#this is an actual convo i've had
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thevoidstaredback · 3 months ago
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Person: Omg, your hair is so long!
Me: Thanks! I've been growing it out for a while
Person: How do you keep from sitting on it?
Me: It's actually not quite long enough to actually sit on, but I usually have it up-
Person: Like, how to you wear it when you're in the bathroom or something?"
Me: ..It's normally tied up to sit on my shoulders instead of my lower back.
Person: But what about when it's down?
Me: Then I throw it over my shoulder..? Why is this relavent?
Person: Are you gonna dye it again?
Me: Soon, hopefully
Person: Why don't you dye it every few months?
Me: Because I don't get paid enough for that
Person: Oh. How much does this job pay?
Me: Depending on the venue, anywhere from $10 to $16 an hour, out home venue paying the lowest
Person: Have you thought about getting another job?
Me: I've been looking, yeah
Person: Why not just get a new job?
Me: I'm trying to get a second one
Person: Just get a better paying job
Me: I know, but the job market is shit right now
Person: You young people just don't want to work!
Me: I'm trying to get a second job with 4 years experience and no degree. People aren't exactly lining up to hire me
Person: Then go to school and get a degree! You're good at your job, so not having a degree is the only thing stopping you
Me: I can't go to school; it's too expensive
Person: Then get a better paying job and pay your way through
Me: *screams*
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utilitycaster · 7 months ago
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You know what's interesting to me? For all people keep claiming at every juncture that perhaps Bells Hells will come around on the gods and see the harm they do (which, as discussed extensively, is, half the time, simply not intervening) not only have they never done so, but also they never quite cross the line into saying the party should join the Ruby Vanguard or aid them - and indeed, they defend against it - so what does this achieve? It feels like they're asking for a story in which the party stands idly by, which isn't much of a story nor, if I may connect this briefly to the real world, a political stance anyone should be proud of.
That's honestly the frustration with the gods and the "what if the Vanguard has a point" conversations in-game. What do we do then? Do we allow the organization that will murder anyone for pretty much any reason that loosely ties into their goals run rampant? The group that (perhaps unwittingly, but then again, Otohan's blades had that poison) disrupted magic world-wide, and caused people who had the misfortune to live at nexus points to be teleported (most, as commoners, without means of return). While also fomenting worldwide unrest?
Those were the arguments before the trip to Ruidus; with the reveal of the Vanguard's goals to invade Exandria, the situation becomes even more dire. Do you let the Imperium take over the planet?
And do the arguments against the gods even hold up? If Ludinus is so angry at them for the Calamity, what does it say that he destroyed Western Wildemount's first post-Calamity society for entirely selfish means? (What does it say about the validity of vengeance as a motivator?) What does it say that Laudna told Imogen she could always just live in a cottage quietly without issue before the solstice even happened? (Would this still be true if the Imperium controls the world?) What does it say that when faced with a furious, grieving party and the daughter she keeps telling herself was her reason for all of this, Liliana can't provide an answer to the question of what the gods have done other than that their followers will retaliate...for, you know, the Vanguard's endless list of murders. (That is how the Vanguard and Imperium tend to think, huh? "How dare your face get in the way of my boot; how dare you hit me back when I strike you.") She can't even provide a positive answer - why is Predathos better - other than "I feel it", even though Imogen and Fearne know firsthand that Predathos can provide artificial feelings of elation. Given all the harm Ludinus has done in pursuit, why isn't the conclusion "the gods should have crashed Aeor in such a way that the tech was unrecoverable?"
Even as early as the first real discussion on what the party should do, the fandom always stopped short of saying "no, Imogen's right, they should join up with the people who killed half the party," it was always "no, she didn't really mean it, she just was trying to connect with her mother." Well, she's connected with her mother, and at this point the party doesn't even care about the gods particularly (their only divinely-connected party member having died to prevent the Vanguard from killing all of them). So they will stop the Vanguard; as Ashton says, the means are unforgiveable. As Laudna says, it's not safe to bet on Predathos's apathy. As Imogen says, she's done running; the voice that she used to think of as a lifeline belongs to someone she doesn't trust. So I guess my question is: if they're stopping the people who are trying to kill the gods (and defense of the gods isn't remotely their personal motivation)...do you think the next phase of the campaign is Bells Hells personally killing the gods? Reconstructing the Aeor tech and hoping none of their allies notice? How does this end? Does your ideology ever get enacted? Or is this entirely moot and pointless and the story ends with Bells Hells saying "well, I'm really glad we stopped the people who [insert list of Vanguard atrocities from above]; none of us follow the gods or plan to, but honestly, the status quo we return to is preferable to whatever nightmare Ludinus had concocted in his violent quest for power and revenge"?
