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glitchdollmemoria · 2 years ago

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yknow the cool thing about having a ptsd induced bad dream is it gives me more motivation to go watch cozy movies and eat comfort food til i feel better

#after spending an hour in bed scrolling through tumblr waiting for my muscles to power on ofc #anyway little vent abt that ahead #no one has to read this ofc its really mostly just me working through it and processing it yknow #had a dream i was still involved with a couple people who are now gone from my life hopefully forever #also still dating my gf though? but he wasnt there :(#and we were in a uhaul or smth and were driving around and i felt very Uneasy #and like. i was actively in a flare up in that dream so the brain fog was making it harder to think clearly #so i felt very dumb the whole time #and so we drove through this like... pathway? with tall dark plants on either side #some kind of overgrown decorative shrubbery #and we were just chatting and i was trying to pretend i didnt feel uneasy #and then we came to this plant archway but the way was blocked by a bush about waist high #which. i have some particular feelings about that imagery. but idk if i wanna say it cus maybe im just being schizo #anyway we got out of the truck and left it there to go to the little restaurant cafe place we could see on the other side #and once we were inside we realized it was very clearly run by and for the jewish community which made me feel a bit better #so we sat at one table for a while i guess just to wait? then moved upstairs to another table to actually eat #and one of the people i was with started arguing with me and insulting me while the other one just kinda let him #bc he was like mad that i didnt tell him when to say a certain thing in a prayer i guess even though it was written on a thing on the table #and even though i was brainfoggy as hell and didnt know to expect that and he couldve looked himself and it DID NOT MATTER...#so i threw a metal thing holding the piece of paper at his head.#it kinda just bounced off him but then i walked off and he followed me and started beating me up lol #i woke up right as he started throwing punches. i think people were about to step in though #the weird thing is i think at the beginning of the dream i was ONLY with my current gf #idk how to word it but like. these other two just kinda barged right into the dream #anyway that dream is def Up There among dreams that i feel might have some deeper meaning but also not the MOST Up There #might delete later also bc The Paranoia #anyway! claps! time to watch old pokemon movies and eat pancakes

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