#things that change the geometry of my brain

[purplecladmerchant]

I think about this fanfic so much....

[strawberrymanifest]

Finally accepting the 3D never mattered

If you’ve been wondering how to ignore the 3D and accept 4D/imagination as the only reality without neglecting the 3D or living in denial, then this is for you.

This post is heavily inspired by this post by @4dbeingguide so check it out after.

This part of their post made “ignore the 3D” click for me and what I’m going to be building on:

“what if what i’m doing won’t make anything manifest in the 3D?” then boo-fucking-hoo? it wouldn’t even matter because that’s not where you live. you’re 4-dimensional. […] think about this question: “what if it doesn’t manifest in the 2D (a world of only length and width)?” i bet you’re like “womp womp? the fuck would that have to do with me? it’s not real and I don’t live there!” give that SAME energy to the 3D. you live in the 4D.”

So if we remember geometry class, we understand that the 2D is a hypothetical world of only length and width. (Think of a square). And the 3D is our world, with length, width, and depth. (Think of a cube)

The 3D takes the 2D and adds another dimension; depth. Likewise, the 4D takes the 3D and adds another dimension; your inner world of thoughts, beliefs, and assumptions.

So when we say 4D/imagination/inner self is the true reality, we can still acknowledge that 3D world exists! We just know that our reality is more than what the 3D is showing us. Let me explain.

You have never experienced a 3D circumstance without your mind generating some kind of assumption about that circumstance. For example, if you see a red round fruit your brain automatically assumes that it is an apple (or it assumes idk what that object is).

You cannot see the 3D without automatically assuming something about it. In this way, you have never “experienced the 3D”. You can only experience the 3D + assumptions of it aka the 4D. The 4D/imagination is your only reality.

You don’t live in 3D, you perceive it from the 4D.

The 3D is real. But what it’s showing us doesn’t matter once we see that the 4D, our thoughts and assumptions about the 3D, are the only thing that we truly experience.

You are not experiencing difficult circumstances. You are experiencing difficult thoughts and assumptions about the circumstances.

See the difference? See how this frees us from caring about the 3D?

Anytime a 3D circumstance happens that is “against” your desire remember that the 3D is not telling you don’t have your desire. The 3D can’t tell you anything, it’s just a bunch of shapes and colors. It’s your unconscious reaction to the 3D that is telling you that you don’t have your desire. And that is something you can change.

You are experiencing your unconscious thoughts/reactions, and you are calling it “difficult circumstances”.

You need to stop, become aware of your reactions to the 3D. Realize the 3D is not what you’re upset about, your assumptions are upsetting you.

But you know about the law, so you can change what you assume. Affirm, visualize, accept that it is done, and persist, in spite of what your mind’s automatic reactions say.

To wrap it up:

I personally don’t subscribe to the idea that “the 3D isn’t real” bc of course it is we can literally see it. However I do believe that the 3D doesn’t matter because it is not what we truly experience.

If you still haven’t been able to let go of what the 3D is showing you it’s because you haven’t realized that the 3D isn’t what is bothering you. It’s your mind’s unconscious belief system that is producing unfavorable thoughts related to the 3D.

The reason you’re struggling is because you don’t realize that every thought you have is an assumption, not a fact. Once you become aware of this you see that all that needs to change is your thoughts/beliefs/assumptions. If you are struggling to “just change” your beliefs, I will be making a post on how to stop being a victim to subconscious beliefs very soon.

(This is my first long post so lmk if anything I said wasn’t clear, I’d love to answer any questions!)

[elodieunderglass]

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Fanfic ask game: https://www.tumblr.com/elodieunderglass/769295248269705216?source=share

“🎀 how do you decide when something is done?”

That’s such a good question, thank you! I know where I’m going with my (recent) fics because they’re all mechanisms.

They’re like a little clockwork item that I hand to you, and when you wind it up, it Does Something. It opens up to show you something inside, or it unfolds to be something else. Or it’s a puzzle box with something exciting. Sometimes it mostly just shows you how it’s made. Sometimes it’s a jack-in-the-box and the surprise is just that it goes “pop” and makes you laugh.

It’s important that the construction be witty. In addition to the overall mechanism working properly, it’s important to me that it be done in a stylish way. Even if I don’t pull this off, I know it’s done if it’s managed to meet the goal of the mechanism and also be a bit collectible and stylish.

This is how the jokes are supposed to go off in your brain:

Anyway, I know they’re done when the mechanism works!

Sharpe’s Daemon is a very quick character study set up so the last line hits like a punch: https://archiveofourown.org/works/58673878 It’s supposed to be satisfying and funny and make you go OH NO. I knew it was done because it does this! All the writing before the punchline is there to make the punchline happen. It was written with the ending in mind: once the ending was achieved, the fic was done, and ready to be served!

The absurdly ambitious Strange Pilgrims (Good Omens) is many things, but one of them is “two interlocking spirals, one black and one white. It is about how the universe, the depicted ship, and all the small things are also in this shape - the love between the characters being the same geometry as the underpinning physics of the galaxy etc etc etc” https://archiveofourown.org/works/19368694/chapters/46082842 so it SLIGHTLY bothers me that the earlier-written chapters are weaker and unbalanced it! Also, when they announced there was going to be a Good Omens season 2, I was so disgusted that I had to scramble madly to finish the damned thing early ( it initially had a shape that could support the development of a sequel. They would have been very pretty next to each other but MY 123k baby is a Pratchett love letter, not advertisement for some other guy.) that’s why it has the absolutely unhinged Choose Your Own Adventure multiple-ending mechanism, where you select a glitchy tarot card to get “your” ending, and you can choose to stop there or interlock it further. I have not seen that done before and I CAN SEE WHY PEOPLE DONT DO IT.

His Delicious Materials (Dungeon Meshi) https://archiveofourown.org/works/56658973/chapters/144024799 is a work in progress and actually has me puzzled because the intention of the mechanism may have changed! It was scoped as a gift, but - I am so touched by this - other people like it too, and I may have to do one route for the original recipient and another for the other readers. Like the person it’s for would enjoy a cuckoo clock, but the people reading it are going “oh this is a GREAT music box” and I’m like oh dang, it WOULD be a very effective music box.

Weasel Heart in Defiance (Dungeon Meshi but as an argument with Tolkien) https://archiveofourown.org/works/60074548/chapters/153284221 is going to be 125k in order to set up an ending scene in which - having spent 125k with these idiots in their silly world - you cry. And you go THANK YOU ELODIE I GET IT. And it sets off a Halfling Revolution in your heart. That scene’s already written, and the rest of it is just colouring in. That one is already done, basically.

[mortifry]

SEMI SACRED GEOMETRY and the significance of music in Prey (2017)?

