#this is just me ranting/venting

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i thought i was at my lowest but holy shit it gets lower

[starscream-is-my-wife]

Sometimes a day makes you want a Starscream to bite and squeeze

[eternal-sunflowers]

i don't think that people really understand how mentally fucking draining it is to live with chronic illness. like, people talk about it a lot, sure. but i feel like it is constantly kind of a shrugged off thing that people don't understand the weight off.

how exhausting it is to have your body not be able to do things, while your brain carries on as if it can.

how exhausting and painful it is to try to do things and not fully be accommodated for your needs.

how exhausting goddamn brain fog is. it gets me every day it feels like and i'm still surprised.

how exhausting and frustrating it is to be ill and to think you're having a good day, but SURPRISE, here's a flare, or a bunch of symptoms, or whatever, and now you're in pain and can't do anything. you can't make the pain stop. you just have to feel it.

how exhausting it is to know that nothing will take the pain away. that you literally just have to live with it. and that people won't get it. they won't understand that you are constantly in pain, all the time, and just have to act like you aren't.

how exhausting it is to be exhausted. the fatigue is awful. it just catches me and i can't do anything. i can't move or speak or anything. i just have to exist in it.

it's so annoying and exhausting to see my body give up and to know that i can't really do anything to stop it or cure it. it's so exhausting. it makes me want to cry constantly. i feel so tired and worn down and angry and depressed.

and yet, i have to continue on, like a normal functioning member of society. i have people look at me like an imposition. i see people talk down on chronically ill or disabled people online all the time and complain about us ruining society or taking away resources or whatever the fuck bullshit.

and it makes me feel so shitty that society perceives my only worth as my physical ability to contribute to a fucked up system.

and yet, we carry on, day after day, in hopes it will get better.

[eyeball-freak]

People will claim trans solidarity and then wish death on trans men and afab trans people specifically

[husk-says-no]

Hey, Husk here. This is my blog.

Somehow you ended up in my corner of the internet. Poor choice or divine intervention—jury’s still out. Either way, I ain’t your therapist, but I’ve got time, booze, and a bad attitude, and nothing better to do,so feel free to:

Ask for advice, vent your soul, cry over your situationship, beg for approval, debate stuff, etc. Hell, ask me if your demon crush likes you back. (Spoiler: they don’t. Move on.)

You need opinions? I got ‘em. Need a roast? I’ll flay you with words and a smirk. Emotional support? I’ve got a scratchy voice and a semi-functional moral compass. Good enough. Just don't cry if I hurt your feelings. You'll get over it.

Bar's open. Ashtray’s full. Lay it on me.

♠︎♡◆♧♠︎♡◆♧

[gougarfem]

i've never had such fake, shallow friendships as i have with white, liberal, "queer" friends. people i've supposedly been close with for years consistently left me on read when i texted them at 4am in hospital scared and alone with critically low sats because they didn't have the energy for emotional labour. you have to ask to vent, respect triggers, never ever traumadump, so real conversations are difficult because nobody wants to complain - unless, of course, it's related to identity somehow - you can say you had a bad day because your teacher is transphobic, but not because you had an argument at home or threw up or just didn't feel well - none of it comes from genuine concern but instead the rules and norms within your online community. constant reassurance, validation, knowing there's no possibility of a nuanced discussion on anything other than your approved safe topics. attempts at open communication feel sanitized and are laced with therapy-speak, not reflecting real human emotions, but "i sincerely apologize for crossing your boundaries" because it's ideologically wrong, the undertone is 'please don't make a callout on me', not 'i'm sorry', abuse and manipulation are wrong because they get you ostracised and put on blast publicly by your friendship group so any little disagreement comes with a flurry of reassurance that you aren't an abuser, and they still call you they/them behind your back, they still ask your other friends what they think of your opinion on ace discourse, have you crossed the line yet, can we cut you out yet, it's so fucking tiring and there's no space for real connection or humanity in all of it

