#thinking about. ​weird gear stuff. yay

[lesbiangiratina]

Thinking about testament again. My bad

[immeasurablesaladagere]

sorry to ask for more headcanons but could I have some of little house and his little gear (esp pacifiers) :3 maybe featuring kitty :3

- @tummy-rubs-for-wilson-pup

Yay little gear headcanons! They're so much fun :)

Lots 👏 of 👏 toy 👏 cars 👏. Pesters Wilson to buy one for him every single time they go to a store, even if he’s big at the time. Snack runs to the grocery store will almost always contain a bonus Hot Wheels.

Does children’s math exercise booklets for fun like a little dork.

Kitty is his best friend that goes with him everywhere when he's regressed, including in public, no matter what age he is. A woman gave him a weird look in a coffee shop for it once and he tripped her with his cane on her way out.

He's got a lot of random toys that are small and cheap from those toy gumboil machine things and like dollar store bags of plastic farm animals.

He's got one of those shelves with the drawers and they're just full of stuff. Broken crayons, loose markers, toys from sets that are so scattered they basically aren't sets anymore, lego, coins, rocks, etc. etc. The only thing that's organized about it is the very top drawer where his paci box is.

The paci box is made of wood and engraved! Wilson got it for him from an antique store.

I think House would have three pacis. One for day-to-day use, the second to have if the first one breaks or is being washed, and the third was an impulse buy from a custom store.

His first one ever was plain white because he wasn't quite sure about other options and he only got one. He was very upset when he bit through it out of stress and then didn't have one anymore, god bless Wilson.

After that he got a pair, a black one and a white one.

It's kind of funny because he subconsciously picks one or the other depending on how he's feeling (negative and positive respectively) and it's a tipoff on how much of a trouble-maker he plans on being that day.

He typically uses the white one if he's feeling younger or tired.

The third custom one is black and has an epic flame pattern like his cane.

Wilson made Kitty a little suit to wear. It's a little shabby but House doesn't seem to care and hasn't mentioned it once.

He doesn't like bottles much. He's okay with sippy cups and had a lot of fun finding custom designs he liked. When he agreed to getting them Wilson was expecting something like this but instead he got this and this. He also likes adult water bottles with the straw in them.

Actively turns down open cups that are handed to him.

Has a soft space-blanket that he only pulls out when regressed.

Likes those teethers that you can freeze or the rubber ones because they're tough and he can bite into them hard when he's in pain or stressed out and not break them.

[oonajaeadira]

State of the WIP Address

Okay, y'all, I've been in a really weird place where I've been avoiding...pretty much a lot of stuff. Dunno if I have to talk to my doctor about upping my meds or what, but this is why I actually went on them--my depression manifests not in laziness, but avoiding things I need to do and things I actually WANT to do. Then I don't do them and it all starts building up. And then the to do pile feels insurmountable, like I'll never get to finish all these wonderful things. So I just...freeze up and roll over. Like a fainting goat. You'd think I'd be like "yay! lookit all the things to look forward to! I have years ahead of me full of things I really want to do! I should never be bored again!" But no. Can't do them Right Now? Fainting goat. It's weirdo. We've all got our weirdo and this is mine.

I only mention it here because I do State of the WIP Address to be accountable. Now, the weird thing is, I don't actually expect anyone to read these posts--they're boring and personal and totally for my own motivation. I just know myself and know if I put something out there, I'll feel bad if I don't do it and that should motivate me to actually do it.

But here's the thing....it doesn't work anymore. I'm no longer fulling for my own snake oil. The placebo has run out. If I know it's inconsequential, then my brain tricks me into thinking that I'm accountable to no one. And, in reality, it's true that I'm actually accountable to no one so the trick doesn't work.

Anyway. Welcome to Adira's brain where she finds her own thought patterns a fascinating psychological study and the lab results are inconclusive.

So I'mma try to twist the experiment a bit. Rather than list the things I know I can't get to right this second and feel bad about it, we're gonna let promises go and do it this way. It's not interesting to anyone but me and anyone who nerds out on process. But rather than listing the things I'm not working on, I'll talk about the ones I am, how it's going, what's in my craw about it, and maybe in my ramblings I'll clear the gears to start rolling again.

This isn't interesting to anyone but me unless you really wanna see how seriously I take my fic writing. Cringe if you want. I'm just being honest with myself. My fic isn't high art, but as with anything I create, I can't half-ass it either. It's "be satisfied with it on my terms" or bust.

STATE OF THE WIPS

I have one million projects happening, but these are the pieces I'm actively thinking about and working on at the moment.

SECRET SANTA Where it's at: I'm writing for someone I think is a wonderful person and want to do right by them, so the pressure's on. But at the same time, it's not. Because I know how accepting and lovely the person is and they gave me a lot of prompts and options and like a lot of the things I do and seem to like a lot of the types of things I like to write. I also know that this doesn't have to be over-complicated, that I can write my heart and it will please both of us. While I haven't actually opened up a doc to start, I know that it's the type of thing that if I have a little uninterrupted block of time, I can just sit down and it will flow. I won't say much about it here, but I will say that while it can 100% be read as standalone, it hits on a character/series I'm currently writing and acts as a kind of prequel, a reason for loving the reader as he does. It's something that is kind of missing in the planned series and I think this would be a nice opportunity to explore it before moving forward (and maybe helping propel that series a little) while also touching on one of the characters my giftee likes, a genre they are interested in that I hadn't considered with this character, and it will have a tone I think they'll appreciate. So while it's for them and being written with their likes in mind, I thank them, because it's also a little gift for me and my yearnings. What's stopping me: Time constraints and general anxiety.

TROPE FIC: MODERN DOM!PERO Where it's at: This one got a little sloppy and I'm working on it. I've been following @max--phillips' entries about what defines certain types of kinks and while my thoughts on dom!Pero started as true dom, they swung wrong when I started working on this, and now I'm just thinking myself back to the definition of dominant. And while I may still be missing the mark, it's helping me to think more about how I want to explore and frame this dynamic. It's also giving me a little trouble in that it's not coming out chronologically which causes me to waste time jumping around and retrofitting things. What's stopping me: I put this one on hold to start prioritizing the Secret Santa piece.

TROPE FIC: SEX POLLEN!OBERYN Where it's at: This piece is flowing chronologically. It's going to be longer than I anticipated and the first draft is about 1/3 done. I already know that after the first draft I'll have to do some shaping and I think maybe I got overwhelmed with the task I set for myself and that triggered my avoidance. I know where it's going, I'm excited for it, it will flow easily if I let it, I just have to do it! What's stopping me: I put this one on hold because I got distracted by tasty Pero thoughts. I blame @perotovar for the thots, but not the stopping. That's all on me.

TROPE FIC: ALPHA!JAVI Where it's at: I'm about 1/2 done with the first draft. Again, this one will be longer (and also more angsty) than I anticipated. I love love love where it's going though and reader and Javi's history is beautiful and sad and complex; I really love that half. I'm just now switching into the modern day section of it and have to make a few decisions about how I actually want it to go. My mind is over-complicating the story and I'm trying to wrestle it down a softer path. What's stopping me: I got distracted by the Oberyn story which is why this one's on hold and now this is all Inceptioning on itself.

GOOD. THINGS. TAKE. TIME. Where it's at: The asks are all sorted, there are only a few more sessions left before chapter 4. I just have to write it. What's stopping me: Here's the thing about PATS. If I was out for notes, I'd be pounding on this series, because it's my most popular one. But... really, I'm just here to dream up stories I like to tell. I put PATS down not consciously and not because I don't love him, but I got excited by other ideas. I want to finish it because I don't like having a bunch of unfinished projects lying around, but I also don't want that to be my #1 motivator for writing him. I want to enjoy it. I did enjoy putting the latest installment out, but I also don't feel like I'm letting anyone down if I don't hurry it, just because engagement is low. Again, I'm not here for the notes, I truly love the connection and the squeeing and sharing a yearn. We're all so busy now that it's tough to get to everything and the mutual timing is a bit off. That's okay. It's planned out, it'll get done, I just have to do it when I'm feeling it.

LEAVE OFF YOUR WANDERING: WINTER Where it's at: Finished plan. Yet to begin writing. What's stopping me: I was wrestling with this one for a bit because I had two directions it could go--soft and fluffy without much meat, or weaving all the details together and serving a story that gets rather dark, a little sad, and serves as a fix it. On one hand, I felt like I would be betraying readers by not keeping the euphoric escape. But I would also feel like I built this whole backstory that needed to manifest itself in a test for Joel and Meadowlark, as well as the fact that--other than backstories--there hasn't been any canon hardship or violence displayed. It's like I'm missing a huge chunk of who Joel and Meadowlark are. In the end, that's where the story wants to go, so I'm going there. And I have to not think about what anyone else wants, just me. Not just for selfish reasons, but I know that's when I do my best. It doesn't mean there won't still be fluff and a happy ending. It just means I have to write darkness and perhaps it will serve me better to do it in the season in which it takes place.

[666prophet]

Fallout S1:E7 - The Radio

This one is okay. It showed more of the Vault-Tec(pre-bombs) and The Ghoul. Did feel like Lucy and Maximus were just kinda there. Not really adding to or involved in what was going on. Its another flashback heavy one. Which is getting to the point where it feels like they are trying to make two shows at once.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Spoilers and Deep Dive ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Ok so how exactly does this guy have NCR Ranger gear? Let alone two sets. I also have to complain about the mismatching. He has what seems to be Desert Ranger armor but then Veteran Ranger helmets. Veteran Rangers are the elites of the NCR Rangers, its pretty uncommon stuff. So its we really want to drive home that The Ghoul is a cannibal. Also seems that the modus operandi of The Ghoul is to bait people into getting into a duel/fight. Ok so Miss Williams is very good orator. I would agree she isn't a communist. She is left leaning and against crony capitalism. Though given the general time period this is set in, it would make sense that Communism would be used to describe what she believes. But she really comes off as trying to get revenge mainly and doing the "right" thing is secondary.

Whelp this is very on brand for Vault-Tec. That explains why these gulpers look different from the east coast ones. Alright so they know what happened in Vault 4, but seem to have been trying to atone for the history of it. I like that narrative. It also highlights how still Lucy has no idea and is blind to the facts. All because she thinks that experiments are the exception and not the rule with the vaults.

We couldn't even do rain effects, we opted for very bad clearly CGI rain. YEAH FUCKING RIGHT! There is no way you are even hobbling on a foot that is that fucked up. Like I get it, in the games you can move on crippled limbs. That being said this show really seems to be very choosy on how accurate is wants to adhere to the games. Also if that dog dies there will be hell to pay Thaddeus.

Ok well, I guess the residents of Vault 4 really aren't bad guys. And kudos for giving the fusion core back. So now you're telling me that they are falling for each other. This whole relationship dynamic feels more like two naive teenagers. Its weird feeling, very forced for the plot/story. At this point it also seems like the whole point of having power armor was just for the promo material. They park this power armor 90% of the time.

So Thaddeus' plan it to limp his ass to a radio station? I'm sure you would have seen a closer radio tower. WAIT. Chicken fucker is a side character, not just a one off bit 😑. So did he make some homebrew stimpak? Also that comment of not needing to worry about rads is a bit foreboding.

NORM! DID YOU POISON THEM? That face from Betty kinda makes me feel like she had something to do with it an not Norm. So its interesting some of the people sent off and who got to stay. To Chets credit, he's not wrong. The vaults were for people who were rich enough or well connected enough to get into them.

