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( AFTERCARE ) . . .ㅤㅤTWO !!
ㅤㅤㅤㅤ─ ㅤㅤㅤㅤTHE new rock band in town has some nerve, causing mayhem in the venue next to your studio every night. but how do you stay MAD at the lead singer when he looks at you like that ?
PART TWO. should run for the hills !ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤincludes, proper introductions. sassy!reader. fictional locations. maybe improper ballet terminology. reminder that this is a slowburn!!
parts will get longer, probably, as relationship develops.
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ㅤㅤA/N. this was going to be sm longer but i decided to split it up into two very sorry </3 it just feels right in my head! considering what the chapter titles are ... hehehe ( i am posting the masterlist today so u will see )
it was routine at this point; getting out of class and heading to destiny dance studio before you made it home across the street. you practically couldn’t sleep without needing your muscles to feel like they were giving out first — so, like clockwork, there you were, again.
and there he was, again.
he was a lot quieter — and much more reserved — when it was just the both of you. whether it was you leaving destiny, or about to head in, he was there at least once, a cigarette dangling from his plush, pink lips.
he never spoke to you, though; never offered up the name of his, never made any effort to be anything besides the annoying lead singer of the band next door. all he did was watch, smoke curling around his mouth as his eyes drank you in.
you passed him — an addition to your routine at this point — as you round the corner of destiny, key already having been plucked from your pocket. your hair was still tied in that tight bun from school that day, finding it easier to just wear it until dance practice rather than take it down and try to put it back up again.
and all was the same, him lingering by the glass double doors of sunset blvd without so much as a breath in your direction… until, it wasn’t the same. his lips split as you stood outside in the chilly night, and for the first time in a week, words tumbled out of them.
“this place better be paying you for keepin’ ’em in business, at this rate,” he mutters, and on his exhale, the translucent gray smoke dances its way over to you.
you wave it away with your free hand, swatting at the dissipating smoke, and he’s got the audacity to stand there and laugh about it. his laugh is deep and throaty, probably rumbling in his lungs.
“is something funny?”
and there was that little quirk to his lips, dimples embedding his cheeks, as he turns that amused expression onto you. ���you are such a prissy little thing,” he muses, fingers curled and tapping against one of his thick biceps.
“because i don’t want to get secondhand smoke? makes me prissy?” the key is literally in the door, already twisted and unlocked. the only thing keeping you out here is that pull to him — the one that’s debilitating you from calling the cops on the band practically living in the abandoned building next to you.
he shakes his head, one side of his nose and lip scrunching up as if he was thinking about it. “nah,” he says finally, “you’re a prissy little thing for many reasons, that’s just one of them, i think.”
you are bristling. this man who doesn’t even know you, is causing you more issues than anything related to dance in the last year, who could be in jail right now if you weren’t so generous— making assumptions about you like he had the right to?
“i am not prissy,” you snap back at him, your words as venomous as a snake bite. you cross your arms firmly over your chest, your mouth puckered in a furious pout.
that just seems to make him even more amused; his leg falls from where it was braced on the brick wall behind him, letting his back collide with the wall as he snickers.
“oh, and you’re proving it so damn well!” he exclaims, the sarcasm dripping from his words like the venom was dripping from yours. he drops the cigarette onto the ground, stomping its cherried end out with the toe of his boot. “standin’ there, fuckin’ pouting away… downright precious, lovebug.”
lovebug, it seems, was your breaking point. something cracked like the facade of normalcy you were keeping up to maintain around him, and now he’d crossed that invisible line. or tried to, since you were finally yanking the key from the door to the studio, and stomping off inside.
maybe, looking back on this moment, you would let yourself realize this moment for what it was. you would take the fact that, while you usually lock the door behind you, this time you didn’t. and you could blame it on your mind being preoccupied with your one-sided fury, but in reality, there wasn’t any way that it was an accident.
there was that pull, and it sank its teeth into your unsuspecting skin.
you’d only just sat your bag down on the ground by the entrance, just to the right of the balance beams, when the second set of footsteps starts to echo behind you. when the door latches for a second time.
