#this isnt for an art shockingly

[synthshenanigans]

Kiiinda a random question but I promise I gots a reason for it

also i dont wanna list like 20+ characters so youre getting superstars

[neomechanical]

hi tumblr i missed u ive been playingb around with paint 3d

[rraakkee]

she, is........ she

[jupitercl0uds-art]

omg shes so short 😭

[filmfactors]

I watched Stand by Me 2 and was pleasantly surprised by how not god awful it was, it was only okay though- it improved on what made the first so bad but it still remained to have terrible things. Couldn’t stand Doraemon and especially not adult Nobita, the ending was also so unnecessary and ruined the nice things of the film.

Suneo and Gian were the highlight of this one for real this time, they made me smile. So was the grandma stuff! However, this is once again the case of other Doraemon movies/specials having the same things but done better than this one.

[catboygirljoker]

fun writing tip: you can justify making your blorbos as good at sex as you want if you also make it depressing

i will try not to be too graphic or horny and keep it mostly to character study analysis themes core motivations plot conflicts etc type discussion. still, id really prefer that folks under 18 do not interact with me on this post or about this topic in general, thanks!

for obvious reasons this post is gonna have a cut

UNLIKE HIS DIIIIICK [EXTREMELY LOUD AIRHORNS]

. sorry i just feel like hed appreciate that joke. uh anyway

Brief discussions of: BDSM, including sadomasochism; edgeplay; derealization/dysphoria; self-destructive recklessness in a sexual context.

ok. so there's this fictional guy. and i kiiiiiiind of have a crush on him. and i'm a basic bitch, so, like, obviously, when i think about him hornystyle, i want to imagine him being good at sex.

the thing is, "good at sex" is not always a particularly interesting trait to give a character! it can often be an eyerolling power fantasy trait. like "this is my oc Chuck Dongburger he has a ten pound cock and can make a babe cum just by lookin at her" yknow. it's a trait that, handled incorrectly, is more likely to flatten conflict than create it—more likely to make stories more boring than to make them more interesting.

also, "being good at sex" isnt a magical blessing that descends upon someone by chance. it is a quality that stems from a set of experiences and traits. it is a skill that one develops, or fails to develop.

so the question is, how do i justify him being good at sex? how do i make it feel believable and interesting?

the answer is simple! make it depressing! (that is, relate it directly to the character's central themes and conflicts, and therefore make it a natural part of/inclusion in their story)

in canon, xigbar has had multiple bodies, lost his heart multiple times, allowed himself to be a vessel for darkness on multiple occasions. he has endured all of this to carry out the will of his masters. every social role we've ever seen him take has been subservient to someone else, even if it has usually also involved social power over others, too.

here are the sex/relationship headcanons i have that expand on this:

related to: gender/sexuality

bisexual. for starters. obviously. his transness i have Deep Headcanons about, but his bisexuality is just "idk im bi so hes bi hee hee"

luxu is a binary trans man who experienced severe dysphoria in his original body and never felt like that body really belonged to him in the first place. to the best of his ability he has only chosen cis male vessels, including braig. in those cases he feels extreme disconnect from his body but not [very noticeable] gender dysphoria. the only thing connecting him to his cis male bodies is his sexual characteristics. theres this great art piece that has never left my brain that conveys the idea im going for. his face his hair his bones none of those are his, none of thise feel real, none of those feel right. but what does feel right is his dick.

related to: him being Good at Sex™

he is Very Experienced. he's tried a lot of shit and had a lot of bodies and largely had nothing better to do than be a horndog and kill time suckin and fuckin. he is down for just about anything with just about anybody. he knows how bodies work and knows how to deal with the exceptions and roll with awkwardness and uncomfortableness.

he is pretty good at reading people—it's a skill he has had to develop over his lifetime. he is sometimes wrong, but usually right, and reading people, understanding them, lets him feel like he has some kind of control or power over them. this is relevant because this is part of what makes him Good at Sex. he is shockingly responsive and attentive; not completely unselfish as a lover, but he won't blindly exert his will onto the other person and expect them to respond just because he has a big dick or is going faster or harder or whatever.

related to: his backstory as luxu

sex for him is a means of exerting control over the world, proving his own competence and worth to himself and another person, gaining some simulacrum of human connection, distracting himself from his derealization, grounding himself in his body, expressing and claiming his masculinity. all things, i headcanon, he also achieves (or seeks/has sought to achieve) from keyblade mastery.