Yay, CX404 is rescued. This is another one of those made up for the show devices. Never existed in the games or anything close to it. Obviously Coop is torn between trusting his wife and not trusting Vault-Tec. I think it's shown off very well. Well I retract the previous Dogmeat thing from before. I guess they were just waiting to make the reference until now.

That head has got to stink to an unholy level. First Titus now Thaddeus. Since when did the BoS become so shit? Like in the games they aren't nearly this bad. Wait did he get the Hancock(FO4) treatment by the serum chicken fucker guy? Great plan except there is a difference between a head that has been decaying for a few weeks, verses one that has been decaying for months or longer. I still feel like this relationship is being forced.

That confirms that Vault 31 is still active and following whatever directive/experiment Vault-Tec put in place. Its also reinforced by the fact that the door leading from Vault 33 to Vault 31 has no controls to open in from the Vault 33 side. So it can only be opened from the inside. So just by the sound it has to be a machine. I would say Robobrain or some version of a Mister Handy, but that area is too small to conceal either one. I doubt they are going with a President John Henry Eden(FO3) thing.

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I can appreciate that we are trying to move along the plot in a way that sort of brings the intertwined stories together into one. I feel conflicted though because like the last episode where Lucy and Maximus were just kind of around and didn't have any major thing going on. This one was more of a case of The Ghoul was just there. Now sure it was A LOT of flashback stuff but still. It feels like there are all these stories being told narratively at once and you are fighting to give them each time.

Final Score - 7/10

[melishade]

Attack on Prime Autobot Anthology Mikasa Ackerman

Main Story

New Arrivals

Introductions

Optimus’ perspective

“I don’t understand why we agreed to this,” Arcee told Wheeljack as they landed the Jackhammer near the port.

“We need to find out more about Prime right?” Wheeljack reasoned, “And since we’re staying here, we gotta meet some new allies from Hizuru.”

“It just…feels weird,” Arcee admitted as the Wrecker opened the door, “being around humans in the open like this.”

“I think it’s a nice change of pace,” Wheeljack admitted as he opened one of the drawers, “Never was a big fan of the whole ‘robots in disguise’ bit.”

“Of course you wouldn’t be,” Arcee said with a smirk.

“What can I say? Never was a fan of those human contraptions they used to keep me in place.” Wheeljack picked up a device and tossed it to Arcee.

“You’ve gotten the boot?” Arcee asked in astonishment as she caught the device with ease.

“Once,” Wheeljack answered, “I avoided cities after that.”

Arcee and Wheeljack walked off the ship before the Wrecker pressed something to shut the door automatically.

“Still can’t believe that Magnus let you keep his shield generator,” Wheeljack grumbled.

“It was a gift for all the hard work I’ve been doing as his assistant,” Arcee reminded, “I wasn’t going to turn down an offer like that. Besides, this thing came in handy during Darkmount.”

“Well I’ve been helping Doc repair his servo, and I get nothing!” Wheeljack huffed.

“Maybe you should’ve asked?” Arcee suggested, “I’m sure Ultra Magnus would’ve given you something for helping repair his servo.”

“He’d regulate it or somethin’. I just know it,” Wheeljack proclaimed.

“Hello!” A familiar voice greeted. They turned their attention to see Hanji waving at the both of them from the ground. They saw the Survey Corps hanging out in their 3D gear, but Wheeljack quickly noticed that the count was off by two. They turned their attention to Optimus, who was in bipedal mode and immediately grew tense at the sight of him.

“Welcome back!” Hanji continued, gaining the attention of both Autobots, “And thank you so much for coming to our brand new port!”

"Well this is the first time I'm seeing it...," Wheeljack trailed off as he turned his attention to the port for a brief moment, "Can I recommend some stuff?"

"No," Levi answered.

"We will talk later about that," Hanji reassured, "But what I wanted to see is the two of you...have a one-on-one fight."

"Wait, that's why you called this?!" Jean demanded.

"So we just didn't learn from last time. Good to know," Ymir added.

"Last time, was an emotionally charged fight with some heavy baggage from the past," Hanji explained before turning back to the two titans, "I assume that the two of you are friends."

Arcee and Wheeljack looked at each other before turning back to Hanji.

"We're pretty much friends," Wheeljack agreed.

"Close enough," Arcee added.

"I will take that as a positive sign," Hanji proclaimed.

"But why do you even want to see us fight?" Arcee asked.

"Data reasons," Hanji answered.

Arcee raised an eyebrow at that.

"Well when Optimus first got here and then Megatron, it was a time of conflict and battle. So I got a pretty good look at what they were capable of," Hanji explained, "I just want to know what I'm working with."

Arcee looked back at Optimus, who still remained fairly neutral in all of this.

"Don't see the problem." Wheeljack shrugged, "'Cee?"

Arcee wanted to protest, thinking that this was a bad idea anyway. Showing what they could do to the humans? That was the perfect way for them to gather intel.

"We'll probably need to show them eventually," Wheeljack reasoned, "If we're staying."

Arcee knew she couldn't argue with that logic. They were going to be staying, and they needed more information. "Alright."

"Yay!" Hanji clapped her hands in excitement.

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Mikasa couldn’t contain her excitement as the ship arrived at the port. She didn’t realize how homesick she truly was until she arrived. The walkway from the ship to the port opened up, and Mikasa ran down it, much to Kiyomi’s insistence for waiting.

“Mikasa!” Historia called out as the Ackerman ran up to her. Historia met her halfway and hugged her, and Mikasa didn’t seem to mind at all, giving her a small hug in return.

“I’m home,” Mikasa declared.

“Welcome back!” Historia smiled brightly, “How was Hizuru?”

“It was beautiful,” Mikasa answered, “And I was able to get Optimus two extra weeks to contact his home.”

Mikasa expected Historia to be elated by the news, but she seems…confused by her response.

“What’s wrong?” Mikasa asked, “That’s good news. Optimus has more time.”

 “Megatron didn’t tell you?” Historia asked her.

“Tell me what?” Mikasa asked.

Everyone jolted as a loud explosion was heard in the distance, causing the ground to shake under them. Mikasa saw a large cloud of blue smoke rising up in the distance. Mikasa threw her hat aside and made a mad dash for the weapon’s room in the port.

“Wait, Mikasa!” Historia called out as she ran after her.

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"Is everyone alright?" Optimus asked as the humans started coughing.

"We're fine! We just can't see shit!" Sasha yelled.

"What was that?!" Connie yelled.

"One of Wheeljack's grenades," Optimus explained.

Wheeljack tried to find Arcee through the smoke from his grenade, but the clouds were too thick. Scrap. He added too much energon to that one. Wheeljack grunted as Arcee kicked him from behind, causing him to roll across the ground and out of the smoke. Wheeljack got into a fighting stance and was prepared to jump in once more, but he heard someone calling out to someone else. And out of the corner of his optic he saw a woman flying in the air with the equipment the other humans were wearing. She fired a spear at his helm, and before he could react, Arcee jumped out of the smoke and activated the shield to protect them both.

The device did blow up, but the two Autobots were left unharmed. Arcee quickly deactivated the device and aimed her blasters at the human ready to pounce back at them. But she was quickly tackled to the ground by Levi.

“Arcee! Wheeljack! Stand down!” Optimus ordered as he got in front of the two titans.

"Who is she?!" Arcee demanded.

Hanji pulled out a flare gun and fired it into the air, gaining the attention of everyone there. Once Hanji realized that all eyes were on her, she smiled and tossed the device aside.

“I see introductions have been made,” Hanji smiled, “Welcome back, Mikasa. Thank you for testing out the energon spear. I now have more data to work with. Arcee, Wheeljack, the weapons? Please? We’re all friends here. It was just a bit of a misunderstanding.”

Arcee and Wheeljack were stunned. That was Mikasa?! That was the human Megatron volunteered in protecting?! Arcee put her blasters away while Wheeljack put his swords back on his back and deactivated his mask.

Levi finally stood up and got off of Mikasa, allowing her to sit up and stare at the two titans.

“Mikasa, this is Arcee and Wheeljack,” Hanji declared as she gestured to the two titans, “Arcee, Wheeljack, this is Mikasa Ackerman. I made a small mention about one of our own being on a diplomatic mission.”

“She just tried to kill Wheeljack,” Arcee reminded.

“You caused an explosion!” Mikasa exclaimed.

“Alright, okay,” Hanji spoke, defusing the conversation before it got out of hand, “Jean, Connie, Sasha, Ymir, go catch Mikasa up on what’s been going on. Arcee, Wheeljack-,”

Hanji paused when Historia finally managed to get to the sight. She panted and rested her hands on her knees before pointing to the port.

“Kiyomi is here,” Historia panted.

Hanji looked up at the three titans. “We are going to entertain some guests, so let’s go down to the port.”

Mikasa stared at the two titans in suspicion as Hanji guided them back to the port. Arcee narrowed her eyes in suspicion at Mikasa while Wheeljack gave a small salute to the rest of the Survey Corps. As the two followed Hanji down to the port, Wheeljack turned his attention to Arcee.

"I can see why Buckethead volunteered to protect her," Wheeljack remarked.

Arcee stared in disbelief. "She just tried to kill you!"

"Who hasn't?" Wheeljack retorted.

(Fairly short. More of a recap. But I have about one more part of the Anthology to do before I do something I should've done a long time ago all things considering for AOP. And it's a surprise~.)

[minmin-pal]

you don't have to send a reply or even an answer really, i know it's close to the time so please feel free to ignore this and give yourself some time or just do something else you'd like other than answering a tumblr ask lmao/lh/gen

welcome back to custard/mikey/mustard/🍮 speedrunning asks in 2 hours go!

'Trying to become happy by doing assassinations' caught me off guard but yay I've already properly fixed and added the stuff you said to my watch guide, i appreciate the 'using the wrong pronouns for extra concealing' lol, ty jjba veteran for ur wisdom :pray: /gen

i've gotten so used to expecting them to come back too lol, but yes alright, thank you for the advice :D maybe i can somehow make it thru jjba with even a quarter of my feelings intact? (I'm not confident in that either ::/j/lh)

and woah I'm glad you were able to enjoy naruto! and yeah truee the possessed fox mode(?) thing always looked so cool and reminding is understandable lol, and now that you mention it he really would've been that one friend everyone would have in elem lmao. his cheery, rebellious to teachers and pulls pranks, he definitely would've been a popular kid or something during elem (is elem the same as primary school? ;;)

ngl i'd maybe say the reason gaara was more appealing than sasuke is maybe he was actually a nice character?/lh also younger gaara was very adorable to watch but yeah sasuke was just being a tad bit of an asshat lol

and ohh, people's opinions on tsunade is often positive leaning but it's neat to hear your thoughts on jiraiya and orochimaru are often like switched, if that makes sense? it's fun to see other opinions finally exist lmao, jiraiya was weird as heck but he had that character appeal going on somehow lol/pos

the 'hercules-corona borealis great wall' new term i never knew existed, ty for this brain food :pray:

and ah, somehow that single image you inserted of the dude drawn in the first style explains it (art looks nice though, muscles so cool omg/lh/pos)

I'm getting the same feeling that aot will end in the same-ish manner that killer in love did, just completely turn everything on the viewers heads and make us all feel emotionally exposed or smth lol, i'm gonna have to put on some protective gear before restarting the anime ;;

oh wait there's a csm part 2? I haven't heard much about it though it makes sense if his still working on it, and yep csm has already been added to my to-read list and csm2 is joining >:)

oyasumi punpun sounds very cute, i will be checking that out now, i need to feel feelings again after speedrunning killer in love lol/hj/lh

