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Guilty As Sin - ln4
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pairing: lando norris x actress/director reader
a/n: this is a series! first one is short but i promise it will get better. i'll try to write this as often as i can (i do have the outline) but since i have exams coming up pls be patient<3 hope you like it, this is my baby and i've been working on it for a long time (you should see the amount of pictures saved on my pinterest board for this lmao)
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yourusername 300 performances later it's time to say goodbye but i'm taking with me lots of amazing memories i'll keep close to my heart. thank you to all the incredible people i got to work with and to all the people who came to see us. i'm sad but excited for the plans ahead, stay tuned :)
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Trembling Essence Devlog 5:💙WHY ARE WE BACK IN THE SWAMP?!?💙
Hi and welcome new followers, doesn't feel like it's been a month since the last update but here's how things are going! :]
This update will probably be a little small. I was trying to catch up with asks, drawing, etc. but I wasn't able to get to everything and I became very busy afterwards. :,,]
*Also, the Trembling Essence: 😤💪April fools 👁️👃👁️mystery event[NOT CLICKBAIT]?! will be delayed since I got too busy to work on it. :,,[
BACK IN THE SWAMP!!?!? NOOOO!!!:
I mentioned this a little bit in previous posts but the very start of the game will be about 60-80%(?) different from the [Extended Demo] since my writing and story telling improved. I only have 2 CG's and one alternate route with a timer bug that needed to be finished. I took a break from all of this months back to avoid burn-out but I thought it would be a good idea to go and finish it all up since it kept being mentioned! :D
Game fixes:
Even though things are still prone to change, I want to make sure whatever future update(s) I give towards the [Extended Demo] is something that won't be changed outside of minor things like grammar, bugs, etc and is more in canon with what I truly want for the game. Now that I'm getting better at what I truly want I've been cutting out stuff that isn't as necessary as I originally thought it would be and calming down on the habit of over-doing things. This makes it easier for me to adjust and not deal with burn-out. :]
Choice updates:
I'm only going to talk about the choices that got major updates to keep this short.
I went through each ending one at a time and adjusted as I went. I combed through some of the dialog and fixed the long pacing by combining sentences and/or removing 'dialog fluff'. Another thing I've been doing is fixing all of the out of place SFX's that happen in certain paths.
The cave:
Originally, there was going to be 3 endings for this but I removed 1 and changed how the player(Y/N) reacts to being in this area. I had to use a old screenshot since the other one I used kept getting taken down. This one was a little tricky to fix since there's a new scenario here but most of everything else prettyyyy much stayed the same. :]
The Creek:
This one has only 1 ending now instead of 2 and the player(Y/N) reacts differently here. This was easier to update but a CG was removed towards the end since I have a different way of approaching this area in the future. >:]
The Chasm:
Speaking of endings, this one was heavily fixed.
To sum it up, it took a really long time to get to this ending since the player(Y/N) was continuously venturing through the terrain. Believe it or not but this one was actually a lot longer before I removed a chunk of the path previously. Some time ago I said the ending was awkwardly abrupt and I didn't like that but now that I have better clarity I toned it down even more. The player(Y/N) will wander but.. just not as long this time. :,] A CG that was added here has been removed and placed elsewhere. This was unexpected but I'm happy about this because it adds to the immersive gameplay I enjoy adding and it happens to matches the atmosphere! :,D
Timer bug fix:
It's time(:P) to talk about this small addition to the game!
