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I've done most of these in my current project.
Gold is worthless in Quiet Space, as is everything except time itself. Access to space and automation of labor kind of kill the concept of scarcity of goods entirely and well, that's it for economics as we know it. The Terran Protectorate's closest thing to a currency is a literal credit system that entitles you to X hours of the empire's industrial capacity.
I mean, time is fleeting...
Its a stellar Empire. Only one clock is 24 hour and it's Earth's. The odds of another planet having the same rotational speed is basically 0.
Again since most places in my setting are not on Earth and therefore axial tilts are different... and also most megastructures and space habs don't have seasons at all...
I've got a planet that rains diamonds. Okay sure I'm just borrowing it from reality but people can go there and do things.
Most planets have more than 1 moon, turns out.
One of the human Clann's homeorlds is a gas giant. It has rings. Several planets have orbital ring habitats, but I don't think that's what you meant.
I have this, but the world is uninhabitable without bleeding edge shield technology.
I've got the star roads. They're invisible, does that count? TLDR; they're a FTL system that pushes craft in them faster than light by using a spinoff of gravitational drive technology to sort of ripp off mass effect but instead of sling shots it's based on the US highway system.
The Runi use wood for some of their jewelry.
The Thymrai don't use anything for wedding band type signifiers of marriage. They use their words "We're one." or "I have my mate." and if you don't respect that they'll probably stab you because you're calling them a liar and that's fighting words in their culture.
The Glorin always make a new name from select syllables from both prior names when they wed. They're also nano-hiveminds with each individual having 3 bodies, so most of their scocial things are odd.
I have several robotic species which genuinely would not be able to grock the idea of bastardry. "But... they manufactured you. You are their creation. Circumstances are irrelevant."
Most of my aliens do not use binary sexes. Many of the monosex species don't have a concept of gender at all because WHY WOULD THEY?
The Glorin again. They discount other gods as gods because they know they're just extradimentional entities that live in hyperspace. Their god does not live in hyperspace and seems supernatural to other gods. She also dosn't do the normal god things, she shows up like your cool aunt coming back to town and will do things like make your whole species immune to cancer and call it a "bug fix".
Again, the Glorin's god. She's very lovecraftian in appearance unless she specifically takes on a humanoid form for whatever reason (but she'll complain the entire time about how painful it is to "scrunch up like this")
Given designer organisms are a thing for Terrans, I've got this one. Because many of them are reskined other critters! (I may work on this one later today)
Plot? You assume I worldbuild to tell a narrative? Lol! I'm that wierdo who worldbuilds as their main hobby and sometimes you get a story out of it because I got bored.
I've got this one. What? This is a science-fantasy setting. Not sci-fi. TLDR; you can get a journal that will tell you everything friends that have willingly touched the journal did yesterday. It resets every time you sleep and fills you in on the previous day with every reset. This is, in fact, communication. Its just not real time or intentional. Yes this thing can end friendships, but its popular with Terrans because Terran society is about authenticity in 4269 and if your best friend actually thinks you're lame you want to know so you can terminate the friendship and find someone else (also their whole family would shame them as being inauthentic is as big of a social taboo as incest is today).
Books don't exist anymore. All information you want is either a direct download to your brain, or a VR experience. So... Yeah I've got this covered. Its not even a "well I love old things, so I still read books!" type of deal. If you read a book someone would look at you with the same incredulity that you would look at someone trying to light their bong by rubbing two sticks together. You'd probably also alert Central to a mental health crisis.
Many species communicate by psionic or digital telepathy. But sign langauge dosn't exist outside of millitary applications anymore. Not because "screw deaf/mute people!" but because genetic engineering has eliminated those conditions entirly. No one is born with physical disadvantages anymore. And even if they were, they'd be able to have them removed for free any time after they turn 16 since medical technology can reshape your body howeaver you please and has hit the "IRL Korean MMO character creator" point of "no further development necessary". (Yes that is a cornerstone of Terran culture. Part of that "be authentic" deal is your expected to live in a body that is "you" rather than whatever you were born as.)
Most of my alien species are not omnivores.
