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15, 21, and 31 for the fanfic ask game???

And BONUS!: I love the way you describe Edwin’s funky, not quite there thoughts in your fics! When he’s like— starting and stopping his thoughts while drinking and stuff, I adore that!! (Also it makes me sad, but who’s surprised there lmao) ❤️❤️❤️

Hi friend!

15. Do you look at comments right away? Or save them for later?

I absolutely love getting comments, so I read them as soon as I am notified I got them :D Even on fics where I don't respond to comments, I do read them and love them so so so much

21. What is something that no one has caught about one of your fics?

I am pretty sure that absolutely no one caught that chapter 24 of my love for you is true, i swear it is, it just will kill you in the end is a dream chapter. It's a nightmare that Edwin had because of the Batibat and the Misery Wraith. Or maybe people did and never commented it lol.

31. How do you stay motivated?

I am absolutely okay with abandoning works. I give myself silly challenges to make writing fun/enticing/challenging enough to do. I have friends who show lots of interest in seeing more of what I write.

All of that really helps me want to keep writing :)

Ahhhh! I put so much effort into making sure that Edwin's thoughts make sense and it's clear when there's more he's cutting off, and kinda where that thought was going? I am so happy that you enjoy that part of the writing in the fic :D

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22, 26, and 32 (cause I saw that question and HAD to ask you lol) for the ask game? 💙

for the bonus - I find the way you write sentences fascinating. As someone who sticks pretty firmly to grammar rules and only breaks them in specific circumstances, I really admire how you bend commas, periods, and every other piece of punctuation to your will. You have a vision! And you don't let silly things like grammar get in the way! I greatly admire your tenacity. Love you Coffee! ❤

Hello friend!

22. What is one of your favorite tropes to write?

Ahhh I don't really do a lot of tropes? My favourite would probably be Not Actually Unrequited Love though, if I have to choose one to write. Simply two people convinced their love cannot be requited??? When they are so so so so so loved????????

26. What is your favorite part about writing?

I absolutely love when I get in a rhythm and I can see it all coming together how I want it to.

32. Out of all your fics, what is your favorite title?

A side note, was anyone going to inform me that most of my fics titles are over 10 words long???? Y'all just let me do that?

On that note, my favourite is my 28 word title, For every piece of me that has come up short, you are right behind me, caring for me like there were no easier decision for you to make (nsfw fic)

Oh my god you kill me. I just- Ahhhhh! I really love how much you pay attention to your grammar and making sure things make sense? I just- fuck around to get the rhythm I want. So I just, it's really nice to know that you find how I write fascinating. It's like a painting I think, finding the ways you need to break the rules to get the picture you want.

Love you too Gen <3

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One thing about Dan and Phil is that they were never joking or trying to be trendy with their whole socially awkward hermits thing. Those boys do NOT go outside

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Things Overheard in The Agency Part 1

"Charles, stop setting things on fire, here is someone who can actually die from that."

"Why are you lying on the floor?" "I need something to ground me and it sure as fuck's not gonna be you two"

"Yeah my ex is currently buried in my mind. Let's see when I will go to that grave again."

"Naughty boys. No, you may not call me 'Charlie'. Unbelievable, what use would I have for a name that will die before I cease to exist"

"YOU kissed a CROW. I do not take criticism from you" "YOU let a DEMON in"

"What is this 'Hozier' and why does it capture our relationship so well via music?"

"Margaret Thatcher was still Prime Minister back then-" "Dear God"

"You're lucky you can't drink coffee anymore. I'm lucky you can't drink coffee anymore! Imagining you on caffeine is horrifying"

"You'd look brills with an earring! It'd bring out your stellar eyes, mate!"

"Put your iron supplements somewhere else please, you know they make me feel uneasy." "For the last time, they won't hurt you"

"I think every cat I see is insulting me. Or the Cat King. Or both"

"Was the blood really necessary?" "...It looked pretty cool though, didn't it?"

