#as long as they were having a post b&c convo

[navree]

glad you incorporated the infection aspect of aemond's trauma, because it's easy to forget since the show glossed over it, but there would've definitely been some kind of fever from a wound that severe! the show made a point of focusing on viserys' health deteriorating from being cut on the throne, but no one (aside from alicent) stopped to consider that aemond's health could've been on the decline from losing a freaking eye. oof! really appreciate the spotlight you gave it. ❤️

Yeah this is something I've been harping on for a while here on my blog. Aemond has a massive wound, which would take time to heal, in a period where infectious bacteria was rampant, and there was no adequate way to treat it. And considering that Viserys loses a hand whenever he gets a paper cut from the Iron Throne, it likely was a very legitimate concern that, with their limited medical capabilities, the massive cut being exposed to open air and likely taking a long time to heal would get infected, and could lead to further health complications or even death if it healed badly. Even nowadays, someone getting a massive facial wound like that would need to be really really careful to make sure it didn't get infected.

This is something I think a lot of people fail to consider about Aemond's injury and his feelings about it. It's not just that he got a painful injury for no reason, though that's enough for someone to be mad. It is that he then had a very long and likely slow recovery period, with a constant concern that he could sicken or even die from it. And then, because of the nature of his injury (losing an eye), he had to relearn how to do practically everything. His depth perception was permanently altered, so he had to relearn how to navigate in the world, how to fight, how to move, literally how to walk. Aemond is half blind now, and has been since the age of ten, and had to completely re-acclimate to the world and how to operate in it. And yeah, on top of that, at least a year was spent being very worried that he could catch any kind of disease as a result of the exposure the wound had to open air and how nonexistent medicine was, which could literally kill him. It's a miracle it didn't, and it's a miracle that he was able to adjust as well as he apparently has.

And that's why Aemond was entirely within his rights to be mad at Luke and demand at minimum an apology and some kind of restitution, and honestly Vhagar eating him was still too good for that kid.

[widowshill]

r/v live reaction collection [78, 79, 102, 97]

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

i still can't get over my roommate implying i was autistic and my friend pulling out her phone to show me the "i'm like if a beautiful woman was an autistic little boy" meme that she'd been saving for the occasion someone acknowledged it

[sgiandubh]

The trouble with Stravaigin'

This pic is currently making the rounds on Tumblr and X, and for all the good reasons (thank you @mariaae, for bringing it here):

After a rather busy week and an even busier week-end, it's certainly nice to check in for this 👆.

Funny how the dunces across the street dub this a 'wrap party combo' of sorts. Oh, come on, are you that stupid, people?

Jamie Roy's OG post is absolutely clear with this regard:

'Thank you @thevinepr for having us at @stravaigin_g12's 30th Birthday.' An event that is directly linked to this very recent Stravaigin's announcement, that has to do exclusively with S's spirits' business:

'In an announcement that will delight the legions of whisky lovers who have been demanding its addition to Stravaigin’s renowned drinks menu, The Sassenach @sassenachspirits by @samheughan is today confirmed as joining the bar’s Scotch whisky offering as a permanent fixture 🥃. (...)

Stravaigin's Olivia Wong - Scotland's Bar Manager of the Year says: “We are thrilled to welcome The Sassenach to Stravaigin. We are all big fans of Sam and his Scotch whisky here at Stravaigin and know excitement levels will be running high with our patrons, as we announce it is becoming a permanent addition to our drinks menu.'

Note to self: this is something Marple 'forgot' to post about, despite her all-consuming obsession for S. Without this information, the rest was presented as just another heavy drinking sesh. Tss, shame on you, madam! Is this where you're at? Lying to your readers, in an attempt to demonstrate: a) S is a highly-functioning alcoholic (by your reasoning, half of the UK might be, ROFLMAO) and b) Ashley Hearn is a lazy, entitled idiot, who spends her time in bars chatting and drinking with her buddies?

Lying by omission is either a mortal sin (when made with the purpose of hurting someone's reputation) or a venial one (when 'in jest', like the Screeching Banshees pretend to do). But I have no idea if that woman is a Catholic, nor do I care. Either way, it's unsavory as fuck. So long for playing it Switzerland, in here.

All of the above to emphatically (LOL for ages) say that this event has nothing to do with Outlander. This has everything to do with Sam Roland Heughan and his own, local business network. This is exactly why Jamie Roy was thanking the organizing PR firm (more on this, a bit later in this post).There were zero reasons for C to be there that night, something that has been confirmed by fans on X:

Interesting: 'took a picture with them'. In the context, people were wondering if there were pics with the Two of Them, not the rest of the cast. But hey, didn't you know? THEY CAN'T STAND EACHOTHER, NEVER COULD!

And there we go, we have the arrival video (why does it always have to be Brazilian fans directly or indirectly involved? that is a mystery on par with who killed JFK, LOL):

And here we have it, courtesy of @maripimpao, the OG X poster (https://x.com/Mari_pimpao/status/1850588095046971487?t=p3_lv013WuINhA085ayr4A&s=19).

... S arriving separately, as predictible, probably on his own (fucking Tumblr doesn't let me upload more than one video, but you'll find everything on the X page above), then C and Skeleton (God, that girl must KNOW stuff!) together - not surprised at all, either:

A normal convo ensues, C stating that she feels 'both happy and sad' because Friday was their last day ever on set. I was very surprised by her genuine warmth, to be honest, as I wasn't expecting it, but it is in line with public lore on her being spotted before by fans.

A word on The Vine PR company. This is one of the biggest PR firms in Scotland and even the UK, with a very nice portfolio of clients, partners and events they manage on the regular:

Oh...

And re-oh...

So, there should come as no surprise to find, among The Vine's clients (for whom it managed flagship events), two of LVMH's portfolio companies/brands: Moët & Chandon and Glenmorangie. I also remember being ridiculed, as writing fanfic, by both Marple and her minions. Well, eat crow now, I have been announcing it for a year, already, for both of them. Not once, but three times in a row.

One...

Two...

Third time's a charm/Jamais deux sans trois:

Business-wise, this is about the amount of time it takes to make things of this amplitude happen. Wait, I forgot that business was bound to flounder, sweet Baby Jesus on a motorbike!

On top of it all, I have some very inconvenient, yet rhetorical questions (for the people across the street, a rhetorical question is supposed to make a point, not wait for an answer):

What about McTavish's spirits business? Still in promo mode, bought medals, and all the tralala? Hmmm.

What about Tony McGill? Why isn't he seen at any event at all, in the music business or otherwise, like ever? Isn't he supposed to manage (Media Manager, my 🦶) a Scottish band? Where was he, on Friday night? How does he even do business? Hmmm.

Oh, FFS.

[lexosaurus]

I worked as a substitute teacher for a few years and one day I helped sub in an 8th grade science class. They were doing math like speed=distance/time. But they had a...really odd method for it. That I commented on because I'd never heard of it before.

And the teacher was straight up like "Oh yeah, this makes it really easy for them to do it for the tests. But its going to really fuck them up next year when they are in high school because they won't understand how to reverse the division. But that's not my problem."

And that comment has lived in my head so much. Like, she just did NOT care that the method was bad in the long run. She just needed them to pass the state test that year.

Also, it's literally a very basic formula, what do you MEAN?

Ohhhhh yeah. That's not exactly the issue in my district, as funding for us isn't directly tied to our state exam scores (thank god). Mine is dealing with both grade inflation and no grades below high school. So kids don't want to learn things if they're not graded on the material. Which is fair, honestly, as I also would not have wanted to learn things I didn't like if I wasn't given a grade or any consequences for not knowing it either. Mine's also dealing with a lot of the "memorization bad" thing that's going around, hence why the kids are entering high school not knowing any of their times tables. They just used a calculator their entire lives. They have NO concept of what numbers mean.

Like, at the start of the year, I asked one of my classes what 2 + 0 was and I got about thirty seconds of 15 kids shouting every number except 2. Which was sort of wild to witness.

At the start of the year, we did a week of review and then we had all the freshmen take a quiz of 7th and 8th grade level easy math problems as a sort of wake up call for them. No quiz corrections either, which they've never not been allowed to retake a test before...

The class average was a C-. Unsurprisingly.

Content Teacher warned me right before she posted the grades, and I spent a LOT of time that afternoon talking the kids down from a metaphorical ledge.

Lots of angry parent phone calls, too, but the math department held firm. The students HAVE to know how to solve this stuff. They NEED to know their basic times tables, they NEED to know how basic fractions work, they NEED to know how to rearrange one-step equations.

After that, we had our Very Frank Class Discussion about how they felt about their education. They felt very frustrated and unprepared, which we validated as we're also frustrated that they're so unprepared. But we were honest about other things. We told them that they couldn't get by just sitting there on their phone and copying the answers off the key anymore. We aren't going to reward an A for minimal effort. Yes, you have to take notes, and yes, you have to follow along with classroom example of problems or you won't pass the class. The students are responsible for their education, we all offer extra help, all our emails are open, all they need to do is ask and we'll never turn them away. But they do need to start taking advantage of all the learning opportunities/supports they have now.

Honestly, I'm so glad we had that convo with them. Felt like they got to vent a lot of their frustrations, and they realized that we were here to push them, but we're NOT their enemy. All our students have a study hall block, and if they come to one of our rooms for even 10 minutes out of the entire hour, we will help them however they need.

A lot of my Freshmen have been really really good about coming for extra help, or emailing and asking if they can stop by for a few minutes to do a few homework problems 1-1 with me.

(And yes, for those worried, while we didn't let them retake that first quiz, two weeks later we did give them another assessment after on the same material, but with slightly harder problems and worth more points. Class average was a B!)

I tried to keep this short, but I guess I had a lot to say aksjnfksjdnkajn

[mbakuetshurisprincess]

Love for Duty’s Sake Part 5

AN: Hello loves! Wow when I tell y’all I was FIGHTING in the editing room with this fic because I couldn’t tell if I should split this in half or not. I ended up just keeping it as one because I felt bad for ignoring democracy (sorry lyric) and posting Anything But Love P2 before I posted this one. A couple of fun facts about this fic because I literally have nowhere else to put them lmfao. In the convo with Griot, the reason Y/N’s argument works on him is because it follows a valid rule within arguments/logic called Hypothetical Syllogism. Basically, If A leads to B and B leads to C then you can correctly assume that A should also lead to C. Google it if you’re interested! Also, in writing Shuri’s interactions (esp the “in my wife's name” parts) it's like very heavily inspired by the way Dracula talks about Lisa Tepes in the Castlevania show!! 