"boy's abyss" added to the collection (i will actually finish this list I swear lmao/gen) help naur "you didn't dislike kokoa, and that's really telling of you as a person" had me worried if it was bad for a few seconds TT/lh

and yeah I'm really glad they made her kinda of a victim too, really pulled the story together especially in the 'backstory leading to her walking off into the distance' ending (and yeah don't worry about any of it being too short or anything, it's understandable so pls don't strain urself :D/lh)

oh yeah, seeing a character make the same decisions or do the same thing as you and it's being shown/viewed(?) as a bad thing, is definitely an eye-opener moment

i don't know all the details and this might seem unwarranted but you were both human and I'm sorry they left you so suddenly (i'm not trying to come as all like- dunno pompous or anything i swear ;;) not trying to argue since it might've been the healthy decision for them and i can respect that, i'm sorry you had to be left alone so suddenly though/gen (i hope this didn't come off badly ;;/lh)

we're speedruninngg :run:

and yay, yeah i really did it like it, thank you again for getting me to read it/gen the wholw story and it's art in general was very lovely:]<3

(mustard is my new, nEW name that will appear on my birth certificate lmao, also how did i not think of that sooner it was literally staring me in the face lol)

i'm answering the first of the 'thank you and nice to meet you' post thing and i reached where you said you were physically running out of time and i am also running out of time physically, the irony is making me cackle lol/hj/lh

it makes me a bit sad too, but i'm really glad i did meet you (as much as meeting you counts to stumbling across your blog?) i might not have said this enough times, but reading you rant off on random tangents and just talking about silly random stuff that you liked and things that mattered to you was genuinely a very fun experience that i won't be forgetting./gen

mayb the afterlife or void or whatever turns out to be meeting you there, does have wifi, i mean you can never be too sure right lmao? I can imagine it might just be 2 bars or something tho lol/lh

bye bye to you too min, and yeah no worries, the end poem has a special place for me so i don't consider it corny at all that you brought up, not gonna lie the first time i read your response seeing the response just made me bawl harder lol,

you like showing me stuff and i like watching you show me stuff, it's very fun would reccomended:D/lh reccomended:D/lh

don't be sorry, you don't need to be/lh/gen

thank you for that, (am i allowed to save it?/genq/nf) making you tear up was the goal muahaha >:)/hj/lh

even if it's not new, i stand by "all min art is good art", thank you. genuinely for everything min. this has been a very nice few 47(?) days of knowing you and i'll always check back on here, i know you said promises don't count to dead people, but welp unfortunately one of us will still be alive and chilling so that promise is gonna get fulfilled >:) my evil masterplan all along, it's gonna take you so long to scroll down thru my jjba review part 1 ask with the shitty wifi in the afterlife/again, whichever ends up waiting

i'll take care of little dustball min >:) could go to a cat cafe, i heard you liked cats./lh

It nice meeting you min, thank you for everything genuinely, it's been nice.

love you stranger :D

gonna go offline permanently in 5 mins (plus i will be deleting a lot of posts- just cus i dont want to be known for some of these) so i cant go too indepth

im really happy we spoke. i sometimes would worry that people who found me off my more. sad stuff would never know me much and im happy u let me . not be so depressing and let me rant about fuckin g jojos bizarre adventure to you

thanks mustard custard mikey and see u in the next ecosystem

[oceangirl24]

Out of Context Dialogue

Feeling somewhat better today (yay!) and wanted to do something because I'll likely be sleeping the rest of the day.

Below is two sections of dialogue from the next chapter of Birthday Wishes and Valentine Kisses. No context, just dialogue.

Rules: What rules? I'm just making stuff up.���

Tagging to play: @mrsmungus @tsunderewatermelon @lena-hills @mikaharuka @writingpotato07 @winterlovesong1 @justanotherpersonwhowrites @udaberriwrites @violetrose-art @kayedium-writes @theprissythumbelina

If anyone wants to be tagged and I didn't please let me know. I don't want to bug people with these. ❤️

Jon and Shawn:

“You wanna talk about somethin’?”

“Have you met the new gym teacher?”

“No, why?”

“He looks like James Marsden.”

“Who?”

Shawn rolled his eyes. “He’s a lot younger than you.”

Jon squinted at him. “Who is?”

“Brad.”

“Who’s Brad?”

“Shawn, I don’t know who you’re talkin’ about; you’ve brought up three people already none of whom I know.”

“Brad is the new PE teacher who looks like James Marsden.”

“Who's James Marsden?”

“An actor! C'mon!”

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Jon and Audrey:

“Who’s Brad?”

“Brad who? I know several Brad’s.”

“Shawn says the new PE teacher showed up in the middle of class today. And his name is Brad.”

“Brad Lewis? Yeah, Mr. Feeny introduced me to him right before my evaluation with him.”

“Ah.”

“Why?”

“Shawn asked me if I knew him. I had to say no. Apparently, I shouldn’t have skipped the last faculty meetin.”

“Skip? I thought you were sick.”

“Sick of faculty meetin’s. Besides I had to take Shawn to the doctor.”

“I took him to the doctor. You drove laps around the parking lot.”

“And the doctor was very thankful you went with him and not me.”

“Shawn says he’s young.”

“Who is?”

“Brad.”

“He’s twenty-four, graduated from Columbia, taught in Jersey before moving here a month ago. His family is from Pittsburgh.”

“You know his favorite color by chance?”

"You’re in a weird mood. What’s going on?”

“Nothin'. You just seem to know a lot about him is all."

"Mr. Feeny practically read me his file.”

"Does he look like James Marsden?"

"What?"

"Shawn said he does."

"Yeah, I guess he does now that I think about it. “

"He your favorite actor?"

"I like him but I don't have a poster of him on my wall if that’s what you're asking."

“Who do you have on your wall?”

“Oh the usual. Johnny Depp, River Phoenix, Leonardo DiCaprio. Guys like that.”

“Pretty boys, huh?”

“I only have them up there because I don’t have the one poster I really want.”

“Who’s that- Brad Pitt??”

“You in your hockey gear. If I had a poster of that I’d plastered it right over those other guys.”

“Hmmm I wonder if I could get my hockey card blown up to poster size.”

“You have a hockey card?”

“Coach gave all the players on my high school team individual player cards one year.”

“How much is this rare gem worth?”

“Exactly nothing. It’d get you laughed out of a card shop.”

“That’s only because you haven’t found the right collector.”

“That’s either really flirty or really creepy. I can’t decide which.”

“I don’t have any experience with this sort of thing and it’s still better than your lousy pickup lines.”

“What’s wrong with 'how you doin'?” .... “Wow not the response I wanted.”

[mysynthfetish]

Omicron and on and on and on and on

What was that 90s song, "Onward ever ever on, destination Eschaton," Shamen or something? Weird how I recall random shit like that but ask me what I had for dinner yesterday and I'm like duhhrrrr... but anyway so yeah Omicron got me.

So that was fucking loads of fun. I've had three vaccinations so far. Time came for the 4th and I was like nah. So would I have caught this if I'd went and had that vaccination? Who knows. Anyway, I felt kinda funky Friday, then Friday night around 2am the fever hit and hit hard. Chills and cold sweat while simultaneously burning up with fever, and my knees and lower back were screaming, what the hell? Took some Target brand Advil, one of the staple take-back-to-japan things I buy when in the US, fever went down. Went to the local PCR test center, result was negative. Hmmm? But then Sunday it was roller coaster fun between normalcy and feverishness, headache, and then the sore throat from hell started. Seriously the worst sore throat I've ever had. So I went to the local outpatient clinic and did the double whammy flu/covid two-for-the-price-of-one test and welliwelliwell, positive. Doc said I probably did the first test too early or the reliability of the test I took was questionable. I don't care which. Told the doc about the sore throat and he was like "ah, omicron!" So he gave me these drops you flip in a glass and then dilute with water and gargle with, check the color of this shit out:

Funky! If I wasn't half out my head at the time I woulda busted out the UV LED flashlight I have and seen if it glowed. Shit worked wonders though. Wife went on full panic mode. Basically sequestered me off in the gear room and forbid me to come out except to use the loo, after which I have to wipe down everything with disinfectant flushable wipes, or to use the shower after everyone else has gone, then she goes in with a spray bottle of bleach and douses the entire bath/shower unit. Gotta wear a mask and plastic gloves when I leave the room. Madness. All this and my older daughter still caught it. Unavoidable really. And I offered to fuck off to a business hotel for the duration but no that costs money. Hmph. Anyway... Hell of a way to end the year.

Yay officer K's spinner from Bladerunner 2049. I've been watching that movie on repeat for the past three weeks now. And the original, both theatrical release and final cut versions, of course. I'm very intrigued by the sound design and soundtrack. They had some serious shoes to fill following Vangelis with the original, but I think they did damn good. I'd love to know what they used as far as synths/softsynths go, effects too. The piano at the start of the film sounds like it was run through an Eventide processor, the H9 and the H3000 I had way back when did stuff like that, reverb and reversed, pitched delays. Super neat but not cheap.

Well I hope you peeps out there had a better end of the year than we're having here right now. Who knows what madness awaits in 2023. More shenanigans for sure. Be well, and remember, слава україні, путін хуйло, йована русня!

[shisica]

rewatching pmmm...

6 eps in!

damn this is good. half of me is like damn when i first watched this i didn't appreciate it. the other half is like well it's been a decade perhaps the impression has just faded.

perhaps that's why it does feel fresh still? i remember the main story beats and moments but i wasn't SO into it at the time that i remember all the details.

i like watching knowing the full story bc it makes the foreshadowing and blatant kyubey evil shenanigans so extra scream and rage inducing.

horrible piss creature really takes ANY opportunity (and probably made a lot of them tbh) to go hey madoka 😇 it'd be the PERFECT TIME TO TURN NOW...

but then i'm also like... whenever i rewatch something it's experiencing media in easy mode. i already know the main story so the work has been done, i'm just noticing the smaller stuff now. not that watching media should feel like work - i think i just tend towards rewatching media when watching something new seems kind of daunting.

mami's death was so fucking awful??? she just wanted to happy and not be alone, even though being a magical girl gave her life again she had nobody besides the piss creature. the shock in her expression when it happens. AWFUL.

SHE JUST WANTED SOME FRIENDS...

kyoko might be the fave honestly??? i love a bristly spiky exterior girl where u kno that armour is up for a reason but don't know why yet. i can't wait to see the conclusion of her and sayaka's arc i don't remember it well

i really like sayaka as well. i do find the bluster of her kind of character archetype a bit grating but it works here because it's in contrast with the tragedy they're living in. and she's that combination of very strong minded AND will fight you about it which makes the conflict feel so inevitable and hard to get out of.

the tragedy really is so good because it just. i don't know. feels fully inevitable. madoka is too pure hearted. too kind. there's no way for homura to save her because she'll make the sacrifice when given the choice and when she has to. even after knowing the horrors she will do it.

perhaps this is also being older - it is extra depressing that these kids are like yes this is my lot in life, i can sacrifice it all to keep my loved ones and town safe. y'all should not have to deal with this, just learn your algebra and be a teen!!! tbh this also just Is The Genre and media geared towards children is gonna have child heroes for them to relate to etc. but pmmm isn't that audience so the horror is built into the premise with intention so it makes it all the more wonderfully awful. yay!

i wonder if i'll watch the movies... i don't know. i watched one of them during college but don't even remember what happened besides Gay. i just don't like watching movies for what I first experienced as TV episode style stories. i want things to either be episodic or be a standalone movie.

