#this isnt meant to be disrespectful to anyone

[rene-darling]

here me out on this, afab Scara, reader eating him out while praying, since you mentioned in your 'how easy to bed each of the scara eras' that he likes being worshipped I think it'd be pretty interesting.

TO- be worshipped is to be loved.

...you pray daily, without fail you pray to your god, in a place..made best for prayer...credits [Oishru] on X

Hinted AFAB scaramouche though it's not clearly described, gn neutral reader, as reader's gender is not hinted to! Though if you squint its kinda hinted to the fact that the reader is in the church very often

So it can be perceived as nun!reader, but you can also take it as priest!reader

...scaramouche...

Wanderer wouldn't like to be worshipped as much as his past self, scaramouche would.

He finds it embarrassing to part his legs for you; in order for him to feel worshipped, he needs to feel above you, at least in the beginning. His back is cushioned by soft pillows as he tugs in your hair trying to ground himself in some way,

Tugging fists fulls he can't decide whether to pull you into the heat spreading through him or to push you away, it's too much!

And your soft, ever so sweet words- a contrast to your harsh tongue which eats him raw, a contrast to even his own harsh grip. But you never say anything. You don't complain about the scratch marks or the fist full of your hair that he pulls out

Nor about the blood that seeps from any part of you that he holds on to, his grip is never yielding, afraid that if he lets go, you'll go too.

But those thoughts get buried the longer the night goes on, spasms of his body shaking at every touch every lick every tug. His body presses against the statue of the archon, the stone carved to perfection. His gaze sometimes moved behind you to the church doors wondering what the nuns would think of the sacrilegious scene before them.

Tears as he listens to your murmur your face burned deep within him sending vibrations up his spine. Murmurs, more like prayers. The ones which would be considered holy, and innocent if not for where and how you were exactly praying.

His head rocked back and forth as if nodding in agreement to whatever you said, as if he himself would make it come true. Squirting onto your face as you drank him up like holy water,

You'll look up every once in a while, mouth dripping as you would ask him to fulfil your prayers "if- hah, if you bring me pleasure- then- I'll accept whatever prayer you wish for- AH-"

He's never felt this high, this above. Here you are at a place of worship- worshipping him. Your archon, your god. The one that he couldn't be.

Sweet slick drips down the hard stone of the statue as his legs are spread on top of either side of your shoulder. "Wh- ah mhm- am- I- I" barely a whisper, but you hear every oracle from your dear, "my archon." And with a pop of your lips as you let go of the meal that you were latched onto "my god."

That alone brings him over the edge, body slumping against the stone as tears fall like endless waterfalls. Yours, that's what he is.

[llondonfog]

No pls 😭 i hate the idea that raising Silver was a fun experiment out of curiosity to see if he could love a human or not, and that the answer still isnt clear. I hate the idea of Silver, the son of their enemy, being raised to be nothing but a soldier to serve Malleus in some poetic irony. I feel there’s love there but I’ve almost been transported into Silver’s mind where everything is melancholy and unclear. Does he matter as much as I believe he does 😭😭😭 or is it just a cruel tale of some foundling human always meant to be put somewhere else when the fairies are done with them

The thing is, is Silver capable of accepting the fact that Lilia's happiest moment is Malleus' hatching? Yeah, of course, who wouldn't. The man suffered for years, absolutely driven mad with guilt over Meleanor's death and the fear that he wouldn't be able to keep his promise and hatch the one thing that remained of her, the proof of her existence and love. He had to hatch Malleus, because Meleanor believed that he could, that he somehow carried enough love in those tired, aching, and emptied bones, a love that she saw in him when he couldn't even believe it of himself. If he couldn't, it would be one more insult to her name, a failure yet again, a last betrayal of her trust that he couldn't afford and wouldn't survive.

So that weeping? He's so damn dizzy with relief and love and affection for this silly creature inside that's a symbol of the love of the most important people in his life, how could one react in any other way? How fragile and vulnerable, to know that the happiest moment in Lilia's life is to realize after hundreds of years, he was capable of that love all along.

And Silver sees this— he sees the lengths that Lilia went to in order to hatch Malleus, the horrible abuse he stoically suffered from the Senate, the massive disrespect for all that he had lost and sacrificed. Of course he'd accept that this is Lilia's pivotal moment, the bittersweet reward for centuries of despair.

But on the other hand, Silver; a boy who has lost equally, if not more. He's been cast out of his own time, four hundred years into the future, where everyone and anyone who might have known him or his family (save for Lilia) has been long since dead, the kingdom he might have ruled long crumbled to dust. Is it even a footnote in the history textbook he reads? Is there any mention of the Knight of Dawn, of Princess Leia? Anything at all besides the ring in his hand and Lilia's memories to prove that they existed, that they were real, that they loved and wanted him as much as Meleanor had loved Malleus?

All he has, all he's known, is Lilia. Lilia, who found him, who woke him from the spell as the one fated to truly love him. Lilia who thought of killing him upon learning who had sired him, Lilia who raised him to be a guard, to serve those his father once stood against. Lilia who wondered if he could ever love a human, a question that I agree hasn't fully been answered (or acknowledged by Lilia himself) if we are to associate the fact Silver still bears the effects of the sleeping curse with the belief that either Lilia hasn't called him his son and confessed his love, or if Silver still struggles with self-love himself (and we can get into a whole debate over his self-worth and his view as a sacrificial tool, that's an endless discussion).

Lilia . . . whose happiest moment has nothing to do with the boy who calls himself Lilia's one and only son.

And regardless of how I fully understand why Malleus' hatching is that moment, it's still so fucking sad to me.

Your whole life is centered around this one person whom you love more than anyone else— your short, human life— and in reality, you didn't even feature in that person's dream. We only saw Silver's past due to the blot, memories that were completely out of order and not in sync with Lilia's true dream at all.

And Silver will never harbor resentment over this, he will always place his family and loved ones first, but damn it, I can be a little miserable about it. All that trauma we went through with the last update, and now we learn that finding Silver and learning to love the son of his greatest enemy (the son of the person that killed Meleanor!) wasn't Lilia's happiest moment?

