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aryscringecorner · 6 months ago

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One of my first crushes of course I’m drawing her

#elfen lied #lucy elfen lied #yandere girl #yandere x reader #kaede elfen lied #i know she’s not really yandere-ish in the manga or anime btw #this is purely self serving

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duskier · 1 year ago

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ftm nsfw reader x soap drabble for a request :) but I also tried make it a little sweet

Coming out to Soap as a trans man and thinking he'd be so immediately against it or even break up with you, but instead it gets him so worked up and excited.

Calls you his boyfriend in public every fucking second. You quip at him, ask if that's your new name. Of course that lights his face right up, asking you what your new chosen name will be.

(The second you tell him your list of potential names, he practices moaning each of them- as if that'll help you choose. (It does.))

Soap's always been a dirty talker, but after you come out he's nonstop begging you to fuck his ass while you have phone sex. He's certain it'll be the most gender affirming thing possible, even tells you he's been fingering himself open every couple days in hopes one day you'll overpower him and fuck him properly. Offers to show you sometime, either by video call or video. (It's a huge effort to roll your eyes at that, acting like that didn't make heat roll low in your belly.)

When T starts fattening up your cock, making it stick out from between your lips, Soap is a nightmare. Your sensitive head didn't leave his mouth unless you were both working on the field. He'd make a full show of it, moaning like a whore and bobbing his head as he sucks you off.

But, honestly, thank Christ Soap was able to keep up with your animalistic sex drive. You need to cum every couple hours or else you'll lose your mind because your doctor upped your T dose? Soap's more than happy to meet you in the nearest base bathroom or broom closet. Falling to his knees and panting for it while you unbuckle your regulation pants.

Fucking up into you anytime you really start begging for him, hole throbbing and painfully empty but suddenly filled perfectly by Soap's eager cock. He's particularly fond of you riding him, fingers pinching and jerking off your cock as you bounce on his. Does his best to make you cum several times on his dick before he even thinks to cum himself. Asks you to choke him, his hands running up your arms with admiration for your growing muscles.

<3

#noel.txt #soap x reader #soap being the most supportive boyfriend ever? in ways that are sometimes self serving and purely horny? yeah.

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moe-broey · 1 month ago

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FUCK RECENT BOOK JUST ENDED?!?!???!!

#i have been away too long. WEIRD ass position to be in.#constantly obsessing over my interest but getting scared to interact w it outside of the mind palace #gguuuhhh..... the... ISSUES....... why do i have so many of them...#I NEVER EVEN FULLY FINISHED SEIDER'S BOOK. i was scared of disappointment and scared of an ending #ugh .. but i am... so invested in ratatoskr... alfonse's insane dynamic w her. even if we don't see more of it #like. just the fact that we got That Scene. gave me enough of alfonse's character to work w for A LIFE TIME.#like to me. it can DIRECTLY translate to how he theoretically has been w sharena growing up.#and it still drives me so insane that alfonse has no personal attachment to ratatoskr and is (EVEN SELF ADMITTED!)#using her to his own ends. BUT. BUT. he's still so fucking good to her??? respecting her autonomy #again even if that WAS to win her over. like he was So good about it. IDK IDK IT'S THAT MIXTURE #of an act being purely practical and even self-serving. but he's honest and kind about it.#and ultimately it's on her if she wants to accept that under the given conditions/expectations.#and then ofc the Scheming. alfonse's METICULOUS ride or die act. ratatoskr made the informed choice to trust him #AND BOY HOWDY. WHAT THE FUCK. SIR. i KNOW you have your reasons and all of this is a means to an end #AND THAT'S WHAT DRIVES ME EVEN MORE INSANE. give him a compelling enough reason not just personal practical too #and even if he met you like yesterday. or maybe generously. maybe a week has passed.#this guy is both READY and WILLING. to put his life on the line for you. GOD.#uhghhhh... maybe i should actually play feh.........

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cold-neon-ocean · 11 months ago

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Posting this by itself because :) I just feel like he should have gotten to wear the mech pilot suit at least once..