I’m currently doing a deep-dive down the rabbit hole play-through for Prey (2017), for reasons, and I’ve noticed something awfully peculiar recently… am I desperately grasping at straws? Ummm probably… I’ve never been very present in gaming communities so I’m not sure if anybody has come across this/has talked about it yet… regardless… it’s very interesting…

When you get to the point where you have to collect voice samples of Danielle Sho for the main story quest “Gathering Echos,” one of the places you find her voice is in The Yellow Tulip (Did you know yellow tulips signify hope?). Danielle and her newly modded bandmate, Skye Braxton, preform a version of “Semi Sacred Geometry,” which is a banger btw

I felt compelled to look up the lyrics, which I did so via Spotify, since I figured that would probably be the easiest/quickest way (I already have the song favorited and whatnot) Now what is curious, and I could be completely wrong, but I am ALMOST CERTAIN, Is that the spoken lyrics to the song WERE definitely provided at some point on Spotify relatively recently—like I REMEMBER!!! (Maybe I’m remembering wrong? Dr. Calvino, are you in my brain?) Anyway, when I looked at it just a few days ago, the lyrics had changed (or they were always like that and I didn’t notice?) Either way, they are not the words sung in “Semi Sacred Geometry,” but in fact, the lyrics to a song from Dishonored 2 titled “Watery Grave.” Which like… fits so well in the context of Prey.

But wait

I’m not done

Curiously, I went through the album to hunt for other lyrics because surely if this song had changed, there must be something else I never noticed? Correct.

Both “Neuromods” and “Stranded” had lyrics attached to them… both also songs from Dishonored 2… weird? But also… fitting in the context of Prey…

“Neuromods” = “Jewel of the South”

“Stranded” = “Silver and Dust”

Could be a mistake, perhaps? I mean… both games were developed and published by Arkane Studios and Bethesda… so? Did someone make a mistake when adding lyrics to those tracks? But how could you make a mistake like that?

I think it was definitely done deliberately…

I think it was done deliberately because when looking at “Semi Sacred Geometry” and “Stranded,” you can see that their formatting is pretty much the same as the lyrics for the Dishonored songs, give or take… however, “Neuromods,” just kind of lacks formatting all together, compared to “Jewel of the South,” which even includes “♫” between a few verses…

What does it mean?

I decided to dive deeper and take a look at Musixmatch, which is where Spotify (and Apple Music) get their lyrics from… and found even more interesting stuff that left me with more questions than answers… When you look up “Neuromods,” only three tracks come up, and none of them are from Prey (2017).

> Not surprisingly, “Jewel of the South” from Dishonored 2 is one of the songs that appear, considering what I just said. But something I noticed, that might not necessarily be relevant is that the wiki page for Dishonored 2 states that the standard version of the soundtrack released in 2016 and the deluxe version released in 2017, but Spotify has the album listed in 2018? Hmmm….

> Next, “Different” by Shadrow (in album titled “Water Kerfuffalo,” 2017), which references Paraplexis and red-eye. It was posted on Shadrow’s YouTube specifically stating it was a Prey song but there are a few other songs on the “Water Kerfuffalo” album with lyrics that could also be fitting in the context of Prey…

> And last, my “more questions than answers…” track, “Neuromods” by Revengeday (in an album titled “Redux,” 2019). I cannot find this track anywhere to listen to. It’s possible that it’s hidden behind Revengeday’s subscription thing… which is a bit annoying as I try to dive deeper… but same as the last one though, there are a few other track titles listed on the album (on Musixmatch) that could also potentially be fitting in the context of Prey?

Grasping at straws? Hmmm probably, but it’s fascinating? This, with my recent thriftbooks.com discovery…

What does it all mean? Why is it even a thing that those Prey tracks have lyrics for songs from Dishonored 2? Why does it seem like nobody has talked about this?

I’m in deep, babe.

[erikraven]

Get to know your mutuals!

Tagged by @serpercival!

what’s the origin of your blog title? I am, in fact, the bird. Caw.

otp(s) + shipname(s): Within MASH, Hawkahy. I absolutely adore the dynamic I’ve found for them, which I like to call heaven and earth: Francis, taught to stay separate from the world and work within it while staying pure, and Hawkeye, who is incredibly bound to the earth, humanity, life and death. A large-scale example is in The Haunted 4077th, but I’m working on a shorter, more concise poetic piece called “of the flesh”, focused on all the meanings of the word carnal.

Favorite color: blue!

Song stuck in your head: I’ve listened to the entire Interdimensional Act III album by Seven about five times and it’s only been out for three days. My favorite from it is probably “Last Signal From The Collider”. Seven and Crywolf are good writing music for the kind of introspective, metaphysical writing I’ve been doing lately.

Weirdest habit/trait: I trill, hum, purr, and chirp as a substantial part of my verbal language when I’m around people that understand what the sounds mean.

Hobbies: writing, Minecraft, video editing, photobashing. Creative work, mostly.

If you could have any job you wish, what would it be? Data entry/records management. My brain puts everything into little boxes. My fanfic collection on Calibre has twelve custom columns.

Something you’re good at: Writing very visceral, sensory-heavy scenes. One of my wips has a scene of a spinal tap and my partner couldn’t finish reading in one shot.

Something you hate: Noise, eye contact, finger paints.

Something you collect: Fanfic, music. I used to collect web series, but then my laptop got stolen with five terabytes of data on external drives, and that kind of killed my interest in doing it. Still get twitchy whenever I see those “this video will be deleted in 24 hours” gimmicks.

Something you forget: I have no sense of time whatsoever. If I do not have a clock in front of me, time does not exist. (Except on very small scales, in which case I can tell if audio is one frame out of sync with video.)

What’s your love language? I genuinely don’t know, I don’t do ‘love’ stuff all that often. Spending time together?

Favorite movie/show: John Wick (any of em) and either MASH or Battlestar Galactica

Favorite food: salmon! Fry it til the skin crackles, singe the meat side, spritz with a little lemon juice, and eat.

Favorite animal: Birds! Birds, birds, birds. Special interest, hyperfixation, past life, whatever you wanna call it. My original species is part bird, and the avian side carries substantial traits into the human side. Learning about new species of birds fuels the OC factory.

What were you like as a child: Did not have a childhood. Have no awareness of myself ever being under the age of 14.

Favorite subject at school: Math! Especially geometry. Let me rotate the shapes in my head.

Least favorite subject: History.

What’s your best character trait? Creativity

What’s your worst character trait? Lack of strong sense of self. I have never formed an independent opinion in my life.

If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? I would like to stop living in a car.

If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? If I can talk to them and try to change how things went, my uncle (check out Napalm Sticks To Kids if you’re wondering why). If it’s just an interaction in a vacuum… hmm, I dunno. I’d like to talk to CS Lewis about his whole “the male sex is something given masculine gender, gender is more real than sex” thing.

