#this is what happens when i dont make enough art i go insane

[rimeah]

Ive been yapping non stop and dressing like a harlot all of this mercury retrograde

[miguelhugger2099]

Just a silly little request👉👈

Do u think fem!reader likes to wear crop top with no bra and Miguel's boxer. You two are just flirting and teasing each other until Miguel decided to toss the remote to reader for movie night and reflex, she tries to catch it reveal her tits and Miguel just "😳... Nice catch..." And smut if u want. Having his hands speezing them I'm going insane 😭😭

Just One Touch

a/n: this ask has been in my inbox for so long and ur not gonna believe what got me out of my month long stump to write this. everyone thank sir-mix-a-lot's song "ride" it possessed me and gave me energy. excuse the crappy writing, i'm still lowk having writers block so it's not my greatest work. please enjoy and as alwayssss i can rewrite this if you'd like <3 Art: mar_mar0u on instagram ! Unedited btw, plz dont crucify me ill die :(

It wasn’t unusual for you and Miguel to wind down after the sun had set. Movie night was a must, whether it was cheesy romcoms for you to sob to, horror movies for Miguel to be annoyed at, or even action movies to make fun of–as long as it was together. Still, Miguel teased you by holding the remote up above his head and out of your reach. He grins with one hand on his hip and watches you reach up with no progress in sight. “Give it!” You laugh, trying to keep your anger believable. “No, first you take my clothes and I know you’re gonna pick one of those creepy knock off animated movies.” He chuckles and he walks off. Due to the size difference, every step of his was three of yours–practically chasing after him. “Put respect on Over the Hedge’s name! It’s not even a knock off!” Miguel plops on the couch on one side with a huff of laughter. “Fine, fine. Here–take it!” He throws the remote above your head and you pause and stumble back.

You reach high up to grab the remote. “You asshole!” You laugh. The remote hits your fingertips and bounces a bit farther back. Your crop top rides and flows up as you lean back onto one foot to finally grasp the device in your hand.

Miguel could feel everything happen in slow motion. The small glimpse of your underboob before your nipples finally come into view. The grin on Miguel’s face slowly drops and he could feel drool slipping from his lips. He watched your boobs bounce, the roundness of your flesh and perky buds making his cheeks go red. He can’t help the disappointment in his face when your arms fall back down, shirt hiding the glorious view of your tits.

“Caught it!” You smirk at him triumphantly. His eyes continue to glance at your tits.  “Yeah, uh…” He gulps. “Nice catch.” He adjusts his shorts, hoping his growing bulge wasn’t too apparent.

You don’t notice, too engrossed in your victory and making Miguel speechless. So, you crawl in his lap, Miguel’s hands suspended in mid-air as you nestle yourself in his arms. You feel his muscles surround you like a warm comfortable blanket, leaning your back on his firm chest while you click the buttons to turn on the TV.

“So what are we picking this time?” You ask, flipping through random trailers to find what you’re looking for.

“Huh? Oh, uh, anything’s fine.” Miguel shrugs half-heartedly. He’s too focused looking down at your crop top. Slowly and gingerly, his fingers caress your stomach–light and feathery as if trying to be discreet.

“Yeah sure, whatever. Don’t complain if you don’t like it.” You laugh softly, clicking on a random movie that looked good enough.

“Mhm.” Miguel mumbles, not even hiding his disinterest in a damn movie right now. While your eyes are on the opening scene on the TV, Miguel’s eyebrows scrunch together, his lips into a tight line as he resists his urges.

He can’t help it though. He gets handsy, Miguel carefully caressing your stomach. You barely notice it since the two of you always get snuggled up like this.

You only notice when he hikes higher up, his hips shifting slightly while his fingers run up and down the valley of your tits. You smack his arm around your waist with the remote.

“What are you doing?” You ask, trying to sound annoyed but the smile seeps through your tone.

“Nuthin’” He murmurs. Miguel then feels the curve of your breast, his fingers itching for a squeeze.

“We’re supposed to be bonding.” You move to turn your head up at him. You try to meet his eyes but he stays glued downwards to your chest.

“We are.” Miguel insists, his lips slightly parted. His thumb swipes across your nipple and you gasp, feeling your cheeks burn. He can feel the nub perk up and his tongue darts out to lick his lips, biting his bottom lip to hide the satisfied smile on his face.

Miguel takes his chances, bending down to kiss along your neck, tugging you closer to him and making you melt. His body moves against yours and your eyes flutter shut. His mouth gently sucks and licks your skin and you shiver. Miguel grabs your left tit, the plump flesh squeezed in his palm. His fingers flick your nipple, circling around before gently twisting it.

You back arches and you moan. “Ah–fuck, Miguel!” You hissed, a burning heat crawling up your neck. Your hand lifts up to curl in his hair while he attacks your neck, his other hand running down to his boxers you were wearing. He slips his fingers in the front hole of the boxers, using his index and middle fingers to spread your folds apart. You feel him nip your neck with a smile as he smears your slick around your clit.

He then uses both of his hands to lift your shirt up and over your head. Your breasts are now out in the open, the cool air hitting your chest and making your nipples hard. You barely get a word out, Miguel already cupping your boobs and squeezes them. Your hips buck back to grind on his crotch, eyes closing as he plays with you. Miguel used his fingers to tease your nipples simultaneously, flicking and tweaking them. He lifts them up and watches them fall down before squeezing them again. Your pussy is soaking through his boxers, aching for more stimulation that’s making you feel empty.

His eyes are dark watching his own hands play with your chest, the memory of the bounce of your tits as you caught the remote high in the air. He wanted to see that again.

Miguel could feel his cock swell and twitch along with each bounce of your breasts. You have your body arching, hands behind you and holding onto his thighs. He plays with your tits switching with his hands or his mouth–but if you asked him, he preferred sucking on them. So that’s where he was now, lips attached to your right nipple and his right hand playing with your left. You slammed down on his cock, whining since you barely felt him thrust up. But in all honesty, Miguel could do this forever with your tits in his mouth and his cock buried in your cunt. While his tongue sucked and lipped your nipple, he knew if he didn’t focus, he���d cum instantly. He looks up at you after playfully biting down on your nub, your squeaks making his dick twitch against your walls. You look down with glossy eyes, hips stuttering and pussy throbbing when you see him smirk up at you with your boob in his mouth. One of his hands that was on your waist comes up to your back to keep your body arched. Miguel scrunches his eyes shut, eyebrows furrowed while he sucks on your nipple, his hips jerking and balls slapping against your ass. You wail with each thrust, falling forward and holding onto the backrest making your boobs squish in his face. Miguel groans as he lets you fall on top of him, hands falling down to your ass as you grind on him. His cock slips in and out of your wet cunt with a wet squelch. It makes you bite your lip with a loud whimper, the action making your man under you tug on your nipple with his teeth. He’s obsessed with you, Miguel pulling away just enough to make your tits swing in his face. He glances up at your pleasure filled face, sweat glistening down your face and body while you panted and whined. He’s entranced, eyes falling down to follow the way your boobs bounce as he fucks up into you. Miguel trusts you to keep fucking yourself on his while his hands leave your ass to come up and cup and squeeze both your breasts. He kneads them and watches your mouth drop open to moan. Your head hangs and your foreheads almost touch. Miguel doesn’t need to tell you a damn thing, his lips parted while he looks at yours. You lean down to kiss him, Miguel immediately slipping his tongue past your defenses with a low groan. He continues groping you, his hips smacking up with your thrusting and he can feel himself about to cum. He can tell you’re about to too by the way your pussy spasms wildly, sucking him in deeper and soaking him in your slick.

So he hammers into you, grunting as he puts all his strength in making you cream. Your eyes roll back, mouth separating from his to dig your nails into his shoulders and roll your hips. You can barely get a word out, garbled moans of his name escaping you while your body twitches, ecstasy flowing through from top to bottom. Miguel watches your chest heave as you catch your breath, your juices dripping out of your a making a sticky mess in his lap. You’re dizzy and weak, body flopping forward on his chest. Miguel soothes you, curling his hand in your hair and pressing you into the crook of his neck. He kisses the top of your head and you’re too numb to feel him take your body off him. He places your back down on the couch, hair sticking to your face with sweat, lips plumped from kissing. You’re whining when your sensitive folds feel his still hard cock rub in between them, accidentally slipping his tip in a few times. You swallow to get the dryness out of your throat. “Mig…Mig…” You’re cut off when Miguel slams into you, your body jerking and tits bouncing with the hard thrust. Your hazy vision rolls onto his face, Miguel glued onto your chest still. He gives another few soft thrusts and watches your boobs jiggle around. You feel his cock jump inside your walls, a soft hum of approval coming from deep in his throat. He bends down, biting and licking the side of your tit to add another mark to his collection. His teeth marks littered around your plump and round flesh–his favorites being the ones around your areola.

His face is buried in your breasts while he pounds into you, your head thrown back and legs locked around his waist. Oh, he’s in heaven.

[puppyplayhouse]

WEIRD BROTHER HYUNJIN

Warnings: FAUXCEST, brother Hyunjin, dub con, weird behaviour! They're not actually related gang 🙄

Pups notes: I'm so insane for this truly im obsessed.

He convinces you to move out with him to a new city because it'll be so fun and he knows a great place for you to work! All his friends live there and you'll fit right in!

Your apartment is roomy enough. 3 bedrooms, one that you share for an art space. You love painting with him! Though he sure does do a lot of nude portraits. He's just poetic like that, you guess!

You settle in so easily, too, and you don't have to worry about bills because he thinks that's HIS responsibility as your brother. He's just enjoying your company! That's why he takes to cuddling you against his chest during your movie nights.

He works so hard, too, so of course you start cooking dinner for you both. Your work schedule is far more forgiving. You don't mind that he jokes about how you're marriage material.

