#this is gonna live in my head holy shit
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Oh damn that is a powerful image
“Stay above the surface, Cloud” 🌸
#👀👀👀#this is gonna live in my head holy shit#I've never thought much of water as a metaphor for darkness#but apparently that's because I've never seen it done like this before#Final Fantasy VII#Cloud Strife#Aerith Gainsborough#fave
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I saw the stick and the image of zayne bending MC over and smacking her ass with it came to mind and I don't think I can be normal ever again
#love and deepspace#zayne love and deepspace#This card is gonna steal all my diamonds isn't it#It already lives rent free in my head and really just trashing the entire place here holy shit#“zayne girlie try to be normal challenge” failed successfully#❄️ dawnfrost reverie
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how do i turn qantoine’s spontaneous marriage proposal to qetoiles into evidence of his early-days fear of qfrench drifing away and keeping secrets from one another
#the conversation takes place in antoine’s vod: L’ANNIVERSAIRE DE TALLULAH at 41 mins ish#like . okay . its such a fucking crazy moment to me that still lives in my head bc it’s a a joke . but it’s also not#he asks etoiles directly after spiderbit wedding . ‘don’t you want to get married?’#after it gets mentioned*#etoiles turns him down bc he ‘doesn’t have time to fuck [he] needs to kill everyone’#and antoine says ‘well but— just a marriage’ like it’s the act itself that is the most important to him not anything that could come with it#the confirmation of partnership . of having someone to rely on . something that feels to him maybe more certain and solid than the#friendships antoine had at that point . like if he felt things were slipping and he was being left behind he wanted the certainty of#something like a marriage that is traditionally considered More important and certain .#and i think the end of their conversation is notable in how antoine brings up the notion of betrayal — he getting betrayed by others and how#he’s fed up with it . after etoiles says no to the marriage (though specifying that he’s gonna think about it) antoine brings the whole#betrayal thing up after a pause . he doesn’t necessarily consider etoiles as having betrayed him but it’s that lack of certainty#certainty that etoiles has refused to give him that makes him start to open up about how he’s tired of people promising him things (or#seeming to promise him things) only to leave him out and in the dark . and there’s an insecurity there that really shines if you take this#moment into consideration with the Larger Shifting his character is going through .#like tldr ; qantoine has begun to realise that his friends are starting to form deeper bonds with other people and thus keep secrets with#them which to him means leaving him behind . taking notice of this he brings this up to his friends in . not exactly direct ways . he#talks about how he doesn’t like secret keeping but doesn’t seem to push much further and he also tries to remedy the issue#of feeling left behind by doing shit as discussed above ^ however on account of the InHuman i’m not sure he understands what he’s doing very#well . and as we know antoine doesn’t make much progress and ends up retreating into himself and beginning to keep his own secrets . to do#his own shady shit . to work in the shadows and not be honest with any of his friends either . to hold them at arm’s length despite how much#he still cares . the only person he puts his full trust into anymore is pomme . not ayp who he deems too underhanded . not bagz who he sees#as having started the whole ‘secret keeping’ stuff in the first place . and not etoiles who’s actively going down a path with the codes and#resistance that he cannot follow#that was NOT a short tldr . why the fuck am i writing dissertation length tags about MINECRAFT BLOCKS#god whatever who cares i get joy out of this thats what matters#anw if you read this far holy shit ur insane . thank you#i am going to bed now godbless !#jay rambles#qfrench.posting
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Same anon from earlier who sent that ask about how Dutch would react to javieran. I finished the fic but uh it's porn lol. If you're still interested it's "steady beat" on ao3
anon i would like you to know that i spent the first 20 minutes of my shift sitting in the bathroom reading this and i do not regret a single moment
THAT WAS SOOOO GOOD ARE UOU INSANE !-?/!?:3! JAVIERAN CONTENT WAS EXCITING ENOUGH ALREADY BUT PORN ??? AND SOFT, FLUFFY, HEAD-OVER-HEELS IN LOVE PORN ???????? you wrote this for ME !!!!!!! and i am SO GRATEFUL !-!2!2!3 OMG !!!!!!!!!! it was sooo good i was literally giggling and kicking my feet the whole time, you nailed their dynamic sooo so perfectly imo 😭💔 reading that was such a pleasure thank you for the food !!!!!