Tagging @tuttle-did-it @quordleona03 @awholehoststan @nootnzoot cause apparently I only have four mutuals lol

[savingthrcw]

happy ooc thing (for ONCE lmao) so you can skip this! I was asked by a friend to make her a blog theme, and while at first I didn't think I could anymore because i didn't keep up with tumblr staff changing blog rules fifty times in a row, it turns out that some of my old themes still work perfectly, much to my shock, so I've been editing for a few hours and I got SO EXCITED you guys, I forgot how much I enjoy having """creative""" moments like "oh you know what, I can use the same selector so she can pick a color for an actual list in the theme editor and change the color of a bunch of things in her blog!"

and it feels so good to find out I was at least decent at something (I mean, the blog WORKS. Still! and it's responsive like when you zoom in/out it will move to fit the screen no matter how small: it's my @fandomele theme so you can check if you want!) and it also feels good to be excited in general, something that geometry made me forget (I'm trying to study it as a tutor, but brain problems with images + ptsd messing up my ability to keep something in mind while I have to work on it has discouraged me a lot, but I can't stick to algebra only if kids need help with everything).

So, basically, I'm happy about still having a bit of passion that hasn't been completely destroyed by either tumblr staff or my mind! (but roleplaying stays my favorite thing in the world, just sitting down and creating Situations and developing Relationships is the best thing ever for me!) (less favorite parts right now are the plotting bits because I'm too exhausted to do back and forth)

[myrmyrtheorca]

give me your favorite manga or anime of all time. NOW. like, the ones who changed you as a person. if you are okay with questions like that!

HELLO HI I RISE FROM THE GRAVE FOR THIS INCREDIBLE YAPPING OPPORTUNITY

fr tho thank you Lottie for asking me too despite my death apparent, this will be long, I'll put the honorable mentions first as to make it a little more interesting and KHR will be at the bottom for the same reason-

Honorable mentions!

Sailor Moon - love myself some female friendship and magical girls. And women who could kick my ass like Pluto.

Black Rock Shooter - as above, plus vague setting and cool transformations.

Fate series - ok hear me out. I haven't watched the anime and just started the VN, I mostly play the mobile game, but it's about history and there's cute girls in it. Peak.

The Vision of Escaflowne - COOL MECHAS (hasn't finished it)

Yuru Camp - CUTE GIRLS FRIENDHIP AND COZYNESS also relaxing music (hasn't finished it)

Serial Experiments Lain - what the fuck was that

Violet Evergarden - tears? tears in my eyes? stop???

Dungeon Food - I'd have put this above if I wasn't just at the second volume of it, holy shit this is so fun but I feel it will crush my soul soon

Neon Genesis Evangelion

Ah. Lord, NGE. The vagueness of its worldbuilding, the psychological aspects, the occult and religious simbology, and the GODDAMN MUSIC. If you like classical, epic and otherwordly music, I beg you to check out NGE's score even if you're not interested in the anime itself because Shiro Sagisu is a gift from the gods and one of the best composers of our time. The series is a masterpiece. People despise the movies but IMO they do exactly what a movie should do: entertain. Anno embraced the "I'll be cringe, but I'll be free" and went all out on them, as he should have. Also, there's Kaworu Nagisa. Look at him!

Steins;Gate

PLEASE. PLEASE DO AND DON'T DO THIS TO YOURSELF AT THE SAME TIME. I WAS NOT READY. This anime will take your heart, embrace it, warm it up, GRIP IT IN ITS HANDS, CHEW IT AND SPIT IT OUT. Admittedly I played the VN because I wanted to experience all endings and OH MY GOD. It's terrifying and emotionally damaging. I started playing the sequel (Steins;Gate 0) and I had to STOP because it's so gut-wrenching in all the good ways that I need to be in the right spot for it.

Bleach

talk about recent experiences. I live under a rock when it comes to popular anime most times, and I never had the occasion to watch Bleach until recently (still haven't technically finished it because I'm waiting for TYBW to finish releasing to watch it). I... don't know what it is about Bleach that I like so much, but it got me in a similar way to KHR, as in I think about it often against my will and I'm even considering creating an OC for it. I think it's the characters, because the story is pretty straightforward... yeah, yeah it's the fictional men again. Kubo makes handsome men who fight with swords and transformation and everyone has their own powerups and...hhhngh. Look at this batch of cookies.

Ah no, wait, there's Shiro Sagisu again as composer. Almost forgot. *dances aggessively to spanish guitars*

Dr. Stone

I'm not a science brain, totally the opposite. Math doesn't math, geometry is evil and chemistry is wizardry. BUT, I love things that TRY to teach me those things in a funny and accessible way. I still won't understand them, but it was fun trying! And Dr. Stone has that, it's the moment I realize I like it when things are explained to me in that way, especially through media. Plus, fun characters, emotional moments, and cool plot.

Katekyo Hitman Reborn

Fortunately or unfortunately depending on your opinion on the show, KHR was the first ever japanese piece of media (excluding videogames) I've ever consumed. Being a lonely and socially awkward human being, it soon became my personality. It was these fuckers who made me get into manga altogether, I started buying the volumes (but only up to Varia Arc because 1. I didn't have an allowance, everything was done with Christmas/Easter/birthday money and 2. I was so obsessed with the Varia that my goldfish brain lost interest mid Future Arc.) and from there I discovered the pleasure of physical copies. The show has never aired in Italy, so nobody knew what the fuck I was talking about. It was, as many others were for me, a very lonely experience. But it was also the first time I felt... unique? Like, "this is my special little treasure and nobody can take it from me" kinda thing. I was emotionally invested in this show and every small piece of merch I could find like my Varia character songs CD became some of my most prized possessions (UNTIL I STARTED GIFTING AWAY MY SET OF VONGOLA RINGS BECAUSE I WANTED TO BRIBE PEOPLE INTO LIKING THE SHOW) (YEAH THAT WAS. STUPID. BECAUSE IT OBVIOUSLY DIDN'T WORK. AND ONLY MADE ME FEEL MORE LONELY AND RINGLESS) Then, the falling off. I started playing an MMO that also shaped part of my personality and as you often do with things that remind you of lonelier times, I sold my volumes and stopped thinking of KHR... until recently, when I joined this fandom and the spark came back because fuck it I'll be cringe but I'll be free. I got my fair share of flack for hyperfixating on an old anime at 24 years old, but it's one of the best experiences I've ever had. So yeah. KHR was ultimately good for me.

[flanpucci]

An ASD oriented analysis of the character of Enrico Pucci

Okay guys after letting this draft cook in my notes for months, here it is!!!

I have decided to embark on the journey of listing the reasons why I think Pucci is autistic coded and if he isn’t, he’s written with a pretty good idea of what an autistic person is! Since I'm pinning this, the analysis will be under the cut ↓

I can’t guarantee that my analysis won’t come with a whole lot of general delusion or projecting on my side, so don't hesitate to tell me if you feel some type of way about this. I understand that many of the traits or behaviors i’m gonna talk about are mostly explained by the events happening in canon, but they give him a general super autistic vibe. Disclaimer that I’ve also decided to ignore most acts of murder type violence for this analysis as I think those are more relevant in the context of the story than the character building.

