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Monarch: Legacy of Monsters - 1x04
#mlomedit#monarchlegacyofmonstersedit#monarch: legacy of monsters#monarch legacy of monsters#cate randa#may olowe-hewitt#anna sawai#kiersey clemons#monarch legacy of monsters 1x04#cate x may#femslash related stuff#but subtext#so I spent the first half of the ep going oh okay never mind my first post#this is clearly setting up a may/kentaro reunion#but this?? was??? extremely unnecessary?#tbh it doesn't fit with their (current) relationship at all?#I mean I guess cate looking after may might have affected her#and the ''one of us has to make it out of here'' meaning to get word to her sister perhaps#which she so easily told cate about and not kentaro >_>#but like...the framing...I'm not wrong right#the last gif
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"Administratively, too, [...] queens were considered the legal lords of their landholdings. [...] Grants noted that the queen's officials had administrative autonomy without being subject to the king or anyone else, and evidence of the same assumption can be gleaned from court rolls that were recorded with headings indicating the lord of the manor whose court proceedings were being enrolled. As an example, some court rolls for the manor of Haveringatte-Bower specified that it was the court of [Margaret of Anjou] that was in session, while later rolls recorded Elizabeth Woodville as the lord of the manor court."
-Michele Seah, 'My Lady Queen, the Lord of the Manor': The Economic Roles of Late Medieval Queens", Parergon, Volume 37, Number 2, 2020.
#queenship tag#margaret of anjou#elizabeth woodville#I really appreciated how Seah acknowledged the uneven surviving evidence for her subjects and how that affects her analysis.#It was very brief but it was more than what most historians do so it was very refreshing :)#my post#english history#this is for @ anon who asked if its true that Margaret mostly hosted her own courts while EW mostly stayed with her husband#I'm not sure which (if any) historian has said something like this* but I highly doubt it's true !#We don't really have solid itineraries in place for either queen to make any kind of firm conclusions of the sort#(ie: about their residences or anything else) though I'm sure it would have varied depending on the situation#But either way it's explicitly clear that both Margaret and Elizabeth held their own courts in their own lands on multiple occasions#And we also have evidence of both of them residing with their husbands in regular circumstances#*tbh this is too long to get into right now but this assumption does fit into the few 'revisionist' interpretations of both Margaret and EW#(which imo is just as degrading as her traditional interpretation for the latter) so I wouldn't be surprised if some#historians may have framed their situations in such a way and relied entirely on their own assumptions to do so#Either way as far as I know there is no evidence of any such contrast existing - at least not on a consistent basis.#and the evidence we do have contradicts the assumption#Hope this helps! I figured a proper excerpt from this article would clarify the point better than any direct answer from me <3#also in case anyone was wondering I *think* the title ('My Lady Queen the Lord of the Manor') was referring to administrative accounts#of EW based on what Seah wrote here - though ofc I'm not sure#queue
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#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#ask to tag#twitter is a mess#I may stop running the parallel twitter account cuz like. I never liked twitter much.#I think I've complained repeatedly in the past few days#but like. I do not like checking my notifs there even though no one's being mean#but I love seeing y'all's tags and stuff#it's just like. there's a degree of optional distance that's a lot more comfortable for me?#like I can reply directly to a reply or qt on twitter and it's kind of expected.#that's not even a function we have here!#also twitter has always been bad for posting images and having remotely functional archives#and I don't get to differentiate between post body and tags which I obviously love doing#idk bro I just don't like twitter! I never did!#and what with both me and the website being Very Sick it's rapidly becoming not worth it to cross-post!#(obviously this doesn't affect y'all at all; you're already here and the tumblr will keep running)#(cuz I like drawing and I like using tumblr.)#(I'm just taking a moment to complain.)#(I've got a lot to complain about apparently lol)
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So…I’ve been met with some very devastating news recently and I am struggling to sleep…
I hope I can get past this soon and get some rest…
#text post#delete later#because I need it and I have important doctors appointments in the mornings#just a heads up to my small yet caring group here#I may feel bad for a while#it may affect my mood and ability to focus on my art and such#thoughts get worse at night too#and I’m hot and cold and can’t find a happy temperature
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ive been wanting to revisit homestuck for the last year and ive finally gotten up and made a blog about it. i joined tumblr in 2015 specifically because i was reading homestuck and wanted to find fan content about it, but after a while i fell out of the space. i considered myself an ex-homestuck, if you will. but the fan space has changed so much in the almost 10 years since i first really started engaging with it and i really like a lot of the stuff being made now, it's been inspiring and kind of reflects what i remember getting out of the comic more, which just has really driven me to want to start doing fan stuff again. i made so much fanart all the time back when i was in high school, comics and sketches and digital pieces galore. i want to revisit it because in so many ways it feels like it provides a really good platform to jump off of if i want to draw but can't come up with anything right away, you know??? there's so many characters to doodle while you think. so here i am.