(my AU black version and the og green)

#Legend of Korra #Baatar Jr.#LoK #WIP #[ since this is from something silly I wanted to post this bit because he is serving very cunty #even if you know he's talking about accidentally ingesting caustic chemicals lol #this was def self indulgent but also why couldn't he have worn the suit at least once sobs #we had one chance #I don't actually think he uses the mech suit hardly ever even though he has his own personal one #but on rare occasions he does and gets in this outfit and Kuvira are you okay? Are you good? Has anyone checked on her?#I feel like this outfit is what causes her to take a serious sanity hit LOL #she just drags him away by the hood and no one sees them again for like 4 hours #or she's just like “You know what I think he could use my help :)” and proceeds to be everything but helpful #idk how anything in this regime gets done I swear #the most Baatar ever used the mech suits was when they were first being built #idk dude I love a man in a working uniform sobs #I knew someone would recognize the mech pilot suit hehe that made me smile because yeah :)))#it felt good to draw Baatar again sobs I love him so much I've missed him #I do kinda wish this sketch was cleaner but I wanted to at least post it now in case I never did lol #I should to a proper illust of him in the pilot suit one day just for the pure self indulgence of it all #give myself a lill treat you know? ]#Neon Ocean Art

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rororow · 1 year ago

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to me mike is a guy who is inherently selfless but woke up one day at like age 5 and decided to be selfish and has done his level best to commit

#the interaction he had with chance where he instantly promised his help in saving cole #even though he knew it wasn't strategically smart and no one would support him in it #and he kind of immediately regretted it but refused to back down or give up #that interaction fundamentally changed how i think about mike walters as a person #he's so insistent from day one that he's horrible and selfish and purely driven by his own desires for power and knowledge #but when he acts first thinks later we get a glimpse of such a different mike walters and it's fascinating #and to be clear i'm not saying he's secretly not selfish at all he's never done anything horrible for self-serving reasons ever in his life #just that it feels like a choice he's making #he wakes up every day and decides to be selfish and that's so interesting of him #mike walters #w.bg

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deiscension · 8 months ago

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I'll take "posts that aren't about SQX but also are completely about them too" for 500

#▌ ◈ SHI QINGXUAN ; ⌜ study ⌟#as i've said previously: LEECH RATE 1000000% CRITICAL DAMAGE.#not to be a tag essayist again but i think a lot about their attachment style/love languages #throws their whole self into it. doesn't care how/if it's reciprocated. it's pure and unfiltered but also obnoxious and overbearing #moss on a rock is a very apt descriptor i thingk....#fascinating to me how interpretations of how she shows affection tend to veer in very different directions #either “childlike and wholly uncomplicated” (WRONG!) or “self-serving and patronizing” (WRONG!)#it's... well not both actually; not in their entireties #childlike in the way they don't hide anything; they don't dress it up or down if they like you they like you if they love you they love you #self-centered in that they do have high opinions of theirself & therefore their personal standards #though i must stress it's not a case self-centeredly choosing ppl who only flatter them/boost their perceived value/can't say no #self-centered in that 'i would never settle for less' = (in their mind) 'nobody i'm friends with is anything less'#breaking news: lain is once again agonizing over how all of sqx's most redeeming virtues are also her most damning flaws #something something. girl who was made to be in love but not built to withstand the trials of love without breaking a little. hrm. um.#moss on rock. moss on rock.....#needs the rock there to persist. she needs that damn rock

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llycaons · 4 months ago

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the summary for this book calls it 'a meditation on love' and not to sound corny but love is NOT what's going on here

#I don't mean to quibble about the consequences of a particularly obsessive love #I mean in a semantic sense.#his obsession with her is not without its assiduousness and its gift-giving and its allowances #but it is PURELY self-serving and comes from a place of wanting to satisfy his own desires at her expense #he never once thinks about what would genuinely be good for her. except that one time he tried to drug her before he raped her #his 'love' is entirely an obsession with her body and her youth. he states several times he dislikes her personality too #like. call it a no true scotsman but I don't think its accurate to talk abt it like that #and hh never really says he loves her does he. tho he calls her darling beloved etc. hes just talking abt how she makes HIM feel #and not about her as a person #there is nothing about her personality he likes #ALTHOUGH #hang on. maybe the 'mediation on love' refers to...his love of her body?#like. I guess? but even then it's still intensely self-serving. he doesn't love even her body for its own sake just what it does to him #MAN I hate talking about this #csa tw #pedophila tw #cor reads

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nemesis-is-my-middle-name · 5 months ago

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also about parker, who i'm still thinking about constantly, this is more about parker's being dead than he himself though, but anyway fascinated by how arthur went from "a good man, and a better friend, and you killed him," to standing in front of a room full of people INCLUDING A POLICE DETECTIVE and saying with his whole chest that he killed parker. when there were like, a great many other names he could have pulled out that he did, unequivocally, directly kill. but he chose to claim parker's death for himself anyway.