Although not on purpose this analysis is organized almost like diagnosis criteria, so we're going to look into repetitive behavior and interests, communication, aversion to unpredictability and sensory processing etc...! Before we start, I'd like to say once more that I am autistic, my analysis is mine and reflects my opinion only, it's my headcanon and comes with a lot of projecting, so proceed with caution.

Anxiety and counting prime numbers, Repetitive behavior

Counting numbers is a well known technique to stop panic attacks. The reason is that when you panic, your brain’s logical part doesn’t activate. Counting numbers will help you get the logical part of your brain back ‘on’. Simply counting numbers in order or in a simple pattern is too natural, and may not work, so some people will count numbers backwards from 100, count numbers in a non-patterned, random way, or even count prime numbers.

In Pucci’s case he counts primes because they can’t be divided other than by 1 or themselves and are “lonely numbers”. The prime numbers remind him of his own loneliness against adversity, and give him courage. I don’t think a lot of neurotypical people feel personal closeness to something unemotional like a mathematical concept, but I might be wrong. I think what’s interesting to note is that prime numbers are a fixed series of numbers, never changing, offering a great deal of familiarity in repeating them (and also by doing so out loud, in the sound of repeating them). He has also memorized them up to the hundreds, (maybe even thousands iirc?), which shows he has an amazing memory skill, but also that he’s probably counted them a LOT. (Funny anecdote, Oliver Sacks mentions in one of his psychology books a pair of autistic twins that would figure out prime numbers together, and use it as means of communicating and bonding. They were able to produce huge prime numbers without a table!)

It is just something I wanted to point out, but I think it’s funny that a priest wouldn’t recite prayers as a calming mantra, but something very cartesian like mathematics. This furthers the idea that he has a lot of interest and finds a peculiar comfort and understanding of the world in science.

Oh and I think resetting the entire universe for everyone to gain precognition of events COULD be considered as a liking for repetitive things… ! /j

His interests and the random trivia at unexpected times

Pucci seems to be a man of many interests but primarily these are science (especially biology, animals, maths/geometry and physics), Dio’s plan/heaven, christianism, art (paintings). At least that’s what I got from the manga. There aren’t a lot of characters for which you can easily lay out the interests in that manner. The reason for that is that he talks about those all the time! And he always uses metaphors related to what he knows about to explain the world, his intentions, or situations.

• The corridor scene where he meets Jolyne, it’s not like it’s random or out of the blue, but it feels a bit peculiar to bring up this subject in this manner, and Jolyne seems dumbfounded at what he said to her.

• When handcuffed to Jolyne, he starts explaining about the swallows that are prone to accidents to make a parallel between the birds and her own situation.

• References both a politician’s use of subliminal sex and a painting (the “Domine Quo Vadis”) in a dramatic moment where he’s literally ending his brother’s life.

• Seems to be particularly interested in art as shown by the book he was reading when he met Dio (about Fra Filippo Lippi, a painter) and the conversations he has with Dio (once again using art as a metaphor to understand other concepts such as stands, and souls.).

• Of course bringing up the subject of the man eating a mushroom for the first time at the most unstable point of the battle against Jolyne, feels very out of the blue, (but not out of context.)

• When talking to Miraschon, he does a whole bunch of inappropriated stuff lol, doesn’t pay attention to what she says, and starts talking about his own interests/ideas.

This happens again when talking to Donatello Versace, where he's bouncing off questions, not acknowledging the answer right away and coming back to it a little bit later. His train of thought seems to come first, and his communication is not centered around making the other feel like they've been listened to.

Overall he often makes a great point, but sometimes it feels like the context is lacking, like he has had many thoughts before saying the things he says, but we don’t get to hear them, so the conversation topics are a bit unnatural. Plus he generally has a very self-important way to talk and explain things.

Other than that I think his exceptional focus on the same goal and obsessive idea of fate, from childhood and up into late adulthood can be the sign of a truly one track mind, which can be often found in ASD. Could also be noted that a lot of his behavior and actions is copied/referencing Dio, which could be because of Dio’s literal influence (being absorbed by green baby), or an overall tendency to use direct references in speech/behavior.

Self importance and the desire of previsibility

As I just mentioned a little while ago, the Miraschon scene is a scene where he’s info dumping her for at least three pages, on two different subjects, but also not paying attention at what she’s saying. This is not very nice behavior, but it’s very frequent in autistic people too. Being centered on one’s self, and unable to put yourself in another person’s shoes is very characteristic of ASD.

Pucci’s motivation and his ideal of heaven makes a lot of sense from an autistic viewpoint for a number of reasons. The first one being the discomfort caused by the unknown, or at least the fact that he thinks the world would be a better place without unknown events. The desire to know everything in advance and be able to have the time to be prepared for it will resonate with a lot of autistic people, because our brains have so much trouble adjusting to unknown outcomes and situations. I can’t explain it much better, it’s just wiring.

Second reason is Pucci’s overall sense of self importance throughout the part. There are many situations in which he will put himself first, expecting better treatment, straight up explaining that he’s different than other people.

The frog scene is interesting because he tries to weigh logically why his situation is objectively worse than the guard’s, without acknowledging the slightest the guard’s panic when assessing such a stressful situation.

(Pucci thinks the guard takes decision based on logic and not panic, gets frustrated that the guard isn't calm and rational.)

His inability to see things from outside his viewpoint is ultimately what will lead him to try to push his own ideal onto the whole world, always sure inside himself that he’s doing that out of altruism and for the greater good. Of course I think there is a slight disconnect from his inner emotions about what has led him to this point. But for me, this is the truest sign of being unable to understand that other people might see things any other way than he does, but he’s just sure that people don’t understand that it’s for their own good. In a way, his self-centeredness is mostly intellectual and not of intentions. This is something that is often present in people with ASD, because of a lack of (or misplaced/altered) cognitive empathy. People with ASD can have trouble mentalizing other people’s emotions or point of view. It doesn’t mean that they don’t care, don’t respect it, or can’t show support, but they just can’t really understand that another person has another mental space.

Cognitive empathy is described as such :

Identifying and labeling the emotions, connecting feeling to cause, and reading the thoughts and perspective of others. Ability to read nonverbal communication and social context. Ability to read the mental experiences of others.

Pucci will often justify his lack of mind theory by « you just can’t understand it. » : from his view point, being opposed by other people is not due to divergence of opinion (which would mean to accept that other people understand the situation but are in a different mindset), but due to lack of intellectual comprehension. This is why even though very intelligent, it can seem like he’s confused.