Small fantasy worldbuilding elements you might want to think about:
A currency that isnāt gold-standard/having gold be as valuable as tin
A currency that runs entirely on a perishable resource, like cocoa beans
A clock that isnāt 24-hours
More or less than four seasons/seasons other than the ones we know
Fantastical weather patterns like irregular cloud formations, iridescent rain
Multiple moons/no moon
Planetary rings
A northern lights effect, but near the equator
Roads that arenāt brown or grey/black, like San Juanās blue bricks
Jewelry beyond precious gems and metals
Marriage signifiers other than wedding bands
The husband taking the wife's name / newlyweds inventing a new surname upon marriage
No concept of virginity or bastardry
More than 2 genders/no concept of gender
Monotheism, but not creationism
Gods that donāt look like people
Domesticated pets that arenāt re-skinned dogs and cats
Some normalized supernatural element that has nothing to do with the plot
Magical communication that isnāt Fantasy Zoom
āBooksā that arenāt bound or scrolls
A nonverbal means of communicating, like sign language
A race of people who are obligate carnivores/ vegetarians/ vegans/ pescatarians (not religious, biological imperative)
Iāve done about half of these myself in one WIP or another and a little detail here or there goes a long way in reminding the audience that this isnāt Kansas anymore.
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ā × š² au work content, female! readers race not specified, dark content ( none done to reader ā ice truck killer actives ), some nsfw content.
BRIAN MOSER & ANGEL! READER who are wall-to-wall neighbors in their building. theyāve never spoken to one another longer than 5 minutes and only exchanged a couple sweet smiles when crossing paths going to their apartments. BRIAN MOSER who doesnāt let the sweet woman go unnoticed when sheās near. noting that she always gives him the most genuine farewells heās heard from a stranger and how soft her features are before seemly forgetting about her after entering his apartment. while . . ANGEL! READER thinks āon my god, heās a cutieā every time he sees him. adores how his hair and eyes are nearly the same deep brown and never misses an opportunity to send a short wave his way.
BRIAN MOSER & ANGEL! READER who only began to really speak to one another because brian continuously makes a lot of noise in his apartment interpreting her sleep most nights. and every time because sheās too sweet to be upset, she leads with a gentle āsorry to interruptā and āknow mā bothering you again but . .ā when asking him about turning it down a bit.
he fakes his sincerity and doesnāt bother to change his actions the first couple times she asked, keeping in mind she never really asks exactly what heās doing unlike all the other me who demand answers. until one night she come to his door with sleepy features and soft pout. āmā sorry to bother you again but could you just stop for a little bit? so i can at least get into the first stage then you can continue, i swear.ā he enjoys her. how she negotiates instead of out right demanding him. how she assumes the best of him, believes heāll listen if she asks nicely enough. and for the first time, he actually to quiet down.
when she comes to thank him the next morning with full eyes and asking his name he found himself giving her his real one, ābrian but call me rudyā while holding out his hand. she squints at him unsure as she take his hand, āwhere did rudy come from?ā unknown to her, he lies with a soft smile on his face, ānickname from when i was a kid.ā but she believes it.
BRIAN MOSER & ANGEL! READER whoās relationship dynamic is the perfect twist of epic dreams and nightmares. the epic dreams being full of soft, deep kisses like her making him feel as though he doesnāt have to fake who he is, him giving her sweet presents with small, red, bows tied on each one or her actual gaining the nickname angel by him when heās teasing her about something. his voice soft and low as he looks at her with dark, dreamy eyes, ācome on, angel.ā
while the nightmares run deep, they hold their relationship together the most because his urges prompt him to lie, he doesnāt tell her to hide them but to keep her exactly where he wants her: in his arms. when the moon is full, he brings women to his apartment and looks at them as though theyāre his world until the door is shut and they have their guard down. if they get too loud when heās strangling them he covers their mouths and whispers, āsh sh. donāt want to wake herā. keeping her in mind even in the midst of his ugres. if she comes over and hears or sees something heās quick to make up an excuse that sheās quick to believe because he hasnāt made her believe other wise. āyou promise?ā he gives both her eyes the perfect amount of affection, shifting from one to the other as he swears, āpromise, angel.ā
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Wow hey look I did something in Trainz for the first time since January.
Models are from The Branchline Crew and the route is from ZachmanAwesomeness3D
DeviantArt Link
#thomas and friends#thomas the tank engine#ttte edward#ttte james#trainz#trainz thomas#ttte#it's 5:30 in the morning#this is what i did instead of sleeping lol
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HOW DOES FUYUHIKO DEAL WITH MIGRAINES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#an art#Fuyuhiko kuzuryu#Peko pekoyama#Gundham tanaka#Hajime is barely there lol#kuzupeko#I used to get migraines a lot (probably from malnourishment and/or psychosomatic) and this is what I did!#Nothing helped as much as sleep but dimmed lights and 0 pressure on head really helped too#Massages mostly help if it's muscle related pains. But they can be relaxing so win anyway#T my friend T from life preferred warmth on eyes instead of cold so that's an individual kinda thing#I did image description for this since it's so scribbly but it fucking won't update
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Insomnia killing me tonight so I decided to try a new brush to push my comfort zone and sketched out the OG Uchiha brothers.