And why would you bother locking doors? He's your brother! It's not weird for him to walk into the bathroom to chat with you while you're having a bath or to come in and pee while you're showering. It is a little weird that he never closes his door, though... he's probably just so comfortable!

Do you ever really need to wonder why he calls you his roommate to his friends? I mean, YOU ARE roommates! He's just being mature.

You dont really think he's weird until he pulls you onto his chest while he's lying on the couch to snuggle, and you can feel an uncomfortable hardness digging into your abdomen. It's not a huge deal, maybe? That just happens when guys sleep...

But he stops leaving the bathroom when you turn the water off. And he moves your towel to the sink where you can't reach it without getting out of the shower.

And he becomes obsessed with groping your ass... what's up with that? You feel bad, really. It's not like he can bring anyone home when he lives with his sibling. He's probably just pent-up!

It's really too easy to convince you to suck him off. Sure, the idea is GROSS at first. But you're siblings, right? You're supposed to look out for each other! He just needs you to help him this one time, and it hurts so bad. You love him, don't you? How can you let him suffer?

It doesn't all happen at once. There's a lot more groping, and he's started helping you make sure you wash your back properly in the shower. He asks you to help him, too! You ignore all the lewd moans and groans.

You think it's super weird when he starts insisting on watching horror movies late at night because he always gets scared and needs you to stay with him. You don't mind too much, but you're very confused when you wake up the morning after with sticky thighs and mysterious bruises.

You should be absolutely HORRIFIED when you wake up one night to 3 of his fingers buried in your aching hole. You swear you try to ask him what's going on, but he shoves his fingers in your mouth and licks at your lips in such a LEWD display and you have no idea what to say!

He says it's not weird! Of course not! He just loves you SO much and he's making sure you can feel that!

You definitely don't spread your legs for him and pretend you're asleep next time. And you DONT fall asleep on the couch in your underwear for his benefit. Of course not!

You also don't say anything when you finally meet his friends, and he introduces you as his friend with benefits, smirking and gripping your waist tightly. He's SO weird, but that's just how he is! Your brother has always been like that!

[mythalism]

at this point im just ranting bc im on my period have been cooped up at home for 4 days as a result and havent taken my adderall today so theres a lot happening in my noggin

idk for some reason settling on the word "palatable" just now for solas's writing in veilguard but also the game as a whole just really struck me powerfully because i think it also really encapsulates why it pisses me the fuck off so bad on a personal level. because i literally hate shit like that LOL. growing up a girl with audhd i have spent my life being the one of LEAST palatable people in the room at all times and constantly being told i should be more palatable, dont talk so loud, dont talk so much, dont say things like that! people would like you better if you werent so harsh, you're an acquired taste, you're a tough pill to swallow. you're too political. etc etc ETC and i literally have become more palatable with age but also WITH GREAT EFFORT bc it was so clear to me my whole life that i would continue to (unintentionally) upset and make people uncomfortable with my honesty and intensity just by being myself around them. and you maybe wondering wtf this has to do with dragon age and media in general but i think its because as a result, I LOVE UN-PALATABLE THINGS!!!! BECAUSE I AM ALSO UNPALATABLE. and i think anyone who has experienced this will know what im talking about and if you dont well this post isnt for u. but i want stories to be like a punch to the fucking face. i want INTENSITY!!! i even took that quiz that went around recently and got the one that was like "you read books that challenge your worldview" YEAH!!!!! even things that i disagree with or dislike i will always respect if they pack a fucking punch.

like i hate passivity. i hate in both in people and in media. this isnt a personal drag or attack if u are the kind of person i am talking about. but see how i felt the compulsive need to disclaim that? hm. i hate it because it has never been something that came naturally to me and has always been forced upon me. i hate when people wont speak the fuck up. i hate capitulation. i hate indecisiveness. i hate when people shy away from conflict. these are all things that have repeatedly been the source of interpersonal conflict for me throughout my entire life. and like obviously im a grown adult and i have learned a LOT and am able to handle myself with sensitivity and maturity. i can recognize time and place and appropriateness and be passive and unobtrusive when necessary or when in my or someone else's best interest. i can understand and empathize with people who are the opposite of me and are passive, and avoidant, and afraid of conflict, and quiet. and i have plenty of wonderful relationships in my life and practice healthy conflict resolution regularly like fr dont worry about me. however there is always going to be a little girl inside me who resents that i will always have to tone myself down to meet the standard of easy-enough-to-swallow woman because thats what our world values rather than anyone else ever bothering to meet me at the level of intensity i naturally operate on or even just allowing me to be bonkers in peace.

and all of this absolutely manifests in what stories and art resonates with me. i prefer visual art that is bright, colorful, and intense. all of my favorite stories since i was a child and couldnt even recognize these patterns are unapologetic, emotionally powerful, and loudly political. there are a lot great shows movies games books etc. that i am sure are great and well done, but if they do not have a level of rocking my SHIT, i am simply not going to be a super fan. I LOVED DRAGON AGE FOR ROCKING MY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!! its probably why da2 is my favorite because it is all of these things that people have been telling me to tamp down on since i was a kid. unapologetic, intense, punch to the face, insane emotional rollercoaster. i love that it challenged the player. its probably why i love tragedy too, and the solavellan romance because its literally painful. also definitely why i love cyberpunk so much and why i fell in love with it so fast, because if there is a game that punches you in the face, its cyberpunk 2077. like johnny literally punches you in the face. anyway ive already written abt this in another post so ill move on now but WOW. PLESAE!!!!! DRAGON AGE PLEASE PUNCH ME IN THE FACE!!!! MAKE ME FEEL SOMETHING!!!! MATCH MY FREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SAY SOMETHING!!!! SAY SOMETHING SO I DONT FEEL LIKE THE ONLY PERSON OUT THERE WHOS SAYING SOMETHING!!!!!! i love seeing people be as opinionated and unapologetic as i feel even if i dont let it out. EVEN WHEN I DISAGREE!!!!!!!! this is why you dont see me arguing with posts i disagree with of rancid bad takes on this website. BC I RESPECT THAT SOMEONE HAD THE BALLS TO POST THEIR NONSENSE IN THE FIRST PLACE. UR WRONG BUT GO OFF!!!!!!! there is just something so valuable to me in seeing people express themselves and be loud and unashamed. maybe sometimes they should be ashamed but the inner child in me is happy that they are even given the space to be wrong. doesnt mean i wont disagree equally loudly on my own page, but i just HAAAAATE not speaking up. and i especially hate when being quiet and passive is portrayed as the "right" thing to do, more mature, and superior.

AND THATS VEILGUARD. literally take all of this and apply it to video game form. thats veilguard. safe, passive, palatable. we went from blowing up churches to enabling regicide to....... book club? thats a completely unfair and poor example, im aware, but this isnt a real essay its just a rant, and i know you know what i mean. and to be fair, inquisition was already step in this direction, but boy was veilguard a LEAP. olympic long-jump, even. inquisition is toned down compared to the fucking insanity of da2 and origins, but it still has moments enough to keep me feeling like it has a backbone and something to SAY, that it was brave enough to ask me to think, that it wasnt mass produced soylent green slop manufactured for easy digestion.

but veilguard is. the central message is passivity. the central message is DO. NOTHING. dont try to change things. dont speak up for what you believe in. you might mess up the world!!!!! do you understand how this is a video game manifestation of a sentiment that has smothered me my entire life. do you understand why it is so frustrating to see a series that once asked me to think for myself, to choose, to take action, to DO SOMETHING, go from asking for my opinion in judgement on a character's crimes to telling me not to think too hard at all? to go from allowing me to interrogate every character for their opinions and life story and pick their brains, to not even allowing for a real conversation? to put two choices in front of me and say PICK ONE!!!! AND LIVE WITH THE CONSEQUENCES!!!! TO PUNCH ME IN THE FACE WITH A DEVASTATING STORY THAT HAS SOMETHING TO SAY ABOUT THE WORLD?!??!?!!? EVEN IF THE STATEMENT IS SOME CANADIAN NEOLIB BULLSHIT THAT I DISAGREE WITH????? AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahem. veilguard genuinely honest to fucking god encourages me as the player to do the very fucking thing that my evil elementary school music teacher wanted from me when i talked too much in class or when my mom told me people would like me more if i wasnt so "intense". shut up, do not ask questions, do not have an opinion, do not express that opinion loudly or in a way that others cannot handle, do not get too excited, dont try to change anything, do not take action, do not get angry. and join the fucking book club. or don't actually, because rook cant even do that. someone is probably going to read this and be like "wow its not that deep" and ur right its not that deep. but i am analyzing why i have such a visceral reaction to this dumbass fucking game and i have figured it out so if you dont like it you can leave. and if you love that veilguard is relaxing and chill and "COZY" that is great for you truly cheers. the world needs people that are passive and diplomatic and quiet and dont rock the boat and quiet and i am 100% dead serious. i know its gonna sound like im being a backhanded bitch because as aforementioned i have chronic bitch syndrome but i am dead serious that all of those traits ARE VALUABLE and have a place in this world and we need games that are relaxing and unobtrusive and P A L A T A B L E just like we need people that can be that way but that is not ME and that was NOT DRAGON AGE and to LOSE DRAGON AGE TO THAT PRESSURE HITS TOO CLOSE TO HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU TOOK MY MEAN MESSY UGLY LOUD FUCKED UP BABY AND GAVE IT A FUCKING TIK TOK FILTER AND CHANGED THE TEXT FROM "KILL" TO "UNALIVE"!!!!!!!! GIVE HER BACK!!!!!!!!!!!! GIVE HER BACK THAT MEAN MESSY UGLY LOUD FUCKED UP BABY WAS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

feel free to respond in the replies if you relate or resonate with this i know this is very personal but i would love to discuss further with people if you understand what im saying . however if u are an asshole prepare to feel the full force of my wrath because as i said above i hold back a lot but i am simply not in the mood today xoxo kisses

[lynn-tged-posting]

tged webtoon episode 177 spoilers and thoughts that i am a little bit late on but that's cause i was going Crazy over it and i also got like takedowns on twitter on older posts so i was like huh? wuh? but it's fine my twitter is still up, anyway this ep made me insane. and more below the cut

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tbh idek where to begin HAHA this episode was a little short but i think the art and the impact makes up for the shortness bc these panels were INSANELY good. like i love them so damn much i would use some of these as wallpapers they're sick /pos

from the top then,,, cause,,, this panel was the thumb for this ep and i was TERRIFIED OUT OF MY MIND LOL

THAT DAZED AND BLANK LOOK I WAS SO SCARED FOR LLOYD YALL I. AHHHH i was so worried that this would be a totally scary episode where they Go Through Shit when lloyd literally JUST finished the railroads sob emoji sob emoji

like fuck. this one too, this is scary to see,,, blank eyes and the cold color tones of the panel,,, the icy breaths,,,,,,, oh my god

alicia commenting too that she really can't let go of him / can't stop giving him mana or else his condition completely worsens,,, like god he is so close to death here im so . oh god

AND THEN THE PANELS OF HIM KEELING OVER. LIKE THE PACING OF THAT. INSANE I LOST MY MIND. i was kind of reading while i was on campus so i had to try to not Shout in public. it was a time

thus i am VERY glad that alicia and javier are so quick to act. maybe they talked abt this idk,,, either way. MADE ME VERY HAPPY TO SEE THEM IN ACTION!!!