#ghostly posts#homestuck#im gonna be following blogs and making new art in the coming days (my pfp and banner need updated BAD)#i may also completely forget to come back here for a bit cause im about to leave on a three day trip this weekend lol#well just see how it goes#reading homestuck fundamentally changed the way i type online btw#i used to be the kind of guy to use the tumblr post editing to fix typos#everything had to be proper grammatically all the time.#but after really getting into homestuck and reading the pesterlogs i started to realize that#the way you type affects the way that your voice is perceived in huge ways. like between other people#also its so much faster if you worry less about typing correctly! just is#anyway. i have zero followers on here cause this blog has been torched like 5 times i keep changing it#but we'll do something fun with it again
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......I might be completely misinterpreting your vagueblogging about prompt generators, but uhh. You do write at an extremely fast rate, so it's worth asking, anyways— how *do* you come up with plot ideas and write them so quickly? I regularly have "i have vibes and characters but no direction" type writers' block, and considering how well you write vibes into your plots, i figured you might have some interesting insight
hi reyni would you like all of my affection forever and ever and ever
okay. sorry. i like talking about writing. thank you for this excuse <3 the joke answer is "participating in the extreme timed gift exchange Did Something to me." under a cut because this got long.
i feel i ought to disclaim up front that what i'm about to say is probably stuff that it is possible to practice and improve at. it would in fact be kind of wild to claim you couldn't get better at this. but i really really do not know where the lines are between [i can do this particular thing well because i've been practicing] and [i can do this particular thing well because my fandoms are unusually suited to this form of engagement, i.e., writing fic to fill in gaps in canon material and start conversations, because there are frequently So Many gaps] and [i can do this particular thing well because i am juggling ~less than average in terms of Meat Space Concerns, e.g. re: rent, food, health, and thus have more energy for writing lots].
anyway. the actual answer is... uh. hm. okay. there's parts to this. re: coming up with plot ideas, i feel like i write a lot but there is almost never plot? most of my fics are like. character studies. nothing resolves. things start and end and happen without warning or explanation. however if you are asking about "Literally How Do You Decide What The Characters Do On The Page," i've found it helpful to find, like, One Image or One Beat or One Idea that i feel is really important to the idea, and build everything around that?
if i have characters and a vibe, i ask myself, "okay, what do i like most about these characters specifically, thematically speaking, and what can i have them do that puts those interesting aspects of them in the spotlight?" like, a while ago i was like "oh, i want to explore how these two characters both really miss this absent third character" and then the process was -> "what's One Moment that would encapsulate that really well?" -> "they sit together and are both imagining that the other person is actually the missing person" -> "okay how do i make that kind of situation happen" -> "i'll put them right near the end of a long trial (guard down because they're tired; starting to think about the future and what they want next because they know this thing will be over soon)" -> everything else in the fic gets written to create that situation and feed into that feeling of absence, but the main thing is that final beat of them sitting together.
...does that, like, make sense? is that helpful at all?? i'm reminded of that quote i read once, about how a poet's job is to stumble upon a fruit, that one beautiful thing, and then to write and write until they can make people see the tree that could have produced that fruit. or something like that. complete the image, in a way. i'm so sleepy, i am not digging up that quote right now. if you can take the vibe + characters and find one ~theme or truth about them you want to put on display, that's the fruit. then it becomes a matter of getting them to talk about / confront that theme. make them vulnerable if they hate being vulnerable. if you like the way they're smart, give them a puzzle and figure out how they solve it. put them next to someone they have unexpected parallels with. take an image and elaborate. (i guess, also, re: elaborating on an idea: worth asking yourself, "what is the specific thing i like about this idea, how can i emphasize it through dialogue / action / narration?")
re: doing it fast. i think it's helped that the past few months there's been very little between me and my laptop, so i can just open a google doc whenever and write a few sentences down if that metaphorical piece of fruit drops on my head :P or like, type it up on my notes app on my phone. sometimes i write entire scenes on my phone because i'm doing the whole song-and-dance of getting into bed but i just had an idea. i dunno. is it kind of stating the obvious in an annoying way if i'm like "write stuff down all the time!! anything can be an idea that can get elaborated on!!" ? sometimes i look at my notes app and go "wow, that idea was good, actually, how could i rework it for this other thing." or, like. write the vibes down even if you think it's obvious or boring? write the character interaction even if you don't have setting or even how these two guys got into the same room? write the pretty sentence even if it doesn't quite fit anywhere except in the vague morass of vibes in your head? do it badly / awkwardly / visibly missing pieces so then you have scaffolding and material for something good later?