These timers won't be used that often but they'll be in places where I feel the situation requires quick decision making. There's a path you can get that includes a timer but somehow it got bugged and even though it didn't crash the game it pushed the player(Y/N) into a false route(?) with Noah which was pretty funny but not suppose to happen. In really good news, it was an easy fix and I am grateful it wasn't something that would leave me having to start over. :P
There's 2 more endings I need to get through but these shouldn't take too long to complete. Most of what I saw that needed fixing was fairly minor. :[]
Back into the cabin! YESSS!!:
This section will be short since I was mainly brainstorming with my play testers about the cabin section throughout this month and mainly focused on dealing with finalizing the beginning of the game after I paused midway through fixing up the morning route. I also plan on talking about the cabin in a future game development post that will be split into two in May since the whole idea of what's going on behind the scenes will be really long most likely. Woohoo! :[]
From the recent polls I've created, I brainstormed how to go from this section of the game, specifically the "Talk to Noah.", "Look around.", "Go to sleep.", and another choice which is still up in the air. It's been difficult since these choices stem from very old and outdated code/routes that contained spoilers, etc. This specific section of the game is a personal memory so I'm trying my best to avoid removing these choices specifically due to that. :,D In good news I managed to have a conversation with both of my play testers about everything and where to go from this. I expressed ideas on how to move forward with the choices and they gave feedback when I was having writers block. :,,,,]
If you like what I create, please consider supporting what I do on kofi! All donations and tips help tremendously while I continue to work on the game. Thank you to those that optionally bought the [Extended Demo] on itch.io. :,]
Q&A / Ask box is open:
To know and understand Noah through Asks and random posts about lore, they'll be under #Get to know: Noah ! :]
**Some asks won't be answered if it contains spoilers but I do appreciate what I receive. I will most likely spend this time going through and catching up on everything I missed. :]
If you have any questions about Trembling Essence/Noah feel free to ask [here] or on itch.io please. This makes it easier for me to see and answer accordingly! I enjoy hearing from you guys!
This update is getting fairly long so I'll stop here. Thank you guys for the continued support and influx of downloads for the [Extended Demo]! I wasn't expecting much since I've been busy, I appreciate a whole bunch! :,]
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This month brought so many wonderful new fics! I've not read half as much as I wanted to but these are the ones I enjoyed in April 2025. You can find my other fic recs here. Happy reading! <3
🐇 Roll Like Thunder by croisblue / @forwhatiam [M, 9k, sexual surrogacy]
When quadriplegic Louis Tomlinson's therapist recommends he see a surrogate partner, he panics, thinking this is yet another way he's being belittled for his disability. When said surrogate partner turns out to be Harry Styles, a nearly inhumanly beautiful man who's gone back to school for a certificate in Disability Studies, Louis finds he doesn't mind so much.
🐇 Oblivious Hearts by FelintoGirl / @felinto-girl [GA, 5k, university au]
Attempt number seventy three was pasta night.
Louis almost had a breakdown while trying to cook sauce from scratch, but Harry licked his thumb clean and smiled like Louis had handed him the moon. Louis had to leave the room and scream silently into a pillow.
But still… just friends.
🐇 Set the Scene by @mandylynn4 [E, 11k, queer awakening]
Louis Tomlinson is ready to write his next bestselling book - a rockstar rom-com called Stage Dive, but his agent thinks it would be better with queer characters. With no knowledge of how gay sex works and petrified at the porn he'd tried to watch, he enlists the help of his friend's boyfriend and roommate as figure models. As Zayn and Harry act out spicier scenes for him to reference in his story, he soon starts finding himself thinking about how it would feel to be the one touching Harry instead. Enter gay panic...
🐇 The Referral by @disgruntledkittenface [E, 5k, established relationship, threesome]
Louis has noticed that since he turned fifty, his sex drive has started to slow down. Unfortunately, that’s not the case for his younger boyfriend Harry. A problem solver by nature, Louis wants to do something special for Harry, to show him how much he appreciates him even after ten years together. When he suggests getting a referral for a sex worker to give Harry what he hasn’t been lately, it doesn’t take long for Harry to agree.
And then they meet Tom.
🐇 Running Through The Garden by juniperlightning / @juniperlightningwrites [E, 11k, strangers to lovers]
Based on the prompt:
Character A buys a house with a big garden to have the opportunity to relax while gardening. Turns out character B is a loud, football loving person, who loves to play in his garden. When the ball ends up on the wrong side of the fence more than once, there is not only irritation between the neighbours.
* podfics available *
🐇 In Dreams by dolce_piccante [M, 23k, neighbors au]
🎧 podfic read by frecklebombfic
When Harry moves to a new city, his new flat come with a number of sweet, anonymous gifts and surprises that brighten his days. Could it be a friendly ghost? Another friendly presence in his new building is his tattooed neighbor, Louis, who seems determined to put a smile back on his face.
