#this came so clearly to me in my head

[xhatake]

❛  i’m  tired  .  i’m  so  tired  . ❜ - zabuza || @sinseater

They were familiar with each other's reputations but not the man behind them. The two were both friend killers in their own rite. Bloody hands were a heavy burden, regardless of what anyone claimed. They came with a heavy shadow, a contorted perception of reality apt to twisting itself to align with dark idealism. There were no heroes in their world, only weapons... regardless of what either of them claimed.

The words fall heavily from the other's lips, a testament to the life they lived. It was a relentlessly bloody path with little room for shared drinks in smoky bars... but tonight was a rare exception. When the two of them had crossed paths, it was by accident. The tension in the air was tangible as they tried to figure out who would throw the first blow. To their shared surprise, it was neither of them. Perhaps it was foolish, but Kakashi had offered to buy him a drink. They could trade sentiments over a tense truce & ( just maybe ) work to understand one another.

" Why do we do it, then? " Kakashi asks the question rather than deny the sentiment. He knew the weight of the world just as Zabuza, heavy as the corpses that lay in their wake... Whether or not he could outright say it.

A heavy gaze lingers on the drink in his free hand. His answer was always the same. There were people to live for, to die for. The shinobi of Konoha would always line his path. It was exhausting as it was comforting. But what kept Zabuza trapped? What drove him to keep throwing himself into battle, feeding the cycle they had helped forge. It was an enviable concept; to leave your village behind & move on from the burdens of a shinobi... But Zabuza had neglected to do the latter, " What keeps you trapped in this life? "

[teeth-draws]

Chase suffers in love but the other Norms still let him come to their little photoshoot @shepherds-of-haven

[zara-renata]

i have thoughts about your most recent fic and tumblr’s comment character limit has brought me to your ask box again 🙈

omgggg it’s so good to know sylus’s POV during that wine night!! and i don’t know why and how, but sylus’s thoughts about mc here, esp how he feels about her selfless tendencies (to her detriment), makes me feel vulnerable and seen. when i read reader-insert fics, i tend to imagine a separate character for mc even though it’s technically supposed to be me in my head. perhaps the character i made up resembles me (but better lmao), but different enough that she’s like an individual on her own. but when i read this fic, it’s like sylus was talking about me, as in the real me, which made me emotional. it could be that the way mc handles herself poorly in here resonates with me due to some irl stuff, but honestly it’s primarily how good you write about a character’s emotions and thoughts. it’s like the words reached across my screen and tugged at my heart. you’re such a great writer when it comes to expressing a character’s innermost thoughts. it’s like i’ve been placed inside a character’s mind to bare witness their raw self.

again, i love how your sylus x mc dynamics, at least for this series, revolve around an mc oblivious to how much sylus cares about her. it seems she doesn’t even believe she’s deserving of such affection, nor is she fitting to be the object of such primal desires. in a way, she’s kind of self-sabotaging in the sense that she thinks she doesn’t deserve kindness, help, and affection. she’s genuinely fine with taking the brunt of the pain and suffering – and not even in the hero, martyr kind of way. it seems it’s how she’s always been, such behavioral tendencies of hers seem to be as normal as the sky is blue, which is sad and concerning because she deserves so much. i’m honestly excited to see sylus try to knock down her hardened walls and have her realize how deserving she is of so many things. i hope she realizes she can relax, rest, take it easy, and feel safe. especially with him.

i actually laughed out loud about how unhinged sylus can be about his sexual desires for her. like the man is blue-balled to heck, but he isn’t the kind to succumb to his base urges. he really respects and loves mc. i think i would even say he reveres her, given the fan theories around their past. it’s like his urges are just something that come with his intense adoration and care for mc, which is so so admirable and attractive.