“so, this is the place that gets all of your attention,” his voice drawls, and you barely even get the moment to spin around, hardly even get your mouth open to tell him off, when he’s adding, “expected something raunchier.”
your hands immediately fall on your hips, and he’d never admit it, but he thought it was adorable, and you’d never admit it, but you could tell what he was thinking just by the way his eyes fell to your clenched fingers around your waist.
“what the hell does that mean?” you ask, just as incredulously in your tone as your widened eyes were when they locked onto him.
him, who stood there with nothing but a shit-eating grin on his face. his boots were going to scuff up the floor, and then how would you explain this? that the man staying illegally next door followed you, and you didn’t turn him away?
“just the way you are,” he hums, shoulders lifting in another nonchalant shrug. “thought you’d have at least one filthy secret up in that pretty little head of yours, but… turns out you really are just a sweet little thing.”
“i’m sorry, when did i start giving off the impression that you knew me, or that i wanted you to?”
“i’ve always liked a challenge,” he pushes back, his large hands curling around the balance beam nearest to him, leaning over it like he was physically crossing the line that divided you both. “especially when they’re all dolled up like you are.”
you decide, then, like a split second, rash decision, that the best method of dealing with him is to just ignore him. you bend at the knees to start to unzip your bag and pull loose your pointe shoes, and—
it’s almost indistinguishable. almost barely audible over the sound of her rifling around. but there it was; a sharp, guttural inhale.
oh, jesus christ. “gonna have to give a man a little warning before you go getting on your knees for him,” his voice drawls, “not that i mind.”
“i don’t even know your name,” you fire back, as if that’s the only comeback that you could even think of in your adrenaline-amped mind. he was getting to you, gnawing on your bones to the point of awareness, whittling you down. “and you’re standing there, accusing me of trying to—”
“jensen,” he interrupts, his fingers tapping along the balance beam, trimmed nails scratching its wooden surface just enough for the sound to echo around the room, just like his voice. “and you never asked.”
“i wasn’t ever planning on it,” you say, and you try to shoot him a glare from the ground, but all that does is make his eyes flare, bright and glimmering with something you didn’t even want to address. “was hoping you’d all be kicked out by now, so i never have to deal with you again.”
his laugh is loud and echoing throughout the room, those dimples dipped into his cheeks as deep as his voice, the crinkles around his eyes only serving to make you angrier.
“you would, huh? wish the worst for me?”
you don’t even dignify him with an answer. really, fueling whatever plan he had with following you in here was probably in your best interest.
“don’t blame you,” he continues on anyways, as you’re kicking off your tennis shoes and lacing up the pointes, “i’d run for the hills too.”
there’s something about how he says it, though, in that soft voice so at odds with the deep, rough one he usually bore, that makes you pause. not because you want to give him any more attention than he’s already gotten from you, but because of something far more concerning. you didn’t want to run.
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tags! @happyladyduck, @casatoan, @mo0nwalker, @manicjk, @stereotypicalbarbie, @inpraise0fbacchus, @fitxgrld !
#──★ ˙🍓 dahlia’s jrnl#──★ ˙🍑 aftercare#jensen ackles#jensen fucking ackles#jensen ackles fic#jensen ackles fanfic#jensen ackles smut#jensen ackles drabble#jensen ackles x female!reader#jensen x reader#jensen x you#fem!reader#supernatural#dean winchester#soldier boy#dean winchester fic#soldier boy fic
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no offense but why are you tagging stuff for grace as “x reader”? Its annoying, if i wanted oc stuff id look for it on the correct tag
Hello :) I tagged it as "x reader" because my Yuu is basically a self-insert, and generally, I like making the content of my Yuu and the characters in a way that others might like to insert themselves or their own OCs in, like some sort of visual x reader lol—some people do that (hell, I do that), and that's totally fine by me.