Was it just for the poetic irony? I really hope not. I really hope that TWST gives the conversation that Lilia and Silver need to have the due gravity it deserves, because Lilia needs, whether Silver realizes it or not, to look that boy in the eye and tell him that he loves him, he's always been his son, and no matter what their pasts may show, he's been Silver Vanrouge all along.

[rnn11203]

I think Mine is so interesting be his "villainess" is so deeply personal, his antagonistic role stems from his perceived loss of daigo, i think its cruel to think his actions meant he didnt care for daigo since daigo was only comatose. He clearly states that much of his concerns come from a fear of daigo becoming exploited, that keeping him in the state he is in would be undignified and disrespectful, that he would be willing to lead the Tojo clan not because daigo would want him to but because daigos very existence gave him some veiled sense of meaning and the Tojo clan would be his last remaining connection, a dream that daigo shared with him.

It's cool that mine claims to care little for others when hes so fond of both daigo and his adoptive father, that he doesnt know how to feel human (that daigo was the first to show him Ill), that he scraped and clawed his way out of poverty no thanks to anything or anyone but himself.

To me, Mines antagonistic role stems from his love, and lack there of. Which is different from other antagonists who seek power or wealth or respect. It's also something that isnt revealed until the very end, up until the rooftop confession kiryus under the impression that Mine is like everyone else, that he wants power, money. Instead, mine makes a confession of love and his destruction of the orphanage is extremely personal not just because he blames it for daigos state, but also because of his own self loathing.

Kiryus fights with the villains arent always a battle of strength, they arent just physical fights, its a battle of will. Kiryus strength is not just physical, its emotional. It's interesting that kiryus most exhausting fights (mine in yakuza 3 and ebina in yakuza IW) are also the ones that follow very emotional stories (have ur opinions on IW ebina but i think the game was really clear that ebina was more of an overarching theme/yakuza representation, and to me i thought it was rather nice)

[yakichoufd]

im really sorry people are being so rude to you over a ship! just want to send some positivity as i love your art and all your ships, and I hope people stop being so disrespectful instead of just finding wade/logan elsewhere (theres so much of it right now too! its not at all hard to find).

i support you closing asks if you have to, dealing with nastiness must take a toll on you and it isnt fair you have to deal with that on your own blog.

(sorry if this is worded badly, im terrible with wording things)

Thank you for your sweet message, dear Anon! I closed my asks for now, I do not know when I will re-open them. Maybe once the Deadpool/Wolverine fever will calm down for a bit. Plus there are still asks I meant to answer, but they are from 6 months ago....whoops. I agree poolverine fanarts are super easy to find right now. It is wonderful for anyone who ship them! I am tired of people getting mad at content they don't get from me or other creators. Instead of enjoying what we create and we share, they have to act like horrible spoiled whining kids. If you really want something, either commission a person you enjoy their work (if their commission are open and if your idea fits their TOS) or create the content you want to see!!! That's what I do!!! I create what I want to see. I am pretty sure that's how all of us proceed when we create a fanart, a fanfiction, a fan video etc... We created it because we wanted to see it. Anyone can do it. It is a matter of how much time and energy you are wiling to put into it. If you can not, then do not complain when others are sharing things they create in their own time for themselves. Sorry if my wording is all messed up. I am tired and english is not my mother tongue (plys my dyslexia sucks hard when i am tired haha)

[turtblurts-pkmnirl-hub]

okay. ive been trying not to let this anon get to me all that much today. keyword trying. but like. yknow. it really does feel like a slap to the face to watch what this anon said get reinforced in real time. the minute that i had z make a silly post offhandedly i got SO many more anons suddenly flood my inbox in a single instant than jaime had gotten in the entire day.

and like. i get it. z is interesting and she's a major source of information as to the offscreen ongoings of the other characrters! i get wanting to get all the juicy details from her whenever she's around.

but i think she's spoiled yall a lil too much.

its one thing to have a preference towards a specific character(s) and want to interact and ask questions about them! and i get not wanting to have to follow like several other blogs connected to them just to get the full story! thats whatever! i can understand that!

but its another thing entirely to not only come to someone's inbox and say TO THEIR FACE that you dont care about their character or their friends' characters, but to say that you follow one of their blogs and ACTIVELY BLOCK THE TAG OF THE CHARACTER THAT OWNS THE FUCKING BLOG just so that you can see what kinda shit z's talking abt.

what the fuck is up with that. why would say that to me. why would you say that to ANYONE.

thats such a slap to the fucking face. its disrespectful to me, to my friends, and to all of the time and effort we all put into all these characters that we roleplay FOR FUN.

ALSO HOLD ON IM JUST REMEMBERING THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME THIS HAS HAPPENED FOR US.

THIS EXACT THING HAPPENED WITH THE FRUITBASKET-GOSSIP BLOG AS WELL. THIS WAS SUCH A SLAP TO THE FUCKING FACE FOR ALL OF US, ESPECIALLY @/grims-local-pkmn-irl-hub AND @/cassi-pokeblogging-hub WHO PLAYED HONDEW AND STARF RESPECTIVELY. AND TBH THIS ANON WAS A LEGITIMATE MOTIVATION KILLER FOR THEM.

i dont care if this was meant to be in-character anon hate. this isnt good anon hate. this is just a shit thing to say period.

tld-fucking-r; if you are going to follow a roleplay account, respect the blogrunners and the characters that they play. dont say this shit to anyone. we're here to have fun, we're not obligated to do anything for you.