🐇 Torn On The Platform by Conscious_ramblings [M, 27k, tube au]
🎧 podfic read by frecklebombfic
AU where harry and louis are strangers but they always get the same train to work in the morning and one day harry falls asleep on louis' shoulder. louis wants to be annoyed because harry just broke at least seven rules of tube conduct but he looks so soft and peaceful that he just lets him sleep and wakes him ever so carefully when it’s his stop. it happens again and again until it becomes a regular thing where louis will let harry snooze and then gently nudge him awake, hand him the cup of coffee he took from him so it wouldn't slip and spill everywhere and send him off with a “have fun at work, love” and after the tenth time harry isn't even embarrassed any more.
🐇 Thought The Song Was Sung by @100percentsassy [E, 12k, famous/non-famous]
🎧 podfic read by frecklebombfic
AU, Louis never auditioned for the X-Factor. Years later, Harry's just another gay ex-boybander who lives alone with his cat... until Niall decides to take matters into his own hands and set up a profile for Harry on a dating website.
🐇 leave it to the breeze by @hattalove [E, 81k, reality tv]
🎧 podfic read by frecklebombfic
A great british bake off au in which louis cares about winning and winning only, harry is made of sunshine and rainbow sprinkles, and niall sticks his nose into other people's business. also featuring liam as louis's best friend-slash-concerned mother, and zayn as a macaron connoisseur.
Be sure to check the tags if there are any topics or tropes you prefer to avoid, and if you enjoy a fic, consider leaving kudos or a comment to show the author some love 🩵
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Paleolithic Media Catalogue
Hello everyone :) Short story first: When I began brainstorming for my prehistoric story, I started wondering what other prehistoric fiction there is out there. I was not familiar with it and have not seen much. That's when I started my grand literature review and began a search for what fiction exist out there. I wanted to know what kinds of stories are being made with this time period. What are the common themes or recurring ideas (I found lots of humans and dinosaurs works. And time travel). Since I've had a growing collection on my computer, I decided I should keep on enlarging it and put it online. It's nowhere near complete. I'll slowly keep accumulating the collection as I find more. I only have fiction books and comics right now. I still need to work on the film section.
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As for where I am in my reading, the one's I've finished reading are Earth's Children series (book 1-4. Dropped it afterwards lol. I made a post on with fanart) Dance of the Tiger and it's sequel Singletusk (They were good! I'll upload my review on the blog), and Sisters of the Wolf (It was ok!). I got my hands on The Inheritors and excited to start reading it. I REALLY want to read the Shiva trilogy, but I found no PDF online... and it's out of print :( There is certainly old copies on ebay. And I want to read Chronicles of Ancient Darkness. There seem to be lots of good books out there.
#For whomever might find it useful... I'm doing this#I actually found another huge catalogue by an awesome person called Stephen Trussel#However their site has not been updated since 2016#I've linked their site on my blog when referencing the ENG translation for 'paris before man'#I'll make a paragraph dedicated to that site too#This has gone beyond my initial literature review lol#But for someone writing in this genre.. I've got to get to know it well#Because If I do end up publishing it I KNOW for sure it will be set up against other prehistoric fiction#mainly earth's children series#LITERALLY every book I checked had people in the reviews comparing it to Auel's series. Like it's the blueprint of prehistoric fiction#Like it's 'The Lord of the Rings' of its' genre.#and since it's a graphic novel maybe it will be compared to other comics?? Which I haven't found a lot YET#Emmanuel Roudier's work looks SO GOOD#I say looks because it's in French and I can't read French#I'm tempted to try translating it with what little French I learnt from public school and actually learn French in the process#Mezolith is great but it's not a full story. Just small snippets/short stories#Same with Tiger Lung. It's great. Also very very short. I recommend both.#I have not read the mangas yet. I read the first few chapters of Grashros and it's 100% Shounen stuff so far lol
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work related question does anyone have any fun anime for likely 12-14 year olds that to their ulta-conservative conspiracy theory parents would have no objectionable content whatsoever that's not like . pokemon. i live in the most conservative area in michigan btw /hj