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bunnihearted · 2 months ago
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being too weird and unlikable and off putting and always being shunned and turned into an outcast everywhere i go and not having felt the connection and healing friendship has on you for so many years has really done a number on me
#irl mostly. but even online. i cannot connect or find communities or support systems the way most of u can#even if i do have found great connections and one connection in particular im more than grateful for#but i have had so much of my humanness torn off for so long that i am awkward and useless in handling it#but yeah idk :/ im just so profoundly jealous of how everyone can just fit into a slot#even online when ppl talk abt being anxious and stuff they still have ppl to talk to#or ppl irl to hang out with and im like.. wow... i cant even do that :/#it is just so lonely in general. and it has made me confused and incapable of knowing how to be a human#and fully realise and actualize the one connection i do have#if i had gotten to learn and now know how to be a human and a person i would've... been a person#but now i feel so removed and far away from that idek how...#like im at a point where i cant even have simple and shallow conversations online bc im like so useless#maybe only other ppl with avpd and who have been socially rejected and isolated and alienated can fully understand what i mean#it is so scary and weird and i feel such deep envy for how people can just like... talk to eo. irl and online. i dont get it#and like the connection i do have that i mention bc it is so important to me.. that does all of those things#but it is like im so not used to anyone even keep wanting to have a connection with me#that i feel like bambi on ice 💀 for lack of a better metaphor#and inside of me idk how to dare to open up to it bc i've been numb and shut off i just dont know#i dont know. but i want to but idk how.#ahhhhhh wanna scream bc just trying to describe it so i can make sense of it is frustrating!!!!#it also sucks bc other ppl really dont seem to get how fkn weird and scary it is to feel so removed from humanness#and not even be able to do most basic human people things most ppl who are mentally ill or anxious do.. i cant even do that idk#talking and communicating is the main thing like ppl do not understand how fkn hard it is for me to even have a simple convo#and i cant explain it bc theres no way someone who doesnt feel the same and have avpd could get it...#but idk. i just hate all of this and i wish i had a normal functioning brain. i just wanna be like everyone else#even ppl w social anxiety are capable of having friends. and im terrified of losing the only connection i've somehow been lucky to get#in my hands??? im so scared of losing that but idk HOW to be a person and idk!!! idk!!#other ppl dont even think abt these things im so fkn jealous lmao#anyway whatever 😔
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cuubism · 1 year ago
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hello friends. despite my 9 million existing dreamling wips i'm feeling the need to branch out a bit for the sake of my mental variety. what pairing other than dreamling should i write a little something for? could be romantic or platonic
other way of phrasing i guess: any pairings you really want to see more fics for in the fandom?
#i actually do have one someone asked me for ages ago i've been meaning to get to so i'll try to do that too#bonus points if it still involves dream bc you know i love dream XD#probably wont do any romantic pairings /between/ the endless because well yeah#but open to exploring pretty much anything else... feel free to send whatever if you want. dont worry about if i'll like it#if i can't vibe with it or find it uncomfy i just won't write it no harm no foul#not me soliciting little prompts fully knowing that motivation is a fickle beast and who knows if i would get to writing them XD i want#to though! or like. idk. if anyone wants to share headcanons about their favorite pairings i am happy to receive them#the sandman#a couple that are bouncing around my head already:#rose meeting desire. this could be really interesting i think (they are of course her grandparent)#calliope and lucienne post-calliope's imprisonment: i think their dynamic could be interesting since they both have/had close relationships#with dream. but of course calliope's relationship with him fell apart. i think lucienne with whatever context of it she had would probably#be sympathetic to calliope's perspective but still staunchly On Dream's Side so the speak bc she is ultimately very loyal to him... could b#an interesting convo.#additionally - calliope and johanna. both suffered things recently. both had curious interactions with dream where they recently saw both#his vicious side AND a kinder more understanding side of him... [dream gave rachel a peaceful death at johanna's request etc]#but they've come out of their suffering really differently (granted it was different types of suffering. but)#wow here i am asking for people's ideas and then just coming up with my own XD#anyway#wait two others: i'm fascinated by the potential dynamic of lucienne and the corinthian they only had like one short scene together in the#show but can you imagine. spending eons being loyal to dream and then going opposite directions with that loyalty. being among dream's inne#circle so to speak except lucienne is her own entity while corinthian was /created/ by dream. they have the most fascinating venn diagram o#personality traits and narrative positions...#secondly. and this is kind of crack. but like. imagine johanna and corinthian in the same room XD 'hi i'm an exorcist and this is my pet#serial killer' 'yeah my lord gave me a vacation to go kill some demons' why doesn't he try to kill johanna? bc she tried to destroy him#first time they met and he can't help but respect it XD
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shitpostingfromthebarricade · 11 months ago
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Just realized that only 14 of the 101 fics I have published since 2018 pass the Bechdel Test, keep me in your prayers.