#the nemesis speaks #mv liveblog #malevolent spoilers #granted parker's also the one person who's least likely to be new information for his criminal record #so it may have been. purely strategic given the police detective present #i don't know if they can prosecute you for saying you've killed six other new people if they don't know who those people are #but also. it was not that long ago that they were retreading ''john has done a lot of fucked up shit as the king''#vis a vis Mistakes and whether arthur was actually gonna kill wallace #and his immediate instinct to just eliminate people he dislikes also comes up again like. right after that.#the fragment of the king was just doing what the king did. arthur's the one who opened the book for him.#so who's to blame. really. is that what he's thinking #given what the butcher was needling him about in the first place i also wouldn't be surprised #if he chose parker specifically bc it's one death that served absolutely no purpose #it wasn't a self defense or survival situation. it wasn't justice. it wasn't deserved #for like. anyone else. he can salve his conscience somehow with oh i had to/oh they were a bad person anyway/all of the above #but that's exactly what the butcher Doesn't want to hear #and parker's also haunting the metaphorical fuck out of him in that season specifically so like. it's not like he had to reach far for it #anyway. so that's neat.

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s2pdoktopus · 9 months ago

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I love my ocs to the bone I would choose to live forever just to not bring them to the grave with me but XD they aren't the happiest people. Or the kindest. I wish I could make kind characters... I want a character like Tatsuma 🫠

#i want to be able to make someone kind without twisting that kindness into some capable of cruelty. i want to make something pure.#but I like the duality of things and so all my characters are tinged with something horrible.#anyway kindness isn't really a motivation for most of my oc. they're usually self serving #it's all about perspectives and none of them truly believes that they are kind. some of them even believe that kindness is irrelevant #they are kind to the people they choose to be kind to i suppose.#but i wanna make someone precious!!!#the closest thing I have to that is Enea and I killed him! *sobs* my goodest boi! gone! by my own two hands!!#i should just put then in a world where they would be given more choices #they wouldn't be so mean and miserable if they aren't placed in a harsh environment XD

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ultimate-snek · 1 year ago

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Color symbolism,,, Mahito and Gojo r both blue. Mahito being blue too and how he takes gojo’s former homosexual place by ‘geto’s side and mimics him is matchy. Mahito is blue Sukuna is red. Itadori is as well by extension, henceforth natural enemies, red vs blue, like gojo’s technique blue and reversal as red.

sukuna is an enemy to both of them, gojo gets chopped. They’re both in a situation where they may be dead, and yet may come back— gojo being chopped in half, unlikely to be able to bring himself back or be brought back, and Mahito being curse eaten by Kenjaku.

I think if one comes back the other will as well. so gojo has decent chances given that curses eaten by Geto don’t 100% die. They should also mirror one another- and since Mahito would need ‘Geto’, the assistance of others, to come back, it’s likely gojo will need to be revived as well. 👍

we have Mahito Vs Itadori-Sukuna. curse Vs human, human curse Vs cursed human. calm, calculating, emotional, hotheaded. Mahito is itadori’s natural enemy, and an inversion of him, like blue and red are inversions of each other

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miserygenerator · 7 months ago

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mastering the art of having something that I should settle for in my hands and crushing it out of the pure spite that it isn't what I need.

#usually compounded by the belief that whatever I do need is near unobtainable #so the action serves purely as a ritual self immolation

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hesfromsomewhere · 11 months ago

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tag ramble pt.1

#so much i feel like i want to say when a lot of this is just two different people who cant mesh and are hitting each other like confused #roomba.#on some level i wish i didnt respond or engage especially at the moment because what i said wasn’t particularly deep and only resulted in #hitting a wound that i already knew was there #i’d like to apologize for that much alone #that it is presumptuous and envasive to have strangers on the internet talk to you like that because yes it does very quickly cross to #feeling like being talked down to #these are people who are entirely self aware of the problems and of course i literally cannot enlighten them to it any further #they just dont care- they’re very tired of their life so far and do not have the time and energy and patience to talk to anyone else #like that.#the way they’ve chosen to fight is negatively. i cant dock someone for making a self conscious choice of how they’re going to behave #especially in the sense of standing up for yourself #i do get the feeling this doesnt serve someone in the long run #you are being spoken to in this way because you are reacting volatily to a random stranger on the internet #because of the way they hit a wound because of how you interpreted what they said #the idea that you’re standing up for yourself and you need to be mean so people dont talk to you in a way you dont like #like the block button isn’t infinitely better for that #to think this is a case of oohh lets all be sooo polite and pure and Correctly Speaking all the time or you’re just a widdle baby #is goofy #it IS reactive and it is volatile! i could have said this in a meaner way rather than politely #and maybe that would have been more easily received in this one case #but there was just acknowledgment of what was actually happening immediately right now in the moment #of course i dont know you and i dont know your life and thats not what this is about #but at the end of the day the question of if this works for you and genuinely serves you then i have absolutely nothing to say or add #that matters. if this is your honest self then everything else is null. you live in the way that serves you because thats literally all we #have #though i doubt that its fulfilling and honest at the end of the day i wont pretend this isnt someone just on one part of their journey #thats plenty farther along than others #and i really hope they are at or get to what serves them entirely

