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House MD depicts an autistic who has gotten insanely good at reading people and is just in too much pain to use it for social engineering much beyond his weird little pranks and machinations. my dad is this type of autist, i think of it as the Frasier Crane type as opposed to the Star Trek type. you know. capable of being jocular, jovial, charming, even seductive, but it requires so much bandwidth its still extremely taxing. i have been telling you on this blog for ten years that it is in your best interests to become jocular. it will stun you how much better you are at reading people than the majority of neurotypicals. there's no reason for them to get good at it when they dont even know what there is to get good at. microexpressions are real and i can see them
#blog#autism#of course you dont know whats going on you cant see anyones face!!! thats where all the information is#youre bad at reading people because it causes you physical pain to look someone in the eyes so of course youve had 1/1000th of the practice#this is due to the information overload#grit your teeth through it#they cant tell youre not smiling
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hope you feel better soon!
I am riddled with ailments, but I stay silly!
#ask#non mdzs#My health journey has been: Hernia -> acid reflux -> Vocal pain due to aforementioned reflux -> chest infection.#I'm terrified to know what's about to hit me next. Please let it be something kind. PLEASE.#The consequence of living with linguists is that you'll wake up with a wacked up voice -#suddenly you're sitting you down in front of a program called something like Praat having your shimmer and jitter levels calibrated.#They gave me a GRBAS of 33012. I have a fun thing called a pitch break where a whole octave just does not exist.#My vocal pain was bad enough I ended up seeing a speech pathologist and that whole experience was super neat!#I learnt a lot about voice - to be honest I might make a little comic on it after some more research. Fascinating stuff.#For example; your mental perception of our voice modulates the muscles of the vocal folds and larynx.#meaning that when you do have changes (inflammation = more mass = lower frequency)#your brain automatically attempts to correct it to what it 'should sound like'. Leading to a lot more vocal strain and damage!#And it gets really interesting for trans voice care as well - because the mental perception of one's voice isn't based on an existing sampl#So a good chunk of trans voice training is also done with the idea of finding one's voice and retraining the brain to accept it. Neat!#Parkinsonial Voice also has this perception to musculature link! The perception is that they are talking at a loud/normal volume#but the actual voice is quite breathy and weak. So vocal training works on practicing putting more effort into the voice#and retraining the brain to accept the 'loud' voice as 'normal'.#Isn't the human body fascinating?#Anyhow; Now I have vocal exercises and strategies to reduce strain and promote healing.#Which is a lot better than my previous strategy of yelling AAAH in my car until my 'voice smoothed out'.#You can imagine the horror on the speech path's face. I am an informed creature now.#I'm my own little lab rat now. I love learning and researching. Welcome to my tag lab. Class is dismissed.#I'll be back later with a few more answered asks </3 despite everything I'm still going to work and I need the extra sleep.#Thank you for the well wishes! And if you read all of that info dump; thank you for that as well!
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The Warden
Panel: No escape.
Ok, now just some silly ideas to share (playing around with the au)
Comic 1: Invading dreams
Extra: no thanks.
Comic 2: Unwanted attention
#naruto#naruto fanart#kakashi hatake#rin nohara#obito uchiha#infinite tsukuyomi#fanart#art#my art#sketch#drawing#digital art#hello i have yet to combust#just some drawings to share to get back to posting#playing around with styles of coloring#anywayss went back to the infinite tsukuyomi au#it’s started off as trying to learn and bring back information or dreams to entertain kakashi#(being aware of being trapped is taking a toll oh him)#but soon as they continue to view around and traveling through the roots#seeing how everyone has a different look on him#they catch a glimpse of obito looking around#so the journey starts as it makes sure that he’ll never get his hands on him again#hiding him with the cocooned as much as possible and#(at some point it detaches itself from the original genjutsu and lives off kakashi chakra)#then#be it build a defense around the mind or alternatively#erase memories that kakashi has of him#the genjutsu conclusion is that this is what will make Kakashi happy#if he never remember then the pain associated with it would cease#kakashi is horrified to know with pasting time his mind is essentially being tampered with
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HUSK, Hotel Bartender & Concierge | 1x04 - Masquerade
"Oh, I FORGOT — you're the wise-old bartender who's seen it all! Get the fuck over yourself and pour me a real drink."