#Could be the sleep deprivation (or me being bad at art lol) but there's not a ton of 'family resemblance' here.#Izuna just seems a lot softer than Madara who seems more angular. Though typical Uchiha hair pulls it together maybe?#Or perhaps I shouldn't draw from memory and instead look at a reference...#Lowkey embarrassing how relaxing it is to draw their dumb hair lol.#Izuna Uchiha#Madara Uchiha#Naruto#Naruto Founders#I usually end up deleting unfinished art/ideas but I kind of like what I did with Izuna here. We shall see.
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He likes cats, after all.
#natsume yuujinchou#matoba seiji#i kept thinking about that illustration.............. looking at cats under the engawa#i did my best with the house lol i dont know exactly how japanese architecture works but its pieced together from the original drawing and#bunch of images i found on google#i feel like the house and yard dont look fancy enough for what a matoba house should probably look like but um#that would require me to learn about native japanese plants and gardening philosophy#so i could design their garden#and i dont wanna do that#i already had to draw that elm tree okay T_T#maybe some day i will make a more detailed matoba house illustration#fun fact the reason im posting this at a normal hour is because I WENT TO SLEEP last night instead of staying up until like 5am to finish#like a normal smart person....#anyway!
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I feel like Vi should have gotten a monologue. Vi should have gotten an 'is there anything so undoing as a daughter?' moment where she really thinks about her relationship with her sisterā just vi and her thoughts. her real thoughts. I want to see why she finally felt okay with letting jinx go. I want to see her consciously deciding to choose herself for once, instead of just being dragged around by the rest of the characters' motivations or trying to do what she thinks is best for other people. I want her to be selfish and not regret it. I wanted to see Vi making the (unforced!) decision to choose her own peace over trying to help her sister. I feel like jinx saw it and wanted that for Vi, and I wanted Vi to realize that, too.
#like i feel like she got there in the end but i really really wanted a scene where vi legitimately chooses her own happiness and needs#i think that the sex scene did that to some extentā but it also felt a little jarring?#i don't want an implicationā i want vi to realize that her ENTIRE LIFE has been spent prioritizing her sister#and now vi needs to learn to prioritize herself#idkkkkk#i think i need to rewatch the act and form more thoughts tbh#but idk. family will ALWAYS come first for vi. she literally can't let her sister go and that was why jinx had to die#i'm glad that jinx recognized what vi had done for her and finally decided to put vi first instead of vi putting everyone else first#but i also wanted vi to put vi first lol#IDKKKK i'm sleep deprived leave me alone#arcane#arcane season 2 spoilers#arcane s2#arcane s2 spoilers#arcane season 2#arcane spoilers#arcane season two#arcane vi#vi arcane#jinx arcane#powder arcane#arcane powder#arcane jinx
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cant believe i managed to put together a character inspiration graph. some are stronger than others, but it's fun to be able to put one together for once :') Anyway, inspiration board for aurora
Characters: -Snow Maiden (from the fairytale of the same name) -Odette (from the ballet Swan Lake) -The Unicorn/Amalthea (from The Last Unicorn) -Ninian (from Fire Emblem Blazing Blade) -The Princess (from Slay the Princess) -Sleeping Beauty/Rosamund du Prix (the fairytale of the same name/Dimension 20 Neverafter)
#aurora (oc)#snow maiden is the most obvious bc she literally is what auroras race is named after.#but to be specific. the ignorance. innocence. and inability to understand the world around her for her very nature and that the world#punishes her for that at times. as well as not being able to win over the first person she had feelings for i suppose lol#odette has always been a big inspo for me#bc of the curse shes under and the body transformations she undergoes unwillingly#amalthea is newer bc i didnt know about her to start but when i did learn of her i was like 'oh! points'#ninian is a soft spoken ice coded character (shes an ice dragon so lol) who is hunted by the big bad. she also gets amnesia#bc of the big bads actions similar to aurora#ninian was tied with deirdre from fe4 but ninian fit a bit better so she won out#still disappointed i couldnt find better offical art of ninian. she deserves prettier art than just moe blob shes been given#the princess is more nebulous. i cant pinpoint why exactly but i always think of aurora when i think of her. the thorn and the damsel#specifically a lot of time#meanwhile sleeping beauty on her own is someone cursed and loses So many years to the whims of another#for a slight she didn't even commit but instead her parent (s)#originally i just had sleeping beauty but i felt that rosumand is not only recognizable but also her#deconstruction of the fairytale fits into the fact aurora is a fairytale character who is Not happy about the consequences of it#anyway. gestures
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IM FREEEEEE
