#this is why I shouldn’t be allowed to have multiple tumblrs

[plansexualford]

As a long time billford truther (this blog may be new but I’m not.) I’m so happy to see the revival of a ship that was once so misunderstood.

Below is my not so little rant about my frustrations with “but it’s toxic” people and the disservice it does in undermining not only fans’ intelligence but lowkey the writing of the content we’ve been given. Also, a bit on how fandoms in general seem to dismiss the use of ships (unless canonized/written directly into the story) as a medium to tell complex, and sometimes uncomfortable stories.

The frustration I have towards the people that act like they’re high and mighty for saying “billford is ironic, you shouldn’t actually ship it cause it’s toxic” or some variation of treating it as a joke or untouchable that piss me off for multiple reasons.

1. We know, you are not smarter or superior for acknowledging a fact that is crystal clear to see and is literally the most common way that dynamic is explored. Like wow, congrats on providing such valuable insight that none of us saw before. The only times I ever see it not explored in that way has maybe been through pre-betrayal interactions and what ifs.

Not to say there are NEVER clear misreadings (not aus/or fixits/etc. just poor understandings) of their characters that are devoid of what makes them—them, but I fear I truly dgaf and just wince and move on.

2. It is in my opinion, infinitely worse (edit: and honestly a sign of immaturity) to want the allusions to a toxic relationship to be jokes instead of simply accepting that a relationship did happens in canon, whether it happened platonically or romantically (though there is more subtext that 12 y/o me would have never I’d ever imagined reading as an adult for that latter recently.) It should be taken seriously, given that the book clearly wants us to, otherwise the allusions in the book and thisisnotawebsitedotcom.com would not exist in the way that they do. Why would you rather something like that be a joke instead of allowing yourself to sit with and accept discomfort?

Ultimately billford is twisted, it’s horrifying to imagine, it’s a tragically awful train-wreck we can’t look away from. After all that, Ford’s resolve is honestly healing. And if we see interesting, complex stories/art/musings to tell from this dynamic, what’s wrong with that?

Lastly, the source material is a Y7-V Disney Channel show that premiered over 10 years ago, we’re (I assume mostly) adults now. Unclench.

P.S. I’m being unserious when I say this but “toxic yaoi/yuri ” is apparently trend and y’all can’t handle a yellow triangle demon and a grown man from a Y7-V series? Smh. Take every variation of that phrase out your tumblr bio immediately, you don’t deserve it.

[is-the-fire-real]

‘Documenting my Jewish conversion’ your opinion on the last year means nothing, then. Absolutely nothing. You will never know the fear that real Jews have been facing since October 7th 2023, and you will never understand the risks that come from looking and acting like a Jew. You people shouldn’t even be allowed to call yourselves Zionists, because you have no ties to the holy land at all.

I bet you think Kahanism is ‘too much’, too.

Wow, Anon, this would really hurt my feelings if I believed for one second you were actually Jewish.

I could leave it at this and move on, but you know what? I'm feeling chatty and it's been a long time since I've made a big post on here, so let's sort out, piece by piece, why I know you're cosplaying.

For starters: if you were really Jewish, you wouldn't be anonymous. Jews who believe gerim aren't "real Jews" post their opinions on their blogs under their names. They are very few and far between, but they aren't shy. I believe that you have chosen to send this anonymously because you ARE shy... because your login info will demonstrate that you are an antisemitic goy who's trying to pick at what you assume is a sore spot.

Second, if you were really Jewish and you'd paid attention to what I've said about "the last year" (and then using the Gregorian calendar date, which is just funny to me), you would know that I haven't actually expressed an opinion on Zionism. I have reblogged material from other Jews expressing their opinions. Those Jews have ranged from Zionists to non-Zionists to post-Zionists to "refuse all terminology"-ists. I have chosen, deliberately, to do what we used to call signal boosting.

When I have expressed an opinion, it has been on the behavior of antisemites on Tumblr who pretend to be something they're not--usually, pro-Palestinian, but in your case, Jewish. I have been wondering what the "pro-Pal" fandom would do now that it's started to collapse from the fans getting bored, and you've demonstrated one possible tactic--so thanks for that!

Third, if you were really Jewish, you would have something to say about being Jewish that isn't what you said. I've read and spoken with countless Jews who talk about being Jewish. Look at the words you've chosen: "risk" and "fear". I have heard Jews express fear, and awareness of risk, but no Jew I've met would reduce all of Jewish experience to risk and fear.

The Jews I marked Yom Kippur with were aware of risk and had prudent fear. But they were not fearful. They were not obsessed with risk. They do not define their Judaism by terror, not even the little old lady in a foreign country who had bad ankles. I'm not going to tell you what the rest of Judaism entails, because you should know it yourself. I'm not going to make your anonymous cosplay easier for you by giving you explicit pointers.

Fourth, let's talk about "looking and acting like a Jew".

The man guiding my conversion has been physically attacked multiple times in the past three months, to the point where he has stopped wearing his kippah in public--especially around his own home because he's concerned someone will find said home and stalk/attack him and his wife. He is the leader of a group of Jews who are reinstating Judaism in a land where there have been no Jews in centuries. There will, for the first time in half a millennium, be a Torah in this part of the world due to his tireless efforts. He has, immeasurably, made the world a better, more spiritual, and more Jewish place. He is the guy the press and the government and the local Christian and Muslim groups contact if they want to ask about Jewish holidays or the opinion of the local Jewish population. He is the guy who writes all the statements put out by the local Jewish organization, of which he is the president and founder. In that sense, even taking off the kippah won't shield him--he is definitionally, visibly Jewish.

And you may tell yourself "Oh, he must be born Jewish if he's doing all that, so of COURSE he's got a lifelong experience with Judaism and of COURSE he's had a lifelong experience of antisemitism so of COURSE he knows more about all of this than you do, Fire."

This man is a convert.

He has, to use your attitude, "only" been Jewish for one-third of his life.

So, like, what did you mean by "looking and acting like a Jew" being a thing gerim know nothing about? What did you mean about how gerim cannot "look" or "act" like Jews enough to experience antisemitism? What was that about gerim not being entitled to opinions because of their ignorance on what being a Jew is like? What kind of phrenology are you practicing to determine who was a born Jew and who converted? What alchemy do you believe in in which the flesh of a born Jew has mystical qualia that mine does not?