Holy fuck don’t know how I could ever forget this. As always, any of my fake dating stuff is dedicated to the lovely @pinkwright. This is my writer bae y’all have no idea, L4DS and ABL posts are always made with them in mind. 

Summary: As the only daughter of Genelia, there were things you just had to do, and marrying the Queen of Wakanda was one of those things.

Pairing: Shuri x Fem!Reader

Warnings: Cussing, violence, brief mentions of bad relationships with parents that’s it I think.

Word count: 6,213 (you see why I was thinking about splitting it up now??)

Part 1.  Part 2.  Part 3.  Part 4.  Masterlist.  Taglist.

Suggested listening: Glock Six (Bonus) - 6LACK 

“No need to state the obvi', I be close to your heart I know you looking for real love I got my hand on my Glock, posted on the block I might just let off a shot, at anyone tryin' to kill her”

The feeling of your body sliding off of your wife and onto the hospital pillow below you was the first hint that something was off. You knew Shuri didn’t mean to be so rough with you, even if you hadn’t been injured. She just hopped off of the bed quicker than her mind could remember that you were laying back on her. Only when you grimaced slightly did Shuri think enough to look back at you. 

“Ndicela uxolo sthandwa sam (I’m sorry my love).” She muttered to you softly, scanning your body just long enough to ensure that you weren’t really hurt before turning her attention to Aneka. “When was this posted?” 

“Ten minutes ago.” 

Shuri took a deep inhale, rereading the post. “How did she even know about the shooting to post?” 

The question was impossible for Aneka to answer, knowing something like that wasn’t necessarily in her job description. You, however? You were used to political moves like this. “She knows because the shooting happened in her city Shuri.” 

“What?” Shuri turned to face you.

“I’m just saying, if something goes down in the Golden City, you’re made aware right? The same thing goes for DC. Especially on a day like today, foreign powers come into town. I’m sure she was all over it.” As you spoke, wheels started turning in your head, the scenario surrounding the events of your shooting. Everything was almost too perfect like it had been orchestrated. 

“Listen to what you just said Y/N, I’m notified when something happens in the Golden City, not you. So why would she be the one posting about this instead of the President?” Shuri’s tone was harsher than you would have liked, posing the question to you as if you were a child misunderstanding basic math. 

You sat up in your bed. “Because President Carter isn’t leading the show, Mallory is.” 

“Why would you say that?” 

“Because I know it’s true.” You folded your arms across your chest, starting to get annoyed at Shuri’s refusal to see what was clearly right in front of her. “Do you not trust me?” 

The question was loaded and the Queen’s response came instinctually, “The question is not if I trust you, we are married of course I trust you. But you make it increasingly harder to trust you when you put forth ideas like that.” Shuri mimicked your position, crossing her arms over herself. 

Her response stung and the look on your face made Shuri regret saying it immediately. “I did not mean-” 

You cut Shuri off, not wanting to hear what she had to say. “Nope. You said it. What do I know anyway? Not like I come from a family of politicians who would make this exact same move given the chance.” You turned your attention from where Shuri and Aneka stood back to the tv, effectively disengaging from the conversation. 

Warning signals were going off in Shuri’s head and she knew she fucked up. Taking one more look at the screen she made her way back over to your bed. Kneeling next to you and taking your hand in hers. “I am sorry, sthandwa sam. (my love) I didn't mean to brush off your idea like that.  Your attention still faced forward but the Queen could feel the race in your heart rate when her thumb traced over the lines of your knuckles. 

The silent treatment you were giving Shuri was frustrating her, if she had just slowed down as Okoye said, she would've thought about what she was saying before she said it. “I promise I will make it up to you-”

The buzz of Shuri’s kimoyo beads pulled her attention away from you and her apology. 

Speak of the devil and she shall appear.

It was a message from Okoye letting her know that they had all made it back safely to Wakanda and that Liam Drockers was in the lower-level interrogation rooms. Aneka must’ve gotten a similar message from Ayo because when she made eye contact with Shuri, she gave her a knowing nod as she left the room. 

“I will make this up to you… when I am free again.” The end of the sentence tumbled slowly out of Shuri’s mouth, knowing it was going to garner a reaction from you. 

“What?” Instead of your voice sounding angry like the Queen had expected, it almost sounded more hurt or scared. This new tone pulled at Shuri’s heartstrings. “You’re leaving?” 

While yes, you were literally just ignoring Shuri ten seconds ago, you hadn’t expected her to just up and leave like that. Especially given how physically close you two had spent the last hour, part of you had grown attached to her in a way you never imagined possible. Addicted to the safe feeling that only seemed to come when you were in her arms. 

“I have some council business I have to take care of.” Her rubbing of your hands still hadn’t stopped, tracing every detail of your knuckles. 

You looked at her now, teeth biting at your bottom lip. “What do you have that’s so important?” 

“Just some time-sensitive stuff I need to handle. It should be quick, I don’t imagine it will be long.” Her eyes were averted, so you had no read on what possible clues they could be conveying. Something about this bothered you, normally she was so demanding of your eye contact and now she wasn’t even looking up. But you knew Shuri, whatever this was she wasn’t going to give up easily. You needed something to garner her attention first before you asked her what you needed to know. 

“I think I’m gonna call home.” Shuri’s eyes instantly flashed up to yours.

“Really?”

“I think so, I don’t want my family worrying about me, you know? I don’t want them thinking I’m dead or anything. Now that Mallory has so kindly let the world know about this.” 

Shuri hummed in response, debating asking the question at the forefront of her mind. “I thought- I mean, I didn’t know you had a way of contacting them.” 

This made you feel a little bit guilty since you had made it seem like you’d given Genelia up for good. “It's a direct line to my father's advisor, only for emergency purposes.” Your eyes flickered around her face. “I’ve never used it, I didn’t think I’d have to.” 

Shuri felt assured in hearing this, the slight worry that had slipped into her mind about you secretly planning to leave her dissipated. “Oh, okay.” She savored these last few minutes of her hand tracing yours, knowing that soon those same hands who held yours so delicately would be used in the complete opposite manner. 

“Shuri?” The way you called her name was soft, the same way you had in the restaurant before all of this had happened. It made her feel warm inside, lowering her guard just as you intended. 

Her response once again was just a hum, her eyes studying every detail of your face the way her hands did yours. 

“You wouldn’t lie to me right?” Your question caught her off guard but her rubbing never stopped. 

“Kakade hayi, sithandwa sam. (Of course, not my love)” Her eyes conveyed no sign of lying so you continued. 

“So it’s really council business that's so pressing you have to take care of it right now? Not anything to do with me?” You asked the question confidently, not taking your eyes off Shuri, searching for a tell. Anyone else would have missed it but you didn’t, the brief second when Shuri’s movements faltered. When her hand stopped rubbing yours. 

“Yes.” 

“Yes, what?” 

She stood up now, letting go of your hand. Being at eye level with you was too much right now, it felt too connected given the fact that she was literally lying to your face. “Yes, it’s council business like I told you before. Very time sensitive.” Before you could respond she spoke again. “Aneka!” 

The Dora appeared in the door frame with lightning speed, “Yes, ngangamsha (your majesty)?” 

“Guard Y/N’s side of the ward while I deal with this business, make sure no harm comes to her.” Shuri’s words were confident and her arms now crossed her chest signifying her demeanor change. 

“Shuri, I don't need a babysitter, I’m fine.” You protested. “Plus Aneka has yet to see Ayo, let them see each other.” 

“I am fine, my Queen. Thank you for your kindness but ensuring your safety is more important.” Aneka responded quickly, earning a nod of agreement from Shuri. 

Your wife looked down at her kimoyo beads. “I’ll be back in an hour, mfazi (wife).” Placing a kiss on your forehead, she looked down at you one more time before she left. “No trouble while I’m gone?” 

“I’ll try my hardest.” You replied as she walked out of the room, Aneka behind her taking her spot guarding your room. 

This left you alone with your thoughts and while a million things were running around your mind there were two prominent thoughts. One being, your wife was lying to you. 

You couldn't be a hundred percent sure about exactly what she was lying about but you knew it had something to do with you. While you wanted to snoop around and try and figure it out, the second of the thoughts found its way to the forefront of your mind. Having to call you family. 

Looking around you found your physical phone, the one that Shuri still referred to as ‘primitive technology’. Scrolling until you found the contact you didn’t think you’d ever have to press. Saying a prayer you pressed call and hoped for the best. 

The line rang only one time before the person picked up. “This isn’t some sick joke, you’re really calling me?” 

“Marcos, I told you I’d only call you in an emergency. I wouldn't play a joke like this.” 

You could hear him recite a prayer on the other end of the line. “Everyones worried sick about you Y/N, I mean your parents think you’re…” His voice trailed off and it made your heart hurt thinking about the stress this whole situation inadvertently caused your family. 

“I know, I know, that’s why I called. Can you just tell them that I’m alright? It’s nothing to worry about and I’ll be fine?” 

Marcos contemplated your words, “Y/N, your father will kill me if he finds out I spoke to you without giving him the opportunity.” 

The sound of movement from the other end of the line had you concerned. “Marcos wait, you know I don’t want to speak to them.” It was a useless plea and you knew it. As much as Marcos cared about you like you were his own daughter and wished to protect you as such. At the end of the day, he worked for your father. 

“I’m sorry mon papillon (my butterfly)” The term of endearment did little to quell the feeling of betrayal as Marcos moved to give the phone to your father. 

“Whoever it is Marcos, tell them they will need to call later, I am grieving my daughter.” 

“It is about Y/N, sir.”

Your father looked between his advisor and the phone before picking it up. 

“Yes?” This was the first time you had heard your father's voice in years. It had become too painful to go back and watch old home videos from before Yara’s death so part of you wondered if you’d forgotten what he sounded like. But as soon as his deep voice bellowed through the phone, you remembered. 

“Dad? It’s me.” You were scared to speak the words at first, questioning how he would react. 

“Y/N, is that you? Oh my god! Josiah, get your mother from the chapel, our baby is alive!” The outcry from your father made your heart hurt, had he been that concerned?

“Dad-” You tried to speak but his rambling cut you off. 

“When we saw the news honey we were so worried about you, I thought you had died. But you didn’t! God brought you back!”

“Dad-”

 “He’s bringing you back home to us!” He ended his rejoicing when you finally spoke up. 