#(FROM PROJECTS)#personal#the engineering chronicles#WILL HOPEFULLY NEVER NEED TO SLEEP THREE NIGHTS ON THE FLOOR OF THE ENGINEERING BUILDING AGAIN!!!#one class the final project was to build a karaoke machine which my partner and i had planned on making look like actual speakers and#microphone but we couldnāt find the stuff in time and her mom made a joke abt singing into hairbrushes and we decided to take that and#run lol we used a pink sparkly makeup box to store our circuit and cut out holes for the speakers and decorated it with makeup and put the#hairbrush mics inside and it was very fun actually and our class voted us as one of the groups to go to project day which was pretty cool!!#project day did get canceled bc of. asnow day which was unfortunate especially considering we stayed up until 4am the night before#preparing our documents for it and trying to perfect the karaoke machine when we could have been putting that time toward project number#2 š but whatever we still get our extra credit and i can say i qualified for it so im happy enough#then project 2 was for another class but weāre lab partners in both (+ another guy for this project) and it was digital monster pet so we#made a dragon i was mostly on design so i hand CADed the whole thing which was living hell if i never want to lay eyes on solidworks#again but also he came out very cute after MUCH hasle putting him together with all the wires and components bc our wires from the kit are#so bad theyāre constantly getting disconnected from each other which we didnāt know would happen bc the labs we usually do we donāt have to#connect them together like that since youāre not routing them thru bodies etc and theyāve worked great until now but anywya.#i did the lcd faces and the light sensor and a couple other things + a lot of the code was copy and paste from past labs and fitting it to#suit the project but for the most part it was a shit ton of hardware on my end while she and the other guy managed the rest of the code#which i really wish i could have been more involved with but oh well. as it is though heās my baby i birthed him <3 weāre planning on#meeting up over weekends next semester to change some stuff and add other extra features that we missed we got a decent grade 85% but we#all agreed we donāt want to leave him like this we want to add the extra features we had come up with and also i think we should switch out#our motors for servos bc the motors we were required to use#instead suck theyāre not strong at all compared to what a servo can do for you. also we want to make it so you can not only pet him which w#already have with light sensors but also wash him with a Hall effect sensor and magnet so like weād stick the sensor inside and the magnet#inside a little cad brush or sponge is what im envisioning and i have an expression in mind for what weād do then. also paint him and#redesign the platform he stands on bc itās rlly cramped and also make a pcb bc we only have him with the microcontroller and breadboards rn#and i might mess with his face piece a bit too im not sure. oh and speakers!!! those were technically a requirement but we didnāt get them#done on time but i want to make him play music sooooo bad so definitely that. anyway want to be more involved in the software when we do#all this. pretty excited actually :]
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That post about huge red flags from exes is going around and Iām like well mine requires some background reading
#xrdslog#um basically. made a bet they could convince me to kiss them and constantly hinted at it until it happened and then bragged about it a lot#then I told them I was aro#then we got a headmate that they had a crush on and started dating#and then used that to argue that I should date them bc itās easier if itās both of us#and then prioritized me over him#also: this headmate is one I have a father and son relationship with#so what the hell#also told me they fixated on people and they still loved me but they were fixated on their friend so couldnāt give me attention#their friend who they called their not-girlfriend. because that friendās husband wasnāt comfortable with her being poly#and they still wanted to date her so they just called her that instead#gifted me an expensive adult toy and then took it and gave it to said not girlfriend#which. ok sure. but then why tell me it was a gift#demanded to talk to certain headmates and made a big fuss about knowing exactly who did what even though they were rarely correct#pushed me away whenever they were sad and then was upset I wasnāt comforting them#I baked banana bread once on a whim and then they constantly made me make it for them when I didnāt want to#NEEDED music playing at night and fans on them and they got upset if I didnāt want to sleep by them even though I couldnāt#āpretendedā to choke me when I got a rare item in final fantasy before them#wanted to rp with me but demanded I start it because they were tired of starting rps with their friend. ok. not my fault ?#more than once tried to get me to sign a lease with them even though I had no money or job#got mad at me because my art was good? and they didnāt think theirs was or that they were creative?#did not ever compliment me without an insult attached for the last three years of our relationship#constantly tried to talk about sex or illegal things in front of my mom#constantly bragged about how they were going to become rich when their grandma died and hoped it happened soon#The Entire Trauma Part where they barely comforted me at all#oh also I spent basically sixteen hours a day in VC with them every day and they broke up with me for not spending enough time with them#even though I could not Possibly have spent More time with them#there is more than this. but this is off the top of my head. lol.