I believe that I will enter the mikveh a ger, and I will emerge a Jew. My belief is in line with literally every rabbinical source I have encountered and the opinion of every single Jew I've ever read... except yours. Mysteriously, you don't believe the mikveh is a closed practice only for Jews, and that the only way a goy could ever be permitted to enter a mikveh is so that they will emerge from it Jewish, just as Jewish as those who emerged from their parents' wombs as Jews.

Why don't you believe that? Why are you the odd Jew out?

Is it because you're pretending to be Jewish to sow dissent and hurt random strangers for your own cruel pleasure? I sure think so!

Fifth, let's focus on the next bit in greater detail. Why do you think I'm a Zionist when I've never stated one way or the other?

I'll tell you why!

You found my name on one of the Zionist Blocklists that your fellow antisemites put together. I'm not on all of them, but I have ended up on at least one! And you're going through that blocklist, pretending to be Jewish in order to harass the Jews you found on there. You think you can try to trick me into abandoning my baby-eating ways by suggesting that the "real Jews" don't think I'm one of them.

The funny part about that is that I didn't end up on that list by being a Zionist on main. I ended up on that list by talking about my conversion process, reblogging pictures of Judaica, talking to Jews, and reblogging posts from Jews. That's it. That is why I know those blocklists are utter BS--because I, like dozens of other Jews would tell you if you weren't an antisemitic troll, wasn't on a Zionist Blocklist at all.

I was put on a list of Jews for the crime of being Jewish on Tumblr. You are trying to hurt me because I was visibly Jewish online. You are only here because you found me on a Jew-Hate List.

But go ahead and tell me I've no idea what antisemitism is, or what being visibly Jewish is like.

Sixth: very bold of you to assume I don't have any ties to Israel! Are you sure about that? Are you really sure? It's not something I have ever discussed on my blog, and it's interesting that you would assume this means the answer is "no", when it could just as easily be "I don't discuss that detail of my personal life online with total strangers who are also antisemites and disgraces to their hate movements".

Guess which one is the correct answer! Go on, guess!

Seventh, I don't actually care about what you think about my conversion, even if you are Jewish (you aren't--this is a hypothetical). Conversion isn't a popularity contest. There are a ton of people who don't accept my conversion because I'm going to be Masorti. There are a ton of other people who will assume I don't think they're Jewish because they're not Masorti.

And I just... don't really care about the argument, overall. There are several Jewish opinions which matter to me. The man who's guiding my conversion, the Rabbit teaching my conversion class, and the beit din who will interview me. That's actually pretty much it! If other Jews don't think I'm Jewish, they're entitled to their opinion and they don't have to spend time with me or invite me to their services. They're justified in controlling who accesses their sacred spaces. It'd be nice if they weren't jerks about it, but you can't always get what you want.

Just to be totally, abundantly clear, then: even if you were Jewish, you'd still be wrong to tell me that I'm not and that my opinion is meaningless. It's just useful to point out that you aren't Jewish, about which I have one more point to make!

And last (don't worry, I know you stopped reading long ago, but I like to be thorough), I do not know why you're asking me to refute, or support, an ideology for a nation in which I do not live. I don't have an opinion on Kahanism more complex than "I don't like what I've heard about it". If you'd asked me my opinion on the Vox/PP alliance in Spain, I could write for days! Or if you asked me about how horseshoe theory is validated by the alliance between red fash, green fash, and Republicans in the US--I can and have written about that, too!

I don't write about Israeli politics in depth for the same reason I don't write about the political situation in Ukraine, or Canada, or Myanmar, or Qatar, or Ghana, or Greenland, or any of the other places I don't live. It seems silly for me to pontificate on political situations I don't understand when, most often, all I can offer is what I already said: "sounds bad, if true".

Here, let me liberate you from your self-constructed prison: you don't have to have a strong and informed opinion on every single thing occurring on the face of the Earth. It's okay for you to not know stuff. You do not have to form a hard opinion instantaneously because a stranger on the Internet demanded it. You can, and should, plead ignorance and move on with your life. You will be a far happier person if you are not ruled by obsessive anxiety regarding things you don't know. STOP MAKING HOT TAKES.

But, of course, I kid. I know, the same as you, why you brought up Kahanism. It's because you're the same anon who's going around harassing Jews by pretending to be Jewish, and you finally learned how to spell "Kahanism" correctly, and you're very, very proud of yourself and wanted to show off.

I am glad you found out it's not spelled Khanism!

This is the thing, brother. You are lying through your teeth. You are trying so hard to hurt Jews, and you're convinced this tactic will work. You want to create infighting among all the zionazi scum you despise. You and folks like you pretended to be Jews who were outraged over a bar mitzvah being performed in a television program, and you pretend to be Jews who are salty about the existence of converts. But I've gotta tell you, as a ger, I can still see right through you. It's all pretense.

You are as Jewish as an Easter ham.

Give up the game, anon. You're not clever enough to play it.

[lockandkeyhyena]

as someone who’s followed ur content for awhile, this entire situation just seems.. kinda stupid? like people would benefit from actual communication instead of just looking away and such.

i say this as a lesbian: i was previously a twitter user, left a little before the “tumblr migration” in fact. and yeah, twitter definitely has “against mspec lesbian” stuff, and joining tumblrbshocked me. seeing a community so supportive of mspec lesbians was confusing, weren’t they “wrong”? lesbiphobic? enbyphobic? etc, etc, etc. i felt awkward saying anything though, so i didn’t reblog or anything, but sometimes i’d read through them. i had realized i.. never took a moment to read about the other side, never looked at their perspective on things, just that they were “bad” and they were “harmful”.

after all this time, i’ll say it. i still don’t exactly *get* mspec gays! they’re so complicated even for me and as a lesbian i can’t understand truly, but there is one thing i’ve processed: why does it matter? where is the harm? sure, if they were forcing labels onto others (and yeah, some where forcing labels onto nonbinary lesbians, but that was SOME.) and being assholes about it, yeah i’d see harm, but if anything.. the rest of the community is the harmful one. we’re policing identities, we’re telling people how they’re allowed to feel comfortable.

nonbinary people don’t like being put in a box: they’re not a neat third gender (fourth gender? does intersex count?) they’re a spectrum of people all with relations to gender, to themselves. they can be masculine, feminine, even gnc. it doesn’t matter to other people, nobody else can control their relationship to gender, because it’s special to them.

people who identify with multiple genders or who swap between genders don’t like being put in a box: they could be “non-men” or “non-women”, but they could be both, they could be neither—anything! they shouldn’t have to or need to make a choice to what they are, that’s the entire point of their identity.

fuck, the entire point of the lgbt community is that we don’t like being put in a box!! we didn’t want to be straight or cis or whatever, we wanted to be us!!! so why should we box mspec gays??

i guess this is an apology to mspec gays for my behavior in the past, for echoing the voices of those policing their identity. they didn’t deserve that, i should have known better and hopefully i know better now.

hey, this is incredibly lovely of you anon! thanks for this ask

[haikyuupaladin]

Please copy and paste this week’s ask and send it in to @wip if you see this, because they can’t ignore us all.