he views his bodies as disposable, and knowing that he can just jump ship if he totals a body means that he processes pain differently than most people. not in a "all pain makes him horny" way*—it's more that pain doesn't make his self-preservation kick in the same way it does for other people. in bdsm/kink settings he is a masochist [as well as a sadist] and more reckless with edgeplay (when it comes to himself) than he really ought to be.

obviously i have specific personal motivation for wanting to headcanon this (he and his body are both Significantly Older Than Me) but i don't think he's too bothered by an age gap. some people it makes sense to me to imagine that they'd really want to date within their age and maturity range, but i think xigbar's chill as long as the person he's dating is a self-posessed adult. considering how long he's been alive, he's gonna have a significant gap in experience with ANYBODY; there isn't that much of a difference between him dating a 25 year old vs a 45 or 85 year old.

he has told close romantic partners about his Whole Deal before. it has never gone well. ("what do you mean youve been moving into random people's bodies in order to stay alive long enough to bring back a guy who intentionally manipulated his students into killing all of their students via senseless war??") they never understand and he doesn't know why they don't understand (i also headcanon him having severe cognitive dissonance vis a vis the MoM but that's a different post). his instinct is to put up a wall and go "well theyre just naive and stupid and haven't seen what i've seen, theyre too sentimental to understand this". he still keeps trying (if with less frequency) because he is desperate for someone to understand.

*i want to make this crystal clear: i do not headcanon xigbar as being automatically turned on by receiving or causing pain in every context, because he is a boss in a video game franchise where he fights teenagers. i am not comfortable sexualizing those fights!

(i do however think there are contexts where he might indulge in some "battle sadomasochism" when fighting another adult—maybe he makes it weird for them on purpose to fuck with them, maybe they're both into it and it's all foreplay, etc)

related to: him being subservient

youd think that when i talked about him being subservient to others, i was building up to a headcanon about him being a sub. however it feels most correct [and fun] to me to imagine him being a dom-leaning switch vers (doesnt get dysphoria from bottoming because. prostate). social role and personal dynamics dont necessarily correspond to sexual dynamics!

the headcanon i was actually building up to was that he craves affirmation in specific ways from specific people. he is desperate for someone else to give him worth. he wants to do a good job serving an authority he deems worthy of respect. he wants to be useful, he wants to serve a purpose and have a role. he hates feeling like he needs something from someone else, and feels much more comfortable if they need something from him.

he doesn't have a praise kink in a traditional sense, but he does really get his rocks off from being Good At Sex and from his lovers clearly and obviously enjoying themselves. he doesn't wanna be told hes done a good job, he wants to know, to tell from experience that he's blown someone's mind.

furthermore, in romance, he becomes a massive simp. if he likes someone enough to fall for them then they hang the fucking moon for him. he is outside in the rain crying throwing up begging for a sniff. absolutely pathetic. its not a total transformation of personality, i think he'd really hide it and really want to hide it. but i think in most situations it'd be subtle but observable. every joke he makes is directed to them and checked against their reaction; he stands at a middle distance outside of conversation kinda watching them, observing every move, memorizing their gestures and tics and quirks. he feels i love you before the first date but won't say it until five years into the relationship.

related to: i couldnt put it in the other sections and i really only made these section headers so it wasnt just big walls of text oops

he's a low empathy emotionally constipated bitch at the best of times, so he substitutes emotional intimacy with physical intimacy. picking up people at bars or dances or what have you for one night stands, satisfying them thoroughly, and then immediately dropping out of their lives.

he actively avoids romance (and any emotional closeness, including the completely platonic kind). but he hasn't always been this way. i think Dark Road was the most recent in a long long string of experiences where he lost people he was close to. he's tired of hurting people and getting hurt.

