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lostacelonnie · 23 days ago
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18, 19, 24 + KIRA!!!!!!! - lee :3
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18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?
okay so i could go about this for HOURSSSS but kira and bianka's mentor/mentee relationship genuinely makes me want to eat bricks in the best possible way. oh so like okay kira probably held bianka as a baby and doesn't even know it until like. what. 5 years after their meeting in the dudu vn. and also during one of their first convos kira says that bianka "really knows how to encourage others, just like cecilia". and also the Bond between someone who comes from earth but after the second eruption was away from it for so long that she no longer really recognizes it, and someone who had all their memories wiped, any "inherent tie" she might've had to the world around her severed, and had to build her connection to it all by herself. and also the duty of a valkyrie vs the duty of an idol as expressed in the vn in this specific dialogue:
Kira: Idols are angels meant to convey love, and only a heart with the desire of "reaching the top" can carry such a heavy task. Kira: She needs to become the person that everyone needs. Kira: She needs to fight against her own shortcomings, immaturity, selfishness and prejudice. Kira: And more than that, in order to convey true love in the hearts of others she must be like an unbreakable diamond, shining forever. Bianka: ...How can someone do that? People can get hurt at any time! Kira: Even lions get hurt, but they don't let themselves be seen licking their wounds. Kira: Because a lion is a lion.
like do you GET me. obviously this is a part of schicksal rhetoric that kira herself is a victim of [do not get me started on kira's savior complex i will Not stop talking] but it's also one of the first GENUINE, not schicksal-arranged role models bianka had in her life. kira was a valkyrie, sure, but she has Seen Shit and persevered and i think tiny bian needed to meet someone like that. okay hold on im rambling lets move onnnnn ^-^
19. How about a relationship they have in canon that you don't like?
im gonna be entirely honest i cant think of anything.... though there Are a couple i would've liked to get more. Elaboration on. specifically:
1. human niggurath. i wonder if they were close. i mean like, yeah they WERE close because all of the snowwolves were close with each other but i wanna know more about these 2 specifically!! in 2e we get much more of a focus on niggurath's relationship with salome [which is delicious do not get me wrong] but i wonder what it was like between her and kira, with brown sugar's later bodyhopping i mean. speaking of which i wonder how naturally similar to niggurath brown sugar is.... cause like, we know that she continued using her previous host's name and form because thats how kira referred to her but i wonder how much of it is genuine and how much of it is "wearing a red shirt at walmart" type of situation. because in my mind it could be either that a) shub and brown sugar are really just that alike by themselves, b) brown sugar kind of melded shub's personality with her own when she lived in her body, or c) she only developed that after being with kira. which. i believe the latter is the closest to canon since in dudu vn kira mentions brown sugar not being entirely Sentient (yet?). which. has implications. yes im psychoanalyzing her comic relief alien best friend dont even worry about it
2. siegfried but SPECIFICALLY post-sshc arc. because yeah yeah we know that before 2e she fucking DESPISED him [which btw i find hysterically funny. never stop being a hater] and while ik that she has Not improved her opinion after that it still must be. strange. like oh okay theyre one of the only people who remember cecilia for who she was. and the snowwolves for who they were. and they were both away from their home universe for most of the time between 2e and sshc. like that must fuck you up. but at the same time its also "i miss my wife" "i miss your wife too"
3. THE WOMAN THE LEGENDARY LADY CECILIA SCHARIAC HERSELF. jesus christ every time i think about kira and cecilias relationship i want to jump into the ocean never to be seen again. kira loved her sooooo so much but also she loved her before cecilia met siegfried. it had to be jarring to see her become suddenly so. happy. but she loved her in a very idealized way, i think? to me at least its very obvious it couldnt Ever have been mutual simply because kira never quite managed to get as close to cecilia as such a relationship would require... in the end, she was just. her fan. cecilia was her friend, yes, but she was also that shining star in the distance that marked kira's way, that drove her to become a valkyrie and an idol... which is another topic in on itself because. kira is prickly! kira isnt the type of person who finds it easy to be that perfect idol, thats all a conscious effort!! but i digress. kira loved cecilia in the way that she adored her, but then suddenly cecilia was gone and the snowwolves were gone and kira had to find her own way in the dark. which is also why i think it could be such a fun thing to explore her dynamic with miste[I AM SUDDENLY AND REPEATEDLY SHOT. MY CORPSE IS DRAGGED AWAY AND THROWN OFF A BRIDGE.]
24. What other character from another fandom of yours that reminds you of them?
OH UHM I DONT KNOW ACTUALLY. i find it that pretty often with hi3rd chars specifically, i have a lot of trouble finding characters that really "remind" me of them from other media simply because each and every one has a string of such strangely specific mental problems that even if at first glance two characters appear similar, i think about it for 3 seconds more and decide "never mind actually" so. im sorry but i actually cant think of anything 😭😭
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dgaftilwedie · 3 months ago
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hai!!!! my name's kira (pronounced kai-ruh, this is very important). im 18, my pronouns are they/it, n this is my bloggington :3 WOOOOOO
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my "unholy trinity" (aka my favorite things ever teehee) is jojo's bizarre adventure (especially vento aureo), saw, and the band ghost!! that being said i am also very very VERRYYYYY annoying about mark hoffman!!!
i'm also super into smiling friends, black christmas (1974) and slashers in general (do NOT ask me about billy lenz, i will not shut up), cod wwii, danganronpa, creepypasta, bioshock, meteos, criminal minds, breaking bad, five nights at freddy's, postal, metalocalypse, resident evil, the binding of isaac, and the scott pilgrim series :3
my asks are always open so please feel free to talk to me abt any of my interests!!!!!!
writing is literally my favorite thing to do, and i do post some of it on here. my ao3 is @//kittieglitter if you'd like to read some of the stuff i have posted on there!! it's also linked at the bottom of this post hehe if there's something you'd like me to write, feel free to request it on here!! im usually super down to write anything ;3
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tsundeoku · 1 month ago
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Lilia always welcomed a good surprise, as rare as it was. Most other Diasomnia students respected their distance, engaging with both him and Malleus, however, the ones who hadn’t always satisfied his little curiosities. “ Is that so? A question, for little old me? How delightful! Colour me intrigued. “ There was no shame in his smirk. These simple conversations were what made his school years here most valuable, after all; interacting with the youth and all its joys. 
 “ You have my full attention—ask to your heart’s content, Kira. “ it wasn’t as if he was doing much of anything, really. That alone hadn’t needed to be answered, considering, with a quick swipe, the sounds of his phone’s screen were left with silence. He’d tuck the rest of his daily login activities later for his computer. 
His smile spread, a softened gaze drifting towards her hooded demeanour. Kira including her Housewarden alongside with him was enough to sweeten Lilia’s day. The interest of their heritage only added to the ingredients of a very fruitful discussion. “ Indeed we are. Though Malleus is quite a bit younger than I—still just a fledgling by my standards, “ he explained. “ Many here may wonder the same thing—'Surely there’s nothing left for fae like us to learn, right?' But that is far from the truth. “ 
Communicating so openly with a human such as Kira was mere proof of that—something few beyond anyone prior to his years would understand. Even his phone, bursting with knowledge ever so interchangeable, setting against the table was reason enough. “ There was even a time I thought the same as you. Granted, that was long ago. I had quite the rebellious streak back then… “ he reminisced. “ But no matter how old we fae grow, the world never stays the same. Even after centuries, it still manages to surprise me. “ he playfully kicked his feet, hands resting underneath his chin. Lilia couldn’t help but chuckle at his own ancient musings.
“ Look at your dorm leader, for example. You might not think it, but that boy still has plenty left to learn. Things that cannot be taught by his power alone—things he can only grasp by speaking with students like yourself. “ he knew it wasn’t easy for malleus to do, but, in time, it would be less difficult with experience.
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After a brief pause, Lilia picked up his cellular device and waved it around. He was a little embarrassed by the cracked screen, but he felt it was needed to finish his point. Or maybe he was just eager to express his own excitement…  “ Ah, and to think—if I hadn’t come to NRC, i’d have missed out on the wonders of ‘online gaming’~! There are so many things i’ve experienced here that Briar Valley could never offer. So, i’d say my time here has been quite enriching, wouldn’t you agree? ”
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@tsundeoku ❤'d~ {Lilia}
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"Lilia... I have a question, if you will indulge me," the young mage said as she approached the fae. She didn't need to see him to know who it was--only Lilia's dorm uniform was tailored to have such a large coat. Kira ensured she couldn't see anyone's face--and thus they couldn't see hers in return--to ensure she wouldn't feel any sort of bias towards them.
One's true character is found beyond anything external, that was what she lived by...but she was still made aware of the fact that he and Malleus were fae by the conversations all around her. Not that it mattered to her, of course--she didn't care what one's species was because it didn't define their character. But she was still curious about one thing in particular.
"You and Malleus are both fae," she started, only her mouth and chin visible beneath her hood. "You both have lived longer than any number of us and far surpass us in power... So why did you two decide to attend school here?" It was an innocent question--perhaps she could partake of some of Lilia's wisdom from the answer.