ALSO i was totally tricked by the first ed that was used for the first two eps. i was like huh i don't remember this ed! that's weird, i usually remember both the op and ed bc i don't skip them. THEN IT CHANGES AFTER MAMI DIES FFDJDJD--

ALSO ALSO the fact that mami is presented to madoka and sayaka as this older sister mentor figure (she lives alone! has tea sets and tasty dessert! so knowledgable about magical girl stuff that she can take them along) but she is just ONE YEAR OLDER, she may be a "senior magical girl" but she's just as young as they are!!! also deserving of a normal ass teenage life!!! but then w/o the piss creature she would be dead. So

[tamaharu]

okay i am going to explain my kasumi!lives au to you now if you click on this readmore imagine you are tied to a chair trapped in a room w me as i explain. get into the mood. okay.

so they both survive the accident and sumire is naturally horrified/apologetic and refuses to tell kasumi anything more abt her negative thoughts while kasumi is so rattled + has no mental health awareness that she sort of just lets it slide without much further examination. 

school starts and sumire takes advantage of the privileges given to them as honors students and just. utterly throws herself into practicing, desperate to distract herself from her own horrible thoughts and hopefully get better to negate these thoughts altogether. while kasumi is like okay….. shes practicing harder.. to get used to her growth spurt! yay :D im glad shes doing completely fine!! 

kasumi on the other hand in acting how ‘kasumi’ did in canon, i.e. not taking advantage of practice time so others wont think less of her. despite this, when put to the test she still manages to beat sumire from the combination of regular practice + natural skill. and you can imagine how much that stings for sumire.

meanwhile, kasumi becomes rens confidant! (sorry sumire i love you so but i dont think her being a confidant in this au would work very much) kasumi is his faith confidant and maruki still gets hired after kamoshida like in canon! (sumire goes in to talk to him about her woes.. hes the only one she feels comfortable confessing her dark thoughts to..) kasumi teaches ren gymnastics, and theres probably an element of not letting the other students negative opinions of her (or sumire) drag her down. 

we see kasumi around pretty frequently but sumire is really rare. the only times you are guaranteed to see her are a part of kasumi and marukis social links that have some implications of.. something going on but without the ability to deal with it too directly. she is very quiet/serious abt practice. Kasumi is confused and worried abt sumires behavior, but she seems relatively stable after coming to shujin/seeing maruki so.. its probably fine! (IT IS NOT FINE)

anyway the general plot progresses pretty much like normal. kasumi goes into the myyyysteryyy palace w ren and awakens to cendrillion like normal. you can probably get kasumis confidant to level like six or seven before third sem stuff but at that point it is locked from progressing until the story gets further into gear.

meanwhile the stuff with sumire progresses further and further and. blah blah blah AND. EVENTUALLY: sumire develops a palace. (at this point we are like. in third semester territory calendar wise more or less. idk how theyd discover the palace/how theyd realize there was still mementos BUT ITS FINE.)

the palace is a weird distorted theater or something that encompasses the school where kasumi is idolized and fawned over to um. A Creepy Degree!! Lots of headshots and photos of old performances and actors and stuff and its just endless kasumi w sumires likeness destroyed in various ways.

then you meet the palace ruler/shadow version of sumire thats like im the understudy for the next performance.. i HAVE to live of to kasumis legacy. no matter how hard i try, im never as good as her. and yet, she stays with me, encourages me, clings to me.. saves me, even if it puts herself at risk.. it terrifies me. im only dragging her down, and if i cant bring myself up to her level, then one of these days im going to ruin her life. if i cant be like kasumi-- itd be better if i just died!!

and its like. oh. well thats a lot to unpack. um. theres a gymnastic competition coming up soon. oh okay. i get it now. if she doesnt do better than kasumi in it she is going to like. straight up kill herself.

kasumi is SO CONFUSED like i thought she was getting better??? shes been so chill and relaxed recently??? meanwhile sumire has actually just achieve the eerie calmness of someone who has decided to commit suicide

kasumi: well shes been practicing really hard!! maybe she'll get it this time

ren: (lays a gentle hand on her shoulder) what have we said about mental illness

kasumi: (hangs her head) that it doesnt always work in logical ways

theres some plot reason why they cant do the palace until the last minute idk. so sumire gets the calling card and obviously immediately shows it to maruki and hes like. hm. thats crazy. unrelated i have to go. run some errands.

anyways during the boss fight they are so close to overpowering ruler!sumire and stealing the treasure when all of a sudden tentacles shoot from the ground and grab the treasure and steal it before the pts can. and sumire is screaming in pain and despair, but the tentacles just surround her, preventing the thieves from going and helping her. eventually they just have to leave her there without the treasure because the tentacles are pulling the palace down/the palace is crumbling around them and they dont know why.

then they wake up outside of the palace area. and sumire wakes up and slowly staggers to her feet. and then she straightens. she smiles, pleasant and polite, as she takes her glasses off and puts her hair up. and she greets them like theyre friends. and she looks through kasumi like shes nothing more than glass. and thus, sumire becomes kasumi.

WOOOAHHH SHOCKER MARUKI CHANGED HER COGNITION (plot twist) taking that desire to either become kasumi or die trying very literal. and w her cognition change reality finally and truly shifts.

so marukis palace is pretty different than in canon - more elaborate, more labyrinthine. rather than having to wake up from their fake reality to fight, they already know whats going on and the thieves have to traverse through rooms of paradise, tailor-made for each of them individually, as thats where all the puzzles and stuff are. what if god said that he forgave you, that you could return to the garden?

meanwhile sumire keeps swinging by both to check on their ‘therapy’ progress, but also to encourage them to stay and fighting them if they get real mouthy. the first time they find her they try to tell her whats going on and bring her back with them but instead she… calls on her persona, cendrillion. if shes kasumi, then she is going full kasumi.

anyhow in each of the paradise rooms are pieces of sumires treasure that was split apart and when they reform it the treasure turns out to be. get this. an apple. because they are ALWAYS drinking that damn apple juice !! and as it comes together its like the princes heart from princess tutu where she starts to understand what happened/her own emotions more as more pieces are put together.

the final choice basically is either for the thieves to eat the apple themselves, effectively permanently destroying sumires distorted heart + letting them live in paradise (resulting in more or less the typical maruki end). or, they can give it to sumire for her to eat. THE FRUIT OF KNOWLEDGE!!!!!!!!!!! WHO IS THE SNAKE!!!!!!!!!!

when sumire eats the apple it formally gives her back ALL her context/memory and she is Upset. and it triggers the maruki fight more or less. and she joins in to help because shes pissed!!! except, the only problem is.. the longer the fight goes on, the less and less effective her persona becomes. because its cendrillion. because its not hers, not her true self.

but in the end her final thing is (reminiscent of the “shooting god in the face” thing/sort of what they do to him in canon) to take a giant sword from the fading cendrillion and bring it straight through the maruki/persona fusion’s heart. (you can even still have the section with ren and maruki punching each other in the face while the palace disintegrates after that!)

and after that, things come back to normal. sumire is…. not better. not by a longshot. but for the first time in a really long while, shes ready to trust her sister, and she ready to trust herself: sumire yoshizawa.

even in a version of the story where both kasumi and sumire survived the car accident i still believe sumire would have the capacity to be fucking insane ❤️ love and light

[anabsolutemyth]

Someone else who writes for Pentagon yay!! Can I request a hc on what it’s like to have sex with each member please? (and maybe whether you think they’re dom/sub/switch?)

Hui/Hoetaek

Slight sub lean.

Listen, Hui is so busy being the leader of a big group and producing/writing songs for everyone under the sun. So when it comes to sex he just wants to take it easy and relax.

State-certified pillow prince. He'll lie back and let you ride him all night if you want, trading lazy kisses now and again. All the while he'll be telling you how beautiful you are, how perfect you look on top of him, how good you're making him feel. Your ego will be boosted to the max.

He'll pull the dirtiest grin when you start losing yourself, really chasing your high. He'll become a more active participant as well, grabbing your hips and ass to bring you down harder on his dick, thrusting up to meet you so he's as deep as he can be.

Another thing he enjoys however: surprise visits. Pay him a visit in the studio if he's working late on a track to give him head, he'll appreciate it.

Jinho

Dom, would switch if you asked really, really nicely for your birthday.

He may be small, certainly compared to the giants around him, but he knows he's handsome as hell and can melt hearts with ease.

That being said, once he's drawn you in by melting your heart, he's going to turn out to be one sexy little bastard. It'll take you by surprise at first when he comes into the bedroom with some bondage gear but turns out he's a master with it. He's not as brutal as others, he'll allow for some playful disobedience and brattiness so long as it's endearing, but push it too far and he will definitely put you back in your place with his trusted right hand (or paddle). But! He'll almost immediately rub his thumb over the mark to soothe your skin.

Now if you do manage to get him to switch for a special occasion, expect him to be fidgety and awkward with a scowl on his face. Once he's over the initial weirdness about letting out a more submissive side however, he will let himself go a bit and really enjoy being told what to do.

Hongseok

Slight dom tendencies

Hongseok, gymrat extraordinaire. Competitive and with amazing stamina? He's going to leave you breathless.

He'll push you to your limits. After multiple orgasms? He's got you covered. You'll be begging him to stop by the end of the night (you won't mean it, but you'll scream it out anyway just to try and get a breather).

He might not tell you at first but he has notepad on his phone where he keeps a note of how long each session lasts and how many times he made you come. He's always looking to set new records and outdo himself.

And he will brag... my god how he will brag! What’s the point in breaking records and being an all-round phenomenal fucking machine if you can’t tell anyone? So the rest of the group will know without a doubt. Hell, they probably egg him on to see if he can keep outdoing himself.

All good for you, you keep having the time of your life, just so long as you can keep up with him.

Shinwon

Neither here nor there with Dom/sub mechanics, or kinky stuff in general. Really just wants to please.

This man is a disaster, but a romantic one. You're going to come home after a long day at work to a romantic dinner, made with love. Was there a call to the fire department when he was trying to make it? Maybe, but that's by the by.

After he's lived up to his true husband-matetial potential, hell take you through to the bedroom which is decked out with the classic rose petals, scented candles, etc. Again, was there a candle that he has to throw into the bathroom and douse with water because it had got out of control? Probably.

Enough romantic shit though, what is he like in bed? I'd wager he remains a complete sweetheart, focused entirely on making you feel good. He'll be up for experimenting a bit if you ask, but left to his own devices he keeps things simple. There'll be an awkward moment or two as well, one of you will fall off the bed or knock over a vase, so expect laughter as well.

Yeo One/Changgu

Another one not really fitting any Dom/sub dynamic. Dom lean if you manage to tie him down.

It's going to be hard and fast, he's chasing his own pleasure first and foremost. Now this doesn't mean that it's not going to feel great for you, or that he'll leave you high and dry, but he has his priorities.

No-strings fun is very much his thing, as are quickies. He's going to be the man for you if you want to be swept off your feet in random places (at work, the studio, hotel balcony during an after-party). Risk is a massive turn-on for him.

He would happily be a bit rough with you as well if you asked him. A bit of hair pulling maybe, jostling you about, having you up against the wall with his hand round your neck (though no actual pressure, he doesn't go as far as that).

Yeah... it'll be a fun time for sure, even if it's short-lived.