#kieran being trans ☹️☹️☹️☹️#u writing them to have an exaggerated height difference like i do (when i dont think they actually have that big of one) ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️#u constantly referring back to javier having a metronome ticking in the back of his head is soooo beautiful to me he truly is an artist of#his own … like how a painter may see a scene out of any landscape they’re in or how a photographer may note the composition of the world aro#und them … javier taking note of kieran’s heartbeat as it is the song of his life is so beautiful. oh the artistry ….#so romantic …… you captured them sooo so well !!! i do so adore how you write them …#that was pure indulgence for me thank you for writing them exactly like i do i feel so fed#a few favourite lines that had me autisiming out:#‘how much further can they go until their veins join together and their blood flows freely between their bodies?#Until their stained souls tangle into binary stars and they are left as one person?#What would happen then?’#first of all; holy shit. oh my god. that’s so romantic.#second of all: SOO SOFFTTT UGGGHH i just KNOW they want to escape it all but more than that they would love to escape into each other. into#love in all it’s glory and in a gentility so rare in the world they live in FAWK GOD I LOVE WHEN LOVE IS SEEN ON A COSMIC LEVEL like it’s so#big that it’s small because it’s in every molecule every atom every breath every speck of stardust making them up#i’m gonna be sick#also#‘He’ll make a musician of his lover yet.’#had me going INSAAANNEEEEE !!!!! INSANE !!!!!!!!!!#SO GOOD I WISH I HAD THE TIME TO YELL ABOUT IT MORE BUT I HAVE TO GET ON THE FLOOR 💔💔💔#please know i loved it so much. truly made my entire day. thank you for sharing that with me. your writing is fantastic you are truly an art#ist#rdr2#(for the sake of my blog organization sorry tag)#javieran#text#ask#hero's yelling at folks again#anon
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That reveal fucking got me, it got me so fucking hard guys!!! It's bringing me out of my writing break, that's how hard it got me!! Anyways here's Bagi being alone, she's coping (cw/tw: implied mental health issues/violence, mentioned gore):
It was getting real late, and Bagi was only now just returning to her small apartment. She couldn't stand it, being alone, so she spent all her time at work. Work being the small private investigators that hired her after she lied her ass off about her age and experience. She was using them, really. If she rose up the ranks, then she could lie about needing to go to that prison. Then, she could finally complete her plan. She's been dreaming of that day for years.
Bagi's apartment is mostly bare. Aside from a TV and DVD player (that cost most of two paychecks), the table they sit on, and a couch with a blanket and a few pillows. Her kitchen is a bit nicer, but not by much. She had stolen most of the nicer things. Like her knife set. It had been a hassle, but she managed. She walked through the kitchen, not grabbing any food but instead grabbing one of the knives. Bagi isn't hungry right now. She hasn't felt hungry in years. She eats to survive. She wonders vaguely if her coworkers noticed. It didn't matter. They haven't noticed anything yet. Not how she lies through her teeth, not how she steals most everything she owns, not how her clothes look two sizes too big even if they're supposed to be her exact size, nothing. They don't even notice when she stares a bit too long at crime-scene photos.
Her sat on her couch and turned on the TV. It was left on the main menu of a documentary DVD. This documentary was about her brother and every gorey detail of his list of crimes. She couldn't care less, that's her brother and she loves him all the same. Her brother. Her other half. Her brother, Cellbit. Bagi and Cellbit, attached at the hip. Twins, forever and always. She holds the knife in her hand. She wonders if she could do what he's done. She doesn't care if she goes to hell, as long as she goes to hell with him. They share the same face, the same eyes. Is it mom or dad's face they share? Are her teeth as sharp as his? Bagi doesn't eat meat. She'll never know. When the documentary ends, Bagi wipes tears from her eyes. She didn't even know she was crying. She does this a lot.
After a few deep breaths, she tries to keep her composure. She can't be crying. The investigation isn't over yet. It's not over until she's face to face with him again. She can't cry yet. The documentary is finished. She'll change the channel back for now and turn it back when she goes to sleep. For now, the news. She regrets her decision almost immediately. A breaking news story about multiple escaped convicts. They show the mugshots. One is her brother. No. They're fucking lying, this is some big fucking joke.