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emcads · 2 years ago

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so. been thinking a lot about pre-uniform naval years and how the noun is also an adjective and what that means vs the motley crew. how england’s maritime power was intertwined with piracy for much of its early years but turns her back sharply on the privateering system just prior to when navy uniforms are first introduced.

#honestly from a purely logistical and basic 'audience knowing what's going on' standpoint the navy can't *not* have uniforms in potc #(even tho not having them would make them very similar to the pirates including during acts of violence which is of course the point)#but james norrington is so interesting because he's coming of age right during this transition. *right* when governors are not supposed to #be personally partnering with pirates anymore and now have the authority to hang at a distance from england #(you can assume that's why governor swann was installed in the first place. clearing out the corrupt PR governor and replacing with new.#with a bright promising honorable navy lieutenant to enforce the new justice)#and he's swallowed all this rhetoric open-mouthed. because before the crossing one can assume he heard plenty of complaints about corrupt #officials making deals with pirates to serve themselves and costing the london investors money when the ships go down.#but its still very new and none of it is *really* cemented yet. which makes it so fun that the back part of his arc is this faith dissolving #+ becoming self-serving.#not even back part of the arc it's already dissolved by the time he says he can afford jack one day's head start. something that makes no #sense if you regard pirates as beasts not worthy of the graces of 'civilized' enemies.#AND THEN he chooses capital ... just like England ... over pirates ...#✘; I HAVE SEVENTY TWO EXAMS AND I HAVE NOT STUDIED FOR ONE ( ooc )#this has no sense of coherency but idc i think it's something so im gonna post it anyway

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queencvbra · 2 years ago

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This is why I'm glad I have such a nice and comfortable dash with just friends and chill mutuals because rarely do I ever see anything happen directly, I usually just see people talking about it and that means I'm following the right people.

Also, fuck n*zis. And if you try to romanticize or humanize them, then fuck you too.

#drama tw #n*zism tw #we're really doing this again huh #the hoops that people will jump through to try to justify their obsession with real hate groups are astounding #and yeah fiction =/= reality but the thing is this is not just fiction this IS reality lmao #there are literal n*zis in present day actively hurting people #and this hobby is purely about self enjoyment and writing things that are fun to us *personally*#so no one is fucking 'neutral' about what they write. no one. everything serves a purpose to us in some form.

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1920s-lujing · 2 years ago

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im sorry im so confused about the reactions to shiv . do u really think it would be better for shiv to vote in favor of continuing her brothers path to becoming exactly like their father , who uses violence and manipulation to get her other brother to be submissive and agree with what he says ? i think shivs turning point was hearing kendall say “thats fucking right�� when roman voted no , thats where she knew none of them would be free if they stayed . her vote was for the well being of her family , she saved them . and yeh , she gets more power with tom as ceo . im sure the divorce will go through actually tom doesnt have a reason to continue on with a woman he doesnt love , shiv doesnt need to stay in waystar . with kendall as ceo the sibs would be together but at what cost essentially ; weve already seen that kendall will fuck shiv AND roman over to obtain power theres not a chance shiv would actually hold only power with kendall as ceo .

like yes her ending sucks (imo , i like everything but the last shot and the entire pregnancy arc) but it makes the most sense . this is also i think the first time shiv has ever been right with every decision she made in an episode .

#succession #long ass post #shiv roy #i just dont really get where people are coming from #this is purely looking at shiv but for tom i dont think hell ever be as bad as logan #due to not being born into money he wont make a risky self serving position that would cost him his job #hes ceo but he doesnt have complete power #BUT YEH #i also dont get how anyone would want kendall as ceo tbh #its a tragedy #but ultimately its better #succession spoilers #:) yeah

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yeslordmyking · 5 months ago

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Matthew 7:13-14 — Today's Verse for Saturday, July 13, 2024

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