#this is in the early chapters

[fallloverfic]

Thinking about how pre-regression Han Yoojin canonically has a hobby of listening to spam callers.

Probably because the one person he cared about - Han Yoohyun - stopped calling him, and avoided talking to him, and the spam callers are people who not only call him but also want to talk to him, and judging by Yoojin's thoughts, have relatively complex spiels about it. Yeah, they're trying to scam him, but they're also trying to engage him. Plus, it's distracting from -gestures at his life-

It probably helps to have someone try to butter you up and make you feel important when the world - including your own mental health and self-hatred - is bent on trying to beat you down into the literal dirt.

Thinking about how it's free entertainment - outside a phone bill, which probably wasn't racking up high - and he sometimes falls asleep to it and how he had no money and probably didn't have a lot to afford entertainment outside watching television and getting drunk on occasion.

Thinking about how he was scammed by the brokers into abysmal levels of debt and yeah, the phone scammers are scammers too, but at least he recognizes these before committing. He has control over how much he interacts with them, and how much or little money he gives them. They're on the other end of a phoneline, he's not trapped in a dungeon with them. He's safe. It's a lesson in controlled exposure and taking back your power.

He also doesn't have to go anywhere or get anything else to aid the experience. Which, for a dude who has to use crutches to walk around an ableist society, full of people who try to attack him, is saying a lot.

Thinking about how he actually admires their ability to act, treating it like a full on performance you'd see on a stage or something. How he really gives anyone a chance (unless they hurt people he cares about, or their name is Han Yoojin, because Yoojin believes he is a useless leech), and he believes that even people doing bad shit could do good shit if they tried.

Thinking about how he listens because they're not reporters - whom he hates - or other people harassing him for any number of reason. They just want him to give them money for some bullshit scheme. On the scale of things, that's better. And how sad that is.

[canisalbus]

What if I told you that RoobrickMarine went and wrote an entire novella starring my 16th century dog couple? It's very canon-adjacent, well researched and thoughtfully put together, has inspired me a ton during these past months and it's now publicly available at AO3. I highly recommend it.

✦ Separation ✦

[priscirat]

picked up my dungeon meshi reading again. kikimari

[newttxt]

another comic for “utilities included” skfkskdjsjs

this time for chapter two 😅

masterpost

[hungwy]

The Frenchman wore an ugly button up shirt with a cheeseburger pattern battering every inch of fabric. "The cheeseburger is the food of Americans", he explained, "and Americans are vain." The associations between Americans and vanity and Americans and cheeseburgers were so strong he could not help but circuitously assume cheeseburgers were also some product of extravagant New World psychological masturbation, rather than a meal of somewhat pitiful necessity, or worse, a product as European in origins as he was, and even here he could not escape the disinterested rabble of the burgs and becs at home. Here the Frenchman was a strange, grumbling, conceited man rummaging through a cold pile of hash browns in a rickety diner in a forgotten plain of middle America, once again among the poor and old and settled. Meanwhile the burger had spread from far more innovative immigrants than he to all corners of the lands through its satisfaction of need and easy digestion. It was pitiful that such a soul, in trying to keep inflated that buoyant pride which gave him life in this sea of corn and depression, unable to avoid his failure in the arts overseas, felt the need to invent and then attack strange symbols and ideologies through highly unusual means, such as ironically wearing a cheeseburger shirt. In a way, he had brought a sort of avant-garde to the old town, just as misunderstood here as it would've been anywhere else, for not only was it baseless and stupid, but seemingly mad. He would pretend to be obsessed with burgers--in a way he was--in order to more fully accentuate his hatred for them.

[tonesip]

Sir, you've got some explaining to do 👉

[vendetta-if]

Early Access Update is now Live! 🎉

Hey guys! I'm so sorry for the inactivity. A lot has been going on in my personal life. First, a close relative of mine passed away not too long ago and I decided to take a little break to mourn and process. And then, once I started working on the update again, I found out that I had to overhaul the coding for the Hangout system despite my best to try salvage it. So, yeah, suffice to say it's been pretty stressful couple of months.

I'm so happy and relieved to be able to finally start sharing the update I've been working on. This update is a big one, bringing 27K new words into the demo, bringing the overall word count to 384K words!

Some new stuff to expect from the update (without spoilers 🤭):

Some changes and options additions in Ash's Hangout.

A whole new section and new scenes added at the end of Ash's Hangout.

A (promised) brunch with Rin 😉

The early access to the update is now available in my Patreon and Ko-Fi. There are other goodies also coming to my Patreon and Ko-Fi in the next few days in addition to all the stuff that has been posted in previous months. So, if you're interested or simply want to support my work, please, do check the pages out 🥰

As always, for those waiting for the public update, it'll be released on August 20 😊 So, mark your calendar 😁

Also, I'll start answering asks again tomorrow (since it's already 4 AM where I am at the time of writing this post 😅).