To me, Yuu can either be a character on their own or just the player/reader embodied in a certain look. Whoever relates to it relates, and whoever doesn't doesn't, but the content still remains, so the imagination can fill in or replace anything. It sounds very logic-gymnastics when said out loud, I guess, but that's just the way I see it. Plus,, in the majority of the posts I made for my OC, it's always been in a vaguely romantic sense, specifically with Malleus. Additionally, "x readers" don't always have to be romantic. So when I add both the tags "x reader" and "twst oc" in my last post (which I'm assuming is what made you send me this ask), it's simply to express that there's at least some certain relationship going on. Again, that's just the way I see it, and I understand that my point of view isn't always gonna fit with others'.
allow me to add that this tag will be used by me even when I actually write "x reader" stories (obviously) and sometimes they WILL contain drawings of my OC as a way to illustrate the scenes-- for the reasons stated above. I really hope this makes sense haha,,,, It's really easy to just scroll past and ignore any post that you think doesn't fit in a tag, people make mistakes, and maybe they also have specific reasons for why they add a certain tag,,,, and I apologize if my post was a hindrance (I really did try to add a cut to make it as short as possible ^^;).
#i understand the frustration but sometimes context clues do apply#i did reblog my main post and add that last bit with malleus and the kiss mark#so the x reader tag somewhat applied#ii ALSO added an x oc tag too just to be sure jsyk#i really don't mean to be rude or anything ^^;#mal's asks
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ok now I’m just pissed about Ian never visiting Mickey tbh
#this is in relation to my last post not just. in general#my post has me thinking about it now#better to just ✨not think about it✨#before u say anything I’m not a major fan of the convo where they discussed this in s7#think it left a lot to be desired#sometimes I wish Ian had to work a bit harder to get Mickey back SUE ME#anyway. they’re 💕married💕#yay for them. it worked out#shameless
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i hate that im scared to write and i hate that im so picky with fics bc i have very specific needs to be fulfilled and it is hard to meet those needs...
i soooo bad desire zolusan, post wano specifically bc in my head thats when all three get together. wci is when sanji realizes his feelings for luffy– or rather accepts that he is in love with him (two years of pining im so sorry sanji) that and also finding difficulty in accepting his feelings for zoro too so basically: sanji being a mess
but idk zolusan mutual pining but they're all idiots. sanji has his own struggles, but imagine zoro's feelings or luffy's feelings. zoro keeping them internalized because it's not that important and wouldn't change a thing, yet he yearns. luffy... the guy is unpredictable imo. and i think that focusing on his perspective would be a lot of fun. he's already happy with what he has but he wants to be selfish and ask for more. idkidk words are hard but these three live rent free in my brain and they do not want to leave send help
(ALSO. imagine discussing the death pact and luffy finding out about it... unrelated to what i said but im talking about zolusan can u blame me... like. God!!!!!!!!!!! theres this one fanart where zoro does go through with it and luffy finds out and. Sighs.)
