#this is my last list for a little bit

[heartorbit]

find another role, carry on the show

[merry-fagoland]

genshin characters ranked by who i think their favorite my little pony character would be (in no particular order)

[silveredsticks]

christmas eve ramble tags and some pictures of me and nice things from this year that i have randomly at 2:47am on christmas eve decided to post on tumblr. like why am I posting my face idek but I just felt reflective and i always just dump my rambles on whichever blog I'm using the most 🙈 i have not thought very hard about picking these. my motivation is that i want to force myself into acknowledging that for the majority of this year i felt good. I did good things for my health, and at work, and for my friends and family (even though I am desperate always to tell myself that i have never done anything good for anyone ever.) I found a new fun thing & lovely kind fun people to help me explore it. i got to sleep with my hand on/in Henry (cat not popstar) belly fur. yes i started having panic attacks about stuff to do w my dad, and money is tight (i mean i live in syd..) and i miss my mum and sara and i maybeee spent far too much time speaking to my ex fiance until he went on some rant about family law and I got the ick for once and for all lmao - but i was happy on many occasions.

[sysig]

Challenge level: Impossible (Patreon)

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

wough weird sad feelings about my dad who could have expected that

[the-lord-of-the-things]

Yee-Fuckin-HAW BABY

[nyehilismwriting]

helloooo! i've been following your writing/coding journey since the early days of sentinel and it's been so nice watching your story-telling blossom into a masterpiece. i love project hadea a lot and the characters are all so compelling i always have trouble choosing who to romance (rohan refuses to kiss me lmao). forgive me if you've been asked this question a million times already, but i was wondering what are some of your literary inspirations? what sort of writing shaped your style? it's one that i wish i could achieve one day tbh!!

WAH this is so kind of you 🥺

i'm sure i've spoke before about some of my inspirations but i am always happy to do it again:)

my writing style tends to go through phases- i feel like i write hadea slightly differently to some of my other projects, particularly the shorter ones. often, when I'm going for something poetic, i can't maintain that for as long, or i feel like it gets effortful; some authors seem able to maintain a really lovely style for long-form works. i'd say max gladstone (and there's no way you've followed me this long without seeing me talk about him before lmfao), julia armfield (who wrote our wives under the sea), louise erdrich (the painted drum, the antelope wife) are all authors whose prose particularly sticks out to me as something i'd like to emulate.

i'll also have to shout out adrian tchaikovsky and peter watts as scifi authors who manage to maintain a very effortless, easy to read style while writing hard scifi; it's not easy to do, but they pull it off, often with clarity and humour i really admire. and their work is not without poetry! i also really like adrian tchaikovsky's tendency to skew sharply into and out of horror: he's got such a knack for atmosphere and tone, something that really stands out to me whenever i read his work.

i'm trying to read more nonfiction/autobiography type stuff, as well: i recently finished billy-ray belcourt's 'a history of my brief body', and in the summer i read ocean vuong's 'on earth we're briefly gorgeous' (which is fiction, but in a similar vein); I'm hoping to read more joan didion this year, as well. i think reading stuff like this is a good way to develop both empathy and also an interesting study in tackling highly personal emotional stuff, and in a lot of cases i do feel i can learn a lot from the prose of these works.

i also read quite a bit of poetry, in itself, which i think helps; i like my writing to have a rhythm to it, and i tend to find that reading poetry helps a lot with that.

finally, as i think i've mentioned before, i love the magnus archives and the writing in that: i think that writing stuff that's meant to be read out loud/performed is a really interesting exercise, even if that's not the final goal, and it really helps to develop a sense of rhythm for your prose.

[dreamerwriternstargazer]

Tumblr do you WANT me to die???

[hidey-writes]

wip wednesday

Kunlun-jun says again, “Come around the partition, Shen Wei.”  Shen Wei doesn’t move. This is how it goes, every time. He can’t seem — too eager. In the end, whatever Kunlun-jun might say, however they both might feel, this is still a conversation between a decorated general and an intermediary.  “Xiao Wei,” Kunlun-jun says now, coaxing, the way he always does. Usually, this is when Shen Wei gives in, goes around the partition to the bed, kneels beside Kunlun-jun, and does as he’s bidden. But Zhu Hong is the eighth in a line of seven failed couplings. Shen Wei isn’t the superstitious type, but there’s something about her that makes him think: This will be the end of it. If this really is the final time, he wants to draw it out. He wants to make it last, as much as he can.

this is from the down draft of what i'm calling the sex intermediary fic, which i'm in the middle of outlining for a second draft. i don't know what's happening in this fic anymore ahahaha. i told myself, "this is a crack pwp premise a friend suggested as a joke that i took seriously. this will be like, a 2k oneshot and no more." but actually i have 2.7k of down draft and like 3 entire scenes that need to be inserted into the next draft oops. but also, and i cannot emphasize this enough, i'm having a blast with this worldbuilding wow!!!

[fugglecases]

ooooooh i can be so incompetent if i try

[digitalcactusblog]

Top 5 drinks? ☕

i am about to confess. i am a terminal water-drinker SKFJHG i'm not super into sweet things and don't mind the taste of just plain water? so i don't often have any beverages at all, so this list is about to be the most hyper-specific list of beverages known to man 😂

hot water: i would argue this counts as a drink, because most people i know don't drink hot water, i'm just very chinese lol. it's nice! feels less shocking to the system than cold water. i do not like cold water.

taro bubble tea: truly the most bestest of bubble teas. it's purple! it has edible tadpoles! yum. idk unpopular opinion though, every time i get it from a place where they actually serve legitimate taro inside their taro bubble tea, i hate it. i want the artificial stuff that comes in powder form, that is probably like 90% sugar by weight

there's this corn juice that T&T sells that's really good. is also probably 90% sugar by weight. corn!

okay i have to admit that i do like the starbucks coffee cappuccino frappuccino whatever stuff that comes in the sealed glass bottles that you can get. again, definitely mostly sugar and milk by weight (i am not a hardcore coffee person. i'm not even a coffee person really), but they taste really good. i haven't had one in years and i'm not about to break that streak now! but i do remember really liking it.

another asian beverage, there's this pineapple beer stuff that is mostly non-alcoholic (the alcohol % is super low) that is really good. ALSO most DEFINITELY 90% sugar by weight, i swear it tastes kinda like caramel and nothing like pineapple. still good tho!

[vulpinesaint]

it's me and all the women in literature described in despondent unhappiness in a marriage that they don't hate but don't enjoy as they should and who feel as if they're not the way a woman should be and who yearn to be free of their husband and children not because they despise them but because they're not for a husband and children and who can't say that they're miserable but who feel a numb kind of despair in all that disconnectedness and disconnectedness and disconnectedness. they are just like me for real

[therulerofallpotatos]

Book about feminism not be super fucking annoying about Beauty and the Beast challenge: Impossible

[ofcowardiceandkings]

the sinus headaches are already not great but Extra Shit has been added to the pile and im just sat on that right now trying to figure out what the fuck to do

[anaalnathrakhs]

it's cool it's cool i'm just wondering if life could be good if i got like, help sometimes. if i didn't have to live with a painfully incompatible family. if there were enough ressources for everybody's mental health struggles. if i didn't live in a system that's supposed to crush anyone who doesn't work. if i could have time and freedom to figure out what to do with my life. if i didn't start having problems really early that influenced the very way i AM at my core for probably a very very long time.

[spaghett-onaplate]

i'm perusing court listings and the very first case i looked into is multimillion dollar fraud 😭 they can't all be this interesting surely