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applestorms · 2 months ago
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ok, well. if last time i talked about parallels between near & light, i guess it’s only fair that this time i talk about parallels between mello & misa. yap central on this blog lately.
the main thing that stands out the most about mello & misa, and the reason why i will forever Defend them and their place in the story, is that in my mind they both function in a similar way on a narrative level: namely, both of them are incredibly active wild-card characters that keep the action going and the story moving forward when the other main characters like light, L, & near start getting too passive.
notably, while i often see this trait praised in mello, usually in the context of a comparative criticism of near for his overly-abundant passivity, i have also seen it used as a criticism of misa's character, that she breaks up the status quo of DN too significantly and thereby makes the story feel less realistic. this last point in particular is an odd argument to make imo, as if anything misa's presence only increases the realism of DN by adding some extra luck/random chance into the story in a way that is ultimately still character-motivated and thus easier for the audience to go along with-- something DN in general is very good at, often introducing elements through pure chance but keeping them grounded in characters enough that you almost don't even notice.
take light meeting naomi misora, for example: the only reason he runs across her at all is because he offers to run an errand for his mom on a bored laundry day, literally stumbling across her right at the exact moment she is divulging important insights she is literally the only person capable of making about kira. yet this moment does not stand out as particularly aggravating or out of place in the story, as ultimately the only reason why light is able to get out of that situation is his own quick thinking and ability to calm himself while under immense pressure, squeezing his way out of a potentially run-ending situation he didn't even know existed moments prior.
(not a fan of that big joel video, if you couldn't tell. lmao.)
point is, mello & misa both fulfill about the same narrative function in the story by being so aggressive in their actions, catching the others off guard even if their plans aren't as well thought out or careful as they could otherwise be. they're both incredibly passionate, dedicated characters as well, tough enough to take the hit when it inevitably comes, and in my opinion neither of them are nearly as stupid as the other MCs like to make them out to be. to some degree, i think both of them are aware of the fact that they can't win at the Mind Game Cold War Bullshit the others are inclined to get involved in, so they instead choose to carve out their own place in the story through sheer perseverance alone.
which, speaking of passion: one of the most interesting parallels i think you can make between mello & misa is the ways in which they idolize their respective heroes, misa's obviously being light while mello's is L. allow me to elaborate.
as this post points out, DN has some very interesting use of its religious imagery & theming, and in particular its use of christian/catholic gothic imagery in its story and especially its art. however, as op notes, a lot of this is quite superficial, ascribing to an aesthetic of "kitschy Catholicism," that was characteristic of a lot of early 2000s japanese goth style. yet, while i admit that a more serious consideration of religious elements in the art & story could add some interesting flavor to the story, i also think that, regardless of intention, the superficiality of DN's religious elements works really well in the context of this particular story. as i stated in my tags on that post: light is a superficial god. he is a fake, a scam, some idiot human that stumbled across the powers of a real shinigami and got his head up his ass about it. and a lot of the arcs of other characters in DN is about their reaction to light's claims-- whether they choose to follow him (e.g. misa, mikami), follow somebody else (e.g. mello), or follow nobody at all (e.g. near, also kinda soichiro?), and the implications that has for their lives and personalities.
this is all to say that while you can, on a surface level, connect misa & mello pretty easily as the two aggressive, fashionable blondes of the series, i also think that these somewhat superficial traits betray a greater connection between the two of them. if we understand the christian/catholic elements of misa & mello's fashion as a demonstration of their connection to not just a higher power but a lie, a superficial deity simply reflecting the sunlight of powers greater than himself, then i think we have great insight into another key element of both their characters.
do not forget: in the world of DN, heaven & hell do not exist. at least in the context of death itself, the realm & lore of the shinigami reign supreme, a point which the DN musical makes even more overt: "Isn't it a laugh? / Isn't it a shame? / Thinking there is someone in heaven to blame?" and "Going through the motions / as if there will be a reward / Oh, while we stay eternally bored!" (BEST SONGGG.) everyone is destined for the same fate of MU, the same void of nothingness awaits all. no reward, no punishment, no greater deity looking down upon us than the bored, slothful shinigami, lazing about in their realm and picking people off only when necessary (for the most part).
misa & mello are thus dedicating themselves to false idols, and we can see the negative effects this has on them in almost every facet of their character-- particularly for mello, who is perhaps more self-aware and has more of a mixed emotional outlook on his idol, but maybe even to a more extreme degree for misa. i keep going back to this idea of equating boredom with depression in DN, but where light/L/near are all "bored" in a very quiet, passive, stewing-in-bed late at night kinda way, misa & mello are characteristically a lot more aggressive and intense about it-- while neither of them are super overtly suicidal, necessarily, their actions still betray a distinct lack of care for their own safety or lives, expressing the same thematic sentiment as the others. even if they still don't straight up say it, through their actions they're a lot louder about not liking themselves, and seem to take the problems they see in the world more personally, shouldering the blame as a failure within themselves instead of projecting it outward like the others: e.g. light taking his unhappiness at the emptiness of his life at the start of the story & placing the blame on the world for "going to shit" & humanity's moral failings, versus misa being willing to literally & figuratively give up her life for KIRA the second he demands it, whether that be in the form of shinigami eyes or killing her own friends w/o second thought-- all because he was the only thing to bring justice to her own parents' deaths, an almost undoubtedly traumatizing/horrible experience for her considering how much value she places on KIRA/light afterwards.
to clarify, this is not to say that all of these characters are actually and literally depressed and/or suicidal, though you could certainly make that argument for some/all of them-- this is just one way that i think you could interpret their roles in the plot, and their thematic attachment to the story. even if DN isn't all that interested in considering the True Moral Answer to ethics/the justice system/human society/etc, it definitely takes at least some interest in the emotional viewpoints of characters in relation to those concepts, so i think this is a fair enough approach to take. or to say this another way, it's less about justifying the claim that "the world is shit," and more about trying to understand the emotional motivation & experience of feeling like the world is shit, if that makes sense.
that being said...speaking more on the whole "not liking themselves," thing: even if she doesn't say it aloud often, if ever, i think that misa is deeply aware of the fact that she was not supposed to live this long, that her existence at all is a pure stroke of luck that let her live on past her destined date. she dedicates herself to light so fully, not even necessarily expecting reciprocation (though she at least reserves herself the possibility of such), because being a disciple to her god at least gives her life some kind of purpose. similarly, i think mello is also aware of just how out of reach the one thing he wants is, how his desperation in and of itself is ironically the one thing keeping him from surpassing near and truly being #1. it's important to note that pre-time skip misa & post-skip mello are almost exactly the same age, around 20 years old at the time of their main arcs. they're immature, and in the case of mello especially, are lashing out at the world in whatever way they can because they know they don't quite fit into it in the way that they want to or should. regardless of the intent behind it, mello & misa both still make the conscious decision to kill with the DN-- perhaps in a way that still keeps their humanity, at least following near's logic, but it's a decision to end a human life either way.
anyways, going back to my previous point, this "worshiping of false idols," idea has some interesting implications-- for misa & mello yes, but also for L and the ways in which he contrasts again light, as under this logic mello's treatment kind of inherently gives L a similar status as a sort of false god/idol. which-- actually makes a lot of sense? or at the very least, viewing wammy's house as a kind of mystery cult a la the eleusinian mysteries is a neat approach to take. L & light's mutual alienation from humanity fits them both filling a false god status, anyway. also there's another thread of analysis you could follow here where near is instead fit into the role of the person mello is fixated on which AAAAAAAAA has interesting implications but jesus fucking christ, this post is long. some thoughts for another time, i suppose.
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incorrectinfinity · 4 months ago
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@heatwa-ves AN OPPORTUNITY TO YAP!?!?!?
Mainly it's personal issues with taste.
I am not really an enjoyer of Diavolo, I think his motivations beyond his need for anonymity were unclear and kinda disappointing. Don't get me wrong I appreciate pure evil villains who do what they want when they want, but they have the right personality for it (DIO and Kira) in my opinion Diavolo did not have that much of an interesting personality and was mainly just underwhelming. His most interesting trait was his care for Doppio but after their separation he didn't mention him once so like?
I also wish he had something more to do with Giorno to help make up for his lack of screentime. When watching the first time I thought that he was going to be revealed to have something to do with Giorno's hero, but that's not really a criticism of the part itself it's just something I would've done.
Along with that I am not a big fan of body swapping either, there were many moments that I found annoying or just insanely abrupt considering the dark tone established with the previous arcs and how hugely this was built up to. I made a joke about it in the post this comment was under it about how Mista and Trish's silly conversation was abruptly met with Giorno's final monolog. That scene just entirely summarizes my thoughts about Chariot Requiem as an arc.
Though to be fair to it, at least in the dub the voice actors are all trying to do impressions of eachother and that is fucking great I actually loved that a lot.
And then. Rolling stones.
In this final arc with all of the characters that we had lost.... why wasn't Fugo used more?
It just bothers me, and again the tone of Part 5's ending is so insanely inconsistent it makes my head spin. I get that it flows with the theme of fate throughout part 5 but also I really did not need this arc to be satisfied with the ending. It feels abrupt and out of place.
I really would've preferred getting answers to what happened from Giorno's victory onward, but Araki only writes what he finds interesting so maybe he knows it would've been sucky. I am still curious.
On the other side Narancia's death was literally the perfect scene, the final anime-original tribute to him breaks my heart into a million billion pieces.
Bruno's self sacrifice also makes me emotional and one of my favorite scenes of part 5 is where he tells Mista to shoot his body, with Giorno clarifying to say that it's meant to slow him down. Them staring at eachother afterwards is fucking brilliant. Giorno's optimism built upon denial is so interesting to me... he gives me brain worms.
Also very few classic dub insults. The only one I can think of is Mista saying "Golden Wind Whatchmacallit" and I don't think that counts. 0/10 terrible part I hate jojo.