#zolusan#zosanlu#zolu#lusan#zosan#im having brainworms for monster trio#monster trio#monster poly#come back to me.....#one piece#tin talks#random but i often think about how sanji doesnt kick luffy anymore#i think about that so much#seriously when was rhe last time he did#im gonna live myself#i hope by the time egghead arc ends#there will be more zolusan fics that relate to post wano and egghead#or maybe just post wci in general#or maybe i just need to explore more stuff outside canon#i do love aus but also i need Feelings#my fav zolusan flavor tbh is pre established zolu#and then sanji realizing his feelings 'late' and doesnt want to interfere with what zolu has#vs zolu noticing but is just waiting for him#UGHHFJAHDKHW i love these three#WELL sanji not kicking luffy since wci would be the correct wording but. Still#LIKE. IN WANO HE JUst sTOPPED HIM WITH HIS PRECIOUSHABDS#DO U DXPECT ME TO BE NORMAL
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The Dragon Prince - 3x08 || 4x08
#tdpedit#the dragon prince#general amaya#tdp janai#the dragon prince 3x08#the dragon prince 4x08#amaya x janai#femslash related stuff#cuuute#so I've actually made a few gifsets from different fandoms over these last weeks that I hadn't posted because I didn't have the time#but my flight's leaving later today so let me get these out at least!#also I'll probably put off asks which I can answer on my phone :o#anyway I love when nerds make stuff because they love their callbacks lol#WN was full of them too#also! I'm glad janai actually knows a good amount of sign language#maybe just not ''marry''
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idk how much stock i put into those "gen z is more conservative than past generations" think-pieces from a few years back. but it's very possible for a person: to believe that climate change is a problem, to support (or be part of) the LGBT community, to believe in universal healthcare and social services, to support religious tolerance, to fight for expanded housing and labor rights, etc etc etc, and still, like, unabashedly hate women on a level you wouldn't believe existed
#like you really can't underestimate how far someone's hate can go for a specific group of people#while also believing in otherwise 'progressive' values idk#maybe i'm being a pessimist about these things#this is related to the last post i reblogged but now it's just on my mind#i understand that polls show (at least in the us) that gen z votes more blue than past generations and that's commendable#but you can walk and chew gum yknow. you can believe in progressive stuff while also being a massive sexist#and idk if these 'woowoo ~~trendy~~ sexism stereotypes but 'alternative and rebellious' bc i'm owning it' shit is uh. helping.#especially when you're too young to discern what is and is not 'ironic' or a 'joke' and you take it at face value#certain stuff is formative bc you're exposed to it young. and then BAM. it shapes how you see the world for a Very long time#sexism#rambles
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Have you seen The Amazing Digital Circus yet?
If so, what's your opinion on it?
I LOVE TADC! It’s my favorite indie show at the moment! There’s just so much I like about it but my main ones are
1. The setting and execution being unique. A horror-like project taking place in an late 90s/early 2000s digital game is not a new idea and same goes with characters being stuck in a purgatory however it’s how the artists reinvent those idea that makes it new. The digital Circus made its own aesthetic that makes it stand out from other projects with similar concepts and designs. When I first watched the pilot, one of many things that stuck out to me was how new the story ideas felt. I couldn’t think of any other pieces of media similar to TADC beside for surface-level comparisons. The TADC created its own aesthetic and knows what it wants to be and I like it!
2. Soundtrack. Speaks for itself, the soundtrack for the pilot is so good especially Your New Home. That song is very catchy and emotional too. It has such a unique melody, everytime you hear the first few notes you instantly recognize it. It does a great job highlighting the dread and existentialism crisis of Pomni’s situation. I recommend to give it a listen if you haven’t.
3. The characters dynamics. I just love how the characters interact with each other. The majority of the jokes comes from characters’ interactions and dynamics and how well everyone plays off of each other. The best example is Jax with everyone, Jax is a funny jerk who likes bullying his peers. It’s funny to see what creative ways Jax will bully the other people whether it’s being sarcastic and making quips at them, or though goofy pranks and how the characters react because of their contrast in personality. Every character beside Jax is openly stressed or worried in someway while Jax, at first seem like a chill layback dude.
4. The characters differences. I adored the differences between each character from how they talk to their poses. After watching HH and HB, I learned to have an appreciation for character differences. It’s just refreshing to see characters allowed to be different instead of the same tired reused tropes and repeating the same type of dialogue again for every character.
5. Mystery and lore. There is so much to explore in the pilot, it’s make you wanting more. When going in to watch the pilot, I made the mistake of thinking the series will be predictable. I didn’t see how they could make this premise work because by the end of it, Pomni will go insane but then I watched the pilot and was speechless. The pilot does a good job setting up questions for the audience to ask. If Caine lied about the exit, what are other things did he lied about? How long has the cast been stuck in the circus? Who are these people? Are they previous game developers? Who were they in their previous lives? What is the company’s motivation to create the headset? What are the abstractions in game? Are they viruses to the game program? Who were the former cast? What horrors has Kinger seen to be as paranoid and easily frighten as he is now? Do the abstractions still have a consciousness? You just want to find out more about the lore to solve the many mysteries in the show. I find it impressive Gooseworx was able to stir up the theorists because they have admitted in an ask, there are already theories floating around that are almost right about the show.
