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very dangerous that ive just learned a bunch of early final fantasys are available on the app store...
#i already have copies of all of them i do NOT need to have them on my phone also#i do not have to have every version of ffiv every made on every platform ive got like 4 already thats PLENTY#i dont need the 3d version AND the pixel remaster. i already have them. on other devices.#(i really seriously considered bringing my 3ds to work today to play ffiv so just. so just. I WONT DO IT)#pointless post#oh i think i have 6?? copies already actually. ds (eng) ds (jp) gba (emulator and physical??) snes (emulator) and whatevers on steam#this is an absurd amount already. so.#technically i have a lot of snes copies (various translations) but im just gonna count that as one
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A random scene from my Maxiel hockey au just because
“Why the fuck does this team give us perfectly identical sweatshirts? How am I ever meant to find mine?” Daniel asks, pawing through the clothes piled precariously on one of the barstools.
“It’ll probably be the one with your number on it,” Max says drily. “And teams tend to have matching clothing.”
Daniel looks up from his careful searching and tosses Max the finger. “Just for that, I’m wearing yours.”
Max’s hoodie is technically the same size as Daniel’s because Daniel prefers to size up, but it’s stretched out around the shoulders in a way Daniel’s isn’t. There’s a small stain by the left cuff whereas Daniel keeps his pristine. Most notably, there’s a 33 over the left chest instead of a single digit. It feels more lived-in and comfortable than Daniel’s, even though Daniel probably wears his jumpers twice as often as Max does.
He pops his head of the neckline and adjusts the strings. “Alright. I’m set. Let’s go.”
Max is paused with his keys in hand, mouth slightly parted and eyes burning holes into the number screenprinted on the fabric.
“You can’t get mad. I told you I was taking it,” Daniel says, even though Max doesn’t seem upset. Daniel can’t quite identify the expression crossing his face, but it’s definitely not annoyance.
“Don’t spill anything on it,” Max finally says.
Daniel catches up to him at the door and sticks the stained arm in Max’s face. “Don’t worry. You took care of that first.”
Max shoves his arm away, rolling his eyes playfully. “I’m not driving you anymore. You can hobble to the rink.”
Daniel switches positions to wrap his upper body around Max’s broad back, clasp his hands around Max’s neck, and jerk one leg up as if he’s about to jump for a piggy-back ride. Max elbows him off, giggling and pink-cheeked.
“Fine, I suppose I can give you a ride, but I’m not buying your tea,” Max warns. He undercuts his threatening words by instinctively holding Daniel’s hip, pale fingers pressed into plush fabric and waiting in case Daniel’s ankle gives out. Daniel has been successfully walking with no problems for a full week now, but Max is always hovering and holding.
“But I’m cold,” Daniel pouts, dramatically sticking out his lower lip. He’s just being annoying, but a gust of chilly air actually hits as he says it. Daniel shivers, pulling the jumper tight over his hands and moving closer to Max to try and leech some of his body heat. “I need this. Respect those of us from hot countries who played in hot states for ages.”
Max laughs, slinging an arm around Daniel’s back and tugging him into a mocking hug. “Poor Daniel. You only have to play in the NHL for the most iconic team in the craziest hockey city. Your life is very hard because it’s sometimes below zero and I don’t buy you tea.”
Daniel pulls his hands upward and dramatically rubs them together, then huddles into Max and presses his clasped hands between their chests. He doesn’t care if the hug is teasing. He’s genuinely fucking cold.
“You’re not allowed to be mean to me. I’m still injured.” He pokes out his healed ankle and lightly kicks Max’s leg with it. Max is in shorts, exposing fuzzy, muscled calves to Canadian January because he’s batshit insane.
“I’m hugging you,” Max says, rubbing his free hand up and down Daniel’s back. “I am very nice.”
Daniel presses his face into Max’s shoulder, just for a second. “Yeah. You’re not too bad, I guess.”
Shortly into their drive, Max detours, parallel parks, and comes back with a massive tea and crinkly brown bag.
“Their tea is shit and the donut is vegan,” Max says. His furrowed brow is aiming for admonishing, but the tugged edges of his mouth and dramatic tone give him away. “That’s your punishment.”