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corviiids · 21 days ago
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your characterization of characters is so good, especially your half-joking death note aus/hypotheicals... i feel as if youre a scientist who's spent years observing lawlight in a confined enclosure and is now sharing your accumulated expertise with the wider public. that being said do you think if light watched american psycho he would be self aware enough to notice the similarities
this is such an extremely nice thing to say to someone who only watched death note in literally february of this year. im humbled and honoured by this accolade. also mildly concerned about exactly how quickly light yagami became a part of my soul and personality
i actually have not read or watched american psycho but im willing to do so to complete this analysis if i must, although i do not really like horror films. unsubstantiated yapping hidden below anyway
my instinct (uninformed) is a soft no? light is remarkably self aware in some ways and absolutely, completely, 1000% untrustworthy about matters of his own self in other ways. my limited understand of american psycho is that mr patrick bateman is not driven to commit murder by a desire to enact social reform? please correct me if im wrong. i think on that front alone light would see someone committing atrocities, especially without being driven by grand ideals, and immediately distance himself from the character regardless of whether or not similarities exist beyond that
actually you know what im adding a condition. post-kira light would say no he's nothing like patrick bateman. pre-kira/yotsuba light would say the same thing but secretly doubt and fear
however this is a heavily caveated take because i need to watch the film and educate myself first
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I’ll be putting my stuff under tags finally -3-“ [art], [Reblogs], [Family Posts], [Randoms], [Shitposts], [Kira is YAPPING]
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[◤⏤͟͟͞͞🦈◥] 𝓘 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓵𝓵𝔂 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓵𝓵𝔂 𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓽 𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓻𝓮𝓺𝓾𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓼! 𝓟𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓼𝓮, 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓽 𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓭𝓻𝓪𝔀 𝓼𝓮𝓷𝓭 𝓲𝓽 𝓲𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓲𝓷𝓫𝓸𝔁! 𝓘 𝔀𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭𝓷'𝓽 𝓶𝓲𝓷𝓭 𝓪𝓽 𝓪𝓵𝓵! 𝓝𝓢𝓕𝓦/𝓼𝓾𝓰𝓰𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓿𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝓪𝓵𝓻𝓲𝓰𝓱�� 𝓽𝓸𝓸 [𝓝𝓢𝓕𝓦/𝓼𝓾𝓰𝓰𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓿𝓮 𝓻𝓮𝓺𝓾𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓼 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓶𝓾𝓽𝓾𝓪𝓵𝓼 𝓸𝓷𝓵𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱! <3 [◤🦈⏤͟͟͞͞◥]
I really really want art requests! Please, whatever you want me to draw send it I the inbox! I wouldn’t mind at all! NSFW/suggestive is alright too [NSFW/suggestive requests are for mutuals only]
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[◤⏤͟͟͞͞🐚◥] 𝓕𝓻𝓸𝓶 𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓵𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝓻𝓮𝓵𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓭, 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓫𝓵𝓸𝓰 𝓼𝓱𝓪𝓻𝓮𝓼 𝓼𝓸𝓶𝓮 𝓯𝓪𝓶𝓲𝓵𝔂 𝓵𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝓫𝓮𝓽𝔀𝓮𝓮𝓷 𝓶𝓮, 𝓶𝔂 𝔀𝓲𝓯𝓮, 𝓴𝓲𝓭𝓼 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓪𝓷𝔂 𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓶𝓾𝓽𝓾𝓪𝓵 𝔀𝓱𝓸 𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓽𝓼 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓪𝓹𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓸𝓯 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓼𝓽𝓸𝓻𝔂 [◤🐚⏤͟͟͞͞◥] From here is all lore related, this blog shares some family lore between me, my wife, kids and any other mutual who wants to be apart of this story
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[◤⏤͟͟͞͞🦭◥] 𝓘 𝓪𝓽 𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮𝓼 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓱𝔂𝓹𝓮𝓻𝓯𝓲𝔁𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓼. 𝓗𝓮𝓻𝓮'𝓼 𝓼𝓸𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓵𝓲𝓼𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓘'𝓿𝓮 𝓭𝓻𝓪𝔀𝓷 𝓯𝓸𝓻: 𝓤𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓽𝓪𝓵𝓮, 𝓓𝓗𝓜𝓘𝓢, 𝓽𝓯2, 𝓘𝓗𝓝𝓜𝓐𝓘𝓜𝓢, 𝓵𝓲𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓪𝓵 𝓹𝓲𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓼, 𝓶𝔂 𝓸𝔀𝓷 𝓼𝓮𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓼 [𝓚𝓢, 𝓢𝓔, 𝓶𝔂 𝓯𝓪𝓶𝓲𝓵𝔂😭]𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓙𝓙𝓑𝓐. [◤🦭⏤͟͟͞͞◥]
At times I have hyperfixations. Here’s some to list that I’ve drawn for: Undertale, DHMIS, TF2 IHNMAIMS, literal pirates, my own series [KS, SE, my family😭] and JJBA
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sillygo0fycl0wn · 3 months ago
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hi! I’d love to hear your head canons about ryuk x matsuda (matsuryuk?) Like, who falls first, who falls harder, etc, etc. Thanks! :D
Hello omg yes, I’d love to share some headcanons about these two goobers!!
Haven’t been in a writing mood so sorry for any poor grammar/ maybe stereotypical or boring headcanons, but I’ll do my best! :D (Get ready for my massive yapping session 💪)
Spoilers for Death Note ahead!!
<3 <3 <3
• Their ship name is truly a conundrum.. I love ship names that have a bit more silliness to them that aren’t just the squashed together names of the pair but man I’ve been coming up blank for these two sadly :(( I did see someone mention “Applesuit” which I could get behind.. if anyone has any other ideas let me know I’ll 💍
• Matsuda was definitely the one who fell first without realizing it in the beginning, but something just clicked the minute he saw Ryuk and actually got to know the shinigami and his life. Matsuda is really the only person out of the Task Force who was interested in communicating with Ryuk that didn’t strictly involve interrogation - he was curious about other matters and that got them to delve into deeper conversations. It was sort of a strange thing to imagine in Matsuda’s mind that he was actually falling for a literal monster - a threat even who could kill him at any second - but that didn’t matter whatsoever. That monster was surprisingly nice and handsome of course 💅 His slight naivety probably helped push it forward some..
• Ryuk, on the other hand, wouldn’t really come to terms for his feelings for Matsuda until after Light died. Once returning to the shinigami realm, Ryuk went on feeling as if he were missing something in his life but kept pushing it aside as just his boredom until he physically couldn’t get the image of Matsuda out of his mind, figuring out just how dearly he missed the kindness and wonderful attitude from such a human. For the first couple of years, Ryuk stayed and decided to watch over Matsuda, becoming Gelus levels of obsession where he would rarely leave his post to follow the man around. After some time, Ryuk would gain his hands on another Death Note and in this AUish, headcanon world idea I’ve come up with, instead of going to Minoru in the time skip, he would latch onto Matsuda. Not only to spend more proper time with him but also for Ryuk’s slight amusement to see if Matsuda would be willing to use the Death Note to himself. I’d imagine, judging by how Matsuda saw that there was a sense of misguided goodness in Kira beforehand, would be persuaded to use the note although he uses it very sparingly to not bring attention to himself and of course only kills the worst of the worst.
• The question for who fell harder is a bit more complex because while Matsuda is way more outward with his emotions, becoming all giddy and flushed around Ryuk, I think that they still fell equally as hard for the other. Ryuk has this more softer yet still as passionate love for Matsuda, an emotion he can’t grasp until it hits him in the face.
• Matsuda was the only one out of the Task Force concerned in feeding Ryuk and he took this way more seriously than Light or probably anyone else would. Matsuda would be a massive stickler in trying to find the best, ripest, most juiciest apples he could possibly muster (and afford..) for Ryuk and this started the small spark in Ryuk’s brain toward Matsuda for being so thoughtful enough to try and find such wonderful apples.
• In return, Ryuk shows his appreciation with a tactic known as pebbling (something penguins do and I overall headcanon that this is one of the ways shinigami show their love - platonic or otherwise :3) Pebbling is essentially just an individual finding a cool looking rock to give to their partner/ friend. Anytime Matsuda brought Ryuk a brand new bag of apples, Ryuk would bring Matsuda rocks he found wherever he could. And obviously.. he kept them all 😔 Probably has a little chest and everything filled with nothing but damn rocks
• Matsuda definitely has a hard time concealing his feelings but since Ryuk doesn’t fully grasp the concept of human nature at first (particularly romantic feelings) + he doesn’t believe any human would ever love him, he’s quite oblivious if Matsuda gets super nervous around him or gets all flustered. Misa is the main one who notices and constantly teases Matsuda about it - again, Ryuk just blows it off, not accepting it as fact
• Ryuk seldom left Matsuda’s side during the days of the Task Force (unless forced to) and would often just stand over Matsuda’s shoulder, watching him work. He always cursed himself for getting genuinely excited whenever Matsuda came into work.
• Matsuda often helps out Ryuk in preening his feathers, really only in those hard to reach areas near the center of his back. This was one of their first more intimate moments together when, Ryuk - someone who rarely ever lets anyone touch his wings because he takes great pride in them - ask Matsuda for help in preening during the Task Force days. Lotsa trust there, but Matsuda does a great job at it. No matter how long it takes, he’s sure to be precise.
