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36, 79, 101? Hope you're doing well, hun. 💙
Hello Satie!!! I hope you're feeling better as well!! 🦉🌷☁️
36 - What’s your favorite book?
I never know how to answer this one, I feel like such a fake ~bookworm~. I think I'm more into authors/themes than books per se, if that makes sense?
The Chronicles of Narnia and The Picture of Dorian Gray (if you saw that typo, no you didn't) are my usual go-to answers. It's Kind Of A Funny Story is very, very dear to me. Beautiful Creatures is probably my favourite non-problematic YA read (big Twilight fan but yikes). Wuthering Heights is depressing and fantastic!
Oyasumi Punpun is forever and always my most favourite manga! Kafka On The Shore was pretty great - I can never remember any of Haruki Murakami's books after I'm done, but the vibes are vibing.
What Matters Most Is How Well You Walk Through The Fire by Bukowski is always always with me and I re-read it at least once a year. His poetry has a lot of ~questionable~ stuff, but also just really beautiful and heartbreaking sentiments. I like the way he writes, he was such a weird man.
79 - What’s your most prized possession?
Good question! I would say my journals/sketchbooks maybe? Or my books?
I have a few pieces of jewellery that I love and would be devastated to part with, like my moon/sun necklace.
OH! I have two Memphis May Fire albums signed by Matty Mullins, and Cory's bass pick, that he handed TO ME. PERSONALLY. IN THE BARRICADE. So definitely that !!!
101 - What’s been going through your mind lately?
How fast time is passing, and how I feel like I'm wasting my time. I'm at that point where, I didn't really think I'd get this far, so now I have no idea where to go. Unfortunately, I let those feelings get to me, and everyone around has to suffer from it in one way or another.
I have been avoiding a lot of people lately because I know they will ask questions that I really don't know how to answer. Which sucks, cus I know they mean well, and would help me if I actually asked. I'm trying to find the strength to reach out - it's been a while since I've seen some friends and I know I will feel better when I do.
Just feeling like a little sea turtle lost in the great ocean, I suppose. (back at it again with the Turtle Feelings).
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is that a bird is that a plane WRONG. BIG SUBSCRIBE BUTTON GO
^this is from technos enderchest.. number one sellout foreber i care him so much
#art !!#mcyt fanart !!#technoblade#or like doodle more like#dsmp worlddownload got me nostalgic and sad and happy and sad#do fo you guys get mr#maybe i am perpetually sad and pathetic actually sorry Its the Winter.....
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Sometimes a day makes you want a Starscream to bite and squeeze
#guess who got their final scores back ahaaa#class avg was 60 percent 😭#also I have blocked the transformers tag on TikTok that place is a hellhole#bit of a vent here but it’s so crazy#I was talking to a person I didn’t even follow a while back and we were making jokes like yeah the autobots ship megastar#on my fyp a couple days later and I see them reposting “shipping megastar is bad and gross’ like bruh what#I saw one of my followers commenting ‘yeah can’t believe it’s so popular’ I HAVE POSTED MEGASTAR BEFORE WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE#I POSTED MY STARSCREAM AND MEGATRON FIGURES RAILING EACH OTHER#I only started posting cause I was like eh if it’s getting banned might as well#these people were poisoning my fyp smh#I’m convinced it’s just a moral superiority thing like all of those people who thought abo was so cringe and then someone was like#‘I secretly like abo’ and everyone agreed that they also like abo and it’s not that weird anymore#Ngl though. it is kinda sad but also kinda funny#sorry for the rant cause I talked about it before and I don’t want to keep on talking about it but those two baffled me#transformers#transformers fanart#megastar#megatron#starscream#transformers g1#megascream#maccadam#its like watching one of those religious couples where one of them is gay and theyre like 'I am working through my gay to be straight'
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rut was really good im such a sucker for anything that just wants to be uplifting and genuine. so, here is them :3
#brightheart#cloudtail#warrior cats#art#i wanted to draw the designs they used for the map but i cant find official ref sheets anywhere wahhjksdf#god whenever anyone makes a video w these two it never fails to make me cry.#swiftpaw too T-T#ALSO IM SO SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG TO RESPOND TO THE LIONBLAZE ANSWERS YOU GUYS SENT#I WANTED TO ANSWER W DRAWINGS BUT CAUGHT UP W ART FIGHT AND I JUST. got burnt out w drawing lion#i think#which is a... problem that you can imagine#. how sad i am about
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"So why am I so tiny, and why am I so mad?"