LIKE LOOK AT THESE PANELSSSS THE ART THE ART,,, THE COLORS AND THE ANGLES SO MUCH ACTION IM SO HAPPY,,, look at them go!!! go go go!!!

genuinely these panels are so fucking sick . id post more but then id be posting the whole episode and i really cant go doing that LMFAOOO but seriously seriously i love the art so so much in this ep. all the movement and lines and how it flows i had a ton of fun!! i'm not that experienced w reading manhwa tbh but from what i've seen this ep's art just,,, waow,,, my type of art,,, shapes and colors and movement i can follow without getting bored / i dont end up skipping,,, COOK KIM HYUNSOO-NIM COOK!!!

AND AND AND,,, THIS PANEL OF JAVIER UP CLOSE TO THE EYE OF SUMMER,,, OH MY GOD OUCH THAT. LOOKS LIKE. IT HURTS,,, but he didn't even hesitate,,,, like i knew he was martyr levels of loyalty but wow we actually See it here bc JAVIER DUDE. U COULD BURN. TO DEATH. THIS IS DANGEROUS. THAT IS THE EYE OF SUMMER U COULD BURN and there he is getting burned but he wasn't even phased he didn't even hesitate. oh my god. javier. you MARTYR

fellas is it gay to literally risk burning to DEATH to save the life of your dearest friend and closest companion /j

like no seriously even in this panel there isn't a grimace of pain, or worry on his face. just straight determination. he's deadset on keeping this artifact still long enough for lloyd to absorb it,,, has he even thought of what he'd do if lloyd couldn't? god,,, fuck,,, loyal to the end,,, im so,,,

this just goes to show how much trust javier has in lloyd too. there's no worry there because he trusts that lloyd will get up and absorb it before anything happens. he just. Does. it's so inherent. i'm so,,, oh my god. that's so,,,,,,,,, oh my god

(and ur telling me llovier isn't canon like ARE YOU SERIOUS IM JUMPING FOR THE BEEF im making it canon)

AND THEEEN THIS PANEL (AND HOW IT PARALLELS AN OLDER PANEL OF SUHO REACHIGN FOR THE LIGHT) i yapped about it here hehe, a good number of thoughts in there feel free to take a peek at ur leisure~!

seriously this panel is so,,, god,,, like not only the parallel makes me insane but wow the shapes and colors here too. i am easily amazed clearly LMFAO but gosh idk i just really like this,,, the swirl of summer flames lashing around and javier's wings also being curled as part of the swirl, centering to a single point around the eye of summer,,, which is also similar to the older panels of suho reaching to the light bc they usually ended up also pinpointed on a single point in at least one of the panels . oh my god it just keeps going im so . AAAAHHH!!!!!

i think it's interesting too that one of the differences is that both of them are reaching, but in this panel his fingers are wider outstretched. like, suho's hand reaches, but lloyd's hand is about to grab, does that make sense? that's what it looks like to me,,, of course i'm not sure how intentional that is (it likely isn't and is just that way bc it's been so long since the original panel was drawn) but it's a nice difference to point out either way,,, he's finally reaching it

THE EYE OF SUMMER IS SUPER DUPER CUTE TOO BTW when it combined w the heart of winter and started spinning i immediately thought of this HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

maybe ill draw that later thats goofy . i also wanna see lloyd and javier doing this. LOL

AND THERE HE IS THERES MY BOY GOOD MORNING SUNSHINE THE EARTH SAYS HELLO!!! his silly lil face. god. i am unhealthily attached /hj

OH OH!! AND THE SKILL HE GOT. THE BLESSING OF THE DEMON KING OR WHATEVER. CHRIST THATS CRAZY lloyd's first thought Again being javier. i know what you are. accusatory point /lh

but seriously wow thats OP,,, idk how things r gonna go down but he's definitely gonna use that on javier once they actually get to fighting fate,,, maybe fate is literal and javier can beat it up,,, cut it down,,, idk,,, but seriously wow THATS OP IM EXCITED TO SEE IT IN ACTION!!!

and there he is,,, the silly,,, god he's so goofy,,, AND JAVIER AND ALICIA LOOKING FONDLY AT HIM FROM BEHIND IM SO,,, THAT'S SO,,, GOD,,, THEY LOVE HIM SM,,, AAAAAHHH!!!!!

(okay well actually now that i look closer javier isn't smiling but it's okay. he just got seared by the eye of summer it's only natural. there's fondness in his eyes i promise <- his eyes are like two pixels. whatever alillovier is real to me okay)

AND FINALLY FINALLY MY FAVORITE PANEL OF THIS EPISODE. PROBABLY ONE OF MY FAVORITE PANELS IN ALL OF TGED.

HE'S SMILING SO BRIGHTLY,,, THERE IS SO MUCH GENUINENESS IN HIS SMILE AND IN THIS PANEL IM SO,,, OH M YGOD,,, STOP,,, ALKDFJLSJKDFLSDF

HE LOOKS SO DAMN HAPPY I. oh m ygod. he's gonna be okay he's gonna be okay . he's alive, and he's thriving, and his closest friends saved him and they're all by his side, and his family supports him too, and he can continue living and protecting what he loves he's ALIVE HE'S ALIVE

and like i know we've seen panels of him with genuine smiles before i know, but like it's been a while since we had one as impactful and as BRIGHT as this y'know. god the soft lighting and the just. that's suho smiling through lloyd i'm so . god LLOYD IM SO HAPPY HE'S HAPPY GOD FUCK

as you can uh. see. i was having a grand ol time when i got to the end of the ep LOL

seriously seriously what a way to end an arc. /pos i'm so so happy,,, god he's alive,,, at least i think this is the end of the arc idk,,, cause the last thing is to fight fate, right? my mutual commented on this but like there wasn't really any indicator as to what comes after this,,, so i can only assume their next step is to tackle the last obstacle, fate itself,,, we're reaching endgame guys,,, i'm both excited and scared

there's also a mild worry i have of all the worthroad / helkaros stuff that is probably still happening in the background?!?! like oh god that's gonna pop up any day now. actually maybe that's what theyll face first before going toe to toe with fate,,, i'm not sure but im excited either way

i want to see lloyd and his friends and family and loved ones get their happy ending THEY'VE WORKED SO HARD THEY DESERVE IT,,,,,,,, ueueueueue,,,,

anyway,,, apologies for this post being late LMFAO i have been busy! but it's okay! tged thursday tmrw! let's see where things go,,, endgame is nigh,,, or we are already in endgame idk,,, YAHOO!!!

[greenunoreversecard]

Are You Sirius?- Chapter 1

A/N:definitely not beta read. LMFAOOO. Also, Sorry it took so long for the chapter to come out i procrastinated a lot, didn't have any ideas pn where to go with the story nor where to start, and then also was busy with school and everything. dont expect my publishing schedule to be a good one fr

Warnings: Tranny is said, 1970's term for transgender (Transsexual) and Sirius almost calls reader a 'Filthy Mudblood'. think thats all.

Before I can make it down the stairs, I’m stopped by James. “Hey, we were gonna all compare class schedules. Care to join?” I blink at him owlishly, and he fidgets under my unrelenting gaze, glancing back at the other three hesitantly before looking back at me. I slowly nod and shuffle my way to the circle they’ve sat themselves at in the middle of the room. I’m sitting between Peter and Remus, with James on the other side of the aforementioned and Sirius next to him, avoiding my gaze.

James starts.

“So, my first period is History of Magic, Second is Charms, then Potions, Transfiguration, Defense Against the Dark Arts, Flying and then Herbology, then Astronomy.”

I’m flabbergasted. “What the fuck class schedule is that?” I blurted out before I thought, my brows furrowed and mouth hanging a bit, I was beyond confused.

Remus Snorts, but quickly covers his mouth and looks away. “Right, I agree. What are those schedules? Might as well throw in some bippity boppity boo”

I add on to the joke, smirking as I side eye Remus and say “Or might as well start just ‘abracadabra’-”

There's a resounding commotion from Peter, James and Sirius, as two try to duck and the third looks at me like I’m insane. Me and Remus just look at each other, concerned for the three but trying not to giggle. The three start speaking over each other.