Week 12 of posting my asks to @wip , week 17 of no response from wip when it comes to my asks on photosensitivity issues, week 13 of no response from @support , week 7 since my second ticket got closed without any attempt at a response and week 6 since they refused to blaze one of these posts, here’s this week’s ask:

“Can we get accessibility features for photosensitive people? This is especially topical now with the amount of Spiderverse content making Tumblr unusable for photosensitive users at the moment.

A community label for flashing lights would be incredibly useful as right now if something is improperly tagged we have to ask each individual user to tag it, and we often have to do this for multiple posts by the same person as they forget.

Another useful feature would be to allow us to disable autoplay on desktop, as while I know it has already been said that a lot of browsers let you change it browser-wide, there are many reasons that that is not a good option for everyone, including not always having control over your own browser settings.

There also needs to be a better option for reporting ads for containing flashing lights, and the ads should be hidden while they’re being reviewed as right now the options are to file them under a category where the person reviewing it might just dismiss it because they don’t understand why it’s being reported, or forcing users who are sensitive to flashing lights to stay on the screen to try to get a screenshot if they want to report an ad that is harming them, and they still might see the same harmful ad 10 times in a row after reporting it.

Suggesting users pay for ad free is not an acceptable answer to this because photosensitive users shouldn’t have to pay to not put themselves at risk for a seizure, migraine, or other negative effect.

I could make more suggestions for features that should be added but these are some of the more pressing ones at the moment. “

[bsd-rarepair-week-2024]

FAQ 🤎

Q: What is considered a rarepair?

A: it is purely up to you to decide. that being said, we highly encourage ships outside of the most popular ones -> going by AO3 statistics, those are skk, sskk, and ranpoe. let's give a chance to the many other wonderful pairings in bsd :) that being said, we cannot control you. do what you want!

Q: Do I have to do every day?

A: of course not! you may do as many days as you are comfortable with

Q: Are late submissions accepted?

A: submissions will still be accepted 2 weeks after the due date. late days are also okay (e.g. posting a work for day 2 on day 5. no worries!)

Q: Can I use multiple prompts?

A: absolutely! one, two, all, it doesn't matter. go wild

Q: Why wasn't my work reblogged?

A: if it's been more than two days and there was no rb, shoot us a dm, we might have missed it!

Q: Are collabs/group works allowed?

A: definitely! the more the merrier :)

Q: Are poly ships/platonic ships accepted?

A: yes!

Q: What does ‘no aging up characters for sexual acts’ mean? (for characters shown at multiple ages in canon, like dazai or ranpo)

A: for ease of understanding, take it that for NSFW works, characters involved must be 18+ already in canon. there shouldn’t be, for example, 15!dazai in an NSFW work because underage sex is still disallowed. but it is not considered aging him up for 18/22!dazai, as the oldest he’s shown in canon is 22. it’s also fine to depict him at lets say 30, for he is already of age. he just cannot be depicted as <18 in the creation

this pretty much just applies for NSFW creations. e.g. for SFW creations, it’s fine to do like 18!kenji in a college AU

Q: Can I post my creations on other platforms (e.g. tiktok)?

A: definitely! you may link it to your tumblr/twt post too

[bl00dngh0uls]

I just wanted to ask. Why change the name of the fall to the descent? Imagine being so petty that the story you and another person created was so good that instead of making another one because it's that great you just fill in their character and rename everything. It's super copy righted if you ask me. You tried breaking her and her boyfriend up. Then called her multiple times and stepped over her boundaries yet you say it was her who you were scared if you missed a call. She tried helping you and cared for you yet you have the audacity to call it otherwise when you can't talk it out with her or for her to defend herself? I had to make a tumblr just to message you as you took off the anonymous. Those people had no right to say kill yourself and most of those other comments but it's also not right for you to create the same exact story as she put so much time into it. The character your girlfriend made is the exact same as hers was with golden wings just a different name and different hair color. The picture below is something she drew awhile back. Her family said the same thing about you that you were bad news yet she defended you and kept allowing you to come back into her life with open arms. Obviously you two cared about eachother and I hope you could at least talk because you made something beautiful together and now it's just used as a petty trophy. You two aren't bad for eachother you just have bad communication skills. If you block me that's fine but I just had to say I truly loved the fall and it's amazing what you two made.

Honestly, I find it a little ridiculous to have made a tumblr just to message me about this. It’s very adolescent, and I couldn’t imagine being so invested in something that wasn’t your business to go out of your way to message a grown ass adult about why they would place their character in a new story.

Though it doesn’t matter in any capacity, I completely trashed The Fall. Changed the name because same concept, except we’re starting over. New story, new characters, new ideas.

Imagine being told to kill yourself, being absolutely bombarded with messages all through the night, waking up to that bullshit. No fucking wonder I turned off my goddamn anons LMAO are you actually kidding me.

And another reason to not put your nose so far into others affairs, is because you actually have no idea who I am. You don’t know anything about me other than what you’ve been told. I shouldn’t have to come and defend myself for the hurt I’ve endured.

I kept hoping she’d change, as one does in an abusive relationship, and it never happened. Receiving messages from all different people over this, trying to be guilted for breaking something off that was making me mentally, and physically ill. I was so stressed everyday. Getting called aaalll throughout my day to hear her be angry about her job, be angry about people she worked with, be angry about other people succeeding in life, being angry with herself for not doing more, constantly talking about how stressed her piece of shit boyfriend makes her. How he never fucking does anything around their apartment, how he makes her feel shitty for wearing anything ‘revealing’ (oh gods forbid, wouldn’t want to look like a whore, which I was also pretty tired of her internalized, projected slut shaming), how she can’t ever do anything without him ruining it. How he’s made friends leave her life because THEY hated him.