[luvmyoui]

four - why?

previous masterlist next

gp!myoui mina x fem!reader

warnings: toxic relationship, cursing, infidelity, sexism, pregnancy, teacher x student thing (v brief), mentions of sex, tell me if there's anything else!

word count: 2,313

a/n: PLEASE tell me m if this is going too fast, i feel like it is but i need an opinion frm someone reading it, bcz i have a faint idea but i think im going too fast yk?

before mina’s birth, due to the ultrasound pictures, mina was thought to be a boy. unlike most intersex girls, there was nothing unusual about her anatomy. when mina was born, she was recognized as a male and grew up being treated as one. mina wasn't always as bad as she grew up to be, in fact it wasn't until she started spending more time with her grandparents that her view on others changed. 

mina’s grandparents were very old fashioned, they had strong beliefs and they tried their best to instill them in mina. due to the time spent with her grandparents mina eventually started acting the way they did and started to believe the same things as them. they believed that women were meant to stay home and take care of the children while her husband provided for her. their beliefs were passed down to mina who was the sole heir of the family, having had no cousins or siblings. 

7th grade, that's around the time where most hit puberty. the same was for mina, when she turned 12 she finally hit puberty, but it didn't go exactly as expected. 

“dad, my chest keeps getting fatter but i'm not fat, it’s like i'm growing boobs!” mina exclaimed to her father, she had never been more confused. what was going on?

the thought of mina being intersex had never crossed her fathers mind before the day this happened. It also could have been just the hormones from mina hitting puberty which was causing her to grow breast tissue. due to the fact that there could be 2 explanations to this mina’s father saw it best to have her tested. It may have just been her hormones, but just to be safe he decided to get her tested. 

when the results came back it was uncovered that mina indeed was intersex. this information came as a shock to everyone in the myoui family, especially mina. 

“does that mean my dick will fall off?! am i gonna become a girl?!” was what mina first said when she was told that she was indeed intersex and she was growing breasts. 

“listen kiddo, your penis isnt gonna fall off. and technically you are a girl, but that won't change anything. you're still you.” mina’s father replied, trying to comfort her. 

due to how many changes mina was going through because of her gender identity her parents decided to move to a new city to allow mina a fresh start. in mina’s new school she presented herself as a female saying that she didn't want to be trans and she would stick to the gender she looked like. 

mina had never experienced something like changing schools, she didn't know anyone there.  people had tried to bully her, tried to insult her. but it had always backfired, mina would never allow any disrespect towards her. especially from someone below her. mina often got into trouble, but her parents always bought their way out of it. 

mina always seemed to be stirring up trouble at school, her parents figured it was because she didn't have anything else to do. due to this thought they put her in boxing, she seemed to like starting fights so maybe boxing would work as an outlet for her anger instead of her classmates. when proposing the idea, mina was ecstatic, she could now learn new ways to beat up the kids in her school.

despite her hard and mean demeanor, mina fairly quickly rose to be the most popular in her school. It had always been like that, mina being the most popular and sought out student by others. being the most popular girl in her school and the prettiest, she had many admirers, majority of them being males. her many male suitors quickly diminished though, when she was caught in the boys locker room comparing sizes with the quarterback. 

ever since that day it was made known to everyone that mina had a dick, and a big one at that. 

mina’s popularity wasn't just among her peers, mina was also quite popular among the teachers. she always turned her work in on time and was constantly participating during class. not only was she an exceptional student, but the money her teachers were gifted during teacher appreciation week made them like her all the more. for this reason whenever mina would get into trouble with other students the teachers would often turn a blind eye or take mina’s side. along with being arguably the most favored student, there were many rumors that she was favored in other ways too. 

“hey mina, you know the new teacher, the hot one?” shawn asked, the quarterback of the football team and mina's best friend. 

“yeah, i have her for history, why?” 

“you’re always talking about how you can pull any girl in the school, so i dare you to fuck her and record it.” shawn said to mina and her eyes widened in shock, this was only their sophomore year. how early did he want her kicked out? 

“fuck, okay. by next month ill get you a video of that bitch sucking my dick.” mina responded, she would never turn down a dare, especially one that included fucking someone. 

and true to her word by the next month she had sent a video into the group chat with all her friends of the said teacher on her knees sucking minas cock. It made sense to them that the teacher would sleep with mina but to let her record it? everyone was baffled at how she did it. In response mina just said that the teacher obviously didn't know she was being recorded. the video for obvious reasons didn't make it out of the group chat but it did cause many unconfirmed rumors amongst the students. 

although mina was known for fucking around, and never taking anyone seriously, that all changed when she met y/n. y/n was different, her beauty was on another level. The moment mina laid eyes on y/n she knew she was done for. that was the moment her reputation changed from fuckboy to lovergirl. she pursued y/n for months before she was given a chance but even while pursuing y/n there was nothing more that mina would want to do. y/n was it for her, she knew she wanted forever with y/n. 

mina had never acted this way, she would skip out on parties to spend time chasing after y/n. she refused all advances from other girls saying she was taken, it might not have been official but the moment mina saw y/n she was taken. It wasn't like you were a nobody either, everyone knew the y/n l/n you were only second to mina in popularity. mina for some reason had never noticed you, too focused on her own life; she never knew of your existence until she saw you laughing with your friends at a party. 

dating someone like mina wasn't always the easiest thing, mina had this huge superiority complex. your relationship with her was always you compromising on things. she acted as if she owned you, you weren't allowed to have any male friends, but she was allowed to be friends with anyone. 

mina would never tell you, but she liked the power trip she got whenever she was with you. you were the perfect girlfriend, you never complained, and you always did what she said. mina never wanted to lose you, no matter how it seemed or how she treated you she knew that she’d never find someone like you. 

when you had first told her you were pregnant mina couldn't believe it, it was like a dream. she had always wanted kids, especially with you. You were her girl and you were gonna have her baby. she honestly had no bad intentions, she always loved kids, having a son was always something she wanted.

the day she was told you were pregnant she called her grandparents, they were in japan so she couldn't personally meet them but she wanted their advice. the one person mina respected the most was her grandfather, and now that she was going to have a kid she wanted his advice. her grandfather told her that she should treat her girlfriend exceptionally because she was carrying the next generation. he told her that having a son was the best gift she could be blessed with. 