He still accepts the torn pieces of donut Daniel presses to his pink mouth and licks off the crumbs that decorate the sweet freckle on his upper lip.
“Wait. You have —” Daniel covers his thumb with the blue fabric of Max’s sweater and wipes one last sprinkle away as Max pulls into a parking space.
Max catches Daniel’s wrist before he can pull it back to his own body. He stares Daniel down with big eyes and long lashes and plucks the sprinkle where it’s caught on the ribbed cuffs. Max places one hand on Daniel’s chin and pulls down his lower lip, then places the sprinkle into Daniel’s salivating mouth.
“Don’t waste food.”
Max’s hands linger for one heated second before he drops them to turn off the ignition. Daniel tries to calm the thud of his straining heart, breathing in then out in an attempt to regain some normalcy.
He takes long enough that Max knocks on his passenger-side window, peering in and making little glasses over his eyes and waving all goofy, like nothing had just happened.
He eventually pulls open Daniel’s car door for him, gesturing out to the grey pavement. “Are you planning on showing up to practice today?” he teases.
Daniel recovers enough to slide out, though not gracefully, and heads into the rink to get chirped into oblivion over the 33 that feels throbbing and alive over his still-racing heart.
#maxiel#fics#this au is the work i want to have written but dont want to actually write#i have an absurd amount of half written scenes and every bit of the fic plotted out#in my head its already done#also#for the toronto people: max went to mos mos for those vegan donuts#never actually had anything from there but my coworker loves their donuts and chai lattes so i doubt anything they have is shit#but theres some great tea shops in toronto so not going to a specific tea-focused store is a punishment by maxs standards in this fic#and he definitely would think vegan donuts are a crime#(max obviously doesnt drink tea but tea is a whole thing he does for daniel in this fic)#hockey au
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rick baby if you're not going to hell nobody is
#rick's prayers in this episode really do be living in my head rent free#im just so in love with the characterization like if it wasn't already obvious that he has religious trauma this scene really seals the dea#getting to see rick sanchez of all people- absurd amounts of power; god complex; cynical atheist rick sanchez begging for his life in praye#it makes me feel things#and like this bit in particular. he's on his fucking knees with his hands clasped and head bowed. man's SCARED and i am emotional#yes i was raised christian how could you tell#rick and morty#rick & morty#rnm#r&m#rick sanchez#rick and morty season 2#a rickle in time#my nonsense
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i see you gil galad i respect the dedication to the bejewelled king vibe but could you resist the urge to serve for One Minute please you're fucking with the aesthetics of the shot
#hc that he already had a ring on that finger that he had to remove#and he took an absurd amount of time reorganising the rest so they didn't clash#gil galad#rings of power#mine
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seeing posts abt the election and frowning then scrolling and seeing posts abt tma and smiling again rinse and repeat
#us politcs#the magnus archives#tma#im american but i cant vote so i legit cant even doing anything abt it#im normally very opinionated but honestly i cant bring myself to care until i actually know whos being elected yknw#all we have is speculation right now so just chill out and stop blowing a fuse over something you never could or already tried your best to#stop or control#most of the polls are closed by now so just sit back and wait for the news#you cant do a thing once the patient goes in to surgery but hope the surgeon is good at his job#that being said trump supporters pretty please leave the blog :33 blink blink blink#anyway must go read an absurd amount of tma angst yknw
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Breakfast time!!! 😋😋
#also the eggs SO got fucking stuck to the pan#djevel learn to sTOP GETTING THE FUCKING EGGS STUCK TO THE PAN ALREADY YOU'RE A GROWNUP challenge 100% impossible. we DIED#anyway#demon cooking™#<- new tag pog????#new tag pog!!!#food!#foodie#food#scrambled eggs#arepas#that is the single saddest arepa ever. and i LOVE IT#(it's also my first)#i am loading that motherfucker with ABSURD amounts of mayo and butter that WILL get me killed one of this days#something something here for a good time NOT a long time
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who is the scoundrel? I see you posting about them(it? Idk) all the time but I haven’t figured out who they are
my fallen london OC! i made them by accident a few months ago and as you can tell ive very quickly developed scoundrel brainrot. it's a terminal illness for which there is no cure and the symptoms are instead of brain there is scoundrel.