[a-silly-poll-side-blog-yay]

I made a really detailed trip plan that i was really proud of only to get accused of being useless and using chatgpt

[dollysturns]

All I've seen on my tumblr lately is "the triplets are lazy " " they keep letting us down" "their content is lacking " GIVE IT A FUCKING BREAK PLEASE FFS GET A GRIP

Yes the videos are rushed and small lately because they are busy planning tour for their fans to make sure they have fun to make sure the price of those tickets (a price clearly set by management and that needs a rant of its own as the triplets dont deserve the hate they get for it. management is the one that deserves the hate) are worth it, planning things to make sure they make people laugh , to make sure u guys are happy and all any of u do is complain or have ago at them or shit on them it's honestly so disheartening to see i can't even begin to imagine how they must feel everytime they go on their phones, they are doing all that they do for u guys to just not appreciate any of it.

also i see people complaining about the no photo dump this Friday they said it isn't a permanent thing that's being stopped its a one off, they have clearly been extremely fucking busy with tour aswell as their other shit , they are human they have lives they have a family , friends, their own brands , they need to eat and sleep like humans do , shower , clean their house , they may deal with health issues , mental health issues , they also get sick aswell like we all do and may need a day or two to rest from that like WE ALL FUCKING DO, they have meetings to go to , they go shopping like humans do , they are working on merch , booking hotels , sorting venues , idea planning, schedule making , video idea planning and filming and coming up with new content ideas isn't easy , they are probably packing for tour , management is probably on their backs aswell , and matt is also still working on his personal project and thats just the stuff we know of publicly, they live a fucking life , and yall forget that and it's annoying as fuck.

they aren't at our constant beck and call we aren't the only shit they have going on right now u don't know what's going on behind closed doors. they said they haven't done anything fun this week they have had meetings all week so the pictures they probably have taken are probably random selfies or of a meeting room or maybe a pic of a wall and paperwork and if they posted those pics as the photo dump yall would complain that the photos are boring so either way they can't win at anything they do lately. yall are complaining just to complain at this point.

they have had a hectic 5 years of constant posting constant filming constant planning constant GO GO GO they haven't stopped , don't forget their job doesn't end like a normal 9-5 they can't just walk out of work at the end of the day and relax once they get home they live it they wake up to 10000 of notifications and calls they go to sleep with their phone going mad from fans or management or staff or their brand workers or PR collabs , I have no doubt at all that they are grateful for the life they have but that doesn't mean it isn't extremely tiring cos they can't just stop they haven't took a break just for themselves and im sorry but they need to, haven't u guys noticed how tired they look how much they yawn or stumble over their words cos they clearly aren't getting enough sleep, they are working so hard on a tour so many of u guys begged them for , and also have faith that when they have finally stopped the constant work and running around that the content quality will go back to normal , so just stop complaining and maybe ask them " how are you guys really doing " or maybe just be a decent human and think for a minute they are still people like us with flesh , blood ,bones , troubles and busy schedules.

im so tired and upset seeing people dragging the name of 3 guys they apparently love i would never have ago at anyone I love even the tiniest bit the way some of u guys do to the triplets , it's ridiculous sorry for this long ass post but I've had enough and if u can't see that this constant hate is genuinly getting out of hand then maybe ur part of those that need to take a long hard look at the type of person u are , personally I'm grateful that they are healthy, happy and make me laugh whether they posted everyday of the year or once a year I don't care i love them for them not how much content they make if i want to watch them and they havent posted i go to any of the current 370 videos they do have available and watch one of those i don't take it to social media and nag them to post more, i want them to enjoy their life not have to work like mad just to keep ungrateful people quiet , I know of other content creators that post alot less than they do and I dont see half as much hate for them as I do towards the triplets , im sorry but alot of this fandom has become extremely toxic .they deserve alot more love than is being shown towards them rn , I'm done now but i had to say it .