with her new found advice and information mina tried her hardest to be an amazing girlfriend to y/n. she obviously wouldn’t lie and say she enjoyed staying up at night while y/n cried and vomited but she still loved y/n and her child on the way. sometimes she would question herself and why she was even doing all this, why she was missing out on sleep for this stupid reason. y/n could do this herself, why did she always insist on mina staying up with her. mina never voiced these thoughts but they stayed on her mind.

mina felt so accomplished when she found out that she had in fact gotten y/n pregnant, and not only that, y/n was also going to keep the baby. all of her friends were surprised when she told them and didn't believe that mina had in fact knocked up the y/n l/n. y/n was known for her reputation of being a virgin and never getting intimate with anyone, much less getting pregnant. 

when the baby was born and the gender was seen to be a girl, mina was incredibly disappointed. she knew that y/n could have another baby but mina knew y/n would never agree to it. she resented y/n, it wasn't the child's fault for being born the way she was, it was y/n’s fault. deep down mina knew that no one was to blame but she could help but need someone to blame. 

maybe that's what led her to seek comfort in the arms of another, y/n’s body wasn't as desirable as it used to be. you had gained weight due to the pregnancy and mina hated that, she would often make comments on your body and weight in hopes that you would change it. the change was taking too long and mina was getting tired of waiting. she had needs and if you couldn't fulfill them she would have to find others to. 

mina tried to tell herself that it was you who made her do this, it was you who forced her into doing this. she left the home when you were sleeping and left to go to a party, ‘this is y/n’s fault, it’s on y/n’ is what she’d repeat to herself. she found someone pretty in no time, and she dragged them up to one of the rooms not letting her lips leave their skin. 

as she fucked the other girl all she could think of was you, the way your eyes squinted as you laughed, the smell of you, the way you said her name. she couldn't do this. mina didn't realize it, but the tears were pouring out of her eyes and onto the back of the girl under her. she never hated herself more, she wanted to throw up. She hadn’t drank anything, but she felt sick to her stomach. she pulled out and pulled up her pants, the other girl was confused and as she went to ask mina what happened mina left. 

she went back to her shared apartment with you and showered, she needed to wash it off, she felt disgusted with herself. how could she have done this, she sat in under the shower crying to herself. she hated herself for what she had done, she never thought of herself as cruel but there was no other word to use for her actions other than cruel. 

her skin was all pruned up by the time she exited the shower, she laid behind you in bed crying quietly into your shoulder. feeling the wetness on your shoulder you slowly stirred awake and turned around to see mina crying. she refused to tell you what upset her but she kept repeating ‘i love you’ and ‘i'm sorry’. you had no idea why she was saying this but you just wrapped your hands around her as she buried her face in your neck. 

after that day mina changed, it was a confusing change, and it led you to believe that mina was now cheating on you. after that day mina started acting more distant. you didn't know what happened but you could smell perfume that wasn't yours on her clothes when you washed them. mina was confused, maybe if mina was a different person she would've found herself wrong and changed. but in the end mina was still mina and she kept the thought that you made her do it in her head. the cheating stopped, but the way she treated you stayed the same. 

the thought that mina was mistreating you never crossed her mind once, you were made to take care of children, to cook, and to clean. her telling you to do this was the bare minimum, in mina’s eyes she treated you amazingly. 

mina never treated you badly, she loved you so much and she would never mistreat a loved one. her wanting to become an idol shouldn't have been a surprise for you and you should have supported her. she was the victim in this situation. maybe she wasn't as present in her child's life as she should've been, but if that really bothered you then it was your fault for not saying anything. 

If mina really hadn't done anything wrong then why did she feel so empty as she boarded the plane to korea only accompanied by your words. 

a/n: lets ignore that mina never had a boy name and all the other things that don't make sense🤗🤗 also im sorry if this is bad i didn't know what to write😭😭

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[furballfaggot]

I’m gonna gp mental woth this situation GIVE ME LIFE MY SAVIOR JESUS

funny thing i was just typing up some clarifications in your askbox lol

not sure about what adoraboys pronouns are so im gonna use hy/hyr since ive seen those used for hyr before but hi, some things:

transfemmasc's original coiner specified that it wasnt an intersex-exclusive term; the dsm-5 is notoriously flawed, biased, and sometimes just straight wrong so the reliance of p1 and p2 on it just to punch down is comically ableist

the "nsfw terms" are used in porn but arent inherently pornographic and hy didnt know their origins at the time

syscourse is fucking stupid

hy removed the closeted surname from hyr list a few days after adding it because hy figured it was disrespectful as a white person to use it

pro-para does not inherently mean pro-pedo/zoo/etc, especially when paired with anti-contact. there are so many non-harmful paraphilias in the world and on the web so immediately assuming anyone saying theyre pro-para is advocating for pedophilia and rape is shortsighted and unfair. i have very strong opinions on this point as someone whos also pro consensual paraphilia

adoraboy-hate-club is inciting harassment towards hyr and trying to cover with "well its not MEANT to do that!!!!!" despite the fact theyre explicitly doing that themselves

all of this could have been solved privately and any claims that there were attempts made are untrue

adoraboy-hate-club is now sending anons to any mutuals or supporters trying to get them to distance themselves from hyr even if their only involvement is hearing about it from mutuals and having any stance that isnt Strongly Anti Adoraboy

this isnt anywhere NEAR all of it but hy has an apology and explanation on hyr blog as hyr pinned post. tldr its wildly misinformative bullshit that could have easily been settled with a series of dms

[k4txlulzz]

i don't know if this is a hot take but i don't think the mystic messenger webtoon and its mc hana deserve the amount of hate they are getting

doesn't mean the manhwa isnt flawed, but it was rushed for a reason ! but if the fandom wasn't so disrespectful to the artist, she wouldn't feel the need to end it off too soon.

moreover, hana is not nearly as bad as people make her seem😭she doesn't lead anyone on, the webtoon is meant to portray that she harbors a slight crush on each member because the manhwa is based off of an otome game with more than one love interest ;w; she's relatable and fun, has great chemistry with everyone and especially seven

she's also pretty and her design is nice too ... i have no idea why ppl hate her lol she's a sweetie

im the biggest hana and mysme webtoon in general defender💪🏼

[aita-blorbos]

my friends directed me to this blog to see what people would think about my situation. theyre fully supportive, but wanna see what tumblr thinks, i guess.