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#raphael bg3#raphael#bg3#baldur's gate 3#what's that thing that's like - āthis is my sleep paralysis demonā or whatever#sleep paralysis devil? lol#i was just trying to pause before it did the scene transition to the House bc it crashes my game half the time but i got this instead#game didn't even crash either#my screenshots#mine
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I cannot stress enough that if you do not make and support the stories and headcanons and fics and interpretations you want to see in the world no amount of complaining that people make things you don't like will help you feel better in the long run
Also consider that just because you don't like more than one interpretation of a thing doesn't mean other people who like a different interpretation don't like others too
#seeing someone's complaint about people making and enjoying things they don't like go by on my dash is like#well now i'm going to enjoy this thing more and louder and more annoying /half joke because i always enjoy things as much as i can#like. try asking people if they like something rather than going 'why don't people enjoy/interpret/headcanon/say things the way i want!!!'#the crazy thing is when people complain about people not enjoying canon relationships/interpretations for what they are like. . . . . .#canon is doing that. . . . .i can definitely go on about the way things are in canon for sure but why would i. . .a fan. . .in fandom. . .#focus completely on what is canon rather than deviations that entertain me. . . . . . . .#idk. fandom is silly. so many people will complain about the absence of something instead of just. seeking to build up more of it#try asking about stuff instead of assuming everyone's got one-track interests and one-track interpretations#'based on your likes' actually tumblr i found that annoying and did not particularly like it š¤£ but the only way to make it stop doing that#is to turn it off completely. which i don't want. i kind of wish it'd learn what i do or don't like lol on the other hand that kind of thing#can be very invasive behavior from a website.#danie yells at existence#like i don't put forth any serious complaints about the absence of my favorite things in fandom! tbf i don't pay a ton of close attention to#fandom output. but the point still stands y'know? i indulge in my own thoughts and share my own things sometimes. i do my own thing#i didn't get much sleep last night which i bet made me a bit more irritated at some dumb fandom post than i really aught to have been#like man why are you complaining about people having fun in a different way than you rather than inviting them to play with you and seeing#if they also like the same game? why are you complaining about people having fun in a way you don't more than having fun in that way?#people are strange and sometimes unpleasant. and i'm sleepy
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Made a random meme redraw with one of my OCs, because I thought it would be funny:
(This was actually so hard to make why do I do this to myself lmaoo)
Reference image & sprite w/o any bg below:
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#pixel art#sprite art#neo geo pocket#fighting games#oc#original character#oc: raziela enbar#meme redraw#i didn't draw this at 5am instead of sleeping you did#never drawn a character at that angle before so this was an experience#think it turned out well tho :ā)#this is what i do instead of learning how to draw lol
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Anyway how is everyone doing
#had to get up at 6 in the morning and therefore had 4 hours of sleep today (a weekly occurence pretty much)#so i just took a nap which took all evening and i'm still tired yayyyyy. because naps only work how they should about 10% of the time#and also i did nothing else today because sleep and now i'm truly wondering what to do with myself anymore#meanwhile i have to get up and go to school again tomorrow š and the day after that š and the day after that š#or i could drop out again and have nothing else to do anyway and continue rotting in my room#(whether it's my dorm room or my actual room doesn't matter). what's the pointtttttt#might be reaching some kind of limit or maybe i'm truly just dramatising and should just chill about it all#save me 4 hours of music listening now probably. idk man#got my minimal amount of social interaction today in the form of riding the elevator with 3 of the ppl from my course#when i could have (and normally would have) just taken the stairs instead#i feel like i made a big important step today that will help me later on through this year (no not really)#at least one thing i've noticed recently is that i might have the reverse of what is i guess is usually called seasonal depression#in the sense that now that it's chilly and cloudy and it gets dark earlier i feel like i'm finally LIVING in a way#the good effect of that will probably pass after a week or two though#but also just a bit over a month left now until my birthday and then my long awaited trip!!#anyone else get unreasonably excited for their birthday each year even though there's never anything special about it in the end#and that only makes the day more depressing lol#ok whatever i'm done whining now i think. music time then#celebrating (a bit late) one year of gratsax and lil beethoven today. some of the albums of all time for me personally#goosepost
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Getting ready for bed now. Ended up taking no nap. Realized that I have gotten about 4 hours of sleep over the past 58 hours. Which is not recommended.