. im not gonna get into it because im trying not to be like too too horny in this post but hes So fucking brat tamer coded to me. i think you will understand at least the surface level reasons for this. i guess if i wanted to relate it to Themes i'd say something like "there is a specific romantic and sexual fantasy in being an asshole and even hurting someone and them still wanting you and trusting you and loving you and even enjoying it" but. well we dont need to go there do we

these are just the Depressing / Character-Related / Themes-y headcanons. some of my headcanons are just like "i think this would be funny and/or in character and/or hot" but you see how long this list is anyway. if i started in on all of that then we'd be here forever.

also, these are just headcanons! they're informed by analysis but shaped heavily by what appeals to me personally, what i find hot, what i find compelling about his character. if your headcanons for him differ from mine in any way, i don't think you're Wrong, because we're talking about the sexuality of a guy who comes from a video game franchise where characters are barely allowed to hold hands. this is all just toys and playing

anyway thank you for reading this post lmao its so long

JUST LIKE HIS DIIIIIIIIIIII—

[philiawrites143]

Henri and June Headcanons! (The Ssum)

A/N: Hi! Finally doing some Headcannons for the season 2 boys like I've been wanting to lol. I meant for these to be general relationship headcanons but they're more or less date headcanons with some extra in-person stuff thrown in lol. I genuinely love these characters so much even if their stories are being taken in questionable, at best, directions. So here's to some happy time with them!!!

~June~:

-Beach date obv! Especially one where you watch the sunset together, he immediately knew it would be the first date he would go on with you once the day cane you could meet in person. -Any kind of picnic! Bonus if its a picnic during the above date idea! -Since he spent so much of his life forced to stay away from the world, hes much bigger on going-out dates (But he still isnt the biggest fan of the crowds and prefers to avoid them as much as possible, same with Henri) -Mainly loves nature dates, but activity dates are awesome too! Like a carnival! (He may be way to scared for a rollercoaster though...but he could MAYBE be convinced lmao) -Obviously an art museum date would be amazing, but if you're like me and also like museum's with fossils and science exhibits that get you all excited June would OBVIOUSLY come with you and adore how excited you get, he may even get excited about something he didn't really think that much of just because the way you feel about it puts it into a different perspective for him <3 -A staying-in type of date my friend said they could he with him would be a cute little pajama date, MASSIVE sleepover vibes -All cuddled up watching movies or a show with some DELICIOUS snacks and food. -I could also see maybe a little tickle fight breaking out, fluffiest couple ever award goes to-! -Also another obvious hc but you are his muse so he would love to paint you :') -Even better if you like painting yourself! Then you can sit and pain together! Whether it be eachother or just what has you inspired that day. -He would probably cry if you painted him no matter what it looked like. He love art and the fact that you share in his hobby AND see him as YOUR muse?!? Cut the cameras he's ungly crying (but everything he does is pretty lmao)

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~Henri~:

-Arcade date! I know he had one with June but I 100% see him wanting to take you on one as well -If not arcade date then maybe playing videgames together in general, since we see him on a nintendo switch in offical art - If you're competing in game, HE IS SO TEASING YOU IF YOU LOSE, but in like the silly goofy way y'know? -I think if you guys played a co-op game, whether it be a co-op puzzle game or another different kind of game that has co-op (both you would have to intoduce to him bc of the kind of life we all know he had) I think he would be shockingly good at them after getting used to it, almost frustratingly so. Honestly, as a team you guys would be crazy good at whatever game it is, he might sabotage you on purpose every once in a while... but its all in good fun!! -(He thinks you're cute when you're mad, but only in low stakes/playful situations.) -He's really big on stay-in dates because they just make him feel more comfortable I think -While i see this kind of date working for both him and June (My bias towards this date idea is showing) I think a going out and not gaming related date he'd enjoy with you would be an aquarium! -In all honesty i think he would do almost any kind of date if it made you happy or excited, so if youre like me and get realy excited about aquariums, his heart will melt seeing you get all excited in the pretty aquatic lighting. -May try to say complete lies about whatever creatures you're looking at and pass them off as a fact, and then laugh and tease you if you fall for it -Less related to just dates and more so related to just finally being able to be together in person, but I feel like Henri is MUCH more of a physical touch kind of person than he ever thought he was. Being with you makes him realize just how touchstarved and hungry for affection he is T-T

(Hello! I've been reading on Tumblr forever but this is my first time trying to write something and post it 😂. I still have no clue what I'm doing with formatting or how to make my post look pretty, but I'm hoping I'll figure it out 💀. I hope you liked it!! Hopefully I can figure more stuff out and be able to post what all fandoms I'll write for, and take requests soon!)

[drinkyourvillainjuice]

oh, you meant that the way Fandom and the writers treat Wyll is racist not that he himself, the character, is a racist person gotcha. Yeah it's shockingly obvious when you see fan art that's of all the companions EXCEPT him and it seems to happen all the time.