One problem I did have for the pilot were the scenes containing the Gloink Queen. The pacing of the pilot was fine until we got to her then it was slow. I feel it dragged longer than it needed too but beside that, my issues for the pilot ends.
I can’t speak for the fandom on other platforms but the tumblr one is great! Most of the time everyone is being respectful towards each other and I love seeing what creative theories, AU, fanfics, and art the fans created. The only people causing drama are the anti-shippers, and it’s just dumb. All of the cast are adults, if age gaps ships makes people uncomfortable, that’s valid but they shouldn’t make it into other people’s problems. Gooseworx themselves admitted they don’t care for romance and they don’t want fans in the fandom getting harassed over shipping.
Overall despite what issues I had for the pilot and fandom, they’re overshadowed by the positives and I can’t wait to see the full show and the fandom’s growth.
#꧁rambles꧂#➥asks#the amazing digital circus#The TADC is the indie show and fandom I needed#After a year of critiquing Viv and her shows and being a fandom as toxic as HH & HB I just needed a break#I’m still active as you can see but barely posting and critiquing the shows anymore#I do check the critical tags every now and again to catch up and I’m just not interested in consuming any Viv’s content anymore#The last Ep I saw from HB was Unhappy Campers and the last video related to HH was the Happy Day in Hell one#I kinda don’t see the point of being very active on my HH amounts when I’m no longer watching Viv and I think everything to Viv is regressi#Viv is getting more careless about how she presents herself online and people are starting to noticed how much of an ass she really is#responding on a funny shitpost of “If the TADC was written by Viv” lightly making fun of her and she blew up once again#I’ve seen creators with a decent size following in other platform not just Twitter called her out and Viv and the fandom is be the-#reasons why Hazbin will fail#Her fandoms are notorious for being toxic/ fans going out of their way to attack not just haters but anyone who doesn’t praise Viv 24/7#Viv is actively creating toxic environment in her fanbases so she can protect herself from criticism and allegations behind her fans#But because of this Viv is contributing to the future downfall of Hazbin because no one wants to be associated with her because of her fanb#There’s just no reason to stay around#If the reaction to the Prime’s video Happy Day in Hell from outsiders is mixed then the reaction will be too for the full release#Plus the general attitude towards Viv has changed over the last three years#Despite her previous controversies she was see as a respectful creator but now views are mixed#People see her as the indie creator whose show took a nose drive in season 2/doesn’t pay her employees/is immature/and is now seen in a-#more negative light
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idc if ppl r into astrology or whatever like if u get something out of it good for u but don't try to prescribe ME an identity based on the position of the stars when I was born. I don't believe in determinism and as a trans person who was prescribed an identity that didn't fit at birth it pisses me off!!!
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no way... is that him??? live??? i can tbelive it
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I cant tell if you're joking or not but... yes!!! I haven't seen it in person, but I have seen someone's uploaded recording of the whole thing on YouTube, and it's actually pretty silly and not too bad! I can't remember if it's at Disney Land or Disney World, but it's neat. On an old blog I had, a screenshot from that video I saw I actually made the header to my blog! I was giggling cause Chick called him a McLoser, and while I don't think he's a loser, I was cracking up cause it sounded like a McDonalds item. I was pretty surprised to see they gave Chick some stuff in it though!
It was at his racing achedemy thing :) which is funny to me cause this is like the third time they've given him his own racing achedemy in some form and it's been completely different each time. And it's a Disney official thing so it's their actual voice actors I love it.. I need to rewatch it, I can't remember if Jackson shows up in it.. I think he gets a name mention at some point? It's based around Cars 3! And Cruz plays a pretty big roll in it as well, of course.