“OH YEAH DRAMA QUEEN? HIDING IN THE MIRROR AGAIN?” "...Oh bloody hell"

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The lore drops in this new interview:

Jayden was the first person cast for his role and Kassius and George were added based on their chemistry read

Jayden also recalls already feeling that him, Kassius and George were gonna be the final trio back then

Jenny the Butcher was written specifically with Brianna Cuoco in mind

When asked to improvise Kassius pretty much just added the word fuck to whatever her line was (valid, her character deserves it)

In contrast Jenn Lyon regularly went off script in wonderful ways

Steve stated he would never write an autistic character purposely without casting an autistic actor

Steve talked about how there was no question in the writer's room about how Charles would react to the confession (supportive and sweet) because that's just his character and Jayden just started nodding really hard which I feel deserves a mention

Steve mentioned that in the scene with Simon in Hell, Edwin realises that "we have to decide that it's okay" regarding their queerness which is a good goddamn line

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While I was selling my art at a convention last weekend, I suddenly had a vision in my mind that I just had to paint.

In these horrible times of trans rights being stripped away in several countries, I wanted to celebrate lgbtqia+ in all forms, as well as Doctor Who for its firm support of the community 🙏

Hopefully, I'll have stickers and prints ready for my final market before summer 🤞

Painted with acrylic and gouache colours 🎨

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The thing about Pacific Rim is that it's an allegorical fairytale.

The Jaegers are an allegory for the things we can't do alone without burning ourselves out. Yeah, it's possible to pilot a Jaeger solo for awhile. But nobody can last the whole fight. If you try, you will collapse under the strain sooner or later. You will die.

The drift is about the necessity of making yourself vulnerable to someone, letting another person in, so you can lift this otherwise impossible burden together. Because if we isolate ourselves, if we don't face the mortifying ordeal of being known, we will change nothing, and we will die alone.

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when I was a little kid at some point I got upset with my parents because I didn't have a crucifix in my bedroom and they did- I was like why do YOU get to be safe from vampires??? you're okay with me getting my blood sucked???? so we took a little trip to the catholic store but the one closest to us was run by a group of nuns that had been moved here from romania. I got a little baby pink cross and this sweet old nun was like 'aww, is this a baptism gift?' and I was like no. I need to be protected from vampires. and she immediately got SO serious and was like 'this is the best one we've got, you'll definitely be safe' and since she was literally from vampire land I was convinced she was like, van helsing. like the whole time my parents had been laughing about how cute my fear was but she literally Knew dracula and was taking my concerns seriously I held this over my parents for so long lmfao

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Art inspired by the beautiful fic by @bitterdesert "my love line seems entwined with death"

Some rain, a sprinkle of jealousy, and at last... they talked!!! Miracles do happen.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64139143/chapters/164579644

❤️💙😌

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I’m interested in how both Charles and Edwin treat the whole idea of being “detectives.”  Obviously, they are detectives.  They have formed a detective agency, they run cases, it’s their whole thing; it’s how they spend their afterlives.  But it’s more than just that.

They both take the detective work very seriously.  Edwin comes off, generally, as more serious than Charles about it, with his little asides about being a “proper” detective and the methodical ways he likes to do things, but Charles is clearly into it, too.  And sometimes it feels so clearly like they’re playing at the idea of being detectives that it’s almost like a game or a roleplay for them.  They want to be (and are) detectives, but they are two teenage boys who have styled themselves after the idea of being detectives.  Then there are moments where this “performance” of detective work begins to break down.

For Edwin, this happens earlier in the season.  In the first episode, he admits that the detective work matters because he needs it, emotionally, to matter.  His and Charles’s cases didn’t get solved, no one cared.  He needs someone to care.  That’s his investment in being a detective; its more than just a game for him.  When the Cat King casts his truth spell, this is only built upon.  He says he does the detective work, too, because he wants to stay out of hell.  For a while, though, I was trying to find Charles’s investment.  Yeah, his case was also written off when he died, but didn’t seem as upset about that as Edwin.  On the first watchthrough, I wondered if Charles’s investment in the detective work was simply because Edwin was invested.