KoFi || Patreon
#sad•leonart#rise leonardo#rise leo#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rottmnt leo#rottmnt leonardo#drawing has been so fucking hard the past few weeks im sorry for like having nothing to share#i have two more big projects before im done... if i dont start another one in that time#looks at my animatic thumbnails#which are up on my patreon if anyones curious#am i gonna regret posting sad shit late at night when i wake up#probably#oh well#its all i got left
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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Fuck you Endeavor. Fuck you All For One. Fuck you to all the Pro-Heroes. Fuck the Hero Society and FUCK YOU HORIKOSHI too 🥰
#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#bnha#mha#bnha spoilers#mha spoilers#bnha 426#mha 426#fuck endeavor#— ❥ kelrambles;#am i pissed?? HELL YEAH. am i sad?? FUCK YEAH. I AM FUCKING CRYING FOR FUCK SAKE—#ahhhh i am so done with horikoshi istg… SO. DONE.#always killing off the characters who more than anyone in this god forsaken manga deserved to be happy#the hero society haven’t got better AT ALL#the same toxic shit all over again that promotes so much toxicity it makes me VOMIT#excusing the abusers and crucifying the victims OHH I AM SO FUCKING SICK TO MY STOMACH#been hurling so bad at the last few chapters because tf?????#like… i’m sorry today’s chapter was… nice (at most) only because touya got to have a last talk with his mother and siblings…#but other than that???? hope horikoshi steps on a lego hits the corners of every furniture with his toe EVERYWHERE he goes#and most of all???? that in this scorching weather both sides of his pillow are WARM AS FUCK#honestly… just like shigaraki’s chapter this chapter felt RUSHED as hell too…#especially after how much horikoshi have been staying behind the todorokis as a family…#idk these last chapters just don’t make sense to me…
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Not saying that people with more obvious physical limitations have it any easier, but if you're going to have a disability that gets in the way of schoolwork and class attendance, you are absolutely screwed if it happens to be "totally invisible and mostly unheard of 'can't wake up and get to morning classes on time' syndrome"
#guess who got dropped a whole letter grade in his german class because of his POTS getting in the way this semester!!#i simply do not think they should be counted as unexcused absences if on the first day of class you sent an email to the instructor#containing your letter from the disability center explaining you have 'can't always make it to class' disease#and would not always be able to make it to class#and then frequently reiterated to the instructor that the reason you were missing class was because of a disability#but i know that 'sorry i just can't wake up on time' sounds like the stupidest and fakest excuse ever so here we are#(yes i am fighting this because i deserve the B+ i worked for in that class and yes i will be getting my disability coordinator involved)#(but i am sad and frustrated and scared and sent my email about it in tears and know that it's a fight i might lose)
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help i cant stop drawing fem neuvillette
#minxie art#neuvifuri#genshin impact#furina#neuvillette#UGHHHHH I LOVE FURI BUT IM GETTING BRAIN DAMAGE FROM MY OWN DRAWING IF NEUVI#I RLY LOVE TALL WOMEN THAT ARE SOFT ON THE INSIDE BUT SERIOUS AND OR POTENTIALLY SCARY ON THE OUTSIDE#also im rly proud of furi here bc she looks so cute im bleating pathetically#my fave thing about drawing them is making them obsessed with each other#and giving neuvi big milkers lol#am i turning neuv into a bimb0........... LOL idc!#ooc? idc!#no ones winning against her in a yearn off#for context on the bottom left#furi dropped her DL and neuv waited the entire day after work to give it in person#also she bought a new dress and got her hair nails and makeup done bc i said so#sorry im annoying but ive always been like this lol#like if u look at my amaya sideblog it gets worse#i have an alt twt as well but its priv and that is 10 times worse too#also listened to golden hour serafina cover for like 7 hours doing this#i said bottom left but i mean right lmao L#actually i had like 2 endings for this#one is that neuv was a demon the entire time#so she remembers#the other is that neuv turns into a demon but has no memories#but i didnt want to be sad so i just made her remember
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Maybe I'll make a post on this at some point but like, something deeply fucked up about TNP and Po3 that people have totally forgotten about is how badly they try to whine that "Tigerstar Had Good Traits :("
Firestar does it, Brambleclaw does it, and they keep doing this after it becomes this GRAND irony that Firestar almost gets Tiger'd to death in a fox trap because he was too trusting. Bramble gets his pity award of keeping deputyship and then cries to his son about how No One Saw The Good In Tigerstar :(
And it's wiiiiild that no one else in this fandom has done anything with the fact that Leopardstar broke the Warrior Code to appoint Hawkfrost, who had no apprentice, an extremely aggressive and warmongering Tigerclone who says things like "Tigerstar wasn't the worst cat to look up to." ONLY qualifying trait was being kinda like Tigerstar.