I do think his whole story of "the nicest possible person in a really shit situation" was interesting and underdeveloped but I see how it's problematic now with the whole devil thing.

idk about i dont like talking things in a frame of problematic or not problematic because it feels reductive about how things are materially speaking.

(also if i wasnt clear, wyll isnt racist - i mean, he sorta kinda is but thts something and a half)

If I had to guess, whoever in charge of creative choices (not the writers) were like 'alright, this character will not be as much of hit as much as other characters and we need to cut a corner, and this will be the character' which i would assume is rooted in antiblackness. like its gonna sound insane what I'm about to say, but.... that was the logical capitalist move like yeah its racist and abhorrent and stifling art and artists, but the cards of a business like Larian Studio is to make money.

it does not matter what they individually see within wyll as black character or the black audiences, hum racism is a currency that capitalism runs on, and antiblack racism is part of that, and if you want to make money these studios have little to no incentives to either not write stories that are not racist or includes bipoc characters within these stories

is how i feel, agian im white so its not something i experience first hand but like if you worked in the game industry (hello, if you played assassins creed I helped), you know about how like they will go 'a black protagonist will make us less money' and lately how they apologized for having a black character

[rpgbabe]

Fav blogs? 🩶

genuinely too many to list :C there are so many wonderful blogs/ppl on here that ive been foloing/mutuals with for so long for a good reason. i dont wanna cop out and say 'everyone i reblog from' or 'everyone i follow' or anything like that but just kno.. if i like ur stuff and interact w u, that's all genuine + real + ur one of my favs for sure bc i dont fake that stuff. (also if i foloed u on my new blog bc.. i honestly couldnt be assed to find any1 but my favs on here lmao) follows + reblogs of non-original pictures can be shallow but if im actually liking ur personal stuff n everything, i like you and probably want to kno u better :.) i couldnt list all of the ppl in this category bc theres too many + id def miss ppl BUT to actually give you a genuine answer, i do have some blogs that stand out to me bc of their personality + impact + just our general interactions/connection soo

@comingtoyoursenses angel. actual positivity (not like fake positive shallow phony stuff).. beautiful literary sense, soso sweet. she is actually the light <3 not sure how she puts up w me im so negative but i never feel judged by her wah perfection. genuinely too good for me or any1, inspires me to be better :,) also ik i dont need to say more but i feel like she just has a rare nuanced eye for things like so many well-intentioned ppl on here will like see things in black and white and be rly unaccepting of others but i feel like liz has a rare ability to genuinely be open-minded n it's a very special quality imho

@eucalyptus111 honestly one of the realest ppl ive met on here.. i love how she never bullshits + isnt scared to tell me what she rly thinks, conversation comes so naturally bc she's so interesting + so honest + genuine + actually takes the time to rly get to know ppl which is shockingly rare -_- it takes a lot for me to feel comfortable around ppl so quick but w her it's so natural <3 feel like i've known her 4ever

@sklira so talented, so modest, so unique. always introducing me to new things (unintentionally loll) + always standing out from others like so so refreshing. also feel like we have similar passions for like old web/retro gaming/that culture, even tho we're also so diff (bc sklira is way cooler than me ofc heh..) just such a genuine love for art and music and film that isn't just manufactured for internet popularity, one of the rare ppl actually using the internet as it's intended i feel

@blackmold just <3333333. she knows how i feel.. in another life we'd be soulmates. always thinking of her + wishing her the best

@exnymphette kissing on the lips. soul tie. sharing a heart.. one of the only ppl on here i feel like i could just bare my entire soul n she would probably not judge me or hate me for it ;-; need her bak

and ofc everyone like this that has deactivated or become less active, they know who they are, i love them sm 4evr <33!

aand i could do like a whole other section just for aes blogs/non-personal blogs that r just rly cool so.. silent s/o to all of them ofc.. i wont bog down this list too much bc it's already 2 much v.v if u r looking for like actual blog recs tho maybe i can try to answer that sometime as well bc that's probably more like actually useful for other ppl lmao<3

[oshidorifuufu]

bloodwork is basically like, doctors will draw blood from you and they test you for certain stuff, like diabetes, cholesterol problems, things like that! i hate it though... always gotta show my wrist..

not shockingly, my bed did stab me a couple of times, but i always made sure to move away before it would disturb my sleep. i rarely got cuts from it. but once my mom saw my wrist, she made me change the bed.. it was a pain since i have a bunk bed and im on the top bed..