“Babba! What are you talking about?” Your pain medication must have been making you delirious and mishear things. 

“What do you mean Y/N, this is a sign! You were almost taken from Genelia, from us. We need to come together and give thanks that you’re still with us.” Your father's words were confusing you, why was he saying that you were taken from them as if they weren't the same ones to send you away? 

“I’m not coming home Dad, I was just calling to let everyone know I was okay-”

“Nonsense!” Your mother spoke now, you weren't aware when she arrived in the room. “You must come home, we miss you. This was a wake-up call, don’t you think?” 

You paused now and took a deep breath. What they were asking was encroaching on a boundary you had set the day you left Genelia. To never come back. “I just, I don’t think it’s a good idea guys.”

It was now your parent's turn to pause while they thought about what they could say to change your mind. But it wasn’t them that spoke, instead it was a different voice. One that clearly held the tonal characteristics of a man but was still slightly squeaky signifying they hadn’t fully finished maturing. 

“So you’re just never gonna come back? Is that it then?” If it wasn’t for your father's words earlier you wouldn’t have even been able to guess who it was. But of course, it was your little shadow who spoke up now. Josiah. 

“Siah-”

“No, you don’t get to call me that anymore. My sister, who loved me and didn’t just get up and abandon her family for a fancy new life in France, called me that. I don’t know who you are.” 

Josiah’s words cut through you like the sharpest blade known to man, cutting deeper than any slick comment from Shuri. Is that really what he thought happened? That you left your family behind to go chase your dreams in a foreign country? 

You didn’t care about your parents, quite frankly fuck them. Any emotional ties you felt towards them had long left you, so saying no to them while it was hard; it didn’t hurt. Saying no to Josiah though? Hearing the disappointment in his voice? He didn’t deserve this. To be caught in the crosshairs of the relationship between you and your parents. 

“Fine!” 

“Fine?” Your mother and father's voice asked in unison. 

“Fine, I will come back to Genelia to visit.” 

“Tomorrow?” Josiah’s voice questioned.

“Tomorrow? Siah I just got shot.” You tried to reason with your brother, and while you didn’t feel any of the effects of the shooting at this exact moment you still didn’t know if traveling so soon would be wise. Plus you still needed to explain this all to Shuri. 

“You’re married to the smartest woman in the world and live in the most technologically advanced country. I’m sure they can figure something out.” Josiah left no room for argument in his sentence. 

“Fine Siah, I will come to Genelia for a few days, flying in tomorrow. Happy?” You didn’t even understand why you were agreeing to this. 

“Not in the slightest, I have no idea who you are anymore. I did that for Mom and Dad.” 

That hurt more than Josiah knew. You tried to tell yourself that he didn’t mean it, but something in you couldn't believe it. 

“Okay well, I’ve got to go. I’ll um talk to Marcos about arrival times and everything.” You needed this phone call done, the gravity of what you had just agreed to started to weigh on you. 

“Parfait! We can’t wait to see you soon Y/N. We love you!” You could hear the smile in your father's voice and felt guilt not only that you didn’t feel the same happiness but that you couldn’t reciprocate his “I love you” truthfully.  

“Yeah I um, I’ll see you guys soon.” With that you ended the call, throwing your head back against the pillow. 

As you sat in silence you digested what had just happened.

1. You called Marcos, just to let him know that you were alive. 

2. You ended up on a phone call with your parents, speaking to them for the first time in years. 

3. After declining to come to Genelia, you were guilt-tripped into returning by your little brother. Not because he wanted to see you but because he knew his parents wanted to.

All of this made your head reel and you longed for the peace and comfort that your wife provided. But she wasn’t here with you, her wife who had just been shot. Instead, she was dealing with council business.

“Griot.” 

“Ah your majesty, I am glad you are in good health again. What can I do for you?” 

You paused wondering if Griot was even able to give you this information. “Where is Shuri right now?” 

“Shuri has programmed me to not disclose her location to anyone unless it is an emergency, I am sorry your majesty.” 

Of course Shuri had done so, always wanting to keep tabs on everyone but not thinking anyone else needed to keep them on her. You wanted to give up before an idea popped into your head. “Griot, Shuri programmed me into your system as a Queen, correct?” 

“Yes your majesty, she has programmed you with the same clearance as she has.” 

Jackpot. 

“And Shuri has access to her location status I would assume?” 

“Yes, your majesty.” 

“Great, so she has access to her location status, and I have the same clearance level as her/  You can give me her location.” Your reasoning was solid, creating a logical path that the AI could follow. 

“Yes, your majesty, that does appear to be correct. One moment please.”Success. “Queen Shuri is in the basement, interrogation room one.” 

“Interrogation room one?” You asked Griot again, you didn’t even know the palace had a single interrogation room, let alone multiple. 

“Yes, the Queen has been in that room since she left you in the hospital wing.” 

So she had been lying to you. 

“Thank you, Griot, that will be all.” 

There was no doubt in your mind that this had something to do with your shooting and that Shuri thought she was doing good by you by keeping you away from all of it. Trying to shield you from more pain. But that wasn’t what you asked for, it was what she decided you needed. 

You touched your abdomen, trying to gauge your pain level. As Josiah had said, you were in the most technologically advanced country so truly your recovery wouldn’t take more than a few days. Right now, you felt good enough to hobble out of bed and make it out of your room. 

Shuri wanted to lie to you? Fine. But you were going to go down to the basement to figure out exactly what she was up to.  

You made it no more than five feet out of your room before a body in front of you haltered your progress. 

“What are you doing out of bed ngangamsha (your majesty)? You should be resting.” Aneka’s concerned look surprised you. While you knew it was her job to protect you, you saw a twinge of genuine concern in her eyes. 

“She lied to me Aneka.” You took a step to the side and then forward so she was no longer in your path. The dull twinge of pain let you know that this might be more difficult than your first few steps had made it appear, nonetheless you were going to make the journey. 

“Intoni? (What?)” 

“Shuri lied to me. She told me she had council business to take care of, but she didn’t. She’s downstairs in the basement right now. So I’m going down there to see what could be so important that she felt the need to lie to me.” You continued your walk towards the elevator pleasantly surprised that Aneka didn’t appear to try and stop you. 

You took a few more steps before suddenly something pressed against the back of both of your knees, causing you to lose your balance. Falling back right into… a chair? Aneka stood above you, her hands on the handle of the wheelchair that she had just gently gotten you into. “I am not condoning you doing this, however, I know I can not stop you.” 

You nodded, grateful to hear that. 

“But,” Of course there was something. “I will not let you rip your stitches hobbling down there.” 

A smile passed across your face and a similar one came to Ankea’s. 

“Plus, I can talk to you while we make our way down there. I should fill you in, it is for the best.” Aneka pushed you forward as she began to explain just who was awaiting you in the basement. 

While you two made your way down, Shuri, Ayo, Okoye, and your assailant were deep into their interrogation session. 

To Shuri’s credit, she tried to be diplomatic about the whole situation. When she first walked into the room and saw Liam Drockers sitting down with Ayo and Okoye on either side of him, she imagined what her brother would say to her. 

“Patience sisi.” He would say. “Regardless of what he has done, he is deserving of a fair questioning, the same as you and me.” 

And she tried to take T’Challa’s advice, asking Liam simple questions at first.

“Are you an employee of Judas’s Ice Cream shop?” 

No response.

“Are you working for the United States government?” 

No response. 

“Were you aware the person you shot was the Queen of Wakanda, Y/N Y/L/N Udaku?”

A small smile creeped up on Liam’s face after she finished speaking, but still, he said nothing. This infuriated her and she was about ready to cast this whole morally right thing to the side and get the information she needed through more direct means. 

But then her mother's voice came into her head. “Do not let him remove you from yourself intomba (daughter).”

The Queen calmed herself, “I asked you a question. Were you aware the person you shot was  Y/N Y/L/N Udaku, the Queen of Wakanda?” 

While Liam's eyes had largely remained on the floor he pulled them up to her now, showing off the bored look they held. “I didn’t miss, did I?” 

Shuri’s heartbeat increased, so he knew what he was doing. This was a planned attack on her wife? He knew who she was and still chose to take the shot?

“You still thinkin’ bout showin this fool mercy?” No. That was the one voice she didn’t want to listen to. 

Okoye saw the look and Shuri’s eyes and when their gaze finally met, a wave of concern washed over her. She was losing Shuri to this. 

Okoye’s suggestion for a break is what brought them outside, Shuri pacing up and down the hallway trying to decide how to move forward. 

“Is it really that hard of a decision little cuz?” 

“Shut up.” She spoke out loud. Ayo looked over to Okoye wondering if they should step in but Okoye shook her head, hoping that whoever Shuri was speaking to would provide the young girl some clarity. 

“I’m just saying what you’re really thinking here. I mean he shot ya wife, you really cool with letting that slide?” 

“I am not ‘letting it slide’, I’m going about it the diplomatic way N’Jadaka. Something I know you know nothing about.”

Erik laughed at that “Aww shit little panther got some bite to her huh? But you’re right I don’t know shit about the diplomatic way, what I do know however is how to get results, quickly. It’s cool though, give this mother fucker the time and respect he didn’t give to your wife. I’m sure that’s smart.” 

His last comment drew Shuri over the edge. Done with the conversation and confident in her decision, she made her way back over to the door where Ayo and Okoye awaited her. She knew the decision she had come to was harsh but the only thing on her mind was ensuring your safety and getting to the bottom of this. 

“If you do not want to stay for the next part of the interrogation, I am not ordering either of you too. This is the time now to back out of this, without any blood on your hands.” She thought for a moment about how literal her figure of speech was about to become. “Ngokunzulu (Seriously).” 

Okoye looked Shuri up and down. It was in moments like these that she no longer saw the young girl she had watched grow up over the past ten years. The youthful glow had faded over and now left Shuri with a hard exterior that seemed to be ever-present. “Are you sure this is what you want to do ikumkani wam (my queen)?” Okoye offered this out to Shuri now, one shot to think clearly about her decision.

“A hundred percent.” Was Shuri’s simple reply. 

That’s how they ended up here, Ayo holding Liam’s cuffed arms behind his back while Shuri issued blow after blow to his abdomen, turning him effectively into a human punching bag. 

“You done with the games now Liam?” A punch landed on his stomach. “Are you ready to say something and give me the information I need to know?” 

The whole ordeal hurt Okoye to watch but she understood why Shuri had shifted to such drastic means, it was only out of necessity. 