in terms of actual character rundowns, their full moniker is The Bandaged Scoundrel, though i tend to call them "the scoundrel" for short. their real name is D█████, but they'd sooner die permanently than respond to or even acknowledge its existence.
they are! a bastard! a rat! a son of a b___! a motherf______! they are vain beyond your wildest imagination and they think they're the most infallible perfect being in all of existence and they have the exact attitude of a saturday morning power-hungry cartoon supervillain on cocaine.
and also, perhaps most importantly, they're Really Fucking Stupid. because of course they are.
they are resplendently awful. they are inevitably going to cause their own demise in an act of pure karmic retribution. they are a speck of dust in history that desperately keeps trying to insist they're actually a tornado. i love them dearly.
in loose conclusion while also acknowledging ive explained literally nothing; my goofy silly victorian london browser game player character that deserves to get timetraveled against their will to the 21st century specifically so they can get hit by a truck
#also their pronouns and gender are whatever you feel like that day#i usually use they/them or it/its for simplicites sake#ask#fallen london#im not gonna do the rundown on what FL is again bc ive answered asks abt it like twice already so you can look in the tag on my blog#all you need to know for the purposes of The Scoundrel is that it's an oc creation simulator with a few extra steps#i used to have an oc directionary post.. i should probably make a new one at some point. i post a ton about the fuckers anyway#other scoundrel trivia facts im not including in this post so it doesnt clog dashboards forever:#-their ethnicity is unknown but likely german or french#-they get comical levels of seasick on boats and absolutely despise zailing despite loving the profits of being a pirate#-they probably pay absurd amounts of money just to get the flowers in their hair from the surface#-the bandages cover every single part of their body except their face. they hate covering their face. they want everyone to admire them#they wear bandages all the time in such vast quantities for Other Reasons.#probably ranging from 'got sent to the tomb colonies so much they dont bother taking it all off' to 'wrote correspondence on their arm'#-their eyes are violant because they dipped them. In It. so they wouldn't forget a certain... Event involving cricket#they're really really normal.#also yes i doodled this chibi just for this ask bc im insane#if you ever wanna know more/get a proper answer just ask. im always foaming at the mouth to discuss my ocs#scoundrelventures
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my workplace is gonna have extended hours coming up so my life is going to be miserable for 2 months starting in 2 weeks
#i guess i should just give up on having a sleep schedule or any routine or a life outside of work#how can i leverage my seniority to make my situation better. idk if i can since my managers don’t particularly like me it seems#i’m also like way too embarrassed to be like hey. please don’t make my life hell as much#when that’s pretty much the whole gig during the holidays#whatever. it’s so busy in december that it kind of flies by in a haze#not in a good way but at least it doesn’t drag#and it will be fun probably for 2 weeks + then it will be fun to complain about for another week before there’s nothing fun about it anymore#whatever i just need to find a way to frame it in my mind so that it’s not torture#like pretend i’m in a video game or something#and drink an absurd amount of coffee every day#maybe i should try to find a psychiatrist or something before it gets too busy. like if possible#get back on antidepressants because even my current mental health baseline is not good rn. tbh#idk just pondering. i want to make it through the winter still alive + employed + not failing out of my certificate program#(+ i’m already on thin ice with that last goal. i can’t get away with another fuck up)#anyway this is so dramatic but it really is the shittiest time of the year
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if i might bitch about work for a second: yesterday was hellishly bad despite being able to keep up with it and i found out that apparently our department made 4600 dollars yesterday which is making me angry beyond belieffffffff