Nothing I said seemed to appease any of these things, because how could it?? You get out of your life what you put into it, and all of that angry, jealous, immature energy she served kept her trapped. I don’t think she ever wants to actually change, she just wants to be pitied, and to be seen as someone who gives and gives and gives, but never talks about all of the mental energy she takes from others. When you’re so locked into the delusions you’ve created for yourself to justify feeling like shit and not doing a fucking thing about it, life can get pretty shitty for you. That’s what’s happening for her.

I don’t have a squeaky clean record of mental health, but I at least care enough about myself to work on things I need to. Not sit in denial, and tell people that they disgust you for bringing up that you may have some fucking issues. Just the fact that she couldn’t accept that we are no longer speaking, and will not be anymore, shows that fucking SOMETHING needs to be worked on. People that don’t care would just let you live in your own little world where you’re the epitome of mentally healthy. Well NEWS FLASH, nobody is.

Thinking she’s excluded from people struggling with mental health is laughable. Maybe if she decides to hop off her high horse, someday she can make healthy connections with others. I’m done being a dumping ground for all her bullshit, and then being absolutely TORN APART VERBALLY for having anything to say that isn’t rolling over, and accepting that I’m somehow always the only problem. Fuck that.

So, now that I’ve wasted my time, and you’ve quite obviously wasted yours, let’s just stop all of this.

If I receive anymore asks from you, I won’t be responding to them, and I will be blocking you, because I’m done. I’m ready to move on from this.

[arainesque]

in trust, i let you feel

authors note:

RAMBLES. this is the definition of a ramble. all in one, just out there, i've barely read it through, just posting for the person who may want it. ???? My new take on a writers-block. Tumblr allows rambles doesn't it. (Fluffy and mildly dramatic.)

word count: 895

Matty knew it was bad, he did. He didn’t need the constant nudges of reminder as if he’d slip up if didn’t remember. As if people thought he didn’t know. As much as he wished he wasn’t part of the collective conscious of the world, he was. He knew, and he was aware. And they weren’t even an entity in the first place, really, his addiction and his devotion. They were on two completely different planes, entirely separated. He couldn’t forget it no matter how hard he tried. He couldn’t stop, either. Because they weren’t the same and his brain wasn’t a simple mechanism. The human brain just isn’t.

Multiple things can be true at once, no matter how contradictory it seems. No matter how frustrating the notion is.

It’s sorted through so many algorithms that you get dizzy with it. Left to rely on the feeling instead of the thought. Because it becomes intrinsic at some point. The beauty of biology.

And he loves George.

And he loves the drugs.

It isn’t one or the other. Really.

How can you decide when there’s an infinite amount of opportunities. An infinite amount of right decisions. Because right isn’t objective, and everything is stupid.

But he loves George.

Oh, he loves George.

His heart wouldn’t forget how to beat around him if he didn’t.

It wouldn’t turn into this stupid, fragile, trembling thing inside of his chest. Stuttering and racing at the sound of his voice. Stopping completely at the mere sight of his dark eyes, just drinking them in as if in some sort of trance. Yet, he’d never been more thankful to be sober.

The more you know, the more you know that you know nothing.

But George’s chest is so smooth beneath the palm of his hand, and if nothing matters then how can that matter so much. It all matters just that bit too much.

“Here.” George says, pressing Matty’s hand firmer to his sternum. “It’s not beating right.”

It isn’t. It’s too quick, like the fluttering of a hummingbird's wings beneath Matty’s hand. But it’s George and it’s alive. A rabbit's heart. Rhythmical and forceful and fast.

“It’s perfect.” Matty found himself whispering against the skin of George’s chest, pushing his hand down even firmer just to feel the responding skip in the otherwise steady tempo. Causing chaos. Arrhythmia.

George let him. Unbelievably.

“It can’t behave around you.” George spoke, his voice lacing the air in a dreamlike texture that shouldn’t have been of this world, but it was, and it’s beautiful. George’s hand pressed his own even closer to his chest. The next inhale was deep and crisp beneath Matty’s ear. “It’s always been sensitive to you.”

Matty closed his eyes for a moment, focusing on each point where their bodies were connected, touching. His leg slung over George’s hip, his hipbone grazing George’s abdomen and the sheer weight of George’s hand on top of his own. Letting him feel things he couldn’t explain with words.

Words weren’t ever enough, were they?

“Mine too.” Matty whispered, sober, vulnerable.

“It doesn’t like being listened to.” George nearly-whispered. A quiet confession. The ghost of a breath making the curls on top of Matty’s head move just a little bit. Just enough for a crazy person to notice, and he noticed.

A heartbeat. Two. Speeding up. A staccato.

“I know.” Matty said, shifting a little so that the violent sloshing sounds of George’s blood rushing through the valves of his heart softened a little, so his ear landed a little closer to the bottom of his clavicle. “Why do you let me?”

It stuttered beneath Matty’s ear, beating even quicker. Sickly. If he didn’t know.

“It loves you.”

Thundering. Matty getting breathless along with the pace of it.

“Do you?” Matty questioned, slinging his leg just that bit further over George’s hip. Letting his lips graze over that one mole on his chest.

“Yes.” No room for objections in the conviction of his voice. “You know I do.”

“Yeah.” Matty said, against the ever-smooth skin of George’s chest. Against the heartbeat steadily pushing up against his sternum, threatening his line of sight. The proof of life he couldn’t stop himself from marveling at. The fundamental pace of the person he knew and loved and needed. The pace he had full control of no matter if he wanted to or not. But he did, want to. “I love you.”

George’s heart trembled beneath his palm, against the shell of his ear. Because he cared and the words did hit him where they needed to. Matty was aware of that. He never had to doubt George’s interpretations of his utterances. Never had to doubt George’s feelings for him, really. Not when his pulse had always stuttered nervously around him.

Mirroring his own.

“I love you.”

Not I love you more. I love you differently.

Loving drugs and loving George weren’t the same.