Liam gathered his breath as Shuri removed the jacket she’d been wearing, leaving her in a compression shirt. “No words Liam, really?” She cracked her knuckles and delivered two more blows, one after the other. “That’s okay I’m sure soon enough you will.” 

He shifted in Ayo’s arms for a few seconds for spitting the blood that had pooled in his mouth down at Shuris feet, giving her a defiant stare. 

A smirk rose to Shuri’s face as she looked at the few drops of blood that had gotten on her sneakers. “You know Liam, I had been holding back in the name of my wife. I’ll tell you a secret since, quite frankly, the likelihood of you making it out of Wakanda to repeat this is slim to none. I don’t know much about my wife, we do not have the most conventional marriage so the real things I can say I know about her are few and far in between. But what I do know about my lovely Y/N, she hates violence and views it as the very last play in the book. Convinced me not to kill a spider once just because she said it wasn’t necessary.” 

Shuri smiled at the silly memory of you cussing her out at home when she tried to kill a spider instead of releasing it outside. 

“So, in her name, I haven't been using any of my enhanced strength. This,” She points to the purple bruises that had started to form on the skin of his stomach. “It's all me. But, since you want to be disrespectful and spit blood on my shoes, we’re giving all that up.” Quicker than anyone in the room could have seen, Shuri put her hands up and delivered a devastatingly strong blow to his stomach. Providing enough force that even Ayo had to take a step back to steady herself and absorb some of the shock of the blow. 

You watched in horror from the other side of the glass in the interrogation room as Liam doubled over in pain, gasping for air. Aneka and yourself had been in the room just long enough to watch him spit blood on your wife's shoes. 

“Now, we’re going to try this again.” Shuri started with the same line of questions from before. “Are you working for the United States government?” 

Once Liam pulled himself together, he gave the Queen no answer, just continuing his stare of contempt. 

Shuri chuckled, “Again then? Okay.” She let out another punch, Ayo being more prepared this time held Liam’s body tight. 

“She’s gonna kill him Aneka.” You spoke quietly from the wheelchair as you watched the whole ordeal take place. “We can’t let her kill him, that’s not her.” 

Aneka nodded, “But there is nothing we can do right now my Queen. Ayo and Okoye are in there with her, they will not let it go too far.” 

“I need to get in there.” Shuri wasn’t going to listen to Ayo or Okoye, you didn’t even know if she was going to listen to you. But as far as you were concerned this had already gone far enough. You started moving your wheelchair towards the door but Aneka stopped you. 

“Your majesty I cannot let you in there, bringing you down here was a breach of protocol enough. To have you in there would just be a blatant disregard for the Queen’s wishes.” Aneka declared. 

Both of your attention was brought back to Shuri and Liam when she hit him in the same spot again, leading him to cough up more blood. 

“You go in there and bring my wife out to me or I go in there and bring her out myself. Two choices, you pick.” You folded your arms like a child, waiting for Aneka’s response. 

She looked into the interrogation room and back to you. “Bast you two are perfect for each other. Stubborn just alike.” 

With that she left you, walking out and knocking before entering the other room. 

“ikumkani wam,” She interjected, pulling Shuri’s attention from the man and onto the Dora. 

“What is it Aneka, I am busy.” Shuri looked at her impatiently. 

“uY/n ulapha kwaye angathanda ukuthetha nawe (Y/N is here and would like to talk to you).” Aneka switched to their mother tongue so Liam couldn’t understand what they were saying. 

Shuri’s face faltered for a second. You were here? How long had you been watching? How much had you seen? “I am in the middle of an inter-” 

The sound of you banging on the wall to indicate you didn’t care what she was doing cut Shuri off. She looked at Liam before speaking to Ayo and Okoye. “Put him down, I will be back shortly.” In a second Shuri was out of the room and opening the door to the other side of the interrogation room, meeting your icy gaze. 

“What are you doing out of bed sithandwa sam (my love)?” Shuri’s concern was real, raking her eyes over your body. 

“You lied to me.” You weren't wasting time tip-toeing around the subject, 

“I was protecting you.” Shuri’s justification came quickly, as she took a step closer to you. The light illuminated her face better now and you were able to see the small spots of blood that had splattered on her face. 

Against your better judgment, you called her closer to you “Come here.” She obliged kneeling so you two were at eye level, mimicking the position you two had been in this morning. You reached to hold her face in your hand, wiping the small dots of blood away with your thumb. “You lied to me,” You said again looking into her eyes. 

“I was trying to-” Shuri tried again to explain this to you but you cut her off with a gentle tap to her lips with your free hand. 

“I know you were trying to protect me Shuri, but I am your wife. You can’t lie to me.” The look in your eyes conveyed the seriousness of your comments. 

The excuses started to form in Shuri’s mouth but she stopped them. “I- I know and I’m sorry. I should have told you what I was doing.” She let her head rest in your hand and averted her eyes down, fiddling with the material from your hospital gown. 

“Yes, you should have.” While your words were harsh, the tone and way you caressed her face let her know you weren't really mad with her. 

“Let me make this right umfazi (wife).” Shuri declared sitting up so she looked you in the eyes once again. “The man, his name is Liam Drockers he-” 

“I already know Shuri.” You smiled at your wife who looked at you cluelessly. “Aneka filled me in on our way down here, I know everything. I want to speak with him.” 

Shuri pulled out of your grasp now, appalled you would even ask something like that. “Absolutely not Y/N, there is no logical reason to risk your life by putting you in there with him.”

“First there is no risk to my life, not only is he handcuffed but Ayo and Okoye will be in there with us. Second Shuri, you owe me. This has everything to do with me and you tried to keep it from me, I deserve at least one chance to speak with him. Alone.” You were confident in your rebuttal, Shuri tried to find a counterargument for every point you made but she couldn't. 

“Five minutes with Okoye, Ayo, and Aneka inside with you.” Shuri brought her demands to the table and you thought about it for a second. Was she seriously that worried for your safety that she thought you needed three Dora’s in there with you and a restrained and beaten man? 

“Deal.” 

With that Shuri wheeled you out of the viewing area and to the interrogation room. Aneka held the door open and your wife pushed you through the entryway, stopping at the frame per your request. 

“Oh yeah and pack a bag, we’re going to Genelia tomorrow.” You shut the door leaving your very confused wife on the other side. You two were going where? 

In front of you sat a very bruised Liam Drockers, Ayo, and Okoye on his sides You always found it so funny how no matter how big or bad someone seemed, at the end of the day they were made of flesh and bones just like you. 

Wheeling up to the table you sat and stared at your attacker for a moment. Trying to search for something you were never going to find, a reason or justification. 

“Alright, Liam I’m going to make this very easy for you.” You interlaced your fingers and let them sit on the table, this is where you shined. “In the other room, my wife is waiting with bated breath for me to tell her it's okay to come in here and continue to beat the living shit out of you. Now me personally, as you heard before, I’m not a fan of violence. I think it's an unnecessary evil of the world, something we really can function without.” You paused letting out a chuckle. “Not that I think that you believe the same,” You gestured down to your stomach. “You clearly favor my wife when it comes to that way of thinking.” 

Liam's eyes moved all over you, attempting to size you up as a threat. 

“So, now that you know that much about me, let me tell you how this is going to work. Either A. we can make this super simple, you answer every question I have and agree to the plan we have in place. Or, I call my wife back in here and she beats you to a pulp.” 

A wheezing breath came from your attacker and you couldn’t help but notice how weak he looked now, the beating from Shuri having done a good chunk of damage. “I’m not sayin shit, I know my rights.”

You smiled at this, leaning closer to him. “Your rights? You think your rights will protect you here?” The look on Liam’s face changed for a split second, his facade slipping. “You’re in the basement interrogation room of the most technologically advanced country in the world because you shot one of their Queens. You were flown in on a top-secret jet, there's no record of you ever even being in Wakanda. Nobody knows you’re here.” 

“That’s- that’s not true.” Liam stammered out. “There are people out there who know who I am, who are looking for me.” 

This got the heartiest laugh from you yet. “Mallory? Really? You think she’d save you?” The idea he was pushing was almost comical. “You were a gun for hire, you served your purpose and now there's nothing left for you to do, you were disposable from the beginning. Do you seriously believe she’d risk a national incident to save one measly hit man?” 

The truthfulness of your words hit Liam like a ton of bricks, there was no getting out of this. 

“So,” You began. “I’ll ask the question my wife has been trying to ask. What the fuck was your mission and who do you report to.” 

Liam shifted in his chair, looking around the room as he assessed his situation. “It all started with Mallory.” 

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[lostacelonnie]

18, 19, 24 + KIRA!!!!!!! - lee :3

HII HI HI LEE THANK YOU SO SO MUCH

[ask game]

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

okay so i could go about this for HOURSSSS but kira and bianka's mentor/mentee relationship genuinely makes me want to eat bricks in the best possible way. oh so like okay kira probably held bianka as a baby and doesn't even know it until like. what. 5 years after their meeting in the dudu vn. and also during one of their first convos kira says that bianka "really knows how to encourage others, just like cecilia". and also the Bond between someone who comes from earth but after the second eruption was away from it for so long that she no longer really recognizes it, and someone who had all their memories wiped, any "inherent tie" she might've had to the world around her severed, and had to build her connection to it all by herself. and also the duty of a valkyrie vs the duty of an idol as expressed in the vn in this specific dialogue:

Kira: Idols are angels meant to convey love, and only a heart with the desire of "reaching the top" can carry such a heavy task. Kira: She needs to become the person that everyone needs. Kira: She needs to fight against her own shortcomings, immaturity, selfishness and prejudice. Kira: And more than that, in order to convey true love in the hearts of others she must be like an unbreakable diamond, shining forever. Bianka: ...How can someone do that? People can get hurt at any time! Kira: Even lions get hurt, but they don't let themselves be seen licking their wounds. Kira: Because a lion is a lion.

like do you GET me. obviously this is a part of schicksal rhetoric that kira herself is a victim of [do not get me started on kira's savior complex i will Not stop talking] but it's also one of the first GENUINE, not schicksal-arranged role models bianka had in her life. kira was a valkyrie, sure, but she has Seen Shit and persevered and i think tiny bian needed to meet someone like that. okay hold on im rambling lets move onnnnn ^-^

19. How about a relationship they have in canon that you don't like?

im gonna be entirely honest i cant think of anything.... though there Are a couple i would've liked to get more. Elaboration on. specifically:

1. human niggurath. i wonder if they were close. i mean like, yeah they WERE close because all of the snowwolves were close with each other but i wanna know more about these 2 specifically!! in 2e we get much more of a focus on niggurath's relationship with salome [which is delicious do not get me wrong] but i wonder what it was like between her and kira, with brown sugar's later bodyhopping i mean. speaking of which i wonder how naturally similar to niggurath brown sugar is.... cause like, we know that she continued using her previous host's name and form because thats how kira referred to her but i wonder how much of it is genuine and how much of it is "wearing a red shirt at walmart" type of situation. because in my mind it could be either that a) shub and brown sugar are really just that alike by themselves, b) brown sugar kind of melded shub's personality with her own when she lived in her body, or c) she only developed that after being with kira. which. i believe the latter is the closest to canon since in dudu vn kira mentions brown sugar not being entirely Sentient (yet?). which. has implications. yes im psychoanalyzing her comic relief alien best friend dont even worry about it

2. siegfried but SPECIFICALLY post-sshc arc. because yeah yeah we know that before 2e she fucking DESPISED him [which btw i find hysterically funny. never stop being a hater] and while ik that she has Not improved her opinion after that it still must be. strange. like oh okay theyre one of the only people who remember cecilia for who she was. and the snowwolves for who they were. and they were both away from their home universe for most of the time between 2e and sshc. like that must fuck you up. but at the same time its also "i miss my wife" "i miss your wife too"

3. THE WOMAN THE LEGENDARY LADY CECILIA SCHARIAC HERSELF. jesus christ every time i think about kira and cecilias relationship i want to jump into the ocean never to be seen again. kira loved her sooooo so much but also she loved her before cecilia met siegfried. it had to be jarring to see her become suddenly so. happy. but she loved her in a very idealized way, i think? to me at least its very obvious it couldnt Ever have been mutual simply because kira never quite managed to get as close to cecilia as such a relationship would require... in the end, she was just. her fan. cecilia was her friend, yes, but she was also that shining star in the distance that marked kira's way, that drove her to become a valkyrie and an idol... which is another topic in on itself because. kira is prickly! kira isnt the type of person who finds it easy to be that perfect idol, thats all a conscious effort!! but i digress. kira loved cecilia in the way that she adored her, but then suddenly cecilia was gone and the snowwolves were gone and kira had to find her own way in the dark. which is also why i think it could be such a fun thing to explore her dynamic with miste[I AM SUDDENLY AND REPEATEDLY SHOT. MY CORPSE IS DRAGGED AWAY AND THROWN OFF A BRIDGE.]

24. What other character from another fandom of yours that reminds you of them?

OH UHM I DONT KNOW ACTUALLY. i find it that pretty often with hi3rd chars specifically, i have a lot of trouble finding characters that really "remind" me of them from other media simply because each and every one has a string of such strangely specific mental problems that even if at first glance two characters appear similar, i think about it for 3 seconds more and decide "never mind actually" so. im sorry but i actually cant think of anything 😭😭

[smileylover99]

Tagged by @weprovideleverage

thank you for the tag :)

rules: answer the questions in a new post and tag blogs you would like to get to know better.

a - age: 23

b - birthplace: The North of the Netherlands

c - current time: 21:03

d - drink you last had: water as well, most times it is

e - easiest person/people to talk to: my sister

f - favorite song: god idk it's always changing imma go with the free life by Turbowolf

g - grossest memory: i've mostly blocked it out but there was this one campsite in France and when we arrived the sanitary building closest to us were nice and clean, but then for like the week we stayed there they never cleaned it 🙃

h - horror yes or horror no: no mostly, but occationally (I have also listened to tma)

i - in love?: not so far, and probably not ever

j - jealous of people?: rarely

l - love at first sight or should I walk by again?: save yourself the effort, I would like to be friends at first sight tho

m - middle name: no thank you

n - number of siblings: said sister from question e

o - one wish: long term probably like happiness, short tem a bigger appartment

p - person you called last: I had like a communication training and a week later we had to physically call an actor to do like a final practice convo before the real deal

q - question you are always asked: people don't really ask me questions?? the best i can think of is like what do you do? are you still studying? from like relatives and my parents neighbours

r - reason to smile: it's the weekend

s - song you sang last: Durch den Monsun by Tokio Hotel dkjlajdkl

t - time you woke up: at 8:00

u - underwear colour: black and white dots

v - vacation destination: I have a couple of places. I really want to see the northern light so like iceland or northern Norway for that one. I also wanna go back to Hong Kong because my last trip got cut quite abruptly. Also I want to see Tokyo.

w - worst habit: probably like scaring myself out of things ill enjoy

x - x-rays: oh shit it's good you mentioned the teeth thing cause ive gotten many a pictures of my teeth done, never broken a bone tho

y - your favorite food: I love spätzle, which i should make more often

z - zodiac sign: Leo, which is like the super social butterfly, i consider my self more a social moth, very energetic at random times and sit completely still for the rest

People who I want to get to know better: @itwoodbeprefect @ghost-faeries @pomato-queendom @localsealboy @pablothefrog (Only if you want to, of course.)

[oraclebell17]

long vent post about my convo with my dad last night, ughhghgh...

sorry i keep going on about this situation between me and my dad but like- i've said to my friends "oh he's not necessarily homophobic or transphobic"

but thinking on it now, what he said to me yesterday, he is being transphobic

long story short, my dad thought a friend that was coming over was amab (they're afab), and thought they were binary trans (they're enby)

he was concerned that, since he thought this friend had a dick, that they'd try to have The Intercourse with me

meaning dad comes to the following conclusions: a) friend is amab b) friend is allo and attracted to me (i actually haven't asked them their sexuality) c) anyone with a dick is going to be after me sexually d) i'm allo (i'm sex-repulsed ace) e) i'd be okay with someone doing that to me in this house (i'm not)

he wants me on birth control. he has no idea i'm queer....

as soon as i told him my friend was afab (though not about friend being enby) he relaxed and said it was fine

but that's not the extent of it! throughout the conversation, while my dad thought this friend was amab, my dad continuously referred to them as "he", meaning he was knowingly misgendering them

and not to mention a conversation afterwards, where he asked me whether they went by he or she

when i answered "neither? [friend] goes by they', my dad got upset and said "'they' isn't a person" which just boggles my mind

he said to me, and i quote, "you're either a he, a she, or an it" and i have a feeling he wasn't being entirely serious on the last part (melting emoji)

so i can't come out to my dad about my gender! fun!! /s

i never want to say i hate my dad but if there's any reason to do so, this is definitely one

[f1nalboys]

Peacemaker Season 1 Episode 2 Live Post

(just my live reactions to the episode as it goes)

-HOPING FOR MORE ADRIAN love the pacing so far a lot happens without it being overwhelming!! very excited to see where the plot goes :3

ALSO if u want to mute this tag to avoid my love posts then black list b reacts live <3

-“you can’t see me jerk off through that thing can you” ITS IN HIS SKILLFNWKDNWKND

-i love eagley

-i like the intro but i will be skipping it it’s too long

-ok so i knew the butterflies were gonna be something fucked up

-“where the fuck are my SOCKS”

-him having to sit down to put his socks on JFKSKND

-LEOTA ASKING IF THE OUTFITS HER DOG WEARS WILL MAKE IT A BIGGER TARGETBDISNJDEJ

-i love her

-“almost hit that bitch” JFKWKFJEJ

-HELWJCKKWD

-OK eagley bringing the possum over to the thing was to make it the reason behind the explosion 😭😭😭 giggles

-LOCHLYN MUNRO???

-leota loves her little dog emerson :3

-“i think he just likes looking smart” JFNWKFJJD

-HIM ROBBING THE LADYJDKWNXKNWKD

-his stupid ass ringtone

-peacemaker feeding eagley chips

-THE COP SINGING SBT CATCHING A BAD GUYDJFIRJ

-him holding a bloody knife CMONNNN

-HES OBVIOUSLY A PROFESSIONAL LOOK HOW HES DRESSED AMBER

-him flirting w this guys wife

-HES LIKE 😦🤨

-“ARE YOU SERIOUSLY TRYING TO GET HIM TO FUCK YOU RIGHT NOw AMBER”

-peacemaker watching them fight like 😳

-“YOU ARE FUCKING MY SPIRIT”

-JFKWJCKE

-SHE WANTED HIM TI FUCK HER HE LEFT AND HER BF LAUGHED ST HER

-the baby waving at him :3

-him breaking his bones again

-where’s adrian i. want. adrian.

-this man is fucking himself up fr 😭

-IS FHIS VIGILANTIE

-oh :/

-it’s emilia whatever

-SORRY I LOVE HER I DO i jsut need adrian

-eagley :3

-“you can’t house train an eagle dude, not without stealing its soul”

-leota getting everyone else hyped!!! my beloved

-HFNSKNFKWND

-james or whatever his name is changed christopher’s finger prints to his dads 😈

-oh so that didn’t work very well

-“am i supposed to text you when i’m taking a shit???” “I WOULDVE AOORECIATED IT” JFNOWNCKWND SHUT UPPPP

-“and now i feel like you’re mad at me” and “don’t use the i word man” are such stupid but funny lines 😭😭

-i like the lady cop whats her name

-sophie song <3

-“YOU EVER BEEN SHOT AT? :D” “……………..…no :(“ JFKOSNDIW

-christopher and james r besties but also worsties

-if emilia accuses leota of doing shit one more time… like YEAH she is feeding info to waller BUT FUCK YOU

-“i trust her the most because eagley likes her :D” “he tried to bite me” “yeah but not as hard as he tries to bite everyone else”

-“john didn’t do it” “thank you!” “he’s too big of a pussy to betray us” “alright :(“ JFKWNDJ THE CONVOS R SO FUNNYYY

-“I DONT EVEN LIKE WHEN MY BALLS ARE IN SOMEBODYS MOUTH OKAY? it gives me the wrong type of chills and all i can think about is how long it’s been since i’ve gotten checked for testicular cancer” PNFKWNDKWNDJ

-this thing isn’t even my thoughts anymore it’s just me quoting the funny lines

-PEACEMAKER IS SO STUPFIWJFJNS

-he left the dossier of his assasination target in the apartment of the girl he fucjed and murn was like “u left it in the apartment of some girl who blew u?” and he goes “SHES NOT SOME RANDO WHO BLEW ME MAN, we fully fucked”

-nah peacemaker is right they haven’t told him shit like y’all sometimes a little info is necessary

-“am i a fucking dick vampire now” HE MAKES ME SO SICKWJDOWJJD

-“when we’re u gonna tell us there were witnesses?” “i did kidnap a couple for a minute :/“

-his trailer sucks like the color scheme is awful

-he’s a records guy :3

-WHERES ADRIAN. i’m starting to get pissed i want my man 🗣️🗣️

-HIM CRYIDNOWCNWOND

-he’s just like me

-ADRIANNNNFJWJDKNWICS

-HES HEREEEEE

-GOD HIS VOICE

-his costume is sexy

-sorry the whole interaction w these two abt louis c k 😭😭

-adrian’s voice 😵‍💫😵‍💫

-“can you maybe teach em to me :3” OHHHHHHH IM FUCKED HES SO BABY GIRL I WANT GIM SO BAD

-leota <3

-“r u trying to fucking bribe us?” “no!!” “oh i was hoping u we’re trying to bribe us” “yes yes i am bribing u :D”

-adrian wanting to clean his place up :(

-PEACEMAKER SAY HES UR BFF

-he’s so silly asking where everything goes

-HE FOUND HIS POCKET PUSSYKFNWKFNS

-i always found the “adult character not knowing what a sex toy is” thing weird bc ur telling me adrian hasn’t gotten pussy before???