#gu6chan's musings#tl;dr so idk if i ever mentioned on this blog but i live in a very small town (less than 900 people in the TOWNSHIP which is like#...3? different towns? maybe 4)#i digress#and since i work in a public position its like#i've been trying to organise more community events this summer ESPECIALLY among the youth#and was like 'we can try appealing to hobbies; i think' and listed a couple suggestions like this and that#so i was talking to my higher ups about it and they were like 'OH! youre super into anime right'#and i was like 'uh... sure???' bc i hadn't seen ANYTHING in a hot second and am still stuck in 2008 so i dont know any new series#but they knew i was a bit of a nerd and weren't as acquainted being older so i can't blame them!! lol#anyways long story short there's been an anime club they've been trying to kickstart for like the last... 3 years?#for the local middleschool/highschool except they haven't been able to find any way to get the word accross#and i was like neato; cool; i'd love to help with that!! and told them i'd make a poster for it real quick (still haven't. work is tomorrow#so they gave me the login to crunchyroll (my first time using it) and were like 'go find some anime that kids might like!!! :)'#and i was like '...WOAH.' and told them it'd take a second bc this area is VERY conservative and there's a bit of cultural dissonance when#it comes to 'kid-appropriate' between japan and the US; particularly with nudity lmao#and a lot of even what's popular among kids (Chainsaw man; Jujutsu Kaisen i think?) wouldn't fly but ouaahahhgh#it still has to be entertaining to them and not feel like it's being 'dumbed down' i have a couple ideas like sailor moon; uhh....#cardcaptor sakura?#but those are mostly shoujo anime which is good!! But i'd also like to include some shounen-type stuff as well for balance ofc#and that's where the problem arises 😭 i'd also love to take a look at older anime since i'm still figuring out what the 'goal' of the club#is besides just having a place for kids to interact and make friends with each other like#do i want it to be based in looking at the history of anime as an art form and its evolution? should it be like a book club and more focuse#on discussing character arcs and writing? or maybe even linguistically based since I did mention wanting to help inspire kids to take up#different languages!! and i know a lot would love to learn japanese#but yeah a lot to figure out 😭 i might be cooked chat
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My emotionally immature ass still doesn't understand a thing of how people can pity characters
Not like I don't try to understand it! I just... Can't? Understand that??? At all???
Like why would you pity a character for their sad backstory or whatever, and poof suddenly a character is pitiful as hell, and suddenly they're understandable because a person can call them a wet kitten under their care
And that's something I can't do for some reason
And again, not like I didn't *try*, it's just a thing I can't understand at any capacity other than 'some people do that to show their affection of that character, that's their way of caring
Granted talking to more people makes you understand them better! Doesn't help much! But it's something!!
#thoughts aloud#rant post#In a way#I just kind of ended thinking while on a walk WHILE being sick#Anyway despite this I can see what traits make a character pitiful#And Rose my sweet oc is a walking example of a character so pitiful so sad it's heartbreaking#Or at least that's my overall view of her I have in my head#While feeling absolutely nothing towards her she suffers because I wrote her like this#Sam having somewhat understandable story might make them look better but they're still a piece of shit#Maybe this in a way reflects how I was raised and stuff who knows#I physically can't pity anyone and if I do it's not nice and people hate me doing that#But sure pity is not a thing anyone likes#Empathy is hard too like... Good god I need a person to be a close friend or something to actually care#I have no idea how people live understanding everyone and being soooo kind and giving#I learn how that works though! I try to at least appear that way as it looks like I'm some kind of villain otherwise#But idk over the years I've been getting better at trying my best to comfort ones I talk to and interact with#In any case! I'm kind of sick rn and on a walk so thinking is normal#This topic actually keeps me so confused for years at this point bc people I've met have been so open and mature with their emotions#Amd then there's me ruining everything every time just because I don't get it#I get being curious I get being selfish and cruel for the sake of it#I don't get being patient and understanding to someone like that when they're actively making you uncomfortable#Which is why I'm sure am writing and enjoy characters with conflicts like that - just look at whatever characters I draw#I never get too far from characters that brings me comfort of being normal in a weird way#Anyway!