Young Pucci and the scenes with Dio

An important thing to note about young Pucci is his inability to break the rule that priests can’t talk about what has been said in confession. He’s not even a priest at that time and the confession was forced on him. These are perfectly good excuses to break the rule, or at least bend it a little, to confront the Weather and then Weather/Perla situation. Hesitation or inability to break the rules, irreasonable attachment to morals and taking irrational decisions because of those despite having great intelligence is a trait that can be found in a lot of autistic people. However, we see that he’s flexible enough to permit that Dio stays in the church basement until the sun sets. In my opinion, he’s quick to give his trust to such a suspicious person as Dio, even when Dio hints that he might be lying. This could be the sign of a little bit of naivety but it's still pretty much normal at a young age.

In the chapters with Dio, we can extract quite a lot of information on Pucci’s communication because it’s the almost only scenes where he’s not in scheming mode, in a pinch, or fighting. Pucci has a very different reaction to meeting Dio, even at a young age, compared to how Avdol or the hunchmen describe their reaction to Dio for example. He’s not shocked or in awe, but not hostile either, which is unusual. Even when he talks about Dio in narration, he has a detached way of calling him beautiful and mysterious, which shows it’s obviously how he feels even though he stays calm at all times in front of Dio, even in dangerous situations.

Dio makes numerous observations about Pucci’s behavior, expression and communication. He seems relaxed and expressive, very different from the rest of what we see of him.

(Pucci 'making a face.')

Another important thing to note is the unusual way he communicates his love to Dio, using very profound words, with a lot of sincerity, without flinching. This genuine confession of a difficult emotion to confess even sets Dio aback.

(Probably having the most fun he’s had in his life here, and is that a smile!?)

Also, parallel play!! They’re shown having bonded profoundly, at the point of hanging out in bed together, but apart from chatting, they don’t really do things together like for example Hermes and Jolyne throw the ball with F.F., they’re doing stuff next to each other (Pucci watches Dio build his boat, and they read lying next to each other.).

(generally also seems kinda bad at picking up subtext)

Two words on sensory perception

(Pucci wondering about how pretty the green baby is, he really wants to know if it's not ugly fr.)

About sensory perception, it’s actually one of the first things I noted when watching the anime especially, he’s very curious about the green baby, and talks to F.F. about it, but as he says himself, he can’t get the “feeling” from a memory disc, and he wants to know how the green baby feels in a sensory kind of way. (Is it soft? is it beautiful?). Of course the many scenes where he purposely mutilates himself without even flinching could indicate that he has a very low perception of physical pain. Both these traits would indicate a very peculiar kind of sensory relationship to the world.

In this scene with Donatello he does state that he has an acute sense of taste, in response to Donatello describing with great precision ingredients in a dish.

(Having a little solo party and dropping trivia again.)

He also seems to feel the music strongly, even though the scene is meant to be comedic, he’s really into it and seems to have some sensory associations (visual/auditory) (also trivia dumping).

Although not directly a sign, the way he asks Dona to test his food because of allergy may also remind of many autistic people who have food allergies and aversions and get people to test food for them before eating.

Body language and facial expression

Pucci has a very specific kind of body posture, especially in the wrists, they’re always limp or twisted in some kind of way, similar to what autistic people might call “T-rex arms”. Araki is very talented at showing detail about characters in the strictly visual part of his drawings, so I think that’s important to note. In terms of facial expression, apart from with Dio, he seems pretty stoic and stern in most situations where he’s not under a lot of stress, almost never laughs or smiles, even in power high situations where other villains usually at least evil laugh for a couple seconds .

(Cute snapped wrist picture collection.)

End note about Weather Report

I just wanted to add a quick word on Weather. Weather Report without his memory disc is also extremely autistic coded. Walking on tip toes, talking in a very low volume not respecting personal space, when he is introduced, he seems super autistic. The reason is the lack of memory disc and consequences of being hung, but I personally think this adds to the overall neurodivergent feel of the manga. I’m also not sure of how much of his backstory was planned at first, and if or not Araki had planned his behavior because of his backstory or not at the point of his introduction scene :3

And there we have it!! I tried not to be too lengthy so I hope you understand my point. I don't think I've seen him being analyzed/hc as autistic a lot, especially compared to characters like Jotaro, but I think he shares some similarities with Kakyoin who is very ND coded too! I would also like to point out that I don't think Araki purposely created a character that reads as autistic, but that he has a very realistic vision of personalities and identities that can lead to this kind of analysis. Also, fun note, Pucci is often typed as INFJ/INTJ and these are prominent personality types in autistic people :3. Anyways, hope you enjoyed, feel free to share your reactions, I'd be glad to hear your thoughts.

NB:

I felt like adding a few to this post so here it is. I would like to say that I think overall Pucci is the most multifaceted, complex character in the series, he has often been described as such, and that’s what makes him the exceptional last boss of the first Jojo era. Many people have had trouble understanding him and Made in Heaven, as can be seen by the numerous amounts of questions on the internet « what did Pucci want to do? » « what is Made in Heaven? » etc. Araki himself said it was very tiring writing such a nuanced villain. I think many of Pucci’s actions and behavior can be attributed to elements in the story narrative, his almost impossible circumstances, and I don’t want to oversimplify, or kick him into a box that might not have been intended at all by Araki. I would also like to add that ASD is a spectrum and one may or may not relate with every trait exposed here, or may find others that I haven’t listed. And it’s always a bit hard categorizing villains as ND because of their reprehensible actions. However I think he is nuanced enough to be considered good rep anyway. But maybe that’s just me fangirling a little too much. In any case, I hope you enjoyed.

Flan, out!!

[sydneylikesgd]

boogie by connot

BUSSIN is one of the worst Geometry Dash levels I have ever played. It's obnoxious, soulless, derivative, and just obsessed with the idea of chasing "quality". The song is awful and annoying, and the generic gameplay does nothing to help with the level's enjoyability. It's a soulless, bland product of a level.

Which is why I'm shocked that connot's follow-up to BUSSIN is so great. boogie is oozing with fun and whimsy. It's flashy, but its flashiness isn't where the substance of the level lies. The heart of this level is in simple, cute, colorful fun.

A lot of people have called boogie "BUSSIN for girls", and to be honest, that's kind of affirming to me in a way--but the comparison isn't inaccurate. It's definitely possible that I'm being pandered to, but that doesn't make the level not cute. It's over-the-top, but in a way that isn't obnoxious.

And boogie knows where to tone it down. Being a 2 star, there's a lot less pressure to decipher the gameplay--you can just relax and let the level play itself, pretty much. And the places where the level is slightly more involved and requires actually clicking to avoid obstacles (astonishing for a 2 star, honestly), the visuals are chill and so pleasant. Essentially, you can actually see what the fuck is going on, which is a plus.

My favorite part of the level is absolutely the colorful paper craft part. It's a style that's been done many, many times before, but connot takes it to a new level with 2.2 features. It's simply beautiful, and I couldn't hate it if I wanted to.