-ADRIAN USES POCKET PUSSIES OK???? it’s my canon that scene didn’t happen or it did and it was funny in a different way bc that man uses one and goes Hard.

-anyways sorry. got distracted.

-“YOU THINK THEYD LET ME OUT OF PRISON TO DELIVER FUCKING MAIL” “idk it was the first government job i could think of” adrian said support the post office <3

-not the graffiti artist kills 😭😭

-“well it does 😂🤣” SHUT UP ADRIAJFOWNDJS he’s so :3

-THE SCENE OF THEM BLOWING AND SHOOTING SHIT UP <3

-besties for life!!!

-also yes fuck u auggie i’m glad ur getting arrested

-wait sorry guys the cop….larry….. hes uhm. yeah. sorry

-SORRY. he’s just

-ok moving on

-THE DOG W THR UKELEIELWKD

-leota sending her wife away :(((

-she knows it’s dangerous for her wife to be there :((

-HE FUCKED AMBER????

-AND VIGILANTE?????

-THEY HAD A THREESOME???

-adrian doesn’t like weed whatever

-sorry adrian mmmgmmgmgmdnsd

-that’s a cool thing

-hehe his dads in prison <3 i hope he dies and then also christopher doesn’t visit him

-his racist piece of shit dad DIE DIE DIE

-racist fucks

-they have him at a place where he’s a liter nazi god???????

-WHAT THE FUCK????

-i’m pissed

-anyways

-her asking to keep peacemakers mugshot girl stand up pls 😭😭

OK END OF EPISODE THOUGHTS:

ADRIANNNN!!! i love him <3 i am excited to see how they deal w his superiority stuff + his ‘moral’ compass when it comes to killing all criminals!

i’m expecting the plot of christopher’s dad being the white dragon to matter bc if it’s just thrown in i’ll be ? very weirded out but i’m assuming that a major thing lol

leota <333 everyone needs to be nice to her rn!!!! idc if she’s a mole, she’s my WIFE! i like her and emilia together like bonding and stuff :3 also i rlly love james i think him being called sue beard is funny

excited to see where this goes but i’m going to bed so i shall finish the next 6 episodes tomorrow probably :3 we’ll maybe not tomorrow bc i’m supposed to hang w my friend? so we shall see!!!!

[dreamsinfiction]

May 2024 recap (aka the month I finally took a breather)

Looking back, I think this was the month where I told myself to breathe, chill and pace myself a little bit. Cos at the rate that I was going, I was definitely going to hit burnout stage pretty soon.

This was also the month that I went back on dating apps and also realising that maybe they aren't for me because of a slew of reasons which I will get into in another post. Wait, scratch that, I'll get to it now because boy do I have a lot of grievances.

My Gripes with Online Dating

a) The guys on there are usually quite creepy? - I mean I already have my antenna up because nowadays you can't be sure what is a scam and what isn't (those with blurry, resolution 140p photos are definitely trying to scam). But scams aside, sometime the people on there are pretty weird.

b) Very passive men - I don't know if this is Muzzmatch thing or just dating apps in general, but what is the point of you clicking match with someone when you don't do anything after that?? And it's not just a oh-maybe-this-person-is-not-on-the-app-anymore kind of thing, they've actually seen that we've matched, that I've tried saying hi but leaving me ghosted without saying anything 🙄 As a classic introvert, I do need someone to lead the convo or at least participate in it -.-

c) Men who I can't click with - I don't know if this is a specific M/M issue (I think it is) but I feel like I can't click with about 90% of them mainly because of education background. Not trying to be elitist but a lot of them don't have a degree so naturally the way we think would be very different. I don't think I'm that assertive/liberal in my thinking but wow some of them are super, super conservative. Oof.

Anyway, enough about men. One thing I'll say is that they make for very funny banter stories between me and my colleagues hahahaha.

On to the main programming,

Highlights of May:

I really think I treated myself quite kindly this month (even though work was intense as per usual) hehe.

a) Went on a little cafe date with Jac and Sya (and discovered a new place to study/hang out!). The coffee here was so gooooood. I have since gone back here a few times to study/chill heh. It's also nestled in BookXcess which finally has an outlet here! Books were priced pretty cheaply too.

b) Continuing on with the book theme, I also went for my first ever book event/sharing! Went with Chinyi, who I've been talking to on my bookstagram (definitely being more social with my reading this year and on my IG heh) and she jio-ed me to go for one at Wardah Books! Picked up "When You Think You're Falling" because of her recommendation too. Ameera Aslam's sharing on her thoughts when writing the book and how it reflects her life journey with faith is so real. I felt very seen in that moment - to know that others are also having their ups and downs with faith, how the lows may be really low but what's most important is not to be perfect (and give up when you inevitably can't acheive that) but to pick yourself up and try again. Love that ❤️

Truly an inspiration - I love discovering local authors!

We then went to Penny Uni to have brunch and coffee and wow, it's been a long time since I clicked with a new friend that we spent 1.5 hours there and the time just flew by~ I don't even know what we talked about but love it when the conversation is so easy and effortless heh.

Can never go wrong with Penny Uni's french toast.

c) Went for Hamilton with Fatin! Huge fan of the show since watching the Disney+ version so knowing how big a theatre nerd Fatin is, of course I asked her if she wants to come along too heh. We both loved the show even though it's put on by the Aussie cast (Lafayette was played by a pretty cute Korean-Australian). Fatin even said it was way better than the West End one she watched while she was studying her Master's in London hahaha.

Our friendship is now, what, easily 17/18 years? But it still feels like we're back in secondary school just that now we're talking about adulting, having back pains and bonding over family problems instead of prepping for band SYF, Limau/Linau, and the Kerbaus HAHAHA.

d) Went driving again for the first time! Have to say, Tommy is a very patient and nurturing teacher (tho Sya may say otherwise? 😜). I felt more confident of being behind the wheel again after a long time even though we started with baby steps like turning, parking and changing signals heh. Hopefully driving in Jeju will be less stressful than in Singapore!

e) Started watching Lovely Runner after seeing all the hype online - GAISE THE HYPE IS DESERVED. This show will easily be one of my favourites this year (could possibly be the top show of the year?) and it is just so cute with a dash of heartwrenching pain after all the plot twists it takes. It's about idol culture but not really, quite a bit of time-travelling and second chances, and cute lovey dovey moments between the two leads. It's coming out in August on Netflix so pls watch it and share my joy/pain in watching it too heh. If the first 10 minutes of the first ep doesn't make you tear, I think you may actually have no heart muahahaha.

And lastly, definitely the highlight of the highlights....

f) Going on a short cruise trip with the family to Phuket! I always feel relaxed on cruises cos there's limited activities anyway and you have a lot of time on your hands to just step out onto the balcony, enjoy the sea breeze while reading the hours away. There was many a sunset that I fully enjoyed. Of course it being a family trip it was a bit rocky here and there (which family trip isn't hahaha) but overall, I'll choose to remember the moments that made me zen and help me recenter myself before stepping on Singapore soil again.

Gotta love a Kobo - I can fit so many books of different genres and read them according to my mood haha.

Truly peaceful.

[humanuser0613]

THOUGHT EXPERIMENT:

Rant Edition

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We don't pay attention to jikook? 👁️👄👁️ That's what you're saying on a jikook page anon????????

I'm gonna post up some examples because "maybe because it actually wasn't anything intimate as ppl take it" is...

I can hear the music playing now. Here. Join me.

Ok👏 so here's the thing I've noticed, I'm sure others have too, these two act very similarly in certain situations. Not to each other for the purposes of this post. But they have habits they engage in regularly in front of the fandom.

1) WHAT DOES JIMIN DO?

2) WHAT DOES JUNGKOOK DO?

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Ok we'll start at the beginning if you didn't already guess.

I'll start with a clip that leaves a bad taste in many mouths, rubs our brains the wrong way, and shatters many hearts and souls, because context matters:

I think back to clips I've seen and wonder if there was more behind the scenes. What was the worry? It wasn't about his talent for Bang PD and it couldn't have been about his work ethic, so what was it? I then think back to my first reactions to some of the earlier BTS content....and how my thoughts often took the form of, "Yeah, these young 'uns had zero media training. 🤔 Was the agency too poor to get them teachers for how to behave on camera?" What was I seeing? Jungkook and Jimin playing Tom and Jerry. If that's what happened on camera, what happened off camera? Thankfully we were often told what happened off camera: Jungkook and Jimin sleeping in the living room together, Jungkook and Jimin having long convos together, Jimin providing the most comfort (and food) for Jungkook. So what wasn't clicking about their interactions on camera?

Jimin explained it himself many times: he liked Jungkook. And here we've reached my first question: what does Jimin do? He explains himself.

He's always known how things look, but he was a bit raw in front of the cameras concerning Jungkook. Why was Jimin always asking for kisses and dates? Why would Jimin say Jungkook is so cute, but that it also must be weird for him to say it? The kid was going through SOME THINGS. 🫨😵‍💫🙃Jungshook I'd say!

So now I'll establish more of this pattern.

WHAT WAS THE REASON!?