#i dont know if this was in any relation to my last post but this cheered my up like a bunch so thamk you#whether it was intentional or not#used this as an excuse to yap a bit#warms my heart so much when people see things like this and show me it. like???🤧🤧🤧 ough. dont even get me started#this was just so sweet to me in general to me thank you!! was nice being reminded of his little live appearence :'))#forgive me for any typos or broken sentences the hampster wheel in my brain is still powering up#Lightning❤️🧡💛#self ship#selfship#selfshipping#self shipping#spamtoon#there would probably be far more exclimation marks and caps if i was feeling more chipper haha!#am i not following you on that blog?? i dont think i am huh
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a song that i associate with my muse meme!
AHH, hey, ramone!! thank you for sending in this prompt :D since you sent in three of the mic's, i shall now be treating you to three songs that make me think of blamore when i hear them / that i associate with it. an explanation of why i chose them will be in the tags <3
hozier - who we are.
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icehouse - crazy.
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depeche mode - personal jesus.
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#IT WAS PROBABLY NOTHING BUT IT FELT LIKE THE WORLD: musings.#asks - answered.#ooc post.#okay but ESPECIALLY heavy on the last one because it literally all about the idea of someone that people can turn to in hard times-#like a god or a prophet who will listen to your plights and help you + who you should believe in. and i say this because one major theme-#to blamore's character is the concept of being a false prophet and someone who essentially unfortunately takes advantage of people's-#longing for things to get better in gotham. bc i feel like a lot of people there have either been failed by the system by other's or-#possibly both and this is so that blamore can get people to voluntarily want to consume the 'seeds' it distributes in order to uhh...#well purge gotham of its undesirables basically as terrible as that sounds. but yeah that depeche mode song? it's such a good one for-#him and definitely has helped me before to write things related to him since blamore does sometimes believe in its own hubris.#but as for the second one by icehouse that one i associate with it because although it doesn't exactly consider itself to fully identify-#with the label of being a 'man' i feel as if blamore will still talk about itself that way sometimes. its relationship with its gender-#is honestly a little bit complicated NGL because him using it/its pronouns as well is something blamore adopted recently even-#though he'd always sort of felt like disconnected and/or like it didn't really align with how he saw himself completely. BUT yeahhh#i honestly could start a whole discussion about that but i shall do that another time perhaps ahah. anyhow though besides that-#elephant in the room ever since it has transformed into this half-human half-plant monster being... although it does love any partners-#it has very much (trust me) i feel like it does wonder why they chose to be with him more often than he'd like to admit.#so that's where the whole 'crazy' part comes in and as for the hozier song that song is about how you kind of have to carve through-#this 'darkness' to rediscover ourselves and who we want to be as a result of going through a rough time or just something tough in-#general and that is SO freaking fitting in my opinion for blamore because it definitely had to completely reframe the way it thought-#about itself when it transformed. and he also had to figure out what he believed in / what his values were now which can be suchhh-#a messy process TBH but this isn't the first time that blamore's had to rediscover itself as life is honestly kind of this ongoing-#process of losing yourself and trying to find yourself again you know? but yeah. i hope you enjoyed my explanation here tehe <3#and also that you enjoy the tunes!!
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Wait a second... can someone with more understanding of fandom cultures explain something to me?
Do people ship characters because they believe they are going to be a cannon thing????? I thought it was just for fun?? I'm like, oh these two characters seem fun together, what if they dated. I just be mixing and matching these bitches I legit dgaf if it actually happens or not.
Maybe it's just whatever weird end of tiktok I'm on, or maybe it's just something I never picked up on until now, but like,,, people will say, "oh these ships are invalid cuz they won't be cannon" OK????? AND??? It's just fun
Like I remember being a kid and watching shows and my friends being like oh did you see that (insert ship name) scene???? Like girl I don't care. Two characters could never have interacted and I'm gonna ship them.
And that's all I thought it ever was? Is it like,, different now or some shit?