I'm so surprised to find that boogie is one of my favorite levels of 2.2 so far. Everything comes together to tickle my brain in the perfect way. Are there things I'd change about it? Yeah, absolutely, but I can't ignore everything that's so appealing about it. This level rocks.

Also it helps that the song isn't annoying as fuck like BUSSIN

8/10

Level ID: 114694142 Video: https://youtu.be/Zuy1gj88OFg

[poezista]

BLACK & WHITE TRASH

never have i ever

could have done things better

when i was fifteen

cigarettes saved me

what a horrible way

to get into living

and my first time drinking

has turned really quickly

to alcohol poisoning

i stopped drinking

before eighteen

even hit.

in my blood still nicotine,

started smoking weed.

i see the world in black and white.

i used to cry every night

to drown the darkness within me

and make space for paradise.

every morning

i get to watch city traffic —

are those people even alive ?

morning cigarettes and coffee;

hints of human connection.

shows that we're all

on the same boat,

but there's a wall

between us all.

i see the world in black and white.

wondering what's wrong, what's right.

i see people without eyes

and their heads filled up with lies.

why care about everyone else,

when you never cared for yourself ?

why bother saving the people,

who never wished to be saved ?

why bother saving my father,

when his soul is already dead ?

i see the world in black and white.

because that's how i was raised.

and i thought that i just might

one of those days will be saved.

last time i have ever seen

anything that's close to real,

sacred geometry told me —

everything else's just a dream.

my perception always changing,

i was always meant: suffering.

realising how beautiful

world around me is,

appreciate everything

that actually deserves it.

i see the world in black and white.

but in the state of ecstasy,

these colors i've never seen!

humans don't make sense to me.

human trash that's killing nature.

they think that they're somewhat better

than their father, than their mother,

than where we originated.

why'd one want to destroy

the core of their hive mind ?

nature gave us home on this earth,

we grew up to fuck her over,

we've been raised to worship humans

more than our own mother nature.

we live in a society,

where unit of power's money.

when you have none,

then you're nothing.

but to get them,

join us and thrive!

turn on nature.

turn on your own common sense.

deactivate your brain.

it will be way easier this way.

just listen to what we say.

i see the world in black and white.

black and white trash stealing life.

humanity's killing itself

and i cannot fucking wait

to watch planet earth's worst virus

to finally eradicate.

[the-most-humble-blog]

🤯 Why Did She Have to Bend Over Like That?

(Now I know what her pussy looks like. I wasn’t supposed to.)

She bent over. To pick something up. In an oversized T-shirt.

And everything changed.

No panties. No hesitation. No warning. Just the most unholy, divine, soul-snatching angle I’ve ever seen.

From my view?

Her ass parted. Shirt draped just enough to keep it spiritual. But not enough to hide the rest.

I saw the crease. The line. The soft lips below. The bare, vulnerable, untouched center of her womanhood — exposed like it had always been mine to witness.

And I felt something shift in my spine.

🧠 My Brain Didn’t Register It as “Sexual”

It registered it as: “You belong to this now.”

She was just a friend. We shared dumb memes. She burped around me. We laughed about stupid movies.

But then she bent down and I saw the nude geometry of her real body — and it reformatted my entire internal language.

I wasn’t horny.

I was reverent.

She didn’t shave. The light hit her thighs raw. I saw the fold, the texture, the heatmap of her womanhood.

And in that moment, I knew more about creation than any priest ever will.

🦴 Every Male Instinct Screamed the Same Thing:

“Put your face there.” “Inhale her until time stops.” “Stay between those thighs until you know what eternity tastes like.”

But I didn’t move. I didn’t say a word. Because I was busy mourning the life I lived before I saw her like this.

She stood up. Laughed. Said:

“Oh god, I forgot I wasn’t wearing anything under.”

And all I could do was nod like my soul hadn’t just been rearranged.

🧬 That Wasn’t Horniness.

That Was a Revelation.

I saw her. Not the version she curates. Not the lighting-approved highlight reel.

I saw the pure, unfiltered, divine version that no camera could ever deserve.

And now?

I’m ruined. I’ve seen the source code. I’ve smelled the skin just above her thighs. I’ve hallucinated the taste of her heat through the air. And I will never recover.

🩸 Final Statement

She bent over. That was it.

Now her body lives in my skull like a temple I wasn’t invited to — but entered anyway.

I saw her. And I didn’t deserve to.

But now?

I belong to the version of her that doesn’t know what she gave me. And she’ll never take it back.

🔁 CTA:

Reblog if one accidental glance made her your personal religion. Bookmark if your memory of her nude from behind is sharper than your social security number.

[scrollsfromarebornrealm]

prepare (1)

Riven exhaled as she shut the door to Sunward. Wuk Lamat had been set up at the Baldestion Annex. For the forseeable future, there was a great deal of preperations to be made...but first things first.

"What did you all think?" She asked, turning around to face the others.

"Green." Reinhardt, Mathye, and Augustine said in unison, causing Sebastian to blink in surprise.

"She is green." Mathye said. "Fresh out of the training hall and running about in new-made armor green. If it weren't for the fact that she does have skill in combat, I'd doubt she'd even gotten any type of first blood."

"She's got smarts, however." Reinhardt added. "And bold. I imagine she probably was the only contestant who had the idea to approach foreigners and ask them for help. It means she's flexible in her thinking and can adapt quickly to a changing situation."

"But something's wrong somewhere." Augustine mused. When the others looked at him, he gestured.

"Think about it. It's one thing to hire foreign adventurers--mercenaries even. But instead she pings directly onto us--Erenville's stories aside. It's one thing to want our battle skills--but with everything else? We're overkill. And while she's being honest about her reason to win--I can't help but feel there's something more to the story."

"That was my thought as well." Riven admitted. "But Tural may not know about us. And from the little I read, I don't think they had any effects of the Calamity, or the Final Days."

"I would suggest we talk to Alphinaud." Sebastian said. "He can handle the politics of the situation much better than any one of us. In fact, when we make it over there--let's leave anything dealing with governmental affairs to him. As far as everyone's concerned, we're just the hired help to Wuk Lamat." Riven hummed at that, crossing her arms.

"With everything we've been though, it never occurred to me that someone would want to threaten Eorzea's peace from the other side of the world."

"Honestly I don't think anyone has." Augustine replied. "And now that I think about it...we never saw anything with the Empire considering going that far out."

"Nor the Allagans now that I think about it." Sebastian added. Mathye frowned.

"...That...does seem strange. The Garleans made inroads to the farthest reaches of the east, but not the west? It's not like they didn't have the ability to do so."

"Technological constraints?" Reinhardt offered. "Airships only have so much fuel."

"No. I've seen plans that can turn them into nothing but flying ceruluem tanks." Augustine mused. "And it's a known fact that there's plenty of untapped wells in Tural. And an Agrias-class airship can fly though almost anything."