-🎀🖌️anon

ohhh okay when you said it i assumed creating art by cutting and i was like,,let alone seeing the scars maybe it was because she saw the amount of blood and u cutting /j

ohh but isnt it good to change it? id be nervous every night that id stab it right into me and haveto be rushed to the hospital or sm

[warmcoals]

so. teppu. probably the best sports girl thing ever with the least polish ever, technically finished but certainly doesnt feel that way. the plot is so shockingly twisted and spiteful and selfish and traumatized and it works perfectly. the main character is a freak but the depths of her pain that make her this fucked up serious sadomasochist girl are all haunting: broken heart, loneliness, abuse, autism probably, it's all there in the flashbacks. and such short flashbacks, for her and all the characters; every last side character has a fascinating depth and backstory that is just barely revealed in a 5 panel glimpse while yr left to fill in the blanks of their psyche from their current actions and the fights.

AND THE FIGHTS!

i literally thought "this is the dark souls of sports manga" bc four out of five chapters are strictly combat mixed w insane inner monologue. the exact opposite problem of any sport or shonen youve ever read, we barely get two peeks at training before it's immediate time skip to Big Tourney Round 1. even the school scenes end in brawls, verbal or physical or both. the art is stunning, composition anatomy faces all of it, and the characterization thru the progression of the fight itself is so rich and juicy you arent left wanting for a different pace. even the side characters are fascinating and cool.

the characters! every different age and size and build of girl n woman possible in mma. super cool design super varied and unusual archetypes. theres a catgirl office lady named cameron diaz. amazing. plus the main character and her two primary rivals, basically her messy ex and her clueless crush, are all just so varied and multifaceted and cool. nobody is the weakest link.

rly the only problem is how sudden it ends. in the first third the mangaka sets up a whole Trigger-style power rank progression that u can see escalating over like 50-70 chapters: school rival, real rival, the adult plot, real rivals's rival, etc. it demands time for wins and losses and rematches and growth...that it doesnt get. suddenly the rivals have fought and it's Immediately over. so much left unexplored unexplained untouched. there are notes from the author throughout (even the shit scanlation doesnt miss em) that indicate a struggle to write n draw n complete this series, so im super glad it was Seen Thru, and even Great and Satisfying. it just coulda been so much more. and also as a downside, there's a shitawful older brother central to the plot. blegh. silver lining is the ending isnt a total bummer at least.

overall teppu is a sick story about being fueled by spite and hate and wanting one thing so bad you lose sight of everything else, and then regardless of the result, you wind up a better person in the end for all the effort. extremely recommend.

[soapexclamationmark]

HAS SOME REFERENCES TO SPOILERS UP TO EGGHEAD

So i really really like one piece so ive been starting to re-read it the past few days and i just finished up orange town and i wanted to talk about it, because its a lot cooler than i remember! first of all, i really appreciate chou-chous part, i know thats a pretty lukewarm take, but its the first time in the whole series where we see luffy fight for someone else, and its the first time we see him get angry over injustice, and it does a GREAT job setting up the tone for the grand adventure that follows (note while im doing minor editing to make sure this post isnt shit, still probably is, but we also got to see luffy fight for the small girl in romance dawn, but chou-chou is cooler than her and i still think this example truly shines as an early example of this theme so im keeping it)

as always Oda does a really good job of making luffy's anger really *feel* impactful. the scene afterwards where luffy gives chouchou the bag of dog food that he got from the burning building is also amazing and really shows that going forward its not only luffy's wrath that matters, but his love for those facing injustice. honestly this arc does a LOT to introduce luffy's character, the moment when he smashed the mayor into the wall to knock him out. him doing this still works in his what we have seen previously, but alongside his interactions with the townsfollk after the battle with buggy we can see that even if luffy sometimes struggles to understand people (its ok my autistic king, we've all been there) he is shockingly emotionally intellegent. also, the art in this arc is SO much better than romance dawn. maybe its a personal thing but i dont really care for romance dawns art style, its a bit to simple and overly round for me, but orange town has a really great mix of what the artstyle will come to be while still mainly having that older one piece charm, and oda definitally flexes his art skills more in this arc. also reference to the sunken continent?????? in my chapter 19?????

im going to stop short of showing pictures of the art and talking about it because i dont know art that well, and if you want that you should go watch tbskyen's best panel in every chapter of one piece series because he does a much better job of art analysis than i could ever do. i remember there being more i wanted to talk about but i cant remember them right now so im just gonna end on the note that this arc was really funny! i still really like the humour in modern one piece but i found myself laughing a lot more in this arc than ive laughed at one piece in quite some time!! to end, im just gonna put a page that i thought was really funny and had quite a good laugh at.