aita for killing the person who murdered my family, and then killing my rich abusive adoptive father?

hi. im like, 19. or 20. i lost count. i dont care about gender, but i guess im male and use he/him. anyway. when i was around 10, there was a break and enter into my house. we were getting robbed. the robber killed my mom and dad, while i snuck into the kitchen do grab a kitchen knife. i stabbed him in the back and took his gun while he was stunned. i was scared to use it, so instead i just kept stabbing him until he stopped breathing. great childhood, i know.

anyway, after that, i was all alone. i didnt know where my brother went, and my parents were dead. we didnt really have an extensive family, so there were no funerals, and there was no one to take care of me. so for a while i just roamed the streets. some random guy saw me, and seeing a kid covered in blood probably isnt the most normal thing, so he ran up to ask if i was ok. he brought me to an orphanage, where i stayed for a while. eventually, my second "dad" (i dont even want to call him that. hes a disgrace compared to my real father, even calling him a parent feels disrespectful) came to the orphanage to adopt a kid. said kid was me. i was happy, cause id finally have a home again, and he was rich! i would be spoiled, and given a wonderful life for the trauma i had to go through.

i was wrong, though. the guy who adopted me was a prick. he was a rich scumbag who only thought about others if it meant he could say bad things about them. he was negligent, and would sometimes hit me. he got drunk all the time, and usually i was left alone in his huge house, only having the occasional housemaid to care for me. whenever i see pictures of the interiors of huge houses or mansions it gives me chills. anyway, after all this bullshit, i finally thought enough was enough. i still carried a few knives on me ever since the incident, in case something bad happened again. at night when no one except the two of us were in the house, i stabbed him in the heart while he was sleeping. i took all his money, and figured if worst comes to worst, i could pay my way out of being punished for murder. fortunately, that wasnt even necessary. when i called 911 pretending like i had no idea what happened, none of the officers even touched me. no one had a clue i had the weapon. it was eventually ruled down to a robber that got away, ironically enough.

after all this, i inherited all of his shit. all the money, the whole house, and all his stupid rich guy bullshit (think yachts, fancy cars). it was all mine. i turned the house into a housing unit, letting anyone who wanted to to live in it (like the homeless or people who needed to get away from an abusive household), given how huge it was. seriously, it felt like a palace in a disney movie. i sold all the shit he had that i didnt care about, or gave it away for free to others. i donate frequently to charity. i make sure i dont keep too much money for myself at a time, and i dont buy stupid things that i dont actually need. i dont want to become like him.

alright, so heres the final question. i know some people think murder is unacceptable, no matter how evil the victim is, that my parents may be watching me from the stars with hatred, and that rich peolle are assholes. but im trying my best to be a good person.

am i the asshole?

[portgas-d-rouge]

I do think we can have an indepth conversation about the transphobia of fandom spaces esp at the time of the theory becoming well known and the lingo not evolving with the new day. I see plenty of people tag crocodad and some tag both crocodad and crocomom just to reach the widest possible audience. I follow both tags to get the most content for it. I think it's less about transphobia rn and more about the fact that it's ingrained in the fandom

hmmmm the thing is i also think prioritizing popularity over praxis sucks. like you cultivate your audience... why are you appealing to that sort of person?

my point is that it being ingrained in fandom is transphobia itself. i dont think most ppl are trying to be malicious, but at some point you need to be the change you want to see in the world. by choosing to appeal to the status quo, you end up alienating those that are hurt by it. like its not a neutral "everyone wins" sort of thing. if yr tagging it with "crocmom" to challenge that idea and introduce ppl to transinclusive language thatd be cool - but i dont really see that happening.

i want to clarify that i dont think its totally off limits. like, i made art with a joke about dragon getting misgendered. but the point of it was, garp is an idiot and an asshole, and meant to relate to the experience of having a "well meaning" cis parent that still disrespects you. dragon's transness isnt the joke, garp's cisgender hypocrisy is. and i did tag it so ppl can filter it out if they need to. but like *gestures* clarity of purpose, centering trans experience. and even then, if i was cis idk if it would be okay to make that joke even if i had good intentions.

ultimately like, i cant stop anyone. i dont think it makes someone irredeemably bigoted or anything like that. i just find the general trend frustrating and a little hurtful.

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

dennis is one of my fav mcs ever ur so real for that BUT

please PLEASE explain the makima & kishibe appeal to me bc. i am not seeing it

i would eat makima too if i was like dennis but cook her in the most disrespectful way possible like. make a pancake and flip it into the trashcan or something idk

like i get her writing is great but … THATS NOT ENOUGH TO MAKE ME NOT DESPISE HER

PHSHHFHSJ…… OK…… LOOK………..

ok so for kishibe i wont lie im just into dilfs. hes literally my Dad. i just think hes silly and funny and very sad. 

AND MAKIMA…. look i absolutely do not blame u . i get why ppl hate her i rly do. i just really really love. toxic mothers in media. (see also: kenjaku jjk…..) idk man shes just so INTERESTING to me like……

just. how she cant love other ppl bc her existence as the control devil puts her above everyone else….. shes so so isolated and uncaring but she also has this. interest? in living beings and warm things n good movies…. and she cant smoke bc it makes her cough a bunch…… and she cried from a movie scene of a mother hugging her son….. i just feel like makima has these tiny tiny moments that humanize her so much but shes also just. so blatantly inhuman. like she really is just a Devil masquerading as a human n that concept makes me insane

and god….. i know u didnt sign up for a ted talk but. the fact that her true dream was something like a family…… or a connection….,. JUST like aki and dennis n everyone else. but shes the one character who Does Not Find It bc!! she cant!!! she doesnt have the grounds for companionship bc her existence is meant to be completely alone at the top!!!!

her story isnt Tragic bc makima is awful and we’re not meant to be like ”noo makima :(” but her character is just soooo ironic and sad to me……. not a single person understood her until the very end and she never gave anyone the chance to.

makima is just. Yeah. i just think shes so interesting n i adore her and i think i could fix her <3 not rly but. yknow. im a lil obsessed.