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I'm so heavily anti-advertising that all pitches sound goofy silly to me/I can never take them seriously, so I have no idea how I'll manage to to advertise my game even if I do finally finish it soon-ish lol...
#Especially how so much modern media advertising is like... getting people excited about random tropes and stuff like#''Do you love enemies to lovers? Do you love sad stories that make you do a heckin CRY? Do you love big stupid dumbo muffin cake#sinnamon roll babies who are too good for this world? Have you ever wanted to read a blah blach blah" whatever stuff and it's like#... i cannot type that... I couldnt do it.. I couldn't even think of how to do it ghbjhbjh#I am such a literal person... Like I love when an advertisement is just like 'This product works well. Look at it. Buy it if you want. Ok'#You know what makes me want to read a book or watch a show or play a game? Reading a detailed plot synopsis or the full wiki page#for it and then deciding 'yeah I wouldnt mind sitting through seeing the events I just read about happen in more detail' lol#OR aesthetics. since I do often watch things JUST for the set/costume design. Sometimes I will watch stuff literally#just because I saw a picture of a costume in it that looked really cool and I want to sketch costume looks whilst watching#But aside from appearance like... little bullet point break downs of things that are in a story just ... do not do anything to me at all.#And i just hate 'selling' things to begin with. I don't want to have to convince people to like something.. they should just... like it...#LOL.. like.. just be born liking it. just like it automatically please. Dont make me beg to you like a weird little freak. So many commerci#als seem weirdly desperate and manipulative. Like those Truck/Car commercials that will have like a freaking dog crying and#a war vet in a wheelchair with the american flag in the background and a family hugging around a christmas tree or some shint and its#just like oh my GODDD... shut UPP.. you could literally not be MORE blantant about just trying to prey on peoples emotions to build#some sort of fabricated positive association with your product/brand.. begone.. Or brands having their own twitters where they post#~~relatable content~~ as a means of shallow audience endearment GGGRR..... ANYWAY.. hhrgh...................#Maybe that's something I can ask playtesters I guess like.. I feel like I don't know my own audience very well because I am not#much of a media person?? ironically.. Like I do enjoy MAKING media. But I've never been in a fandom. I've never read fanfiction. I've never#spent much time in those spaces. I've just never really had the inclination and don't personally derive much joy out of stuff like that#(since I'm already so focused on my OWN world and projects its like.. hard for me to even find the time and mental energy to expend on#others). Even when I finish a movie or game and really like it.. I just kind of like...move on? and don't really dwell on it much? At most#I will get into the worldbuilding of a piece of media and read the wiki for a while or watch Lore info or critical analysis videos. But I#never really care for or attach to the characters or the plot itself very much. So I feel like.. the way my brain works. I'm just not as#good at approaching things from that angle? Kind of like how if you're a lifelong vegetarian whos never eaten meat - you might#struggle to write an ad for fancy brand of steaks bc you'd be like... idk what meat eaters are even looking for? whats the selling point??#Which I'm not saying that I wouldn't play my own game. i AM definitely the audience for it. But it's more like.. I would play it for my own#very niche specific reasons that I think are different from what MOST people might want to play it for. So I need to somehow#tap into the minds of the Majority who play things for Normal Reasons than pure lore collection or whatever lol.
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If I were to try to make a recap thing about Unstable Universe, would it be easier to go by POV or rough timeline?
I'm rewatching this series because I'm bored and I'm taking notes and they just so happen to include tangents on where events would go in a timeline.
I probably won't post it anywhere but like, it's over 20 hours of content. If the opportunity presents itself, I'll have a recap waiting for anyone who's curious but doesn't have time to watch a 20 hour series at that moment.
Yes, I'm taking notes on a Minecraft series. I like taking notes, I'm a very attentive person, I blame Gravity Falls for making me think when watching or reading stuff.