George loved him back.

George was so, so much better.

With his beating (pounding) heart. So obviously affected and there. Fluttery and fragile and vulnerable. A heart he trusted Matty with. Something to give him purpose.

Maybe it wasn’t so difficult at all. Anything. 

Maybe it was just George’s life beneath the palm of his hand.

His "I love you." Against the top of his head.

Maybe just his skin against his own.

[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

Do you use any discredited communication method such as Facilitated Communication??

(RPM is not “better than FC.” It is FC rebranded. The individual holding the letterboard still holds the letterboard and moves it, whether subconsciously due to ideomotor effect or on purpose. Victims are not allowed to resist verbally and are not encouraged to develop the verbal speech they already have. It’s taken as “meaningless unreliable speech” and ignored. Autism is NOT primarily a motor control disorder, which is one of the biggest lies of FC, and “impulsive speech” has NOT been backed by tje scientific autism literature. It is invented by “FC users” and their facilitators as a post hog rationalization of why verbal FCed people can say things that contradict their FCed or RPMed words. )

It is also very suspicious how most notorious FC users and those paraded as “success stories”, have since “disappeared” from the public eye entirely. https://www.facilitatedcommunication.org/blog/mysterious-disappearances-in-the-world-of-fc-what-does-it-take-to-sustain-the-illusion I suspect this will also be the case with new “tumblr generation” and more to come with the new variant, S2C. The author of this piece is a former facilitator who was involved in the infamous Betsy Wheatson case, in which she made her victim falsely allege abuse against a parent and tore her family apart. We only know the fate of two in the article, Tito M. and Amy Sequenzia. The former his mother still parades around, the latter she’s living in a facility after her facilitator (father) abused her. Organizations like ASAN had those like Amy on their board when her words are not her own so she could not have been called a “self advocate.” We shouldn’t even know these profoundly autistic people, if it wasn’t that their facilitators made it their mission to advertise them as FC role models and marketing purposes. They were used, now nowhere to be seen.

Others who are paraded as “success stories” within FC have a trajectory that I’m beginning to suspect may be the case with you. Amanda Baggs, for example, claimed to use FC, but was really a malingering schizophrenic who went to early college program perfectly typical with no issues. She may have had a late regression as many on Tumblr like “five thousand loaves of bread” claim to have. She claimed to have catatonia which many on this platform claim as well. Either way that didn’t matter in the end, because she was still subject to the practice of FC and she too mysteriously disappeared as of 2020 alleging medical abuse and no one knows where she is to this day. She is still cited as a “foundational neurodiversity advocate” and so is Amy S. , Carly F, Naomi H and Sharisa K. So is Donna Williams, a multiple personality case with an autistic “alter” who later claimed to be a severely autistic person. All these people are either abused and exploited or greatly exaggerated their disabilities. I suspect this may be the case with you and those like you.

If we are supposed to feel bad about not presuming competence of these folks, why are we supposed to feel good about Amy dumped and mistreated, about Carly (who notoriously went missing after a molestation accusation?) And why are we supposed to listen to these Tumblr users who are consigned to similar fates? Why should we listen?

post this for archive

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now that block them so talk little (overwhelm w stuff so short)

1. interesting i not get the “are you really nonverbal” bc think this person inherent not believe me & regress (judge by mention my url & “suspect this may be case for you/those like you”)

2. not do good job proof read before copy paste send because “as many on tumblr like (my url) claim have” when send ask to me

[anonforlackofabettername]

A, B, G for any fandom for the asks?

A - Ships that you currently like a lot. (They don’t have to be OTPs because not everyone has OTPs.) Friendships, pairings, threesomes, etc. are allowed.

I’ve been reading a lot of Tim/Kon lately since I’ve been in a batfam mood and Tim is my blorbo. Core 4 poly is also up there is good shit whether it’s platonic, queerplatonic, romantic, or sexual. It’s not right now but my other batfam ships are Tim+Cass siblings and Tim/Jason romo.

I just started Dunmeshi and yeah I can see why Farcille is good. This too is yuri.

Uhhh *does a quick backscroll through tumblr and my ao3 history* Luke+Leia is just *squeezes* so shaped. There’s a reason they’re both blorbos. Murderbot and Art are in no way romantic and I’m not sure I’d classify them as queerplatonic but god those two are just… look they’re very important to each other and are each others most important relationship but they’re both non-human sentients so it’s hits different in a very non-romo way.

B - A pairing–platonic, romantic or sexual–that you initially didn’t consider, but someone changed your mind.

I mean unless the show or story itself is pitching a ship I tend to need to be convinced. I’m very aroace-spectrum where unless the show is shoving the blorbos together (hello miraculous ladybug love square my beloved) I usually need fandom to hold my hand and explain why the blorbos go together. I think Ez may have sold me on Tristan/Teddy or at least taken it from “I think they’re neat” to “yes yes yes.” A lot of my strongly held shipping beliefs can trace back to someone in fandom going “I care a lot” and me going “hell yeah I’ll join you on this hill.” So yeah. I’m pretty easy to convince but I don’t always get there on my own just from canon itself.

G - Have you ever had an OTP? If so, do you remember your first one? Who was in it?

The answer is yeah of course I do, I love shipping. Live and let ship all the way. The problem is that while I believe in one ship above all others I also believe in both polyamory and the inherent joy of the fandom bicycle. So while I may fully believe in Stucky — for example — as soulmates, Steve is bicycle-blorbo shaped and thus I will ship him with anyone a fic or author makes a compelling argument for. Which undermines the whole “one true” part of OTP. Love to hold multiple conflicting OTPs in my heart and know them to all be true. Love even having OT3s.

As for my oldest? 🤔 I’ve been talking a bunch with the gc about Ranma 1/2 and how my gateway into fandom early on was Ranma+Sailor Moon. I’m pretty ship and let ship with SM but I do genuinely like and enjoy Usagi and Mamoru together even though I’m from a fandom tradition that paired Usagi with what seems like everyone else. I guess the early ship that I was like no these two belong together in a romo way and shouldn’t be separated or shipped with other people was Percy Jackson/Annabeth Chase. I’ll vibe with most Harry Potter ships except Drarry but I read HP and PJO at around the same time and was like no these two demigods are meant to be together, do not interfere.

