#this game makes me ill sometimes
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#putting this in the tags since its potentially triggering#but siffrin hits so closely to my experiences with self harm that it geniunely hurts sometimes#its the paradox of so desperately needing someone to notice that that youre not okay. to acknowledge your suffering#but being utterly horrified of the idea of anyone seeing such a raw and painful part of yourself.#oughhhjhhhhhhhhh this game.#this game makes me ill sometimes#isat liveblog#isat#isat spoilers#tw self harm#tw self harm mention
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#sorry need to have this on the blog i have been fighting for my life trying to make the rook characterisation make sense#especially since tyche is an established oc for me and has a personality thats quite different from what we get w rook sometimes#but this chain shit is crazy. the chuckle is crazy. eyes flitting to the hand and back up again CRAZY#like ok ill take that. i can see this for her#people on reddit mad about how apparently his romance is a nothingburger whatever my city now i can do whatever i want#whatever bullshit yearning i wanted i can create myself. ESPECIALLY with the fact that lucanis doesn't react or flirt overtly#for like 1/2 of the game. like genuinely perfect.I CAN WORK WITH THIS#veilguard spoilers#dav spoilers#tyche laidir#lucanis dellamorte#dav#like i dont even like the dialogue in this scene but i gotta take what i can get man
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I've beaten Frontiers twice and it's still not enough
#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#koco#sonic frontiers#sth#toma draws#that's saying a lot bc i don't usually replay a whole game so soon. im SO obsessed with this game im rotating it on my mind at all times#i love playing it i love its story+characterization i love its music i love its voice acting i love the foundation it lays for future games#i love the positive reception it's been getting i LOVE what it means for this franchise that means the world to me#thank you sonic team for this fun wonderful delightful experience 😭💖💖 this is THE goty in my heart#here's hoping it wins player's voice!!!!#anyway HI long time no post!! I haven't been drawing a whole lot the past few months between being busy and out of art juice#but it seems to be returning now that frontiers has been marinating in my brain so we'll see 👁#i Did make a couple traditional oc stuff in the meantime tho. ill try to remember to post those sometime#also i'm glad i can still draw sonic it's been So long
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#i feel like I posted this already but I also can't find it in any recent posts so...#......he#cats#EVEN if I did post it.. why not poast himb again? it's he#I'm like halfway through actually editing aforementioned costumes and stuff and i WANT to work on sculptures again and I have video#s and that worldbuilding slideshow and all of these things so hopefully like.. more usual stuff soon maybe.. to be posted#for now though yeah.. just cats#The end of the year is also when I panic about the passage of time and how little I've gotten done and how I will never actually be a#sucessful game maker slash author slash cat cafe owner slash set designer slash costume designer slash psychologist#who lives in like Scotland or somehting and also owns my own candle company or something ghbjhb#and will probably just be a mentally ill hermit recluse all my life who dies early of mysterious health issues with 5000 projects left#undone and blah blah the crushing weight of chronic illness and capitalism and so on and so forth#So then I scramble to get projects done to try and meet some goals but usually that means I scatter between projects#so it takes longer to finish all of them. Like instead of dedicating 8 hours to one thing and finishing it one sitting. I'll do 2 hours on#this then 2 hours on that then 2 hours on another things. so they all get done slower even though I'm still technically making progress on#them all. This is also a very poo poo pee pee stink brain way to work and is not like. the most efficent thing but it's just how my brain#organizes tasks sometimes lol#***#(<ignore this its part of an OCD compulsion lol. anytime you see me type three asterisks I'm not bleeping out a curse word#it's just a Special Secret Foolish Thing I Have To Do At Specific Uncontrolable Times When Brain Says So gbjhhj)#ANYWAY... eeeee#Still haven't resolved my mystery chest injury though so being at te computer for too long is also kind of achey-inducing#Better get over it though because I have like 30+ hours of slideshow vidoe to edit hahaha hee hee hoo!!!!!