[xena-niablog]

Tired of stalking your socials why don't you make the first move bro.

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Okay I need to rant here about functional labels because I think they’re so ableist. Like…what does highly functioning autism even mean? That I can function in society in general? And low functioning just sounds like you’re saying that they can’t function in society or at all.

I’m glad we aren’t using those anymore but the level system now is weird too. Like…what does highly functioning you mean I’m level 1?

???????

[torchickentacos]

ok it's been long enough since I saw this post floating around that I can comfortably complain about it now lol. RE: 'video games do cause violence'. This is what I mean when i say that some tumblr leftists are ending up back at right-wing talking points and frameworks again through 'save the children'-isms. Well-meaning discussions about glorification and depiction have landed some people back at 'if your son plays grand theft auto then he's going to be a violent criminal'. This is the same kind of thinking that lands people at 'drag storytime at the library is turning the kids queer through sheer exposure', imo.

Also, what 'rejiggering'? If you have to 'rejigger' the basis of your argument for it to work, then it might not be a very good one. Like, yeah, the statement 'all fish are red' can be true if you tweak the definition of 'fish' to mean exclusively red snappers, but that's disingenuous. Idk. It's just annoying because there ARE discussions of merit to be had with this topic and there is nuance, but especially in this political climate, I'm not happy with people leaning into 'what you expose kids to in their entertainment is going to turn them [xyz]'. I feel like we have some pretty clear examples of that line of thinking harming marginalized communities in a very direct way.

[spiltcandycoatedpunkblood]

ngl being a trans man and being sidelined in the media and being treated as 'brainwashed little girls' or 'privileged aggressive men' pisses me off so much, especially with how the gender binary and essentialism is wrapped up in progressive or patronising language. it is depressing to see the media portray trans women as predators, nonbinary people as 'special little snowflakes' and trans men as brainwashed girls generally forgotten about. none of us are benefitting from this except the societal structure that the media is a part of. I do not gain privilege as a man because my transness exists. I don't know if it's just me, but there is an unspoken level of transandrophobia that people just don't want to acknowledge.

[i-sing-i-still-sing]

THOUGHTS ON YASAMMY

JWCC: Season 5 Ep. 7 - "I've had crushes on boys before so, I know what that's like, but I think I might feel that way about Sammy." - Yasmina Fadoula

JWCC: Season 5 Ep. 9 - "Sammy, I like you, like a lot, like a lot a lot and-..." - Yasmina Fadoula

JWCC: Season 5 Ep. 9 - "The truth is Sammy, I've fallen for you.. like hard.. real hard..." - Yasmina Fadoula

I never officially said this (at least on here before) but I love how initially when Yaz was understanding her feelings for Sammy, they gradually went from a crush to full on fallen for her. Like internally she knew it was always love. When she first figured it out, as to not overwhelm herself, she said it was just a crush but deep down she knew it was more than that, and it didn't take long for her to vocalize that to Sammy.

JWCC: Season 5 Ep. 9 - "I know. I heard you earlier. I just wanted to hear you say it again because I've been wanting to hear you say that since I don't even know when." - Sammy Gutierrez

I think we all agree we wish we could've seen Sammy's pov of everything. Especially since she doesn't even know how long she's felt that way. Maybe it was a love at first sight kinda thing. Or maybe it was after she saw how much Yaz was willing to defend her against Brooklynn about the whole phone thing. Or maybe it was when Yaz didn't think twice about saving Sammy, the first time that happened or even the second time. Who knows not even Sammy does.

And after everything they've been through it all leads up to them getting together. Like canonically ending up as a couple 🥹😭.

But... with that said we do end up missing the entirety of their relationship. The first dates, the first actual spoken "I love yous," and other firsts that happen in a relationship 😉 (😜 kidding this is a kid's show.)