Yanan

Definite dom, but can often be soft, sweet, and gentle. Happy with vanilla, no sub tendencies though.

Yanan enjoys lazy nights on the sofa watching trashy rom-coms on Netflix that descends into you grinding down on him (fully clothed of course, don't want to ruin the upholstery).

He enjoys making love on soft sheets with incense burning, softly speaking your name as he reaches his orgasm.

However, he also very much enjoys pounding you into the mattress, or against the wall, or over the dining table whilst the instrumental of Taemin's Thirsty plays in the background. He's a big guy as well, so expect to be lifted and carried off to some new place at a moment's notice. Why just have sex in the bedroom if you can take it to the living room/kitchen/shower as well?

Yuto

Hard dom with the most heavenly aftercare.

Expect him to be clothed most of the time while you're completely naked, he's into that. He'll be dressed well too, nothing casual, it's going to be something smart and sharp. Maybe not a full 3-piece suit, but a nice pair of suit trousers with a black leather belt, a designer shirt with one or two buttons undone, and a slick pair of black chelsea boots. If he's going to let you get your hands on his body then you're going to have to earn it.

Now, when it actually comes to the sex he will go hard on you. If you disobey in the slightest there will be punishment (and it isn't going to be a gentle tap with a cute pink crop). Speaking of crops though, this man has a collection, probably a whole walk-in cupboard full of kinky shit to make your heart race.

Hard dom with a deep voice? Sign me up. Just imagine him having you blindfolded and tied up (full-on shibari of course, he's bringing his culture with him to the bedroom), and talking directly into your ear, saying the filthiest things.

The aftercare though, as I said, is just heavenly. Once he figures out what you love most, you'll feel like a true Queen.

Kino/Hyunggu

Ultimate switch, perhaps with a slight dom lean.

Knows he's good in bed and knows exactly what he likes, he's done plenty of experimentation.

In a more dominant headspace he thrives on having you blindfolded with your hands bound, though just with whatever he can find lying around. He isn't Yuto with a cupboard full of professional gear.

That isn't to say that he doesn't know how to work you when you're at his mercy, skilled hands and a fast tongue mean that you'll be screaming his name in no time. And he won't stop there, he's going to overstimulate the hell out of you.

When he's feeling more submissive the theme is the same but the tables are turned. He'll enjoy a bit of sensory deprivation and being tied up, loves being called pet names, and relishes being edged and overstimulated.

Probably not entirely confident in being pegged or having toys used on him, but go slowly and pile on the praise for him and he'll be riding like a pro quicker than you can imagine.

Loves being marked as well. Bonus points if you do it somewhere others can see.

Wooseok

Heavily sub-leaning switch.

Gentle giant, lovely big teddy bear.

Let's be real though, unless you're a professional basketball player, height is going to be an issue, so Wooseok loves having you on top to avoid the hassle. He also adores being able to hold you and caress you as you ride him. Those massive hands? Yeah, he loves to use them and knows how.

Really, he just loves having his hands all over you, expect massages as foreplay 9 times out of ten. Just loves your body, pretty much worships it. So if you want to take advantage of the submissive side of him, he's going to be an absolute delight.

100% there to please, no disobedience in sight, not an ounce of brattiness.

[hackedmotionsensors]

Lmfao about to watch the last episode of mando and I’m furious i never madea  proper comic out of the star wars au.

But here was how the gist of it went in my head.

Tony was prince of his planet. A planet known for manufacturing weapons for both sides to use. The planet was also rich in that lil crystal that fuels sabers. (do not come at me about the actual history i do not care)

The planet was captured by the empire and the mines destroyed but Tony escapes and hides a crystal in his chest compartment (where the reactor goes). Tony is force sensitive but not all that much. It just helps him be a better pilot and shot. He’s taking this special crystal to hsi very best friend Rhodey who’s a jedi in hiding who’s saber was taken in the clone wars. 

Tony has to get across the galaxy without being caught and is escorted (paid for a ride) on Steve’s ship that he pilots with Sam. Steve was a super soldier made to replicate Jedi by the empire but since he’s not evil bc Steve he escapes and does heroic shit and made a weird legendary name for himself. But he retired and is kinda like whats his face in Kung Fu or the Hulk tv show where he saves people who needs saving but like “its not like its my JOB! I’m a delivery boy!! I deliver packages!!” Sam: “Yeah but you’re also a busy body”

Steve likes Tony but also finds Tony super annoying like whats his deal whats he hiding why’s he so cute. Oh god the ship took damage and now Tony is crawling around in the gears fixing stuff IMPROVING stuff get outta there. 

And then they kiss a lot lmfao I didn’t think it all that through but so much of the stuff I thought “oh this would be fun” is now IN mando and probably in TCW adfasdfasdf

Anyway I might draw some today. I might not. I’m technically supposed to buy presents today ai yai yai

[youvebeenlivingfictional]

Love Isn’t Always On Time Part Thirty Eight

Previous Part | Next Part | Masterlist Notes: Not Beta-Read.  I hope everyone’s doing well :) Warnings: Canon-typical violence; some cursing Summary: I turned my head, looking through the glass to a feed of Bucky in a holding cell, strapped into a seat. He looked calm, settled, almost. Resigned.

“Am I allowed to use a phone or what?” I asked Natasha as she led us down the hall toward a conference room. Natasha cast me a look over her shoulder, brow raised. “Why wouldn’t you be?” She asked. “You mean apart from the fact that we’re technically war criminals now?” I pointed out. “You can use a phone,” Natasha said, nodding me into a small phone room, “We’ll be down the hall.” Sam and Steve cast me curious looks and I mouthed ‘Wanda’. I hadn’t checked in with her in the last day and I wanted to keep her in the loop. --

“But do you think he did it?” Wanda pressed. I pursed my lips. I didn’t like talking about this now, I was sure the call was being monitored, but I wasn’t sure when we’d be able to. “No,” I said honestly, “But I also don’t know what happened when Steve went in to talk to him, we haven’t had a chance to talk about that. Things have been... Volatile. How are you doing over there?” I asked. Wanda hummed disinterestedly; I heard her shifting on the other end of the phone and imagined her wandering around the complex without much to do but train or watch tv or talk to Vision. Though, she did really like talking to Vision. “Fine, I guess. I’ve been keeping up with everything going on on the news. I wish I’d gone with you guys, I saw the chase.” “It’s safer for you to be at the complex for the time being,” I said, sitting on the edge of the desk in the phone room, resting one of my feet on the chair. “I know, I know,” Wanda grumbled. I smiled. “If you were here, you would’ve been nothing but the help you always are,” I tacked on. Wanda didn’t answer for a few moments, and when she did, she said, “I should get going. I can smell something weird coming from the kitchen.” “Weird how? Are you baking?” “No, I think it’s Viz.” “’Viz’?” I repeated, unable to keep the amusement from seeping into my voice. “Shut up,” Wanda muttered, “Be careful, and keep me updated.” “Will do. Bye,” I tacked on before hanging up. I sighed, looking down at the receiver before I set it back in the cradle. There was a pulsing headache pressing up behind my temples, the kind that made your head feel like it was going to explode if you blinked too hard. As badly as I wanted to flick the lights off and stay in the room to ride it out, I knew that that wasn’t an option. -- “Where’s Steve?” I asked Sam, sitting down beside him. Sam jerked his thumb over his shoulder to where Steve and Tony were talking in a conference room. It looked amiable enough... For now, at least. “That’s gonna be a good time,” I mumbled, sliding down in my seat. I turned my head, looking through the glass to a feed of Bucky in a holding cell, strapped into a seat. He looked calm, settled, almost. Resigned. I hated it, I almost wanted to see him with the spark in his eyes he had when he was on the run before. I shook my head, resting my head in my hands and resting my elbows on the table. “You alright?” Sam asked lightly. “Headache,” I mumbled. I jumped at the sound of Steve barging into the conference room, the glass door slamming into the table. “Wanda alright?” He asked. There was a fire behind his eyes that I hadn’t seen before. “I-- She’s fine. What’s wrong?” I asked. “Tony’s got her confined to the goddamn compound and she doesn’t even know it. She doesn’t know she can’t leave,” Steve grumbled, resting his hands on his hips as he paced. “What?” Sam asked. “He’s got Vision babysitting her,” Steve tacked on, stopping by the tv in the conference room. It was broadcasting the news, still, muted. Sharon came in a few moments later, passing Sam a slip of paper. “Receipt for your gear,” She said. Sam scanned it, frown deepening to a scowl. “’Bird costume’? Come on.” “I didn’t write it,” Sharon excused. She glanced around before she reached out, tapping the phone and changing the television feed to Bucky’s interrogation. I glanced back at her, giving her a grateful smile before turning by eyes to the screen. “I'm not here to judge you. I just want to ask you a few questions... Do you know where you are, James?... I can't help you if you don't talk to me, James,” The doctor’s voice crackled through the screen. “My name is Bucky,” Bucky’s retort was firm, flat. He wasn’t saying any more than he absolutely had to. Steve sighed, turning to the file that Sharon had given us earlier and flipping it open, looking over the picture of Bucky that had been released to the public. “... Why would the Task Force release this photo to begin with?” He asked, setting the file back down. “Get the word out, involve as many eyes as we can?” Sharon offered. “Right. It's a good way to flush a guy out of hiding. Set off a bomb, get your picture taken. Get seven billion people looking for the Winter Soldier.” “You're saying someone framed him to find him.” “Steve, we looked for the guy for two years and found nothing,” Sam argued. "We didn't bomb the UN. That turns a lot of heads,” Steve pointed out. “...Yeah, but that doesn't guarantee that whoever framed him would get him. It guarantees that we would,” Sharon concluded. I frowned, turning my attention back to the screen, a chill running through me as the doctor went on, “Tell me, Bucky. You've seen a great deal, haven't you?“ “Where’s Bucky being held?” I asked, looking back at Sharon. “I don’t wanna talk about it.” “Within the facility,” She reassured me. “You fear that… if you open your mouth, the horrors might never stop. Don't worry... We only have to talk about one.“ “Right, but how long would it take for us to get down there?” "Three minutes, maybe four--” As she said so, the power cut. “Sub-level 5, east wing,” Sharon tacked on before any of us could ask. We were up and out of the room without another word.