maybe i’m just a tad sensitive today, but i completely zeroed in on the emotional aspects of this fic – quite a difference as to how i salivated over your previous fic in your ask box LMAO. coincidence is such a funny thing because i feel like i really needed to read this fic today. i feel much better and more ready to face the day. this has been such a good read, and i humbly offer my apologies for yapping at your ask box yet again 🧎‍♀️🫣

First off, you never have to apologize for sending me your thoughts. I'm so happy every time I receive an ask, it's always an unexpected surprise. And your asks are always really thoughtful and fun to read! I wasn't just patronizing you when I said last time that it was really fun to receive such a spicy ask about the NSFW aspects of Sylus's character and dynamic with mc in these stories. A huge part of his appeal is his physicality and how he shows his affection through actions. Hot, hot, actions.

To be honest, this message from you is really reassuring, because I've noticed that a lot of the fanfic that gets a lot of traction in (any) fandom is of the NSFW variety (which, duh, I totally understand and appreciate and consume happily), and I worry that because I'm not currently focusing purely on that aspect of Sylus that people will be less interested in reading what I'm sharing, especially the installments that are so mc POV heavy. So to hear that you also like being in this mc's head, and can relate to this mc, that how I have Sylus respond to this mc's issues and hangups and trauma brings you comfort, is amazing for me as a wannabe writer. Although I also want to give you a hug (with your consent of course) if you can really relate to this mc because no one should ever have to feel what you so accurately point out about what this mc feels: that whatever pain you're experiencing is normal, and expected, and you can hardly imagine that someone would be so dedicated to helping relieve it for and with you. Because everyone deserves to feel cherished and demand more than the bare minimum from the world and the people in their life. I'm hoping that I can keep writing this story as an exploration of Sylus teaching mc that, and that you continue to derive comfort from it. Because in the end, fanfic can serve many purposes. And just like it can be a vehicle for exploring incredibly dark and disturbing and cathartic themes using our favorite characters, I think it can also be the ultimate comfort food, and sometimes you should just be able to feel fucking good reading it. I'm so happy to hear that this part did that for you. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts.

[lover-of-mine]

tease tidbit tuesday!

I was tagged by @wikiangela thank you <3333

it's been tuesday for me for, like, 10 minutes, and *hiding from my wips* i started a new fic and i don't know where exactly this is going but I'm in too deep to back out now (this will either be out this week or it will never leave the dropbox lol) so have this with no other information.

Eddie says, still trying not to cry, blinking up at Buck as he takes a step backward as if his words had physically hit him.  The words definitely feel punched out of Eddie. It hurts him to say it and he knows how much it hurts Buck to hear it.  Maybe more than anything else Eddie has ever said. Because this isn’t some heat-of-the-moment thing where they’re trying to hurt each other. It’s not something screamed out out of anger that both of them know they didn’t mean it.  He’s telling the truth, one that hurts him to admit, and he can tell by the look on Buck’s face that he knows.  Can tell because everything about Buck seems to crumble once the words register. His shoulders drop, his fists uncurl, his eyes water, his lips start to tremble.  Eddie also knows he’s not much better. His eyes are stinging, and the knot in his throat hurts, and he kind of wants to crumble to the ground right there.

No pressure tagging 🩷: @eddiebabygirldiaz @bucks118 @try-set-me-on-fire @honestlyeddie @steadfastsaturnsrings @watchyourbuck @housewifebuck @daffi-990 @wildlife4life @giddyupbuck

[crystalkitty1220]

Man I wonder where the leader of the fear realm could've gone, it's alMOST LIKE NEVIN HAS AN

[averlym]

"what could possibly go wrong?"