• Funny thing is that I headcanon shinigami do this to one another on occasion too (only the ones with feathered wings). This allopreening junk is mostly seen in a platonic way since sometimes you just can’t reach those nasty pin feathers 😔 But Ryuk tries to return the favor for Matsuda’s help and by return the favor he sort of.. grooms Matsuda in the way of licking his messy hair cat-style and making it all pretty with his saliva 🫶 good for you Ryuk. He tries 😔
• I don’t believe that Ryuk would ever sacrifice his life at the end of Matsuda’s for a couple reasons. One, Matsuda will still be a mortal being no matter if his life is extended past that previous death date, he will die eventually and there’s no going back against that. The only qualm is that Ryuk is now dead as well. Secondly, the life Matsuda would get after Ryuk’s sacrifice would not be one worth living due to the extensive amount of years that would be put on his person, essentially making him immortal and suffering for it in the process - something Ryuk definitely would never want to leave Matsuda with. However, since they have the mutual agreement that Ryuk will be the one to write Matsuda’s name down when it seems fit, Ryuk would be sure to make his death as painless as possible to ensure the best final ending for his human. Ryuk would, in a bittersweet moment, hold a dying Matsuda in his arms, knuckle gingerly brushing against his cheek, telling him that everything’s going to be alright - that type of angsty junk 😔
To more generalized headcanons..
• Ryuk adores the way humans are so warm and toasty because he has no natural pulse or bloodflow to keep his own body warm so in turn he feels like a literal icicle. He quite likes giving general touches to Matsuda once warming up to the man, particularly holding his hands and touching his face in gentle gestures. The two of them oftentimes will sleep together for this reason. Even though Ryuk doesn’t sleep, he willingly holds onto Matsuda and gets super cozy with how soothing his body temperature is. Matsuda doesn’t even mind the cold because (just like little ol me 💅) he’s always burning up at night so the two cancel each other out into nothing but comfort :3
• Speaking of their sleeping arrangements, their two main positions are holding one another in a tight embrace or having Matsuda sprawled out on top of Ryuk with his arms knitted around Matsuda’s waist.
• (CW: Light talk of panic attacks) Andd speaking of Ryuk’s cold natured self.. this comes in handy if Matsuda ever has really bad days where he may enter panic or otherwise anxiety attacks. One way to help someone refocus during a panic attack is with intense sensations such as holding an ice cube to shock the body into returning to reality. Ryuk is a horrible comforter, he never really knows how to communicate or verbalize properly, so the one way he can help is to hold Matsuda’s hands during these episodes to help calm him down. He’s also really good at making random talk in order to act as a distraction.
• These two cannot kiss each other if their lives depended on it- Matsuda, poor guy, has definitely not been in any serious relationships in his life besides for a couple dates here and there and so he’s a massive kiss virgin. Ryuk.. Where the hell would he find the time to smooch someone. As a result (plus the size difference between the two), they struggle to actually kiss each other without it looking like a hot ass mess.. but they learn and grown together in their relationship, slowly finding ways around it (I wouldn’t recommend making out with Ryuk tho those fangs lord nightmare right there 😬)
• Horrible kissers? Try also horrible bakers- They desperately want to make something for the other but can’t. Matsuda I can imagine wants to bake something simple such as an apple pie, but greatly messes it up and resorts to buying one from the store, while Ryuk tries to make something like breakfast for Matsuda one day only to nearly set the house on fire.. they do their best but unfortunately no dice 😔
• The size difference can come in handy though as Ryuk tends to show his affection in a bit of I suppose not a typical fashion when it comes to physical affection? He’s very handsy in the way that he won’t offer kisses, hand holding, or hugs, but will scoop Matsuda up in his arms and carry him around alongside putting the other in his lap or on his shoulder. He loves coming up behind Matsuda and just surprising him with a giant swoop into his arms. This also makes it easy for Ryuk to bring Matsuda to bed if he fell asleep out on the couch.
• Mmm cheesy love trope for these two - Ryuk calling Matsuda pet names in different languages (overall headcanon that shinigami can speak any language to communicate with all humans). Ryuk goes down the list of just saying “my love” in whatever language he can think of. Works on Matsuda way too well-..
• Ryuk loves to tease Matsuda whether he’s on a phone call, interacting with others that can’t see Ryuk, or just simply working - typically out in a public setting where Ryuk can distract Matsuda with tender touches, small whispers in his ear or even lighthearted kisses. The one time he’s perfectly happy with initiating the physical affection. He’s glad to rile Matsuda up in front of people without them knowing any better.
• Similarly, Ryuk always has to comment on whatever the hell is going on and this will make Matsuda laugh pretty much 100% of the time, often to his dismay because it’s at such inappropriate occasions
• Ryuk loves seeing him laugh though, it makes him happy :3
• Ryuk can’t obviously wear any of Matsuda���s clothes like in that stereotypical love trope way, but he will steal whatever he can get his hands on (shirts, jackets, etc) and snuggle up with them because he still loves the way they smell + Matsuda in general
• Ryuk likes to beg Matsuda for a bite of whatever he’s eating and Matsuda always obliges even though he knows Ryuk will grumble about how ‘nasty’ it is with his picky ass. He just does it to tease ✨
<3 <3 <3
A h a ranting aside, I tried to come up with as many as I could, I tend to be super blehh when it comes to pairing headcanons compared to just singular or species headcanons- Still hope you enjoy though! And thanks so much for making my brain go haywire with this ask 💪
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cosmical-flowers · 3 months ago
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*Politely knocks at your front door* Hiii...... I saw your Parasol Cider/Lets Kira Kira Adventure post from a friend and. Can i offer you a disc server where we yap about enstars x prsk..... Mayhaps......
THAT WOULD BE SO COOL!!! I do want to mention I am a high schooler though, so if y’all are fine with that i’d be glad to join!!
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lostsandalmf · 1 month ago
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Oh right, the intro. The intro for this blog. The intro made specially for this blog… that intro.
Anyway Hi!
I’m Sandal, or LS if you please, I’m a writer and I’ve been haunted by the problem of having to many Oc’s, so this this blog is mostly about them, with some other things every now and again if I’m feeling up for it.
I have a few ongoing projects that I hope to one day turn into actual published books but we’ll burn that bridge when we get there.
The projects have a lot of things going on so they’ll get their own intro posts so I can yap about them appropriately, but for now, they go thusly:
“The Iron Daughter” follows 3 main characters, over 2 parts and a spinoff if you can call it that, a mad scientist/roboticist, and the two consequences of his actions, the prototype, and the titular Iron daughter.
This one doesn’t have a proper name yet so I’ll call it “The thieves” following a band of criminals in 1920’s vaguely-America, very much found family trope, with a lot of gun violence.
And the final, and biggest of the 3… ironically also doesn’t have a name yet, it’s fine :|
Anyway, part of the reason it doesn’t have a name, or even a vague description like the one above, is that it’s basically the master universe, every other story happens in this wider universe, sometimes there’s interaction, but it’s usually small nods if anything.
Mostly though, this focuses on one vampire family and their relationship to each other and the world around them, lots of family politics and so on.
There’s a few internal stories happening at the same time in this one, one following the youngest vampire, Kira in their band,
another following the mother of the youngest, her sister, and the way those two try to keep up in a world 500 years removed from the one they’d been raised in,
And the final or the internal stories, is the story of a character that was raised by the vampire family, a street kid suddenly being surrounded by more comfort then they’d ever seen, and how she navigates feeling out of place in a world so much smaller then the city streets.
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I’ll also be reblogging writing posts and prompts whenever don’t have something original to post about, but otherwise yeah, welcome to my nonsense.
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m1ckeyb3rry · 4 months ago
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Oooh that’s true..I think for me I just thought Nagi would have a different calibration for closeness and since he literally had 0 friends before I can see him having a kinda inaccurate scale of levels of closeness LMAO
Honestly Otoya being the most chill is so funny him balancing it out with being a cheater is WILD HSDHJS
I LOVED cadence always thought she was so pretty!! I lowk liked Luna too (beginnings of angst huh) but also her theme was just gorgeous!! The wedding movie literally was the highlight of my childhood HAHA and the songs??? Don’t even get me started I remember recording the audio so I could listen to it on my phone LMAOO
Also NO STOP I WAS GONNA MAKE A POKEMON REF IN A PREV REPLY but I was like maybe i should stay away from potentially obscure references…do you have a fav game?? I personally love diamond and pearl LOL I can def imagine Otoya purposely grabbing a shedinja or a ninjask or a scyther for the sake of his aesthetic but secretly owning some really cute fairy types or something….like a flabebe or dedene….sometimes I close my eyes and imagine him as a faithful man LMFAO
Actually I found you through peregrine via the nagi tag first LMAO I was lurking a good handful of tags at the time and I was like omg this writing slaps….and then that just led me to your entire page LOL Unfortunately did not find you via the Karasu tag hahahah I remember at the time I was already thinking like WOW this tag a little dry and I don’t see all too much posted that often…imagine my shock when I start checking the Karasu tag like oh boy I did NOT know what dry meant clearly…I actually think I read peregrine awhile ago, didn’t touch tumblr for a bit after I got a bit busy, came back, forgot what happened, and proceeded to reread LMAO I just remember it being like “wasn’t I reading something before I fell off the face of the earth…” but anyways (hoping I’m not mixing up my fics and memory but I do distinctly remember reading peregrine first…I remember it catching my eye because I was like KIRA??? /pos When I clicked on the masterlist for it LMAO)
UGH YUKI BENCHED?? Get bro in the game I’m not going to lie I would’ve preferred seeing the fruits of yuki development over whatever Kiyora crumbs are being thrown to us like pigeons….TABIEITA HEADING A TEAM??? I would die of happiness they would so dominate omg…I think it’s on top of the fact that the have their own egos too and own drives for soccer (and healthy lives outside of soccer (well not the cheating but)) that makes them such a strong duo, like rather than depending on each other they embody the devour concept a lot more…tabieita reunion in u20 World Cup please i beg…
Prepping for a Yap session soon i think the chapter releases like today or tomorrow??? Getting locked in rn
But first IM RUNNING TO READ THE LAST INSTALLMENT I WILL BE BACK WITH MY THOUGHTS!!!! I know im going to eat this up thank you for your service o7
- Karasu anon
nagi to me feels like a character who has a lot of difficulty genuinely connecting w people so it would take a LOT before he considers someone a close friend. i think eventually he will find other friends/people to care abt in bllk but it’ll take a while fs!!