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The headache was worse; the flashing red lights weren’t helping matters. I was having trouble focusing, but I kept my pace with Sam and Steve. When we reached sub-level 5 it was deathly quiet. Not a single walkie-talkie crackling, not the clack of a keyboard, nothing. There were people scattered, laying on the ground. I crouched beside one, checking their pulse; Steve checked another. He caught my eye and we both nodded. They were alive. “Help... Help me.” We caught the sound of the doctor’s voice nearby. Steve straightened, making his way into the room with long, steady strides and gripping the man by the collar. I glanced up and saw them move out of my sight line. “Keep an eye on them,” I nodded Sam into the room before I straightened up, looking around for any further sign of Bucky. No sooner had Sam left me than I heard the impact metal on concrete, the hydraulic hum of Bucky’s arm as he made to take another swing at Sam. “Shit,” I hissed, darting into the room as Sam was thrown and narrowly avoiding the kick aimed at me. I darted out of the way of the a punch thrown from his metal arm, then blocked on from his human one. “Bucky, stop--” I pleaded, trying to catch his eyes, but unlike that day on the river bank, there was no recognition there. He didn’t respond, he didn’t stop. For all of my training with Steve and Natasha, I wasn’t quick enough against Bucky. I managed to feint out of the way of a jab, only to be caught by an uppercut and be sent sprawling, head smacking against the wall on my way down. My vision went fuzzy, then dark. Tag list: @gloryevans @redryderdesigns @winter-scolder @aactuaaltraash @secretagentben @staplerrrr @elliee1497 @adayinmymeadow  @allonszassbutt @mannls @witch-of-letters  @niallssweetheart22 @uneniffler  @rinthehufflepuff @panic-angel3314  @firstangeldragonranch @kaetastic @mcuwillbethedeathofme @skeletoresinthebasement @i-dont-know-what-im-doing-yay @kkaos15 @iamnotoverlyfondofwhatfollows  @bassclarinety @tomshelbystits @rvgrsbrns @marvelmenarebeautiful @tenaciousperfectionunknown @intricate-melody​ @stuffandstuff-stuff​ @fanfuckingtastic04 @messybunnyartist @anescapefromtheworld  @shesa-riott​ @bihoeofmanyfandoms

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I'm sure others will ask this but what are you thoughts on the episode of SCK?? I love your in-depth analysis lol. I personally loved it!!! Also can I just say that the edser/hanker chemistry is off the charts lol. If this was the first episode I watched ever, without subtitles, their scenes would be a giant neon sign that says "THESE CHARACTERS ARE MADLY IN LOVE!!!". Eda was beyond cute/in love/adorable in this episode with serkan, girl has got it bad and I wish she didn't have her stupid grandmother and these insecurities in the way ahhh. I really love the Ayfer/Aydan duo, they're fun when they're together and Ayfer wasn't annoying like the last few EPs. Also, Balca can go choke lol, I'm so glad Serkan didn't fall for her trap for him to stay over!! He was like nah come to the party (my girl is waiting!!!). Was serkan about to tell Eda that he had to stop by her house? He seemed really nervous. ANYWAYS, I love EdSer and am going to go watch their scenes 1000x before next week 😭🥰

Thank you! I love Edser too!!!!  Like you, I enjoyed this episode, though it was despite some of the narrative issues (that I posted about here.) There were good, meaty Edser scenes, which is why I watch this show. Once again I'll start with the non-Eda/Serkan thoughts and then get to the feelsy stuff at the end.

Babaanne's introduction did not disappoint. The actress has the right energy for the role. I guess we now know why Eda has been adamant about cutting her out of her life, Babaanne is next level controlling and vindictive. We'll have to see how she develops and what her endgame motives are. Does she want her revenge more than she wants her granddaughter and daughter in her life? Or does she think if she wins and arranges everything including an advantageous marriage for Eda, Eda will eventually go along and decide it's awesome and reconciliation will come about that way? *evil laugh* She doesn’t know her granddaughter at all if she thinks that’s a possibility. 

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I enjoyed her non-Balca scenes, especially when she was going toe-to-toe with Eda. That scene in Serkan's old upstairs office was intense, both actresses really brought it and kudos to Eda staying true to her defiant character. No one pushes her around. Prepare yourselves to see her waver a bit, I'm sure it's quite jarring to see your loved one in jail and know that he's there because of you, but she'll get to the point of fighting beside him. I have no doubt.

It was nice to see Ayfer protecting Aydan and Seyfi, it made for some great comedy and it was a good change after all of Ayfer's annoying, unrelenting negativity in general and about the Bolats. We'll see what happens between the two now that they appear to be vying for Chef Alexander's attention. Nesilhan just cracks me up when she's portraying Aydan play acting, the stilted voice she takes on is always hilarious to me, like when Ayfer was introducing "Aisun" to Serkan.  As we move forward, though, I want to see some badass Aydan. She  was introduced to us as a force of nature, so I hope we see that woman, a woman who will go to the mat for her son and Eda, emerge at some point. No hiding from Babaanne long term. Everyone needs to gear up to fight!

Peril and Engin got married! Their scene at home was really well done and gave me a bit better insight into them and why they might work. The only thing I was disappointed about here was that Serkan was not their witness. He counts them as some of his only friends and they didn't call him? Come on, show!  They could have easily structured the ep to have him get the call while there was chaos at his loft that morning and it would have been the perfect excuse for him to grab Eda and head to the wedding leaving the moms and Babaane to Chef Alexander.  It wouldn't have changed anything about the episode because Eda still could have gone to do her thing after the wedding and everything else would have been the same, except it all would have had a bit more heart. Missed opportunity there. 

I've decided that Ferit is a catch. At the beginning of the show he was just so naïve, that he seemed foolish, but he's really turned into a sweet, upstanding man. You hold on to him, Ceren. The irony in his relationship with Serkan is just outstanding to me, because ALL of this started because Serkan was willing to upend his own life (and Selin, Ferit and Eda's) will the sole goal of keeping Ferit out of his business, and now here we are 24 episodes later, Selin is long gone, Eda is the love of his life, and Ferit has turned into a solid, trust-worthy business partner and friend who is putting Babaanne in her place on the first day. Love to see it. 

Balca, that snake just gets more unhinged as we go along. Good GAWD. WTF is wrong with her? Her eventual comeuppance better be big. I'm really to the point that I can't enjoy any scene that she's in, it's just too maddening, because neither Serkan nor Eda are taking her seriously enough. Which I realize they don't know what we know, but dang I hope Serkan is finally connecting the dots because her behavior is not normal. As Eda says, who gives a gift like that to their boss? Who calls their new boss instead of the police when there's an intruder in the house?  By now he should be able to figure out she's manipulating him.  

Also how was she not daunted when she called and Eda was there?  What did she think would happen when he came to get the gift when he had Eda to get home to? On top of everything else she's shameless and delusional.  As for the gift, that was creepy AF. Did she seriously think that her boss, who she's known a week, would be romanced by that?  Or any man for that matter? Did Selin give her the impression he was so arrogant that this would be the perfect thing for him? As much as I want less of her on screen, I would like to know the thought process behind that embarrassing monstrosity. Because it was not a savvy move. But the good news is that no one was more creeped out by it than Serkan Bolat. It seemed to really unsettle him, which it should. It was nice to see Eda getting over her jealousy, perhaps that came with her decision to try and move forward. Before she was in this state of flux, deep-down wanting Serkan to be hers, but not being able to admit that and feeling an outside threat during that confusion. 

I saw some criticism of Eda because she was openly mocking and dismissive of Balca. However, while I agree her behavior was a tad immature at times... Balca was totally asking for it.  She's been at the company for mere days and her weird, manipulative, obsessive behavior is totally inappropriate. Also if she didn't take a hint from Eda opening mocking her, Eda picking out her gift from Serkan, Serkan deferring queries about his NYE plans to Eda, Eda being at his house when Balca called, I think we can safely say that Balca in unaffected by any of Eda's behavior, thus Eda isn't hurting anyone. While Balca is over here, claws out, trying to start a war. Balca is the villain here, not Eda for recognizing and making fun of it.

Despite the emotional inconsistencies between Eda and Serkan in this episode, during one scene they were hot, the next, one or the other was cold without rhyme or reason, there were many great conversations. I really enjoyed their conference room scenes in particular. Serkan confident and calming her down, Eda being enraged by Babaanne, but listening to him and letting him calm her down. 

His little Eda Bolat coffee cup gag was priceless, he did succeed in both diverting her and flirting with her in one suave move. Also a nice bit of foreshadowing there, which there was a lot of this episode. Not just this and the bouquet catch, but also every single one of their domestic scenes. 

As I said in this post, the rewrite, or whatever happened this episode, did cause some pretty big emotional inconsistencies from scene to scene. I know most people loved the scenes when Eda went to find Serkan, but it was a little whiplashy for me.  We go from Serkan being calm and collected and happily flirting with her about being Eda Bolat at the office, to a short time later him being moody and standoffish with her at his house? It's understandable that he would be upset at her suggestion that she leave the company, but I would think the man that broke her heart for her own good, would understand why she might think of  leaving in order to get rid of someone who is threatening him! 

It just felt like a weird time for him to hit his threshold with her, especially since this was when they were supposed to be heading to Paris (huge writing fail that there was no "Oh I guess we have to postpone Paris" throwaway line).  However, perhaps that was accelerated for him in the face of a real threat?  Like if it was just another day he's fine with her waffling and their little contract game, but he feels in his bones that this is go time and he needs to find out if she's ready for what's coming?  (Look at me finding reasons for the inconsistencies as I answer this ask, lmao).

Then the shaving scene was interesting. She starts by saying "Leaving was a dumb idea, I'm still here, I'll be by your side," which YAY and seems to me to be a huge step forward for her.... but then he doesn't feel it. Why exactly, didn't he feel it?  So then she transitions to the biggest head scratcher of the episode for me, and I really hope it's a translation fail. She basically references the movie they saw and says,  "If I could erase all memories of you, I would." Um... what? Is she really saying to him she wishes they never met? I sure hope there was some modifier in there, like "bad" memories only or something. It seemed way harsh and inconsistent with their feelings for one another. However, once he starts talking about being a machine before meeting her and his heart being too heavy without her, the dialogue is pretty great. He really bares his soul and she reciprocates with intimacy.  The second half of this scene is absolutely lovely. 

The visit to Aydan's house was interesting.  At some point I'm gonna need Aydan and especially Ayfer to step up when it comes to Babaanne.  Ayfer ran scared the whole episode and it's just not fair of her to leave the burden on Eda. Hopefully, she'll get there. There was a reason Babaanne told Eda not to tell Ayfer about the threats, and threatened harm to Serkan and family if she did so. I'm guessing Ayfer may be better equipped to deal with her mother than was suggested in this episode. The conversation about Eda running from her grandmother as a child and losing the bracelet was very affecting and well done, and thankfully Serkan was out of his sulky mood and in full-on supportive boyfriend mode. Phew, good to have you back, Serkan.

That throne Babaanne brought in was something else. Worth a good laugh. However, I feel like it highlights a few cracks we've already started to see in Babaanne's scary façade. First, there's the one I just talked about, with Babaanne not wanting Ayfer to know what she's up to, so we now know who might be successful in opposing her or might know things that could shut her down.. her daughter. Then this ridiculous throne move had to be her way of unsettling everyone, but as we see that fails with Serkan. He's pretty unflappable when it comes to her nonsense antics. 

Then Babaanne singles out Balca as her ally, which on one hand, it was astute of her to figure out who was the outsider, ripe for the picking, but she straight up choose the wack job, who let's face it, is not going to be all that competent of a foot soldier for her, because she has no allies and she's not in anyone's confidence. Plus she made that critical error with the present being so off-putting to Serkan. Balca might be able to cause problems, but she can’t get Serkan to transfer his affection for Eda onto her, so her usefulness here is limited. Babanne needed to try and fool someone like Melo, Ferit or Leyla. Prey on the nice ones who might try to be accommodating just so everyone gets along. 

Anyway, I loved the Edser scenes in the office, he brought her lemon water! My heart.  And I loved the meeting with the inner circle. Serkan has a plan! Of course our boy does, he wouldn't be Serkan Bolat if he didn't. It's always fun to see how much they all trust him to lead them through these tough times. He will once again emerge victorious. It just may take some time on this one

Note Blaca wasn't invited to that meeting, someone already can sense she can't be trusted. In the meeting later with Babaanne, I loved how Eda was sitting next to Serkan at the head of the table, totally squared off against her grandmother. That blocking was not by accident. It showed them facing her. On the same side. Together. United. That's what we call foreshadowing and that's how they're ultimately going to defeat her. Together. 

