#this is fucking vunerable af for me

[oncewaspure]

I spent all my spare time today making him a 5hr long playlist but in my defence I asked him for is Spotify on repeat playlist and he sent me a playlist he made back instead so I kinda had to right?

I've had a playlist made for me and honestly I thought that was cute as heck but I've never actually made a boy a proper playlist. I've made ones about relationships but never made a playlist to actually send to one.

I'm nervous. He's sleeping. He said he'd listen to it at work and I was like oh no that's an awful idea. I've not made a work appropriate playlist in my life.

Anyway it's almost like 2am and I've abandoned all responsibility.. I need balance. I need sleep.

[thebookworm0001]

I think my favorite thing about grown-up Sarah labyrinth fics is that they almost all work on the basis that while Jareth is a wily trickster bastard, Sarah finds that incredibly hot and it’s literally only her pride that keeps her from jumping him. So all the manipulation is something that the audience knows Sarah is expecting and actually wants, though she’d never say as much. So you get all the fun of a fucked up seduction with weird ass rules and none of the icky lack of consent stuff because she’s as into it as he is.

[greatnessintheemakin]

So I know ain't no one going to ever see this. But I won't care if they do. Idk mind dump.truck. Woot woot puull over that ass.. anyways. You know this person you witness here. Is not. Just not. One a predator. Two an intelligent manipulator three small dick Four short af

The list of cons can go on a on and on. And I think mainly I choose to believe it's porn that made things they way they were. What kind of porn? The one with no dialogue. Just a women doing what she was told before the shoot. Sex work me it's a crazy fun wild business to be in. And I could but would but I might. But I shouldn't. But my goodness. How could I, Inna long time coming. You motherfucker you mother fucker. You goddamn it you of all fucking people you. And why would that be such an issue motherfuccer. You got these motherfuckers wrapped around your fucking finger moyherfucker. Ain't no one gonna believe me. If nah when I or theoretically speaking Idgaf take my ass to prisoner. The breath you breathe is fuckin not ajdgaksijddvd

It's literally beyond words to explain. To illustrate my innocence stripped from me. Taken from me. Naked and vunerable. Take it all away. Goddamn what was I doing you whole ass mom be on the phone. Playing with you. Fucking getting calls saying you bout to get sum. What the fuck was it really me. Do I feel guilty goddamn I don't know.

Let me just have a conversation with you tie you by your feet have your blood rush down to the big ole brain you got.

Goddamnit look me in my fucking eyes. And fucking tell me you didn't know what the fuck you were doing ducking tell me you really seen us together. As a thing as a fucking couple who the fuck in your right mind do you think you are thinking what the fuck. Fucking tell me did you really think this shit was going to last. What the fuck man.

Imagine baby me. Lil ole me. At fucking 14 what the fuck was I doing. Trying to tell you. What the fuck. Tell you no fucker goddamnnnit send me yo the deep dark firey pits I don't give a fuck the language doesn't have enough words sounds emotions to even. But really me telling it all. Playing out all the cards that hmm we been dealt. That you fucking played. What the fuck me. You can't expect me to believe you. I love you. Fuck you mean. The fuck does that mean. And so your fucking point. And fuck different does that shit make really what fucking difference does it make that you have made some fucked up connection in your mind. It's ok whatever the fuck is going on is ok. It right socially acceptable. Your my little secret and that's not how the fuck we gon keep it.

I wish. Literally wished you would have drowned yourself. Let your ass lay in the fucking tub and stay there. Inhaling water. Wish I was there is witness. The weight on my shoulders would feel ten truck loads of kilos lifted off my back.

No more chains. But yet again

The fuck. Why do I feel not all resentment towards you what the fuck.

I just want to be clear I never really came with you. Ok some real shit. I thought if I keep moaning you would have stopped.

GODDAMN it damn me damn me. Damn me. Do you know what the fuck it's like to lie. To not say a damn thing for a decade do you know. Do you?

" let me go pickup Sasha show her I got a license."

" let me give her the aux cord "

" let me let her groom Mee fix your eyebrows."

"let me ruin her, let me use her ass practice."

"let me use her"

And all this fucking time I've never really seen your dick. Really really really it went in me. Safe sex always. Did you feel great did you finish. This niggaa used a whole flashlight to see the booty bounce. You didn't fuck me. If you did I would have came everywhereee all the places. That's how I know I never came with you. Next your fucking sister. While she sleep there what the fuck

Shall I continue. Or it is too much.

Got a checklist to see who.. . ... ... ..

Bitches and hoes. Eating all her food did you pick up to kids and your ain't shit friends

I just man just the possibility you could do the same to what spawn you created. Goddamn. Goddamn gooddamn

[multapohja966]

i just fucking remembered how slaöalnaamqö how every time my childhood friend and first love rode me home when we were like 15/16 we’d always talk until it got deep dark or long enough for the night to turn into morning and his calves would get cold af and he’d shiver and i’d shiver but we just continued to sit in weird positions on his ATV and get real vunerable. i remember every time i just had to say goodbye to him. I legit do not know what we were. i was a fucking mess back then but i do not understand how i couldn’t confess to him its still the most romantic thing in my life and nowadays i cant even say i know him anymore. we stopped keeping in contact little over a year ago and its just.. i dont romantically love him anymore but we shared our whole childhoods. i will always fucking love him as a part of my life. its always going to be him if i think about people i miss. me being trans made things weird im more stressed around him and so so dysphoric but fuck i miss him. i should text him ah fuck i don’t know which one of us it was who fucked it up. I hope it wasn’t me