And she practically did that the SECOND Mistyfoot went missing. And then Leopardstar continued to be one of the most violent and xenophobic leaders through Po3, joining with WindClan to attack ThunderClan.
What I'm getting at is that like, a few years ago, with books like "Blackfoot's Reckoning" and "Shadow in RiverClan" it's like they suddenly decided to retcon in a bunch of "redemption arcs" in hindsight. They just pretended like there was this grand high reckoning with TigerClan, when there literally wasn't, and if anything that caused SERIOUS problems for the cast that the authors didn't fully acknowledge as such.
And now ppl haven't actually read the main series and are just working with their recent memory of all these retcon books.
But TNP and PO3 are still there, and you can go and see the ACTUAL timeline where Leopardstar is really not apologetic at all, and Blackstar is a useful stooge for the very next wannabe dictator that strolls in, in spite of the new side content that COMPLETELY mischaracterized them for their plots to work.
#I just wish people could be more critical of this#And im not entirely anti-retcon. Mind you#But I am here because i think these retcons make them WORSE characters. It's BAD for a character to GET a book with a redemption arc and--#Then they don't change at all and act like totally different people later in the timeline#And Leopardstar is the worse one between her and Blackstar BECAUSE she has sooo many active choices here#Im confident in my choice for BB the more I think about it. Leopardstar's dismantling of the bonehill was good#But it works better as a tragedy imo with the rest of the series in mind#That for a brief moment. A fleeting whim. She could have changed.#But she never did.#And Blackstar who was FAR less repentant at the time DID eventually turn around.#At the end of the day one of them appointed Hawkfrost as codebreaking deputy.#And the other did not.#And I think it's fucking bullshit the way that Leopardstar's retcondemption implies that Hawkfrost was just so tricky he mislead her#The old and experienced leader who had been fooled by a tiger before and was soso sorry for it. Just got tricked.#Like fuck off. She never had a redemption. Stop trying to tell me she did 15 years later#She's a girlboss who empires too close to the sun in pursuit of power and drags everyone down with her#Not a sad weepy smolbean#Bone babble#Warrior cats analysis
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I still haven’t been able to pick up a copy of the new PPG comic but you know what? I saw this panel online from it and…
…if this is like a Super Zeroes-esque comic where the girls are envisioning alternate versions of themselves with different destinies and if Blossom wants to be a detective GOD! BLESS! whoever wrote this ‘cause it’s perfect.