[eruukat-art]

having the very silly/unusual problem of putting off getting back into jrpgs bc i know id have too many art ideas...... ive been (pleasantly) shockingly productive with art the past month or so, yet i keep coming up with ideas, so it feels like im trying to move a lake with a spoon.

each spoonful of ideas i get to work on is enjoyable, certainly, and im excited to see my work get closer to achieving certain styles and levels of polish + technique. but there are so many spoonfuls in a lake!!!! and im coming up with ideas for video game art as is, so i know that getting into them more would absolutely add to said lake.

furthermore, id want to branch out and try different compositions and types of pieces, which is exciting!! but also kind of daunting, considering it feels like studying and focusing on one niche still hasnt resulted in me grasping that niche yet.. so adding more onto that feels overwhelming at this moment, even though im gathering resources for it in the backburner of my mind.

i dont mean any of this as a lament of time or energy or anything, moreso musing on my mixed excitement + ideation + apprehension and writing down some of my current thoughts on my work, especially as my accounts are slowly growing and gaining more followers. i adore creating cute pieces and fashion/makeup centric stuff, but branching out into more poster-like or painting-like pieces is on my mind, too, even if that isn’t reflected in my work yet + i have a harder time drafting images in that style. im not sure how to describe it, but its like.. artwork that feels grand and captures aspects of the narrative in some visual way, even though it isnt a specific scene, if that makes sense..... doing some work that blends vivid color palettes with a wider range of emotion, too, like bringing out the eerie/unusual/unnerving sides to a character

[thepinkpetalpages]

Jan 15/2025

thank you heavenly fathar who art in hevan. js had to say thank you to god rn cause my dads home from the hospitalll. like yess hes alive and well to, all i could ask for. js because of that news my whole week became better even tho i was lowkey not feeling tdy. my school had a assembly about the new rules about ipads and how vapes arent allowed and its the same thing they always say about vapes but the students continue to do it so i dont really see how effective it is at the end of the day, but a for effort ig??? in school when i was dropping off my bag in my last period before lunch (lunch room is in bsmt and last period is on second floor) my teacher was in there shockingly so i decided to tell him what my councler told me about switching bussnies class period, anyway my "opps" was in there i mostly consider her a hater than a opp bc atp the beef is one sided and shes js looking for me to deck her in the face, she bout to find out the real reason i got a ring with my name on it. thats besides the point but while im telling my teacher what i told him, she starts jumping, claping and saying "yayyyy" to me wanting to change class periods, all haters are ur BIGGEST fucking fans. im in a bad mood and dont really feel like arguing with dusty ass hoes at the end of the day. my teacher even told her how unnessecary and disrespectful it was, he even told her to pipe down (exact words) MIND YOU whats worse is even her own freinds are shocked. if i really had wanted to do i could have clocked her tea and one of her friends tea because one of them is my old best friend (frienship lasted 3 yrs but she chose her new friends and i chose my current friendships) ntm like this isnt the first time. this hating ass hoe tried me the day before thanksgiving like girl pls u look like a overcooked turkey. uhh what makes this whole situation worse is she also plays softball and theirs a chance that she might be on the same team as me which sucks like girl pls, we got like two months untill softball season starts im really not trynna deck u in the face. i might js pull up one day n mistake her big ass head for a softball, who knows tbh. speaking of softball seasan IM SO EXITEDDDDD because this yr i might actually get to play since im no longer brand new to the sport and no longer ingured (broke my right ring finger in practice) and my favrite part about the sport is getting to teach the new players the "basics" especily cause im pretty good at softball but i defenily need to improve tons before i can get to that pro level. my best friend/best teamate is always sending me stuff on like drills i might start doing them only thing is that like a lot of them are tee work drills and i cant really hit off a tee. idk why but i find it so annyoing and when im in practice and we have to do tee drils i normaly find some way to make it look like im doing somethig productive to my coaches but in reality im js yapping in my teamates ears. i alr know what hairstyle ima do for my first softball game as a tenth grader. im lowkey scarred to cause this yr they doing cuts so its like if im not at my best i probaly wont make the team but there is a girl who tore her acl and hasnt played in over a yr whos apperently alr got a spot. tmrw im taking a trip downtown to my doctor to fix whats wrong with my physical papers and im lowkey scared bc i tend to get lost when it comes to public transport but also apperently its going to be hella cold and im not ready for that. i litterly hate the cold its one of the things i hate about this city but theres more i love culture wise than i actually hate. most of the time i dont actually hate something its more of a nuisance to me.