Bagi barely suppresses a scream as she throws the knife she's holding into the wall just above her TV. No fucking way Cellbit is leaving behind again! He couldn't fucking wait for her this one time. She was going to save him! She just fucking found him again! Her rage buzzes under her skin. She can't stay here tonight. She's going back to work. Bagi can already feel her phone vibrate, them begging her to return. This case will big a break for them. It'll be her magnum opus. She grabs the knife from where it stuck in the wall and stuffs it into her bag. She can't fucking believe it. Cellbit forgot about her, again. She'll deal with it when she finds him.
#qsmp#qsmp drabble#qsmp fanfiction (sorta)#qsmp bagi#qsmp cellbit#theyre siblings your honor#i adore them actually please#that reveal actually had me screaming#it was obvious but holy shit#theyre gonna live rent free in my head for a while hope yall enjoy
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If we don’t get the most epic version of the Bad Batch theme ever during the finale tomorrow, I am going to riot.
#i’m looking at you kiners#don’t let me down#currently have that ominous low brass/strings music from the very beginning of flash strike living in my head rent free#and it’s got my expectations for this soundtrack ASTRONOMICALLY HIGH#i’m so pumped#the bad batch#tbb season 3#tbb finale#kiner music#it’s been too long since we’ve heard their theme in all its glory 😭#holy shit it’s the last#bad batch eve#i’m gonna cry#happy bad batch eve#clone force 99
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i think i just met an angel????
#like im so fucking serious#okay so i got my birth control shot today but i broke the two needles i already had and got really upset bc the bc is 50 bucks#and in my head i was like omg i have to go back to the pharmacy now bc I can't just waste 50 bucks of bc#and there's air in the vial its gonna dry out whatever whatever i was freakin out bc I've already been stressed and sad#and this was just the cherry on top of the meltdown sundae that's been gettin scoop after scoop for weeks#but anyway i was sitting in the turn lane for the pharmacy closer to my place#(they ended up saying i had to go back to the og pharmacy to buy needles. understandable. still cried more ab it#mostly bc my legs hurt really fucking bad and i didn't want to drive all the way back but anyway)#as im sitting in the turn lane this lady comes up and knocks on my window and at first im like “im not opening the window are you crazy”#but she insists and is like i want to give you money you just look so sad so i crack the window in case she's like. bonkers and this is bait#but she straight up just gives me money and is like “you just looked so sad and I've been there i went through a really bad divorce#here's a hundred dollars“ and then she runs back to her car#so i just kinda sat there in shock and also cried harder bc that's a level of kindness I've never experienced before#im still kinda crying on and off bc omg i swear i met a real life fucking angel. i didn't even see her get back into a car#but tbf i was crying really hard#i did eventually get my needle and got my bc injected but. holy shit????#that was the most genuine kindness i think I've ever experienced and i will do my best to pay that forward whenever i have the means#cause money isn't the main reason I've been upset but it certainly hasn't been helping my mental health either#i already try to be kind when i have the capacity#but i think im going to start actively looking for things i can do to make peoples lives a little brighter#im still kind of in shock it didn't feel real i keep thinking im gonna look and the money will have disappeared but no#that actually happened and im gonna try even harder to be a better person now#i want to do something like that for someone in my position one day#what a way to start the year jfc
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okay I severely misjudged spaghetti guy he’s actually just really cool
#okay so I came to this flat and he wasn’t here. greeted by a very dirty flat with shit all over the kitchen counters over cling film#I meet first my other flatmate who told me he stays in his room constantly bc of previous bad flatmates#has literally just a saucepan and some salt in the kitchen. so I’m like okay spaghetti guy potentially not great but could just be#how this guy is yknow#on Tuesday I get an email back saying he’s coming back from Norway tonight looking forward to seeing you feel free to use the kitchen sauces#rlly friendly message that I wasn’t expecting. I also didn’t know he’d been on a trip i just knew he wasn’t there bc his door was open#(to a REALLY nice room. multiple rlly nice plants (which he has little care labels for!!!) and it’s tidy and pretty#and he’s got a sheep teddy on the bed)#meanwhile I am in my own head bc I don’t wanna cook in the kitchen until I can clean it and I can’t clean it without moving his shit and#I haven’t seen him yet to talk abt it and I can’t bring myself to talk to him immediately bc I’m dying#and embarrassed as hell by how I’ve been cooking in my room with a microwave and air fryer (loud) and sneaking my shit out of the kitchen#but then yesterday I DO talk to him!! and he’s super friendly!! actually interested in having a conversation and Good at it.