#this is math i do fairly often bc i enjoy ho-hum math and hate my job and like#even if we took off 2000 bucks for overhead costs which feels excessive but i will concede it#that would be enough to pay everyone working a little over 860 dollars which is 300 more than what i make in a WEEK#literally WHEREEEEE IS IT WHERE IS IT GOING WHERE IS IT#i dont like following this logic through because on days where there are fewer orders we;d do less#and i disagree with gig work's implementation as ive seen it and i think that would stress people out worse than we already are#(which is significantly)#but at the same time. 850 dollars. i cant afford to buy groceries this week. 850 dollars...#can i get a BONUS or SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#it makes me soooo angry i was talking to one of the deli guys who asked for a raise and got denied mid-question#before our director accidentally showed him that their department is four thousand of gods own dollars under labor#its so revolting to me i talk to so many people in this store who are terrified because of medical bills or rent or car shit#half my department works two jobs just to get by and ALL OF THEM drive junkers#honestly one of the things thats scaring me about if i actually move out is that i do rely on...living with my mom#i pay for most of my own food i pay an absurd amount of rent to share a room with her but she's willing to drive me to work#even though i've offered to walk multiple times and she REALLY should prioritize her own time more#but at the same time...not having to pay for rides has been carrying me hard#if i got a car i'd be fucked because those things bleed money and generally ethically i disagree with cars#but if i dont its like okay pony up the money learn to navigate buses (except for sunday when they dont run) or get ready#to walk to your job where you walk all day and then walk home in the dark#which. i love walking. and listening to music on my own while walking. so bad example. but i also love not having my feet hurt#all the time always no matter what im doing which is something im becoming increasingly unfamiliar with#its like. ultimately. something's gonna get fucked no matter what#and then i hear a figure like 4600 and i remember how avoidable all of this shit is. how avoidable it is for ANY of us#our ceo is gonna walk away from this merger attempt with 5 billion dollars in safety-cushion money#the 10 top execs beneath him with 1 billion#and its just so. what can you even do. 5 billion. can a number like that even mean anything? how could you possibly need that much#850 dollars would be a lifechanging amount of money for me right now and im not even one of the worst off#its just. god. this world could be anything but what it is but its this and for what
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#every time my housemates go on holiday it takes a week to adjust to having the kitchen to myself and actually managing vaguely regular meals#every time they come back the adjustment sucks SO bad#I've already been misgendered (accidentally; consistently)#While we were talking trans stuff#and my brain just feels like an ashtray today#wish we had enough wilderness here that skipping off into the forest and becoming a hermit were an actual option#the fantasy is only kinda a joke#excuse the vent it was this or find a nice empty field to scream in and blame it on the foxes#I still need to get food tonight and it is absurd amounts harder than it was a few days ago! @ my brain why!!
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By the end of the webcomic the ac club is gonna look like: Isabeau (two letters off from Isabel), Anna (from f/rozen), and Crash (i.e bandicoot, in honor of Crush) and Max is gonna be standing at the end of the line like ".....you people are shit at picking names"
#tag#pnat posting#Isabeau tried to name himself Isaboy but his mom wouldn't let him#Anna is a 'really? fucking mildred?' situation where they WANT to be supportive but thats SO LAME#Crash is a banger name for mx burger though nobody has any notes on that its the PERFECT amount of absurd#And Max is already trans. Hes Not telling you how though or in which direction or why. you dont know its alphabet
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ferns ^__^ forgot how much i loved her
#decided to reread the comic from the start since um. I left off maybe 4 years ago near the start of phase two?#which. thank god i get to see with a fresh set of eyes i LOVE the frankly absurd amount of foreshadowing everywhere#like. the line about the hospital being a 'piece of cake' from the corpse world arc. ARGH.#awful hospital#i also drew a jay but um. for the betterment of everyone i won't show him since i gave him mullet swag#fern#willis#ahstwe#has that ever been used as a tag?? whatever#have i ever posted my art here. oh well#OH for the first image i initially intended for the candles to get gradually shorter so that the 'n' was like a stub but#by that point i had already finished drawing them so#forgot to draw ferns gloves in the second image too... i always forget they're there. could never forget her socks though#oroeginals
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My haul from FanimeCon 2023! My friend left me unsupervised in the artist alley on multiple occasions and that was a mistake.