It's interesting to me that earlier in the day when Eda tells him maybe she should leave the company he gets upset, but when she shows up at his house and straight up says they can't be together, he's completely calm and is his normal confident self, talking her into staying the night with his usual ease. I'm thinking her manic rambling about him getting tired of her and her grandmother separating them was just too obvious of an emotional spiral after an exhausting day (that lasted 47 years and multiple wardrobe changes) so he didn't take any of it to heart.

As for the reason she needed a place to stay, WTF is Ayfer doing letting Babaanne stay in their home??  Kick her out for the love of God. I don't mind, since it gave us this fabulous sleepover, but come on woman, at one time you were strong enough to remove your niece from her which could not have been easy, where is your backbone now? Find it. Fast. 

LOVED LOVED LOVED every second of domestic Edser. How cute are they? Serkan wheeling her dinosaur suitcase was so adorable. And how cute is it that he bought hot chocolate for her? And THEN, THEN when they went to look at the stars? My heart melted clean out of my chest when he said, "I'm already looking at the most beautiful star."  Remember in 13 when he asked her, "How are you real?" and she basically told him to be careful or she'd get spoiled and expect that kind of romance all the time? Well apparently the romantic robot has an endless capacity to generate heart-stopping one-liners so she really needn't have worried. 

Eda's phone call with the girls was another whiplash moment for me. So wait... all episode her trepidation has been around her grandmother interfering or Serkan getting tired of her, but now she's back to wondering if he can change? Ne? And she isn't articulating what she wants him to change, or talking to him about change at all, only asking her friends if they think it's possible?? The change thing made perfect sense to me in eps 20-22, because she was coming off of his lie that broke her heart, but now I can't figure out what she wants from him. I think this is another casualty of whatever writing changes happened in this episode. I really hope the writers pull it together and figure out what the character's headspace is and stick with it. It's one thing to yo-yo from episode to episode, but to yo-yo scene to scene is too much. 

I know that they're trying to create suspense for whether she would meet him to ring in the New Year, and start fresh, but there are much more elegant ways to do this than constant retread conversations that don't make sense in context with the scenes that came before. Honestly, this episode had a LOT of wonderful scenes and humor and heartfelt moments, but it also felt like a franken-episode,  like if different writers were assigned different scenes and then they assembled the episode without going back to smooth out the tone and emotions.

That leads us to Serkan discovering Eda in the bath. What do we think was going through his mind there? lmao. He looked exceptionally pleased and he did the jokey flirty thing, taking a mental picture, but then when she comes downstairs in her jammies, he has gone into stone-cold work robot mode. I suppose the best I can guess is that he knew she was confused, he knew he had convinced her to stay under the guise it would be platonic and the "last time." 

He's always been a gentleman with her. So perhaps he felt compelled, for her sake, to keep it in that place, but seeing her in the bath send him into overdrive and the only thing he could do is throw himself into work to make sure the situation didn't go any further before she was fully ready? That's my best attempt at explaining it.  Still she was flirting hardcore with him when she came downstairs, it feels like that was the moment he's been waiting for since episode 19, and he let it sail by.  Ah well, at some point soon both their engines will be revving at the same time and we’ll finally get to the sexy times. 

The next morning was 100% adorable. Serkan Bolat serving breakfast in bed. I swoon!  What a sweetheart, because I'm pretty certain that Serkan does NOT like crumbs in his bed so this was a big gesture. And you could see how much she appreciated it, despite teasing him about the portion size. Eda, that breakfast would have been just fine by me, but if the girl has a big appetite, so be it.

Also, Edacim, it would be a lot easier to buy your "confusion" if you hadn't brought him a heartfelt gift that would have taken a good while, like weeks, to procure and then sketched in it for him!!!!  She had to have been planning that for some time.  Anyway, a very sweet gift and one of those moments where actions speak louder than words. We all want to hear Eda say the words "I Love You," but she just said it very loudly here in the form of this gift. Even if she wasn't fully aware she was saying it. It's obvious where her heart is, she just has to give herself permission to follow it.

This ep also brought the funny when half the cast of characters barged in on Edser’s little love nest. Good for both Eda and Serkan for refusing to be a part of the subterfuge for Babaanne. I'm hopeful we're going into a secret relationship/engagement storyline, but at this point I like that neither were cowing to her. Eda is an adult and it's nobody's business but her own where she stays the night! 

It cracks me up that Eda and Serkan were discombobulated by the intrusion, had the silent #married conversation, and headed upstairs together. Mostly because they are the two in the dark, what are they going to figure out by going upstairs alone? What they really needed was to talk to any of the other people to find out what in the hell was happening. Not that I blame them for wanting to escape that scene together. However, what was beautiful was their connection in these scenes. They were functioning as partners, as each other's person, as the one each turns to when they need support (or escape).  And that's really saying something since they were in a room full of the people they're both closest too.

Finally, I'm glad they spoiled the final scene in the fragman, because I would have been too stressed watching Balca's psychotic efforts in keeping Serkan away from the party, and Eda, if I hadn't known he would make it.  As it was, it  was too much to watch. They've done absolutely nothing to make her even a little sympathetic. I feel zero empathy for her, I don't understand why she's willing to take these risks. No man is worth it, girl! Especially not a man you just decided you wanted because of his initials!  The character needs to serve her purpose and go. Soon.

As for Serkan making it in time, THANK GOODNESS. I don't think Eda could have handled being stood up again. Even taking her call was a mistake. That's why we have voicemail, Serkan. And clearly he should have called the police on his way. I sincerely hope that he finds out the break-in was a fake and that's what makes him realize what level of crazy he's dealing with. I assume, because he didn't know what else to do, he left Balca in his home and that's what he wanted to tell Eda right before the police arrived. I shudder to think what damage she might do there alone. Installing a hidden mic or camera for Babaanne? Going through his things? Planting more items. Ew. If that spec is right the place will need to be fumigated.  

Serkan's gift was, of course, perfection. Talk about love in gift form, and did you notice that one of the charms was an "E" and one was an "S"? A sweet, heart-felt detail and a nice little nod to which initials really matter on this show.  Interestingly, after a full episode of inner turmoil, once Serkan arrived, Eda seemed to be all-in. She was bubbly and happy to see him and definitely acting like he was her date. And then the hug! Finally! They've obviously been physically close in recent post-break up episodes, for example elevator, pottery, dancing, skating, but what a relief to finally have this pure, intentional display of affection from her to him. Also a cheek kiss! This show, I swear it makes me grateful for the most chaste of moments.

As I said in another ask, I think the, "Will you be my girlfriend?" was in Serkan's head. We didn't see him say it, she didn't respond and the audio was hollow like it was a thought or memory or dream. However, what I can't answer is why we heard that. Why put it in there? We know he wants them to get back together, so that line doesn't inform the audience of anything they don't already know. So maybe proposal foreshadowing?  On the other hand, there is the line earlier in the episode that was voice over added after the fact (when Edser are in the small conf room and Serkan says he’s going home) so maybe they added the audio after the scene for some reason? I don’t know with this episode anything is possible. 

Then, of course, Babaanne ruins their moment with her evil plan. Next episode will she be sitting on her throne stroking a hairless cat Because it feel like Babaanne may like a bit of evil aura to surround her. Anyway, next stop... jail! I'm honestly excited to see how the next ep plays out. We're going to go through some things, so prepare your soul, but I honestly think we may end the ep in a better place. (new cliffhanger notwithstanding) We shall see. 

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(requested by calligomiles)

The general was minding her own business, walking through the line in the cafeteria, when she noticed a commotion: Ceobe, at the pantry door, talking to an exasperated Gummy. After the day she’d had, Zima was in kind of a brawling mood, so she stepped out of line to approach when there was a tap on her shoulder. “What?” She growled, turning around-

-to find Projekt Red shaking her head. “I’ll take care of her.”

“You don’t tell me what to-” Mid-sentence, the Lupo bolted away. “-do. Grr...Huh? Wait, she’s-”

“But Red, I’m hungry.” The specialist had grabbed Ceobe’s hand and was pulling her away.

She nodded. “You’ll get food, but you can’t go that way. We have to go through the line.”

“We do?” The Ceo-berus sighed. “But that means waiting, Red.”

“If you don’t wait, I won’t brush your tail.”

That seemed to be the ticket. “Aww...I’ll wait with you.”

“Good girl.” Red scratched behind her ear, which perked the Perro right up again. “Now let’s go.”

“Okay!”

Zima watched them pass by as they walked to the back of the line before eventually redirecting her attention to the front. After grabbing her food and sitting down to eat (by herself - Gummy was working in the kitchen, and Istina was in the Doctor’s office as usual), she wondered to herself how Red had gotten that power over Ceobe. She’d said something about not ‘brushing her tail,’ but everyone knew that Perro was a bottomless pit when it came to food, so the idea that someone could slow her down...She didn’t need food, she needed answers, and so she waited.

When Red and Ceobe walked out of the line to sit down, the general called them over. “Hey, Red! Come ‘ere.”

“Is she mad?” The Perro asked her girlfriend as they walked over. “She was very loud when she said that.”

“No, she just wanted to make sure we heard her. You called?”

The Ursus gestured to the empty chairs next to her. “Sit with me. I wanna talk to you.”

“Can Kay join us?” After receiving a nod, the pair sat at the table. “What are we talking about?”

“Are the two of you a couple? I’ve never seen another person get Kay to listen to them so easily.”

Red nodded, and after inhaling her food as usual, Ceobe set her head on the Lupo’s shoulder. “Yes.”

“For how long?” Zima didn’t remember seeing them together before.

“A few days.” She scratched behind Kay’s ears, which set her...purring? It was Kay, weirdness was bound to happen sometimes. “I like tails, she likes that I like her tail, we kissed and now we’re dating.”

...Why was life so easy for some people? “It was that simple for you?”

“Does it need to be harder?” The Lupo was watching the general intently as her girlfriend proceeded to eat her food as well.

“Maybe not for the two of you.” She spun a fork around in a pile of noodles and stabbed through a meat cube as well. “I’m just impressed.”

Ceobe, now finished with two plates’ worth of food, looked around Red to eye Zima’s tray. “Impressed? Will you give us a treat?”

“Why would I-”

“Kay.” There was an admonishing tone in Red’s voice. “Did you eat my food, too?”

The Perro’s ears fell. “I was still hungry...”

“I need to go back to the line. Be careful, Zima; she might eat your food, too.”

“I’ll watch her.” The general smiled. “I guess I was wrong about who’s in control here.”

As the Lupo left to get another meal, Kay moved to the seat next to Zima, her intentions entirely written on her face. “You eat much faster than Red.”

“Force of habit...Do you think I’m gonna share?”

“Um...no!” Yes. “Are you someone’s couple?”

That wasn’t how that question was asked, like, at all, but she understood what the Perro meant. “No, I’m not.”

“Why not?”

“...A lot of reasons.” This was not the way she wanted to get into her life’s story, not by a long shot. “Are you gonna keep asking about it?”

Bless her heart, Ceobe actually thought about it for a moment; the gears turning in her head were visible. “Um...can I have a treat if I don’t?”

“What do you mean by a treat?”

“When I do something Red likes, she gets me a snack later.” Her eyes lit up at the thought. “Will Zima give me snacks for being good?”

The general looked at her for a moment, somewhat in disbelief, before sighing. “Don’t ask me about couples for the rest of lunch, and the next time I see you, I’ll get you something, okay?”

“Yay! I’ll be good!”