#and then he’s cooking and like. spaghetti burns but I’m not there for long and seems to be a mistake (he made the same thing for lunch today#and did Not burn the spaghetti) and is otherwise clearly competent bc the food smells Good and despite leaving a few things out it’s like#washed up stuff isn’t dirty and the sides are better despite still under cling film. more a case that he’s spread out than he’s messy#and now today we talked and i offered to hold onto some shit over summer bc complicated situation that boils down to he’s flying back home#and he cant take all his stuff and had to choose between chucking stuff/having literally nothing this weekend. like sleeping on the sofa etc#and then cleans the whole flat?? which I’m assuming a good chunk is his mess? but he did not need to do that. could’ve easily left#bc there are two people still living here who would’ve had to deal with it and he doesn’t know either at all#and THEN tonight we talk abt food which is fun bc we both ordered stuff. and he offers me some honeydew melon bc he’s been gorging himself#these past two days to finish it before it goes bad/he leaves which is also really sweet#and JUST NOW. I take my headphones out after finishing dinner and hear the sweetest fucking guitar#he plays the gentlest like dreamy sounding acoustic guitar I’ve heard in my life in his room (door closed by the time I leave)#this is actually just a really cool dude#now that the kitchens clear I’m gonna cook tomorrow and will probably offer him some bc otherwise he’s gonna be eating out all weekend#he has extra takeout for tomorrow night but might want smth Sunday#regardless I am just. huh??? left a bit stunned bc of the u turn my opinion of this guy has taken. bc my opinion of him was a reflection#of my discomfort moving to this weird dirty basement flat with two people I didn’t know#well. idk where to go from here. I think I’ll start by talking to him more this weekend. bc holy fucking shit.#luke.txt
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My shrill noise adverse, light sensitive ass at the first Miku concert I've ever been to
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#I'd put the show at like a B+#But my experience was a holy shit I want to leave#I forget what it's called but I'm sure I was at that optimal distance for all the sound in the theater to come down on my head like a maul#And being up in the balcony the lights would just point directly into the back of my eyeballs#Some songs I had to close my eyes the whole time#And I took the strings from my hoodie and stuffed them in my ears or I was gonna die#My favorite part was when was when they introduced the live band and they all did solos#Immediately followed by when it ended and I got to leave
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Ended up translating more of shokujin tonight (for my own personal use/practice) and aaaaaaaaa I would die for this fic, LimDan doesn't get much but when it does its perfection, reaaad iiittttt
https://www.pixiv.net/novel/show.php?id=10263677
#infel's fate tag#sorry im gonna be annoying about it cause im going through it again#im just at the going through her head part#and not even the self-destruct device via living girl's gouged out uterus#in danzou. yes. creepiest possible way to do that and now my headcanon cause HOLY SHIT THATS GOOD#its actually a sfw fic though believe it or not just with a lot of eroticism
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I still remember back when I just finished s1 of bsd and know nothing about Fyodor and Nikolai.
I thought Fyodor looks really like Dazai,
And can tell just by looking at Nikolai’s face that he’s real bad news
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These are the two pic I saw on YouTube right after watching S1
#These 2 mfs just had to make their love everyone’s problem#Manga Nikolai ad and Nikolai is so different#ngl#fyodor is so much girlier in the manga#Bones did Fyodor so dirty#Gogol’s holy shit will forever live in my head#rent free#helicopter helicopter#istg#tye first thing Fyodor’s gonna say when he comes back to live#Will be about Jesus#Yes he’s gonna live#Even if it means the world’s gonna end#again#you can take Sigma’s body#nikolai gogol#bsd nikolai#gogol#bsd gogol#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#fyodor#fyodor dostoevsky#bsd fyodor#fyodor dostoyevsky bsd#fyolai#bungou stray dogs fyodor#bsd anime#bsd manga
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Okay crew. I have three hours to get out of my apartment and get going to my parents' house. I don't have to pack my mattress or get rid of my furniture anymore because my strong af girlfriend helped me take care of it. I just have to fit what I can into my van (not a lot) and abandon the rest. Then drive four hours. Wish me luck. I'll need it.