THE SONGS IN THE WEDDING MOVIE PLS CHILDHOOD ME WAS BUSTING DOWN TO THEM!! and omg i am such a pokémon lover…i really liked x but mostly for nostalgia not because it’s the BEST game yk?? alpha sapphire and pearl were also rlly fun. i haven’t played the new games yet but everything pre-gen 6 will always hold a special place in my heart 💖 PLEASEE LMAOO otoya gets pokémon x/y and ofc he has to pick froakie as his starter because greninja but then the star of his team ends up being like clefable or sylveon or smth JDJDSKKS he never lets karasu near his ds because he always gets bullied for his team of cutesy pokémon + greninja…meanwhile karasu only uses pokémon he thinks look cool even if they suck otherwise so if he ever battles against otoya he loses miserably 😭 pleaseee kaneshiro knew otoya would be too strong if he faithful he has to nerf my man somehow 😪
PLSS kira is lowkey villainous in peregrine…i didn’t want to make any actually lovable characters be the ‘second lead’ (said loosely because it’s so obvious nagi is the main guy) but i wanted it to be someone from canon and he was the best fit given what i needed him to do 😫 hehe that’s def a crazy journey but i’m glad you found me 🫡
I’M SAYINGGG yuki had his moment and then vanished bruh…i actually do like kiyora (him in the anime w that coloring is basically exactly what a male animated version of me would look like so i’m biased) but i wish his development didn’t come at the cost of previous characters…bllk has such a huge cast that it’s hard to balance it though fs so i do get it 😔 TABIEITA WILL COME BACK TRUST ‼️ people on social media say karasu won’t make it to the top 23 and i’m like??? he’s kinda carrying pxg atm icl he just has NO help plus he’s against isagi and ng11 kaiser so ofc it’s going to be difficult. overall though he’s one of the few players we’ve seen who actually plays really well midfield/defensively plus they’ve introduced this dynamic w hiori so i’m pretty sure he’s making it…as for otoya he’s ranked like number 10 rn i think he’s safe 😭 but he and bachira might be the only barcha players to make it because they are in fact the only relevant ones 😓
AHHH I’M SO READY epinagi release weekends are like a monthly holiday for me DJDJSJSJA have fun w the next part of fwtkac i hope you like it!!
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naufal-portofolio · 10 months ago
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Tea for Two oleh Clara Ng: Ulasan Buku
2011
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Untung aja cerbung Tea for Two ini dibukukan. Soalnya, pas dulu masih jadi cerbung di Kompas, gue kagak bisa ngikutin dengan lengkap. Hehehe. Buku ini udah gue baca pada 2011 silam. Review-nya yang terlihat agak sotoy itu pun udah pernah gue post di note FB gue ( https://www.facebook.com/notes/naufal-rm/novel-of-the-day-tea-for-two-mengungkap-sisi-lain-pernikahan-kdrt/10150633104514554 ). Maaf ya, kalau sotoy. Maklum pas baca masih mahasiswa semester... berapa, ya? Lupa! Hahaha. Well, daripada kelamaan, beginilah review-nya...
Novel of The Day: Tea for Two, Mengungkap Sisi Lain Pernikahan; KDRT!
Senin, 19 Desember 2011
Well, sok iye banget dah, judul review gue kali ini. Pernikahan? KDRT? Hallooo! Inget, Pal! Elu itu cuma cowok biasa yang kebetulan aja hobi banget baca buku. Umur pun baru genap 21 tahun di 2011 ini. Dengan sok tau, elu malah melahap novel dewasa bertema KDRT. Aje gile, masih berani pula elu membedah novel ini. Hahaha.
Buat yang (mungkin) baca review ini, maap banget nih, kalau ada hal-hal yang mungkin nggak ngenakin. Secara gue belum nikah juga gitu. Pacar aja nggak punya (curcol!). Hahaha. Review ini emang pure pandangan gue setelah baca novel metropop ini. Bukan mau sok-sokan seputar dunia pernikahan atau KDRT. Ish. Yang penting mah, kuliah dan kerja dululah yang bener. Baru deh, abis itu nyari calon bini. Hahaha.
Langsung aja, ya. Kali ini, gue me-review karya kesebelas dari Clara Ng, yaitu Tea for Two. Secara pribadi, gue emang mengagumi karya-karya penulis wanita yang mempelopori lahirnya gendre Metropop ini. Secara hampir semua novelnya emang mantep-mantep banget. Ya Utuki, ya Trilogi Indiana, Dimsum Terakhir, dsb.
Kebetulan, gue emang udah penasaran banget sama Tea for Two sejak cerita ini dijadikan cerita bersambung (cerbung) di koran Kompas pada medio Oktober 2008-Februari 2009. Yap, udah dari awal-awal kuliah gitu gue pengin banget menikmati kisah ini. Tapi, karena gue nggak selalu beli Kompas, jadi gue sering tertinggal cerita beberapa edisi. Kan bacanya nggak nikmat kalau longkap-longkap dan nggak berurutan.
Terlebih setelah dibukukan di tahun 2009. Gue kembali nggak bisa menikmati secara utuh karena terbentur masalah nggak ada duit buat beli novel ini. But, thank God ternyata perpus pusat kampus gue mengoleksi Tea for Two. Langsung aja gue sikat. Suramnya, gue baru baca kisah seru ini empat tahun kemudian. Yeah, kira-kira di Juli 2011 ini. Sungguh, ketinggalan banget sih, gue.
Ceritanya sendiri secara garis besar tentang Kekerasan dalam Rumah Tangga (KDRT). Yap, ternyata KDRT emang ada loh. Beneran terjadi di beberapa pasangan suami-istri di masyarakat kita. Mungkin emang terdengar ironis. Serius, tuh? Suami-istri kan, seharusnya rukun karena udah nikah. Tapi, kenapa malah sampai ribut-ribut kayak gitu? Well, inilah kenyataan di lapangan.
Kisahnya begini. Sassy Karenina, wanita muda khas metropolitan yang berkarier secara mandiri. Dia adalah pemilik perusahaan makcombalng yang bernama Tea for Two. Sassy jatuh cinta pada Alan Nasher. Pertemuan mereka terjadi nggak sengaja, saat Sassy sedang berurusan dengan salah satu kliennya yang ingin menikah.
Nah, Tea for Two sendiri emang perusahaan yang menawarkan jasa mencari jodoh untuk para lajang ibukota. Nggak cuma itu. Biasanya, setelah para lajang udah menemukan jodohnya (karena jasa perusahaan ini pastinya), maka mereka akan meminta Tea for Two kembali untuk mengurusi pesta pernikahannya. Yap, selain perusahaan makcomblang, Tea for Two juga bergerak sebagai Wedding Organizer.
Sebuah ide yang mantep bila dibawa ke dunia nyata. Tapi, perusahaan jenis ini emang masih sangat jarang di kehidupan kita. Namun yang sangat disayangkan, penjelasan seputar Tea for Two masih sangat kurang. Cuma sepintas dan sekilas doang digambarkannya. Kan seru tuh, kayaknya kalau pembaca disuguhi detail tentang Tea for Two. Gokil banget deh, Clara Ng. Kepikiran aja membuat perusahaan kayak Tea for Two.
Well, kembali ke Sassy. Singkat cerita, Sassy dan Alan menikah. Namun, pernikahan mereka nggak semanis seperti saat mereka PDKT. Di hari kedua bulan madu aja, Alan udah menampar Sassy. Yap, itulah awal KDRT di kisah ini. Aksi kasar Alan itu dipicu karena kecemburuannya melihat istrinya mengobrol dengan seorang pria bule. Yeah, lagi-lagi cemburu jadi alasan. Tapi, berawal dari situ, serangkaian KDRT yang diterima Sassy terus berlanjut, bahkan tambah parah. Wanita itu kerap mendapat siksaan baik verbal maupun nonverbal.
Banyak adegan KDRT yang emang dituangkan di novel setebal 312 halaman ini. Mulai dari Alan yang mengatai Sassy sebagai pelacur atau perek, kontak fisik yang kasar, sampai sesuatu yang membuat seorang istri terluka amat dalam, yaitu perselingkuhan suami. Dalam novel terbitan Gramedia ini, ternyata Alan selingkuh dengan sekretaris di kantornya, Malla. Tragis! Padahal, Alan selalu menuding istrinya selingkuh dengan pria lain. Tapi, dirinya sendiri malah ada main dengan wanita lain.
Gue juga nggak abis pikir sama Alan karena masih aja berbuat kasar sama istrinya pas Sassy sedang hamil. Bahkan, pas Sassy udah melahirkan Emma, anaknya, KDRT tetap berlanjut dalam keseharian mereka berdua. Sungguh, kacau! Pernikahan yang tidak sehat, menurut gue.
Menurut gue, yang jadi konflik adalah pertentangan batin Sassy. Sebagai orang yang selalu mengantarkan orang-orang menuju gerbang pernikahan, justru dia sendiri malah mengalami ketidakbahagian dalam pernikahannya karena KDRT. Oleh karena itu, tiga sahabatnya (Naya, Rose, Carmanita) dan Mamanya udah sering menganjurkan agar meninggalkan Alan untuk selamanya. Sebab untuk apa mempertahankan rumah tangga yang penuh kekerasan? Namun, ini tidak mudah bagi Sassy. Benakah perceraian merupakan langkah tepat untuk mengakhiri penderitaannya dari KDRT?