[its-no-biggie]

so we know that orv is basically kim dokja's self insert ways of survival fix-it fanfic right. and we know that his narration is coloured by his interpretation of the characters and the way he sees not only the real world, but also the world of ways of survival. anyway can we talk about how his self insert happy ending fanfic involves him working closely with the protagonist, his favourite character ever, and he spends a good chunk of it thinking - despite all evidence to the contrary - that yoo joonghyuk doesnt care about him. he thinks its out of character for yoo joonghyuk to like him. he thinks its OUT OF CHARACTER for his FAVOURITE CHARACTER to LIKE HIM. im going to be sick

and it has to do with the way he conceptualizes himself as a "self insert" - he doesnt consider himself a person yoo joonghyuk would care about because he doesn't consider himself a person yoo joonghyuk interacts with. it's about the divide between a character and a real person..... if a new character that could rival yoo joonghyuk's strength showed up in ways of survival, proved himself trustworthy, and did everything he could to make sure yoo joonghyuk didn't die, of COURSE yoo joonghyuk would begin to trust that character - especially in the early regressions. but kim dokja isn't a character. he's manipulating the story from the other side of the fourth wall - he's not someone yoo joonghyuk can have a relationship with. (almost like the oldest dream..... ohhh my god. head in hands.) of course we aren't companions - he's a character and i'm a real person. they're incarnations and i'm a constellation. they're all real people and i'm a character, written and sold by my own mother. theres a thick wall between us.....

and why would you conceptualize it that way kim dokja. why would you tell a story where all the characters get a happy ending but you arent a character. why does your idea of a good story involve none of your companions caring about whether you live or die. kim dokja i am knocking on the wall

[mutantninjamidlifecrisis]

[visionsynth]

i hope u guys like this copia doodle as much as i do

[bihastuff]

Mey Rin : I don't think I will be a good maid I'm an assassin who used to work in the mafia

Sebastian : Nah you will be fine , killing and cleaning are the same thing

* 2 years later *

Sebastian : I fucked up so bad

[allieebobo]

Merry Crisis Early-release: Chapter Three!

The latest chapter* (27th Dec) is AVAILABLE RIGHT NOW for ko-fi supporters! <I am so sorry for the delay!! Also not an April's Fools' Joke haha I would never do that to you guys!>

Features: 

The lead-up to the Nat surprise (!)

Visit a columbarium with your family (to commemorate your grandparents 👴👵 and relive some childhood memories!) <Flesh out your MC's family life>

OR: Skip the columbarium family trip and have lunch with Qiu (at their workplace 💼; or lunch with Shay (includes an optional boxing 🥊 session and the potential to meet someone dear to them🍲).

Meet Qiu or Shay at a 'winter'-themed  funfair/carnival in the evening (or save it for a future Nat date)🧸🎄🍻 <win stuffed animals, drink mulled wine, sit on the lawn and... experience... snow(?)>

Bonus scenes at night if you choose not to go to the funfair (e.g. board games with Joony, write a song if you're a musician etc.) 

Wordcount: 54k + 12/13k words (for the winter fair, should you choose to go with Shay/Qiu)

Can't wait to share it with you guys!

(P.S. if you helped to beta-test, a big thank you <3 I'm about 60% done with everyone's feedback, and I'll continue to tweak and edit over the course of the week! Once I'm done with everyone, I'll send each of you a thank you + confirmation email!)

*It's Chapter Three now, but only because I re-named the chapters, essentially what would've been called Chapter Four previously.

[saltedbiscuiit]

Dazai’s worst nightmare ♡

[fangirloverlode]

No because Lawrence and Adam will forever drive me insane. Like, all romantic possibilities aside… did Lawrence actually care at all? Did he think about Adam while he was being nursed back to health by John?? Did he ask John to free Adam? Does the guilt haunt him, knowing he lost and still made it out while Adam won and died?? When he went back to that bathroom and saw Adam’s corpse did he feel anything??? Or was that expression on his face when he looked at the hacksaw selfish, just thinking about all HE lost? Did he tenderly remove the shackle from Adam’s rotting ankle and wish he’d gotten to do so when the flesh was alive, or did he pop it off without much thought? Was he lying to Adam when he promised to bring back help?? If so, was it malicious or just an effort to comfort him in what Lawrence thought might’ve been both of their final moments? Did he mean to kill Adam when he shot him??? I NEED ANSWERS.

[felix-krain]

I am very sane and normal :D

[rikugans]

first meeting.