#when i wrote this in my head it konda sounds like a general inspiring his troops#except im both the general and the troops#oh god i have three hours to condense my life into my minivan#i took 70mg of vyvanse and i feel great. i think im gonna take 30 mg more just because i have to get rid of it#see i stole the 30mg from my brother and im about to go see him. i dont want him searching my shit and finding his own meds#its okay he only takes these meds while hes in school. and i stole them over winter break#please only take medicine that is your own. dont fuck with prescriptions that belong to other people. do as i say not as i do#holy shit im not okay#i went to my fav local coffee shop today for the last time and started tearing up while i was there#im gonna miss this place#im moving across the country to live with my sibling#and honestly i dont think its gonna be my forever home. i think this is just a much-needed adventure and change of pace#i can see myself living in this city for years and years. but im still leaving#i know i need to leave. i need to live with someone. be with family. i need to get out of my shit job. i need a new start#so itll be worth it. but i think ill probably come back here eventually. idk. but for now im leaving. i need to go#i need to go in three fucking hours
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Li'l author spotlight for all a' you'se tonight, bc I've been bingeing a bunch of their works page on AO3 and everything they've ever written is gold. Okay? Okay. Let's give it up for AO3 author ApprenticeOfDoyle:
The main fic I wanna gush about is pressure (pushing down on me), which is more or less a pathos-riddled retelling of the trilogy up until it veers hard into canon divergence--of a distinctly NaruMitsu flavor, of course. By the time the events of AA4 roll up, Phoenix has a much more prepared (and present) support network, which is just so satisfying and wonderful and ugh. Even after that point, however, it follows the outline of the canon cases closely enough that it turns into an almost 'what-if' style of fic, where the only major difference is that the Phoenix, Maya, Pearl, and Miles (and later Trucy) are all one big happy, adorable, inseparable family.
And like, that'd be enough for me already--I LOVE canon retellings, especially ones that are different in just small ways like this. But this fic also just feels so good to READ. I think in my comment on the fic I described it as "crystallized catharsis", and I stand by that. Phoenix CRIES in this fic, and he does it a LOT, and Maya and Miles and everyone else around him all cry, too, and it is AMAZING. If the author's main goal with this fic was to expand on all the moments in the games that made you think "oh wow, that was effed up, I bet the characters are effed up about what just happened", then they SUCCEEDED.
God and don't get me started on how much appreciation this author has for the Feys, or for Phoenix's sibling bond with them, or for all the trauma these characters have experienced to be given some damn breathing room so they can help each other heal...
Guh. Anyway. The fic is great. If you like it when characters cry a lot and hug a lot and talk about their feelings, this is the fic to read.
(And if you'll allow me to gush just a second longer: the first fic in the series covers from right after Dahlia's trial to the disbarment [and, spoilers: Kristoph's early defeat]. Then, there are SEQUELS, one focusing on Trucy and her adoption, and another focusing more on Apollo in this universe's version of AA4. Both are WIPs but I am salivating over both of them waiting for more, they are SO GOOD. HhhhHHHHNNNGH FAMILY!!!!)
And THEN!!!
Not part of the same 'verse as the aforementioned series (though I think it could work as a part of it no problem): a whole damn fic just retelling the events of the first Investigations game...... but if Miles and Phoenix were happily dating. It's essentially just AAI1 but Phoenix is there to freak out and give Miles hugs after all the terrible things happen lmao. It's delightful and also treats all the panic attacks and kidnapping etc with the gravity and emotion that the game failed to deliver, meaning it's an automatic win in my book. Just let them be mushy sappy boyfriends who offer comfort at each other's time of need.
And finally, because even this author's little smutty oneshots are brilliant, here's a short post-JFA get-together fic with very sweet, heartfelt dialogue, and here's a VERY funny comedy about everyone mistaking a bruise on Phoenix's neck for a hickey (and, as the tags say, Miles getting "a little bit Genghis Khan"). Delightful, delightful, delightful.