“You cannot just-” “Are you trying to kill us all?” “Are you absolutely bollocks-”

I look at them confused. Sirius looks up from where he hid behind Peter, who's on his right. “You just said the words of the killing curse! Are you insane! You filthy mu-” He cuts himself off, looking at James warily, who side eyes him. “You must be mad.” “Uhm? No, I said a simple little play spell we use when playing pretend as children?” Sirius Scoffs, looking at me with his nose turned. “The avada is *not* a play spell.” Remus butts in,”’He said Abra. As in ‘Abra-ca-dabra’. Like when you wack a bucket pretendin' to do magic and say Abra-ca-dabra.” My heart leaps at the fact I was called a he, but my stomach drops at my reaction. I'm not a man. My mum and dad already made it very clear with the switches’ beatings and the dresses they shoved down my throats.

James and Peter make a face or realization. Sirius doesn't seem to keen on being proven wrong. “So it's a play spell muggles use?” James asks, fully turning to me and Remus. I nod. “As is bippity boppity boo. Like in Cinderella, or whatever had those three ehm fairies.” Remus gives me a quizzical look. “Wasn't it the one with Aurora? I forgot the name of it” I shrug. “Honestly never really could sit still for movies.” He makes a fair enough gesture.

“Either way, it's whatever. Let's just get the schedules over with.” I sigh, before turning to James once more. “WHICH actually what the hells what that schedule? Where was the maths? The science? What the hells is ‘transfiguration’ and why are we *flying*??? Last I checked I wasn’t an attack helicopter- and what happened to PE? What happened to dodgeball?” James looks at me like I'm crazy. I probably am. “This is... a normal schedule? What are you on about?” “No, it isn't. it's insane, and everyone here is insane.” He raises a brow, and Peter butts in. “Are you sure *you* aren't insane?” Remus snorts but tries to cover it. “I’m entirely sane, thank you very much, *Peter and James* you Wizardy fireball magic who-ha people are just silly, with your weird classes.” James and Peter start giggling like school boys. Remus Hasn’t stopped giggling, frankly. “You do realise *you* also have to have these 'Wizardy fireball magic who-ha people' classes, correct?” Sirius chimes in. I level him with a light glare. “Nu-uh.” He gives me an admonished look. The five of us continue to bicker for the rest of the evening, before one of the prefects barges in and gets on us for being up so late, but all of us are so giddy with humor and excitement and laughter we can’t seem to care. They almost made me forget everything.

The next morning, I try to quietly make my way down the stairs, but I wince as they creep under me, trying to swiftly make my way down without anyone else hearing me, the gentle pratter of birds heard from just outside. I couldn’t sleep a wink last night, my mind preoccupied with the information supplied to me by stairs, of all things. I continue to try and shuffle down to the floor of Gryffindor Tower from the male dormitory as silently as possible, and heave a small sigh of relief when I reach my reprieve at the bottom, before glancing around the now empty common room.

I glance around at the portraits lining the walls, images of predecessors staring unseeingly, the small sizzles of the remaining embers a white noise as I fully take in the commons for the first time. There is quite a lot of red and gold, as to be expected, enough to be an eyesore, but arranged in ways so it's not entirely gaudy. There are several armchairs scattered about, with desks along the walls, and a couch near the fireplace. The embellishments combined with the stone walls create a rather warm and homey atmosphere, and the sun slowly and just barely rises over the horizon, as well as the birds' call and the fact I’m undisturbed adds to the cozy warmth the tower offers, easing the tensity that had entered me on my escape from my dorm.

I sigh once more and make my way to the exit, stopping at one of the desks to grab a lone map. I square my shoulders as I mentally prepare myself for my talk with the professor. I walk through the winding hallways, getting lost here and there, but eventually find my way to the correct classroom, and knock gently, the door creaking open after a moment.

I steel myself and walk in with as much confidence as I can muster, which isn't a lot. I see Professor McGonagall Sitting at the head desk, rows of desks lining the two sides of the classroom. She sits surrounded by small stacks of books and loose papers, her quill releasing a gentle scratching sound as she writes. She Has an unassuming blue tin next to her, the lid removed, and a biscuit on a small napkin on her left.

“Are you here to stare, young L/N? If so, I must inquire you to go back to your dormitory,” Her voice breaks the silence I hadn't realised had fallen.

I sigh shakily, but reply; “No, uh, I came to ask about yesterday…”

She hums, before gesturing to a chair.

“Please, Pull up a seat. Let’s have a chat, shall we?” I do as told, pulling a wooden chair from one of the desks and dragging it across from her.

“What’s on your mind, then, young L/N?” She starts, putting her quill away and straightening her papers.

I sit there, tucked in on myself, my fingers trembling slightly under her unyielding gaze as I pull at the loose strands of my jumper sleeves. I can feel the cold sweat lining my neck, but I push down the fear and speak in a soft, tepid voice; “Well... I know you told us the stairs recognize those… ehm, trans? People, but I didn't particularly expect to be like… kicked off, I guess”

She hums, adjusting her glasses. Her eyes bore into me, searching, as I sink further into myself. Her eyes sear into my soul, it feels, before she finally leans back a bit and pushes the blue tine towards me.

“Would you care for a biscuit?”

I blink rapidly, finally looking up at her, confused and shocked at the absurdity of the question.

“Excuse me?”

She smiles. “Would you care for a Biscuit?”

I look at her like she's lost her mind. Maybe she has, honestly, but either way, I eye the biscuit with suspicion before slowly grabbing one, looking at her like she might be a bit insane, noting the humored gleam in her eye. I slowly take a bite of the biscuit.

“..What do biscuits have to do with being a tranny, Miss?” I ask, thoroughly lost. She shrugs. “Nothing particularly.” I continue to stare at her like she’s mad for a few moments, continuing to munch on the aforementioned.

“Thank you, though, but I'm very lost.” She seems to shrug off my confusion, starting instead with her spiel.

“What exactly alarms you about being transsexual, young L/N?”

I don’t exactly have an answer, and I hesitate, not responding and averting my gaze.

“Being transsexual isn’t bad, you know. I graduated from Hogwarts in the year of 1954, and when I attended, there were several transsexual people. All it means is that the sex you are assigned does not match who you are in your spirit, in your heart, and in your mind. Gender is such a finicky thing, you know.” McGonagall takes a bite of a biscuit, “It's so widely assumed there's only ‘this’ or ‘that’, ‘right’ or ‘wrong’, ‘man’ or ‘woman’, and what you are given at birth must henceforth define you for life, when that is entirely not the case. All the talk of what should or shouldn’t, the correct binaries, it’s all a load of bogus. The only way to be defined is to be defined by yourself, and even then, that can change. So do not take what I say, or what people say, or what the stairs *did* as a definition of you, because only you can supply that.” She folds her hands under her chin, looking at me with a sense of mirth but also an underlying kindness. I can feel my eyes well with unshed tears.

I breathe in shakily. “But what if.. What if people hate me for it?”

Professor McGonnagall smiles wryly at me. “Then they never were good blokes to be around in the first place, were they?”

I shrug, looking down at my lap and blinking rapidly.

“If people judge you and are repulsed just by how you express yourself and how you find happiness, then they are green in their hearts and not people that should be in your company.”

She sighs, but continues.

“But with all that said, me and the headmaster can arrange for you to be in the girl’s dormitory if that is what you feel is best for you.”

I glance up at her. My eyes sting, and my mind whirls, but I hesitate. Last night, I felt.. Safe. for the first time in a lifetime. I felt true to myself, Like I wasn’t trying to be put into a box premade. I didn’t feel like I was the eldest daughter of a woman who scorned her; I just felt like a normal person. The boys made me feel like just another bloke, someone funny and worth listening to. I felt like I belonged. And I want to feel that. Even if I don’t fully understand myself, I want to feel as fun and carefree as I did last night.

“I- that’s not necessary, Professor…” My voice is quiet, shaky, and almost a foreign sound to my ears.

She raises her brow.

“Are you certain? By this coming Monday, all dorms will be locked in, and we’ll be unable to change them for the school year.”

I hesitate once more, but I nod.

“I felt… Happy. Last night, when everyone was just acting like I was a normal bloke. It made me…Warm inside. I want... To have that” I say softly, and as I do, McGonagall smiles softly at me.

“Then so be it. I’m glad you’re making friends. And if you need anything else, Young L/N, please let me know.” She stands from behind the desk and straightens her skirt before crossing to the other side and offering me a hand, and I take it, rising from my seat.

“I do hope you and your dormmates get along well, and I encourage you all to acquaint yourself with the halls of Hogwarts in your free time.”

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The End of Chapter 1.

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@cursednevermore

@lil-bumbum

hope you enjoyed pookies

[soulanine]

I'll take you up on that offer to hear about the other strawhats in your android au

i dont have all the characters but i do a big dump about nami and usopp !

nami and nojiko are androids, specifically companions. bellemere raised them as daughters from the moment she got them. having 8 years with each other, of course they become a real family !!! bellemere planned on saving up to get them their adult bodies at some point

when arlong comes along, it wouldve been so easy for them to fly under the radar because of how “sentient” androids were almost unheard of. arlong wouldn’t have known any better if they’d all played along. bellemere, however, refused to let her girls be reduced to just robots. they’re her daughters, she raised them, and that will never change. look at how they’re crying, how they’re even screaming—what could be more human than that ? those are her daughters and theyre alive !!

arlong decides nami could be of use to him and gifts her (forces her to use) her adult body. he even goes the extra mile to burn his symbol on their beforehand. nami loathes it; she was supposed to get it from bellemere and no one else. they didnt even bother to get nojiko hers, just nami’s. sometimes she just wants rip her arm off. it’s not like it’d kill her anyway

the entire time shes going around gathering money for cocoyashi, she’s fighting her own programming. being a companion, it’s in her nature to want to have someone to stick with and help, but she forces herself to take care of nothing but her own needs. she never stays around someone long enough to be assigned to them. that is, until she meets the straw hats

theres something about them that makes her want to slow down, to lower her guard. maybe it’s the way none of the humans care that she isnt like them, or that the captain himself is an android like her, a companion like her, but she wants to care for them, wants to see them happy, and that’s what tells her she needs to leave. she doesn’t think androids can assign themselves to another android, even though the captain and the long nose one seem close, but she flees before she can find out

(and that’s another thing i forgot to add in the first post !!! ace and luffy sort of assigned the other to themselves; they see each other as another human companion that needs their help and protection. they’re the crazy ones for that because thats like. insane to do. it takes force)

and just like canon, luffy chases her down and kicks arlong’s ass, no matter how many times his body nearly gets ripped apart

usopp is technically a builder, but he was a bit altered when yasopp gave him to banchina before leaving. there wasn’t much to build on an island such as syrup, so his version of it became taking care of banchina. if the only building he could do was build her happiness, then that’s what he’d do

when banchina passes, it leaves him without a real purpose, since he was sorta made just for her. androids that have this happen to them are often treated as defective. he reverted back to building little things for himself since he was still made to build, he just has feelings now. meeting kaya, however, sorta kicks him bakc into that caretaker mindset and he does with her what he did with banchina.