(y'all.😑 Why are Tumblr gifs so shitty? Why is this the closest one to the iconic one I wanted that would have been perfect for this next section? Why don't they have even a replacement for the one I wanted? Tumblr ain't shit in these moments.😤)

A) Namjoon outs Jungkook for sleeping in Jimin's bed and Jimin 👈😯👉 and can't get a word out. He didn't even know why he was pointing. But he opened his mouth to offer an explanation until Jin or Hobi 🤔 said Jimin slept outside. B) Jikook enter a bedroom and find a surprise camera just inside the door and Jimin 😲 and looks side to side and says "ah the bedrooms look the same. Come visit me when you're bored." And Jungkook just...😍🍫. Man didn't answer back. Why? What plans did they abort to move a camera and for Jimin to leave the room? Especially after they were told all the rooms but 1 were the same? They knew who got the different room so what was the reason? C) Why do we see Jimin kick at a camera (barefoot) in an empty hallway just after he tries to open the hotel room door only for him to turn around and enter Hobi's room again where he's doing a vlive for his birthday and where Jungkook hasn't left yet? Dude doesn't even say "hey come open my hotel room please because you've got the key" because how would that look? he's the king of explanations so it's just, "hey let Hobi finish his vlive." *grabs at an arm and pulls JK out* D) Or why do we have Jimin sitting on JK's bed and saying Jin is old and too tired to join us as he explains why it's just the two of them in JK's room as Jin comes running into the room throwing out apology apple jokes thus proving that Jimin felt that the situation needed an "explanation?" But think about it. 🧐 Why does it even need an explanation? It's just two bros hanging out which he was just doing in Jin's room. Not like we haven't seen the members doing vlives together before and visiting each other's rooms. *Cough* Oh, that's right. It's because Jimin never intended to be on camera. Why would that be the case if they're just BROS? 🤨 ok, I'll take you further down the path of logic if you're still skeptical: let's just say Jimin thought he was on camera too much already and that's why he didn't want to be on camera at first. Then why didn't he leave the room the first time he indicated that's what he and Jin should do? If he was too tired then why was he even in JK's room and not his own after the eat Jin vlive? WHY DIDN'T HE JUST LEAVE FIRST INSTEAD OF TALKING ABOUT IT 18 TIMES TO GET TAEJIN TO LEAVE WITH HIM????????

The suspicious was off the charts on that vlive. 💯

E) This one I have a post about already but THAT BIRTHDAY CAKE! MY PARK FILTER in JK's handwriting and Jimin saying the staff prepared the cake ✨AFTER✨ he read it. Mind you most of the cakes had the same/similar clean handwriting and rather impersonal words on them. But Jimin's cake was a statement: MINE! Not ARMY's, not ours, MINE! WHO THE FUCK ON STAFF WOULD DARE? 🤺 Then along comes JK saying he had prepared the cake and then Jimin apologized. I should just link my post: Here (wait for the link) F) Why is he making up an explanation for the hickey on JK's neck in the first place? Especially one where we've seen him in bridal carry mode with JK and know just how far he'd have to bend his neck, just how close he'd have to bring his lips and how long and hard he'd have to chomp to get a bite mark lasting ALL NIGHT to remain all day as well?

Why does it need an explanation? Why didn't they just cover it? Why does Jin look fondly exasperated? Why is Tae just grinning hugely at them?

Which brings me to my second question, what does Jungkook do? 75 points if you guessed HE SHOWS OFF!

The man used to be Jerry in the equation. He's explained himself too though (🤏a little bit). He was too shy. So shy that it appears he felt the need to make up for the misconception many ARMYs had (and still have 🙄) about whether he liked/likes Jimin. He went from not wanting to date any member in Feb of 2015 to saying he'd date Jimin if he was a girl in June 2015. No one asked that time dude. 💀

A) The cake: and I'm back to the cake 😩

This part of Hobi reading it and Jungkook saying "yeah, it's Jimin's song" and Hobi immediately cluing in and asking "you prepared it?" And Jungkook saying "yep!" Yeah. He wasn't hiding anything. 🤠

B) His tattoos and how he wanted to bring Bam to ITS. He likes being open with us. Showing us parts of his life when he feels safe to do so. C) How he spent two straight hours in 2023 watching videos on YouTube featuring Jimin and kept telling the fandom to pipe down on welive 😩. He wasn't even paying attention to us. He was firmly fixated on showing us how much he loves Jimin. All 🤩😍🫠😂 at his TV. D) How he showed up in the backing vocals of Letter and played a snippet of the song on guitar on welive for us, but also to show us how connected he is to Jimin. He didn't say a word about it! We had to figure it out for ourselves! 😤 E) Threatening to post a damn hickey selca to keep Jimin in a room during a vlive. And then posting it later anyway. 🤠 But ask yourself what about THAT is a threat to Jimin and not Jin who didn't even know what Jungkook was talking about? Speaking of hickeys...Showing up to work with a hickey on his neck unbothered and posting on Twitter AND weverse after hours of hickey and kiss mark trending on Twitter. Just to say...yeah, alotta nuttin 😒. Jimin posted a single, damn, 💜 with his selcas😒😒. Still asking WTF jikook?🤠

But okay anon, let's say JK said don't take it wrong and bh didn't translate it. Why not? What does the agency get out of it? A whole hate hashtag (freejungkook) and negative publicity. They lost money as people canceled orders. And taekookers, solos, idiots, etc now don't order anything until after they're sure it's "safe" for them and jikook hijinks free. Which nothing ever is 🙃 so those are future orders bh won't make money on. Or do you even know what JK meant when he said don't take it the wrong way? Does that mean he's contradicting the explanation Jimin gave? The completely "bros-not-sus-everything-is-het-over-here" explanation? Or that he means the bite wasn't malicious? Or too hard? Or that he hated it? 😏Or that he liked it? Or they weren't too drunk? Or was he reassuring staff that they weren't fighting? Or that he didn't want it covered? Or that there was no reason for staff to panic and cut the scene? So why do you attribute only one reason, that no one should accept that it was a sexual hickey, when no one on tape discussed it as a hickey, when there were so many things he could mean and people he could be talking to, not just ARMY? It's because you see it as a hickey too anon. You see what we see. You understand that others could reasonably conclude it's a hickey too. "Don't take it the wrong way?" 😐 Are you sure you're the one that hasn't taken it the wrong way anon? Especially when no one, not even bh has translated what you brought to op? 🙄 And then jikook were so bothered by the trends that they had to post selcas for us. Yep....🤡🔊🎵🎶

F) And why did Jungkook go up a mountain to collect snow just to give it to Jimin? He didn't say a word, didn't take a crew, didn't tell anyone, didn't bring the dog back 🙃...just brought back a chunk of snow and waited outside with it until he could give it to Jimin. No random wood for Joon or flower for Jin. Just snow. For Jimin. 🤠 G) And everytime we have an instance to refer to Jungkook as jiminpedia? Yeah, he's showing everyone just how much he knows about AND pays attention to Jimin. 😎 I know he's being verbal in these moments, but it's still showing off to us because he's talking to others. IT'S ONLY A COMPETITION IN YOUR HEAD JK! You're winning anyway.🧍‍♀️

Now let me clunkily pull together My conclusion:

Jimin makes explanations that don't always make the most sense in the moment (if you haven't caught on yet). And Jungkook entered his idgaf phase and never left. So while you're apparently worried about jikookers and our interpretive abilities anon, jikook keep jikooking.

All along they have shown and told us how close they are. Jimin said explicitly he'd be comforted enlisting with Jungkook and Jungkook simply showed us that he enlisted with Jimin. Jimin could have enlisted sooner. Jungkook could have enlisted much (much) later. Vmin could have gone the buddy route, but it was jikook that chose it together.

Jikook chose to do a travel show together too. Again gonna remind everyone that a jikook travel show isn't going to be a huge money maker in the fandom because taekookers, Jk solos, Tae solos, some "OT7", and some pjm solos aren't even going to buy it. It means it was content they made because they wanted to make it and share it with us.

This isn't about romanticizing anything. They did nothing but laugh talking about this travel show so I know it's gonna be hilarious. And then enlisting together shows the amount of trust and emotional connectivity they have together. I'm just glad at least two of our members could be together after they've all been apart for so long.

Anon saying we're the ones that don't pay attention to jikook or listen to their words really didn't sit right with me. 🤷‍♀️ Eh, what else can I say?

"we don't know why jungkook didn't cover his hickey/neckbite" Maybe Beacuse it actually wasn't anything intimate as ppl take it? Yes it's sus kinda thing to give a mark to your close friend but i do remember jungkook saying "don't take it wrong" in one of the clips of that bite but his sentence wasn't translated because the voices were colliding. Like cone on you think if it was something sexual or intimate he would have not tried to hide it??? I get jungkook answered how he goy that mark because staff asked him but why do you think jm would be telling it to everyone what is his personal business? When no one asked.

Doesn't JK saying "DON'T TAKE IT WRONG" debunk the whole thing ? He clearly.. 100% clearly.. said don't think this hickey was caused by something intimate happened yesterday. He just bit me to put him down. Ik Jikookers here haven't paid attention to him saying that because either none of your K-jkkrs translated that or you ignored because it debunked everything.

In my opinion people who aren’t blind know very well why.

Here ↓

Next time give a hickey to your friend and then let me know how it went 🥹

[fadelbison]

cant believe big dragon would be something i need to sit with/sleep on. really the most confusing part for me last ep was their conversation because what were they even saying? it was like everything they said kept flying over each other's head and it was so frustrating because it felt like they had their points and were having roughly the same conversation but also...not? and i have to thank @lelephantsnail for her tags on my post because it really helped streamline my thought about this.

this kind of subtle and nuanced form of miscommunication is not only unprecedented in thai bl but rare in media overall. however, it happens all the time in real life - where you are having a conversation and you understand each other's words perfectly but not each other's meaning/perspective.

b/c the truth is as fuckboi extraordinaires they have different stakes in this issue of Mangkorn's engagement and they're both right to prioritize their own skin in this game - in fact it's the healthy thing to do.