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marc--chilton · 6 months ago
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(mgv) when adam goes into labor with his and lawrence's pup, he's sent into one of the worst panic attacks he's had in months. he had managed all other appointments beforehand well enough but when the time finally comes, he totally freaks out, remembering how awful it was to be there after the trap, his only visitor having been scott of all people -- whatever frail hope he had of the alpha being even remotely kind to him after everything was dashed within minutes. his instincts are screaming at him to hole up at home, burrow into every blanket and towel and bathroom rug they have, and just pup there. lawrence, who is alarmed but not surprised that adam tries to convince him to let them stay home, realizes very quick that he has to maintain composure if he wants to get through to adam when he's like this.
"don't make me go back there, lawrence," adam had sobbed, "please, i can't-- i can't do it--"
and lawrence holds him as close as he can, forcing his own feelings (sympathy, excitement, nervousness) down long enough to push soothing notes into his scent. "breathe, sweetheart. you can do this. you made it out of that hellhole scared, i promise this will be so much easier than that. you're so brave, adam. you might not think so right now but you are. i'll be right beside you the whole time. you can do this."
luckily lawrence had the foresight to bring their hospital bag out to the car days ago because when adam does calm down enough to follow lawrence's lead, their steps are unsteady, both of them off-balance.
the trip itself is a quieter affair. adam is still panicking, one arm locked with lawrence's and the other wrapped around himself to try to find relief. he almost wants to spring from the car even though they're making good time -- it's an ungodly hour so traffic isn't as bad as it could be.
then lawrence speaks up. "almost there, sweetheart, just a bit longer." and adam whines because he's doing his best, but when he looks over he finds lawrence glancing at his belly instead of him. "we can't wait to meet you."
he was talking to their pup.
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horsemage · 6 months ago
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I think we should bring back basic etiquette lessons such as shutting the fuck up when you’re watching a movie in a group that is not exclusively your friend group 🙂
#welcome to another Mick Airs Out Their Grievances and by god is it a VERY long one#prob best if u don't expand the tags#am I being maybe a bit meaner about this than I would be for any other movie? maybe but pac rim is one of my favorite movies of all time#so I think I get a pass on this one.#one of the groups on campus is hosting movie nights & I went to this one bc I've only ever watched pac rim on my laptop and wanted to watch#it on a larger screen. yay yippee I love this movie!#there r maybe 10-ish of us in this room and a three person friend group is sitting on the couch one of whom has seen the movie and two who#have not. okay so far so normal.#and then the movie starts and they won't! stop! fucking! commentating! the whole fucking movie!!! I don't have a problem with doing that#when I'm in just my friend group because I know that I can tell my friend to stop talking or pause the movie or whatnot but not when I'm in#a large group w people I'm not good friends with ffs#and the comments aren't even funny or anything they're all oh this is JUST like in iron widow!! oh they're SO gay and autistic!!! and#they're talking so loud about this that it completely drowns out the movie audio which has already been turned up a few times#like. be considerate!! some of us want to yknow actually listen to what's going on and not whatever bullshit you're saying#I nearly walked out three or four times before I actually wound up doing so#I may have been a bit of a bitch at the end but I don't care. I got up to leave because this was not an enjoyable environment and one of#them offered to turn the movie down if it was too loud. this caught me a bit off guard since I expected them to still be so wrapped up in#their convo and. well. I may have said 'it's not the movie that's too loud' before closing the door#this also reminds me a lot about my issues with online shipping culture and it bleeding through into how we interact with media irl#this is probably heavily influenced by my aromanticism but I'm so sick of people constantly reading romantic relationships into everything#AND placing more importance on those relationships than any other form. I don't mind romance in media. I think if done right it has great#emotional impact on a story but when a movie is running and when other people who may not want to hear it are in the room watching it too#is not the time to be loudly saying 'he's autistic!' 'they're in love!' 'she has a crush on him!'#I have my own interpretations of the movie some of which agree with what they said and some of which don't but that's beside the point of#knowing how to coexist politely in public#anyway. I think they were awful and annoying and they ruined my night out.#I think I'm just so incredibly mad about this because I love the movie and I was looking forward to watching it in a group of people who#found it cool as well while still having some modicum of politeness#I almost wish I had been meaner but that's the extreme annoyance talking I think#hater hour over love u guys bye