Alphabet Fandom Asks

[dougiejack]

Top 5 players?

Okay as a challenge I am not allowing multiple players per team because it would simply be too obvious

1. From the Devils: Mr. Douglas Hamilton. What’s not to love? He’s enormous, he’s vaguely ginger, he won us so many games by taking the same shot from the same place which shouldn’t have worked but it DID, did I mention he’s big??

2. From the Leafs: wouldn’t it be funny if I said someone besides Mitch? But lol no sorry2am34, your little mouse boyfriend is prettier and more interesting than you. His smile makes me smile. I don’t think I really have to explain to hockey tumblr of all places why I like Mitch Marner lmaoooooo.

3. From the Penguins: you know it’s gotta be Geno. He was my first favorite player. I started studying Russian because of him (which is so embarrassing because everyone always asks me why I would choose Russian), I bought his insanely expensive hat, he’s just my big Russian guy idk what to tell you.

4. From the Senators: the little German boy himself, Timmy Stützle. I love a wet paper bag of a man. I love a pathetic loser. I love an adult professional athlete who isn’t afraid to hide behind a bigger man to avoid the consequences of his actions. I’m so charmed by this nerd, really I am. I do not actually watch his games ever but that’s FINE it’s about vibes and I already cashed out the teams I watch games for 😂

And 5. From the Oilers (plot twist?): Beloved Children’s Author Zach Hyman. This is cheating because all of my love for him comes from when he was a Leaf and I have for real never watched an Oilers game other than when they played the above teams but it’s fine. My love is real. I would die for him.

[twc-thoughts-you-didnt-ask-for]

So I have been stalking you account and reading your awesome takes and I have sth to add regarding the difference between UB in the books and how Sera talks abt them on tumblr. I think this issue also happens a lot with F in the sense that Sera has stated that they are not as affected by their past and that their route is the least angsty when it comes to that, but i feel like that this is kind of minimizing the trauma F went through. Like we are shown multiple times throughout the books that they are struggling with what happened in the Echo World and leaving their mom behind and we see how avoidant they are when it comes to opening up and how they tend to brush it off with humour. Anyway, sorry for ranting in your ask box, I just feel like F’s past shouldn’t be erased in order for them to fit into the “least angsty LI” category

Feel free to rant anytime! :)

I absolutely agree and my only thinking for why F/M answers can seem… off the mark… is because if I remember right they were not originally planned to be romance options- just A/N were. We almost always get satisfying and accurate to what we know answers for them and that would be because Sera has had however long to plan and really put all the pieces together for A/N whereas F/M don’t have that same treatment and Sera may actively be changing their mind while books are being written on who they are and how they act because they haven’t had the time to be fleshed out the way A/N are and have been. F/M probably were going to be more of a Vera/Tina type role where we interact with them every now and then, love them, but we don’t know much about who they are or what they’ve done. They’re on the side but not the main story.

The real injustice with what we’re left with for F/M is that by their character being downplayed in reactions (such as F just making a joke or M reaction being not caring or too inappropriate to answer) that’s what they’ll get boiled down to in the fandom because that’s all we know or can go off of.

F being the “least angsty” route for me means less that they don’t have trauma and more so that they’re the best at not simmering in it or allowing it to effect how they treat others around them the way we see A and N do (for better or for worse). I think F probably is the least angsty in how they take those feelings and experiences out on the detective, if that makes sense, but they’re no less angsty in background. Or at least that’s how I like to interpret it. We can’t measure trauma but we can measure how well a character can cope and heal. F allows those around them to be a part of their healing whereas A/N shut it down and keep it secret.

As it stands now… we know the most about F and their backstory out of all of UB, also they’re the most forthcoming with the detective, so I find them to be the character with the most angst right now because we know the how and why. There is only one moment in the two books we have access to right now that absolutely shattered my heart and that would be reading that F wants nothing more for someone to choose them and they want the detective to be that person and then we are shortly faced with that exact choice when rescuing Sanja. I pick Sanja in every route but F’s.

[sobuildabeautifulcity]

Your disappointment warrants a disclaimer though, otherwise you're seeding a certain sentiment a lot of trolls and shill are trying to whip up. Don't be that person who thinks writers and actors owe you endless content for less than a living wage.

i respect your opinion and you’re not strictly incorrect but… thats not my point lol & you’ve kinda proved my issue.

the main part of my thoughts was that i have an issue with, and i quote: not being able to post when you’re experiencing multiple conflicting feelings without explaining all of them without being attacked.

it’s not only about the strikes, it’s anything that someone thinks you cant have complicated emotions towards if you don’t explicitly say so. my example was about the strikes because thats the most recent thing i’ve seen, but it’s more than that. not allowing people to express only their negative feelings in their own space online, simply because it might overlap with people being dicks intentionally about it isn’t the right way to go about it. for example, saying you’re disappointed because your favourite band pushed back their album release doesn’t mean you’re not sympathetic to the fact they delayed it due to health issues, it just means you’re disappointed because you were excited about it & had planned for it happening on a specific day. you expressing that upset online shouldn’t need to involve a disclaimer, because it should be implied - until proven otherwise - that you care about your band’s wellbeing. if you send a string of posts abusing the band for postponing it, yeh, youre a dick. but if you send one which is ‘aw man this sucks so much we wont get the album’, thats not something you should associate with the people being dicks about it despite it being negative in tone.

idk, i like to assume the best of people rather than thinking they’re dicks & don’t feel a complicated way about things.

if someone expresses disappointment about their plans changing due to something, that doesn’t mean they disagree with the thing that changes their plans? it solely means they are disappointed that their expectations for the coming time period changed & to assume otherwise unless proven only makes your worldview more negative.

this… insistence that all your feelings must be explained entirely and in full in order for you to grumble about something online is exhausting, and unnecessary if you simply assume the best of people. and, quite frankly, it is why i stopped using my tumblr for anything beyond reblogging stuff until recently.

i’ll add a disclaimer here, as well as the one that’s in the tags, bc my point is being proven lol: i support pretty much all unions & their decisions to strike (us police unions are not included hence my ‘pretty much all’). i am 100% sure that the wga & sag aftra should strike & fully support them doing so, shutting down hollywood is a great way to have bargaining power. the conditions they are expected to work under are abhorrent & they need better protection. it is also absurd to say that you can’t express disappointment about things you were looking forward to being cancelled without needing to add a disclaimer that your frustration is aimed at the other side of the negotiations for not capitulating, and not at the sag members. if you are posting your feelings on your blog, you should not need to caveat those feelings. the default of people assuming the worst of others makes the world a worse place.

i have a tendency to over explain my point so that it gets across, and often that means my coherence suffers lol. please bear in mind i am cognitively disabled & severely ill.