Then there’s episode 4, when Charles beats the Night Nurse, and part of the speech he yells at her is about being a detective.  I think that’s when it started to click for me that there was something deeper going on with him, too, about the detective work specifically.  Charles is upset he died, he never came to terms with it.  I wonder if part of the reason he’s so invested in being a detective is because it gives him a sense of purpose and impact that he misses from being alive.  He could never stop the things he wanted to stop, never protect the people he wanted to protect, but at least he has this, with Edwin.  At least they are detectives, and Charles can feel needed, feel like his life didn’t end so early for no reason at all.  

I think a lot about the concept of ghosts having unfinished business and how that might apply to both Charles and Edwin, and I think that the detective agency, despite how it sometimes comes off as playacting, is deeply tied to both of their psyches.  Edwin needs the detective agency to feel like there was a point to everything that happened to him.  That maybe no one cared he disappeared, and maybe he ended up in hell, but it wasn’t for nothing.  They can try to keep it from happening to anyone again.  And Charles?  Well, he needs the detective agency because there was no point to what happened to him.  He shouldn’t have died, and he’s not ready to move on to an afterlife.  He needs to feel like he’s needed, like there’s something he can do.  If it hadn’t been a detective agency these two formed, it would have been something else because they had too many deep-rooted issues that have been sublimated into the agency itself.

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"I'm sorry I'm the one you love" Happy Birthday @babyseraphim

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Endless gifs of Crystal Palace [20/-]

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I’m sick and haven’t the energy to develop this thought right now, but: Charles has Edwin magically lojacked. A tracker tattoo, tiny pale blue runes tightly laced together on his upper bicep. The tattoo is only a few inches wide but took nearly a full day, due to the delicacy of the work, and the quick-spoiling magical ink.

(Charles was worried about it hurting - he knows Edwin’s pain tolerance means he’d barely even notice a normal tattoo, but this ink is potent - but Edwin assured him it was totally fine, and didn’t flinch or twitch or react at all, during. He did, however, vehemently insist that Charles not get his own tattoo, when Charles suggested it a few years later, and Charles has some uncomfortable suspicions about why.)

When Crystal learns about the tattoo, she assumes it’s because of the same thing they’re using it for when she learns about it: Edwin has a habit of getting himself kidnapped. She thinks lojacking your partner feels a bit of an extreme response, given that surely there’s only so often even Edwin can be kidnapped, but, well, Charles can be kinda overprotective. And they explain that the tracking can only be activated by Edwin himself, which makes her worry less about it being a red flag situation.

That’s not the reason, though.

It became less of a problem, over the decades, though it still is sometimes, but in the early years it was a near-constant issue:

Edwin’s a bolter.

When he gets stressed, or upset, or scared, he runs. Faster than Charles can keep up. And, early on, he was stressed, and upset, and scared, pretty much all the time.

If it were just normal running it might be fine, but he’s got magic, too, mirrors that he started being able to run through long before he learned how to reliably get back, mirrors that he doesn’t always check before diving in. Even now when he should be able to find his way back he’ll sometimes panic and bolt too fast to look through the mirror he’s going to only to fall through and find it’s inaccessible from the other side - a mirror placed high on a wall or ceiling, or too damaged for two-way travel, or under saltwater.

So Charles has had to hunt Edwin down on other continents, in deserts and grassy plains, in haunted mansions, in London warehouses and backstreets. Found Edwin on the sea floor in the Mediterranean, once, having gone through the mirror in the captain’s cabin of a sunken ship.

Knelt down next to him, where he was sitting, on a mostly-rotted floor. “Hey, Edwin.” He was worried his voice might not carry, here, a couple miles under the surface, but ghost voices don’t depend on breath, anyway, and Edwin seemed to hear him just fine.