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im making one of my own actually
reblog this post and put the last fictional character in your camera roll
how fucked are you
#reblog game#ill be putting mine in the reblogs also because what always annoyed me about all the others is that sometimes it’s like a hazbin character#and i can’t get rid of that#im making the change i want to see in the world
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my beige flag is taking immense pleasure in shocking people with my disability
#aka the reveal of my disability#not the severity thats incomprehensible to most#but theres always this moment where they panic trying to figure out what to do in this situation#and im cackling#im usually game to answer a few polite questions#so i feel like that makes us even#sometimes the urge strikes me in the wrong situations tho#the salesperson was politely asking if i did the same competitive sport my siblings do#and i had to stop myself from saying 'well the disability makes that kinda hard'#i love when i get to knock on my knees to demonstrate#because at work my orthotics are rarely visible#so to the other person theres just this inexplicable clang sound#gotta take your wins when you can get em#my boss has started joining in which has ofc compounded the problem#we were joking about putting a disability parking placard in a barbie jeep#and someone who was in the car with us for that conversation#later they were like 'WAIT YOURE DISABLED?'#WHAT DID YOU THINK I WAS JOKING ABOUT#disability#salt baby talks#ehlers danlos syndrome#chronic illness#postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome#mcas
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Do yall think that like Danny would read the fanfiction people write about him?
Cause I think he would avoid it at first but you know the saying curiosity killed the cat (or bragging killed the fenton. Hey they both get brought back)
Anyway so maybe hes just online, probably tumblr or twitter, and someone is posting a summary and a link. Oh that sounds neat sure lets check it out. Maybe he lets it go to his head in classic teenager style. Sam and Tucker think it’s weird but tbh Danny needs the win.
That or hes completely disgusted by it. He is a real person not some character to be fantasised about. Sam and Tucker tease him about it but totally agree that it’s super weird and gross. I mean people aren’t actively hurting anyone but Danny doesn’t go anywhere near the internet anymore, unless it’s to game and shitpost on twitter. Tucker probably made a huge program to help so none of them have to see the ship art. Again they arent bashing anyone but hes a kid and doesn’t wanna be traumatised anymore thanks.
Idk wtf in goingnon anouy buy it’s 735am and I am so tired but I need to be up a few more hours… wait does this oart go in th tags? Wheres am I
#danny phantom#danny fenton#sam manson#tucker foley#uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh tagtagyagtagtagtag#blah blah blah blah im watching My Little Pony videos blah blah blah#if anyone wants to play phasmophobia with me sometime hit me up but im a big baby and can’t play right#uhhh right I gotta talk about the post cause apparently some of yall are checking these tags for content so ill put some#…#I don’t think danny watches anime because he isnt jock or that kinda nerd. hes science nerd ya know#he likes the cool kids and want to be like them sometime so maybe he mocks anime in an attempt to look cool#I bet he hates suoerhero movies because it’s not anything like that. he doesn’t have his hapoy ending yet so he doesn’t believe in it#I should make a post about that one#would he play league of legends though? probably not because the matches take so long on the reg. even an aram can take 30 minutes#and u can get banned for afk (see ghost attacks) so if he tried to get into it his account wouldnt last long#he can’t like spooky games because he gets to like ‘’no it’s not like that?’’ he probably gets tilted by how poorly his other half is shown#im so dehydrated my phone is bruising my hand because it’s so heavy lol#ok I think thats enough tags
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POST MORE SWORD OF FATE PLS IM BEGGING
i have very little in terms of actual art LMAO but i CAN explain the sword thing because i checked and i did in fact never make this plot point public. i struggled for a while with creating a villain for this story until i realized that. i put "sword" in the title of the game. of course it has to be about the fucking sword. DUH.