I'll stop now bc this post is too long already, but this rec has been ready to burst out of me for almost a week now and I had to write it out. Now go give these fics some love 🌻
#fic rec#Ace Attorney#Apollo is trans in that series btw. there's a little moment when he starts out at WAA that is gonna live rent free in my head from now on#where (spoilers) he asks Phoenix if the firm is LGBT friendly and Phoenix goes ''god I hope so or my husband would be so mad!''#is that not the best? holy shit gdksafhkfa#anyway. *glances back up* oh god I really did ramble didn't I. oh well I'm trying to be more effusive about the fics I like#I'm actually leaving REAL comments semi-regularly now! and I'm trying to get back into rec'ing things more regularly like I used to
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feddy movie
#EUAGH#SO FUN#okay im gonna ramble abouts spoilers in the tags heads up#dont read further if you havent seen the fnaf movie#bro when springbonnie showed up i was going nuts Its ITS FUCKCING WILLYYYYY#AND TEHENE THE I CANT BELIEVE THEY HAD THE FNAF 1 LIVING TOMBSTONE SONG AT THE END LIKE HOLY SHIT?????#it was a very fun movie. not a great one but boy its good food for longtime fnaf fans like me#i really liked how they handled the dead kids. got a lot of time with them as just. kids!!!!!!#the fact i didn’t recognize matpat right away was fucking with me. i knew his voice and fcukdibg face very well how did i miss him???#it took him saying thats just a theory and my friend pointing it out for me to notice#it was the clothes im sure#i cant beleive the cupcake was so relevant#more screentime than willy#witch i mean. sad to not see much afton but hes stinky#shoutout to the scene where he gets springlocked OUHGH#also also the animatronics looked so good???? the sound effects the way they moved!!!! the practical effevts were awesome!!!#fort scene was weird not sure what thats about but its silly :]#i cant believe they referenced dream theory chicas magic rainbow and fucking sparky the dog#uhhauhhhh i think thats it yeah#look ive been following this franchise for years i cant be normal about thts movie#its a fun movie watch in theaters to be autistic with the rest of the crowd#wabbit speaks#fnaf#fnaf movie
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first, saw the tags on the reblog. what if it's like a trick to lure someone to the belt, giving them this small taste of power or at least put into their imagination what sort of power they would have if they held the belt? either to lure in a new host or someone to break the current host down further? idk. just woke up from a nap and have no idea if that makes sense.
second, thoughts on a vampire AU fic with orangekip… but orange is the vampire and bites/feeds off of kip? something i'm considering adding to my wip list once i work out plot details
i was gonna go to bed but i have to write this down cause i will forget bUT ITS A SIREN CALL. THE BELT HAS A SIREN CALL. it will promise you the things you want beyond your wildest dreams and it differs for each holder (if we include pac, its the spot in history as the first ever holder and defender on non-us soil, for kip it promises obviously power and prestige beyond believe like he wont be underrated anymore, and with oc its about people taking him seriously finally and him actually having gold and what is reflected as good career marks in the company)
bruh im always down for a vampire au 👀 i have some thoughts but if you have ideas im not gonna throw them down right now in case i mess your ideas up lol, but yeah yell at me any time you work something out tho!!
#midnightpretenders0#belt corruption arc#i am living holy shit#i was gonna go to bed cause my head hurts and its like 4am but goddamn. GODDAMN I SAY#i cant believe the belt has a siren call....#birdhouse ✉
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It's been two years since my stay at the clinic and my BPD diagnosis....
#actually insane to think about#I wanna be proud of myself for the progress I've made since then bc. I fought hard for it#but I'm also cautios bc. I feel like I cant rest on that#kids...never underestimate your ability to do harm#treat your friends well#the part of you that is telling you that they hate you and are waiting for the chance to leave you behind as soon as possible is lying#it's a dirty liar and you deserve a kinder voice in your head#But you gotta be able to live with the fact that you're not always kind and right and a victim all at once#and it doesnt make you a monster either#also go to bed on time if you can it does wonders holy shit#what else? uhhhhh Wash your hands regularly and try to get your laundry out of the washing machine in time#dont leave it in there for days its gonna smell#also if you're making tomato sauce from scratch add a teaspoon of sugar when seasoning it trust me#none of this is coming from a soapbox pov btw#i failed at all of this#and by the time i pulled my head out of my ass to see what I was doing and how I was treating people it was too late#self hate is a weed yall it never stays were you planted it
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