Terlebih sejak terungkap bahwa saat kecil dulu, Sassy pun pernah mengalami ditinggal oleh Ayahnya. Orangtuanya itu meninggalkannya dan Mamanya untuk menikah dengan wanita lain. Hati Sassy terluka, terlebih Mamanya. Berdasarkan pengalaman pahit tersebut, sulit sekali untuk Sassy berpisah dari Alan. Ditambah lagi kehadiran Emma. Sassy tidak mau anaknya mengalami sesuatu yang pernah Sassy alami: tidak memiliki orangtua yang lengkap. Sassy jelas gamang.
Sesungguhnya, dia sendiri tidak tau harus berbuat apa. Ingin mempertahankan pernikahannya, namun siksaan dari suami semakin menjadi. Ingin pergi selamanya dari Alan, tapi dia ingat Emma dan rasa cinta pada suaminya. Apakah Sassy tetap mempertahankan pernikahannya? Atau malah bercerai dari Alan?
Well, pada penasaran, ya? Makanya, baca aja novelnya! Hahaha. Hati-hati buat para lajang atau yang mau nikah. Dijamin deg-degan dah, pas baca. Apalagi buat yang cewek. Hati-hati kalau dapet suami yang ringan tangan alias hobi nyiksa istri. Mungkin dengan baca novel ini, jadi tau harus berbuat apa kalau (amit-amit) nanti mengalami KDRT juga. Dan, buat kaum lelaki. Jadilah suami yang baik dan tidak kasar. So, nggak usahlah pakai KDRT kalau udah nikah nanti. Hahaha. Sok iyenya kumat.
Sekali lagi, dijamin yang belom nikah pasti gemeteran baca Tea for Two. Ternyata pernikahan nggak selalu indah. KDRT bisa aja terjadi pada pasangan suami-istri mana aja. Well, inilah sisi lain pernikahan: KDRT! Jadi, masih beranggapan kalo pernikahan itu adalah satu-satunya jalan terindah bertabur bunga yang diimpikan dan dicita-citakan semua orang? Hahaha. Jangan pada takut nikah, ya. Tapi, kalau pun ada yang mau nggak nikah seumur hidupnya, ya itu sih, terserah dia. Hidup-hidup dia. Yang penting, jangan ada lagi deh, KDRT. Horas!
Sebelum mengakhiri review ini, gue memberi nilai tiga bintang dari lima bintang. Yeah! Prok prok prok. Selain karena seru, menurut gue, cara Clara Ng dalam menceritakan KDRT juga apik banget. Terus, novel ini juga pake dua sudut pandang. Unik, dah. Jadi, tokoh sentral tetep Sassy. Tapi hampir di tiap bab, selalu ada dua penceritaan. Pertama, pakai sudut pandang orang ketiga. Dan kedua, pakai sudut pandang orang pertama, yakni Sassy menggunakan kata ganti ‘saya’. Kedua point of view tersebut diceritakan secara bergantian. So, kita bisa lebih tau konfik batin Sassy secara mendalam. Namun, jangan takut kebingungan karena kedua sudut pandang tersebut dibedakan dengan font yang tidak sama.
Well, lagi-lagi gue menyerukan buat anak Untirta yang penasaran atau bahkan tertarik mau baca novel ini, sok atuh dipinjam di perpus pusat kampus kita. Geura disikat! Hahaha.
Sip dah. Selamat membaca, kalau begitu!
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godsofdeathloveoranges · 10 months ago
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Ok so tumblr would not let me edit my draft out of nowhere so i had to post it early. Continuing here!
I also didnt get to add this into the original post but if this all seems a bit of a very extreme black/white and even a little bioessentialist view on gender/sex, then in my defense, the series DOES engage with gender/sex in this way. We all know the treatment of female characters in DN erm.. leaves a lot to be desired- but also its a good look into that time period and culture generally. I'll yap more about this later but how women are presented in death note ans handled by the narrative is a good reflection of how female characters and women irl were treated back then (and honestly to an extent still today).
But yes, continuing.
Fem!Light would deffo play up affections towards male!Misa, especially to get some heat off her back. She would see the advantages in keeping a man close to her, especially romantically. Male!Light is considered a bit of a womaniser, but fem!Light wouldnt be a..
Uh. Idk what the equivalent is. Man-eater?
Whatever the equivalent is.
This is because flirtatious and charming women are viewed very differently to flirtatious and charming men- with men being praised for it and women scorned. I can see her charming men a little bit, but not enough to be considered 'slutty' or 'teasing'. She'd be a bit more like Takada, I think, the sexy but sophisticated type, with a mature feel to her, but also knowing when to play up a faux sense of 'womanly naivete'.
So in this sense, she'd appear less reluctant to hang about Misa, even playing up a sense of demure about their relationship, acting as though she was hesitant to talk about it out of shyness over her first boyfriend rather than just... not being that into Misa lmao. Look, i love original Light and all, but he definitely could have pretended to have feelings for Misa a bit better! He was NOT convincing enough imo lmaooo. Hes lucky the kira taskforce were.. um............ not the most observant in matters of the heart, shall we say.
I think especially because everyone in the KTF would be a lot less patient with Misa. Not to entirely dismiss them, but I think Misa got a LOT of leeway over being a cute and pretty presence to the team. Yes i know that was largely comedic effect, but its true that to some extent they most definitely gave her more grace than they would to a male!Misa. Again, which is why a fem!Light would have to make the relationship more believable, so Misa would come across more like a doting and clingy boyfriend and not... a creep pestering her.
The time skip is also interesting to consider... for one, Light being the breadwinner of the family as a woman would most definitely be quite the obstacle. It's not exactly something that was common to see at all. And whilst I dont mean to generalise, this is an Asian country in the early 2000s.. it would definitely be seen as iffy. There would be pressure on Light to marry and have children. Luckily the KTF seems to be working relatively independently at that point, but even so. Theres also the issue with Misa's career as an idol, and being in a relationship... though iirc she just became a regular actress and no longer continued her idol career (correct me if im wrong). In the first place, their relationship is certainly an odd one, a former idol turned actress and a police officer...
I can see them actually getting married. Light isnt too old when he dies, only 23... but typically that was when most people got engaged or married. I cant speak for japanese culture, but in broader asian culture i can vouch that 20-30 years ago, that was around the age when most women were marrying. My gen x aunt married at 19!
Saw someone mention that fem!Light would just kill off male!Misa after L's death, but i disagree. Not out of a sense of affection, just i think she'd still want to use Misa. Again, it would be convenient to have a boyfriend/husband to use as an excuse/explanation at times.
Is a male misa and female Light cursed? How do you think they will turn out?
Funnily enough i actually do ship misalight (yagamane? I think its yagamane). Are they toxic for each other, absolutely, do i still like it, yes! Light absolutely didn't return any affections in canon, but i like my version where he did return a twisted sense of affection. Misa reminds me of myself in a lot of ways, willing to utterly sacrifice herself for someone who wouldn't do the same for her.
But i digress.
I think their relationship would be very different. Part of Misa's strength is her being a woman, especially a pretty woman. People around her are going to treat her a little more kindly because they percieve her as less of a threat. Her behaviour and attitude towards Light would no longer become "annoying" and would instead be percieved as threatening. Misa is quite agressive in her pursuit of Light, and that agression wouldn't translate very kindly if she were a man. (I suppose one reason Misa isn't percieved as very threatening is also her petite stature- she's very small. Physically, she doesn't pose a threat... which, to be fair, is something she uses to her advantage.)
Male!Misa stalking fem!Light, confronting her in the street alone, clinging onto her physically when she expresses explicit discomfort... these are definitely actions that (at the time anyway) would be percieved more harshly coming from a man towards a woman, than a woman towards a man. However, Light doesn't seem the type to care about that... in the first place, either version of Light would use Misa as a tool the best they could regardless.
I can actually see fem!Light using male!Misa's affections even more to her advantage. She would definitely play up her 'love' for Misa a lot more, I think.
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lostacelonnie · 4 years ago
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pricilicious · 5 years ago
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Yaps... tepat 2 bulan lalu 18 februari 2020 ada kisah dimana hal ini gak pernah terjadi sebelumnya. Entah kenapa feeling gue kuat banget kalau ini akan berujung kecewa, jadi sebelum semuanya berakhir yang mendatangkan rasa kecewa, kayaknya gue bakal nulis kisah itu disini, ya di tumblr. Gatau kenapa malam ini tiba² kepikiran buat nulis cerita disini, dibanding gue harus arsip chat whatsapp yang gue aja males buat scroll karena terlalu panjang untuk chat 2 bulan ini. Gue deg2an, nulis nya... hahaha
Ok, jadi orang ini adalah salah satu junior di kampus gue, dia masuk ketika gue disemester 5. Ya, 2 tahun. Gue flashback bentar ya, karena sampe saat ini gue masih inget gimana percakapan bermulai. Dikampus, gue lebih nyaman nongkrong di belakang, selain angin nya sepoy kayak dipantai, buat bercanda, belajar, ghibah, selfi pun enak bgt tempatnya.