ANYWAY this is getting long but meeting the straw hats is like one of thevery few times usopp has ever seen other androids. he doesnt really bond in the same way companion models do, but he can still get attached, and that’s what he does. he kinda has o idea how to fight but the kuro ordeal works out. setaxhing from his programming but not his purpose, usopp’s constantly offering to make or fix things for them.

bonus ! remember tht concept art of nami with a metal arm ? after nami shreds her shoulder in arlong park, she basically renders it useless, and usopp offers to make her an entirely new one, one that’s just her. that concept art metal arm is the arm she gets

(another small bit of info: i think i’ll keep most of the ofhers the same, but im not sure yet. i know i want zoro, sanji, and robin human. speaking of robin, she always felt more at ease around androids since they were never able to look at her and immediately think “devil child,” even if most of them lacked emotions and were just doing what they were made for. despite that, she can’t help but be shocked by luffy, even through a foreign sense of comfort and amusement.)

[captain-clandestiny]

made it another year.

a bit of a personal comic, but just some feelings i wanted to get out.

I've... been kind of lost lately. I'm far from abandoning the development of Bluesleeves and the other stories i've been managing on the side, yet i just cant find it within me to create actual art lately. Something im proud of, not just a doodle or scribble or joke. And as i celebrate another year of life, it gets heavy. The guilt of inaction weighs more on my head and my heart with every day that goes by. But... I cant change.

Thats not to say i havent tried. God, ive tried more times than i can count. Ive tried more things than i can remember. Nothing works.

Or... nothing has worked.

And im starting to realize thats the key. Not some trainer on my ass, or another bummy improvement app. But hope. Hope, when kindled right, feeds to so many other things. Resilience, in the hope that things will improve. Discipline, in the hope that it'll all pay off. Sociability, in the hope to make some friends. Kindness, in the hope it can help.

But hope can lead you down darker paths too. Hope, burning bright, is ambition. But ambition, overwhelming, can turn to desire. And i let my hope get ahead of me. Looking at everyone else in this insane online world, my hope was changed. I began with a hope to create a story. Which turned into an ambition to amass an audience to love it as much as i did. And, as expected, kept evolving into a monster of jealousy, inferiority, and doubt.

Why can't I reach heights like them? Is mine not good enough? They have it all- why can't I just do what they did? Why won't it work?? How do I get them to listen? Something I'm doing wrong? Maybe I'm the problem? What if this is where it ends? Did I peak here? Did I do something wrong? Does this really matter???

It goes on and on. A monster, really. And when your passion project becomes an objective- a chore, is it really still from the heart?

...

this birthday has made me realize that i've gone down a wrong path. I got distracted, turned around, and now lost. but coming to that question- if any of it really matters, its never me that answers. rather. its my creations. why would they be here if it was all indifferent? why go through the labor that is constructing a story if it never meant anything? the sleepless nights of storyboards, countless sketch pages with a thousand portraits of one character? obligation does not drive that kind of devotion.

so for the first time in a while i looked inside my head for the answer. ignored the demon, the likes and ratios, and focused on this mysterious force instead. and there it was.

all of this was for hope.

my hope.

that my dreams would become real. my visions realized. and most of all, that somehow, it could help someone. anyone. even just one. because all i'd ever wanted was someone to help me. and if i could keep just one more person from growing up like me, that would be worth it all.

the purpose of Bluesleeves was not to attract fame, attention, or money, but to help. To convey a message (more like several, actually), to help people learn, and to make them wonder. entertainment is a powerful way to communicate knowledge, after all.

and while i can spend my birthday with this burden, wallowing in guilt over all the time i wasted and my simple misdirection, that wouldn't accomplish much. What matters is that i found my hope again. inevitably, i'll lose track again, and ill be lost once more. but what matters is that i dont stay there. that i keep moving. keep falling, but lifting my chin after every stumble.

this sounds sappy and awful, and honestly im losing my train of thought now, but i just needed to express this. for me. from me, to you. this is what ive been dealing with, and im sorry i havent been so active lately. it may be a while, but i promise you, im going to make it happen. i just need a stable mind before i keep up a stable posting schedule, haha.

some of this may help other people struggling similarly, or just be complete gibberish, i dont know!! because im sure not going back to read allat!! thank you, YOU, for reading this far. or if you skipped ahead down here, um, hi i guess.

thank you, every single one of you for your love and support. At the end of the day, no matter how hard, it still seems so impossible knowing that i've reached some of you with my stories. so out of this world that i could make you laugh, cry, smile... that i could make you feel. and that very impossibility means more than you could ever know 🫶

[wixenforever]

Hey Wix! Two questions today. 👀👀👀 One botl related, the other about your writing and planning.

The first is related to how Harry and Theo might want to keep each other at arms length, in case they get caught in each others issues. Now that Hogwarts is starting, is there a chance that Harry will be worried about how being involved with Theo might affect Theo? Theo already told Snape his thoughts about it, but maybe Harry DOESNT know that Theo is cool with them still being seen together.

if its spoilers, its fine if you dont answer. Im mostly curious whether any of it will be discussed.

and the other question is about your storyplanning. How did you plan everything? The plot and the arcs? I tend to have issues with building up a plot, and your world has quite a lot of worldbuilding, and themes, and characters. Did you get inspired by anything in particular and it all snowballed, and then you kept adding stuff down the line, or did you have it all planned since the beginning? Like, where did the idea of John come from, for example?

Have some art for your troubles :)

⬆️ Me usually when I'm writing

Answering this will have a lot of spoilers for stuff that's already happened in Burning of the Library so I'ma put it below the break for anyone scrolling by.

💕Thank you for even asking these questions! I feel so special hah. Okay - first thing's first, you're right that Harry DOESN'T know that Theo is cool with them being seen together as friends. He doesn't even know that Theo has already decided This Is A Thing That Will Happen.

That will get settled pretty quick in the next chapter or two, but without going too deep into spoiler territory, it won't be that easy in practice. For reasons.

Some of the reasons are obvious (Umbridge stress, judgmental housemates, friendship drama) but the biggest reason is that, basically, Harry will bottle up his issues and hide them from Theo because he thinks Theo has enough to deal with and shouldn't have to put up with Harry's problems. This whole conflict is what I would describe as the next "arc" in his and Theo's friendship.

It's a short arc. I am not a fan of like, misunderstandings and miscommunications being drawn out for a long, long time, but it does need to happen. And it's not really miscommunication as it is a deliberate withholding of communication...but that whole little arc is so good! It's full of angst, anger, drama, revenge, hurt, comfort, all the good stuff that makes me itch to skip ahead and write it right now!

Now - as for Theo...Theo's going to have a very unique hangup about his "closeness" to Harry that I'm sure you'll be able to guess once a certain thing in the plot gets revealed on the train.

The Writing Process

This gif is how I feel about my storybuilding sometimes. OKAY! Going back in time to September 2023, I created the very first document file for "Burning of the Library" (the name never changed, btw!) And I only had ONE idea, which was that Theo's house would be burned down by fiendfyre, and Harry and Sirius would find him surrounded by a mysterious bubble of light that was sentient and asked Harry to protect him.

So, I wrote that, because I could not get it out of my head. From there, I tried to write backwards to create some kind of plot. I wrote a lot of scenes of Harry being rescued from the Dursleys. Stuff about Houses and Lords and Ladies and old magic. Stuff about him not trusting Dumbledore. Stuff about Sirius fixing his mind. All things that changed (mostly).

At the time I was working on a Powerpuff Girls fic and also my original work, and so I would just kinda take breaks in Harry Potter because it was easy to write.

Anyway, the moment when the story became a Story and not a collection of scenes was when I thought about something I think of often - which is One Piece (my other great obsession and love). Oda famously KNEW how he was going to end this insanely long story right when he started writing it. And I have always, always, always had a problem with endings in my stories, so I basically had this thought experiment where I tried to figure out how I would end this HP story that I had no investment in whatsoever.

And, it worked! I came up with an ending! Or a "final scene", I guess, that led to an idea for a sequel. And then I was like, well fuck, I guess I have a "complete" story idea, I should try and write this.

As far as outlining plot and story arcs, right when I started writing I built waypoints in the plot to basically help me get from "Library Burning Down" to "Wixen's Classified End Scene". They live in my notes as vague titles: "The Train", "Cheering Charms", "The Apology", "The Forest", "Yule", "Quest", "Quidditch", and several more.

But my writing process is entirely character-driven. Sometimes, unexpected POVs will be written to expressly move the plot along, but I love developing these characters so much so I try to incorporate some kind of growth or conflict or revelation in their POV section, if I can. I basically let the characters take me from point to point, which is why my estimate of when we will finally escape summer is always wrong lmao. These people just have a lot to say!