"Might be something worth asking Jullus about." Riven offered. She exhaled. "At least we've got some time to prepare. I've got to get my requests in to the Arcanists' Guild library, and quickly."

"All done with Aloato Island then?" Sebastian asked. Riven offered a weak grin, shrugging.

"Not really, but my rotation turn to go out there won't be for a few weeks. And I'd rather not fight someone for their spot--or have somebody challenge for mine." The Arcanists' Guild had been forced to create a rotation research schedule for their students and members who wanted to study the still-unknown arcane geometry of the Thavnarian island. And in true Limsan fashion, academic combat had been decided as a way for one to possibly advance to a higher spot in the rotation schedules.

"If it's alright, I'm next on the supply delivery list for Garlemald." Reinhardt offered. "I'll poke Jullus's brain, see if he heard or knows something."

"I'll come with you to Limsa." Mathye said to Riven. "I need your Mastery clearance anyway for the medical libraries. I think we'll need updated vaccinations and I'd like to know what diseases we'll need to look out for."

"I'm going to track down Nero." Augustine said. When the group blinked at him, he continued. "I think getting you a backup leg might be a good idea, Mathye. We don't know how long we'll be over there. And we have to discuss ways for your maintenance to be easier on you." His older brother started.

"I--"

"No." Riven interjected. "That's actually a good idea." Mathye flushed, crossing his arms and looking away.

"If it's alright, I'll go speak with Wuk Lamat and do some research in Sharlayan." Sebastian offered. "She might be willing--or let something slip around me." He paused, chuckling.

"This is actually strange, preparing for something that isn't world ending."

"It's a little unnerving." Riven admitted. "But...exciting. And I'm glad we're all doing this together."

[wildstar25]

Number 29 for the FFXIV asks? I enjoy picking people’s brains about this sort of thing.

question list

29 - One feature/content you want to see added to the game

As much as I'm tempted to say explorer mode for raid maps, I'm going to instead say capstone job quests. Y'know like the level 80 ones we got in shadowbringers? I want those back so bad. I don't mind the role quests. It makes sense with the sheer amount of jobs in the game to try and focus the resources of the writing team a little more. But its such a wasted opportunity to not have at least one job quest per major expansion. I think they'd be a perfect opportunity to idk... talk about the new super cool attacks the WoL has cooked up for their job between the last 10 levels and further the player's engagement/connection to that fantasy.

Idk, I'm probably seeing this from a very particular point of view since I play summoner and that's a job that's deeply tied to in game lore. I would like solar bahamut much better if Arsay turned to the camera and said "I was trying to summon Baha but I started thinking about Hydaelyn and this new type of guy popped out.". It doesn't even need to be that explicit!! Maybe you can tie in how looking at electrope in s9 and discussing how arcane geometry can be used to change elemental aether has gave the WoL the idea to experiment swapping or mixing aether types while summoning their demis and egis. It could be anything! It could even just be catching up with out job mentors again and having fun!!!! Im still bitter about the lv 80 summoner jobquest being more concerned with catching us up on fordola's situation than hanging out with y'mhitra and digging up more allagan nonsense or talking about how we can summon pheonix now. (even tho i really like fordola! its just felt out of place especially since other job quests where focused on job quests characters.)

I miss the Rogue/Ninja crew just as much 😭 please mr yoshi p please let me see my little guys

[submalevolentgrace]

20. What's in your freezer right now? (No peeking, I'll know)

43. Favorite book you've read recently? (Or not recently)

45. What's something you wish you had more time (or energy) for?

my freezer is usually full of little tubs of saucy meals ready to be defrosted and added to rice or pasta, currently i thiiink there's a bunch of tomato pasta sauce, some spicy beans, and something we call "lamb thing", because it's like, a lamb thing. i am also just remembering there's half a box of frozen dumplings that've been there too long.... boring i know, but in my defense, i have at various time had way crazier stuff in my freezer.

i have struggled to read books for a few years now, so idk about recently, but when i think about books that have shifted my thinking in some way, wierdly what comes to mind is this, it's sort of a textbook? a technical guide? a discussion on building techniques for lego technic, specifically vehicles of various kind and the mechanisms that make them work, related to all their real-world counterparts, all in pretty good detail for a hobbyist text. that book taught me the actual point of a car's clutch, how a transmission works, interesting things to do with differentials, and why steering geometry matters.... all things i don't think i could have learned any other way, because the (unconscious) pedagogy of both petrolheads/mechanics and technical engineers has never really grokked in my brain; but that foundational knowledg has helped me understand many things since. that's why this particular book changed me, not necessarily because of its contents, but because it taught me that sometimes the only way to learn something is a way that teachers (of various forms) don't really teach. unfortunately it's in storage so i don't remember the name or author, but i figure there aren't too many lego technic vehicle builder textbooks out there!

i wish i had more energy for literally anything. i have more time than i can use, but never the spoons to use it. ever since i was young, i've been bracing myself for the decline of age; the cognitive decline, the memory decline, the physical decline... i absolutely was not prepared to have so little mental energy that i need to take regular breaks from basically effortless recreation activities because i'm too tired. i guess that's more trauma and chronic pain than age, but still. if i had to pick one thing i target my energy on though, i'd definitely be my synth music, shamefully unpracticed in many many months. OR HOT SEXY SEX AMIRITE

[corbinite]

Disclaimer: not a physicist, I just like to listen to physicist

ok so everybody who has any interest in physics with 52 minutes to spare go watch acollierastro's video "string theory lied to us and now science communication is hard" because it has some excellent insight into (one facet of) why science communication is so difficult now and why so many people distrust science and equate it with magical thinking, but also I have my own little tidbit to add to the equation and it's about the observer effect, which is where observing a phenomenon changes its outcome

Unlike acollierastro's video, this isn't about a hypothesis that doesn't follow the scientific method, because the observer effect is a real thing that we can test and demonstrate unlike string theory. Rather my problem is with how the observer effect is taught to lay people. And when I say how it is taught to lay people I mean on *every* level. If you are not a practicing physicist and you don't actively search out information on this subject, you definitely have completely the wrong idea of what the observer effect is. Hell, even if you do search out information you probably have that same wrong idea

See the way we're all taught about the observer effect in highschool and on, frankly, social media, is that if you are studying the behavior of matter on the subatomic level, it will act completely differently depending on whether you are "watching" it happen or not

and that sounds like magical thinking

So you ask your professor what that means because the bit about the observer effect in your AP Chem textbook really only has that one line, and maybe a blurb about how it was discovered which doesn't offer much insight to a highschooler. But the teacher doesn't really have anything else for you, they just say "yes it's true, watching subatomic particles changes how they behave!" and you just kind of have to accept that that's the answer