Also realized upon taking them off that id been wearing my glasses for Most of the past 23 ish hours. Maybe closer to 22 hours (for shower and such). My ear kinda stung a lil when I took it off. Which made me realize how long I'd been wearing them but ALSO the fact that they HAVENT been hurting my ears in daily wear. For a while there, wearing them for too long would make my ears Hurt. Hell, I literally ended up getting scabs on my nose where they rested. But it seems like my body has been adjusting to them... it is accepting that we are a glasses wearer now... this is a marvelous realization
#speculation nation#and now im up in bed and im hanging out with june. who im still kind of mad at for clawing my thumb so bad this morning#(like SORRY i had to move u from my bed!!! instead of my normal tactic of annoying u so much u move urself. i didnt have the TIME!!)#at the same time tho she laid on my stomach for like half an hour while i was trying (and failing) to take a nap last night#which she almost never does. neither of them like sitting on me usually. so it felt...very special.#baby forgiven. also forgiven simply for being baby. June doesnt mean bad by it she's just easily startled & i moved her too quickly...#i was on the way to 20 mins late leaving for class tho i did NOT have the time to take it slow. sorry June.#(cant leave her on the bed when im not here bc the door stays shut so tally wont try to eat my plants when im not watching)#(usually i just smother June with love in the morning so she gets up by herself. Tally too. then i shut the door once theyre both out lol)#anyways i took a melatonin so hopefully TONIGHT after a day with no sleep and a day with half sleep i can actually sleep thru the night.#still mad that i laid down for 3.5 hours last night and couldnt sleep a wink. it was still rest but it could've been SLEEP!!!#whatever. 8 hours sleep here i come#(unfortunately not more than 8 hours bc i have to get up to do my readings. but 8 hours is still better than what ive Been getting lol)#(i'll... try to catch up on my sleep some more over the next few days...)#anyways goodnight š«”
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lost vocation: fish
#just me hi#i am fresh from the shower helloooo world hfbsh#wanna go swimming again before it gets real cold.. i love you lake lol :)#reed doesn't like lakes and i kiinda get it; the depths and the unseen yeya#but there is also something comforting about being in something very large and very heavy. it's all the right pressure n i like it :>#pools are Not the same and simply cannot match up </3 also they're so hard to breath around so Lol#hot tubs have it out for me i dunno what i did but they are displeased about it#Okay i just remembered the heavy chlorine smell usually comes from a lot of urine in the pool so that's uh. hm#also i have nearly drowned in more pools than lakes so that too hghfshvk#for most of my life i was shorter than i am now. and pools give you that false sense of security like 'oh sure i can touch the bottom i'm#good :D' and then that's when it GETS ya. bfhsv#lakes are not lying to you though they Will get ya. but they're nice about it <3#the only thing i really have a problem with in lakes aside from the obvious drowning risk is. The Creatures#fish have nibbled me more than i am happy with lmao :(#like if i had a nickel for every time it happened i would have more than 1 but i'm not really sure how many hfbvsh#the first time it happened was AWFUL it felt like someone Scratching their fingernails on me and HOUUUU#first time that happened i genuinely thought there was some funkin Thing gonna get me in the waters lmfsvhf <3#i do like the dragonflies though even if they make my skin kinda itchy when they land :D they like to chill and i just float around instead#of doing anything so we're good friends lol :3#//anywho i'm kinda tired; been sorta fixing my sleep schedule but i got like Turbo Anxiety for a couple days a lil while ago and it messed#that up a bit but i'm getting it back on track hgfhs >:3#mysterious turbo anxiety comes in the middle of the night and whacks at unsuspecting victims.. honestly quite rude i think we can all agree#//okay wells i gotta go rn :) maybe i'll do somethin.. who knows!#poking myself with a stick ; we'll get something from this eventually hfshfv#toodles toodles !!
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