[letstrywritingmaybe]

I have too many WIPs… I understand it now Marcy, but I also can’t contain myself. I literally don’t know how you sit on all your ideas and wait to post when it’s completed. I could never!

Okay but the real point of talking to tumblr about it is to say I really should finish I Wish I Cared Less… I still need to write the kaishi version and I thought of another alternate too (that I probably won’t write but I was thinking about it a lot this morning. It could go in And Another Thing! But I feel like everything related to this verse will just go in another installment of Honey I’m A Sucker When You Linger series)

Addition: you know how every author has like that one fic? I wonder what mine is sometimes. Like I feel like obviously song fics but idk sometimes I’m like maybe it’s this verse? I can’t even choose myself tbh. It depends on the day. Cause yes I am one of those people who goes back and rereads my shit. Not all of them. But sometimes when I need to get back into the headspace or I’m trying to remember something so I’m not just always repeating myself (or for callback purposes) or sometimes I just really want something specific that I already wrote and can count on cause it’s catered to me. The reason why I thought of the alternate is literally because I was going back through I Wish I Cared Less. There’s literally like one more chapter probably. Like I could just end it. But ugh. I have a lot of that going on. Triple Threat… Run To Change The Endgame… (though it’s cause I want Taylor’s version and I actually need to add another chapter for The Joker and The Queen)

Update: so I went back and looked through I Wish I Cared Less and I completely forgot where I was going with chapter 11… see this is why I shouldn’t be allowed to work on multiple WIPs *sigh

[aajjks]

“nobody should assume the member’s sexuality” but the thing is, everybody assumes their straight and will fight tooth and nail to the people who question that. i’m not coming in here to say all members are straight or all members are gay but i am coming on here to say some members just might not all be straight. now what i’m about to say, i already know everyone is going to have a negative reaction to but still, it’s just an example. shipping along the members. everybody is so quick to say they hate anybody who suggests two members of bts are dating or have done something sexual with each other but if you really don’t want to assume their sexualities, why is it such a bad thing people point out some of the queer things they’ve done? there are two members that have done some questionable things that everyone will say “they’re brothers” or “friends so that all the time” but let’s face a fact. they are not blood brothers. if they wanted to be together, they damn wee have every right to be. regardless of anyone’s opinion. they could be just friends, but i definitely do believe they have done something sexual with each other before. because of some of the proof we literally seen from the footage bighit has released. as a queer person myself, there are things i do with people i have a sexual relationship with that i wouldn’t do with my regular close best friends. i am not saying that because i “know” the two members i am talking about are in fact dating but i am saying that if they are, not only would i support them but i wouldn’t really be surprised. i would support them even if they were not dating each other but other men as well as as women. we do not know these men personally. we just know what little things they allow us to know. (not all of the members have came out and said they hated shipping. fan service, yeah but not the shipping. if there is a video or actual proof of each member agreeing or saying please provide a link and prove me wrong! i am open to being proven wrong.) even if they wanted to come out and tell everybody, they’re not like us, they don’t get that privilege. they are not only in the biggest and in the world, and coming out would effect multiple peoples career, but they live in korea. a place that has strong negative feelings about queer people. us on tumblr who write and read theses stories, we use these for our own little fantasies about these men that although we are attracted to, we know we’ll never get to be with them. most stories on here are male x female stories because it allows us to fulfill our little imagination. nothing is wrong with using these men we find attractive as our protagonist but there’s a problem with people believing our stories truly reflect on how the members themselves are. take jungkook for example. 8/10 stories on here, he’s a asshole, fuckboy, red flag. the real jungkook is literally a sweetheart who cried because army made a song for bts. he’s respectful, kind. people believe in their imagination more than they are willing to see the facts. i know religion plays a big part in everyone believing that namjoon, hobi, jin, jungkook, jimin, taehyung, yoongi are all straight and could never be with in a romantic relationship with a man but the truth is, they could be. assuming their gay shouldn’t be such a horrible thing when assuming they’re all straight is such a huge issue. these men could be queer and the only problem is, everybody will deny it until their last breath. with the shipping is kinda goes hand in hand with theses stories. “no you can’t think they could be dating each other! let’s go read about about the members eating pussy instead” that’s kinda homophonic.

the last thing i want to say is i’m not trying to come off as i’m attacking anyone specifically! i am just so tired of seeing so many people say that we should never assume their sexuality unless it’s because they’re straight. majority of fans will die on that hill. i never understood why the shipping was so hated on when the memberxyn was so welcomed. it’s all just in our little imagination. when you believe it has be to be this way or no way, that’s the problem. no, i am not a shopper myself, i was just using that as an example. i will support any member when and if they ever come out. with that being with their sexuality or relationships. with a man or with a women.

thank you for your thoughts, I personally have no opinion on the lgbtq+ community because I’m not part of it but I do hate shipping.

[imagineimaginethat]

About the geography mc, i wanted Ikémen Sengoku. I couldn’t find your rules, so can i just request all? But if, just three, Nobunaga, Shingen and Masamune. Thanks!

Nobunaga

He's going to use this knowledge to benefit him for sure

He understands some languages have changed or their dialects might be different so he'll bring MC with him whenever he trades so MC can take notes

When it comes to geography, he uses MC to correct his maps, especially if he has conflicting ones, however it can be difficult since some landmarks have changed a lot over the years.

Nobunaga appreciates MC's geography and language knowledge overall and will try to use it in order to have an excuse to have MC in his presence even more often.

Hideyoshi

Hideyoshi is super suspicious of an MC who knows a lot of languages and knows a lot about geography.