Jadi ceritanya gue lagi kumpul sama teman2 gue nih. Terus orang ini datang ke belakang, kayaknya sih baru pulang kerja, waktu itu sore sebelum gue masuk kelas, ya kita berdua di kelas reguler malam. Nah, orang ini tuh lumayanlah ya cakep bgt, bersih, ya gitu deh.. gue suka liat orang bersih padahal gue sendiri pun jauh dari kata perawatan...wkwk.. kita sempat tegur sapa beberapa kali dan ada mata kuliah dimana gue sekelas sama dia. Singkat cerita orang ini ternyata pengen banget ngobrol sama gue. Ngobrolah kita, dimulai dengan percakapan dimana dia bilang kalau pengen banget tegur cuman segan. Dan disitupun juga dia cerita asal nya dia, keluarganya dia, dan sebagainya. Dia ini memang termasuk orang yang suka ngobrol kayaknya deh. Yang masih terngiang² dikepala gue adalah ketika dia bilang "gue ini seolah2 reinkarnasi dari kakak nya yang sudah meninggal" gue sangat tercengang dalem hati gue (nih orang bisa banget, bilang aja mau deket sama gue, tapi gak gitu juga ngarangnya (suudzon be like) ) hahaha...
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Ditahun itu, gue lagi galau semampus-mampusnya. Gaktau lah gue berasa ancur banget ditahun itu. Sempet gue sama orang itu bertukar nomor dan beberapa kali chat sampai dia mau telp, sama sekali gak gue tanggepin. Biasanya orang kalo lagi galau terus ada orang baru masuk pasti dia move on dong ya, apalagi cakep nya ma syaa allah bgt. Tapi, gue gabisa. Gatau kenapa. Tapi kalau pun waktu itu gue deket juga kayanya sekarang beda lagi ceritanya
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2 tahun silam ceritanya gue lulus. Akhirnya masa-masa sulit gue udah gue lewatin sepenuh tenaga... selama gue kuliah gue udah 3 kali pindah kerja. Gue gak tau kenapa suka banget ss apapun itu, dan gue nemu ini. Ceritanya juga gak tau kenapa gue bisa ss ini dan obrolan apa yang lagi gue bicarain sama dia sampe dia bilang gini, dan seinget gue ini gue gak baca² lama dan akhirnya gue menolak untuk telp an sama dia. (Btw ini gue gak ngerti buat ngeblur pict disini 😫) chatnya ini pun sebelum gue wisuda. Ini masih bulan september. Keliatankan ya. 🤭
Sebulan kemudian, gue wisuda tepat di tanggal 7 oktober 2017. Mau pasang foto tapi gue gak mau kalian yang baca ini tau siapa gue. Wkwk (sok asik bgt ya gue)
Beberapa hari kemudian, orang ini masih mau ngobrol sama gue, akhirnya gue mengiyakan untuk menghilangkan rasa penasarannya. Yang gue inget obrolan saat itu adalah, ngomongin kerjaan, kuliah, dan beberapa obrolan lainnya. Dan sebenernya dulu itu, kita sempet intens chating cuma sekedar saling sapa, tapi gue sama sekali bertahan untuk tidak jatuh hati. Gimana pun caranya. Gue selalu ngebayangin, gue ini sosok kakaknya yang udah gak ada, jadi sebisa mungkin gue ga baper dan gue selalu mengedepankan sikap baik gue yang gue ini adalah kakaknya.
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Bentar ya gue edit dl fotonya
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Taraaaaa... 4 menit ngeditnya... haha
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Ini foto pertama gue dan dia. Gatau kenapa ya kalo deket sama dia, sapa atau ngobrol sebentar aja gue deg2an. Gue itu orang paling jago buat jaga hati biar gak baper.
Setelah dari sini obrolan kita berakhir di saat gue waktu itu abis nginep di tempat temen gue, depoy namanya. Rumahnya depoy di daerah sma 90, dan gue di bekasi. Yaps, sehari gue wisuda gue pindah ke bekasi, gak pake negosiasi lagi, cus langsung pindah. Nah, disaat gue transit di tanah abang cukup lama, gue liatlah postingan dia 30 menit lalu ada di tanah abang. Deg2an gue kenceeeeeeeeng bgt saat itu. Gue kira dia masih ada ditanah abang sampai akhirnya gue reply statusnya. Ternyata dia udah jauh. Sedih :(
Setelah itu gue udah gak ada komunikasi lagi sama dia, sampai gue inget banget dia usaha makanan yang kebetulan gue suka banget sama makanan itu. (Bentar ya gue cari dl fotonya... hahaha)
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16 september 2018. Waktu yang cukup lama ya. Hehe
Terus sejak dibales ini gue menghilang. Alias gue lupa buat bales pesan nya, karena pesan nya sudah tenggelam bersama bayang² kelam. Haha gaya bgt bahasa gue..
Hampir mau dua tahun.
Eh engga deng. 1 tahun 5 bulan.
Dibulan januari, tiba2 ada line masuk dari dia, entah ada angin apa dia tiba2 chat buat jujur akan sesuatu (bukan, bukan perasaan woy. Hahaha ) bentar gue mau ss dl
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19 januari 2020
Gue tadi bilang dia hub gue buat jujur, tapi yang tepat adalah untuk minta maaf. Gue juga kaget sih, disaat dia chat itu pikiran gue adalah. Dia sakit keras atau dia mau pamit pulang ke asalnya.
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Dan kegenitan gue langsung keluar, ketika orang ini bilang "pengen ketemu kalau mau" terus gue jawab "harus dikampus ya?" Sumpah itu gak banget. Genit bgt gue kaya bocah lagi aus. Haha
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Disini dia masih berusaha untuk gimana caranya bisa ketemu
Tapi yang tak disangka2 adalah
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Dia masih ingat akan postingan story gue. Dan gue inget banget gue pasang itu 2 kali 2018 dan 2019 Jadi pas dia bilang 1 atau 2 tahun yang lalu (ini bener 22nya). Gila sih sampe inget gitu. Dan gue sebenernya gakmau ada orang simpen foto gue. Sampe temen kampus gue biasa kita main gue minta dia hapus foto gue, tapi kenapa sama orang ini gue gabisa nolak. Dan foto ini bukan foto yang aneh², karena gue tau, ini pasti foto berdua pas wisuda. Jadi karena gue juga gak mau kehilangan momen. Gue izinkanlah dia untuk menyimpan foto gue.
Sebulan kemudian perhelatan kampus dia selesai, gue baru pulang dinas, liat dia post foto dan gue langsung like dan komen, setelah itu dia tegur gue di dm. Yang ini gue gabisa ss karena gak penting hahaha, Akhirnya gue telp dia
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18 Februari 2020 dan sekarang 18 April 2020
Gue rasa kalian yang baca berharap ini kisah yang gak diduga2 ya, hahaha! (Pede bgt gue) padahal ini cuman cerita kisah yang belum ada endingnya. Yang kayak tadi gue bilang diawal. Gue mau nulis kisah sebelum kecewa itu dtg.
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Setelah telp dia siangnya, sorenya pun dia menyapa, lalu dilanjutkan dengan obrolan2 yang kayak emang udah lama banget gak ketemu, terus flashback, dan macem2 obrolan lainnya. Yang bikin gue ge er adalah ss dibawa ini
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Padahal, yang dia ketik itu bukan buat gue, karena pada kenyataannya, memang begitu. Yang jauh mendekat yang dekat menjauh, jauh dekat 3.500 hahaha 😅
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Dan ini adalah pertama kalinya kita ketemu lagi setelah beberapa tahun gak ketemu. Gausah ditanya. Perasaan gue campur aduk, gue bingung mau ngomong apa.
Setelah dari sini, cerita pertemanan kita pun dimulai.
Temen ya temen. Inget lho cuman temen bukan yang lain.
HAHAHAHA
Sampe terakhir, dia chat untuk mengingatkan gue. Gue anggap itu nasihat dan masukan semacam motivasi gimana caranya kita gak terlalu dalam untuk menyikapi sesuatu, yang apa2 tuh dibawa pake perasaan gitu. dan sejujurnya gue harus banyak belajar dari dia, karena dia ini orangnya positif banget, gak kaya gue bawaannya suudzon terus sama orang. Hemmm
Niat gue mau ss petuah2nya. Ternyata pas gue liat dia menghapus itu semua.
Dan ternyata gue ga bisa post foto lagi.
Ga asik banget sih. Foto aja pake di batasin.
Yaudalah kisah 2 bulan pertemanan gue dan dia sampe disini dulu, gue bakal nulis lagi kalo ada cerita baru lagi diantara gue sama dia.
Dalam 2bulan ini media tf gue dan dia ada 4ratusan dan chatnya pun gak taulah ada berapa, yang jelas kalo lu scroll itu bikin jempol lu berotot. Hahaha
Oke guys, terimakasih tumblr.
Anw, 18 februari itu ulang tahun kakak gue yang ke 4, dan 18 april ini ulang tahun kakak gue yang kedua.
Hihihi... tidur aaaaah....
Sleep tight kalian 😘💕
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hudashidqie · 5 years ago
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Berani Berdoa, Berani Bertanggung Jawab
Nggak terasa udah hampir 9 bulan gue bekerja di ruangguru. Iya, di salah satu perusahaan bidang teknologi pendidikan di bilangan Saharjo, Jakarta Selatan. Udah hampir 9 bulan juga menjalani hal yang sangat berbeda dengan jaman kuliah, mulai dari jenis pekerjaan, tanggung jawab, dan lain sebagainya. Banyak banget hal yang terjadi, banyaak banget. Dalam rangka 9 bulanan gue bekerja di ruangguru ini, gue mau nulis sekilas flashback dan objective gue dari awal, kenapa gue jadinya ada di sini. Tulisan ini lebih kayak pengingat diri, bagaimana seharusnya memperlakukan doa dan bertanggung jawab penuh atas semua jawabannya 
Oke, flashback dulu deh. 
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Dari dulu, gue pengen banget terlibat di kegiatan sosial, tapi gue nggak tau gimana mulainya. Berhubung gue seneng banget ngajar, gue andil di bidang pendidikan, yaitu ngajar di Yayasan KSE dan juga di Mabit Nurul Fikri jadi volunteer. Sebagian besar keluarga gue adalah guru. Ayah gue guru, kakak gue guru, abang gue guru, tante gue guru, sepupu gue guru. See, hampir semuanya adalah guru. 