#this is totally unrelated to sso btw#i want to make art for shows and games im into but man.... it just feels like im inviting fandom people in when i do#and dont get me wrong#its very emotionally rewarding to build an audience for my art#but after the weird ass shit i went through with the metal family fandom im like#mildly traumatized#just a LIIIIIIITTLE more apprehensive about who is going to be consuming my art#cuz like#last time i was a part of a very active fandom#id get comments on pictures of myself saying i look like a certain anime character#or id have my art taken an posted somewhere else online with some other persons water mark put over it#or worse yet have my art be posted onto a proship fan art account and then getting all those freaks on my art#IF i was even credited#im such a person of quiet or dead fandoms#i feel elderly when im interacting with a fan base thats more popular#also#this whole ramble in the tags is not entirely related to creating ship content either#yes i would make ship art of appropriate character's but also like... just my art in general#anyways#this is just a long winded way of saying i watched the amazing digital circus pilot and really enjoyed it and feel super inspired by it but#and not to be like an angry old man and say “raugh!!! the fandom is weird!!!”#but id rather.... not... interact with the fandom#at least the portion ive seen anyway#just the random discourse i see in comment sections#its got me scratching my head a little
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throughout the series of drake and josh it pretty consistently implies that josh nichols is a christian (josh peck is jewish) and in the finale of the series helen (played by yvette nicole brown, not jewish[?]) is portrayed as a practicing jew
#i dont have a problem w either of those things necessarily i just find it interesting#if i had to guess. drake and josh was a mainstream that didnt wanna touch on religion generally#but josh was kind of a dork and usually when josh's religious beliefs are implied it is in dorkish ways#such as praying and thanking the lord after he has his first kiss.#but since dan schneider is jewish perhaps he wanted to make helen have a jewish wedding in the finale?#not that there needs to be a reason. but u do notice occasional jewish-related jokes in d&j but none of them are what you could call#offensive. in good faith that is. 'eric is a pacifist' 'i thought he was jewish?' like come on#text post#i have been rewatching drake and josh recently and i have had so many thoughts#im almost done. i just have left that stupid dance episode that they premiered last for the stupid reason#of a special dance-themed premiere night in fall 2007. they premiered the third episode of icarly and a new zoey 101 on the same night#which i think is so stupid. they should've aired really big shrimp last. it messed w my understanding of the series at the time lol#i remember not really knowing that the show was ENDING. like i knew icarly was starting & miranda was doing that#i thought really big shrimp was like just another special like go hollywood.#and then like two days later they premiered the helicopter episode for some reason#and i was like why is drake not famous in this. he just had a number 1 song in a superbowl commercial#and then a month later the dance one. which. if anything is satisfying about that as a final episode it's just that#that unnamed girl from the blues brothers episode who is obsessed w drake shows up again and congratulates them#and the very final line of the series is 'who is she?' because. because really who IS she?#that's a funny enough throwback to wrap things up with i suppose#drake and josh wasn't a highly serialized show so i can see how they could air those after the intended finale and act like it didn't matte#but i have to tell you it did fuck with my brain a bit at the time. lol. i still think of those episodes as having 'happened' after#and on paramount plus those episodes are still placed after really big shrimp. the injustice#but thats kinda messy. what a weird way to end such an influential and popular sitcom#season 4 had a few lowpoints while still also having some VERY solid episodes.#idk. ill have to continue my series review another time im getting way too longwinded here#helen dubois is jewish
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Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(
#mine#oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times#but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry#like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie#im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc#i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me#thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related#anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that#ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired#// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always#because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life#like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing#me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little#so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die#every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt.#well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he#is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him#every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again#but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh#i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT#I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time#like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me#he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do#he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away
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hey guys im back at it again with the horrible levels of s4 zam brainrot. um.
did i manage to somehow make this song about him in my head? yes! yes i did. and i cannot be normal about it.