#unstable universe#unstableverse#i'm actually such a nerd if i ENJOY taking notes#i apologize for absolutely nothing#my notes also include a bunch of theories and just general thoughts#i'm having a blast if you couldn't tell#this is what i get for trying to write a story i've been working on for years and i choose uu to put on while i write
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i think i kinda. just had a breakthrough with my writing style
#this entire time i've been frustrated with my inability to write story beats that aren't huge destructive absurdly explosive things#that tear the story limb from limb each time#but like. i just kinda realized that. that's what ave mujica is#that's what re:zero is. that is genuinely what my favorite kinds of art are#and then the words from the last Witch Watch chapter appeared in my head#'if there is something that keeps re-appearing in your work no matter how hard you try to get rid of it-'#'-that's your style and is the thing you should protect at any costs'#i've always valued stories that pull the trigger. yet when i held the gun i thought i had to keep the safety on#and i'm sitting here wondering. why
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Hello ♡ It's been a while!
It's been over a year I think? I haven't kept track tbqh
I'm not really back, because I want to be noncommittal as possible (since I have a tendency to disappear when my motivation to write does)
But this is me saying that I'm finally working on under the rose again! ♡
I'd all but abandoned it months ago, but yesterday I had a burst of energy and managed to write a couple hundred words. Tonight, the total is 1300. It's not much, but it's a start!
I don't talk about my personal life for many reasons, but this year has been one of the most difficult I've ever experienced. The last thing on my mind has been Will and Azul, as much as I wish they'd kept occupying every inch of it like they used to.
That spark is coming back, I think! ♡ (More in the tags since this is getting long)
#I have lots of plans for this story since what I have published is barely one third of the entire thing#It works in three acts if I'm remembering my outline correctly. I'm still re-familiarizing myself with it#But yes I do intend on trying to get part 2 of ch. 9 out in the coming weeks!#I also wanted to continue the Ruby x Bobby x Stef love triangle in a band au setting but I'm seeing that the app is gone?#I cannot even begin to describe how upset I am that S1-3 are all gone before I was able to replay properly#Not to do a sharp turn but it's been a very taxing year mentally and I want to start the new year off by trying to work on a resolution#Which is finishing a fic! I don't know if I'll finish it in 2024 but I'm determined to write as much as I'm able#Anyway I will still be a fandom recluse but I'm excited to catch up on all the writing I've missed ♡#Posting this and going promptly to sleep ♡ (Insomnia is a huge part of UTR's conception LOL)
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do y'all ever have times when all your closest friends are unavailable for one reason or another and you've had a bad day and kind of hate yourself but there's no one around you can talk to about it so you just

#i'm so so frustrated with my writing rn#i feel like i have no ability to tell a coherent story from start to finish#i feel like inexplicables isn't going anywhere#and i feel like i'm never going to have any kind of substantial audience for my original work even if it's good because i'm just unlucky#and promoting myself is exhausting and doesn't come naturally#whinge whinge whinge#whine whine whine#god.#sometimes it makes me so mad when i see other writers 'making it' and i've been trying so hard for so long and i'm getting nowhere#i know that's an unkind thought to have#but i can't help it#i'm just upset rn#kind of feel like my life's work is all for nothing#ramblies#like. why is it other writers can just write what they like and are excited about#and i can't stop myself from trying to make things perfect for imaginary critics
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Hey so if everyone that follows me or otherwise sees this reblog can you PLEASE reblog it as well? Because this news needs to be delivered to everyone. I am freaking out so fucking bad right now you have no idea
AO3 has been scraped, once again.
As of the time of this post, AO3 has been scraped by yet another shady individual looking to make a quick buck off the backs of hardworking hobby writers. This Reddit post here has all the details and the most current information. In short, if your fic URL ends in a number between 1 and 63,200,000 (inclusive), AND is not archive locked, your fic has been scraped and added to this database.
I have been trying to hold off on archive locking my fics for as long as possible, and I've managed to get by unscathed up to now. Unfortunately, my luck has run out and I am archive locking all of my current and future stories. I'm sorry to my lovelies who read and comment without an account; I love you all. But I have to do what is best for me and my work. Thank you for your understanding.