So some of the critical points of miscommunication in this convo (according to me) under the cut

whether or not to share this secret:

this was hard because on one hand mangkorn is trying to set a boundary and he does it in a fairly decent way: there's something im dealing with and i need time to deal with this and ill tell you everything when im ready. But...this is a fairly insane boundary to set with your lover esp when this 'problem' directly affects your relationship. Yai is right to demand to know more because you cannot deal with a problem affecting a relationship one-sidedly. But Mangkorn is also operating here in good faith - he has no intention of betraying Yai, he has all intentions of being with him so why does he have to admit something that will make yai misunderstand and leave him? Mangkorn wants a chance because being duplicitous is not his intention or his goal and its not fair that Mangkorn has to sacrifice his chance at love because of something that was decided for him. But Yai needs a chance too! A chance to decide if he wants to pursue this relationship despite the risks. And this is a good thing! Perhaps putting your life on hold for the dude you've been hate pining over and had one night of hate-love fucking is not the best idea! And thinking about his own heart and impending heartbreak is the right move.

He corners Mangkorn into telling him and Mangkorn tries his best to curtail the pitfalls - you'll understand me, right? im scared you'll leave me so you'll stay by my side right? - and Yai's answer 'its better than knowing nothing' isn't a promise that he will stay with Mangkorn. He's saying that at this point the only chance Mangkorn has of keeping him is by telling the truth. But Mangkorn hears what he needs to hear to tell Yai the truth. And so when Yai's reaction is this:

When Yai's first reaction is to think about himself and not focus on how difficult this situation is for Mangkorn (which it is!) it feels like a huge betrayal!

I had warned him it wasn't going to be easy and he reassured me we will be fine (he hadnt) so why is he saying this to me now? All I'm asking is for him to keep faith so why is he assuming the worst of me?

and Yai isn't assuming the worst of Mangkorn but of the situation itself but you can understand why Mangkorn feels so attacked because he's all raw and vulnerable from sharing something he did not want to share and his partner has reacted in exactly the way he was afraid of the most despite him saying he wouldn't react in that way (yai hasn't said anything of the sort)

And then being classic fuckbois - which honestly relatable - they say the absolute worse thing they could have to each other:

its like they picked the one thing the other was most insecure about and threw it in their faces which honestly was almost comic. they have tried for this long to talk like normal human beings and at the most critical moment of showing support and reaffirming commitment - they both default to their baser instincts of running away from hard things [which fair lmao].

And l love that they are able to call each other out on it! That they don't take the stoic okay that's done then bye! route. Mangkorn expresses what's hurting him - you're my partner and you're supposed to support me - and yai expresses whats hurting him - was giving me a choice in this relationship ever important to you? And of course Mangkorn just gets down to it. Things are spiraling and there's really one way out of this where they can stay together: that despite all the hurtful things they just said to each other - is there a way out of this together Yai knows what Mangkorn needs to hear but Yai answers in a way that is consistent with what he's shown is important to him: honesty and god is it heartbreaking and the way Bank plays it here is so GOOD

So no this conversation achieves nothing and narratively the two characters will engage in the terrible decision making that they would have had they not been so real with each other - Mangkorn will try to run away and Yai tries to distract himself. But boy, if they are to come back to each other in a way that feels realistic and not in a fantastical 'true love conquers all' copout way that can really only ever happen in stories, then having this conversation was absolutely critical.

[insomniactalks]

I had already planned on making this post after watching 3.04, and even received a message about it (LOL, cuz us PWs share 1 collective brain cell😂), so here's a quick (long) Portwell analysis! Plenty of gifs ahead, so read under the cut.

A moment that caught me really off guard was the following:

I'm not surprised EJ suggested a song that would allow Gina to shine after Corbin said they have to film something. But Gina's reaction to EJ even saying the word "love" was so genuine and full of excitement and giddiness. In the 3rd gif, she's so elated at the possibility of EJ saying he loves her (someday) that she clenches her hands to contain herself. Then she tries not to get too ahead of herself and claims she "didn't hate" hearing him say it. It feels very similar to her 2.09 talking head when she admits things have "changed a little" between her and EJ. Obviously, things definitely change for them by the S2 finale. So this was just an interesting parallel to me... it also seems like more foreshadowing of Portwell falling in love/love confession someday. They are also playing background music in the moment above that I don’t believe we’ve ever heard before. I could be wrong, so if anyone knows for sure, let me know! But it sounds like new music to me. It sounds like a guitar instrumental, with a romantic and hopeful feel. It starts the moment Gina smiles in the 1st gif, then ends the moment she stops smiling in the 4th. The music kinda encapsulates how Gina feels at that exact moment. 

Another moment that stood out to me was EJ and Gina at the beginning of “Love is an Open Door,” prior to the dream sequence when they're in-costume. EJ is clearly uncomfortable being thrown into the role of an actor again b/c he’s been so focused w/ being the director. He says he’s “a little rusty as an actor” before Gina nudges him w/ her shoulder and gives him encouraging words (”pretend it’s you and me frolicking across a field”). I think EJ does exactly what she says b/c the song eventually leads to a dream sequence, w/ EJ and Gina frolicking around the camp lmfaooo. I interpreted the part of the music video with EJ and Gina in-costume as Hans and Anna as EJ’s imagination, if he were to play that role in the musical. 

The part I wanna talk about is the very beginning of “LIAOD,” before the dream sequence, where you can clearly tell EJ is incredibly nervous and sings rigidly at first (not gifed but just look it up hehe). He can’t even look up as he sings “I love crazy” and seems extra expressive when he sings “I was thinking the same thing” (also not gifed. Sorry.) BUT the moment he starts to act/sing more genuinely is during the following lines:              

Living in his father’s shadow for all his life, this line really relates to EJ’s experience b/c he’s been trying to live up to Cash’s expectations of him (perfect son, athlete, actor, etc) while also trying to “find his place” in the world. Gina nods along as EJ sings this bit b/c she understands (as both someone who has also been searching for her own place/home, but also as someone who knows about EJ’s life, considering their 2.08 couch scene. He said his “entire life had been mapped out for him” (2.08) and Gina shook her head at the time b/c she couldn’t relate. But in the gif above, she nods her head in agreement b/c she gets him now, even if her experience differs.) 

The first time Portwell make eye contact (meaningfully!) during the song is this moment: 

Gina looks over at EJ while she sings “with you” and he does the same. He sings “I found my place” while looking at her b/c Gina helped him on this journey of self-discovery. Her words to him in the 2.08 couch convo gave him the strength to stand up to his dad about the whole Duke situation. Gina sings “I see your face” with another nudge in the shoulder (totes paralleling the shoulder nudge in 2.10!) b/c she really does see EJ for who he truly is. She even said it in 2.08 ("I see someone who tries really hard to do the right thing. He fails a lot. But he keeps on trying.") When they sing these lines, they’re not portraying Anna and Hans. They are just Gina and EJ, 100% themselves. 

Right before the dream sequence part of the song, we get this moment:       

Gina turns to EJ and offers him her hands. With more confidence than before, EJ happily takes them and Gina gives a reassuring squeeze. She’s silently telling him “we got this!” thru her body language b/c from this point on, they have one another’s full, undivided attention. They’re not just performing for Corbin and his documentary crew, EJ and Gina are singing to each other from this point on.  (I also just love the fact that Gina’s wearing a cute red dress and a heart locket. AND THEY’RE SINGING A LOVE SONG.) 

One last thing that I love about “LIAOD” are these scenes:    

EJ pushes Gina on the swing. Gina pushes EJ on the swing. EJ spin dips Gina. Gina spin dips EJ. Sure, he can be the macho leading man/hero, and she could be the damsel in distress, but that's not who they really are all the time. They are very much so reversing typical gender constructs in the most subtle of ways! And I absolutely love it! I just love how often Portwell are shown to be a team, and they've always got each other's backs. If she falls, he'll catch her. If he falls, she'll catch him. It's an equal partnership through and through. (It also takes a lot of trust to fall into someone's arms like that, and they both clearly trust the other to catch them!) AND just thought of this, but having Gina be the one to spin dip EJ further highlights her role as Anna as the heroine of the story. There's certainly no toxic masculinity on EJ's part because he's more than happy to have his girlfriend catch/spin dip him on national television, especially if it means highlighting what a star she is. AGHHHHH I LOVE THEM.

[hoofpeet]

is there drama going on in pokemonlove4ever. please fill me in

Just going thru the last couple dozen posts will probably b enough but basically:

A new mod (cryogonal) got added to the blog because he was dating one of the other mods (sigilyth). -> Those 2 used this post V

to have a really long and weird convo-> One of the other mods (rightfully) asked them to b quiet b/c they were clogging up the page-> Mod C called one of the other mods gay-> Mod C got kicked off the blog-> His girlfriend, Mod sigilyth, went on posting spree and insulted the rest of the mods

And then got kicked off the blog as well. Now I guess they're just hanging out

[yaz-the-spaz]

Hi ! Wait wait wait, in one post you said the fandom had been speculating for years zayn is into bdsm. Whyyy do we think that! Im freaking out over here

hey nonnie! check out my hanky code tag and ziam kinks tag for more conclusive evidence but basically there's a ton of things they've both done over the years to hint at the fact that they are very much into bdsm & just generally all-around kinky ass shit lol, most notably of which was their continued use of the hanky code (an old signaling tactic used by queer men to let other queer men know what they were into/up for, particularly in the loud atmosphere of gay bars where it wasn't as easy to have long convos or ask q's about kinks/preferences, etc. but also a helpful way of engaging in both sexual signaling and/or nonsexual solidarity signaling in public non-queer spaces as well)

there's been a lot of debate in the past about whether it was simply just a fashion choice or they genuinely knew what they were doing, but if you have the time to go through at least some of the posts in those tags you'll find evidence of very specific reactions that make it pretty hard to argue that they didn't know exactly what the fuck they were doing or saying about themselves and what it meant lol

to sum up not so briefly though, through their combined use of the hanky code, notable comments made in interviews, common themes hinted at in songs, and just generally wild shit they inexplicably did in public in front of thousands of people lol, essentially these kinky ass hoes men have blatantly hinted at having/being into: nipple play, whipping/spanking kink, pain kink, rough sex (zayn's songsss i mean need i say more??), marking kink (biting & scratching especially, but also the occasional hints of bruising lol), fisting/fingering, s&m, and dom/sub roleplay just to name a few lol! (some people ascribe a blindfolding kink to them as well b/c of that iconic moment from 1d day, but even though it was v. cute i firmly maintain speculation on that remains inconclusive given that it wasn't their idea and not anything i think they ever freely advertised on their own as being into like all the other stuff)

but basically ziam be like

and we be like lol we see u boo 😏

on a related side note - if you're curious, you can also read up on a more detailed history of the hanky code here!

(also in case tumblr decides to stupidly update/change their link format again out of fucking nowhere and the above tag links stop working just go ahead and click them from the tags section below)