#fanime#please don’t judge the absurd amount of Yuri keychains I’ve already judged myself#and I actually found xenoblade 3 stuff! I was so happy and apparently the artist was happy to see another xb fan :)#not enough Marth merch though…#anyway time to hibernate#fanimecon#personal
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as a person w so goddamn much medical trauma the thought of having to go through the process to find a new doctor that is not just simply compatible w me, but who is also, like. u know. an actually nice, understanding person who will put genuine effort into taking proper care of me is so taxing. like i wish it was a simpler process, but it's not. bc i gotta deal w the very real possibility that by having to go through this process, my medical trauma will be worsened even further. & it is already bad enough that i have panic attacks every time i have to go to any sort of medical facility.
im literally so fucking furious over how much this happens. & that there's no fucking consequence for doing it to a Human Being. for tossing a Human Being that needs medical care aside like a piece of fucking trash. the american healthcare system is such a stupid fucking joke.
#mine#and it sucks bc tbh im at a point where i rly wish i could say 'fuck it' & just. not bother.#but i dont have a choice bc im on daily medications that i cant abruptly stop & Have to take to function#like i literally dont even know how to like. deal w processing the doctor my family has had for potentially decades just dropping me#outta nowhere. like damn i literally cant even trust the doctor literally my entire immediate family has seen for YEARS#to fucking give a shit abt me.#ive been through such an absurd amount of betrayals this year i literally feel like a broken shell of a person#im numbing. i really fucking am. what the fuck else am i sposed to do.#like... literally i feel so nauseous over this shit.#no warning. no head's up. just 'oh btw we're not treating [them] anymore.'#like ?????????????????#bruh this year has fucking brutalized my dissociation. i literally dont feel like a real person w feelings anymore.#bc ive just been treated like a piece of shit that's an inconvenience & a burden & worth more effort than i deserve to be granted.#it's so... just... idk. man. i dont even have it in me to be sad or hurt anymore#im just so fucking burnt out & exhausted. ive been wallowing in merciless agony since i had to move back in w my parents#i am genuinely BARELY surviving at this point & Still shit just Keeps Piling On.#i literally dont know what to do w myself anymore. im trying as hard as i fucking can but holy fucking shit.#i already have way less energy to spare than the average person bruh. it's ridiculous#im sick of being told it'll be ok. im sick of being told ppl feel sorry for me.#im sick of complaining. im sick of being miserable. im sick of feeling like this.#i just want to be done w all the hardships im so fucking exhausted i dont wanna be a person anymore man.#also like. v fucking taxing bc not every doctor can nor will prescribe my adhd meds.#so. like. that's also terrifying. nauseating to deal with.#i literally just want to give up bruh and not even in a suicidal way like i just am so sick of trying for nothing#i could do nothing at all and still be put through bullshit im over it all im so fucking over it.#never in my life has being told 'it'll be ok' felt more dismissive than it does this year but my god. does it feel so dismissive & taxing.#ive literally never not been more not okay than i have been this year. & i continuously get more brutalized no matter what.#it's exhausting as shit just let me fucking breathe what the fuck jfc.
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👍💥🍊🫶
#text#Misery..���#just bawled my little eyes out for an absurd amount of time#and my chest already hurts which im guessing in. the morning itll be worse. i ❤️ chest pain#any way. well its fine.#idknt even care its fine (manifeststion)#neg#do U like my emojis . i do. no reason 4 them except for putting only 👍 made it hufe#and i wantted it normal size so he has friends now
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#im gonna pretend i didnt see THAT post …#the amount of rads in my dash is concerning#unfollowing yall#EDIT:#okay i wanna give an explanation bc im (genuinely) interested to hear opinions.#but first i want to ask a question. since when do ‘larries’ hate louis so much? idk i ask since yall insult him for being in the closet#i get that its annoying#i get the frustration#and i get the anger at seeing a minor being used as a stunt is literally the saddest thing ever#but to say that louis deserves to have a shitty birthday doesnt seem a bit excessive? genuine question#I already saw like 5 posts saying that this is all louis' fault#that louis decided to do this stunt#and that he decides to not end it…#and i thought we were all clear that this is not louis' fault.#and lets be clear: i dont think louis is a poor idiot who doesnt decide for his life#but saying that he decided to have a babygate is ABSURD#bye
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