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sskk-manifesto · 7 months ago
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#I'm a bit late but :)#Mmmhh lots of thoughts about this episode. Nothing really relevant though lol#I like it... Mostly. Well‚ I like Atsushi‚ and I like Atsushi screentime.#I always forget that there's actually a one week timeskip within the Guild arc#I think these chapters were generally better executed in the manga.#But even then it's just...#Why do the make the Guild / Fitzgerald so. dumb. Why do they make them act so wildly irrationally and at the protagonists' advantage#It really gives villain acting entirely mindlessly to make the plot advance and the heroes win. It's really sensless.#I mean especially when Atsushi yielded. Why didn't Fitzgerald take his offer. For real!!#For real. He had NOTHING to gain from proceeding with his plan. He already obtained for Atsushi and the ada to collaborate.#Now they are NEVER going to help him‚ and that's agreat loss for him.#And idk. i hear that little Tumblr post in my voice saying “why would you complain about characters acting irrationally!#Do people irl never act irrationally?”#And yeah I get Fitzgerald was frustrated for losing Mitchell and his fight with Hawthorne. Okay I understand.#But that's definitely too much. That's him acting downright stupid at the heroes' advantage and it's just pretty underwhelming to read?#That said. It's just general notes I'm not particularly annoyed because like. That's just b/s/d to you. Dumbing down the villains a second–#so the author can escape the trap they put themselves into. Very Marvel-esque move lol.#On that exact same note WHY WOULD LUCY HAVE THE DOLL.#The doll is the whole premise for your plan working why would you not protect it with everything 😭😭😭#I'm not getting in the Lucy / Atsushi scene itself. I love Lucy but I swear every time that scene gets played a femminist dies#(it's me. I'm the femminist dying every time.)#Mmmhh a couple more things. I dislike the ost choice in the scene where Steinbeck is torturing Q it feels so out of place#And I really don't get what's the deal with the Hawthorne / Fitzgerald convo it's so confusing to me. Like it It looks like Hawtorne is–#blaming Fitzgerald for Mitchell's condition (both in health and for her family status) but...#Objectively neither of those things are Fitzgerald's fault? Idk maybe I just have very little media comprehension for this arc because–#a lot of things just seem to happen with no sense. But it's okay#Im complaining a lot lol but its mostly irrelevant things (or like with the dumbification of villains things I've learnt to live with lmao)#But the episode was generally nice. The animation this season is consistently very pretty.#random rambles
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sinestrosmind · 8 months ago
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I said it before and I'll say it again; I love reading the tags people add when they reblog my art bc a lot of them have me WHEEZING
while I can't respond to all of them, I've picked one recent one bc it also has a little detail that sadly had to be hidden bc of placement within the scene
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@peachiexparfait (sorry for the @ lmao) yep! Donnie's got a tail! Leo got one too, but the pizza box was in the way lmao
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didn't pay much attention to anything that was going to be hidden by the table so that's why Leo's legs might look off lmaooo
I don't have a post-movie ref yet, but here's one of the profiles from my specific Donnie's full ref sheet; specifically the spider shell one since that's the one he's wearing in the Slime Comic(tm), showing his shell, tail length, and tail markings
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ghcstcd · 2 years ago
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I'm actually not attracted to people physically. People are pretty, just in general. I find beauty in everyone. But like actual attraction? Desire? Wanting to be with someone? It takes their voice, it takes personality, connection, in order for me to feel attracted to someone.