#hazbin hotel#husk#husk hazbin hotel#hazbin husk#hazbin hotel edit#masquerade#my gifs#character spotlight#Certified Redemption ☑︎#hello hi i'm in love with the kitty man like actually#he NEEDS more screentime in s2 in fact he needs his own episode#PLS PLS she confirmed that we're gonna get to know some (but not all) of the character's backstories in s2 PLEASE LET HUSK BE ONE OF THEM#I'LL ACTUALLY DIE THANK YOU#alright i'm coming back to these tags to point stuff out#first off - the fact that he closes his eyes and shakes his head and reaches up to hold his suspenders before offering actual help#physically hyping himself up to lend a hand even though his whole thing is having an empty shell of a heart - apparently.#AAAAAA#but ALSO#holding his suspenders - self soothing gesture possibly? he knows lending a hand could give way to vulnerability on his end regardless if h#even shares personal information about himself or not - at the BARE MINIMUM he is saying ''look. i care a little. okay?'' by even OFFERING#help to begin with. AND OTHER THING!!!!!!!#the fact that he himself bitched and moaned earlier that episode about how EVERYONNEEE likes to bitch to the bartender#and he talks about how he knows everything about everyone seemingly against his better wishes#it's all part of the job he's forced to do#so you could also look at him shaking his head as a way for him to literally ''shake off'' that attitude because again. HE CARES.#even if it's just a little.#then GODDDDD his reaction to angel breaking down. the way he softens. his ears go down. he looks to the ground.#his ''old crusty heart'' was actually touched - not in the happy way of course. it was pain. struck with sympathy and remorse.#LISTEN I LOVE THIS GOD DAMN CAT OKAY
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With love, for you.
(extra vers under the cut!)
#tshirt that says i am normal after raison d'etre#duck scribbles#valkyrie#mika kagehira#shu itsuki#shumika#mademoiselle#enstars#another tshirt that says i am normal after the valkyrie trip album. (extreme lie)#never drawing hair drills ever again after this that was kind of painful#funny thing that happened while i was doing the lineart my friend saw and asked hey that kinda looks like mademoiselle#and i told them it was!!! and had the pleasure of informing them how it was shus grandpa madonee was modelled after and grandpa itsuki's#doomed parisian yuri romance and his reaction was simply a five stages of grief speedrun. it was great i love telling her things#ensemble stars#kind of started to not like how it turned out by the end of it but its swagever. agh i didnt improve much this year huh 😔👊👊👊#edit I NOTICED I FORGOT TO COLOR IN SOME LINES RAHG fixed now orz
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I used to get an arguments on facebook and it bit me in the ass enormously because it turns out that when you get an arguments on facebook habitually, you'll be interacting with a lot of other people who get an arguments on facebook habitually, and most of these people are deeply unpleasant and they will be super mean to you in really fucked up ways. so for a couple of years I just sort of dropped off ever interacting with anyone who said things that I did not agree with. I would just scroll past stuff or I would get upset about it privately and move on. I did not ever engage. and the last couple of weeks I've started being able to say things in response to things I don't agree with in ways that I feel lay out what my perspective is but do not get overly invested in "winning" or "proving" anything -- I will say my piece generally for the benefit of other people who might be reading the conversation and need to hear what I have to say. and then I will turn notifications off and go do something else.
anyway. wow. y'all heard about this? pretty cool shit.