[manie-sans-delire-x]

i agree with you every time you speak about how its so incredibly important to acknowledge female oppression based on sex, but why is it so hard to not call trans men "women"? like i don't get why so many people refuse to do that. both trans men and women have uteruses and vaginas, so why do they insist that it erases female oppression or harms women? it doesnt? the same thing happens with trans women. i think it really isnt that hard to speak about certain types of oppression while at the same time acknowledging that they very often overlap each other. like trans women and cis women both suffer misogyny, theyre both targets of sexual harassment and assault, and they both are the main victims of prostitution. trans men and women both suffer from sex-based oppression, obstetric and medical violence. trans men who are cis-passing dont suffer sexual harassment though, and they can navigate society with a considerable amount of male privilege (and so many radical feminists forget this, there ARE trans men who pass completely, most trans men who have used testosterone for a long time do, and they dont have to suffer misogyny in their daily life. it feels almost a bit insulting to hear people speak about them like they suffer the exact same oppression cis women do) trans women usually can't do this. people are diverse, and i dont get why its so difficult to speak about these things without excluding certain groups of people or just being fucking rude or disrespectful to them, many times on purpose. (sorry if i didnt explain myself well btw, english is not my first language)

Hi anon, your English is fine! Its super good actually. And thank you for acknowledging that female oppression is based off sex. But you should have stopped at "I agree with you every time you speak" lol! Jokes aside...

Transwomen (I think thats who you meant when you said transmen) are able to get surgery to have a sort of vagina, but no, they do not have uteruses... Not sure where you got that misinformation. Even if they had a uterus surgically transplanted, it would be nonfunctional and ultimately pointless to everyone. As they do not have eggs, they would be unable to have periods or get pregnant. I suspect there would be serious health risks involved too. In the same way, a transman would never be able to produce sperm even if they had a dick or balls surgically transplanted.

Girls, women, and boys are the main victims of prostitution and sex trafficking, simply because most of the "clients" are straight males. A smaller percentage of them are also sexually attracted to males, but as many of them are pedophiles, they prefer boys over grown men. So passing/not passing/extent of transition also has a lot to do with it. Traffickers of course do not care if someone is trans or not. If someone looks like a young female, they are a potential target. If they are not "passing" and look like an adult male, traffickers are likely uninterested because they are not sexually attracted, the clients are not interested, and a male is harder to physically fight and control. Or if they are smaller and young, they will happily traffic boys too- whether or not they identify as a girl. I guess what Im saying is that they do not purposefully look for transwomen, they look for girls, young women, and boys (and sometimes young men that are small/look way younger than they are). Basically anyone who looks young and vulnerable. Aside from sex, age is the next largest indicator of risk. It may even be number 1. Its not gender presentation. A female could identify as and present as a male but it would not matter to them if they can tell that they're female.

Transwomen are definitely victimized as well, but it is on incomparable scales, partly due to the vast difference in population size (1% to 50%), and usually for different reasons- transphobia, (which may or may not be mixed with misogyny). To say they are "both the main victims" makes it seem like its an equal amount, which is very much is not, luckily for transwomen.

All populations- including boys and men- experience sexual harassment and assault, but obviously that does not mean we might as well put them all in the same sex category because sex is not defined by level of oppression. Its not like, "oh you've experienced x amount of oppression in your lifetime, you may as well sit with the ladies" lol.

Transwomen are not oppressed under laws that only apply to females. Women are denied equal legal and social rights for being female, and as transwomen are biologically male, they are given equal rights from birth. As long as their birth certificate says "male", they will always be given these rights by the government.

I definitely agree that transmen who are cis-passing dont suffer sexual harassment (as much) and that they can navigate society with male privilege. But they can still be denied legal rights for being biologically female though, or be discriminated against anytime it says "female" on academic, professional, or legal paperwork. (And then transphobia can mix in with the misogyny when they see a male passing person). I also agree that they dont suffer the exact same oppression as cis women and that transwomen are not given this same luxury, because unfortunately as transwomen come to learn, misogyny is real and its a monster.

Why do you find it insulting to hear people say that passing transmen suffer the same oppression cis women do (because you know its not completely true), but you dont think its insulting to say that passing transwomen do NOT suffer the same oppression cis women do?

I think your whole argument boils down to "transwomen are oppressed just as much as ciswomen so should be considered women". Not only is that clearly not true when you look at laws, but again, sex is not defined by levels of oppression or life experience.

[bawmbo]

hey, okay so ive been thinking about this one a lot. i want to emphasize before i post anything here this is not meant to attack op, but function as a means for me to express my opinions over it and discuss with others if wanted. and while i am not a very big account, if i find out that any of my followers harass anyone over this, this post will be taken down. please behave ty

i am the (relatively new est. few months or so) host of a transmasc did system (and should go without saying but i will add, cptsd, depression) so i think i have some unique perspective on this.

all of it will be under cut for the sake of not completely clogging up my blog because i talk a lot

i. transgender codedness and headcanons

i want to start with, "the arguments for headcanons of this kind were quite remarkabe, and in particular far-fetched; ... (1)" and the idea that, "headcanons on religion, gender, orientation, etc. should be very careful, detailed, and canonically close. (2)" and because this discussion is about gender and mental health, i will be focusing on that strictly.