[squints] possibly the thing i'm saying is "write literally whatever, whenever, and at some point something good has to come out" which is maybe not even a wildly inaccurate description of my process but might also be glaringly obvious. uh. hope this helps!
#chattering sparrow#i also really wonder how much i'm affected by. the fact of having something like a community?#like. there's the [knowing i'll get SOME kind of interaction when i post on ao3] and the [having friends to get excited about ideas with]#and the [reading fic that i can then write fic in response to]#like. would i be as inclined to constantly think through fic ideas without those things? i dunno! it's like a. ~feedback loop.#i write a thing -> people talk about / appreciate my writing -> i think about my writing -> i write more stuff#my response here may be undervaluing that as a factor#again. so incredibly tired right now. i hope this is readable.
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Not to be all sappy, but yesterday was my birthday, and it was genuinely a good day. That might not be a big deal to some people, but i historically have not had many great days on my birthday (or in general) so this was lovely 💜
i love the friends around the world that texted me, and i love the ones that came over to play Magic, watch Nightmare Before Christmas, and talk nonstop until 6am about anything and everything. I love that my mom saw rose gold metallic balloons in the grocery store and knew immediately that i’d love them, i love that my sibling was the first one to sing to me even though they live 1,500 miles away, i love that i was able to eat dinner AND desert without having an allergic reaction! I love my life now more than i think i did in all of my teen years, and i am so grateful that i lived long enough to see 20.
#also shoutout to one of the friends who came over for educating herself & our other friend who was visiting on mcas and how it affects me!#i’ve been in pain for over half my life now. but i have ways of coping with that now and i’ve accepted it#also the pizzelles i made were fucking WONDERFUL and my friends without dietary restrictions also thought so which is amazing#i modified a recipe for those but i may post what i did here and leave a link to the recipe i based it off of#to my friends who i didn’t see or talk to yesterday: i love y’all just as much! everyone i consider a friend is someone i care about a lot 💕#personal#a rare positive post#birthday
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Quick question! Are they soulless constantly in pain and suffer 25/8 or are they just kinda „eh; guess I‘m rotting“ like zombies or are they infinitely searching for something that feels like it’s missing (due to the no soul thing)?
What is the whole soulless experience like?
:D! oh all of the above though only the first is hardbaked into their nonexistent dna!! stuck in a human body that's unable to process sensory input the right way & still tethered to the invisible moon via their blood. granted, it's not burning blood jail 900% of the time, sometimes it's just an uncanny itch, random muscle aches, spasms, tingling nerves that sputter and spark; sometimes it's like nothing is wrong at all (esp prevalent with gray who will only notice some minor ache in response to linnea's touch driving it out of him <3 ofc that only makes it more painful when she withholds her cure, esp esp when she's in the mood 2 make him worse on purpose ww) this ask is getting away from me help
camp Rotting For Sport is mostly sky content as she heads towards soulless existence via blood rot/nascent pain (shoutout to dream game :)🔪) sorry babygirl say goodbye to your hard-won strength control we are unlocking the birthright you never wanted </3
nd the 'searching for something thats missing' is mostly a consequence of the condition nd manifests differently for all of them!! faye is chronically homesick for the invisible moon she just wants to go back n quit existence, less so because of the pain (it isn't helping, sure) but she's the only one who finds a weird solace in it. the proof of her origin, her destination calling out to her!! and gray is the direct opposite, violently chasing any human feeling and desire, compounded by the fact that linn indulges in life so brilliantly she has so much fun!! but it's russian roulette whether or not he can partake in the same way; longing to eat but unable to hold food down. longing to sleep but never rested. etc etc the list is longer than i'm willing to engage him as a complex character rather than the guy in the 10 of swords card 💀
long story short, being soulless sucks as much as any chronic illness sucks but they're very good at making the worst of it too <3
#this ask jumpscared the fuck out of me bc i was sideblogging and for a moment thought i had accidentally posted smth to main askdjaksjdksjf#askbox#anonbox#oc asks#I LOVE DOING OC ASKS SO MUCH TY FOR UR INTEREST ILYYY <3333333#also platinum road is one of my favourite settings bc it forces faye to confront the question if living might not be worth it after all#(being gay and arianna's object of affection will do that 2 u <3) not a love saves all scenario by any means but a fun thought experiment#bc she is so utterly devoid of human connection in the main storyline. she n eliada are besties but they both just wna go home#for the price of mindbreaking one (1) teenager you too can quit ur job & retire ! (terms & conditions may apply)#much more i could say here but that wld be getting way out into the weeds n maybe a little too on main#trust me when i say i have SO MUCH WRITING on these bastards n the shit they deal with / results of their hashtag coping mechanisms >:3#oh nd fwiw there is actual Zombie Rotting (live love laugh) in the azra corner but that's a wholly different story#sometimes you become a vessel for the universe's harddrive reset and that's okay! carry on soldier
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tbh too many of you hashtag actually autistic bitches sound like dr aspergers favorite patients when you talk about other autistic ppl except instead of just calling "less functional" autistic ppl the r slur you call them lazy abnormal weird freaky etc and accuse them of insane shit bc they cant keep up w whatever innane social expectations that only exist on the internet even if theyre NOT HURTING ANYONE or being unkind to you or they struggle to get a job / self care / etc and you Swear it totally cant be related to autism because they seem Fine enough to execute it on here because of course how someone acts sitting at their computer in a controlled enviornment where you arent as likely to be overstimulated in predictable areas of the internet is indicative of how they must respond to situations in the real real life. please be kinder to people you dont exist day to day with and cant possibly understand the struggles of good lord.