#a friend of mine posted on her facebook page about the importance of pain management in dog behavioral problems#and some lady came in and started gnashing her teeth about pill popping and the opiate epidemic and 'masking pain'#and she was using her experience as someone who experiences chronic pain and who refuses to ever treat it.#as like a gotcha. I was just like I'm really sorry that you feel the need to deny yourself pain relief.#here is the scientific medical information that we have about the effect of untreated pain on the brain and the neurological system#here is information about how detrimental untreated pain is to the well-being of any organism#I think it would behoove you to look into some of the recent studies about this!#have a good day!#meanwhile she is like telling everyone to go screw themselves#which kinda proves my friend's point about untreated pain having a behavioral effect. ironically.#anyway
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Wanderer
#My baby looks tired#so many angsty headcanons surrounding this piece#Lavellan looking for Solas in the fade?#she keeps waking up from nightmares with phantom pain in her missing arm???#i think that my Inky spend some time travelling through Thedas after trespasser. Keeping her eyes out for more information on Solas.#who is she beyond the Herald?#She needs time to process saving the world yet again#insert meme of Ben affleck smoking#She harbors a lot of resentment for Solas so I’m curious how their romance ( or revenge lol ) will develop in DA4#my fanart#dragon age inquisition#solavellan#my art#dragon age#dai#da4#dragon age fanart#inquisitor lavellan#dragon age OC#oC art#dragon age the veilguard#dragon age trespasser#trespasser#solavellan headcanons#digital drawing#solas x female lavellan#art#daze chroma#dazechroma
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can we just listen to Disabled people when they say what accommodations they need??? Like it really isn’t that hard to just take someone’s word on what is best for their own body! Whether it’s more or less or different than what you deem they need it really isn’t your place to say!!!
Sometimes, people need more than they show! Especially if they’re used to being in pain all the time, then they won’t always display that discomfort.
Sometimes the accommodations someone needs are different than what you assume. A friend who struggles with noise sensitivity may ask for you to turn on a different type of music, instead of turning it down, and if that is what they express they need you don’t have to say “oh no I can just turn it down!” and ignore them saying that that isn’t necessary because your idea of noise sensitivity is different than their own experiences and needs.
And sometimes people need less than you try to provide! Or simply don’t want that accommodation at the time! And here’s the crazy part: this applies even if what they say to do could hurt them. Obviously this isn’t a rule for every situation*, but for some it absolutely is. If your friend wants to tag along for, say, a hike, and they have joint pain it isn’t your place to add in “oh no but they can’t do [the hike]! They’ll be in pain! We have to do something else to accommodate them!” If that person expressed a desire to go, especially if offered other options prior that wouldn’t hurt them, let them live. Let them do the thing that puts them in pain, because Disabled people don’t always want to be shoved into a little box of safety. Absolutely sometimes they do, and some might always want to, but if they don’t, then let them make their own choices for their body. Just as anyone else does. You go out and get drunk, even if it gives you a hangover. You go skating even if you’re shit at it and scratch up your knees a bunch. Just because someone is Disabled doesn’t mean that they can’t do the same thing and do that fun thing that hurts them.
I don’t know if I’m displaying my point how I want, so here’s my own example: I am allergic to the cold. Anything below 60 degrees (f) I get hives. Any water cooler than a fucking warm shower I get hives. My joints don’t do great when it’s cold out. This does not mean that when I say I want to go swimming, you can say “oh but you can’t you’ll get hives!” Or “no you can’t do that you’ll be in pain!” Because. I know that. I know that. I know my Disability better than anyone else can, and I can ask for accommodations I need. I am not a child to be wrapped in bubble wrap so I don’t get hurt. My body is my body and I can do with it what I want, and face the consequences. Likewise, just because I said I wanted to go swimming doesn’t mean that when I don’t want to go out and muck around in the snow it is anyone’s right to say “oh but you wanted to swim earlier, so obviously it isn’t that bad for you!” Or “oh it’s fine it’s not that cold! Just wear a sweater!” Because at that time I need and want different accommodations and that should be listened to and considered accordingly, as far as it can be in that situation.