(1) - "the arguments for headcanons of this kind were quite remarkabe, and in particular far-fetched; ... (1)" - while it could be confusing where it comes from, as stated before, cross is probably one of the best and clear trans coded characters i have seen made in the public utmv as it exists at the moment. and while a lot of his reactions blend into trauma, it does not negate the fact that trauma and trans identities can co exist and affect how one may react to the sort of feeling it invokes to have your identity disrespected; see: being called sans instead of cross.

though it isnt entirely just because of his reactions - his feeling of disconnection from a normalized "whole" of what hes supposed to be and what he actually is is trans coded. and while i havent read the xtale comics or watched the most recent underverse episode, we see aspects of ourselves in his behaviors; in being hypersensitive (and while not a feminine trait, there are (frankly fucked) gender 'roles' and 'rules' that made us believe it was - our father telling us "girls are just more emotional" - but i could get into gender roles and that kinda stuff and rant about it forever. still want to emphasize that anyone can feel anything but looking at this from the lens of how society views gender versus how i do lmao), in being rowdy, in being in the royal guard, in behaviors that we were described as "tom boys" with. and his blasters a girl, and everything in relation to him is queer. this is all from memory and im sure if i looked up more about him id be able to pull more, but it goes to say everyone has their reasons beyond "cross is transgender because he does not want to admit that he is one of the sanses." - and imo, thats a fair enough reason alone

(2) - "headcanons on religion, gender, orientation, etc. should be very careful, detailed, and canonically close. (2)" - i believe that certain headcanons, to a degree, should be handled with care to not further very harmful stereotypes. theres a lot of gray area to it, but i want to speak specifically about gender, where i believe there should be less strictness on it.

disregarding the fact that its confirmed, canonically, that cross is trans coded - i believe that gender orientation headcanons should not have to be restricted to the rules of "canonically close." thats what headcanons can be. not close at all. and while mischaracterizations are an entirely different semi-frustrating topic for me, but as a transmasc being and a writer, i loooove love love seeing people headcanon characters, especially my characters, as different genders. like idk, dr. blue is an incredibly cis man in my head. you see yourself in his experience? you wanna headcanon him as transneu puppygender? maybe transfem or transmasc? maybe fully a transman? perhaps to you he is aroace, and maybe hes bisexual, and maybe hes some incredibly obscure label i dont even know yet. he can be polyamorous. by all means, go ahead. it doesnt closely align with his canon but it doesnt harm anyone at all.

this section is more so my opinions if anything but i still wanted to get that out there: it is not harmful

and i dont vocally address half of the things said in the slideshow against it, but again; trauma and transness can and do co exist, and there is no harm in imposing labels onto characters that you see yourself in. this is how a lot of people empathize and connect with characters. this is, intentionally or not, how representation can be made.

ravenpaw and barley from warrior cats are not explicitly stated as gay characters, and are coded to be, and a little kid may see that and finally be understood by a character. ink and fresh are autism coded, and not explicitly stated to have autism, but that meant that in a world where no one would listen and understand our hardships, we at least felt seen and a little bit more comforted knowing that our favorite characters were just like us. the same can be said about dream, nightmare, and religious / parental trauma.

ii. PTSD, DID, and mental health

"cross' approximate diagnoses include PTSD, dissociative identity disorder, depression, or extreme aggression."

"after all, he goes crazy about his past, blames himself for everything, he has many triggers, he does not control his emotions and especially anger, he is ready to do anything to fulfill his desires. He loses himself because a whole multiverse opens up before him, everyone does not tell him something and lies. Many use him and harm him. From which he develops all the listed states."

to circle back to harmful headcanons - i want to focus solely on my experiences with being a system and ableism. i want to reiterate i am by no means a professional and this is speaking strictly personally

i feel that did is something that you should be very careful with headcanoning, as mental health and gender, while can affect presentations of each other, are very separate and treated differently.

did is often very demonized, very mocked, not taken seriously. you may see the movie split, and we had actually been asked at some point if being a system was "like (split) that movie". we were formerly in a relationship before the host change where i was kinda the equivalent of "the evil alter" and every time i fronted i was met with hostility and ableism (physically disabled as well). our other protector was also treated pretty badly and he actually puts in the effort to be a bit nicer lmao. but still. despite my efforts of being kind or sharing the energy, it was just me. and that isnt even the first person who saw me this way, and im not the first alter to be demonized for just doing my job. and to this is just me saying that i dont really know if theres been much progress in education towards the public of this disorder lol

and while, yes, cross has childhood trauma and identity problems, i dont think he really exhibits anything like it? the closest youll get to showing an "alter" is when he is, quite literally, being possessed by xchara. and while i can joke about experiencing fighting for front to being fighting for my body against possession by a ravenous 7 year old, it doesnt actually translate.

when the only applicable alter wants to murder people, i think you get into some iffy territory over whether or not you should claim it as the disorder thats kinda commonly portrayed as "my evil werewolf alter ego who wants me to kill people disorder." and sure, some alters will want to cause harm, and i think that that should be addressed, but it is very harmful if thats the only thing being shown about it. i also think that that should be addressed very carefully due to the aforementioned demonization and misrepresentation already. and they are very literally separate people

cptsd is closest. he does not want to be connected to his past, hes constantly running to find himself, hes attempting to make a new identity for himself. hes incredibly hurt and reactive to everything around him, its all bite and little room for barking. but hes consistent. the point is, hes always been cross. he always will be cross. he will never be sans, he will never be what they thought of him to be, and if he has to spell that out in a near death battle to hammer the point in then so be it. and the way he is so angry about how they disrespect his identity feels like all of the scenarios id imagine yelling to my parents about, "im a boy, im a boy. im your son. call me (not even my name). call me the name we told you we were. i am not your little girl" that will never happen.

sure, he has extreme aggression, and its on par to say that he probably has depression alongside it. but DID, not at all. thats one whole guy. he lacks any real key details about the disorder, especially alters

"he is so worried about his name and his originality because he is afraid of being lost among a thousand copies, and his name was the first thing that distinguished him in the crowd."

all sanses are called by something different (swap/blue, fell/red, ink, error, geno) it would have been no worry for anyone in the multiverse to adjust to - but his family. who refuses to accept that he wants his own autonomy. that he wants to have the freedom to be who he is. that he isnt like the thousands that came before him and the hundreds more that will come after. the fact that he is so concerned with his name and the fact that it was always a key part of his character, only to be confirmed as a trans coded thing is more than likely intentional. from a writers standpoint whose also writing a character whose transness and trauma are intertwined and incredibly important to each other.