Bubbles as a bunny and Buttercup as a wrestler are also both perfect but that goes without saying. 🙏
#is Miss Bellum coming to like… find out who kidnapped the mayor???#he got lost AGAIN after she accidentally left the baby gate unlocked UGH#it’s out of context so maybe if I read the comment I’ll get more context but if it’s the context I think it is#finally some good Blossom characterization BECAUSE IT IS FULLY ACCURATE 🥹🥹🥹🥹#seriously I’m legit happy for the first time in…… a while#watch I’ll read the comic and then cry tears of sadness lmao I MEAN I DON’T WANT TO but what if#I swear I’ve written about my love of blossom’s love of detective work on here too……… curious…….. 👀#also I didn’t meant comment I meant *comic I can’t edit tags easily on mobile I AM SORRY I CAN WRITE I SWEAR
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real image of me thinking about jerma’s halloween vampire rp stream that was cancelled hours it was supposed to happen for the millionth time. it’s been months. I will never get over this I fear
#I keep thinking about it and it keeps making me SO SAD#if he didn’t do the name your price show at twitch con afew days prior he wouldn’t have gotten Sick and we would’ve had JERCULA#but he got ILL and we LOST IT ALL. we really did. god#it doesn’t help that my lockscreen is currently a jercula drawing that mic traded with me LMAOO I am mentally ill <333#sorry for ranting I go to bed now#jerma#thing
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collab #2 with @xenole i was given a chibi yakumo and i.. i...... turned it into thiS
#I AM SO SORRY I DREW YAKUMO AGAIN ADFSJEIADKS LOOK OK so xenole gives me the tiny crying yakumo.#says DO WHATEVER YOU WANT and THUS i get to thinking#my immediate thought was#i'm going to make oli breast boobily while comforting him#bc i was determined to draw xenole's fave this time. i swore it to myself. i WILL stop being so self indulgent#but the chibi on chibi comforting scene didn't sit right with me. it was too straightforward. not something i would draw normally#it was hhhh as u say.... not on brand.? it did not inspire me. idea benched....#so days pass and i'm still pondering ideas on what to do to the sad spaghetti.#configurations of clan members danced in my head. some defending yaku. some comforting. some bullying#the ideas usually involved at least oli or kuya bc once again. xenole bias#then while i'm in the shower i got frustrated with my lack of ideas and thought#i'll jujst eat.him. just. chew on him. i'm tired of him#AND THE IMAGE OF KUYA EATING YAKUMO FOR BREAKFAST POPPED INTO MY MIND#originally it was going to be kuya eating yakuflakes and oli giving him serious side eye but then the brain went#WHAT IF IT'S YAKUMO WATCHING KUYA EAT YAKUMO. THAT IS FUNNY. IT MUMST HAPPEEN#BUT I REFUSED at first. i was angry at myself. this is not a competition to see how you can STILL sHOVE YAKUMO into a drawing.#plus the composition would shrink xenole's chibi down! i would take over so much space by comparison! THE DISRESPECT! TO THE COLLAB PROCESS#but once i get fixated on smth...well. i ended up doing the idea and just praying xenole wouldnt eviscerate me for it#i'm sorry my liege. my grip on the reins was weak. the goofy clown horses went stampeding#so idk now it's the two of em having a peaceful breakfast in kuya's cabin but only kuya is at peace and yakumo's this close to a breakdown#i feel like there should be something in the space between them. a speech bubble or something . something mean is being said#yakuya#nu carnival yakumo#nu carnival kuya
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Jazz becoming the next big Gothem villain is such a solid concept. Theres so much to explore.
She targets corrupt mental institutions. Corrupt companies who destroy their workers state of mind so they wont quit. She attacks landlords who make it impossible for people to live comfortably.
She is the staple anti-hero of anyone struggling to get back on their feet. People should have to work three jobs just to afford a crappy one bedroom, no utilities, half bath, in crime alley apartment, with a roommate.
Shelters should be aiming to gain a profit instead of using the donations to support others.
She is tired of these big name heros leaving children to clean up messes. She has watcher her own brother wither away to a shell of his former self trying to make a change and she is sick of it. Hell she herself is a child but if this is what it takes, then this is what it takes.
Enter from the left The Manipulator™️
Feared by all corrupt. People think she has mind control or something. When she targets someone they make almost a full 180 in their ways. “She will do anything to get her way or to make people into what she thinks they should be. And she mist be stopped” cries big business.
In reality she is the worlds best damn psychiatrist ever to be known. She doesn’t force anyone to change but gives them the choice to be better. To see how much more they can be. And it terrifies them. Helps them find themselves again and to move past their troubling pasts. No force and no mind control. No manipulating. No one but those who she has helped know the truth but when they tell the truth it only fuels the fire of her being controlling.
Theres one thing also fuelling the flames of mind control. Thats the fact that every single major hero to go after her can’t. Any who approach her find themselves no long near her. Superman just wants to talk, well she doesn’t, and he is then back in his city?!? Batman is stalking her to figure out how to deal with her but once he gets too close he suddenly finds himself in the batcave?