“Sure.” Still, the earnestness in Kay’s voice made it hard to doubt she would try…“Do you and Red do everything together?”

Ceobe started to shake her head, stopped herself, and then resumed shaking her head. “Almost, but not everything.”

“Well, yeah, there’s some stuff you can’t do together, but besides that.”

“Umm...yeah!” She started listing things, tapping her fingers as she counted. “We eat, we play, we sleep, we read, we beat up bad guys...Yep, that’s everything!”

Zima blinked. “You read together?”

“Mmhmm! Red knows how, and she’s teaching me, too!”

“Wow. I’m happy for you, then.” Mostly, sort of. “Hmm...”

Kay cocked her head. “You’re more sad than happy.”

“Don’t worry about it.”

“But Red worries when people are sad, and I want to be like Red.” She moved in closer, her head hovering around the general’s shoulder. “Will you tell me why? Please?”

She did ask nicely, but it was still too much to deal with right now. “Not today. Have a good time with your girlfriend.” With that, Zima got up from the table and left, leaving her tray there with a mostly-eaten serving of pasta.

“But...but I asked nicely...” The Perro sat back in her seat, pouting, as she waited for Red to come back.

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Hello again, me.

“...You. Again.” Zima was having another of her lucid nightmares. “Every night, we do this, and you tell me nothing I don’t already know. It’s getting old.”

That’s not my problem, is it? You just don’t want to learn from your mistakes.

“I’ve learned plenty from my mistakes.”

Then why didn’t you tell her? What’s so fucked up about you she couldn’t know?

…”Go away.”

Why should I?

“Because you’re not...hmm.”

...Where did you get that jacket?

“I don’t know...but it’s nice and warm.” In her dream, she was now wearing a familiar-looking coat. “Wait, I recognize this...sort of...”

“Should we wake her up?” A voice whispered near her ear. Wait, was that Kay?

Red’s voice followed suit. “Shh. Let her try to sleep.”

“What are they-” She bolted upright in her bed, and next to her were the two hounds. “What...why are you here?”

“...I wanted to help you sleep better. Kay followed me.” The Lupo was rather sheepish about it - she’d smelled the fear from earlier in Zima’s nightmare chain and had dashed back to her room to change out of her work clothes, and Ceobe had simply refused to let her go alone.

The Perro hugged the general. “You need friends to sleep better at night.”

“What makes you think that?” More accurately, how did she know? “And why would this be okay?”

“Your axe told me.”

If there was more light in the room, the steam coming out of her ears might’ve been visible. “You touched my axe?!”

“No, but it talked to me anyway.” Ceobe rubbed her lower ear. “It was really loud, and talked really fast.”

“We can leave, if you don’t want us here.” As she said that, Red’s tail drifted along Zima’s arm.

That single moment of contact...complicated things. “...Kay isn’t wrong, I just...fuck it. Go, stay, whatever.”

“Yay!” The Perro’s embrace tightened, to the point that the general had to lay back down. “Zima can go back to sleep now.”

“It’s not that simple-” As she protested, however, Red completed the General Zima Sandwich (now available in footlong or six-inch), and after a bit of adjusting...peace came far more easily than expected.

[logical-little-lies]

Challenges for The Cookies- Little Vlogs (Chapter Eight)

A/N: This is like, a fairly short chapter. I apologize for any typos or whatever, and the fact that I haven't updated this story in two weeks. I hope you guys like it though, it's my first time actually showing them recording a video for the channel, which is weird because Patton's channel is such a huge element/plot device in this book. Anyways, hope y'all enjoy!

Chapter Summary: Patton acquires his boyfriend and two crushes to participate in a video challenge for his channel. Many shenanigans and cute clips ensue.

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"But-...Daddy said that I'd get to do it!" Patton pouted, looking at Virgil. Patton had started this video big, and was obviously regressed before they really got into the video plan. He knew that if needed, he could be big for a whole video. But the whole point of being open as a little online was that he didn't need to do that.

"And daddy is now saying to let Vee do it," Logan decided, taking the package from Patton and giving it to Virgil. Patton was pouting over opening a box, as if it really mattered that much. Virgil tried to take it from him because he was obviously in the mindset of a toddler, and he'd get frustrated if he couldn't open it quickly.

"Yay!" Patton cheered once the box was open, and Virgil handed it back to him.

"You never told us what we are supposed to be doing for this video," Roman spoke up, leaning so that he was looking at Patton from the other side of Logan.

"You didn't!" Virgil's eyes widened, "You just turned on the camera with no explanation. What the hell did we sign up for?"he narrowed his eyes, somewhat worried that the toddler-minded boy had pulled them into something crazy.

"No cursing around the little," Logan motioned to Patton, before looking at the boy, "But yes, what are we doing?"

"We're decorating pacis again, because you guys-" Patton pointed directly into the camera with a giggle, "said dat you guys liked it last time!"

"So is that what's in the box? Some plain pacis?" Logan didn't track whatever Patton ordered for videos, so he wouldn't know for sure. He trusted Patton not to spend money on stupid things.

"yes, yes, yes!" Patton bounced a bit in place, "But dis time, we are making them however the cookies want!" Patton absolutely loved referring to his fans as 'the cookies', he thought it was cute and creative, and they seemed to like it.

Patton started explaining the rules of the challenge, "okay, here's how dis is gonna work. Three of us are given very simple requests for decorative pacifiers, all from the cookies, and then the fourth will judge them when we are done! Oh, and it's on a scale from 1 to 10, and the highest scorer wins and gets to be the judge to the next round!" Patton spoke really fast, somehow not stumbling over his words whatsoever, and continuing to speak in his cute little voice.

They split up to grab the pacifier decorating supplies, setting up what they needed on the coffee table. "Twinkle, twinkle, little star, how I wonder what you are! Up above the world so high..." Patton sung softly, setting the Generation One pacifiers in a neat row across the coffee table. Logan, who stood behind the tripod, used the camera and zoomed in on Patton, who looked up.

"Hello, Daddy! And hi to all da cookies too!" he scrunched his nose,giggling a bit. He set down the pacifier in his hand before softly waving at the camera.

"You gonna finish your little song, Pat?" Virgil questioned, setting tubes of super glue on the table, next to the small organizers of plastic gems and letter beads. There were three of them, and they were divided into little squares, each square holding different colors of plastic gems, letter beads, or charms to go on the centerpieces.

"Oh! Um...up above the world so high, like a diamond in the sky. Twinkle, twinkle, little star," Roman joined in and sang with him softly, Logan putting the camera on Virgil for a bit before zooming out to catch both of them.

"how I wonder what you are!"

Patton looked at the camera, thinking after a few moments. "Do nursery rhymes have copyright? I hope not..." he seemed confused, and more aware that there was a camera on him.

"I can confirm, nursery rhymes do have copyright, but most of them have passed into the public domain-" Logan started talking from behind the camera, getting interrupted by Roman, who was returning to the living room with smaller plastic gems.

"Shut up with your facts or whatever, we are gonna start the challenge!" Roman climbed onto the couch before lowering himself on the ground, between where Roman and Patton were sitting.

"Patton asked a question and I was just replying to it!" Logan defended, pointing the camera at Roman, who stuck his tongue out.

"Patton asked a question and blah blah blah. Can't you see we have a challenge that is much more important to begin?" he mocked Logan voice for a bit before quickly dividing up the smaller plastic gems between the three dividers. After a few seconds of silence, Roman looked up at the camera and laughed,

"Sorry Lo, I'm joking!" he apologized quickly, giving a soft pout as he waited for a response.

"You better be, little prince." Logan teased, Roman rolling his eyes and ignoring him.

Patton spoke up before any of them could say anything, "Okay! So the first paci request is...." he scrolled on his screen, his eyes glancing over a few words before he read them aloud, "From babykitten14 on twitter, 'how about a space theme?'"

The gears in Roman's head seemed to be turning, his eyes glancing between the different supplies in front of him quickly. "I can definitely work with a space theme." he assured, obviously excited to attempt to win this little challenge.

"Okay, let me set the timer!" Patton started tapping on his phone, Virgil's eyes widening.

"We're being timed?!" he seemed panicked, obviously thrown off.

"Yeah, I wasn't aware we had a time limit!" Roman dramatically exclaimed, both of the other boys obviously taking this more seriously now.

"Mhm! I thought that was obvious....have you never watched a youtube challenge, ever? If you don't set a time limit, the video will never end!" Patton set his phone in front of him on the table, speaking calmly as the other boys seemed a bit stressed now. It was a simple challenge, and they were probably exaggerating a bit for the camera, but they were being TIMED? This was absolutely outrageous.

...Okay, not really, but a bit shocking. "How long do we get, then?" Roman questioned, looking over at Patton. Logan stayed silent, just standing behind the camera and recording their interactions.

"Ten minutes!" Virgil and Roman's eyes widened, but before they got the chance to protest, or ask for more time, Patton started the timer and they immediately started grabbing different supplies. Throughout the video, they held four rounds of this challenge. Roman managed to win the first, with a simple dark purple pacifier with silver and white gems, the button being decorated with a black star charm. He spelled out, "Baby Star" on the handle.

Virgil ended up shyly asking if he could have the pacifier Roman made for the first round near the end of the video, and of course, Roman handed it right over. The next round had to do with a 'royal theme', and all three of the contestants made pacifiers related to princes. Roman declared Patton's baby pink pacifier, with dark red and gold gems, as the winner. On the button, was a little red crown sticker, and the handle read 'little prince'. Patton offered it to Roman, and he took it.

The third round simply was supposed to follow a "pastel theme". Patton probably would've won that one if he wasn't the judge. Logan won it though, and that pacifier went to Patton. The final round was supposed to follow a 'edgy baby' theme. As expected, Virgil won that round by a landslide.

Patton had them sit down to close out the video. "Okay, so each of us won one round. That's pretty good, I think!" Patton said, looking at Logan beside him on the couch, who nodded. "I want to clarify that all the pacifiers made today, besides the ones we claimed for ourselves, will be going to some of my agere friends, so they aren't going to waste at all!"

"Who is gonna claim the messy pacifiers that we had ten minutes to make?" Roman questioned from the other side of Patton. Virgil smacked his arm, rolling his eyes.

"I'm sure someone will," Virgil assured. "Most of them aren't that bad."

"Yeah, says the 'pince' paci." Roman rolled his eyes, teasing Virgil for his mistake earlier. Virgil somehow managed to forgot the 'r' during the Royal Pacifier round, and Roman had been teasing him endlessly about it throughout the video. Patton laughed before finally saying his outro and moving to turn off the camera.

All of the boys could genuinely say that they enjoyed filming videos for the channel, and the fans could say that they liked watching the content. It was a win-win situation, and Patton got to keep doing what  he loved with the man...

with the men he loved.

Yeah, all three of them definitely had a special place in his heart, they all cared for him endlessly. He liked that they genuinely cared about each other, too.  And the fact that they were willing to give up time to take part in his little hobby, and that they'd do almost anything to make him happy?

He liked that even more.

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A/N: aka, patton has fallen in love with an idiot prince and his emo internet best friend. anyways, the next chapter might be more agere based, continuing to follow the path of logan getting to know the others while little (ft. lots of cute fillers and logan being a good cg). then I will loop back to the romance part and maybe write in a few more dates before I make them “officially” begin dating and what not. okay i’m done spoiling the plot of future chapters, but I hope y’all liked this one! Feel free to sends asks to my inbox with reactions to this chapter and stuff, I’d appreciate it!

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