Seriously. Just listen to us. We are in our own bodies. We know ourselves. It really isn’t that hard
*a situation where this point would be null is, for example, a situation where the person has been peer pressured into doing something, or one where you know the person well and know that the endurance of pain is a self-harming behavior
#disability#disabled#information#shi rambles#ableism#accommodation#cold urticaria#chronic pain#Like I get that my mom wants the best for me but I really know myself#If I avoided getting hives I’d be avoiding swimming at all. I’d not be having cold drinks or foods. I’d be not going outside#Even if I’m complaining about being in pain it doesnt mean that I don’t want to do the thing. It just means I don’t want to be in pain.#I know that won’t change but it’s not the change that matters it’s the expression of it#idk#actually disabled#ugh I don’t like wiriting that i feel like a fraud cuz im not disabled “enough”#It’s so fucking stupid I hate my brain
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oh this is real ⛈⛈
#migraine#chronic migraine#one of my drugs keeps emailing me to let me know that lady gaga gets migraines#and I'm like...#what do you expect me to do with that information#the emails are phrased like it's a gender reveal or something#congrats to lady gaga on her debilitating pain!#so fucking weird#barbie movie
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Average Drama Enjoyer observes some peak drama.
#dungeon meshi#toshiro nakamoto#laios touden#kabru#izutsumi#Before anyone mistakes this as mischaracterization: The joke here is that it's ambiguous what the hell he means.#Kabru does love getting into fights a bit more than average but he's mostly here for the drama.#I screenshot the scene of him going 'The dark arts!' with a little smile everytime I re-read dungeon meshi. He's so catty. I love him.#And shout out to Izutsumi for adding fire to the drama. Girl said 'I am the listener. I heard that shit.' and refused to apologize.#Joke two: the deep cut - Welcome to more propaganda for whatever the hell is going on between Laios & Shuro & Kabru.#Laios trusting Shuro with some *heavy* information because he admires him so much! And wants to be his friend so badly!#Kabru also has another great character moment when he immediatly clocks Laios as not being as malicious as expected.#We love a character who can put the clues together! It is such a good subversion of what role we think Kabru is to play in this story!#Now he's eager to befriend Laios - who is barely interested and currently trying to befriend Shuro - who is barely interested and...well.#The painful triangle of people trying to get to know the other person better and being rejected...Friendship triangle.#We have all had a friendship triangle situation before. Right? You guys have also struggled to read people. Right?#Laios is universally relatable. Right?
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+ Butch 4 Butch +
(Except neither one of them is rlly that butch but holy fUCKING SHIT THAT SONG IS LITERALLY THEM… the version of them I made up in my mind palace… it’s them.)
Anywayyyy. Yeah! Have a tagr art dump..! aka, those vibes when you, out of a series of moments of temporary insanity, end up finding, taking in, nursing back to health and eventually falling into a tangled messy yearning situationship w the asshole tsundere alien who tried to destroy your entire planet… rlly extremely relatable vibes!!
#invader zim#gaz membrane#tak#invader tak#tagr#iz tak#iz gaz#doodles#caption for the 3rd pic:#ton ten photos taken seconds before a goth girls plushie security system shoots you in the head.#anyway… yeah… I love these two#I think a lot my ideas for them are informed by this one fanfic I read as a young teen/child… but I don’t actually remember anything#concrete?? just general story beats? and I’m pretty sure my ideas deviate from it a good bit. but#I think that fic def formed the basis for my tagr love and appreciation#I think they could be complicated and messy and painful and fun as fuck#I have ideas for them lol. and some more art. so hopefully I’ll be able to post that soon too#but for now… enjoy sketch dump of messy goth saphics#*top ten moments. not ton. spellings hard ghgh#I think tak is very hesitant about initiating physical contact and intimacy and being cuddly. cuz of pride and also repression#but I saw a post talking about irkens being naturally very touchy feely affectionate and I def agree…#so. tak is wary of stuff like that at first. but once u break thru that initial barrier of her denying herself she’s actually sUPER TOUCHY#gaz has unleashed a pda beast she just doesn’t kno it yet
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men in gothic literature are the ultimate master yappers
#‘i am by birth a genevese and my family is one of the most distinguished of that republic🤓☝️’ ok victor let’s get to your pain and sufferin#also the like 20 pages where dorian gray just describes a bunch of random gemstones (???)#like yes thank you for this really useful and relevant information that is definitely a necessary plot point#(guys this is a joke i honestly find these kind of tangents in books charming)#frankenstein#the picture of dorian gray#gothic literature
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"Moiraine Damodred..." "No, if you have ever loved me, don't do this." "I command you to close the Waygate."