while i was typing this my dad came in my room and he was js on my sisters bed and he looked at what i was typing and asked what is that. i had to find a way to explain to him that i have a blog on tumblr and ended up comparring tumblr to myspace since thats whta he used when he was a kid. my fav part of have a "older latop" is that some how it works better than the new ones, and when it freazzes while im typing and u cant see all the words but than they appear once my laptop starts acting normal agian. it feel like magic cause they all apper at the same time. my hair is curently straightend (i have naturally curly hair) and rn its in a tubi but i swear it looks greasy but its really not its js that my hair has a natrual shine and so now i have evryone telling me my hair is greasy and me js being like no its not. even my mom last night said it looked greasy BUT ITS NOTTTT. my friends birthday is one week, i have the post perfect top and now all i need is to get the finishing touches for her gift, this weekend i have laundry so i cant use my emergency cash so ima have to wait till i get my allowance so i can finsh buying whats missing from her gift.

xoxo,

the pink petal

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ive never actually understood the transitioned Vince transmasc hc but ur real for that....Manon would be so supportive I think she'd just want Rody to be happy esp in an AU where Rody got her shit together

I think a Rody and Manon date night under this au we've made apparently would go smth like:

Manon and Rody going out to a small restaurant or watching a movie in cinema or at home, Manon tries to teach Rody the art of being a stoner (stoner Manon hc from the lovely conversation i had with my partner over a meme of Rody smoking a blunt badly) Rody fails cuz girlfail and Manon and Rody have a lil fashion show where Manon tries not to cringe. bonus Manon calls Vince in forgetting he's gaudy as shit (i forget how bad it is in the actual game but Vince is just. kinda gaudy with at the very least interior design to me) and now Vince is tryna help Rody's poor ass except neither of them can fashion that well (see: Vince isnt that good with fashion either imo) while Manon just giggles the whole time and they're all having a blast

i love this au we've suddenly made this is so real

i think the transmasc vincent headcanon comes from the photo in his office which is described to have a woman that looks "shockingly similar to vincent" in it. to me this seems like a hint that he's transitioned transmasc? since it doesn't mention his family at all so it seems unlikely there'd be a random photo of them in there

but also so true for real. i think vincent probably thinks he has a good sense of style and fashion meanwhile rody and manon can both tell his lack of taste extends to fashion too. and rody goes "dude you have such shitty interior design skills" and manon is like "oh don't you start" and proceeds to put him on blast for every horrible outfit he's ever worn

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Ratty - 🚗, 🎮, 📚, 💯, 🚫, 🍎, ❤️, 🖤, 🥯, 🧐, 🤩, 👨,

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🚗 — does your oc have a driver's license? can they drive/operate any automobiles/machinery besides cars?

She has a driver’s license AND she’s forklift certified <3 she doesn’t particularly enjoy driving, though, because no one follows the rules of the road like she does. Shes the only good one everyone else is a fool.

🎮 — what are three of your oc's favorite hobbies?

Her favorite hobbies include building/fixing random shit, listening to music, and crying. She’s never had much time on her hands until very recently, so shes got no idea what to do with herself. I think she should get into art tho. It would free her soul. 

📚 — what level of education has your oc most recently completed/is currently in (GED, undergraduate, grad school, phd, etc)?

She didn’t really graduate highschool traditionally bcz she went to the military at 16 but she has the equivalent of like a bachelors or trade school level education ig??? She has much more hands-on experience than things that look good on paper just because of the way that the region zero military tends to run things, which i suppose has its pros and cons (great for doing things efficiently in a factory, NOT great for being the president and making decisions and being diplomatic about your special interest). She has certifications in different areas that she can at least show; power plant operations, nuclear arms safety/handling/exports, aforementioned forklift certification, etc. She’d probably have like a GED and a bachelor’s in engineering if I were to compare her actual schooling to something normal. And just a lot of varied job/trades experiences. 