[regular-lord-reckoner]

i’m home !!

procedure went real well, everything was really smooth and almost as soon as they said, “you can count backwards if you want,” i don’t think i even said ten before i was suddenly in recovery and sipping some ginger ale.

honestly the worst part was the iv because they had to do it on the side of my wrist because apparently my veins are crooked ?? i just hate ivs anyway so that’s no surprise but other than that no complaints.

everyone was real nice and made sure i was well taken care of (my nurse even had me pee one more time before so she wouldn’t have to do a catheter which with my history…..thank you)

but yeah, i’ll have a follow up in about a month just to make sure everything’s good and the iud is doing its thing !!

i do have some cramping and bleeding but that’s normal, although a little funny because i literally just stopped my period yesterday but…oh well !! hopefully in a few months i won’t have hardly any so this we can handle and i hace some medicine (and my ~medicine) that’ll help so i’m all set.

mom had to go run some errands so my little recovery buddy is keeping me company. also, a moment of recognition for my new favorite shirt (thank you as always, Boss Dog Art; i’ve already got my eye on another one that says, “i think therefore i am against transphobia around the world” or something like that and it’s got a cool skeleton on it; this is my third shirt from them and they’re really comfy and good quality so not sponsored but check them out, they seem cool):

[wonder-worker]

Any judgement on (Richard III)’s reign has to be seen as provisional. The critic of the reign only has to consider how the Tudors would now be regarded if Henry VII lost at Stoke, to realize the dangers of too many assumptions about the intractability of Richard’s problems. But it would be equally unrealistic to ignore Richard’s unpopularity altogether. The fact that he generated opposition among men with little material reason for dissent, and that the disaffection then continued to spread among his own associates, says something about what contemporaries regarded as the acceptable parameters of political behaviour. There is no doubt that Richard’s deposition of his nephews was profoundly shocking. To anyone who did not accept the pre-contract story, which was probably the majority of observers, the usurpation was an act of disloyalty. Gloucester, both as uncle and protector, was bound to uphold his nephew’s interests and his failure to do so was dishonourable. Of all medieval depositions, it was the only one which, with whatever justification, could most easily be seen as an act of naked self-aggrandizement.

It was also the first pre-emptive deposition in English history. This raised enormous problems. Deposition was always a last resort, even when it could be justified by the manifest failings of a corrupt or ineffective regime. How could one sanction its use as a first resort, to remove a king who had not only not done [nothing] wrong but had not yet done anything at all?

-Rosemary Horrox, Richard III: A Study of Service

[decisions-at-3am]

Too quickly would I have slept, If we were shadowy figures. Not people, no risk of perception. No thoughts clouding my mind, Just your arms holding me tight.

[exopelagic]

okay I severely misjudged spaghetti guy he’s actually just really cool

[msmargaretmurry]

I am not a football girlie so I don’t know how long messi going to inter miami has been brewing, but it’s so funny to think about leon’s presence there being completely overshadowed by messi like you can turn the world upside down but you can’t escape fate (playing second fiddle)!!! but not to matthew! like maybe when they meet all the pr people are shoving matthew and messi together like FLORIDA SPORTS! GIVE US OUR SOCIAL MEDIA ENGAGEMENT! and then matthew goes on to only post him shaking hands with leon and leon is like What Does It All Mean

i am also not a football girlie so i also have no idea how long it's been brewing, but i have learned in the past few hours that it was brewing long enough for people to, like, preemptively grab inter miami tickets before the prices inevitably shot up. and good for them!

but anyway: i am dying at the second-fiddle fate of it all. in real life he has connor, in this footballer au he has lionel fucking messi. somehow i can't see him becoming besties with messi the same way he's besties with connor 😂😂😂

the thing is, matthew is such a media-savvy good boy that he would give the correct sound bites about how cool it was to meet messi and post his little insta post about it, but then he would also follow the inter miami account and share the picture of him shaking hands with leon and add as a little caption "this was right before @drat_29 chirped me for my skating ability" but not actually follow leon's personal account (yet) (he'll follow back when leon follows him, which will only be a few days later, because leon is too curious for his own good, at which point matthew will start dutifully liking posts but hold off on starting to leave flirty comments until they actually meet in person again)

[kariachi]