John is kinda funny - he was a totally unexpected and late addition to the story. Originally, when I published the first chapter, John was a TEMPORARY character! He was meant to drop lore about druids and mages and then exit stage left after bringing Harry to the bank. But, I knew I wanted Harry to have a familiar in the story - I just hadn't decided what kind or when. And I hadn't ever seen Harry with a cat in a fic before, so I thought it was a unique idea that might be fun to play around with.

Developing John's character was really fun. I knew he would be a cat-sith almost instantly, and from there I created this life he had with Johanna and then, later, Desmond to figure out WHY he would choose to hang out with Harry.

As far as themes and stuff, I guess I have certain sensibilities in HP fic I wanted to write but don't often read? Like an honest exploration of the Order's actions as a resistance group. And giving Harry more agency, and dreams. I feel like Harry never has a dream in canon. He just...moves from crisis to crisis. I want my Harry to WANT something, something bigger than revenge.

That's how I am for most of my fav characters, Sirius namely. The Slytherins, of course, all have developed backstories and motivations because I think they're criminally underdeveloped. But most of all I wanted to write a story that was not strictly good versus evil - I wanted it to be messy.

Characters WILL do things they think are right but for terrible reasons, or make mistakes, or do the wrong thing that they KNOW is wrong because that's simply the choice they made...yeah. I don't like sanitized stories, I guess lol. Part of my horror background bleeding through I think.

Last thing I'll say...[I'm so long winded...no wonder I wrote 300k words already 🙈] some characters have fates or character arcs I've already decided on. Like Bill, Sirius, Snape, Remus. Others are undecided - mainly Ron. He's a real problem for me right now because I can't decide where he fits in further along, unlike Hermione. Harry and Theo - their WHOLE relationship is planned out. Oh boy. That's the part I spend the most time on, to be real.

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ You art is PERFECTION as usual! And I loved your whole thought process on your Blaise comic, that was really awesome to read. You're so thoughtful in your work and it really shows!

[jadenepweek]

hey this might sound weird and insane so i want to say ahead of anything that i don't mean this in any kind of strange, elitist, i-was-here-first kind of way, or claim any kind of ownership over this pairing; i just got really excited to see this blog and i wanted to express that excitement. with that out of the way, this still sounds sort of insane, but: hey! i was the first person in hs fandom to actively ship jadenep, use the tags, etc. i was 15 at the time and it was 2012. me and my friends used to run a team for jadenep for the hs shipping olympics, and we had a dedicated skype server, all of which is now lost to time including almost everyone's contributions to the tag from way back when. everyone drifted over a decade ago, and am nearing 30 now, but i still think so so fondly of this ship and sometimes i get a little nostalgic and peek at the tag... it's been crazy seeing the ship pick up relevance and popularity from what was once literally such a crazy rarepair that the only people shipping it were like, five intensely passionate teenage yuri warriors. again, not to try and stake any sort of bizarre claim in it, because ships and such are reinvented naturally many times over- i in no way think the ship was our special invention or original idea. but it's really cool to see that reinvention happen, i guess? knowing that there are always people out there who think like you. to me and my friends back in the day it would have meant a lot to know, considering the way the fandom was at the time. i don't know, it just makes me really really happy and excited to see someone who loves jadenep enough to run an actual ship week for it. from my perspective as an older (ex)-fan, that's really amazing. i know that jadenep is still a rarepair and wlw ships continue to be rarepairs compared to mlm and straight ships, but it's awesome to see that gradually changing, and to see passionate people with cool ideas heading that change. good luck next year!!!! and have a great year, in general!

anon im so sorry for taking so long to answer this but you need to know how honored i feel receiving this. it legitimately makes me feel warm and giddy to know that there were people back then into the same ship that i am. Especially when it's such a rare, almost unoticed pairing.

i also want to shout out (and reccomend you check out) blogs like dailyjadenep. Their art is so cool and im so happy that jadenep has a daily blog!!

anyway, i dont know if anything im saying make sense, but im so so so happy to know that the love for silly dogcat paring has been going on for over a decade now :33

[freebooter4ever]

ok slow day on the blog so im about to get all soppy and artsy. Because a) this man drives me insane and i continously try to figure out why slash justify it to myself and b) i am so obsessed right now with that one leg muscle that kinda goes flat when you sit but also is a key part of how to structure the leg when drawing. Blah blah blah hockey butts yeah great but what if... hockey inner thigh....

Ughhhhhhh kill me now.

Anyway im gonna adress a trend i have noticed in the pens fandom mostly displayed through passive aggression towards me or other creators...and that's the use of references. There seems to be this idea that using references is lazy or cheating or means that this person isn't making 'real' art. And im gonna call some bullshit. Every single artist since someone decided to paint their hand and try to recreate a cow on a cave wall with their thumb has used references. Talk to real commercial artists and they use WAY more references than you can imagine. My current job is super stylized and unique. But back when i worked in hyper realism on C*ll of Dooty and superheroes and stuff? Never not once did the illustrators not utilize references. Often us 3D artists were given a photo with a posed actor, which we used to pose the 3D model, which then was illustrated on top of directly by the illustrator. Those artists had to churn out hundreds of illustrations a month. They did not have time to get precious about it.

And lets talk about 'sourcing'. Yes, if you copy a photo directly almost pixel for pixel an artist should probably reveal their source. But so rarely is this the case. If you put any kind of spin on it - your own style, change the colors, add or subtract the background - that is YOUR art and there is no need to link to or include the damn 'source'. It's not a 'source' at that point. That would be like asking the amazing folks who photoshop artistic 'edits' together using photos and brushes to link to the original photos at the bottom of all their posts. This is just silly.

You want to know what commercial artists did before the internet? My old friend here has a studio from the 70s-2000s that has an entire wall full of neatly organized stacked drawers of printed references, a lot of it clipped from magazines and books. Each of them labeled by subject matter. And this artist worked in some of the most famous advertizing studios during that era.

So, coming back around to hockey thighs, because I know there are certain folks in the pe*ns fandom that get annoyed and angry at my daily drawings (which is so sad by the way, get a life). I have to admit this is the first time this has ever happened in a fandom so it threw me for a loop. But I also know there are younger artists out there who follow me so I want to explain my process a little. Most of my daily doodles are studies - its one of the reasons its been easier to do them during my illness than any more serious creative work. When i doodle i am looking at references and trying to recreate that as i see it. The key point being 'as i see it'. I am usually trying to learn things like: in this photo what about the lighting is compelling, and how can i make it more so? Or what is the focus of the drawing and how can i let the rest of it fade? Or whats the main gesture and how do i exaggerate that? And always, always im trying to study anatomy from new angles. For me its not enough to learn what a 'knee' looks like because the shape of the knee and the muscles around it change depending on how it's posed. And it is often those changes that make it so beautiful. Or in this case that beautiful sexy stretch of thigh between geno's knee and groin.

Often times if i imagine a 'pose' in my head, i will then go pull as many references as i can where the body's limbs are roughly arranged how i want it and then draw those over and over until i feel like i have enough of a grasp on that anatomy to recreate it for myself. So please, dont listen to the haters, use those references or dont use them freely. the haters are idiots who are projecting their own fear of inadequacy and learning to be creative onto you. <3

In my next essay i will discuss how baffled and humbled i am by the way my love for geno's face has utterly transformed my artistic eye...

[ryuichirou]

Replies

Shorter replies related to recently posted artworks!  And some other stuff.

Anonymous asked:

The anon who sent the ask about twst boys’ reactions to a partner who doesn’t masturbate is still here, it’s me. I actually forgot I sent this. Also, I just found out that tumblr will do that with a / included. Looks so weird.

Anon, you are an angel. Thank you once again for the question, it’s good to see you here.

Also yeah, apparently it does! I didn’t even notice that at first. If you’re talking about it changing it to the %, that is… But it happened after posting, so the initial ask looked the way you intended.

I know we had one post that tumblr “ate” a chunk of because of some of the symbols I used... I wish there was a way to make sure it doesn’t happen.

Anonymous asked:

I love your art the only thing that bothers me is that it sometimes clashes with my darker than night no blue light setting and I have to decide if I'm desperate enough to blind myself with light after finding a corner away from public eye or can I wait to blind myself with light when I get home? (Dont know why I'm always in public when you're more risker things go up)

I am sorry Anon, I hope your eyes are okay lol I love using darker colours and contrasting lights recently, it probably doesn’t help the situation either.

I don’t know if it’s ever safe to open our stuff in public… I’m sorry you have to go through this inner conflict every time ✊😔

Anonymous asked:

You are so right that Trein is babygirl material. Being a tired old widowed man with children is PEAK babygirl

Exactly, Anon! It’s all about the energy.

Plus, we just watched Ruggie’s Dorm Uniform Vignette, and oh god… this man is insanely babygirl. He is so cute when he is all worried about his precious cat… :”3 <3

Alright, about yesterday’s fem!Floyd:

Anonymous asked:

a fedora and calling someone "m'lady", yet somehow it makes her more appealing

this just proves that what the nice guy incels really need is bigger boobs and sharp teeth

Yeah, it’s almost not fair lol Floyd has such an advantage! One would say, two of them…

Although even imagining just a regular boy Floyd doing this exact thing doesn’t feel too cringe somehow. Is it because he is a fuckboy?

Anonymous asked:

Hot damn

I hope she's in Mostro Lounge violating health codes, Azul could make a real business out of that one

Yeeeeah with the twins being such nice-looking ladies, you know it’s incredibly tempting for Azul to start using it to her advantage lol

Anonymous asked:

Twisted Wonderland if it was better goddamn those are some TITS

Superior version!! lol I can’t stop thinking about mermaids being big-boobied…

Anonymous asked:

If the person is beautiful, regarles gender, that person still ɓeəutfuI

Exactly, but also I am a weak person who is biased towards women..!!

Anonymous asked:

Holy melon

🙏 🍈

Now about Malleus the birthday boy!

Anonymous asked:

That it? Only a side of his butt?