so i want SOF to deal very heavily with religion, specifically the way in which hyrule's religion forms post-sksw but pre-reincarnation. i've placed it on the timeline directly after sksw, making it the first actual reincarnation in hyrule. what this means is that there's no actual proof yet that the reincarnation thing is real and not just an insane bluff on demise's part, and so several key characters including link and zelda barely believe in hylia or demise at all when the story starts. my thought with this setting's version of ganon is that he's the polar opposite of the nonbelievers. The gerudo don't really exist as of now, but he DOES come from the desert region of hyrule--specifically, he was raised in a cultlike offshoot of the sheikah religion which interpreted the hylia/demise myth completely literally and believes that a doomsday is coming, heralded by the foretold return of demise. Because of this, he knows more about the cycle and how to set it in motion than basically any other character. Crucially, he and his people are some of the only ones at this point aware of the existence of the master sword.
ganon finds. a sword. a sword which he THINKS is the master sword. and this theory is only reinforced when the sword begins to speak to him about his destiny and the salvation of hyrule. unfortunately it is not the master sword and he ends up basically a pawn in the greater plans of what's left of demise & ghirahim within that sword, manipulated into attempting to revive demise and destroy the reincarnated hero and princess. he remains in denial until basically the very end of the final battle, completely convinced that he is the true savior of hyrule and LINK is the one being misled. ghirahim is a very good manipulator lol
#i know that the sword like dies with demise in sksw or whatever but this is my game and i can do whatever i want so ive decided it survives#because i need a plot device. ok. work with me here#asks#loz: sword of fate#anyway the religion thing is something that i really wanted to explore bc it fascinates me. bc obv in later cycles everyone believes#because they KNOW its true and have like. historical evidence of it. but what about the first few times it happened? post-sksw they had no#way of knowing if demise would make good on his promise or not. i can see belief vs nonbelief being a very strong dividing factor among#early hylians. its fascinating to me. lol#anyways zelda specifically fully believes that the hylia shit was made up by her great great grandparents or whatever as a power grab lmao#link is kinda like whatever. sure the goddess exists i guess ill pray to her sometimes but like did she actually found hyrule? probably not#and ganon and his people are HARDCORE believers. like to-the-letter. because of this they have one of the most historically accurate#accounts of hyrule's founding (which no one BELIEVES is accurate at this point. but it is) and have managed to hold onto records of both#the master sword and demise when society at large has basically either forgotten or decided to ignore them#wow. i forgot how fun sof is to write about. holy shit
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i genuinely cannot stand being around ppl who have to take their anger out on others . i'm so sick of always having to act like the bigger person to my Older brother while he can just tornado around my entire life & belongings & relationships without warrant all over smthing that had absolutely nothing to do with you or anyone, rlly.
#but HE runs and tells on ME?#i was just going to let shit blow over#lock myself away as fucking alwys like when we were little and he would cuss up a fucking storm#screaming crying and throwing the shit i bought over being unable to beat a game he plays every fucking day#set on fucking Easy mode#and hes hitting a bat into the door or wrecking my shit in my room or fucking. yelling abt me to the fuckin dog#and in the 'dog's voice' making the animal agree with him bcs im? acting crazy#over a fcking video game that u cant even tell him to turn off or at least stop fucking screaming and wailing or else it'll just set it off#sooner#when dad did it he was fcking drunk and i was illegitimate#it's like i cant even fcking escape fcking hell.#hiding all my bad grades in math bcs i couldnt read a stupid fking number right bcs i didnt want ppl screaming at me#for causing even more trouble than they already have to deal with and just living as dumb bcs it costs less#ill get over it ill try harder#i always have to be the bigger fucking man and im so fucking tired of it#but how are u supposed to cut off someone youve been assigned caretaker as b4 u were even born#im so fucking exhausted#anyways so yea. im pretty sensitive to tone so if i seem like a baby to smthing i apologize#i rlly just. cant stand sme things sometimes#i love getting told i never felt like a friend to my other siblings not only bcs of our massive age gap but also theyre legitimate and#i dont drink or smoke so apparently we cant hang without them always checking the time on their phones#while im taking them out to smthing they like like it's so fun i fcking love it here#anyways yea. love zero comprehension or compassion. love it. loving my life
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i hate having executive dysfunction and decision paralysis cus i have shit i need to get done today but im staring at the list of things to do and going "idk where to start :( guess ill just Sit Here until i magically decide" and internally in like "NO YOU HAVE TO PICK SOMETHING. YOU WILL WASTE THE WHOLE DAY" but externally im just chilling.