One of the things that gets me about the 'Vilgax possessed Kevin to build the Antitrix' theory (and it is a theory at best, the closest thing we have to evidence is his claiming Kevin was a 'vessel' with which to build it, but that can just as easily be read as 'I tossed the blueprints at you so you'd build it and it'd be ready when I got back', and the latter would make a lot more sense given if he'd possessed Kevin to get it done then why fucking let him keep a hold of it? why not hide it somewhere and then kill the kid? not like he's got some moral stance against it, and it would mean less hassle getting it back) is that this isn't something we see Vilgax do. Ever. We've seen weird shit with Vilgax and dreams in OS (and given Duncan Rouleou has stated that shit was due to being bound by fragments of Vilgax's DNA in the Omnitrix if we can already assume either that shit was expanded on or that even pre-watch there was Something going on with Kevin), but at no point are we ever given any indication that he can fucking possess people (which you'd think would have been utilized at some point before).

Like, the 'Vilgax either purposefully provided Kevin with the blueprints through a dream either so that it could be premade when he returned or accidentally provided the blueprints while for some reason fucking around in fuckers' heads and was saved face when somebody actually managed to build it by claiming it was on purpose' theory requires us to believe that Vilgax utilized a power other versions of him have already been shown to have to, on purpose or not, provide the blueprints he had already for the Antitrix to Kevin- who we see in the sequel series is a skilled mechanic and engineer and are shown during the reboot was already doing engineering as a child and regularly continued working on, fixing, and improving the Antitrix over the course of the show- who then built it.

Meanwhile the 'Vilgax possessed Kevin and built the Antitrix himself' theory requires us to believe that Vilgax pulled out a new power, off-screen, and used it the one time to not only possess an actual child with all the material access limitations that comes with but also for some reason leaves the resulting watch with the child, opening himself up to things like the risk of him breaking it and giving himself an added hassle as far as getting his hands on the damn thing when he did get back, rather than just hiding the watch somewhere safe and offing the witness.

So yeah, I'm going with the former.

[apathyfairy]

i truly dont know why everyone is always comparing olivia rodrigo to avril lavigne bc the thing is that olivia rodrigo tries to replicate early 2000s girl pop punk but she still makes music that very much sounds like it was made for tiktok in 2023

[sometimes-stufful]

Hey guys. It's been um *checks watch* like 5 or 6 years since I've used this blog. How's everybody doing? Sorry for the unannounced hiatus all that time ago.

I don't know if this blog will become active again. However there is a good chance that it might! I'm starting to create a plot for the blog's characters (because I still love them dearly), so hopefully I can create that and get this show up and running again. I've also been updating everyone's refs. So even if I don't come back to posting here officially, I think I'm going to at least upload those. I also have some new characters in the works that I may post refs for if I don't go thru with returning/making this blog more plot-centric.

I really do want to return to sometimes-stufful. However I'm an adult now (I'm literally about to turn 25 in 10 days, holy shit), and the past few years have been rough as hell on my mental health. I've lost a lot, and am just starting to heal from everything that's gone down. And I work full time, and have a datemate now, so finding the chance to draw is difficult. But this blog helped me on my art journey before. And I'd love to use it as an excuse to draw more, which is the main thing that pulling me back into the pokemon ask community. Another thing that's been pulling me back is the strong af urge to create content for my characters. Because I still love them so very much. I think about them so often that I want to put them in Situations and share it all with you. Although first I wanna get better at drawing humans lol (its relevant I swear). But I could get back into the swing of drawing some 'mons if I really set myself out to.

Let's see how it all goes. I'll keep you all updated. For those of you who have stuck around waiting so long, thank you. I hope to join you in this community again soon.

In the meantime, here's where you can find me and my artwork:

Main blog Toyhouse Artfight

[aretrothing]

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[glitchdollmemoria]

yknow the cool thing about having a ptsd induced bad dream is it gives me more motivation to go watch cozy movies and eat comfort food til i feel better