So a lot of people go through highschool and their adult life hearing this and they go one of two ways. Either they think "that's ridiculous, that sounds like Toy Story, physics is just a bunch of humans coming up with ideas and seeing what sticks and apparently what sticks is just whatever is the most attention grabbing" (physics is not about ideas it's about math all the way down), OR, they think "wow, the human mind really is incredible, our brains can literally change reality, can you imagine what we could achieve if we used 100% of our brains instead of 10%? We're in a simulation, reality is divine geometry, the particles know we're watching" it goes on. And it just doesn't get corrected

And you end up with two camps of people who either reject or think that they embrace science, but either way they think that physics is a bunch of people coming up with ideas to explain the world when it's not, that's how mythology works, physics is math. Einstein didn't predict relativity by thinking hard about it and having the right ideas, he predicted it through math, the math came first. Physicists aren't just a bunch of people making things up to stay relevant, nor are they a bunch of gnostics recieving divine inspiration from above. They're goddamn mathemeticians and experimentalists. They do math, see what the math predicts, then set up a plan for how to test that math (see acolierastro's video for a more thorough explanation of what makes a theory of physics a theory of physics)

And this ties into a lot of other cases of poorly explained concepts in science that have people asking "but how do they know that? Scientists are just making things up/the universe is magic" but the observer effect is probably the most likely to push people into magical thinking (others are the fact that we know about earth's internal structure because we can use sonar to measure it, we know about the big bang and the accelerating expansion of the universe because we can use the speed of light and the doppler effect to measure not only how celestial bodies are moving right now but how they were moving in the past and track that through time, and we can observe that distant galaxies are moving in ways that would indicate that they contain more matter than we can observe and that yet unknown phenomenon has been dubbed dark matter which is an admittedly overly mysterious name)

Anyway I should probably circle back to the observer effect, so let's ask what it means to observe something. Well, on our macro scale, observing something usually means seeing it. But in order to see something, light has to hit it, cause a momentary disturbance in the energy of the thing's electrons, eject back out from the object, and go into our eyes. Observing could also mean to hear something, but in order to hear it it has to bump into air molecules or other matter and send rippling physical vibrations out. We could smell it! But to smell something, volatile particles have to leave that thing (slightly reducing its mass), enter your nose, and slot into your olfactory receptors. You could touch it! That one's self explanatory. What do all of these things have in common? That object you are observing has to interact with the world around it in order for you to observe it. Whether it is interacting with light, the air, or your actual fingers, the object you are observing has to effect and be effected by the outside world around it. If something is completely inert, and not currently interacting at all with light or other matter or gravity or electromagnetism or etc, you cannot observe it. So how do we observe particles at the scale necessary to demonstrate the observer effect? With lasers

With lasers

We shoot lasers at it

That certainly does something to the thing we're observing

And that doesn't have to be the only way to observe matter at subatomic scales. But there is not any way to observe matter without interacting with it, either directly or indirectly. It isn't that our consciousness effects the outcome, it isn't about us. When physicists say that observing something changes its behavior, we are not always the observer, the observer could also be a nearby atom which "observes" the particle in question by creating interactions between them. Nothing to do with conscousness

The observer effect, very roughly, means that while a particle or system is not interacting with anything, it behaves probabilistically, but when interacting with its environment, that probability solidifies into an outcome. If And to be clear: that's still wild! It doesn't mean that there's a magical universal consciousness, and it doesn't mean that "particles break the laws of physics when we aren't looking at them", especially because we do already have extremely robust and experimentally testable models for how unobserved systems behave, so it's not breaking the laws of physics, it's confirming them!

So yeah, all this to say, modern science is not a competition for who can come up with the best ideas or who can be blessed with the most enlightened perspective. If something cannot be observed measured or tested then it is not a scientific theory or even a hypothesis it is just a thought. And thoughts are great! But thoughts are not physics. And we need better science education that does a better job at simplifying complex topics nondestructively

[alsjeblieft-zeg]

165 of 2025

When was the last time you shaved your legs?

I don't shave my legs.

What were you doing this morning at 8 am?

Probably getting up to take my morning meds.

What were you doing 15 minutes ago?

Another survey.

What are you wearing?

Black t-shirt with a kitty print and camo pants.

Are you mad at anyone right now?

No, I'm not.

Last person to say they loved you?

Probably my husband, but he rarely says it.

Last time you kissed someone?

Today, my husband before he went to work.

Do you know the words to the song on your MySpace profile?

I don't have Myspace.

Last thing received in the mail?

Order confirmation. I ordered some non-essential things for my bike lol.

Have you ever gotten naked in a public place?

Lol no.

How long is your hair?

I think I'm having deja vu. Hip length now.

How many different drinks have you had today?

Just one.

Are you any good at math?

Yeah, in geometry and fractions, and estimation. If logic counts, then this as well.

Do you have plans for Saturday night?

No, at least not yet.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Yeah, why not.

Are you dating or single?

I'm married.

Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?

Yeah, as a teen. Can't do it anymore lol.

Do you like the lights off or on?

On. I don't like darkness.

What are you excited about?

Using my bike. Finally.

What did you do last night?

Sleeping lol.

Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?

Nope. Even all my grandparents are deceased.

Where do you keep your change?

I have a special case for it.

How has your week been?

Weird. Husband was grumpy because he caught a cold from me.

Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?

Why do these questions repeat all of a sudden?

What was the weather like on your birthday?

My birthday is in 3 days, they expect no rain.

Would you kiss anyone on your friends list?

What friends list?

Are you a cat or dog person?

Strongly cat person. Dogs are just not a pet for me.

Is there anything bothering you right now?

My shoulder hurts.

Is there something you want to let go of?

Yeah, wrong people in my life.

How important is trust?

Very important. But the most important thing is to never break it.

Do you always regret?

No, I don't.

Do you find your ex gf/bf good looking?

Yes. He's pretty handsome to me.

What will you do if you're stuck in the elevator with someone you don't like?

Just occupy myself with things and not pay attention.

Have you ever wanted someone but you can’t have him/her?

Yeah, kind of happens now, that little train conductor. Nothing serious, though. Nothing sexual, nothing romantic.

Have you ever said I love you but you lied?

No. I don't lie about such things.

Would you ever want to go back in the past?

Yeah, to the times before I was disabled.

Do you really wanna please everybody?

Yeah, it's sadly in my nature.

Is waiting ever okay?

It is, but it's also annoying.

Right now, where do you wanna be?

At the sea.

What are you so sick and tired of?

Toxic people.

What made you smile today?

Susie was goofy and wanted to play.

Is looking good important?

Not to me. As long as you don't look like a homeless person when you have no reason to look like that.

Do you listen to love songs when you’re down?

Ew no. I don't like love songs. I don't like anything romantic at all.

What are you thankful for?

Surviving and staying alive after what happened to my brain.

Do you believe in forever?

Nah, nothing lasts forever.

What are your plans for the weekend?

Not the same question again.

Do you say sorry first?

Usually I do.

Has someone promised you something and broke it?

Lol, so many times. Even people close to me.