This is already more than most are lucky to witness when it comes to Malleus’ gorgeous butt <3

(I say as if I haven’t drawn his butthole spread open 1000 times)

Anonymous asked:

That face! I like the detail on the robe. Also

HOW CAN HE SO BEAUTIFUL WHEN HE SLEEP ?

Thank you so much!! I can’t with his outfit, it’s so incredibly pretty…

I DON’T KNOOOOW this is his Prince magic… what a gorgeous creature

And about another birthday boy!! <3 Gilbert!

Anonymous asked:

AHHH I didn't know you know about heteila !!! You're officially the best my favorite characters are both Italy and Spain!! 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡

Of course we know Hetalia, Anon! It was such a huge part of our lives growing up lol It’s still is, to be honest, we come back to it at least once a year... to draw Prussia for his birthday of course! There are Hetalia drawings on this blog from like 2011-2012… and those aren’t even my oldest ones of them, yikes.

Spain and the Italy brothers are wonderful, we love them a lot too! 🍅

Thank you for your kind words <3

Anonymous asked:

Holly shit its gilbert/prussia! Didn't expect to see him but ita a pleasant surprise. Know my bff will enjoy seeing him as well mostly since I normally spam her with a lot of your twisted stuff

Ahhh I hope your bff enjoyed seeing him lol I’m glad we could surprise you with him though!

Anonymous asked:

HETALIAAAAAAA IN 2025! My day is made!

Dein Zeichnung ist sehr gut! Ich mag deine Art!

No one who knows better German judge me. I only have a year and a half under my belt.

It’s a lot more German that I know so damn Anon you’re cool!

Also, Danke schön! <3

Anonymous asked:

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH MY PRECIOUS BABY BOY GILBERT!!! THANK YOU FOR BLESSING ME WITH MY BOI!!!

You’re welcome, Anon! Enjoy your boy. And thank you <3

Now about the Trey/Deuce comic…

Anonymous asked:

Trey: you will die if you don't have sex with me

Deuce: okay

Ahh, Deuce!! This is way too easy..!!

Anonymous asked:

Trey has forgotten that one can't tell jokes like that to duece, since he's a few eggs short of a full basket. And I say this as loving as possible

Trey always underestimates just how naïve Deuce can be around a senpai that he trusts, just as much as he underestimates how little people doubt shit that he says…

Anonymous asked:

Japan people like to eat raw egg right? Why Deuce blush!?

Yeah, people around the world do sometimes. Not by licking it from the table though! Deuce doesn’t even fully realise why, but it feels embarrassing somehow… I wonder why indeed…

Anonymous asked:

Don't waste food.

LICK IT

He’s on it! Like a good boy!

Anonymous asked:

Now Trey is wanting Deuce's tongue to be used other than getting the egg.

Should drop an egg on his own crotch next time then…

Anonymous asked:

Naive boy. That not the egg you should lick. There are 2 more with a sausage waiting for you.

Be careful, Anon, what if he bites the sausage… we can’t risk Trey’s well-being like that..!

Anonymous asked:

I love how you draw Trey 😩 he's so hot

Thank you so much, Anon!!

I don’t draw him often, but whenever I do, I try to keep in mind that people apparently find this man hot, so there should be some sexy air about him…

Anonymous asked:

I see you with those blush marks Trey.... Seeing Deuce lick off the table like a dog turned you on didn't it Trey......... It's okay Trey this is a safe place please tell us all about it 🥰

It certainly awakened something in Trey’s wicked mind…. He has much to think about after that…

[fandomfluffandfuck]

i havent seen the inside of your ask box for ages so let me just say i finished money magic and WOAH. leave some talent for the rest of us damn. also. im going to add ‘financial domination’ to my mental list of kinks and im doing it with a sly smirk on my face because id never heard of it before this fic and i certainly will be looking for more in the future.

i genuinely think im into it only because you write it so. fucking. well. i love this community youve built where so many people can discover new kinks through your writing and it makes me so happy being able to find out new things about myself from a piece of art like this. i just love fandom sometimes.

plus i think of your blog as a haven bc i can come here anytime i want and its like someone took all the things i love about fandom and put it through your brain then onto here. a true blessing.

ok onto the fic itself, i have a few things to say:

1) i will never get over the way you build up to the climax of the fic. like, from the beginning, its always so obvious that something big is going to happen and i just can never wait until the next update to find out. i dont think ive ever skim read one of your paragraphs because every word pulls me in a makes me want moreee.

2) the way you use imagery in your work is actually something i think should be studied because you do it SO WELL. an example from chapter one that i cant stop thinking about;

His mind whirls. He’s back to spinning out of control. It feels as though his head might come off his shoulders, twisted and twisted and twisted around, thinning his neck, and becoming too unsteady.

like hello???? i can picture every tiny little detail of this moment and its insane how you can just do that.

3) the chemistry between your characters never feels forced or awkward. ive noticed that you dont use dialogue too much when writing smut and i love that because it lets the reader really visualise whats going on. but when you do its absolutely perfect. the way you kept the power dynamics going steadily throughout and even when they were talking on the balcony, it just made me realise how much you really care about what you write and it made reading so much more enjoyable.

theres literally like a million other things i could say but im not gna ramble here. instead, take some snippets that i especially enjoyed that i will think about for a long, long time:

A shiver wracks Steve’s body, accompanied by a rough exhale that fills his bedroom—a confession of how much he’s enjoying this by its very nature.

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Steve shivers so hard it might as well be a convulsion. Good. The way his words leave no room for argument, for thought, for anything but all this electric embarrassment to fill his veins and circulate throughout his body, polluting him tip to tail. Jesus. He commands all of Steve without being there. It’s heady. He can feel himself being pulled in like a sailor, lonely after months at sea, to a siren.

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A moan comes tumbling out of his mouth, humiliated to the point that he feels dizzy. He couldn’t stand and walk straight if he tried, he’d stumble and fall onto his knees. He wants to stumble and fall and have Bucky push his heavy hands into his hair, he wants to feel the cold metal of his rings and the blunt sharpness of his fingernails against his scalp as he grabs and pulls and twists, making sure Steve feels his place.

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Steve imagines this is what being a pinata feels like, struck hard enough that it's twirling around its point of suspension, unable to know what’s up or down, left or right, just focused on each hit and when the next one is going to come, then, ah!, all of the sudden spilling its bounty.

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i could put the whole fic here but you know. that’d be too long. ill just have to hope what ive said here is enough.

bottom line is that im OBSESSED and i will be taking the pleasure of rereading this fic as soon as i can. thank you so much for sharing!!! lots of love 💗

"Money Magic"

YOU ARE SO SWEET, ARCHIE!

Thank you, lovely <3

I'm so glad to hear that you finished that fic, and, more importantly, that you enjoyed the read so much! You're too kind. Haha, I'm hitting you again with the kink discovery. I think if I can't find a job (a scarily real threat, lmao), I can make a job of that alone 💀💀 I, too, though, am going to be looking for more of it! I haven't found anything else with fin domming in stucky fics, but I would love to!

I'm honored that it's even a possibility that you'd just be into it because of the way I write it <3 Me too!! I love the absolute filth I can write and people not batting an eye, aside from horny reactions that I enjoy very much. Thank you. Plus, even better, so many people have come into my inbox to say depraved, kinky shit. Like. YES. Discover more kinks from me, tell me more about your kinks, and let's explore it all. Not you calling my porn writing art

(Like, absolutely, porn is art. Art inspires emotion, and horny is a valid emotion. I wholeheartedly believe that and would very readily call lots of other writers erotica art, but hearing that about my own? Wtf. Shits wild)

And calling my blog a haven?! Staaawp. You're too cute and nice, I can't take it

1) Ah! I'm so glad to hear that 'cause I plan out my fics EXTENSIVELY, lmao, and I try very hard to up myself consistently within my longer, chaptered fics.

2) You are so fucking sweet I am gonna scream. Oh my god!! I love how you pulled quotes from my text! What the hell??? That's so nice!

3) Thank you, thank you, thank you!! I feel like I use a lot of dialog 💀💀 That's probably because I think so hard about my dialog, though, lol. I do care, definitely. I care too much sometimes 😅 but, yeah, I try to always think, okay, but would the character actually ever say or behave like that? Both this AU character, but also the canon character because the AU is, of course, a canon extension/expansion.

Aww, I don't have words (which is saying something for me, haha)! Again, though, I love, love, love that you included snippets that stuck out to you!

YOU'RE SO SWEET!

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING AND THANK YOU FOR SUCH WONDERFUL COMMENTS ALONG THE WAY!

[cringefailcabitha]

sorry i dont have tumblr (i only use it to stalk cabby art LOL) and idk if youll answer this but i am known as the cabby yapper by my friends so i wanted to bring this up to someone who thinks about her as deeply as me

do you ever like think about how terrifying mephones plan for a season 4 would have been to cabby specifically? out of all of the final 3 she has been hurt by the game the most (with no closure mind you unlike balloon), i think having to go through everything again would genuinely break her. even if shes less misunderstood the game still puts pressure onto her to be a facts machine, a strategist. when shes literally the kindest person ever, trying to comfort silver (despite his constant mistreatment of her), and sacrificing almost every post merge challenge for the sake of somebody else (i.e giving up her inani-mate for yinyang, sacrificing herself in episode 13 to put herself on the line with yinyang even if she was manipulating them out of obligation, AND EPISODE 15 SHE DEFINITELY WOULD HAVE WON IF SHE HAD USED HER FILES and completely foiling blueberrys plan, but she didnt because she cared about bot)

in the episode when shes reading the file, the screen actually starts shaking a little. implying she was absolutely horrified at what she was reading. and she had every single right, especially considering what shes gone through.

the other thing that’s absolutely insane to me is the fact that this information was conveyed to her via a file. aka her disability aid, something she relies on. that mustve been horrifying to see something so person to her used against her in such a way.

sorry i regurgitated a lot of this info from the shut i put on tiktok. im just genuinely crazy about cabby

ALSO UR A CABTUBE TRUTHER IM LITERALLY SO IN LOVE WITH CABTUBE i am lesbian cabbys number one truther and see her shipped with men far too much. but like i was so hoping test tube would at least apologize or something. it irritates me how they can make one sided silvercandle canon but they cant show us anymore one-sided cabtube. just make her blush or something. but tbh it made me emo when test tube (and pb bc they nodded) oraised cabby, it made me genuinely crazy.

also unshout out to everyone bullying cabby this episode genuinely why were half of them so mean please let silver Die slowly and painfully. also if lifering (i hc him and cabby as father and daughter, like u cannot convince me lifering and floory arent her dads) switched up on cabby i will personally take his soul like the grim reaper he will be seeing these hands.

sorry feel free to ignore this!