also some extra notes,: cross isnt incredibly dissociative. he is shown to be incredibly hypervigilant of his surroundings, connected and key to everything. he doesnt really show signs of even derealization, emotional amnesia, amnesia in general tbh, etc., this all goes to say that i also think the post is very poorly worded and ptsd is also demonized. but i am just going to assume it was meant with good intentions. i could be nit picky about wording whenever. but it does read as ableist and transphobic

extra extra side note. creators can just do whatever they want with their characters. even if it wasnt intended and she realized that "hey, actually this is kinda trans coded" and decided to make it canon on a whim, then who cares. its actually super cool when creators make popular headcanons canon because it adds to their story and fits in well

anyways ill stop yapping for five hours. i am not proof reading it idk if its coherent. i just like talking

-✦

[autistic-gay-men-kissing]

i am not caught up in shit. you asked why curly/daisuke was problematic. so i told you that he is in a position of power and that position of power makes it inherently unethical for him to persue daisuke who is half his age and his subordinate. i dont care what you think curly would or wouldnt do. i dont care how wholesome it is. you are missing the fucking point. you asked why its gross. its gross because captains, bosses, employers, anyone in a position of power over someone half their age making or accepting sexual advances towards that person they have power over is INHERENTLY PREDATORY due to the power they have. if you dont think curly is someone who would commit sexual violence, then you dont think curly would go after daisuke. because for him to do so would be a betrayal of his role as captain and a gross ethics violation.

like are you trying to misunderstand me or are you just pissed off? this isnt a headcanon, its fucking reality. and you being a victim of SA doesnt negate any of my points about you not taking it seriously. having it happen to you doesnt make someone incapable of talking about sexual assault in an inappropriate and disrespectful manner. ffs, i was assaulted by another victim. and i dont give a shit whats normal fandom behaviour, because im not getting mad at anyone for shipping anything, I AM ANSWERING A QUESTION THAT Y O U ASKED.

I never even meant in regards to sexual relations tbh. Really just in general.

Yes, I can see how it can become bad, I understand that it would be problematic in a work zone, I understand Curly’s power.

And I am very much taking it seriously. It is a serious thing.

Is that all that’s really wrong with it? The sexual relations?

[caelfyrekin]

cw rant/vent

can we go back to spamming my stupid pun post with notes instead of this garbage? seriously why did someone feel the need to write an entire fucking essay in their reblog

what i was partially trying to say and what maybe didnt get across was how weird it is to me that people sexualize/romanticize random body parts of celebrities

because like its one thing if youre attracted to someone youve seen in person and/or actually met, anything from a coworker to your significant other(s), but like parasocial relationships are just weird

especially in the case of something like women lusting over gay men or men lusting over lesbians because like its kinda disrespectful to the celebrity in question if that happens to be the case idk if it is here but its weird

and like its kinda one thing if a particular photo/gif is meant to be sexual/suggestive in nature but like making something like an interview where the celebrity is just talking about whatever into something "sexy" gets me weirded out

maybe its because im the kind of being that doesnt want to be perceived as sexual in any way and it baffles me sometimes that others genuinely want to be seen that way, not that theres anything wrong with that (as long as its not like kink/fetish stuff in public/in front of non-consenting individuals) theres nothing wrong with showing a little skin especially in hot weather for safety reasons

then again you will catch me wearing shorts in winter but thats because i overheat so easily and i dont like having long pants on especially when they get wet at the bottom from melted snow i would rather wear longer shorts and more layers up top idk

that reminds me i want to get another similar pair of shorts to one i already have + a pair of boots that isnt hard to walk in or so worn out i cant wear them anymore but thats not rant commentary thats just me rambling at this point idek what im doing or saying maybe i should shut up

as if anyone is going to read this anyway...

[petruchio]

☕️ thg's influence on other books/media?

my FEELINGS about thg's influence is that it ruined everything but not because of thg being bad but because no one understood the point of thg and so they made a bunch of garbage knockoffs and they sucked because nobody actually understood what was compelling about thg

like. ok i am going to talk about love triangles. everyone in the post thg ya world went one of two ways with their love interests: they tried either to recreate peeta without understanding what made peeta compelling OR they made the heroine choose the gale character without understanding why katniss doesn't choose gale in thg

for example -- i wrote something last year about how i think the original grisha trilogy comes out of the post-thg landscape and that mal is meant to be like peeta, because he is (i think) supposed to represent steadfast kindness and peace and normalcy in a world which seeks to strip those things from you. EXCEPT IT DOESNT WORK because 1) mal sucks and he doesn't actually embody kindness, he's actually pretty disrespectful to alina and he isn't particularly kind to anyone else in the series and 2) ravka ISNT a good analog for panem and the social commentary that the original grisha trilogy is making is ~nebulous at best~ and so the idea of 'choosing peace' doesn't make any sense in context of what was set up in the trilogy or the world

like its clear that so many people wanted their main love interest be the next peeta SO BAD but they didn't understand that what we love about peeta is that he's like... just a cool guy. he's just like. fuckign NICE and he communicates how he feels in a respectful thoughtful way and respects katniss' boundaries, he calls her out on her bs but he also is very understanding of WHY she is the way she is. like the only criticisms that the stupid peeta antis can even try to have against him are from times when there is some EXTERNAL force that affects his relationship with katniss (the games, society, the capitol, etc.!!!) and at peetas core hes just like A GOOD GUY

ALTERNATIVELY a lot of ya authors i think were like "well why didn't she choose gale he was sexy" without actually thinking about what it meant THEMATICALLY and so we had a bunch of books (DIVERGENT) where the heroine just picks a guy because he is sexy and its so boring to read lol

so yeah my feeling is that thg had a BAD influence but not because thg was bad but because people just could not figure out why it worked. i think just like, no one thought critically about it for like 2 seconds before trying to hop on the knockoff train