At first they think it’s teleportation but time is passing? Theres video feed and tracking of no they just went back themselves. No response from them the whole trip. As if possessed. (Lmao it’s just good brother danny pranking his sis a little by making her seem all powerful but also protecting her anyway he can. Or could be Dan instead)
#danny phantom#dp x dc#dpxdc#jazz fenton#manipulator? I hardly know her hehehehehehe these jokes are peak for me atm#jazz snaps and does some changing of the world#vlad is funding her because hes scared of her#no good tags today boiz I gotta call my mom and the hot water is gonw#yes yes I know I know I said I hate my mother but I am a good boi and will bring her lunch today so she eats#plus my sistet never leaves the house so im offering to take her too so maybe she can get some sun light#oh I got a promotion at work too btw#not the one I wanted but meh it’s something right?#gonna be working mon-fri 10hour shifts so ill be a bit busy sorry#got a catboi danny post in the drafts for you later though so u wont starve I guess#who am I kidding plenty of dpxdc posters for yall I aint gotta be worried#oof that makes me sad kinda so im a dip
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harlan guthrie can you please promise john doe that one day he'll be audible without it being used against him. please
#PLEASE I AM DISTRAUGHT#literally every time john doe malevolent has a voice it is actively used against him in what i can only imagine is the most terrifying way#or he's speaking through arthur. but every time he's given his own voice#that's all he has. he has a voice a hand and a foot. please he's clinging to the scraps of his autonomy all the time you can't DO this#and he's actively not trying to use the hand and foot too much for arthur's sake and his voice is all he has are you hearing me. that's IT#honestly he SHOULD be frustrated anyone would be#yes the grand vizier really got to me in part 40 can you tell. just wanting your own body and wanting a voice#and when you meet someone who is willing to give you a voice he is doing it solely to stand against you. to actively take choice from you.#please i am so sad#malevolent#john doe malevolent#malevolent spoilers#sorry for all the tags i am not articulate. but i hope i got it across
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My post about Anya is making like a little ruckus on Twitter and I think it’s crazy how many people like have a problem with it.
Like you don’t have to agree with how I characterize Anya and her actions but it’s more like, why are you focused on only one aspect of her character? Why are you removing nuance from the situation? I don’t see it as giving Curly the benefit of the doubt when it comes to doing better for Anya, but as exploring his character and hers relationship with a the very little authentic facts we get about them. In truth, there’s a lot more I wish Curly did, even if it wasn’t pragmatic but I realize the issue there.
The first psychological horror game in a while that’s real intricate in its storytelling and makes you need to really need to address the morality of intentions and its already getting torn asunder smh 😔
#I don’t know if it’s the case of people who hate curly and think he should’ve just killed Jimmy won’t accept anything else#but I really am trying to get the idea that they were stuck for over a year in space together on a ship barely kept together with wildly#different and conflicting personalities who also got more hostile because they know they are going home to unemployment#it sounds heartless to say and he should have prioritized her more but in his head that’s not the only thing he has to manage and he has to#fit the necessary actions to take in his head with all that including his perception of them as a friend vs as a boss#idk I just don’t believe Curly was comforting Jimmy with the intent of helping him get rid of Anya. he wanted to help both of them he went#about it horribly like the game is literally about realizing how misguided you can be and that responsibility#and how to be responsible look different even if there are better options like it’s just weird just block my ass dawg#also I think the argument of how could the situation be worse if he stopped Jimmy is stupid cause it’s under the guise that Curly would#assume someone he trusted would just try and commit murder suicide or he’d get degloved and all his crew directly#or indirectly killed by that friend like sorry if that’s a reach statement like adding#your supplementary thoughts is how analysis is born but adding facts about events we don’t know happened and treating them like character#truths is lame is a cop out from actually engaging with parts of the story that adds grey areas to characters you wants to see in black#this is just a stupid like thing to me but it makes me sad cause I don’t even hate seeing depictions of Curly as more aware and#accommodating to Jimmy purposely but I need you to understand he thought he was doing the right thing for both his friends and his closest#friend but the key point is he thought he was doing right for both of them like what game were we both watching???#mouthwashing#like just block me pls like Anya would not share ur mindset or hold ur hand like do more than just pity her if you like her so much
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