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halflingkima · 5 months ago
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today was my first day back at work since thursday and turns out: i missed a covid outbreak (outbreak being 3 positive cases within 7 days)
apparently my body goes into Mayday mode if my allergies are triggered rn bc my sinuses aren't clear yet and body can't handle both at once
started my period at work and can't take meds for it bc it'll interact with the cold meds
coworker used my one direction shirt to tell me about her son's death metal band (which i am interested in, it was just a wild turn of conversation)
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moe-broey · 4 months ago
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I CANNOT BE DOING THIS. THIS IS NOT WHAT I INTENDED TO DO. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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bunnihearted · 4 months ago
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#i try to be fine and just accept reality#and to think abt other things and just practice letting go#but omg sometimes i get these intense waves of longing#and missing him so so bad. & it hurts in a way where i feel so anxious and almost panicky#bc he's like alive and out there but i still cant tell him i miss him even#and even if i dont want to lose him in the way i am it is out of my hands completely#but him as a person and everything he is hurts sm to miss out on and lose#idk .. those waves of missing him just hit me smack in the face#even after a day of me being like im ok it's fine i will just go on it is what it is#but it is crazy bc there is not a second of the day i dont think abt him...#idk what to do i know it's insane but?????#i've tried to think abt it but like actually i dont understand.....#why is it all i can think abt constantly?????? :(((((#it esp suck when i cannot actually take these feelings anywhere but have to try to find a way to kill them#ughhh this has taken over my life... like actually from the first convo we had...#since then i haven been able to go a few hours without thinking abt him#and clearly theres smth wrong w me bc who does this??????#but idk what to do :((( it just hurts and sucks and im trying to do all the things youre supposed to#but yah like now i just suddenly freaked out bc im like omg wtf how am i supposed to live without him in my life at all???????#hes the most amazing person and even if i dont get to know him the way i wanna.. dont i get to know him at all anymore???? bc i csnt take i
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navree · 4 months ago
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glad you incorporated the infection aspect of aemond's trauma, because it's easy to forget since the show glossed over it, but there would've definitely been some kind of fever from a wound that severe! the show made a point of focusing on viserys' health deteriorating from being cut on the throne, but no one (aside from alicent) stopped to consider that aemond's health could've been on the decline from losing a freaking eye. oof! really appreciate the spotlight you gave it. ❤️
Yeah this is something I've been harping on for a while here on my blog. Aemond has a massive wound, which would take time to heal, in a period where infectious bacteria was rampant, and there was no adequate way to treat it. And considering that Viserys loses a hand whenever he gets a paper cut from the Iron Throne, it likely was a very legitimate concern that, with their limited medical capabilities, the massive cut being exposed to open air and likely taking a long time to heal would get infected, and could lead to further health complications or even death if it healed badly. Even nowadays, someone getting a massive facial wound like that would need to be really really careful to make sure it didn't get infected.
This is something I think a lot of people fail to consider about Aemond's injury and his feelings about it. It's not just that he got a painful injury for no reason, though that's enough for someone to be mad. It is that he then had a very long and likely slow recovery period, with a constant concern that he could sicken or even die from it. And then, because of the nature of his injury (losing an eye), he had to relearn how to do practically everything. His depth perception was permanently altered, so he had to relearn how to navigate in the world, how to fight, how to move, literally how to walk. Aemond is half blind now, and has been since the age of ten, and had to completely re-acclimate to the world and how to operate in it. And yeah, on top of that, at least a year was spent being very worried that he could catch any kind of disease as a result of the exposure the wound had to open air and how nonexistent medicine was, which could literally kill him. It's a miracle it didn't, and it's a miracle that he was able to adjust as well as he apparently has.
And that's why Aemond was entirely within his rights to be mad at Luke and demand at minimum an apology and some kind of restitution, and honestly Vhagar eating him was still too good for that kid.
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piplupod · 5 months ago
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it seems i have forgotten how to de-stress and decompress. how does one go about doing that. i feel like i have millions of things to do and all of them need to be done asap and there is just zero brainspace to like... chill the fuck out for a bit 😭😭😭
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candlelitutopia · 7 months ago
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I need to break up with my boyfriend. Fuck.
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