#wot show spoilers#wotedit#the wheel of time#siuan sanche#moiraine damodred#wot season 2 spoilers#wot s2 spoilers#wheel of time s2 spoilers#wheel of time season 2 spoilers#wot book spoilers#new spring#I have much to say about that but hey let's focus on mindless pain#that was ooof#I'll only say this: if Moiraine can mess up like she did during an entire season the fandom can handle Siuan messing up for one episode#I could not stop thinking about that quote from New Spring and how unnatural Moiraine's movements looked in that scene#and oh boy Lan telling Moiraine that if she trusted one person it should be Siuan#to be clear Siuan only did what Moiraine would have done in her place with the information she was given#(now why did she get only that information is another subject)#Siuan only Moirained Moiraine#but yeah bordel I'm still processing#I'm still very confused about certain details that make me wonder if there isn't more to this scene we're not getting yet#but I might just be fooling myself#denial is a river etc#Mygifs#Mine: wot
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#finizen#i will do this one separate from palafin just because i think from this angle you Should be able to see the heart on their chest but i#haven't verified that information yet. if not i'll update this post in the queue tomorrow and add palafin's tag as well#anyway FUCK this thing's evolution method? i distinctly remember how long it took folks to figure this fuckin thang out#it's a pain in the ENTIRE ass. it SUCKS#oh wait i guess i'll have to do like. hero form palafin. yeah that'll be in the palafin post#just remembered that that. pokémon. exists. shivering in fear
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I'm sobbing Cucuruchito on QSMP is LITERALLY what irl AI are 😭 it doesn't truly know anything, it's got a database of information it strings together as it sees fit and clearly doesn't have a memory of past responses so it's not truly learning or remembering what it's been told or is answering and can give conflicting responses to repeated questions, and it LITERALLY regularly makes up misinformation. THIS IS WHY AIS ARE A PROBLEM IRL AND NOW ITS SO OBVIOUS IN QSMP AAAAA 💀💀💀💀
#im watching fit and antoine mess with cucuruchito and while its very funny for them to make it curse and call them Big Daddies#ITS SO BADDDDDDD ITS PAINFUL TO WATCH AND KNOW WHATS GOING ON WITH IT#idek if its collecting information cause its not saving anything that theyve asked it#its got a very impressive base database its pulling from for answers but its not LEARNING#at least not as far as i can tell?#its weird#qsmp#qsmp cucuruchito#cucuruchito#becca rambles
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He got a sweater WITH A DOG ON IT?! So happy and joyous
#just to inform you... I can draw N unless I can't. The way I do changes nearly all the time I need to make a design sheet for him or smth 😭#this is a doodle from 2 days ago didn't want to post it at first but honestly he is so cute looking here I need to share him with the world#don't be fooled by his sweet looks tho he will frikken murder you if he wants to. just you wait.#murder drones got me out of an artblock but did something to my artstyle too like what happened (what only drawing robots for 2 months#gay does to an artist) (NAH BUT WAIT TILL YOU SEE MY FIRST MD FANART it'll be funny) (it was of Uzi [ofc] and I got her design wrong on so#many levels remember to use more references than one render from the wiki kids)#okay time for the actual tags now#serial designation n#n murder drones#murder drones n#murder drones#my art#have a nice 24 hours and ONLY 24 hours. The rest of your hours shall be filled with misery and pain. /(serial designation) J
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