#send help#im trying to do things Efficiently but that's gonna result in me not doing things#so really i just need to suck it up and START somewhere#one of the problems being that i need to go to my sisters house for one of them and ik ill probably get Stuck there#which would make me want to go LAST but then it's also line i can't go TOO late bc i need to come home at a reasonable time#since i have work in the morning#but THEN it's like ok but i need to message them and ask#and i have to go to my OTHER sisters house too but im gonna want a SHOWER after that which means coming straight home and i just. hhhhhhhhh#and i also gave to come straight home after the store bc im getting cold shit so it has to go straight to the fridge/freezer#and just AAAAA in general.#i think..... i may message sister 2 and say 'ik i said i would this weekend but im gonna do it tomorrow after wprl instead'#cus that will at least get rid pf One Task#PLUS i can just go straight there after work and then simply do my work shower and my after shower at the same time#yeah... okay that helps.........#then i can start by going to the cafe to get coffee/see if they have wifi back yet.......... do those tasks if they do#and if not then come back up here to use the Parking Lot Wifi for a bit............#store and then home......#and THEN i can go to sister 1s house to get my Thing#and maybe play games idk ill ask before i leave#OKAY. OKAY WE'VE GOT A PLAN NOW.#SOMETIMES TUMBLR DOES HELP.#shh ac
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#and i SADDLE UP MY PONYTA AND I RIDE INTO THE SIT-TAY#I MAKE A LODDA NOISE CUZ THE GURLS THEY R SO PRETAY#RIDIN' UP N DOWN BROADWAY ON MY OLD STUD LEROY AND THE GIRLS SAY:#SAVE A RAPIDASH RIDE A MEOWBOY!!!#JOHN WAYNE AINT GOT NUTHIN ON MY FRINGE GAME HELL NO!!!!#well stranger don't ya know i'd like to be yer friend... IF I HAD THE TIME TO STAAAAAAY.#BUT I'M A BRAMBLIN A BLOWIN IN THE WIND. I'VE GOT TO CATCH ANOTHER STAAAAAAAAGE.#I STRAP ON MY GUITAR JUST LIKE A FORTY FIVE. I PRAY EACH NIGHT MY AIM IS TRUUUUEEEE#and ACQUAINTANCES TURN TO FRIENDS I HOPE THOSE FRIENDS THEY REMEMBER ME#HOLD THE NIGHT FOR RANSOM AS WE KIDNAP THE MEMORIES#NOT SURE THERES A WAY TO EXPRESS WHAT U MEANT TO ME#SOMETIMES I GET TO THINKIN BOUT SETTLIN' DOWN. FADE OFF INTO A MEMORY.#BUT EVERY NIGHT THAT I STEP OUT TO FACE THE CROWD?#I KNOW THIS IS THE LIFE FOR MEEEEEEE#pokemon#meowth#ok context. to whomever it may concern. which is no one but idc i have a lot to say and no one to say it to#first off heres my like bi-annual post bc i 1. only draw f*rdekyl* and fucking detest f*re *emblem fans with a burning passion#so i hate sharing my 'art' . so heres a rare non-fk thing. bc i also hate social media as a whole it makes me sue of side all#but like 2. i have deliberately avoided scar/vio bc its a BAD GAME. and its not made well. also i know 'open world' formats#trigger my ocd. which it did exactly. but thats mostly irrelevant. but in anycase. i bit the bullet bc i was in a pkmn mood#esp after my long beloved n*te and dook*ie gave me a hankering for a pkmn game again#and my lil bro accidentally bought 2 copies years ago so i was like fck it ill give it a shot its Free#and yes the game is dogshit. however. everytime i see a meowth in the wild i lose my mind.#his jaunty little yee-haw walk kills me every time. i adore him. thus this was inspired.#alright imma head out i fucking hate this website as well as every other social media . maybe ill draw something non-fk in like a year#see ya in like a year maybe if i live that long. which i wouldnt count on bc tbh this year has been BAD in terms of my pain. im on the#EXTREME decline and can BARELY draw anymore. i want to die. i got nothin left. it just keeps getting worse so adios!#:(
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more of a reminder to myself but i think it works for others too