In his mind he thinks no one but an enemy spy or maybe someone who works in trade would need such knowledge

When he finally realizes for MC it's just a personal passion/something that interests them, he'll begin to warm up to MC

He'll buy maps and scrolls in various languages as gifts

He'd also like to learn a bit of some European languages/customs to understand the western traders they deal with better

If MC teaches him insults and one of them insults Nobunaga, not happy doesn't even begin to describe Hideyoshi

Overall, he'd start off as suspicious but in the end be appreciative

Mitsuhide

Mitsuhide has a bit of suspicion when he realizes just how much MC knows, he'd hide it a lot better than Hideyoshi would

He'd probably test MC's knowledge on things and find some things incorrect because of changes from the past to the present, but since he wouldn't know that, he'd just assume MC was self taught or something

Mitsuhide would ultimately come to the conclusion that MC just knows stuff out of interest not because they're a spy or anything

He'd tease MC by saying sneaky/flirtatious things in different languages to shock them and a get a funny reaction.

Mitsunari

This sweet angel doesn't hold any suspicion against MC for knowing stuff about languages and geography. He just thinks MC is super smart

He does see that MC’s nowledge of maps and landscapes can be helpful in assisting with strategies, especially those that require clandestine travel

When it comes to language he'd have a ton of reading recommendations for MC and would enjoy studying together even though once he starts he kinda forgets MC is there

Overall Mitaunari would just be a 10/10 awesome study buddy

Shingen

Surely you must be the goddess of wisodkm and beauty?

Shingen loves how passionate MC was he would buy every map and spare no expense on any books having to do with language

Shingen would probably ask MC to teach him a a new language, he’d be particularly interested in the ‘Romantic languages’

Would allow MC to chart courses to make sure his men are taking the best route to battle.

A lil suspicious initially, did he accidentally kidnap a spy? But takes Sauske’s word for it when he says MC just has an odd hobby/interest

Masamune

Masamune thinks MC’s knowledge of geography is awesome, lil confused about why MC didn’t use that to get away when he had to go get them for Nobunaga

Definitely more interested in foreign cuisine over anything else

He does like to listen to MC speak in different languages and watch MC write, especially if it is in calligraphy

He would take MC to see any landmarks MC wanted to see

Not really suspicious because that’s just the way Masa rolls

Ieyasu

“Then why do you suck at running away?”

Ieyasu is overall pleased that MC has so much knowledge about geography, doesn’t really see how helpful the languages can be

He wouldn’t tell MC he was pleased though, more like an, “at least you know something” sort of backhanded compliment

Ieyasu would make MC study maps of areas battles were taking place so MC would have a refreshed image in mind of safe ways to get back to town alone if something goes wrong

Is low key scared to let Nobunaga know how good MC is with maps because he doesn’t want Nobu to start demanding MC’s help and have a spy think MC is worth kidnapping

[st4rs-l1ghts]

insult to injury- a. skywalker

-anakin skywalker x jedi!gn!reader

-heavy extreme heart wrenching angst. yay!

-gif credits to owner!!

-please do not post my work anywhere apart from tumblr without my permission!! reblogs are completely fine though!!

he counted your every flinch. every time the light from the billboard switched to neon yellow your eyebrow would twitch, sensing the change in atmosphere.

17.

wind blew in from the slightly cracked open window causing you to shuffle and stir closer to him, your body detecting his heat as a metal detector would detect a metal chain buried deep in sand.

18.

he didn’t sleep. never, in order to prevent nightmares that plagued his mind every time he slept. he wouldn’t have minded staying up, he wouldn’t have as much guilt as he did right now at the chance you’d wake up and see him like this. disheveled, sweaty, sniffly, weak; everything a jedi shouldn’t be.

19

and so to stop falling back into a space of nightmares, he focused on the one thing that he cherished more than anything. you. making it even more of an imperative that he stay as still as possible as to not disturb you.

20-

“i can feel you watching me, ani.”

kriff.

“it’s nothing, go back to sleep.” he hated being so distant, but he knew that if he allowed even one wave in his speech to differ, you’d know that he was so weak that he still hadn’t overcome the ghosts of his past and that they still haunted his every night.

you shifted away from him, sitting up straight and looking deep in his eyes, ignoring the demands of your mind for sleep. “ani, what wrong?”

“nothing.” he grabbed your hand and forged a smile.

“anakin.”

“it’s nothing.” he sounded more like he was trying to prove it to himself rather than you.

you could have elected to ignore it, like you had so many nights before this one, but you couldn’t. every night he’d wake up with a shake, grab a glass of water and walk straight back to your side, where he’d lay for the next few hours as he watched your ‘sleeping’ form.

“ani.” you sighed, a heavy, weighted, thick sigh.

he looked at you with glassy eyes as he laid face up to the ceiling from his silk pillow.

your heart shattered. what had he been keeping from you that made him cry? why couldn’t he tell you?

you were with him through it all. from shmi dying, from being lured to the dark side and then brought back again. all of it. but he couldn’t tell you why he couldn’t sleep?

“anakin, please.” your voice cracked as you recalled it all.

“it’s nothing, please let’s go back to slee-“ he was cut off.

“don’t tell me it’s nothing anakin.” your voice held strength but it’s was laid over a sea of worry. and he knew this. “i feel you, every night i feel you. i feel your body jolt when you wake, i feel your hands brush over your hair and i feel your lip quiver. you cry every night and i feel it.”

the tears pooling in his eyes fell down the sides of his face, imitating what yours had done as soon as he first spoke, soaking the already damp with sweat sheets.

you grabbed his hand and placed it atop your heart.

“don’t tell me it’s nothing when i feel everything.” you told him.

anakin felt your heart shatter once more under his rough, scarred hands.

“i..” his mouth opened and closed multiple times before he sighed.

as your eyes lit up the room with hope he’d finally pour his mind out to you, they dimmed once again as he retracted his hand and pulled it to his chest, taking the sheets with him too as he turned onto his side, facing away from you.

anything that was left of your heart from the previous shatterings had officially been crushed.

you gave him one last look of hope. hope that he’d turn back to you and tell you. tell you that he was hurt, that he needed you, that he was sorry for not telling you. that he loved you.

‘i love you.’

it was something that hadn’t left his lips in a while.

now you knew why.

reality shook you with force as you rose from your place on the bed and walked out of the room, allowing yourself to fall back into the curved couch in the middle of your living area, grander than that of the jedi quarters but humbler than that of something a senator would have in her home.

you would give him his time. you would wait for his heart to ease. but you wouldn’t go back in there until he had pieced your broken heart back together again.