Edwin glanced sideways at him, then back to where he had been looking before. “Corallium rubrum,” he said. “Mediterranean red coral, also known as Precious Coral. Valued for its vivid red color throughout history, but has suffered from intensive harvesting in recent decades. There are hardly any sizable colonies left at depths of less than 50 meters.”

“Right,” Charles said, and shifted to look at the coral, settling from a kneel to a cross-legged sit, a few feet from Edwin. “It’s really pretty. They doing anything to try to bring them back?”

“A little,” Edwin answered. “They are extremely long-lived, so it is difficult to determine yet whether those efforts will be successful.”

The delicate, feathery white bits on the coral flickered and shifted constantly, which Charles hadn’t known coral could do, and he sat there, with Edwin, watching. The fragmented skeleton in the corner swayed a bit in the current. Finally he scooted towards Edwin and gently bumped their shoulders together. “You think you’ll be ready to go back soon?”

Edwin leaned against him, and nodded, and let out a heavy breath, which made the water swirl and the coral’s feathery bits twitch. “How did you get here? Are you - I know you don’t like deep water - “

Charles shook his head. “Nah, it’s fine, mate. This isn’t the sort of water that bugs me. ‘Sides, it’s not like I was gonna just leave you down here, yeah?”

Edwin nodded again, and pressed harder into Charles’s shoulder for a moment before bracing a hand against it to stand up. “Well,” he said, turning away from the coral to face Charles. “Let’s be off. How did you get here? Please tell me you didn’t use that favor from Turner just for this.”

Charles looked sideways at the skeleton as he used Edwin’s hand to heave himself up. “Of course not.”

“You did! Charles, do you have any idea…”

And Charles let Edwin’s scolding voice wash over him with the current, and grinned back at him, and led him home.

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What Dan & Phil Text Post Each Other (46/?)

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These boys need time and comfort

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Fanfic Author Asks!

(I love these things so much, I thought I would do my own lol)

How many WIPS do you currently have?

Do you prefer oneshots or longfics?

What was the last thing you looked up for a fic?

Do you save your 'cut scenes' from your fics? (Want to share one?)

Where do you get your title inspiration from?

Do you listen to anything while you write? Or do you prefer silence?

What fic are you the proudest of?

Has anyone ever drawn fanart for one of your fics before?

What time do you prefer to write? (Day, night, etc.?)

How much do you write before you post?

Do you outline your fics before writing them?

Have you ever made a moodboard for a fic? (Do you want to share it?)

Have you ever made a playlist for a fic? (Share?)

What is something you really like about your work(s)?

Do you look at comments right away? Or save them for later?

How do you write your fics? (Handwritten, google docs, word, etc)

Do you regularly discuss your fics, or do you keep most of the info to yourself before you start posting?

How do you decide what POV to write in?

Do you work on multiple fics at once or only one at a time?

What made you start writing?

What is something that no one has caught about one of your fics?

What is one of your favorite tropes to write?

Do you post your fics on a schedule?

Do you have any writing goals? (Word counts, chapters, finishing fics, trying something new?)

Is there a scene you are dreading writing? (Want to share what it is?)

What is your favorite part about writing?

What is a question that you never get asked about your fics that you really want to answer?

Do you prefer canon compliant fics or AUs?

What fic are you the least proud of?

Is there something you would go back and change about a fic if you could?

How do you stay motivated?

Out of all your fics, what is your favorite title?

What is your favorite line from *insert fic name here*?

Have you ever done a collaboration? Would you?

Favorite review you've gotten?

Are/were you surprised by your top fic? (hits, kudos, comments, anything)

Favorite genre?

Fic idea you're most excited to get to?

Do you have a preferred writing snack/drink?

Happy Endings or Sad Endings?

Bonus: Readers, tell your fave authors something you liked about their fics/works!

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