its okay to have a crush on characters and create content for the selfship once and not do it again. sometimes its just that little burst of motivation of "if i cant immortalize an imagery of me kissing them then whats the point" they don't have to be your fo immediately its okay to just. create something out of it to let out that lil excitement and they're just a crush
others might expect that you'll be creating more content with them since you might've made a really well thought out concept for your insert/oc but its not the case and thats okay
#this is me with a lot of my pokemon crushes and i dont really bother to say it aloud because its. really minor but sometimes they just swoop#in my head momentarily and im like ohhh i gotta. make something.#me with morty AJAJSJHEJS no but i have a lot of really cute ideas in my head lollll#bil.ly kid works too - but also because the game isnt officially out yet for me to get a grip of the concept#like im also beginning to remember and realize i had MORE genshin crushes than i thought i had but its not worth mentioning because.#ill probably not talk about it again LMAO#thooo if anyone i think morty is gonna be crush im willing to draw a lot for#~ rambling#i think i got off track but yeah
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good morning friendz and happy wednesday !! i hope that the sunshine kisses your pretty faces and that the day treats you with the upmost kindness !! (ㅅ´ ˘ `) 🤍
#^ this is me slow blinking at you all btw#doing a quick lil yap this morning !!! bc !!#aaaaah i am :( mushy :( !#today i promise to get to everyone who said such sweet things to me yesterday#i had been feeling a little down about my place here and it was such a wonderful reminder that yes :( i am loved by those around me :( !!!#sometimes brains love to lie to us and tell us something different so when those little games go around & i see everyone saying kind things#to each other .. it makes me feel so warm & happy#all of you deserve the love and gentleness you give out !! tenfold !!!!!!!#okay i must lock into work for awhile this morning but ill be back later to be mushy !!! ^_^#₊˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims#ヾ( ˃ᴗ˂ )◞ — ✩ daily yap.
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Make a poll of your favorite female characters (no limits – as many or as little as you want) and see which your followers like the most
Tagged by @loregoddess, thanks!!! <3
I'll tag @tinygigas, @kelbunny, @three3two22, and @cullensart (only if it sounds fun!!). And as always, open tag for anyone else who wants to :)
#polls#tag games#tried to do some of my less-mentioned favs#despite not talking about these ones a ton I love them all a lot!#like I'd say all of these characters are SOLIDLY in the 'I look at them and immediately feel ill (affectionate)' range#and also speaking of ozma!! I have a ton of tactics ogre screenshots I need to post sometime#I loved loved loved her in lawful route it was insane. she makes me insane
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No other game has made me feel the way Until Dawn did the first time I saw it
#maybe it's cause it was my first real experience with horror#i don't know but sometimes ill see something about it and ill feel that way again#i love this game so much#i love the other games with all my heart but#until dawn was my first one and it's just so special#the others dont really have the same like. grittiness as ud. idk how to describe it#but like the darkness and dread and dirtiness and the vibe of the sanitarium and the way the threat is so personal#it's so disturbing in like a unique way to me#nothing will ever make me feel the way i did that first time i watched my sister play until dawn#supermassive games#until dawn
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. do you remember. how fucked up it was.
#angel.txt#the beginner's guide#and then the audience at large continues to draw coda with the lamp head. (am not immune to this. sometimes.)#FUCKED. UP!! this game makes me ILL.
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