Pun Ummi (baca: ibu) gue pernah bilang kalo beliau akan ridho-seridho-ridhonya kalau gue terjun juga di bidang pendidikan. Di awal kuliah, gue mulai galau, ya gimana ceritanya gue anak Sejarah murni dan seorang journalism freak (iya, dulu gue terobsesi banget sama jurnalistik) kudu terjun di bidang pendidikan. Gue suka ngajar, tapi nggak yakin bakal jadi guru ke depannya. Di pikiran sotoy gue dulu adalah, “Gimana caranya ya gue bisa terjun di bidang pendidikan selain jadi guru, yang impact-nya jauh lebih luas dan lebih ngena, bukan cuma buat satu kelas, satu sekolah, atau satu kecamatan. Tapi, ya satu Indonesia”. Fix, gue sotoy banget. Mungkin saat itu gue lupa kalo gue masih punya tanggung jawab besar buat mencerdaskan diri sendiri--dengan ngerjain tugas kuliah yang masih keteteran. Yap, akhirnya gue balik lagi menginjak bumi dan agak melupakan pikiran-pikiran gue itu. 
Di tahun 2016, lupa mulai darimana, gue mulai denger tentang Iman Usman. Gue samar-samar aja dengernya, lulusan UI dan Columbia, pinter banget, dan punya aplikasi di bidang pendidikan. Sebatas itu aja. Tapi di 2017 awal, gue mulai engeh, kok Iman Usman punya “hal” yang menjawab pikiran gue waktu itu ya? 
Dia ngebangun perusahaan startup di bidang pendidikan--merupakan ranah yang jarang disentuh sama anak muda. Ngurusin pendidikan (ini opini pribadi gue) seakan dilihat sebagai tugasnya orang-orang tua, guru-guru berseragam yang sibuk sertifikasi, dan juga pemerintah. But he broke all the boundaries. Dibabat habis dan perusahaannya diisi oleh anak-anak muda usia 20-an. Rasanya waktu itu pengen teriak di kupingnya, “THIS IS IT!” Ya gak juga sih, ngapain juga teriak-teriak. 
Rasa penasaran gue sama ruangguru dan Kak Iman ini masih jadi tanda tanya besar. Sampe gue ikut ideafest dan nanya langsung sebagai audiens, nyoba doorstop interview pas liputan OKK UI, nyoba email buat janjian wawancara. Tapi ya gagal semua. Objektif gue waktu itu adalah gue mau bikin liputan yang ngasih tau ke semua mahasiswa UI kalo pendidikan itu bukan cuma tugasnya orang-orang tertentu, tapi kita yang masih muda juga bisa andil, bisa pake cara kita sendiri. Yap, sebatas mau bikin tulisan aja.
Tapi karena gagal bikin tulisan dan liputan, gue mulai berpikir, “Ya kenapa ngga gue jadi bagian langsung aja di sana (baca: di ruangguru)? Ngerasain jadi pelaku, jadi yang turun langsung, jadi yang tau sendiri apa yang sebenernya dilakuin”. Iya, itu pikiran mahasiswa akhir yang lagi ngelamun kira-kira mau diisi apa lagi sisa halaman di Bab 4. Gue mulai berpikir dan bertekad buat memulai karir di sana. Sangat sangat sangat bertekad. 
Mulailah gue nyari lowongan di sana, ketemu yang kayaknya cocok sama gue, yaitu Content Analyst untuk konten belajar. Seminggu-dua minggu gue tungguin, nggak ada panggilan. Nunggu sebulan, ngga ada panggilan juga. Oke gue anggap, gue enggak qualified untuk posisi ini. Gue apply lagi, content analyst lagi lewat aplikasi pencari kerja, tapi bodohnya, gue salah upload CV (iya, CV yang gue upload nggak ada riwayat pendidikannya, itu belum direvisii). Mulai hopeless dan ya pasti banget nggak diterima.  Nggak lama kemudian, ruangguru ngadain program Indonesia Teacher Prize, yaitu ajang kompetisi untuk nyari guru berbakat yang nantinya akan menjadi Master Teacher di ruangguru. Iya, ketebak, gue daftar dan ikut audisi. LOL. Gue inget banget audisinya di Taman Puring dengan bawa peta Afrika-Asia yang udah gue bikin jauh-jauh hari yang dibantu sama sahabat-sahabat kuliah gue buat ngegunting+ngelem. Walaupun belum ada pengumuman, tapi udah berasa kalo nggak akan lolos, gue banyak terbata-bata pas audisi, pokoknya sangat kurang. 
Gue udah mulai sedih, kayaknya keinginan gue buat ada di ruangguru agak samar dan nggak ada titik terang. Sampe akhirnya ada email random masuk dan nawarin untuk jadi freelance scriptwriter untuk konten belajar. Tanpa ba bi bu, gue langsung bales emailnya dan ngerjain tes untuk jadi scriptwriter. Di waktu yang bersamaan, gue juga sambil nyari lowongan lain--di ruangguru juga. Ketemulah gue dengan posisi Student Relation Officer. Lowongan itu di-post baru 3 hari yang lalu. Setelah ngelihat persyaratan, kualifikasi, dan jobdesc-nya, gue cocok dan apply. Iya, gue apply full time dan freelance di waktu yang bersamaan. Pokoknya semua hal gue coba. 
3 hari kemudian, gue dapet telepon dari ruangguru untuk interview posisi Student Relation Officer. Gue seneng banget, sangat sangat excited, gue langsung riset macem-macem tentang ruangguru. Dari pagi ke malem gue habiskan buat memahami kolom “about” di situs ruangguru.com berikut dengan berita-berita nasional tentang ruangguru. Semua hal gue hapalin, gue pahamin, pokoknya gue nggak mau ada satu hal pun terlewat yang nggak gue tau tentang ruangguru. Everything must be perfect. Gue lebay emang, maap. 
Singkat cerita setelah wawancara, gue menemukan bahwa ada hal yang gue sadari bahwa gue nggak seharusnya ngejawab seperti itu. Gue bingung dan ya udah, gue pasrah. Gue bener-bener ada di titik pasrah. Saat itu gue berdoa dan bilang ke Allah, “Ya Allah, hamba-Mu ingin banyak belajar. Engkau yang Maha Tahu di titik mana sebaiknya hamba berada. Hamba ingin memiliki lingkungan kerja yang baik untuk belajar banyak hal, lingkungan yang baik untuk berteman, dan lingkungan yang baik pula untuk banyak berkontribusi terhadap hal-hal baik. Engkau Maha Pembuka Pintu Rezeki dan Engkau pulalah penentu segala yang terbaik”.  Gue nangis. Clueless. Udah serahin aja ke Allah. Terus gue impulsif, malem-malem ke depan kantor ruangguru, kayaknya sekitar jam 10 malem. Gue berhenti di depan kantornya dan gue sholawatin. Gue ngulang-ngulang lagi doa yang selalu gue panjatin. Setelah itu, gue lega dan pasrah sepasrah-pasrahnya. Kalo udah semua usaha dilakuin, udah bukan zonanya kita lagi buat intervensi. Udah urusan Tuhan. Kita tinggal anteng tawakkal :)
Dua hari kemudian, gue dapet email offering dari ruangguru untuk posisi full-time Student Relation Officer dan dapet email kalau lamaran gue yang freelance sebelumnya itu diubah statusnya jadi onhold.  Dan gue, menangis lagi :’) Allah udah ngabulin semua doa-doa gue dan sekarang saatnya untuk bertanggung jawab atas doa-doa yang gue panjatkan
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Ngomong-ngomong karena udah 9 bulan di sini, pasti banyak banget hal yang terjadi. Mulai dari suka, duka, seneng, marah, nangis, sebel, semuanya udah ada, ya namanya hidup pasti ada kayak gitunya. Di bulan-bulan ini gue mulai agak terdistraksi dengan banyaknya temen-temen gue yang resign karena beberapa alasan. Mulai ada juga selentingan kanan-kiri, diskusi-diskusi yang kadang bikin bengong, dan segala realitas adulthood serta “diskusi” dunia kerja yang panjang. Gue mulai berpikir, “Iya juga ya, gue sampe kapan ya di sini? Gue mau ke mana lagi ya abis ini? Apa gue akan di sini aja sampe lama? Masa sih?”
Tapi hal itu selalu gue coba untuk kembalikan lagi ke untaian doa-doa gue di awal. Gue mencoba meyakinkan diri kalo timeline setiap orang itu beda-beda. Nggak bisa sama. Mereka resign mungkin karena timeline belajar mereka udah selesai, sedangkan gue belum. Ibarat SKS di kuliah, kredit gue baru 30 SKS, mereka udah lengkap 144 SKS dan bahkan lebih. Masih banyak yang harus gue pelajari dan selesaikan. 
Mengenai lingkungan, di manapun nggak ada hal yang 100% baik. Nggak ada. Kalaupun ada 70%-nya yang baik, kenapa kita nggak fokus di 70%-nya dan ngasih effort 100% di sana aja? Toh, kita nggak akan bisa ngubah segalanya jadi 100% baik, habis tenaga kalo gitu. Untuk itu, kembaliin segalanya di niat awal dan bertanggung jawab atas doa yang dipanjatkan adalah dua amunisi terbaik gue selama ini. Tuhan nggak akan salah hitung, percaya deh :) Anyway, selamat 9 bulan, Huda! Selamat belajar hal-hal baru lainnya ya!
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