#this is bc a post made me mad im not saying you arent allowed to be mad at people for xyz or w/e ultra specific situatuon youll project#not whatever u may imagine or project from whatever specific situation#this is how cringe culture ppl will go Well Im Autistic and im not ACTUALLY this WEIRD or#Bc Im Autistic Im The Authority On WhT Autistic Ppl Are AbleTo Do And If They Struggle Its Fake#like this is abt ppl targetting ppl not based on wrongdoings but genuinely just being Strange to them despite the fact they arent affected#its fucking different if theyre actually being. fucked up to you or are confused or smth and arent being mean#i just kind of hate how theres Autism Acceptance but theres not actually acceptance its just a specific palatable autism#that ppl joke is a new cool evolutionary state of humanity when its like. well i guess i should just die bc my evolution is just fucked!#infection#ask to tag#prolly also set me off bc work fucking sucks rn and im actually Fortunate i even can try as hard as i am. bc legit at 1 point i couldnt.#there was a point in my life i could not be here and the fact i am isnt necessarily what happens to everyone.
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SOME UPDATES !
Credits are completely updated across all blogs! There are also now designated tags for where and which blog I am using something for. All of these items are now viewable on my hub; they were posted privately as to not spam the dashboard, but are all of course linked in the credit section of my overview + navigation page and in any of my rules for my sideblogs as well. Along with that, there is now a post that includes all of the icon batches I’ve found and am using ( if I haven’t outright made them myself ) just to keep them in one place and easy link to / properly credit!
I’m adding music widgets to my blogs! None of them are autoplay ( nor will they ever be ), and I’ve done my best to make sure that all songs are consistent sound-wise so that one song won’t be wildly louder than the previous. Though this is really only applicable to duelcafe, as it’s the only blog of mine that has multiple songs on it. Still — no player will be set to max volume, or even half for that matter. My character sideblogs will get one song each, which will be rotated every now and then as I see fit! I’m not finishing adding players to all my blogs yet, but look forward to them.
I edited the coding of my themes with responsive centering for desktop! Well, at least for the blogs that didn’t already have it ( which would be duelcafe, seamtorn, and waterlord. ) This means that no matter the screen size of someone’s device, bigger or smaller than my own, my blog will still appear centered on their screen. If you notice any problems with my themes and they are not centered on your screen for some reason, let me know! I’ll try to figure out why that is. I’ve done my best to test and make sure things are in proper order, but it’s hard since I only have my own screens to go off of, so I can’t be 100% certain if works for everyone and their respective devices.
#✰ — 𝒐 𝒍 𝒅 𝒏 𝒆 𝒘 𝒔 ,#𝑞𝑢𝑒𝑢𝑒𝑑 ♥#[#i also moved some#ooc / mun posts to this blog too#since that's where i'm strictly keeping such content now#tbh#i blame bellu for putting me in the path of discovering the music widgets#xD#some of you guys may have already noticed these changes#i just forgot to announce things at the time#hfjdsk#also hope i didn't just screw up all my themes-#might try to make the theme here#more into a floating container?#we'll see#honestly i'm just proud that i managed to get something done#in all this chaos#also note that it really only affects desktop users#& that some themes still have exact portions#so while they'll be centered#they won't get bigger or smaller#a 500px width container is still only going to be 500px in size#does that make sense?#]
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