💯 — share three random facts about your oc that others may not know.

We dont talk much about the MANY years she lives in an apartment by herself but maybe that's for good reason. r/malelivingspace meme passing.

least expected recreational drug enjoyer bcz shes a timid geek but if she lived in a free and fun world she'd be trying more. she doesnt really tend to have a fun time on alcohol or pills (vague) or shitty region zero weed or even cocaine but she still tries <3 not like she can make her brain much worse than it is

Her eyesight is awful and she's had glasses since she was like 11. she would wear sports goggles before ever trading them out for contacts no matter how annoying they get; she thinks they look good on her (shes right) and is comforted by the fact that they partially hide her face.

🚫  — does your oc drink/smoke? do they do it regularly, or is it more on occasion or for special events?

She drinks recreationally or occasionally smokes (although harder drugs are preferred 😐). If coping counts as a special event then it’s only for special events, but oh how she’s always coping.

🍎 — where was your oc born? do they still live in/around their place of birth or do they live somewhere else? how do they feel about their birthplace?

Harvey was born in the north-east of the region, which is not a particularly citizen-friendly area so much as a space for industry and military operations. Lower-class families such as hers are its major populace. She moved out quite quickly, since she dormed with the military in the (south-eastish) starting at 16 until her early 20s-ish. Once she got a job that wasn’t directly with the military, she moved back to an apartment somewhat near her hometown, but more for convenience than wanting to be near family. she has mixed feelings about her hometown; it's much of what made her into the person she is today with the passions that she has, but theres also a lot of painful memories there. everythings a painful memory tho, isnt it.

❤️ — what are three of your oc's positive traits?

Shockingly she has plenty of positive traits *smiles* she is HARD-WORKING she is HUMBLE she is KNOWLEDGEABLE (bonus: she is cute)

🖤 — has your oc killed or seriously wounded anyone before? have they broken someone's heart and/or broken someone's trust?

Shes not….. Directly killed anyone LOL. Although those who are critical of the things she let slide in terms of nuclear waste production and disposal might say otherwise….. Shes quite traditionally nonviolent and wouldn't really ever fight or hurt someone physically (altho she could probably fair pretty well tbh), not a fan of violence at all she just really enjoys weapons <3 Cognitive dissonance swag. As for broken hearts/trust, not really??? Faust was quite offended when she indirectly let her army get so out of hand that they start sister-killing but thats quite the jump to make. Although she probably shouldve at least condemned it LOL.

🥯 — what does your oc's typical breakfast look like? do they usually eat breakfast?

Shes not a big breakfast-eater because she likes to suffer ig. If left to her own devices she’d probably just have a coffee, but she’d usually get like a bagel or some oatmeal or something pushed on her while working in the capital. 

🧐 — is your oc more logical or emotional?

It’s complicated LOL. shes an ISTJ n all but she also has severe anxiety that dictates every part of her life so I might say shes more emotional. Her fearful loyalty to the status quo and worries life in region zero allow her to make poor decisions even though she knows the outcome might be poorer than if she were to make decisions that were more against-the-grain. She struggles to make decisions that make her uncomfortable or afraid, even if they’re logical.

🤩 — is your oc a planner, or are they more spontaneous in their actions?

She definitely prefers to plan. She enjoys having a routine and likes for life to be mostly predictable. It would make most ppl insane but she’s lucky enough that such a thing works for her. Any sudden deviation from the Usual makes her scream and cry and piss tho

👨‍👩‍👧‍👦 — how many people are in your oc's immediate family? how many people are in your oc's extended family? do they have aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents, etc? who in their family are they closest with? are they close with their birth family, or do they have a found family?

Her immediate family consists of just her, raymond, and their mom and dad. Im sure she has an aunt/uncle or two as well, and some cousins, but not really any that she was particularly close with, especially considering that she was quite distant even from her immediate family. She’s had 3 or so generations of family members living in region zero and Most of them are dysfunctional and cold and working-class so perhaps all this is a curse she was born into. She had to become ok with being alone at a very young age and shes worse off for that <3 Raymond was, of course, who she was closest too but that got taken away pretty quickly. Things aren’t really the same now, even though hes not really dead.