-🍭

😭 I was for real thinking about that earlier today like hasn’t she been through enough… Yes Cabby is a very competitive person but after everything that happened to her in this season and the fact that she’s Still in a vulnerable place right now I don’t think she would find it particularly enjoyable to not receive a prize and then immediately be thrust into a new season of competition— and as a team leader, no less.

Test Tube thanking her for apologising was,,, weird to me. I literally rolled my eyes. It gave me the impression that she (and Paintbrush) think Cabby *should* be apologising to everyone for making some of them uncomfortable? And I just don’t agree. As polite as it is, I think it’s way overstating her actions. Like… why is it “right” to apologise to the entire jury for her past behaviour making “some of them uncomfortable” pre episode 7 when she had never even worked with half of them when said behaviour was supposedly occurring? It’s so frustrating to me, like… how much smaller does she have to make herself for them to be satisfied? I don’t get it.

And of course, “making them uncomfortable” thing again comes back to her files. It’s basically impossible for her not to internalise the idea that keeping information is bad because she Might get things wrong (which. Is another thing. As far as we’ve seen, her writing is almost always correct, barring Bot which is an obvious outlier, and erroneously attributing Suitcase turning on her alliance in season 2 to Balloon’s manipulation.) In episode 15 too, aka the worst Test Tube episode to me, she says Cabby thinks everyone is just “what she happened to write down” as if Cabby is careless and doesn’t do her due diligence when writing her files. Which to me directly contradicts her calling Cabby’s Fan file “impeccable” and having “so many notes” back in episode 2?

And as for Test Tube’s assertion that Cabby would turn on her the moment she stopped being useful, and that she treated everyone like chess pieces on her little board, it really felt like her jumping to conclusions because of what happened with Fan. Because she has done that to no other member of the Pinkers. And there is way less manipulation on Cabby’s part in the show than Test Tube’s irritation would have it seem.

I’m not sure if the writers intentions were to make Cabby as manipulative as Silver from the beginning, but if it was and that’s why this is all going on, well. Mission status isn’t exactly a success to me— the only manipulation she does is in episode 2, when she tries to get Bot to vote out Fan (and presumably the rest of the team as well), and episode 7, where she makes a big show of approaching Silver about how it would be better for him to stack the ice cream because, knowing him to be lazy and careless, it would increase the odds of him screwing up the challenge and make it easier to vote him out.

I’m at least relieved that Test Tube seems to have been thinking about things whenever Cabby says something self-effacing or seems to be nice, because it gives me hope that she may finally realise she’s been taking it too far and maybe Cabby will get an apology, but the fact that she’s been just sitting on it for like 3 episodes by now is killing me,

[alinktoana]

local elderly girl sells stickers at a japanese food festival

not gonna lie, the entire experience is very emotional to me and it's been a month but moon channel's vid essay about cool japan, and the release of smt5 vengeance (lol) inspired me

tldr: i made some stickers, got real existential about it, will keep making more c: if youd like to check them out, here's a link

ive always wanted to draw, i used to say i was gonna become a painter or a fashion designer when i grew up. none of that happened, but i did go to film school. my final project was a script for an animated short highly inspired by nbc hannibal, majora's mask (i know, it was 2016, it makes sense to me lol) and a huge loss in my life from which i havent fully recovered, 10 years later.

the point is, ive always been art adjacent but i never really drew, until i got inspired by_hannibal itself_, noel fielding, kylux (LOL) and a roommate who was who was really inspired by art youtubers like frannerd and drew around the house, so i picked up a pencil and started drawing hannigram fanart bc i was so insanely in love with that show lol i remember who i was before i drew. i spent my days reading and watching tv, bc i love stories and stuff, but i was a consumer. and once i got a job after college i felt so incredibly isolated and directionless. do i have a direction now, as i work as a """"designer""" for a company that sells a mental health app? no. but like demifiend was force fed a magatama and got demon powers (LMAO BEAR WITH ME I JUST BOUGHT SMT3 HD REMASTER), i caught the art demon (like steven zapata says). and i caught it bad. i spend my day to day rushing through my work and chores and everything so i can have enough time to draw in the evening, to do whatever, and sometimes the need is so immense i cant do anything bc im not good enough, my skills are fading, im worthless, what's the meaning of all this? so i took a chance and showed my work at an arts alley on a japanese food festival i was helping organize. mind you, i was juggling that with my 9/5, promoting the event, finishing drawings from years ago. and when i got there, nobody got it. people looked at the stickers and didnt recognize the characters, and went on to buy the stickers my friends had that were more current. it was all japanese fanart. we were there with the single purpose of baiting weebs like us lol

ive always dealt with clients, im used to this. but im used to business to business, bc sigh i am a corporate girly. and im a beginner in the demon arts of arting. i felt so ashamed people were preferring other people, that i had the audacity to think i was worth anything. but i stood there, standing still with my brain boucing off my skull wanting to leave but also enjoying the experience and hoping someone, anyone would get it. and some people did. to my surprise, jack frost was my best selling sticker, lol. jack frost, from the smt franchise, a franchise im so new to but i love so dearly. im 100% a poser, ive never finished a megaten game. but… it just speaks to me. and thats where my cool japan feelings come from bc, like i said, i was selling at a japanese food festival. people my age, from the country i come from, were exposed to dragon ball and cardcaptor sakura from birth. and learning about history and the atrocities of the japanese empire is just. who can you trust. but ive aways resonated with one thing from japan, and it's the way they portray sadness in their works. it's become a ritual since last year that i will listen to smtv's ost when im on my period bc it literally brings me back to life. no one but i know how many times ive drawn goro majima and taiga saejima bc their mere existance and their sorrow resonates with me so immensily and i dont wanna see them being sad, nor do i wanna see me being sad. it's. it's really difficult to be to admit that im from brazil, bc our country sells happiness as an export but for many, many years the most popular genre is butthurt country music, and it makes sense, you know? people dont wanna admit they're sad. and i can only imagine what it's like for regular japanese people, bc we (i) get to see their big exports of bittersweetness… i dont know, maybe other people get to see that from brazil too, i dont know. the arts in brazil, or specially where i live, it's just isnt in the cards for us. but ill keep trying, you know. and i know fanart is a hack. but im trying. despite everything and everyone wanting us (me) to work for mining/metal/oil companies, make the most money, have the least health, drink all the alcohol (but call an uber), consume, reproduce and die, i. i just wanna draw tiny people, you know. it's. not that big a deal. all this to say that yes im gonna keep drawing and making stickers and, who knows, you know. these are stickers that i wont ever find near me, or that im too broke to get them from artists/official stores, so if youre like me, here's some pdfs in case you wanna print them and stick them wherever c: ty if you got this far, this is a big ramble… but it's been years in the making and despite everything im happy about it c:

[lostcryptids]

no one is going to read this whole post i just have to like write it down because it's so insane crazy the world of city hunter movies is so baffling, like idk if other manga/anime series have this level of strange stuff happening movie wise maybe they do? there are multiple theatrical movies: .357 Magnum, Bay City Wars, Million Dollar Conspiracy, then the newer ones, Shinjuku Private Eyes, and Angel Dust. Multiple ovas/television movies The Secret Service, Goodbye My Sweetheart, and Death of Vicious Criminal Ryo Saeba. Ok all normal Then there is the world of live action city hunter movies which are like. City Hunter 1993: hong kong adaption of the movie starring jackie chan (? never understood it's bad casting honestly) but also, i've read that he didn't like the raunchy humor which is like, 90% of the humor, so they cut a lot of it out of the movie. this is a pretty normal adaption despite not being that accurate. jackie chan also dresses as chun-li from street fighter in this movie Saviour of the Soul 1991: this is the most bizarre thing i could imagine, this movie was released in 1991 making it the first actual "adaption" of the material despite it being like...the only thing i can say is martial arts fantasy au? and to make this even funnier there is a second movie that has nothing to do with the FIRST movie so i have no idea what this even is anymore. The second movie has a character named the Devil King and is about "a special block of ice that is said to contain the life essence of immortality" like idk this seems like the FUNNIEST possible adaption you can make of a crime/slapstick story about a guy who always has a boner? i see so many people praising this movie saying it has like amazing action and story and costumes but that's so freaking funny why is it city hunter au Mr. Mumble 1996: UNOFFICAL hong kong adaption of the manga/anime. like holy shit hello all the characters are here..the MAIN character is in the same outfit from the anime...how does this not get you sued badly. But funnily enough it looks like the most accurate hong kong adaption. because there are three of them. and the one that copies the most is unofficial and unlicensed. wonderful world we live in i think its just so funny Nicky Larson et le Parfum de Cupidon 2018: since city hunter aired in france with a very bad dub it has a very large following and so there is a live action movie for it over 30 years after it was first published. everyone is french. pamela anderson is in this movie there's a kdrama series but it isn't anything like the source material apart from the name really so i dont think it counts also it's annoying because i always see it all over when i want to se the anime oh also there's a live action adaption of the city hunter alternate universe sequel series............there's so much stuff here Finally they are finally planning on making a japanse adaption and it's going to be on netflix. in 2024. i think that's it.