#holy fucking shit this piece of shit got everything#everything I've ever posted on AO3#are you fucking kidding me#I don't want to lock them and i don't want to lock future fics... but... what else do i do?#the whole fucking point of AO3 is the ability to write and post anonymously#and now the only way to even TRY to stop this is to file a legal complaint#AND YOU HAVE TO REVEAL YOUR IDENTITY TO DO THAT!!!#no fucking way am i showing myself for this are you kidding me#do i just have to sit here and live with knowing this worthless pile of dog shit stole all of my work??#and everyone else's work too??#HOLY SHIT DID THIS GUY SCRAPE JAMBOUND??????????#I'm trying so hard not to say some REALLY harsh words here#dude I know I'm not Shakespeare but i work really hard on my fics#i love writing. i love telling stories. it's always been my most treasured hobby#i put genuine thought and passion into my work#ME! A PERSON! A REAL LIFE HUMAN BEING!!!!!#i hesitate to call this slimy pathetic miserable waste of oxygen a human being#i wish nothing but the most profound and inescapable suffering upon them#THIS is what the future is? THIS is what our ancestors paved the way for?#this is what our forefathers starved and bled and died for? for thieves and machines to destroy and replace everything we ever worked for?#these soulless creatures sucking the souls out of everything and everyone else to try to fill the hole where theirs should be#this reminds me of that fucking miserable loser who made an AI version of that one artist's wonder bread manatee art#if you don't have what it takes to create something with your own mind and your own two hands then just FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!#what am i even supposed to do with any of my future fics now? do i really have to lock people out just to keep them safe?#do i have to destroy engagement with my own work? repel readers old and new? punish long-time fans and regulars of mine?#maybe the world really did end in 2012 and we've all been in Hell this whole time#why else is the world so fucking unbearable in so many ways#people used to dream of the future. said we'd get flying cars and cures for cancer#the future is here and all we got is shit like this#I'm going back to drawing fuck this i hope that scraper chokes
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u w u i managed to do the whole 1-hour writing sprint for 6 days this week, averaging about ~2100 words each time. honestly i think this is going to work??? maybe??? i don't feel as bad if i miss a day-- i didn't write at all yesterday. it used to be that i planned to write 5k over the weekends, but if i keep this up and if i only write 5 days/week, i'll still surpass even that goal
i'm liking this. the timer thing helps, i think. i set an alarm and for the entire duration of the timer, all i'm supposed to do is write. with the old goal, i had no duration in mind and i didn't make an effort to close out of my internet browser while i was writing...
i'm not gonna lie, this practice in general is only possible bc i work in an office setting now and i'm able to utilize my lunch break to focus on this. i have the most energy and awareness during the day so when i get home from work i'm too tired to think abt writing.
that said i'm still in first-draft mode bc i had to redo so much of what i had written last year @ u @;;; but i think i'm getting close to the end. i hope. im at nearly 115k (purely because of how i had to get rid of) but i still have a major plot point to get through before i can get to the ending.
i think this will be split into 2-3 stories? maybe? once i go through with the intent to flesh out areas and tie things together better. ah... it feels Nice to be making progress.
#neptalks#i like. want so badly to share things but its also like#really rough lmao and i decided that i needed to add more to the beginning for things to make a bit more sense#and that part has Not been rewritten yet#i'm not going to touch it until i manage to get to the end for realsies#i need to get to the end at least Once........#i started writing the very very first incarnation of this story like literally 20yrs ago#i've never been able to finish it before Something Happens and i have to stop writing#or i lose the file entirely#I Just Need To Finish It For Once#the story has changed drastically from what i first imagined it to be but i think past-me would like this version : )#i wanted to try to write the first vision of it but i couldn't figure out how to make it work in this setting#i still like the original concept tho so i might reuse it elsewhere...