#haunted ecosystem#genuinely when youre insane enough about your blorbos everything is about them. this is one of those cases#also i might be writing some more things. and probably watching some vods.#im writing something to post as a general christmas gift fic (as i've done for the last like. two years? in my heart at least) alongside#the two event fics i have in the works PLUS the twb flash prompt event im participating in :)#expect some more bizarre concept fics soon i think! i might also pick up some older threads that i havent touched#i think it'll be fun since my muse is definitely leaning toward writing zam. i love writing him honestly#i have a thing for distinctly pathetic and paranoid characters (see: my adoration for outsiders!apo & pandora [oc])#who knew i'd enjoy writing characters i relate to#is it weird to say that the general concept of asomatous and the stuff i want to write related to it is very near to my heart. and like#its very personal. its inspired by my experiences you see. the concept of losing sight of reality in isolation and also just#the bugs. i never had a moment with bug pinning but i did have a problem with collecting the corpses of animals i found dead#once spring rolls around im going to work on processing them and giving them proper display and love#AAANYWAYS#ohhhh my god i should finish up bedrock shards and bloody garden#those two are my og fics for this fandom. i want to complete them and share them even if they arent fully how i view the characters now#i think its interesting to share and show initial impressions and also show how i wasn't fully sure about these guys#(also i love how i didnt understand the concept and mechanics of the cleansing but its still Present because it was before s5 so like#it was either s3 or abandon canon and i was sooooo afraid of leaving canon behind in favor of exploring)#my talking in tags habit is showing again.... woops#does anybody even read these? i have no clue#if you do i am so sorry for my habit of talking about dead animals. good lord. it happens so often#i forget it isnt normal until people point it out. having to explain that *yes* i collect dead things is. fun#oh man i have some coyote skulls i really need to clean at some point. its just a pain since i need to get the cage out again and prep them#since the method that got recommended to me is actually bad for the bones (since it involves essentially cooking them which softens#the bones and makes them a lot more likely to break or splinter. so i need to leave them out or bury them and im still not sure which wil#work better. it really depends on if spring is going to be dry as hell again or not. im rambling AND off topic. woops)#Spotify
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Hey hi if anyone figures out some way to defeat revenge bedtime procrastination, preferably without me having to do much or change much, let me know. Maybe stuff some more hours in a day. How hard could that be???
#quilly has issues#I am mostly joking#but actually my sleep is suffering pretty badly right now sooooo#right now the issue is balancing my shower schedule with my sleep schedule with my job/commitments schedule#the three things keep not lining up#which is very rude and probably related to the seasonal depression I keep insisting I don’t have#and general adhd brain heckery#I have to shower tonight. bc my last shower was yesterday morning#and my shower for Wednesday’s cleanliness has to be tomorrow night#and if I shower before work I will be late to work bc I will procrastinate the shower as long as possible#I like to be clean!! I like not having an overly greasy body! I enjoy the smell of clean hair!#but it is so GODS DAMNED HARD to shower after a certain point at night#I am making this post instead of showering or committing to two showers tomorrow#my hair is super greasy. I have tried to train it. it will not be trained#not to mention the rest of my skin gets bad breakouts when not washed regularly#HORMONE DISORDER BAYBEEEEEE#can I just. take all the hormones out#will that get my IBS and my grease glands to chill
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i love u dropouts i love u super seniors i love u homeschoolers i love u alternative learning environment students i love u students w 504 plans/individual education plans i love u special education students i love u online students. having trouble w school is not a reflection on your worth no matter what anyone tells u and i believe in u and wish u luck w whatever u go on to do <3
#sorry im having a Moment.#also i love u community college students but thats a different post. lmao#like not to ‘make your own post’ myself on my own post but… make yr own post#anyways how do i even tag this#high school#encouragement#positivity#i dont wanna be intrusive so im just using the most general tags i can think of#i finally graduated last spring but like even when i was in high school its not like i was searching tumblr for school related tags#i def wasnt looking for homeschool tags lol it was Way too soon to risk it#that wound is still a bit too fresh lmao i was talking to someone abt it cause shes considering homeschooling her kid#and like i was happy to answer her questions + give advice on Not Immediately Becoming Abusive or whatever but. man.#it was just a lil much yk#anyways i need to go to bed i just wanted this out of my system asap#quetzposting
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