So while we miss all that, another ship that was broken up upon entering jwct, they at least got a flashback and an old video of a happy couple moment. We didn't get any of that for Yasammy. The flashbacks we did get of them, they weren't even together physically. On top of that, a more recently established couple will probably get to say their I love you's on screen. Hell they almost did already! Not to mention the number of kisses they've already gotten! (😒 bombastic side eye to the writers)

But let me review real quick what we've gotten so far in jwct.

In the 1st season it takes 6 episodes to even see Yaz and Sammy in the same frame together. And yes we did get two kisses and yes we got Yaz threatening and distracting an atrociraptor trusting Sammy to tranq it. Not to mention Yaz's "My girl" 😭. But they stopped them from an epic make out with explosions behind them scene 😩.

Onto season 2 where they don't even get into the same boat together. Yes they're all camp fam and that's okay Yasammy doesn't need to be together 24/7 but I personally wanted them in the same boat (call me greedy.) However, we did get Sammy cursing everybody out (in my head) to hurry up and go back to get Yaz. But when they get her and they're about to hug they get interrupted 😞. But then they do hug! But they only hugged 😩 (again call me greedy.) And that's about it for season 2.

Then we have season 3 of just constant fighting. Yes we did get pet names finally but they were used during arguments. And whether those arguments were out of character or not, I will say this though... season 4 jwcc a similar thing happen when Yaz was projecting her feelings onto Sammy & Brooklynn. Sammy even told Yaz that she was mad at her and Brooklynn too saying that "telling us how to feel or what to do isn't helping" which is basically what Yaz was doing with Sammy this season. But do you remember what happened back then? Yaz apologized all but 2 minutes later, letting them know that she only had their best interest at heart. Then do you remember what happened next?? Sammy hugs her and forgives her! They made up immediately. And you all remember what happened next with Yaz's famous words of having feelings because of Sammy 😭.

Anyway... I guess 6 years into a relationship isn't always going to be as easy as it was before but... just saying though they had a similar conflict before and they communicated through it.

Ughsksj I just want more. More Yasammy, more happy Yasammy, more being an actual couple Yasammy. An episode just them away from the camp fam. They had their own room this season but we didn't get to see a parallel scene to that of jwcc season 4. (imagine them talking it out and falling asleep facing each other bc they probably wouldn't let them cuddle in the show 😭)

I just feel like this break up (if they had to absolutely break them up) could've happened in season 1. Keep them together during the time jump as they did, but they could've put the fight at the end of season 1. That way we have all the awkwardness, moping, and yearning in season 2. Then we would've gotten the reconciliation in season 3 which would've left us with 1 if not 2 full seasons of happy, domestic Yasammy. That would've perfectly led to an engagement early season 5 with a time jump wedding scene at the end of it like they did with jwcc.

I LOVE THESE GIRLS SO MUCH

THEY MEAN SO MUCH TO ME

Well that's it I guess. This is the best I could put my thoughts into words.

Just do right by them @jwctwriters please 🙏🏽

Signed @i-sing-i-still-sing aka yasammy protector

[calamaroo]

Started overthinking again and just felt like I should apologize for my octo-lore projects taking so long 😮‍💨😞 I'm really sorry, I'm trying, but it's a matter of motivation and time management (which I am notoriously bad at) but school is almost out for the summer so hopefully I'll be able to finish up my bigger ones then T^T

@hers-underwraps @xoxotifia @mildy-vibing @animalsalvationassociation @urautismdiagnosis-wistie @oatzimir @blurrymind11 @brownyanyk @cacartoon @traumatizedartist

I can't think of anyone else who's ever mentioned/interacted with my posts about the octo-lore, and I'm too embarrassed to tag other people, so.

[sasaleletrebol]

Everything that is made by FANS is FANart there is no such thing as "CANON" if someone other than the creator made it. This includes "fanon" vs "canon" posts. That is YOUR interpretation of what "canon" is which, surprise surprise, IS ALSO FANON. EVERYONE IS WRONG. AAARRRRRGHHH.