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me every day: okay i'm going to try and relax and think about something other than grad school applications
me, roughly 30m later: thinking about grad school applications
#liveblogging life#i have a one track mind lmao when i'm In A Project i'm all in that project and it's REALLY hard to diversify#i've decided to limit my apps to 5 traditional applications and two that have free first rounds just for kicks#bc i really don't feel like i'm going to get in this time around? but i still want to try. so snipped to my favorite schools#so that the app fees make this feel like less of a waste of time lmao#i still have to get a polished draft of my statement of purpose completed to send to recommenders....#and decide exactly what i want my writing sample to be. right now i'm leaning toward a chapter of my literary novel#but i do have a few short stories that could fit????#it's stressful bc i can only fit one story in to the page limits really so like. i have to gamble on just ONE thing to submit#anyway the point is this whole thing has been consuming my brain this week lol#also spent like an hour contemplating going back to school for a technical writing b.s. if this grad school thing doesnt work out
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#another case where I post something entirely random that has nothing to do with anything I've ever posted here#and seems very different from costumes and cat pictures or etc. but ghbhj..... I could spend hours having pointless conversations#with myself like this. briefly got fixated on making fake chats on this website for a period of like 3 days straight a few months ago#(its 'chat-simulator.com/simulator' I think..???) but I made a ton of them.. one with some random family bickering with each other. another#that was like a magic school group chat with like 8 differnet students helping each other with an assignment#and just talking about things. another was a fake text xonversation between a king's assistant#and someone who was working in the castle kitchens and they were trying to plan a time to meet up to exchange the stuff that the assistant#stole from the king so that the chef could sell the items on a black market or whatever. then this one with just some weird#group of friends trying to plan to meet up to play golf and etc. etc. etc.#Talking to myself has always been one of my favorite hobbies. for some reason it's so fun lol#just making up random discussions people might have#not even entertaining or interesting or funny ones but just like... anything.. it doesn't matter. It could be a 5 hour long discussion abou#cheese or something.#THOUGH maybe that is just an extension of having always been a writer like.......... isn't that basically just what writing is? making up#fake scenarios and conversations between fake people?? lol... But I guess Writing Writing usually has some sort of goal or story you're#trying to tell. Whereas stufff just like ''3 elves discuss their favorite bread toppings for 15 minutes'' has no purpose#and is not even that interesting or cool so there's no reason behind it and is more just silly fun I guess#Aside from the physical health problems and ocd over something bad happening to me or etc. I've often thought I would be good at one#of those 'get locked in a blank white room for 24 hours' type challenges. since I would probably just sit there and be like 'okey. :3#I shall have an elaborate group conversation about elven politics with myself.' and would just pace around the room acting as different#people arguing with each other for like 6 hours lol#ANYWAY.. ultimate recreational activity...#one tiny little glimpse here of the sorts of things that my computer is full of but that i never post lol#Its interesting how communication develops when you're just talking to yourself alone in a vacuum. Sort of like inside jokes between two#best friends that just seem nonsense to everyone else. My folders of things that probably just read as disconnected gibberish or something#but are just mildly amusing to me.#Though also I just realized this is so tiny on tumblr I can barely read it.. hrrm.
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Laundry is done for now. We'll see if any writing actually gets done.
#I really want to finish the rewrite of this chapter that I'm working on#there's only about half of a typed page left but that's at least a page handwritten out#something that has passed through my mind the last couple of days is to start typing up the beginning of Tales Of A Frozen Sailor#and to possibly start posting it on AO3 as a way to try and encourage myself to actually get this rewrite done#because there's still so much more that needs to be written and at this point I'm getting to the spot where my confidence is waining#about finishing this at all#if I had outward pressure of knowing people are waiting for updates it might give me some accountability#but at the same time I had intended to have it all finished before posting this time#especially since at this point I'm not actually sure if what I've currently written is going to remain in this exact order#I might play around a little with some of the chapter placement#but it's still too early for that as I'm not even really half way through the rewrite#especially since there are certain parts that I'm intending on expanding hopefully#also I fear posting it because I have a feeling I know what will happen#there might be some little interest in the beginning but long before the end any interest that might be there will dwindle#and I'll never know what people think of the whole thing#as that's always been the case for me and pretty much all of my writing#which is fine. it's just disheartening as much as I expect it at this point#I'm just not one who gets a lot of attention for my writing#don't mind me I'm just getting in my head about the comparison game#I mostly write for myself but it would be nice for there to be at least one or two others who were as excited about my writing as me#and that's not to say that there wasn't originally excitement about Tales Of A Frozen Sailor#because there definitely and I'm ever so thankful for those who did follow until where I ended it#anyways I should be writing story not complaining about the potential of the story not being read and commented on#tales of a frozen sailor#musing on tales of a frozen sailor
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